I think it's too sad that he never understood his brilliance. Some of his travels were fantastic. The openings to his episodes epic and inventive. I miss him.
David...Respectfully ...I think he understood his brilliance, but depression is an evil monster to combat. I fight depression daily. I am on medication, but at times the depression overrides it. Anthony was a sensitive vulnerable soul who just couldn't face another day of the blanket of despair that he had to live with. What a beautiful man who struggled with his demons.
When he died, I cried. It really hurt me. I loved watching him on tv and him being so raw and authentic. It’s really sad how depression and/or other mental health issues and drug addictions can make someone feel so alone 😔 and hopeless
I marveled, how he intellectualized food. He was an artist, chef and a producer....the Elon Musk of the food world. However killing yourself?? ...that blew me away. Such talent, so gifted and inspiring, and yet he kills himself....in the end he was a waste. He was a dark, empty, sad man....nothing to admire.
@@mememagicisreal884did you FALL and hit your hear, or are you STUPID or BOTH!!!! Your rebuttal is ridiculous. Additionally his daughter was a teenager NUMB NUTS!!!!!
Anthony's show breathed oxygen into me. I became newly addicted to his show for 4 months. Then, while walking my dog in Burbank, I sat down at an outside table at Starbucks and there he was, sitting right there alone at the table across from me dressed in blue jeans, a black leather jacket and dark sunglasses. It was as thou I was granted 15 minutes alone with this man I had grown to admire. I mused with him that he looked a lot like Anthony Bourdain. He said :yeah, I get that a lot." He smiled when I said well, you could be his brother or cousin. I told him how much I loved the show and it was so much more than just about food. He was kind, funny, and thoughtful. He stayed talking to me and enjoyed how I thought he was really a look alike! I said I love that show. He doesn't hold anything back. He said "Neither do I ". We said good bye and I walked home on cloud nine wondering how I got so lucky. Another year went by and I saw him again at a local Vons and he smiled and waved from a distance as I was again getting coffee at Starbucks in the store and he was in the checkout line. What an incredibly insightful talent. When I found out he took his own life it devastated me. We had lost the most talented, emotionally sensitive, and intelligent person ever to have a show that gave us real food, oxygen for the soul. I said my prayers, sent my love, and will forever be grateful for Anthony Bourdain.
When he explained something, it always made more sense to me, like he turned on a light & I would think " that totally makes so much more sense when he tells it " ! I loved watching him sit at a place in another country & they would have a beautiful cooked meal by the best chef & sip on a drink & he would describe the scenery like a painting that made u feel like u were right there with them, toasting to a wonderful meal & company!
Miss and love him. He was a huge influence in me becoming a chef and back in 2004 (right after I graduated culinary school) he came and generously spoke to all the students. We were just a community school in Vancouver BC, and to have an amazing opportunity to hear him speak was amazing.
Dear Anthony, you will always be missed for your rare and never forgotten, often sarcastic perspective on people, places and eating and dining all around this world. RIP, my friend.
@@nativesd4008 you need to see about your own mental health. Suicide is a hard decision. True it is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, but if you can't respect my opinion don't post on my shit.
@@SSNESS How the hell can you be happy when you're dead, fool? You have no idea what you're talking about. You spend WAY too much time thinking about yourself. How can you possibly be happy thinking about yourself all the time? WAKE THE HELL UP!
I remember thé days where the restaurant kitchens were just like Bourdaine experienced. I remember my brother working as sous chef and a chef where there were long exhausting shifts and drinking and drugs were epic.
I miss Anthony Bourdain! He brought us joy in his humorous journeys in food and travel. He was honest--and vulnerable--beautiful and sad soul. RIP Anthony!
He was a very, very talented writer. But he was in a line of work that revolves around a kind of hedonism. It's bound to take its toll on people of a sensitive disposition. I did some years in restaurants, and it was always a mixed bag in the end.
@@Tenskwatawa4U I wish he'd written more. He was obviously a person who would go for broke in every endeavour. Met him a couple of times, he was quite shy
I don’t think his life was tragic. It was a blinding light of inspiration juxtaposed with struggle. It was real. It was about high highs and low lows, it was amazing. He saw the world. Then he left. ♥️
You are truly a moron ! He was a drug addiction that should have quit his other childish addiction-alcohol ! He wasted his life with his slow suicide and squandered marriage & child !!!
This one always hurts my soul. I may not have known him personally but I grieve his loss, everyday. My father & grandfather suffered what Anthony suffered from.
My ex boyfriend died of complications of alcoholism and i am sure she had depression also. He was a great person with a horrible affliction like Bourdain
@Ulrich Mehrwald People don't suffer because they want too. Depression is real and you just can't always overcome it. You did, millions don't so don't generalize what others can and cannot do.
@Ulrich Mehrwald You can speak only of your own experiences. Many people get help with depression others suffer from it and some kill themselves bcuz of it. This is youtube of course we don't know each other.
I have always admired how he looks like he is in the best shape of his life all the time. For someone who loves food- it’s crazy that he has maintained himself well for so long.
I've often wondered if he'd known how we grieved him - how much he meant to us, the little people, the "nobodies"... if that would have helped him at all...?? I suppose not. I still miss him every day. Have his last 3 shows recorded on my DVR. Just wish there had been another alternative for him.
Bourdain never realised what a wonderful gift he had for telling a story. We all f up. We’re allowed to forgive ourselves. I’m no longer angry at his passing-or rather the method of it. I simply miss him.
cry me a river Anthony Bourdain was SELFISH, SELF-ABSORBED, ALCOHOLIC and PERVERT!!! Anyone who dishes out so called wisdom, or whatever you want to call it, IS NOT A HAPPY PERSON!! Basic Physic 101 Anyone who has children, and then commits suicide IS NOT A STABLE PERSON. Just think about his daughter!!!! I never did care for Anthony Bourdain, since I knew just from looking and hearing Anthony Bourdain he was an Alcoholic, and those Anthony Bourdain hanged around with are proven PERVERTS. The world is much better without Anthony Bourdain!!!!
RHONDA CROSSWHITE- I felt the same way when I heard about his death as I felt when I heard about the death of Prince- devastated. What gifted, magnetic people they both were.
Love the story because I worked kitchens on Long Island around the same time. I didn't enjoy coke, but I did it as part of the comradery. I graduated HS at 155 pounds of athletic physique, and moved into a dishwashing position left to me by friends as they went away to college and I stayed local. Less than 6 months later after a chef and a cook had a knife fight. The new chef (replacement) was surviving cancer and kept his colostomy bags in the walk-in fridge, and the guy taught me everything. By 19, I weighed 135 pounds from drinking and not eating for days at a time....But I was interviewed by the Newsday food writer one night who had been visiting the restaurant and said to me "so, were you trained in France?" I said, "no, upstairs." It is amazing when you follow the accidents in life.
CRY ME A RIVER Anthony Bourdain was SELFISH, SELF-ABSORBED, ALCOHOLIC and PERVERT!!! Anyone who dishes out so called wisdom, or whatever you want to call it, IS NOT A HAPPY PERSON!! Basic Physic 101 Anyone who has children, and then commits suicide IS NOT A STABLE PERSON. Just think about his daughter!!!! I never did care for Anthony Bourdain, since I knew just from looking and hearing Anthony Bourdain he was an Alcoholic, and those Anthony Bourdain hanged around with are proven PERVERTS. The world is much better without Anthony Bourdain!!!!
@@nativesd4008 did you ever stop and think the world would be much better off without you whoever you are.I'm always amazed at how people find themselves so much more Superior than somebody else that I can sit down with you and in a week figure out all of your disgusting points and maybe that's why you don't like him because you're probably much like him in different ways or in similar ways.
@@nativesd4008 Vet yours . you live in the dark. Do some research outside the fake mainstream news. Then you will wake up. I said nothing about politics, why do you even mention it?
A dynamic man that touched us all he used food to bring light to problems in the world. I miss him and his work and he will never be forgotten. SIP Chef !
Not much for watching television. But I was hooked on this show. Felt he was giving a real person impression of life. Not fake to impress us like most shows with the drama. Never thought I would miss a tv personality. He is missed.
Thank you for giving us insight on Mr. Anthony Bourdain. Sometimes life seems so strangely dark. You see a person and think he has the world in his hands and then the next thing you know he is no morel I for one thought Bourdain had the world by its tail. So Sad I wish the best for his family.
@@hi-xf7cj It is obvious he was hurting mentally/emotionally and didn't seek help. We never know what others are going through, even those we are close to.
I'm a huge Anthony Bourdain fan. I loved watching "Parts Unknown." I thought he was sexy and handsome. I always wondered how he remained so thin. All of the other chefs that I followed were overweight, fat, or morbidly obese. I thought he practiced some kind of portion control. I had NO idea he was a drug addict. I was very hurt when they said he committed suicide. I thought he had a lot to live for. I wish he could have found peace while he was alive. R.I.P. Anthony. I miss you.
Same... I haven't watched any of his stuff since he passed. I admired him so much and we'll never see another Chef/Interviewer/Explorer/Writer/Humanist like him in our life times ):
He was sober by the time he started filming any TV shows. Also, if you work in restaurants you know that it's rare for a chef to be obese because 1. they work so much there's hardly any time to eat, and when they do it's not during normal meal hours, 2. they are on their feet for 10 hours a day and 3. most kitchens are pretty small! It would be hard for someone "morbidly obese" to make their way around a cramped kitchen.
@@Alex-lb9xd Chef K Paul of New Orleans was morbidly obese. Emeril Legasse is overweight. I've seen numerous chefs on TV and CZcams, and if they're not morbidly obese they are FAT. I've also seen a lot of chefs in restaurants where I've eaten and a lot of them were fat.
He never committed suicide, he was killed, I wonder if the police didn't find the person and they are keeping their mouth closed. May be rest in peace. Blessings
I remember watching him on BBC news every Saturday night. Always looking forward to see him travel the world and eat delicious food miss him so I live in the Caribbean island of st lucia 🇱🇨🇱🇨🇱🇨🇱🇨🇱🇨🇱🇨
I have never been in awe of anybody, more than Anthony Bourdain, and Prince. It still hurts, I still remember learning of their passing, the only two people I have ever mourned. Food and music, nourishment for the soul.
Thank you for this NIcki. I knew him briefly in the early years, before Kitchen Confidential . In the hard times. I loved this man, and I wrote a book which is partly dedicated to him. RIP Chef Tony. Man I miss you.
I was so upset when i found out he'd passed away. I know what depression is like and you must fight that demon every single day or it will take you out.
I miss watching him every Sunday. One of my favourite things to do with my husband. We were so very sad to hear the news of his passing. Very sad indeed.
Same here mate. I'm recovering from alcohol now for 18 years because the hangovers were just too frightening, but the depressions are astonishingly nightmarish nonetheless.
Loveee him in any struggling phases of his life as a surrender ...fragile successful brilliant human being ...hopefully his daughter sees all good feelings from us people all around the world ...Great observer and chef ..
dude was so real, so cool, so funny and had a way with words. it's sad for the world that it lost such a fantastic story-teller. hope he finally found rest and relief from his pain...whereever he is now.
Listening to the story of Anthony Bourdain's drug addiction sounds exactly like my story and many others in this industry I once had a manager tell me Jack go outside to your car and do whatever you need to do to get right. He meant I could go outside and get high if that was going to put me in a better mood for the guests I think a lot of us turned to drugs just as a way of dealing with the fact that you have to be at a party everyday and people expect you to act like you're having fun and that every night is just a special to you as it is to the guests but it's just Tuesday night.
Why would you think this? He said many times he had suicidal thoughts for a lot of his life....His girlfriend was involved in some shady stuff and I think it was all too much for him!
I am a huge fan since the first time I watched a show of him coming to Rio de Janeiro in 2001 called "how to be a carioca". He came here a couple of times, went to favelas, he ate with very good and simple people. He was so honest, nice, gentle and sarcastic. I miss him a lot!
I guess his was making him depressed too. Yes get off tge bus sometimes. It could be tge antidepressant med too that lead him to suicide. It that's was really a suicide, who knows.
I loved his ability to tell it like it was, no sugar coating, and watching his video's always made me appreciate how much time he put into his shows. I found him so charismatic, such a tall dark handsome man who's character who was also intelligent, funny, awkward at times but such a good writer. I miss him. Luckily we have vids to watch.
For some reason I sensed he was loosing his way in his last season.....he was one of a kind and I wept like a baby when he died...........he is hugely missed by many.......
I like how they showed the ups and downs. Believe it or not speaking about it here on this platform does not really do justice to the feeling that your body is not responding, your mind is perplexed, and the only out you have is a crowd who supports the existence of this. The problem has to do with influence. An influence that is appealing and convoluted is not exactly the best possible choice. I am extremely surprised he made it to 61 but I believe he is a survivor who did what seemed was the only option to avoid the above. He is the embodiment of the sinner saint who was looking for a life raft and found an anchor.
This is an excellent piece, factual and fair, with no sensationalizing. As someone who has struggled with depression since the age of 10, I can sympathize. "His depression won," is a sad testimony to his lifelong struggle. RIP Anthony. Miss you. 💙
I remember demanding my parents order me a beer at age 8 on a vacation to Istanbul just to get a reaction out of my parents who frowned upon all alcohol. They did order the beer for me on the condition that I drink it all, which I couldn’t. I can relate to Bordain’s experience with his parents. RIP Anthony, we miss you soooo much.
Why the hell they made him and his brother sit in the car outside while they went to a restaurant will never make sense to me. The host just said that and didn't explain it
I have had crippling depression in my life. I thought of suicide but chose to soldier on. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I am glad I lived. I am still here for my daughter.
It's not temporary...it follows you..its in everything you see and feel...you can try to suppress it, but it's like the voice in your head, you can't get rid of it
I was heart broken when Anthony passed away.... To watch his show, and how he would talk to different people..and showed them a lot of respect....I never knew he dealt with depression.. .I hope people learned from him to get help....
Loved all his stuff, actually an episode of No Reservations helped to inspire me to get clean few years ago. You know he ain't lying, admitted to geekin on carpet rocks ,haha
I'm an entertainer and I hate television, but somehow Anthony made me fall in love with watching TV, not just any content but His how. I loved his show so much that even when I am traveling to another country I would try to find his latest show. His and my other dude Zimmer were hands down the two BEST in food television to date. I haven't found another show that is intriguing as those two guys. Food Tv is NOT the same ever. Anthony first then Zimmer made me tune in all the time. I now watch Zimmer on his podcast and I love it.
What made AB so likeable is his sense of humour and humble demeanor. The drinking and drugging was a part of that to millions. I could not watch his CZcams clips for 3 years since his passing until recently. It was a phase of mourning that I could not make any sense of. It just happened. Now I find that many people around the world felt as I did. His life was so tortured by the mental illness. Drugs and alcohol did it to him.
A LEGEND NOT~~CRY ME A RIVER!! Anthony Bourdain was SELFISH, SELF-ABSORBED, ALCOHOLIC and PERVERT!!! Anyone who dishes out so called wisdom, or whatever you want to call it, IS NOT A HAPPY PERSON!! Basic Physic 101 Anyone who has children, and then commits suicide IS NOT A STABLE PERSON. Just think about his daughter!!!! I never did care for Anthony Bourdain, since I knew just from looking and hearing Anthony Bourdain he was an Alcoholic, and those Anthony Bourdain hanged around with are proven PERVERTS. The world is much better without Anthony Bourdain!!!!
I've rebroken my heart seeing this. I had the opportunity to meet him when he visited S Louisiana, he was such a personality, he could be SO full of life. He could take the most mundane thing and create an adventure in it. Like so many, I wish there were something I could have done too. I wish he could have clung to that optimism and joi de vivre enough to still be among us.
Well, let's see - he went to Armenia, talked about the Armenian Genocide; went to Artsakh and talked about the Armenians there and their oppression under the Azeris (who are Turks...) and then he returns and, granted, he had some issues, but as soon as he returns he "kills" himself - perhaps ask the Turks and Azeris how he "killed" himself - yeah, right.
@@marshallmoushigian3616 yah I am not a racist so I don't really know how turks "operate". however my question was to understand how YOUR mind works. if you can even call it that.
I think it's too sad that he never understood his brilliance. Some of his travels were fantastic. The openings to his episodes epic and inventive. I miss him.
I think he knew his brilliance. Or talent. I think he was just rudderless, and it seems he hated being that way from his book.
David...Respectfully ...I think he understood his brilliance, but depression is an evil monster to combat. I fight depression daily. I am on medication, but at times the depression overrides it.
Anthony was a sensitive vulnerable soul who just couldn't face another day of the blanket of despair that he had to live with. What a beautiful man who struggled with his demons.
When he died, I cried. It really hurt me. I loved watching him on tv and him being so raw and authentic. It’s really sad how depression and/or other mental health issues and drug addictions can make someone feel so alone 😔 and hopeless
I marveled, how he intellectualized food. He was an artist, chef and a producer....the Elon Musk of the food world. However killing yourself?? ...that blew me away. Such talent, so gifted and inspiring, and yet he kills himself....in the end he was a waste. He was a dark, empty, sad man....nothing to admire.
I miss his shows still…
He was one of the BEST interviewers without even meaning to be one
Thanks Ulrich. It wasnt myvaddiction issue but my ex boyfriend's. Sadly he succumbed to the disease.
@@nativesd4008 oh, do f*ck off and get a life!
@@minastojanov1517 Listen up Ms. Karen!!!! does you kiss your mother with your potty mouth? I bet you do!!!! the only person who needs a life is YOU
@@mememagicisreal884did you FALL and hit your hear, or are you STUPID or BOTH!!!! Your rebuttal is ridiculous. Additionally his daughter was a teenager NUMB NUTS!!!!!
@@laurieann2714 Sorry for your loss. 😞
Anthony's show breathed oxygen into me. I became newly addicted to his show for 4 months. Then, while walking my dog in Burbank, I sat down at an outside table at Starbucks and there he was, sitting right there alone at the table across from me dressed in blue jeans, a black leather jacket and dark sunglasses. It was as thou I was granted 15 minutes alone with this man I had grown to admire. I mused with him that he looked a lot like Anthony Bourdain. He said :yeah, I get that a lot." He smiled when I said well, you could be his brother or cousin. I told him how much I loved the show and it was so much more than just about food. He was kind, funny, and thoughtful. He stayed talking to me and enjoyed how I thought he was really a look alike! I said I love that show. He doesn't hold anything back. He said "Neither do I ". We said good bye and I walked home on cloud nine wondering how I got so lucky. Another year went by and I saw him again at a local Vons and he smiled and waved from a distance as I was again getting coffee at Starbucks in the store and he was in the checkout line. What an incredibly insightful talent. When I found out he took his own life it devastated me. We had lost the most talented, emotionally sensitive, and intelligent person ever to have a show that gave us real food, oxygen for the soul. I said my prayers, sent my love, and will forever be grateful for Anthony Bourdain.
😢😢😢😢
Beautiful words.
@@enzosantos70 Thank you. He is not far from us;but I wish he was still here! God bless you and Anthony too!
good story
@@teresatrigiani7838 Thank you! He was very kind. I will never forget him. 🙏
It's been 2 years since Anthony passed and we still miss him. We will always miss him. Rest in Peace, Anthony. We miss you. ❤❤❤
Nobody wants to die more than me
@@SSNESS Don't worry you will just like everyone else.
@@SSNESS I do.
It's sad that Anthony Bourdain died. I have enjoyed watching Anthony Bourdain shows
When he explained something, it always made more sense to me, like he turned on a light & I would think " that totally makes so much more sense when he tells it " ! I loved watching him sit at a place in another country & they would have a beautiful cooked meal by the best chef & sip on a drink & he would describe the scenery like a painting that made u feel like u were right there with them, toasting to a wonderful meal & company!
He had one of those faces that just looked better with age.
Amen
I agree.. handsome old man ...love him
Yes he did. To me he looked better in his latter years.
@@natalie9884 1 hi
True that!
Miss and love him. He was a huge influence in me becoming a chef and back in 2004 (right after I graduated culinary school) he came and generously spoke to all the students. We were just a community school in Vancouver BC, and to have an amazing opportunity to hear him speak was amazing.
He was a wonderful human being.I still miss his programmes.Long may he RIP
Dear Anthony, you will always be missed for your rare and never forgotten, often sarcastic perspective on people, places and eating and dining all around this world.
RIP, my friend.
I miss Anthony. He was amazing.
Me too
Till I met him.
This is what Hollywood do to people
None can replace him
@@nativesd4008 you need to see about your own mental health. Suicide is a hard decision. True it is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, but if you can't respect my opinion don't post on my shit.
@@nativesd4008 reported
I miss him terribly, myself!❤️
His shows were about food, but so, so, so, much more. Miss him so much.
I’ll be so happy when I’m not alive anymore
@@SSNESS How the hell can you be happy when you're dead, fool? You have no idea what you're talking about. You spend WAY too much time thinking about yourself. How can you possibly be happy thinking about yourself all the time? WAKE THE HELL UP!
The HUMAN Spirit.
He must have known that?
I remember thé days where the restaurant kitchens were just like Bourdaine experienced. I remember my brother working as sous chef and a chef where there were long exhausting shifts and drinking and drugs were epic.
Just because someone is smiling and laughing, doesn't mean they are happy. People are hurting.
Only God can save you!
@@taylorsomers4944 get your simple-minded drivel out of here
@@notsoeloquent Why the hate?
@@notsoeloquent LOL!!! simple minded... My oh my... You will see one day child.
@@reloadit1458 You need something to cling to, I understand. Whatever helps you overcome your fears.
I miss Anthony Bourdain! He brought us joy in his humorous journeys in food and travel. He was honest--and vulnerable--beautiful and sad soul. RIP Anthony!
The guy was a literary genius. Some of the best writing of any show I have ever watched!
He was a very, very talented writer. But he was in a line of work that revolves around a kind of hedonism. It's bound to take its toll on people of a sensitive disposition. I did some years in restaurants, and it was always a mixed bag in the end.
@@Tenskwatawa4U I wish he'd written more. He was obviously a person who would go for broke in every endeavour. Met him a couple of times, he was quite shy
I don’t think his life was tragic. It was a blinding light of inspiration juxtaposed with struggle. It was real. It was about high highs and low lows, it was amazing. He saw the world. Then he left. ♥️
Well said, my good woman. My thoughts exactly.
Maybe. But when we feel like there is nothing to look forward to and decide to leave....it is sad. I am happy he found his peace.
You are truly a moron ! He was a drug addiction that should have quit his other childish addiction-alcohol ! He wasted his life with his slow suicide and squandered marriage & child !!!
@@minooluna23 HE DID NOT TAKE HIS OWN LIFE
Sadly, he had a tragic ending
This one always hurts my soul. I may not have known him personally but I grieve his loss, everyday. My father & grandfather suffered what Anthony suffered from.
My ex boyfriend died of complications of alcoholism and i am sure she had depression also. He was a great person with a horrible affliction like Bourdain
mine too...and what hurts me is that people like him have no idea how much they bring positivity to the world. I cried when he died.
@Ulrich Mehrwald Even if you don't take drugs or alcohol depression can kill you....the substances numb you they aren't the cause of the problem.
@Ulrich Mehrwald People don't suffer because they want too. Depression is real and you just can't always overcome it. You did, millions don't so don't generalize what others can and cannot do.
@Ulrich Mehrwald You can speak only of your own experiences. Many people get help with depression others suffer from it and some kill themselves bcuz of it. This is youtube of course we don't know each other.
In so far as it's possible to love a person you've never met, I loved this man. No doubt many thousands did.
RIP Anthony
I'll never stop missing Anthony Bourdain.
Me neither.
I have always admired how he looks like he is in the best shape of his life all the time. For someone who loves food- it’s crazy that he has maintained himself well for so long.
I've often wondered if he'd known how we grieved him - how much he meant to us, the little people, the "nobodies"... if that would have helped him at all...?? I suppose not. I still miss him every day. Have his last 3 shows recorded on my DVR. Just wish there had been another alternative for him.
Bourdain never realised what a wonderful gift he had for telling a story. We all f up. We’re allowed to forgive ourselves. I’m no longer angry at his passing-or rather the method of it. I simply miss him.
cry me a river
Anthony Bourdain was SELFISH, SELF-ABSORBED, ALCOHOLIC and PERVERT!!!
Anyone who dishes out so called wisdom, or whatever you want to call it, IS NOT A HAPPY PERSON!! Basic Physic 101
Anyone who has children, and then commits suicide IS NOT A STABLE PERSON. Just think about his daughter!!!!
I never did care for Anthony Bourdain, since I knew just from looking and hearing Anthony Bourdain he was an Alcoholic, and those Anthony Bourdain hanged around with are proven PERVERTS.
The world is much better without Anthony Bourdain!!!!
RHONDA CROSSWHITE- I felt the same way when I heard about his death as I felt when I heard about the death of Prince- devastated. What gifted, magnetic people they both were.
Love the story because I worked kitchens on Long Island around the same time. I didn't enjoy coke, but I did it as part of the comradery. I graduated HS at 155 pounds of athletic physique, and moved into a dishwashing position left to me by friends as they went away to college and I stayed local. Less than 6 months later after a chef and a cook had a knife fight. The new chef (replacement) was surviving cancer and kept his colostomy bags in the walk-in fridge, and the guy taught me everything. By 19, I weighed 135 pounds from drinking and not eating for days at a time....But I was interviewed by the Newsday food writer one night who had been visiting the restaurant and said to me "so, were you trained in France?" I said, "no, upstairs."
It is amazing when you follow the accidents in life.
Thanks for bringing us a life's perspective of Anthony Bourdain. People are more complex that what is shown on the tv screen. We are all human.
A lovely guy who fell into fame without seeking it, an inspirational dark soul that the darkness eventually beat him... very sad loss.
He witnessed Adam Schiff murder a young boy in a hotel, THATS WHAT GOT HIM KILLED
I still watch all his episodes, something new to learn everytime I watch them.
My heart still hurts.
CRY ME A RIVER
Anthony Bourdain was SELFISH, SELF-ABSORBED, ALCOHOLIC and PERVERT!!!
Anyone who dishes out so called wisdom, or whatever you want to call it, IS NOT A HAPPY PERSON!! Basic Physic 101
Anyone who has children, and then commits suicide IS NOT A STABLE PERSON. Just think about his daughter!!!!
I never did care for Anthony Bourdain, since I knew just from looking and hearing Anthony Bourdain he was an Alcoholic, and those Anthony Bourdain hanged around with are proven PERVERTS.
The world is much better without Anthony Bourdain!!!!
@@nativesd4008 did you ever stop and think the world would be much better off without you whoever you are.I'm always amazed at how people find themselves so much more Superior than somebody else that I can sit down with you and in a week figure out all of your disgusting points and maybe that's why you don't like him because you're probably much like him in different ways or in similar ways.
@@nativesd4008 He was a recovered addict, and did not commit suicide.
@@Quantum36911 What planet do you live on? TRUMPLAND!!! you sound as moronic as such. VET YOUR FACTS, AB COMMITTED SUICIDE.
@@nativesd4008 Vet yours . you live in the dark. Do some research outside the fake mainstream news. Then you will wake up. I said nothing about politics, why do you even mention it?
At the very least, he was really an interesting person. There aren’t a lot of those in the world. RIP
😢😢😢😢 You are so miss Tony. I pray you’ve found some peace brother.
A dynamic man that touched us all he used food to bring light to problems in the world. I miss him and his work and he will never be forgotten. SIP Chef !
Not much for watching television. But I was hooked on this show. Felt he was giving a real person impression of life. Not fake to impress us like most shows with the drama. Never thought I would miss a tv personality. He is missed.
The only tragic detail about Anthony Bourdain is that he’s not with us no more
He just wanted to be out of pain
ME TOO.
A bit selfish don’t you think?
@@spacemartian1944 his life, his choice. if freedom is selfish then so be it...gotta respect his decision, no matter how cowardly it may seem.
@@mintoo2cool I meant it about OP not Anthony... plz spare me 😒
Thank you for giving us insight on Mr. Anthony Bourdain. Sometimes life seems so strangely dark. You see a person and think he has the world in his hands and then the next thing you know he is no morel I for one thought Bourdain had the world by its tail. So Sad I wish the best for his family.
Same here. I thought he had such a great life. I was stunned when he passed. RIP 🌹
He surely be missed love him
RIP, Tony
He never acted as if he had problems, really enjoyed his travels, food and history, he’ll be missed for sure...
But no one knows how he really felt.
He gave out subtle hints they were there. The amount of alcohol he consumed in plain sight was a clue.
@@hi-xf7cj It is obvious he was hurting mentally/emotionally and didn't seek help. We never know what others are going through, even those we are close to.
Absolutely loved watching and listening to this great man Anthony bourdaine is one of kind there will never be another like him.
I'm a huge Anthony Bourdain fan. I loved watching "Parts Unknown." I thought he was sexy and handsome. I always wondered how he remained so thin. All of the other chefs that I followed were overweight, fat, or morbidly obese. I thought he practiced some kind of portion control. I had NO idea he was a drug addict. I was very hurt when they said he committed suicide. I thought he had a lot to live for. I wish he could have found peace while he was alive. R.I.P. Anthony. I miss you.
Mate Gabor, not why the drugs, why the pain .? What made him turn to drugs
Same... I haven't watched any of his stuff since he passed. I admired him so much and we'll never see another Chef/Interviewer/Explorer/Writer/Humanist like him in our life times ):
He was sober by the time he started filming any TV shows. Also, if you work in restaurants you know that it's rare for a chef to be obese because 1. they work so much there's hardly any time to eat, and when they do it's not during normal meal hours, 2. they are on their feet for 10 hours a day and 3. most kitchens are pretty small! It would be hard for someone "morbidly obese" to make their way around a cramped kitchen.
@@Alex-lb9xd Chef K Paul of New Orleans was morbidly obese. Emeril Legasse is overweight. I've seen numerous chefs on TV and CZcams, and if they're not morbidly obese they are FAT. I've also seen a lot of chefs in restaurants where I've eaten and a lot of them were fat.
I truelly miss this man for the character and person that he was and still is in my mind :-(
I really enjoyed his show. Watched it all the time. He was such a natural. It really bothered me when I heard he had committed suicide.
He never committed suicide, he was killed, I wonder if the police didn't find the person and they are keeping their mouth closed. May be rest in peace. Blessings
@@msparamin3285 HOW DID YOU KNOW THAT?
@@Mila.08 She doesn't know anything. She's just spouting conspiracy theory B.S.
@@msparamin3285 You are twisted.
I loved Anthony Bourdain! 🙏🏼 So sad after hearing about his passing! He was super entertaining and had a chill ass vibe! Rip chef! 😉✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨
I miss Tony, he was one of my favourites I hope his soul is at peace now.Peace
I loved Anthony Bourdain, and missed him so very much
I miss him too
I remember watching him on BBC news every Saturday night. Always looking forward to see him travel the world and eat delicious food miss him so I live in the Caribbean island of st lucia 🇱🇨🇱🇨🇱🇨🇱🇨🇱🇨🇱🇨
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I hope he realized how much happiness he gave to his friends, family, and fans. Truly a great man.
I have never been in awe of anybody, more than Anthony Bourdain, and Prince. It still hurts, I still remember learning of their passing, the only two people I have ever mourned. Food and music, nourishment for the soul.
When he died I cried, because I was inspired by his real ness.
Me too!
You weren’t inspired by his Loch ness?
Thank you for this NIcki. I knew him briefly in the early years, before Kitchen Confidential . In the hard times. I loved this man, and I wrote a book which is partly dedicated to him. RIP Chef Tony. Man I miss you.
Met him twice and he was nothing but gracious and a perfect gentleman.
Yves LaRue...So nice you mt him, how did you meet Bourdain and where? Always like his show, watched all episodes I could.
How did you get to meet him?
I was so upset when i found out he'd passed away. I know what depression is like and you must fight that demon every single day or it will take you out.
Yes...damn that was so risky...living !
Depression my eye. He was murdered by Hillary Clinton!!!!!!!
@@el-louise1886 And she missed you and your family. Damn, she didn't do her job.
Depression And Drug Addition Are Both Demons..
NOT So Easy To Quit Unless You Been There..
You Can't Know..
@@rightway2396 I have been there, so, i know. And i still fight every single day.
I miss watching him every Sunday. One of my favourite things to do with my husband. We were so very sad to hear the news of his passing. Very sad indeed.
He was a great guy who had a very serious problem.
I am bipolar and have an alcohol problem
Self-medicating is a one way trip.
Same here mate. I'm recovering from alcohol now for 18 years because the hangovers were just too frightening, but the depressions are astonishingly nightmarish nonetheless.
I knew about bourdain from my dad about 15 years ago. My dad was a fan of him and often watch his shows. I hope my dad can meet him now ❤
Loveee him in any struggling phases of his life as a surrender ...fragile successful brilliant human being ...hopefully his daughter sees all good feelings from us people all around the world ...Great observer and chef ..
dude was so real, so cool, so funny and had a way with words. it's sad for the world that it lost such a fantastic story-teller. hope he finally found rest and relief from his pain...whereever he is now.
I loved watching his videos and listening to him talk about life and food. God, I miss him!
I miss Anthony Bourdain. Such a HUGE talent. Thanks Anthony for all that you gave the world. 🏆
Listening to the story of Anthony Bourdain's drug addiction sounds exactly like my story and many others in this industry I once had a manager tell me Jack go outside to your car and do whatever you need to do to get right. He meant I could go outside and get high if that was going to put me in a better mood for the guests I think a lot of us turned to drugs just as a way of dealing with the fact that you have to be at a party everyday and people expect you to act like you're having fun and that every night is just a special to you as it is to the guests but it's just Tuesday night.
Hugs
My feelings Anthony DID NOT commit suicide He was murdered
He has a history....he said he was always suicidal
Moron!
@@aussiemouth747 Who is the Moron????
oh my by who??
Why would you think this? He said many times he had suicidal thoughts for a lot of his life....His girlfriend was involved in some shady stuff and I think it was all too much for him!
Tragic details? You gave none of the actual details about his suicide. Strange choice.
I am a huge fan since the first time I watched a show of him coming to Rio de Janeiro in 2001 called "how to be a carioca". He came here a couple of times, went to favelas, he ate with very good and simple people. He was so honest, nice, gentle and sarcastic. I miss him a lot!
good story. you told it really well and showed respect.
Realest person on tv
He wanted to rest in peace - let it be.
Great loss...he was truly great...alcohol was his worst enemy....loved his personality...
Truly a great lost
Depression . . . is a disease, my sister succumbed to the same heartache ! 😬
How beautifully u explained lady ❤️
He had been living in a survival mode for years.
sometimes you just want to stop the bus and get off, if your a deep thinker
I guess his was making him depressed too. Yes get off tge bus sometimes. It could be tge antidepressant med too that lead him to suicide. It that's was really a suicide, who knows.
oh jeez
I was so sad about his Passing. I looked forward to all his visits around the world.
I will miss him forever I think ‘︿’ 💔
You "THINK" ??
I loved his ability to tell it like it was, no sugar coating, and watching his video's always made me appreciate how much time he put into his shows. I found him so charismatic, such a tall dark handsome man who's character who was also intelligent, funny, awkward at times but such a good writer. I miss him. Luckily we have vids to watch.
For some reason I sensed he was loosing his way in his last season.....he was one of a kind and I wept like a baby when he died...........he is hugely missed by many.......
I hope CNN gets another chef to continue Bourdain's adventures. Bourdain was a good man, and I hope he is in a better place.
Nobody will be able to take his place!
I like how they showed the ups and downs. Believe it or not speaking about it here on this platform does not really do justice to the feeling that your body is not responding, your mind is perplexed, and the only out you have is a crowd who supports the existence of this. The problem has to do with influence. An influence that is appealing and convoluted is not exactly the best possible choice. I am extremely surprised he made it to 61 but I believe he is a survivor who did what seemed was the only option to avoid the above. He is the embodiment of the sinner saint who was looking for a life raft and found an anchor.
I love Anthony. His shows were amazing. I miss him so much.
I miss him so much.
Still sorely missed. Hope you're having a blast, in the light.
People always want you to stay alive so you can suffer with them. Misery loves company.
If you see how dark this world. You'll see, it's so damn depressive...
Simply a humble being. Rest in peace chef 🙏🙏
This is an excellent piece, factual and fair, with no sensationalizing.
As someone who has struggled with depression since the age of 10, I can sympathize. "His depression won," is a sad testimony to his lifelong struggle.
RIP Anthony. Miss you. 💙
Taken out?
I remember demanding my parents order me a beer at age 8 on a vacation to Istanbul just to get a reaction out of my parents who frowned upon all alcohol. They did order the beer for me on the condition that I drink it all, which I couldn’t. I can relate to Bordain’s experience with his parents. RIP Anthony, we miss you soooo much.
Why the hell they made him and his brother sit in the car outside while they went to a restaurant will never make sense to me. The host just said that and didn't explain it
@@jakevendrotti1496 maybe for food parcel
I truly enjoyed watching this man. Read a handful of his writings. RIP
I keep on watching his tv serious again and again. And never get enough. I will never forget him.
I did not think l could grieve for someone l hadn't met but ldid and do.A terrible unbelievable loss of a gorgeous human being.
I have had crippling depression in my life. I thought of suicide but chose to soldier on. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I am glad I lived. I am still here for my daughter.
AMEN SISTER
Same, still here for my son. I'm glad you're here.
Glad you are here :)!
It's not temporary...it follows you..its in everything you see and feel...you can try to suppress it, but it's like the voice in your head, you can't get rid of it
I was heart broken when Anthony passed away.... To watch his show, and how he would talk to different people..and showed them a lot of respect....I never knew he dealt with depression.. .I hope people learned from him to get help....
Loved all his stuff, actually an episode of No Reservations helped to inspire me to get clean few years ago. You know he ain't lying, admitted to geekin on carpet rocks ,haha
I'm an entertainer and I hate television, but somehow Anthony made me fall in love with watching TV, not just any content but His how. I loved his show so much that even when I am traveling to another country I would try to find his latest show. His and my other dude Zimmer were hands down the two BEST in food television to date. I haven't found another show that is intriguing as those two guys. Food Tv is NOT the same ever. Anthony first then Zimmer made me tune in all the time. I now watch Zimmer on his podcast and I love it.
I cried when he died too
One less crack head
This is the best investigator report on Anthony that I ve ever watched. Well Done Nicki, good job. RIP Anthony, Love U. Miss U.
Such a beautiful soul taken too soon rip Mr.Bourdian I hope you found happiness wherever you are 😭💔
It is heartbreaking when you Google up your favorite childhoold tv chefs, then knowing that he no longer alive. Rest in Peace Anthony, We love you 😭
He was murdered .
Yes!
I still question if it was suicide or murder,,,I'm still leaning towards murder,he spoke out against the deep state,,,,,,,
What made AB so likeable is his sense of humour and humble demeanor. The drinking and drugging was a part of that to millions. I could not watch his CZcams clips for 3 years since his passing until recently. It was a phase of mourning that I could not make any sense of. It just happened. Now I find that many people around the world felt as I did. His life was so tortured by the mental illness. Drugs and alcohol did it to him.
Its a tragedy. I empathise, greatly. This man was authentic, beyond a doubt. Rest in peace, my friend
I’d be like 16&17 watching him and just waiting for a new episode on CNN. Truly a legend.
A LEGEND NOT~~CRY ME A RIVER!!
Anthony Bourdain was SELFISH, SELF-ABSORBED, ALCOHOLIC and PERVERT!!!
Anyone who dishes out so called wisdom, or whatever you want to call it, IS NOT A HAPPY PERSON!! Basic Physic 101
Anyone who has children, and then commits suicide IS NOT A STABLE PERSON. Just think about his daughter!!!!
I never did care for Anthony Bourdain, since I knew just from looking and hearing Anthony Bourdain he was an Alcoholic, and those Anthony Bourdain hanged around with are proven PERVERTS.
The world is much better without Anthony Bourdain!!!!
I've rebroken my heart seeing this. I had the opportunity to meet him when he visited S Louisiana, he was such a personality, he could be SO full of life. He could take the most mundane thing and create an adventure in it. Like so many, I wish there were something I could have done too. I wish he could have clung to that optimism and joi de vivre enough to still be among us.
This was truly fair and I LOVE how you laid this out. You did Anthony justice by this.
Well, let's see - he went to Armenia, talked about the Armenian Genocide; went to Artsakh and talked about the Armenians there and their oppression under the Azeris (who are Turks...) and then he returns and, granted, he had some issues, but as soon as he returns he "kills" himself - perhaps ask the Turks and Azeris how he "killed" himself - yeah, right.
what's your point?
@@hilmir read it again and try using your brain a bit, assuming you know anything about how turks operate
@@marshallmoushigian3616 yah I am not a racist so I don't really know how turks "operate". however my question was to understand how YOUR mind works. if you can even call it that.
I am still devastated...RIP