sophiemarie.b - hey little girl (live) [official lyric video]

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  • čas přidán 17. 11. 2018
  • we made a new lyric video for the official release! thank you so much for watching. - soph
    available on spotify and apple: ffm.to/hlgps1
    my favorite sad songs updated weekly: open.spotify.com/user/9dbgnpi...
    follow me on ig: / sophiemarie.b
    LYRICS
    Verse 1:
    I’m all choked up
    I cannot talk
    I’ve got a fucked up brain, fucked up thoughts
    Thought I was okay
    But then I guess not
    Hope you know that this is your fault
    Want you to feel bad
    When you go to sleep
    Hope you’re sad when you remember me
    Hope you’re feeling bad for all you did to me
    And hope you lie there in your misery
    Chorus:
    Hey little girl
    You never believed there’s a ghost inside of you
    But it’s hidden too deep
    Hey little girl
    You never imagined you’d get a little older
    You’ll get abandoned
    Hey little girl
    You know smoking kills
    You don’t really care cause you love how it feels
    Hey little girl
    You’re falling apart
    You don’t really care ‘cause they broke your heart
    Verse 2:
    I’m fighting for all that I have lost
    It’s my time to show who's boss
    I’ve waited in the dark too long
    I’ve got this now, so just stay strong
    I know you won’t believe
    Until I’m up on stage
    Make me bleed when you don't get your way
    I hope you're scared when you remember me
    I hope you lie there in your misery
    Chorus:
    Hey little girl
    You never believed there’s a ghost inside of you
    But it’s hidden too deep
    Hey little girl
    You never imagined you’d get a little older
    You’ll get abandoned
    Hey little girl
    You know smoking kills
    You don’t really care cause you love how it feels
    Hey little girl
    You’re falling apart
    You don’t really care cause they broke your heart
    Bridge:
    Been in and out of recovery
    Remember when I could hardly breath
    Sat in front of mirrors thinking to myself
    Can't get any clearer, what I’m doing to myself
    Been in and out of recovery
    I remember when I could hardly breath
    I sat in front of mirrors thinking to myself
    Can't get any clearer what I’m doing to myself
    Chorus:
    Hey little girl
    You never believed there’s a ghost inside of you
    Hidden too deep
    Hey little girl
    You never imagined you’d get a little older
    You’ll get abandoned
    Hey little girl
    You know smoking kills
    You don’t really care cause you love how it feels
    Hey little girl
    You’re falling apart
    You don’t really care cause they broke your heart
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  • @sophiemarie.b
    @sophiemarie.b  Před 3 lety +13792

    by age 8 my dad was out of my life entirely. my mom would feed me lies about him. she made me believe that he was the one who abandoned us. with no one around to protect me, thats when the abuse started.
    I’m all choked up i cannot talk
    I’ve got a fucked up brain, fucked up thoughts
    writing songs was my therapy. I wrote the first verse and chorus while still living with her in october 2016.
    Thought i was okay but then i guess not
    I hope you know that this is your fault
    shame, anxiety, depression, self-doubt, anger...it was piling up. something had to change. so after 8 years of being apart I messaged my dad from a secret email address. (It would have been very bad if she found out.) he got me a secret phone (i put my best friends picture on it just in case) and we began planning my escape.
    Want you to feel bad when you go to sleep
    Hope you’re sad when you remember me
    Hope you’re feeling bad for all you did to me
    And hope you lie there in your misery
    the plan was to begin living with him full time by march, which felt like a long 5 months away.
    Hey little girl - You never believed there’s a ghost inside of you
    But it’s hidden too deep
    would the hopeful, happy, ambitious woman inside of me still be there when I was finally free?
    Hey little girl - You never imagined you’d get a little older
    You’ll get abandoned
    Hey little girl - You know smoking kills
    You don’t really care cause you love how it feels
    Hey little girl - You’re falling apart
    You don’t really care ‘cause they broke your heart
    abuse -> rebellion -> breakdown. this was the whole song at first. so I posted a clip on instagram as a failed cry for help. but less than a week later I got worried that my mom would see it and took it down.
    then in dec 2016, with 3 months still to go, my mother let it rip in front of the house, for all of my neighbors to see. bruised and crying I ran to my neighbors house and called my dad “we need to do this now”. my neighbors harbored me for a week while my dad prepared to get custody, as he did later that week. I will never forget the feeling the day I saw the police serving my mother the papers. a warm rush went through my body as she screamed in disbelief.
    within weeks i was on a beautiful beach vacationing with my dad for new year’s, when I found my song on CZcams, but under another person’s name. who the hell is Quinn Quinn? for those of you who don’t know, this girl on CZcams named Quinn Quinn ripped the audio from my instagram and reposted it as her song. it went kinda viral, on musically too. I was angry and helpless. who fucking does that? whatever! my only defens was to finish the song and post a video of me singing it in front of the piano. by this time, i’m free from my mother, which is why the second verse and bridge come from a whole new perspective.
    I’m fighting for all that I have lost
    It’s my time to show who's boss
    I’ve waited in the dark too long
    I’ve got this now, so just stay strong
    at 16 I finally had a chance. It was time to start going after my dreams. (I still tell myself this every day.)
    I know you won’t believe until I’m up on stage
    Make me bleed when you don't get your way
    in the mornings she would claim to not remember what she had done. “i hope you wake up and realize what a good mother i am to you" she would say. what a fuking joke.
    I hope you're scared when you remember me
    I hope you lie there in your misery
    Peace out you miserable bitch.
    Been in and out of recovery
    Remember when I could hardly breathe
    Sat in front of mirrors thinking to myself
    Can't get any clearer, what I’m doing to myself
    its been five years and i’m feeling okay. “You got this...you’re good” i like to tell myself. but sometimes it gets tough and i go back down to feeling like shit. I know i need to forgive her in order to fully move on, but its hard right now. i hope my story helps children and adults around the world recognize the dangers of child abuse and parental alienation. remember, there’s always someone you can go to for help. I just wish i contacted him sooner. - soph

    • @nevertrulyyours
      @nevertrulyyours Před 3 lety +754

      It really felt heartbreaking to read your story, though I am glad you got help and got out of that hell. I hope you'll lead a happy life ahead

    • @gemtalented9193
      @gemtalented9193 Před 3 lety +476

      Honestly, it's so hard to believe people would *actually* do that. I can't even begin to imagine how horrible that was. Not to mention the girl who literally stole your song. Love your song though, it's wonderful. The backstory to it though- I hope things are better!

    • @Caitlyn723
      @Caitlyn723 Před 3 lety +209

      You are so inspiring to me

    • @goblinxx.
      @goblinxx. Před 3 lety +257

      I've been abused and used by my brother and well he drowned me and my sister. I treat him nicely and all I get is a slap, a punch, a kick or an elbow to the throat. But it's hard to believe this, even though I do. This is also my favorite song. It's sooooo good!

    • @peekaB00_x
      @peekaB00_x Před 3 lety +169

      Your story is so upsetting. Parents r supposed to care for u and make u feel loved but instead they made u feel misery. Your story rlly inspired me. My mom hits me as well and she also thinks shes some brilliant amazing mother. Im happy u r free from ur mother now!!

  • @annoyingly_dumb3038
    @annoyingly_dumb3038 Před 3 lety +5510

    Kid: 'depressed'
    Mom: it's that stupid phone
    Kid: that phone is the only thing stopping me from ending my life

    • @nabeehahussain904
      @nabeehahussain904 Před 3 lety +258

      So true the only thing that here for me is my phone all the sad times this phone help me stay up all night crying and this what help me

    • @yourgurlasher9299
      @yourgurlasher9299 Před 3 lety +101

      thisgirl lovesroblox so I’m not the only one that does that?
      Yay

    • @allan4904
      @allan4904 Před 3 lety +96

      That’s true-ish. It’s actually family that’s keeping most people alive, people love their family to much to just, let them go
      Edit: alright my family doesn’t except me for being Non-binary and being poly.
      But I know that they still love me.

    • @marztheburntoutemo4919
      @marztheburntoutemo4919 Před 3 lety +27

      Me I have some freinds like two

    • @Madison-to8mp
      @Madison-to8mp Před 3 lety +21

      I’m so sorry for you guys 😭 idk what I would do without my family

  • @arlevcchino
    @arlevcchino Před 3 lety +4809

    parents: ''stop being childish, i've had worse as a child''
    Strangers: ''It's okay. I understand.''

    • @alenagarcia4228
      @alenagarcia4228 Před 3 lety +123

      If hey have been in worse they why don't they help us

    • @jessicamcmullen7144
      @jessicamcmullen7144 Před 3 lety +43

      right ?

    • @Sila3x
      @Sila3x Před 3 lety +78

      Exactly, a random stranger who I've never talked to helped me and listened to me while I was venting to them.
      I'm the most thankful for them :)

    • @olgakabakova1503
      @olgakabakova1503 Před 3 lety +34

      Not only the parents, litterly the while family

    • @gaystarcos335
      @gaystarcos335 Před 3 lety +20

      Literally what my family just told me again

  • @wlivvyw5857
    @wlivvyw5857 Před 9 měsíci +359

    The fact I listened to this song for 4 years. And every year it hits more

    • @thatequestrian_karlee
      @thatequestrian_karlee Před 6 měsíci +3

      same

    • @Your_Local_Moron
      @Your_Local_Moron Před 4 měsíci +2

      i found this song like 4 years ago and I use to listen to this because it sounded cool, but i slowly realized that i was relating to it more and more :(

    • @HomelessMatt
      @HomelessMatt Před 4 měsíci

      Your music taste is absolute ass

    • @Crazy_KC1893
      @Crazy_KC1893 Před 4 měsíci +1

      Same. It’s sad that you can be even a little eleven year old girl, tearing yourself apart for others and then they get mad at you for it…

    • @demetriusblakney9736
      @demetriusblakney9736 Před 3 měsíci

      @@Your_Local_Moronsame :(

  • @amberwells5617
    @amberwells5617 Před rokem +1023

    I’m pregnant right now at 18. I may not have been prepared for this. But my kids will never know the pain of this song or other like it. I will be nothing like my parents. My kids will be loved and brought up right. They will be listened to and understood. To my future kids. I love you. I’ll always be here for you.

    • @sophiemarie.b
      @sophiemarie.b  Před rokem +245

      you’re going to be an amazing parent. sending you so much love. ❤️❤️

    • @potatowh0re686
      @potatowh0re686 Před rokem +49

      Congratulations! You're gonna be an amazing mother!!

    • @spacee2950
      @spacee2950 Před rokem +35

      I hope you and your kids the best🫶

    • @delillahkillebrew
      @delillahkillebrew Před rokem +26

      I believe in u ❤❤❤❤ u got this I may be 11 but I get underestimated a lot but we all support u stay positive ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

    • @nousername077
      @nousername077 Před rokem +18

      You're going to be an amazing mother❤❤love and blessing for you child❤

  • @delyn8396
    @delyn8396 Před 4 lety +2015

    this is the kind of sickness
    that isn’t excused at school
    this is the kind of sickness
    that no one ever notices
    this is the kind of sickness
    that goes unnoticed
    *until it kills*

    • @erin-un3fi
      @erin-un3fi Před 4 lety +8

      @Minecraft MemeGirl bruh why?

    • @kiffygreene4598
      @kiffygreene4598 Před 4 lety +24

      Even when it kills it will pass in a day even for the family believe me I know. I lost my brother to drugs and my family and friends dropped it by the end of the day well 3 years later it still haunts me

    • @random_flame_pup3222
      @random_flame_pup3222 Před 4 lety +9

      You cant tell anyone because they wont understand and ur scared to and u lie about ur happiness even when they are saying they will help but u have hard that to many times till u just stop believing that they will..

    • @elizabethstaley6294
      @elizabethstaley6294 Před 4 lety +6

      kiffy greene it might take other families more than a day to drop it like mine it took my dad like a week to drop the fact that my uncle committed suicide and two years for my dad to get over a friend who died of cancer

    • @scarrd3493
      @scarrd3493 Před 4 lety +8

      I was in the hospital for 5 months recovering from slitting my throat then stabbing myself multiple times. I'm glad I'm with my fiance now. The last 5 months we're horrible without him.

  • @stayweird7849
    @stayweird7849 Před 3 lety +2786

    life asked Death: Why do people hate you and love me?
    Death said: Because, your a beautiful lie and i'm the painful truth.

  • @Hero46983
    @Hero46983 Před 3 měsíci +15

    I love it when your parents or parent says “it’ll be fine we can help each other grow” BUT ALL THEY DO IS TEAR YOU DOWN THEY SHOUT AND SCREAM AND ASK WHY when all you do is help them

  • @LUVRB0Y
    @LUVRB0Y Před rokem +221

    I hope you know that through the years, this has been my fight song. Through every abuse from my ex, every abuse from my mother, every day I was further indoctrinated into my family’s cult, and every self abuse I could imagine to make myself feel “normal”. It’s been the most challenging trials of my life, but every time I hear this song, I break down. It makes me feel strong again, it’s been one of my emotional lifelines. When I was 12, 13, 14, I never thought I would be around to see the next birthday. I’m so proud to say that I’ve been able to persevere and that my 17th birthday is in 71 days. You’ve genuinely changed my life with this song, with this message, with you being powerful enough to share your story. Thank you

    • @GardenHomie
      @GardenHomie Před 10 měsíci +3

      God bless you. I hope you get the healing that you need. 🌹

    • @jordyanmoats-gm9kt
      @jordyanmoats-gm9kt Před 8 měsíci +1

      I know this is a late response, but I wanted to say you got this girl I didn’t go through verbal abuse but I did go through hurting myself and abusing me. You need to stay strong with the point of me, almost jumping off to end it all at night time and jumping into a creek by my house. You got this just stay strong and don’t be like me. Why are you don’t share your story.

  • @ashash1929
    @ashash1929 Před 3 lety +841

    "you get little older, you'll get abandoned"
    .....that hits

  • @pxarlforever2888
    @pxarlforever2888 Před 4 lety +6948

    5~ "I want to be a princess!"
    9~ "I want to be a actress!"
    12~ "I want to be alone"
    15~ "I want to be loved"
    18~ "I want to be dead"

    • @zkxangel
      @zkxangel Před 4 lety +673

      6- "I want to be a doctor"
      9- "they are calling me smart! I should be a teacher!"
      10- "yeah right just call me stupid because I got a B+ and call me fat because of 30 kilograms."
      11- "Im tired of this shit. 35 kilograms and still fat. I just want to be dead. Why did you not put me up for adoption if you are gonna tell me that and not let me have my freedom."

    • @priscillasfuntime9569
      @priscillasfuntime9569 Před 4 lety +48

      Pxarl Forever so true :

    • @annita-qv8ge
      @annita-qv8ge Před 4 lety +360

      3~ “I wanna be a big hero everyone knows!”
      5~ “I want to go back to Mexico I don’t wanna be here”
      9~ “Why did he betray us, I loved him”
      12~ “Why do I feel so alone, why does everyone think I’m fat and ugly”
      15~ “Just let me die already”

    • @bymicaah
      @bymicaah Před 4 lety +228

      So true.... Why does depression hit us so fast?...

    • @luisinfante5899
      @luisinfante5899 Před 4 lety +43

      i rely don't like how u loved because someone when u love them they actually maybe don't love u maybe they love someone else so i rather be alone but its ur decision.

  • @AlyxNeely
    @AlyxNeely Před rokem +1227

    F= Fading slowly
    I= Internally crying
    N= Never felt more alone
    E= Every night I cry myself to sleep

  • @koikun
    @koikun Před 5 měsíci +62

    just a few years ago I was crying like a baby to this song, still am, just like.. a more reasonable adult.. happy New Years everyone 🤍

  • @lemonit8958
    @lemonit8958 Před 3 lety +9250

    When GEN z become parents, let's promise to be the best parents the universe and multi verse has ever seen. We will understand our kids and wont put them down when they go through sh*t

  • @Lina-bn9wi
    @Lina-bn9wi Před 4 lety +1382

    Age:3: Im going to be a princess!
    Age:7: Will they miss me if I ran away?
    Age:9: Why are people scared of me?
    Age:11: Leave me alone, your going to leave me anyways

    • @butterball2394
      @butterball2394 Před 4 lety +41

      This was and still is my thought process.

    • @nooodles_memes
      @nooodles_memes Před 4 lety +16

      Not everyone will leave you

    • @areyouboredyetcauseiam
      @areyouboredyetcauseiam Před 4 lety +14

      Kay-Lay C yes they do it’s the sad truth and the one that I live

    • @bladeshadow4548
      @bladeshadow4548 Před 4 lety +29

      @@nooodles_memes, everyone leaves you. At some point. Wait until reality hits you. Reality hit me when I was 10.

    • @gamermarisol6036
      @gamermarisol6036 Před 4 lety +5

      Feel the same as you

  • @Nora_lovebats
    @Nora_lovebats Před rokem +220

    I love when your parents say “You will grow out of it” and a girl who doesnt even know me that well listens to me and understands me

  • @silverfoxgaming2484
    @silverfoxgaming2484 Před rokem +237

    Room:I'll be hear to hide you in your worst times
    Bed:I will be here for you when you're tired
    Pillow:I'll be here for you to catch your tears
    Dream:I'll be here for you to hide you from reality
    Music:I'll be here to comfort and sooth you
    Mirror reflection:don't worry when you cry I'll be here for you and not laugh
    Stay safe everyone 💓

    • @stevenm9026
      @stevenm9026 Před rokem +1

      That's beautiful

    • @silverfoxgaming2484
      @silverfoxgaming2484 Před rokem +1

      @@stevenm9026 thanks

    • @angelasuppa6197
      @angelasuppa6197 Před rokem +4

      Not when you constantly feel like someones watching you. When you get that feeling, its like you can't be yourself. You feel the same when you're around people. (At least for me.)

    • @Ren.The.Coyote
      @Ren.The.Coyote Před rokem +5

      You forgot one
      Plushies:I'll always take hugs from you and be with you when you're tired

    • @justuraveragefreshsimp
      @justuraveragefreshsimp Před rokem +1

      Wow this is beautiful and brilliant

  • @sarahboyd2371
    @sarahboyd2371 Před 3 lety +1098

    "Suicide doesn't get rid of the pain, it gives it to someone else."
    - Random Person

    • @tvtoast8739
      @tvtoast8739 Před 3 lety +36

      Then they will finally know how I felt

    • @estefanypelcastre3375
      @estefanypelcastre3375 Před 3 lety +18

      I thought suicide before but there is a reason why I kill myself. No not because I love my parents but because I want to help my siblings so they don't feel the same way i feel.

    • @yourlocalghost6517
      @yourlocalghost6517 Před 3 lety +7

      @@estefanypelcastre3375 i hope thing will get better for you, i wish the best for you and your siblings💐💛

    • @estefanypelcastre3375
      @estefanypelcastre3375 Před 3 lety +3

      @@yourlocalghost6517 thank you

    • @anunknownfriend7809
      @anunknownfriend7809 Před 3 lety +9

      Trust me it doesn’t fix any thing it just causes the people in your life more problems my brother committed suicide in 2013 it controlled my life for years because of an act he did

  • @lvrvio
    @lvrvio Před 3 lety +347

    " You get a little older, you'll get abandoned. "
    Hits hard when all your friends abandon you.

    • @nobody-xe7il
      @nobody-xe7il Před 3 lety +2

      yeah all my friends left me for popularity and sometimes made fun of me

    • @user-zn6yk6fu6p
      @user-zn6yk6fu6p Před 3 lety +3

      When my sister was born I was abandoned...

    • @Ang3e3e111
      @Ang3e3e111 Před 3 lety

      Yeah.....

    • @p3pperp0t11
      @p3pperp0t11 Před 3 lety

      That line hit hard
      My best friend( who I trusted with everything) abandoned me even after she knew about my dad doing the same thing and my mom who just doesn't care.

    • @cloudy_dragon9324
      @cloudy_dragon9324 Před 3 lety

      I lost my best friend for no reason Idk why.. I had so much bffs and then ending up losing them..

  • @aiden_storm8182
    @aiden_storm8182 Před 7 měsíci +39

    When I listen to this song, I like to imagine I'm talking to my younger self when life was simple and happy. Before the depression, before the confusion, before the trauma...

  • @lydeadavis9133
    @lydeadavis9133 Před rokem +31

    I remember this when I was in middle school, and now there's a brand new meaning to this song

  • @azulamyqueen4929
    @azulamyqueen4929 Před 3 lety +2195

    Kid: *depressed*
    Mom/Dad/Gaurdian: ItS cAuSe ThAt DaNg PhOnE.

    • @summerhardwick689
      @summerhardwick689 Před 3 lety +112

      But little do they know its what is keeping them from giving up

    • @happylaykie1531
      @happylaykie1531 Před 3 lety +34

      @@summerhardwick689 I laughed until I seen your comment

    • @Pokeplayer10
      @Pokeplayer10 Před 3 lety +61

      My mom says this all the time. It gets so annoying. They say that I'm depressed because I'm in my room all the time when in reality that's what helps me the most.

    • @x_midnight_x2854
      @x_midnight_x2854 Před 3 lety +44

      @@summerhardwick689 I agree phones block out the world around us and provide u with people who care and music so it helps calm us down and let us forget for at least a few hours.

    • @anawithonen4097
      @anawithonen4097 Před 3 lety +3

      @@summerhardwick689 I feel

  • @syrixttim9258
    @syrixttim9258 Před 4 lety +2966

    I dont understand why some parents get mad at their children by being depressed.
    My parents yelled at me for cutting myself and my dad even said "if you really wanted to die then sure ill hang you myself!" While i said "then do it its not like im useful" my mother slapped me across my face after that they acted like i didnt have depression and suicidal thoughts. But til this day im still carrying it ..
    Update:
    Thank you all so much for all of the lovely messages down in the comments i really do appreciate it. It makes me happy that even strangers care about eachother, i know some of you suggested to call 911 on my parents but i love them too much to even do that..not to mention its actually my fault for being useless around the house. So today i talked to my friends about...leaving and going somewhere else which they didnt took seriously of course we laughed about it then i began to get silent, then started crying. Of course the moving away part has another meaning. Im sure all of you know what i mean. I began to cry and they tried comforting me with hugs and affection. I told them i wasnt sure yet..we were just outside my house then one of them suggested i should stop crying or my mom will see, of course i trusted them and told them about how my parents treated me. And even sometimes they can hear me crying and screaming inside of my house because of them, but of course nobody called the police or anything.. i dont know what to do, now with all this online school and quarantine going on everything is harder...i stopped myself from cutting as i sign i would change and so that i wont get myself in trouble. can you please give me some advice on how i can cope with this? Also this is not a cry for help i am onlu sharing my experiences with you. So for the next few months i will be updating this comment to share more
    ...
    November 8, 2020. 10:09 p.m.
    Guess ill be updating whenever something bad happens? I guess so..
    Anyway, earlier today I woke up at 1 p.m I don't know why but I kept waking up late mostly in mid noon. My mom was cleaning and I had to get up since we share the same room I saw her. After a while I went out to do my regular stuff but then my mom mentioned the modules..that made my head ache just thinking about it but still I went to get them while working on the modules I became frustrated and without thinking I grabbed a bunch of worksheets from weeks ago and torn it my mom saw and began ranting about it telling me that I still am being able to pass them. I didnt knew what to do but I replied the opposite of what she said in a harsh tone she started screaming at me and i cried silently still she can see my tears pouring down but she didnt give a shit. I heard her voice crack and I knew she was really upset and was about to cry and that made me guilty..she grabbed my hair and pulled me back in our shared room and threw me on the bed telling me to sleep..of course I couldn't sleep, while trying I can still hear her saying insults at me like "if you arent interested in learning then you should've told me so that we didn't have to waste money on you. Just get a job as a maid so you'll be more helpful, though you dont know anything about cleaning so I guess you're pretty useless" and ect. It broke my heart I cried silently while thinking about my death and I know sooner or later ill go back to cutting again but more deeply. I know im a coward and I'm scared of dying but sometimes I just wish I had someone to do it for me. I'm really sick of everything im ungreatful and useless they gave me the life some people wish to have but im here being a total brat...I remember what my mom said; "quit acting youre not the victim here, We are! You're making our life harder and I could just die of high blood pressure because of you" im already writing a bunch of goodbye letters for them.."im sorry in bad luck.."
    November 19 2:22 pm
    I'm scared, I really am I do don't know what I'm doing with my life my mom found out that I slit my tighs Earlier. She ran to our room and started shouting non-stop. She got out and a few seconds later she came back holding a knife I started screaming and crying I was sure that my screams can be heard outside, my baby nephew cried because along side me, she kept threatening me about her killing me instead and her cutting my body into pieces instead of just slicing it. When she left to buy groceries I tried taking multiple pills for me to die from overdosing but I was too scared my heart bearing became rapid while I swear and cry a lot, I was still gripping on the bottle while crying...later I decided I'd take it I was about to swallow them all at once but I was too scared to so I took them one by one..I took three at the time then decided to make up my mind. I could feel my stomach bubble but not enough to hurt and my body felt weak and heavy I kept crashing on the floor when I tried to stand..I'm really scared and tired I just wished I wasn't a coward. I knew that pain was the last thing someone feels before they die, that's why I was scared. I was scared of pain I had enough I just wanted everything to go back to normal. I wished I didn't have any feelings I wish fear ,sadness,depression,disappointment, anger and all of the negative emotions never existed. I kept talking to myself in the mirror, I'm alone. The neighbours didn't give a shig. They only thought of it as normal since me and my mother faught a lot. But earlier...I screamed 10x louder and weeped harder. I wish they would understand I wish this pain in my chest would stop...but I knew that..the only burden that made me feel this way was myself..I wasn't good to them I knew I wasn't a good child and my parents had enough of me, I just wanted to leave and maybe they'd be happy! They can go ahead and sell my things I wouldn't care. Instead of a proper funeral go and throw me in the lake or dig a diy hole. Just to make you happy. I'm not your first propriety since I know I'm not loved that much l, even though I've been fed to and kept safe. Bad luck follows me everywhere and has been stuck with me ever since. I'm not pretty, or smart. But I do know I have a heart. I kept being kind to those who hurt me but if they crossed the line I knew I had to do something else. I tried my best to help her but I was focused on my phone, talking to my friends because I know that they'll make me happy. I focused on my talents and I kept working on my modules to keep up but I kept failing them. I got 1/20 last time and I broke down. I don't know what to do anymore
    God I could make a book out of this in wattpad..
    December 16, 2020. 11:43 a.m
    I did it, I finally escaped my God for Saken house. I'm now out my best friends house. I came asked her if she could let me stay and she did and I came by when it was about 2 am. It was dark a and I had to walk towards her house which is a real exersice, when I was almost there there car pulled up and the color was white, I didn't have my glasses on so I thought it was the police. Turns out it was just a taxi helping me reach my destination for free, thank you. Now I'm scared. What if my mom takes me back? I don't want that
    December 27, 2020 9:25 pm:
    (Day before my birthday )
    So earlier I decided that I would learn how to skate since I have a longboard that had been laying around for years now.
    I took it for a test drive and I felt happy that I could be able to skate, our street was empty and it had a almost smooth road it was almost perfect.
    I skated for a couple days before this and earlier my long board went haywire and flipped itself making me slip and fall in the process.
    I had almost broke a bone but I still managed to make it back home and tell my mother what happened. She scolded me and told me it's all my fault that I did such stupid things and that I could never achieve the success I wanted in skating.
    She planned to burn the board and told me to never skate ever again. I cried. All I wanted was support, is that too much to ask? Is it so hard to care for someone you have birth to?
    Why is it always have to be like this. Is people deserve love and support, don't think we're only human and can handle it unconditionally like we don't get hurt.
    I miss the time where everyone is happy and have their problems solved easily, but as life goes on everything becomes shit and hard.
    I know I'm failing in life like I'm failing my grades, I don't know what to do. I swear I'm trying but I was told I'm not trying my best and should do better. I'm sick of it. I really am...
    May 13. 1:19 pm
    I kind of forgot about this..but theres a bunch of horrible stuff happened in the past few days. I cant start on where, but as i scrolled down to see my past memories it just made me realize how of a horrible life ive lived .
    Anyway, i think i might have corona. Im not sure yet but the signs are there.
    Heres why i think i have the virus,
    me and my 2 friends were going to my other friends house to do our assignments, of course we we had permission. After we spent time and did our work, i felt weak. I felt like i was always tired and my breath was heavy, im sweating even when people thinks its cold, and i get cold easily when a fan is pointed at me. I have diarreah and i pee a lot more, headaches and body pain. I get rashes everywhere at my lower half body abd i dont know where it comes from.
    I didnt put any thought into it until i got a call from my friend saying that she was positive, i told my family about it. They didnt mind, as long as i dont go out anymore, yeah its reasonable but why let it slide? Im practically dying. But maybe im just overreacting?...

    • @duffelchild8869
      @duffelchild8869 Před 4 lety +113

      Let me kno how you are doing i really wanna kno ok because i care about you even tho i dont kno you there is a purpous for everyone but how can i help and its not because your suicidal its because i dont want a world without you in it

    • @duffelchild8869
      @duffelchild8869 Před 4 lety +30

      Evelynn Houck of course it’s weird I’m numb to emotion but no matter what try to comfort people we all go thro bad stuff and I’m sorry to say sometimes life doesn’t get better but talking helps and I genuinely care about how you are doing both of you

    • @duffelchild8869
      @duffelchild8869 Před 4 lety +20

      Evelynn Houck I’m always here to talk like I don’t know you but I want to be your friend you seem like such a good person and the people have been through a lot are usually better people because of it

    • @duffelchild8869
      @duffelchild8869 Před 4 lety +16

      Evelynn Houck yea I would love that

    • @duffelchild8869
      @duffelchild8869 Před 4 lety +12

      Evelynn Houck Thank you I like your profile picture as well now it’s just a waiting game I guess by the way how old are you

  • @carmensummersett6466
    @carmensummersett6466 Před rokem +73

    It’s crazy when I think of how many perspectives you could put this in. If you end up seeing this, everything will turn out okay, I promise.

  • @user-lz7xb7vm9b
    @user-lz7xb7vm9b Před 9 měsíci +64

    I’ve known this whole song since I was 8. I’m 13 now, still know every lyric, I heard my sister listening to it, a month later she tried to end it.

    • @teagreen5312
      @teagreen5312 Před 8 měsíci +3

      Im so sorry. But you will get through it! You got this!

    • @user-ig7ol9cz5u
      @user-ig7ol9cz5u Před 8 měsíci +3

      I am so sorry. Do you mind me asking if your sister is okay? I really hope she is…🤞🙏 and you too. ❤️

  • @nikcamillerihiggans4514
    @nikcamillerihiggans4514 Před 3 lety +1517

    Reasons why you should stay alive.
    1. We would miss you.
    2. It's not worth the regret. Either by yourself if you failed or just simply left scars, or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you.
    3. It does get better. Believe it or not it will eventually get better. Sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow.
    4. There's so much you would miss out on doing.
    5. There is always a reason to live. It might not be clear right now, but it is always there.
    6. So many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself.
    7. You ARE worth it. Don't let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise.
    8. You are amazing.
    9. A time will come, once you've battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. You will emerge stronger from this all, and won't regret your choice to carry on with life. Because things always get better.
    10. What about all the things you've always wanted to do? What about the things you've planned, but never got around to doing? You can't do them when you're dead.
    11. I love you. Even if only one person loves you, that's still a reason to stay alive.
    12. You won't be able to listen to music if you die.
    13. Killing yourself is never worth it. You'll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about.
    14. There are so many people that would miss you, including me.
    15. You're preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born.
    16. How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve their lives if you died?
    17. You're gorgeous, amazing, and to someone you are perfect.
    18. Think about your favourite music artist, you'll never hear their voice again...
    19. You'll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day
    20. Listening to incredibly loud music
    21. Being alive is just really good.
    22. Not being alive is really bad.
    23. Finding your soulmate.
    24. Red pandas
    25. Going to diners at three in the morning.
    26. Really soft pillows.
    27. Eating pizza in New York City.
    28. Proving people wrong with your success.
    29. Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life.
    30. Seeing someone trip over a garbage can.
    31. Being able to help other people.
    32. Bonfires.
    33. Sitting on rooftops.
    34. Seeing every single country in the world.
    35. Going on roadtrips.
    36. You might win the lottery someday.
    37. Listening to music on a record player.
    38. Going to the top of the Eiffel Tower.
    39. Taking really cool pictures.
    40. Literally meeting thousands of new people.
    41. Hearing crazy stories.
    42. Telling crazy stories.
    43. Eating ice cream on a hot day.
    44. More Harry Potter books could come out, you never know.
    45. Travelling to another planet someday.
    46. Having an underwater house.
    47. Randomly running into your hero on the street.
    48. Having your own room at a fancy hotel.
    49. Trampolines.
    50. Think about your favourite movie, you'll never watch it again.
    51. Think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke,
    52. Your survival will make the world better, even if it's for just one person or 20 or 100 or more.
    53. People do care.
    54. Treehouses
    55. Hanging out with your soul mate in a treehouse
    55. Snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees
    56. I don't even know you and I love you.
    57. I don't even know you and I care about you.
    58. Because nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness!
    59. You won't be here to experience the first cat world emperor.
    60. WHAT ABOUT FOOD?! YOU'LL MISS CHOCOLATE AND ALL THE OTHER NOM THINGS!
    61. Starbucks.
    62. Hugs.
    63. Stargazing.
    64. You have a purpose, and it's up to you to find out what it is.
    65. You've changed somebody's life.
    66. Now you could change the world.
    67. You will meet the person that's perfect for you.
    68. No matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you.
    69. You have the chance to save somebody's life.
    70. If you end your life, you're stopping yourself from achieving great things.
    71. Making snow angels.
    72. Making snowmen.
    73. Snowball fights.
    74. Life is what you make of it.
    75. Everybody has a talent.
    76. Laughing until you cry.
    77. Having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy.
    78. The world would not be the same if you didn't exist.
    79. Its possible to turn frowns, upside down
    80. Be yourself, don't take anyone's shit, and never let them take you alive.
    81. Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. Be your own hero.
    82. Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.
    83. One day your smile will be real.
    84. Having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day.
    85. Lying on grass and laughing at the clouds.
    86. Getting completely smashed with your best friends.
    87. Eating crazy food.
    88. Staying up all night watching your favourite films with a loved one.
    89. Sleeping in all day.
    90. Creating something you're proud of.
    91. You can look back on yourself 70 years later and being proud you didn't commit
    92. Being able to meet your Internet friends.
    93. Tea / Coffee / Hot Chocolate
    94. The new season of Sherlock
    95. Cuddling under the stars.
    96. Being stupid in public because you just can.
    97. If you are reading this then you are alive! Is there any more reason to smile?
    98. being able to hug that one person you havent seen in years
    99. People care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this.
    100. But, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn't seem so great right now, literally anything could happen
    -
    From someone that cares about you

    • @nonnie_draws2525
      @nonnie_draws2525 Před 3 lety +43

      This is so underated

    • @joseluisledesma9186
      @joseluisledesma9186 Před 3 lety +55

      I Read All Of This!
      These Are Very Good Reason's Why Not To Commit!
      Sis: *Has Fake Depression*
      Me: *knows It Because She Always Thought Of Herself As A Psychopath*
      Also Me: * Shows This To My Sis* Here Lady!
      My Sister: Oh Hell No!!!
      Me: Pfftttt

    • @liadreamer8587
      @liadreamer8587 Před 3 lety +26

      Thanks, it helped me a lot. ❤

    • @sukooo3283
      @sukooo3283 Před 3 lety +27

      Thanks , this made me cry 💕

    • @eva4793
      @eva4793 Před 3 lety +19

      Jeez this comment is long af

  • @flameychantvt9372
    @flameychantvt9372 Před 3 lety +876

    My skin: im pretty
    My heart: im broken
    My brain: im smarter
    My soul: im dying
    My lips: im beautiful
    My wirst/arm: im not
    My life: get off me
    My death: hello..wanna have tea?

    • @stilesstilinski774
      @stilesstilinski774 Před 3 lety +50

      Ur death sounds British

    • @stilesstilinski774
      @stilesstilinski774 Před 3 lety +9

      @ANNABELLE RIDDLE PWHAHA YE I WAS ALSO SAD- but when they said that I immediately thought of it

    • @-_-NannO_-
      @-_-NannO_- Před 3 lety +6

      @Samy Sagastume LMAO PLS YOUR DOTS MAKE IT SO MUCH FUNNIER BYE 😭😭😭🤚

    • @stepcrow1
      @stepcrow1 Před 3 lety +1

      STFU I SWEAR TO GAWD

    • @zero_marty3311
      @zero_marty3311 Před 3 lety +3

      @@stilesstilinski774 Man I love tea and I am notBritish dont get those stereotypes.

  • @zeethemadman4595
    @zeethemadman4595 Před rokem +20

    I listened to this on repeat 4 years ago, I never ever thought that i would connect to every single line of this song now.

  • @miamccabewaller3504
    @miamccabewaller3504 Před 9 měsíci +21

    The fact that I’m 14 now and have been relating to this for way to long is sad and the fact that this song is literally becoming how my life is

  • @haileyforvour1054
    @haileyforvour1054 Před 5 lety +3246

    5- "I wanna be a doctor!"
    Everyone- "You can do anything!"
    6- "I wanna be an actor!"
    Everyone- "Thats a great job!"
    10- "I wanna be a singer!"
    Everyone- "Were so proud of you!"
    12- "I wanna be dead."
    Everyone-
    Edit: Thank you so much for all the likes and comments with your stories💞 Stay strong💙
    Also for anyone wondering I’m 13 but I was 11 when I wrote this

    • @candicemccart199
      @candicemccart199 Před 5 lety +43

      Hailey Forvour heh I feel u and well yeah I do too

    • @pastelle_artz327
      @pastelle_artz327 Před 5 lety +25

      I feel the same you do

    • @candicemccart199
      @candicemccart199 Před 5 lety +37

      Well heres some of my story, my dad left when I was five, I get to talk to him on Saturdays, I’m depressed, have anger issues.... and well I don’t want to tell the rest.....😰😔

    • @iforgotmynameagain9512
      @iforgotmynameagain9512 Před 5 lety +23

      Hailey Forvour yeah I'm 14 and want to be dead... but I can't. I have to stay here and look at for my sister. I couldn't do that to her. Or to my mom or friends... but my dad would deserve it.

    • @peachycream8406
      @peachycream8406 Před 5 lety +29

      13-they are dead
      Everyone-"why would they do this"

  • @chloegates94
    @chloegates94 Před 4 lety +769

    My life:
    1: I was born and diagnosed with ITP and nearly died.
    2: In and out of hospital.
    3: My sister was born and her twin died.
    4: Happy.
    5: Mum and Dad got a divorce.
    6: Raised by only my mum.
    7: Mum got married to my step dad
    8: My brother was born. Me and my sister weren't getting any love or attention
    9: Started self harming and my grandad died.
    10: Self harming and quiet.
    11: Moved school, house and missed my friends. Couldn't stop crying.
    12: Self harming, fight at a park and police involved.
    13: Kicked out of school twice. Self harming and drinking. Horse dies, all my rabbits die😭😭😭.
    Home life: Arguements, Fighting, Screaming, Running Away. DEATHS.
    School life: not going to lessons, refusing to follow instructions, not talking to teachers, being kicked out, fights, kicked out again, and repeats the same mistakes. Just lost my best friend.
    IF YOU READ THIS. THANKYOU. YOU ARE AMAZING, BEAUTIFUL AND THE WORLD NEEDS YOU😭😭🖤 If you need someone to talk to I'm here 💕

    • @yuh2867
      @yuh2867 Před 4 lety +22

      @Malificent Gates thats sad. and thank you for telling me that i am amazing, beautiful, and the world needs me. although i do not think that.. thank u.. god bless u💗

    • @gryphoncity254
      @gryphoncity254 Před 4 lety +7

      r/thathappened

    • @crooked_mermaid
      @crooked_mermaid Před 4 lety +14

      God you went through a lot of shit. Try and get through your education though! It can be the building blocks to a better and happier future. Just hang on in there and know that someone cares.

    • @zophiawiesia2249
      @zophiawiesia2249 Před 4 lety +4

      Malificent Gates thank you so much. I know that that’s pretty bad and I’m probably in a better place but srsly I needed to read that last bit tysm!!!

    • @zophiawiesia2249
      @zophiawiesia2249 Před 4 lety +3

      Critisizing Time what’s happening?

  • @I_laugh_at_horror_movies
    @I_laugh_at_horror_movies Před 10 měsíci +20

    When I first found this song I only listened to it because it sounded pretty. A couple years later I became pretty depressed and started cutting myself especially with coming out and stuff, and today I was scrolling through listening to jack stained and I come upon this! Thank you for making this song, even if I'm not into the genre anymore I still love the song. So no matter what's happening in your life just know that there is a better ending that you have to wait for, ALL lives matter❤💛💚💙💜

  • @angelasuppa6197
    @angelasuppa6197 Před rokem +20

    I remember listening to this exact video over and over when I was younger. I never really understood the lyrics, (I didn't know what they meant) but hearing it now, I'm realizing now that I used to think it couldn't get any worse. I thought I was sad back then. But little did I know that it would get worse. Not being able to cry is worse than all the things I used to cry abt.

  • @lucymarie7064
    @lucymarie7064 Před 4 lety +4396

    Society: be yourself
    Also society: no, not like that

    • @antetatarovic6860
      @antetatarovic6860 Před 4 lety +65

      I relate so hard...

    • @kyoka1528
      @kyoka1528 Před 4 lety +81

      This is why I say society is fucked up! They want you to be yourself then bring you down and hate on you when you do. No wonder everyone is a fake anymore!

    • @themonkeyprofit1803
      @themonkeyprofit1803 Před 4 lety +9

      Sooo ture

    • @trintnwhyamialive9373
      @trintnwhyamialive9373 Před 4 lety +9

      Yep

    • @retroscares8434
      @retroscares8434 Před 4 lety +15

      For me life is a game where we have to survive but we survive to learn and do what we like to do not to be a fucking fake person that thinks like all "normal persons"
      The normal persons are there humans who tried to become what they want but didn't so they forgot who they are

  • @Lanibaeee
    @Lanibaeee Před 5 lety +7205

    Hey little girl
    You know smoking kills
    You dont really care
    Cause you love how it feels

    • @kyraplanting4646
      @kyraplanting4646 Před 5 lety +10

      Nanxi 😪

    • @Lanibaeee
      @Lanibaeee Před 5 lety +76

      @@santava3778 sis who? Cause u most definitely not talkin to me ☺.

    • @santava3778
      @santava3778 Před 5 lety +77

      @@Lanibaeee i knowwwww girl don't worry i wasnt talking to youu 😽 its just a meme

    • @Dani_494
      @Dani_494 Před 5 lety +62

      This song reminds me of all the friends and "lovers" that messed me up and abandoned me...

    • @lilliecooks2347
      @lilliecooks2347 Před 5 lety +10

      Stop

  • @kitkatdraws1179
    @kitkatdraws1179 Před rokem +10

    When I was in fourth grade me and my old friend used to sing this together, it was our favorite song. I haven't heard this song in at least a year..

  • @nabeehaziakhan808
    @nabeehaziakhan808 Před 11 měsíci +12

    it makes me feel like my soul is talking to me . I love this song Thank you🙏 for making this song it makes me feel like theres someone out there who can understand me the best of best.❤

    • @sophiemarie.b
      @sophiemarie.b  Před 11 měsíci +4

      wow, thank you for this comment. i’m happy i could help in some way 💖💖

  • @griseldamarrufo7779
    @griseldamarrufo7779 Před 3 lety +499

    *"Why cry if you didn't even help me when I was suffering? You stood there and laughed at me. You didn't even bother to ask what's wrong. Now I'm dead."*

  • @smevshmysticaltoast7734
    @smevshmysticaltoast7734 Před 4 lety +7963

    16 y/o girl: . . .
    4 y/o girl: - runs up and hugs - My mommy says your an angel.
    16: Wh- No, I’m not.
    4: Yes you are! The cuts on your wrist say so.
    16: tell your mommy she’s amazing for me.
    4: I can’t.
    16: why not?
    4: Mommy was an angel too.

    • @fretty6692
      @fretty6692 Před 4 lety +217

      DemPOPTARTZ _Tasty awh! That’s sad.. 😔

    • @cloudychu8053
      @cloudychu8053 Před 4 lety +184

      DemPOPTARTZ _Tasty... this is so cute... I wanna cry :(

    • @aiko6373
      @aiko6373 Před 4 lety +70

      This almost made me cry

    • @nicole.4295
      @nicole.4295 Před 4 lety +72

      I don't get how cuts make you an angel.

    • @lauragrausam1729
      @lauragrausam1729 Před 4 lety +228

      @@nicole.4295 Most people who have cuts specifically on their wrists have self harmed. Self harming is a habit people with depression or other mental illnesses pick up. We pick them up as a means of relieving our mental stress or a way out of the pain our brains give us. Us with mental illnesses are angels because we're struggling and we're still staying alive, despite feeling dead on the inside.

  • @Moonlightowneroflittlestarsorp

    for all the people that are sad:
    Your skin is not paper, so don’t cut it”
    “Your neck is not a coat, so don’t hang it”
    “Your body isn’t a book, so don’t judge it”
    “Your life is not a movie, so don’t end it”

    • @TheDarthHater
      @TheDarthHater Před 9 měsíci +7

      These are good words

    • @jaymemercer2183
      @jaymemercer2183 Před 9 měsíci +2

      Thanks☺

    • @ButterflyLove745
      @ButterflyLove745 Před 8 měsíci +5

      The sad part is that I cry to this comment

    • @alissaplayz7167
      @alissaplayz7167 Před 6 měsíci

      What if it doesn't matter anyway?

    • @fredericksaxton9782
      @fredericksaxton9782 Před 6 měsíci +1

      ​@@cakebiites You shouldn't try and tell others what they would feel or how they feel. Remember, that happens to depressed people all the time.

  • @addipaige_05
    @addipaige_05 Před rokem +12

    i sang this song for a talent show, i won it and i even told a little bit about your music and your story. people loved it, and now you have inspired me to write my own songs about my past experiences. thank you so much sophie❤. oh! also my music class is doing a music artist presentation and i’m doing you! you have inspired me so much i love you ❤. and thank you sophie ❤❤❤❤

  • @ElizabethR.Turgeon
    @ElizabethR.Turgeon Před 3 lety +20663

    I love how my parents tell me that “everybody has bad days” but strangers will talk with me for hours saying they understand me

    • @Taylovesclouds
      @Taylovesclouds Před 3 lety +469

      This hits too close to home. I’ve been fussed at because I’ve had in depth conversations with people 1 or 2 years older than me because we’ve experienced some of the same things. But because they are older and a bad influence so I lose electronics and just lose any happiness I had.

    • @Thrillinggoth
      @Thrillinggoth Před 3 lety +230

      Its too true i first meet soemone at my school and ahe knew my pain right off the bat and she had the same problem and we became friends for a little i had to move schools so i havent seen her seans

    • @sonicthefrogedhog8656
      @sonicthefrogedhog8656 Před 3 lety +150

      Honestly like we’re your children shut up and do your job which is caring for us

    • @andreapineda8760
      @andreapineda8760 Před 3 lety +168

      My parents just say sadness/depression in kids doesn’t exist.

    • @sonicthefrogedhog8656
      @sonicthefrogedhog8656 Před 3 lety +86

      @@andreapineda8760 are you kidding me I knew a six year old who committed suicide becuase her dad elft and she was raped when she was five she was from Africa but just becuase she was hung didn’t mean she had seen some shit

  • @rexxdemn4200
    @rexxdemn4200 Před 3 lety +2416

    It’s hilarious that parents say we’re to young to feel pain, be tired, depressed, feel love, know our sexuality.. we are, but that just shows Society is a messed up thing, but it’s even funnier when they ask what’s wrong like they think they can fix something not many people ever feel, they say get off our phones cus they could live without them, well they didn’t have to live through raping, depression, bullying, and so much more, we’re to young for a lot of things we feel but life’s not fair in that way, if it was... every one would be in heaven but no.. we’re down here in hell where every single day we wonder if we matter, make a difference or even exist as far as I’m concerned

    • @xxblueflame-reaperxx2266
      @xxblueflame-reaperxx2266 Před 3 lety +42

      ya society has gone to hell over the past few years

    • @sadnessdepression2102
      @sadnessdepression2102 Před 3 lety +35

      This hit a little to hard

    • @Yara_89
      @Yara_89 Před 3 lety +13

      If u don’t matter who would huh?

    • @brynnshannon3654
      @brynnshannon3654 Před 3 lety +11

      this this is the real explanation of life

    • @animesan9189
      @animesan9189 Před 3 lety +42

      I’m flipping ten and I feel this pain because my friends say I’m too young to know that your lesbian.. they say it’s a phase and I’m so scared of my father I can’t even look him in the eye... and they say I’m not depressed when I really am... I wonder every day “am I enough, how am I not useless... and they say I’m only ten... I’m too young...

  • @shannonbrennan7868
    @shannonbrennan7868 Před 7 měsíci +12

    I’m so sorry for everyone who relates to this song just know that the light will come stay strong angels ❤❤

  • @Reneta_
    @Reneta_ Před 21 dnem +3

    This bring me so much nostalgia,it makes me remember how i had too fend dor myself and ive gon into depression and the always try too team up on me no matter how much love i show them.

  • @raiiqrus
    @raiiqrus Před 4 lety +3665

    They don’t notice:
    Your pain,
    Your tears,
    Your thoughts,
    Your corruption,
    But what they notice?
    YOUR MISTAKES!

  • @victoriaf6870
    @victoriaf6870 Před 5 lety +1997

    *”Cause they broke your.....heart”*
    *Felt that :(*

  • @Rose-nu7rc
    @Rose-nu7rc Před 11 měsíci +16

    Thanks you for writing this song and sharing your story. It’s motivating for everybody who can relate and this song got me through hard days… thank you…

  • @rosaliegeorget4320
    @rosaliegeorget4320 Před 10 měsíci +11

    Hey everyone, i remember listening to this song a cpl years ago, and i can confirm it gets better, keep going, you will find happiness and acceptance❤

  • @ml.f.l788
    @ml.f.l788 Před 3 lety +2057

    my parents: "why are you always on that phone"
    my mind: "cause its the only place where people understand me"

  • @vnessaa5886
    @vnessaa5886 Před 3 lety +3020

    hey treat your pillow well, it accept your tears when no one else doesnt.

    • @stilesstilinski774
      @stilesstilinski774 Před 3 lety +89

      My pillow is my imaginary friend somehow.. dont ask- so I treat them wel

    • @randomquestion8513
      @randomquestion8513 Před 3 lety +52

      My pillow is a anime person....

    • @the2goodsiblings446
      @the2goodsiblings446 Před 3 lety +57

      I punch my pillow when I get annoyed or angry because I'm too scared of myself to face anyone, in fear that I'll hurt them..

    • @WeinerEater926
      @WeinerEater926 Před 3 lety +20

      If you have a best friend that understands that to treat them well

    • @that1confusedfox435
      @that1confusedfox435 Před 3 lety +15

      I know how that feels. I pinned a person at school in the corridor after having enough of them bullying me and I regretted it so much after as I normally am not like that and don't like hurting people

  • @lunadreamystrz7875
    @lunadreamystrz7875 Před rokem +7

    The song and it's meaning are all honestly heartbreaking. I've been through something similar to this but rather it being family doing it, it was friends, and people I thought I trusted. Music is generally my therapy, and this is one of me and my closest friend's favorite song that we both heavily relate to, her more than me. It's truly a moving song to anyone, and I feel bad for everyone who's experienced this, including the song artist.

  • @ZariiRL
    @ZariiRL Před rokem +10

    I cried for my grandma 👵🏽listening to this 😭I miss her so much 😖

  • @jainak25
    @jainak25 Před 3 lety +642

    little girl: what’s on your arm?
    me: they’re battle scars.
    little girl: you fought in a war?
    me: yeah. a long and hard one.
    little girl: that’s so cool! can i get one?
    me: no. please do not ever get any. but i’ll tell you what. whenever you see someone else with battle scars, i want you to hug them. okay? can you promise me?
    little girl: yes. i promise.
    a few days later we went on a short shopping spree. suddenly the little girl let go of my hand and ran up to another random teenager
    teen: why are you hugging me?
    little girl: because.. (*points*) you have battle scars just like my babysitter.
    the teen looked up at me, and i rolled up my sleeves to show her. with tears in her eyes, she said one thing to me..
    teen: my war is far from being finished right now, but i am not done fighting.
    she bends down at eye level with the little girl
    teen: thanks for giving me the strength to keep . you are forever my war hero.
    ⚠️ this is not my story, but i saw it somewhere else and decided to share it too because i want you to do the same to anyone with “battle scars” ⚠️
    I need everyone to pass this on.

    • @xavier5204
      @xavier5204 Před 3 lety +8

      i have a lot of *battle scars* but nobody has done that to me thats so nice

    • @smokindemon3409
      @smokindemon3409 Před 3 lety +2

      I SAW THE EXACT SAME THING IN ANOTHER VIDEO

    • @art3426
      @art3426 Před 3 lety +1

      Omg im crying right now. Its so true

    • @rads_world
      @rads_world Před 3 lety

      @@xavier5204 same

    • @BknightSkra
      @BknightSkra Před 3 lety +1

      but like can someone do this for me my battle is over but it would be nice and wholesome

  • @dayaneljj
    @dayaneljj Před 3 lety +609

    The fact that alot of adults don't believe that their children are having depression is shocking. Some adults believe that children are doing it for attention and that some adults don't seek help. Thousands of children are dying from suicide and adults still blame the children for not telling them. How toxic can this environment be?

    • @axela5746
      @axela5746 Před 3 lety +6

      I show any form of emotion = more pills

    • @hailey2493
      @hailey2493 Před 3 lety +12

      my family thinks im faking the fact that im sad. so now i just fake being happy. and it’s believable i guess.

    • @bapaknyaanisa9107
      @bapaknyaanisa9107 Před 3 lety

      This need to be top commeng ever

    • @stupid._.edward5415
      @stupid._.edward5415 Před 3 lety +6

      I stopped telling my mom how sad I was after she said "if I help you, you will just cry more..."

    • @kyuubiyoko1472
      @kyuubiyoko1472 Před 3 lety +4

      And this is why I as a medicated depressed person I want to try to help when I have kids of my own, I think I would even help any children that would come to me, if they are ever feeling this way. But as someone who has gone through therapy multiple times in my life I can understand why it would be hard for kids to get help even if the parent is helpful. I was told that I had long term depression that I mostly likely had since I was 5. I wasn't given the help I needed until my senior year of high school, so the toxic environment runs deep, but this is my personal experience, other people could have had better experiences than me.

  • @miaruiz4194
    @miaruiz4194 Před 8 měsíci +7

    This song is beautiful, it’s amazing how you can still fight, and even record a whole song after all this pain, I feel mad respect and sorrow for the, your, backstory (respect) ❤

  • @giulianaquille623
    @giulianaquille623 Před rokem +5

    I used to relate this song when I was 8 till a few days ago when I found my real friends and the people I loved more, and I still do sometimes still struggle with my mom but after I read your story I felt so lucky that I’m not in that bad of a situation, I still cry at night very silently ❤❤❤

  • @amaliabarefoot8931
    @amaliabarefoot8931 Před 3 lety +1695

    I knew a boy who liked to draw,
    He drew pictures that nobody saw,
    He was most artistic late at night,
    In the bathroom out of sight,
    He kept a secret no one knew.
    His drawings were different, no paper or pen,
    But needed a bandage now and again.
    We stood by the river under the stars,
    He rolled up his sleeves and showed me his scars.
    He felt embarrassed and looked down at his shoe.
    Then I rolled up my sleeves and whispered "I draw too"
    _I forgot who it was but its called "I draw too"
    (EDIT 2: I did not write this poem/song, I just wanted to clear that up!)
    Edit: Ok guys, I've seen comments saying "I draw too." I'm late, I just saw this after a year, but guys, cutting is not some beautiful art. Please listen. It is a beautiful poem, but you are a beautiful person. Don't let anyone take that knowledge away from you. I know a girl who I would consider pretty, but is downright nasty. And I mean, bullying nasty.
    It put me in a dark place for a while because I was already struggling with some private things, and yes, I have also 'drawn' once or twice.
    Still, please listen. You are beautiful. Go and look in the mirror right now and stare directly into your eyes, whatever shade they might be, and say to yourself; "I am beautiful."
    Don't look at what you think are flaws. Because you know what? The most beautiful person I have ever seen had a disability, but their smile and eyes just made you want to go up and hug them.
    You guys, throwing up your problems won't make them go away, either.
    You can't chase them away with a bottle of beer or a handful of pills.
    You can't cut them away from your body.
    You can't starve them away.
    I know you might have heard this before, but please TALK TO SOMEONE. If you just are not comfortable around your parents or think they might not understand, maybe start a chat with a teacher. ("I've been really stressed out lately, and I was wondering if I could just talk to you and ask some questions?")
    Either way, please do not self-harm in any way... Physical or mental. Because for me, when I was upset, my form of 'drawing' would be to write hateful words to myself on my arm in marker. Self-hate is NOT good for you. Please talk to someone. If they don't help, don't get discouraged. It took me a while to find the right person, too. I believe in you.
    If no one else does, just remember that one random stranger.
    Please don't think that suicide would end the pain, either. You'd just pass it on to someone else. If you think no one cares, think about this; every single person who has met you, ever, will wonder- could I have done something about it? Or, I knew her, I could have helped. Or, I saw her crying, once. I should have done something. Even the people who have insulted you will wonder every day if they were the cause of a murder.
    It is not ending your pain, it is extending it, giving it to everyone you have passed. Your pain will be in the shadows that people stand in, the ghost of your pain will haunt anyone who brushes past it.
    DO NOT DRAW! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!!!

    • @zemyta4960
      @zemyta4960 Před 3 lety +55

      I love that poem

    • @aeshahsaad9436
      @aeshahsaad9436 Před 3 lety +41

      I loved this so much I spent 15 minutes writing it down and making sure every letter looked like it was in perfect italics

    • @itsdardarthebean4779
      @itsdardarthebean4779 Před 3 lety +17

      I draw too

    • @daystars6479
      @daystars6479 Před 3 lety +8

      I saw that in a cringe comp once-

    • @hiii_itz_ya_boy_rudyyy8865
      @hiii_itz_ya_boy_rudyyy8865 Před 3 lety +13

      hey Amelia umm i sing and i wanted to know if i could send you a record use ur poem so that kids like you, me, and that boy could know that they aren't the only ones feeling this way (i like 2 get consent before using peoples creations and im glad the you survived ) your anoyher battle survivor know that there are other kids who r glad you survived you are OUR role model.

  • @wolfgills1187
    @wolfgills1187 Před rokem +7

    this song genuinely got me through so much when i was younger. I listen to it sometimes for nostalgia when i need to think about things. just showed up on my reccommended. guess it's time to think. :)

  • @Milkshake_straw
    @Milkshake_straw Před 3 měsíci +2

    This song has truly sent me into tears. The fact that it says little girl and smoking kills I jaut love it ❤

  • @mylaandzaden2005
    @mylaandzaden2005 Před 3 lety +401

    “You get little older you get abandoned” hits so close to home

    • @user-ec4nt2es8y
      @user-ec4nt2es8y Před 3 lety +1

      That’s so sad :(

    • @user-wh4xh5bj8x
      @user-wh4xh5bj8x Před 3 lety +1

      Same. My mom uses me for my talent in singing and I'm still in school😢

    • @mara4963
      @mara4963 Před 3 lety +1

      It also hit me hard, when i was smaller i was happy when i turned 12 i got abandoned im just a waste of space in my home, i rasied myself to hide my emotions and pretend to be happy

    • @twilightsweetie7841
      @twilightsweetie7841 Před 3 lety +1

      We all know that we all die in someway. Even with suicide. I'll get abandoned when I get older

    • @alaianava9129
      @alaianava9129 Před 3 lety

      Awww I am so sorry :(((

  • @KeeganandKing
    @KeeganandKing Před 3 lety +597

    “I *HATE* when people tell you to be yourself,and than they don’t accept you for it”

    • @nikkimacbride7982
      @nikkimacbride7982 Před 3 lety +8

      “I HATE when people tell you to be yourself,and than they don’t accept you for it”
      My Mother~

    • @KeeganandKing
      @KeeganandKing Před 3 lety +2

      @@nikkimacbride7982 your mother is smart :) be who you are

    • @KeeganandKing
      @KeeganandKing Před 3 lety +2

      @Patience Fish aww that great :)

    • @haveagoodmourning
      @haveagoodmourning Před 3 lety +2

      @Patience Fish THAT'S AMAZING I'M SO PROUD OF YOU AAA

    • @dwightdunstan7177
      @dwightdunstan7177 Před 3 lety +2

      I'm telling ya

  • @skyeler2179
    @skyeler2179 Před rokem +3

    Really reminds me of the old times. This song used to be my fav back in the days. Now I've finally found it.

  • @StormPayne-yh9pr
    @StormPayne-yh9pr Před rokem +3

    Ur scars shows all the battels u have thought ur ghost in u is ur story and u lived a tough life stay strong ❤I love u all I'm 13 going through the samm

  • @mermistasimp9485
    @mermistasimp9485 Před 4 lety +2569

    "Why are your arms always against your sides?"
    "Sweaty!"
    "Whats on your arms?"
    "My cat got me!"
    "Why is you face red?"
    "It was hot in my room!"
    "Why are the knives out?"
    "I was doing dishes!"
    "Why is there blood in the sink?"
    "Nose bleed!"
    "Why aren't you ever hungry?"
    'I eat when you're asleep!"
    "Why don't you ever raise your hand?"
    "Sore arm?"
    "Why is there foundation on your sleeves?"
    "I was uh..Covering up a bug bite!"
    "Why did you delete all your social media?"
    "Got hacked!"
    "Why don't you wear short sleeves?"
    "Always cold?"
    "Why is there a rope tied to the ceiling?"
    "Exercising?"
    "Why are the pills out..."
    "Headache!"
    "Why did you do it?"
    "I felt empty...and now i'm in a hospital bed.."
    stay safe, it not worth your life.
    Edit: Thank you for all the likes and Comments, stay safe!
    Edit 2: Stay safe and please don't use these, seek help.
    Edit 3: Why did you guys like my comment- smh
    Edit 4: So I see alot of you need help :( So, if you need help feel free to comment on this comment with your discord username (If you have it) and I will try to help!

    • @duffelchild8869
      @duffelchild8869 Před 4 lety +45

      Tell me if your ok i care and am going thro something similar but i care about your life because everyone needs someone to care

    • @mermistasimp9485
      @mermistasimp9485 Před 4 lety +33

      @@duffelchild8869 I'm okay, I am still going through some of this but I no longer cut and some if it I didn't go through, it was just what some people go through, thanks for your concern, stay safe. :)

    • @duffelchild8869
      @duffelchild8869 Před 4 lety +13

      Epic Noob thanks I was just making sure you deserve happiness and I’m glad you are working towards that

    • @iirubystarsii524
      @iirubystarsii524 Před 4 lety +9

      Oh god, im so sorry.

    • @duffelchild8869
      @duffelchild8869 Před 4 lety +13

      @Shaina Taheri don't instead of cutting sew or draw please I care about you

  • @jiaaayinggg
    @jiaaayinggg Před 3 lety +2980

    Talking at school-30 seconds
    Talking to family-1 minutes
    Talking to bestie and online friend-3 minutes
    Talking to myself-10 hours

    • @Julianametzger
      @Julianametzger Před 3 lety +58

      Yeah I talk to myself about I'm fine but I'm not

    • @gacha_chan8652
      @gacha_chan8652 Před 3 lety +6

      Your me but I talk to my family for 100 hours UvU

    • @cheeriopkoaina4968
      @cheeriopkoaina4968 Před 3 lety +5

      @@Julianametzger to everyone in the comment section:
      Let us form a group to stop this from ever happening again......gen z's only but gen alpha's can join aswell my email : Lhikawolf@gmail.com

    • @chicken9721
      @chicken9721 Před 3 lety +9

      I talk to myself as a way to express who I am and parents think I am weird and brother thinks I am mental but it just helps me with life it like another best friend in my head that just listen to me and does not judge

    • @Julianametzger
      @Julianametzger Před 3 lety +3

      @Victoria Rushing yeah..

  • @Bakugou_explosiongod
    @Bakugou_explosiongod Před rokem +2

    this hit close to home. I’m really glad that people are making stuff like this and basically saying “I’m not prefect and neither is my life. Deal with it, because it’s my experiences not yours.”
    I was in a really bad mental state for around 3 years because my mom was dating a a$$hole and I’m pretty sure what he did was mental abuse. And I use to regularly think about $*icide. But me, my mom and my sister are now moving out and I couldn’t be happier. So if you’re going/have been through something like this, know you’re not alone, and that if you try to make a difference things can and should hopefully get better.❤

  • @misty3958
    @misty3958 Před 8 měsíci +1

    As a little girl myself, this song makes me feel so fuzzy. Almost as if ur talking directly to me, never felt more precious in my life. Keep up the good work!!

  • @csenge_0030
    @csenge_0030 Před 3 lety +4329

    its funny to see strangers understand your pain more then your own friends

  • @peytontaylor7222
    @peytontaylor7222 Před 4 lety +3003

    6: “I want to be a princess!”
    7: “I want to be a teacher;”
    8:“I want to be an artist!”
    9: “I want to be a singer!”
    10: “I want friends.”
    11: “I want a good life.”
    12: “I want to be like the other kids.”
    13: “I want look better.”
    14: “I want to be enough..”
    15: “I want to be accepted..”
    15: “I want to end it all..”
    Edit: I never thought this comment would get so much love and likes as it did. These past few weeks I have been struggling with severe depression, and just from some few nice words from people on the internet I have been able to become more positive and well, happy. For all of you that relate to this comment, please know there are people that are here for you along the way, and things will get better even if you can't see your life going anywhere. There is hope, and light and just be strong along the way of whatever you may be going through. 💖

  • @Pin3apple53
    @Pin3apple53 Před 11 měsíci +21

    Doing this song today for my schools talent show wish me luck guys ❤

  • @Lov3_Alex
    @Lov3_Alex Před rokem +6

    This song still hits the same as it did when I was 10

  • @faye3642
    @faye3642 Před 5 lety +473

    “Hey little girl
    U know smoking kills
    But u don’t rly care
    Cuz u love how it feels”
    Yep I felt that one 😔

  • @heartsfromcatie
    @heartsfromcatie Před 3 lety +2324

    parents: *your ok your having a bad day*
    Stranger: *understanding me and listening to me rant for hours* 🥺

    • @s1mplxyroblox975
      @s1mplxyroblox975 Před 3 lety +20

      this is just facts 😖

    • @heartsfromcatie
      @heartsfromcatie Před 3 lety +4

      @@s1mplxyroblox975 😕

    • @kenwalker1731
      @kenwalker1731 Před 3 lety +25

      and then that "stranger" becomes an online friend who helps you through so much shit and your parents find out you havent met them in person and they dont want you talking to them (my parents have done this many times and is why i dont have my phone)

    • @heartsfromcatie
      @heartsfromcatie Před 3 lety +10

      @@kenwalker1731 earlier I had ranted to someone, on a yt comment and they actually gave me better advice than any therapist has ever given me

    • @kenwalker1731
      @kenwalker1731 Před 3 lety +9

      @@heartsfromcatie and thats the thing that parents never seem to understand. sometimes people we meet online as strangers become friends who are there for us when nobody else is :(

  • @ElizabethWynn-fs9wv
    @ElizabethWynn-fs9wv Před 4 měsíci +2

    It’s been around 5 years since this song has been released! It is currently my favorite song and I’ve memorized the lyrics I live it so much your song will never comment what year month and day your reading this to prove people still listen to this right now it is 1/20/2024 let’s hope someone else is still listening to this song in the future

  • @kristencline40
    @kristencline40 Před rokem +3

    I felt this deep. 😢 Hope everyone can heal from their childhood tramas.

  • @skittles9205
    @skittles9205 Před 3 lety +4304

    Little boy: “Are you an angel?”
    Girl: “What?”
    Little boy: “My mom told me those who have marked wrists are angels.”
    Girl: “I’m not an angel”
    Little boy: “Of course you are! Mom said only angels hurt themselves because they don’t like life on earth. The world is destroying them so they try to return to heaven again. They are too sensitive to the pain of others and their own.”
    Girl: “You know your mom is very wise.”
    Little boy: “Thank you. She is also an angel, but she already returned home
    not my words, so credit to whoever wrote this

  • @voicelessbeing
    @voicelessbeing Před 3 lety +1373

    this is actually the most depressing comment section i've ever seen.
    edit:
    oh my god it just gets worse..
    this comment section makes me cry more than the song called Dead Mom

    • @preetiam3874
      @preetiam3874 Před 3 lety +14

      cant say the same for me......i listen to these types of songs as i can relate so i hv seen many comment section......also guys, b strong and dont giv up hope...who know, mayb latr on u might get someone tht loves u truly....do u really wanna miss tht?

    • @cindylaster4821
      @cindylaster4821 Před 3 lety +6

      Welcome to the world

    • @Playernumber440
      @Playernumber440 Před 3 lety +8

      Is it a bad thing??
      I think its a good thing.

    • @mikelbarr
      @mikelbarr Před 3 lety +4

      Hey you listen to girl in red? Just asking-

    • @voicelessbeing
      @voicelessbeing Před 3 lety +3

      @@mikelbarr
      i have listened to
      we met in october

  • @rinaya1704
    @rinaya1704 Před 5 měsíci +2

    Thank you. I've known this since it became popular. I learned about it at first from my sister, and I've been coming back to it since then, but I think for different reasons than others here. I once listened to it because I liked the beat and it was really smooth, then I went through trauma when I was younger, so then I related to it more. Then, when my sister left on and off for a couple years, I came back to this a couple times because I felt like it let me relate to how she might've felt at the time. And how we are now. And now I think I almost completely relate to this song. Because now I'm starting to heal, and we're better, and I thank you.

  • @lokiluv849
    @lokiluv849 Před 11 měsíci +3

    This song hit hard for 12-13 year old me. My dad and stepmother(i considered her to be my mother) were constantly getting into fights, some abusive but those were always in a different room from me and my siblings, but we could hear them. And all awhile, my brother was r@ping me, every single day and I couldnt bring myself to tell anyone because I knew that it would be the last straw that broke my family. They got divorced and when they did my world collapsed. My stepmother turned against me and took my other siblings away from me, they were the only ones I had because my dad doesnt pay much attention to me. So I started spiraling out of control, I eventually got help and still going through the healing process. I am now 15 and still come back to this song, remembering everything that was happening. I wish I could go back and hold that little girl and tell her its going to get better, that she is going to be safe one day, and that she has so mich to live for.

    • @whosminou
      @whosminou Před 11 měsíci +2

      I am so thankful that you shared your story. we can still keep going because yes, there is still so much to live for. we'll get out of the rough periods one day, i hope.

  • @connwareaurelico4219
    @connwareaurelico4219 Před 4 lety +1185

    If you haven't noticed the
    Scars on my hips
    Or the fake smile on my lips
    Or the forced laugh I've adopted
    Or the way I don't care about the things I used to love
    Then DONT YOU DARE stand at my grave and cry
    How can you cry for someone you didn't even know

    • @Ash-qr1yh
      @Ash-qr1yh Před 4 lety +22

      Willow WolfLover I’ve never related to something so much, thank you ♥️ ( also I love ur username)

    • @angelinarodriguez9207
      @angelinarodriguez9207 Před 4 lety +7

      are you a lone wolf? (also i love your username)

    • @theycallmerainy2010
      @theycallmerainy2010 Před 4 lety +18

      Willow WolfLover I want to put this on my grave stone

    • @doobeedoo2846
      @doobeedoo2846 Před 4 lety +15

      If some one cries at my grave I will rise up and tell them to laugh cause there is no need to cry I’m happy when they are I’m not selfish I’m selfless. I’m kaylee lamb and I’m only 15 and I won’t let anyone I care for cry or die

    • @marthaw1512
      @marthaw1512 Před 4 lety +2

      I can relate

  • @bendy5063
    @bendy5063 Před 4 lety +1482

    The people who disliked clearly don't know what pure talent is.

  • @ThatOneRand-
    @ThatOneRand- Před rokem +3

    I only found this song recently, but I can't even begin to explain how much I relate to the words; though I "read" the meaning slightly differently.
    I don't think people really understand what it's like to be abandoned at an early age. My father left my mother and I when I was 2-3 years old. I didn't understand it then. I really didn't. I saw him twice after he left; both times, he ignored me and acted as though I wasn't there. My 6th b-day; he played video games with my three boy cousins, then fell asleep on our couch. Christmas when I was 8; was at my paternal grandparents house, when mom and I got there, I walked in and immediately went to the kitchen to help my grandma cook. In addition to the little memory I have of those days; my mom told me at that Christmas, I gave him a taste of his own medicine; basically showing them that I was doing fine without him there. Regardless, I despise both holidays/celebratory days because I'm reminded of these memories; it still hurts so much every day feeling like I'm not enough and never will be because "if I was people I loved and cared about, wouldn't have left."
    To add on to him leaving, my paternal (fathers side) grandparents; specifically grandmother, is misogynistic and manipulative. The same goes for my maternal (mothers' side) grandma.
    Throughout my childhood, I spent most of my time away from my mother because she worked long hours, and it was a decently far drive. My weekdays were spent with a babysitter that hated me (and me specifically) for whatever reason. Most of my weekends were spent with paternal grandparents.
    The babysitter I went to; I mentioned she hated me, but it wasn't just that. She treated me like absolute trash. I got blamed and punished for everything at her house; it didn't matter if I was even there the day it happend, everything was just my fault. There was a time when she smacked me across the mouth for "talking back" when I was actually explaining a situation to her; i still have the scar on my lip from her acryllic nails. She mentally, physically, and emotionally abused me for 13 years of my life. I was constantly shamed for eating and not eating; things I did as a kid (she would repeatedly bring up that I was a "cry baby" when I was an infant/young toddler? just to embarrass me in front of the other kids). Not only this, but she would constantly degrade me and tell me I was always wrong or that I was a failure. To add, she always got really pissed off when I stayed somewhere else for a day. She called me a liar 24/7 even when I wasn't lying and was always yelling at me for the randomest, most out-of-pocket things.
    She's the reason I have ptsd and cry when anybody raises their tone slightly when talking to me. I have trust issues, anger issues, and abandonment/attachment issues (from my "father"). I got anxiety and have become an extreme pefectionist because if there's one thing I learned from her, it's that no matter what I do, whether I'm perfect or not, it's never good enough.
    For my actual family, I can't go to them with anything because, surprise, surprise, I have family issues too. My one aunt is a beach; she starts so much sugar-honey-iced-tea that I'm pretty sure it's an addiction. She typed in a group chat that my mom is a "spawn of Satan and needs to go to hell" and has cut off almost all communication between other family members and her and her boys (my cousins). Not to mention that she lies constantly and threatened to show up on our doorstep with cops because we "stole" something that belonged to a deceased family member, which was actally offered to us by her husband (they were in charge of the house and stuff; I forget what its called).
    I did see a therapist at one point for a bit; but as I continue to say, you can't schedule feelings, and tbh I can't talk to people about my issues in person unless it's someone I fully trust and I'm having a breakdown; I've learned how to listen and bottle up my emotions so that no one knows. To add, as I saw a wise person once comment, "I feel my feelings are invalid because there are people going through/that have gone through so much worse than me."
    To all of you that read this; thank you, and I hope you're all doing well ❤

  • @Planetarydemolition
    @Planetarydemolition Před 7 měsíci +2

    Its so upsetting how relatable this is.

  • @komo228
    @komo228 Před 3 lety +3765

    Let’s be honest, when our parents and “friends” weren’t there..who was?
    Our electronics :
    Anime :
    Social Media :
    Online friends :
    Music :
    Anything that comforted you :

    • @komo228
      @komo228 Před 3 lety +142

      @@summerhardwick689 And they have the AUDACITY to call themselves good people. I swear...Some parents are actually understanding tho..

    • @komo228
      @komo228 Před 3 lety +32

      @@summerhardwick689 Well, Damn.

    • @komo228
      @komo228 Před 3 lety +40

      @@summerhardwick689 Kill- I mean Ignore both of your parents.

    • @komo228
      @komo228 Před 3 lety +25

      @@summerhardwick689 😊 Ah, yes. I now understand, you have an amazing heart.

    • @komo228
      @komo228 Před 3 lety +10

      .........Yes 😊

  • @brie.gilligan
    @brie.gilligan Před 3 lety +2435

    Society: Just be yourself
    You: *happy*
    Society: Ew why are u so happy, the world is not perfect
    You: *sad*
    Society: Why are u so sad, other people have it worse than u do
    You: *looks nice*
    Society: U try way too hard it's sad
    You: *wears sweatpants and sweatshirt*
    Society: Ew do u even try on yourself
    You: I think I have anxiety
    Society: U will be fine ur just overreacting
    You: I think I'm depressed
    Society: Omg ur so needy for attention it is gross
    You: *cuts*
    Society: Really ur acting stupid
    You: *kills themselves*
    Society: Omg u will be missed bby, fly high, rip, you will be missed
    WHAT IS WRONG WITH SOCIETY, ITS NOT THAT HARD TO BE KIND

  • @JulieByas-sq9bk
    @JulieByas-sq9bk Před 3 hodinami +1

    Songs like this make me feel safe and calm

  • @TaysFoklorePoet
    @TaysFoklorePoet Před 3 měsíci +1

    0:46 is beautifully sung and written. I can feel the emotion through the lyrics and hear it though her voice.

  • @anime_simp1249
    @anime_simp1249 Před 3 lety +4907

    Talking to my mom - 3 min
    Talking to my siblings - 5 min
    Talking to my grandma - 15 min
    Talking to my cousins - 20 min
    Talking to myself or imaginary anime characters in my head -24 hours
    wow thx for the likes :)

    • @hiii_itz_ya_boy_rudyyy8865
      @hiii_itz_ya_boy_rudyyy8865 Před 3 lety +126

      Ive been there they help more than your own family
      UNBELIVEABLE imaginary people are more useful then ur own family sometimes

    • @aashnaagarwal6042
      @aashnaagarwal6042 Před 3 lety +33

      24\7 hours

    • @christina567
      @christina567 Před 3 lety +2

      loll

    • @christina567
      @christina567 Před 3 lety +1

      @Zoey Ray Dela Cruz Owo same

    • @kys8381
      @kys8381 Před 3 lety +14

      anime characters... I was just having a "conversation" with Nagito...

  • @mermistasimp9485
    @mermistasimp9485 Před 4 lety +452

    "YOU DO IT FOR ATTENTION"
    "YOU DO IT FOR ATTENTION"
    "YOU DO IT FOR ATTENTION"
    "YOU DO IT FOR ATTENTION"
    "YOU DO IT FOR ATTENTION"
    "YOU DO IT FOR ATTENTION"
    "YOU DO IT FOR ATTENTION"
    For the last time-.no.we.don't...

    • @flavoredsidewalk
      @flavoredsidewalk Před 3 lety +13

      Exactly. They dont know pain, so they make fun of your. So they better shut up or else I'm gonna-
      I probably shouldn't say that

    • @mermistasimp9485
      @mermistasimp9485 Před 3 lety +1

      @TAYLOR LEGG-FIELDS I- what? I simply said we don't do it for attention- Please elaborate

    • @mermistasimp9485
      @mermistasimp9485 Před 3 lety +1

      @TAYLOR LEGG-FIELDS 1. I cannot understand what you've said and 2. How am I being toxic?

    • @alibonbon7192
      @alibonbon7192 Před 3 lety +1

      exactly we are looking for someone to understand and listen

    • @mermistasimp9485
      @mermistasimp9485 Před 3 lety +1

      @@alibonbon7192 Yup. But its not so easy to find.

  • @ilni9364
    @ilni9364 Před rokem +2

    how i used to love this song! brings back memories

  • @mikayla9501
    @mikayla9501 Před rokem +4

    My father was in prison starting when i was a baby until this year right before i turned 17. there was always a part of me that was mad at him for making the choices that lead him there. although I felt abandoned, i excused him for being absent because he was in prison. i told myself that now that he was in there, there’s nothing he could do. i dreamed of him getting out because i thought everything would change, as he claimed the reason he wasn’t there for me was being locked up. he has been emotionally draining me ever since his release. he walks in and out of my life whenever it’s convenient for him. i realized prison was never the issue, he was. he no longer had an excuse for his behavior, that’s just who he is. now i’m left feeling abandoned all over again, but it hurts more because he had a choice and he didn’t choose me even with the freedom to do so.

  • @bellaclublpse.m2911
    @bellaclublpse.m2911 Před 5 lety +2945

    I.nvisible
    M.any broken hearts
    F.earful
    I.mpossible
    N.ot who I'm meant to be
    E.motionless

    • @pomegranate4054
      @pomegranate4054 Před 5 lety +21

      It’s not deep it’s just made to look deep

    • @samnorrito2115
      @samnorrito2115 Před 5 lety +8

      Sadly i relate

    • @pomegranate4054
      @pomegranate4054 Před 5 lety +8

      Cup of Tae with a Suga Kookie
      It’s not very creative it’s just a fake acronym

    • @commonsadhuman
      @commonsadhuman Před 5 lety +6

      @@liaetc this isnt a comfort lmao its 2014 tumblr

    • @jaz596
      @jaz596 Před 5 lety +10

      but if your emotionless how do you fear?

  • @unknownuser-ds1ue
    @unknownuser-ds1ue Před 5 lety +3418

    hey little girl
    i know that it hurts
    but put down your blade,
    and let go of those pills
    hey little girl
    i know that your hurting
    and hurting yourself
    will make it worse
    hey little girl
    trust me, it gets better
    but it takes some time
    so please be patient
    edit: for those who read this, you are worth so much more than you think, even if you feel that you are not good enough, you are good enough.
    i love you guys
    another edit:
    i know you tried your best, and you are still trying to hang on to life even if you give up. im proud of you for still staying, please dont go. i know that everyone may show theyre pain in different ways and is hurting for different reasons. but trust me, it will get better when you realize theres so much more to life. i might not be able to help you, but keep in mind that when theres shadows, there will be light.

    • @aaaaao256
      @aaaaao256 Před 5 lety +60

      I felt like you could see right through me-

    • @inearanda8051
      @inearanda8051 Před 5 lety +38

      I loved this comment. Thank you

    • @anayachinchilla9404
      @anayachinchilla9404 Před 5 lety +37

      unknown user this hit me too hard.

    • @allie-ue8mz
      @allie-ue8mz Před 5 lety +33

      Your unknown but thank you. You helped me put down the blade

    • @unknownuser-ds1ue
      @unknownuser-ds1ue Před 5 lety +26

      im glad that i helped you guys😇 even if i just helped a bit.

  • @FallingEchos
    @FallingEchos Před rokem +5

    Now that I’m getting older this song keeps connecting to my life more and more. My dad left me last year after he neglected me. I got SA by my ex. And a lot of other things. I keep relapsing and I can’t help it. Thank you for making a song I can use for coping❤

  • @itzkalie16
    @itzkalie16 Před rokem +5

    I love this song it helps me not to feel so stressed when i listen to it and to stay calm!!! This song also has a good message!!!♥♥♥♥♥♥♥You're never fighting something alone someone will always be there to help

  • @Marie-rq2gp
    @Marie-rq2gp Před 4 lety +3596

    Plot twist:
    The one who is singing is the ghost inside of that little girl, and the ghost is just an older her

    • @stormfriends4000
      @stormfriends4000 Před 4 lety +61

      That actually makes sense!

    • @fischlvonluftschlossnarfid5048
      @fischlvonluftschlossnarfid5048 Před 4 lety +62

      Plot twist: The girl's talking about the past and its her from the future.

    • @ryleewebb4946
      @ryleewebb4946 Před 4 lety +5

      Ivein Marie Jønsson that got in my feelings

    • @mikatosis
      @mikatosis Před 4 lety +22

      Isn’t that what she means? I assumed she meant that with the song.

    • @intruder6628
      @intruder6628 Před 4 lety +1

      Hmmmmm.... No because ghosts don't speak. Don't tell me that it's the little girl! Little girls don't have voices like that. BTW and TBH so many idiot kids down here.

  • @Kyndall_Marie25
    @Kyndall_Marie25 Před 3 lety +842

    "Friend"- are you ok ?
    Me: yea... I'm just tired
    T- orn apart
    I-nsecure
    R-eally faking my smile
    E-veryone hates me
    D-rowning in my tears

  • @Mandy95718
    @Mandy95718 Před rokem +3

    This song has broken me and fixed me so many times. The only song to really capture it. ♥ incredible

  • @novalight8101
    @novalight8101 Před 3 měsíci +2

    I never thought I'd listen to this song with a small smile on my face while remembering all the pain i felt when i was just 11 years old
    At least now i know i made it through that pain, and im better than i was
    Yes im still a mess, but atleast now i have something to look forward to
    This song go me through so much, while i hope no child has to relate to this song like many of us had, i know atleast some will. And maybe it can be their reason to keep going just like it was mine