Reflections of a Gangster 7-Spooky
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- Soft White Underbelly talk with Spooky, a gang member in Los Angeles.
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That dude is a tormented man with the heart of a good child who never got to be one. Much Respect Spooky
Spot on!
Most Definitely man. Much Respect.
💡
The look excalty like spooky from inmate
Brandon Gray most of us are will jump infront if bullets for most but most will feed is to the dogs the forgotten members of society but I’m neutral but still same path minus the consumption of some drugs lol
Brother deserves his own channel. He’s an incredible story teller.
One of the best Latino storytellers is an ex-Cartel member named OG Shadow on CZcams. Look it up, he’s a journalist and gets fed information from people in the life. He drops information before anyone else knows it
@@CashanovaXTREME he’s a fake
@@CashanovaXTREME lmao he ain’t no og that niggas junkie
@@CashanovaXTREME the real OG is Ed Calderon.
Wtf all he said was "you know, the homie, bam bam bam, you know."
I’m shedding tears when he was talking about have to explain to the parents that’s a hard thing to do.
I hope Spooks has face his hardest parts of his life and things get easy for him
Me too man.
This guy is definitely suffering from PTSD.
It’s the hardest thing to do and not feel guilty
You should show this to kids
well he was a murderer too
This was so good. I was dead ass tired and went to bed at 3am listening to this and he juiced me back up like a shot of espresso. Spooky part2 please.
Same 3:17am here
This is part 2, he had one earlier.
There’s a number 3 also, gonna watch numero trés
Me too, I gotta get up for work in about 3 hours but I gotta hear the end of this story.
Do some meth, like yer boy spooky.
His PTSD is bad. Just talking about the incidents is sending his adrenaline through the roof.
More like a controlled substance, this man is bustin out his body
@@teshomacalkins3257 Yeah, but notice it gets orders of magnitude worse when he talks about something painful.
@@kakonis true
@@teshomacalkins3257 Listen to you two fuckwits.
Fucking experts on everything yet know about nothing from first hand experience, get a fucking life.
@@bigGaza1 wrong lol
This guy is a real one, raw as hell. Seems like a solid dude, the kinda dude that would truly have your back . A solid friend.
Those kinda friends are rare these days 😔💯
@@freesmoke9896 rare for sure
his name is spooky not scooby
@@memyself1176 whos saying Scooby?
@@boomhower4731 He is no clown
I saw everything you talked about like a movie , I was cleaning my house and I took the phone with me to every room I went to . I'm glad your alive to tell your story. Stay safe . Blessings of peace, love and happiness 🙏🏼
That’s crazy I do the exact same thing! I just get lost in the stories and next thing you know the house is clean!
I'm just trying to learn Spanish.. Watching it with Spanish subtitles.. Gonna have to watch it a few times, but definitely dope!
This guy and Johnny need their own like mini series mark, we need more spooky interviews. The internet wants to make sure this guy gets the help he deserves, he's definitely put in work.
Yea I said the same thing! They will BLOW UP!!!
Totally agree
Deadass they need their own colab shit would go off!!
he is so strong for crying in front of a camera, honestly, the people that stand out to me are the ones that have went through the most. Full respect to this guy.
Respect for understanding that shit most people don’t get what it do to A person used to make me mad but at this point I realize they just couldn’t understand
Spooky , when I started watching ur video, I thought it was going to be a bunch of Crap. Nope, I was wrong, everything you had to say was real. Spooky you would be a good guy to teach all these youngster's what gang banging is all about. You should look into mentoring youngster, who think gangbanging is the shit! But, as you said where we're the homies when you needed them the most??? Keep going forward and may God bless you and your family. I'd like to see another video about you in a year to hear how you been doing. That would be nice.😉
@@florahernandez466 idk...seems to me like he loves everything about it.... people die all the time, but people only care when theres a story to tell
Idk Idk takes balls to cry in front of a camera. dumbass
@Idk Idk soo seeing your homie die in front of you is not sad and wont make you cry yea ight bro just stfu
This is so crazy this is legit my uncle’s friend. He came to help paint my house lol. Super nice guy! I hope he is doing okay!
He seems like a really nice guy actually
Tell him I said hi bro
Dam thays crazy man lol
Hey does he have social media?
No doubt
This guy was fucking amazing and absolutely stood out from the ones I've seen so far which aren't many, but holy shit this guy was incredible. His story telling was so vivid it's like I was with him the whole time. Absolute master of telling his tales and I wish him absolutely all the best.
All adults are just kids who aged. You can tell these moments are stuck in his mind. Prayers up for him and all the others caught in the struggle
Wait all adults were kids before growing up?
@@RaulGonzalez-dz3rp 😂
your sped
@@RaulGonzalez-dz3rpno, all adults are children in big bodies
@mayameta2350 Im sure that's what a pedophile would say, not saying you are one, but sounds sus
i can see everything he is saying like a movie, great story teller.
Coulda sworn that nigga was Kobe
Omar k because they're not just stories they're real horrors for him
@@PlutoTheGod well a real story is still a story
For real. He knows how to captivate his audience.
true i can visualize it
Takes a man to talk about his emotions takes a real man to cry
GuildBankLooter being able to feel isn’t weak, but that was too funny 😂 💀
@GuildBankLooter Such a noble Alpha thing to say. Lets hear more of those insecurities of yours
So a boy is going to point out how a Real Man should think and feel? We all go through different experiences in life. Some leave us nasty scars and some decide to accept those scars and grow stronger. Yes it's a good thing when us Men express our emotions, only when we decide to do so and not because we feel pressured to do so. If you don't understand that then you have alot of growing up to do.
@GuildBankLooter agreed. Never seen my dad cry he never saw his dad cry. When these pussies get like this?? lol
Not a man until you've had a man
Banging is the worst thing someone can get into and this man's stories is exactly why. All kids need to watch this before they choose to pick up a rag and get down for their hood
When you're young this just pumps you up makes you want to do more feel like you ain't doing enough, pride and the lust for respect is a motherfucker homie still haunts me to this day and I've changed my life around pride is the last thing to go i think that comes with age
Naw.
💯real talk shi all cool when u 20s but when u 40s its a sad wasted life
@@LENTODAWG702 it does come wit age, I'm 36 now... that was probably the hardest part about changing my ways and staying out of the streets, I struggled with feeling like I was lame ormy life was getting boring. I felt like I wasn't me anymore,! when in reality I was actually becoming the person God intended me to be, which was completely foreign, over time though u learn not to care about others opinions and doing the right thing becomes easier
I give spooky my utmost respect, I’m so glad he’s alive, he’s incredible and so so protected by god. I wish him endless blessings, and I hope that he’ll eventually be able to live the life that he truly deserves.
He didn't waste 1 second of that interview.
He looks like a Mexican Kobe
Spot on what came to mind immediately. Long Live and Much Love to All that lost their lives in that tragic event.
Sho do haha
Thats what im about to say LOL
I was searching for a comment like this. 100% agreed
Tooo Rezzz slash Tupac 😂
Knew a guy like this when I was in my teens. Hard core dude but the sweetest dude ever. Took care of the kids in our poor ass community by day,did thuggin ass shit by night elsewhere.
"It's always good to know what you do, but don't spread it around, you know? Keep it to yourself. You learn something."
This is brilliant. Absolutely brilliant and so true, even if you aren't in the game.
This vato spooky is the real deal trust me i know him , i worked with him . very generous person well liked and very hardworking . straight grinding this vato aint scared of no one i guaranteed u that , he is the one to have ur back this guy wil not back down . his stories are true is just the life cycle much respect to spooky from adam if u remember me spooks
Why do all of you clowns think you OWN the neighborhoods? you fucks don't even have 2 pennies to rub together yet somehow you fools call it "your hood" lol your hood? get lost with "your hood you fucks don't own anything them "hoods belong to the State of California its so funny how uneducated you people are
@@steamdriver6964 STFU FOOL
@@Mister_8tee7 I got your "fool" swinging funny how he said hes glad hes not in prison funny how they fear things like prison and cops
@@Mister_8tee7 I'll bet I make triple of what you make actually you probably don't even have a job
@@steamdriver6964 who hurt you bro lol
this is incredible. the monologue and style in his voice is unlike anything else on this channel. the emotion is next level
Wym he’s a whole gta character 😂
Powerful. Raw.
How Gay are you actually? Snowflake.
True 90s...shattered lives we left in the 213....
@@jasminel.4778 I know all too well
The fact that most time he was going at with 18th is crazy, one of the most biggest gang or was in LA, and spooky still made it out from them once is crazy, spooky a real O.G respect to the homie
Absolutely loved this interview ! Hands down one of my top fav videos . You need to have him again .
Legit man, much respect. 90’s LA was the Wild West.
Takes a strong man to tell a story like this and show heart, in a world where showing kindness can get you killed. Here's to you, mate. \m/
That’s a really dope fist pump
Respect 👊💥
Wow. Some of these interviews really yank every emotion out of you. This was one of those interviews. Tears, laughter, awe at his transparency.
This man's words are very vivid crazy how he takes you there. It's like vocal VR if that makes sense.
cauliflower ear, scarred eyelids, crooked nose, the mans been around the block, but the whole block has been around him
never want to fuck with someone with cauliflower ear. chances are they can throw down.
I don't thinks he had cauliflower ears lighting i believe other wise califlower ears from cops pineapple gang members
Looks like a stab wound under his right pec too
@@chriscassady2249 pineapple gang members? 😂
He needs to write a book about his life, get the cash and live comfortable, his storytelling is so damn raw, and rightfully so sense he lived it but alot of guys just bottle the shit up and never speak on it
FACTS💯💯💯✔ I know I'd buy it.
The people here talking about how awesome this guy and his story are make kind of sad. What about the trail of victims that this loser has left in his wake? Would you be wanting to be his buddy if it was you or someone you loved that he victimized or even killed?
The bluford series books are great
hes all hopped up on crack thats why hes so "raw" haha
He has a gift to tell his story, amazing.
This is the best interview I’ve seen thus far on your channel 👍🏽
He should be on “On my block” from Netflix bruh that’s the real spooky right there😂😂
on god😂😂
Loved the message at the end. "It is always good to know what you do. Don't spread your business out there, keep it to yourself. You learn something."
He gave the locations to murders he did smh he put it out there for sure
Tell that to these young rappers of today or any rappers of today
He’s so real. This random internet guy wishes him so well
Praying that you heal from your trauma Mr. Spooky. You are a great story teller and that’s a gift.
@@kfrazier2696 In your snowflake world people heal from things, but then again in your world, these things only happen to poor people.
bigGaza1 You don’t know me! Your narrow minded, bitter ass words show your ignorance. Wether your rich or poor no one is exempt from horrible things happening to them. Being poor is a construct and situational. Go peddle your nastiness somewhere else.
bigGaza1 bruh you’re obviously sheltered tryna beef on the internet because someone wishes others growth and positivity you know what I hope you grow and heal you fuckin loser
@@Lightskinlightning Tryna? Is that English? A Video Gamer Nerd with Lisa Simpson as its Profile Pic calling me Sheltered and a Loser? Stick with your Video games Kiddo. Check this guys channel out, wow. I'm sheltered? Posts videos of some Pokemon game and Dragonball Z and calls people Sheltered losers? LOL I have lived more in 1 day than you will your entire pathetic life. I have to edit this as you have blocked me, IM STILL LAUGHING AT YOUR CHANNEL.
The pain you have within you is heartbreaking. Thank you for being real, showing real emotion sharing your history
Thank you Mark I’m from a small town in Montana. I’m naïve you show me the world through the eyes of the people you interview. My heart does flip flops I get so into their lives I know I would never make it. Spooky is the best gangster interviewer I can feel the rush because of the details he talks about. I’m so grateful for this channel. I don’t watch the news or read newspaper’s but I watch you it’s real . Thanks again Mark and your stories spooky please be safe and I hope your girlfriend and new baby are well.
Man i have NEVER heard something come from the heart this deep.
Listening to Spooky brings back memories. I got out of it... from Colonia Chiques [COXCH]- from La Colonia in Oxnard. I joined the Army at 17 in 1980. Ended up in Special Forces as a Medical Sgt. I served 12 years and got out. I had PTSD long before I was ever a Green Beret. I worked and went from having a GED to having a Ph.D. in Psychology. I raised a family.
I’m far from home today... from La Colonia. I moved a few years ago to Aurora, IL and now I’m living the retired life in the Philippines.
But listening to Spooky, I realize I am not proud of myself. I may have “succeeded” in the eyes of others. But the truth is- I abandoned my friends- mis carnales. I’m still that boy. The Guero and I miss my friends who have left us years ago. 2 of my partners got the death penalty. If I was with them that day, I would have got it too.
I should have stayed home and left with those that have passed. I’m no better or different. I was just given chances.
My wife is lying right beside me at the moment. She’s trying to decide whether to order pecans or almonds off the internet. She has absolutely no clue about the life I once lived. There is almost no one alive still that does. Unspoken secrets. I’m glad you made it Spooky.
@Anthony Lowney - You really need to know the full story before making judgements about others. You really can’t judge a book by its cover.
www.goodreads.com/author/show/4631437.Jos_N_Harris?
If this man earned his green eggs and ham as 18D then I believe him. What's he got to lie about . Hes already proven himself .
Anthony Lowney get outta here with yo hatin ass fool people like you disgust me
It's sad, having no one from the past to converse with. Keeping everything on your chest.
You did the right thing. I know a a couple of colonia chiquez boys who are either still locked up, have been deported and continued the lifestyle or dead.
The two different voices are throwing me, from the hyper mexicali accent to the code switching elegant deep voiced tenor. Jesus. This is Oscar worthy😳😳😳 17:45
Spooky has so animated way of reliving these situations. I hope to hear more of his stories.
I'm glad he stated that he is trying to move forward and not backwards. At this age in the game I'm sure Spooky is aware it's every man for themselves. In many situations he was solo.
I feel his on the right path mentally as far as making a change. However, you can tell the past is still very present for him
@@admetussenatorofthesullane7759 I call it gang banger's PTSD
Oh you ah boss ass female huh stay dangerous sis in these crazy times
U aint lying on that and u sleep better when u got urself
His homies weren’t built like him. That’s why he had to do so much all the time.
Exactly
jeremy holland they probably just sat around getting high claiming gang gang while this dude put in literally all of the work.
Shawn Garcia that’s some lame ass shit there but yeah 😒. Stay safe bro.
Foo just got caught lackin too much foo was doing to much alone
Unkown Fnk Nah his homies were just cheerleaders. Did you hear him say he shot those 3 dudes then when news hit his neighborhood his own homies tried to claim credit for it? With him Knowing he was the one who did it! That’s crazy!
This Spooky interview is incredible. Raw, real. So much emotion. Very powerful.
This is one of the most genuinely emotional, articulate interviews of the series. Given his intelligence, he could have become almost anything and possibly still could. Too bad he grew up fully immersed in gang culture and never saw an alternative, like so many others in these interviews. I wish universities had programs that seek out people like him and give them a shot at being successful without engaging in violence or crime.
He actually got his Master's in Psychology whilst locked up. He has done a cpl interviews with Mark.
@@erindiazmclaughlin you’re fucking retarded dude. He didn’t get a masters you idiot. You probably have an AA degree by the sounds of it.
I like this guy. Reminds me of the gangsters of the 70's. Not to be messed with but they had respect. I went to Chino High and the gangsters were very respectful. Just didn't take any crap. But if you left them alone they left you alone.
It's a shame things ain't that way anymore
I like the codes they seem to have had back then. Now it's anything goes and no honor, kill your own brothers kinda shit.
When he's swings the crowbar and he says "yeah"I thought that was funny,15:20
He needs to narrate books , cuz I'd def listen .
I was just thinking that! He has that way of talking that reminds me of audio books I've listened to.
Facts
Same bruh
Remy dash is that you?!
Audio books!
Thank you Spooky for sharing , your ability to storytell is very unique and kept me riveted to my seat through out.
Wow 😳, I don't believe I've ever heard more honesty from a man. Upmost respect for you, Homie. I'm from a small town in Florida, born in the 70's,exact opposite from what this man grew up in. It's always cool to hear how things are for someone else. Thanks 👍 man, really appreciate your time and stories. Hope you are doing well, I can tell you're a good person.
Being a gangster ain’t all it’s made out to be. Stay in school living this life is not glamorous
Real gangsters are in the White House running the wolrd
Adolf Trump bingo
*Living
Talking about “stay in school “🤦🏾♂️
@@youngtreysmvcked4600 🤣🤣🤣🤣
There’s parts of this where I felt like I was listening to poetry. This felt like a one-man-show. He’s a special one. I get so upset when I see these amazing spirits wasting away out there.
I'm actually worried because it's VERY possible that he will get arrested for this.
There's no statute of limitations on Murder. Which means that even if he murdered someone and 100 years later he confesses it, he can still get tried and charged.
And in a video, him saying these things ESPECIALLY as a convicted ex felon, this video can be used as a confession and the evidence brought to court. Even without his real name, his face, tattoos, and stories can easily be looked up by law enforcement in their police database
There are lots of cases where this has happened to people.
Wish he hadn't be so detailed for his sake. But I loved hearing him
Luis Martinez Did you ever think that he feels super guilty about what he’s done and he’s looking for atonement to God for his sins? And if he has to go to prison for life to atone for the murders then so be it?
@@CashanovaXTREME That was real, very true!
I dont normally watch something like this but this is amazing. You're an amazing human being Spooky to move forward and know that there's more to life then the world you came from. There are alot parts of this story where I can just hear the intelligence in you. Hope you're doing well!!!
This was powerful, he has a good heart! May God bless him 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
You’re a beautiful chocolate woman
heart of gold, corrupted by his environment. the never-ending story...
Thats the damn truth
God help him
He’s crying for redemption
We all are.
Amen 🙏🏻 , we all do aswell from our past an temptations daily!
I love watching your videos while working out. Please keep doing what ur doing its great and high quality documentaries and interviews:))
He and Johnny are the best store tellers I've heard in quite some time. Appreciate you.
This dude had some visions going through his head telling these stories. You can tell it's all playing out again
This man has a God given talent of storytelling. He's very engaging to listen to. It also seems that he didn't move through that life without growing, maturing and paying attention to the realities of that life. Some act as thought it is what it is and nothing more. This man shows compassion for what humans go through, he isn't dead to the world, dead to feeling, to caring. Thank God.
Its mostly the side talking but I think he s cool too
I agree Amy Dee
He's annointed 4 some great work
@Niko To each his own. You're entitled to your opinion. There are (sadly) *Lots of folks on meth* here on SWU and Not one of them speaks like him. May he be on drugs or have some lasting damage from it, it is still something he is good at. Why would anyone wanna strip folks of what they're good at, what they could use in society as a means to living, especially when they're already at their lowest or close to? I choose to try and lift others up, including praying. I just can't justify thinking I have a place to put another down or judge when I stand just as guilty in my own way.
I hella respect spooky. This dude is a real one. Seems to be super solid and got hella respect honor and dignity. This is the homie. i would want this man watching my back.
The higher the socks, the downer the foo.
He definitely a foo gone wild
The higher the socks the lower the Cho lol
🤣🤣
The stories that come out of Marks interviews....full of ghosts.
@@reddwarrior2249 redemption for what? It's a soldiers Paradise. When your life ends, will you not seek redemption for a life lived at the mercy of thise in piwer just submitt
They’re horror stories. We all watch them In the wrong context when we try to “learn” or be “entertained”. We should watch them and be quintessentially horrified at what we’re hearing.
@@CosmicBackgroundRadiation01 be horrified about what? Just Because you grew up in a bubble ,had a sense of security and surrounded by an established echelon of society where human nature is NOT fully expressed. Because wars to establish dominance and control of resources are naturally occurring phenomena in all apex predator species. Perhaps battle is a more accurate term. Regardless, horrifying is a term only accurate from the perspective of someone who's been COMPLETELY sheltered from the aspects of human nature associated with establishing societys. You've been too spoiled growing in one that has long since passed that stage of development. Good day too you brotha. Be safe out there and stay dangerous.
... And the devil is real. So is God. You choose
“Know what you do, keep it to yourself”... that homies is good advise no matter what life throws at you...
So much pain locked away for so long... these videos show time and again to never judge someone. We all have a story to tell.
Spooky needs to be s motivational speaker. Hes amazing. He could also do spoken word. Thank you for speaking your truth, Spooky.
I can listen to his stories all day...his tone, his pain, his life.
Hey spooky if u see this comment i wanna thank you homes. You saved my ass back in 2001. You might not remember but i was new to the hood and some vatos jumped me. You came in swingin a crowbar and got these fuckers off me. You then told me to go home and i started running as fast as i could and i never saw you again. Now I know it was you because of the tattoo on your abdomen. Just wanna say thanks homey. You a real one.
Really?
true story i was the crowbar
@@lalosparta7117 😂😂
@@lalosparta7117 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
@@lalosparta7117 you let him swing you around like that?
I remember I used to see this dude back in the early 2000’s late 99 I lived on Beacon a block away from union crazy world
Wow! By far my favorite interview! Respect to this man!
Am I the only one who envisioned every detail that came out of Mr.Spooky's mouth?? Shyt...that was Gr8 story telling..they need to make these into monologues
The whole story played in my head like a movie, lol great story telling
Like I was at the movies!!! That was a tough one had me all in my feels....God bless you spooky!!!
I could totally listen to this melodic voice in an audio book or podcast. This story comes alive in my mind. Truly a lost art.
Spooky's always entertaining with the way he tells his stories. He sounds like he still and always had, have emotions of caring involved.
The most caring and Emotional people are actually the biggest serial killers and killers in general. They paint that tough dont give 2 fuk guy as the killer but hes just a foot soldier compared ppl like spooky. A man who cried hard tears us the man you treat wit respect n kind heart because theyll snap when your off or threaten em n its 1000x more dangerous the dealing wit a pack of wolves. Theyll just kill ya at that point. Emotional people have better instincts and intuitions especially when their emotionally intelligent. Look at every special forces soldier. Biggest hearts and most gruesome killers
@@ilikeapples6165 very good points. That sends chills to the reality of others...
Him and Johnny some cold ones!
@I L I K E A P P L E S your comment, using a 'Navy Seal, special ops' example of gentle to gruesome killer, has stuck with me, since you first posted it! Heck, I've even used it as an explanation to others.
You are 💯 % correct !
Thanks for little bug in my ear☺️. You made quite an impact.
@@thicndawst368 YIKES!!! And silly me thought Johnny was a little on the decent side, at his age now. 🙄
Scary stuff
Good interview. These interviews make me stop and appreciate the boredom and stability of my living room
Spooky just pulls you in..I pray for you Spooky🙏 Listening to your Spanish was Beautiful ❤️
If you’ve ever had your friends die to violence in the streets, you feel his pain. RIP to all our guys that are no longer with us 🖤
Seeing him break down while talking about his homie is sad, I just want to give him a hug😪
What about seeing him laugh and smile when he kill someone? Lol
@@lastplace2905 the duality of a man
Spooky, you are a trueHeartfelt human being...glad you've found your voice and are using it with grace.
This is the best video on this channel so far. Absolutely captivating...
I used to visit with Homeless people around the city. He reminds me of old heads I meet. Sometimes I can get a story outta them and this is how they sound. The streets, y'all. It's real out there.
He said over and over Damn where were my homies when I need em!!!!
I just read his stomach dice ORPHANS naaaaaw no way it's one of those varrios that...well I dont like to speak I'll cause the homie right here has been through enough...
We Grande already we have our share of war stories and second chance situations. Pues Saludos and Be well primo it's good to get that shit off your chest.
Look, I know its the world they live in. But it still completely blows my mind that people get killed on a regular basis for nothing more than being in the wrong territory. It is INSANE!
they fight for shit that belongs to the government.
The cycle of revenge can last forever
One of the best guests you have had. Riveting story teller.
I did time with this guy in Chino solid guy good homie
In before a middle aged white guy comments " And you are proud of yourself buddy ? " .
K pumpkin
It's rare this days for someone to be GP now every softy is going PC they even running the yards now what a shame. You do the crime do your time GP NOT PC.
Yeah I took it off cuz I forgot how there are people just like u on here not worth going back and forth with @J Byrne 😂😂😂thank for that reminder
You ain’t gotta lie to kick it
Man, I didn't want this to end 😥 He is absolutely riveting👏💙
This one was great. Absolutely loved his stories
Oh man!!! I lived around his neighborhood. It was crazy back then.
In no way am I trying to glorify or glamourise this at all, but this man is a warrior.
I would really like an update on how he is doing , nothing but love ❤️, God bless you spooky
Yes, i think so too..he is the warrior.
He’s not a warrior; he’s a survivor.
@@DanielHernandezlopez1095 you have to be a warrior to survive
@@DanielHernandezlopez1095 you are missing the point ese, fighting inner battles with yourself and the battlest on the Calles the system gotta be a warrior to survive.
He seems to have a caring spirit. Although I’m sure he has done his share of dirt. Good people are born in dire situations. I listen to these people weekly and my attitude regarding life has changed without me even trying. When I’m in situations now it’s crazy how I reflect back to these interviews and tell myself, hey...my situation could be an interviewee’s from Soft White Underbelly. Damn...I’m thankful.
amen perspective is key, keep up the good word
! Me too !
Wow, this was really compelling and captivating!
When I hear these stories I can’t help but think of the brain of each person. The dynamic of all of us humans.
Absolutely enjoyed you sharing your experience. Wish you all the best!!!
What should be taken from this is one thing, it’s no life gang banging when you die you are by yourself and your homies go on to live another day and forget about you and the only ones who are left to grieve is your family!!!! Ain’t no future in it.....
I'm 47yr. Old & I still grieve for my dead homies. It never goes away. As a matter of fact the guilt of not being able to save them stays stabbing your mind 30yrs.later. RIP~ Mansfreddy, Loma, SadBwoy,
Isi Santos I am glad to hear that because as a mom you get that feeling that the friends don’t really grieve your kids, it seems that they are forgotten and don’t get me wrong I know that some of my sons friends haven’t forgotten them but it feels like it sometimes that’s just me thinking from a moms view. No disrespect to you but I have so much hurt and pain that only a mom who has lost a child would know. It’s a saying I go by and it goes like this IF YOU ARE STRONG YOU WILL STAND TALL AND IF YOU ARE WEAK YOU WILL FALL. I say that I have a few friends who lost one child and they are walking the streets like a zombie as if they have loss their minds and believe me I have loss 2 sons I think I should have killed myself long ago because that’s how much I don’t wanna hurt anymore!!! It really sucks to be me and I cant even change nothing, so I feel for every parent who has lost a child.
@@mscherrybear6400 it sounds kinda funny & sad. But I myself have zombied out for a while. Only my family brought me back. I hope you continue to find a way thru the pain. My eldest sister always says "if it doesn't kill you it makes you stronger." take care
Isi Santos That’s the truth, and dear god I’m still here standing tall I just hope I keep the same energy. I think when I here stories about people dying I always go back to my own memories but I wouldn’t be human if it didn’t happen that way!!!! God Bless.....
Ms. Cherry Bear, I'm gonna say this with all due respect cause you path is sacred. I hear that pain of living and I also been there for years, feeling like. WHY am I here at all if it's this bad every day? At least dying would end my pain
You DESERVE to go get professional help. Our body and brain functions different after we go thru something so overwhelming as you talk about. You CAN get things back on the right track. You're still a good person if you decide to allow yourself to heal, you don't have to feel like this. Please, please get a therapist YOU like and please try the meds they recommend. If you don't like them just stop taking them. You won't need it forever. If you gonna be here, be here 100%! If you don't have $ you can look online for sliding scale professionals. I can help find one. Organzachiffon@gmail.com you can hit me up anytime.
This vatos life story is interesting they could make a movie from this homies stories
No they can't
He can't even talk right
I agree...im sure he went threw some shit in the pinta tambien.a movie like that could open a lot of the younger generations eyes...the homies sometimes ain't down when it comes to the get down...to b honest the only true homies most individuals have ,have the same blood running threw there vains...LA FAMILIA!!!
Vatos, home grown from SM, Venice,CC... They are all true and devastating
This one broke me down, I was crying with him. I wanted to hold this man.
Hi Mark! Really love your videos and how real - raw - everyone tells their own story. It would be cool, if you made a Q&A with you in front of the camera and how these stories affect you. I would love to know, how you find these people, how and if you keep in touch with them and so on.
This man lives through his pain, as he tells this story he isn't just telling it, he is living through it replaying it in his head as he tells it as if he is still there with every emotion with every laugh and every tear. Respect
this is an entertaining cat. He needs his own channel!
underbelly could do book deals!
Netflix series 👀
Wdym cat?
Not trying to go backwards trying to go forwards, props homie💪🏼
Just watched his other video. Very well spoken and I could listen to him for hours! There is a future for him in the literary world. May he find peace and happiness.
This was like watching a great actor practicing his craft BUT he’s not an actor and it’s not a craft.
Facts
So he went by loyalty, many of his friends died being loyal to the streets, but soon finds out his homies who were still alive were not loyal to him, and when he handled his own, they pretended they were with him.
RIGHT! My daughter just died and my son is serving 18 yrs in prison and I promise you the “ friends” who led them down the wrong road where no where to be found! In fact as my daughter laid in a hospital bed in her room on hospice dying her boyfriend already moved on and had another girlfriend bc we wouldn’t let him see her 🤬 and of course my sons “ friends” all turned their back on him ....the ones who were still alive ! It’s a cruel world we are living in!
Darlene Warner so sorry for you losing your daughter and I know the feeling losing 2 sons and also a son doing 10 yrs in prison then coming home I can think of only 2-3 friends who would show up at my door while my son was in prison just to check up on him and say hi it’s a very cold world out here and you wonder what makes these people tick. I have let it go and let god because it’s too hard at times to deal with!!!!
Ms Cherry Bear wow.....you have suffered such great loss & im so sorry you lost your babies :(. How has your son been since he came home from serving time? Has he been able to find work &have a normal decent life since he came home ? My fear is my son will not be able to live in society & it will be impossible to find work ......
Darlene Warner somehow I’m think your the problem if both your kids running wild lol
Gold Tooth #9 what a effin bitch ! Truly spoken by someone who probably doesn’t have kids! And GOLD TOOTH...psssss what a joke!
You can straight feel this dude is not lying
I can't even explain how real everything he says is, its like I'm taking a walk down a part of remarry lane I've forgotten