My Experience of Being a Teenage Stoner

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  • čas přidán 10. 05. 2020
  • This is my story about growing up smoking weed. I'm sharing it so that others may learn from my experience. I started smoking weed at 12 and was a daily user by 13. It became a decades long habit. In this video I document my experience and point of view. czcams.com/users/BillHowie

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  • @Itschaboylamari
    @Itschaboylamari Před 3 lety +8817

    Bruh this is the clearest 480p I have ever seen

  • @kajuskup375
    @kajuskup375 Před 3 lety +11231

    *Marijuana can cause memory loss*
    This guy: remembers the exact date of when he smoked pot for the first time at 12 years old, remembers a game he was playing before he went off to go smoke weed.
    Me: Locks door, 5 sec later... Did I lock the door?

    • @knowitall3892
      @knowitall3892 Před 3 lety +739

      Short term not long term bro bro still a funny comment tho

    • @ericalexanderson3442
      @ericalexanderson3442 Před 3 lety +416

      It’s funny, when I’m stoned I’ll forget everything like my keys or where I left my drink, but then the next day I remember it all. Kind weird how it works

    • @nick0164
      @nick0164 Před 3 lety +241

      @@ericalexanderson3442 lmao once i forget something while high there’s no chance of that thought coming back😭

    • @babvino
      @babvino Před 3 lety +5

      bro lmfaooooooo

    • @lonelybythemoon
      @lonelybythemoon Před 3 lety +53

      Bruh the door thing is such a nuisance, I'll get up like 10 times just to make sure I locked it😹

  • @tbvolcomskater
    @tbvolcomskater Před 2 lety +94

    “Weed is something to do, when there’s nothing to do, that makes nothing to do, something to do”

  • @maxpauley00
    @maxpauley00 Před 11 měsíci +33

    It really sucks how many of us started smoking weed at 12 and 13. If I could take it all back I would.

    • @ConfusedRevolutionary
      @ConfusedRevolutionary Před 15 dny +1

      I would’ve avoided so many inconvenient and embarrassing situations if I never smoked Marijuana. I am speaking from my experience. I am aware others manage to maintain the habit without it interfering with their lives or at least they tell themselves that.

    • @direwolfy1470
      @direwolfy1470 Před dnem +1

      I at least wish I waited longer before I started smoking 13 was way too early.

  • @Fighterofthenightman_
    @Fighterofthenightman_ Před 3 lety +10326

    Crazy to think parents back in the 70s didn’t know the difference between a tomato and pot plant

    • @armaandhillon6371
      @armaandhillon6371 Před 3 lety +377

      my indian parents still don’t know. i’m thinking of getting a pot plant and have for a while lol

    • @seanmcelhaney6407
      @seanmcelhaney6407 Před 3 lety +28

      @@armaandhillon6371 lmaooo

    • @gkt4224
      @gkt4224 Před 3 lety +40

      Parents now days still don’t know

    • @seanmcelhaney6407
      @seanmcelhaney6407 Před 3 lety +82

      @@gkt4224 for the most part they do unless they’re mormon or something idk

    • @Crazycoolgamer
      @Crazycoolgamer Před 3 lety +89

      @@armaandhillon6371 my parents would rather me grow my own than payin some dude so much and not knowin what could be in it (cause regardless imma do it so might as well do it the safest way)

  • @michaelsMW2movies
    @michaelsMW2movies Před 3 lety +9111

    I don't know what's more depressing, this man's story, or the fact that I lit a joint after agreeing with everything this man says...

    • @maestrooscuro5299
      @maestrooscuro5299 Před 3 lety +137

      Both 😂

    • @george4111
      @george4111 Před 3 lety +396

      Agreed I don’t even know why I still smoke anymore, getting high just feels the same

    • @NefariousStyx123
      @NefariousStyx123 Před 3 lety +256

      @@george4111 the moment you ask yourself why you even smoke is when you know you're addicted. Same thing with cigarettes for me too, recently I noticed that I'll always light a cigarette at any given time, not cause I'm stressed or anything. I just do. And then I asked myself why I'm even smoking and realized that I was getting addicted so I just stopped. I was also in the same situation with weed for a looong time too until one day I asked myself the same question. Just quit man, if you feel it's the right thing to do. I mean you already said you don't know why you even smoke anymore so might as well take the step.

    • @toastymemes9346
      @toastymemes9346 Před 3 lety +47

      @@NefariousStyx123 i think he meant like why do i even smoke if my tolerance so high it doesn’t even feel like shit anymore. that not necessarily beging addicted like when my tolerance gets high i just take a break for a few weeks and i never have withdrawals. like when my tolerance gets high im like bru why tf am i even smoking this don’t feel like shit so i j stop for a bit.

    • @Shovelglove545
      @Shovelglove545 Před 3 lety +19

      @@toastymemes9346 don’t even need weeks for a t break 3/4 days is usually fine for me. I’ve never been a guy who goes through ounces a week tho

  • @DerJuvens
    @DerJuvens Před 2 lety +134

    "Weed makes you okay with being bored." -Random Dude on the Internet

    • @LD21333
      @LD21333 Před 2 lety +12

      Most true statement of all time

    • @randomdude4578
      @randomdude4578 Před 2 lety +15

      This is true my brother and Im proud you've kept my words with you.

    • @DerJuvens
      @DerJuvens Před 2 lety +7

      Thats the statement which made me realise that weed became part of my identity, yet I have so much more to offer. It became a daily thing which I’d do before bed and after waking up just to be ok with the monotony of life.
      Then I started to just fill in my time with useful stuff and slowly took out the weed. I do smoke from time to time, but I’m not spending 200€/week anymore on lowering my mental and physical health on the long run.
      Weed is nice and I like it, but it’s a too easy escape which will eventually make you waste so much time with nothing useful. In particular if you start identifying yourself as Stoner or what not, for me it was “weed wizard” as by my friends, the issue with that then is that you’re ok with that and instead of identifying yourself by who you really are with all those different aspects you limit yourself and your capabilities to something trivial as a guy that knows how to waste money, time and health.

    • @leo-gw2ft
      @leo-gw2ft Před 2 lety +3

      -Randy from South Park

    • @smokinjoe4709
      @smokinjoe4709 Před 2 lety

      Everyday life is rather boring. I mean I love my family and enjoy my job, but shit just get boring and routine. So I can blow my whole life up, or just spark one up...

  • @carbonell123
    @carbonell123 Před 10 měsíci +19

    24 year daily stoner here. Tomorrow I want to quit. This video made me cry man, in so scared to do it but I have no choice. I'm 40 next year and my whole life is a blur.
    Wish me luck

    • @fabionovelli3136
      @fabionovelli3136 Před 3 měsíci

      How are you now?

    • @carbonell123
      @carbonell123 Před 3 měsíci +2

      @@fabionovelli3136 Hi Fabio! Thanks for asking 🙏
      I managed to stop but relapsed several times. I did 3 months and then smoked again. Am now on day 12 of my fourth attempt...
      How are things with you? Are you smoking?

    • @fabionovelli3136
      @fabionovelli3136 Před 3 měsíci +1

      @@carbonell123 My story is very similar. I am quitting again on exactly 10 days. It is not easy but can be done.

    • @carbonell123
      @carbonell123 Před 3 měsíci

      @@fabionovelli3136 we're not that fat apart! I found that each time I approach quitting it gets easier, and I see my failed attempts as rehearsals... This time I'm determined to be clean for the summer!
      What is motivating you to stop?
      For me it is money, health, pride, energy and relationships. Weed kills all those for me.

  • @lawabiding9152
    @lawabiding9152 Před 3 lety +2195

    I really listened for 5 minutes thinking the title said my experience being a child soldier

  • @davidhebenstreit2666
    @davidhebenstreit2666 Před 3 lety +4507

    Me: “Man this guy is speaking the truth”
    Also me: *hits bowl*

  • @antiratrace
    @antiratrace Před rokem +68

    I started smoking at 13. I graduated high school, went to college and got a degree, worked full time and paid off my student loans. Then worked entry level jobs in my field, built up my experience and eventually landed a 6 figure career with a megacorp. I've worked for that same company for 13 years.
    My wife and I recently built a house on a lake, after paying the land off first. I've been smoking daily the entire time. It's called motivation, and it's an aspect of the human condition. It's in your mind, and you have the ability to choose the life you want to live - regardless of if you smoke or not. If you don't like the life you live, change it. There is no authority but yourself. Not a plant, a bean or a liquid... only you.

    • @jayroni
      @jayroni Před rokem +13

      i like hearing this. i feel as if you have self control and motivation you should be just fine!

    • @danshee5002
      @danshee5002 Před rokem

      What is your field of work? It sounds like you knew what you wanted to do and went for it

    • @antiratrace
      @antiratrace Před rokem +6

      @@danshee5002 IT. You're correct, I did a lot of soul searching in my late teens to figure out how to survive in this crazy world and IT was the easiest fit. I've had a deep curiosity for technology my entire life so be honest, at first I mainly wanted to learn how the internet worked and how to hack 🤣 After the first semester I started to realize it was the perfect career fit for me and never looked back.

    • @wacamac1006
      @wacamac1006 Před 11 měsíci +1

      @antiratrace currently studying aerospace and mechanical engineering at NMSU. first semester was the first time I'd moved out. I failed all 4 of my classes including English because I spent every single night drunk. went home winter break at my lowest of lows, spent that whole month fucked off ketamine, came back, met a girl, figured out the world doesn't hate me it hates everybody, and I continued to use drugs weekly throughout my 2nd semester. whippets, ket, coke, LSD, shrooms, molly, weed, nicotine and alcohol got me through my 2nd semester with a 3.5 gpa, I'm still a fucking addict, just threw away the vape because my lungs are fucked. but honestly I fully believe that even on drugs people can still function. I have a lot of brain cells so I got a couple more to lose than other people I've met but it really just comes down to your motivation and what your goals are. you can sit around and blame the drugs, or you can work with them and still blaze up

    • @ThatLad685
      @ThatLad685 Před 10 dny

      A lot of stoners aren’t like this at all though lol

  • @Mropop
    @Mropop Před rokem +301

    What hit me the most was when he said at 30 he was smoking and looking back he had his entire life still ahead of him. Im 26 and i feel like i haven’t accomplished shit due to weed and it feels like ive left it too late to be successful in ways that i want to, but this is exactly what i needed to hear. From today im quitting weed and cigarettes and getting my shit together, i still got so much time ahead of me and im not about to waste any more of it

    • @mitchelgreen891
      @mitchelgreen891 Před rokem +5

      Hope your journey since has been successful!

    • @iankaminski7879
      @iankaminski7879 Před rokem +2

      Good look man you got this shit !

    • @maxmax5018
      @maxmax5018 Před rokem +2

      good luck you got this

    • @icaroioi
      @icaroioi Před rokem +2

      go for it, man! its not going to be a comfortable path but it will pay off! ask for help too... good luck

    • @stocktalk9271
      @stocktalk9271 Před rokem +3

      I’m in exact same place and 26 thanks for commenting it inspired me to do the same I hope I can make it through 10 years of constant use all day everyday

  • @mosephhh
    @mosephhh Před 3 lety +6307

    I’m sure all of us stoners are able to relate to this guy in some extent. My advice, as someone who is able to have goals and self improve while also smoking everyday, would be to just keep it to smoking at night. That’s one things that’s really helped me, because smoking during the day can really mess up your productivity for the rest of the day, of course there are rare cases where the opposite is true, but for the majority of us, day smokes only result in lazy unproductive days. Also, if you keep it to mainly just nights it gives you something to look forward to and help you relax at the end of the day.

    • @bigman-pm7xy
      @bigman-pm7xy Před 3 lety +172

      this is so true!

    • @christianmontano9540
      @christianmontano9540 Před 3 lety +271

      I do this, I work construction with my dad and I always wait for the end of the day to smoke and it feels so much better than smoking through out the whole day

    • @CykeCyke99
      @CykeCyke99 Před 3 lety +87

      I do road construction and yeah smoking at night is definitely the way to go, it gives me something to look forward to and I don’t like operating a machine high cause I feel like I don’t do as good as when I’m sober

    • @buvai_
      @buvai_ Před 3 lety +55

      i 100% agree with this. i'm a full time uni-student with a ton of debt and just a lot of mental shit going on, smoking a cone or two at night has really helped with easing the senses and levelling out each day.

    • @tannerkraft3778
      @tannerkraft3778 Před 3 lety +47

      About a year ago I started smoking almost every night as something to look forward too and to take my mind off some mental health shit. I’ve been smoking about 2-3 times throughout the day and it just doesn’t hit the same. And leave me to feel worse later. Nights are the way to go

  • @Alex-gl6re
    @Alex-gl6re Před 3 lety +1130

    “5 minutes of epiphanies then ur a stone cold moron” damn that’s facts

    • @nbalife5957
      @nbalife5957 Před 3 lety +7

      there are things you can buy that are called dose

    • @nbalife5957
      @nbalife5957 Před 3 lety +12

      you can use it every couple weeks and it’s manages a dose for you and can be very helpful for creative work

    • @TheFlyersguy12
      @TheFlyersguy12 Před 3 lety +1

      @@nbalife5957 im interested, where do i find this?

    • @1998kid1
      @1998kid1 Před 3 lety +1

      They sell them at select dispensaries , little dose pens

    • @jnqiw1554
      @jnqiw1554 Před 3 lety +8

      @@1998kid1 it's really not that helpful, you get a 3 second hit of a low THC concentrate when you could just limit yourself, plus dose pens are expensive as fuck

  • @UkuleleZen
    @UkuleleZen Před rokem +1

    Thank you for your very honest sharing Bill! So glad you’re free….You are clearly making your purpose come true! It’s so much better living w/o the shackles of weed addiction. One day at a time, 24 brand new hours are here for us all. May our actions be of benefit to ourselves and others. 🙌🙏🏻 Much Love and thanks for your honesty 💜

  • @jayvance1314
    @jayvance1314 Před rokem +8

    You just earned a new follower brother! I can relate to your story in many ways and viewing a couple other bids of yours, your channel looks right up my alley! Thank you so much for what you are doing on this channel. Seriously, give yourself a pat on the back. Im sure it is helping way more people than you think!!

  • @just_houle5703
    @just_houle5703 Před 3 lety +3436

    I learned to be productive when I'm high, and smoke in moderation.
    Yall are crazy I've never had this many likes on anything ever on any sort of internet or social media platform thanks for all the likes💜🤙

    • @billyjoe4627
      @billyjoe4627 Před 3 lety +241

      more people need to learn how to do this lol

    • @Iba0001
      @Iba0001 Před 3 lety +298

      Exactly, weed doesn't make you lazy, depends on the kind of discipline you have

    • @quincylewis2553
      @quincylewis2553 Před 3 lety +135

      Facts, if used correctly marijuana can definitely boost productivity and overall can help

    • @ballsisstraightupthic4312
      @ballsisstraightupthic4312 Před 3 lety +95

      @William Adisho at one point I just got tired of doing the same shit and just started stepping out of my boundaries and did shit that made me uncomfortable. Just do something new everyday uncomfortable is good

    • @joel3926
      @joel3926 Před 3 lety +35

      I’m glad that there’s others that are productive and use in moderation you don’t need to have big bongs or joints even literally small bongs just to put you in a calm headspace where you can feel it is an advantage in life I believe

  • @Ilikedagames-rf2fx
    @Ilikedagames-rf2fx Před 3 lety +1632

    I’m so happy that I started smoking only for recreational purposes. As soon as you start using any substance to “fix” something about yourself, you start going down a slippery slope. Everything in moderation.

    • @phoenixjones7191
      @phoenixjones7191 Před 3 lety +65

      not to sound preachy or weird or whatever but what worked for me was looking at them as things to be used ritualistically, only when certain criteria are met and not outside of that. Moved from a "fuck it why not?" thing in my head to a, I'm doing this for X reason.

    • @UsuallyCully
      @UsuallyCully Před 3 lety +30

      Exactly, there is a difference between why people smoke, it's not always depression or whatever. We all have different reasons and some are more dysfunctional than others.
      For example psychedelics can be used for healing and spiritual purposes, and it can be a life-saver for some people.

    • @fade5832
      @fade5832 Před 3 lety

      What about psilocybin mushrooms? or shrooms. also what about micodosing that or lsd

    • @phoenixjones7191
      @phoenixjones7191 Před 3 lety +3

      @@fade5832 shrooms are mose useful than lsd imo. That what my original comment was about

    • @jimjon2206
      @jimjon2206 Před 3 lety +1

      i used to only smoke it recreationally but then i got over the fear of buying it by myself and ever since then i spend all the money i earn on it :(

  • @zeroequilibrium420
    @zeroequilibrium420 Před 2 lety +9

    Thank you Bill. This really motivates me. I appreciate you for sharing your experience as you were as young as us kids are. I’m sure a lot of kids like me have seen this and made better actions. You’re a hero brother.

  • @ytcornlyfe6439
    @ytcornlyfe6439 Před rokem +228

    The weed cycle and detaching yourself from relationships/people and being depressed I'm sure every teenage/early 20s smoker can relate too so so much. Thank you for sharing your experience

    • @Pagan_Fears
      @Pagan_Fears Před rokem +3

      Cryptopsy fucking slaps

    • @circles9275
      @circles9275 Před rokem +14

      When i was younger, i always sent my friends messages. It was ALWAYS me trying to encourage everyone else to be social. You know what? Its not weeds fault they never called me or messaged me, they never did anyways. These people, this world, is awful. They were bad friends. I always put 10x more effort into my relationships than ANYONE else. Weed just said “hey, they arent going to change, they arent worth it, love yourself instead” and i say, ok to that!

    • @ytcornlyfe6439
      @ytcornlyfe6439 Před 11 měsíci +1

      ​@@Pagan_Fearsfuck yes 🤙

    • @caerulipes
      @caerulipes Před 11 měsíci

      No

    • @caerulipes
      @caerulipes Před 11 měsíci

      My guy I’m pretty Shure you were just shitty and depressed already

  • @chadchadingston374
    @chadchadingston374 Před 3 lety +1978

    The most addictive thing about weed is that feeling that things become a little different, the unfortunate thing is that feeling of difference doesn’t always feel good yet I can’t stop going back to it.

    • @lilplatypussock6975
      @lilplatypussock6975 Před 3 lety +95

      Yeah the little things that are different when ur high make you wanna do it more

    • @_RobBanks
      @_RobBanks Před 3 lety +115

      It increases novelty.

    • @IndraShining
      @IndraShining Před 2 lety +25

      yes you can. you can stop, you just have to be honest with yourself and FOLLOW YOUR HEART! NOT YOUR MIND

    • @fredshropshire4718
      @fredshropshire4718 Před 2 lety +18

      Realist shit I’ve read this week

    • @dre1324
      @dre1324 Před 2 lety +42

      its an escape from reality for a couple hours

  • @smigabruv1912
    @smigabruv1912 Před 3 lety +960

    u ppl saying “weed doesn’t make u lazy” like bro it literally depends on the person, it can be amazing for some ppl and heavily damaging to others jus stop bein so naive

    • @pmclockwatcher2230
      @pmclockwatcher2230 Před 3 lety +32

      You are the naive one, after all it’s a drug like all others. It definitely makes life more enjoyable but at what cost? Taking your mind off priorities? Being in your own head? In your own little world?

    • @bigloc1779
      @bigloc1779 Před 3 lety +47

      @@pmclockwatcher2230 all of those yeah...and thats oke. Alcohol is a drug too and the standard housewife stereotype can down 2-3 glasses of wine a day. I rather smoke weed than drink knowing that it doesnt affect the next day and i can still be productive the next day

    • @bigloc1779
      @bigloc1779 Před 3 lety +7

      How is that naive..the only thing that wouldve been better to say was “weed doesn’t necessarily make u lazy”

    • @pmclockwatcher2230
      @pmclockwatcher2230 Před 3 lety +3

      @@bigloc1779 yes you can but your subconscious is altered and overtime it all adds up shows up all at once.

    • @ohnahitsu
      @ohnahitsu Před 3 lety +32

      @@pmclockwatcher2230 bro look into research bc goddamn u dk what u talkin

  • @heataj5498
    @heataj5498 Před rokem +37

    Thank you for making this. I’m 19 and I feel like people don’t talk about this side at all and it was taking over my life.

  • @eymeen2054
    @eymeen2054 Před 2 lety +6

    Your guidance is admirable my friend!
    As a 19-year old man who is constantly in search of meaning in life, this was an insight truly necessary for the preparations of my future endeavors.
    Much love my humble man, peace ✌🏼

  • @landino4624
    @landino4624 Před 3 lety +2383

    Feels kinda scary to relate to his story while you're a teenage stoner in these trying times.

    • @calebhouser2729
      @calebhouser2729 Před 3 lety +56

      I hear you

    • @arjunt973
      @arjunt973 Před 3 lety +43

      no fr bro

    • @Karina4News
      @Karina4News Před 3 lety +8

      It’ll get u thru it I promise. 21 now but started smoking when I was 15 and it got me thru some shit

    • @connormarsh8923
      @connormarsh8923 Před 3 lety +30

      honestly same dude it’s crazy

    • @loto7197
      @loto7197 Před 2 lety +106

      You're not smoking the same thing he was smoking as a teenager.
      The stuff you're smoking much more potent and much more harmful for your still developing brain.

  • @juice1530
    @juice1530 Před 3 lety +1208

    This guy: **remembers what he did in the 1970s while high**
    Me: forgot what I had for breakfast this morning

  • @snoopdgodoubleg2177
    @snoopdgodoubleg2177 Před 2 lety +26

    I can’t smoke everyday anymore, but using it as a reward after a long ass day is groovy. Helps me sleep/recover from working out.

  • @gavintokes2758
    @gavintokes2758 Před 2 lety +364

    This is crazy. You story literally applies to my life. Especially the whole anxiety thing while high. It’s truly crippling how hard it can be to be social. And it’s good to know I’m not alone on that🙏🙏

    • @seang9738
      @seang9738 Před 2 lety +18

      Kinda thought no one would be able to understand until i found this

    • @beet0pp
      @beet0pp Před 2 lety +10

      @@seang9738 I had that anxiety but I learned to work passed that, I learned it wasn’t the weed it was me just being inexperienced same thing with girls being stoned and not stoned. Being stoned just enhances feelings. It helps wipe away the voice that tells me don’t even try but that’s for me. I know I could do everything without weed but it also helps in bored situations plug and chug work. I don’t think it makes me stupid either, either not much of an impact or it just exacerbates what’s already there🤷‍♂️ cool video tho

    • @kendallchristopherson1162
      @kendallchristopherson1162 Před 2 lety +1

      I’m right here with ya buddy

    • @dunno6442
      @dunno6442 Před 2 lety +4

      Yep same here, I turn into a nervous wreck second guessing everything I say but when I'm sober for a while I feel "myself" and normal..

    • @tanneraldrich
      @tanneraldrich Před 2 lety +1

      fr

  • @tonyrodriguez9278
    @tonyrodriguez9278 Před 3 lety +882

    We fr lived the same, couldn’t talk while high n can only socialize when drunk

    • @jaketopia2652
      @jaketopia2652 Před 3 lety +7

      same

    • @killtheZOG
      @killtheZOG Před 3 lety +6

      Same

    • @cMind607
      @cMind607 Před 3 lety +75

      Every time I’m high I just get sleepy and wanna be in my own space lmfaoo. Every type of weed, doesn’t matter which way I smoke it either.. shit sucks.

    • @johnnyscorp5893
      @johnnyscorp5893 Před 3 lety +2

      That’s what u got from that? 😂

    • @johnnyscorp5893
      @johnnyscorp5893 Před 3 lety

      But same

  • @maxfinch4430
    @maxfinch4430 Před 3 lety +1570

    this is so true and it’s so hard to stop especially when you have friends who all smoke weed everyday and it feels damn near impossible to break the cycle. you feel fucking trapped and anxious when you aren’t high, then when you are high you question whether this is really what you want to be doing with you life. i was depressed for a year because my social life was nonexistent outside of smoking weed with my friends, and honestly i’m still trying to heal from that. it’s just when your actually high you think it can’t be that bad, but after weeks months years you look back and it’s all just kind of a blur where you haven’t moved forward or improved yourself, you just search for being high again all day and that becomes you hobby and your purpose. really hard to quit especially the first month

    • @slinkid9410
      @slinkid9410 Před 3 lety +175

      Hello are you me?

    • @gingey1853
      @gingey1853 Před 3 lety +20

      Yes. Me.

    • @shisueeey7921
      @shisueeey7921 Před 3 lety +29

      fax man I feel this shit so hard

    • @kekomedia4519
      @kekomedia4519 Před 3 lety +21

      Wtf this is me

    • @slinkid9410
      @slinkid9410 Před 3 lety +94

      I would like to say that for those who are looking to break from the weed trap there is a few things I did that helped a lot to stay away and self heal. This will be long.
      First of all just like the guy in the video I had terrible social skills before I smoked. When I was smoking this only made it worse. Everytime I was in a social situation I questioned everything I would say. I would overthink and not really be listening to what people said. When I was in social situations I realized my social skills deteriated each time which only made me question myself more. It's a viscous cycle that gets worse and worse. Confidence dropped, anxiety increased which led to depression, and the solution was more weed. So I questioned to myself, what can I do to re gain confidence, and happiness? I remembered the days when I was confident and questioned what I was doing other than not smoking. After all, when I started smoking I was still confident. And there were many people in the world who smoked everyday and were successful. And then it finally hit me.
      Personal growth.
      Yep, personal growth. The problem with weed is it makes you comfortable. It makes you comfortable with yourself and your life. It brings pleasure, and it makes it harder to do things that are "hard" like good habits such as excercise and cooking. I remembered I was terrible at having good habits but at my best just before I started smoking everyday I had lots of good habits, and even more importantly I was getting out of my comfort zone as much as possible. Practising new habits and getting out of your comfort zone helps you grow as a person. It sucks at the start but if your keep at it no matter what it is, eventually you see results. That was the key to improving my confidence, which brought me happiness and what stopped me being in my head and questioning everything. It was almost my purpose in life was to grow myself as a person.
      As a man, you need a purpose. I know it's corny but still. As someone who was young and had yet found my purpose, what I did to give me a purpose was self growth. I know how "become an alpha male youtube channel" bullshit that sounds but the one thing you will find in common with almost all stoner's who are not happy is they have no purpose, and they don't practice self growth.

  • @spike8273
    @spike8273 Před rokem +55

    It's honestly crushing how relatable this is. I'm 17 it feels like we have lived almost the same life. Thank you for posting this video

    • @mmm-si5ih
      @mmm-si5ih Před rokem +4

      I can say exactly the same thing.

    • @adrd208
      @adrd208 Před 9 měsíci +2

      Ok if you're only 17 listen, stop now. No drugs dude just don't. I'm in my mid 40s and life is struggle, I'm broken. The rest of your life is much longer than you know.

  • @Noer2016
    @Noer2016 Před 8 měsíci

    I resonated with this so much! I also started smoking at 12 and have also felt many of those feelings you felt which is kinda comforting in a way. Catching myself now in the loop of weed and im sick and tired of being sick and tired (got that from another one of your videos) and hopefully I can fully break this habit that has been holding me back for quite sometime! On day 3 and struggling but I know it will be worth it! Also to anyone else trying to kick it we got this I believe in you!!!

  • @flareshamin4779
    @flareshamin4779 Před 3 lety +815

    I feel like smoking weed is perfectly fine as long as it doesn’t impact you negatively. I love to learn when I get high, and I could never see myself becoming an alcoholic or ever trying anything else because nothing gives me the same feeling as smoking a bowl.

    • @crustycritters6148
      @crustycritters6148 Před 3 lety +51

      Exactly when I'm high I can actually drive to

    • @benzo3084
      @benzo3084 Před 3 lety +157

      @@crustycritters6148 please don't

    • @MrDogeYT
      @MrDogeYT Před 3 lety +16

      @@crustycritters6148 lmaoo

    • @crustycritters6148
      @crustycritters6148 Před 3 lety +37

      @100 mayonnaise stfu

    • @MrIanEntertainment
      @MrIanEntertainment Před 3 lety +59

      @@crustycritters6148 why are you saying stfu? operating a car impaired is irresponsible and stupid

  • @aidaneberle12
    @aidaneberle12 Před 3 lety +1270

    i’m 18 years old and you just described my life in vivid detail like you’ve been watching over me; you might have just saved me from a life of trying to act sober

    • @xcon93
      @xcon93 Před 3 lety +15

      Same bro

    • @sandersamu4655
      @sandersamu4655 Před 3 lety +21

      Same but just overseas

    • @philipthompson7444
      @philipthompson7444 Před 3 lety +5

      same here

    • @michaelcraven3564
      @michaelcraven3564 Před 3 lety +2

      For real bro

    • @AndrewHodel56
      @AndrewHodel56 Před 3 lety +44

      I’m 18 and I’m one month and one day sober. Once you stop everything gets better but like the dude said it doesn’t solve all your problems you still need to apply yourself.

  • @jasonsizemore3893
    @jasonsizemore3893 Před rokem

    Found this video right when I needed it, ty sir. Peace, love and positivity to you and yours. ✊️✌️

  • @oliver7832
    @oliver7832 Před 11 měsíci

    videos like these really help me through my own experiences as an adolecent that smokes weed regularly. These sorts of videos where people talk about their experiences with weed make me realize that my own experience with pot is a lot healthier than i sometimes think it is. It's relieving to have a different perspective from a grown person instead of my other stoned friends.

  • @Ellecramer
    @Ellecramer Před 3 lety +644

    Loneliness is the root cause of everything bro

    • @nat3b
      @nat3b Před 3 lety +32

      hella true . reason people smoke😂

    • @halolime117
      @halolime117 Před 3 lety +4

      @@nat3b and drink 😂

    • @rodneyhedrick3145
      @rodneyhedrick3145 Před 3 lety +6

      Preach bro, what sucks it's alll this new innovation just making it easier to get high basically with anything, and seems as if it's really targeted to childeren.

    • @Sketch_Sesh
      @Sketch_Sesh Před 2 lety +6

      Yeah, most of my vices were driven by loneliness

    • @XXassassin71
      @XXassassin71 Před 2 lety +5

      @@rodneyhedrick3145 Yes and no, No cause teenagers will always find a way, a yes because carts now can be used in schools without alerting teachers or drug dogs

  • @markjiannino5643
    @markjiannino5643 Před 3 lety +576

    I can't imagine smoking at such a young age. If I smoked that early in life I would've been a completely different person

    • @jakecalvert6728
      @jakecalvert6728 Před 3 lety +54

      Where I live its normal for 12 year old to smoke weed

    • @moshe7001
      @moshe7001 Před 3 lety +6

      @@jakecalvert6728 damnnn

    • @ThatDudeDavid252
      @ThatDudeDavid252 Před 3 lety +36

      @@jakecalvert6728 sorry to hear that brother that’s too young

    • @jekxc2264
      @jekxc2264 Před 3 lety +15

      i can it was definitely helping with social problems and home issues i still smoke but im glad i did when i was young it gave me a big boost in life and almost made me mature faster then all of the kids in my school that weren’t smoking at the time, and im not telling anybody to start young i just felt it really helped me

    • @nathaneluchiha5141
      @nathaneluchiha5141 Před 3 lety +7

      I started chiefn at 13 I’m 15 and still b cheifn daily I’m doing fine

  • @drackaryspt1572
    @drackaryspt1572 Před rokem +4

    I really appreciate this video as a young adult that got a bit lost in drugs and in weed specifically its nice to hear that other people have had the same feeling that I get from smoking weed! so thank you so much for the video!👍

  • @kair6061
    @kair6061 Před rokem +5

    19 now lived the same life you did since I was 14 and it's time to change. EVERYTHING you were saying is exactly on target with what I feel on a daily basis. Thank you for making this video it really resonated with me🤙

  • @andreibaicu8819
    @andreibaicu8819 Před 3 lety +1083

    The trick to be productive on weed is moderation and loving the feeling of uncomfortable. When u lay on your couch, high, think of something to do that will count as productive when you're sober. Then, stand up from ur couch and do it. No matter the hassle, you get better and better with time.

    • @natedog805402
      @natedog805402 Před 3 lety +23

      Underrated comment

    • @Spooky-4000
      @Spooky-4000 Před 3 lety +85

      Horrible idea unless you want to a " productive stoner " which doesn't seem best. Maybe do all that you have to do in a day and use smoking weed as a reward for hard work...

    • @NotGilmore
      @NotGilmore Před 3 lety +41

      I used to work 12-14 hrs a day 2 jobs, tiring kitchen jobs when I was younger., when I get home I reward myself with a joint and listen to music then reset. I also smoke after my training/workouts. Makes me feel much more relaxed. Was never a couch potato stoner. I’ve thought of it as privilege. It’s all about the mindset, there are thousands of succesful professionals and athletes that do/did smoke. As long as it’s in moderation its fine. I still do smoke but only a couple or three times per week.

    • @natedog805402
      @natedog805402 Před 3 lety +9

      @@NotGilmore thats how I am. I noticed that I'm way less sharp than my friends at doing normal things, even after years of everyday all day smoking. so I quit for 4 years and now I only do a couple times a week after work/workouts are done. I'm happy with my system now

    • @natedog805402
      @natedog805402 Před 3 lety +4

      @@NotGilmore I feel you man strain is huge because I'm in illegal state and all the plugs literally don't know what kind of weed it is 99 percent f the time so nothing is consistent and I think that's why I couldn't get used to it all the way

  • @prim0016
    @prim0016 Před 3 lety +843

    for me, weed is one of the best things that ever happened to me. I smoke, the high me points out all the problems i need to fix, and i fix it. I also get super motivated to workout while high so i get up and workout. Dunno if i could give it up

    • @lukeleonard1160
      @lukeleonard1160 Před 3 lety +138

      Lazy people who smoke are just lazy people, this guy took a L

    • @Cjesso3
      @Cjesso3 Před 3 lety +81

      @@lukeleonard1160 Yeah that is not true. Everyone likes to pretend that weed is not addictive and has no effect on your work ethic or motivation or ability to think clearly, but it undeniably is and does, whether or not you like to workout when you're high. Yeah it's true that some people function better than others when they're high, but they aren't functioning at their best. This is coming from almost a decade of daily smoking that I have yet to shake the habit of. Everything this man said is true, and if you don't believe him than keep smoking and find out for yourself.

    • @AyeAye-tw2hv
      @AyeAye-tw2hv Před 3 lety +15

      @@Cjesso3 not at all bro, i also feel motivated when smoking, it also helps people with eating... it’s got many benefits. If you get addicted, you just have an addiction kind of personality

    • @ScagAteHer
      @ScagAteHer Před 3 lety +3

      ur one of the lucky ones

    • @Cjesso3
      @Cjesso3 Před 3 lety +8

      @@aztec6535 I hope you're right man, but being born and raised in San Francisco, I know far too many burnouts than I'd like to.

  • @ralphronald6296
    @ralphronald6296 Před rokem +102

    I want you to know, Bill, that this video was recommended to me at the most perfect time of my life. So much of what you said resonated with me, and I am just at this moment on the precipice of making that life changing decision of leaving cannabis in my past.
    I am 30 years old and have relied on cannabis since I was 16. Thank you, Bill. God speed.

    • @jonathanroy9112
      @jonathanroy9112 Před rokem +3

      I love this comment. Good luck with whatever happens in your life man ❤️

  • @Incredible_Mr.E
    @Incredible_Mr.E Před rokem +3

    Your story is very similar to mine, im a young man and watching this put a sick feeling in my stomach. Everything you said is true, and I know if I continue down this path i'll end up forgetting most of my life and have nothing to show for. Thank you for telling us your story.

  • @marcelw5797
    @marcelw5797 Před 3 lety +1000

    Hey I’m 16 years old, today is my sixth day sober after 2 years of smoking daily.

  • @kachowsimpson2886
    @kachowsimpson2886 Před 3 lety +292

    Everyone keeps saying weed makes them antisocial. When i smoke I just keep rambling about shit. I love talking while high, but even when i'm sober i like explaining things so weed probably just exaggerates that

    • @knowitall3892
      @knowitall3892 Před 3 lety +18

      Who doesn’t get high and love hearing or telling a great story I’m with you

    • @_RobBanks
      @_RobBanks Před 3 lety +30

      I hate talking when I’m high, but I am kind of quiet to begin with.
      When I get the perrico or alcohol I enjoy talking.

    • @StarvingIndieDev
      @StarvingIndieDev Před 2 lety +11

      I've got a friend like that. Doesnt say much when sober but man when he smokes he just doesnt stop. Bugs me out sometimes. I'm the opposite tho, can't think of anything to say when stoned.

    • @gus6877
      @gus6877 Před 2 lety

      I used to be like this but after a while I really became quite and reserved myself when I get high

    • @adolescencetsportstv9199
      @adolescencetsportstv9199 Před 2 lety +1

      @@StarvingIndieDev that’s so true, it’s not that I don’t want to talk. I just don’t have anything important to say so I just don’t talk unless it’s for a reason

  • @masemagne4694
    @masemagne4694 Před rokem +2

    I love you so much. thanks for sharing your story, in which I heavily related to many things. Being only 20 and having finally decided to quit after periodic on/off daily smoking for the last 4 years, I am so grateful I managed to do this before it had taken away so many more years of my life. I hope you have found meaning and purpose in the decades after you managed to stop. And I hope you continue to be well with yourself. Much love

  • @5XWAZM
    @5XWAZM Před 2 lety +16

    Damn I'm 23 and also started smoking when I was 12 so much of what you said just resonated with me man. I really appreciate you posting a video like this, it's definitely something I've been reflecting on and battling with and for a long time I just accepted that it was part of my identity but just like you said, I struggled to apply myself too and I really wana just give meaning to my life

  • @xXHighRiderzXx
    @xXHighRiderzXx Před 3 lety +641

    I smoked weed every single day since I was 12 years old. In high school i never stepped on the campus sober....I'm 23 years old now and I haven't smoked in 2 months... pray for me to keep this streak up!!!!!! It was hard to break off this addiction since I been smoking for 11-12 years ...

    • @xXHighRiderzXx
      @xXHighRiderzXx Před 3 lety +36

      To anybody seeing this comment .. it took me 2-3 years of trying to quit and constantly failing due to my withdrawals ... trust me ... if I can do it ... so can you ... it just takes time .. but you have to honestly want change ..

    • @BLN-xd9hz
      @BLN-xd9hz Před 3 lety +3

      @@xXHighRiderzXx how you doing

    • @shervon
      @shervon Před 3 lety +3

      Still going?

    • @xXHighRiderzXx
      @xXHighRiderzXx Před 3 lety +44

      @@BLN-xd9hz yes !!! And I'm changing my lifestyle and starting to workout , I've lost 30 pounds so far in these few months and still pushing strong to loose more. Thanks for checking in much love.

    • @xXHighRiderzXx
      @xXHighRiderzXx Před 3 lety +14

      @@shervon ^^^^ appreciate checking in , 2021 is all about recovering from all the bad habits I've had my entire life. I'm doing great so far!

  • @DJFaNaTiiC
    @DJFaNaTiiC Před 3 lety +226

    There’s a funny ass accurate meme that goes “I get stupid fucking high > I hyper-analyze my character flaws and vow to change them > I forget” and repeat lol. Crazy how the weed will give me that sense of clarity but if I start smoking constantly again I just become numb and the weed kind of tells me to lay off again. I guess that’s moderation but moderation is something I’m working on.

    • @DJFaNaTiiC
      @DJFaNaTiiC Před 3 lety +4

      Yeah just smoked and it threw me off my shit. Back on the wagon lol

    • @BaysideTub217
      @BaysideTub217 Před 2 lety +6

      It’s because when you analyze yourself, you start to notice the “shitty” things about yourself, and it leaves you with a feeling of damn… if that makes sense, which nothing like another hit won’t erase

    • @kirkgraham1
      @kirkgraham1 Před 2 lety +10

      You’ve got to write the epiphany down then work on it when sober

    • @Mackathne
      @Mackathne Před 2 lety

      Quitting was the best thing that ever happened to me. You get fake insights, but at the end of the day it means nothing when you do nothing about it

    • @DJFaNaTiiC
      @DJFaNaTiiC Před 2 lety +1

      @@Mackathne yup. To a degree there’s some real insight, but when you’re high every day it’s a ton of overthinking damn near every situation in your life. There has to be direction to see what changes you can/should be applying to your life

  • @mullet-man6956
    @mullet-man6956 Před rokem +7

    Thanks man I needed this. 23 years old, smoking for 6-7 years and stuck in the wanting to quit cycle for 3 years. I feel you so hard when you said it feels like depression. Smoking is so toxic and anyone who says different, idk… for some people being numb is enough I guess but I want to be happy, and weed does NOT do that at ALL. Makes me feel nothing, just numb

    • @Fart_Simpson
      @Fart_Simpson Před 6 měsíci

      Right behind ya mullet-man, I'm turning 24 and still battling this stupid addiction. Weed is not worth it but my stupid body is convinced it is.

  • @Jokesonyou6666
    @Jokesonyou6666 Před rokem +1

    This is a really old video by now but just listening to you talk for a couple minutes about your experience has really helped me, im about at the college level you were at but i started a little later in life and i am putting myself down by doing so thank you so much

  • @jeremymunene5304
    @jeremymunene5304 Před 3 lety +1001

    "Herb reveals you to yourself" - Bob Marley

  • @nolanbourgouin9500
    @nolanbourgouin9500 Před 3 lety +421

    I'm 34 , started smoking Cannabis at 17. I will agree that it is not for kids in highscool. I barely graduated because I was just so enamored and distracted from studies. I wasn't even supposed to graduate. I was lucky to have a teacher that passed me anyway.I ended up growing a passion for growing. And giving to people for medical purposes. There are many directions cannabis can take you. It's all about making smart decisions in life.

    • @YourMom-de3gj
      @YourMom-de3gj Před 3 lety +3

      That’s me I’m putting other shit before school and I’m not doing good I’m school how do you get the teacher to pass you because mine would never 😔

    • @nolanbourgouin9500
      @nolanbourgouin9500 Před 3 lety +16

      @@YourMom-de3gj I was HIGHLY participating in class just never did my homework and failed tests. I had a twin sister in my class and I think he felt bad if we didnt graduate together. (It was economics class)There's plenty of time in your future to smoke. At least grad from hs, before part taking and see it as a reward,not a coping mechanism.

    • @neekbot
      @neekbot Před 3 lety +1

      I wanna become a grower so bad

    • @nolanbourgouin9500
      @nolanbourgouin9500 Před 3 lety

      @@neekbot what's stopping you? Illegal state?

    • @kingsera6856
      @kingsera6856 Před 3 lety +1

      @@nolanbourgouin9500 even thats not stopping you

  • @nkenn-sp4pp
    @nkenn-sp4pp Před rokem

    thank you for voicing this, i’ve needed to hear someone say it out loud

  • @SKRILLA777
    @SKRILLA777 Před rokem +175

    This has given me the push to finally stop smoking weed, I’m 19 and was already getting tired of this cycle I’m that stuck in thank you for sharing your story you are planting the seed in many peoples heads that there’s more to life than this thank you Bill.

    • @igorblyat7839
      @igorblyat7839 Před rokem +10

      Man I'm 19 too and I really wanna quit smoking...all my friends are doing exams and I'm just sitting on my ass at home watching CZcams all day and then going out and drinking with them later. I do absolutely fucking nothing all day when I know the things that I should be doing. I don't know if I'll have the power to quit.

    • @sergioabloh4937
      @sergioabloh4937 Před rokem +6

      @@igorblyat7839 i believe in you bro you’re meant for more than this

    • @burntbeannoe6997
      @burntbeannoe6997 Před rokem +2

      @@igorblyat7839 same boat as you. Taking the school year off and just played games and smoked. Shits depressing really. The money wasted and just not doing nothing else. I hope i can break this cycle as well and find a different purpose

    • @alexa4der632
      @alexa4der632 Před rokem +3

      I feel you im 19 and have been in the cycle for 2 years. Trying to break it is hard

  • @squigglygull1795
    @squigglygull1795 Před 2 lety +1881

    I’m 17, quit weed about 4 month ago after starting at 13 pretty much daily. This guys story is pretty much identical to how I felt it’s crazy. If you’re in a similar boat, you CAN break the cycle❤️

    • @scooterbongs7660
      @scooterbongs7660 Před 2 lety +8

      17 to brother ouss ouss fuck weed

    • @organic4millennials308
      @organic4millennials308 Před 2 lety +52

      Bro u just cant afford some bud

    • @lilungus4875
      @lilungus4875 Před rokem +6

      hey man, in the same situation as you. care to chat maybe?

    • @rumpleforeskin7026
      @rumpleforeskin7026 Před rokem +11

      ur 18 now how did things go

    • @doga55shole92
      @doga55shole92 Před rokem +31

      Dang watching this made me realize how smoking weed changed my life I’ve been smoking since I was 12 I’m 17 now and I’ve managed to smoke away a good portion of my brain I stoped talking to people I liked to be around I switched to AL-alternative learning because I couldn’t even think straight in school anymore it’s like everything I do is consumed by weed I really feel like a degenerate loser

  • @slinkid9410
    @slinkid9410 Před 3 lety +213

    "My only desire was some outside validation. And then to just manage my emotions" That hit me in the heart

    • @mimszanadunstedt441
      @mimszanadunstedt441 Před 3 lety +5

      Thats how my older brother became hopeless on prescriptions and tried heroine and more, cuz the only attention he got was being the asshole who rips the biggest bong and stumbles around.

  • @user-nn6gi2mb6o
    @user-nn6gi2mb6o Před 8 měsíci +5

    Thanks for being honest, i really can relate to your story.
    I’ve started when i was 16, it’s been 38 years for me.
    I’ve know for a while that i should stop, even though it wasn’t an everyday habit, it was constant and since the pandemic something else do alone, in the evening… sure i strech, workout, play music but the beatdown and the guilt is real afterwards like you mention it.Being, tired, zoned out, forgetful, disconnected,self centered are all part of the after effect and i’m done with it.
    I made a decision on my 54th bday to quit.
    It’s only been a week but it feel strong in my resolve.
    Time to see what my life is going to be without it !

  • @johnjulian3590
    @johnjulian3590 Před rokem +2

    Thats a pretty good story, man. Your story helped me enjoy my dab.
    Ima go be productive and finish my school now.

  • @mizuko6132
    @mizuko6132 Před 3 lety +214

    This is a cool video. He’s not putting weed down like a PSA. Just telling his experience of being a dissociative stoner. Even talking about himself before smoking to give you an idea that it didn’t solve his social issues. Everyone is different.

  • @IlmurOsp
    @IlmurOsp Před 3 lety +621

    i started smoking at 13, now im 21 and i still smoke daily, i've been trying to take it down a notch lately, but it's hard af. can't sleep, always stressed out lol

    • @IlmurOsp
      @IlmurOsp Před 3 lety +124

      @@2cautious if it was that easy, I would've by now. Trust me my guy, I've tried but addiction is a bitch

    • @chrisbrady7047
      @chrisbrady7047 Před 3 lety +7

      That’s why you can’t sleep if you really think about it

    • @IlmurOsp
      @IlmurOsp Před 3 lety +18

      @@chrisbrady7047 yeah I know, I've had insomnia since I was a kid though, but the weed definitely didn't help lol

    • @chrisbrady7047
      @chrisbrady7047 Před 3 lety +23

      @@IlmurOsp ya I did to I quit smoking last September I feel like it’s ok to take a couple of hits with your friends once in awhile but when it comes down to it easy to quit smoking if you really want it

    • @maxgolden8060
      @maxgolden8060 Před 3 lety +5

      Same. In the past couple weeks or so I’ve been trying to cut it down a bit. If I was smoking 3 times a day I’d try for 2 tomorrow. Once I get down to basically just smoking at night (where I’m at now) then I just smoke later and later into the night. Hopefully I’ll get to be able to go a full day without it and sleep well. I think it’s about realizing you don’t have to do it all at once.

  • @cartersirois1555
    @cartersirois1555 Před 4 měsíci

    I can’t even describe how relatable this video is. Every single point and experience you relayed resonates with me. I’m 19 and I’ve known that weed doesn’t mesh well with me for years now. But I kept fighting that feeling for various reasons (friends, media, success stories where weed usage was a non issue, etc.) I really need to quit this time around, as I now know that moderation is not an option for me. Thank you for sharing man.

  • @victoriusmaximus596
    @victoriusmaximus596 Před 2 lety +13

    as a 26 y.o. who stopped about 1,5 years ago and started about the same age as you did, i can relate a lot and it feels good to feel like ive won my social side again and to experience how i changed my perception on a lot of things i am dealing with . weed kept me stuck in my process and i chose to stay stuck in that familiar uncomfortable place (as if i was a victim, like u said) because it felt comfortable to be able to controll what i feel like (kind of). thanks for your story!

  • @maxabillionpotatoesandonio3936

    I think that weed affects people differently, I was a star student with a 4.0 gpa, but I was waking and baking every day...

    • @amcboxingfanatic303
      @amcboxingfanatic303 Před 3 lety +30

      Yeah man its just some people are lazy asf and smoke the people compare us to them pooki smokers and alcoholic's which is way more dangerous herb for life

    • @castanho009
      @castanho009 Před 3 lety +36

      @@amcboxingfanatic303 there are functional alcoholics as there are functional stoners. Doesn’t mean you are not addicted and you are not suffering from the effects of the drug you are consuming.

    • @halolime117
      @halolime117 Před 3 lety +11

      Yeah same here, weed has improved everything for me, it’s honestly sad how some people get destroyed by it :/

    • @castanho009
      @castanho009 Před 3 lety +10

      @@halolime117 drugs do not destroy anyone. The reasons why one starts needing to use them regularly is what destroy us. I smoke since I was 14, which was a decade ago: I have a master degree, a girlfriend who I’ve been 5 years with and I’m now moving into my first house. Still I have to sometimes stop the daily use and control my addiction, because I start noticing side effects such as depression, tiredness, etc. I think it’s important to speak freely on these things and to be aware that nothing is only good or only bad, so knowledge is crucial.
      One thing I’d advise for new smokers or veteran smoker is to not smoke before sleep. It’s the worst time to smoke, since thc will impede the REM sleep phase and without it your body and mind will not recover well enough. (This is something I’ve been working on, since my favorite joint is the one I smoke in the silence of the night, alone, while I think about my day and life)

    • @thesnipingspider3852
      @thesnipingspider3852 Před 3 lety +2

      @@castanho009 what if you can only smoke to sleep? Like I’m at a point where if I don’t smoke at night I can’t sleep

  • @Vivacomunismo
    @Vivacomunismo Před 3 lety +419

    "You stoned?
    Idk
    You look stoned huhuhuh"
    *skates away
    Best interaction of all time...
    Also am i the only one that finds this guy hilarious?

  • @ReeseChown
    @ReeseChown Před rokem

    Your storytelling is very imaginative, relatable and delivered in a uniquely Californian way. Thank you for sharing your experience!

  • @bleckan3
    @bleckan3 Před rokem +2

    Big respect, clear example of “you gotta go through it to understand it”

  • @compressedpoop
    @compressedpoop Před 3 lety +172

    he smoked so much he became a bodiless head

  • @cadenmarshall8751
    @cadenmarshall8751 Před 3 lety +490

    What resonated with me was when he mentioned weed creates habits (laziness) that are hard to break even when sober. I’ve quit for about two months now and even though I feel much better, I still lounge around wasting time way more than I should because that’s what I’m used to. I’m working on forcing myself to get up and do things I know I need to be doing, but it’s still uncomfortable and hard to break those old routines. Weed really becomes a lifestyle for a lot of people including myself.

    • @tyronejones4245
      @tyronejones4245 Před 2 lety +13

      I had the same problem. Now I'm an extremely driven person to the point that I can't stand to sit idly without getting something done. You'll get there if you stay sober and really set your mind to becoming a motivated person. Goal setting is a skill that really helps the process as well.

    • @dariomartinez6358
      @dariomartinez6358 Před 2 lety +14

      Yeah weed just accentuates what you are, if you are a lazy, anxious, depressive person and you abuse weed (like smoking everyday) it will take a toll on you, i wouldnt say weed is the origin of the problems we already have mental health issues which get worse by abusing not just weed but any substance

    • @erikl9146
      @erikl9146 Před rokem +1

      @@tyronejones4245 Any tips?

    • @Gdsamplify
      @Gdsamplify Před rokem +1

      @@dariomartinez6358 if it accentuates what you are then why don't high output people use it to increase their output.

    • @Cbd_7ohm
      @Cbd_7ohm Před rokem +3

      ​@@dariomartinez6358 The research doesn't coincide with your claims.

  • @970Bryson
    @970Bryson Před 2 měsíci

    I'm glad you figured it out before too long brother. God bless you bro!!

  • @iMoRpHz
    @iMoRpHz Před rokem +1

    just subscribed. Opened my eyes, great story. We have to question ourselves why we do these bad habits. I’ve heard “weed isn’t bad for you” time and time again. Doesn’t matter, I feel bad and anxious smoking it. I will stop for good. The end of the video was the best part. Change is uncomfortable but inevitable.

    • @lucashester6667
      @lucashester6667 Před rokem +1

      me too. it’s so weird why it makes us feel so anxious but we keep going back to it.

  • @trainattendant5810
    @trainattendant5810 Před 3 lety +378

    Before I got into pot, I was heavily into glue sniffing & any kind of pill I could pop. This was at 13 in 1981. Incidentally my dad bought me my first bag of buds. I figured pot was safer than glue & pills. It is, but I still had bad consequences early on. By my sophomore year in high school I was dropping acid at least once a week. After I got an after-school job in a restaurant I had nightly access to cocaine thu my tips. In my junior year I was so coked up I couldn't see straight. As if the progression wasn't enough, I started smoking PCP & waking up in hospital emergency rooms after having seizures from the dust. Got clean & sober in 1993.

  • @nolightescapeshere
    @nolightescapeshere Před 3 lety +148

    One cannot wander in the forest for 10 years and walk out in 10 days.
    Thanks for the video. I've been a daily smoker since 16 and I'm 27 now. I look back and wish I'd spent that time developing skills or talents. I gave up drinking four years ago, and I know there's still time. Thanks for sharing friend

    • @Iddo97
      @Iddo97 Před 3 lety +6

      I'm clean for 1.5 years.
      I used to look back in regret but I have learned to appreciate that it's part of my story.
      Unconsciously I use that regret to push me in life and I am doing well.
      Also, I know I could have been in a way different place now if I wasn't high 24/7 for all of my teens but I learned to appreciate all the great experiences and friends I made along the way.
      Stay strong brother.

    • @andrewmeece8673
      @andrewmeece8673 Před 3 lety +1

      Well said

    • @mimszanadunstedt441
      @mimszanadunstedt441 Před 3 lety

      Giving up drinking is big, congratulations!

  • @74nn3_r
    @74nn3_r Před rokem

    Great video! I'm glad to hear that. There's other people that relate. I'm in the process of trying to quit myself. It's hard... I quit for about 2 years and then I relapsed and I like smoking weed by myself but it it stops me from achieving my goals in meeting people and living in a real world and creating a life for myself. This is a great video. Thank you

  • @LSTIVRY
    @LSTIVRY Před rokem +2

    man youre such a good story teller, love this video thanks so much for ur experience :)

  • @terrenceatk4682
    @terrenceatk4682 Před 3 lety +178

    This is my life story and I’m only 17. I want to stop but I love weed too much.

    • @235papi6
      @235papi6 Před 3 lety +26

      Just smoke everyday Fuk it But control urself do wjat u gotta do in life like school or work

    • @TayTheGodFather
      @TayTheGodFather Před 3 lety +71

      Nah bro if you want to stop it’s going to take discipline. Restrain yourself from smoking weed on certain days of the week. Example: don’t smoke during the week days and only smoke on weekends. During the week work toward your goals and what you need to do in the present such as school, work, and what ever it is you need to do. Also try to incorporate new hobbies in your life what ever you are interested in. It could be sports, reading, learning to play an instrument/ language, exercising, cars, and variety of other things man. Set goal and work towards them during the week, start of with small short term goals then make long term goals. Eventually you will build enough discipline to quit weed for good, and I’m not saying it will be easy because it’s not going to be easy. But it’s worth it. And if you don’t want to stop that’s ok just do it in moderation like I said only smoke on weekends and week days work on goals and things that need to be done to better you’re life. Hope this helped brother god bless 🙌🏾

    • @sadboyteo6186
      @sadboyteo6186 Před 3 lety +1

      Same exact situation here

    • @prosper4187
      @prosper4187 Před 3 lety +6

      It’s gonna get bad dude

    • @reackizback
      @reackizback Před 3 lety +7

      @@235papi6 not everybody is able to do that weed hit some people different

  • @jackhall5913
    @jackhall5913 Před 3 lety +300

    Wow, this guy literally just explained the last 10 years of my life since I started smoking. Ive been sober for 2 weeks and finally feel like myself again. Weed has given me so much, but taken so much away. Weed made me understand myself and my creative ability, with music, and looking at things from different perspectives. But the self isolation has robbed me of so many experiences and opportunities. Thank you for this message and the inspiration to continue to quit smoking.

    • @mileshewitt7515
      @mileshewitt7515 Před rokem +1

      How's sobriety going?

    • @regularrandom6045
      @regularrandom6045 Před rokem +1

      What's ur taste in music?

    • @jackhall5913
      @jackhall5913 Před rokem +4

      @@mileshewitt7515 really well. I started my own hardscaping business, have been exercising a lot and going to school part time. Stopping It was one of the most painful things I’ve gone through. Having to actually go outside and face the world. But it gets easier and easier every day.

    • @jackhall5913
      @jackhall5913 Před rokem +1

      @@regularrandom6045 I like dream pop, indie alternative, indie folk, hard rock, lo fi, psychedelic rock and some others primarily.

    • @G8tr1522
      @G8tr1522 Před rokem

      ​@@jackhall5913 your struggle sounds similar to mine. You have a hardscaping business? what's it like having an LLC? Does it make sobriety easier or harder?
      I'm an electrician trying to find positive outlets.

  • @magnusdepencier7817
    @magnusdepencier7817 Před rokem +5

    Hey Bill, Just want to say thank you so much for sharing all of this. I'm 23, been smoking almost everyday since I was 17ish and have tried everything to stop. I feel as though I am slowly coming into my own and getting over the hump. I hope so, at least :)

  • @nicklauswolfram100
    @nicklauswolfram100 Před rokem +1

    At 15:30 it felt like you speaking directly to me. affirmed some things that've been on my mind lately, especially when you talked about the long depression cycle aspect to self-medicating, and the relationship detachment. thank you for sharing your story with us

  • @austin3722
    @austin3722 Před 3 lety +87

    You don’t know how much I needed this brother

  • @Bdcbdcbdcbdc
    @Bdcbdcbdcbdc Před 3 lety +5

    this is a beautiful story, thanks for sharing. I remember the old days of CZcams around 2006-2008 when people would upload very candid videos about their life experiences. CZcams was a different platform back then, it was more personable. Anytime I see videos about these topics I instantly click the videos because it is a special experience.

  • @TigranHakobyan-jh8ue
    @TigranHakobyan-jh8ue Před 2 lety +1

    Thanks bro so much you don’t know how much I relate to your story

  • @MultiUSAPatriot
    @MultiUSAPatriot Před 2 lety

    This is awesome. Thank you so much for your honesty. I can relate so much to what you are saying, and I always thought I was the only one!

  • @grafit420
    @grafit420 Před 3 lety +297

    I'm extremely glad that this video popped out in my recommended. I'm 20, I've been smoking weed since my 15 and you have described things and emotions that are extremely similar to my current situation. Although I still try to blame it on the current covid situation, I still have a feeling that something is bad even without it. So far, I never had a chance to talk with someone older that experienced it. I have so many questions that are unanswered... even though, it's just a video, I felt like I had a conversation with you. I don't think that you ever thought that some random guy from Slovakia could share so many feelings. Thank you for that man.

    • @nicolasvuola5574
      @nicolasvuola5574 Před 3 lety +16

      If you ever feel like you need to quit but in the back of your head you think “I’m too far gone”, your not. Studies have proven that if you started smoking while you were adolescent you can stop smoking for about 1-2 years and your brain will fully redevelop and go back to normal

    • @grafit420
      @grafit420 Před 3 lety +13

      @@nicolasvuola5574 Sounds great, but it's mostly about the thoughts that went through my head, for example when I was high zoned out alone in my flat, looking at the wall, deep in my mind. Thoughts that you would never think about if you were sober, but fascinates you even when you're sober. It probably sounds kinda dumb but it's hard for me to describe.

    • @BillHowie
      @BillHowie  Před 3 lety +29

      Thanks for commenting Stefan. I'm happy to know that you found some value in my story. And you'e right about not knowing what kind of impact it would have on someone from another part of the world.

    • @bonvienhd9201
      @bonvienhd9201 Před 3 lety +4

      In 20 smoking since i was 17... I felt mysef reborn... I had male friend ... Now i'm smoking
      ..... Dunno make me feel...normal....have a nice easter guys, smoke becouse you want not becouse you need.

    • @Cod-specialcase
      @Cod-specialcase Před 3 lety +7

      Man I’m watching this at 15

  • @Comsidarates
    @Comsidarates Před 3 lety +422

    How is this so high quality

  • @RyanRichens
    @RyanRichens Před rokem +1

    came back into my recommended, thanks for sharing.

  • @axemealready
    @axemealready Před rokem +1

    Thanks for telling your story. You’ve definitely helped a lot of people try to understand their life. Good lad 👍

  • @simonvandergriff
    @simonvandergriff Před 3 lety +8

    Absolutely invaluable insight and experience. Thank you for sharing, been smoking for probably 3-4 years, gonna turn 20 this September. I want to see myself stop before I turn 21. It’s helped me get through a rough spot in my life but now it’s time for me to let it go and be strong and productive. This video made me feel like that goal is more possible. Thank you so much!!

  • @elliotpriest1236
    @elliotpriest1236 Před 3 lety +6

    This is the most relatable weed related video I have ever seen. Thank you

  • @loukah4401
    @loukah4401 Před 2 lety +2

    Thanks for sharing brother. I quit smoking about 2 months ago after doing it 3-4 times a day for about 3.5 years. It wasn’t an instant fix, just like you said, but at least now I can recognize where I am behind in life.

  • @fredthefish6640
    @fredthefish6640 Před rokem

    Really useful and informative video, It's hard to quit a cycle but videos like these help a ton.

  • @SaintsUnited
    @SaintsUnited Před 3 lety +330

    I smoke weed once an a while. So does my dad but once I tried it when I was 18 he told me ground rules that
    1. Never smoke when you're emotional or going through issues
    2. Treat weed like alcohol, it's nice to have once and a while but don't abuse it
    3. Don't smoke on your own
    And from then on I've made sure it's never grabbed a hold of me. If i'm going to smoke it will be with a group of friends usually on friday night so it doesn't interfere with my work. Great video though Bill, subbed :))

    • @kobejones3869
      @kobejones3869 Před 3 lety +97

      If you can't control your own self and you need papas rules you shouldn't be smoking, just dont be fucking dumb, his one rule should be "have common sense"

    • @SaintsUnited
      @SaintsUnited Před 3 lety

      @@kobejones3869 that's just obvious though, well at least in my eyes

    • @SaintsUnited
      @SaintsUnited Před 3 lety +11

      @@kobejones3869 also i never said i needed my dads rules. he's the one who showed me weed and he told me a few things before i done it back in the day. Don't be an arsehole about it

    • @tomcadogan9047
      @tomcadogan9047 Před 3 lety +3

      this the most virgin shit i’ve ever read

    • @jonathandiaz-ef6th
      @jonathandiaz-ef6th Před 3 lety +2

      Thats sum bs smoke weed everyday

  • @jackoroni4609
    @jackoroni4609 Před 3 lety +63

    The whole being more anti social while smoking hit me hard. Can relate a lot to this dude I'm about to be 18 and still smoke alot but maybe this vid is a wake up call to stop a little bit. Nice video bro

    • @antonjonasson5871
      @antonjonasson5871 Před 3 lety

      Omg same

    • @l3goo00s4
      @l3goo00s4 Před 3 lety +2

      * asocial

    • @ainsleyharriot3023
      @ainsleyharriot3023 Před 3 lety +2

      I am 17 and have recently stopped smoking everyday. Trust me after two weeks, you start feeling way more confident, social, and just better in general. Its been around a month since I've last smoked, I feel great and I do not crave it whatsoever. Good luck, its worth it!

  • @Rice_BaL
    @Rice_BaL Před rokem

    this gotta be the most relatable vid ever man this some real shit i’ve never watched ur vids before but keep it up man this is great

  • @Bellanitabg221
    @Bellanitabg221 Před rokem

    I still on it, It's a habit now, and I can control it more than before but its just so hard to leave it, even more when you struggle with depression, thank you for sharing your story!

  • @ratty345678
    @ratty345678 Před 3 lety +6

    I’m 21 and really needed to hear this. Thank you

  • @BrokenFingerzz
    @BrokenFingerzz Před 3 lety +233

    if you’re reading this, everything will be ok

    • @oscardavis3647
      @oscardavis3647 Před 2 lety +13

      thanks man. this a real underated comment but i needed that so much rn with whats going on

    • @Waffle143
      @Waffle143 Před 2 lety +4

      @@oscardavis3647 if u ever need to talk i’m a good listener!!!

    • @kyleholt3733
      @kyleholt3733 Před 2 lety +1

      @@oscardavis3647 same here man same here

    • @happykof
      @happykof Před 2 lety

      @@oscardavis3647 yup hope youre doing oke brother 👊

    • @aj3852
      @aj3852 Před 2 lety

      @@oscardavis3647 hope you’re good man , I’m still here getting mad anxious about still smoking weed as I have my practice exams coming up soon in September onwards . Scary times man , I’m hoping for the best

  • @israelnene01
    @israelnene01 Před rokem +1

    it looks like you are me in the future telling me to change! tnks for the video, much love!

  • @jadenrudland2583
    @jadenrudland2583 Před rokem

    We’ll said man. You put into words some thoughts in my head that I haven’t been able to piece together.