I'm more than okay thank you! I hope you're good also, I'm planning on returning to CZcams in the coming months! Should be really fun & I have some art to show everyone
@@AlbinoFawnArt I just watched this video and had a look at your channel and saw you hadn’t posted for 3 years. I got very worried about you, so I’m very happy to read this! 😊
I got diagnosed with schizophrenia 19 years ago as a teenage. Spent my whole life fighting this deadly disorder. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.
I would like to know from those who have solved PTSD and anxiety, if they have solved it definitively and how to understand what quantity of psilocybin to take and when, for how long. And can you really heal without having an addiction? Thanks to everyone for helping me understand, I want to understand if it's something that can help me solve the problem (I have c-ptsd)
You’re very self aware, which is one of the most important keys to mental health recovery. I promise, everything will get better if you push through. Time heals.
I want schizoaffective. If you have something that you really want in your life, spend lots of time thinking about it. The more you think the more ideas will pop up the more creative your gonna start to get. Your subconscious mind doesn't care if your vision is crazy. It doesnt care if you dont know how to do it. When you see a thing clearly in your mind, your creative "success mechanism" within you takes over and does the job much better than you could do it by conscious effort or willpower. A different psychedelic from a different planet every nanosecond. All sorts of dreams are possible. The human nervous system cannot tell the difference between an "actual" experience and an experience imagined vividly and in detail. Synthesize "experience," to literally create experience, and control it, in the laboratory of our minds. A vision is a very emotional image, the most powerful image that you can come up with for yourself at this time. This vision will become like a hallucination in other peoples mind and this could be the cause of them creating extraordinary things.
It can be the meds, but a blank affect is an indicator of schizophrenia in itself, as is over sleeping. And honestly for any of you who haven't dealt with this get the F out of here with your anti-medication bull. This disease destroys people's entire lives, it truly is one mental illness where medicine is absolutely 100% *needed* to bring a human being back to life. I've seen patients STARVE themselves to the point of needing a feeding tube from paranoia, seen patients hide magic markers inside their own torn open surgical wounds, seen patients cry in terror because life for them is what we see in paranormal horror movies......you DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT IS AT STAKE HERE. Stop, for freaking real.
I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia as well. I was 24 when I was diagnosed. I can relate to everything you say. You are so strong and brave for sharing this. Makes me feel like I'm not alone. Thank you 💛
Skitzopheria is BS. People that they say are skitzo are actually just tapping into the spiritual realm. Skiitzo is just an explanation by doctors cause they don't know how else to explain it. I thought I was until I started recording the voices and got them on tape. I then realized I was hearing souls of humans that passed on. Especially my loved ones...I now xan hear my loved ones who have died of overdoses. Skitzophrenia is a lie. Made up by doctors
Hun I think u r amazingly brave to put this video up! Thankyou for being so brave and explaining to us what it's like. It must be hell to have your brain function like that. You are amazing to have to deal with that. Never forget how amazing you are :)
I have a child diagnosed with autism and anxiety and sensory issues. But he's still too young to figure out what else might be wrong. He's very violent and has said his brain tells him to kill ppl and himself and stuff and when he was younger he said there were two men in his brain telling him bad things, now he describes it as a good brain (blue) and a darkness brain. I don't know if he's bipolar or has schizophrenia or something or if it's just a way of describing his difficult thoughts at his age level. He doesn't say stuff like that when it's quiet and calm for him, I think it's when he's overloaded sensory wise. But at this stage I can't tell. So as a Mum of a kid with problems like that I really feel for you and think you're wonderful for telling us your story cos it helps us to understand it and get rid of the stereo types of someone who struggles with what you do.
heal urself I know this comment isnt for me but it struck a chord in me. The child is very sensitive and it can be hard to understand if people around the child are not. As we grow older we disconnect from that sensitvity. Its within us all,but some of us cant. The tone of a voice we feel deeply, we feel peoples energies-we feel everything. As I said this is actually our natural state of being but in a world that has become very hard it can be painful to have it. If you can truely understand how sensitive the child is the suffering will naturally leave. When we are sensitive because we feel everything deeply we can become angry,frustrated. But remember not to treat that,its a by product if such feeling. Be as gentle as can be,love deeply and look into what it is like for a sensitive child. Beyond any diagnosis . Your child can live a more incredible life than most because they are tuned in,but the sensitivity needs to be nurtured. X
No and yes! Our brains are apart, but you can feel bad energy and i swear its the devil or evil. Good visions (Gabriel) is definately god. God bless man!!!
I’m so sorry for everything you go threw , it sounds so exhausting and hard , I could never imagine having to deal with all that. You are so pretty , I hope things gets easier for you
My wife had it too. She refused any real treatment and I know first hand how terrible it was for her. She was a bit older than you, 35 and had a kidney transplant also. I lost her last year to it. Sorry to subject that part to you but just DON'T give up.ever! You're stronger then you think. Always ask for help, even if every part of you says not to. Pray, sing, paint...whatever it takes, keep fighting it. Good luck to you kiddo and may God be with you.
Sending good vibes and love your way! My husband, my sister and both of my aunts are schizophrenic so we deal with it a lot in our family. Don’t forget you’re not alone in this!!! we are all thinking of you and praying for you sweetie!!! Stay strong love, you got this!!! Xoxo❤️ To those of you who think you know what you’re talking about and have suggested that she doesn’t take her medication, shame on you. you have no idea what this completely incapacitating disease does to the individual or their families......
You are so amazingly brave for sharing your story because it does sounds scary what you deal with. I wish you the best of luck with everything, stay strong
You look like you're doing really well!! Keep it up and just take care of yourself. And good for you for being open about what this is really like for people, so many don't understand what you have to go through.
Aloha and Mahalo. Stay Strong. And understand how special you are. Thank you for explaining your experiences. I can completely relate and i understand how challenging juggling your condition on top of life is. Your story will help many others take consideration and time to get to know you and others like you. Everyone is unique in their own way, fighting a battle no one knows about, until you spread awareness. Love One Another.
I’m so sorry you’ve been struggling for so long. Please hold onto the people that love you dearly, at the end of the day they are the ones that keep us going. I love you! 💛
I wish you all the strength in the world, really it most be horrible to deal with this and i will hope that one day it will get better. Until then i will pray that you have at least a few days where the voices and hallucinations aren't as bad. Courage and lots of luck to you
You are so strong for sharing all of this so candidly with people. I think you will be a great help to many people who see this. I wish you all the best in life and in dealing with this condition.
You are an incredibly strong person I have so much respect for you. I’m so sorry this happens to you. You are giving people that go through this comfort, you’re the light in the darkness.
I wish I understood more about schizophrenia so I could truly empathize with people who suffer from this terrible disorder. You seem like a very sweet young lady and I wish you the best. Stay strong.
Thank you for your honesty. You're very young and have plenty of time to keep healing and recovering. You seem to be doing well! Keep up the good work! Good luck!
Glad you are getting the support you need. You are very courageous and mindful to talk about your experiences with such clarity. Spiritual emergence network supports those with transpersonal awareness. Love to you! 💗
It's great of you to tell your story, there's not that many representatives for schizophrenic people. You probably made some of people feel alot more normal and related to not to mention less alone in their struggle. Good luck in the future
hope you're doing well... i'm 23 and had severe psychotic episode 3 yrs ago and suffered with symptoms ever since... love the way you communicate it's very therapeutic for me to watch and relatable. love
poor you baby, i have ocd because of something bad that happened to me and it was a bit my fault. it's been almost 4 years and it's in my head hauting me in every second. i'm watching your video to understand it muhc more and to educate myself though i will never be a doctor unfortunately.
Nice room I like your style I have Schizoeffective disorder, :( I used to think I was Evil but then realized I was thinking of horrorbile Violence without knowing or wanting to
@koffinkat666 as long as you continue to be influenced by satanism you are gonna be schizophrenic and depressed. The devil simply just doesn't give any comfort or hope
This video just came up as recommended to me. I noticed it's been a fair few months since you uploaded...7 to be exact, & I thought I'd type this in hopes that if you needed to, you'd see it. I just wanted to let you know that you seem like such a dear girl & you did a very good job explaining some of your life experiences up to this point. In fact, I'm SURE there's someone out there, struggling with mental illness, feeling less alone for having watched this. I am hoping you're finding yourself healthy & well & I wish you nothing but the best. Btw- don't EVER pay any mind to those voices telling you things like you're worthless! I am fully aware of how absolutely real they are to you, as I am a licensed therapist, but they are most certainly NOT correct! You are a sweet & valuable young lady who deserves happiness & health & anyone or anything telling you otherwise is just WRONG.😊❤
This is the most genuine video I've seen about this subject so far. You are a very strong person! :) I wish you the best. Things will get better! :) I hope you are reading all these nice comments :)
Stay strong & positive, it'll get better. Keep doing a Vlog or diary & share with your therapist. I think u r amazing, brave & so pretty. I have an almost overwhelming urge to comfort u & take away any pain... I truly wish u all the best.
You're an amazing person. Not so long ago your issues were perceived to be so bad but nowadays people with mental health issues are much more accepted. Keep up the good work I wish you all the best! Stay classy!
Great to hear your voice. Please read up on the medication you are taking. I've never been on percribed medication, but once I took what I thought was ecstasy it literally made my vision, thoughts and emotional actions become like a movie. I knew it was not real. It took 12 hours before it left. It made me realize how people live with this all year long. The best advice is eat healthy, drink healthy (no tap water) exercise, keep telling yourself you can use this to become stronger. What doesn't kill me makes me stronger. You will feel better and will give you strength. You need to rise above it. Make it your challenge. I will pray for you young woman. God bless. You have to fight it...
Hi there, sorry that you're going through some troubles, I have a friend who deals with schizophrenia too, I was wondering if wearing shades would help you as it's been recorded that blind people don't develop schizophrenia, so maybe if you have less visuals when you're upset it won't be as bad for you. A dog might help to reaffirm what is and isn't there for you and maybe someone to talk to when you're having bad times, I think music is a useful tool along with drawing what's scary and depicting stories to connect that back to reality to help. It's also good to talk to the voices and be critical of what they say to you, ask them why they believe those ideas, joke to them about it. Medicine is important and a good diet can help, I suffer from panic disorder but taking magnesium and growing my own food really helps along with a routine where you do things you enjoy, It may seem bad but you have control and I do hope you have more better days, you're doing great.
Wish u had more videos , u give such a good feeling and real interpretation of this mental health problem , your the best and most real on youtube for this, u should do more videos, well done 👍🏼X
My Nan had schizophrenia very bad and so did many other of my family members. I myself have many mood disorders and am failing school completely right now because of it. I'm not being negative or saying i'm in the same boat completely but i try to understand schizophrenia as best i can cause so many of my loved ones have had it. Please if you need to use nicotine like many people with mental illnesses vape and don't smoke cigarettes, my Nan died at 51 because of and one of my other family members had an heart attack. I have high functioning autism so it's hard for me to socialize very well because of it so i often lock myself away for a bit. Anyway i just wanted to say your not alone and i'm sure i'm a lot like you in many ways. Please just remember to live life the best you can and if it's not good enough for some people then fuck em.
I've always suspected that schizophrenia is your frequency tuning into another demention. Kind of how you have the radio dial half way tuned to one station, but still hear the other. Like she said, she feels like she's in a different universe.
@@LoreleiSiren277 I have it. Got the diagnosis 4 years ago. And it is more or less. The thought on how a sixth sense could be understood today rather than how it was perceived long ago is quite different. Chemical imbalances isn't really the entire reasoning for this happening. I'll agree it might be a reaction within the process that's taking place. But if chemical imbalances is all the psychologists have to go on after decades of knowing about Schizophrenia then it has failed to acquire really any satisfying confidence. They would rather create test medications than to actually research it thoroughly. After hundreds of years of this phenomenon one could possibly presume that this might be just an actual function in the body. Though if I should be one to talk about this within a realm of psychological correctness and to come up with a more scientific approach I would say this is a more Subconscious factor that is taking place here. One does not have to be unconscious in order for subconscious influences to occur. So seemingly there is a sixth sense, to say the subconscious is that sense. And also to say that "schizophrenia" is a very ultimate form of subconscious influence. If you were to think that the subconscious is only limited to moving the body and talking for the person while one is blackout drunk or when one is sleepwalking, you would have to highly reconsider your contentment. Let me ask you some things. How much control do you think you actually have over your body? When you make eye contact with an attractive stranger and the moment becomes awkward, Do you scratch your head knowing it's not itchy? Rub your nose real quick and look away? Something close like that? And you would be making those reactions willingly? I doubt that would be the case. And so it's unwillingly then.. And you don't have a problem with that? You just shake it off or seemingly try not to think about it, Right? Just like those who have voices in their heads, you have things within yourself that seemingly can't be controlled. Only difference is that they have a stronger influence and you don't, least for moment. If you accept your mind you can be capable of anything.
Wow this is horrible I really want to hug you rn :( I’m very very sorry that anybody would feel like this. You’re so brave, it’s incredible. I hope you get better :)
Such a precious little angel. Darling, You're just so... gorgeous. Not a bad bone in her body. I wish you all the luck in the world. You're stronger than you'll ever know. Keep taking your meds & remember the condition tends to get less severe as you go through life. Hopefully you'll be able to stay out of hospital & live a normal life - you're such a little gem. You only deserve the best you poor little thing... apologies for being so patronising but I just had to leave a comment as you've taken my breath away tonight Emily. You take care.
You have such a good grasp on your self awareness. You seem like a wonderful person, beautiful inside out. My brother is on the cusp of BP and schizophrenia. He has a very high intelligence. Have you thought about writing? Turning what’s going on into stories? You’re strong! I hope you’re doing well and have friends around, which I know can be hard. Sounds like you have a whole lot of people rooting for you here!
i suffer from schizophrenia and anxiety and recently I've been hallucinating a women in the corner of my eye or when I'm in the bath or washing my face or walking so it sucks and when I wake up i hear voices or when I'm eating , normal stuff. in my situation I try and ignore them but when they get really bad it scares the hell outta me .
🥺 I’m so sorry you have to deal with this. I just want to go and be your friend, give you a hug and protect you from everything. Things will get better love, it won’t always be so hard. Things will get easier, take it day by day. You got this. Also, random, but you give me heavy Alice in wonderland vibes❤️ you are so adorable.
You are an amazing young lady to have the guts to talk about your condition so candidly. Just know that you are not alone. I have always thought of myself as a manly man and I literally lost it about two minutes in and cried more than I've ever cried in my life.
It sounds like the mind is stuck in limbo between processing reality and generating dreams. Aldous Huxley talks about this in his book "The doors of perception." But how to snap out of this? I do a spot of Astral Projection and when my body is going into paralysis I hear voices, but they quickly pass. The dream mind is switching on and when complete I continue consciously into a dreamlike reality, minus the voices. If there was some way of completely snapping the mind out of that hypnagogic state... I know that certain foods can prevent you from Astral Projecting and some foods aid it. I wonder too if a patient was able to completely go into the Astral, then consciously come back would there be a reset in the brain? Whatever circuit in the brain that allows that process to happen may be reset. The brain might say, "ok, we are now back in reality... release hormones XYZ to keep us there.." Like turning something off and on again, as the IT Crowd would say. Hmmmmm!
You are an amazing young lady to make this video and talk so open about what you are going through.. You are brave and very strong that I can see I wish you all the best and all the love for you for your future. Don't give up sweetheart your doing great I don't know you at all but feel very proud of you for talking so open
I wish you the best and I'll be praying for you. I also suffer from this horrible disease. Best thing you can do is to Keep talking about it. It has more power when you try to ignore them and act like its not there. Do as much research on this as you can. There are new amazing meds and techniques coming out. Hey at least we don't have this disease in the early 40s or 50s. We would have been thrown away but now we at least have a chance of some type of normal life. Stay strong!
You said you hit people in the past because the voices told you to. When the voices speak and tell you to do things, is it like you have no chance to refuse to do as they say? Do you do it because it seems reasonable? Does it feel better when you obey them? Can you now, or do you think it will be possible in the future, listen to them but essentially ignore them as if they were a radio station playing in the background? In my case I'm diagnosed as autistic and it does seem that autism is almost a cousin of schizophrenia. Many overlapping symptoms, almost like schizophrenia but without hallucinations outside moments of extreme stress (apart from autism specific issues like an inability to connect with people and the obsessions, for example). I write fiction and do a lot of freewriting, and many of the stories that come out when it flows make some of the characters or situations like belonging to schizophrenia, as if the schizophrenic symptoms were happening in my subconscious but I am not conscious of it.
Kivalt I can't speak for everyone, but in my experience it's not about trusting the voices or anything like that. It doesn't feel good to obey them at all, but it "keeps them happy" for a while so you can feel like you've done the right thing but then you realize it's not.
I suspected something like that, that the voices are abusing the person and that you have to placate them until they start again. As if they were an alcoholic, violent parent.
Kivalt I suppose, I'm not sure what that is like since I've never been alcoholic, but I understand the concept. If you look at it from a religious perspective, it's similar to the devils whisper. Another thing to compare it to would be like listening/talking to your doppelganger..
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Hi, that's a beautiful relation. Yes, voices are like an alcoholi-violent parent tellling you to buy cigarrettes or giving you alcohol to fall asleep. Then wont stfu unless you obey and it is so painfull. When you lie, when you do stuff you dont want to but just want to be quiet for a while. Most of the time I feel like it's my seld talkin inside my head but it will be so painfull to know that its me making my self be this way.
I can ignore some voices, but some telling me i have to do things or else my mom and sister will die or someone will cut off my legs while i sleep and i get very scared and i must do what they say....
wow, you're unbelievably brave and strong for doing this, so hang in there, so many people learn to manage this illness, nothing to be ashamed of, this isn't your fault. i know it's not the same thing but i tried to quit smoking about 20 times before i did, so the key is to realize every step you take in helping yourself is like building blocks, you may not see the progress sometimes but it's there, the key is to never stop trying until it becomes something you aren't afraid of anymore.
i want to hug you #nopedo :) i have autism and sometimes the environment sound reaches level Airplane. If this happens i go into myself and my brain makes a voice out of the monotonous airplane sound because i dont understand the expressions behind the maginal looks on me. Sorry for my grammaticle errors iam from germany. Do something creative, paint, mold, ask for a pet. if you concentrate everything 1 point there is no room left for the voices in your head. i wish you gl, you will do it you are a cute girl.
As an outsider it seems like your mind cannot make the distinction between reality and fantasy so that the fantasy seems real and potentially terrifying. I wonder it it's some legacy thing in the sufferer's brain from evolution, because it seems quite primitive - and by that I mean paranoia as a form of a defense mechanism from predators etc
I have absolutely no malicious intent and I am open to people educating me on the subject and correcting my thoughts on it as it is interesting to me. Starting in the forums of CZcams is a legitimate starting point. I did a tonne of research on toxic narcissism for example, starting on CZcams forums and watching videos and then reading books on the subject later on as I've known someone for many years who only recently I discovered had that particular condition. There must be a reason behind why schizophrenia exists and I'm interested in knowing why; toxic narcissists for example have no borders and people who are like that can be found in different, countries, cultures, genders and races - the same I believe could be said of schizophrenics. With toxic narcissists I believe it's a primitive/ legacy survival mechanism gone haywire at the expense of others where the person with such a trait does not view other people as a normal person does, can be utterly cruel, deceptive and devious and cannot feel true love or empathy for example. There has to be a reason why Schizophrenia manifests itself in people and pervades across different groups.
I dont mean to be disrespectful or anything but she seems so dead inside, i wonder if its just because shes sad from the topic or if its the medication. im only just learning about schizophrenia and i feel so bad people have to go through this.
Dibidibidis MyNameIsMinho Yeah she looks exhausted and maybe a bit depressed. I'm glad that she made progress though and I bet she'll continue to get better over time (:
Dibidibidis MyNameIsMinho it's the meds and the schizo that slows down soeach because she has to do more thinking than you. And her life isn't always so happy go lucky.
Its the meds...serquel makes me like this. Luckily not on it anymore, so a bit better as current meds not as strong. BUT has always been worst side effect for me
I hope she’s doing good today does anyone know?
I'm more than okay thank you! I hope you're good also,
I'm planning on returning to CZcams in the coming months! Should be really fun & I have some art to show everyone
@@AlbinoFawnArt I just watched this video and had a look at your channel and saw you hadn’t posted for 3 years. I got very worried about you, so I’m very happy to read this! 😊
@@AlbinoFawnArt So glad to hear that you're doing well 🙂
It's good to see you responded that you are doing well. Have you been painting lately?
@@AlbinoFawnArt When you saw Gabriel, what did he say to you? Did he mention trying to find the gods or David?
I got diagnosed with schizophrenia 19 years ago as a teenage. Spent my whole life fighting this deadly disorder. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.
How do i reach out to him? Is he on instgram
I would like to know from those who have solved PTSD and anxiety, if they have solved it definitively and how to understand what quantity of psilocybin to take and when, for how long. And can you really heal without having an addiction?
Thanks to everyone for helping me understand, I want to understand if it's
something that can help me solve the problem (I have c-ptsd)
Does he make delivery across the country?
Yes! Got mine shipped here in Ireland 🇮🇪
You're the sweetest person. I wish you every bit of luck in life
Andrew Rye I want her to be my best friend
@Darwin Lima ignore everything trust me it can go away and go see your doctor immediately
You’re very self aware, which is one of the most important keys to mental health recovery.
I promise, everything will get better if you push through.
Time heals.
I'm schizoaffective and you are my hero for keeping on pushing through this illness. Thank you.
I hope the best for you Hannah, I am going through many of the same things as her
Is an a or e?
I want schizoaffective. If you have something that you really want in your life, spend lots of time thinking about it. The more you think the more ideas will pop up the more creative your gonna start to get. Your subconscious mind doesn't care if your vision is crazy. It doesnt care if you dont know how to do it.
When you see a thing clearly in your mind, your creative "success mechanism" within you takes over and does the job much better than you could do it by conscious effort or willpower.
A different psychedelic from a different planet every nanosecond.
All sorts of dreams are possible.
The human nervous system cannot tell the difference between an "actual" experience and an experience imagined vividly and in detail.
Synthesize "experience," to literally create experience, and control it, in the laboratory of our minds.
A vision is a very emotional image, the most powerful image that you can come up with for yourself at this time. This vision will become like a hallucination in other peoples mind and this could be the cause of them creating extraordinary things.
So someone explain that means all religion people are schizo ?
She’s seems so drowsy. Poor kid, seems like such a sweetheart.
Holy_Hand_Grenade-of-Antioch because the government keeps her drugged up..
Everyone that didn't need medication seems to think to know if they are good or not.
It can be the meds, but a blank affect is an indicator of schizophrenia in itself, as is over sleeping.
And honestly for any of you who haven't dealt with this get the F out of here with your anti-medication bull.
This disease destroys people's entire lives, it truly is one mental illness where medicine is absolutely 100% *needed* to bring a human being back to life. I've seen patients STARVE themselves to the point of needing a feeding tube from paranoia, seen patients hide magic markers inside their own torn open surgical wounds, seen patients cry in terror because life for them is what we see in paranormal horror movies......you DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT IS AT STAKE HERE.
Stop, for freaking real.
It is called a blank affect. It is common with schizophrenia.
@@colemarie9262 Indeed!!!!
I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia as well. I was 24 when I was diagnosed. I can relate to everything you say. You are so strong and brave for sharing this. Makes me feel like I'm not alone. Thank you 💛
im with you as well
Send me what app number we can talk about I have same problem
Courtney Witham it’s a mental illness
Skitzopheria is BS. People that they say are skitzo are actually just tapping into the spiritual realm. Skiitzo is just an explanation by doctors cause they don't know how else to explain it. I thought I was until I started recording the voices and got them on tape. I then realized I was hearing souls of humans that passed on. Especially my loved ones...I now xan hear my loved ones who have died of overdoses. Skitzophrenia is a lie. Made up by doctors
Stay strong kido.
Amen
You remind me of Luna From Harry Potter 💗
Yea!!!
> Your suffering reminds me of that actress from a Harry Potter movie.
Stay classy.
Hun I think u r amazingly brave to put this video up! Thankyou for being so brave and explaining to us what it's like. It must be hell to have your brain function like that. You are amazing to have to deal with that. Never forget how amazing you are :)
I have a child diagnosed with autism and anxiety and sensory issues. But he's still too young to figure out what else might be wrong. He's very violent and has said his brain tells him to kill ppl and himself and stuff and when he was younger he said there were two men in his brain telling him bad things, now he describes it as a good brain (blue) and a darkness brain. I don't know if he's bipolar or has schizophrenia or something or if it's just a way of describing his difficult thoughts at his age level. He doesn't say stuff like that when it's quiet and calm for him, I think it's when he's overloaded sensory wise. But at this stage I can't tell.
So as a Mum of a kid with problems like that I really feel for you and think you're wonderful for telling us your story cos it helps us to understand it and get rid of the stereo types of someone who struggles with what you do.
heal urself I know this comment isnt for me but it struck a chord in me. The child is very sensitive and it can be hard to understand if people around the child are not. As we grow older we disconnect from that sensitvity. Its within us all,but some of us cant. The tone of a voice we feel deeply, we feel peoples energies-we feel everything. As I said this is actually our natural state of being but in a world that has become very hard it can be painful to have it. If you can truely understand how sensitive the child is the suffering will naturally leave. When we are sensitive because we feel everything deeply we can become angry,frustrated. But remember not to treat that,its a by product if such feeling. Be as gentle as can be,love deeply and look into what it is like for a sensitive child. Beyond any diagnosis . Your child can live a more incredible life than most because they are tuned in,but the sensitivity needs to be nurtured. X
No and yes! Our brains are apart, but you can feel bad energy and i swear its the devil or evil. Good visions (Gabriel) is definately god. God bless man!!!
I’m so sorry for everything you go threw , it sounds so exhausting and hard , I could never imagine having to deal with all that. You are so pretty , I hope things gets easier for you
My wife had it too. She refused any real treatment and I know first hand how terrible it was for her. She was a bit older than you, 35 and had a kidney transplant also. I lost her last year to it. Sorry to subject that part to you but just DON'T give up.ever! You're stronger then you think. Always ask for help, even if every part of you says not to. Pray, sing, paint...whatever it takes, keep fighting it. Good luck to you kiddo and may God be with you.
I’m so sorry, I hope you’re okay 🙏🏽🩵 May please God be with you
Your video helps me feel less alone. This pretty well describes my world. THANK YOU SO MUCH! Keep your head up princess
you are very very brave to talk about this (also I love your hair😊)❤️❤️
Sending good vibes and love your way! My husband, my sister and both of my aunts are schizophrenic so we deal with it a lot in our family. Don’t forget you’re not alone in this!!! we are all thinking of you and praying for you sweetie!!! Stay strong love, you got this!!! Xoxo❤️
To those of you who think you know what you’re talking about and have suggested that she doesn’t take her medication, shame on you. you have no idea what this completely incapacitating disease does to the individual or their families......
This poor girl! Stay strong! You're rlly pretty btw
I'm really sorry about this, I hope you'll be better. :)
It is so hard, I am sure.
I want to hug you, give so so so much power, best of luck you! ❤
You are so amazingly brave for sharing your story because it does sounds scary what you deal with. I wish you the best of luck with everything, stay strong
This is such an impressive video. You can feel the pain through every word she says. I really wish you the best of luck🍀
You look like you're doing really well!!
Keep it up and just take care of yourself.
And good for you for being open about what this is really like for people, so many don't understand what you have to go through.
Never usually comment on videos, but this was really touching. So brave of you to talk so openly about it 💪 super inspiring
I hope you feel better, you seem like a really sweet person
Aloha and Mahalo. Stay Strong. And understand how special you are. Thank you for explaining your experiences. I can completely relate and i understand how challenging juggling your condition on top of life is. Your story will help many others take consideration and time to get to know you and others like you. Everyone is unique in their own way, fighting a battle no one knows about, until you spread awareness. Love One Another.
I’m so sorry you’ve been struggling for so long. Please hold onto the people that love you dearly, at the end of the day they are the ones that keep us going. I love you! 💛
Well done for being so open about your experience, as I know this is not easy, especially as your recovering.
Keep positive !!
Man your eyes are mesmerizing, as if I were starting to feel it all myself
I wish you all the strength in the world, really it most be horrible to deal with this and i will hope that one day it will get better. Until then i will pray that you have at least a few days where the voices and hallucinations aren't as bad. Courage and lots of luck to you
You are so strong for sharing all of this so candidly with people. I think you will be a great help to many people who see this. I wish you all the best in life and in dealing with this condition.
You are an incredibly strong person I have so much respect for you. I’m so sorry this happens to you. You are giving people that go through this comfort, you’re the light in the darkness.
I wish I understood more about schizophrenia so I could truly empathize with people who suffer from this terrible disorder. You seem like a very sweet young lady and I wish you the best. Stay strong.
you're the only person in CZcams that I turn the bells on for - more videos pretty pleasee :)
Thank you for your honesty. You're very young and have plenty of time to keep healing and recovering. You seem to be doing well! Keep up the good work! Good luck!
Glad you are getting the support you need. You are very courageous and mindful to talk about your experiences with such clarity. Spiritual emergence network supports those with transpersonal awareness. Love to you! 💗
good luck and i hope you get it all under control
Thank you
Good luck
you're so calm and pleasant. you kinda remind me of luna lovegood from Harry Potter💖
You’re an inspiration. You will help a lot of people with your bravery x
It's great of you to tell your story, there's not that many representatives for schizophrenic people. You probably made some of people feel alot more normal and related to not to mention less alone in their struggle. Good luck in the future
We wish you the best Sweetheart!,.. give her and stay safe!,..happy to see you understand schizophrenia so much!.
Stay strong!
hope you're doing well... i'm 23 and had severe psychotic episode 3 yrs ago and suffered with symptoms ever since... love the way you communicate it's very therapeutic for me to watch and relatable. love
You’re so strong you have no idea! Don’t ever give up on yourself! I love you ❤️
poor you baby, i have ocd because of something bad that happened to me and it was a bit my fault. it's been almost 4 years and it's in my head hauting me in every second. i'm watching your video to understand it muhc more and to educate myself though i will never be a doctor unfortunately.
Wow you're so young to be going through this illness already. My schizophrenia didn't develop until 24.
Thank you so much for sharing this. I feel like a lot, for about 16ish years, and I'm scared. I'm glad I'm not alone
Thank you for posting this video. It was incredibly brave of you. I know you are going to achieve greatness in your life. Wish you the best.
Nice room I like your style I have Schizoeffective disorder, :( I used to think I was Evil but then realized I was thinking of horrorbile Violence without knowing or wanting to
koffinkat666 everyone has evil thoughts but we hide them even from ourselves so don't judge yourself :P thoughts come out of nowhere
@koffinkat666 as long as you continue to be influenced by satanism you are gonna be schizophrenic and depressed. The devil simply just doesn't give any comfort or hope
Thanks for defending me
koffinkat666 you schozoaffective can be pretty violent from what I hear. But yeah I don't think tour evil
Thanks
🌈🌿🐤🐱🌟Sending lots of love, huggles ,thoughts and wishes 🌼 💕 🙏🌛Light , healing vibrations and heart cuddles 💓💗💕🙇💖🌼🐰
This video just came up as recommended to me. I noticed it's been a fair few months since you uploaded...7 to be exact, & I thought I'd type this in hopes that if you needed to, you'd see it. I just wanted to let you know that you seem like such a dear girl & you did a very good job explaining some of your life experiences up to this point. In fact, I'm SURE there's someone out there, struggling with mental illness, feeling less alone for having watched this. I am hoping you're finding yourself healthy & well & I wish you nothing but the best. Btw- don't EVER pay any mind to those voices telling you things like you're worthless! I am fully aware of how absolutely real they are to you, as I am a licensed therapist, but they are most certainly NOT correct! You are a sweet & valuable young lady who deserves happiness & health & anyone or anything telling you otherwise is just WRONG.😊❤
Thank you for sharing your experiences. It's not to easy to talk about these things. I wish you the best in life. Things will get better!
God bless you, never quit fighting for freedom. Medical intervention will be able to cure you in your life time. Never give up.
I want to hug you. This is so hard for me.
But imagine if she was a guy.
Ego Death hugging another dude who needs a hug is 100% acceptable.
"This is hard for me" while a girl tells you that she has a life changing disease. "Hey, look at me." Btw, your Knight disorder is showing.
@Milla Isak how the fk do you know? All he said is "this is so hard for me"
@@nickthompson1812 aye been their.
This is the most genuine video I've seen about this subject so far.
You are a very strong person! :) I wish you the best. Things will get better! :) I hope you are reading all these nice comments :)
You are so precious...... you’re a gift to this world just as much as anyone else. Don’t be hard on yourself dear. ❤️ much love to you.
You're so pretty!!! You have a bright future ahead of you take it day by day.
how are those two thigns related?
TheWhistlingCysts you see...she doesnt even have to try to be liked....thats how they are related...
TheWhistlingCysts Did he say they were related? No. So where have you got that information from?
She goes through a lot, don't be pricks @}'~,~~
Stay strong & positive, it'll get better. Keep doing a Vlog or diary & share with your therapist. I think u r amazing, brave & so pretty. I have an almost overwhelming urge to comfort u & take away any pain... I truly wish u all the best.
Thank you for sharing! I am sorry about what your dealing with. Praying for you!
''... I more see a raccoon and angel Gabriel,...'': you' re so brave!
Your so so sweet I wish you all the best in life :)
You really are sweet you dont deserve this illness. Hope things get better for you x
You're an amazing person. Not so long ago your issues were perceived to be so bad but nowadays people with mental health issues are much more accepted. Keep up the good work I wish you all the best!
Stay classy!
youre so pretty wow
Isauro Banuelos Ikr
you’re so cute omg, stay strong girl ❤️❤️🤧
Great to hear your voice. Please read up on the medication you are taking. I've never been on percribed medication, but once I took what I thought was ecstasy it literally made my vision, thoughts and emotional actions become like a movie. I knew it was not real. It took 12 hours before it left. It made me realize how people live with this all year long. The best advice is eat healthy, drink healthy (no tap water) exercise, keep telling yourself you can use this to become stronger. What doesn't kill me makes me stronger. You will feel better and will give you strength. You need to rise above it. Make it your challenge. I will pray for you young woman. God bless. You have to fight it...
Hi there, sorry that you're going through some troubles, I have a friend who deals with schizophrenia too, I was wondering if wearing shades would help you as it's been recorded that blind people don't develop schizophrenia, so maybe if you have less visuals when you're upset it won't be as bad for you. A dog might help to reaffirm what is and isn't there for you and maybe someone to talk to when you're having bad times, I think music is a useful tool along with drawing what's scary and depicting stories to connect that back to reality to help.
It's also good to talk to the voices and be critical of what they say to you, ask them why they believe those ideas, joke to them about it. Medicine is important and a good diet can help, I suffer from panic disorder but taking magnesium and growing my own food really helps along with a routine where you do things you enjoy, It may seem bad but you have control and I do hope you have more better days, you're doing great.
*ppl who are blind from from birth don’t develop schizophrenia
stay strong you are very beautiful (:
I just want to give you a hug. It’ll be okay, just keep taking the help that you need and keep reaching out to people who love you.
Wish u had more videos , u give such a good feeling and real interpretation of this mental health problem , your the best and most real on youtube for this, u should do more videos, well done 👍🏼X
My Nan had schizophrenia very bad and so did many other of my family members. I myself have many mood disorders and am failing school completely right now because of it. I'm not being negative or saying i'm in the same boat completely but i try to understand schizophrenia as best i can cause so many of my loved ones have had it. Please if you need to use nicotine like many people with mental illnesses vape and don't smoke cigarettes, my Nan died at 51 because of and one of my other family members had an heart attack. I have high functioning autism so it's hard for me to socialize very well because of it so i often lock myself away for a bit. Anyway i just wanted to say your not alone and i'm sure i'm a lot like you in many ways. Please just remember to live life the best you can and if it's not good enough for some people then fuck em.
Well said.
Respect
I've always suspected that schizophrenia is your frequency tuning into another demention. Kind of how you have the radio dial half way tuned to one station, but still hear the other. Like she said, she feels like she's in a different universe.
larry hoover
... Or it is a chemical imbalance.
Uhh no.
@@h1mike2 that's what I'm saying but people really out here believe a serious mental illness is just some sixth sense shit -_-
@@LoreleiSiren277 I have it. Got the diagnosis 4 years ago. And it is more or less. The thought on how a sixth sense could be understood today rather than how it was perceived long ago is quite different. Chemical imbalances isn't really the entire reasoning for this happening. I'll agree it might be a reaction within the process that's taking place. But if chemical imbalances is all the psychologists have to go on after decades of knowing about Schizophrenia then it has failed to acquire really any satisfying confidence. They would rather create test medications than to actually research it thoroughly. After hundreds of years of this phenomenon one could possibly presume that this might be just an actual function in the body. Though if I should be one to talk about this within a realm of psychological correctness and to come up with a more scientific approach I would say this is a more Subconscious factor that is taking place here. One does not have to be unconscious in order for subconscious influences to occur. So seemingly there is a sixth sense, to say the subconscious is that sense. And also to say that "schizophrenia" is a very ultimate form of subconscious influence. If you were to think that the subconscious is only limited to moving the body and talking for the person while one is blackout drunk or when one is sleepwalking, you would have to highly reconsider your contentment. Let me ask you some things. How much control do you think you actually have over your body? When you make eye contact with an attractive stranger and the moment becomes awkward, Do you scratch your head knowing it's not itchy? Rub your nose real quick and look away? Something close like that? And you would be making those reactions willingly? I doubt that would be the case. And so it's unwillingly then.. And you don't have a problem with that? You just shake it off or seemingly try not to think about it, Right? Just like those who have voices in their heads, you have things within yourself that seemingly can't be controlled. Only difference is that they have a stronger influence and you don't, least for moment. If you accept your mind you can be capable of anything.
Great deal of bravery to be so open about this- thank you for sharing!
Wow this is horrible I really want to hug you rn :( I’m very very sorry that anybody would feel like this. You’re so brave, it’s incredible. I hope you get better :)
Are The Voices Familiar to You, or at-least when you 1st started hearing them.. are they voices of people you know or knew
Take care of yourself. I wish you well.
Such a precious little angel. Darling, You're just so... gorgeous. Not a bad bone in her body. I wish you all the luck in the world. You're stronger than you'll ever know. Keep taking your meds & remember the condition tends to get less severe as you go through life. Hopefully you'll be able to stay out of hospital & live a normal life - you're such a little gem. You only deserve the best you poor little thing... apologies for being so patronising but I just had to leave a comment as you've taken my breath away tonight Emily.
You take care.
You have such a good grasp on your self awareness. You seem like a wonderful person, beautiful inside out. My brother is on the cusp of BP and schizophrenia. He has a very high intelligence.
Have you thought about writing? Turning what’s going on into stories?
You’re strong! I hope you’re doing well and have friends around, which I know can be hard. Sounds like you have a whole lot of people rooting for you here!
Stay positive. U are strong person.dont give up
i suffer from schizophrenia and anxiety and recently I've been hallucinating a women in the corner of my eye or when I'm in the bath or washing my face or walking so it sucks and when I wake up i hear voices or when I'm eating , normal stuff.
in my situation I try and ignore them but when they get really bad it scares the hell outta me .
yeah I know what you mean this is a scary thing sometimes, I wish you all the luck to try and ignore those voices.
Schizophrenic it can be scary and hope for the best with you aswell :) .
Thank you :).
ask her what she wants?...start a dialogue with the woman in the corner...maybe she is there to help
Does smoking weed will help to reduce the affects ? Just wondering since as we all or most of us knows weed makes u happy and slow things down.
The fact that your willing to record yourself and talk about a illness like this that you have is inspirational to me.
🥺 I’m so sorry you have to deal with this. I just want to go and be your friend, give you a hug and protect you from everything. Things will get better love, it won’t always be so hard. Things will get easier, take it day by day. You got this. Also, random, but you give me heavy Alice in wonderland vibes❤️ you are so adorable.
You're a brave girl
I think you are beautiful and brave 😘
You are an amazing young lady to have the guts to talk about your condition so candidly. Just know that you are not alone. I have always thought of myself as a manly man and I literally lost it about two minutes in and cried more than I've ever cried in my life.
I can here the pain in your voice. :-(
May god help you keep moving forward and im sorry that you have to go thru something horrible like this
It sounds like the mind is stuck in limbo between processing reality and generating dreams. Aldous Huxley talks about this in his book "The doors of perception." But how to snap out of this? I do a spot of Astral Projection and when my body is going into paralysis I hear voices, but they quickly pass. The dream mind is switching on and when complete I continue consciously into a dreamlike reality, minus the voices.
If there was some way of completely snapping the mind out of that hypnagogic state...
I know that certain foods can prevent you from Astral Projecting and some foods aid it.
I wonder too if a patient was able to completely go into the Astral, then consciously come back would there be a reset in the brain? Whatever circuit in the brain that allows that process to happen may be reset. The brain might say, "ok, we are now back in reality... release hormones XYZ to keep us there.." Like turning something off and on again, as the IT Crowd would say.
Hmmmmm!
Foods that encourage Astral projection? Lol magic mushrooms?
The dose your on is given to adults that weigh three times more than you. I'm just saying, it seems like a big dose. Anyways, best of luck:)
You are an amazing young lady to make this video and talk so open about what you are going through.. You are brave and very strong that I can see I wish you all the best and all the love for you for your future. Don't give up sweetheart your doing great I don't know you at all but feel very proud of you for talking so open
I wish you the best and I'll be praying for you. I also suffer from this horrible disease. Best thing you can do is to Keep talking about it. It has more power when you try to ignore them and act like its not there. Do as much research on this as you can. There are new amazing meds and techniques coming out.
Hey at least we don't have this disease in the early 40s or 50s. We would have been thrown away but now we at least have a chance of some type of normal life. Stay strong!
Shadow people you witnessed? eeeekk scary!
Hat Man!!
You said you hit people in the past because the voices told you to. When the voices speak and tell you to do things, is it like you have no chance to refuse to do as they say? Do you do it because it seems reasonable? Does it feel better when you obey them? Can you now, or do you think it will be possible in the future, listen to them but essentially ignore them as if they were a radio station playing in the background?
In my case I'm diagnosed as autistic and it does seem that autism is almost a cousin of schizophrenia. Many overlapping symptoms, almost like schizophrenia but without hallucinations outside moments of extreme stress (apart from autism specific issues like an inability to connect with people and the obsessions, for example). I write fiction and do a lot of freewriting, and many of the stories that come out when it flows make some of the characters or situations like belonging to schizophrenia, as if the schizophrenic symptoms were happening in my subconscious but I am not conscious of it.
Kivalt I can't speak for everyone, but in my experience it's not about trusting the voices or anything like that. It doesn't feel good to obey them at all, but it "keeps them happy" for a while so you can feel like you've done the right thing but then you realize it's not.
I suspected something like that, that the voices are abusing the person and that you have to placate them until they start again. As if they were an alcoholic, violent parent.
Kivalt I suppose, I'm not sure what that is like since I've never been alcoholic, but I understand the concept. If you look at it from a religious perspective, it's similar to the devils whisper. Another thing to compare it to would be like listening/talking to your doppelganger..
Hi, that's a beautiful relation. Yes, voices are like an alcoholi-violent parent tellling you to buy cigarrettes or giving you alcohol to fall asleep. Then wont stfu unless you obey and it is so painfull. When you lie, when you do stuff you dont want to but just want to be quiet for a while. Most of the time I feel like it's my seld talkin inside my head but it will be so painfull to know that its me making my self be this way.
I can ignore some voices, but some telling me i have to do things or else my mom and sister will die or someone will cut off my legs while i sleep and i get very scared and i must do what they say....
wow, you're unbelievably brave and strong for doing this, so hang in there, so many people learn to manage this illness, nothing to be ashamed of, this isn't your fault. i know it's not the same thing but i tried to quit smoking about 20 times before i did, so the key is to realize every step you take in helping yourself is like building blocks, you may not see the progress sometimes but it's there, the key is to never stop trying until it becomes something you aren't afraid of anymore.
Thank you for being so honest with us. You seem like such a sweet person. I hope you are doing well.
i want to hug you #nopedo :) i have autism and sometimes the environment sound reaches level Airplane. If this happens i go into myself and my brain makes a voice out of the monotonous airplane sound because i dont understand the expressions behind the maginal looks on me. Sorry for my grammaticle errors iam from germany. Do something creative, paint, mold, ask for a pet. if you concentrate everything 1 point there is no room left for the voices in your head. i wish you gl, you will do it you are a cute girl.
As an outsider it seems like your mind cannot make the distinction between reality and fantasy so that the fantasy seems real and potentially terrifying. I wonder it it's some legacy thing in the sufferer's brain from evolution, because it seems quite primitive - and by that I mean paranoia as a form of a defense mechanism from predators etc
and if anyone knows what DMT-jizz is saying then please tell us all.
Dave Dogge You can't drop a thought like this without doing some research about the desease first.
I have absolutely no malicious intent and I am open to people educating me on the subject and correcting my thoughts on it as it is interesting to me. Starting in the forums of CZcams is a legitimate starting point. I did a tonne of research on toxic narcissism for example, starting on CZcams forums and watching videos and then reading books on the subject later on as I've known someone for many years who only recently I discovered had that particular condition. There must be a reason behind why schizophrenia exists and I'm interested in knowing why; toxic narcissists for example have no borders and people who are like that can be found in different, countries, cultures, genders and races - the same I believe could be said of schizophrenics. With toxic narcissists I believe it's a primitive/ legacy survival mechanism gone haywire at the expense of others where the person with such a trait does not view other people as a normal person does, can be utterly cruel, deceptive and devious and cannot feel true love or empathy for example. There has to be a reason why Schizophrenia manifests itself in people and pervades across different groups.
Dave Dogge is right tho
Yeah schizophrenia literally means spilt mind so people with schizophrenia don't know what real or not
Thank you for sharing little sister. Stay strong and may God bring his light over your house every day Amen.
good vid especially your firsthand info about your past situationl- very nice background behind you - looks great
What a poor tortured soul. Wish you the best
I dont mean to be disrespectful or anything but she seems so dead inside, i wonder if its just because shes sad from the topic or if its the medication. im only just learning about schizophrenia and i feel so bad people have to go through this.
Dibidibidis MyNameIsMinho Yeah she looks exhausted and maybe a bit depressed. I'm glad that she made progress though and I bet she'll continue to get better over time (:
Dibidibidis MyNameIsMinho it's the meds and the schizo that slows down soeach because she has to do more thinking than you. And her life isn't always so happy go lucky.
Medication + symptom of schizophrenic is disorganized speech or alphabet soup
alphabet salad not soup but you are right.
Its the meds...serquel makes me like this. Luckily not on it anymore, so a bit better as current meds not as strong. BUT has always been worst side effect for me
You are so brave 💯 thank you for uploading this you did great 💙
Awe, I wish everything is okay for you. I can tell you look drained and tired. Youre strong. 💕 and beautiful