HEALTH ANXIETY MY STORY, SYMPTOMS AND LIVING WITH HEALTH ANXIETY | ELLIS SARA SMITH
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- This video doesn't even begin to explain what health anxiety is and some of the things I've been going through the past year or two. I realised when editing there's a tonne more things I could say, worries and fears I have, ways that I deal with things and even more to my story but through fear of this video being too long and already having filmed this before and deleting the footage, I am just publishing this. I also really become a third person as such when talking about this, I really detach myself from my emotions and realise how emotionless this video may be but that's always been my coping mechanism and in sad situations I laugh and brush stuff off. Even as I'm watching this back, I'm sad and can hear in my voice that when I laugh how much I'm avoiding crying.
I wanted to make this to share a little bit of what I go through and what I can only imagine, so many other people go through that don't have a platform like I do. To let anyone out there that may be suffering with health anxiety know that you are not alone, that I do relate as do many others. That things can and will get better. If you ever feel like you need someone to listen that may understand then I am just a message away.
If you have any coping methods you use that may help or even feel brave enough to share your story below to help others then I would love for you to share this.
If you are suffering with health anxiety, I would highly recommend seeking professional help via your doctor or local service.
If there is anything else you want to know then please comment below or send me a message.
Lots of love, E xx
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This helped me so much. My anxiety was triggered through a viral infection and this started in September last month, i don’t have the viral infection anymore but it changed me a lot. I have been non stop worrying about my health, constantly thinking I’m going to die and not see my little boy grow up. To me a headache means a brain tumour, random lumps means cancer, anything means death. It is horrible and it’s horrible for anyone to understand. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone because it is life changing, you can’t stop thinking about it because it’s all you can think about. I’ve become so poorly with this, headaches ever single day, I’ve lost over a stone from anxiety. I get pains in my arms and my chest almost every single day, my heart races, I can’t eat. I’m so glad you spoke about it, it gives me so much reassurance that I’m not alone. Thankyou so much. I hope you’re on the right road to recovery, sending you lots of love xxx
I know this comment 1 years ago I’m also the same but how you feels now? just don’t think too much everything be okay xx
I have really bad health anxiety . Can’t do anything always scared , got sensations too numb hands and feet and feeling of pressure etc on the top of my head . Can’t sleep and hate being on my own
MIRANDA_CHANEL SHEP77 hey, yeah the pressure is like stress related, sometimes it can be headache, it’s like stretching your ears constantly I know what it feels like. It will pass. Just stay positive none of that can kill you
I'm having it for the last 3 years. I am sick of it my belly aches and my muscles all hurt. Plus I have the chest tightness and my throat feels tight. I been diagnosed with ptsd
I also experience tingling numbness chest tightness fatigue stomach problems shortness of breath and feeling feverish. Still some of these sympthoms carry on because I couldnt get rid of the anxiety yet but I guess all of em caused by stress and anxiety. These symptms came after I had felt anxious about my health because of other initial symptoms for a certain amount of time.
Me too
A huge problem with health anxiety is that the body is noisy, very very noisy. You will get random stinging, pains, itching, sensations, etc. Which can come and go anywhere from the top of your head down to the bottom of your toes, but with health anxiety, they can always feel like symptoms instead of being normal body sensations.
The saddest part for me is that I was never like this ! After a traumatic event last year I'm constantly thinking I'm ill and I'm going to die of a heart attack.. thanks Ellis this has helped x
I can understand, it started for me when my mum was diagnosed with cancer and passing away last year 😔
its nice to see that i’m not alone. a few days ago it was heart disease and today it’s breast cancer. i’m only 18 and i want to control this because it hinders my everyday life. i hate having this and i want to get rid of this terrible feeling.
I’m 18 too. We will get through this
Your me I’m 19 mines cardiac arrest
how are you now?
@@neongalaxyzz4297 same here
How r u now
I am literally the same. I suffer from terrible health anxiety and after a horrible event last year I now suffer with quite intense panic attacks. It’s really really horrible and I wouldn’t wish it on my worse enemy. Thanks for making this, it’s reassuring in a weird way to know that I’m not alone with it xx
I agree its reassurance
How Are you doing nowadays
Been in the same boat :(
can relate to you lovely. It's awful because anxiety symptoms are physical sensations too so i always thought i was having a heart attack and couldn't sleep. It's very hard to self soothe with health anxiety. It's so so difficult. Hope you're doing ok xx
I don't know what type of anxiety i am suffering from and the saddest part is I can't even go to see a doctor at this point of time. The heart palpitation, dizziness, tingling sensation, nausea etc scares the hell out of me. I don't know why but I feel like i am going to die! And I don't want to die I am just 19 years old. It felt like I have a monster inside of me which is day by day growing and one day it will consume me. Because of the lockdown I can't visit a doctor my family won't allow it. Everyday I searched in Google quora youtube about this disorder.
Same here. I can't deal anymore.
This has happened to me also! The tingling sensation and dizzyness and even nausea can be remedied by focusing on your breathing, makings sure it is regular. When anxious we unconsciously stop breathing normally and causes us to feel dizzy and feel a multitude of symptoms related to low oxygen.
Exactly me I want to see a doctor but you know not good times and despite most of the people I have chest pressure pain arm numbness and I'm going crazy some nights I hate living like this
Same. Been in this for such a long time
Same it’s just so scary and I don’t want them to tell me I’m sick or anything I just don’t know what to do anymore I’m too young for this
UPDATE MARCH 2021 - I know alot of the comments on here at the moment focus around the current situation going on in the world. This really affected me in 2020 mentally and led to my health anxiety being really bad. In Jan 2021 I also caught it myself. I still have anxiety however last year I did more CBT and at the end of last year hypnotherapy also. Keep supporting each other and know that I am hear if you need a listening ear and if you can, try and seek help via CBT or any other methods that you may have access to xx
Thank you for all of your comments below. It is so sad but also reassuring to know we are not alone in this and I'm so sorry I cannot reply to you all individually but know I read every comment. If anyone is looking for any coping techniques I have recently made a new quick video sharing my top techniques that really help - czcams.com/video/O38_6HXZeSk/video.html
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I am literally crying watching this, iv always thought it was just me and i was alone battling this, although i wouldnt wish this on any one is so refreshing to see other ppl with the same problem, i hope every one on here over comes this ❤️
I have never felt more relatable to anyone and I’m crying just watching this because I feel your pain! I also have 2 boys and can’t imagine leaving them behind! I’ve suffered with health anxiety for the past 5 years. I have never been to the doctors about it (although I’ve touched up on it with health visitors etc) because I feel like being ‘diagnosed’ will take over my identity and then I will never get over it if that makes any sense. My fear is also dying. It’s not too bad at the minute but where it’s been the worst, I’ve written a million Goodbye letters to the boys on nights I can’t sleep fearing I wouldn’t wake up I even filmed a goodbye video on my due date before having my second son just telling them how much I love them . I don’t think anyone understand unless they are going through it. I feel a slight pain and that it’s instantly triggered . So much so that I bring panic attacks on because of it however I’ve learned to control them over time.
You are not crazy and you are not alone ❤️
SAME I was going to the doctors for about a year when it started and they told me I could be a bit anemic I freaked out and haven't went to the doctors in 2 years
I feel so sad but so relieved other people feel this way I think I'm dying every day and convinced I've got cancer with every pain I have and get so much relief when I go to the doctor and they advice a full blood count to check general health but as soon as the bloods are taken the dread just comes straight back again I always find it so hard to put into words how I feel and how much this controls my life I'm convinced me or husband or my children are gonna die I wont Medicate because I think it will give me cancer or it will be contaminated by terrorists I feel the same with food shopping literally everything I'm mentally exhausted 😭 but I dont know about anybody else but apart from my husband and my mum and dad no one would have a clue i just hide it and dont know why? I couldn't get the CBT it didnt help me I hope all who commented dont feel the same and are able to get help. ❤ thank you for posting this video x
Nope I'm exactly the same way I think about this everyday. That I have cancer or one of my kids do. I just feel like the doctors don't check me good enough. I feel relieved after going doctors but within 2 weeks I'm back to feeling the same way. Or I'll sometimes think I'll get an allergic reaction to fish or peanut butter even though I have never been allergic. It's just every damn thing to do with Heath freaks me out. My neighbors daughter sadly passed away of a brain aneurysm and to this day I'm still scared I'll get one. I hate this feelings.
FOE7 excatly i get this spot on the back of my foot every once an a while and i get covinced i have cancer and its really hard to deal with :(
This is me. I feel so trapped. All roads lead to the C word. I can't even say it or think it it triggers me. I have suffered a lot of loss in the last 5 years and this has escalated my anxiety. My husband is fantastic, he is my rock in this but when I have symptoms, I have some now that have been going on a while, I think catastrophicly and panic, I feel very trapped and wish I could be more happy go lucky.
I have really bad Hypochondria. I have severe anxiety and I am 17. I have been in and out of hospitals. I don't know what to do because everyday from the moment I wake up i am in a panic state, feeling as if I am going to die and it's never ending. It lasts the entire day until I am asleep. (thats the only time it is gone) I am in this nonstop dark and scary cycle. Nothing has worked for me at all, I have taken many different medications, I have gone to different doctors, therapists and psychiatrists. None of the breathing techniques or coping skills have done anything for me. I can barely even leave the house anymore let alone be in a car. It's just not right, this isn't how a healthy 17 year old girl should live, ya know. So I don't know what to do anymore. I am so hopeless, scared and super exhausted. I just want to be my happy, positive self again.. I just want out of this never ending cycle. I shouldn't be scared of dying and feeling all of the scary things I feel because in reality they aren't actually there, it is just my brain tricking me in to thinking they are there but I can't wrap my head around that..
YES! A few months ago my arm started hurting & i googled my symptoms and it told me i had breast cancer , i went to the er and they evaluated me took xrays complete blood work everything came back perfectly normal , a month later i found a lump in my boob , i went to the doctor they took an ultrasound and said everything looked perfect he said the lump he found was just fibrocystic breast changes & that it was completely normal & i had no cancer. But i still feel like i have it , like the doctor missed something, im non stop checking my body , & everytime i have a new symptom or something starts to hurt my mind automatically goes to cancer . I hate having this overbearing feeling over me all the time that im going to die or that i have cancer .
Mine started when I was 17 and sadly it still comes and goes in my life. If you’re afraid you might have something just think to yourself if you really had something you wouldn’t have lasted this long. Life is hard to be constantly in fear. Just pray for strength and remember life is always a risk try and focus more on what’s in front you, family, friends. It will start to go away.
we sound so similar, i’m 15 and all of my days have been panic for the past 4 months. it’s actually really reassuring to know that other people have it so badly that sleep is the only time it stops, i completely feel u 😔i hope we can get better soon x
How r u now
Thank you so much for posting this ❤️ when you said that you aren't worried about dying for yourself but for your boys that got me, I feel exactly the same way 😭 xx
Thank you for being brave and making this. I recently am experiencing health anxiety and it’s controlling my life. You make me feel like I’m not crazy and everything will be ok! 💕 I really appreciate this
So relatable!!! I could actually cry , it’s so great to hear someone else speaking my thoughts. Lots of people have said they understand but actually hearing someone else say exactly what and how you think just reminds me I’m not crazy!❤️❤️❤️
Thank you! The amount of times I’ve filmed and deleted and wasn’t going to post this either. I think it’s hard to understand unless you’ve been there. The thoughts and the intensity is a battle. You’re not crazy at all. We’re in this together 💖
Ellis Sara Smith Well I’m so glad you did end up posting this! Yes, it’s an awful battle but together we are stronger! ❤️
I’m so glad I’m not alone either, even when my results come back normal, I still think “what if they missed this” or “what if they misdiagnosed me” it’s so damn hard to think realistically.
Very good video Ellis! I’ve had a lot of loss and sickness in my family. During my sisters illness I felt so much anxiety one would have thought I was the patient. After, the depression came because you’re so afraid you’re never going to be well again. A vicious cycle. Thanks so much for reminding us we aren’t alone. Rita
Love that you spoke out about this. I think health anxiety is often misunderstood and less spoken about so anything to raise awareness is great. Also you're glowing in this video, you look amazing!
I can relate to this so much, literally been in tears watching this video knowing someone else understands what I’m going though. I started my CBT in May and I had my last appointment today. It has helped me to some what control my thoughts and think rationally rather than like you say going from 0-100 with whatever I may be worried about. My thoughts were exactly what you say, thinking everything will lead to me dying and if that did happen I would be leaving my two children behind. I could have a pain one day and I would be worrying about it all day until I went to bed thinking that it could be some serious illness and that I would eventually die. I would see symptoms of an illness and maybe have a few of the symptoms and automatically think I must have that illness and it got to the point where I couldn’t stop thinking about it and I would convince myself that I was going to die. It’s the most draining thing I’ve ever experienced but I can’t recommend CBT enough my therapist was lovely and taught my ways to help stop my thoughts going straight to the extremes it did. Thank you so much for posting this video. ❤️❤️
This was so relatable!! Thank you so much for sharing your story. My fears of allergic reaction started after I had one last year and since then I’m a wreck everyday over what I eat, products I use, medications I take etc. I struggle with thinking is it real or not because I can feel the symptoms every time I do something. This past year of allergic reaction fears have been hell. It’s always something new though, before that it was something else. Anxiety can make you feel so unwell, it’s a vicious cycle. I’ve also got B12 and folate issues too that don’t help. I definitely feel less alone hearing your story, subscribed 😘😘 xxxx
Love this video ❤️ Thank you. Some of the things you said made me cry because you described exactly how I feel at times and how my mind also works. One thing thats been helping me massively is the Couch to 5K running program; It’s so good to burn off all that nervous energy, my mind can’t worry when I’m focused on running and the endorphins after make me feel on top of the world. I just wanted to put that out there incase it could help anyone else. Just discovered your channel and loving it X
Thank you so much. I have been suffering from health anxiety for quite sometime. I was absolutely able to relate to feeling like you are going to die,everything is catastrophic, having a bad allergic reaction to something which in turn made me more scared of things, and not being able to take a new tablet without someone with me like my husband. During my pregnancy to my son I had awful anxiety as well. Now with the coronavirus pandemic it has made my health anxiety so much worse. I’m getting all of these symptoms freaked our that I had the virus and got checked out and was fine. Somehow my fear of the virus went from ‘oh no, do I have the virus” to so many “what if” thoughts. It was so nice to watch your video and to feel I’m not alone because I feel when I try to explain the way I feel and what my anxiety is like to my husband, friends and family, they don’t truly understand as much as they would like to because they don’t have these irrational thoughts. . Thank you again.
Thank you so much for sharing ❤️ this is very relatable, it brought tears to my eyes. I’m also a mum of two boys and everything you spoke about is exactly how I feel! Xx
I'm Soo sorry to hear that you suffer from this and that you wanted to cry filming this 😢 thank you for sharing and helping others find ways to deal with their health anxiety 🤗 hugs 🤗
I get you 100% I also have anxiety. And i totally over think allergic reactions too. Everything you have said is so relatable. Thanks for posting this x
Thank you for watching lovely 💖 It’s so nice knowing other people understand x
Well done for sharing something that is soo personal and intimate, your very brave for opening this discussion up and can see how easily this can happen and is soo relatable as I have been told to I’m an anxious or “stressy” person.
Hope you are learning how to manage and deal with your triggers and process the extreme thoughts you have at times. 💖 love your nails by the way 😍
Thank you for sharing I also have health/medical anxiety. The way you think from 0-100 is the same way I think as well. It’s always refreshing to know there are others who understand you and share in your struggles.
I’m glad this helped you know there are others too! Lots of in fact. Thank you for watching 💖
Thank you for making this video I have terrible health anxiety I’m struggling as we speak I always bring things on like headache chest pain making myself dizzy it’s so hard to live with I understand so much new subscriber xx
Omg thank you so much I’m literally go through this all the time it makes me feel so good to know I am not the only one I feel crazy
Literally me. I can’t even. Mine is literally awful right now
You'll get through this! I know times are tough and I know the difficulties of health anxiety. It sucks. Just know that things will get better! Stay strong❤️
Well done for standing up and speaking out i believe im suffering from the same thing of late after having to have a heart stent fitted in january now the slightest thing and i believe it will lead to me dying each day is a struggle one way or another but 6 months after and im still here and plodding on i will get there no matter what or how long it takes but its good to see im not the only one very huge respect for u xx
I have Hypochondria too and I'm having a panic attack right in this moment and this video really calms me a little... Thank you Ellis❤️🙏🙏🙏🙏
once I got covid and recovered, I got health anxiety always worrying about my health. Before covid I wouldn’t feel a lot of pain or go to the doctor/er. Now every little sensation or a body part hurting I start to worry and can’t be at ease until I got to the doctor/er to make sure nothing is wrong and it’s anxiety. I want to overcome this because I see it taking over my everyday life. And I just can’t be like this I’m trying my best to get through it. We all will
Me 2 omg! I went to the doctor like 5x after covid and she was ur fine and go slow but every time I feel anything wierd my brain intensifies it!
It’s taking over my life too :( taking a walk outside helps
Me 3 😭 we all in this mess because of covid. I hope we get better. Go out and distract yourself. Also talk to a therapist
This is me I could cry and it all came on after I had my son too. My mum passed away the same year then I had this new life to look after and my own mortality was suddenly all I could think of. I was obsessed with getting a blood clot or getting sepsis. At one point I couldnt even eat anything with my hands, like a sandwich, because I was convinced I was going to catch a parasite (even though my hands were super clean). It is so exhausting and others dont understand because it is so irrational! Thank u for sharing this xx
you have no idea how much happier this has made me, I mean I've not been diagnosed with health anxiety but I think the same way as you, like how you go from being fine one minute and you feel like your going to die the next. I deffinatly don't have it to as extreme levels as you do, I still get sleep at night thankfully. I think one of the hardest things I struggle with is no one understands me? all my friends sort of just shrug it off and don't really take it seriously, like today I was in class and my friend told me I looked really red but I wasn't hot so I started freaking out and wondering why i was red, and I kept asking her if I was still red because I was really nervous and she just said, your red because your suffocating and your going to die and that made me have a little anxiety/panic attack in class. My dad doesn't really understand it either at night like you said when I'm not distracted our busy with anything is when I get the anxiety the most and I try to talk about it to my dad but he just yells at me and tells me to deal with it myself, I feel like the people around me just don't take it seriously but it really effects me and they might not see it but even just random times in the day I start panicking about my breathing and start getting a but anxious and that lasts the day and usually into the night when it gets worse. I'm not sure when it started, ever since I can remember i have been scared of being sick, like *really* scared of being sick, I think lots of little things triggered it like when I was maybe 8/9 my dad's leg went of fire and he got really bad burns and had to go to the hospital regularly for it, me and my mum have a skim disease thing so I've been going to the doctors since I was 7 for that, lots of other little things that I think would trigger it and then my mum also got diagnosed with incurable cancer when I was 11 and died because of all the medicines she was on and it was too much for her body to handle, so I think just all that together triggered it. Also this is like of random but you remind me of my really really nice auntie, she's such an easy person to talk to and she's one of the nicest people you will ever meet, thank you so much for this video and I hope your doing ok now xxxxx
A very brave story and so important for people to hear. Thank you for sharing!
Thanks for the video, I have been suffering with health anxiety for a few months now and it's really distressing and frustrating, i've been to A+E quite a bit and i've had the camera down me, blood tests etc. Everything seems to be fine but i'm still getting very intense symptoms, I am very confused and ashamed as i've been the doctors and the doctor said I have severe health anxiety, he was obviously pissed I keep calling in with symptoms which are minor to him but majour to me. I have also had a thyroid test and it's a bit high so I imagine it all links together, i'm due another one soon to see if it's out of place I suppose. I just don't feel the same. I also have been refered for CBT to tell my brain off for trolling me lol. I just want to feel normal again I suppose. I'm trying to stay positive, my biggest fear is dying and my family having to kick the door down and bury me. Vey negative mindset but I can't help myself.
I totally get you, i hope you recover from this soon.
Thank you for speaking about this! ❤️ I have suffered from this since the birth of my baby and I hemorrhaged badly, I think the thought that I nearly died has never left me and I constantly have the thoughts you have, thinking of every worse scenario! It’s exhausting isn’t it, it’s comforting to know we’re not alone xx
It’s mentally draining. I had a bad labour with Klayton too so I completely get you 💖💖
I feel for you! I lost 2 litres my boy is 2 now he was born unresponsive and take ages to respond and think my fear of dying comes from this constant fear of bleeding to death and I dread my period every month and also thinking I have cancer. Lots of love from me ❤ xx
hello...I,ve just found this video and your channel.. thank you for this video its really helped me a lot. I suffer horrible health anxiety too. (mainly thoughts of cancer) Horrible is the best way to describe it just makes me feel horrible. I get achey muscles, pins n needles in my hands and feet, shock sensations through my head...I cry with the aches then think I have something major. Mine was triggered by parents passing with illnesses. I didnt do well being pregnant but my kids are strong and healthy. I dont visit my GP often as I feel a nusiance but my GP knows me well and understands where it stems from. Recently I couldnt understand the aches in my arms and legs but after reading everyones comments its basically just adrenalin and anxiety. . Some days I just say to myself that I just need to accept that I am this way but the thoughts of dying are hard. Thank you for sharing that i,m not alone...
I’ve had health anxiety since I was 14 everything your saying that’s exactly how I was I had it for total of 9 years the moment I got pregnant at 22 I never had another panic attack or anxiety it’s the strangest thing. I wish I went to the doctors as it really did ruin my teenage years ! I hope that you get over this it is awful I didn’t tell anyone for years because I wS so young and didn’t know what was going on I genuinely thought would be sent off in a straight jacket 😣 I wish I could of watched this when I first had health anxiety it would of helped me so much. This video will definitely help someone it’s helped me just to know after all that time I wasn’t alone xxxxx
My mum had panic attacks and weird anxiety when she ate too much. She once wanted to jump out of our balcony but my dad grabbed her in time. Once she gave birth to my little brother the attacks and anxiety stopped. My brother is now 5 and she still had not had one. I’m 21 and I’m having anxiety 24/h. I can’t enjoy life. It’s so sad.
I totally get you! I have HA not only considering my health but health of my close ones...literally changes the way you live
When you said, ‘it’s not about the fact that I might die, it’s I might leave the boys’, that’s exactly how I feel. Thank you for making this video xx
I've had it for almost 10 years now (that's how long it's been since my first 'episode'). Thank you for talking about it, but I can't believe this is the only video I've managed to find of someone talking about their experience.
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Thank you for being open and sharing this!!
I came across your video and I can relate I have health anxiety I'm constantly worried about my heart and getting a heart attack and it's scary because like you said you dont fear of dieing yourself but because of your kids and that's how I feel I have a 2 1/2 and a 4 month old and it hits me really hard 😔 you got yourself a new viewer keep up the good work
We are a community and we should love and support each other in battling this ...
Thankyou for sharing Ellis. I suffer with anxiety but thanks to medication and cbt it has really improved. I have learnt to accept it is the way my brain is & I can now calm myself down when the irrational thoughts come. I use cleaning as a way to control it which can be too much at times as it takes over! I drive my husband mad but he has come to accept it’s the way I am. Take care lovely xx
Thank you so much for this video. I am currently suffering from health anxiety. My grandmother and my 21-year-old cousin passed away from a heart attack and since them my life has changed. I’ve had several panic attacks, they make me feel weak, and completely scared. Right now I am fighting anxiety. I have crazy pain in my chest and harm, specially on the left side. My heart is raising, and I’m debating wether to go to the ER or just let it pass. I have been to the hospital several times, almost 6 EKG’S and they all come out fine. I have been told by doctors that I am one of the most healthiest person they have ever seen , but for some reason I don’t believe it and I always worry about my heart. It’s very sad to live like this. It’s like being afraid of dying but being sick of living this way.
Karla Gonzalez wow 21? Do you know the reason? That’s quite young. Sorry about the passing by the way
Do you know the reason for cousin getting one so young,
Feels good to know im not alone! Really great video! Thank you!
Everything you said is so relatable!!! I suffer really bad from health anxiety, even today I was out with both my boys and I went all shaky and felt like I was going to faint and die, I have these episodes quite a lot and like you my head goes from 0 to 100 I can not rationalise, it’s always the worst that’s going to happen. I feel every ache, pain and sensation in my body and My mind always leads it back to I’m going to die now, I am on medication 20mg fluoxetine and I’m attending Cbt sessions 1hr weekly. I have been like this for just over 3 years now and I just want rid, I absolutely hate being like this, I just want to be back to my normal self for my boys.
I feel like I’m currently at this point so this is really helping me, thank you so much x
Just stumbled across this, I’m so pleased you shared. I suffer badly from anxiety and ocd but have been putting off going to the doctor because I have other health issues which I always seem to be dealing with. I definitely have to make time to address this as it’s so important
It's nice to see a video from the UK, I have suffered from Health Anxiety for the last 2 years. In other words, it's hell. I have various issues and have had many blood tests over 15. Sadly my GP didn't catch my mental health issues until it was too late. I have now become consumed by this.
Literally this could be me speaking here I have two boys the same age as you (I would worry I would die and leave them) and I remember going on holiday and I had a tiny mark on my arm now in my head it ruined the holiday because I had convinced myself it was skin cancer! I’m a lot better and I think you are really doing something positive by filming this. Two things that worked really well for me are 1. Really researching anxiety as once you understand what it does physically to the body as far as the physical symptoms and why that happens. Because a lot of the time you can have physical symptoms and having health anxiety you reinterpret it to be something more sinister like I would turn a migraine in to a brain tumour. And 2. Reading the book how to calm the monkey mind, it really breaks anxiety down and gives you proper tools to combat it! Thanks so much for making this video xx
Oh gosh Katie! I completely get that! It consumes you entirely doesn’t it. Have you ever listened to Mel Robbins and the 5 second rule. I find it harder to use against anxiety but that can be helpful too! 100% the symptoms of adrenaline fuel health anxiety to make us worry further. I’m going to look up that book. Thank you for sharing 💖
Ellis Sara Smith I’ve read it and I agree. Hope you feel better soon x
I can relate 💯 thank you so much for your honesty.. atm I’m going through a health anxiety episode.. insomnia is a horrible side affect to it.
Hope you are in a good place yourself.
18:00 thank you for catching on to that. As a young kid my mom is actually the one who brought on these fears and worries in me. She felt she was being safe, she meant well, but really she was just terrifying me. Even now that I am an adult I have a hard time talking to her about health related things because if I tell her something that worries her she doesn’t let it go. She will continue to bring it up and start making me more worried about it than what I was originally.
Thank you so much for this. I have severe health anxiety since an antibiotic reaction too.
I suffer from health anxiety and emetophobia! Its destroyed my life cant get out and about or travel just living in the fear of I'm dying mostly like I cant breathe or I feel like I'll have some sort of seizure its awful! Anyone going through this I relate! ❤
I can relate to the seizure fear. I’m always afraid I’m going to lose control of my body!
I completely understand you I am the same way 😥
I feel like you are telling my story! I had an allergic reaction to an antibiotic and now I will not take any medications, try new foods, or use creams. I am consumed with the thoughts to the point of where I will think I am having an allergic reaction when I am actually not. My fear is not only dying but suffering. To top it off I have always worked in the medical field and had to quit. Your video came to me at the right time!
Thank you for this 100% honest video ... mental health need to be spoken about alot more so people understand the symptoms.. again thank you for this video xxx
So so helpful especially since I have awful allergies and asthma which contribute to me constantly feeling anxiety over my breathing. Makes me feel so much better that I’m not alone and crazy 😩😂 xx
I wish there was some sort of support group available. Just as everyone else says....this is me. Mine started after I witnessed my dad's decline and then death from cancer. He was 53. That was 5 years ago and I now have 2 young children and my health anxiety is out of control. Every little pain or mark on my body I somehow come to the conclusion I have cancer and I will die and leave my kids. I imagine the conversation Id have to have with my 3 year old telling her I wouldn't be around anymore... It's torture and not a nice way to live. I can't even bear to hear the word cancer and if i hear a TV or radio advert about it I freeze. I have recently started to seek methods to reduce health anxiety online and I am currently considering speaking to my doctor about medication for it. Reassuring to know we are not alone in this!
This is me to a tee.
Pretty much the exact same situation
My mother is terminally ill of cancer ,I was always anxious about my health ,but now with her ,its horrific ,my health anxiety is out of control:(
Do you take any medication for it?
Thank you so much for this. It is so relatable! My problem is the heart. I started feeling palpitations/arritmia out of the blue. Went to cardiologist and they say everything is fine but everytime I feel it again my heart rate goes thru the roof to the point of having the ambulance pick me up because I think I’m having a heart attack. Have you ever felt you heart rate speeding so much without you being worried at the time it happened? I feel it in my throat and sometimes it takes a while to stop...
Sandra Areias I had this for 9 years also had really bad chest pans , my arms aching so I legit always thought got I was having a heart attack I think it was because I had a whole in heart which I had operated on when I was 9 I thought no it all stemmed from there . Your not alone xx
I completely feel both of you. There are many times when I think I’m having a heart attack and both my dad and Nan in the past year or so have suffered with these which makes it worse. It’s so hard to know when something is real or in your head. I think trying to get into a calm state is the only thing that will reduce the adrenaline symptoms that make these feelings worse but that’s easier said than done x
Ah yes! I currently deal with this and now hearing that you dealt with this makes me feel better, because I now know that it is a symptom of anxiety. I looked it up and you can bring about heart palpitations via thought
I feel so good because i thought i was alone
Same right now i feel a hit tingly/hot in my left arm but i have had an ekg and they checked my heart and i have been checking my blood pressure i even had blood work done too but it still scares me
In the middle of a anxiety attack right now. Everything u have said is me!!! I’m currently on antibiotics for a sinus infection an my health anxiety is through the roof. Thank you for this video.
Thank you for this video. I have health anxiety & am currently working with a psychiatrist.
Oh my god!!! I suffer too!! Last year after having Harry constant panic attacks thinking I’m going to die because I had a headache that wouldn’t go away. I thought I had a tumour and was going to die. Luckily it has been an ongoing thing that I didn’t even notice. Checking my body all over and my children’s necks and armpits. CBT helped a lot and belly breathing has save me xxxxxxxx
I've had hypochondria (health anxiety) for a really long time now and I'm only 15. It was really bad when I was in between about 6 and 10 ish and started to calm down after that. But some traumatic stuff has happened in the past 3 years (family related) and my hypochondria has gotten really bad again I even had my second health related panic attack just a week after my last one. I've thought I've had everything under the sun at this point plus I have ocd as well which doesn't help whatsoever. I feel very alone because no-one really understands what I'm going through and its hard. Its hard having your mum look at you like you crazy but I'm too scared to open up to her because I know I'm just going to start crying
I'm 15 too and ivr had anxiety too in the past but recently for almost a month now I'm convincing myself i had brain cancer or just something I'll die from. My appetie changed I'm barely eating as usual and all the time i feel sick like my stomach hurts and idek. It sucks!
@@itshaley9325 Me too! It takes time you just have to make yourself believe that you are okay, and you are. It can be so stressful though especially because not many people understand. If you feel like you are about to have an anxiety or panic attack just take a step away from everything and clear your mind and really focus on how your feeling and that you are over reacting and you are perfectly healthy. It takes time to get good at that though, but it gets easier.
I've been suffering with health anxiety lately, it's hell and torcher 😟🥺😰😡😵
Yes
You are so right!! I’m aware I’m irrational ! And yes my whole thing is about dying and my daughter grows up without a mother. I’m also scared that something bad will happen to my daughter so I stil check she’s breathing everynight and she’s 5. Thankyou for sharing your story!
I have always been an anxious person. When I was pregnant in 2018, I had so many issues come up... Measuring too big, too much fluid, high blood pressure, high heart rates, something found on the cord... all issues turned out to be nothing. But at every appointment they would worry and make me anxious. I have a beautiful 2 year old now. But the anxiety stayed with me. Now every day I think any issue is a major one and that I will die. I am more worried about not being there for my daughter. I have self referred for CBT. The lockdown really is not helping. I would normally see my GP for reassurance on a problem if it gets too much. But now doctors are not seeing you really but I also dont want to go in fear of catching covid. Hope the CBT helps. Wishing you all better soon.
I think i have health anxiety.. it’s scary. I’m currently going through an allergic reaction & i keep overthinking and looking things up freaking myself out 😣
I feel like I was just watching a video about myself! Thank you so much for sharing, I have been diagnosed with OCD and health anxiety & didn’t realize how irrational my thoughts had been. Lately I’ve been having digestion problems for the last 2 months & have convinced myself that it’s something serious & that I’m going to die even though doctors are not concerned about it but I just can’t let it go. Everytime I have a symptom now I can’t even tell if it’s due my “unknown problem” or if it’s just anxiety which triggers my OCD and have gotten myself into a vicious cycle. But I’m now going back to therapy & am hopeful that it will help my crazy thoughts!!
how’s it going?
Your story has inspired me, I suffer the same and I feel like I’ve lost myself as a person and I don’t know who I am anymore
Really useful information Ellis, I had no idea you could self refer for CBT.
I have this and i worry about it everyday of my life. For a whole week I was convinced I had throat cancer. Even though I had a endoscopy done I'm sure as heck the doctor didn't check me good. And I'm debating on getting a second opinion. Then now I feel like I might have stomach cancer which is connected with my throat and is why I have acid reflux. But somedays I'm positive and I'm like no I don't have cancer and other days I'm sick in bed because I feel like I might be dying of cancer. I even go as far as thinking I'm going to one day be allergic to peanuts and fish I avoided fish for a long time even though I have never been allergic to it I really am allergic to ibuprofen so that's where that fear comes from as for cancer my grandma, cousin, and aunty had cancer.
Omgg I have anxoety too since quartine it's been terrible. I recently just convinced myself I had brain tumor or cancer
Listening to this is just like listening to myself. Everything even the parts about pregnancy, ocd, and allergies, I’m exactly the same.
I suffer from such horrible health anxiety and it’s awful. To the point where cracking my neck will convince me I’m going to cause myself a stroke (it’s rare but possible). Or when someone’s service dog at my school grazed me with it’s tooth I convinced myself I was going to die of rabies...even though dogs have to be vaccinated to be in the dorms. It lead me to having a panic attack from 8PM-5AM. I hate this.
I have health anxiety really bad!! I get high blood pressure just before a well check! Any odd thing my body does, which is probably normal I jump right off to worst case!! I’m on a medicine, but it doesn’t help to much! I hate anyone else having to feel like that!!! Hugs and prayers from the USA!!! 💕💗
My blood pressure can go crazy too! Especially in pregnancy due to worry not necessarily anything medically wrong as such! Sending lots of love 💖
Ellis Sara Smith yes, it’s so scary!!! 😩 much Love 💕
I can relate completely, mind started to become worse after my 2nd child and I had lots of physical symptons so I've had to take tablets to stop feeling dizzy every day etc.. it's so awful to live with xx
Need this now more than ever. I have asthma and have panic attacks and worry constantly about hospitals and dying. I always think I've got something wrong with me. It consumes me. I am in a state of panic all the time. I've been to the doctors a few times, had a few scares but always got the all clear eventually. So scared atm with all thats going on x
You look very pretty and healthy. Just try to focus on your beautiful children and relax.
Very impressive video. Wonderful information. Great job.
I’ve been suffering with health anxiety since my step dad died from an unexpected heart attack 9 weeks ago, I keep thinking I’m having a heart attack my left arm will ache my chest will ache, my vision was playing up, my legs were weak, I’ve gone from heart attack to brain tumour back to heart, then MS, I’ve had 2 chest X-rays and a chest scan it was normal , it’s sad but relieving knowing you’re not alone as even on a good day your still subconsciously thinking of it
I completely feel your pain
I’m also a health anxiety sufferer, I’ve self referred for cbt two weeks ago I used to have bad social anxiety and didn’t leave the house for months so now it’s turned to health which is horrendous I’m terrified of everything especially this time of year when all the bugs are around, I have done cbt before and it helped me so much so I’m hoping it will again x
Currently having a panic attack right now. This is helping
I am glad I am not the only one have this tbh I get so worry about myself like I feel like dying I have a lot of anxiety attack, panic attack and shortness of breath anxiety until now I have it. It’s get worse sometime I get chest pain I thought it’s was my heart I was so scared because at first I thought my heart was pain but no. This is why I’m getting off social media I don’t want to see any health stuff is make me so anxious I need to get off social media especially tik tok I can’t stand people’s post about health is making my anxiety messed up. I always get worried about my body because of my anxiety sometime I feel pain all over my body I feel like dying. Later 4 mins later is gone the one time I thought I had kidney pain I was freaking out went to the hospital and they say nothing wrong. I really hate this 🥺 is soo scary omg like I don’t wanna die like is feel like you wanna die but you don’t anxiety health is really scary this is why I’m getting off social media is so bad for my mental health.
Man i have health anxiety and having an actual health issue at the same time sucks. I have a lymph node infection and ive convinced myself its actually cancer because i havent noticed any of the swelling or pain go down in 4 days of anti biotics. I also felta new lump further convincing me i have neck cancer, i've also convinced myself its cancer because someone told me it could be since i noticed structure changes in my neck. I then convinced myself i have muscle atrophy because i convinced myself a tendon on the unaffected side of my neck has been slowly disappearing. THEN i now convinced myself i have MS because of all of the above plus weakness and dysphagia ive had for almost a year as well as numbness in all kinds of parts of my body. THEN while looking up symptoms of MS and watching videos on MS I ran across videos for ALS and now i think perhaps its not MS and its worse because i hit most of the ALS symptoms because i went down that google rabbit hole. And now i'm really convinced i have one or more of these because ive been having blurry vision and very bad dizziness.
Going back to square one i've only been told i have a lymph node infection. No ones told me i have any of the things i think i have. But ive been worried sick, literally the last 6 days i do have one of those or some rare disease no one else has. Which i know is irrational. I even went to the hospital due to full body weakness due to my dysphagia only 3 months ago and was tested for malignacies via 2 CT scans, an endoscopy and colonoscopy. And i was told i didn't have malignancies. Its so frustrating to live with. I scare myself into thinking i have things i have no idea i have or not. And when i do have something i wind up always handling it well. Its the fear of not knowing for me. Its the fear i give myself thinking im going to die very soon if i dont see a doctor.
I hate being like this. I'd love to get help for this but i dont know how. Ive tried to not have it and only succesfully didnt have it for a period of 2 years, and i felt so good during that time. But when an actual health issue happens i just go back to square one. I'd like to just do away with it for good and take actual health issues when they happen rather than fearing them. Its exhausting and takes away any joy in life i could have.
Oh my word I have health/ medical anxiety!! Thank you for this video! I was also diagnosed with OCD at 8. My parents got wierded out when they found a bottle of dettol in my bed 😂
Thank you for watching hun 💖 it’s an awful battle isn’t it. Oh I don’t mean to laugh but I completely get the bottle of dettol 😂🙈 one of the things that I realised I missed mentioning was how bad my health anxiety and need to clean are linked with the OCD so I get you 100% xx
Thank you for this vidéo 👍we love everthing new 🤩
Thank you for watching Amel 💖
I'm currently 16 and have had hypochondria since around 4th grade. I believe it started because of watching those crazy doctor shows with my parents when I was little and when my grandma died from cancer and when my dad got pneumonia. I've missed school, important, and social events because of it, I get physical symptoms caused by my mind all the time, I lose sleep over it, it gives me constant stress and fear, I've been bullied for my overreactions, during the times it's more prevalent I lose my appetite, and I get constant panic attacks. It's taken away so much of my life and I truly believe people don't take this disorder serious enough. My own parents refuse to get me therapy because it's "not that serious" even though they have sat through my panic attacks quite often. I am so tired :( I just want to feel ok and not have this constant strain on my mind and body.
This is the first time watching your videos and this video has explained myself to a T. Thank you for sharing. I have recently been diagnosed with health anxiety and trying to find stories and help. Tough thing to fight. Haven’t been eating or drinking so it’s like training my body again.
Omg how you think, I’d think the same and to extreme to the point to do with dying, and when it comes to my health I think already the worst. I’m literally crying all the time and praying that my health will be ok and yes, because also of my kids. It’s a horrible feeling
I have ptsd and panic disorder and later discovered i have health anxiety. I am in the medical field which is a blessing and a curse lol. Most of the time i can handle the health anxiety, but if i get sick all bets are off. My body gets extra aware of every little symptom or sensation. It takes longer to get back to my normal after episodes. What i try to do is if somethng is really bothering me i will talk to or see my doc once. I try my best to stay off google etc. That is the most horrible thing you can do with health anxiety. I will sometimes use guided meditation as well. Im with you on the meds. Im ok with things ive taken but am very paranoid abojt new ones. Takes me a week sometimes to talk myself into taking it bc ive had bad reactions to a lot of meds, esp psych meds in the past.
Quite a few comments On here...mention AFTER having COVID....they began with health anxiety.....I was perfectly FINE...until last August...got COVID....since then..terrible health anxiety..and have never felt right....chest pains...side rib pain....
Mine is terrible mine came from when I had a year of constant pain all inside my body stabbing pains everywhere..i was going through a very stressful time and doc said it was stress affecting my body I went back and forward to the doctor for a year when they finally gave me an MRI scan and found nothing!! Funny enough once I found this out all my symptoms went away..but now I have a lump in my upper arm doc says it's a cyst but I'm terrified about it keep thinking he doesnt know for sure because he hasn't scanned my arm..I'm fixated on the lump and today I kept thinking I was having pains in that area of my arm aswell..gonna go back to docs as soon as this pandemic eases..I hate living like this!!
Bless you.
thank you for this
Mum of 2 myself and this hit every point , I'm exactly the same
thankyou!! I have bpd and anxiety too, one love :)
I have it very bad too, right now I’m on the whole brain problem thing, I have a pain kind of on my eyebrow bone when I press on it there, and of course I google things and a brain aneurism pops up so now I can’t sleep thinking about that, especially since I use to work with someone who died from that. It makes me more worried. And I can’t find any other reason for the pain. I’m not someone who gets migraines and headaches very often either which is why I am scared.
I have health anxiety too! It's so awful, it makes me so sad.. :(
I don't have health anxiety specifically I have emetaphobia which kind of is the root of my anxiety and OCD , so I completely relate to how shite it is , not doing things because of these irrational thoughts or getting it triggered easily , really hope that I gets soooo much better :))))