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Self-aware Female Narcissist Confesses it All | Shocking Revelation
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- čas přidán 17. 03. 2023
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Hi, I want to book a healing session with you
I would love to book healing sessions with you too. Do u provide such sessions on zoom or only in person? Cause I don't live in the USA...Where do you live Danish? My mind and body have been tortured for so long i can hardly log online and think clearly in order to read comments or make them..I've been through too much. I'm so ill in many aspects. Cannot get any better till now.
I don't know about Zoom if you give sessions on Zoom but that's honestly also an issue since I suffer from extreme body pains, neck and back and need to avoid being too much on my mobile.
I do thank you and appreciate you doing these videos for us though. 🙏💖😔
That person was still be the same. The jezebels don't mind taking accountability. Even negative Claim is still Validation. Just like terrorist they want Let them world be For Terrorist attack.
This is a pure jezebell spirit beware of the jezebell
Why are you giving her narcissistic supply
There is something every narcissist has in common: the lack of shine, the lack of positive sparkle. It doesn't matter how their face is, they all have this same look. Broken, grey, empty...
Studying your partner is a very evil way. You're only destroying your future. If she's going to continue this heinous activities she will end up alone. I can't believe a woman will do this.
They say eyes are mirror to someone's soul.When you look into a narcissist eyes,you'll see an empty ,lifeless individual.It's dark and creepy.
Yes always look into their eyes they are very empty and unexpressive, even when they are talking it unnatural like they are putting words together.
Agreed!!!!! This is why they envy others so much, this is why the female narc copies people she sees something in so much. They don't have any of these things on their own so they think they can manufacture it within themselves through copying and imitating us. I had one who did this to me allllll the time, loads of stories about this one lol....she copied everything and still does to an extent as her new style is just pure vulgarity of which I am not. I remembered something happened to her grandmother and she called me in a panic and frustrated because she felt empty and that she should be feeling something but isn't feeling anything and can't feel anything lol...oh how they tell on themselves.
There is a reason why they all act the same. They don't go to the same nark college they all channel the same entity or dark energy.
She wouldn’t be disclosing this if her TikTok views weren’t giving her narcissistic supply, along with all the “praise” she’s getting for “coming clean”. This is the ultimate facade for more narcissistic supply
It's the same for Kanika Batra. I hate her.
They have cognitive empathy, not emotional empathy. A narcissist can mimic empathy if it benefits them, and gives them control, and/or narcissistic supply. Example: A narcissist is out driving, and they see a car that's been in an accident. They may help out, and call the emergency number in order to receive praise, and admiration for their heroic act. But under the facade, they could not give a rat's ass about the person, or the car. Only about their own narcissistic gain.
Very true. If you look at some recovering narcissist, they are not proud of their selves. They are broken and ashamed. This woman is malignant and is not confessing but bragging
@@theguynextdoor4978 Communal Narcissist (what you described as your example).
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That's not a confession, that's a memoir of her exploits.
Agree. Like a killer - she's reliving the control & Power. She has dead eyes & will never know true love or joy. May she rot.
True. She knows it would be unacceptable to brag about it, so she pretended to be ashamed. As a female victim of narc abuse by my ex husband, to see it from a female perspective is somehow more sinister. She is pure evil. Once you see it in their eyes, you always recognize it. 😐
It is because women are viewed as cunning and minipulative. I notice this working in a juvenile center.
People would always mention the girls ward like its the worse place ever and girls behvaior are far more worse but I think its odd because rarely do I come across a girl rapist, murderer, shooter, robber which is common in the juvenile center with males. I just think its odd how sexism shape our views
@@mymai5859 awwww look at you wishing the worst on destroyed people. Let's hope whoever ruined you did a good job and you aren't able to heal 😂😂😂😂
@@Parrotgirl-Tattooit's your own fault.
She lit up when she started talking about what she did she’s still very proud of herself
I saw that too.
“The smirk” I would know that anywhere
Yes .. but I think she's also giving us some Valuable insight .. if anyone was still doubting their intent..
Yes it seemed like she was trying to hide her smile about the dude.
She knows her behaviour is disgusting BUT she is not disgusted by it. She is in fact proud of her behavior.
It seems like she starts to laugh about it so she has to stop recording for a bit. She acts as if she can't stand talking about her horrible behaviour, but it seems more like she's overcome by the hilarity of her own power in what she has done. She is bragging and not at all remorseful for her actions. Twisted AF.
That is why narcissists will always remain narcissists. It is not an illness you can cure. In fact it is not an illness at all. It's a totally broken bhevior. They're hardware was built to run that Software.
I agree
YEP IKR! Shes bragging and having an ego trip
Things like her are like rabid animals. Before humanity found a preventative vaccine against rabies, such infected animals had to be put down to protect humanity.
Her cold dead eyes and permanent smirk says it all. It's like listening to a serial killer confess their horrific crimes in such graphic detail with utter impunity. No remorse, just it is what it is.
Funny you say that, because these serial killers have a form of be second cluster disabilities or a form of narcissistism.
Exactly
to people like us things like this feels good. dont let what i say excuse what things i or others like me do. but do you hang out with your friends because why not? or do you do it because you feel good? "but thats not the same!" morally? no. logically? yes. we as humans stick to what we love. a lot of what i inflict emotionally on other people is (from what im told) was first inflicted onto me at a MUCH younger age. my earliest memory of a "friend" was. and this is word for word. "i break people down so i can build them back up again. cant have a strong house without a strong foundation." throughout my life i surrounded myself with people like me. and it only made my thinking more intense. now im alone. and until i feel remorse it will stay that way. because thats what im told is right. i even affected a psychologist. someone who is qualified to fight things like this and people like me. and when he told me that. it was a high that is undescribable. logically it isnt ok that i did that. but emotionally? i honestly truly dont care. in fact i feel empowered to be able to accomplish something like that. and now the one and only thing i crave in life is remorse. kinda like how black and white it seems :)
so yea i guess it is what it is. cant change the past but you can try not to repeat it.
All psychopaths I've seen seem to have that same creepy smile when talking about the messed up shit they've done
She doesn't try to murder the body, she tries to murder the soul.
Yes!!!!!
My ex who was a narcissist (or psychopath) told me during our relationship that it was difficult to be with me because I was independent and intelligent. I was confused at the time because I saw those as positive traits and later came to realize that he said that because it made me harder to control and manipulate.
My ex also try to get out of the relationship when she saw that i was not be triggered by your attempts to make me feel jealousy. With time i noticed that she was always trying to find some bad thing about me and things was becoming worse, she give up to make me feel jealousy and starts to say that i was not men enough. And all these attacks started out of any context or previous conversation.
Same happened to me, if you are aware and intelligent enough to escape that exposes their manipulation. will never let a narcissist take control again
Same! In the beginning, it was fine - he professed to love that I was strong and independent. Until he couldn't control me.
My impression of Lilith is she's a sociopath or psychopath .. not a narcissist. A narcissist has a deep shame and self hate that they don't want to reveal, they'll rarely ever admit to their own tactics - even to themselves. Where as Lilith has little to no shame showing here, there is a little false shame, but that's to get the sympathy of us as the viewer.
thank you for that. yes thats the point and big difference.
and a narcissist isnt selfaware of his behavior, its mostly impulsively, he/she doesnt know. a psychopath exactly knows what he is doing.
Can one be a narc and a sociopath or psychopath?
Probably some comorbidity with her...she ebb and flows between disorders.
@@Jesusandcoffee3382yes
She is describing sociopathic behaviour: not just narcissism
Facts
She isn't showing emotion so that is psychopathic. Sociopaths are the ragers with emotional agendas and no impulse control.
It’s interesting how people instinctively have the built in ( or developed) ability to see through their bs…usually through a past experience with one narcissist.
Yet there are some people that constantly jump in the fire…so interesting to think about 🤔
She definitely has antisocial personality disorder
That's what i thought... It seems something more
She is not disgusted. She is bragging and laughing with evil barely suppressed glee.
Duh
Absolutely!! All to get Tic tok views, etc…. Why would anyone think anything she says is nothing other than her continued narcissism.
You can really see this very clearly
Her eyes are dead but what’s disturbing is how hard she’s trying not to smirk.
I noticed that too. She's really tryna hide that smirk.
Dupers delight
A moments when the video would pause half of her face would be smiling and smirking in the other half would be completely dead and emotionless
She's bragging; about her power, her 'cunning', her manipulative ability, about how successful her cruelty has been. She's congratulating herself for the amazing results of her superhuman callousness
NO, she is being courageous and VERY valuable to society as she is telling the truth about MANY people in the world, you RAT.
I agree. I think that she is bragging. She isn't giving any insight into herself other than that she has power over others and got lots out of others.
Junkies do that.
All fun and games until someone really gets angry and wants revenge. I think people like this need to think long and hard about what they are doing because it can backfire and they are putting themselves at risk.
@@thebigriddle2000 Like Stockton CRush...
I had a friend who let her guard down a bit once, and started telling me about how she manipulated this boy she "liked". He liked her, she was using him. She was bragging about how he keeps falling for it and how she's so clever, etc. But she definitely didn't expect me to say "yeah that's what you do to me" and I just watched as she tightened the mask on her face to try and get out of it. Friendship didn't last :)
I feel like people don't talk enough about narcissistic friends, it's always romantic relationships or parents. While having narc parents I also attracted one narcissistic "friend" after the other, who were often just as abusive. There is a dynamic where they will want a less confident friend who they can feel superior to & use as a constant source of supply.
@@jamesmccarthy6764 the narcs downright deny it if confronted. lesson learned. a really hard and stupid way
@@jamesmccarthy6764precisely. They resonated unfortunately
My narcissistic “friend” did the DARVO method on me all the time. I didn’t know at the time so I always fell into feelings of deep guilt and shame so I would apologize all the time. I’m almost free now, but it is difficult to heal.
@@jamesmccarthy6764
I Agee. I could of used the support when I left a narcissistic friend.
This whole thing is incredibly depressing when you know you're on the receiving end of one of these people. It's hard to meet and trust new people (friends, workplace, etc.) because they might be just as bad. It's easier to be alone.
Life is so beautiful without them. I find myself on a euphoric high when I am alone. No drugs are necessasary. I just think about how grateful I am that the troublemakers are not in my sanctuary. My brain works better & my creativity expands. The chemistry in my body resumes into a normal state revived from damage I experienced when around toxic ppl.
Solitude is the best choice. I had to cut out a pathological lying narcissist. Funny thing is how she always tried to flip her behavior back on me. It's sickening.
@@stardustdreams234 I hear ya.
After being raised by narcissists and losing both my sisters/best friends after they were all driven to suicide and overdosing due to narcissistic abuse, I am happy with just my husband and our kids. I don't want to make friends and risk being targeted betrayed or subjected to more trauma and abuse. Being alone isn't so bad when you weigh the risk of being damaged or even harmed physically or mentally. I'm good thank you very much!
Very true, who can you trust? some people are so cunning and deceptive they look for people that want a relationship.
After they suck you in, then they crush you, why ?
for whatever reason???
Family history can tell a lot. Of course, how many people come from a healthy family.
The smirk can be described as “A Duper’s Delight”.
They’ve duped you, fooled you. Then get angry when you call them out. It’s “your fault” you figured them out.
Not only is there no guilt in what she says, but honestly, I think there is a hint of a smile. That "Duper's Delight". She might be "sorry", but she is still proud of herself for doing it.
Yes, there is that smirk on her face...
I see it too.
Its joy of the overpower.
She probably got caught at a certain point and therefor sort of was forced to come clean
I got that sense as well. She’s not disgusted with herself, she seems proud
If you identify a narcissist, get away from them. Don't waste your time trying to change them. Know your worth. You will save yourself a lot of hassle in the long term.
It can be hard for me to fathom or accept that there are people who will do this and not feel guilty. I feel guilty for looking at someone the wrong way or leaving them in a bad mood.
I have to do mental gymnastics sometimes to rationalize why people do horrible things for no reason and sometimes I can't even accept that it is true and consider myself judgemental.
For all the problems this woman has caused, coming out and sharing it with the world has actually been a huge service because it proves that some people really DO mean it. Not everyone is just accidentally mean or doesn't know the hurt they cause. Not everyone deserves the benefit of the doubt.
literally. i feel guilty for looking at someone the wrong way too even though i naturally have a rbf
This really helps me understand my narc mom, psychopath dad, narc first husband, narc psychopath second husband, and covert narc ex boyfriend. I thought they were all just traumatized and not conscious of what they were doing, and that love would fix everything. Well, I'm as traumatized, or more so tgan any of them, and I'm not abusive. Understanding what was going on helps me heal, and sets me free. Thank you, Danish.
Wow, that's a lot of pain, so many monsters in your life. In some way it is possible to stand narcs just because they usually feel very bad. Psychopaths are different beasts. So damn evil....
Your life experiences sound like mine but with the opposite gender.
This lady is precisely why victims of Narcissists believe they are Demons!...It's beyond childhood trauma, it's sadistic!
Some of us believe they are demons bc we have seen them as demons. I dont mean that figuratively. My question is, “Do they realize it?”
Every human being should learn very early in life how to set and maintain one's boundaries. The only way how to cope with other human beings in general. A lot of people that really hate NPDs and BPDs etc. tend to have deep and unconscious problems themselves.
@@loveoneanotherdonthatewell it's probably because they've been destroyed by one.
@@StuUngarThe overt narcissist in my life sent me a picture his colleague took of him to my phone. I looked at the photo, and my exes' faces started to deform. Only his face in the picture deformed, not his body. It happened twice and never again. I was so alarmed. I will never forget that experience.
@@allywolf9182right
WHAT?! Using coercive control and emotional abuse to defraud someone of $150,000 is extortion! She needs to be locked away!!!
for some reason, cases like this are not only not prosecuted but also glorified. a lot of those ppl do get a lot of help and praise for that they can say of what they done.
It’s gut-wrenching but also my life so not so shocking
@@pawelhyzopski6456it's because she's a created minion of the higher up the food chain versions
This could be a material for a court in case this guy open a lawsuit …
She's dangerous af
Now imagine many others narcissists: Family members, partners, friends, co workers, bosses. They are everywhere and you will never know, until you meet the other side of the moon
It's so difficult to watch her narrate her experiences and what she's done. I literally feel sick listening to her. It's terrifying to know that these people walk among us.
Yes it's chilling. Her confession doesn't prove remorse. Like folks here have said "It's NEW SUPPLY" for her. Changed behavior is the apology, not "I'm sorry." Anyone can say they are sorry.
There's monsters between us
NEVERRRR ignore a smirk.....
YESSS
So true. The smirk is them enjoying your discomfort when they hit one of your buttons.
I concur
I smirk when I feel nervous and unsure but want to appear friendly and confident. Lol I'm trying to smile but I am bad at hiding my nerves, so it often turns into a smirk. Which people can sometimes interpret as smugness or mischievious. 😔 So please don't JUST judge a whole human being by a smirk. Some of us are innocent!
@@silentfriend369 didn't say that. But I shant be ignoring it...
How is this not psychopathy? I have known many narcissistic people throughout my life but some are elevated to the level of psychopath and she is a good candidate.
Well, it's a spectrum. Don't restrict psychopathy to certain traits of tags, this could be in psychopathy too
She's definitely more than an average narcissist she's psychopath af
Remember that All psychopaths are narcissistic.
Yes, I believe she is a narcissistic psychopath. We could break down the traits one by one.
Every pyschopath is a narcissist, but not every narcissist is a psychopath.
I am a survivor of narcissistic abuse and it is so similar. My abuser had no remorse, and straight up said to me “I don’t think I did anything wrong. Given the same situation, I would do the exact same thing again.” and that was just a day after apologising to a church elder for the way he mistreated me. He constantly puts his sins on me and blames me for them, even though it was clear I didn’t do what he accused me of. To all narcissistic abuse survivors out there, stand strong in your values and be brave to stand up against your abuser. We are better off without them.
Yeh , and the church needs to get that there are churchgoing demons. Not everyone in the church is a born again in Christ , and therefore part of the Body of Christ.
She's only pretending to be ashamed or embarrassed. She is using her platform to "expose her narcissism" to brag on how much trauma she inflicted. They are so cunning.
This is going to become a new social media trend of "exposing narcissism" by seeing who can cause the most trauma. It's like people who become serial killers just for the infamy.
The worst part is they will attract people of the opposite sex who feel sorry for them and want to help them.
You know...I'm at the point I don't actually care if narcissists are "aware" or not. Their actions are just pure evil, and there's just no excuse or justification for what they do. They DO know the difference between right and wrong-- my ex was ALWAYS very lovely, very reasonable with the police 🙄.
Or in front of a preacher.
But once he was out of eyesight and earshot of ANYONE, he could transform from angel to demon.
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Nobody is ever just nice or just mean, you really think that's a unique trait?
it doesnt matter if a murderrer is aware or not, a murder is stil a murder, and should have paid for its crimes. they do not, and not only that, a lot of ppl give them a hand, to bite, as soon as they say they aware they changed etc.
There is a very literal and actual demonic element to narcissism.
They are possessed.
@@dvilsadvocate1498 Not talking about just "anyone"-- the video is about people with NPD.
Just "anyone" doesn't have the police involved or have a string of lengthy guilty verdicts of abuse cases against people and animals.
But, hey-- you don't have to agree.
She is not just a narcissist she has a paychopathic core
A narcopath. Terrifying
they are very closely related, they're all despicable and cowardly so let's not pretend one is better than the other
@@MellowJelly in some ways they are mutually exclusive. Narcissist has toxic shame, they want hem look good in eyes of others, they depend on other more than normal person, while psychopaths is unable to feel shame, remorse or fear
The Hare Scale of Psychopathy can be very useful in diagnosis and many of the traits listed for psychopathy are narcissistic. NPD is on a spectrum of severity within individuals, and at it further extent it transitions into psychopathy.
@@MellowJelly they're personality disorders developed during childhood due to trauma, that doesn't make them despicable and cowardly, how are they supposed to feel something their brains have no pathways to produce?
My Narcissistic behavior was due to my fight-or-flight reaction to the things I had experienced. I was a survivor of narcissistic abuse and that caused me to behave the same way in my later relationships. For the past few years, I have started realizing that things that traumatized me, should not be the cause of the people who are in a relationship with me. I control it to my level best now... Am I happy now? I guess... I have come a long way though... I thank my husband for being super supportive when it was needed, he helped me to change my behavior. He always listens when I am in a mental crisis, like a best friend. That helped me a lot.
For much of my adult life I was a lying drug addicted thief who hurt everyone around me. During my recovery I have been trying to redeem myself and be a man worthy of respect. I felt and feel terrible about everything I did. After being with a narcissist the thing that hurts the most and is the most difficult to accept is the fact that they enjoy what they do, they do it for fun and aren’t harmed by the knowledge of who they are and the harm they have caused. It’s so difficult to accept. I’m trying to leave but I just can’t.
Treat yourself as a friend. If your friend was in this same situation what would you wish for them? As a recovering addict I appreciate the heaviness of having done terrible things in my past. I was in a relationship with a narc for five years. I'm a stupendously strong person, but I'm not sure I'll ever be the same after that one. If you can't leave for yourself, leave for me, leave for anything, just leave. You can do this. Make a plan and follow it through. Then it's over. Then you can start to heal.
@@enjyn09excellent advice and well said! 🤍
The smirk!!!....That was what my abuser always did when she saw that I was in pain, she has exactly the same smirk. They all have the same look.
yes. the half smile to the side of the mouth. ive seen it many times with different people
Psychopath with dead eyes and zero empathy.
I’ve noticed that too
They all act the same cause we are in a spiritual war good vs evil. Narcs have demons enhabiting their soul trying to take down the light cause they are workers of iniquity
Thisss!!! 🎯
If she can say this in public, imagine what she has really done that she cannot say on the internet!!!
Great video, thank you for providing this valuable insight. It makes me feel better about still being a bit wobbly. I was in a 20 year relationship with a "dead" man 😢
This video triggered me and brought up some thoughts and feelings that I thought I had healed through a lot more.
She is enjoying every moment of reveling in the memory of what she has done. She's using this platform to further her agenda. There is no remorse, only recognition and subliminal pride in that recognition of her evil. She's proud. She's pointing out her powers sonwe can all be aware and marvel. Attacking her is a complement. She wants to illicit a rise from us.
Secondary supply. Duper's delight. EVIL VILE SCUM.
Have no sympathy for a anyone who tells another human being to kill themselves!!!! 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬
Yep, any reaction is a win to them. Boredom and avoidance if instigated well enough will hurt them most. They have to keep finding people ignorant and goodhearted enough to put up with their tricks but they often end up alone and more erratic when they get older as they get a reputation and people stay away. Internet is full of suckers though..
She needs a severe punishment for sure.
She is probably fishing for sugar daddies that like a bucket of water thrown over them..
This is exactly what makes them so dispicable, the fact that they know they're hurting you is INHUMANE. No guilt, no shame, no remorse.
Exactly
That's why it's called a disorder
@MrNyathi1 These beings have a conscience, just like us, which means they Know right from wrong, good from evil, love vs hate. The narc Knows,
?carefully, chooses their target. They have this sick, desperate need for fuel/supply; this sick, demented need to destroy your joy. The narc is jealous of our empathic, caring and loving nature, which comes naturally to us!! This is foreign to them. I believe it is one of the first things they notice about themselves in their youth, what is this empathy? They ask themselves. They are Jealous of us for this and other great attributes that make up a ' human being.'
@@MrNyathi1I'm sorry, but it should be extremely obvious that your opinion on a master manipulator has been masterfully manipulated. "I don't think she knows she's hurting people". You need to stop trusting your gut and use some logic. Much like your friend is damaged and can't help it, your ability to judge character has also been damaged. Being absolutely delighted to hurt people cannot be glanced over in any context. Unless we are talking about a professional fighter you are completely fucked dude. You need to re examine your entire perspective
@@MrNyathi1 Youre so stupid dude, the definition of cruetly is to hurt someone knowing that you're doing it. it's the ultimate tactict 'I'm coming clean and admitting that I knew it was hurting people'. Also known as gloating, but they don't make it that obvious or people won't conform to them so easily anymore.
The part about telling the man to kill himself got to me. I heard that multiple times and to see a person sit there casually saying it is disturbing. That she laughs to compensate for her discomfort is concerning.
Laughing at discomfort is really, REALLY common behavior, not just among narcissists. I understand in context why it would be upsetting, but I mean. Inappropriate laughter is associated with all kinds of brains.
Narcissists confess just so they can feel proud of their BS and they want you to take their BS and feel surprised, astonished and helpless🎉
She actually finds it quite amusing, hench the quick snickers in between. She thinks she's pretty smart. She's proud of her actions. They are soulless demons. Once I've seen one, I cannot unsee them.
yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! understanding that they are soulless demons was the key to my healing...................everytime i have a memory of my abuse i answer with: I WILL NOT! receive or transmute any more negative energy! I WILL NOT!!!!!!!allow the demons that control these people to suck out my life force any longer!!!!!!!!!..................because they were not even human!!!!!!!
@@nancyritland9116excellent recognition. There’s more to life when you move on, and slowly move away!
Her name is Lilith, like how much more on the nose could it be?
@@patrickm.4469 kinda not her fault to live her name programming...
my name 100% ifluenced who i am today, i ended up studying winemaking at university...
I was a victim of narcissism and the fact that this person is so evil gives me the shivers
Because of my situation, this has helped me so much. Thank you for your videos. I've watched quite a few videos on Narcissism, but you are coming at it from an angel that I personally need.
I know it's not popular or trendy to hear this, but most people diagnosed with NPD aren't super aware of the toxic patterns that they're creating for themselves and those around them- that's why so few narcissists end up going to therapy. I know it feels good to look at the abusers in our lives and say "wow they knew it all along, they ARE evil," but I honestly think it's a coping mechanism. And one that I understand. When I was starting my healing journey I needed to think that narcs were evil monsters, but years down the road I realize that they're also just people... people with extremely fragile ego and a need for narcissistic supply that pushes them into constant conflict with everyone around them. Now sociopathy is a different beast all together. I think what this woman is describing sounds much closer to sociopathy than the average NPD patient. Good luck to everyone recovering from abuse out there!
Yeah they're pitiful, but they're pitiful in a disgusting manner. They ARE aware, otherwise they wouldn't try so hard to look like something else. They are pitiful parasitic entities and you can of course pity them, but I advise you to listen to your gut feeling of disgust. It's there for a very, very good reason.
Any person who tells another person to kill themselves is evil just plain evil. Calling them a narcissist is a compliment. This girl is still manipulating she wants tik tok followers. She wants people to believe she changed. She hasn’t changed she is evil stay far far away from her.
I grew up hearing that phrase every day at home, school, and the internet, to the point where it didn't have an impact and seemed like a normal insult. The thing is, when someone told me how it impacted people I stopped immediately and felt immensely guilty and ashamed and never did it again. Am I evil?
@@kevinbissinger this comment section is very condemning and judgemental. People change.
What about when someone has been a narc to you, you have a child with them, you've tried everything to sort out all the crazy emotional shit they hurl on you from virtually never missing a beat parent plan wise to abstaining to resorting to their abusive behaviour, after you finally just want purely out of the relationship and that's all and they refuse to give you your child back unless it's when and where they want AGAIN going out of the plan for the 700th time (not that you can virtually ever get away with that) and you finally just start saying no. Stick to the plan. I'm keeping your kid they say. The legal systems back logged to Timbucktoo. These people know this.
I finally said it. Can you just disappear? Drive in your car super super fast your the best driver ever after some coke or something I hear it's an adrenaline rush like no other.
Never hear the end of your moments after being pushed to breaking point after breaking point of no accountability abusive behaviour.
I don't think I was evil.
Think I'd just plum had enough.
@@kevinbissinger Dude, what "phrase?" Stopped doing what?
@@wolfpack4672 Yeah, they're behaving incredibly self-righteously, but they're also behaving incredibly cruelly. They could do with some empathy themselves.
I follow her and asked her “how could they just abandon their child and wife so easily with no remorse” (that happened to me) and she told me that it’s basically it’s because it’s easier to just easier to remove their family from their life rather then taking ownership of their actions and changing anything to make the family life better and they rather just lose the family then be held accountable. Just like that.
They have psychopathic tendencies
Pathetic, waste of life. Literally. That’s what that type of person is. Pure garbage.
Reminds me of the Watts murder in Colorado. The fella that killed his pregnant wife and two young daughters, to be with his Mistress. 😥
Yup, sounds about right.
I mean she didn’t lie. People opt for convenience over morality all the times and she exploits that effectively because she’s honest about it.
Thanks! I appreciate you turning your pain into power and empowering others now. I also commend you for providing this young lady’s links while instructing your subscribers and supporters to be respectful! You, Sir, are a blessing!🙌🏼💕
Thank you for showing that video. I red Fuel by HG Tudor and it helped me a lot to understand, what a person I am dealing with. But to hear it out of a narcissistic mouth and see her into her eyes, brings it to another level.
Thank you by heart!
Encountered a narcissist very briefly. When I disagreed with one of his ideas and basically called it stupid, he turned evil, trying so badly to find a way to hurt me. But because I naturally keep my emotions under lock and key and hide my vulnerabilities, he couldn’t figure out how to attack me. All while by this point, I could see something was extremely wrong with the guy. I stayed around a little longer after that but the guy was a demon. My soul warned me that I wasn’t dealing with a normal person
Or maybe you just shouldn't call people's opinions stupid randomly?
@@penultimania4295That's exactly right and it seems like many people on these videos lack empathy themselves!
I'd get upset if someone pointed out that an idea of mine was "stupid" as well and would've put it in a different way, or not said anything. I'm aware that highly narcissistic people can get angry about anything a person says though. 🙁
we should do vehicles of cotton candy and build buildings and bridges without beams. ¿what do you think about those ideas? @@penultimania4295
when an idea is not clever is not clever, the truth is the truth you like it or not, period.@@cyndigooch1162
In reality, we all have a bit of narcissistic tendencies within us. How many of us can claim that we are "NOT' broken, hurt, misunderstood or even unloved? I think a narcissist is a mirror for us. They make us face our own BS, even make us see the mask we wear, as we hide our own vulnerabilities. We are not in a relationship with a narcissist because we just happen to come upon them. We attracted them to us, so we can see our so-called "dark side" and do something about improving our own mental health. They are overt predators, but we have to be honest, we have covert predations as well. The way this comment section is going down the rabbit hole of mudslinging is showing just how "dark" we can get as well. We have to rise above the "evil" not by recklessly pointing out how evil they are, but seeing how that evil is a reflection of some of our own BS or even our own need to play the victim. Think about it!
As disturbing as that video is, it's cathartic for me. I often fought with myself mentally, thinking "its not their fault, or maybe they don't realise what they said hurt me." Nope. This is a confirmation that these people know EXACTLY what they're doing and not to give them that second (and third and fourth and fifth etc) chance. Never go to that level to harm them but also never give them that opportunity to harm you.
She's not a narc, she's a psychopath....this guy is full of sh.
@zy510 It seems important to mention that there are different types though and they're definitely not all aware of their behaviour since many often act impulsively to the perceived, or real, insults towards them and so on.
I was surprised when Danish said that this young woman's "confession" proves that they do know what they're doing because she's only one person, who seems more like a malignant one.
I want to add that the self-confessed narcissistic psychopath, HG Tudor, has videos on the subject and he states that the lesser narcissistic types have no idea of what they're doing most of the time, which I've experienced with way too many people throughout my life, whereas his type know exactly what's going on.
It doesn't matter if they know or not in the end though because it's best for those involved to focus on how the toxic behaviour is affecting mental and physical health in a negative way, then to leave the person, or go no contact, IF possible. ❤
@@penultimania4295that’s exactly what I was thinking! Im glad I’m not the only one who sees the obvious
I’m sorry you went through the horrible experience of interacting with people like this, they have a mental condition and you are 💯 percent not at fault in any way! People like her don’t know right from wrong and don’t have emotions like us. Their mind is different and its best to not wrap yourself thinking about whos at fault. Just stay away from them, they are sick in the mind.
Same i still battle with thinking they must not mean it
I appreciate the honesty! That's great!
After all, it was not knowing / realizing these kind of people exist that made us auspicious for abuse!
When I was married and my ex did the things he did, it was the fact that he'd go so far, I'd stop him,
'then he'd leave me alone for a few days.
'then he'd come back, do the same thing. I'd put up my resistance,
'but he had *figured-out-a-way* to overcome whatever resistance I had figured out.
That's when I knew that what he was doing to me (and my daughters) was premeditated.
When my sister and me once confronted my dad after physically and verbally abusing her he straight up started smiling gleefully. These people are so broken that they will chip away at your own psyche- no empathy towards these people. We all went through stuff but did not end up like them- they are the ones with issues, not us.
Completely true.
I confronted a narcissist in my life and they did this weird smirk too
I also knew someone who would laugh when I'd bring up any concern about them or us. It was so hurtful and confusing. I didn't understand it at the time.
@@Buffaletta good ass whooping is sometimes the cure.
If only it was that easy. I'm not gettign shitty karma for killing them of beating the life out of them or I would have killed so many people already. Murder is one of the easiest crimes to get away with. @@fungus_am0nguz644
Entirely true, she has gained a level of cognitive awareness but entirely lacks the emotional response of guilt for the harm she’s inflicted, and really that is something she’ll probably never develop fully, I don’t expect. The quivering in her voice is about the shame she is concerned she will garner for herself in other people’s eyes. It’s still about her image. She’s still at the center of everything. The best we can hope for this person is she continues to gain this “secondary”, “derived” empathy to compel her to do what is right for other people, or to at least restrain herself from incurring more harm.
Like artificial intelligence.
@@ExtremeSurvivor_1 So kind of homeopatherapy? Haha
It seems crazy but it's validating. Once you've been validated, you're no longer alone by self perception. Once comradery occurs, it's strengthening in different ways so you're more likely to make positive moves toward healing.
@@ExtremeSurvivor_1 For the first time from your comments I felt like these people are damned in to darkness else I used to feel it's so unjustified that they are mentally incapable and others are bearing the consequences. Thanks for putting that perspective out there, it says a lot.
@@meghasanyal4861 My HONOR to input anything. I'm HONORED to still be ALIVE. As much as these people have been hurt though, we must remember too that billions have been injured in such horrible ways but they didn't go around hurting others and making excuses for it. IT IS A CHOICE, just as we heard Lilith.. my husband CHOOSES to hurt me as does your Narc or all these people's abusers. THEY CHOOSE TO ABUSE and I PRAY FOR JUSTICE, for ALL OF US victims and future ones too.
Thank you SO MUCH for writing me! 😇
That’s beyond narcissism. She leveled up! Gaslighting , mental and emotional abuse , taking advantage of that, enjoying, feeling proud, no remorse … wow … pure evil ... for those people jail isn’t worthy, it’d make them worse, angry and vengeful, I believe. Such kind of sadistic people should be treated with no pity as in a 1900 asylum ... an eye for an eye 👁️
This is where I start to wonder if my boyfriend is a narcissist because he has sent me into the worst panic attacks I've ever experienced (as someone who grew up having panic attacks), and my last relationship was toxic too but I never had panic attacks like that. He will push me to my edge emotionally, all the time. But he says that I have a perception of him that is false and that I'm creating these issues by making things a bigger deal than they are and honestly I just have no idea if that's true or not. That's the worst part about all this.
Nobody should push you to your limits. Someone who cared wouldn’t do that. Please get out of this relationship and seek the help you need. You are worth more than you will ever know.
Narcissist or not please find someone who makes you feel safe happy and at peace. You’re worth more.
He's downplaying things, diminishing your opinions, and controlling your perception of him. Sounds pretty much like a narcissist to me.
Trust your gut
My ex fiancée was this way. Very charming outwardly. Very popular and convincing. He assessed my trauma and was aware of things that happened in school. Moved me two hours away from my family with promise to help me with school. I ended up with no access to my bank account, no car, nearly homeless, and mentally unwell. The worst part was that he wouldn’t pick up his pistol from my home for weeks on end and then called the police for a welfare check on me when I requested he remove the weapon. Lied to my family and painted me for someone I was not. These people are incapable of love.
Thank God you didn’t marry him.
Are you ok now???!
Well done for getting out, please don't let it happen again
She brings a lot of attention to herself by revealing what she did. And we all know they love attention. She has no remorse. She has no soul.
She has one but it’s probably going to hell.😱
Maybe, but you don't know.
It's good to judge behavior but really bad to judge hearts
I simply stated my opinion. As did you.
@@aimeestutzman5823 Thank you.
Abused children have no soul.
Hitler was an abused child. Stalin too. So is Putin. Abused children are angry. Permanently. They have no human empathy. They crave power and control. Sound like any politician you know? (approximately all of them).
Sound like any narcissist you know? (approximately all of them).
I spent 42 years with a women that I loved and at times I still wish I could. It's been 9 years since I left. All this said, she took my entire life from me! I am too far gone at this age now. If there is a God , I pray for her life to be gone!
Can you imagine being married to a horrendous person like this? Be careful out there guys (and gals).
Thank you very much for reviewing this with us. Narcs are so tricky that if we pay attention closely, she was still trying to gather sympathy and she plainly explained what she did but not really the emotional/phycological harm she caused the victims she targeted. In fact, she really didn't acknowledge the people she abused.
And let's be careful with these narcs who explain what they do, practice discernment.
I agree they are so sneaky. The one I knew did that sympathy trick on me at first and I had no clue.
She should talk about how the victims suffered
I agree. She may be trying to put these behaviors behind her. Possibly. But she still has little empathy. She still is focused on herself.
@@LoveSource1111She can’t. She only understands it psychologically. She has no emotional understanding of it. No empathy. No conscience. She doesn’t know what they felt like cause she can’t put herself into their shoes. What she can do is relive how powerful making people feel those emotions made her feel. She’s practically bragging about it.
She was bragging.
She has ALL the characteristics of a DEMON and a NARCISSIST. 💯
I’m so thankful that I no longer have any narcissists in my life, no contact is powerful. Whether it is from so called family, friends or co-workers, I had to totally let them ALL go! And now I am BLESSED. 🙏🏽
Lilith is a demon that is the most interesting...
May you always be blessed. I’m slowly planning to run away from my narcissistic family, especially my mother. That woman has made my entire life a living hell. She is full of jealousy, hate and resentment. May you always be blessed ❤❤
My guess is that she is a witch. And yes, they do exist.
Lilith, meaning "belonging to the night," comes from the Akkadian word lilîtu, the feminine form of a word meaning "demon" or "spirit." In Mesopotamian mythology, Lilith was the first wife of Adam who was ultimately banished from the Garden of Eden for her disobediance.
Please pray for me as well, My Narcissist father have made my life and my mother and brother a living hell.
She says out loud that her past behavior was disgusting but she doesn’t feel that way. You can see it
My narcissistic wife, while pregnant, kept asking me what I would do if she left the country with the child. I repeatedly tried to avoid it all, but she kept pushing until I yelled (thinking she might actually have been planning to do it). She loves to tell people that I yelled at her, while she was pregnant. She’s unbelievable. Plus, she uses divorce as a bargaining chip. I’m miserable with her, but as a working-class mutt, divorce will squelch any possible security that can be afforded to the kids.
😢understood
You need to run, and don’t have more children with her please these people will not change. Having child with narc hell on earth.
Narcs are not aware enough to change because they don't want to. My sister would openly state that she "was" a bad person and talk about the things that she has done to others with the same empty expression. She would make it sound like she was no longer this person and admit that she did ruin people, just like this woman. It was still just for attention and praise because she knows that if you appear vulnerable and make it sound like these things were only in the past and not a reflection of who you are today, people will at least give you props for honesty.
Yes, admitting to being wrong about anything will crush their grandiose defenses. This is an act imo. I had a sis that was narc
I like the part where she tries to conceal her Duper’s Delight and brag about the guy giving her $150K but she told him to kill himself. I didn’t experience the shakiness in her voice as shame. They are actors. She is acting like she’s helping. This “helping” is still getting her supply and money. I avoid self aware narcissists. My ex husband became self aware during the second half of our marriage, but he never told me about his diagnosis. He just hyper focused his new “awareness” to test his powers. He became more cruel with self awareness. Therapists and counselors seem to think mouthing words that sound like remorse mean remorse and understanding for what they did is occurring. No. It’s not. It only means they now know how to really keep score. They only see the way things affect them. They don’t care about the harm done to others, even when they say they know it’s wrong. They already knew it was wrong.
This was such a good video. I needed to hear exactly what kind of feelings are felt by a narcissist. They themselves say that their pain is greater than any pain normal ppl can feel.
When I told my child’s father that he was a manipulator he responded that just means I’m a good communicator..
It makes them feel good about themselves that they are able to control somebody else. I see the pride that she was able to do that to this guy and not actually an embarrassment. And her body language also is more towards self-obsession.
I avoid people like that like the plague
@@chozahfearless7524 but the world is majority them na
They think they are superior or Gods for controlling others
My narcissistic ex would joke with his family about how he used to purposely antagonize people in order to get a reaction out of them. He thought it was so funny. He even caused people to cut ties with his family because of how much he purposely pushed them to get a reaction out of them. I remember thinking how awful that was and wondering at what point he stopped doing that...at the time not realizing that he never actually stopped doing it and he was in fact doing it in a more covert way with me. I'm so glad i realize it now.
My ex narcissistic husband would leave in the middle of night and leave the back door wide open. I woke up at 2 am one time to find the door wide open. It happened a few more times after that. When I confronted my husband he said he just simply forgot to shut the door. I live in the city and I was glad I woke up to find the door open. After that, my husband would play games and change the door locks so I would be locked out when I got home from work. A few times I came home and my neighbor had informed me that he saw my husband throwing my clothes and belongings in the dumpster. He would also give away my belongings to his friends and sister.
'Slowly dose them with their triggers or traumas' is one of the most evil things I've ever heard. Let's hope she and everybody else in the world that would engage in such behavior get what they deserve in life. ...Well, I stand corrected as the video progressed. Tragic that this is even a human personality type which I know all too well, only hadn't heard them confess that depth of their evil.
she doesn’t feel disgusted! That is manipulation
She had a smirk when saying she felt bad. No emotion behind it except pride and delight
agreed. it seems to me she's excited on the new turn this posture will give her. new challenges, real ones, the "most difficult ones" as the supposedly will from now on be confronted to people who know she's manipulative
Exactly, she getting supply out of this manipulating even these so called healing coaches its insane if you think about it this chic doesn't give af
I have been on the receiving end of this for a short time with a woman. It was truly frightening. It’s just like she says. They gather information then turn it against you at every opportunity
it’s sad n shocking that women r capable of it
@richardlongmore9301 same here, and I'm sorry you had to go through this type of BS! My fear, now, is that the storm isn"t over yet, even though I'm completely indifferent to her now.
I wish my abuser would come out and admit these things. Omg everything she was saying was like, yup, I was on the other end of this. I am just prey to him. It is definitely a game for him. Pure evil. I truly have looked into the eyes of evil.
Thank you for sharing. This was extremely triggering but needed. Validating the suspicions is so important for that finality of acceptance for me. I managed toe escape almost two years ago but still have trouble to this day wondering "was I wrong?" He was very good at the quick turn (telling me how horrible I was, How it was all my fault, etc.) I harbored constant doubt of my place with him for the entire four years we were together and stayed confused.
Watching this helped tremendously with those lingering doubts and hopefully will help with the lingering echo of insults that came from him that turned into my own PICVAD (Personal Insecurity Creation Voice And Deprecator).
Much Appreciation ❤❤
If only I’d known I was being used as a pawn in a game of “mental chess” I NEVER would have played!
I bet you don’t play now like me. Having smelt the coffee it’s great eye opener😀
@@mikemcternan8249 I’m definitely a lot more suspicious now … almost paranoid. They totally screw with your head.
@@JEden05 Indeed. Its really sorting out their agenda and take it slowly.
Makes it easier to leave them and never look back
You didn't know you were in a game, now you can see the whole board.
You'll notice the black queen has a crown of red flags. ;)
wow, I have a low tolerance for people with bad behavior so a narc could never do those things to me. I'm not depserate for companionship and usually at the first sign of a red flag, I'm out the door. I had one narc give me an ultimatum, either you do what I want or this relationship is over......I started singing the theme song to the Carol Burnett show at the end of each episode.....never looked back. Don't get me wrong, walking out hurt like a mofo (ripped my heart out) but I'm also an emotionally well balanced person and know that any feelings of pain that I had would eventually subside in time, they always do.
I have one rule when it comes to all humans.....narcissist or not.....if you exhibit any red flags, I have no problem ending the relationship whether it be friendship, family or intimate. Because i don't need to be in a relationship to have a fulfilling life, I can't be emotionally blackmailed and manipulated into doing something I don't want to do. When you are desperate for love, you are an easy target. There's not a human being on this planet who's love I need that much that I'm willing to accept unacceptable behavior.
Wow, you're fantastic.
Tell me a few red flags.
I should write this in a journal everyday so I can set it as my mindset!! 😅
@@KaymakveMimi emotional blackmail is a huge one. I have had people try to use emotional blackmail on me. I just looked at them and laughed in their face and then tell them to get out and never call me again.........The older I get, the lower my tolerance gets. I no longer believe in second chances....you got one time to fu*** up.
My cousin is a diagnosed sociopath....the crap she used try with me just made me laugh. I have to be very cold with her, strictly no nonsense. I am brutally honest with her at all times and I kept my distance only really interacting with her at family functions. If she's lying, I call her a liar to her face (of course she always denies it). I don't coddle her, I don't walk on eggshells around her and I don't accept her unacceptable behavior. Their behavior is so predictable. I just can't believe the number of people who are so timid and desperate for love to let the most gawd awful people control them.
What brought you to this video?
DR. Bashir. You are sooo on point! These people aren’t just mean deceitful lying people but ARE also EVIL! Demons act this way!!! NOT PEOPLE OF GOD! Period! Thank you for delivering THE TRUTH about NARCISSISTIC PEOPLE ❤️. GOD BLESS YOU
Thank you Danish for all of your expertise and for sharing it with us… especially useful to know that your mother was narcissistically manipulative.. amazing how well we can survive… you are very kind 🙏
Reminds me of serial killers who 'come clean' over further victims. They get an extra day in the sun, leading detectives to burial sites and become the MOST important person because they hold to information that nobody else does.
They don't do this out of conscience. They do this purely for the attention it brings them.
This girl is only doing this for the attention it brings her. It's a victory cry, a public boasting session. She is also aware that there will be many victims of people like her that will become triggered by her words. She's getting one BIG hit, one huge mass of supplies. Though she'll never personally witness the damage she is doing, she knows full well that there will be many out there in tears of distress.
I'd say she is a narcopath.
Yes and a lot of the time I recall those searches end up not finding victims.
She is an example of what narcissism is….EVIL in the worst form.
Thank You Danish for educating the public.
The smirk on her face. She wears her actions as a badge of honour, like she has some super human power.
Thank you so much for posting this period.
it's like the endgame for a narcissist in the social media age;
becoming famous through an "apology video"
Her youtube channel is completly blank now, what a coincidence. Also Danish I think you missed to notice how proud was she when she was talking about her actions, and also the light in her eyes. It's undeniable that's she is proud of her actions.
I don't think that "self-aware" narcissists exists, and I also don't think they're deserve to being treated like a decent human being.
I think so too.
I agree. Could easily be lying that she 'feels bad about it blah blah blah'. Does she really? Don't trust her or bet on it....
True, and it’s what they are best at so they keep doing it to get the high off it. Nothing else gives them that high.
What's the name of her channel
@PenileAugmentation "It's like being blind in a way which causes me to bump into things and other people because I don't know where I'm going without thinking about it." + "Imagine if you needed to learn to avoid things which hurt you rather than just intuitively avoiding it because you have nerves which trained you to do that automatically!"
It's sounds so true and convincing, but what you're saying is still not true and irrelevant. It's a conscious choice someone how deals with people. Also empathy is not a divine force which prevents someone to hurt other people and/or do nasty and very low things, treat people with that kind of manner.
The truth is yoi simply don't care how your actions affects people, it has nothing to do with empathy an/or the lack of empathy.
On the other hand if you think you have strong narcissistic tendencies and you really want to change for the better insted of therapy your first question should be: "Am I capable of therapy?"
Do an MRI scan of your brain. If you lack grey matter in specific areas ( medial and ventromedial, anterior/rostral dorsolateral prefrontal and orbitofrontal cortices, subgenual and mid-anterior cingulate cortices, insula, and bilateral caudate nuclei) thentherapy is just a waste of time, because you lack the "minimum system requirements" that needed for a change.
If you don't have this problem, meaning your brain is normal then therapy could be an option, but it's still not sure. There is a possibility that you are just simply a bad, evil person. It goes to the spiritual realms. Simply put: you're possessed. If you vividly remember a point of your life when you had to choose between being good/self-centered (some people treated me badly, so I will treat everyone that way, nbody will hurt me again, etc) then you made a conscious choice and basically killed your soul and/or you let some kind of entity(not from the good side) possess you. These kind of choices are irreversible.
We also know she's a narcissist because she expects emotional rewards by "coming clean" for the sole purpose of getting respect she doesn't deserve.
My narcissistic ex had devalued me so much that i thought I was nothing at the end of relationship. He insulted my community, the city i grew up in, I was in dental school and apparently my profession is easy and it is easy to finish dental study courses. And I was good in extracurriculars but he would always make me feel like I was not that good blah blah. That break up was an eye opener of how some people in world can be. I used to be overly empathetic and now I used empathy very cautiously otherwise people will take advantage very easily. Don't let anyone take advantage of your kindness. And I know karma hit him and he suffered a mental health crisis with 3 failed papers and had to repeat an entire year.
It seems like the attention people get from making videos like this is worth it to them. They are totally willing to disclose some very sensitive information about themselves because the positives outweigh the negatives. When it comes to Sociopaths and Narcissists there really is no such thing as bad publicity. Not to mention that video may seem like an educational confession to her audience but to her its more like "This will make me money, give me attention and people will probably say I am brave for telling my story."
So it is at least worth considering, that she have learned a new set of skills to get more narc supplies in a more efficient way. And probably get even more dangerous by doing that.
I am also self aware. I don’t have guilt, shame or remorse. I still instinctively and automatically still deal with the knowledge of my past experiences, choices and behaviors. I fight my own mind every day. I for the majority of my life was not only hurting everyone in my path but I completely and utterly destroyed myself, due to Lies that I told myself. I was raised by a malignant narcissist father and a very cleaver covert or vulnerable narcissist mother. I was also the escape goat which carried into every adult relationship. I told me that I am nothing like my father only to find out 45 years later I’m exactly like my mother. There is right and wrong. I have the ability to talk about the awful, disgusting, disturbing thoughts but because of my quest to understand my father I learned a lot about me. I now know how to use new techniques and tools to slow down say the horrible things out loud because once said out load and I can hear myself saying it believe me it all sounds better in my mind. My mother and father were scared of me and I had no idea. The action my mother chose to take her family to church when I was 8 years old was the best thing she ever did. I believed at the time that I had no business at church. I didn’t understand the people at all nor could I emotionally connect with anyone. Great news for me I didn’t have to understand anything but what I did see was people hugging each other, feeding each other meals, praying with each other. I felt energy in that building that was good I now understand that energy to be God’s presence. All I did know is I wanted to be around God’s presence more than anything else, I wanted in my life the interactions of what I witnessed people loving on one another. You don’t have to have empathy to know what people doing good things for themselves and others to want or need that in your life. I have to pause, cut off negative individuals, put my ego aside and instead of just trying to think about my selfishness I have the ability to actively listen to those who desire to love me and my desire to love them and hopefully find a solution that will benefit everyone. It takes a lot of effort and energy but my peace of mind and my ability to hold my head high is priceless. I found self love because I hated myself so deeply and I was blind. I practice self care and mindfulness. I use every day I’m blessed with to make better choices.
You go Jean!
I'm happy for you but i'm doubtful you have the condition. Either way what you typed is nice.
Before you were self aware did you know what you were doing or did it just seem normal? I have a bunch of questions actually
For me it always seemed normal. Seemed Like a common sense reaction. Was never premeditated or part of some intentional grand scheme but just a response to something they did (or thought to have done)
How did you become aware that you were like that fr?
Wow this is a great video thank you for this wonderful insight
Genuinely a thank you to that girl……. I know it’s something she genuinely struggles with because, although she acknowledges that it’s wrong, you can tell something is not quite right. It’s as if that switch is broken and she’s genuinely trying to find that switch, but doesn’t even have the slightest inkling of what would happen if she did?
That duping delight 😏 on her face says it all. Naw, she's not sorry, she's quite proud of herself ...Still!
Narcissists don't play the game of life, they play people. Most are left with an unsuccessful, unfulfilling life later in life.
enjoying the way you explain in your videos. thanks for the content homie
Wow. This is what one of my ex's did to me. Actually, this is what two of them did. The last one was a covert. If you could do this same type of video with a covert narcissist, that would be amazing. I've worked with 5 therapists / psychologists since when I was both in and out of the last relationship, and all 5 said he was a covert narcissist. It's something I still doubt, and he's so covert that hardly anyone believes me when I tell them what I went through with him. If you could find a diagnosed self-aware covert narcissist, that would help so many of us so much.
I've heard many psychologists and therapists (including two that I worked with) say that covert narcissism is the most insidious. The stonewalling, the dismissal of nearly all of your needs, the mind games....there are no real words for it. They don't (often) yell and scream or insult like the more obvious narcissists do. They won't call you a piece of ****. But when you say things like "I feel like a loser" or "Why are you treating me as if I don't matter to you? Why don't you care about me?" They won't say "You're not a loser!" or they just refuse to answer you or look at you when you ask them why they don't care about you.
I've never had anyone neglect me or treat me the way my ex covert narcissist did. He is so kind and amazing to everyone else. His parents, his 'friends', the randos he tries to impress on social media....but me? He didn't care that I was hurt or suffering. He cared when I was happy because that's when I was the most productive and entertaining for him. But if I was sick or suffering...he couldn't have cared less.
Please find and interview a covert narc, if you can.
Mine was a covert malignant. I was in terrible health from all the gaslighting. It's the worst of them all
Nicole, I watched Joker 2019 the other night and that was my covert narc to a T. Everything is woe is me, everything is everyone else's fault, his rage, his awkwardness, right down to the maniacal laughing.
@@LoveSource1111 I was in terrible health cause of my ex narc too. :(
@@NicolesFunLife Girl, I can relate to everything that you went through so much so that it's giving me chills :( I hope your health got better after you left him.
He sounds like my brother. I just realised he does t care about me and i found peace in that. He cares about money, work and his own life. And talks bad about people, lies in my face and turns the conversations in a way that he is the hero. He just has a big ego and doesnt trust humans. I am happy i will leave the same house in the end of the year ,(whished i already leaved way earlier)
Although I commend her for actually acknowledging what she's done, the lack of care in her eyes and that evil little smirk that I'm sure many of us have seen a thousand times before, definitely gave me a little PTSD.. We all know acknowledgement isn't a narc's strong point. Maybe when they are proud of how they damaged you, and you get to see the mask dropped for a second, and they are like, "Yup. You got me!"... I don't know how to feel about her, but I'll try not to judge why she's doing it. I was brought up to believe that a mountain will move before a person changes their character. And that's between her and God.
I was scrolling the comments to see if anyone noticed that smirk...
@@Human_01 so as someone who was abused in childhood and had no support, developed Borderline (cluster B) disorder, and have taken responsibility and feel terrible for how I used to be. To you…I was born evil. Stuff like this makes me want to just give up. Why bother changing if people will judge me based on my past or who I am inside based on unresolved pain? It’s just not fair. I deserve to be better, I deserve to overcome my problems and be a good person like anyone else.
Yep. It's exactly like mental chess... and even when you know what they re you have to keep your guard up all the time and think what are they trying to accomplish which then causes paranoia and it's frankly exhausting and I'd rather be by myself and so I'm ditching the covert narcissist in my life.
My narcissistic mom told my dad to kill himself and then he did. I miss my dad so much and my mother has never felt even a sliver of remorse, at all.