i got off incognito mode possibly fucking up my recommended shit and now people may see boyfriend shit and know im gay just to say. no shit 3.7 billion people are not like this
I am done right now.. I have been up all night, I just found this guy's existence, and I've been listening to his vids all night. I took a break for a few hours, because I was feeling really twisted and down. So much going on in my life and I always keep it to myself. I care about my friends and siblings so much, so I never want to worry them about my constant state of borderline breakdowns. My siblings need me too much. But really, I can only take so much. Some one I trusted and loved indefinitely, molested me and completely shattered our relationship. It was quite some time ago but I still dream of him. And no matter how subtle his role is in the dreams, I always feel intimidated and I don't have rested sleep. I've been dreaming of him a lot these past two months, and the love of my life is too far to be with me when I need him. And as I said, I'm not one to worry the ones I hold dear. The only reason I'm posting this is because I don't know who ever is going to read this, and that makes it easier to get off my chest. I hate that man who broke me down and took advantage of my heart. What breaks me more is that he can't even accept responsibility of what he has done. My mother is as much of a nuisance as him. She has kids, yes. But that doesn't make her a mother. I did not birth any child, but I can say I have raised kids. I am the second mother to my siblings and they are, honest to God, the main reason I put up with my family's bullsh*t. I stay close to my siblings so if they ever need me, I'm there. Because I know what its like growing up feeling uncared for. And unloved enough to just neglect. My older brother always, and still does, beg for attention from my family. I'm too considerate of peoples feelings to ever ask for attention. And I've always just kept my mouth shut. Because I'd rather sit alone in dying need of affection and true love, than to take something away from someone else. Because I know what it is like to have things taken from you, or to be pushed aside. Or taken for granted, or disliked because I won't play the same manipulative games as my family. I honestly wish I could say I didn't have parents. Or a family besides my siblings (minus my older brother). My younger siblings I would do anything for. And they are the only reason I say I have a family. I have walked through hell for them, and I never regret it. For them I will suffer everyday internally even if it is forgotten. Even if my efforts die with me. Because in my heart, my siblings are worth the whole damn world to me. ❤ I wake up shaking from nightmare's of what that man has done to me, and I hate that he gets a single space in my life that's an addition to what he has already stolen from me. I hate him, and I will never know what a real relationship btwn a father and daughter is like because of him. When I was younger, before he did his sh*t, I really did love him. And I imagined growing up with him. Being a protective father. Loving me. Teaching me. Dancing at prom or something like they do in the movies. Him giving me away at my wedding. I envisioned a pure everlasting love btwn us. And... It is so painful, I ignore his existence and the breakage he has caused me most days.. But lately, he has been haunting me in my sleep.. I feel like there is no way I can escape him in my entire life... Even if I never see him again, will he always be here..? In my dreams, or daily thoughts.. Following me in my life.? I hate him, but I feel like if I hadn't loved him that this would be easier... I have so much beef with my mother. (Who doesn't?) And I can't confide in her at all to share my pain. No way I'm gonna express my hatred for my father to my siblings. And I know the love of my life hurts just as much as I do about this.. So I keep it to myself... I just wanted to say this video was perfect timing... I was really feeling alone.. And like a waste.. I feel I should be a kinder person. I know I should treat my loved ones better. And I know they all deserve better than me.. I lie in bed alone, deciding I deserve the pain I feel. And maybe its best people don't know me so well, and that its good I'm not close with my friends.. I don't know how to treat the people I love.. I don't know how to express myself. And I don't think it is anybody's problem that I can't even understand myself. The love of my life asks me what's wrong.. Truth be told, I don't really know... I just know I hurt... I feel something wrong deep inside my mind, and my chest aches... I feel there is something missing.. And there is something broken.. I want to speak, but I don't know the words... I wish to reach out to people, but I'm always afraid of that first step. Because I don't know what comes after it... I don't know if I can be what people need from me. I have all these things I need to say to my father. And mother.. But I don't know the words. I hate them. I do. But .. I love them too... I don't want to.. I also hate being so confused of my feelings all the time. I never have a straight answer... I'm so sick of myself. But its not like I can be any body else. Anyway, my deepest apologies for this long rant... I just happened to still be awake when this was posted.. And I almost didn't feel alone.. Hit me in my heart, and I had to speak.. Thank you for reading this. Any body. And thank you Mr. BFA. You don't know me, but you almost made me feel like you do. Thank you for your words.. Thank you for making me feel like I deserve true affection, and someone who genuinely cares. Thank you for being there, even though you don't know it. 💚 is for those who took the time to read this. Sending best wishes, and encouraging vibes to anyone who needs to know someone wants them to be okay.
My condolences but there is no need to apologise. If saying all this makes you feel even a little better it's all ok. But I also just wanted to say that I know that feeling like it's all too much or like I can't ever get out of this, and the feeling of such deep hatred but love at the same time and also loving your siblings more than life but know they deserve better but you sound like an amazing person because even after all youve been through I've noticed that things will all turn out ok in the end. There's always someone who'll be there for you wether it be over the internet like CZcams comments (no judgement I use CZcams comments as therapy sometimes) or one of your siblings or anyone you trust enough but even if that's no one there's always some one you can trust even if you don't know it I hope your 2019 gets much better
@@lilian4700 Wow... Thank you so much for your kind words... I got teary eyed just knowing someone took time out of there day for this... Thank you so much.. Yes, getting that out there was a release. And therapeutic in its own way. Thank you for your kind words and time.. You words really do mean a lot, they are appreciated.. And that reminds me of a quote my Love used to tell me all the time. "Everything will be okay in the end. And if it's not okay, it's not the end." Hard to remember that at times when your feeling so down. But it holds true.. Things will get better.. And thank you for making me feel that my release was okay and not a bad thing to vent, even to strangers.. You are sweet, and I wish you a good New Year as well 💚
@@jacksofalltrades8646 it's nothing really but you are an amazing person and I've never heard that quote I might make some sort of art out of it (stupid idea right there I'm not to great at art) but anyways I just wanted to say I know the feeling although our situations are very different I know the feeling like it'll never be ok but it always will. You just gotta take a moment to breathe sometimes and when you don't it gets bad but sometimes I wish my siblings wouldn't leave me alone to think (sounds weird I know lol I just can't think about the past things that have happened and not want to cry) I've expresses some of that in many CZcams comments it's like my therapy because I don't want to worry my parents and I don't want to know what they'll say. My mom is the kind of mom that if you tell her your gay shell shove you back in the closest lock it and swallow the key (this didn't happen I'm not gay it's only an example) but the point I'm trying to get across is they arent very accepting of who some one is and aspires to be. Ive accidentally started talking to myself about my issues when I'm home alone or while everyones asleep. If you feel down I would try watching supernatural, black Butler,or kekeguri (the anime. I can't stand the one with actual people lol) thank you for reading 😁😁 and sorry for the rant as well just though if a lot to say 😂😁😁 Edit: after re-reading that I though it needed to be said lol supernatural:real people black Butler:anime I dont think they have a real version idk though kekeguri: anime. I didn't think it was specified enough but I know that was gonna bug me. I'm sort of OCD about things like that lol I hate it
Thank you for making this video. I’ve struggled with anxiety for about two years now, and the methods that I’ve used to cope haven’t been working as of late. At some points in my life, I’ve driven myself to do a lot of things that I regret today. I isolated myself from people out of fear, and when I didn’t, they would only see a facade simply because I was terrified that if they knew what I was actually like, they’d leave my life. I was scared of failure, of people, of rolling up my sleeves, of myself, of looking in the mirror, of my own parents because my mental health had deteriorated so much that I was neglecting my schoolwork and neglecting my own well-being and health. I was constantly nervous about every little thing, just by the way that someone would look at me or ignore something I did, even just by the way that they might have tensed up or simply the fact that they looked so much happier when they were with other people. It got to my head. Even though I’ve improved a lot over the past few years, I still have that underlying uneasy feeling with whatever I do. This video had made that a little weaker. Thank you for everything that you do. You’re an angel, K.
Speaking from one broken person to another, you will be okay. Best of luck with your internal struggles.. I understand how difficult it is to his get out of bed sometimes... And I'm afraid to show myself to my friends too.. I have a dark past and I don't want pity or judgement from people because they have not walked in my shoes.. Only I have walked in my shoes. But I know there are others who wear a similar pair. I know others who feel just as beat down and torn. Others who feel just as lost and hopeless and alone.. I even feel the pain I get is the pain I deserve.. But I also take a huge comfort in knowing there is somebody else that understands my cries. Not because our life is similar. But because we both understand the depths of pain. And that there can be much worse in the world that just the physical pain. Sending best wishes to you in your life💚
Today was bad... 1) My job humiliated me so bad that I was screaming to the top of my lungs & crying my eyes out otp with my mom because I feel like SUCH. A. DAMN. FOOL. working my BUTT OFF for that unprofessional place. 2) I just got home from taking my dad to the ER, he can barely walk & he’s in a lot of pain. SO 3)....I’m currently having an anxiety attack because I feel like life is coming after me & my family in a bad way & idk whether to be so damn angry I could scream till I lose my voice or cry till God, himself can hear me! 😡😭🙃 But K...... These videos. Your voice. They have more effect than you could EVER imagine. I find myself hearing your voice in my head from these videos just to get me through my damn day. Now idk if this means something is truly wrong with my life or maybe I’m just unhappy, but there’s an energy I feel from you & we don’t even know each other’s names..... ...please keep doing this. Don’t ever listen to anyone or let yourself doubt that you’re not putting out “good enough” work. You’re hard work is always not gonna be viewed that way to somebody. But I really hope you continue to believe in yourself & believe me when I speak for every person who falls, trips, or runs to listen to your videos, you are a blessing in all of our lives. Don’t ever forget that. 💕 P.S. I really hope this message gets to you 🤍
Tania Berry Unfortunately nothing has really changed but I'm wishing for the day everything changes for the better. Thank you 😘💕 Hope everything is good with you❣
My mom just broke my phone for no reason which was the only way for me to talk to my boyfriend since we're long distance. This is literally the only thing keeping me calm rn since it reminds me of him so much.
Okay I usually don‘t comment on a lot of videos, but now I have to. I literally love your audios. They make me feel good and help me fall asleep. And you‘re uploading almost everyday, it‘s incredible, I really appreciate it. So THANK YOU so much!!! ^-^
Feeling an anxiety attack coming on at a gathering, came for musical comfort, found your asmr anxiety\panic attack comfort. Thank you so much! Really helped calm me down.
Phantom Dovakiin i feel you. i’ve moved schools 6 times. not because i was bad or anything but because my family just likes to move. i’ve lost a loooot of friends but i’ve also gained some new ones that are amazing. sometimes distance shows whose actually your real friends anyways. i know once i moved the 2nd or 3rd time, some friends i thought were close friends, weren’t. i know it’s scary and very nerve-wracking, but i promise you, in the end once you’re situated and in school, you’ll find some friends and you’ll get comfortable again. it all happens within time. i believe you can get through this okay! even if you’re really shy about making friends (i’m the same way) you can do it. believe in yourself okay? you’ll get through this and you’ll be okay. you got this love 💙💙💙
Phantom Dovakiin oh.. i’m sorry it’s because of that.. that’s a lot. have you told your mom how you’re feeling about the moves you guys make? losing people and then gaining them and losing them.. it’s such a circle and it’s not healthy. especially since you’re still in school.
Phantom Dovakiin Gurl it will be good don't worry Be positive you will always have to meet new people in life which is always good, also I know this because I have moved three times but I am now at a fantastic school where i have great people by my side which are friends and teachers. And my school teaches us life skills
i moved to highschool which was scary and i hated it there, loads of students, teachers didn't seem to like to help me with my problems, so i moved again to another school, i've only been for a day since i have a cold, but one problem is i get picked up in the morning on a minibus and i don't know how to open the minibus door :'D
For everyone who gets panic attacks, is it normal to have nausea during it? I always feel nauseous before/during a panic attack, and it freaks me out more. ( by the way your voice is so comforting, so thank you for this )
This helped so much, thank you. This week and just all last year has been so difficult, had so many suicidal and bad thoughts in my head, ASMR helps so much ❤
being someone that struggles with Axitney and has panic attacks every few nights and trouble sleeping this honestly helps so much and being single and having this problem just makes my standards so high
I’m crying. It’s like you knew I had two of the worst anxiety attacks I’ve ever had recently. Now I know exactly what I’ll be listening to next time I feel another one happening. Thank you K ❤️
I suffer from anxiety and I couldn’t help but cry all the way through this because this is the sort of person and support I need in my life and listening to this kept reminding me that I don’t which is definitely not his fault 😭
I always migrate to such creators' content where I feel safe, loved , cared for, welcome and most importantly, respected. Loving this channel more and more each day. ✨ love the community of listeners here too!! Humorous, loving, caring and supportive just like our content creator . I love being here listening to your audios. We love you!! ✨✨ ✨ this is one of my favourite places on CZcams. So grateful for you and all that you do to spread comfort and joy to people all over the world.!! We have always needed angels like yourself!! Lots of love !!
i hope everything's really okay 😞 its so hard to pretend that you're okay when deep inside you just wanna explode 😩 *smile.. though your heart is aching* 😢 Thanks for this K 😔
I'm glad I've found this, im scared of starting school tomorrow and was having anxiety all day and i couldn't sleep til now, im feeling sleepy..thanks for this
5 min ago i had a panic attack and this video made me feel better and helped me a lot bcs i thought that someone was right next to me and comforting me. is it weird that your channel makes me believe in me and finding great and kind people like you?
My parents are fighting right now. Feels like I'm having a mental breakdown but I'm listening to your voice here alone in my room and thanks for saving me...
I was feeling nauseous and worried, and my head feels as if it's being gripped, this helped so much, your voice is so nice and relaxed, not forced like some others. Being with anxiety almost my entire life of 18 years has been hard, a big hit to my mental health, people know, people judge, and it hurts a lot sometimes. Also being single for 18 years (I don't count 1 online relationship), it's been me by my lonesome. I often think of how I have people, people who love me and who I love, but at the end of each day, you are all you have. It's frustrating to have anxiety, to feel as if there is a leech on your brain, telling you things, a disease of some sorts. I really appreciate audios like this, it makes me feel less alone.
I know this video was posted 3 years ago. But I still listen to it every time I feel like I’m about to have an anxiety attack. It never fails to calm me down.
thank you,,, I was triggered tonight by something and couldn't pull in enough breath and you really helped... wherever you are... I hope you are safe and healthy. so just thank you
I had been living with bad anxiety and depression for 3 years, i'd have lots of anxiety attacks every night, and be so afraid of what was happening to me, normally i'd sit on the floor in the dark, trembling and shaking, and just sip water wondering when it'll end, and sometimes it feels like never. i'd lose loads of sleep, and be so tired in the morning. it really really sucked. it made my school attendance drop low, and i'd be forced into school where my anxiety only grew worse. i did couple of stupid things and then they agreed to move me to a new school that'll help better with anxiety and depression. people with anxiety have to just fight it.. i would always love for my future boyfriend to sit with me and just talk with me to comfort me. being next to the one person you love always makes you feel like you are safe.
Anxiety attacks are the worst. I mean, I varies on each person but personally, I feel like I'm having a heart attack and I can't even talk, can't focus on what I'm seeing or hearing, and at the end of it I just end up shaking, wanting to throw up and cry. Hearing this after an anxiety attack is THE BEST, I appreciate it :')
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Me: *starts to drink some water*
Him: breath for me okay?
Me: *tries to breath and chokes on water*
Why is this lowkey me😂
Legit laugh HAHAHHAHAHAHA
breanna adkins omg this is me 🤣🤣
lmaooo i tried this and when i breathed i laughed and i was choking like crazy
🤣😂🤣😂 the video and this is helping me with my anixety
Him: "I'm not going anywhere"
Ad pops up
Me: *gasp* "Lies"
HAHAHAH. We hate ads
Guess what IM ALSO A PISCES!!!
Assuming your a pisces
Lmao
XD yup
clearing his throat = my weakness
Uhh.. Sameee.. 😅
EVERYTIME HE DOES THAT I FEEL MY KNEE CAPS DISCONNECT😔
True dat
everything he does= my weakness🥰
His breathing handsomely is my weakness 😂
“having someone to care for makes me stronger” do i smell a daddy dom
n , hE LIKED IT MUST BE TRUE
LOL yes especially when he says the words "good girl"
I- NO NO don't put that imagine in my head oh no
Oop 👀
@@fieldhockeykid34 they got the right idea
Me: "Relationships just aren't my thing."
Also me: *listening to this audio, sobbing as I complain to my cat about being lonely*
Me
*I relate to this on a level that I shouldn't-*
*M O O D*
I was complaining to my dog just about being lonely but I also said I don’t want a relationship
@@eleasha8484 i feel this in a spiritual level
Being a gal that goes thru internal anxiety/panic episodes this is going to be KEY when I feel them creeping
Lala Bee same !!
omgsweetie same
Same
If only all the guys are like this...
*BUT WHO IM I JOKING!!??*
Tru
so true sis so true 😂
i got off incognito mode possibly fucking up my recommended shit and now people may see boyfriend shit and know im gay just to say. no shit 3.7 billion people are not like this
When the single life hits hard 😭😭😭
Same
I swear when i get a bf, if he isnt like you imma make him watch all of these vids and tell him this is my fantasy :)))
I DO THAT
That is a fantastic idea! GAME ON!
When I get a boyfriend and I continue to listen to these, he is gonna have learn from the pro
@@aiya140 yesss same
Meee tho yet I am a child and no one likes my not even mysels lmao😁😬
Him:“Wrong medicine”
Me:“You are my medicine 😏”
When I read this I lost it😂
pyscho loli slickkkk🤣
Ooooooooooooooooooow 😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏
HAHAHAHAY THE EMOJI HAHAHA 😭✋🏼
Dang! That was smooooooooooooth!!!!!😲😲😲😯
Mr k: just keep breathing
Me: no no no n-
Mind: JUST KEEP BREATHIN AND BREATHIN AND BREATHIN AND BREATHINNNNN🎶
Kookiesss Are bomb lol LMFAO
That’s exactly what my mind did xD
K I tried hard to fight it😂
Kookiesss Are bomb lol same xD
THATS SO ME
*this title is a huge call out*
Don't mean to bother you, just thought this comment deserved a reply, have a great day 🙃🙃
@@kazookid2.072 That Has To Be The Most Adorable Thing I Have Ever Read-
@@KarmasEnergy i know right? Aww
@@kazookid2.072 ❤ thats kind of you to say to them. Humans are so adorable sometimes. 😭
@@thesecretcatgovernment8046 ... huh.
Listening to you on late nights while wrapped in a blanket, is just the biggest mood ever.
Cutest bean ever. 💚
Literally me rn
Me rnnnnn
I don’t even know what you look like, act like, anything. But I love you.
we all do
HAHAYA FACTS.
yessir
we love a caring bf amiright🥴
You right
Right
Yup but i can't relate lol
Tia Rose if that isn’t a mood
I read that as allmight
My heart really is racing... Because of the euphoria you bring me on a daily basis with your voice 💜
omg same here.
Same here
You are cause of my euphoria~~
*inhales*
yOU ARE THE CAUSE OF MY EUPHORIA
YOU ARE THE CAUSE OF MY EUPHORIA 💙😂
I'm positive you aren't real
*spirit fingers*
*you are alien,what planet do come from?*
@@alastair9261 😂
XD LOL
He broke outta area 51
As someone who has really bad anxiety, frequent panic attacks, and PTSD this was a real treat for me. Lovely work. Keep it, hope you're doing well. ❤
Same
Same
You should rly consider keeping me around
Me: I mean I’m not stopping you
꧁Midnight Elf꧂ he needs ✨𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓯𝓸𝓻𝓽✨
@@08kstar yeah he has had too much past trauma
oh hey babe
ICYHOT!!!!???!?!??!?
Him: no. I can't magically turn into a pizza
Me: why?
Him: because then you would be cuddling a pizza. That would be messy
I am done right now.. I have been up all night, I just found this guy's existence, and I've been listening to his vids all night. I took a break for a few hours, because I was feeling really twisted and down. So much going on in my life and I always keep it to myself. I care about my friends and siblings so much, so I never want to worry them about my constant state of borderline breakdowns. My siblings need me too much. But really, I can only take so much. Some one I trusted and loved indefinitely, molested me and completely shattered our relationship. It was quite some time ago but I still dream of him. And no matter how subtle his role is in the dreams, I always feel intimidated and I don't have rested sleep.
I've been dreaming of him a lot these past two months, and the love of my life is too far to be with me when I need him. And as I said, I'm not one to worry the ones I hold dear. The only reason I'm posting this is because I don't know who ever is going to read this, and that makes it easier to get off my chest.
I hate that man who broke me down and took advantage of my heart. What breaks me more is that he can't even accept responsibility of what he has done. My mother is as much of a nuisance as him. She has kids, yes. But that doesn't make her a mother. I did not birth any child, but I can say I have raised kids. I am the second mother to my siblings and they are, honest to God, the main reason I put up with my family's bullsh*t. I stay close to my siblings so if they ever need me, I'm there. Because I know what its like growing up feeling uncared for. And unloved enough to just neglect. My older brother always, and still does, beg for attention from my family. I'm too considerate of peoples feelings to ever ask for attention. And I've always just kept my mouth shut. Because I'd rather sit alone in dying need of affection and true love, than to take something away from someone else. Because I know what it is like to have things taken from you, or to be pushed aside. Or taken for granted, or disliked because I won't play the same manipulative games as my family.
I honestly wish I could say I didn't have parents. Or a family besides my siblings (minus my older brother). My younger siblings I would do anything for. And they are the only reason I say I have a family. I have walked through hell for them, and I never regret it. For them I will suffer everyday internally even if it is forgotten. Even if my efforts die with me. Because in my heart, my siblings are worth the whole damn world to me. ❤
I wake up shaking from nightmare's of what that man has done to me, and I hate that he gets a single space in my life that's an addition to what he has already stolen from me. I hate him, and I will never know what a real relationship btwn a father and daughter is like because of him. When I was younger, before he did his sh*t, I really did love him. And I imagined growing up with him. Being a protective father. Loving me. Teaching me. Dancing at prom or something like they do in the movies. Him giving me away at my wedding. I envisioned a pure everlasting love btwn us. And... It is so painful, I ignore his existence and the breakage he has caused me most days.. But lately, he has been haunting me in my sleep.. I feel like there is no way I can escape him in my entire life... Even if I never see him again, will he always be here..? In my dreams, or daily thoughts.. Following me in my life.? I hate him, but I feel like if I hadn't loved him that this would be easier...
I have so much beef with my mother. (Who doesn't?) And I can't confide in her at all to share my pain. No way I'm gonna express my hatred for my father to my siblings. And I know the love of my life hurts just as much as I do about this.. So I keep it to myself...
I just wanted to say this video was perfect timing... I was really feeling alone.. And like a waste.. I feel I should be a kinder person. I know I should treat my loved ones better. And I know they all deserve better than me.. I lie in bed alone, deciding I deserve the pain I feel. And maybe its best people don't know me so well, and that its good I'm not close with my friends.. I don't know how to treat the people I love.. I don't know how to express myself. And I don't think it is anybody's problem that I can't even understand myself. The love of my life asks me what's wrong.. Truth be told, I don't really know... I just know I hurt... I feel something wrong deep inside my mind, and my chest aches... I feel there is something missing.. And there is something broken.. I want to speak, but I don't know the words... I wish to reach out to people, but I'm always afraid of that first step. Because I don't know what comes after it... I don't know if I can be what people need from me.
I have all these things I need to say to my father. And mother.. But I don't know the words. I hate them. I do. But .. I love them too... I don't want to.. I also hate being so confused of my feelings all the time. I never have a straight answer... I'm so sick of myself. But its not like I can be any body else.
Anyway, my deepest apologies for this long rant... I just happened to still be awake when this was posted.. And I almost didn't feel alone.. Hit me in my heart, and I had to speak.. Thank you for reading this. Any body. And thank you Mr. BFA. You don't know me, but you almost made me feel like you do. Thank you for your words.. Thank you for making me feel like I deserve true affection, and someone who genuinely cares. Thank you for being there, even though you don't know it.
💚 is for those who took the time to read this. Sending best wishes, and encouraging vibes to anyone who needs to know someone wants them to be okay.
My condolences but there is no need to apologise. If saying all this makes you feel even a little better it's all ok. But I also just wanted to say that I know that feeling like it's all too much or like I can't ever get out of this, and the feeling of such deep hatred but love at the same time and also loving your siblings more than life but know they deserve better but you sound like an amazing person because even after all youve been through I've noticed that things will all turn out ok in the end. There's always someone who'll be there for you wether it be over the internet like CZcams comments (no judgement I use CZcams comments as therapy sometimes) or one of your siblings or anyone you trust enough but even if that's no one there's always some one you can trust even if you don't know it I hope your 2019 gets much better
@@lilian4700 Wow... Thank you so much for your kind words... I got teary eyed just knowing someone took time out of there day for this... Thank you so much.. Yes, getting that out there was a release. And therapeutic in its own way. Thank you for your kind words and time.. You words really do mean a lot, they are appreciated.. And that reminds me of a quote my Love used to tell me all the time. "Everything will be okay in the end. And if it's not okay, it's not the end." Hard to remember that at times when your feeling so down. But it holds true.. Things will get better.. And thank you for making me feel that my release was okay and not a bad thing to vent, even to strangers.. You are sweet, and I wish you a good New Year as well 💚
@@jacksofalltrades8646 it's nothing really but you are an amazing person and I've never heard that quote I might make some sort of art out of it (stupid idea right there I'm not to great at art) but anyways I just wanted to say I know the feeling although our situations are very different I know the feeling like it'll never be ok but it always will. You just gotta take a moment to breathe sometimes and when you don't it gets bad but sometimes I wish my siblings wouldn't leave me alone to think (sounds weird I know lol I just can't think about the past things that have happened and not want to cry) I've expresses some of that in many CZcams comments it's like my therapy because I don't want to worry my parents and I don't want to know what they'll say. My mom is the kind of mom that if you tell her your gay shell shove you back in the closest lock it and swallow the key (this didn't happen I'm not gay it's only an example) but the point I'm trying to get across is they arent very accepting of who some one is and aspires to be. Ive accidentally started talking to myself about my issues when I'm home alone or while everyones asleep. If you feel down I would try watching supernatural, black Butler,or kekeguri (the anime. I can't stand the one with actual people lol) thank you for reading 😁😁 and sorry for the rant as well just though if a lot to say 😂😁😁
Edit: after re-reading that I though it needed to be said lol supernatural:real people black Butler:anime I dont think they have a real version idk though kekeguri: anime. I didn't think it was specified enough but I know that was gonna bug me. I'm sort of OCD about things like that lol I hate it
Bruh
@@vel2000 what? Lol I'm not being aggressive sorry if you read it that way
Was his voice deeper than normal in the beginning or was it just me 😭😭
Jacky Martinez that’s what I thought😭
Holy crap his voice was like 5 octaves lower than usual skdjsksk
😘
That morning voice
Omg is he CANADIAN!!! The way he said “sorry” 😍😍😍😍
These damn canadians.. stealing my heart ♡
Ikr it gets me every time
3:52 *do you want a sprite cranberry*
OMG YESS I LOVE THIS COMMENT
Yes i do😀
"wait, let me get a candle"
Me:"Yes baby, set me on FIIIRE!"
I’m eating Cereal
Valeria Guzman-Ramirez ok…😂😂
Valeria Guzman-Ramirez this is what happens when you don’t know what to comment
Random Loli not all the time some people can make something so random and make it funny
Joselynnishere Yassqueen mmm true.
Valeria Guzman-Ramirez can I have some?
Thank you for making this video.
I’ve struggled with anxiety for about two years now, and the methods that I’ve used to cope haven’t been working as of late. At some points in my life, I’ve driven myself to do a lot of things that I regret today. I isolated myself from people out of fear, and when I didn’t, they would only see a facade simply because I was terrified that if they knew what I was actually like, they’d leave my life.
I was scared of failure, of people, of rolling up my sleeves, of myself, of looking in the mirror, of my own parents because my mental health had deteriorated so much that I was neglecting my schoolwork and neglecting my own well-being and health.
I was constantly nervous about every little thing, just by the way that someone would look at me or ignore something I did, even just by the way that they might have tensed up or simply the fact that they looked so much happier when they were with other people. It got to my head.
Even though I’ve improved a lot over the past few years, I still have that underlying uneasy feeling with whatever I do.
This video had made that a little weaker.
Thank you for everything that you do. You’re an angel, K.
Speaking from one broken person to another, you will be okay. Best of luck with your internal struggles.. I understand how difficult it is to his get out of bed sometimes... And I'm afraid to show myself to my friends too.. I have a dark past and I don't want pity or judgement from people because they have not walked in my shoes.. Only I have walked in my shoes. But I know there are others who wear a similar pair. I know others who feel just as beat down and torn. Others who feel just as lost and hopeless and alone.. I even feel the pain I get is the pain I deserve.. But I also take a huge comfort in knowing there is somebody else that understands my cries. Not because our life is similar. But because we both understand the depths of pain. And that there can be much worse in the world that just the physical pain.
Sending best wishes to you in your life💚
Jacks of All Trades Thank you. I wish your life to be prosperous as well 💜
loveu ny 😘
Trshmrc i love you too!! aha
imissyooou 😢
Today was bad...
1) My job humiliated me so bad that I was screaming to the top of my lungs & crying my eyes out otp with my mom because I feel like SUCH. A. DAMN. FOOL. working my BUTT OFF for that unprofessional place.
2) I just got home from taking my dad to the ER, he can barely walk & he’s in a lot of pain.
SO 3)....I’m currently having an anxiety attack because I feel like life is coming after me & my family in a bad way & idk whether to be so damn angry I could scream till I lose my voice or cry till God, himself can hear me! 😡😭🙃
But K......
These videos. Your voice. They have more effect than you could EVER imagine. I find myself hearing your voice in my head from these videos just to get me through my damn day. Now idk if this means something is truly wrong with my life or maybe I’m just unhappy, but there’s an energy I feel from you & we don’t even know each other’s names.....
...please keep doing this. Don’t ever listen to anyone or let yourself doubt that you’re not putting out “good enough” work. You’re hard work is always not gonna be viewed that way to somebody. But I really hope you continue to believe in yourself & believe me when I speak for every person who falls, trips, or runs to listen to your videos, you are a blessing in all of our lives. Don’t ever forget that. 💕
P.S. I really hope this message gets to you 🤍
I hope you're doing better now
Tania Berry Unfortunately nothing has really changed but I'm wishing for the day everything changes for the better. Thank you 😘💕 Hope everything is good with you❣
@@phoenyxash I'm trying to stay positive these days I pray that God keeps u safe and healthy and He make good things come ur way 💖💖💖
Tania Berry Thank you 💕 that means a lot❣️ I hope this same for you as well angel & keep your head up 👌🏽🤍
I feel bad for you. I hope your better now
0:37
Guy: Wow you're sweating
Me: I know I'm sweating😏😏😏
I said it's because your to hot for me
Need some paper towels to wipe it off?
Is it still me that makes you sweat
Ashley Piper IVE BEEN LAUGHING AT THIS FOR 10 MINUTES WTF
@@Muphn lol😂😂😂
Omfg why does his voice seem to get deeper and deeper? lol or is that just me??😩😩❤️❤️
It doesss
Guys like this actually exist- my Ex would tell me to stfu and sleep 💀
*where do I find him*
I was feeling anxious :") thank you 💗
THIS IS THE FIRST BOYFRIEND ROLEPLAY THAT ACTUALLY MADE ME FEEL SOMETHING WHAT THE HECK ALL OF THE PRAISE MAKES ME SO HAPPY DKSHAJVSKSBSJS
*p r a i s e k i n k u n l o c k e d*
Perfect timing! * clicks screen into oblivion *
No one:
Me: **has panic attack while listening to this**
Lol why?
Omg u ok?
Ahh no stop🥺,
I don't think that's how these are supposed to work. It's 9 months later but I hope you felt better after this.
My mom just broke my phone for no reason which was the only way for me to talk to my boyfriend since we're long distance. This is literally the only thing keeping me calm rn since it reminds me of him so much.
Omg omg omg omg i never clicked so fast in my life
Same tbh
I was like actually panicking how in the heck did u know i needed this?!
My baby sounds tired
17 views 34 likes CZcams you're drunk GO home
for real tho!!!!!!
Him: no I can’t turn into a pizza
Me: boy I’m a vegan
If only my ex had been like this. Hope your leg is okay!
Okay I usually don‘t comment on a lot of videos, but now I have to. I literally love your audios. They make me feel good and help me fall asleep. And you‘re uploading almost everyday, it‘s incredible, I really appreciate it. So THANK YOU so much!!! ^-^
You should do one about insomnia💛
Hell yeah he should,as I suffer badly from it *wheeze*
Oh my god, this is perfect. As someone prone to anxiety attacks I’m so glad you made one of these
I come back this video like 3 in a week, you are really helping me.
Thank you❤️
I found one of his videos this morning, and i'm obsessed and can't stop watching them.
This audio actually helps alot since I've been stressed out so much lately. Thank u😀❤
Feeling an anxiety attack coming on at a gathering, came for musical comfort, found your asmr anxiety\panic attack comfort.
Thank you so much! Really helped calm me down.
i clicked on this while having anxiety, so whenever you told me [the listeners] to breathe it helped with it. so thank you so much
Thanks! I have been suffering from depression for 5 years and I really needed this. I have a lot of anxiety too, so thank you for uploading this ^^
The way that you really care about it at the video is so amazing and beautiful... i love it
anxiety is happening cause I'm moving schools
Phantom Dovakiin i feel you. i’ve moved schools 6 times. not because i was bad or anything but because my family just likes to move. i’ve lost a loooot of friends but i’ve also gained some new ones that are amazing. sometimes distance shows whose actually your real friends anyways. i know once i moved the 2nd or 3rd time, some friends i thought were close friends, weren’t. i know it’s scary and very nerve-wracking, but i promise you, in the end once you’re situated and in school, you’ll find some friends and you’ll get comfortable again. it all happens within time. i believe you can get through this okay! even if you’re really shy about making friends (i’m the same way) you can do it. believe in yourself okay? you’ll get through this and you’ll be okay. you got this love 💙💙💙
@@leahxo3426 this is my 15th school. My mom moves A lot because of men
Phantom Dovakiin oh.. i’m sorry it’s because of that.. that’s a lot. have you told your mom how you’re feeling about the moves you guys make? losing people and then gaining them and losing them.. it’s such a circle and it’s not healthy. especially since you’re still in school.
Phantom Dovakiin Gurl it will be good don't worry Be positive you will always have to meet new people in life which is always good, also I know this because I have moved three times but I am now at a fantastic school where i have great people by my side which are friends and teachers. And my school teaches us life skills
i moved to highschool which was scary and i hated it there, loads of students, teachers didn't seem to like to help me with my problems, so i moved again to another school, i've only been for a day since i have a cold, but one problem is i get picked up in the morning on a minibus and i don't know how to open the minibus door :'D
For everyone who gets panic attacks, is it normal to have nausea during it? I always feel nauseous before/during a panic attack, and it freaks me out more. ( by the way your voice is so comforting, so thank you for this )
Yeah it’s normal it’s one of the symptoms of it I experience that too and it always just makes me more anxious because I have a phobia of throwing up
I have too. 💙
This helped so much, thank you. This week and just all last year has been so difficult, had so many suicidal and bad thoughts in my head, ASMR helps so much ❤
being someone that struggles with Axitney and has panic attacks every few nights and trouble sleeping this honestly helps so much and being single and having this problem just makes my standards so high
I’m having a panic attack over tomorrow’s school injections and I click and find the most perfect video
I’m crying. It’s like you knew I had two of the worst anxiety attacks I’ve ever had recently. Now I know exactly what I’ll be listening to next time I feel another one happening. Thank you K ❤️
I suffer from anxiety and I couldn’t help but cry all the way through this because this is the sort of person and support I need in my life and listening to this kept reminding me that I don’t which is definitely not his fault 😭
I just had an anxiety attack and your voice always helps me calm down a bit after stuff like that happens.
It’s 4am where I am right now, I’ve been restless all night. I needed this, thank you x
I always migrate to such creators' content where I feel safe, loved , cared for, welcome and most importantly, respected. Loving this channel more and more each day. ✨ love the community of listeners here too!! Humorous, loving, caring and supportive just like our content creator . I love being here listening to your audios. We love you!! ✨✨ ✨ this is one of my favourite places on CZcams. So grateful for you and all that you do to spread comfort and joy to people all over the world.!! We have always needed angels like yourself!! Lots of love !!
As someone who suffers from anxiety, this helps me so much. I've listened to this so many times! Thank you so much!
OMG THANK U😍🌹this is perfect.this really helped me last night I was having such a bad anxiety attack. The things u said were so calming😴
His voice is so calm at first I didn’t understand than I started feeling calmer and I understood
I CLICKED SO FAST MY GRANDPA THOUGHT THE RUSSIANS WERE BACK
Finally someone mentions the sweat! I get so sweaty when I panic it’s ridiculous!
This is very comforting and it help's with my anxiety,i just love your voice so much!😍
These make me cry sometimes, I go through all my panic attacks alone and I wish I had someone like you to help me with them.
oh god i’m crying thank you so much for this i can’t tell you how much i needed it
This is so sweet and comforting. I deal with panic attacks and they are not fun. Thank you for making this. 😁
god.. every time your voice. can I ask you which mic you're using? or maybe you just used normal one bcz your deep voice covered the quality of mic
thanks dude, I vary between a Blue Snowball and Blue yeti depending on where I'm recording. :)
i hope everything's really okay 😞 its so hard to pretend that you're okay when deep inside you just wanna explode 😩
*smile.. though your heart is aching* 😢
Thanks for this K 😔
I'm glad I've found this, im scared of starting school tomorrow and was having anxiety all day and i couldn't sleep til now, im feeling sleepy..thanks for this
I love how you post new content whenever one about to sleep, I have a hard time falling asleep sometimes and the audios really help me :3
I am amazed that just listening to this helps me more than any physical person in my life
Thank you for this! I’m sure I’ll keep coming back to this because my anxiety is terrible :)♥️
5 min ago i had a panic attack and this video made me feel better and helped me a lot bcs i thought that someone was right next to me and comforting me. is it weird that your channel makes me believe in me and finding great and kind people like you?
My parents are fighting right now. Feels like I'm having a mental breakdown but I'm listening to your voice here alone in my room and thanks for saving me...
thank you k. i really needed this. i was having a panic attack and i tried to keep it in and act like nothing was happening. tyvm
I was feeling nauseous and worried, and my head feels as if it's being gripped, this helped so much, your voice is so nice and relaxed, not forced like some others. Being with anxiety almost my entire life of 18 years has been hard, a big hit to my mental health, people know, people judge, and it hurts a lot sometimes. Also being single for 18 years (I don't count 1 online relationship), it's been me by my lonesome. I often think of how I have people, people who love me and who I love, but at the end of each day, you are all you have. It's frustrating to have anxiety, to feel as if there is a leech on your brain, telling you things, a disease of some sorts. I really appreciate audios like this, it makes me feel less alone.
"it's all good beautiful"
Me: bish! Have you seen my dry lips and ugly face!?
I’m grateful for discovering this channel. It gives me a sense of security blanket. 🥺😔
Right!! Oh my gosh!! 😣❤️
I know this video was posted 3 years ago. But I still listen to it every time I feel like I’m about to have an anxiety attack. It never fails to calm me down.
Oh my god you don't know how much it's help me like I have panic attacks often and this is really helpful thank you
I was having a panic attack and listened to this and it actually helped me so much.
Okay, you are literally the best. I just subscribed ❤️💕
Listen to this video just before sleeping is probably the best thing i’ve ever done 🥰 This video is very nice like every videos ! :)
I didn't know I had panic attacks until I listened to this to calm me down after one last night. Really helpful 👍
you do these videos perfect timing. thank you.
I was crying at the beginning of the video but not at the end. Idk how but this video helped me.
Woke up in the middle of the night feeling really anxious and this helped calm me, thank you so much for that
thank you,,, I was triggered tonight by something and couldn't pull in enough breath and you really helped... wherever you are... I hope you are safe and healthy. so just thank you
i heard this like 2 times, this is my 3rd time & im getting sleepy while listening to this.
I remember when I had a panic attack before.
Your videos always comfort me
Him: *Breathes*
Me: *Dies Of Too Much Cuteness*
The worst part about this is I had an anxiety attack in the middle of my class *pouts* Honestly the worst but this is soothing
I had been living with bad anxiety and depression for 3 years, i'd have lots of anxiety attacks every night, and be so afraid of what was happening to me, normally i'd sit on the floor in the dark, trembling and shaking, and just sip water wondering when it'll end, and sometimes it feels like never. i'd lose loads of sleep, and be so tired in the morning. it really really sucked. it made my school attendance drop low, and i'd be forced into school where my anxiety only grew worse. i did couple of stupid things and then they agreed to move me to a new school that'll help better with anxiety and depression. people with anxiety have to just fight it.. i would always love for my future boyfriend to sit with me and just talk with me to comfort me. being next to the one person you love always makes you feel like you are safe.
I just had an awful, crying anxiety attack and this is helping. I needed this, thank you cutie 💜
Anxiety attacks are the worst. I mean, I varies on each person but personally, I feel like I'm having a heart attack and I can't even talk, can't focus on what I'm seeing or hearing, and at the end of it I just end up shaking, wanting to throw up and cry. Hearing this after an anxiety attack is THE BEST, I appreciate it :')
Dear Mr.K ,thank you for existing and make me feel loved like really THANK U ♡