Linkin Park Crawling | Suicide Survivor Reacts

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    Today marks the 5 year anniversary of the tragic loss of Linkin Park frontman, Chester Bennington, to suicide. In his honor, I wanted to do a reaction to Crawling. Well, more of an analysis since it isn't my first time hearing it. Chester inspired my outreach and this community. I hope I'm making him proud.
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Komentáře • 173

  • @The540Marine
    @The540Marine Před 2 lety +117

    Every song Chester wrote seemed like a warning sign, until it was too late.
    Rest in peace Chester.

    • @firefighterchick
      @firefighterchick Před 2 lety +13

      His family was aware of his struggles with mental health. His family did everything they could to support him, unfortunately sometimes it is not enough.

    • @nathanclarke2777
      @nathanclarke2777 Před 2 lety +2

      Actually alot of the songs with the darkness in it were written by Mike! Mike wrote One More Light about a lady they knew at the Label who died from cancer! When Chester sang it after finding out about Chris Cornell the song became his. After Chester left us it became his song!

    • @silentassassin47
      @silentassassin47 Před rokem +1

      rest in peace Chester

    • @kevinzhang6623
      @kevinzhang6623 Před rokem +5

      Mike Shinoda: "It's funny I see all these twitter comments saying 'Oh Chester was trying to tell us something' but like hey, I actually wrote that. But I don't wanna ruin their moment. Sometimes I write it in my point of view, sometimes in Chester's point of view."

    • @stevecn70
      @stevecn70 Před 4 měsíci

      It is weird the spectrum, because he may have had all that, but a lot of us, have nothing and just that little thing would have helped. Perspective in the spectrum is something I've fought with and dealt with for 30 years.

  • @davidgaps6589
    @davidgaps6589 Před 2 lety +61

    “Fear is how I fall!” always hit me hard. That one line caused a reevaluation of my life and my fears. Fear kept me from growing and moving past my insecurities.

    • @edwards.8758
      @edwards.8758 Před 2 lety +1

      Fear, as it relates to anxiety/depression, is the ultimate catch 22 and, in my opinion, the greatest challenge in overcoming. It certainly does/can result in a lot of falling and insecurities in a perpetual cycle. Dealing with fear, by definition, can be a daunting and scary task. Good news is, it is doable!

    • @myaccount5204
      @myaccount5204 Před 2 lety +4

      Fun fact, the original line was "fear is powerful". Someone heard it wrong (I forget who, maybe the producer) said they liked the line "fear is how I fall". The band agreed the line was better, but they both make sense.

    • @MiladySK
      @MiladySK Před rokem

      I was in my 20s when this song came out. I will be 50 in a couple months and just listening to this song takes me back emotionally to everything I felt in that time and in this song. It's like a sledgehammer to my heart. I wish I could say things have gotten much better. Some get older but the pain remains. The one positive I don't harm anymore, but maybe still do with negative internal self dialogue. I just came from watching your Plumb - Cut reaction. Plumb also has been a fave since she first came out. I would love to suggest, if possible, you take a listen to Julie Miller. She has been through a lot and her songs Naked Heart and Broken Things (the original album release not the remastered version) just break me every time. She has like a childlike voice that tears through you. Thank you for your reactions. I'm glad you are doing well. I just subscribed. Much love and respect. 🙏 ❤

  • @TheScorpio1999
    @TheScorpio1999 Před 2 lety +30

    "This lack of self-control, I fear, is never-ending..." - that was me once. Actually around the time this album came out. I was in this place where my parents weren't getting along, so I'd leave the house, and it was early college, so obviously I'm taking part in a lot of situations that put me in a headspace that isn't....clear, ya know? This was a cycle that took me many many years to break. It was probably the hardest change I ever made to my lifestyle, but what's on the other side when you do, it's worth it. RIP Chester Bennington. One of the greatest voices of our generation and beyond.

  • @art.of.verser
    @art.of.verser Před 2 lety +20

    "I've felt this way before, so insecure." Five years tho. Has it really been that long? I was just finishing up a painting in his memory. If only I have seen my 14-year-old self's reaction to this video. ❤️ Song's still plays in my head, especially to this day. Thank you for this video, Amanda. R.I.P., Chester. You are forever missed. ✌🏾❤️

  • @davidgaps6589
    @davidgaps6589 Před 2 lety +17

    “I can’t find myself again.” I’m trying so hard to put up a front that will make people like me, accept me, that I have lost the real me. It is buried so deep I didn’t know what it was, who I was.

    • @MentalAmanda
      @MentalAmanda  Před 2 lety +2

      I adore you just the way you are and I will accept you even when you leave your meth at Los Pollos Hermanos.

  • @MentalAmanda
    @MentalAmanda  Před 2 lety +48

    💖Make Chester Proud💖
    💖Keep the mental health conversation going by sharing your story here in the comments. No matter where you are in your journey, you have a safe place here to share your struggles and accomplishments without judgment. This is how we shatter the mental health stigma.
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    • @scottlally8374
      @scottlally8374 Před 2 lety +1

      Can you react to linkin park songs giving up and heavy please

    • @leewesley1961
      @leewesley1961 Před 2 lety +1

      all of the ways that the girl in the video was bullied reminded me of what happened to me in school because i was bullied by the students,the teachers,the 3 school heads and the the school's therapyst even did it to me not even me parents believed me even when i was brought home in the back of a ambulance with a broken wrist

    • @MentalAmanda
      @MentalAmanda  Před 2 lety

      @@leewesley1961 That is awful! You deserved to be protected and feel safe by those authority figures!

    • @jakesmith6233
      @jakesmith6233 Před 2 lety +1

      I think you should check out Given Up,
      Given Up [Official Music Video] - Linkin Park / Linkin Park
      czcams.com/video/0xyxtzD54rM/video.html
      I wonder if this was a cry for help.

    • @streamstriker7822
      @streamstriker7822 Před rokem

      There's also Given Up Live AOL Session.

  • @Naugrim1
    @Naugrim1 Před 2 lety +7

    I love this video because I love how the woman heals over time. She is freeing herself from a toxic relationship, fighting the demons inside her.
    I can't see any healing myself, just that "There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface" - dragging me down every few years. And it gets worse the older I get. I have never worked through my past, never worked on my fears and the problems I have with myself.

  • @mickluchsinger486
    @mickluchsinger486 Před 2 lety +9

    Love this song. My favorite song by them and my daughter's favorite band. RIP Chester. Great as always Miss Amanda.

  • @martinfinn674
    @martinfinn674 Před 2 lety +9

    Chester's music is a cry for help from the depths of the pit of depression. May that cry be heard by those with ears to hear and the signs of depression be seen by those with eyes to see. Then by the grace of God, will the healing begin. 🙏 If anyone reading this is feeling the downward pull of the quicksand at the bottom of the pit, please I urge you to cry out to let others see your pain. Break down the barriers you have built so that the help can rescue you. As difficult as it is, allow your insecurities and vulnerabilities to feel the warmth of the Sun, and the blessings of true help and true self-awareness. You are loved for who you are. Worthy, Precious, and Lovable. I send my love to all who need it. My love is pure ❤️ and God's love and blessings are pure and eternal.
    I understand that some of you reading this may associate God with church. I do not!
    Whenever two or more of you gather in His name there is His Church.
    Not the man-made construct of abuse that has endured since the Nicene creed was written in 300AD.

  • @chriscarlisle5676
    @chriscarlisle5676 Před 2 lety +7

    Linkin Park helped me alot, they enabled me to express some of my emotions before I hit critical, music can be a big help in releasing emotions kept locked up. I've been binging your vids all night since I discovered this channel, I've liked and subscribed and recommended to friends and family already. I had 3 more recommended reactions em biehold numb little bug (great description of apathetic depression) and bring me the horizon one day the only butterflies left, and finally for a more uplifting recommendation mat bielis "fighter".

  • @davidgaps6589
    @davidgaps6589 Před 2 lety +3

    Is there anything better in life than being your full self, opening your flaws, displaying the unique parts of yourself you are proud of, and being accepted and loved in this form?

  • @durv13
    @durv13 Před 2 lety +3

    the first time i heard this , i got it straight away , it was exactly how i was feeling at the time . and being treated for depression , i cant explain the feeling of realisation i got from it ,. but ive been a huge fan ever since , and im glad to see so many chester dedications today . its a day of thanks , for having such a giving spirit given to us that woke so many ppl .

  • @Texas_Swift
    @Texas_Swift Před 2 lety +2

    I’m commenting before watching…I love everything Linkin Park! I had a dog that I got back in 2005 who was named Linkin. That’s just how greatly they influenced me as a young adult.

  • @davidgaps6589
    @davidgaps6589 Před 2 lety +3

    RIP Chester! Eternal life and divine existence. Amanda, is our Chester.

  • @martinfinn674
    @martinfinn674 Před 2 lety +1

    Amen Amanda, you truly understand the depths. Now you are finding your feet in the sunlight. Out of the pit and into life. I am proud of you, but more importantly, you will be proud of you when you realise that you don't need the comfort of the pit.

  • @doctorstrange4868
    @doctorstrange4868 Před 2 lety +1

    Thanks Amanda for sharing this with us. Linkin Park is very special to me. Chester's lyrics "You all assume I'm safe here in my room" from "Breaking the Habit" changed my life one day. This song, Breaking the Habit, Somewhere I Belong, Leave out all the Rest are just a few that have really helped me.

    • @MentalAmanda
      @MentalAmanda  Před 2 lety

      Breaking the Habit saved my life. Here is my reaction to it:
      czcams.com/video/FPZC0mf9FB4/video.html

  • @feanrassilmaril579
    @feanrassilmaril579 Před rokem

    I see wisdom in you Amanda. Good to see you standing on your feet.

  • @Riverwolf1489
    @Riverwolf1489 Před měsícem

    Ive lived a troubled life. Crawling, one More Light and Heavy have each saved my life

  • @stevemadrid6522
    @stevemadrid6522 Před rokem

    As someone who has battled depression for 30 years, Linkin Park's music has always comforted me and made me feel understood. Numb is the song that I identify with the most.

  • @kilgore9859
    @kilgore9859 Před 2 lety +1

    Something deeply moving (a suicide event) happened and as I drove home I replayed a remix of this song non stop. Crawling will forever trigger me. Linnkin Park forever connects us

  • @MichaelsExplorations
    @MichaelsExplorations Před rokem

    Chester has helped so many around the world but no one could help him 😢 rip 🙏❤️🤘🏻 ive had a speech impediment my whole life it has stopped me from getting out and making friends over the years being teased and made fun off has at times made me depressed at times trying to be happy each day!!

  • @christophercook4819
    @christophercook4819 Před 2 lety +1

    I first discovered linkin park via this song and paper cut when I was about nine or ten years old I didn’t realize how much I related to their music until I was about twelve or thirteen. That was also the same time I realized that my family was abusive and what made it even more difficult was that I didn’t think I could do anything about it. If I tried standing up for myself I was told that I didn’t know anything and that I was being disrespectful and when I cried I was either told I was being to sensitive or to stop crying or I’d be given something to cry about. To live walking egg shells your entire life is hell. Anyway I listened to this cd a lot in junior high school and high school and I had every word memorized especially crawling

  • @ptsdsucks9069
    @ptsdsucks9069 Před 2 lety

    You are so right. Positive self worth is the foundation to a better today and tomorrow. When I was at my lowest, I didn’t care about myself anymore. I let all of my morals go and lived a very self destructive path. I fell into the deepest, darkest depression I’ve ever experienced. I felt very suicidal. Thank God that I eventually found the inner strength to get professional help and commit to getting healthy again. It was incredibly hard work to crawl out of my dark, deep pit, but I did it one day at a time. I still have my struggles but nothing even close to that overwhelming darkness that I once had. I never, ever want to go through that again. Stay strong and stay in the light. God bless 💕❤️

  • @RoyCyberPunk
    @RoyCyberPunk Před rokem +1

    As someone who has dealt with depression and suicidal thoughts yes this song is indeed powerful.

  • @JamesBrown42069
    @JamesBrown42069 Před rokem

    As a 3 time attempt survivor, love your channel. Keep on keeping on. Life is beautiful outside the mayhem.

  • @shawnsford7071
    @shawnsford7071 Před rokem

    I was an absolute mess when i first heard this song back in the day. Total depression and doing coke by the fist full. I literally listened to this song over and over and over again and it helped me get out of it.

  • @31flayvers
    @31flayvers Před 2 lety +1

    this one hits harder since he passed!!! Hybrid is one of those albums I play front to back

  • @durv13
    @durv13 Před 2 lety

    w2ow . finally someone that gets linkin park . ive always said , there music is always about depression . and the way chester puts feelings into words has saved so many of us . such a tragic loss . thanks amanda .

  • @leo71647
    @leo71647 Před 2 lety

    every time i see your you tube videos. i'm not struggling in my head. your smile and your voice helps me. thank you Amanda. i finally have a smile on me. not like i fake it so people can see that nothings bothering me. Thank you angle

  • @DJFREDHEAD2010
    @DJFREDHEAD2010 Před 2 měsíci

    oh chester we miss you! there will never be a voice like his again!

  • @kevinkohn7726
    @kevinkohn7726 Před rokem

    Every single time I hear this song I get goosebumps, such an amazing song that really hits home for me in my personal struggles, especially with being bullied and taken advantage of

  • @food223
    @food223 Před 2 lety +1

    I will forever miss Chester, he did so much for me

  • @davidrichter9505
    @davidrichter9505 Před rokem

    Linkin park helps me through painfull memories at at Young age 17 years ago by bullying.....thank you Chester ....we miss you

  • @ak2nda695
    @ak2nda695 Před 2 lety +1

    LP definitely had a style and sound all their own. I has never a huge fan but never turned them off when I heard their music.
    Amanda I loved watching you Milli Vanilli this song. You were smashing it!!

  • @hostettleralexandre9711
    @hostettleralexandre9711 Před rokem +1

    Chester you will always be missed.

  • @chandlerscheekjr6028
    @chandlerscheekjr6028 Před 2 lety

    Great to see you enjoying yourself as you sing without fear of judgment. So happy to see you in your element again.

  • @geoffreynolds3157
    @geoffreynolds3157 Před 2 měsíci

    I heard this song for the first time when I was 12, I never really got the lyrics until I lost my older cousin to suicide, and my dad relapsed. I still to this day battle depression symptoms from the trauma of that year. This song has resonated with me for a very long time.

    • @MentalAmanda
      @MentalAmanda  Před měsícem

      It's crazy how song meanings change throughout our lives based on our experiences. It's completely understandable that you experience trauma over these devastating life events. I hope that you are getting the help and healing that you deserve.

    • @geoffreynolds3157
      @geoffreynolds3157 Před měsícem

      @@MentalAmanda I have talked about it extensively in therapy and made breakthroughs in the last few years. Grief is something i can allow myself to feel and process in a healthy way. 2023 was a rough year for my wife and I we both lost someone close to us, but after therapy we both processed it in a healthy way and still check in with eachother day to day.

  • @goonbob27
    @goonbob27 Před 2 lety

    Was waiting for some more LP. Good stuff, hope you’re well.

  • @chriso6719
    @chriso6719 Před 2 lety +1

    RIP Chester. And RIP Chris Cornell, today was his birthday.

  • @jessicastrihl5429
    @jessicastrihl5429 Před 2 lety

    This song mean s so much to me I’m a suicide survivor and trauma survivor and listening to this makes me feel normal like someone knows exactly what I feel

  • @JBurton44622
    @JBurton44622 Před 2 lety

    I really needed this today. Thank you, you amazing, beutiful human being.

  • @user-ht1uo1ln8m
    @user-ht1uo1ln8m Před 14 dny

    I thought I was the only one that experienced the burning beneath my skin. Always in the back and gets worse the longer I stay near the source of the anxiety

  • @Brian-wq3qh
    @Brian-wq3qh Před 2 lety

    Thank you so much for picking up on my suggestion to do a tribute to Chester, RIP 😢
    I've been struggling more than usual for the last few months now. I am finding it harder and harder to find reasons to keep fighting 😭😭

    • @ak2nda695
      @ak2nda695 Před 2 lety

      What have been the reasons so far? Whatever those reasons, they are still valid. You have just lost focus of them.

    • @Brian-wq3qh
      @Brian-wq3qh Před 2 lety

      @@ak2nda695 Thanks for your reply. Once of a day you would be right in what you said.
      The problem is that it is not that I have lost focus on the reasons, it's more a case of I have lost them.
      My parents have passed, my partner has passed, I don't have kids and the people I though were friends and cared don't.
      Things I used to do for pleasure when I was feeling low, such as playing guitar, playing snooker, I can no longer do since having a stroke.
      Hence I am left with no family, no friends and no hobbies that gave me reasons to fight or act as distraction from dark thoughts. 😢😢

    • @ak2nda695
      @ak2nda695 Před 2 lety

      @@Brian-wq3qh I'm sorry to hear that. I hope that you can someone who will be there for you. I remember when my dad got the Alzheimers, not one of his "friends" ever visited him.
      Can you reach out to a church or union mission or something like that?
      I am glad to chat with you on here or we can exchange emails or whatever. Going camping tonight, but definitely let me know if you're interested.

    • @MentalAmanda
      @MentalAmanda  Před 2 lety

      That is a lot of loss and a lot of roadblocks. I appreciate you being able to open up to us here.
      I found a video of this man who was terrified of not being able to play guitar after his stroke, but was able to. Maybe you need a modification in your recovery plan. There are many videos like this. I can't wait to see you among them!
      czcams.com/video/gsu-87X6Cds/video.html

  • @cdd33ar
    @cdd33ar Před měsícem

    What an era I grow up on, Linkin park, system of a down, korn, pod, my chemical romance, audio slave, chevelle etc... wow

  • @kenbuck4962
    @kenbuck4962 Před 2 lety

    all of chesters lyrics are so very harder to listen to now knowing what he was feeling!!!!!!! given up still brings a tear to my eye, every time! he was pouring his heart out in his music and begging for help and all WE DID AS FANS....................... was cheer him on??? RIP CHESTER!!!!

  • @isaachiew676
    @isaachiew676 Před rokem

    Life is beautiful, it maybe hard, you maybe suffered, but after the darkness you definitely enjoy the dawn and light. So please don't kill yourself.

  • @logankerlee
    @logankerlee Před 2 lety +1

    This song is good vibes for sure. It helped me through many difficult times in my life. I remember seeing the band live in concert in Seattle. Had such an amazing time! :) They were the best performers of that night. Good stuff for sure!

    • @logankerlee
      @logankerlee Před 2 lety +1

      I think that I was 13 or 14 or so when I first heard them. Definitely during my more impressionable years. I'm thankful that I fell into bands like this instead of rap music and all that. Not saying that music isn't good! No, just saying that this helped me grow into who I am now and since I like who I am, I'm thankful. :)

    • @logankerlee
      @logankerlee Před 2 lety

      It's crazy that it's been 9 years since we lost him. Breaks my heart that he's no longer with us. His songs and performances really helped me as a teen. I have no idea where I'd be if Linkin Park didn't exist. Chester was incredible, I miss him.

    • @MentalAmanda
      @MentalAmanda  Před 2 lety

      Five years. I originally made a typo in my description even though I was accurate in the video.

  • @andy781_
    @andy781_ Před 2 lety

    I just put a video in memory of chester on my tik tok today, and great job as always with your video

  • @lotuseyedstudios
    @lotuseyedstudios Před rokem

    I played this track nonstop at a teen. I love your analysis!

  • @j9andphoenix
    @j9andphoenix Před 2 lety

    Chester lost his battle one month to the day of one of his best friends, the awesome Chris Cornell. There is a great live clip of Crawling where Chris appears on stage and they perform together. I miss them both. There was a song written and recorded but no released when CC was with Audioslave called The Last Remaining Light - The audio is on CZcams. It is so glorious but very painful. And kind of cathartic.

    • @adamsdaddy96
      @adamsdaddy96 Před 2 lety

      It was actually 32 days later and he died on Chris Cornell's birthday! So sad to lose two great voices so close together and both to suicide. 😥

    • @j9andphoenix
      @j9andphoenix Před 2 lety +1

      @@adamsdaddy96 Yep - I slipped up on the date - I have so many 'anniversaries in my head. They were such good friends and we like to think our 'heroes' have it all. We are all scrambling through. Chester singing Hallejuah at the private service was full of love.

  • @edwards.8758
    @edwards.8758 Před 2 lety

    Nice to see you put this out there. Hope your feeling great today!
    "Breaking the habit"??? Yeah, I caught that! 😉

  • @IanBrookerSpurs
    @IanBrookerSpurs Před 8 měsíci

    Awesome feedback Amanda x

  • @johnbarraco5561
    @johnbarraco5561 Před 2 lety

    I was knee deep in my addiction when this came out … I can proudly say I am clean now and I hate to but still hold on to that struggle proudly .. some days better than others after 20yrs..

  • @hamburgr6609
    @hamburgr6609 Před 2 lety +1

    There’s a really good new song about recovery called riptide by Beartooth

  • @scifimonkey3
    @scifimonkey3 Před 2 lety

    Have enjoyed what you have been doing but I notice that you still did not do the Steven Wilson Song ‘Routine’ which I suggested way way back. I still think it would be a really good song for your channel and a chance to address the subject of loss, which is a really common cause of depression. The official video which is an amazing animation is the version to go with.

  • @elricmagar9307
    @elricmagar9307 Před rokem

    Linkin park always be the greatest in my mind, their song helped me when I was in depression, always help me to crawl out of my fear and fight it 👏👏👏👏👏❤️

  • @that.one.orchid
    @that.one.orchid Před 2 lety +1

    5 years ago.. wow.

  • @krackergrit
    @krackergrit Před 2 lety +1

    That was the worst day in music 4 me wen i heard about chester o dam neared cryed

  • @johndidorek6995
    @johndidorek6995 Před 2 lety +1

    Check out Linkin Park-Given Up live in Clarkston

  • @Naugrim1
    @Naugrim1 Před 2 lety

    Hi Amanda. You look very happy in this video. You are obviously doing very well. I am very happy about that. Best regards.

  • @matthewgoodA1206
    @matthewgoodA1206 Před 2 lety

    This was the first Linkin Park song I ever heard. I seemed to randomly (or perhaps otherwise) encounter this music video one day. I remember instantly liking the electronic intro. Then of course the huge, powerful and dramatic rocking chorus came in, and I think that moment alone convinced me to become a fan. I also thought it was significant that the video features a female protagonist; I still like the band’s choice to do that.

    • @matthewgoodA1206
      @matthewgoodA1206 Před 2 lety

      P.S. Having been thru a lot of bullying myself, I know for sure that bullies are cruel lowlifes who only cause pain. Decent human beings would never engage in such behaviors.

    • @MentalAmanda
      @MentalAmanda  Před 2 lety +1

      I think typically bullies are people who were bullied themselves and didn't know how to handle it. They tried to find their strength and overshot.

  • @rolandmendozain
    @rolandmendozain Před 2 lety

    Subbed this song is amazing grew up listening to linkin park, before he passed away was gonna buy concert tickets then RIP Chester this is still a very awesome song we had plans with my former co workers back than to buy tickets then to hear the tragic news struck me took 2 years to get back and listen to them how hard it struck me my will power is stronger then ever

  • @davidohare2933
    @davidohare2933 Před 2 lety

    Epilepsy has brought me close a few times. its been 13years now of it and i am 37

  • @redarek3219
    @redarek3219 Před 2 lety

    my favorite linkin park much love song nu metal chester good voice 😪💔

  • @anthonyj.adventures9736

    I saw them live in 2005 at live 8 down in Philly and again in 2012 in at Montague mountain in Scranton. I lost my wife July 12th 2017 RIP Lisa Reagan while i was locked up in state prison. They don't just tell you some one died. They come in your cell 4 correction officers deep with the unit sergeant the section LT or Capt and the jail Chaplin. They take you to the medical unit l, put you in the suicide watch cell. I heard of Chesters passing a few days later over the radio. I miss them both.

  • @deathjoker666
    @deathjoker666 Před 2 lety

    Lone Wolf did a cover of this song. I think he did a great job covering it. Thought maybe you'd like to listen to it. Not expecting you to do an react video of it though.

  • @Thunderball.Mcgillicutty

    As a old guy u need to listen to nin DP sublime. I lost dad 2 weeks ago and mom a year ago. I brave the dark and light.

  • @lounette62
    @lounette62 Před rokem

    enjoyed it so much. god tier and super unique.

  • @heresheis2063
    @heresheis2063 Před rokem

    Chester wrote this song inspired by his own experience with drugs. It's about being influenced by a certain drug that makes you unable to differentiate reality and the delusions caused by the drug. At least that's what I think I read when I looked it up.

  • @kevinzhang6623
    @kevinzhang6623 Před rokem

    Huge props to Mike Shinoda, the primary songwriter of Linkin Park who wrote many of the songs from Chester's point of view that were thought to be written by him. Imo a really personal one is "The Messenger" which was literally written by Chester on the spot and recorded by him, Mike and Brad shortly after, after hearing the chord progression, directly with his kids in mind.

    • @MentalAmanda
      @MentalAmanda  Před rokem +1

      That song is very special to my son and I

  • @william678910
    @william678910 Před 2 lety

    Hi Amanda, I just wanted to say that I love your channel and the positive energy you give to us viewers. By any chance would you happen to have a liking to Orchestra and Choir? I happen to know this piece by Thomas Bergersen, it's called "Fairytale" and even though I dont understand the language (what little there is) the strings just pulled my heart and made me bawl my eyes out, it's a really beautiful piece and I dunno....if you ever have the time to listen to it, it would make my day.
    Thank you!
    God bless!

  • @PeteSesto
    @PeteSesto Před 2 lety

    As someone who focuses on mental health, I'd be SUPER interested in hearing your take on Grey Street by Dave Matthews Band and all the metaphors it delivers

  • @kingmetalant
    @kingmetalant Před 2 lety

    I have learned so much from your channel about my self hate . I struggle all the time with my conscious and still do do but thanks to you I have learned to be better!

  • @brettash7640
    @brettash7640 Před 2 lety +1

    I'm sp beyond overwhelmed with everything goin on in my life right now it's ridiculous

    • @ak2nda695
      @ak2nda695 Před 2 lety +1

      Talk to someone about whatever you are going through. I know that is hard to do but trust me it helps.
      I think if you have been in the comment section of more than one of Amanda's videos, you know that people here are will to help you. I follow Amanda any time I am feeling down. I read comments and realize that many people are here asking for help.

    • @MentalAmanda
      @MentalAmanda  Před 2 lety

      I just posted a vlog about my own overwhelm last week. Act on what you can to get it off your plate, step back from anything not absolutely necessary and take some time to simply exist until things start to calm down.

  • @justsomeawesomeperson6396

    It’s funny how i always loved linkin park. And after many years of listening I realized the lyrics were really relatable once i learned English. Like I always knew what it was about.

  • @alexhanley933
    @alexhanley933 Před 2 lety

    My favorite LP song is A Place for My Head.

  • @kurik2856
    @kurik2856 Před 2 lety +1

    I still can't stand my own reflection. I don't use my name or post many photos of my real face (I hate photosofmyself). LP put words to what I was feeling, I was too busy vibing to consider Chester was going through it and didn't realise it till he was gone. I love how real they were/are. It's rare for bands to be so raw. Slipknot did it with Scissors, NF with everything he writes. A hard listen is Daddy by Korn (definitely don't go into this one lightly).

    • @MentalAmanda
      @MentalAmanda  Před 2 lety

      I genuinely believe that you can find your worth. I was a model and hated pictures of myself too. You're amazing and I hope you see that soon.

  • @juliamallik3728
    @juliamallik3728 Před 2 lety

    The only reason I'm alive right now is because I have a son. The fucked up thing is part of me resents that I can't kill myself bc of him. My exs dad died via suicide and seeing how much it destroyed him has made me not act on my thoughts. The thoughts will not go away though. Just found your channel and I love your honesty. Thank you. Finally feels like someone gets it

    • @MentalAmanda
      @MentalAmanda  Před 2 lety

      It's not f*cked up at all. It's an understandable feeling. While the thoughts never completely go away, they can be managed and minimized.

  • @MichaelaBooysen-vp4zw

    He wrote songs to heal and save millions from depression and anguish. But in the end, he couldn't save himself..

  • @mAimAtsUki
    @mAimAtsUki Před rokem

    enjoyed that a ton. s tier and super unique. 😍😍😍

  • @AxleKlown
    @AxleKlown Před 2 lety

    linkin park numb is my go to song this is a close second

  • @nathangordon8205
    @nathangordon8205 Před 2 lety

    sometime when feallling down, you have to rise above everyone else, realize that the people that pick on your or bully you.....they have nothing else better to do

    • @ak2nda695
      @ak2nda695 Před 2 lety

      They are the ones who are truly sad and in need of love and help.

  • @ellissampson8699
    @ellissampson8699 Před 2 lety +1

    You should react to Lincoln park given up

  • @briansgamesandanime
    @briansgamesandanime Před 2 lety

    This was the song that made realize how much I hated myself and the skin i was in. My past mistakes keep trying to define who I am now.

    • @MentalAmanda
      @MentalAmanda  Před 2 lety +1

      They are TRYING to define you. I've made my fair share of epic mistakes too. Fight that Shadow. You don't have to listen to it!

  • @PeterSarazin
    @PeterSarazin Před 2 lety

    I used to listen to this album all the time with the headphones on when I worked for a certain large financial company in the Boston area. Some of the leadership and management were absolutely horrible people. One day in a meeting I made a suggestion on how to solve a problem and my boss said it was a terrible idea. The next week she had the balls to announce that she made the exact same suggestion to her boss who said it was a great idea by her, so she took full credit for my suggestion. In that meeting I said "Wow, what a coincidence. That is the same suggestion I had last week and you said it was a terrible idea." She became angry with me for calling her out, and later approached me and just said "A good leader never admits when they are wrong." really? I lost all respect for her at that point. Listening to this album helped numb the rage I felt.

  • @donovandelaney3171
    @donovandelaney3171 Před 2 lety

    What’s the most diverse kids show ever? It’s Monster High.

  • @Ezeriasz
    @Ezeriasz Před 2 lety

    In opposition to this song I recommend you to listen to "Walk" by Foo fighters.

  • @willtheking8859
    @willtheking8859 Před 2 lety

    This entire song never was a song that Ifound relateble till last yr

  • @Bubbaj5683
    @Bubbaj5683 Před 9 měsíci

    You must react to the live acoustic piano version

  • @liambenn1214
    @liambenn1214 Před 2 lety

    Fuck I didn’t even know it’s been 5 years, it still feels like it was only a year ago

  • @davidgaps6589
    @davidgaps6589 Před 2 lety

    It is more than just abusers. Families can set boundaries of what is accepted and what is not. They may mean well, wanting you to succeed and be accepted in their view of the world, but deep down, you know you don’t fit in their box.

  • @juliamallik3728
    @juliamallik3728 Před 2 lety

    I just quit my job and an art fair I was supposed to do. Im a cook and there is a reason anthony bourdains death impacted so many ppl. My industry has a pull on ppl like us and tends to destroy us. Addiction and mental illness run rampant. Im trying. Its hard but im trying.
    Sorry for unloading lol. It's been a week.

    • @MentalAmanda
      @MentalAmanda  Před 2 lety

      No need to apologize. That's why we're here. Take a step back if you need to. Rest. We've got your back.

  • @natesmith1461
    @natesmith1461 Před 8 měsíci

    RIP CHESTER

  • @MrEtherian
    @MrEtherian Před 2 lety

    We miss you, Chester♥️

  • @Andrew-em7py
    @Andrew-em7py Před 2 lety

    This is about a different song but I think maybe this can help someone. Recently something was telling me that I should send a link to the song Stay Alive by Smile Empty Soul to someone. I just thought someone I know might need to hear it. I never did but if I did but I would have been wrong about who would have needed to. It couldn't have gotten to them anyways. They committed suicide. If someone reading this gets the feeling that there's someone that needs your help but you aren't sure who and it turns out there was I hope you don't beat yourself up over it. You had no way of knowing it was.

  • @ingridtaylor9397
    @ingridtaylor9397 Před rokem

    Linkin park forever and always ❤❤

  • @chadjustice1736
    @chadjustice1736 Před 2 lety

    I must be completely drawn to certain things and people. My favorite bands are as follows. Linkin Park, Alice in Chains, Any thing Chis Cornell has ever been a part of, Nirvana, and Stone Temple Pilots. The only singer I felt connected to that is still alive is Eddie Vedder. Everyone one of those guys essentially killed themselves. Even Scott Weiland and Layne Stayley who both died of overdoses. I am a recovering, sometimes not too well, opiate addict. I've overdosed a time or two myself. I remember an especially rough time in my life when I made the mistake of reading Kurt Cobain's biography. The spiral after that was incredible. I am a very empathetic person. The fall for me after that was akin to falling out of a tree and hitting every limb. I could not shake the awful feeling that continued to build. I am in a different place now. I still will not read that book again though 25 years later. He was such a beautiful soul. I will still stumble from time to time with a few legally obtained pills. I control it much better than I used to. Depression is a terrible thing. Throw a case of opiate withdraw on top of it and you have the makings of a complete breakdown and disaster. Love and peace to all, stay strong.

  • @valeriefischer8791
    @valeriefischer8791 Před 2 lety

    You should react to Lindsay Stirling Love Goes On And On

  • @missourireaper68
    @missourireaper68 Před 2 lety

    I would love to see your reaction to Donna taggard songs called Mom but a heads-up it's emotional and true song🙏🙏 stay 💪 and positive because there is A lot negative in the world.

    • @MentalAmanda
      @MentalAmanda  Před 2 lety

      My mom's name was Donna so that is poetic!

  • @lucilebyrd8152
    @lucilebyrd8152 Před 2 lety

    If you havn't already, could you please react to L'enfer by Stromae?