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I’m finally in therapy

I do this 😶

Ugh I’m guilty of this im trying so hard to work on it

I hate it when that happens.

I'm sorry I'm italian so I didn't really know how to write in english 🙃 I've known today I've C-PTSD... my mother was psychotic and my father a violent man. I trust my psychologist and I hope he will help me to recovery... Life it's not easy for us but I want you to say guys that we're not alone, we can deal with it, just try to open up with a psychologist about your traumas without any esitation, he will help you to reconnect your emotions with your body and with your cosciousness...a hug ❤

Being on the recieving end of this from people i loved, it hurts alot. The Crazy making kind of hurt. Its been programmed into me to not talk about how i feel in fear this will happen or i will be dismissed. Its only natural i adopt this habit, yet i know how much it hurts. I dont let it go for more than a day before i let my partner know about it, and if i do need longer to process i make sure i tell them i love them and that im not ready but will tell them soon. I think its something i would want to have heard back then if my loved ones were struggling with communicating instead of radio silence for weeks. Not perfect, but im trying

Your account is a gift.

Thank you for this

I froze after the last one 🤣

Your shorts and vids are so informative. No academic jargon, just colloquial language modeling examples of what to name certain behaviors, experiences, etc.

This hits home

You mean deactivates the nerve, which is still incorrect as the nerve is always active...

This is SO good! Thankyou for making it so clear. This is the uncomfortable truth. Its uncomfortable for me to admit this is exactly what i do in relationships. 😢

I literally did the leg thing today, that is strange, must be a thing then I suppose, cool

Its weird when ur the child who this was done to. And the parent who is doing.. and trying to correct and become better when feeling this way…. Its weird cuz i used to handle lots of stress.. (like the child says.. thinking it was normal) but In learning bad choices you made/make.. feel so guilty because ur now experiencing feelings and your bad decisions…. And bridging the child Wounded and the adult wounding… leaning to be the parent who can change now that i understand .. and get better.

I don’t play games either…Nothing wrong with it.

Lol this is literally my life

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Thank you, Nicole. You words, reflections and depth of understanding a person with CPTSD are truly astounding. It's like you are rummaging around in my brain, touching all the broken bits and showing a way to heal them. My BIGGEST hurdle has been and always will be not know what "healthy" looks like. I can't tell you the times I've sat here thinking "ok, I see that I developed this particular behavior as a way to feel safe, to cope, and can see how it is actually harmful to me (and to others) . So, now that I see this pattern, how do I do it differently? How do I respond, resolve conflict, & state my needs in a healthy way as I was never taught how growing up. How to view the world from the inside out instead of the outside in." That is where your work in invaluable beyond measure. It has become my North Star, my compass heading me in the right direction. Learning what healthy and whole looks like is the secret to sucess. Thanks again for leading by example.

This! 🤦🏼‍♀️ I’m over it! And why does it get worse the longer my 45 year relationship, continues? I know, move on, you may say. Easier said than done when you’d liked to save your marriage! And you’re old! lol And you are disabled! No money and don’t know where to go. The fear is real 😢

Who cares we ruined our kids

Our parents would’ve done better if they would’ve known better it’s handed down from generation to generation. We need to start focusing on the good in people. We have to remember that our parents are human beings and that they were flawed too just as we are flawed. I believe we can recognize these things that’s part of the healing process, but we need to stop blaming and have some compassion for our parents instead of ridicule.

Is it possible to have ADHD and C-PTSD?

I am the daughter of a mother with psychopathic disorder. Physical and psychological violence was all there was. I am 47 years old and live daily with cptsd. It has ruined my whole life. Will start a treatment soon. I am soooo ready To leave this now and to find peace. If it is now possible to become whole again. 😶‍🌫️

I'm the oldest, and I remember everything. But my younger brother and sister do not, and try to scapegoat me and act like somehow I was the problem (I was the parentified one) vs. our abusive / alcoholic parents, now deceased. I try to take comfort in reading that dysfunctional homes often mean sibling estrangement later in life, but it also leads to great loneliness.

This hit wayyyy too close to home

"I weighted 110 pounds on my wedding day..." my mom said something like this when I was 12

Know that well. And this reminded me of his cousin "will it matter in 5 years?" And saying stuff ab talking ab things later and not while we're out. She acted like she's sm more mature than me bc of how she personally would react and her bf is like 10 years older than her. 🙄 I think she's been gaslit herself and doesn't realize it.

I say the “im the worst mother thing” i thought that was me being honest but saying it in a defensive way cuz i hurts to much to know im this bad.. So rather then the extreme. I started Going back.. and sometimes now i can Practice Saying something to say “yeah.. i hate me too.. but im trying to fix it and im going to ask for more help” ….

Thanks for making it palatable

Thats a lie , but u may not know jesus so i get it. But man im glad i do. And experience a hight level of forgiveness and freedom .!praise God for all ge has done!

I was raised in a single parent home with my dad (no stepmom or motherly influence). I am a woman. He would berate me and beat on me for hours until I was about 15. No siblings, no witnesses. Nobody believed me. I now struggle with intense dissociation and derealization lasting for MONTHS at a time. I think soon I’ll take my life. DO NOT TREAT YOUR KIDS LIKE SHIT, YOU COULD RUIN THEM FOR LIFE.

I wasn't ready for this one

thank you for doing example people be on here with out giving an example of what there saying being acted out

I wake up stressed. Then i get way overwhelmed over 🤷🏼‍♀️? and freeze up. I truly do not know how to start the day. Its so strange.

Sooooo true. Grateful to be away from this.

And you can't be alone or single for very long. You become a serial monogamist jumping from one relationship to another and always blame the ex when it was the anxious attached that CHOSE that person and couldn't see the red flags because they were "normal" to you.

One of my biggest triggers is hearing other people talk about any problems with their own physical or mental health. It puts me into a state of worry about my own physical symptoms and what if they don’t go away? What if they’re really serious? And what if I cannot handle it all emotionally or mentally? But my higher self tells me I CAN handle whatever cards the universe deals me, and when other people talk about their health issues I have to tell myself- that’s their story not mine. I try to be thankful for these triggers because they remind me it’s all about whatever perspective I want to have. Whatever perspective brings me the most peace is the only one I need to listen to in my head.

I’m avoidant also because I was never taught what healthy communication looks like.😢 And I hate confrontation

If someone is that rude and easily annoyed byeee

What about feeling "blank" is that the same as freeze?

I can relate....

So what’s the solution? How can I avoid repeating this pattern with my own children?

Did this last night outside on my balcony…. I’ve already went to the er for elevated liver enzymes and it caused a fatty liver … the stress caused me to loose 20lbs in less than a month…

I was everything to every one..... Didn't work. Save your energy!

Wife here...Because of spiritual beliefs, I thought I had to do, pay or fix because he was my husband. He ended up brutally abandoning me in the woods. Took money. Broke all snow mobiles and other expensive items. Ran away with all I bought. Never looked back. Called me a narc. ..is when I started learning

Jesus Christ is coming back sooner than you might expect, be ready and prepare to go with Him! Salvation prayer: Father I pray with my heart and believe in You Jesus Christ. I believe you died for me. I acknowledge that i'm a sinner, please forgive my sins. Wash me with Your precious blood. Come into my heart, save my soul today. Be my LORD and personal Saviour. I accept you today. In Jesus' name. Amen. Meditate on His Word (The Bible) to overcome challenges of this world until He comes! Jesus loves you! I don't know you but remember that God is with you! Romans 6:23> For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life through Christ Jesus our Lord. 💕🫶🏾

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