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I play roblox critical strike!
How Critical Strike Changed My Life
My life experiences left me in dire need to find someone within myself worth being, and Critical Strike was where I learned to let myself flourish.
milkiiholmes: soundcloud.com/milkiiholmes/sets/all-releases-release-order
disclaimer and prof oak made with deathgenerator.com/#gallery
Chapters:
0:00 Terms worth coming to
2:47 villain
8:27 (start) life flashes before musketeer eyes
11:55 disabling lethargy
14:04 recipe for strict isolation
18:51 your only water is radioactive
20:32 a pure oasis in this blistering heat
22:46 a cage, rattled once again
24:50 smells like home
26:07 gender
27:10 reclaiming what was lost
29:53 critical strike
32:17 filmmaking experience
34:19 expressing myself in the proving ground
35:27 achilles' heel
38:08 the show must go on
44:11 phoenix-ash sandcastles
49:05 shotis otis would like to interview you
50:39 humility, acceptance, gratification, romance, and...
59:01 ... how it feels when it all slips out of your grasp
1:00:34 (end) life flashes before musketeer eyes
1:03:00 take a break
1:03:38 The Tilting Experience
1:09:17 all of your humanity unravels to our shared set of roots
milkiiholmes: soundcloud.com/milkiiholmes/sets/all-releases-release-order
disclaimer and prof oak made with deathgenerator.com/#gallery
Chapters:
0:00 Terms worth coming to
2:47 villain
8:27 (start) life flashes before musketeer eyes
11:55 disabling lethargy
14:04 recipe for strict isolation
18:51 your only water is radioactive
20:32 a pure oasis in this blistering heat
22:46 a cage, rattled once again
24:50 smells like home
26:07 gender
27:10 reclaiming what was lost
29:53 critical strike
32:17 filmmaking experience
34:19 expressing myself in the proving ground
35:27 achilles' heel
38:08 the show must go on
44:11 phoenix-ash sandcastles
49:05 shotis otis would like to interview you
50:39 humility, acceptance, gratification, romance, and...
59:01 ... how it feels when it all slips out of your grasp
1:00:34 (end) life flashes before musketeer eyes
1:03:00 take a break
1:03:38 The Tilting Experience
1:09:17 all of your humanity unravels to our shared set of roots
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On Tuesday, October 10, 2023, one Dragnor2 accepted my friend request. These are the adventures that ensued. Play Critical Strike v5.9.5! www.roblox.com/games/8246089782/CRITICAL-STRIKE-v5-9-5 Chapters: 0:00 Chapter 1: Dragon 2 1:02 Chapter 2: Drangon's Rwath 2:07 Chapter 3: Critical Strike Montage 5:43 Chapter 4: Requiem 8:01 Chapter 5: Nothing to Worry About 11:06 Chapter 6: Consistent Effort...
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I feel like Musk was a big oversight (Musket guide coming soonish maybe) Play Critical Strike v5.9.3! www.roblox.com/games/8246089782/CRITICAL-STRIKE-v5-9-3 Music used: 1-39 HOW TO 2 (NO USE) - LET'S GO AWAY THE VIDEO GAME DAYTONA USA ANNIVERSARY BOX Way of the Wind - Sound Sepher (Megalomachia) Wandering Ghosts - Castlevania Sound Team
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Sniper is finally fixed, so I'm back for a bit. Anyways this is a Bomber video. Play Teddy Together for the Nintendo 3DS! (Actually this links to Critical Strike) www.roblox.com/games/8246089782/CRITICAL-STRIKE-v5-8-8 Music used: czcams.com/video/HAEgVgdBvm4/video.html czcams.com/video/LWM6GWcfQJw/video.html Note: The actual Y2 (X68000) tracks used can be found here: "Y2 Opening" vgmsite.com/so...
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A conspiracy, a rule change, and very spooky happenings. Recorded Jan 10 - 11, 2023. Play Critical Strike! www.roblox.com/games/8246089782/CRITICAL-STRIKE-v5-8-8 Songs used: czcams.com/video/cpCdm7ZGrfA/video.html czcams.com/video/owmWkwLj4KQ/video.html czcams.com/video/CNOYu7LPsmw/video.html Other music is in-game.
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I thought it would be wrong of me to not upload something before the Halloween update ends. I scrapped a few video projects, but this one ended up making it onto the internet. Play Critical Strike v5.8.2! www.roblox.com/games/8246089782/CRITICAL-STRIKE-v5-8-2 Songs used: czcams.com/video/TAV7HTKxpuQ/video.html czcams.com/video/O7ObxfmbrBY/video.html
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A silly technique to style on new players with. The better your F timing is, the tighter-grouped the muskets will be. Also the exact moment you start moving will impact the grouping a little bit. Also, F can hit with up to 4 muskets now. I'm really enjoying these musket changes! Yes the cuts in this video are very scuffed. I only make very good tutorials though don't worry. Play Critical Strike...
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I may have bought this class 2 seconds ago, but I won't tolerate any comments saying I'm unqualified to make a "beginner's guide". Expert™ opinion: Swordmancer is very gud if you hit everything. It's high skill-floor, high skill-ceiling like old musketeer would have been if its Q had cooldown resets built-in. I'm a fan. Play Critical Strike v5.8.0! www.roblox.com/games/8246089782/CRITICAL-STRIK...
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i wanna be a bomber main but thing is, i'm prob one of the worst players in the game lol
Bomber does take a lot of flicking around and fast movement. I picked it up because the way Bomber manipulates its momentum felt natural to me personally. I think even if Bomber doesn't fit your strengths as a player right now, you'll find that slowly changing as you spend more time with it. I think you should just try improving at the classes you enjoy.
I don’t comment like ever, but watching this video and remembering all the older times of watching you, i felt like i had to comment something. So, thank you rubi not just for opening up and being vulnerable on this platform, but for all the silly little critikal strike (or criticality) videos. You’re what got me into sniper (even though I’m painfully horrendous at sniper lol). Thank you again, and goodluck on all your future endeavors. (Also the music is great!) ❤️
Thanks for all the well wishes. Being vulnerable on this platform is an idea I've been wrestling with for a while. I think the most expressive art comes from chasing fulfillment of that need to express oneself, and I can't do that if I'm afraid to put all of me out there. I think my fear is largely rooted in the difficulty I face when dealing with hateful comments - but honestly, all the hate comments I received here and on past voiced videos are so vapid and skin-deep compared to the supportive ones in this specific comment section. It's almost as if the people who have something rude to say just didn't engage with the video enough to say... well anything at all, really - as if they just refused to think critically about the video and their own feelings. You could get a list of generic insults from CZcams comments and pepper them in this comment section and I wouldn't be able to tell the difference. By comparison, reading the supportive comments has almost been more troubling, as I've been served so many fragments of raw humanity, evoked via this video, from dozens of people, most of whom I personally know. The sheer amount of vicariously-lived human emotion and experience I took in over the course of the first two or three days became deeply overwhelming, to the point where I had to just bury the video away from my life for a while, and continue not talking to anyone in the community much - but I think this experience was a good thing altogether. Comments like yours and everyone else's have shown me just how important it is to let myself be vulnerable in what I make, for the sake of the people who do wish to be honest with the tender humanity lying beneath the actions we take and the facades we uphold. Thank you for your comment.
1:07:21-1:08:24 I can feel this "questioning everything" part quite a bit. Every now and then, my mind will pulsate "Why am I here?", "What am I doing?"; "Why am I [my real name]?", like it's trying to find out why I was even born; spawned into this game called life. WTF is a human brain? Have a good day.
good job
Interesting g0ego
Thanks nyarubico
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Don’t got much to say but I wish nothing but the best for you Rubi. I hope you are able to prosper and flourish in whatever path you decide to continue in next. All Love❤️
Thanks for the supportive comment :)
ngl one of the main reasons why i got into cs was because of the bomber clips from lucrative and sniper clips from you (australia sniper video lol). while i play neither or much cs now its sad to see one of the people that got me into the cs stuff go. i hope where ever you go you have a great future.
My American connection while playing against your Aussie Juggernaut really made jugg feel like a ranged class. It was a lot of fun complaining about that. As for me leaving, I might not be gone quite yet. The memories at least still have a grip on my mind. I am trying to move on, but it's never so simple. I'm just grateful for the memorable experiences I had here. I didn't realize my videos had helped get you into CS. This video has taught me a lot about the importance of knowing the impact of my actions. Thanks for the well wishes; I hope the best for you as well fridge.
Dragnor2 here, the man, the myth, the legend, not like anyone actually remembers Dragnor2. After finishing the video I’m sorry to hear about the things you’ve gone through the past. This video was a bit of an eye opener into the fact that other people also have lives behind just what you see and know. It was also an interesting experience for me with how I could relate to a few things. I’m also happy to hear you get a few things off your chest, its not easy to open up what your feeling and have gone through to others. About the winter section, its still hard to hear someone defending winter. But I never really cared or knew about the things he did, I’m only mad at him cause I want those wins back he stole from me . Just like the 1 hour of my life stolen from me by the video , where’s the TLDR or subway surfers gameplay. To me you were one of my favorite players to fight. You were scary with musk, I still have ptsd from musk’s health deletion combo’s. Sorry if I beat you up quite a bit with gladiator. Not only were you a great player you were a great CZcamsr as well. Let me be honest here, no one will ever know just how happy I was when I saw the video on me. It felt like everything I did up until that point in critical strike was all worth it. When’s part 2? I still love the Drangon nickname it just doesn’t get old. Critical strike is such a great game. It’s fun, uhm… its got gladiator. But most importantly its got the players. I still miss 5.7.5 where every game was just chatting about something. But of course one cant always keep holding on to the past like I used to, some times you just need to move one. The game was a big part of my life and it helped me out a lot, glad to hear I wasn’t the only one. I wish I could add more. But when one can only think about gladiator buffs and custom skin, thinking about anything else is difficult. Ignore any spelling mistakes, bad grammar, and terrible opinions. I’m a critical strike player, type now, think later. I hope to run into you again, when I do get ready to face the SKY ARENA. Maybe we can talk some time and play together👍. why did i even write this? who even knows honestly (The inner machinations of my mind are an enigma). thanks for the great music, i will for sure be listening to it 👍. literally doing so as i wrote this. Regards, Drangon
Getting THE Drangon to want to comment on a video enough to actually do it, I think this means I've peaked as a persuasive speaker. I think my praises of you go without saying, but you've always been a crucial part of my image of Critical Strike - particularly in the Criticality era and beyond. I had few players left to look up to at when I met you, and yet somehow you felt like your skill was eternal - an unstoppable force no matter how much I train. I treasure that. On defending Winterissm, well, I don't want to pretend he's a good person. He isn't. I find him despicable in some of the things he's done. I should have hammered that home harder in the video because honestly going easy on him was distasteful and naive of me. I still wish to observe and empathize with his softer, unguarded side because I just think it's foolish to refuse to understand what makes people tick. Thank you for mentioning my music. You're the first one so far. I'm honored to have babby's first tracks listened to by a legend such as yourself. I casually play piano just about every day, so there's a lot I've learned that will show if I get back into music production. The current dev team is anti-custom skins. Custom skins these days are earned by creating it yourself and then pressuring ExplosivesGuy2 into adding it into the game like MrMiksor did. Does Explosives even know you? Not to own him epic style but he's clearly very out-of-touch with a lot of things relating to Critical Strike, from design sensibilities, to the community. I don't think you'd get the pull you deserve. It may be time to put the custom skin pipe dream to rest. My condolences. Anyways at risk of sounding like a mindless Drangon fanatic, I'm just really glad to have read a comment from you. Thank you for every part of you that you've given to me and the rest of the community. It's the interesting people like you who make the community feel deep and full of flavor.
@@nyarubico This is such a nice reply I don’t even know where to begin. Thank you for the praise, of course I deserve all of it after all its hard being me. I’m glad to know someone looked up to me, even though I was just a deranged gladiator die hard fan. Of course I have to mention the music it’s really good. Maybe one day I will return to beating up players in critical strike, this time with great newfound music to listen to. Me getting a custom skin is just a long running joke at this point, it’s been like 3 years of me saying I deserve one. The chances of me getting a custom skin are way to low. Lessened of course by the fact Explosives actually has zero clue who I am. Then again I don’t really want a custom skin anymore, I’ve used Lu Bu skin for so long its just been a part of me now. Personal thanks to the script kiddie who gave me fortune tokens back in 5.7.5. I could always use more mindless Drangon fanatics. But thank you very much, I’m happy to receive these kind words from you, they mean a lot to me (I’m holding back tears).
It's been a few years since I've heard someone praise my music like that. It's a nice feeling. EpicCritical's Critical Strike that you and I know may be a dying art, but I think we both learned a lot here that will inform the things we seek in the future. I hope you can make meaning in future communities in the way you did here. As I'm sure you understand intuitively right now, it's the people around us who give value to our actions. I think you deserve more of the people in the future. Maybe there is a social butterfly yet undiscovered within yourself. Good luck my friend!
this is the first video of yours i've ever watched, and what a way to start out, this was incredible, i hope to see what you do in the future all of the toxicity in basically the majority of roblox communities is pretty much why i exclusively stick to phighting (apart from it being one of the only roblox games that don't completely fuck over its playerbase)
That was RAW praise of Phighting. Unbelievably based tbh. Thank you for the supportive comment.
@@nyarubico no problem i am completely obsessed with phighting lmao
i may have seen your sniper video one time as I was on my own journey of trying to get good at the game. im not sure why i wanted to, maybe it was just because i wanted something to feel satisfied with, or maybe it was because I was genuinely invested into the game's mechanics and depth. whatever reason that was, I didn't think much of the video. I thought it had pretty neat editing and then I moved on with my day. little did i know that your video would pop right up on my feed, and when you talked about your previous montages, i was immediately brought back to the time in which i watched that video. the rest of the video, of course, locked me in further. something about this video strikes something in me that feels very familiar. this feeling of deep thought, this feeling of introspection into who I actually am. Because in that last chapter, I felt like I was observing myself. I thought to myself "who the hell am i?", and "what the hell do i really want?", and that has been a motivator for me to self-reflect. thank you for making this video, and sorry if this all sounds incoherent. hearing your journey is absolutely beautiful, and I hope the best for you in your future endeavors.
Honestly, this comment was uncanny. If you told me one night I decided that I hate capital letters and then feverishly typed a response to a video I forgot I made, I'd believe I wrote this comment. It's a bit shocking how much I relate to you and you relate to me. I just wanted you to know about this feeling you evoked in me. I'm in awe because I've never felt this before. Thank you.
@@nyarubico No problem. Now that I think about it, a lot of the experiences that you talked about in this video were weirdly similar to my own personal experiences with a different game and community I had spent countless hours playing and engaging with, as well as the negative experiences which definitely played a role into the person I am now, for better or for worse. Relationships can be VERY messy, and I've found myself with people who turned out to have the least of good intentions when it came to relationships, and I of course had my own deeply rooted issues (primarily having to do with people-pleasing and self-shame) that I had to reflect on (which inadvertently led me to discover my own queerness, LOL). I again can't thank you enough for talking about your experiences like this, because these are things that people like us connect with on such a deep level. ♥
I think you and I are of a similar fiber, except with different hobbies. You're kind of on the other end of that honest self-discovery, while many hurting people haven't overcome that hurdle. If you can express that part of you, there are people in the world who need to hear it. In CS specifically, queer strikers are obviously a minority, but they tend to stay quiet due to the phobia spread around the community. When it comes to giving these suppressed voices a chance to feel heard, it's up to people with our experiences who have something they want to share. I'm not saying make a video NOW, but just, keep it in mind with your natural self-expression. Even with all our similarities, our lives still took very different shapes. Your voice is needed.
good luck to you and your future endeavors rubico, from one headache master class main to another
God, like, most of my enjoyment of current Musketeer comes from this repressed resentment of the CS community matched with this decadent, sadistic joy of one-shotting people. The current state of the game is increasing my Dark Triad score every time I play.
They let an exploiter on the dev team but the #1 asian gets banned cause some terminally online kid doesn't know what ping is🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣
About the exploiters on the dev team - the only reason the game got a continuation is because two exploiters, winterissm and jcm, used their experience with exploits to rip as much of the game's code as they could and recreate the game. Under that light, the Criticality project as a whole couldn't exist at all without these exploiters having started it. The "they" you refer to ARE exploiters; they had the project in the palms of their hands from the start.
Something I HAVE to comment on is how this is genuinely a really well-written video, especially the whole sequence at 43:50, or the end !! I can tell you have a special vision when it comes to scripting, voicing, and just generally expressing thoughts through the medium of video i got CHILLS at the end from the quote itself and the delivery. THANK YOU for sharing your story, its all just life and im always happy to see people living it out and simply continuing to exist; Good luck in your future endeavors, Musketeer tech wizard; and I wish you all the best ! :33
You seem to really get it. I love video essays. I've watched a lot of them, and grown to understand what I like and don't like. The only reason someone like me can use all these big words is because of the essayists who have influenced me over the past few years. The topic doesn't matter too much to me; it's that human aspect, that passion, that always captivates me.
Why did you let toxic little kids get this deep into you
All of life is experienced in the mind, and my mind was especially vulnerable to this type of behavior. We don't really get to decide what affects us or what doesn't affect us, despite what toxic masculinity gurus want you to believe.
it is I random internet viewer and I usually don't comment things in fear of someone i know finding me and judging me but I don't think any of them will be here that being said when playing critical strike i had about the same mindset of needing to play something respectable which i why i got good at hitman. and somewhere in real life along the way i things started slipping, and as expectations rose, I definitely couldn't keep up. i took breaks it felt like i was getting worse and slowly losing my touch and it is the worst feeling feeling that I could've been better and everyone telling me the same thing which eventually became a self perpetuating cycle of self loathing and feeling worthless. aaaand thats where im at there is no conclusion, its just something ive noticed. i know im not your friend and you dont know me and i dont know you but as a member of the audience. I thank you, for existing and i think its admirable how you choose to put yourself out there. there are things that i would never say and i didnt. i would have loved to make a video back when i considered myself good at the game. but such times have passed. and i think it was a missed opportunity, good on you for taking it.
A chilling account of times faded. I couldn't keep up in real life either. It's that stress that left me incapacitated to the point of not being able to finish school. I was very fortunate to have somebody in my life who eventually needed help that only I could give. Things could have gone a lot worse for me. Thank you for sharing part of yourself here. Social pressure is a heavy force, especially when we're young and impressionable. I hope you can find a conclusion worth being proud of.
He doxxed the shit outta the CS dev team no? And along with a lot of other shitty things too, but u want to claim that he’s just a misunderstood kind soul who wants love and acceptance? THAT winterissm? LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
see this guy gets it
He did, and the fact that you refuse to understand another human being's inner workings is going to just get all the troubled people you encounter to attack you the moment you do the wrong thing. Your willful ignorance will be your downfall if you step on the wrong toes. We are all human.
I want to make it clear that I despise a lot of the things Winter has done. It's just that fighting hate with hate is just going to make us all bitter, angry, and hurt. You embody this eternal arms race of toxicity that the Critical Strike community has made its main flavor. You are right in your words, and yet, you are the platonic ideal for the things I despise about this community. I beg that you find it within yourself to do better.
critical strike makes me hear ẗ̷̡͇̭̭̺̣͕̠͖͙̦͎́̔͒̀͆̃h̷̨̡̘̹̤͇͈̖̘̥̭͉̲̟̲̬̍͑̒͗̚e̸̪̩̮̤̬̒͌̅͝ͅ ̸̢̧̗͇̲̫̟̜̭̥͚͙͇͖͉̳͌̋̕ͅv̵̛̘̻͖̭̥̙̦̫͖̥́͒̈̽͂̎̉͑͝ö̶̡̨̲̗̜̗̪̠͎̗̳̱͓̘̤̹́̈͆̎̃͗͐̎̄͊ͅi̷̧̗̮͚͙̰̹̤͖͋͑̈̅͑̆̋̚͘̚͜͜ç̵̧͎͔̔͗̄̆̉͛̋ḙ̷̡̨̼̦̟̳̬̹͔̯̤̠͎͙͉͐̆̈́̒́͋̀̇͂̕ͅs̴̡̡͓̖̪͉̜̗͇̲̬͉͈̟̝̘̀͆͠
i've been trying to figure out what to comment for a while now and i'll just say this i don't usually relate to people talking about their negative experiences very much, most of my problems come from very weird things, some of them even having started on purpose and despite how different the origins to my problems are from yours, i could still relate a ton to some of the things they caused, mostly feeling emotionally numb and using video games to try to have something on which to base your self worth
I tried to convey the most human parts of my experiences to cast a wide net. My set of experiences is unique to myself, but the feelings I've experienced are universal to humankind. I'm glad you were able to relate. Relating to other people has always helped me feel more human.
Good chance and Luck my Friend‼
Thanks for the comment spooktree.
its good to hear you let some stuff get out your chest, if theres a time you need someone to talk to im always there
Always nice to have a real one by my side (real musketeer enthusiast)
i cant tell if youre being sarcastic at certain points but its so funny the way you describe certain situations
Guilty as charged on the sarcasm. I can definitely think of one instance.
Critical Strike is garbage. it makes no sence
I can understand where you're coming from. Critical Strike My Beloved for me is just the fun and meaningful memories I made along the way. Nowadays I keep my distance because I don't really vibe with the increasing complexity of classes, and usually just get upset at the direction the game is heading. That's not to say there isn't fun to be had.
@@nyarubico anyways very emotional video👍
You were one of my inspirations for playing CS, thanks for all you've done!
I'm really happy to hear this Cugas. Whenever I was in a call with you, the strong, positive energy you brought always brought my mood up. Thank you for the comment.
I'm not a sentimental person but I want to say something to the only critical strike youtuber I've watched (not joking) after sm2099k left mysteriously I know 33 comments of people saying "we support you" vaugley (at the time of this comment) might not seem like a lot. But that's 33 people who eagerly root for you and cheer for you. 33 people right now took time out of their day to let you know they care about you, and more are on the way. Don't feel anchored to this community and feel free to break away or someday return. A simple youtube comment section isn't a substitute for therapy, only you know what you'll need.
I was going to avoid the comments because I talked a lot about vulnerable aspects of myself. However, a close friend who watched the video told me the comments were really supportive, which surprised me. I'm sure there's a bad egg here or there, but it wouldn't be Critical Strike without them. Talking about this stuff is helping me open my mind a bit more to the truths I keep hiding from. That can be scary. The difference now is that I have plenty of support in my personal life, and in the community. I got to express the real me, as raw and real as realness gets, and people accept that. It's very gratifying.
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Thumbs up from you are always nice. You always give off good vibes to me ade, like you're a good example of the kind of cs veteran I'd want the community to be full of. It only felt natural to include The Daniel Saga recording as B-roll footage for this video since you were a big part of that series of events.
where my owenofwood fans at tho
Hello owen
@@nyarubico ogayo gosaimas
i’m an ally of the trans community you can trust me
I appreciate your support, thank you.
my goat nyarubico we support you and your journey ahead of ya
I know you've got a lot going on in that head atop those shoulders b7rch. I wish you the best.
damn
In response to your channel description, hai dae :3
You were the sole reason why i play Critical Strike when i first watched your Sniper montages
You're one of the good Roblox penguins right? I have to keep closer track of you all after *somebody* turned out to be a bad egg.
my goat nyarubico
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@@nyarubico im watching this as im actually editing tourney clips
@@wonton3734 love to see the dedication
Critical strike was a few fragments of some people. Mine included. It has been a long run. Thank you for providing content to keep me (at least) contempt. ALSO ITS GALAXY FO-
I will never forget the Ginga Force conversation. It's so funny because the Ginga Force that Yousuke Yasui did the OST for got localized as Ginga Force, while the game you know got properly translated. The game industry is pranking us epic style.
it really has changed my life as well, for the better or for the worse? who knows, but many friends has been made but some goes as well. I'll like to thank you to inspire me to create content and be who i am today
I didn't realize that I helped inspire your videos. I'm glad to help get the good word out there on making videos. It's a great hobby if you can stomach the editing process.
That was quite a journey. It's sad that you were bullied but i glad you've made it through. Though I've only vc with you and toki once i really enjoyed it. I wish you the best Rubi
That vc was so funny to me. I had a great time. Thanks for always being supportive of me.
mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy
Now now, I'm just a voice in your headphones speaking to you in a parasocial way. Comments like this are gonna throw me off.
@@nyarubico sorry…………………………
@@CharleanCharlea I'm not mad or anything.
@@nyarubico opinion on wonton
@@CharleanCharlea I like wonton. I feel they understand the flow of creativity as it relates to our personal wants and needs. Many people adopt a flashy style with their edits for people's approval, but Wonton seems unmovable in the face of that pressure.
It’s really heartbreaking for me to watch this video knowing that you may never play or make videos ever again. You were such a big influence to my CZcams channel and other things. But I know that isn’t really the point of the video, I don’t think I’m mature enough to fully understand the topics in this video and I really don’t want to say anything stupid, so all I can say is that I hope the best for whatever you plan to do in the future and that you will always be a staple in the CS community.
It's wise to understand where your limits stand. I had a lot of fun commenting and talking with you about your videos. I hope one day you will influence those who needed to hear what you have to share.
Pausing my subway surfers in the background because I got judgement shotted. 12 am critical strike video my beloved.
tbh complementary subway surfers gameplay should be considered an accessibility feature in videos like this
you have done so far to become my nice friend. critical strike community was a fun place back early access era where i met many cool people there, like you. i admire the way you played sniper and musketeer, which i believe i can finally have something fun for me to enjoy my experience, unlike others that i had attempted to. i feel sad when i heard you talked about being bullied in school, which one of the things that created yourself a sense of loneliness. but no matter what, your performance is killing your loneliness as you gain more respect from some of people there. no matter it is, we are still supporting you as you should keep going for your goal, never give up. (i am trying to give out positive feedbacks as much as i could as i may have lack of using words properly)
I know English isn't your first language Deca, but you conveyed your message just fine. Thank you for the encouragement and especially for all the great work you've done over on the Critical Strike wiki. Game wikis are so important and you've really done a great public service by providing easily accessible information about the game. I have the utmost respect for you.
(This isn't blind praise btw and I hope you take it as genuine.) I just wanna say that I've never watched a video thats really captured me for so long. (Seriously I blinked like 5 times) This vent if you can call it that over the span of the thousands of words that were used in this video were pure artistry. I have issues with dysphoria of my own but I realize that i'm now only getting to that age of really starting to discover my identity past the random blur we all experience in childhood. CS was in the middle of my most developing years for better or for worse and I dont regret my time on the game. It really was all I played and I would recognize people I looked up to on and off in game (This includes you). My friends that I tried to play CS with always had a negative stigma towards CS and I guess I never saw it as a red flag like they did with all its controversy revolving around its playerbase and developers (particularly xenophobic or just flat out discrimination towards marginalized groups). My attention from CS drifted past there and I began to just see it as a simple game rather than the ONLY thing I played. I stayed up to watch this and I do not regret it. Regardless, I hope you're doing well rubi <3
Finding someone in yourself worth being is extremely difficult when surrounded by such a noisy and intense world. I spent so much time alone in search of myself. I honestly had a phase where I watched a lot of videos on stoic philosophy because my experienced anxiety and other negative emotions were too hard to cope with. I'm no paragon of stoicism, but a lot of those lessons did help me understand how to cope with the natural ways of the world. Hearing that you have issues with dysphoria is something I wasn't expecting from you. I think a lot of people like you have these feelings that just didn't get a chance to be honestly expressed out loud until something came by and brought them out. I want you to know that whoever you end up becoming, it's important that you're honest with the feelings within you; problems cannot be solved if we willfully embrace ignorance. Life circumstances can hold you back, but I trust that you will continue to find meaning in the life you life.
If you still need a rival yk who to call
You're at the top of my CZcams rivals list, if I do feel the need to step back into the ring, so to speak.
i got to the break, and now is a good time to write my comment. i want to thank you for being so vulnerable in a video, since you've only done it once before. i ultimately stopped playing critical strike due to me losing access to a computer, but also because it harbored an awful community. i didn't want to have the chance of being around awful people, so i moved on. then, i found your content! i loved seeing you play sniper, it inspired me to briefly try sniper on MOBILE, which went poorly as you'd expect. then, you had uploaded your now deleted video about the transphobia in the critical strike community. i felt vindicated, in a way? like i wasn't screaming into a void, there was someone who understood how horrible it was, and was being vocal about it too. and now, with this video and getting a bigger picture, i am proud of you. a fellow trans woman being so vulnerable and giving insight into your history with the game and people within the community, as well as talking about your life. i paid attention to this video in a way i haven't paid attention in years. i was almost in a trance, staring at the screen's flashing colors and odd colorful patterns...and yet i was still paying 100% attention HSJCJDJCJFJ.. you're strong for coming this far. you turned your negative feelings into fuel for things like voice training and productivity rather than letting it consume you like it did before. you wrote out things people would be afraid of talking about, and you went through with it. mental disorders, memories, relationship, all things that can be hard to write out, and i'm proud that someone like me could do that. thank you so much. ahem I Am Never That Serious so i deeply apologize if any of it worded in a way that isn't comprehensible.. i don't fully remember your voice from the previous video you talked, but i do know that your voice is very soothing and i'm proud of you for going through the pain that is voice training!!!! i hope you only continue to improve with your voice.. it's inspiring, it makes me want to start dedicating time to improving my voice right now... after i finish watching! 🫶
perhaps i should've waited until the end but i couldn't help myself i had too many thoughts building up and i didn't want to lose any of them
thank you
I've met a small handful of transgender people in the CS community. I know some people felt very strongly in favor of the transphobia video, including many friends of mine. Despite how I felt from the hateful comments I fixated on, I wasn't just shouting into the air for people to listen and move on; the CS Discord then announced that they'd take moderation more seriously, and awareness of these issues was spread. I felt like the video had served its purpose when I chose to delete it a month or two after the fact. I want you to do your vocal training to the extent that means something to you personally. There are transfem CZcamsrs like Melody Nosurname who openly admit to just not having the time or interest for voice training, yet still find acceptance in their community. I think this need for our voices and appearance to conform to an unfair standard has roots in the self-rejection and self-hatred that we've had baked into us by the people and culture that raised us. I don't want you to do this or that because you feel an obligation to. I want you to understand the forces that motivate you, understand the roots of your ideals, and spend your time and energy on the things in life that personally mean something to you. You may feel the weight of these unfair standards we have placed upon us just as I do, but I won't allow any chance that you think you may be exempt from setting your own goals in life and pursuing them to whatever extent you please. We may be under the same flag, but whether it has or hasn't clicked for you yet, it is you who have and will continue to create your own meaning in life. I want you to live a full and meaningful life, with all the highs and lows it entails, because you chose to live it in a way that means something to you.
yes boss thank you boss i understand... i'll do what's right and what i want for me at my own pace <33
I've always respected you rubi, you were the first critical strike youtuber that commented on my videos and actually got me hyped on making more videos! thank you, i really mean it :)
Right, I had a conversation with you about Vegas Pro 18 right? Yeah I used the free version of DaVinci Resolve for this video. I want to record future videos in 4k and use the OBS-native video format of .mkv files so I don't have as much chance for distorted/corrupted files. Vegas doesn't support .mkv and file compatibility even breaks when I record multiple audio tracks in a fragmented .mp4 file. DaVinci just works. Right, I did enjoy the work you put into your videos too. I think you know how to make things look flashy, and your visual edits have plenty of respect for the accompanying music. You know what you're doing in the editor. I hope things are going well with your channel. As I progressed from making one video to the next, I took a more relaxed, minimalist style with editing. People like MrMiksor and confirmed oldhead 2ndrew even make animations and stuff for their videos, but that's not my calling. I want to convey ideas that mean something to me, and convey my feelings to the viewer. For me, flashiness can often shine too brightly for me to focus on the message of the video very clearly. I guess my point is that the feeling, the messaging, the soul of the video is always what I look at. If you ever want to improve even further in my eyes, then I want videos that just might make me feel something in my core; joy, sadness, love, hype, anything that you want to convey. That's the kind of art I want to see on this website.
I see! sadly, i lost vegas cuz i cleared my pc due to lag, although i am coping with capcut xd i'll try making frequent videos on the future cuz i don't feel like doing them rn because of relationship and stuff, but i will try making something like your core! (i love doing different things) and i hope to see you again in the future someday! it really was a great experience just by having you to message me since that never actually happened to me, even if it was just a few messages, i really loved the unexpected dm hsbdfhbsdfbjkfsd i really dream to be seen at least by 30% of the cs community or as an youtuber at all! so i hope the best for the both of us!!
56:43 And this is why you are still my favorite player of all time. I am honored to have once called you my friend.
SHOTIS YOU ARE SO COOL I remember all your videos years ago man hope you’re doing good!
We've been through some real rough patches. We've both embarrassed ourselves plenty. And yet, I can't help but still feel very fond of you. As disconnected as we may be socially, I feel that we connected in a way that was raw, real, and as expressive as human expression gets. Never have I enjoyed getting in a fight and not talking to someone for years as much as I did with you. Thank you for all the good and bad memories. I wouldn't have had it any other way.
@@nyarubico 🙏🏻
@@Issyisawesome108 Yes I'm doing well... Moved on to projects other than Roblox content and I'm soon to begin my second year of college
@@Shotis NICE I’m in my third year of high school and critical strike is still a part of me lol. CTD too but that hasn’t had updates in sooo long
I don't think I have enough words to properly convey the emotions I felt over the course of this video, but gratitude is something I can express to encapsulate it well enough. Thank you for sharing your story and the motivations behind your artistry, thank you nyarubico.
I considered not uploading this video. I just made it because I had a lot to express. It seems the video resonated a lot with some people. I'm happy that I can be a foil for others to self-reflect.
i was not ready for when u talked about how being good at a game was like your reason for existing. really hit home. good bideo
Hey wifey.
@@Pilotspie hello sham
I think a lot of people relate to this feeling. Being designated as "lesser" can be pretty damaging, and more so if one is already vulnerable. I'm glad to be able to hit home with my words.