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I understand that it's very difficult to disclose a job, but I would be very curious to know what type of job you're currently doing because I've been struggling finding something sustainable that hasnt destroyed me and am getting closer to my 30s. I wish I could do remote work like I see a lot of autistic people doing since it's the best option for our neurotype but I can't do it in my own country. UK definitely seems more advanced in this sense and I might try to find work there in the future! Love your videos and the content you make that has helped me throughout my own struggles! ❤

no ur not

Love your vids.

Just thought of you and came back to see what's up just to find this out. I was diagnosed as AuDHD in September!

Migraines could be a link to a deep sinus infection,it happened to me and I had an MRI and that's what they found and now I don't have them anymore

what a brilliant video...my life exactly.

I have to 3 years old daughter who has trichotillomania.. she’s been having it for the last year when she was just 2 years old and just came to know of this today 😢

Andrew Cooper, having breached his restraining order, was arrested and bailed on conditions that he is banned from the internet. The police are now conducting an investigation into his operations and who were his fake female employees

I think you might be very interested in “Byron Katie” and her introspection process she calls “The Work”. It changed my life in that it provided me with so much clarity.

Hermoso trabajo! Felicidades y un abrazo fuerte.

I see a lot of positive comments on here. Anything other than that is noise. You are amazing, Beckie. Some of us watch you to learn and be inspired💜

A job I'm unwell in 😄 I can relate so much 😊

Wow that artwork is amazing! 😮 only a dysfunctional brain can create such originality and creativeness, neurotypicals can't create like adhd/autistic people can, one gift I'd never change even it meant fixing the negatives of the nuerodivergent brain, I'd be soulless without creativity 🤩

I've been looking for your old "They're Coming To Take Me Away, Ha​-​Haaa!" video, but it looks like you've deleted a lot of your old videos, it's a shame. I think they'd be handy for the younger views coming to terms with trich.

It blows my mind how expert some people think they are on who someone is without even being a part of their real life. They think because they see someone sometimes in contained and highly controlled settings, they are qualified to make judgments. I'm so sorry to hear you've had to deal with this on the heels of your self-awareness journey. It is interesting how some people decide what others feel and think and what our thoughts and feelings or things we say "really" mean as if they know us well enough. Last time I checked, no one can read minds. Frankly, anyone who deserves to know someone well enough to make assertions about their inner workings wouldn't dare. Also, haters and harrassers should get a life. But alas, they lurk on the internet, feeling brave to talk judgemental nonsense from behind a screen. The internet makes everyone brazen experts, but I'd like to see them try one minute of the level of vulnerability you share with your face before the world. They'd buckle under their own self-hatred they insist on projecting on you. They take the coward's way. But not you. You have real courage and strength, which is tested again and again, and here you still are! Amazing. I found your channel because of the stim toy sharing on your other channel, and I was refreshed to find your Autism content and authenticity on the mental-health fallout from late diagnosis (I was diagnosed 6 years ago at age 38). I assure you, I'm not entertained by your suffering. It's just a gift to be able to relate. I celebrate your unmasking journey and your unfolding self-acceptance, whatever it looks like. I stand with you in being yourself, whether others like it or not. I'm feeling for you in the joy, sadness, and in-betweens. You deserve love and respect, no matter how you feel.

Your life is eerily similar to mine. I'm going into my thirties having been diagnosed first with ADHD, then ASD, kind of wanting a relationship, kind of not, and just generally wondering what's going to happen next. Feeling decades behind is something that's taken me a while to deal with as well. I had the exact same feeling after my ADHD diagnosis of something being missing and then post-ASD diagnosis dealing with skill regression. It's a lot to process. I have found ultimately it's better to have the diagnoses to at the very least have a vocabulary and more tailored advice to draw from (I wouldn't have found this channel without it). Being off antidepressants for the first time in nine years and having to come back into the office again after four years without that numbing effect certainly doesn't help, especially with the constant noise. It's hard to be patient with yourself. All of this to say you're by no means alone. I hope that's a comfort

I followed you over the years, your style of narration and editing appealed to me, felt close to you somehow. I also dealed my entire life with depression, anxiety, OCD among other diagnoses. Last year, at 28 years old, was diagnosed as Autistic. Such mixed feeling. Love to see you back. ❤hugs

You are brilliant. I am 58. Thank you.

Know exactly how you feel, every word. 50 and waiting in line for diagnosis.

you are a tortured genius. magnificent creature !!

i have what you have and tried every med under the sun and those meds have RUINED my kidneys. just wanted to let you know. the meds didn't fix a thing.

here's hoping you get to a space where youre so content and over it you literally laugh at your haters and suddenly they just sort of dwindle to the wayside making way for genuine souls who you inspire!🥂 to the remark you said "easier said than done", well, it might not be easy but it really works. the positive self talk /affirmations or trying to control your thoughts. there's a lot of content out there about it, that thoughts control reality, one of them is joe dispenza. if you want to give it a go. either way, more life and love to you

Just be you Rebecca and screw everyone else. you are not forcing anyone to watch but yes there sad people out there you love to bring people down.

Just remembered your oregon vlog only to not find your channel. is this your new channel? And did you delete your old one? Anyways all the best with this one

Hi Rebecca. I know that this video is 4 years old and I have watched your more recent stuff. Recommendation is Ralph McTell Streets of London. Stay well and God Bless.

I am incredibly proud of you, and even though I may be a nobody to you, I am still proud of you. You are incredible and brave.

I like you, Rebecca. You think deeper than most people. Your videos are entertaining reminders of our collective struggles and humanity. Joy to you and your family and friends.

I've followed you for 10 years now. Found you interesting from the start (first saw your reaction to The Fault In Our Stars). I still find you worth following. I know a good chunk of the internet has been horrible to you, but not all of us have. I like to feel I'm supportive when I do comment or like your IG stuff. Sometimes I know I've been blunt, and you have replied, and that was that. You say you don't ask for general-good comments, but in a way you do when you mention less people see your happy stuff. What am I getting at here? Hard to say. But I will keep on following you, no matter what. How much I'm able to comment or like just depends on how much time I have at that moment. I mean, look at this, I wasn't able to watch this video for 11 days, but I knew it was in my feed.

When I watched this video I was around 17. Yesterday, I turned 26 and I can’t help but relate with everything you’re saying…

i miss you and watch your vids. now we have 30"

you have done amazing things ❤ you are an amazing person! you spread love and you help others ! we are always goin g to be here to uplift you ! the love will always outweigh the hate, even when it doesn’t seem like it ❤

Well that explains why i liked you! I have so many creators i watched growing up only to find out they are neurodivergent later in life 😅

I really appreciate your videos and have followed you for well over 10 years now. Although I'm older than you (40 in a couple of weeks) I've enjoyed watching you grow as I also grew. I wish you well in the years to come. P.S. I loved your home tours and baking videos. I even go back and watch them when I want to unwind. I especially liked your dorm room videos but I was so proud of you and happy for you when you bought your home.

Hi Rebecca. Please do a cookery video. People should always dip a toe outside of their comfort zones. Respectfully yours😊

Yikes, people can be so horrible :( No words can make their wrongs right or can even nullify them. I'm so sorry you had and have to go through all that. ❤

I comfort watch you, if that helps!

I wish I could give you a big hug. But even if we met and you'd be happy to get a hug, I would be too shy and awkward to actually give one. I find you an incredibly interesting person. Thank you for being so real.

I've been watching your channel(s) since 2014 and I will always appreciate the way you document your thoughts and feelings. I know people can be cruel but I'm rooting for you.

Hey! I used to watch your videos few years ago when you were talking about your struggles with trichotillomania. For some reason I haven't seen any updates for a long time. Today this video popped up as a suggestion and I got curios what happened to you and your journey. Despite being sad all what you've been through and what people write to you or just life happens, I just wanted to tell you I'm happy to see you that you've become such an amazing grounded adult! You sound wise and somehow enlightened. I'm really sorry about all the negativity and even hatred that you've encountered. Don't compare yourself to people with more conventional lives, you're a brilliant and wonderful just the way you are, with or without a plan.

logged into my childhood account and holy sh this took me back :"0 i remember watching the shorter version before this one even was posted. how the time flies.

It's hard to write anything that previous commenters haven't already eloquently touched on. Your online CZcams diary (as well as other social media posts that you share, such as on Instagram) has been a source of interest and inspiration for a long period of time. I also empathize that the pressure to always sound upbeat (and the viciousness of mean-spirited strangers) sometimes makes you want to stop. I'm grateful that you've shared as much as you have for as long as you have, and always look forward to whatever you have to say. Thank you.

Hi there. Not related to this video, but as a long time taker of mirtazapine, I am still smiling from the video when you called them marzipan. Thanks for that memory.

I didn't see it in this video, but you used to have a cat that you could talk to. Pets are better than people because they very rarely gossip! I myself have ferrets and i am adopting five more (A mum and 4 daughters), tomorrow. The sanctuary did not want to break up a family and so i agreed to adopt them all. Spare me the vet's bills. Pets offer unconditional love and attention, but they do tend to randomly knock things off shelves and tables. Stay well.

It is only when you have encountered difficulties, that you can appreciate true happiness. If you are feeling good, all of the time, it must be the meds. A bit of Leonard Cohen does you good. Best wishes

I am commenting one year after you posted this video, Holy books eg Bible, Qu'ran etc are old books, but they still convey a message. I would like to recommend another old book, because you may find it of value. Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance (Robert Pirsig) is not about Zen, or Motorcycles, or Mechanical Repairs. It is about a journey, and a recovery to which you may relate. Enjoy.

I find you to be an incredible and inspirational person. You are so articulate and even when you think you’re not making sense, it totally does to me.

Hi, Rebecca! I don't really ever comment anywhere, but I'll do it now. I've been following you for i-dont-know-how-many years. And I really like you. I like your voice and the way you deliver your message. I like your art. I like how brave and strong you are. I like your personality, because you're unusual in a good way. I don't care if you are bigger or leaner. I am amazed by your memory. I feel happy for your accomplishments! And in no way ever would I try to interfere with your life. I am just a subscriber. I just hope you're having a nice day.

People congratulated you for having autism? What?

Just to say it's called The Fringe. We definitely use the word THE before it when talking about The Fringe.

Only just came across you... Insta suggested one of your posts. Hi! Love this video. You are authentic, and thank you for sharing your realness. I look forward to watching more!