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this is the secret garden of my mind ('cause i hate it there)
marie, 23 ;')
marie, 23 ;')
Camilla Macaulay • mad woman
#donnatartt #thesecrethistory #bookedit
/originally it was in sepia but i didn’t like the look 😭 sepia suits her btw/
that was probably the hardest thing i’ve ever edited. like, ever. i kept so many scenes unused as i was unsure of all of them, because, the truth is, 500 pages later, after so many rereads and ongoing deep-diving into the book, i don’t think i know anything about camilla, really. everything we see of her is through someone else’s eyes: richard, henry, francis, we barely even hear her talk, so no, i don’t think i grasped her character very well. but then i thought, fuck it, if there’s not that much given about her, so there’s plenty space for imagination and i’ll just make this one as i see her.
for me, she’s the most mysterious out of them all and i like to think of her as the psychopathic one, the manipulative one (they all are, but whatever). i tried to show her relationships with people closest to her (charles + henry), as i don’t believe she ever really connected with richard or julian, with francis just a little. i also wanted to dive deeper into her parents trauma, which is in my opinion the reason for her messed up relationships with charles. she lost her parents in such a naive age, was left alone with the only person who’s been there for her. no wonder why all of it happened.
i’m not particularly good at vague aesthetics, so it was a challenge, that’s not my strength 😭 but what i found so satisfying, is that bella and leo look so much alike, especially their eyes. it was a pleasure to edit them together.
i didn’t put any quotes, but i hope it’s clear enough what happens. i tried to depict their parents death in a car accident, their grieving (the scene where young camilla screams in the forest is the moment she found out about their death), charles’ abuse towards camilla and, despite it, their special bond. in the end i tried to picture the scene where camilla sees charles in the bath, drunk again, and it becomes the very last straw before she leaves to henry, tearing their invisible string forever, leading us to the book’s climax, to henry’s boom-boom.
i also have to mention what a great luck it was to find a young actress who is capable of depicting camilla’s portrayal so well and whom i personally liked very much. i started to watch this show, the lost flowers of alice hart, just to get scenes of alice, but ended up binging this show because it’s a m a z i n g. i don’t think i’ve ever seen a show like that. brilliant. maybe i’ll edit it someday (childhood traumas winking at me rn)
let me know what you think, thanks for reading this much! haha
coloring by @xLaurenMichelle (edited)
/originally it was in sepia but i didn’t like the look 😭 sepia suits her btw/
that was probably the hardest thing i’ve ever edited. like, ever. i kept so many scenes unused as i was unsure of all of them, because, the truth is, 500 pages later, after so many rereads and ongoing deep-diving into the book, i don’t think i know anything about camilla, really. everything we see of her is through someone else’s eyes: richard, henry, francis, we barely even hear her talk, so no, i don’t think i grasped her character very well. but then i thought, fuck it, if there’s not that much given about her, so there’s plenty space for imagination and i’ll just make this one as i see her.
for me, she’s the most mysterious out of them all and i like to think of her as the psychopathic one, the manipulative one (they all are, but whatever). i tried to show her relationships with people closest to her (charles + henry), as i don’t believe she ever really connected with richard or julian, with francis just a little. i also wanted to dive deeper into her parents trauma, which is in my opinion the reason for her messed up relationships with charles. she lost her parents in such a naive age, was left alone with the only person who’s been there for her. no wonder why all of it happened.
i’m not particularly good at vague aesthetics, so it was a challenge, that’s not my strength 😭 but what i found so satisfying, is that bella and leo look so much alike, especially their eyes. it was a pleasure to edit them together.
i didn’t put any quotes, but i hope it’s clear enough what happens. i tried to depict their parents death in a car accident, their grieving (the scene where young camilla screams in the forest is the moment she found out about their death), charles’ abuse towards camilla and, despite it, their special bond. in the end i tried to picture the scene where camilla sees charles in the bath, drunk again, and it becomes the very last straw before she leaves to henry, tearing their invisible string forever, leading us to the book’s climax, to henry’s boom-boom.
i also have to mention what a great luck it was to find a young actress who is capable of depicting camilla’s portrayal so well and whom i personally liked very much. i started to watch this show, the lost flowers of alice hart, just to get scenes of alice, but ended up binging this show because it’s a m a z i n g. i don’t think i’ve ever seen a show like that. brilliant. maybe i’ll edit it someday (childhood traumas winking at me rn)
let me know what you think, thanks for reading this much! haha
coloring by @xLaurenMichelle (edited)
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Ricky & EJ • Mr. Perfectly Fine [unfinished]
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this is gorgeous
pure art.
CHILLS
teared up genuinely
this is the best thing i have ever seen
I want to get this edit tattooed all over my body. such a beautiful and thoughtful work. thank you so much, you're amazing 🤍
no because younger me used to EAT UP edits like this one even though she clearly knew they’re siblings 😭 kelli and billy did have amazing chemistry as actors though so I get why (but on that note, this is still a very good video and I’m sure younger me would’ve told u how AMAZING it is)
omg this is SO SO beautiful. The 'fuck you' with her saying it??? I'm in love, what a great edit
This video really got to me. Idk if I'm just thoroughly depressed at this moment (lol) but it made me cry 🥲 The emotions are really powerfully portrayed in it and its like I could feel the whole journey of what has happened in her life through this video. It's like the sadness you get after finishing a book and realising you don't get to spend time with the characters anymore and you wonder what the rest of their life will be like. A sort of unknown. Anyway, I really love how you edited it and the scenes you chose to express the feelings of camilla, her brother and even the short scenes of Henry. It felt like I was being shown the true relationship between her and her brother and how deeply complicated and painful it is. I also feel like I need some distance from the video until I can rewatch it again, cos its making my heart hurt. But take that as a compliment to your great editing. Also that whole "i want to say (sorry)..." then the beautiful zooming out shot and lighting of Charles in the bathtub, switched to "you know what they say (hurt the ones we love)" and Henry looking up - that whole sequence is so beautiful. - I think even without your description or knowing the story, the way you edited it makes the viewer know this transition has deep implications for camilla's story and that something important happened in her perspective/connection to these two men. And the way you combined young and old camilla facial expressions is so wonderful touches of editing. bravo.
i feel so blessed rn because you pictured EXACTLY what i put in it with editing. especially the part with the ending and the feeling of never seeing your characters again. you have no idea how great it makes me feel that someone far away can feel what i feel at the same time. i hope you’re doing okay and thank you for sharing your thoughts, i really appreciate that 🩶
breathtaking honestly! it is so beautifull to see how her character still lingers in peoples minds enough to bring forth this type of content. You're feeding our souls! <3
2:09 :(
1:57 - 2:05 probably my favorite part THIS WAS SO WELL THOUGHT
i love your portrayal of charles/camilla AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
0:50 this is so point! i am laughing
0:38 THIS PART WAS INSANE
0:25 OH THE VOICEOVER WITH THE CHARLES crying in the corner
THIS MUST HAVE BEEN SO HARD - because out of out characters we know least about her THIS WAS ABSOLUTELY INSANE, BEAUTIFUL AND BRILLIANT. I love all these voiceovers and text. Truly amazing.
yesss, i was like “was that in the book? or did i just make that up?” and yeah, a lot was made up, haha, since we never really see her perspective. i’m so glad you like it!! always blushing hard reading your comments 💋
@@mariettthhh i love it sm you have no idea, i will replay this every day when i open my computer
your secret history are amazing and i every time you upload a video i feel like its christmas
excuse me, i dare to disagree your choice of aesthetics is on point
😭❤️
🔥🔥🔥
I'm sobbing right now. Camilla is probably my favorite character in the book and you captured her essence and her mystery in such a beautiful way. I loved every second of this.
thank you so much! love her too, she’s such a mystery 🩶
this is the perfect song for sarah omgggg!!! and I love the style so much, I swear you always nail the style so damn much in all of your edits!
@@kindredxpenpals thank youuu, i’m blushing like for 10 whole mins 😭🙏🏻 i have no idea why i never watched obx, this july was my first ever watch, HOW in the world did i miss that…tho i watched your jj vids a long time ago for no reason and didn’t understand why everybody loves him…now i REALLY DO…
@@mariettthhh ahhhh I hear you though, I didn't watch OBX til s2 came out, either, cause I thought I wouldn't like "such a show" (to me it was just that weird cringe tiktok show for so long) but I'm happy you watched it now cause that means OBX edits from you🥰
NOT YOU VIDDING THIAM IN 2024 AHHHHH!!! and this song??? and this style??? perfection
@@kindredxpenpals yessss i just remembered how i was obsessed with them back in 2017, but for some reason never edited them. bringing back gay boys i loved as a teenager is my therapy 🙏🏻
@@mariettthhh i swear, editing your past obsessions is so cathartic😂
aHHH this is PERFECT OMG!!! it works so well!! also I NEED to check your goodreads review lol... tmr was such an integral part of my teenage years
@@kindredxpenpals oh god, it’s in russian so idk if you can read it 😭 but i was really hard on it, mostly because i noticed how dashner poorly writes and it wasn’t as emotional for me as movies, tho i still love and always will love this universe, ships and characters with all my heart!! it’s just not as good and convincing as i thought at 15…
@@kindredxpenpals and thank youuu !!!
@@mariettthhh aahjsjd yeah I checked your goodreads and clicked on the review all excited and went "oh"🙃😪 but yeah I hear you I rated it pretty poorly as well and I hate Dashner's writing even though the series and the character are so dear to me... yeah the movies truly have our hearts hehe<3
okkkkk how did I not even know you shipped them omg I'm so sorry I failed you😪 but oMGGGG this song with byler??? never actually thought of it (mostly cause Byler is very Fearless/Red/Speak Now era coded to me) but it works surprisingly well?? aand your beautiful editing style (I swear your styles are always so damn gorgeous hoooooow) OUR SECRET MOMENTS (with tHAT scene asjjdjfjkgjkjk) PERFECTION it's so season 4 focused ahhhhhh (i think that's why it fits with the song? idk... it would feel odd with younger byler) 0:25-0:26 AHHHHHH SO GOOD OMG I AM SHAKING EVERYTHING JUST STOPS - WHAT ABOUT US?? MWAHHHHHHH 0:48-0:49 AGAIN PERFECTION!! THE PARALLELS AND THE EDITING AHHHHH 1:11 CASUALLY DROPS A LOVE CONFESSION LMAOOOO I AM CRYING THIS IS INSANE LOL (also with the Mike voice-over I see what you did there hehe) ending it with the flirtatious COOL of Mike ajhshhjdhjfhj my dumb son is so gone for Will it's not even funny AHHH THIS WAS PERFECT!!! this comment'll probably disappear bc yt hates baby gays but whatever... hope you'll see this nonetheless! alsoooo plssss they're gonna end up together, the narrative clearly says so, we'll win (for once) trust me😘😘😘
okkkkk how did I not even know you shipped them omg I'm so sorry I failed you😪 but oMGGGG this song with byler??? never actually thought of it (mostly cause Byler is very Fearless/Red/Speak Now era coded to me) but it works surprisingly well?? aand your beautiful editing style (I swear your styles are always so damn gorgeous hoooooow) OUR SECRET MOMENTS (with tHAT scene asjjdjfjkgjkjk) PERFECTION it's so season 4 focused ahhhhhh (i think that's why it fits with the song? idk... it would feel odd with younger byler) 0:25-0:26 AHHHHHH SO GOOD OMG I AM SHAKING EVERYTHING JUST STOPS - WHAT ABOUT US?? MWAHHHHHHH 0:48-0:49 AGAIN PERFECTION!! THE PARALLELS AND THE EDITING AHHHHH 1:11 CASUALLY DROPS A LOVE CONFESSION LMAOOOO I AM CRYING THIS IS INSANE LOL (also with the Mike voice-over I see what you did there hehe) ending it with the flirtatious COOL of Mike ajhshhjdhjfhj my dumb son is so gone for Will it's not even funny AHHH THIS WAS PERFECT!!! this comment'll probably disappear bc yt hates baby gays but whatever... hope you'll see this nonetheless! alsoooo plssss they're gonna end up together, the narrative clearly says so, we'll win (for once) trust me😘😘😘
@@kindredxpenpals WDYM OF COURSE I SHIP THEM did since forever when everybody was telling me i’m crazy, like i wasn’t shipping kids BUT I SAW WILL BYERS FOR WHAT HE REALLY IS i’m sososo glad you like it!! absolutely agree that they are more earlier taylor eras coded, BUT i couldn’t resist cause s4 byler kinda was spicy?? and a little flirtatious…i couldn’t not to. and yes, i specifically put too much earlier byler cause no way 😭 that’d be weird with this song…i feel like it’s more about teenagers so s4 byler fits pretty well with the song hahah i love how you notice such little references and things, and parallels, that’s my favorite thing in the world when you do that i swear 😭🤍
@@kindredxpenpals byler s5 manifestation is on full mode 🙏🏻
@@mariettthhh SOORRRYYYY😭😭 but yeah same omg I still remember the byler fandom when it was just three people or so back in 2016/17... those were the days!! and yes agreed! s4 was definitely spicy (I mean... all the flirty vibes and the subtext hinting at a strong physical attraction etc.) awwww thanks!!! it's just my adhd brain going BRRRRRR and noticing way too much sorry😂 also I wrote my thesis on this show and plan to write my PhD on it as well so I guess I'm a little too invested in the details lol
@@mariettthhh yasssssss😈
I NEED TO RECOVER FIRST OMG
AHHHHHHH
HELLO ALBA AS THOMAS oh i see the vision..SO GOOD omg i love the aesthetics god we deserved to get ya!dystopia sapphic couple...
@@sapphicsgraphics yes we did 😭 and btw, i watched warrior nun because of you and your avatrice content and immediately wanted to edit alba…so 😔 thanks for the contribution to the fancast!!
This works so well, I'm amazed!!! Amazing scene combos and vibe, everything looks so realistic ahhhhh
thank you so much 🩶
omg this is amazing <3
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I love this so much!! it works so well!!
This is one of the most realistic edit I’ve ever seen of this topic!! Your manips are insane! I’m really impressed
@@dreamxbanshee tysm dear!! 🩵
i love it <3
but please make a brenderesa one (teresa x brenda) i love them if you want of course
@@hopelig1241 i might! just think of a few fancasts since alba is now firmly associated with thomas in my head, haha :)
@@mariettthhh the acress of raven reyes for example, cora from teen wolf... the actress of sam from scream... i give you idea ;)
@@hopelig1241 omg thanks! i’ve been thinking about octavia from the 100 but raven seems just perfect and i’ve never considered her. it’ll definitely work, thanks again 🩵
@@mariettthhh i mean octavia is pretty but brenda had brown hair and brown eyes that"s why i chose her.
i do'nt ship thomesa but now weirdly... amazing video
@@hopelig1241 i don’t ship them either in canon 😭 but like that they kinda make more sense to me
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OMG THIAM 😍👑
Красота😍
omg I'm so glad someone else also associates this song with him!!!! This is the only song I listened to while reading the book and whenever I listen to it now, it evokes the same emotion in me that the book did, lovely edit ♡
OMG THIS STYLEEEEEE ITS SO PRETTY god i miss themmmm also the song...
the blue is just MWAH how its been 8 yrs...
also may i ask what was the effect called where you make the text look shimmerish/ghostly like stretched like that I'VE FORGOTTT how to do it 😭🙏also i think its the same one that ppl apply onto scenes to make it look flashbacky/dreamy
@@sapphicsgraphics thank you so much 😭🩵 it’s soft contrast, i just make it horizontal/vertical and play with settings to make it appear/disappear :)
@@mariettthhh AAHAH thhank you tons idk why i was trying to apply rays or smth-
Oh Elle you have no gay dar
Aaaaaah i love your style so much and OMG these two 🥹
i'm so obsessed with your videos, this is amazing!