why i left ucsb + my future plans ??

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  • čas pƙidĂĄn 23. 11. 2021
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  • @ashleywicka
    @ashleywicka Pƙed 2 lety +275

    i am so excited for u u have no idea

    • @VanessaNagoya
      @VanessaNagoya  Pƙed 2 lety +24

      bicoastal besties 😎😎😎

  • @jessicapinto1740
    @jessicapinto1740 Pƙed 2 lety +230

    The whole journal section felt so comforting as someone feeling the same things love you Vanessa hope you find a place that makes you genuinely happy

  • @shannonmckay1852
    @shannonmckay1852 Pƙed 2 lety +86

    wow this literally makes me feel so seen weirdly. i feel the same way you do about ucsb but with my hometown. i have a few months before i graduate and go to college but i just want you to know that you aren’t alone in that feeling. i will sit at school and ask my friends “what if i just ceased to exist”. you are so right when you say life is supposed to be happy, not a burden. thank you for saying that. i’m going to carry that with me.

  • @ananya268
    @ananya268 Pƙed 2 lety +116

    Im so proud of u for choosing yourself time and again. No matter how hard it became, at any given point, u always come back to yourself and give yourself what you truly deserve. That absolutely blows my mind. It's so inspiring. I wish u the absolute best and i hope u have a great if not grand time living the life you want. So much love to u

  • @emilykriner948
    @emilykriner948 Pƙed 2 lety +41

    Thank you so much for voicing your thought process so beautifully and authentically. I definitely relate to you since I am a sophomore in college and this semester has definitely presented me with the most challenges of my entire life, so to see someone else going through these same struggles has made me feel not as alone-I hope you can find happiness and am so glad you've removed yourself from those bad feelings in order to pursue a more meaningful life!! I wish you the best & can't wait to see what's to come

  • @abigailrae1592
    @abigailrae1592 Pƙed 2 lety +91

    This video meant so much to me you have no idea, I go through phases where I feel exactly like you did in those journal entries. Luckily right now I’m not in an episode but I felt so not alone knowing not only you but fellow people in the comments have and do feel the same. I live in a small town and my biggest fear is never being able to leave my state and see as much as possible and meet as many people as possible. Seeing you take the steps to be happy , whether conventional or not, is so inspiring and I thank you Vanessa

    • @VanessaNagoya
      @VanessaNagoya  Pƙed 2 lety +6

      ❀❀❀i’m always here for you

  • @aashna2780
    @aashna2780 Pƙed 2 lety +21

    omg vanessa i'm so proud of you, for how far you've come and i'm so excited for you, for the new chapter of your life that you're about to start! The journal part felt so human and comforting, it's always good to know that there's other people who feel the same way as you do. You're so strong for opening up about your mental health. I hope New York treats you like the queen you are, i'm so happy for u ahhh

  • @nadiyaal-murrani5835
    @nadiyaal-murrani5835 Pƙed 2 lety +31

    you’re just so amazing for sharing all this. ily vanessa, u have no idea how much we love you.

  • @m4tchaluvr
    @m4tchaluvr Pƙed 2 lety +13

    hi vanessa! i’ve been watching your videos since you had like 10k subs :’) seeing you grow over the years i literally cant express how proud i am of you. i cant be more excited for this next chapter in your life, wishing you nothing but good health and happiness. if anyone deserves all good things in life it’s YOU, such a kind and genuine soul who just wants to see the world. i will be rooting for you forever bestie

  • @sincerely.shayla
    @sincerely.shayla Pƙed 2 lety +11

    I’m so excited for you

  • @priscillasy7776
    @priscillasy7776 Pƙed 2 lety +11

    You are one of the realist people on youtube, thank you for voicing how you feel! I'm so happy for you, and your next chapter in life! :)

  • @reginat4010
    @reginat4010 Pƙed 2 lety +17

    this made me feel so warm and excited for you! like genuinely going for ur passions and what u truly want is what i've realised this year coming out of high school, great to know that we're both on this journey together :)

  • @adrianan6550
    @adrianan6550 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    i’m so glad you’re doing things that make you happy. i’m so proud of u. i wish you well on this new chapter❀❀

  • @__SL__
    @__SL__ Pƙed 2 lety +31

    School is so draining and ive really been losing motivation too, but this video and community really helped me feel less alone. Sometimes taking a break is the best decision for your health and I’m so happy for you for making it! Good luck on your gap year Vanessa and I hope you get everything that you want out of it and just overall feel happier!

  • @BreannLamendola
    @BreannLamendola Pƙed 2 lety +10

    The amount of comfort and peace this has brought me is insane. I had recently went through this same thing, and I remember crying almost everyday for a month, and never having the motivation to go to classes I would spend all day just sleeping in my dorm room, and just the feeling of being lost, and unhappy even when I went out with friends I ended up moving back home mid-semester. Knowing that I'm not alone in this type of situation makes me so much more excited to go on and do the things that I love in life and that I shouldn't me limited to what other people expect of me, and perceive of my situation. I'm so excited to see all the new and exciting content you're going to be creating in the future

  • @katekim6995
    @katekim6995 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    i am so so so excited to follow on your next chapter in nyc when i’m also going to be off from college i related so much to the feelings you described of sadness, pain, and desire to end the painđŸ„Č can’t wait for the nyc vlogs :)

  • @admireurgod
    @admireurgod Pƙed 2 lety +8

    i've definitely been there vanessa! this is my first year in optometry school after taking a year off and the first time i've moved away from family. it was extremely hard for me to get adjusted and i had so many moments where i felt so depressed studying all day and felt like i didn't want to do it anymore. i'm so glad you've found peace by choosing to take a gap year! i wish you all the best and I hope you're feeling so much happier!

  • @pautroya9383
    @pautroya9383 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    This video (especially the way you expressed yourself in your journal) has touched some buttons on me. I literally started crying because often times i see myself in the same situation. But IÂŽm glad to hear that IÂŽm not alone, and IÂŽm also really really happy that you are doing this for yourself!!! Thank you for making me feel less alone :)

  • @leannetictos6970
    @leannetictos6970 Pƙed 2 lety +2

    Can't wait to see u do what makes you happy! So proud of you Vanessa!!

  • @glenjliezafuentecilla3318
    @glenjliezafuentecilla3318 Pƙed 2 lety +4

    its amazing how you can just drop things and do u what you wanna do bc there are some people who just need to suck it up even though they are struggling because they don’t have the means to. you go girl!

  • @angelaarsenal
    @angelaarsenal Pƙed 2 lety +7

    Honestly I was just crying when you started reading your journal. You are so brave and so human to share what you feel and I'm grateful because I get to witness someone like you who I also strive to become, someone who wants to explore the world and see people. I'm so happy and excited for you, Vanessa.

  • @marydaniella2079
    @marydaniella2079 Pƙed 2 lety +9

    I'm so proud of you Vanessa ✌💖 I know your going to do big things wherever you go ❀

  • @krishachangani
    @krishachangani Pƙed 2 lety +4

    i’m so happy for you and your next chapter!

  • @claudiagbie
    @claudiagbie Pƙed 2 lety +4

    I’m so happy for you, you’re an incredibly strong human and deserve all the best. ❀❀

  • @kaila1021
    @kaila1021 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    this is my first time ever seeing one of your videos but it made me feel everything. its so nice to see people doing what makes them happy. i often feel how you did at times but little by little i’m trying to make it better. i would love to see your videos in the future while you go on this journey

  • @elinepayoute1293
    @elinepayoute1293 Pƙed 2 lety +3

    I’m so happy for you👏 I feel great things coming aheadđŸ„°

  • @LindseyLovesLife
    @LindseyLovesLife Pƙed 2 lety +32

    I can’t wait to see your next journey ! You have no idea how much I relate to you right now. I’m dropping out of college as well. My mental health is just really gone down hill these past two years in college. I will also be taking a gap year to travel and truly figure out what I want to do :) hope you continue to make videos bc I love seeing them !

  • @friedfishh
    @friedfishh Pƙed 2 lety +5

    Something I've always admired about you is your strength, your bravery and how you're so open with us. I really wish the best for you and I just wanted to let you know we're all gonna be here for you all the way

  • @kevincahua8623
    @kevincahua8623 Pƙed 2 lety +5

    This is really a video everyone deserves and would benefit from seeing. Thank you for such a true and real look into your life! I wish the best for you. I’m a graduate still in IV trying to figure out my life and this is just a breath of fresh air :)

  • @LivPalombo
    @LivPalombo Pƙed 2 lety +2

    so proud of you vanessa! cant wait to see what this new adventure brings

  • @shiloh1606
    @shiloh1606 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    I’m so happy you’ve found what you really want to do, your way to be happy and feel free. Definitely sounds like college is not right for you and you just need to explore and feel free while experiencing different things and making new, real human connections. I’m so proud of you for how far you’ve come! Ilym Vanessa!❀❀❀

  • @ayakumas
    @ayakumas Pƙed 2 lety +2

    I’m so proud of u for making such a big step for the sake of yourself ❀❀❀❀

  • @deliaceja1066
    @deliaceja1066 Pƙed 2 lety

    You are so strong. Sometimes taking a step back brings the most beautiful things. This video came up so randomly on my CZcams feed and I was drawn to it. I’m so excited for you and so proud of you. Enjoy NYC!

  • @abharikamohanty6408
    @abharikamohanty6408 Pƙed 2 lety +2

    This video and you especially just empowered me so much. All the best Vanessa, excited for u to start a new beginning

  • @nikas8089
    @nikas8089 Pƙed 2 lety +3

    Thank you for sharing your feelings and experiences with us, Vanessa. Seeing you grow is truly eye-opening and encourages me to grow as well. I have felt and continue to feel many of the feelings you described in this video and share many of the same thoughts and ideas too. Thank you again for being so open with us. I am so happy that you are putting your mental and emotional health first and that you are brave to do what is best for you. I love you Vanessa, and I wish you as much happiness and joy as possible 💞.

  • @kindredmcguire
    @kindredmcguire Pƙed 2 lety +1

    I’m so excited for you! I’m glad you’re doing what’s right for you!

  • @atxuyo
    @atxuyo Pƙed 2 lety +1

    honestly i’m really happy for you, you should always take the time off and do what you want to do â˜ș

  • @chioma2844
    @chioma2844 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    I'm glad to see you taking a step forward and making that leap. Life doesn't have to feel like a burden and I feel that way at times but since I'm on a mini thanksgiving break and not doing any school I feel more free. Following you on the journey

  • @laylavalenzuela
    @laylavalenzuela Pƙed 2 lety +1

    omg so excited for you vanessa. i really think this is gonna be so good for you 💗

  • @micaelleee
    @micaelleee Pƙed 2 lety

    so excited for you and your new journey.YOU DESERVE THIS IM SO HAPPY FOR UUU!!!!

  • @niharikagupta9086
    @niharikagupta9086 Pƙed 2 lety +2

    its only going to go up from here! i hope you feel alive and happy in nyc and just know we're all really proud of you ❀

  • @Mo.055
    @Mo.055 Pƙed 2 lety

    I'm so happy that your putting yourself first and doing anything to find happiness.
    Omg ur nearly at 400k. Goodluck and on journey

  • @japnam5
    @japnam5 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    this video rly made me so emotional. i’m so so proud of you vanessa

  • @angelcerrato5199
    @angelcerrato5199 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    Thank You so much it was a great video it felt so comforting to hear someone's point of view of why they choose the path they wanted to take I support you in what you are doing to make yourself happy

  • @magdalenadorotic
    @magdalenadorotic Pƙed 2 lety +2

    You have no idea how happy I am for you❀you deserve all the best and I'm so excited to see what this new path in your life will bring you❀

  • @doradiaz5926
    @doradiaz5926 Pƙed 2 lety +2

    I'm so happy for you ❀ thanks for the video, I'm in a really bad place as a sophmore in college and found the video really helpful an relatable. Happy for you, ahhhhhh. You're in such a better place and we can see it ❀

  • @MuhammadIlham-zt8gj
    @MuhammadIlham-zt8gj Pƙed 2 lety +1

    Really love the transparency I’m your videos lately

  • @silvia4742
    @silvia4742 Pƙed 2 lety +2

    it's so liberating to see you go through your plan, I'm so happy for u, can't wait to see what you do :)

  • @amypieterse7963
    @amypieterse7963 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    so glad you found you way out of the darkness, sis! wishing you well doing bigger, better and brighter things 💕

  • @mikaylamags
    @mikaylamags Pƙed 2 lety +4

    i love this

  • @rorolvs
    @rorolvs Pƙed 2 lety +10

    i related so hard to this video and your whole experience, everything u said was so comforting to hear and im so excited for u :') thank u for always being the most authentic and honest person u can be with us, i really wish for you to be happy and find happiness

  • @shaynas7033
    @shaynas7033 Pƙed 2 lety

    thankyou so much for this video. It was really comforting, especially the journaling part. You are right life shouldn't be a burden. This video made me realize i should live life the way i want to live it. ily

  • @elizabeth-fe3yo
    @elizabeth-fe3yo Pƙed 2 lety

    wow 
 you’re journal readings are so powerful that they touched me so much. I’m so glad I’m not alone. Thank you for sharing, I wish nothing but the best for you.

  • @slayyyyy420
    @slayyyyy420 Pƙed 2 lety

    i’m so proud of u for opening up and i’m so excited for ur future. ily nessa and please know ur not alone

  • @krishachangani
    @krishachangani Pƙed 2 lety +21

    this video is going to be an emotional roller coaster

  • @martivasilevv
    @martivasilevv Pƙed 2 lety +1

    thank u so much for sharing this with us :) iÂŽm so happy for you

  • @coryhu9612
    @coryhu9612 Pƙed 2 lety +3

    Thank you so much for being so real! That is why you are always my favorite youtube. We all have struggles, but we are all in this together, lots of love

  • @annietran_05
    @annietran_05 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    i wish you the best on your future journey to nyc and cant wait to see you thrive in the city!!!!!

  • @wanderorwonder
    @wanderorwonder Pƙed 2 lety

    im so glad i watched this because you making me cry in a good way like :") girlie i wish you nothing but the best from the bottom of my heart, thank you for being a friend to us

  • @peyton._.31
    @peyton._.31 Pƙed 2 lety

    i’m happy for you vanessa, i’m glad that you won’t be sad anymore. ily vanessa

  • @Awdah-xg3ox
    @Awdah-xg3ox Pƙed 2 lety +3

    I'm so proud of you and wish you all the best❀❀❀❀

  • @Ktannaaa
    @Ktannaaa Pƙed 2 lety +3

    Im so excited for you that you’re finally looking more happy again :) I was in a similar situation this year my junior year of college but for a different reason it’s very hard to live and exist daily when your mental health is not the best I’ve finally got out of it this past week or so and It feels like a weight has lifted off my chest :) I’m starting to take classes I really enjoy too !

  • @Grace-oi1nj
    @Grace-oi1nj Pƙed 2 lety

    ❀❀❀all the best van, we’re all growing here :)

  • @peachi.i8333
    @peachi.i8333 Pƙed 2 lety +5

    Omggg not me balling my eyes out this entire video
    I've been watching your videos for years now and I'm also the same age as you
    I graduated from hs last year n currently in college just like you
    And damn I could relate to this so so hard!! I'm currently in dilemma reg college and everything n I could really connect with you and really felt like I was not the only one
    I literally can't stop crying lol but thank youuu for sharing this I needed this to carry on
    And So so excited and happy for your new journey ❀

  • @miaaverie3535
    @miaaverie3535 Pƙed 2 lety

    I’m so happy I found you and ur channel! i wish the best for u

  • @nithyala8291
    @nithyala8291 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    ive been feeling like that for the exact 1 month, it drained the shit out of, the thoughts of giving up is so high. i kept going onward but its exhausted, its very tiring, but im proud of you that ure going to live another chapter now, i wish you nothing but the best

  • @emmasusas
    @emmasusas Pƙed 2 lety +2

    im so proud of u and cannot wait to visit you in new york

  • @chloedaso5913
    @chloedaso5913 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    Vanessa I love you so fucking much I’m so excited for your future

  • @tulips3243
    @tulips3243 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    I'm actually part of the early gang wow!!! Anyway, I'm glad you're doing what makes you happy.

  • @soledasilva7455
    @soledasilva7455 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    i started watching a couple years ago and tbh its been a journey, i love watching you and im so proud of you and what you are doing! hope nothing but the best

  • @janhavibhosale4007
    @janhavibhosale4007 Pƙed 2 lety +11

    It makes me happy that u value mental health over anything else, I feel like life is a show too and putting up an act EVERY SINGLE DAY is not easy at all. Im so proud of you, taking this step is very difficult. Your very strong Vanessa, and we are always here for you

  • @brygidarusinek5230
    @brygidarusinek5230 Pƙed 2 lety

    wow the journal entries. I resonate so much With them. I feel this societal standards are to stay in one place but I have such a desire to keep moving and seeing everything. i feel so stuck in one place and like it won’t ever be worth it. I want to LIVE life. I’m so happy you are taking the steps towards chasing that happiness. I hope you have so much fun in nyc :))

  • @kadenceweimer7423
    @kadenceweimer7423 Pƙed 2 lety

    this is so inspiring,yesss Vanessa!!!❀

  • @norsaf817
    @norsaf817 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    Happy to see u enjoying life❀

  • @ruhanirawal6042
    @ruhanirawal6042 Pƙed 2 lety +2

    We hope the best for you vanessa!! We Love You❀

  • @kaileychan478
    @kaileychan478 Pƙed 2 lety +11

    Bestie honestly you and Melanie are getting me through my 1st year of college

  • @evatang4429
    @evatang4429 Pƙed 2 lety

    soo excited for uu!!

  • @chelseythai2110
    @chelseythai2110 Pƙed 2 lety +2

    i wish you nothing but the best đŸ„ș❀

  • @miakanchann
    @miakanchann Pƙed 2 lety

    sending all the love nessa

  • @imkehagg3537
    @imkehagg3537 Pƙed 2 lety +2

    Hope your journey is everything you want it too be❀

  • @nanthini2502
    @nanthini2502 Pƙed 2 lety

    I feel so comforted with this video ❀❀

  • @losangelesnights3612
    @losangelesnights3612 Pƙed 2 lety

    sending you nothing but love and i pray for you to get everything you desiređŸ€đŸ€đŸ€đŸ€

  • @ameliawilson8070
    @ameliawilson8070 Pƙed 2 lety

    so happy for you!!!

  • @stellayee218
    @stellayee218 Pƙed 2 lety +2

    Ahh nessa i just want to tell u how proud i am of you. ilyy and am so excited for the next chapter of your life. i still can’t believe that ur moving to nyc cuz i really want to meet youđŸ„°â€ïž

  • @RachelJayn
    @RachelJayn Pƙed 2 lety +1

    I’m so proud of you

  • @mariapontoh7737
    @mariapontoh7737 Pƙed 2 lety

    been watching ur youtube since 2019 vanessa! some of ur vid inspired me to being healthy and productive person. so proud of u girl and be happy always. xoxo

    • @VanessaNagoya
      @VanessaNagoya  Pƙed 2 lety

      thank you so much đŸ„°đŸ„°đŸ„°

  • @ishtar-m5395
    @ishtar-m5395 Pƙed 2 lety

    sending love your way Vanessa 💖💖

  • @myliahfaux1340
    @myliahfaux1340 Pƙed 2 lety

    The way you described how you felt just hurt my soul because I have been feeling that for far too long and I didn’t know if anyone else would understand me. Trust me when I say you are one of my favourite people on this earth right now. I hope you’re doing better in NY now

  • @emmaengmyr8356
    @emmaengmyr8356 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    you're the best love you so much. now go thrive!

  • @thiswillnotdo6027
    @thiswillnotdo6027 Pƙed 2 lety +15

    girl this video made me emotional. I relate to literally everything you said in this. ive been wanting change so much. I live and grew up in new zealand and I love my home but seriously, I want to see the world, I want to pursue my dreams, I want to live. Im dreading the path im in and my future and my current plans, Im seriously going to consider taking a gap year from uni just like you. Im taking this video as a sign.

  • @cuzegg
    @cuzegg Pƙed 2 lety +2

    LOVE YOU VANESSA, THIS IS A BIG NEXT STEP AND I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOUR GROWTH! - toryn

  • @mickaoah646
    @mickaoah646 Pƙed 2 lety

    This is precious!đŸ˜­âŁïž

  • @lsophiel5936
    @lsophiel5936 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    Kinda late, but the journal entries were really comforting. I hope you find what you're looking for Vanessa.

  • @khaejwi
    @khaejwi Pƙed 2 lety

    i'm happy for you and i'm excited for this change in your life! i wish you nothing but happiness in your journey

  • @valentinamendezestrada9630

    I am so proud that you are doing what makes you feel alive, we are in this world to create memories and enjoy. You're doing it amazing.All my love and support, from the other side of the world

  • @kyravanegas2792
    @kyravanegas2792 Pƙed 2 lety

    OMG IM SO HAPPY UR COMING TO NYC YAYAYA

  • @lydiaanne7192
    @lydiaanne7192 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    Honestly taking a break from UCSB was one of the best things that I have done for myself and my mental health. Wishing you so much excitement and the best of luck un NY!

  • @ciannarenfrow2856
    @ciannarenfrow2856 Pƙed 2 lety +2

    the emotions in this video 📉📈📉📈📉📈📉

  • @yzabellacarney8779
    @yzabellacarney8779 Pƙed 2 lety

    Im so proud of u❀

  • @LarsHayton
    @LarsHayton Pƙed 2 lety

    good luck to your future endeavors dude, we will miss you here in Isla Vista!