Update : Everything Going Downhill - To anyone losing life will
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- čas přidán 24. 03. 2023
- Hi! Nothing is alright! 🌈 Updates and I'm sharing my experience with this. Hope this can be of use to others, when nothing is going well there's only my life purpose to keep me going.
- Hudba
She's Alive!
Thank you for all the prayers and kind messages, you all gave me so much strength today.
Also a friend decided that the best day to end our friendship would be the night before the surgery 😆 it was so shitty I found it funny, Sometimes I sin for believing in the worth of somebody when there's none. Thinking the time spent would mean they will be there to listen at least in a phone call when things go wrong, sometimes I try to make them correspond to what I would do, but I constantly have to remind myself that you cannot make people be humane.
But for one disappointment there were like 20 surprises, every message, mail, comment was such a nice gesture, and those that you don't have to ask for are golden, thank you 💛
And also my friends who are still here. And those who prayed, thank you I owe you a prayer to the Moon.
All this support and love just feels so right, there's no need to shield in hatred anymore, or to sink in sadness.
Mom will have to learn to live with the colostomy surgical bags, but at least she will live, she was super mad at the thought of dying without enjoying the fruits of all the work she has done with her kids
Thank you so so much, you mean heaven to me 🐱
Joy 💜
Thank you so much for sharing what’s been going on with you and for continuing to focus on your music even when it’s hard. To listen to you talk about being abused as a child and times when you wanted to just “disappear” broke my heart. I couldn’t help but feel your pain as you spoke. Your experiences make your compositions all the more impactful because they truly embody American McGee’s Alice in spirit. I hope things get better for you, but in the meantime, you definitely have a friend in me and I’m here anytime you want to vent. I care about you, Joy. 🤗
Thank you so much Westley! It's so nice to work with someone as nice as you 😸
I no longer feel bad because of the abuse, my wound is healed I no longer loathe myself and I'm still innocent because I didn't knew what was happening, my Innocence was always mine so no, it's not a wound anymore.
And yes, I found in McGee's work all the answers the psychologists I went to never gave me, and also led me to learn more and more about this, they wanted me to forget, just as Bumby! And one does not forget, only repress
Thank you friend, I'm still working in All too well :)
We wish the best to you and your dear mother. You've brought joy to thousands of people with your music. Stay strong.
Thank You! I haven't seen your comments before 😹 It's so nice to see a first here, I feel so accomplished to know how my music is making people feel
It take a lot of courage to admit what happen,im proud of you,but I know that it ok to cry,it ok t feel pain and sadness,as someone who dealt with depression for a major part of it life,i'm 32 and I got through all my pain,this imposter syndrome is something I feel,even gave it a name tbh,you truly are talented and your hard working,I remembeer you said somewhere that you use your pain as a fuel for imagination and I couldn't related more to that,keep being yourself,it ok to cry,it ok to feel pain,dont feel sad for being human,and i'm truly sorry for your mother
I lied to myself most of my life to the point living didn't feel real so absolutely, I admit even this because it's real. And I need to speak about this if there's anyone out there who feels like I did, I'm an adult now and that can happen to humans since early ages, they can see that they are not the only ones and I wish to help them, I really don't know how but I'm trying.
It's so nice to know you overcame it! I thought I did but this time it took me by surprise 😹 I dated a guy who made me feel like the first time I was in love, perfect date, then after some weeks he went all distant 💀 and I thought I had problems and then mom's thing happens 😹
So yes, those and more things were piling up
Fortunately, maybe you have feel this one, but it no longer takes me the same time to recover from sadness, each time we grow stronger! And clever 😌
Thank you Joffrey! It's so nice to keep seeing you throughout all this journey
Joy siento que estés pasando por momentos tan dificiles 😿 yo encontré un espacio seguro en tu música cuando tenía un familiar muy cercano con cáncer a cuidado mio y de mi mamá durante la pandemia. Créeme que las cosas mejoran, no dejes de hacer lo que amas ni de disfrutar el tiempo con tus seres queridos. Mucha fuerza y aquí esta tu comunidad para cuando nos visites a su debido tiempo 😊 cualquier sentimiento no te lo guardes como dijiste en tu video, hablalo y expresalo , es algo de lo que me arrepiento de no haber hecho durante los últimos 3 años. Y para mi es evidente que tu, un compositor con un estilo tan único tan cercano a la franquicia va a terminar en el ost de Alice Asylum, jamás pierdas la esperanza😊
La primera vez que operaron a mi mami fue en 2020 y estuvo a mi cuidado 🥺 twins haha 😔
Muchísimas gracias por compartirme eso, de verdad no tengo idea de los alcances qué tiene lo que hago, es muy bonito verlo.
Me dices que lo que hice te sirvió mucho y ahora tu comentario me es algo muy importante para mi 💜
Y si, guardarte cosas sólo enferma, no se si la mente, o al alma pero al cuerpo también, no tiene caso dañarnos aún más guardandolo después de lo que sea que nos haya dañado ya. Si vieras a alguien que amas sufrir por guardarse algo que le sucedió creo que lo último que haríamos sería forzarlo a guardarselo, o castigarlo por sentirlo
Así debe ser el trato con uno mismo al practicar el amor propio del qué tanto se habla pero no siempre sabemos cómo dárnoslo
Muchas gracias en verdad y mamá lo último que quiere es que dejemos de lado nuestras vidas, no dejare de hacer música, sólo no sé qué tanto podré hacer, pero continuaré 😌
Muchísimas Gracias!
We listen and hear you, we share your pain through and support your flame inside through the music that you give us, we believe in you
Thank you so much! While momentarily as a candle, the flame will always be lit
You are talented and amazing. Your music has brought me so much happiness. Thank you for everything that you do, you are an amazing person.
Wouldn't you say it brough you Joy 😹I'm so glad to know my music has this effect, which tracks of mine are your favorites so far?
@@JoyLuna Absolutely haha! My favourite is Shelter Above The Clouds, with Everything Is Fine and Will Of Protection as close seconds!
@@twistanturnu529 so it seems the most popular ones are the ones that inspire peace o: I was thinking the creepy ones would be!
@@JoyLuna Familiar Faces is my favourite for peaceful!
I admire your ability to show your thoughts and feelings.
I've feel a similarity to our pasts in a way.
I was sexually abused once as a toddler and although I don't remember anything, those events still cause phychological scars and I'm so proud of you for aknowledging yours and trying to heal.
I was also bullied and ostrosized from my classmates and often wanted to disappear as a child so your words really spoke to me.
I first got the game Alice:Madness Returns when I was about 7 and it was always a comfort to play (even though I was a scaredy cat when it came to the colossool ruins lol)
It was beautiful and the music truly spoke to me.
I've not seen many people talk about the game, so it made me really happy when I saw you making content.
You realy seem like a kind person and I thank you for your content, and I hope you get more recognition for your talent.
I actually feel the game's world come to life while hearing your works and it makes me smile.
May your mother have many more happy years of life to spend with her children,she sounds like a lovely woman.
Well,anyways sorry, this comment got really long and personal, but your video really spoke to me and I wanted to say this to let you know that in this uncaring world, I relate and care about you.
🤍💜🖤
Thank You! that ability comes from beating imposter syndrome and working on my once dead self esteem 😹 it's been a journey
I read once that when an egg is broken from inside means life, but when it is broken from outside it brings death
To be opened to the sexual aspect of our nature as humans is as coming out from an egg and it is totally understandable all the mental consequences and development issues that come with that kind of event, also bullying shares the starring role too. I didn't embrace it till my 20s
I got Madness Returns and American McGee's Alice in a bundle so for the sake of plot i played first American McGee's Alice and EVERYTHING LOOKED SO RAW AND ROTTEN it was a mixture of awe and fear. i was 15 and i miss being scared that easily haha
I thank you for your kind words, a lot of things have not been working fine and this nice gestures bring me a smile in this kind of times
I try to be kind but I still struggle to not hurt back those who have hurt me, the movie "Pearl" really hit home for me, minus the murder 😹I do hope my work gets more recognition too, thank you.
Mom is healing fast! She'll need the colostomy bags for life but she had the audacity to tell me she wanted to drive me to the places I buy her things from, wound supplies and natural juices and I'm like MA'AM YOU JUST GOT YOUR BELLY OPENED CHILL💀
And don't worry, I get personal super fast and I appreciate you feel the same, It's a part of my purpose
I hope to grow my community and still be a part of it, I truly love this as an artist and as a person who felt he would never fit anywhere.
Have a lovely day!!
Habeces venimos a aprender de experiencias amargas pero por haberme ayudado con tu música te agradezco te debo un poema no hablo ingles pero me parece que fascinante tu fuerza de voluntad ya que pudiste elegir lo que yo olvidar cada mensaje positivo y culparte por no tener el conocimiento para salvarla te admiro firma:Alejandro Sabogal Rodríguez
Hola! Hablo español, soy mexicano 😝 Sólo que todo lo hago en inglés porque aquí casi no me hacían caso 🥺
No entendí mucho lo de salvar a quien, pero si podré leer lo que escribas 😌
@@JoyLuna madre, y mascotas familiares de o seres queridos fallecidos que hallan muerto en por enfermedad o alguna complicación de salud,