Main Channel: czcams.com/users/aleczandxr Malleusdeus’ reddit thread: www.reddit.com/r/HunterXHunter/comments/6ys1wy/character_analysis_killua/? About the music - I'll post the tracks I used in this whenever I can get around to it. I had the entire list done when I posted it on my main account but.. CZcams decided to take the video down and that list was lost. Sorry about the lack of music tracks, I always make sure to include them but for obvious reasons, this video doesn't have them yet. EDIT: 8 months after this comment.. I'll get around to posting the songs someday. Hehe. I appreciate the interactions on here very much, but I won't be answering many comments on this account at all. It's just too much to try to keep up with comments on two accounts, along with the other avenues of contacting my that I provide. If you have questions for me, please direct them to my main channel or any of the social media links I provide on there. Thanks!
This is why Killua is my favorite character and why I love this anime, he started out with no goal and a dark past. But thanks to his friendship with Gon and experiences in the open world, he resisted the manipulation of his parents and brother, saved his sister and found he the path to himself. that his friendship is of equal value. the moment he took the needle out of his head was one of my favorite moments when he chose his friendship for Gon above all.
a sad fact: The time Killua is running to Gon is the only time we can hear his footsteps. He cared so much about saving Gon that for the first time in his entire life he didn’t bother to silence them
That’s the honest truth, I think I teared up a bit at his pure sadness 😢 but on the flip side it was also one of the most impactful (if not THE most impactful) moment of the anime
Bruh I could not hold back my laughter but I was crying at the same time my mom was crying one time and I was just trying not to laugh in her face anyone know a local psych ward?
Here’s a plot twist. Killua says that friends don’t need to thank friends because that’s why they’re there, however multiple times throughout the series, Killua thanks Gon. Perhaps he still thinks he’s not really Gon’s friend which gives him reason to thank him, or maybe he puts Gon at such a high value that he thinks, despite their relationship, it’s important for him to continually show his gratitude to Gon?
i'm torn. i want gon and killua to both get amazing arcs separate from each other. killua definitely deserves a bit of development aside from "gon is important to me". but at the same time their friendship is sort of the center of the entire series. if they don't end up partners again it might be the biggest emotional blow for me personally.
I'm certain they'll come together again eventually. All they need is to hear that the other is in trouble somewhere and they will come running. I would honestly be shocked if they don't end up becoming the most well respected Hunter team by the end of the series.
@@winkblue6851 which is also great, Gon is the main character but it just fleshes out their world so well. we spent 4 arcs or so with Gon and Killua, nothing wrong with taking a break. Just feels longer because of the hiatuses but even with that we get better storylines instead of rushed ones because of deadlines.
@@july8studio I don't think it'll be rushed tbh. I think that's reason togashi keeps going on hiatus because he's working on the story. Like you can tell from the get go this is gonna be way longer than the chimera ant arc, and may also be the last arc of the series so yeah I think togashis off the grid because he's trying to perfect the story
@@RyukHunter oo that's interesting. I heard a theory about gon becoming a specialist but idk the ending for him and killua seemed so set in stone. If there are more arcs after this one planned then deffo they'll meet again.
Killua is easily my favorite character in the entire series, his journey is one of the most relatable in the show, at least for me. I can see a lot of myself past and present in him, because of this, his journey is very inspirational and beautiful.
I think Illumi genuinely loves Killua, and I think Killua may be the only member of the family he does. Of course, it's a messed up, possessive, pathological love, but no less genuine. Also, I hope Gon and Killua reunite.
I personally think that the reason Killua didn’t want Gon to know that he healed him is because he didn’t want Gon to feel the same way he did, to feel like he owes everything to him. Killua had so much suffering in this journey realising this, he doesn’t want someone as important to him like Gon to feel that way. As you said, Killua realised that friends don’t need to thank each other, but knowing Gon, he still would. That’s another reason why Killua didn’t tell Gon, meaning that he’s indirectly telling Gon that he realises his self-worth and wants Gon to know not to thank friends either. Gon slightly dipped into the darkness, so he could of also forgotten his self-worth a bit. Nevertheless, great video, I was tearing up like never before.
Honestly, I think it will continue. He announced that he wanted to do so much more with the anime, but he was limited to do so at the time. I think there might be a remake of the past few episodes, adding more, or that they continue it regularly
Killua is a special character because he is a extremely sensitive male deuteragonist. He subverts the trope of the badass, moody deuteragonist and reveal himself as a sad, tragic and dramatic character without being wimpy. He accomplishes what many "strong" female character fail to, he is highly realistic and believable. I don't say this because he is my favorite character ever (only Gandalf is better, because Gandalf), but because he is so relatable, any young men who feels disconnected from his family for so many time struggle with relationships and overreact to friendship, going to extremes, His sensitivity is the core of his character, and what makes him an adorable badass.
It such an unfortunate thing when an analysis video of this caliber is taken down by a copyright strike. I even teared up during it. You have a way with words, good sir. Another thing during the separation scene that I think shows Killua's progression is actually the "Sorry, but you're number two." line. I know most people think of it more as Killua showing he still resents Gon for what happened in the Chimera Ant Arc and basically saying that he doesn't care about him anymore, but I personally never took it that way. For me, it has always been Killua proudly announcing Gon that he found his purpose. As you said, while a large part of the series Killua didn't have a goal in the same sense Gon did, his main motivation was to repay him for that friendship he offered, for ligthing up so many different roads life had laid that he simply missed when stuck in the Zoldycks' shadow. In this moment, they are finally at the point they talked about on Whale Island. Gon found Ging and Killua found something he wanted to do: protect Alluka, show her the outside world, reconnect with her again. When I first heard "Sorry, but you are number two", I didn't hear "Sorry, but I simply can't forgive you for the whole Pitou thing. I don't know if we can be friends ever again.", but instead "Sorry I can't travel with you anymore, but I managed to discover what I want to do. I have a purpose now, something I've always envied and admired you for, so staying with you isn't my number one priority anymore." And the fact that Killua and Gon separate paths at the end shows the former feels confident enough in himself now to realise the latter's appreciation for him and that he doesn't need to dedicate his entire existence to Gon to be a good friend. Thank you for this video, it's absolutely astounding, like all of your other works and I hope the copyright issue will be resolved soon.
You said it beautifully and I could not phrase it any better. Despite everything Gon said and how he behaved.. Killua knew that Gon's mind was blurred and that he was blinded by rage and a lust for revenge. Know Killia has found the purpose he searched for his entire life and I am pretty sure that Gon his happy to see his friend that way. Knowing that he is now not the centerpoint of Killuas worldview amymore.
Exactly, i get why people would think that Killua meant the whole Pitou thing, but these are the ones who really hated Gon during the Chimera arc for what he did, Killua's approach was utterly healthy and understanding, and the goodbye scene has much to it that it seems, beautiful.
I partly agree with you. I think that Killua was lying at this point, to everyone and himself. I don't mean that he doesn't love his sister but that his bond with Gon was much stronger than that with her. Alluka herself recognizes it and says ,,after I've had my brother all to myself for a while, I'll set him free.'' I think that even so Gon is the most important person in Killua's life, he recognizes that Gon doesn't feel the same way for him and that this feelings could even end up destroying him and Gon's relationship. The only way he sees to reduce his attachment for Gon and the only way for both of them to develop as a person, is by parting ways as fast as possible. You see Gon looking sad but rapidly looking up again showing that even though Killua is important to him, his main goal is still to become stronger and to travel around the world. While in the beginning of the series Gon is oblivious of the feelings of others and didn't had a problem with parting ways, you can see here that he recognizes that his bond with Killua is strong but still supresses them because they interfere with his goal. Gon as a character only develops into recognizing that the journey as a Hunter is not always fun but otherwise he didn't develop when it comes to the interactions with others or when it comes to his sacrificing behavior and maybe Killua sees also himself as the fault why this is still is the case. So Killua saying that Gon is second place wasn't really reffering that he as a person is second place but that he aknowledges that his new journey and protecting Alluka has the highest priority even if it goes against his real feelings. (sorry for my english)
Omg you have amazing way to express something in words like this person in video too...i would love to be like you two so that i can express my thought too😭
I have to say I always thought that killua has naturally been someone with compassion and eager to make connections to others, seeing how he wanted to make friends with Canaria of healing a bird in his childhood of training to kill, and that turns out to be how he finds himself worthy of: be worth of other people (Gon or Alluka/Nanuka, protecting/helping/being with them). But I have to say in his case to Gon, there's even more to simply finding self value via devoting to a friend(thats a portion of it though)..... Just read through how the mangaka portrayed their interactions and the narrative, there's just something from Killua to Gon that's different, far more beyond a "bro" or "best friend".....it's highly possible that Togashi hinted Killua's feelings for Gon as "nearly romantic" (I do not mean in a sexual way or he wants to have intimate skinship, but the way he express it is just....far from fine and dandy bros.) Killua isn't not worthy of else things. He's got his own skills, and he even starts making his own friends out of Gon, like Ikalugo. He gained self esteem through the progress of the Ant arc, pulling off needles, making friends, developing new techniques.... but he still went back stick to Gon, even prepared to die with him, not even after he made friends with Ikalugo and leaded this little octopus's life in a way similar to how Gon leaded him. It's not about him not having any self-esteem anymore, but Gon is just....special to him. Even others can see that: Biscuit uses Gon to stimulate him overcome his shortcoming; Ikalugo knew that among all comrade, Killua had some special resaurts making him willing to die along with Gon; Hisoka simply just put that "Gon is the one whom Killua loves the most in this world." In some nearly "romantic" way, Killua wants to near him. He wants to be the closest one to Gon, both physically and mentally, and sometimes doesn't want others to join the special little circle of "us". He also wants Gon to count on him, as if he's a natural part of him, a limb of his to serve, under any situation. He wants to be THAT close to him, without boundaries. But Gon refused, and that caused Killua pain. In GI and CA we can see Gon somehow accepted the ideal of "Killua is counted as part of me, I can use him and destroy him as how I usually do to myself." He let Killua causaully came near inside his personal boundary twice whenever he was under a bloodlust to attack, allow him to console him or knocked him out, and he didn't hesitate to harm Killua's hands in the dodge ball game, as if they were of his own-- Killua likes that, not only it means he was a help to his best friend, but that means Gon counted him into that personal little circle of intimacy, that they were "together and connected". But fighting Pitou showed Gon's self-centered nature, that there's still a limit to their intimacy, that he thought Kite's grudge was his responsibility and his alone, that does not naturally counts Killua in. Killua can help him with it, but could not share it. In this matter Killua no longer can have a part in Gon's personal circle-- Gon didn't tell him "we'll fight Pitou together", even clearly addressed that "because this(Kite's grudge) has nothing to do with you". But Killua DOES want to share--he wants to be TOGETHER even in this, and he eagers Gon desires this from himself. But no, Gon "took on this alone", and Killua could go no way further. Gon allows this extent of closeness to their friendship, but Killua wants more, way more closer....that his attachment is almost like an one-sided crush(and I'm not surprised if Togashi actually did do it on purpose), and it's only on Gon: Killua never showed same level of emotional needs it dependency on Kurapika or leorio, or that attachment to Ikalugo, maybe not even his family outside of Alluka and Nanika. Gon is special to him, and he's aware (after Ant arc in the hospital) that he's being throwing tantrums for asking too much from their friendship, that he shouldn't be so upset if Gon doesn't want him join him in everything-- I guess that's the moment he found him sinking too much into his deep affection of Gon, and tried to move on a little bit by putting more belif in himself and act more independently. And through interactions with Alluka, he's found himself capable to find console from others, able to have more and healthier bonds and relations in his life, making him decided to part from Gon and make his own adventures. No matter platonic or romantic, his feelings are slightly different from Gon's and making their relationship unbalanced. Killua has to learn to let go of him, not making his attachment of his best friend being harmful to himself, then finally make their relationship a healthy one.
Seeing their relationship just die like that is just.... Man I don't know it's just so painful remembering everything they did/went through together then them just parting ways feels like somebody just took my soul,stepped on it and threw it in the trash it just feels so wrong every time I remember them in the previous arcs i just want to go and cry in a corner just the thought of them not seeing each other anymore or not being as close makes my heart feel like it's splitting in two
@@furiousdestroyah9999 I don't think their relationship dies. Just that it became healthier. Killua put Gon in a pedestal. The way he devoted himself for Gon was not healthy. Gon did not though that killua was tool when he said that he could only use his true strength when it was with Killua, but he was saying there that Gon trust Killua so much, because he knows that Killua is with him and he knows that Killua get it. He was not using Killua. Gon has a healthy relationship with him. When Killua is not the center of his life but Killua is a VERY IMPORTANT part of it. When they went different ways Killua had realize it to
@@furiousdestroyah9999 Killua needed to get away from Gon because he need to understand who he is without him. This do not make his relationship week. But stronger Because shows that even apart they can be together
U- Tone I think one thing that doesn’t get talked about a lot is Togashi’s explanation of character traits for different nen types and then making Killua a transmuter. He said transmuters are liars and fickle. If you examine Killua’s character he definitely fits the fickle description. He shifts interest from alluka to canary then to go Gon (barely even remembered Kurapika and leorio at the zoldyc mansion but was willing to fight the phantom troupe for Kurapika later). Then shifts interest again from Gon to Alluka.
Killua puts Gon in such a high pedestal that he's willing to endure everything just to not lose him, while Gon is too simple minded to realise just how much Killua did for him and how much he hurted Killua. Their parting may just be the outcome of their poor communication. Hope they can gather their thoughts, meet back up, give each other a warm hug and be partners again, orelse I will seriously get depression.
i just finished hunterxhunter and watching this just made me cry even more. Killua's story is so heartbreaking but the way this anime just depicts how he grows is just wonderful and amazing. killua will always me my favorite character and his journey with Gon and finding out who he is and what he is worth just brings tears to my eyes (P.S - my nickname for him was kilogram)
Broo same. Friends mean a lot to me and what killua experiences when he can't help gon, I just relate. The self worth too, man it hits hard. But the series is so motivational too, like you see killua grow. You start to recognise where you put yourself down.
"Because as wonderful as Gon is, Killua is just as much so." ... and I just burst into tears, thank you for this video, it was helpful, very helpful, to understand Killua and a little bit of myself.
Killua remains, as it is, one of my absolute favorite characters in any anime/manga series...ever. He’s such a brutally beautiful character and he’s always *deeply* struck a cord within me, both for all of the reasons you’ve explained but also a multitude of other ones, he’s just an absolutely lovely boy to me and I’ll always almost...admire him. He’s a special kind of guy, and it’s always really hit me hard (also from a certain side he’s a tragic character and kind of makes me want to rip my heart out sometimes but I digress >
I want to give you my whole hearted thanks, I finally finished HxH a month ago and it built me up and utterly left me in tears like no other series. It truly is a masterpiece. I knew deep in my heart that in the end they needed to seperate, to both explore further their own paths for it to one day reunite them. But still, I couldn’t escape the sad empty feeling in my heart that it truly was over, and no more of the two boys who would stick like glue to each other. Empty feelings are common in people finishing a series, but HxH left a hole like no other. It went on for weeks on end with me not being able to pick up any other series. Afraid to sink into a level of mediocrity I before, deemed acceptable. To put it in the words of one twitter post “Watching any other anime after HxH is like getting a bachelors degree to then work at Target.” It got to a point where I’d remember certain scenes and cry. The two boys had become a part of my daily routine for so long that it felt wrong to spend a day without an episode of HxH. What I truly missed was “interaction” interaction between the two boys who’s chemistry was like none other, and love for each other was undeniable. To see that loving look in Killua’s eyes, and Gon’s large grin when they’re with each other fills me with happiness to the point its addicting. The way they support and care for each other endlessly makes you feel warm inside. And whats left now was a cold empty feeling. I missed them. Dearly. So I’ve scoured endlessly for forums and videos talking about their relationship and the ending to finally have closure. And I found it. Yours just... left me in awe. And I can finally see clearly with a weight lifted of my chest that this was healthy and what was truly needed for both of them. Again, thank you ♥️
I’m currently in the same state of mind that you went through. That empty feeling after it’s all over. I watched it 5 years ago, but just recently rewatched it. I had forgotten a lot of what happened and so it was almost like watching it for the first time again. i sped through the whole series in 10 days and now all i wanna watch is hxh content. i keep looking up analysis videos and compilations of scenes. i told myself i would start another anime but i just cant 😭 let me know if you’ve watched anything else that compares to hxh
my favourite character is Killua because he is pure gentle and protective of his dearest friends and family aside from the needle manipulation he just wants to lead a normal life and and a reason to live. his opinion on friendship is second to no one i thought killua would turn bad at the end but he remained as awesome as he always was even gon drowned to the dark side for some time and betrayed killua but killua, despite being from the family of assassins, turned out to be a diamond in a coal field a true friend and a lord protector that is why he is my favourite
As usual, perfect analysis. Killua is a wonderful character, but he had been so broken by his own family it was practically beyond repair. Anime aside, I can't help but wonder if you have the same hindsight for your own actions, personality and relationships, and if you analyze them the same way you do for HxH. Haha.
I think really interesting the fact that even tho killua saying that gon is the light, he's so much more sensible to his surroundings and caring about gon than gon himself. He's just so perfect imperfect that it's beautiful. I think we could say that gon's light it's like fire, or the sun. it's agitated, unpredictable, warm and gives hope and happiness to those around him, even tho it can burn and cause disasters. And killua's light for those that he cares it's more like a reflection, or the moon. it shines, it gives comfort, it's somewhat fragile but it's always there. In some way killua needed gon, so that he could learn how to shine by himself, stoping reflection and starting to make , stopping being a moon and becoming a star. Even tho their lights for now will always be with those descriptions, at least now killua can illuminate others and his own path
blunk778 my favourite character is Killua because he is pure gentle and protective of his dearest friends and family aside from the needle manipulation he just wants to lead a normal life and and a reason to live. his opinion on friendship is second to no one i thought killua would turn bad at the end but he remained as awesome as he always was even gon drowned to the dark side for some time and betrayed killua but killua, despite being from the family of assassins, turned out to be a diamond in a coal field a true friend and a lord protector that is why he is my favourite of them all!
seeing killua as a big brother at the end of it all just felt so peaceful, like everything was finally balanced out. i think audiences tend to glorify unhealthy relationships because of the powerful expressions of admiration and sacrifice that, in the case of their friendship, wouldnt have been needed if they were on equal footing to begin with
Killua's journey really resonated with me and helped me better accept my c-PTSD and begin caring for my "inner child', seriously a life-changing character
Killua is my favorite in the series, and this video is great, as are your others. I think the issue with killua is that he had no experience with positivity, so he consumed it and let it consume him through Gon, but his real endeavor is not to become eternally supportive of gon, but to realize that by allowing himself to be bright and receive love, and to be “like” gon, while maintaining his identity is what would complete him. Gon himself isn’t the goal, but to live life unafraid and to lose oneself in the moment, as Gon does is the other half of the experience of life. Gon is radiant(was), and killua at his best is both radiant and receptive. Meanwhile, Gon’s issue is that he is so consumed with self love and fun that he didn’t actually have real bonds either. He doesn’t know how to cope with negative emotions at all and ends up destroying everything when grief happens. It’s a yin/yang story like no other.
Killua’s arc helps me a whole lot. It also helps me understand that separation may be healthy and you can remain friends after a split. In all I struggle with personal self worth a lot. I don’t have much of a goal so I don’t know what to work towards, so I usually base all of my personal worth on helping my friends no matter what. I’ve started to break this habit some but there are many times where I feel unworthy of the love of my friends and partner, and as I don’t have a real goal, unworthy of being commended for my achievements. It’s a really difficult process, and I have grown from the beginning, but I still have a very long way to go. I’m still stuck in a toxic household, and I’m not sure what I’ll do after I leave, or how to leave in the first place. But killua inspires me in ways I didn’t think possible.. because maybe there is a chance for me to find my purpose. Thank you for making this video.
This was a gorgeous video...at the same time, I think that Gon represents more the dark sides of humanity our flaws, while Killua directly represents the brighter sides of humanity, our qualities, even if in the beginning it really doesn’t seem that way.
I really hate that HxH doesn’t have season 6 or 7, the friendship between killua and gon is so innocent, pure and precious. It’s sad how they decided to no longer take paths together and be separated. I just hope that their friendship reunites, and when they have children like them, killua’s child would just be like killua and gon’s child would be like gon, and even their child’s friendship will be innocent, pure, just like how their friendship was. But that’s just my opinion.
In my opinion, this friendship seemed innocent on the outside and I agree with you that at first I also wished what you wished, but this friendship was very centered around Gon. I first felt this in the dodgeball match where Gon said only Killua could hold the ball, even though Killuas hands were already destroyed. That scene seemed cute and lovely because it “showed” the loyal and great friendship between gon and killua, but in my mind it seemed so toxic. Because a friend shouldn’t use their friends in those situation and need to tell them hey that is not good, you need to stop. Gon maybe didn’t knew what he did but he used Killua in that scene and he knew Killua would feel great about it. That is toxic and I am somewhat great that Killua decided to part ways with gon and heal himself before meeting his former light again, who now turned into something not essentially needed but something even more special.
@@noxaura6298 gon is young and needs to grow himself after what he's been through. i think of they take some time away to become their own person then when they reunite their friendship will be even stronger
they just don't have the need to be together anymore, since killua has already completed his growth, but it doesn't mean their friendship isn't still there
haha actually I had an idea for a fanfic that Gon's daughter and Killua's son fall in love, without knowing about each other's father, and when two families meet, Gon and Killua will finally get to see each other after these so many years
Its not that he doesnt appreciate Killua. Gon doesnt realize the mental and emotional turmoil that Killua is experiencing. Especially since Killua doesnt verbalize it. Gon is a dense character. But he cares for Killua maybe as much as Killua cares for Gon.
This is why Killua is my favorite character and why I love this anime, he started out with no goal and a dark past. But thanks to his friendship with Gon and experiences in the open world, he resisted the manipulation of his parents and brother, saved his sister and found he the path to himself. that his friendship is of equal value. the moment he took the needle out of his head was one of my favorite moments when he chose his friendship for Gon above all.
Killua is easily my favorite anime character to ever exist, his character development is phenomenal. Despite having a rather unusual past (I don't know many 12 year olds who are full time assassins) I really find it easy to relate to him. His lack of self-worth and disattachment from his family are probably things a lot of young people suffer from. I too share the same mindset he had, his concept of friendship being a debt that needed to be repaid was pretty similar to mine except that I never actually met "the ray of light" I need like he did. Whenever I felt like someone became my friend I always worked so hard to be useful to them, to give them a reason to stay friends with me, I would continuously sacrifice myself for them which led many of my so called friends to see me as vulnerable and easy to use, "can you lend me some money -that I will never give you back- ?" "Can I copy your assignment -and leave you to write a completely new one for yourself- ?" "Can you do that for me -but it is something that I would never do for you- ?", I never even dared to expect any of my friends to help me with something, I never dared to ask them for anything, I always feared that once they realize I am useless for them or once they realize that I am just annoying for asking them to do anything that they would abandon me. I immediately recognized this character trait in Killua, he always sacrificed everything he had to repay Gon for leading him out of the darkness, the only difference in his case is that Gon never tried to use him, at least not consciously, Gon knew that friends are destined to help each other which is why he helped Killua before without thinking twice, Gon never knew that Killua lacked this much self-worth, he thought that friendship was a very simple and understandable concept and he thought that Killua shared the same thoughts with him. The miscommunication between the two always broke my heart, the words Gon said to Killua are probably the worst words he could ever hear, if he called him stupid or something like that I am pretty sure it would have hurt him less than telling him that he doesn't care and that he has it easy. Gon didn't know how much Killua struggled to build that little bit of self-worth up until then and those words coming from Gon out of all people hurt Killua even more. I am really glad he ended up learning about the real values of life, he finally realized that he deserves to be happy without having to repay anyone, friendships are built on equality between both friends and he got to realize that at the end. Killua is such a well-written character that I could write a whole essay about his character.
Very late to comment but I wanted to say this is a very thoughtful analysis. I too came to greatly identity with Killua, despite initially loathing him and his overly edgy backstory. My family are by no means master assassins but deeply toxic and self centered. To the point my best sources for validation and self worth growing up were either neglectful in one parent or only provided it when I conformed to their desires of the other. Similar to you, I began to try and perform a myriad of services for others in hopes they'd decide I was worthwhile only to be used and discarded once I wasn't needed. Which in turn led me to rely on the tools my family had taught me to get results, manipulation. Which only then caused me to sabotage any bonds I did form as I felt I was unworthy of them due to said manipulation. Sadly it took me till I was 18 to realize the folly of my actions. Which was then accompanied by even deeper shame and self loathing. As a result killua's arc is quite cathartic and I hope we both reach a similar end point that he does. Apologies for the overshare.
Even if it was taken down It gave me a reason to rewatch this amazing vid :b Killuas story is probably my favourite depiction of friendship and self-worth in fiction. Best boi.
Killua hadn't been loved his whole life until he met Gon. He constantly told people that friends don't need to thank friends, friends are supposed to be there, no thanks needed." Killua felt that Gon wasn't his friend because he thanked him a lot. So much of killuas time was spent thinking "I must protect Gon". I know they love eachother and they would do anything for eachother but Killua doesn't always realize that Gon loves him. I hate how not much people talk about when Kite almost shot Gon and Killua Jumped on top of Gon while pushing him to Protect him from the bullet and save his life. That scene had to be one of my favorites but most people don't notice that scene. Since killua didn't feel love his whole life (only when he was with alluka 10 years ago) Gon was that special to him. In one scene Killua says "Gon, you are light itself... sometimes your so bright I must look away" and if you look closely at episodes before, he looks away from Gon a LOT so you can tell he really thinks of Gon and so optimistic it's light. When killua broke down, screaming and crying, when fighting palm. He felt useless, and unworthy he was explaining that all that matters is if Gon is Okay. Technically Gon was the only reason he was living from killuas point of view. All he wanted to do was protect him. They are only 12 but this is the most depressing story I've ever heard. Aisya Malika, had a comment on this video that inspired me to write more this is somewhat like hers so please like her (or his idk) comment: HxH left me filled with Joy that they were happy, but it also left me empty, and In tears. You see they were smiling when they said goodbye "Kite said wherever we go we'll always be friends!" gon said before they turned away. So they were smiling when they turned... But the minute they couldn't see eachother anymore they stopped smiling. This was too the point where everyday I had tears streaming down my face and I felt incomplete if I didn't watch HXH everyday. You see the ending was Ging and Gon. But when Gon was walking up the world tree, it showed all his past memories from a lot of the episodes. I was happy but so sad at the same time. I don't feel like watching anything else because I know it won't mean as much to me. By the way I finished HXH the day I'm writing this, so I'm glad I still have 2 movies to watch but then again, I've seen some spoilers of the movie.. I saw killua try to kill himself and get jealous of gons new friend.. and I saw Gon use forbidden power to protect Killua. All of this had me in mental breakdowns. It's so hard to explain but I just feel *empty* but I love this series so much I'll never let it go.
That sucks the video was copyright striked :/ I hope you can get it revoked soon, you should be okay since the video was educational and that falls under fair use, though I'm not too sure how this copyright rule interacts with anime clips. I already watched this masterpiece video, sucks to see this video you worked a long time on got striked.
@@polar3593 it's not really copied but it might be because he used clips from the anime which is still an unsatisfactory answer because of all the AMVs and unedited fight clips. I'm not even sure who did the claim here, but Japan is notorious for copyright claims despite actual Fair Use.
CZcams is bullshit. Copyright rules on here are bullshit. CZcams needs to either die out or change this bullshit system they use for copyright because it's straight up sickening to watch great tubers get fucked again and again by this.
This right here is why I love Killua and Gon's relationship. I don't care if you view it as romantic, platonic, or even brotherly, it is clear that their relationship is the beating heart of Hunter x Hunter, and the single most important aspect. It is why I love the series so much and why I didn't just watch it and go "huh, that's a cool anime" and then move in with my life. It's such a beautiful representation of friendship in fiction, one which I haven't seen be topped before or since.
I feel so sad that I can relate on so many levels with Klillua despite not seeing the manga or anime. Kins who love you but has become smothering, controlling, and even belittling along the way, insecure about self-worth, has trouble making relationships and been drilled to distrust others. I have been and am still trying to break away from the toxic programmings of my mother but it's an ongoing process and it is hard especially since it's not like I can magically meet someone line Gon to help me out of my shell.
you know, though the splitting of Killua and Gon was emotional as all hell, I was almost... glad! It finally let killua out of Gon's overwhelming light and allows him to become his own 'light'! Killua had come such a long way in his own journey of discovering his own self-worth but with what Gon pulled, that all almost went all down the drain. the despair he felt for letting Gon almost throw away his entire life wouldve broke him if it actually followed through. But as he once again cleaned up Gon's act, Killua finally figured out he could become his own 'light' to his sister like gon did for him. It was then Killua figured out he too had someone that needed to rely on HIM instead of it being the other way around. Because Gon screwed up badly, it finally led Killua to go and discover his own self-worth, finally bringing the cycle of 'light' that gon started all over again. God this anime and killuas character development is beautiful
Thank you so much for this amazing analysis. While watching the series, I wondered why I related to Killua so well even though we come from completely different backgrounds. Now I know. I, too, have had a tremendous struggle trying to develop any sense of self-worth. Two years ago, I was deeply depressed, caught up in a cycle of self-loathing, and disillusioned by the realization that I had never known genuine friendship. Then I met a friend online who gave me a sense of purpose and managed to convince me, at least some of the time, that I wasn't completely worthless. However, I developed patterns of dependence, a sense of inferiority, and hero worship that were remarkably similar to Killua's dynamic with Gon, even though my friendship with this person was very different in other ways. I was only a worthwhile person insomuch as I mattered to him, but at the same time, with the monstrous debt I felt I owed him for rescuing me from that dark place, and how much more talented, courageous and internally strong I believed him to be compared to myself, I was constantly haunted by the thought that I didn't deserve to be his friend and that I could never repay him for what he'd done for me. At times I even resented him for being, in my mind, so superior. While I enjoyed interacting with him, I was always nervous and reserved, terrified that if I were to truly relax and be myself, I would accidentally cross a line and be rejected. Eventually, I overcame this and started to discover my true self and determine my own path, but it took a lot of time and growth. Like Killua, I'm finally beginning to glimpse my worth and purpose beyond my usefulness to the person closest to me, and to realize that I had been talented, courageous and strong all along, even if it was hidden under layers of fear and self-doubt. Although my family is far from abusive, my friend also helped me to break free of some of the harmful notions I had picked up from them. I'm autistic, and until recently, neither my family nor I knew. Often, they assumed my odd behavior stemmed from meanspiritedness, laziness, duplicitousness, or a desire for attention, when I was really just trying to be good and to imitate what I knew to be correct behavior even if I didn't always get it right. Because they didn't understand me, I was often sidelined, dismissed, or shut out. This contributed to my negative self-image and fear of being genuine, which I managed to overcome with the help of my friend. Now I'm excited to see what my future holds.
Wolfram von Vyller, the Wizard there’s no irony in that it’s just unfortunate. Having the ability to save others from death but not yourself... that’s ironic.
19:50 This is even more painful of a sentence when you know a bit of japanese and how the ambiguity of that language works for this. "Kankei nai kara" literally just means "because there's no relation" but obviously the context of his previous sentences works to make it mean "you aren't related to Kite" but the ambiguity can also make it mean "because you, Killua, have no connections"
@@mycommentisgonnaruinyourday122 lol it also means anything and nothing depending on context. But my point was that Nanika grants anything the asker wishes for.
It's the fact that he went from a monster to a kind and compassionate person really hits me in the feels. That being said, when I saw Killua cry for the first time, so did I.
When Gon basically shattered Killua's heart, I knew, that Killua felt freed (but I still yelled and screamed at Gon for saying that)... The Chimera Ant Arc is one of my favorite coming of age stories..
I felt so emotionally connected to this anime. Watching this upload has helped me understand why I love not just Killua, but all the hunter x hunter characters (leorio being my favoritite. Killua and Gon are the scariest 12 year olds ever 😛 .) I'm watching the entire series over again from the very beginning. It's a journey worth taking again.
This may be redundant, but I think that Killua was mostly thanking Palm for reminding him of his importance to Gon and for reminding him of his own value. For someone that had known the two of them for a relatively short period of time (not to mention someone that wasn't too fond of him previously) to be able to see that value had to have been so incredibly relieving. After seeing this video, I think it becomes more clear that even if he was just thanking Palm for helping with the mission, he is thankful for her reminder and he really needed to hear it. That whole exchange with Palm and Killua is one of my favorite moments in the series, and it never fails to make me shed some tears.
I do think Killua's journey to be a whole person is not over yet at the end of the serie - with his sister, he still adopts a very protective role to find value. He will always be a person who yearns to nurture and care for others to feel useful, and has a tendency to overdo it and put a lot of pressure on himself (we can see it already with how emotional he is about his role as a big brother, and how hurt he is when he feels like he has failed Alluka or Nanika). However, it does seem better for him that his relationship with his sister is a lot more affectionate, with feelings out in the open. He is definetely more confident in himself, and he knows now that he is worthy of other people's trust. Thanks for the analysis, it sums up why I love Killua so much!
It's real damn shame when analytical videos completely under the terms of fair use like this here for example get taken down unfairly.Especially when they're as well done and thoroughly cover a character as fleshed out regarding Killua's arc. He's easily my favorite character outta the main cast who resonates real strongly with me on his path to extreme independence. You did this adorable badass little assassin justice dude and I hope the original upload dispute gets resolved real soon so more people can view all the hard work/research you put into explaining Killua's personality and background as a whole.
Man, do people at CZcams not like HxH or something? I've noticed that a lot HxH stuff has been getting taken down lately. From reaction channels to AMV's to small HxH scenes. Meanwhile other animes that are like 10 years old, like old Dragon Ball fights & scenes, are still up & running no problem on CZcams.
As i said under the original video, brilliant piece, enough to had me tear up by the end of it. Great write up on one of the biggest issues of our period, self-worth. I relate to this so much. Also the presence of masterfully written characters like Killua, Gon, Kurapika, Meruem, Knov and Shoot amongst the others shows how much of a gargantuan author Togashi is even taking into account his issues.
I love Killua’s journey so much I relate to it on another level. 2 years ago I would proudly say I was truly happy with where I was as a person. Today even though I’m physically, mentally and emotionally stronger than I’ve ever been I’m so very weak. I’ve been away from family and friends for 2 years only seeing them for a week every 6-8 months. I can’t do this much longer the loneliness I feel is so isolating I miss everyone but even more I miss my old self.
Alex. Love your videos. I have a recommendation for a good Hunter Hunter Video. The Parallels Between The Royal Guards & Meruem with Gon, Killua, Kurapika, & Leorio. The Royals represent a Dark Version of The Main Cast......at least at first. Another thing I noticed and I’m sure Togashi planned this but introduction to The Royal Guards and Meruem are opposite to The Main Cast. Killua is Last and Pitou, the Royal Guard that represents a parallel to him is seen first. Both are introduced as Dark and Cold Characters but as time goes on, they shine brightly. Kurapika is Third to appear and Pouf is Second. Both are Smart Intellects yet they lose their composure to certain things. Kurapika is Spiders and Pouf is nothing to do with The King. Youpi is Third to appear and Leorio is Second. Both start off as your bland character but as the story goes on you see there is much more to them them first perceived. Finally we get Meruem last and Gon being the First. Both are based off of The Perfect Mold. Meruem being King (A Perfect Being) and Gon being Perfect in his Purity yet as their stories are told, their Perfect Mold shows signs of cracks until one pivotal moment breaks The Perfect Mold shoeing they are like everyone else.
Interesting parallels but I find the only ones of substantial note to be Gon/Meruem and maybe Killua/Pitou. It's a cool thought but I won't be making a video like this, nor do I really take requests like this. Sorry!
Honestly even if I don't feel the same way, I really enjoy these analysis because it gets us thinking. Critical thinking is a skill too easily forgotten post education.
This video is an actual masterpiece! Even watching it after two years, I still cried. Yes you can call me a crybaby but this video is just overall perfect. The scenes used the wording and the overall message, incredible!
3:08 "...sometimes even in spite of our nature." *Flashbacks to The Solitude of Kurapika* "Kurapika is the embodiment of nature vs nurture(something along those lines)." How do you always manage to reference your own videos? Gotta hustle and get them clicks xD
No analysis made me cry more than this one😭 I really think killua is a character I relate to on an insane level, his story of self worth and just wanting to find connections to people and to love them and doubting yourself bc of being unsure if it’s right to feel that way. I just thought it resonated so much with me and I think that’s why it made me a little teary eyed. I love him absolutely and I hope he gets everything he ever wanted
No wonder why I couldn't find the original video. I was going through my history, deleting other videos in hopes of finding it. Such a quality video, great explanation and breakdown.
sometimes family members will sit down with me while I'm watching HXH and eventually they get annoyed because they don't understand why every single time Killua smiles I say "I would die for him," but I swear I cannot help but adore him. Some characters, yes! I love them! But I've never seen such... a human one. He feels so real in a world that is most definitely not ours. He deserves everything and more. And, if I'm being completely honest, if not for Killua I probably would have dropped hunter x hunter. Gon is such a good character, really, and I loved his attitude and his development. When he found his dad I was on the verge of tears, but- despite all that, Killua and Aluka + Something actually made me cry. My chest hurt and I couldn't decide if I wanted to smile or sob. Everytime Killua smiled it MEANT something. Incredible work. His character, personality, and development is one that is hard to come by. I've only ever felt the same with some characters, and oddly one of them is Gintoki Sakata (who shares similarities with Killua, but they are also so very different). I'm so blessed that this was made during my lifetime.
genuinely cried at this video bc i relate so much to his struggle with self worth and purpose and im so proud of and inspired by him for growing and overcoming it
This is absolutely beautiful. Killua is by far one of my favorite anime characters of all time, & this video reminded me of just how fantastic he is. Great job!
The thing about Killua not being confident in himself also shows when he surrenders to Pokkle. He wants to prove to the crowd that he is better than being matched up with Pokkle, and does it to shows off. To show that he can spare losing a match. It will not matter for him.
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About the music - I'll post the tracks I used in this whenever I can get around to it. I had the entire list done when I posted it on my main account but.. CZcams decided to take the video down and that list was lost. Sorry about the lack of music tracks, I always make sure to include them but for obvious reasons, this video doesn't have them yet.
EDIT: 8 months after this comment.. I'll get around to posting the songs someday. Hehe.
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update on this music used, please? :)
Can you post the background music please
I reconized hora secunda from skyrim ^-^
What the fuck happened to all the videos
This is why Killua is my favorite character and why I love this anime, he started out with no goal and a dark past. But thanks to his friendship with Gon and experiences in the open world, he resisted the manipulation of his parents and brother, saved his sister and found he the path to himself. that his friendship is of equal value. the moment he took the needle out of his head was one of my favorite moments when he chose his friendship for Gon above all.
That scene where Killua is crying screaming to palm was one of the most heartbreaking scenes I have seen in anime. Period.
Agreeeee
but he said he was just buying time so he faked it.. I think?
a sad fact: The time Killua is running to Gon is the only time we can hear his footsteps. He cared so much about saving Gon that for the first time in his entire life he didn’t bother to silence them
That’s the honest truth, I think I teared up a bit at his pure sadness 😢 but on the flip side it was also one of the most impactful (if not THE most impactful) moment of the anime
Bruh I could not hold back my laughter but I was crying at the same time my mom was crying one time and I was just trying not to laugh in her face anyone know a local psych ward?
I would give my life to protect Killua’s smile.
Thankfully we always have the first opening
lmao same
same, he is so precious, he deserves to be happy.
Me too
Glorioustigereye same
Here’s a plot twist. Killua says that friends don’t need to thank friends because that’s why they’re there, however multiple times throughout the series, Killua thanks Gon. Perhaps he still thinks he’s not really Gon’s friend which gives him reason to thank him, or maybe he puts Gon at such a high value that he thinks, despite their relationship, it’s important for him to continually show his gratitude to Gon?
Nicole Pownall I like this comment. But it also punches me in the gut
I thought he stopped doing that after he made the statememt
No, he says it during the ally scene when they part. But he says it aloud this time, so it does come across differently.
OUCH HOL UP THAT HURT
Their not friends... their best friends
i'm torn. i want gon and killua to both get amazing arcs separate from each other. killua definitely deserves a bit of development aside from "gon is important to me". but at the same time their friendship is sort of the center of the entire series. if they don't end up partners again it might be the biggest emotional blow for me personally.
I'm certain they'll come together again eventually. All they need is to hear that the other is in trouble somewhere and they will come running. I would honestly be shocked if they don't end up becoming the most well respected Hunter team by the end of the series.
Tbf I'm not even sure they'll be in the new arc because it seems more focused on kurapika (and leorio) so maybe it's their time to shine
@@winkblue6851 which is also great, Gon is the main character but it just fleshes out their world so well. we spent 4 arcs or so with Gon and Killua, nothing wrong with taking a break. Just feels longer because of the hiatuses but even with that we get better storylines instead of rushed ones because of deadlines.
@@july8studio I don't think it'll be rushed tbh. I think that's reason togashi keeps going on hiatus because he's working on the story. Like you can tell from the get go this is gonna be way longer than the chimera ant arc, and may also be the last arc of the series so yeah I think togashis off the grid because he's trying to perfect the story
@@RyukHunter oo that's interesting. I heard a theory about gon becoming a specialist but idk the ending for him and killua seemed so set in stone. If there are more arcs after this one planned then deffo they'll meet again.
I still feel like gon owes killua an apology for all the shit he did to him in the chimera ant arc
wul he did when they parted
@@Stariiberry where is the off screen apology stated ?
He apologized already and thanked his sister/brother alluka as well as killua
@@prayed249 you can just say sister that's kinda rude to misgender her
@@fyv3 people still think they should call her/him “brother” because alluka was born a male
Killua is easily my favorite character in the entire series, his journey is one of the most relatable in the show, at least for me. I can see a lot of myself past and present in him, because of this, his journey is very inspirational and beautiful.
I feel the same way I couldn't help but get so absorbed in him
Killua is awesome.
Leaky Peach same here man he is the best his character development is just spell bounding and unexpectedly great!
didnt know assasain families still exsisted ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
I relate to this very much, and killua has the most beautiful character development within himself. Favorite character and show, truly amazing
"gon and killua are both wonderful boys" v well said
true
Hisoka jumps from the corner
@@himalayas5908 Hisoka, no hisokaing! Hisoka no hisokaing!
I find Gon to be kind of an asshole to be honest.
I wouldn't say gon
I think Illumi genuinely loves Killua, and I think Killua may be the only member of the family he does. Of course, it's a messed up, possessive, pathological love, but no less genuine. Also, I hope Gon and Killua reunite.
Same thoughts. He has a brother complex. It's kind of twisted love...but I do think He really does Iove Killua.
@Hans Hanzo illumi never loves hisoka nor hisoka loves illumi they re just fwb and they re ready to kill each other in any moment
Hans Hanzo He was ready to murder Hisoka when Hisoka jokingly said if he could murder Killua 😂
@@NietzscheEast That's not what he asked...
Jeremy Stuut Yeah thats because he didn’t ask anything, he made a statement smart one
"and then he meets gon.." i BROKE DOWN after that sentence
When he Met Gon everything changed for him and he found out he could be happy which so many of us seem to find later in life as well.
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I personally think that the reason Killua didn’t want Gon to know that he healed him is because he didn’t want Gon to feel the same way he did, to feel like he owes everything to him. Killua had so much suffering in this journey realising this, he doesn’t want someone as important to him like Gon to feel that way. As you said, Killua realised that friends don’t need to thank each other, but knowing Gon, he still would. That’s another reason why Killua didn’t tell Gon, meaning that he’s indirectly telling Gon that he realises his self-worth and wants Gon to know not to thank friends either. Gon slightly dipped into the darkness, so he could of also forgotten his self-worth a bit. Nevertheless, great video, I was tearing up like never before.
SOMEONE GIVE THIS COMMENT SOME MORE LOVE
OUCH THAT HURT
The facts hit straight in my heart, this comment is so underrated
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In the end he did told Gon anyways. It's literally the last thing they talk about before parting ways
Damn, I miss HxH so much... I’d like the anime to continue..
Honestly, I think it will continue. He announced that he wanted to do so much more with the anime, but he was limited to do so at the time. I think there might be a remake of the past few episodes, adding more, or that they continue it regularly
Oh Stop Daddy you gave me hope
@@sakukiyoo5549
You're name can make some comments go the wrong way
Angelica same 🥺 i watch it on netflix and there are only 4 seasons :((
anjeza a technically there’s one long season of HxH, Netflix just puts it into seasons but the way they group the seasons is kinda dumb ._.
Here's hoping that Killua Godspeeds his way out of this copyright strike.
David Crespo nice
Killua is a special character because he is a extremely sensitive male deuteragonist. He subverts the trope of the badass, moody deuteragonist and reveal himself as a sad, tragic and dramatic character without being wimpy. He accomplishes what many "strong" female character fail to, he is highly realistic and believable. I don't say this because he is my favorite character ever (only Gandalf is better, because Gandalf), but because he is so relatable, any young men who feels disconnected from his family for so many time struggle with relationships and overreact to friendship, going to extremes, His sensitivity is the core of his character, and what makes him an adorable badass.
This. This will forever be my favorite comment ever. Also: Gandalf slaps
Did killua becam brav after removed the needles or coward
@@linarameche1524 brave
Gandalf was also sensitive, protective, and often full of self-doubt, so it kind of fits.
It such an unfortunate thing when an analysis video of this caliber is taken down by a copyright strike.
I even teared up during it. You have a way with words, good sir.
Another thing during the separation scene that I think shows Killua's progression is actually the "Sorry, but you're number two." line.
I know most people think of it more as Killua showing he still resents Gon for what happened in the Chimera Ant Arc and basically saying that he doesn't care about him anymore, but I personally never took it that way.
For me, it has always been Killua proudly announcing Gon that he found his purpose. As you said, while a large part of the series Killua didn't have a goal in the same sense Gon did, his main motivation was to repay him for that friendship he offered, for ligthing up so many different roads life had laid that he simply missed when stuck in the Zoldycks' shadow.
In this moment, they are finally at the point they talked about on Whale Island. Gon found Ging and Killua found something he wanted to do: protect Alluka, show her the outside world, reconnect with her again.
When I first heard "Sorry, but you are number two", I didn't hear "Sorry, but I simply can't forgive you for the whole Pitou thing. I don't know if we can be friends ever again.", but instead "Sorry I can't travel with you anymore, but I managed to discover what I want to do. I have a purpose now, something I've always envied and admired you for, so staying with you isn't my number one priority anymore."
And the fact that Killua and Gon separate paths at the end shows the former feels confident enough in himself now to realise the latter's appreciation for him and that he doesn't need to dedicate his entire existence to Gon to be a good friend.
Thank you for this video, it's absolutely astounding, like all of your other works and I hope the copyright issue will be resolved soon.
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You said it beautifully and I could not phrase it any better.
Despite everything Gon said and how he behaved.. Killua knew that Gon's mind was blurred and that he was blinded by rage and a lust for revenge.
Know Killia has found the purpose he searched for his entire life and I am pretty sure that Gon his happy to see his friend that way. Knowing that he is now not the centerpoint of Killuas worldview amymore.
Exactly, i get why people would think that Killua meant the whole Pitou thing, but these are the ones who really hated Gon during the Chimera arc for what he did, Killua's approach was utterly healthy and understanding, and the goodbye scene has much to it that it seems, beautiful.
I partly agree with you. I think that Killua was lying at this point, to everyone and himself.
I don't mean that he doesn't love his sister but that his bond with Gon was much stronger than that with her.
Alluka herself recognizes it and says ,,after I've had my brother all to myself for a while, I'll set him free.''
I think that even so Gon is the most important person in Killua's life, he recognizes that Gon doesn't feel the same way for him and that this feelings could even end up destroying him and Gon's relationship.
The only way he sees to reduce his attachment for Gon and the only way for both of them to develop as a person, is by parting ways as fast as possible.
You see Gon looking sad but rapidly looking up again showing that even though Killua is important to him, his main goal is still to become stronger and to travel around the world. While in the beginning of the series Gon is oblivious of the feelings of others and didn't had a problem with parting ways, you can see here that he recognizes that his bond with Killua is strong but still supresses them because they interfere with his goal.
Gon as a character only develops into recognizing that the journey as a Hunter is not always fun but otherwise he didn't develop when it comes to the interactions with others or when it comes to his sacrificing behavior and maybe Killua sees also himself as the fault why this is still is the case.
So Killua saying that Gon is second place wasn't really reffering that he as a person is second place but that he aknowledges that his new journey and protecting Alluka has the highest priority even if it goes against his real feelings.
(sorry for my english)
Omg you have amazing way to express something in words like this person in video too...i would love to be like you two so that i can express my thought too😭
I have to say I always thought that killua has naturally been someone with compassion and eager to make connections to others, seeing how he wanted to make friends with Canaria of healing a bird in his childhood of training to kill, and that turns out to be how he finds himself worthy of: be worth of other people (Gon or Alluka/Nanuka, protecting/helping/being with them).
But I have to say in his case to Gon, there's even more to simply finding self value via devoting to a friend(thats a portion of it though)..... Just read through how the mangaka portrayed their interactions and the narrative, there's just something from Killua to Gon that's different, far more beyond a "bro" or "best friend".....it's highly possible that Togashi hinted Killua's feelings for Gon as "nearly romantic" (I do not mean in a sexual way or he wants to have intimate skinship, but the way he express it is just....far from fine and dandy bros.)
Killua isn't not worthy of else things. He's got his own skills, and he even starts making his own friends out of Gon, like Ikalugo. He gained self esteem through the progress of the Ant arc, pulling off needles, making friends, developing new techniques.... but he still went back stick to Gon, even prepared to die with him, not even after he made friends with Ikalugo and leaded this little octopus's life in a way similar to how Gon leaded him.
It's not about him not having any self-esteem anymore, but Gon is just....special to him. Even others can see that: Biscuit uses Gon to stimulate him overcome his shortcoming; Ikalugo knew that among all comrade, Killua had some special resaurts making him willing to die along with Gon; Hisoka simply just put that "Gon is the one whom Killua loves the most in this world." In some nearly "romantic" way, Killua wants to near him. He wants to be the closest one to Gon, both physically and mentally, and sometimes doesn't want others to join the special little circle of "us". He also wants Gon to count on him, as if he's a natural part of him, a limb of his to serve, under any situation. He wants to be THAT close to him, without boundaries.
But Gon refused, and that caused Killua pain. In GI and CA we can see Gon somehow accepted the ideal of "Killua is counted as part of me, I can use him and destroy him as how I usually do to myself." He let Killua causaully came near inside his personal boundary twice whenever he was under a bloodlust to attack, allow him to console him or knocked him out, and he didn't hesitate to harm Killua's hands in the dodge ball game, as if they were of his own-- Killua likes that, not only it means he was a help to his best friend, but that means Gon counted him into that personal little circle of intimacy, that they were "together and connected".
But fighting Pitou showed Gon's self-centered nature, that there's still a limit to their intimacy, that he thought Kite's grudge was his responsibility and his alone, that does not naturally counts Killua in. Killua can help him with it, but could not share it. In this matter Killua no longer can have a part in Gon's personal circle-- Gon didn't tell him "we'll fight Pitou together", even clearly addressed that "because this(Kite's grudge) has nothing to do with you". But Killua DOES want to share--he wants to be TOGETHER even in this, and he eagers Gon desires this from himself. But no, Gon "took on this alone", and Killua could go no way further.
Gon allows this extent of closeness to their friendship, but Killua wants more, way more closer....that his attachment is almost like an one-sided crush(and I'm not surprised if Togashi actually did do it on purpose), and it's only on Gon: Killua never showed same level of emotional needs it dependency on Kurapika or leorio, or that attachment to Ikalugo, maybe not even his family outside of Alluka and Nanika. Gon is special to him, and he's aware (after Ant arc in the hospital) that he's being throwing tantrums for asking too much from their friendship, that he shouldn't be so upset if Gon doesn't want him join him in everything-- I guess that's the moment he found him sinking too much into his deep affection of Gon, and tried to move on a little bit by putting more belif in himself and act more independently.
And through interactions with Alluka, he's found himself capable to find console from others, able to have more and healthier bonds and relations in his life, making him decided to part from Gon and make his own adventures. No matter platonic or romantic, his feelings are slightly different from Gon's and making their relationship unbalanced. Killua has to learn to let go of him, not making his attachment of his best friend being harmful to himself, then finally make their relationship a healthy one.
Seeing their relationship just die like that is just.... Man I don't know it's just so painful remembering everything they did/went through together then them just parting ways feels like somebody just took my soul,stepped on it and threw it in the trash it just feels so wrong every time I remember them in the previous arcs i just want to go and cry in a corner just the thought of them not seeing each other anymore or not being as close makes my heart feel like it's splitting in two
Very well said! This is exactly what I think.
@@furiousdestroyah9999 I don't think their relationship dies. Just that it became healthier. Killua put Gon in a pedestal. The way he devoted himself for Gon was not healthy. Gon did not though that killua was tool when he said that he could only use his true strength when it was with Killua, but he was saying there that Gon trust Killua so much, because he knows that Killua is with him and he knows that Killua get it. He was not using Killua. Gon has a healthy relationship with him. When Killua is not the center of his life but Killua is a VERY IMPORTANT part of it.
When they went different ways Killua had realize it to
@@furiousdestroyah9999 Killua needed to get away from Gon because he need to understand who he is without him. This do not make his relationship week. But stronger Because shows that even apart they can be together
U- Tone I think one thing that doesn’t get talked about a lot is Togashi’s explanation of character traits for different nen types and then making Killua a transmuter. He said transmuters are liars and fickle. If you examine Killua’s character he definitely fits the fickle description. He shifts interest from alluka to canary then to go Gon (barely even remembered Kurapika and leorio at the zoldyc mansion but was willing to fight the phantom troupe for Kurapika later). Then shifts interest again from Gon to Alluka.
Killua puts Gon in such a high pedestal that he's willing to endure everything just to not lose him, while Gon is too simple minded to realise just how much Killua did for him and how much he hurted Killua. Their parting may just be the outcome of their poor communication. Hope they can gather their thoughts, meet back up, give each other a warm hug and be partners again, orelse I will seriously get depression.
i just finished hunterxhunter and watching this just made me cry even more. Killua's story is so heartbreaking but the way this anime just depicts how he grows is just wonderful and amazing. killua will always me my favorite character and his journey with Gon and finding out who he is and what he is worth just brings tears to my eyes (P.S - my nickname for him was kilogram)
kilogram. so cute!
I was crying this whole video because I relate to killua so much
kenna “boo hoo my life is sooo bad and hard”
That’s how my mind reacts when I try to sympathise with myself like that. Nothing on you, just saying.
@@sejalb725 bro what ...
kenna Ah ignore me, Go become the best version of yourself!
Wait, you've been tortured and manipulated your whole life by your family so you can become a great assassin too???! Same!
Broo same. Friends mean a lot to me and what killua experiences when he can't help gon, I just relate. The self worth too, man it hits hard. But the series is so motivational too, like you see killua grow. You start to recognise where you put yourself down.
"Because as wonderful as Gon is, Killua is just as much so." ... and I just burst into tears, thank you for this video, it was helpful, very helpful, to understand Killua and a little bit of myself.
Killua remains, as it is, one of my absolute favorite characters in any anime/manga series...ever. He’s such a brutally beautiful character and he’s always *deeply* struck a cord within me, both for all of the reasons you’ve explained but also a multitude of other ones, he’s just an absolutely lovely boy to me and I’ll always almost...admire him. He’s a special kind of guy, and it’s always really hit me hard (also from a certain side he’s a tragic character and kind of makes me want to rip my heart out sometimes but I digress >
I want to give you my whole hearted thanks, I finally finished HxH a month ago and it built me up and utterly left me in tears like no other series. It truly is a masterpiece. I knew deep in my heart that in the end they needed to seperate, to both explore further their own paths for it to one day reunite them. But still, I couldn’t escape the sad empty feeling in my heart that it truly was over, and no more of the two boys who would stick like glue to each other.
Empty feelings are common in people finishing a series, but HxH left a hole like no other. It went on for weeks on end with me not being able to pick up any other series. Afraid to sink into a level of mediocrity I before, deemed acceptable. To put it in the words of one twitter post “Watching any other anime after HxH is like getting a bachelors degree to then work at Target.”
It got to a point where I’d remember certain scenes and cry. The two boys had become a part of my daily routine for so long that it felt wrong to spend a day without an episode of HxH. What I truly missed was “interaction” interaction between the two boys who’s chemistry was like none other, and love for each other was undeniable. To see that loving look in Killua’s eyes, and Gon’s large grin when they’re with each other fills me with happiness to the point its addicting. The way they support and care for each other endlessly makes you feel warm inside. And whats left now was a cold empty feeling. I missed them. Dearly.
So I’ve scoured endlessly for forums and videos talking about their relationship and the ending to finally have closure. And I found it. Yours just... left me in awe. And I can finally see clearly with a weight lifted of my chest that this was healthy and what was truly needed for both of them.
Again, thank you ♥️
This is such a wonderful comment, I really feel the same way.
@@eyreox i am watching it right now, cant wait to finish it
I’m currently in the same state of mind that you went through. That empty feeling after it’s all over. I watched it 5 years ago, but just recently rewatched it. I had forgotten a lot of what happened and so it was almost like watching it for the first time again. i sped through the whole series in 10 days and now all i wanna watch is hxh content. i keep looking up analysis videos and compilations of scenes. i told myself i would start another anime but i just cant 😭 let me know if you’ve watched anything else that compares to hxh
@@MadMaddy15 omg❤️😭 saaame. I feel these comments...
Copyright strike wont stop the greatness that is HxH!
I know that image makes me want to say "bad move, little ant"
"You made a bad move, little copyright" *BAD MOVE*
*proceeds to perform 100 type guanyin bodhasatsva*
Even bisky said... its a miracle that he's still smiling...
He only smiles for Gon.
my favourite character is
Killua because he is pure gentle and protective of his dearest friends and family
aside from the needle manipulation he just wants to lead a normal life and and a reason to live.
his opinion on friendship is second to no one
i thought killua would turn bad at the end but he remained as awesome as he always was
even gon drowned to the dark side for some time and betrayed killua but killua, despite being from the family of assassins, turned out to be a diamond in a coal field
a true friend and a lord protector
that is why he is my favourite
Sorry to hear it got copyright striked.
As usual, perfect analysis. Killua is a wonderful character, but he had been so broken by his own family it was practically beyond repair.
Anime aside, I can't help but wonder if you have the same hindsight for your own actions, personality and relationships, and if you analyze them the same way you do for HxH. Haha.
who doesn't?
i mean, aside from perfectly sane and happy people that don't even feel a need to care about it all, obviously.
iota-09 Very ignorant comment.
I think really interesting the fact that even tho killua saying that gon is the light, he's so much more sensible to his surroundings and caring about gon than gon himself. He's just so perfect imperfect that it's beautiful. I think we could say that gon's light it's like fire, or the sun. it's agitated, unpredictable, warm and gives hope and happiness to those around him, even tho it can burn and cause disasters. And killua's light for those that he cares it's more like a reflection, or the moon. it shines, it gives comfort, it's somewhat fragile but it's always there. In some way killua needed gon, so that he could learn how to shine by himself, stoping reflection and starting to make , stopping being a moon and becoming a star. Even tho their lights for now will always be with those descriptions, at least now killua can illuminate others and his own path
Can't imagine a 12-yr old has been through all this.
You can my dear, there are children in our world who are much younger than killua and had faced worst ( aka Palestinian kids ... ect )
FINALLY MY FAVOURITE CHARACTER IN ALL OF ANIME FROM MY ALL TIME FAVOURITE ANIME
blunk778 A person of culture
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my favourite character is
Killua because he is pure gentle and protective of his dearest friends and family
aside from the needle manipulation he just wants to lead a normal life and and a reason to live.
his opinion on friendship is second to no one
i thought killua would turn bad at the end but he remained as awesome as he always was
even gon drowned to the dark side for some time and betrayed killua but killua, despite being from the family of assassins, turned out to be a diamond in a coal field
a true friend and a lord protector
that is why he is my favourite of them all!
seeing killua as a big brother at the end of it all just felt so peaceful, like everything was finally balanced out. i think audiences tend to glorify unhealthy relationships because of the powerful expressions of admiration and sacrifice that, in the case of their friendship, wouldnt have been needed if they were on equal footing to begin with
Straight up a crime to take this video down.
Still one of his greatest videos, Garfont Mercenaries was such a perfect choice of bgm near the end.
...And that is why Killua is one of my favourite characters ever. This is such an amazing video, I almost cried while watching. Thank you so much.
22:23 Killua you are the light
Killua's journey really resonated with me and helped me better accept my c-PTSD and begin caring for my "inner child', seriously a life-changing character
🤝
I never thought I’d find another person with cptsd who relates to killua, but here we are
Killua is legit one of the most well written characters in anime that I've ever seen.
Killua is my favorite in the series, and this video is great, as are your others.
I think the issue with killua is that he had no experience with positivity, so he consumed it and let it consume him through Gon, but his real endeavor is not to become eternally supportive of gon, but to realize that by allowing himself to be bright and receive love, and to be “like” gon, while maintaining his identity is what would complete him.
Gon himself isn’t the goal, but to live life unafraid and to lose oneself in the moment, as Gon does is the other half of the experience of life.
Gon is radiant(was), and killua at his best is both radiant and receptive.
Meanwhile, Gon’s issue is that he is so consumed with self love and fun that he didn’t actually have real bonds either. He doesn’t know how to cope with negative emotions at all and ends up destroying everything when grief happens.
It’s a yin/yang story like no other.
Killua’s arc helps me a whole lot.
It also helps me understand that separation may be healthy and you can remain friends after a split.
In all I struggle with personal self worth a lot. I don’t have much of a goal so I don’t know what to work towards, so I usually base all of my personal worth on helping my friends no matter what. I’ve started to break this habit some but there are many times where I feel unworthy of the love of my friends and partner, and as I don’t have a real goal, unworthy of being commended for my achievements. It’s a really difficult process, and I have grown from the beginning, but I still have a very long way to go. I’m still stuck in a toxic household, and I’m not sure what I’ll do after I leave, or how to leave in the first place. But killua inspires me in ways I didn’t think possible.. because maybe there is a chance for me to find my purpose. Thank you for making this video.
This was a gorgeous video...at the same time, I think that Gon represents more the dark sides of humanity our flaws, while Killua directly represents the brighter sides of humanity, our qualities, even if in the beginning it really doesn’t seem that way.
I really hate that HxH doesn’t have season 6 or 7, the friendship between killua and gon is so innocent, pure and precious. It’s sad how they decided to no longer take paths together and be separated. I just hope that their friendship reunites, and when they have children like them, killua’s child would just be like killua and gon’s child would be like gon, and even their child’s friendship will be innocent, pure, just like how their friendship was. But that’s just my opinion.
In my opinion, this friendship seemed innocent on the outside and I agree with you that at first I also wished what you wished, but this friendship was very centered around Gon. I first felt this in the dodgeball match where Gon said only Killua could hold the ball, even though Killuas hands were already destroyed. That scene seemed cute and lovely because it “showed” the loyal and great friendship between gon and killua, but in my mind it seemed so toxic. Because a friend shouldn’t use their friends in those situation and need to tell them hey that is not good, you need to stop. Gon maybe didn’t knew what he did but he used Killua in that scene and he knew Killua would feel great about it. That is toxic and I am somewhat great that Killua decided to part ways with gon and heal himself before meeting his former light again, who now turned into something not essentially needed but something even more special.
@@noxaura6298 gon is young and needs to grow himself after what he's been through. i think of they take some time away to become their own person then when they reunite their friendship will be even stronger
they just don't have the need to be together anymore, since killua has already completed his growth, but it doesn't mean their friendship isn't still there
haha actually I had an idea for a fanfic that Gon's daughter and Killua's son fall in love, without knowing about each other's father, and when two families meet, Gon and Killua will finally get to see each other after these so many years
@@noxaura6298 same, that scene make me really uncomfortable when watching it, like didnt you see his hand is already destroyed gon?
"both lucky to have KNOWN and grown from each other" that sounds so sad.
I feel like Gon doesn’t appreciate Killua enough...
Stfu
@@adamsheldon1971 woah man, calm down there
@@user-ty7sg9fd5k stfu bozo
Its not that he doesnt appreciate Killua. Gon doesnt realize the mental and emotional turmoil that Killua is experiencing. Especially since Killua doesnt verbalize it. Gon is a dense character. But he cares for Killua maybe as much as Killua cares for Gon.
Tf is you point lol, Gon doesn't need to appreciate him or anything just like how Killua doesn't need neither
Crap crap crap I’m crying in public
sssssssaaaaaammmmmmeeeeeee
@@laurenhernandez6012 are you guys still crying?
Josiah _ BBABAHAHAHHAHSJJDJSKSKS
Josiah _ yes
This is why Killua is my favorite character and why I love this anime, he started out with no goal and a dark past. But thanks to his friendship with Gon and experiences in the open world, he resisted the manipulation of his parents and brother, saved his sister and found he the path to himself. that his friendship is of equal value. the moment he took the needle out of his head was one of my favorite moments when he chose his friendship for Gon above all.
Killua is easily my favorite anime character to ever exist, his character development is phenomenal. Despite having a rather unusual past (I don't know many 12 year olds who are full time assassins) I really find it easy to relate to him. His lack of self-worth and disattachment from his family are probably things a lot of young people suffer from. I too share the same mindset he had, his concept of friendship being a debt that needed to be repaid was pretty similar to mine except that I never actually met "the ray of light" I need like he did. Whenever I felt like someone became my friend I always worked so hard to be useful to them, to give them a reason to stay friends with me, I would continuously sacrifice myself for them which led many of my so called friends to see me as vulnerable and easy to use, "can you lend me some money -that I will never give you back- ?" "Can I copy your assignment -and leave you to write a completely new one for yourself- ?" "Can you do that for me -but it is something that I would never do for you- ?", I never even dared to expect any of my friends to help me with something, I never dared to ask them for anything, I always feared that once they realize I am useless for them or once they realize that I am just annoying for asking them to do anything that they would abandon me. I immediately recognized this character trait in Killua, he always sacrificed everything he had to repay Gon for leading him out of the darkness, the only difference in his case is that Gon never tried to use him, at least not consciously, Gon knew that friends are destined to help each other which is why he helped Killua before without thinking twice, Gon never knew that Killua lacked this much self-worth, he thought that friendship was a very simple and understandable concept and he thought that Killua shared the same thoughts with him. The miscommunication between the two always broke my heart, the words Gon said to Killua are probably the worst words he could ever hear, if he called him stupid or something like that I am pretty sure it would have hurt him less than telling him that he doesn't care and that he has it easy. Gon didn't know how much Killua struggled to build that little bit of self-worth up until then and those words coming from Gon out of all people hurt Killua even more. I am really glad he ended up learning about the real values of life, he finally realized that he deserves to be happy without having to repay anyone, friendships are built on equality between both friends and he got to realize that at the end. Killua is such a well-written character that I could write a whole essay about his character.
Very late to comment but I wanted to say this is a very thoughtful analysis.
I too came to greatly identity with Killua, despite initially loathing him and his overly edgy backstory. My family are by no means master assassins but deeply toxic and self centered. To the point my best sources for validation and self worth growing up were either neglectful in one parent or only provided it when I conformed to their desires of the other.
Similar to you, I began to try and perform a myriad of services for others in hopes they'd decide I was worthwhile only to be used and discarded once I wasn't needed. Which in turn led me to rely on the tools my family had taught me to get results, manipulation. Which only then caused me to sabotage any bonds I did form as I felt I was unworthy of them due to said manipulation. Sadly it took me till I was 18 to realize the folly of my actions. Which was then accompanied by even deeper shame and self loathing.
As a result killua's arc is quite cathartic and I hope we both reach a similar end point that he does.
Apologies for the overshare.
Even if it was taken down
It gave me a reason to rewatch this amazing vid :b
Killuas story is probably my favourite depiction of friendship and self-worth in fiction. Best boi.
6:14 Listening to Leorio's voice made me tear up...I only now realized how much I will miss his VA...
Killua hadn't been loved his whole life until he met Gon. He constantly told people that friends don't need to thank friends, friends are supposed to be there, no thanks needed." Killua felt that Gon wasn't his friend because he thanked him a lot. So much of killuas time was spent thinking "I must protect Gon". I know they love eachother and they would do anything for eachother but Killua doesn't always realize that Gon loves him. I hate how not much people talk about when Kite almost shot Gon and Killua Jumped on top of Gon while pushing him to Protect him from the bullet and save his life. That scene had to be one of my favorites but most people don't notice that scene. Since killua didn't feel love his whole life (only when he was with alluka 10 years ago) Gon was that special to him. In one scene Killua says "Gon, you are light itself... sometimes your so bright I must look away" and if you look closely at episodes before, he looks away from Gon a LOT so you can tell he really thinks of Gon and so optimistic it's light. When killua broke down, screaming and crying, when fighting palm. He felt useless, and unworthy he was explaining that all that matters is if Gon is Okay. Technically Gon was the only reason he was living from killuas point of view. All he wanted to do was protect him. They are only 12 but this is the most depressing story I've ever heard.
Aisya Malika, had a comment on this video that inspired me to write more this is somewhat like hers so please like her (or his idk) comment:
HxH left me filled with Joy that they were happy, but it also left me empty, and In tears. You see they were smiling when they said goodbye "Kite said wherever we go we'll always be friends!" gon said before they turned away. So they were smiling when they turned... But the minute they couldn't see eachother anymore they stopped smiling. This was too the point where everyday I had tears streaming down my face and I felt incomplete if I didn't watch HXH everyday. You see the ending was Ging and Gon. But when Gon was walking up the world tree, it showed all his past memories from a lot of the episodes. I was happy but so sad at the same time. I don't feel like watching anything else because I know it won't mean as much to me. By the way I finished HXH the day I'm writing this, so I'm glad I still have 2 movies to watch but then again, I've seen some spoilers of the movie.. I saw killua try to kill himself and get jealous of gons new friend.. and I saw Gon use forbidden power to protect Killua. All of this had me in mental breakdowns. It's so hard to explain but I just feel *empty* but I love this series so much I'll never let it go.
That sucks the video was copyright striked :/ I hope you can get it revoked soon, you should be okay since the video was educational and that falls under fair use, though I'm not too sure how this copyright rule interacts with anime clips. I already watched this masterpiece video, sucks to see this video you worked a long time on got striked.
@@polar3593 it's not really copied but it might be because he used clips from the anime which is still an unsatisfactory answer because of all the AMVs and unedited fight clips. I'm not even sure who did the claim here, but Japan is notorious for copyright claims despite actual Fair Use.
CZcams is bullshit. Copyright rules on here are bullshit. CZcams needs to either die out or change this bullshit system they use for copyright because it's straight up sickening to watch great tubers get fucked again and again by this.
Andrew
Agreed, I hate that type of shit!
Is... is it bad for me to download this? Im worried that this would be taken down again.
@@merlink.7287 a pop
This right here is why I love Killua and Gon's relationship. I don't care if you view it as romantic, platonic, or even brotherly, it is clear that their relationship is the beating heart of Hunter x Hunter, and the single most important aspect. It is why I love the series so much and why I didn't just watch it and go "huh, that's a cool anime" and then move in with my life. It's such a beautiful representation of friendship in fiction, one which I haven't seen be topped before or since.
I feel so sad that I can relate on so many levels with Klillua despite not seeing the manga or anime.
Kins who love you but has become smothering, controlling, and even belittling along the way, insecure about self-worth, has trouble making relationships and been drilled to distrust others.
I have been and am still trying to break away from the toxic programmings of my mother but it's an ongoing process and it is hard especially since it's not like I can magically meet someone line Gon to help me out of my shell.
you know, though the splitting of Killua and Gon was emotional as all hell, I was almost... glad! It finally let killua out of Gon's overwhelming light and allows him to become his own 'light'! Killua had come such a long way in his own journey of discovering his own self-worth but with what Gon pulled, that all almost went all down the drain. the despair he felt for letting Gon almost throw away his entire life wouldve broke him if it actually followed through.
But as he once again cleaned up Gon's act, Killua finally figured out he could become his own 'light' to his sister like gon did for him.
It was then Killua figured out he too had someone that needed to rely on HIM instead of it being the other way around. Because Gon screwed up badly, it finally led Killua to go and discover his own self-worth, finally bringing the cycle of 'light' that gon started all over again.
God this anime and killuas character development is beautiful
Thank you so much for this amazing analysis. While watching the series, I wondered why I related to Killua so well even though we come from completely different backgrounds. Now I know. I, too, have had a tremendous struggle trying to develop any sense of self-worth. Two years ago, I was deeply depressed, caught up in a cycle of self-loathing, and disillusioned by the realization that I had never known genuine friendship. Then I met a friend online who gave me a sense of purpose and managed to convince me, at least some of the time, that I wasn't completely worthless. However, I developed patterns of dependence, a sense of inferiority, and hero worship that were remarkably similar to Killua's dynamic with Gon, even though my friendship with this person was very different in other ways. I was only a worthwhile person insomuch as I mattered to him, but at the same time, with the monstrous debt I felt I owed him for rescuing me from that dark place, and how much more talented, courageous and internally strong I believed him to be compared to myself, I was constantly haunted by the thought that I didn't deserve to be his friend and that I could never repay him for what he'd done for me. At times I even resented him for being, in my mind, so superior. While I enjoyed interacting with him, I was always nervous and reserved, terrified that if I were to truly relax and be myself, I would accidentally cross a line and be rejected. Eventually, I overcame this and started to discover my true self and determine my own path, but it took a lot of time and growth. Like Killua, I'm finally beginning to glimpse my worth and purpose beyond my usefulness to the person closest to me, and to realize that I had been talented, courageous and strong all along, even if it was hidden under layers of fear and self-doubt. Although my family is far from abusive, my friend also helped me to break free of some of the harmful notions I had picked up from them. I'm autistic, and until recently, neither my family nor I knew. Often, they assumed my odd behavior stemmed from meanspiritedness, laziness, duplicitousness, or a desire for attention, when I was really just trying to be good and to imitate what I knew to be correct behavior even if I didn't always get it right. Because they didn't understand me, I was often sidelined, dismissed, or shut out. This contributed to my negative self-image and fear of being genuine, which I managed to overcome with the help of my friend. Now I'm excited to see what my future holds.
The best analysis of a character ever made got copyrighted. In the words of Darth Sidious, ironic.
Please explain the irony
@@user-op2bh7rc9z He's contributing to the character's popularity, but still got cancelled.
Wolfram von Vyller, the Wizard there’s no irony in that it’s just unfortunate. Having the ability to save others from death but not yourself... that’s ironic.
djdkxo
19:50 This is even more painful of a sentence when you know a bit of japanese and how the ambiguity of that language works for this.
"Kankei nai kara" literally just means "because there's no relation" but obviously the context of his previous sentences works to make it mean "you aren't related to Kite" but the ambiguity can also make it mean "because you, Killua, have no connections"
20:56 "If I can do anything to help Gon, I'd be happy to." Hearing it in Japanese, it finally clicked for me that "Nanika" means anything.
Something* but yeah.
@@mycommentisgonnaruinyourday122 lol it also means anything and nothing depending on context. But my point was that Nanika grants anything the asker wishes for.
guyty
I can't wait for Killua to grow up into a fine young man 💖💖💖
22:22 Look. Killua became Ikalgos light, just as Gon was Killuas light
:')
It's the fact that he went from a monster to a kind and compassionate person really hits me in the feels. That being said, when I saw Killua cry for the first time, so did I.
What company? Tell me so I can actually end them
The Hunter x Hunter 2011 Dickriding Association Nippon
Nippon Television Network, we might need to hire a Zoldyck or 2
Quicksilver Consider it done
@@quicksilver446 get illumi, I hear that guy is pretty good
meh... I heard Milluki could do a cleaner job by using drones xD
When Gon basically shattered Killua's heart, I knew, that Killua felt freed (but I still yelled and screamed at Gon for saying that)... The Chimera Ant Arc is one of my favorite coming of age stories..
I felt so emotionally connected to this anime. Watching this upload has helped me understand why I love not just Killua, but all the hunter x hunter characters (leorio being my favoritite. Killua and Gon are the scariest 12 year olds ever 😛 .) I'm watching the entire series over again from the very beginning. It's a journey worth taking again.
This may be redundant, but I think that Killua was mostly thanking Palm for reminding him of his importance to Gon and for reminding him of his own value. For someone that had known the two of them for a relatively short period of time (not to mention someone that wasn't too fond of him previously) to be able to see that value had to have been so incredibly relieving. After seeing this video, I think it becomes more clear that even if he was just thanking Palm for helping with the mission, he is thankful for her reminder and he really needed to hear it.
That whole exchange with Palm and Killua is one of my favorite moments in the series, and it never fails to make me shed some tears.
I love the flower that symbolized Killua that popped up through the video.
One of the most beautiful character developments of all time.
I feel like I just saw episode 147 all over again :’v I’m so proud of Killua, he’s such an awesome character :’)
I do think Killua's journey to be a whole person is not over yet at the end of the serie - with his sister, he still adopts a very protective role to find value. He will always be a person who yearns to nurture and care for others to feel useful, and has a tendency to overdo it and put a lot of pressure on himself (we can see it already with how emotional he is about his role as a big brother, and how hurt he is when he feels like he has failed Alluka or Nanika). However, it does seem better for him that his relationship with his sister is a lot more affectionate, with feelings out in the open. He is definetely more confident in himself, and he knows now that he is worthy of other people's trust. Thanks for the analysis, it sums up why I love Killua so much!
Killua is absolutely my favorite character in this series. His character is genuine and relatable.
It's real damn shame when analytical videos completely under the terms of fair use like this here for example get taken down unfairly.Especially when they're as well done and thoroughly cover a character as fleshed out regarding Killua's arc.
He's easily my favorite character outta the main cast who resonates real strongly with me on his path to extreme independence. You did this adorable badass little assassin justice dude and I hope the original upload dispute gets resolved real soon so more people can view all the hard work/research you put into explaining Killua's personality and background as a whole.
You are doing gods work
mike Dempsy
Agreed
Killu 😭 damn, he thought he was a tool in his friendship 🥺💔
That palm scene will always make me cry like a baby with killua
Amazing video dude 👌🏼👏🏼
Man, do people at CZcams not like HxH or something?
I've noticed that a lot HxH stuff has been getting taken down lately. From reaction channels to AMV's to small HxH scenes.
Meanwhile other animes that are like 10 years old, like old Dragon Ball fights & scenes, are still up & running no problem on CZcams.
Nah I think its just youtube in general their copyright system is highly flawed.
Maybe author is pushing for it cause we're getting new content soon and he doesn't wanna spoil anything for new readers ? A girl can dream
Probably cus it's so popular right now that they dont want people to see it free
The way killua looks at gon 🥺
killua is so perfect, he should never think of himself so low, i was about to quit watching the show if what happened in episode 101 followed through.
i just want to add this could be the perfect intro to a killua side story/movie
*I'm crying tears of happiness but also tears of sadness at Killua's and Gon's departure though.*
"its a miracle that he's still smiling" - Bisky
Are you a psychologist or psychology student? Even if just for hobbie? Cuz woah, you nail the scientific terms so well.
i think 🤔 he even knows philosophy too because he talked about pragmatism and how it affects killua's perspective
chcioff
He said he is a psychology student in a comment i saw in another video
As i said under the original video, brilliant piece, enough to had me tear up by the end of it.
Great write up on one of the biggest issues of our period, self-worth.
I relate to this so much.
Also the presence of masterfully written characters like Killua, Gon, Kurapika, Meruem, Knov and Shoot amongst the others shows how much of a gargantuan author Togashi is even taking into account his issues.
I love this video it’s sad not many people know how good of a character killua is most just see him in the artificial level
I love Killua’s journey so much I relate to it on another level. 2 years ago I would proudly say I was truly happy with where I was as a person. Today even though I’m physically, mentally and emotionally stronger than I’ve ever been I’m so very weak. I’ve been away from family and friends for 2 years only seeing them for a week every 6-8 months. I can’t do this much longer the loneliness I feel is so isolating I miss everyone but even more I miss my old self.
Alex. Love your videos. I have a recommendation for a good Hunter Hunter Video. The Parallels Between The Royal Guards & Meruem with Gon, Killua, Kurapika, & Leorio.
The Royals represent a Dark Version of The Main Cast......at least at first. Another thing I noticed and I’m sure Togashi planned this but introduction to The Royal Guards and Meruem are opposite to The Main Cast.
Killua is Last and Pitou, the Royal Guard that represents a parallel to him is seen first. Both are introduced as Dark and Cold Characters but as time goes on, they shine brightly.
Kurapika is Third to appear and Pouf is Second. Both are Smart Intellects yet they lose their composure to certain things. Kurapika is Spiders and Pouf is nothing to do with The King.
Youpi is Third to appear and Leorio is Second. Both start off as your bland character but as the story goes on you see there is much more to them them first perceived.
Finally we get Meruem last and Gon being the First. Both are based off of The Perfect Mold. Meruem being King (A Perfect Being) and Gon being Perfect in his Purity yet as their stories are told, their Perfect Mold shows signs of cracks until one pivotal moment breaks The Perfect Mold shoeing they are like everyone else.
Interesting parallels but I find the only ones of substantial note to be Gon/Meruem and maybe Killua/Pitou. It's a cool thought but I won't be making a video like this, nor do I really take requests like this. Sorry!
Honestly even if I don't feel the same way, I really enjoy these analysis because it gets us thinking. Critical thinking is a skill too easily forgotten post education.
Aleczandxr No problem. Thank you for the comment. Look forward to your future videos.
This was a nice read that's a good analysis
Gon and Killua remind me of my relationship with my best friend... Thanks for the video
This video is an actual masterpiece! Even watching it after two years, I still cried. Yes you can call me a crybaby but this video is just overall perfect. The scenes used the wording and the overall message, incredible!
now i understand the lyric to the last ending song 'it's too soon to live your life waiting to get old'
3:08 "...sometimes even in spite of our nature."
*Flashbacks to The Solitude of Kurapika*
"Kurapika is the embodiment of nature vs nurture(something along those lines)." How do you always manage to reference your own videos? Gotta hustle and get them clicks xD
damn, and its a great video
No analysis made me cry more than this one😭
I really think killua is a character I relate to on an insane level, his story of self worth and just wanting to find connections to people and to love them and doubting yourself bc of being unsure if it’s right to feel that way. I just thought it resonated so much with me and I think that’s why it made me a little teary eyed. I love him absolutely and I hope he gets everything he ever wanted
Wow...your way of explaining everything in a flow has my immense respect.
This video literally highlighted every single thought I’ve had about Killua and confirmed why I adore him as the best boy in HxH idc!!!!!
They have to meet again
Or I’ll fall into the darkness
The fact that i didnt cry when my dad left but i cried 4 times in this video scares me
HAHAHHAHA
No wonder why I couldn't find the original video. I was going through my history, deleting other videos in hopes of finding it. Such a quality video, great explanation and breakdown.
Why did this make me cry
5:42 WHO ELSE THOUGHT HE WAS GONNA SAY 'LOVE' NOT FRIENDSHIP
sometimes family members will sit down with me while I'm watching HXH and eventually they get annoyed because they don't understand why every single time Killua smiles I say "I would die for him," but I swear I cannot help but adore him. Some characters, yes! I love them! But I've never seen such... a human one. He feels so real in a world that is most definitely not ours. He deserves everything and more. And, if I'm being completely honest, if not for Killua I probably would have dropped hunter x hunter. Gon is such a good character, really, and I loved his attitude and his development. When he found his dad I was on the verge of tears, but- despite all that, Killua and Aluka + Something actually made me cry. My chest hurt and I couldn't decide if I wanted to smile or sob. Everytime Killua smiled it MEANT something. Incredible work. His character, personality, and development is one that is hard to come by. I've only ever felt the same with some characters, and oddly one of them is Gintoki Sakata (who shares similarities with Killua, but they are also so very different). I'm so blessed that this was made during my lifetime.
I only watched HxH before because I thought (this white haired kid with neko-like features is so cute) Killua and didn’t expect to be so hook!
I really appreciate the intro where you’ve edited together all those clips and voice lines that perfectly illustrate his struggles
genuinely cried at this video bc i relate so much to his struggle with self worth and purpose and im so proud of and inspired by him for growing and overcoming it
This is absolutely beautiful. Killua is by far one of my favorite anime characters of all time, & this video reminded me of just how fantastic he is. Great job!
The thing about Killua not being confident in himself also shows when he surrenders to Pokkle. He wants to prove to the crowd that he is better than being matched up with Pokkle, and does it to shows off. To show that he can spare losing a match. It will not matter for him.