Fi’s fight back - anorexia recovery on appointment day

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  • čas přidán 21. 08. 2024

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  • @ArmaOperator
    @ArmaOperator Před 2 lety +4

    Two things that helped me with those thoughts and anxiety after eating were the following (as taught by my psychiatrist at the time):
    Visualise a stop sign as SOON as the thoughts come in the brain. In the beginning the stop sign would go up every 5/10 seconds for ages and ages, but over time the stop sign was needed less and less. This is a CBT technique to break thought pattern habits.
    Also, when feeling super anxious count back from 5. It can help snap you out of that anxiety.
    Sorry I know this is totally unsolicited advice, and please ignore if it’s not right, but just in case it helps, these two techniques just helped so so much for me.

  • @cindylee7319
    @cindylee7319 Před 2 lety +10

    Hello Fiona. I don't have anorexia, but I do have GAD (general anxiety disorder) and C-PTSD (complex post traumatic stress disorder)...so I really do understand the anxiety & fear. Some of my worries are absolutely ridiculous, but it doesn't stop me from being anxious. So we do have some things in common. Thank you for sharing your story today. It really, really helped me as well. You were very encouraging!! Just know that there's this person over here in the U.S.A. who is supporting you every single day. I'll end with one of my favorite quotes, so you can remember that we are indeed courageous!! 😍
    "Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the assessment that something else is more important than fear.”

  • @madelinelowney3083
    @madelinelowney3083 Před 2 lety +23

    When things feel wrong/overwhelming, I try to class then as "towards" or "away" moves. As in towards your goals and values, or away from them. Sometimes that is a nice way to distance yourself from the emotions of them and keep on track.
    You're so insightful and I love these videos btw. Future you will be so proud of current you for fighting so hard.

  • @BrandiBcrazy
    @BrandiBcrazy Před 2 lety +3

    Ohhhh when you said “you know what, I’m proud of myself for having that bar”… you are healing, you are changing and growing into who you are meant to be. Sooo much love to you. You are loved more than you know! We need you here!

  • @christinemorgan5278
    @christinemorgan5278 Před 2 lety +17

    You are doing great,even your voice is stronger, now that you are giving your body the fuel it needs . Keep going Fi.

  • @nicolagwatkin2137
    @nicolagwatkin2137 Před 2 lety +3

    Fi I’m so proud of you watching you the last couple of weeks, keep going don’t give up. There will be harder days. I found a quote and thought of you “recovery is full of ups and downs. There is no such thing as a linear life.but you can always turn your setbacks into setups and come back stronger” Britney burgunder xx

  • @dianemitchell5363
    @dianemitchell5363 Před 2 lety +20

    Dear sweet beautiful Fi - your strength amazes me! I am so incredibly proud of you!! Started following you on Tik Tok right before Christmas and I check in on you every single day! Always remember you are not alone...you have your "Fi Fighters" all over the world! 💜💜💜

  • @gosse1km
    @gosse1km Před 2 lety +3

    I love watching your videos. My struggle is different, but also involves forcing myself to do things my head screams at me that I can't or shouldn't. Every time you cry, and then still eat your meal, or still do your challenge, and just keep going, it inspires me to push myself to go just a little further than the day before. It reminds me it's ok to cry as long as I don't quit. YOU inspire ME.

  • @MintGamezYT
    @MintGamezYT Před 2 lety +4

    You are wonderful. My struggle is entirely different from yours, but watching you fight tooth and nail to tackle yours head on gives me motivation to do the same. I check your pages every morning to follow your journey and want you to know I’m grateful for you. Keep doing the next right thing, we’re all behind you ♥️

  • @tootsla1252
    @tootsla1252 Před 2 lety +3

    Darling Fi! Look what you have done! You are still home! The struggles you’ve pushed through. The milestones you’ve crushed. The voices in your head that you have shoved aside. You are going to get there.

  • @livinglifetothefullovercom9316

    Hello Fi, you’re saying the right things to yourself, and you do have to keep going, I understand it is uncomfortable, I was thinking , I don’t know if this will help you, when I was where you are, one of my support workers suggested I made a scrap book and in the front stuck pictures of what I wanted to achieve and get back to eg dog walking, back dancing, back on my bike, attend a friends wedding, then in the back I stuck photos in of when I achieved them
    And took it out at meal times when I was struggling to look at /remind myself of the things I wanted to achieve. (Hope that make sense)

    • @xristinas2767
      @xristinas2767 Před 2 lety +2

      Omg thats a wonderful idea! I wish you are well and happy ☺️

  • @anne-fleurvanharen6614
    @anne-fleurvanharen6614 Před 2 lety +9

    I am so proud of you! Thank you for taking us with you on your journey

  • @mystiwalker7629
    @mystiwalker7629 Před 2 lety

    You are absolutely amazing! My daughter and I watch you daily! We love you so much! We talk about how strong you are!!!

  • @lyndaalexander6582
    @lyndaalexander6582 Před 2 lety +1

    I’m so proud of you, Fiona. You’re fighting so hard! Stronger each day!

  • @droppingtheweight
    @droppingtheweight Před 2 lety +8

    I am so proud of you!! Your journey has been keeping me on track and finally pushed me to seek out help. You are amazing and keep pushing forward don’t stop pushing to meet your goals. One moment at a time.

  • @teainortakoy
    @teainortakoy Před 2 lety +5

    Does anyone have Fi's PO box address please as I'd like to send something? I don't have any other social channels. Proud of you Fi

    • @hannahvictoria1126
      @hannahvictoria1126 Před 2 lety

      Just found it!
      Fiona Hollings
      PO Box 1670
      High Wycombe
      HP11 9PP

    • @teainortakoy
      @teainortakoy Před 2 lety

      @@hannahvictoria1126 Brilliant! Thanks so much for this, really appreciate it.

  • @juliebergeron2138
    @juliebergeron2138 Před 2 lety +1

    You can do hard things,...you are winning!!!

  • @ronigold2379
    @ronigold2379 Před 2 lety

    You deserve this! You are worthy! You matter!! You can do hard things! You are loved! You are strong!

  • @slhart
    @slhart Před 2 lety

    I can really see your strength coming through in this video. You're doing this. You're killing it. You are getting there!

  • @camkelly7900
    @camkelly7900 Před 2 lety

    You are absolutely glowing!! This moment is the only one we will ever have, you are so brave 💕 keep on fighting!!!

  • @AliciaChenaux
    @AliciaChenaux Před 2 lety +3

    I think you are absolutely marvelous, and I am so proud of you for doing the right thing, even if it is hard. There is a quote I like that says "Always go with the choice that scares you the most. Because that is the one that is going to help you grow." That's what you're doing every day and you should be SO proud of yourself for it. Even if you do it with tears sometimes, you're doing it. Keep doing it. 💚

    • @tootsla1252
      @tootsla1252 Před 2 lety +2

      Then there’s the quote “Make the Choice That Feels Like Freedom.”

  • @clarethomas1677
    @clarethomas1677 Před 2 lety +7

    I remember my sister going on the same journey you are on. She was so brave and fought back to recovery, you will too I fully believe in you. Be brave, be bold and you get Fi back 💞

  • @sarahgray5150
    @sarahgray5150 Před 2 lety +1

    Here from TikTok! I’ve seen a huge change in you! Keep going girl! Xx

  • @charlottsie2187
    @charlottsie2187 Před 2 lety

    I'm proud of you for managing your bar and your dinner! Well done Fi, keep on doing the next right thing

  • @allisonhamilton1245
    @allisonhamilton1245 Před 2 lety

    Those are always hard days. Looking in the metaphorical mirror and being honest with one's self is truly hard. If you allow yourself to go through the hard days you will find that they stop being so hard and are fewer and farther apart. Please remember the people in your life do not want you to disappear because you are worthy .

  • @charlotterose2989
    @charlotterose2989 Před 2 lety +3

    Thank you for sharing your life and journey with us Fi. As someone the same age struggling with anorexia, I don't feel so alone watching your videos and it's helped more than I can say. Your voice is comforting and I feel as though I have a friend fighting along with me ♥️
    sending lots of love and light, stay strong 💪

  • @whatsthestorymorningglory61

    Yes, please, be proud of yourself for eating that bar! That was a huge win!

  • @Kellyirish75
    @Kellyirish75 Před 2 lety +5

    You are such an amazing person Fi! You are so strong, brave, and extremely inspiring! Keep up the great work, i know you will get better everyday although i know it is hard, be easy on yourself, you are doing wonderful 😋🍀

  • @katharinakurz1178
    @katharinakurz1178 Před 2 lety

    You are such an inspiration! Watching this gives me so much strength. You are amazing. Thanks for sharing - you are not alone, dear!

  • @emmy.vosper
    @emmy.vosper Před 2 lety +4

    I relate to you so strongly, thank you for reminding me we can do it

  • @kassidynickerson7064
    @kassidynickerson7064 Před 2 lety

    You are doing an incredible job! So proud of you. Despite not having the outcome you wanted from the appointment, you decided to keep going and fighting. That shows so much strength and determination. One thing that helps me when I’m feeling really low and upset with myself (I don’t suffer from an ED but i thought it might help, and if not then that’s 100% fine it’s just a gentle suggestion) is to write down tasks that I want to do - in the morning. They can be really simple things, for me it’s something like: brush my teeth, wash my face because I have bouts of depressive episodes and find it hard to do simple tasks. Then at the end of the day, make a list of everything you’ve done that day. It really helps you feel proud of yourself instead of looking back on the day and seeing it as a “bad day”. All the best Fi💗

  • @henrygartley2135
    @henrygartley2135 Před 2 lety

    We are all rooting for you Fi. I wish I could take your pain away. I know you will continue to do The Next Right Thing. You will win.

  • @julieormiston8661
    @julieormiston8661 Před 2 lety

    We are ALL cheering for you. You deserve to overcome. Lean on us if you need kind words or support.💖

  • @mojcapokraculja5416
    @mojcapokraculja5416 Před 2 lety

    You look so much better ... keep going FI ...sending you all the stranght you need from Slovenia

  • @carriep5967
    @carriep5967 Před 2 lety

    You are amazing ! You can go this! 1 hour at a time!! You go Queen!!

  • @aliflanagan7669
    @aliflanagan7669 Před 2 lety

    You are doing the right thing

  • @debbiekwak5502
    @debbiekwak5502 Před 2 lety +2

    It made me so happy to hear you say that you were proud of yourself for eating that bar! Keep pushing harder towards the next right thing 🧡

  • @20so
    @20so Před 2 lety

    YAAAASSSSS we love to listen to your final monologue!!! Be PROUD you are that bar, that’s amazing 🥰🥰 Do the next right thing!!!

    • @20so
      @20so Před 2 lety

      *ate, lol

  • @lorenspath6538
    @lorenspath6538 Před 2 lety

    Hi Fi! You are doing great. I get angry and frightened when eating certain foods as well. It can be very scary. Hang in there, and stay strong. Love,Loren

  • @jessami3692
    @jessami3692 Před 2 lety

    Hey Fi, hope you are doing ok today. I recently discovered your channel and respect your positivity and determination to succeed and fight for your life!!! Not sure if you ever watched any of Elzani’s you tube vlogs but found it so interesting that she was so stuck in her patterns up until the point her mum was diagnosed with cancer and she had to step up. The focus was suddenly off her and her eating disorder as she had more responsibility within the family to help out someone else to think about other than herself. Not judging you at all, just found it so interesting that when individuals actually have to take a back seat during their recovery and put others first, eating a ham sandwich no longer seems all that difficult. It puts life and love in perspective. Anorexia is a very selfish disease, believe me I know, as a sufferer I am well aware we (ourselves) are the only ones who decide to recover, decide to eat more, decide that weight doesn’t matter as much as living does. So choose to live, hug a tree daily, find a reason other than food to want to live and thrive and succeed. As everyone always says, food is just for fuel to get us through the day, life is so much more than 3 meals a day plus snacks, life is family and heartache and love and excitement and fatigue and exhilaration from exhaustion. Keep fighting, recover and more on….you will always have bad days where the voice of anorexia will be heard above our common senses but there will also be days where anorexia says shit all and Fi says she’s had an awesome fantastical, fun filled, happy day!!! Xx

  • @DarthRay1969
    @DarthRay1969 Před 2 lety

    Fiona I do not have anorexia. I can not imagine your struggle. But one hour at a time small goals and then one day at a time soon life time goals. Sending you love from Alabama.

  • @Thelandoftoaster
    @Thelandoftoaster Před 2 lety

    I noticed the switch to ham. Proud of you! ❣️

  • @Daisysin100
    @Daisysin100 Před 2 lety

    You are absolutely amazing 🤩 you are not alone absolutely not alone. Perhaps you could drop the ‘big change’ to just change - change is good because it’s improvement. I think you understand the situation and you’re making changes and taking action. you’re absolutely amazing 😻

  • @SuperKellie77
    @SuperKellie77 Před 2 lety

    I’m so sorry your going through this! Don’t listen to the voices in your head.

  • @ashleywithers2969
    @ashleywithers2969 Před 2 lety

    “the Next Right Thing” is an amazing song from the Frozen 2 soundtrack! It’s a mantra of Kristen Bell for when her depression was taking over in her life and all she could do was the next right thing.

  • @BuinidhMoChridheDoAlba
    @BuinidhMoChridheDoAlba Před 2 lety +1

    You are doing amazing! It's extremely hard, but think about how you have come so far, so quickly. The anorexia is so strong, because you are doing so well. You're not better, but you are heading in the right direction. You felt proud of yourself, that is massive

  • @hannahgoodell5931
    @hannahgoodell5931 Před 2 lety +1

    Fiona, you are so incredibly strong and resilient. I have full faith that you will reach the amazing life recovery will give you. You will bloom into yourself and you'll be able to knock anorexia down on its back. I've been through the struggle myself, and sometimes it seems that the life afterwards without anorexia is not promising, but that's the anorexia: IT IS LYING to you. It's going to be hard, but I promise you the freedom and jubilation you will experience when you are free from its reigns will last a lifetime. You can do this. Love from, Seattle ❤️

  • @glynis7970
    @glynis7970 Před 2 lety +2

    Fi,can I just say I don’t think those hours were wasted,they must have been horrendously hard and made you cry which is awful but listening to you I feel you did get something positive. Your voice sounded stronger and as if you had a lightbulb moment,I really hope that’s the case, I also hope that at some point you realise how amazing you are 💐

  • @LornyLuPots
    @LornyLuPots Před 2 lety

    Thats your new quote, do the next right thing. Remember that before eating :) x

  • @mommyamy123
    @mommyamy123 Před 2 lety

    Just keep going do the hard thing. I promise once your on the other side of this that voice will no longer control you.

  • @AmeliaHills35
    @AmeliaHills35 Před 2 lety +2

    A piece of advice that helped me is that the feelings will get to a point where you think it will never end and it is is going to get worse but it will end it will reach a peak and it won't get any worse, the feelings will calm down over time slowly but surely. Just keep the faith! You are so so brave and we are all soo proud of you ❤️

  • @bethbeck600
    @bethbeck600 Před 2 lety

    You are beautiful n u r doing amazing one moment at a time. You got this 😘

  • @sarahgray5150
    @sarahgray5150 Před 2 lety

    Rules are there to be broken darling!! Keep going!!

  • @mariajoseespinosa6576
    @mariajoseespinosa6576 Před 2 lety

    You are doing so well! 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻🌼🌺🌸💕💕💕💕💕💕

  • @kyleehalley4085
    @kyleehalley4085 Před 2 lety +1

    You are a very strong person and it's amazing how far you've achieved. Just know that you'll get through this. I know it's gonna be hard sometimes we might stay in the same place before we start moving forward again but that doesn't mean we go backwards. Just keep moving forward you will get there!! ❤

  • @lisanancoff3462
    @lisanancoff3462 Před 2 lety

    ❤️ You are strong !

  • @nicolaoffert4006
    @nicolaoffert4006 Před 2 lety

    What an amazing girl you are ! You are showing such strength and determination. You should be so proud of yourself. Go Fi ! 😘😘👏👍

  • @Thelandoftoaster
    @Thelandoftoaster Před 2 lety

    You're doing so many good things for your body and for all these people you motivate.

  • @hannahvictoria1126
    @hannahvictoria1126 Před 2 lety

    I'm so proud of you, you are doing so great! 💓

  • @kerrymayhall8900
    @kerrymayhall8900 Před 2 lety

    You got this!!! You have such a beautiful smile and even when you are struggling you fight through and your smile is YOU fighting through your ED!

  • @bageraghty
    @bageraghty Před 2 lety

    You're doing amazing, one day at a time 💪
    You will never walk alone, we are all behind you Fi all the way 🥰🥰

  • @mentalhealthwithalana
    @mentalhealthwithalana Před 2 lety

    Ah Fi, I am so proud of you! You are so beautiful and amazing 🥰 I can relate to what you are going through so much, please know you are not alone ♥️

  • @ksabat9
    @ksabat9 Před 2 lety

    You are amazing! I'm so proud of you for realizing that bar was the next right thing to do. You've got this, Fi!!

  • @traceyrommel1847
    @traceyrommel1847 Před 2 lety +1

    You aren’t alone! We are here for you! 💗

  • @nickidouglas4802
    @nickidouglas4802 Před 2 lety

    Fi - wow your video brought me to tears. You sis are so strong! Do the next hard thing. You can overcome this. I wish i could meet you and give you a big hug!

  • @wendymcgeehan6421
    @wendymcgeehan6421 Před 2 lety

    I'm proud of you, Fi. You're doing the right thing. We all believe in you....we really do. Much love to you

  • @laurajakos5425
    @laurajakos5425 Před 2 lety

    Keep moving forward. You are stronger than you feel you are sometimes. I believe in you and am proud of you - even as a stranger from a different country. You’ve got this.

  • @tiffanymenendez4579
    @tiffanymenendez4579 Před 2 lety

    Keep up the hard work !

  • @kristenmullen897
    @kristenmullen897 Před 2 lety

    You deserve to enjoy eating. You deserve to feel at peace. You deserve to just be. I love the strategy of just focusing on the next "right" step. Keep it simple and keep moving forward. You will get there.

  • @NinasHere4U
    @NinasHere4U Před 2 lety

    For the first time I see life in your eyes! 💖

  • @heatherconnolly8658
    @heatherconnolly8658 Před 2 lety

    You are braver and stronger than you realise. You will get there, you’ve an army walking alongside you ❤️

  • @Vicky-pe5oc
    @Vicky-pe5oc Před 2 lety

    Love that you found so much comfort and hope in the words of that letter today just exactly when you needed it… I don’t know if/what your beliefs are, but this is most certainly a little nudge from someone who is watching over you and protecting & guiding you through both the mountains and the valleys of your journey Fi x ✨💕. Proud of every single opportunity you are taking to pause, reflect & challenge this illness. P.s love that you have been collating your mail and msgs into a book… thats a really wonderful thing to do 🥰Xx

  • @yolybri3095
    @yolybri3095 Před 2 lety

    Dear Fi, besides your care team making the meal plans etc, are you getting therapy? I mean psychotherapy? Because those thoughts, and rules and anxiety need as much attention as your weight. Sending you my love ❤️ you are a warrior, keep going!

  • @cassiesmith8828
    @cassiesmith8828 Před 2 lety

    Stay strong Fi! Keeping moving forward! I believe in you! ♥️

  • @NightmasksHaven
    @NightmasksHaven Před 2 lety

    Sending you love!! Keep going ❤️❤️❤️❤️ 7 months will go by so quickly. You can do anything you put your mind to!

  • @lisacompanion8381
    @lisacompanion8381 Před 2 lety

    I’m so proud of you! I know some of these feelings, & reactions, especially with losing hair. You inspire me to do better & to be better every day. 💞

  • @fish97826
    @fish97826 Před 2 lety

    You can do this, my sister dealt with the same ilness and it is absolute hell, you've come very far and worked hard, don't give up

  • @kenziehieber6111
    @kenziehieber6111 Před 2 lety

    Hi Fiona,
    You are such an inspiration. This seems insurmountable now, but in a few years, it will be behind you. Keep being brave:)

  • @jesster1111
    @jesster1111 Před 2 lety

    You’ve got this Fi! There is another life waiting for you at the end of this. Spending hours agonizing over a protein bar, being wheelchair-bound, the extra body hair…all of that will follow the anorexia once you’ve kicked it to the curb. A life without all that is a life worth fighting for. 😘

  • @nicolacraghill4357
    @nicolacraghill4357 Před 2 lety

    I am so proud of you, you are stronger and braver than you’ll ever know, you are amazing and I felt all the emotions with you, sending so much love and courage to you ❤️❤️❤️ xxx

  • @brigittemcclure4099
    @brigittemcclure4099 Před 2 lety

    Sounds like you had a tough day. I’m so sorry. BUT, you kept going!!!!! That’s amazing! The next challenging meal change will be less challenging because you kept going and didn’t listen to your anorexia. One hour at a time!! You’ve got this!! 💪

  • @zipporaabram1365
    @zipporaabram1365 Před 2 lety

    Fiona thank you for sharing your struggle. Stay strong! 💪🏼

  • @panicdisorder6108
    @panicdisorder6108 Před 2 lety

    I’m rooting for y❤️

  • @valnc1232
    @valnc1232 Před 2 lety

    So proud of you 👏🏻. You are stronger than you think. That’s a very pretty outfit. Love and prayers 🤗

  • @elizabethdunkley5630
    @elizabethdunkley5630 Před 2 lety

    You got this girl!! I’ve been watching you for some time! Super proud of how far you have come!

  • @SalingerNYC
    @SalingerNYC Před 2 lety

    You are amazing and an inspiration, thank you for sharing your journey. You are stronger than you realize and so courageous, you can do this 👍 You are helping so many people ❤️

  • @weiying_alber
    @weiying_alber Před 2 lety

    Hi Fi! I love how strong you are 💖 I just wanted you to know that you’ll become even stronger every day and I’m fighting with you. Sometimes I feel so overwhelmed and I relate so much with everything you feel. I’m slowly getting better ❤️‍🩹 and you’ll get better to, even when anxiety and fears try to pull us down, we’ll rise up and shine ✨ Sending you a big and warm hug 🤗

  • @mrodriguez9324
    @mrodriguez9324 Před 2 lety

    Beautiful you’re doing amazing 🤩 and just like one commenter said in a comment below… you go get Fi back because we can’t wait to meet her.

  • @J3an3ttak
    @J3an3ttak Před 2 lety

    Heck yes! Go Fiona, you can do it! Great motto!

  • @kerrie-anndalsanto973
    @kerrie-anndalsanto973 Před 2 lety

    You go girl, do it for Hugo ❤️

  • @jul62187
    @jul62187 Před 2 lety

    Keep up the amazing work! Take it one day / one hour / one meal At a time!!!

  • @luckyfairfax4890
    @luckyfairfax4890 Před 2 lety +1

    You got this girl 👧

  • @meikedebruijn6971
    @meikedebruijn6971 Před 2 lety

    Im sooo sooo proud of you!!!!!!

  • @phoenixashes0013
    @phoenixashes0013 Před 2 lety +1

    Keep fighting for that Fi who gets to chuck that wheelchair in the bin!

  • @sandee1000
    @sandee1000 Před 2 lety

    Good for you to take the risk

  • @cedgson91
    @cedgson91 Před 2 lety

    So proud of you 💕

  • @ozarkthrift8155
    @ozarkthrift8155 Před 2 lety

    You are amazing 👏 ❤

  • @donnabattistoni3076
    @donnabattistoni3076 Před 2 lety

    Wow your so strong such a hero! Have you thought about juicing ? Great way to get nutrition vitamins and minerals that we all need . just a though if you can do that. I couldnt for a long time simply cause i hated veggie juices taste. I mean liquid carrots eww lol but it really helped once battled my way to the point i could . i am so glad you are such an insperation to well everyone. Thank you

  • @alirode4958
    @alirode4958 Před 2 lety

    Do the next right thing and just follow the plan.

  • @dalilabelahcene6204
    @dalilabelahcene6204 Před 2 lety

    You can do this darling I know you can I believe in you ❤️😘