What Does Depersonalization / Derealization Feel Like?
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Does anyone feel like they forget who they are? Forget what it means to be human and have normal human interactions?
All the time !!!
Yes all the time
Yeah and whenever I look in the mirror I feel like I'm not in my body like my soul is not in my body and it's terrible
We should make a group or something to help each other
There is actually one on reddit. If you search for dpdr sub then theres a group of like minded people going through the same things. Its helped me alot
Depersonalization makes me feel like I'm playing a video game. Like I'm controlling it, but I'm not actually in it.
Z U C C cause we are our brain controlling our body
*CONSCIOUSNESS not brain. The brain is a receiver for consciousness... akin to a radio antenna, at least this is where my experience and research has been leading me.
coldaziceee yeah true, quantum mechanics seems to lead to this conclusion if that's what your referring to. crazy stuff
Precisely ;)
❤
i don’t even feel like a person i just feel like a body walking around and my days fly by and i feel like i’m stuck inside my body and can’t escape
It feels so strange, I hate it so much.
I call it auto-pilot. Your subconscious follows a goal while you can't really tell what it is doing. It just pursues sth. So just set yourself a meaningful goal.
Randy Moss Fan Who are you
{Ashizo} fuck off punk
It's really scary to live this way..
It literally feels like nothing is real. Like the Time is passing WAY too fast
@Patrick William And it feels like yesterday you were 20, or younger
Marked One EXACTLY!!
yes like the past year has felt like a month im not going to lie i feel like life is leaving me behind
Same
i thought i was the only one 😭😭
It's like being asleep with your eyes wide open. That's how I feel
Good way to put it, that's how It feels like a deja vu, dreamlike feeling
+jackwgn Um. I don't think it is derealization or anything with anxiety but, when I was quite younger, I was in bed once and I felt my surroundings come intensified or becoming faster and faster. I think I was kinda in a dreamy state. You know what it is?
+GoingQuackers omg yes that is exactly what I have, the first time I experienced it I thought I was going insane D:
Me too! Like sometimes i'm walking and my legs go numb, and it feels like i'm in slow motion. Other times i just feel like i don't know who i am and i think so hard about who i am for example, my name sounded strange and alien-like.
+Lauren Bmth That's more like being self aware. Not necessarily bad (:
Does anyone else just get it randomly? Like one day you’ll be fine but it just happens
edit: thank you guys sm for all the likes! it gets better trust me you’re not alone
Yes but I like it sometimes.
2sStepZilla Car Meets yes I got it sometimes now and then, now I’m having it every day...
It happened to me and then never again
Yep
Yes I figured out what was causing it!
I just feel so weird and empty, like I'm floating in space, somewhere, and life is somewhere else
Yeah... It's terrifying...
Bro we are all not real
kind of same, but i was basically omnipresent because i could see the pattern anywhere, and anything was similarly ugly and simple. just imagining things, anything i tried to imagine was so bleak and i was always reminded on what it is, and couldn't forget about their simplicity, when i went into the real world i kept seeing it and i forgot about literally anything except the pattern i kept thinking about obsessively because it felt like it is there.
@@RazorM97 I have this same exact thing. Makes me wanna end it
@@matilda1044 I feel you. I got out of it because i realized that the world inside my mind isn't real, and the real world is the precursor to what is in my mind
Mine usually starts as a feeling of deja vu that doesn’t go away. Worst feeling in the world.
I'm having it now and I'm scared
@@805mixes I've had it for 3 years non stop 24/7 I've had maybe 3 days out of those 3 years where I've felt normal again, every other day is fucking shit, believe me you just get used to it after suffering as long as me, I've basically forgotten what it feels like to be normal now, FYI: stay away from caffeine and stimulants especially if you also have anxiety.
THIS!!!!
I get dejavu like 5 or 6 times in a year. that alone is a weird feeling, like shit i already lived this moment
Try a plant diet
So, I think we all need to have a big group hug. Who's with me?
Yess.. it feels like days go by too quick and my memory feels weak.
Hugs for both of you 💕💖
Rainy Day Me! 😃
STG
No
It feels like you're in a video game that you're not controlling
how are you now?
I've always likened my life to a video game and I have had two mental breakdowns in my life where I was convinced that nothing is real. I've always felt really far away from people and looked at my own reflection and not recognised it almost? Like I have to look at myself in the mirror every few days or I'll forget who I am and what I look like. I've also felt like I'm not there at times and I believe in determinism (the idea that free will is an illusion and everything that happens is caused by a million outside factors that you can't possibly be aware of all of them). And the weirdest part is that for years, when I laugh at something, it's like it wasn''t me laughing? I've been having pretty severe mood swings so the doctor gave me a working diagnosis of Bipolar 2 and put me on Seroquel XR. I'm up to 200mg now and I feel completely normal and like it's actually me who's laughing now, if that makes sense, and I feel more connected to reality. Never even considered depersonalisation as a possibility, maybe it's just part of the mood swings.
true!
i feel like I'm trapped in somebody else's body. i find myself doing things to try and ensure myself that i an actually doing those things, but I always feel like I'm not actually who I am. that probably makes absolutely no sense, but that's how I feel.
RageCreator 2996 i feel exactly lile you
I’m literally crying. I thought I was crazy omg it’s so nice not feeling Alone anymore.
m i r a c h i I need help, i wake up, feel good and then feel out of it. I want help, but I don’t want to sound crazy.
Smoked too much?
Pepadew Yeah I took an edible, I think I had a panic and anxiety attack.
Yeah, I started going through it about 6 months ago, when you posted this. It feels so nice to not feel alone or crazy.
@@rich778 hey, dude, you are NOT alone. I'm right here with you bro, I'm so fucking sorry for you, just know, it will get better. I've recovered significantly, but I still struggle every single day and night. I got it from smoking pot, built up stress, and a panic attack. You can text me about it whenever you want on my instagram @chilipotpie
life doesnt feel real tbh
esSquad ‘tis but a dream
kevin purdy ikr I remember that today at middle school I was walking in the hall and my object was to go straight to class but I was talking to my friends in the middle of the hallway and I saw people walking slowly and than to myself and than for some reason it was like a movie that I couldn’t move and I saw people going pass by just like nothing was real it seems so fake and scripted
this isn’t real if you are reading this that means that you have passed the stage of life. You will now go back to your spirit form soon. Thank you for your time
I feel like I am just living the same life over and over like it’s already played out this shit gay then a dab I ain’t smoke for 2 years cuz of probation then I smoke and I started feeling weird it’s been 3 months and I still feel the same
@@dehydratedpotato6643 😂😂 just stop
The worst part about it for me, is that when i try to explain what i'm feeling to my friends, they have no clue what i'm talking about as they dont experience it. It makes the situation worse because you literally feel like you're in a dream, and everyone's ganging up on you - you feel so alone
Olivia R yeah thats why i dont want to talk to anyone about it.
Alicia & Rell I'm sorry that you had that experience! I've also had negative experiences with doctors but please don't let that stop you from seeking help from a therapist that will suit your needs. It's truly a breathe of fresh air once you find a good doctor to talk to and someone who is trained (psychologist, etc) shouldn't judge you at all and will understand what it is that you're going through
Olivia R ??????
Olivia R same
you just took the words right out my mouth☹️
I had depersonalization for 2 years. I’d explain it as, the days go by in a blink. One moment it’s Monday, the next moment it’s Friday three weeks later. You don’t notice, care, or think about anything. I honestly can barley remember anything from those 2 years.
This is so accurate
You just don't live life anymore and its hearthbreaking
True. Time flies by, very quick. And you care less about things. The one thing that helps me a lot: keep doing the things that you always liked. Your collections, music, movies, travelling, etc. It keeps you focused.
@Robbin Ruben I recognize this very much. You are working, but you don't know for what reason anymore. And people don't understand it. Even if you do have friends, they still don't get it, at all. But you're not alone, that's good to know I guess.
You just described my last 6 years. I feel I'm beginning to wake from it and it's the single most painful traumatic thing I've ever pushed through. I'm so fucking tired of just pushing through.
Just searched up “i don’t feel alive” cause that’s how I’ve been feeling. Anyone else?
I’m convinced I died on an acid trip a few months ago. Literally everything is off my life it’s just on a repeating loop that I can’t escape.
i looked up “i’m on autopilot” because that’s how it feels
I looked up "I feel nothing".
I searched I dont feel alive too thats so crazy i thaught im just the only one its like im inside my head just watching my self doing things or just like a first person movie
YES
I constantly feel like I’m watching everything through a soundproof glass window where I can see everyone is sooo happy and laughing and having fun. While I’m screaming and yelling for help and I’m stuck in this dark room left alone with my hands tied behind my back. I ask for help but constantly push people away. I’m so close to the edge it scares me.
Facts
Fuck dude i could’ve wrote this myself i felt this like nothing else. I hope you’re feeling okay
Thats the best way I've seen it put yet!
When I first got depersonalazation, I looked at my hand for 15 minutes and I was like "wtf is this!"
when i first got it was bad i went through a pretty bad panic attack because did not what was going on
Me too, sometimes I just look at my hand and move my fingers and examine them, and I’m like what is this ?
Lmao
Me when I smoked weed
Same, sometimes I would look down at my hand or foot and feel like I couldn't control it or I was watching my body do something that I was in no control of.. it happens almost every day and it is getting worse and worse...
Depersonalization is impossible to explain to someone who hasn't experienced it. The best way to describe it is that nothing seems real. You don't even feel like you're inside your body anymore. Your body itself even seems foreign to you. It's a really freaky experience, and if you're curious about how it feels, just enjoy your sanity.
Yes, sometimes I feel weird hearing myself talk.
+Nikita Rivera That was actually my first symptom, i'd feel like the world and my voice in particular wasn't real unless i plugged my left ear, which helped abit. Strange sensation
Depersonalization feels like you're watching television from first-perspective...
The scariest feeling in the world for me. My personal way of how it feels is my body and mind detached from me and they’ve started growing dependent from me and the real me is slowly disappearing from the scene
Henry Centeno oh my god same it sucks. i hope we both heal.
Does anybody ever like feel like they going have a panic attack ? When they feel it
I do
Me. Often times I get DPDR after panic attacks or anxiety.
Rarely it just feels like its a dream though
yesss, it also happens the most in math class
@@giada_okayyy7450 Its like you get sweaty palms your eyesight gets strained you know your fucking dead
This video gives me comfort. To know that I'm not alone in what I feel. Thank you.
Curtis Waters I have it too
This video made me cry because I thought I was the only one going through this but now I know. THANK YOU SOOO MUCH
Cian Cullen I'm with you!!! I have been so confused lately thinking I was the only one!
Me too
Same
Cian Cullen same. I had it a year ago for along time. I got it again after a panic attack just a couple days ago. Stay strong it gets better. I'm here to fight it again. These videos always help
I think ive had and i been scared i think i got in november with my gramma and she died last month
Ive had this since I was a kid, didnt realize there was a name for it. Just always thought I was weird.
Did you get it out of the blue?
I loved the feeling of being like a GTA character. Like I looked at me from 3rd person. Felt great.
Wth dam bro that sux
I felt it was normal
I though It was something that comes with growing up lol
The past feels like a foreign history. The one in the past and the one here are two different essences..
I'm weird to myself..
odel levi yes. This. Perfect way to put it!
Yesss I miss my old self
Stay active keep your mind busy
I don't know how or when it happened, there isn't a particular time. It just set itself in with out me knowing, and now I want to know what it feels like to feel again. Just to be myself.
Seeing all these comments are really reassuring, it's good to know I'm not alone in feeling this.
No one has ever believed me when I say that smoking weed made me feel this way. I tried it one time years ago and I've felt depersonalization ever since.
This has been reported before. And I started smoking weed a few years ago and this also has happened to me
One grounding technique I learned is called the 5,4,3,2,1. When nothing feels real. Look around you, name 5 things you can see, 4 things to touch, 3 things you hear, 2 things to smell, and 1 thing to taste. The sensory awareness might help a little bit.
SunshineStylinson One way you could try to relieve the effects is to do some sort of interesting activity that requires alot of physical and mental interaction. Scuba diving helped me personally
Trap Sensation I love you! Thank you for spreading this message!
I had this the last time I smoked. Lasted two days after taking one hit. It all started when I got fixated in the mindset that I didn't want to be high anymore. I wanted to be NORMAL. that's the key, the fixation on trying to be normal and the perpetual fear of not being able to come back. That fixation feeds the cycle. Your only hope is to let go, YOU WILL BE OK. Stop TRYING to act normal. you are normal, I know this is scary but if you accept it. It goes away
When I talk if feel like I’m scripted to say it and how I act and for some reason when I talk I feel numb
Yoo who's watching this while having depersonalization?
me Omg
Yes
Absolutely Me
I think i rather have brain fog instead of dp dr because it is so hard to focus. Like i'm in my own world even talking to family and friends completely changed. Started talking about something that happed to me during the day and suddenly stopped because i forgot what i was on about. Trouble with sleeping like i don't know how much i sleep how much i just lie down. Intensive dreaming. Also my body is shaking heavily when exercising. Sometimes shrinking of the whole body. Feeling dull like i can't keep up after what somebody is saying. Choosing the right words is hard. Closing eyes and there is emptyness in my head like all neurotransmiters are at malfunction. My language is not english.
EDIT: I'm doing the Wim Hof Method breathing every morning and cold showers before bed. Every day joga or excercise and learning japanese. It's hard because it will be half a year now and there is still constant dr. It's like I'm in my own world inside my head and watching everyone around having normal conversations. Also vision is disturbed like being behind invisible barrier. I would love to have a GF by myself. It's been couple years now being single and I know that I am a kind of a guy that many girls these days would love to find. Realy caring and treating with respect. But this dr and lack of clear mind is exhausting and kinda stopping me from trying. Should I get through full mental recovery first? Or maybe it's the girl that could help me to do so.
i just came a while after
If what he is saying makes sense to you, I'm sorry. Because only people that have been through it will know exactly what he's saying.
sad but true
It is very much so an aquired experience. Even if someone tries to understand without having the same symptoms, they never will because it's such an abstract feeling.
This is same with me,the only problem with me is I won't have any confidence to talk to anyone and this really hurts.
I feel like I am not me what I used to be.I am more depressed and less fun.I used to be among the favourite.I feel so bad for myself,I must stop smoking weed.
me too.This is my gf's account I am 22 years old male.I got no emotion for 8 months now.I want to return:(
Venus it’s terrifying
Does anyone feel like they forget where they are? Like, I'll be watching TV or in the middle of a task at work and completely forget where I am and have to remind myself where I am.
xxMisterJxx SAME
xxMisterJxx same
Exactly what it is
Me too
Same
"you'll never understand what we've been through until you experience it yourself"
It happened for me when I was in highschool, after severals philosophical courses (I'm French) and I litteraly lost my mind, like the reality doesn't even have a fcking sense, like the life, as a human, was base on...nothing. I felt desperate, I talked to my family, my friends, but no one was able to really understand my feelings. It was more like my vision of this world have changed, and then, after few weeks, I learned to live with this, I completely forgot about it...
Summer 2018, this feeling came back. But it came because I was happy. Very happy. I had nothing to worry about, a great girlfriend, a summer job, an empty house, the time to do my gym... And, without any reason, I felt like nothing had sense, a deep sadness appeared, I had no desir, no vision for my futur... I was conscious of my own existence, and It scared me. Like before, this period was not very long, i just woke up a morning and all was fine. Also this time,I discovered and practiced meditation, 2 times a day, during a month, and I think it helped me to reconnect my mind to our reality
Sorry for my english, I wanted to share my life experience. Take care!
Antoine Bcrt the exact same thing happened to me for months when i was like 13 and as you could imagine being that young it was terrifying but now like 3/4 years later i’ve got it back for like 3 days now and i don’t know how i handled it. you got any tips dude?
This is me rn
Its funny my depersonalization feels as if I am watching someone else live my life. When I experience s extremely stressful moment its almost like I completely seperate from myself and someone else begins to inhabit my body, then afterwards the memory of the moment is fuzzy and unreal. Its like when I experience any time of sensation , hear anything, smell anything, touch anything, feel anything, I feel as if Im not completely experiencing the sensation that I should be. And i know im right because before, what i felt was different I remember it was different. Its now been 5 years that ive lived with this consistently, I lead a normal life, ive learned to cope, but its depressing because I know I must ignore it otherwise I will suffer.
ezra That sounds more like disassociating than depersonalization to me, but I know the feeling.
yourfirst sentence is spot on. i am going theough this as we speak
Isis this is the exact thing that is happening to me
Isis i coudnt agree more, it actually helped me dramaticly with stressful situations ad i could seperate my mind from my body
I have had feelings like these, and a 'distant' feeling from being mentally exhausted, not necessarily traumatized. It's worrying because you feel you cannot respond to what is happening around you. If there was danger would you just sit there, unable to run or protect yourself? There is fear of behaving inappropriately and being thought of as weird.
i have been suffering from both since i was ten and the worst parts are when your family and those closest to you feel unfamiliar. as a 13 year old its terrifying
ikr I completely agree with you I'm currently 11 and i've had it since i was 8 it is the most terrifying thing i've ever experienced.
11!? wow
Dude..You will be okay..
I have had it since 10 too. I feel you man. I always wondered what was wrong with me, and I have recently found out.
Yes I had my first panic attack when I was 12. After the first year it has been mostly uphill. Stay strong
Glad and hope youre getting better! Shout out to anyone suffering through it! 💙 peace and love to y'all!
I watched this video the first time I ever experienced it. This video made me feel so much better. I got out through antidepressants. Came back a few times but now I’m less afraid. It does get better. Acceptance is the key. Thanks Noah
Driving (sometimes) or being in a crowded store makes my mind numb and I don't feel there.
Jarryd Rahm yeah and you have to struggle to concentrate and pull yourself back
in public spaces and crowds, my mind becomes so strange. i feel like an animal who wandered away from the farm, who should not be there. everyone else looks at me so kindly and it's wrong. im not real, im not a person. people shouldn't look at me like I'm a person and I don't understand.
Yes mee too
Yes same
Oml...when he said “I would look at my hands as if they weren’t mine” I honestly cried bc I feel that way A LOT .The thing is I’ve been feeling like this since I was about 9. I’m 15 now and it’s just so scary. I mean I don’t smoke weed, or anything. I get straight A’s and B’s.It honestly feels like I’m watching my life from like...a dome. I’m so glad he broke this down I feel so much better. He explained exactly what I was going through. One night I was watching tv at like 3 am and it hit me. “Why am I here? Am I real? Am I actually this person!?” It was the scariest thing. I felt mentally but not physically dizzy... I feel like I’m in some depressing game that I can’t control with a “joystick”
@Anna_25 just don't smoke i stopped 5 days ago and its getting better
SAME EXACT THING WITH ME!!! It’s so scary and I thought I was the only one who had it :(
yes!!!! i remember these exact sensations from when i was a child. what you said about looking down at your hands but not recognizing them/ your own reality really hit home. i dont remember much from when it happens, but i slowly cue myself back into my head by stating facts about who i am
Thanks so much for being so brave to share your personal story on an intimate level! You are 100% not alone!
Scariest feeling ever!! This happened to me after smoking a joint.
Same I thought I was the only one
to me, it feels like I'm in a world I don't belong in. always
Ann Healey I get this sometimes I don’t like this
Probably because you’re in a simulation called life
Ann D.H. you need to trick your senses and stinulate them aswell. This is real every memory you have is real. Every feeling. I know its frightening. Im battling it to. You need to relax and accept the world around you.
Something keeps telling me you wasn’t like this and you know it each time I remember my old memories i feel disconnected and i just feel like i am watching it in a movie it happened to my brother for four years and he gives me hope that it goes away most times it later makes you appreciate life more and stay away from unnecessary stimulants and stress
Does anyone who suffers from depersonalisation feel like their dizzy like in their mind but their not actually dizzy, it's like my head is detached from my neck down.
I'm not sure if I do suffer from depersonalisation and I'm trying to gather research while I'm waiting to be seen by a professional.
°. • Katebug • .° Not really, then again I only have a mild case of it
hmm I'll have to do some more reserarch, thank you for answering anyways !
hey im writing because im wondering if anybody else has this symptom when they experience DPDR. i dont know if this is a symptom of DPDR, but basically my mind feels blank. no, not a brain fog, but a blank mind. my head feels hallow and almost like my eyes and front lobe are numb. or just floating. its so bizarre. i have no thoughts or no thought process. i feel like i could zone out and stare at a wall for hours... could this be a symptom of DP? maybe this is a way of my mind trying to supress my anxiety? i feel numb. i dont know what to do this is so scary... im only 17. does anyone else relate/understand? also ur probably wondering how im writing this if i have no thoughts... i wish i could explain this , i know i sound crazy but i promise im not. just trying to find sense of all this:( if you want me to go more in depth, let me know. also feel free to email me kellyjphelps99@gmail.com
Kelly Phelps I get that feeling too, it's not like your mind actually is empty, it just feels like it right? Like sometimes you can't form a coherent sentence? Sometimes I can't understand people when they talk, I have to ask ppl to repeat them selves many times, sometimes it's like they're talking a weird language even though I know they're speaking English.
My head feels like it's floating most days.
I'm only 17 too and I thought it was something to do with my anxiety/ depression but I think it's more than that.
Only thing I suggest you do is research and get in touch with a specialist.
yeah its so weird. like when i try to explain to people that my mind is empty, their like ẅell how are u talking to me?"and its like no u dont understand my mind isnt actually empty, but it just feels like it like i cant form thoughts and if i do their half way formed , its almost like a mental block? like a hard core mental block? but like all the time. i dont know whats happening. its so scary
Actually feel like nothing is Real
I suffer from both. Weed makes me panic. Depersonalization makes me feel like I am not real. Derealization makes me feel like the world is not real. When they happen together, I truly think I am dead and I am the only person who doesn't realize it. Thank you for sharing your story.
Andrea Turnquist consider yourself lucky I feel both all the time but my mom pushes me to do things
@@gomez3357 Thank God, for your mom!!
I feel this same way and I look at my tattoos and I realize I’m real
I had this when I panicked while smoking weed.... my friends told me that's cuz i need to get used to it, but I knew something was wrong.... I only had it for a week... I can't imagine having that for years... to anyone who has this... I hope u get better....
I acquired it the same way. Except k2 I had this shit from 2011 to 2013 I have completely gotten rid of it and it never comes back. But like you said I wouldn’t wish this in my worst enemy
just accept your feelings as they are. They're your feelings no matter how u feel accept it. And also have respect for yourself try to be your own best friends. You are not your thoughts and u can also decide how u react to them :)
xxdopeman gamingxx you just have a really low tolerance to weed disassociation is a side affect that can lead to what you went through I went through it very calm probably because I was going through suicidal depression so I felt like that alot
whenever i experience this it makes me worry alot about the future.....sometime i wonder if im alive
Tianna Lawrence I often wonder if I'm in a coma
Shannon Anderson i understand....its really scary but take life one step at a time and meditate at least two times a day.....get distracted talk to people u feel happy around...and you'll c improvement
Yooo!!! Me tooo!!!
yeah, its honestly really scary and im worried theres something really wrong with me.
Same
I came across you about a week ago and have watched a handful of your videos. All I can say is THANK YOU and I never would have thought we would have so much in common. I'm a woman, and much older than you, but I relate to you so very much and have already learned a lot from you. Your honesty is refreshing. Pure honesty because I've lived it. Thank you again. God bless!
I’m glad I found this video it’s so strange to find another who truly understands.
Thank you for this!
we will all together get through this!
hope so I'm 13 I can't do this anymore.
Dionisia Tsiata me too
Blitz Gaming yea man
yea dude my mom dont understand
Dionisia Tsiata hey im 13 too and i deal with it 24/7
Knowing that I'm not alone in this, I can't even explain how happy I am to see this video. Depersonalization is crippling. The worst part about it, is trying to describe it. I feel like part of me is just unplugged. Even on "good" days, it still sneaks up on me. I know this video is old, but thank you for posting this.
i cannot express what this video did for me. i thought that i was the only person who had experienced this- it’s awful. it happened to me when i drank for the first time. i thought i would never come out of it. thank you. it feels unreal knowing that other people have known the feeling as well. thank you a thousand times. subbed.
Wow this literally just saved my life. I've been dealing with this for the past 3 years & I almost just wanted to give up.
Try a plant diet
it gets better I promise!
Hey did you get better?
For anyone who has recently developed DP/DR I just want you to know it gets better. I've had it for a year now but after 5/6 months I came to accept it. At the beginning you're obsessed with it, it's never off your mind. But over time you begin to let go of them thoughts and you slowly come back to reality.
However Things that can help include; taking all your B vitamins, especially Niacin. Take omega-3's, take all your minerals especially chromium can be a big help to many. Start to eat a more organic plant based diet. Try to avoid sugar, caffeine, alcohol, drugs. Get your needed sleep every night, meditate, exercise, socialise. I know it's tough but force yourself to do these things and you'll thank yourself. There's no point laying in bed all day pondering existence, it serves no purpose to anyone.
When these thoughts come to mind, close your eyes take a breath and metaphorically shut a door on them, actually helped me big time.
kanichiwoh that’s exactly what I’m doing and it’s working for me, I’m taking vitamins B12 and D3
Am I the only one that can’t find the source? Like my depersonalization comes and goes , even if I’m not stressed?? And when I have it I feel like I’m in my own world and I’ll say something out loud and then think “wait did I say that? Or did I think it..”
I have a problem with only being capable of ignoring these feelings when I take adderall. I have adhd and it’s the only I can focus on any task without feeling overwhelmed by everything in my head. Nothing feels important enough to spend my time doing so I end up doing nothing unless I’m on adderall. I don’t know how to fight this without drugs
I got this DP/DR while on an Ayahuasca ceremony and it stuck with me for a while. For me It wasn't that bad though. I Think it kinda reflects the truth. The reality we see and experience is not the actual reality but our perception of it and even our subjective perception of it might be an illusion. Anyway, the DP/DC "feeling" disappeared after about a month all that is left is the existential thoughts from time to time. I have however realised that they don't lead anywhere and I end up trying to deal with the reality I have.
It seems kind of pointless most of the time but I guess the point is to make a point out of it.
But why does it feel stronger than what anyone says i want it to be true that ill go away but it feels forever im a Christian and i feel like there isn't even a god anymore but i want to believe i just cant and i get scared when people say everything is fake and the world is a matrix cause that's what it feels like
This video and comment section actually grant me lots of relief, I would never wish this horrible feeling on anyone but it’s comforting to know that I’m not the only one going through this and that it will get better.
Honestly mate I think you're such a wonderful human. So genuine and heartfelt. Keep this up as it's really helpful.
I've had a lot of other mental illnesses that I'd rather not speak of. But I decided to be stupid and take ecstacy. Don't ever do anything when you suffer from mental illness. All the drugs triggered something else. And now I struggle with derealization beyond belief. It's so bad. Everything just feels like a dream but you are awake the whole time. To anyone who deals with mental illness I feel for you. I have my whole life. And I hope everything looks up for you all
I've had should be I have. Sorry about the mistake.
I've dealt with that before , although X brings out my happy self it takes a long time until my brain reproduces more seratonin
+Demarcus Stealyogirl
Yeah. It's been months since I've taken it... And it still is very much here
I've binged, abused the hell out of mdma. It made my depression worse than it was before I started doing it. I feel like sometimes I have the roll of mdma, but without actually doing the drugs. My perception bounces between the two randomly. Making me wondering wtf is going on.
Pikachu dude iv dealt with that exact thing aft r New Years ...getting better but hbu
For me, depersonalization has impeded everything- especially my relationships. I used to do counseling and mentorship for disabled youth, and had to stop. I can't connect with people. I can't find empathy anymore, how does that even happen?! It literally breaks my heart. But I struggle to connect with myself and find self compassion either. I'm like a shell of a person. As far as triggers, it could be so many things bc the last few years have been one crisis after another. You keep living life, but you aren't you any more. I sincerely feel as though an alien has taken over 50% of me. The other half of me is still in here fighting.
God bless, everyone. Don't give up.
May God bless you friend, ocurred to me to. What helped me is actually speaking to someone while slowly breathing. I truly recommend it.
Mary M can we get an update on how you’re feeling? Are you in a better place now? Have you gotten help??
Noah, I found your video while doing some research for a psych paper. I was trying to figure out what depersonalization and derealization looks/feels like. Your video is extremely helpful to me so I can imagine how helpful it has been to those who may be suffering and not understand what they are experiencing. Your authenticity shines through. Thank you for sharing this.
Thank you so much for this video! I don't feel alone anymore. You really made me feel better. Thank you!
I think I might have depersonalization. However I have never smoked weed or done drugs. It started with me getting severly depressed and now I just feel like life isn't real, and I am completely numb to all feelings. Food doesn't even taste the same anymore.
I think your in the exact same situation as me. Except my Fiancé broke it off and told me she never loved me. I shook for 3 hours and the next day, it just came on me.
2987ms Oh, I'm sorry about that :( It really sucks. I wish I knew how to snap out of it.
+bookloaf hey, I think everyone experiences this at different levels. Where life doesn't feel real and where everything feels pointless. I'm in that state right now but the very best tip I can give you is to get something going on in life. Because honestly life is meaningless, and the meaning with life is to CREATE a meaning within that meaninglessness. That's why we're called CREATures. Because we create. A bird creates a nest, a lion creates a flock and so forth.
So get something going in your life regardless how bad it seems. For me I hated school but since it was like a pre put up plan for me, it was easiest for me to follow it instead of creating my own plan. And the busy-ness basically atleast masks the issue. And soon you realize that all you experience is no more than just emotions that evolve from chemicals in your body. But it's more to it, but as the nature of life is to roll, I'd suggest get something going on in your life.
iDropAll Pkers Thank you so much for that comment. I definitely will. It is hard to figure out what to do when there is nothing you want anymore though. But hopefully I will figure it out soon. I am actually starting to believe that things actually can get better, and I think they will.
+bookloaf do you want to know the key to finding what you love? Or to begin with what you desire?
Do this. Turn your tv and phone & computer off and sit on your couch. See how long you can endure this.
Trust me, you WILL start feeling like you need to do something, and from there just follow whatever comes in to your mind.
The problem is, we got out phones and waste so much time at the same time thinking "idk what to do", well that's the thing the phone keeps us busy from thinking about what we want.
So just turn it off for a few hours. Trust me you'll turn your life around.
I feel like multiple things are wrong with me but idk if im over reacting. and i dont want to seem like a " special snowflake". I just wish i knew what is wrong.
Danica Hannaford same shit
Fucking hell same
same. idk what to do about it
Abwj1002 i did. i’m currently on a waiting list for cahms. my parents know i’m struggling but they do know the extent
Danica Hannaford I feel the same way. I tell people I don’t feel right and that there’s something wrong but every therapist and all my friends tell me I’m fine, but I never feel fine.
3 years ago i found this video and it helped me understand what I had at a time where i was lost and afraid and I felt like I was alone in this and when i found this video it helped me get a diagnosis it helped me explain things to my family i played this video for my mom and it helped her understand ive been watching this channel ever since and ive gotten better I know people probably thank you all the time Noah but seriously you have no idea how much you helped me im so grateful to you today marks three years since my diagnosis so I wanted to just stop by and say thank you so freakin much
I just found out about this and that's exactly how I feel I agree with what u said, no one knows about it until we found out about it. I really thought I was crazy. This made me cry T^T ty for making this video.
I always feel like I live in a simulation, like nothing feels real to me.
Same..
Me too, how do we overcome it
A lot of people responding here are suffering from spiritual symptoms which in turn bleeds over into psychological symptoms. We actually have been planted into a simulation and when the subconscious catches on to that it creates discomfort. There are several realities you see, not just this 3d one.
Loulou 123 you can’t be 100% with that but it’s possible, I agree that when you “wake up” so to speak that your ego tries to hang on in different forms, ours being depersonalization or detachment
Chris Carlson your right, our brain literally creates this complete illusion and then we identify with it, language is a prime example of this. But how do we break free from that? Have you done so yourself and what is your advice in doing so ? I believe your statement completely but I can’t instill it just by understanding that you know what I mean?
Thank you so much I am crying man I’ve been trying to explain this for years I was so worried I was losing my mind it’s is so hard to explain thank you for this man
Try a plant diet
It's like your detached from soul
Karen Bolton or... you’re actually less connected to this 3 dimensional reality and MORE to soul.
Thank you so much for talking and shining a light on this. I've gone through the same thing just like you explained. It's the scariest, most horrible place to be. A complete night terror. I completely understand sitting under a freezing cold shower, I was just trying to snap out of it just like you, I remember just been able to get to work and back and having the AC full blast just to keep me in reality. It's difficult for someone who doesn't understand what this feels like to understand this. It can be a lonely struggle. Thank God I managed to get through it with God's grace. I managed to get some coaching and been able to manage this. One day at a time.
I feel like I am someone watching a movie of my life in first person.
😭dude. Just 😭😭😭😭
This is how I am feeling right now. I literally feel insane. Family was saying I am possessed. But I knew it wasn't true. I knew this had to be a real thing. 😭😭😭😭😭thank you so much!!
What triggered yours? Are you all better?
@@LO1990LO are you all better?
@@adamlobb i never had the symptom i was curios as i was going through some other stuff
@@LO1990LO ah okay man.
@@adamlobb hope you find answers!
I don't know who I am anymore and I can't process my life anymore, I am nothing and no one anymore
Thank you so much. I searched so much for an answer and I finally found someone who have been through this too. Thank you so so much ✌🏼
I'm 25 and have had depersonalisation disorder since I was 21. There is nothing nice about it, it is truly a horrifying and very lonely ordeal to go through. The only thing that keeps you going is the slight glimmer of hope that one day you will break free from this evil disorder.
When you first get depersonalisation/derealisation you are introduced to feelings that you never knew existed, it's like your mind is catapulted far far away and your merely just existing as some sort of emotionless robot, at first it is very scary and disturbing but as time goes on I can truly say that it does get better. For me I am so used to the feeling of depersonalisation that it doesn't Obstruct me from getting on with my life, like it did when I first got it.
To anyone out there who has just got dp disorder or have been suffering for a while my heart goes out too, and I wish you all a speedy recovery because in the end it is only us, the sufferers who know how awful this really feels.
If I do manage to get out of dp disorder I will see it as a blessing and not a curse as it does really make you appreciate how precious your mental well being and to not take it for granted.
spiller189 update ¿?
spiller189 i understand how you feel as i had it for 2 years in school it was like being in observer mode and your body just does its normal routine and predetermined stuff snd you just sit alone in another plane of existence and i just think and keep thinking and i just went though so many thoughts. One of my friends had it today and we started talking about it becaus ei never knew others had it for the longest time i thought it was just me and only today did i know what it was i didnt know what depersonaliation was untill today and i was so shocked to see that many people have it as well. For me it was honestly scary at first and it just made me feel dull and other emotions. I tried to talk to my best friend about it but he didnt understand because he didnt have it so i thought i was alone on the feeling however over time i just lived with it and then one day i got super into music and concentrated so hard on it when i was out untill eventually it was just gone. However im starting to fall back into it again and i decided to just reseach stuff. Good night im super tired but im glad there are people out there and they understand what its like to go through it
ive had this since I was 11. I'm 13 now and its terrifying. What you said really calmed me down though. I hope I can soon get used to this horrible feeling.
spiller189
im feeling really depersonalized right now. its comforting to know im not alone.
iBeauty96 Never alone my friend
I had dp/dr for 2 years. I know how hard and how bad it can get but believe me. You just had to let I go and just go with the fucking flow. Stop fighting it and start accepting it and you will heal in no time. If you want to talk just pv me..maybe I can help . Good luck
+marcky89869 what's your email
You're definitely not alone. I have had it for the past 5 years, anxiety and depression have for the most part gone away but the feeling of depersonalization has not gone away. Just gotta keep the hope that it will eventually pass and you will recover.
marcky89869 Im in a depersonalization episode right now should I just continue to go to school and job interviews and appointments etc just like normal or should I not ignore it and rest or what nothings working
Wow. Exactly what I needed to hear. I appreciate you more then you know! Thank you
Thank you for sharing your experience. I have a different experience with depersonalization and derealization but I’ve also been on the side of finding a video that provides that validation and feeling of being understood.
I'm not sure I have it, but usually I have an episode each day where it feels like nothing is real. I'm blank and emotionless to what usually would strike a feeling and everything is brighter and louder but kinda blurry. I feel disoriented and everything feels like looking through VR googles. I almost feel like I'm hovering above my body when it happens, everything just feels blank and weird.
Yeaah same 😭 not sure what kind of freaking feeling is this.. Drives me crazy
I dont get why people dont like this feeling of nothingness. I mean if you spent all day feeling nothing i see the problem but idk i like to feel nothing sometimes.
Alan Morgan it sounds nice when your emotions overwhelm you, you just want to feel no emotions but dp/dr is not enjoyable at all.
I watched this video in November 2015 after weeks of searching for the answer, I felt so strange and disconnected from everything. This occured after a panic attack, I saw videos of people say it get's better and at the time I did not believe them. I can honestly say nearly 2 years on I feel amazing and much more confident in myself and have felt this way for a year or so, if you are reading this, it will get better.
Dimpzy thank you
Dimpzy it happened to me am still trying to shut it out but ow that ik there is other people with It i feel more safe cause I though I was losing my mind and i was sleeping then i felt weird then I ran to my mom’s room and I told her I didn’t feel good and that’s when the panic attack happened and then next day I started to happen
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Dimpzy nofap helps with this i hear, deprozonalation seems to have a link with dopamine for sure, as soon i take stimulants like caffeine pills or pwos before my workout i feel alot better
Ive had it for 5 years and it has not gottwn better. If anything i just became full blown apathetic so i feel like i dont give a shit that i have it, but don't give a shit about ANYTHING else either which sucks. It gets better for some people sure, but not everyone
For me depersonalization hits when I think of how bad the world is or how stressed and pressed I am
It's like I feels like a 3rd player game and I do catch myself asking in my head if I'm awake or if this is a dream. Mostly waves that come and go accompanied with a bit of detachment and depressed state and anxiety.
Noah I’m melb Australia & thank u for sharing your experience & I’m glad your well. I have been through a lot of trauma in my life & even through fibro I suffer so much depression & anxiety. I also believe I’m suffering depersonalisation & soon I’m starting some treatment. Hopefully something will help me thank you & all the best xx
I relate to every word you said.
this man doesn't seem depressed.
I'm 15 and I've had this ever since I can remember. I kinda thought that everyone went through this. Now, life often just feels completely fake. I'll look at my parents and siblings and ask myself: do I actually know these people? The only things that seem real to me in this life are my friends. Its really weird but I can't remember my childhood at all. (Im pretty sure I had it then too.) I look in the mirror and who I see isn't who I feel I am. My condition worsened when my older brother fell into drugs and alcoholism. All I could think about all day was if he overdosed or killed himself. I really can't imagine a life without depersonalization... I feel like it makes me who I am.
Jaybo Me too It might be because we never had a childhood :( I always felt like I was the only one going through it :(
everyhting your wrote is a total ditto for me, I literally look at my family and I'm like, who are you people.
Jaybo dude that’s what’s happing to me right this second and I’m freaking out.
I don't even know what life is like is like without dp/dr
Jaybo you saying it stays like that? :( I get it for like 10 seconds and kinda slap my self into reality. Maybe it could be from my lack of sleep of some nights but it scares me that it can stay
U can explain this feeling so much better than I could and i send all of my love to everyone who goes through this crazy experience-
I got so insanely high one night with some friends that the next day I felt completely depersonalized and everything seemed fake. My mind was telling me I was in a simulation but I knew at heart I wasn’t. I felt like a different person in my old body. It slowly got better and went alway after a couple days but it was certainly scary and sad to experience.
Briggs Wilson that's exactly how this started for me but I've been struggling with this for about 2 months now. You're so lucky it was only a couple days
@@yoshi41301 I’ve been struggling with it for a month now. It’s so hard to be at school and it makes me want to just give up on everything. But I won’t because I want to get through this. I hope you’re doing better now as it has been a year haha
@@ashleypratt3450 hey I actually am and I hope that gives you some hope! What really helped was just not giving in to the anxiety and consuming thought process that would happen every time I thought about it. I didn’t know how I’d get past it but I feel a lot better now and you will too
@@ashleypratt3450 lasted 6 years for me since I was 14. Pretty wild journey
Dude I feel you on 4/20 I got taken by a dab and I stg I felt like I was so high I was trippin even though I knew I wasn’t and I had a bad trip and freaked out about literally nothing but the experience was so scary I’ve cut back on smoking a bit and it all started because I had been awake for waaaay too long and was so tired but so high I couldn’t sleep and then got anxiety about not getting sleep for work 😅
I didn't even know this had a name. I've had an anxiety disorder since I was a small child but one day a few months ago I experienced this and it happens occasionally still. I know how hard it is to describe, you can't express how weird the feeling is. I felt like suddenly the world wasn't real and I felt vulnerable like nobody could possibly understand me if I tried to explain.
Thank you for making this video, at least I know people are talking about this.
RosariaDF demons
LetMeTasteYa
Too stupid to understand science? Try religion!
RosariaDF Well honey. Im not religious, but religion is the one that can help you in this case since the roots of DP is demonic..
Ive had this „feeling“ for months now, and i kept thinking im in a simulation which i cant control. Time has never felt as slow and numb as when i lost touch with reality. I‘ve tried telling my friends about it but they couldnt even comprehend what i was trying to say. Just to know there‘s someone with that same kind of feeling is so reassuring. Thank you.
It's really great that you can talk about it without reliving those feelings. When I try to explain to someone the type of feelings that I go through, I almost start to relive it and have PTSD type symptoms. So that's great that you're able to tell the story without getting anxious or triggered.
Thank you so much for speaking up! And for your strong courage. That means a LOT. I understood you in every point, the way you described it was so accurate! I've been experiencing derealisation for a looong time, since childhood.. it just comes and goes randomly, but the hardest thing to deal with was depersonalisation.. which I first had like 2 years ago. That was insane, crazy, unreal, scary, frustrating.. I did feel like an alien in the world as noone would get what I actually going through.. at times I just had to look at myself in the mirror in order to remind myself how I look like, to feel myself again, n be present.. or it happened as I actually had a moment of "watching" myself from outside, like a movie,, together with anxiety it brought me to severe depression, but now I know that such shitty things exists. And they are Human. Theres nothing to be ashamed of,,and it IS curable. Thanks again for this video, it reminds me I'm not alone in it.. but most importantly that it DOES get better if we rly do smth about it! Sending hugs and peace 🙏♥️
Honestly feel like I may have this, I'm 16 now. Sometimes when I have nothing to do and I overthink , it gets to me, and I don't feel like this world is real, it don't scare me no more but it just makes me think "wtf why am I feeling like this" it used to be bad to the point of where I was turning mental, but when I realised that it's not it's helped. I'm fine now most of the time it's just when I overthink. Everyone with this problem the main thing is to spent time with the ones you love and keep yourself entertained, don't sit there and do nothing or that's what will trigger it
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Fusionn That's my theory : Keep your mind occupied at all times and make sure to forget those thoughts.
do you still have it?
im 16 too and i feel the same as you feel
Sometimes i feel like i'm not real
and sometimes i feel that i'm real , have feeling , thinking ....
But the others are not real , i'm watching you speaking and i feel like you just a .... not real
i look to my familly playin , speaking but no thing will prove to me that they are real humans and have feeling
you know it's hard to explain . i feel like i'm the only person in the being
i'm writing this and my head is going to explode for 2 reasons
1 - i'm writing to no one, because the whole people are not true
2 - i have fear of someone read this than feel the same
:/
VBombs It's just your condition. You are still there, the real you. I have felt the same way and its mind numbing.
How am I to know you aren't a figment of my imagination, trying to trick me with reverse psychology, making me think I'm your hallucination instead of the other way around?
I don't know, I never will know and it doesn't change a thing in the end.
i know exactly how you feel i had suffered this if ud like any advice or methods to help please feel free to reply to me i was in school when i had it.
I KNOW RIGHT?!
yeah
Thanks for so much strenght and energy in your testimony, brave. It's a really dark, scary and hard place to be in, and people usually dont get it, so lack of empathy. Thanks bro!
I suffer depression, not depersonalization, but it is such a living nightmare.
I appreciate you putting yourself out there. I too am in recovery. Over 18 yrs including today. I have serious spine problems. I lost a 6 figure career. Followed by the loss of my home which I loved. Then i lost everything material. Chronic pain 24/7. I don't want to die in such a emotional state. We're all on the clock. I want joy & serenity in my life. I'm alone much of every day. Challenging is a under statement. Thank you for showing "US" were not alone. It helps me.
How are you doing?
Always focus and think on what u want in/of the next min, hour, year. focus on the good only. disassociate with ur bad thought they will come Ik but for every bad thought that comes ur way find the opposite of the same negative thought which is the same thought but turned around into good. For example turning “ -12 into 12 “
i remember i was at school and i was having a mental breakdown just complete depersonalization to the maximum
it started slow and it was just depression and high anxiety
but over time it kept getting worse and worse
and i would miss so much school because i couldn’t figure out what was wrong just constant anxiety and panic attacks and i begged my aunt(gaurdian) every morning to do online school
cutting to the point, one day in particular i was in my schools “group” (talk w other kids about anything wrong and it stays in the room) and people were talking and i couldn’t even focus on anything they were saying. it was like i wasn’t in my body and my thoughts weren’t even mine. i remember someone asked me a question a few times and even though i heard it, i couldn’t remember what they said. eventually i had to talk and hearing my own voice and trying to connect words with my thoughts were impossible. i kept trailing off my sentences and stuttering and even i couldn’t make out what i was saying or thinking. its like hearing someone elses thoughts in your head. and most of the time it was dark, morbid and disgusting thoughts. the whole reality was like a dream and i couldn’t understand anything. it felt like i was in a simulation and that anything that happened wasn’t part of the world. its the most difficult thing to explain but its like i felt fucking insane and i didnt know what was wrong with me. id just start panicking and crying which led to me isolating myself more and more. at my worst point i would just sit on the floor balling my eyes out afraid of everyone, even myself and attempted suicide because i couldn’t deal with the fear and anxiety any longer. its the worst fucking thing in the world to experience. your whole personality and who you are is gone and you’re strapped to a body that isn’t yours, someone you dont even recognize when you look in the mirror. its like entering a whole other place in your mind but its just thoughts that arent yours and you’re locked there, just completely stuck.another odd thing, i hated looking at myself because it made me feel even more depersonalized. it was the scariest part of my life and i dont ever want to be back to that point again
This is what im going through but its almost like even seeing other people talk about it im still feeling it which makes it feels so strong im only 17 and i wanna die but i don't i just want me again but i don't know what it is i don't know if i should put attention on it or try to forget about it but i still think about it no matter what i don't feel comfortable in sleeping and like waking up and feeling alive
Savanah Santos have you gotten any better? This is happening to me and it’s the worst feeling in the world. I just want to feel normal again
This made tear up a little I feel like this sometimes and have these symptoms it’s scary and tough but we can get through it here for you !
Oh my gosh. You just perfectly described what's happening to me right now and it's scary as hell. Ifk what to do it's so scary I'm going to my therapist tomorrow and I'm going to read your comment to her and tell her that's exactly how I feel. Idk what to do but I'm so scared right now.
If you are new to depersonalization/derealization, the best thing to remember is that time cures everything. Also, if you have worries of being schizophrenic, the fact that you know you don’t feel “normal”, is a good sign that it’s not the case
hi noah! i had been following you for a while, and i wanted to thank you for sharing your history with us. I myself suffer from anxiety dissorder and had panic attacks...and a felt what you are talking about in this video. I only wanted to say thank you, thank you and that you are so brave and strong, never doubt it. You helped me and a lot of people giving us not just info, but hope, something we really need. Lets keep strong together bro!!!
This video helped me so much. Years ago when I came across it, I had no idea how to describe what I was feeling and felt like I was going through it alone. I got so much closure from this, and now I can happily say I’m fully out of this headspace I was stuck in for so long
When I first had this experience I just started crying and freaking out pinching myself and just doing anything to try to feel one with myself I thought I was going crazy I didn’t know where my mind has gone and I was just so scared frightened I couldn’t sleep for days at a time. It has gone down quite a bit since then but I can assure you it’s the worst feeling and scariest experience I have gone through
You explained this perfectly, I use to go to school and have derealization and anxiety before I knew what it was and I would just cry because I would feel so weird and out of touch like I was a walking an alien. Use to go to the nurse and tell her my vision was really weird and she said I should get my eyes checked but I knew it wasn't that because I have 20/20 vision. Once I started doing research on it I felt a little bit of relief but no one around me believed me and they thought me researching stuff was putting things in my head. Ended up going to the doctor told him about my anxiety, my heart papalations that came with it and of course my vision being funny. He just hooked a bunch of cords up to me and asked if I wanted to wear a heart monitor for a week or two and said he didn't understand what I meant by my vision being weird. Mind you I smoked pot 2 years before I ever felt like this and I still conintue to do so even though it already feels like I'm high all the time. Like seeing things differently like I would when I'm high and overthinking every little thing. I pray that the next time I go he gets where I'm coming from because although some people have derealization when they're anxious I have it all the time and I have for the past year, 24/7. But I'm happy for you overcoming everything you have :)
Katie Baril same here dear
You are helping so many people, thank you so musch.
I smoked weed once. A friend good aggressive so I started having a panic attack and I got scared of him while I was high. The day after that I thought everybody were actors and I didn't know who I was. It felt like my mind was too separated from reality.
David Pastor that’s the same thing that happened with me but i was with a group of people i didn’t know and i went crazy like i passed out and felt like nothing was real and i couldn’t remember anything and i felt terrible and now sometimes i’ll be with a group of friends or people and i feel like i’m detaching like my skin starts too tingle and i just feel like i can’t get out of my mind
Same thing happened to me and that was 2 years ago
Omg that happened to me I smoked weed once and I started feeling scared and dizzy and I passed pit and I was scared of everyone and I forgot who I was and we’re I was
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