(Sound Fixed!!!) Fi’s Fight Back - appointment day and big changes in the making 👣
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- čas přidán 29. 08. 2024
- Re-upload which the sound SHOULD be working on this one all the way through!
(I wanted to start off by saying i am hvaing a real battle with techonolgoy and Editing sodtware and I am working on the sound issues, I am sorry and please be patient! Also… I can only edit and post these as quickly as I can. I know I am a little behind but I’m doing my best)
Appointment day 🌈
Firstly, a re-cap of the last week. I boosted my morning and afternoon snacks, and had extras on top of my plan. It wasn’t easy but it also wasn’t nearly as scary as I thought it’d be.
Then appointment day… lots of emotions were felt this day. So many thoughts in every direction. But I managed to make the decision that I knew I needed to.
Pasta week commenced, and I am so excited to post the next few videos to say how I got on with it.
Pasta is a huge deal to me, so making that commitment to have it every night (which I did except for one day because I was out!) was… terrifying but empowering.
Keeping on going, day by day, pasta shell by pasta shell!
#edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #dayinthelife #eatingdisorderrecovery #inpatient #recovery #recoveryispossible #recovery #autism #autismawareness #actuallyautistic
Challenge: Sometime in the future after your pasta challenge, I challenge you to do a week of trying different cereals, a full day, or even more, of eating double your portion size, (I saw this on another CZcamsr’s page and after she ate double her portion size, she realized how much her body needed the food and now she isn’t as much afraid of eating more than “the portion size”), And challenging all your food rules for one or more days.
I am so proud of you Fi! You inspire me so much during my recovery and unlike you, I really struggle with actually wanting to get better. But your videos, seeing you fight, encouraging me and make me want to get better too. I totally understand about the pasta. I am a full pasta girl myself. I ate it so much and it was usually my go-to lunch and sometimes even leftovers for breakfast! And that’s why it’s probably one of my biggest fears like you. There’s just something about eating foods that were your favorite or you had some kind of emotional attachment to that your anorexia just hates and makes you petrified just to think about eating it. But I am over the moon excited to see you challenge it for a week. It makes me think “If she can do it and it was her favorite food, maybe I can do it too!” You can do it Fi! Thank you so much for taking the time to post content like this. You are making such a big difference in so many peoples lives. I hope you will consider my challenge! ❤
I remember the first time I had a moment like that in the middle of the night (in recent weeks/months), and that is an AMAZING accomplishment! Way to go!!
It felt huge! But I'm so glad I did it. Thankyou Becca! xxx
@@Finding_Fi It’s absolutely huge, and you have every right to be glad you pushed through and did it! That was YOU showing up, AS Fi, and FOR Fi. Screw the ED if it tries to make you believe otherwise. You’re crushing it, even when things feel impossibly hard.💕💕
You are doing great ! Don't worry about the technology !! Sending lots of love ❤️
Thankyou Lisa ❤️ I needed to read this. I’m working on it so hopefully things should straighten out soon! Xxx
That is wonderful that you listened to your body actually telling you that you needed food instead of listening to your mind fighting you to not. You are winning this battle! So proud of how far you have come😊👍🏻
Thankyou so much my love! It was a big step but one I’m so glad I took! Xxx
You go girl!!!! You are doing it! Fi is coming back. You can do this!!!
I really hope so! Thankyou Elyse xxx
I also fight food every day.
Seeing your courage, I am empowered.
I support you from Japan! ❥
I'm sorry you also battle my love. We can do this, one day at a time. Love from the UK xxx
You did it, you started your journey back to pasta ! Really well done Fi. 👍😘
definitely! Pasta is the key here! Lots of love Nicola xxx
You are doing amazing Fi, your determination is so inspiring. Looking forward to seeing all the amazing things coming your way.
Thankyou so much my love! xxx
I’m here on the sidelines cheering you on!! Go, Fi, go!!
Thankyou so much Kim! 🥺❤️❤️
Giiiirrlll...don't worry about technology issues! I'm sure that is frustrating, but I think your videos are great! When you are talking and updating us, I feel like it is chatting with a friend!
Thankyou so much LeAnne, I needed to read this. It has been driving me crazy! Aww bless you, I'm so glad you like them! xxx
Fi, I'm so proud of you, you're helping me so much, we are taking steps forward together, and it feels amazing, I ate a protine bar ice cream yesterday then found out you are your lotus ice cream too, ice cream was a really big trigger of lots of things at the beginning of this, and it's a heat wave! Xx 💕🌱🦋
Thankyou ❤️ ah I’m so proud of you! We can do this! Especially when the weather is this hot - even more of a reason to keep going xxx
This is so wonderful hon!! Uni in the fall! I'm praying for that then! I am amazed at all the different bars you find.I didn't know there were so many kinds! You are doing so well dear one I know you will fully recover.
Thank you so much! Haha I seem to be able to find lots of new ones! So much love xxx
Way to go! Pasta is one of life’s great pleasures. I’m hungry just thinking about a big plate of Angel hair with primavera sauce - and lots of parmesan cheese. Yum!
Oh it really is! Oh that sounds delicious! xxx
Omg i love your llama socks!! So glad you loved the donut bar!
You're doing amazing
Thankyou!!! xxx
thank you so much Fi for sharing all of the emotions and thoughts that youre experiencing. I feel a lot of the same things. before mealtime i get very anxious and panic attacks go crazy! I feel so afraid of eating too much or the wrong thing. i tend to get a lot of cravings all at once, and its most likely because i restrict . But im going to try to allow myself more and try not to feel guilty afterwards. Any other advice? thank you for being here and sending such sweet and caring replies. Love,loren.
Hiya Loren,
I'm so sorry you experience similar panics and thoughts. It can be so exhausting. I've actually found recently that... if I allow myself to eat those things, the thoughts around wanting them so much eases and I become less worried about craving them so much! I hope that makes sense? Basically, your brain is sending you messages to have them. If you do have them (and it is OKAY to have what you want!), then those cravings abate. I actually go into this in the latest video I've just filmed (will be out next week some point). I hope this helps at all! Lots of love, take care of yourself
@@Finding_Fi Thank you so much Fi! It makes perfect sense. thank you for making me feel better. im having a bad day today. Beating myself over what i ate yesterday because the scale is slightly up. Panic attack!!!
You need to start selling like combination packs of the bars you eat! Lol they look so good and I’m in the US & don’t have any! 😭😂
Haha oh I would love to create my own! Hopefully one day they will ship internationally! xxx
How are you coping in this heat. I'm not looking to it being even hotter next week. Don't over heat, drink more water. X
finding it really difficult to be honest... but keeping going and staying hydrated! I hope you're doing okay xxx
@@Finding_Fi I am doing ok. But if it's too hot I get a headache. At least on Wednesday it will be cooler. I have Asperger's too. And I only tell a few people I have it. I think you are doing great with eating and I'm sure you will be out of the wheelchair soon. Be positive and creative! I sometimes do drawing and that really helps to focus on something different. Xx
I have alot of trouble hearing these 😭. And captions not always available. Idk thought I’d mention.
I’m so sorry, I’m having so much trouble with all the editing stuff at the moment which is why it’s taking me so long (and lots of frustrated tears 😭). I’m trying my best.
@@Finding_Fi ♥️♥️. Oh no don’t get sad or frustrated No worries. I enjoy seeing your videos and progress been following you since last year. There are only some areas when the volume is low. Like when you’re in your room was thinking you’re so far from the camera maybe 🤷♀️. Like maybe an external mic Since your voice is soft Maybe that will help. Anyway. Love you you’re doing great. I feel bad for mentioning it now. 😢
@@wookieelover9103 oh my love not at all. Sorry I’ve just been having such a struggle with the technology recently, videos audio not working etc! It’s been terrible for a few weeks but I think I’ve found a solution. The next couple of videos may have the same slightly quieter bits, but all my new stuff I’m doing now will be on a better quality! Thankyou for letting me know, it helps me make the videos better! Lots of love ❤️
I got excited when I saw you uploaded a new video but didn't you post the same video not to long ago maybe it was an accident but at least you know I watch all your video's.🙂
No it was Reuploaded on purpose - the sound and video stopped working on the previous one and it shoulddddd be fixed on this one!
I’m so sorry I’m having a nightmare with technology at the moment.
Thankyou though 🥺
@@Finding_Fi Dotn't worry it the first one was fine and couldn't see a difference but thanks for clearing that up. Your doing great an you should be so proud of yourself. X
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I’ve noticed that you always seem to upload your videos twice… why is this?? Xx
Technical issues 😭 the first one sound and video stops working half way through. This one should be fixed. I am so sorry :( xxx
@@Finding_Fi no worries I was just wondering as I’ve noticed you doing it afew times before too. Hope you have a lovely day ☀️💛