You're welcoming me to come in at the same time as the other than that it was not the case please let me know when I should get the group chat with me and
I know I made some mistakes but that was all in my past/Now I'm out here tryna regain my ground real fast/And I don't understand the struggle, and I don't understand the pain/I don't understand why all of this is running through my brain/And it's running through my veins/And I feel I can't escape/And even when I try to overcome all of the hate/It feels like I just get locked tighter in this gate/And my heart begins to Shake/And my heart begins to frail/No matter what I do, I know I can't prevail/Before I even started, I already knew failed/And in case you couldn't tell/My life is on a Sail/And it just stared sinkin/Do I revert drinking/Or do I revert to prayer/Cuz even though I pray, my life's still in despair/Man this life really ain't fair/But you don't really care/Nah, You don't care that my life is in a drought/Where is all my life flowing, cuz I think I'm out/I don't feel nothing, we call that feeling lifeless/I don't feel nothing, when I used to feel righteous/I just keep feeling more empty at heart/My heart keeps on crumbling and falling apart/Yea, Do you know that feeling?/When you know you need some healing/But even though you know that, that pain still keeps on killin/And you know you can't escape it/And you know you can't erase it/So you hide from yo problems cuz it's just to hard to face it/You know you can't erase all of the things you've said/And just that in itself creates a whirlwind in your head/And you laying in yo bed/Create a list of your regrets/Make a list of all the thing and challenges you've met/And you feel like life is set/Yea, you can't get past the struggle/So you lock up In this bubble/Don't got nobody to cuddle/Cuz you can't even trust yo self to not get into trouble/So how she post to trust you, when love is on the line/When she don't even know if she's just wasting time/Ten toes...
This one of them fire ass beats that everybody sit back smoke a blunt and write the deepest realest lyrics your mind could think of any subject any of life obstacles. Keep doing what you doing lil bruh keep making these fire beats for the world to hear and learn from.
@@EfremCCTV You ever smoked? It just helps people feel shit a lot more and get more in tune with their emotions. Not saying you have to smoke, but I am saying that you shouldn't judge if you haven't tried it because you really don't understand.
I was just a lil boy when I seen my mom cry, Tears fallen heart froze seen the pain in momma eyes, God called for his angel That's the day my sista died, I was 7 but it hurt me Hoping she come back alive, Fam told me keep ma head high it'll be ok, Even tho we want her back She living in a better place, So I pray for better days When I grew up I felt da same, I was smokin every night When I'm high I feela change Now it got me sitting here Rappn bout the past like, I remember growing up I Use to live a fast life, Little brother locked up Sisters running wild to, Mommy work her ass off I'm doing what I gotta do, Just to hear ma mamma say Damn son I'm proud of u, Growing up without a dad Made a man out of you, Fuck was I suppose to do Sit around & cry about it, Living with no happiness But I still smile without it,
You see everybody got a story to tell Well here's mine My pain's deep, I have been through hell I managed to survive so I got a story to tell Listen, I stand victorious Make the sign of the cross Look I'm here to be the voice for every friend I ever lost Let me pray as I put together my hands I've never been ashamed to tell you the person I am When it comes to doing drugs, I have never been a rookie But hold up, let me tell you about the places that they took me I haven't showered, it's been possibly a week And I'm so deep in a psychosis, impossible to speak The coke is in my arm, now it's impossible sleep My throat's numb, closed shut, so it's impossible to eat Losing weight's a part of my daily routine I always use against my will, just praying I was clean So nod your head if you understand what I mean When I was growing up I never thought that I would be a fiend, ever My life's tumultuous, it's never getting better Another abscess from my arm is getting severed My exquisite vision, depiction of dereliction Livid living conditions, malicious on a mission All these Green-tree cops, look they all know me by my first name Paramedics had to revive me this ain't a game I worn the same clothes for like the last ten days And look I want to do better but I don't know a different way Completely all alone, I'm sitting in this room I empty out the bags, brown liquid in the spoon I have to do a lot, can no longer do a little The water's been added, I place the cotton in the middle I'm sucking every drop up into this plastic device As I'm tying off, I'm trying to find a decent vein to strike I shove it ever so gently up underneath my skin As I'm pulling back the plunger till there's blood in the syringe I push it in and try to drift away to heaven But criminals like me that's never the place that we're headed The guilt, shame, remorse and regret I never address And I'm a mess from all this pain and this anguish I'm filled with stress, overdoses, I'm emotionally broken, this ain't a joke I'm smoking on a Newport, I never have any hope This is me, I'm feeling like I don't deserve more I feel disgusted as I'm pushing on this burnt chore Someone stole the vinegar in the midst of a black out Another shooting gallery, another crack house On the porch "Welcome To Hell" is on the floor mat I'm glancing at my arms and all I ever see is sore tracks I'm feeling filthy dirty needles with the orange cap Peaking out the window, someone whispers "Lock the door latch" We're blasting off, departing from this mothership I look around as others search the carpet for another hit Crest whitening strips and Mach 3's I'm on a suicidal mission till these cops try to stop me We boosted everyday selling steaks for half price Any dream I ever had was shattered by glass pipes Glass rose, devil got my in his lasso Entered the gates of hell and I didn't even have a pass-code I'm hard headed, I will never learn my lesson You know the drill, commit a crime, and get arrested The misery never ends, I spend another week in jail I don't have friends, family never paid my bail So I would withdrawal and kick on that concrete floor I feel like I've had enough but my body is screaming "MORE" The food is horrible, but I haven't eaten in days No reason to call home cause I got nothing left to say I'm tired of this jail, I don't ever want to see prison Look I'm tired and exhausted from this life that I'm living I would get a couple days clean, and say that I was done But every time I got released I was back on the run It's back to thieving, lying, robbing, and ripping, and running These problems I don't solve them, I'm crippled and sick to my stomach I hang with prostitutes and these deadly degenerates I'm homeless for the moment, but that's really quite irrelevant The only thing that matters in life is my next high I got to be willing to change and give it my best try I'm a servant and this heroin's my king I'm feeling like a slave, as I dangle from these puppet strings I'm just a marionette, I'm staring at death As I am carrying regrets that are just tearing through my flesh We're dealing with a topic we're so careless to neglect We're dealing with a dilemma leaving every parent stressed I'm so sick and tired though of being sick and tired But then it finally happened, motivated by desire I hit this point, I wanted to change, enough is enough My efforts been exhausted and I'm tired of being stuck My faith is never blind and my future I barely see But overnight, was open minded I had this moment of clarity So it begins and it's essential I believe Cause if it worked for you, then it just has to work for me Through all this pain, there's got to be a positive message I talked about the past, now let's talk about the present I'm no longer living that way, for me it's a blessing But with one bad decision I am back in that obsession In 03 was diagnosed with hepatitis C I utilize the bad, it's always been the fuel for driving me And then u ask me "Why do I give this my all?" I'm not trying to see "Rest In peace" on my Facebook wall I got clean in 05 and started rapping I started touching lives, I never thought that this would happen This shit today, trust me it isn't heroin It's killing everybody and the comments are disparaging No one cares or gives a fuck that I'm clean For them another deadly overdose is just something to see Look, I pay attention to every post that I read As you are sitting there judging in front of your iPhone screen Talking about these dying addicts and how they are worthless And if they put a needle in their arm then they deserve it But that's someone's Mother, someone's Uncle, someone's Daughter And that's someone's Aunt, someone's Son and someone's Father As I rap, this shit is giving me chills And I am speaking off experience, that's how I know it's real These ignorant motherfuckers will say it's not a disease And look I really don't care, you can believe what you believe I don't care to argue, I don't got to give you proof Listen, I was taught you don't got to defend the truth Incurable, progressive and fatal unless arrested I'm expressing aggression with every sentiment confession Once a junkie always a junkie, you're boring me The last time I checked, there's one ultimate authority I'm sick of these remarks and opinions from all these critics Cause if you never lived it, then trust me you'll never get it Be quite, you're not allowed to speak about it If you've never lived it, then you're not allowed to speak about it How often you forget, the only time that you should ever open your mouth is to eat a dick Everybody is dying it makes me sick This isn't a epidemic, this is more like an apocalypse So when I struggle, it's only right that I fight And my experience recites on how that diamond saved my life Look, you don't got a clue what I've been through When I was at my worst you couldn't walk a mile in my shoes I survived a lot, so it's only right that I smile And I'm aware of my surroundings, I'm no longer in denial I'm blown away by every message that I get It gives me motivation, it's the only reason I never quit We got to do this together, we must trust There's no you, there's no me, there's just us I'm doing this with courage, I'm doing this with pride I'm doing this for every single friend that's ever died I dedicate this song to anyone that's lost a loved one So live your life cause tomorrow may never come Be grateful for your past, embrace it, don't get embarrassed Everyday there is more children growing up without their parents I felt pain, look I'm not afraid to cry My life changed once I was willing to try I've been giving many chances now it's truly do or die I'm doing what it takes so my daughter will never see me high
This is insanely good!! Never stop fighting for the love of your family! Your daughter is lucky to have you as her father because you can always relate to her and understand when she comes in trouble. With your background you can guide her to success and it really needs a do or die hard work mentality to get clean from heroin. Live in peace my friend. God bless you
Ten toes, ten fingers, a silver spoon. I had everything I ever needed coming out the womb. But I couldn't be a man and took that shit for granted, now the ones that were there for me are disenchanted. Now I'm in my early twenties with a bad back, 'cause I started picking up boxes, dropped my backpack. But I'm try'na get my ass back on the fast track, before the final curtain falls on my last act. And my grandpa got diagnosed with leukemia, I was hoping maybe one day, he would see me up on stage behind a podium, in a cap and gown, but raging was my opium, I was acting a clown. I hope he leaves this earth being proud of me but I don't believe I'm worth sticking around to see.
I've been listening to ths beat that beat is to rl to heart felt not to catch emotions rather its good or bad place it takes u hands dwn...100% EPIC BEAT🔥🔥🔥🔥
My mama really strong that's why I love her so much, she would always pull through when life had got tough,I saw people bring her down,but she always got up, she used to whoop me cuz I was bad,but she did it with love,that's my queen. My mama really love me she said I'm the golden child, I just say I love you,and I scream it loud, imma shine like a light,imma make my mama proud, Cuz I keep my head up and my TEN TOES DOWN.
🔥STRAIGHT BARS HUMMIES🔥 Yea i may be young but ik how love feels When he says ur his forever and u thought that it was real When u sat and cried at night and wiped away plenty of tears When having a broken heart was one of ur many fears With no one to talk to, wishin the pain would go away When u haven't left ur room in somewhere around 2 days I should've known that he was fake and she was faker And he wonder why all his exes call him a "heart breaker" I swear that bitch shady as fuck U aint my fkin friend Real friends wouldnt do that So its time for this to end U played me like a game, aint even gon say no names U know who tf u is Thats all i need to say Gotta stay away from fakes, gotta stay away from love Go to school, gotta learn and get my bread up Ima make it far in this world, u gon see And when i make it there, dont try to come talk to me Gotta keep my head up or my crown might fall Gotta stay strong and stand tall To the haters: fuck em all Head high, 2 feet on the ground, and my 10 toes down 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 IF U READ ALL THIS, GOD BLESS UR SOUL. im only 13 so yea...i tried
yeah i might be 11 but ik how love feels He told me that i was his forever and thought that it was real i sat n cried at night wiping away plenty of tears When having a broken heart was one of many of my fears Damn B I see ur really fucking smart u told me dat u were worried i was gonna leave and break ur heart yeah u got me feelin bad n made me do things by hiting me with the lines "if u really cared" see u got me playin victim from the start I didnt know this was a game, if i did, i wouldnt have let my guard down U ruined my life for good I had no one to talk to wish the pain would go away Wish i got back the love,care, n trust that i once used to have Damn the agony it really hurt knowing that my bestfriend was one of his hoes i should've know that he was a fake n she was a faker And he wondered y all his ex's called him a "heart breaker" That bitch was shady asf U aint my friend Real friends wouldn't do that I hope u feel accomplished u made me cry n depressed Ive became a cutter lifes throwing bullets N ive got holes in my heart im trynna heal I hope u feel this pain one day i hope karma gets u bc that bitch really owes me one I tried tellin all the gurls ur a hit n run but these chicks r blind they call u cute n fly. well i aint lettin dis put me down ive set goals to achieve ima make it far n when i make it there dont try to come talk to me gotta keep my head up or my crown might fall gotta stay strong and stand tall to the haters: fuck em all head high, 2 feet down,and my ten toes on the ground ❤️️❤️️❤️️
I was talking to this girl and things just started changing Maybe it was my fault, sorry that I'm impatient But you're the girl of my dreams straight out my imagination Left me high and dry making it hard to be complacent So what we're not the same? There's beauty when things contrast I wanted to be more than friends and things were different when I asked About what me and you could be And how I was ready for something real And then you dropped me like it's nothing and sent me right into my feels You could've had the world and anything that you wanted You would've been my trophy that I couldn't help but flaunt it I would've given you my all and made sure to see it through But you threw it all away left me sicker than any flu Things might be different if you had my point of view You're just like any other girl, giving me deja vu You claim you want a good guy, you know, a true gentleman And I took the challenge, tried to give you something genuine Maybe a bit feminine, show off my sentiment Give you everything you want, blow a few benjamins But all that you could see was that you wasn't feelin it
Don't want no pity nor no sorrow been through a lot of shit but was always looking forward to tomorrow when my grandma passed away I knew that was the day it was it it was over cuz I knew my whole world was Underground always said Taysha walk with your head held high but the day she died I give up on life every time I felt alone I wish I had you with me daily you taught me how to be a lady since you've been gone I've been going crazy but you know when is bad I know it's going to get better cuz I'll always have you in my heart forever and ever .....I love you nana ❤🙏
0:23 I was born into the struggle, Life started gettin harder I'd never guess when I was 3 that I would lose my father But there's always a purpose, Cuz he was bein abusive We decided to leave the next time that he knocked her tooth in, We ended up in california, with another dude He was pretty cool ya everything was goin smooth But I was probably 9 when I started to notice signs I was gettin lost couldn't find my way through the vines 0:46 But he never helped, he just went and he grabbed the belt Never asked me how I felt, he just have me welts Edit: Tired of being on my own for so fuckin long Had to go and realize that I was not alone My mom was by my side, and she was so damn strong If I could see him one more time I'd put one in his dome Wish I could tell you this a prank but it aint home alone This hits so deep I had to put it all into a song My grandpa died today and it really hurt Stressing so much with work that imma go bezerk But we made the come up, shout out polo g I know he's the realest rapper that I've ever seen I miss my uncle Ken he's also deceased If I could hear him one more time he'd tell me imma beast Why did they have to leave why couldn't they have stayed stayed If they were here I wouldn't have to shed these years today Come back grandpa for I drink all these beers away I'm not an alchoholic don't make me face all my fears today Come back Kenny for I drink all these beers away I'm not an alcoholic don't make me face all my fears today LONG PAUSE------- 1:56
0:22 -I wondered everyday why my smile went away, but then I remembered it was cuz you never stayed, I used to cry because to my face you always lied, saying you're with your friends when you're really with your side, but then it hit me you just played me, saying that you love me when it's not even a maybe, you think you broke me by hurting all my feelings, you think that I'm laying in bed staring at the ceiling, 0:46-but no you thought wrong, you thought you hurt me? by taking all my feelings and doing me dirty? that's actually pretty funny you thought you did the damage, but you actually did nothing you just created a bandage, to all my old scars you made them fresh, making me realize that you wasn't the best, so I knew this couldn't go on any longer, I knew what I had to do in order to feel stronger, cuz you only made me weak, making me fail, making me fall to my knees, making it feel like hell, so I put an end to it I told you I was done, but then you started laughing saying that it never begun..
i know right now times be getting hard for us, Bt all we gotta do is pray to the man above for this, Nd I know I ain't helping with this attitude or foolishness Bt I wantchu to know that i truly do appreciate all that you do Cause when I be feeling my lowest Nd the tears keep rolling You be right by my side helping me to keep going Nd when I fuck up you pick me back up On some real shit aint never had nobody keep real the way you do Taught me how to hustle for myself but most importantly, showed me how to never depend on any kinda man Nd you is right momma I seen it with my eyes The way you work hard for my siblings Nd I Now the love nd bond you share with us you can't find tht shit nowhere else I ain't tryna throw no shade on my father, Cause he was there at times Bt full credit to you cause you been ten toes down for us
tell me what u think I would appreciate it..subscribe if u think I should make a video of me rapping it (that’s for 1K posting a video soon❤️) 00:21 Look me in my eyes and say u can’t see the pain Tell me u don’t think I cry everyday Remind me that it’s “gonna be okay” That this is just a phase You tell me that I’m strong to keep my chin up and pray You don’t know the thoughts running threw my brain At the end of the day I feel alone in every way All the scars reminding me of when I couldn’t see the light in the dark days I don’t let people see the tears running down my face I let my pride get in the way Put a fake smile on my face And wipe my tears away and act like everything okay When in reality I’m drained I don’t put my trust into people cus one day they’ll walk away I reminisce about the days I had my brother here to say “baby girl wipe ur tears off ur face and be stronger then the demons in ur brain “ I would cut to heal the pain The feeling of the blade running down my skin taking all my thoughts away I’m misunderstood because the way I heal my pain So I hide the way I feel with a smile on my face I want to stop my ways But some days it’s hard to stay away from the feeling of the blade I’m sorry I am weaker then u say I’m sorry I don’t see beauty in me everyday I’m sorry that I’m not okay I’m confused most days I’m happy one second then tears are running down my faces
I swear some people never want to see you succeed they would rather see you crumble and fall and when you do they keep bringing it up and tell you your never gonna make it so show them haters wrong and keep grinding and keep it pushing if you need to cut them out your life because they toxic go ahead and do that and don't care what a hater is gonna say because all they wanna do is drag you down so be a king and pick up your crown
*0:22* *Dad I'm sorry that I don't really remember you, When you overdosed I was like 9* Now look what you got into* *All I really need in life is a father figure* *And I need you dad I don't want another nigga* *Only if you can walk and remember so we can do things* *Imagine if you didn't overdose you could experience new things* *Without you in my life I'm out here having mood swings* *And me and my brothers are just experiencing pain* *We miss having you in our lives dad without you we been living plain* *Look what happened to the family now we falling apart* *Mom broke bad job we wish you could just be a part* *Help me in life show me how to be a* *man* *I have faith in you dad, even though u never can damn* *Broke most my life* *We starved and we struggled but we survived* *I'm sorry I sound bogus but I hate the way I'm livin life* *But if you just never overdosed we'd all livin right...*
BubbaGotBeatz too be honest, this beat will make a nigga realize the world, bring out emotions and make you look at all the shit that happened in the past. I don't know why, but this song is it. Tupac if u r out there, like this too let me let me know that this beat will be wrote in seconds.
I had to hustle get on out that struggle and I still remained humble cause them streets was like a jungle growing up in my neighborhood I had to stay off the streets cause I remember times I barely had anything to eat yeah i remember times I ain't had nowhere to sleep it was time to start grinding cause I had goals I wanted to reach yeah . I couldn't depend on nobody , I had to hold it down cause when I needed a favor , there was no one around except for my brother , my cousin, my aunt , and my mother we was all struggling we had to help each other . dinner on a plate , we ain't see that everyday those nights I had to pray pray for better days . better days , better days , in a better place those days were soon to come in just had to wait . ( never did this before 😂 tried it just for fun 😌)
Im 13 basically a kid I understand I actually made my own song to this beat i cry real tears when i sing it tho cause it comes from the heart and i wish my life was different
yo who else freestyles, writes raps or songs, and attempts to freestyle to this amazing beat...I listen to it every morning on the way to school thinking I will be something.
This is something I wanna be I really really hope that my Grandfather is proud of me. He died from before I could even tell him I love him. Shxt was sad so I kept grinding over the summer. It was rough only got two of em left. Imma be the one who help if nobody was there. Grand dad I love you I hope you looking at this. Imma be up in Heaven with you and family and shxt. I'm ten toes for my family gotta stay strong. Cuzz if AIN'T nobody with ME shxt imma stand ALONE. Seen my friend get jumped by homies and shxt. I found out he was battling and took his last breathe and shxt. This worlds tough. More than tough shxt it's rough. It's not a movie this is a real life matter. You better listen while you climbing up the ladder.
was getting made fun of since day one had suicidal thoughts just wanted to be done had to move schools, changed her whole life for once didn't think about pickin up that knife things were great and then she fell in love he made her feel good, made her rise above took away her sorrows and took away her pain until she found out his love was just a game from there it all started to go back south lost all confidence, no words came from her mouth thinkin she was hideous, dumb and stupid too life in pieces, apology overdo slowly she reverted back to her old ways locked in her bedroom crying for days slept for way too long, wouldn't eat a thing wanted someone to give her neck a wring panic attacks started to become tradition no one understood, weren't in her position the weight of everything kept on piling higher couldn't stop any of them terrible desires but that girls changed, changed for the better and she loves herself now, more than ever people are gonna keep pushin her to the ground but shes gonna rise, chin up and ten toes down
Man I have listened to many types of beats for rap and hip hop... this one is just incredible. This producer needs to be famous asap because he really got the flow
TEN TOES RAP CHALLENGE:: this is the life of a brave girl like me who now she's damn tough but used to feel so fuckin weak was born adopted, so different, but prompted by the birth mom & dad who told me im not wanted the second im born i see just the face of my new mom who offered to give me a place a kind hearted soul who made me feel glad another story for the man who im supposed to call my dad no vision in my right eye, disease and im half blind i wish i could move on but can't stop the rewinds the memories of mom and dad screaming at eachother remembering my dad hitting my poor fucking mother they split when i was 3, mom got near-full custody but i still had to visit him regardless of my plea wednesday's and weekends were the worst hell days when i spent time with daddy i was never fuckin' praised just raped, beaten, punched, kicked, thrown down the stairs getting called names, touched, slapped, pullin on my hair you're supposed to be my role model, what is your excuse for 8 years of physical verbal and sexual abuse i blamed it on me- it was my fault i was raped had nobody to talk to-my sister moved and escaped leaving me all alone, fending for my fuckin self hiding under the bed and climbing under the shelves to get away from this monster who i had to call a dad made me cry and scream and raised me to be dishonest and mad after 8 years of his abuse i told mom all the shit i finally reached my breaking point and snitched the man to bits. got him sent to jail and had to move across the coast yet you still give me a reason to hate myself the most you hurt me, and threw me and tortured me before but all i ever did was try to fuckin run out your door. mommy was heartbroken that her precious little baby got sucked up in abuse and felt like the world hates me mom got remarried, were happier now but im still scarred today- wanna know how? all i do is let the past get to me i can never move on, can't fuckin accept a me where everything is ok and nothing ever came and i could be that little girl wanting for wealth and hannah montana fame i have a new dad, same mom now i'm perfectly fine but something in my mind just keeps me always cryin knowing i'm a victim and im truly went through strife but sometimes you gotta dust it off and say "hey, that's life" twelve years old diagnosed with some shit called anxiety and depression because i got hit scars on my wrist, blood flowing down the drain crying, trying to distract from all this pain i can't talk to nobody, i ain't going to school i stayed in bed all day, but i was such a fool grades got lower and so did my esteem but i faked a happy smile just so i could seem fighting through this bullshit getting through the day i wanted to end my life but all i did was pray wishing for that happiness that i never fuckin got constantly bullied, but i'm not even a thot why can't my life be filled with joy instead i cry over my ex dad and a cute boy never feeling loved but i had so many friends who wanted me to get better and stick through till the end i tried my best and i'm still tryin it's hard breathing, i'm not lyin but after all my hard work i'm high and im just flyin at the end of the tunnel there's always a bit of light ask me if i'm a victim and ill say yeah that's fuckin right but im proud of it, bitch do you see how i'm doing now getting straight a's, partyin till the moon goes down letting loose and goin crazy, doin what i want i wished for happiness and that's exactly what i got
Leah Laufe I'm fucken sorry! bruh this had me crying. stay strong babygirl. i cant believe u went through all that! 😪 my lord. Jesus is w u. 💙 my prayers out to u and ur family ma! 😫 omg I just can't believe this. this broke my heart in so many bits and pieces 😭💔
Leah Laufe I went through the same thing but only that it was my mom that abused me instead of my dad but hope you feel safe and if you want to check my channel
hey harambe in clouds above it is to you that i show much love hope you're having fun in heaven, i'm praying for you and all your friends at the cincinnati zoo i know it all started with that four your old he wasn't exactly doing what he was told what was he thinking when he climbed into your cage i bet he didn't know you would die at such a young age harambe i miss you so much i miss your broad smile and your soft gentle touch i know all you tried to do was protect that little child and it's a shame that he won't be seeing you for a while that one cincinnati cop should have been wiser all he needed to use was a tranquilizer because of that mistake it cost you your life i want to find you killer and show him my knife if it wasn't for him you'd be left without a scar but if you didn't die i wouldn't know who you are hope you're having fun up there by the moon i hope you know i'll be seeing you soon i'm done
I'm your oldest little daughter and I'm growin every day. But you aren't here to see things I do and say. I know that you love me and I know that you care,but without you around I get emotionally scared. That when I get older the same thing happened to me. That I will have a broken family. But come on Sunday is Father's Day. What am I supposed to do what am I supposed to say to you that day. I'm not sure and it shouldn't have to be this way. Me as a teen tryin to think of the sad Father's Day. It's supposed to be a happy day but for kids like me it's not. It's a hard reminder of the battle I've fought. Trying to wrap my head around it. Trying to fight the sad thoughts but this battle has to stop being fought. I need to forgive you even if I don't wanna. So I love you dad. And I miss not sharing all the fun we COULD of had
Im here. I love this beat bcs i have lots of things to rap abt from my past and im only 14. And my mama say kids dont stress. Tuh back in yall days kids didnt stress
Music to my ear you my melody Late nights feeling sick you my remedy I remember every moment, every memory Sipping on you, fuck sipping on the Hennessy Heard you living in the Hills, out in Beverly Yeah we coulda been forever been a legacy But you tryna fight claiming that we enemies Thinking 'bout the jealousy forgetting all the chemistry, yeah Whatever happened to together 'til we 70 We moved apart girl now we living separately I remember you, can't you remember me Loving you my specialty, you my secret recipe You helped me find my self, a part of my identity My love, my oxygen to me you a necessity I hope this reaches you if not its my serenity Bars on my mind like I'm convicted for a felony And ah, that was a hard time Its been a while since we talked its been a long time I been on my phone, checking if you online Stalking up your page, wonder if you're on mine Been a couple years, thought that I'd be over you Still hold the tears, when I think of holding you You left and disappeared, I can't get a hold of you I can't believe you did me wrong, was someone else controlling you? 'Cause after all the times, everything we been through Every time you lie, I'd always defend you And when I saw you cry, I'd just hold you gentle For you I prayed to God, to me you like a temple So tell me did you love me? Or did you pretend to? Every time you touched me, was it even special? Was I a priority? Or squeezed into schedule Baby you an angel same time you the devil I know I made some mistakes but that was all in my past Now I'm out here tryna regain my ground real fast And I don't understand the struggle, and I don't understand the pain I don't understand why all of this is running through my brain And it's running through my veins And I feel I can't escape And even when I try to overcome all of the hate It feels like I just get locked tighter in this gate And my heart begins to Shake And my heart begins to frail No matter what I do, I know I can't prevail Before I even started, I already knew failed And in case you couldn't tell My life is on a Sail And it just stared sinking Do I revert to drinking Or do I revert to prayer Cuz even though I pray my life's still in despair Man this life really ain't fair But you don't really care Nah, You don't care that my life is in a drought Where is all my life flowing, cuz I think I'm out I don't feel nothing, we call that feeling lifeless I don't feel nothing, when I used to feel righteous I just keep feeling more empty at heart My heart keeps on crumbling and falling apart Yea, Do you know that feeling? When you know you need some healing But even though you know that, that pain still keeps on killin And you know you can't escape it And you know you can't erase it So you hide from yo problems cuz it's just to hard to face it You know you can't erase all of the things you've said And just that in itself creates a whirlwind in your head And you laying in yo bed Create a list of your regrets Make a list of all the thing and challenges you've met And you feel like life is set Yea, you can't get past the struggle So you lock up In this bubble Don't got nobody to cuddle Cuz you can't even trust yo self to not get into trouble So how she post to trust you, when love is on the line When she don't even know if she's just wasting time
Everyone tells me i gotta move on but when i think of you I'm always singing love songs But most of the times i just wanna run and hide and that is because i need you here by my side you made me feel special and like i was somethin but now im sitting here and feelings like nothing. You made me forget how i was treated in the passed and i always felt like a princess and nothing less. I thought u were the one and you always had my heart but that was when every thing fell apart. We started arguing all night all day and all our hard work just started to fade away. I wanted u as my boo and i didnt know what to do but honestly u just wanted something new. I always wanted to cry actually wanted to die cause it wasnt just u its what i felt inside, when your hearts in peices what piece do you follow , they would always tell me itd be okay but how can you say that when you wouldnt even stay, idk who my real friends are and who are fake but honestly i dont need any anyways so take yo fake petty asses back to somewhere else and ima just sit here and focus on myself 😛 now ima do me and not worry bout nobody else cause not like yall worried bout me and feel my vibe while i go and be myself
2020 anybody ? 😔
B.T.R.N Chris Me
I'm in the studio rn with this beat
Me
Yuh
Me
Best beat I have ever heard
Thanks ❗
Comments like these keep me going 💪
sammeee,i dont even know why it is, but it just is
Nadyas Channel
jacob bull fnn
Someone please like this so I can listen to this again
come listen
Oh man the amount of freestyles I heard at house parties with this beat back in the day 😅 good times man
am I the only one who just sits in the dark listens to this song and raps there heart out and ends up in tears...... no only me. ok
100,000 Subs with out one Video nah its me too
100,000 Subs with out one Video that's me
100,000 Subs with out one Video me too
Nah, we here with you.
No I'm with you my girl friend was cheating on me and I'm in the dark
Who still listen to this beat in 2019 i still am
Me
You're welcoming me to come in at the same time as the other than that it was not the case please let me know when I should get the group chat with me and
Me
Me and I rap to it
Im writing a song wit it
why is this so funny to me 😭
this beat is hilarious
I am so thankful for this beat. I’ve done wrote two full songs with it. No other beat seems to hit like this one still to this day 💯
No cap
Lame ahh songs too I bet
@@ssgtsorethumb203 dream crusher 😂😂
@@ssgtsorethumb203LMAO
damn yo comment pregnant now
Who else trying to rap this beat
I’madonut8 Totally diva me lol
I’madonut8 Totally diva right! Even me as a producer lol
I’madonut8 Totally diva me
I’madonut8 Totally diva right here it was a fail😂😂
Me lmfao
whenever i hear the beat i think of some guy sitting in his car at the night and rapping 😂😂
yyoohowlongisthisusernameyiumaybeaskingmetoo life you mean this one?
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That’s what I do
Alek Vi
Me too I love that one
I feel u
Hearing this song reminds of my troubles I put up with and wishing I didn't do and my pain that won't go away,and just has me in tears
Whose here in 2024
Me
I just farted
Bout to make a song now for this shit😂📌
Me
@@luhicyyy3086 3 days is crazy, what's the chances, just stubbled across this beat now, shi crazy.
Now on iTunes and Spotify!
BubbaGotBeatz cool and nice job
BubbaGotBeatz i don't see it on spotify
BubbaGotBeatz can't find it on Spotify
Search Ten Toes BubbaGotBeatz
BubbaGotBeatz what about google play 😭 #sharethelove
I can’t be the only one who rapped with their own lyrics to this song+ these 3 am raps be hitting different
Lay in bed at 5am just rapping bout my life
SkyZ VxgaZ same
nahh u not
SUPER _CAM I did to do u know how to get copyright for none profit
i did
Those freestyles made this beat funny to listen to now 😂
One of the most relatable instrumentals on here!!!!! So calming
Wtf you talking about this beat shit af😭 go take another listen
Who here 2020 🌊🌊🔥🔥🔥
Yessir
Mo Money me lol
Me
Present
Ragein Gagein tf?
I know I made some mistakes but that was all in my past/Now I'm out here tryna regain my ground real fast/And I don't understand the struggle, and I don't understand the pain/I don't understand why all of this is running through my brain/And it's running through my veins/And I feel I can't escape/And even when I try to overcome all of the hate/It feels like I just get locked tighter in this gate/And my heart begins to Shake/And my heart begins to frail/No matter what I do, I know I can't prevail/Before I even started, I already knew failed/And in case you couldn't tell/My life is on a Sail/And it just stared sinkin/Do I revert drinking/Or do I revert to prayer/Cuz even though I pray, my life's still in despair/Man this life really ain't fair/But you don't really care/Nah, You don't care that my life is in a drought/Where is all my life flowing, cuz I think I'm out/I don't feel nothing, we call that feeling lifeless/I don't feel nothing, when I used to feel righteous/I just keep feeling more empty at heart/My heart keeps on crumbling and falling apart/Yea, Do you know that feeling?/When you know you need some healing/But even though you know that, that pain still keeps on killin/And you know you can't escape it/And you know you can't erase it/So you hide from yo problems cuz it's just to hard to face it/You know you can't erase all of the things you've said/And just that in itself creates a whirlwind in your head/And you laying in yo bed/Create a list of your regrets/Make a list of all the thing and challenges you've met/And you feel like life is set/Yea, you can't get past the struggle/So you lock up In this bubble/Don't got nobody to cuddle/Cuz you can't even trust yo self to not get into trouble/So how she post to trust you, when love is on the line/When she don't even know if she's just wasting time/Ten toes...
Lol. Sorry, so long. Just was feeling this beat
Jonathon Martinez that's deep much respect it hard out here💯
Fire
Jonathon Martinez 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
Bro that was lit I rapped what u writ and man I like ur rapping u should make a video man ur good
Never ever ever get tired of listening to this beat 🙏🏼💖🙏🏼
This one of them fire ass beats that everybody sit back smoke a blunt and write the deepest realest lyrics your mind could think of any subject any of life obstacles. Keep doing what you doing lil bruh keep making these fire beats for the world to hear and learn from.
why smoke. you could do it sober
@@EfremCCTV You ever smoked? It just helps people feel shit a lot more and get more in tune with their emotions. Not saying you have to smoke, but I am saying that you shouldn't judge if you haven't tried it because you really don't understand.
@@RealShaggy nah i prefer liquor. it does for me what weed does for this guy
@@EfremCCTV why drink. you could do it sober
@@RealShaggy cause im an addict
I could see J Cole pourin his heart out into this beat
I am KingKaze Same man.
I am KingKaze yea me too
I am KingKaze yeah I see j cole too
yes dude 😩👌
I am KingKaze lmao idk why this made me laugh💀💀
I was just a lil boy when I seen my mom cry,
Tears fallen heart froze
seen the pain in momma eyes,
God called for his angel
That's the day my sista died,
I was 7 but it hurt me
Hoping she come back alive,
Fam told me keep ma head high it'll be ok,
Even tho we want her back
She living in a better place,
So I pray for better days
When I grew up I felt da same,
I was smokin every night
When I'm high I feela change
Now it got me sitting here
Rappn bout the past like,
I remember growing up
I Use to live a fast life,
Little brother locked up
Sisters running wild to,
Mommy work her ass off
I'm doing what I gotta do,
Just to hear ma mamma say
Damn son I'm proud of u,
Growing up without a dad
Made a man out of you,
Fuck was I suppose to do
Sit around & cry about it,
Living with no happiness
But I still smile without it,
subscribe to my channel I got more bars
KidSmilezMusic yo god damn this shit STRAIGHT FYEE🔥🔥🔥🔥👌respect for what ever happend in ur life
KidSmilezMusic 🤘🏼
KidSmilezMusic Respect brotha FIRE!!!
I usually don't cry but I did after listening to some of people's raps 😭 respect to all of u
First time listening to the beat and love. Reminds me of my cousin that just past away recently.
This beat makes me think about a lot of things I love this beat
You see everybody got a story to tell
Well here's mine
My pain's deep, I have been through hell
I managed to survive so I got a story to tell
Listen, I stand victorious
Make the sign of the cross
Look I'm here to be the voice for every friend I ever lost
Let me pray as I put together my hands
I've never been ashamed to tell you the person I am
When it comes to doing drugs, I have never been a rookie
But hold up, let me tell you about the places that they took me
I haven't showered, it's been possibly a week
And I'm so deep in a psychosis, impossible to speak
The coke is in my arm, now it's impossible sleep
My throat's numb, closed shut, so it's impossible to eat
Losing weight's a part of my daily routine
I always use against my will, just praying I was clean
So nod your head if you understand what I mean
When I was growing up I never thought that I would be a fiend, ever
My life's tumultuous, it's never getting better
Another abscess from my arm is getting severed
My exquisite vision, depiction of dereliction
Livid living conditions, malicious on a mission
All these Green-tree cops, look they all know me by my first name
Paramedics had to revive me this ain't a game
I worn the same clothes for like the last ten days
And look I want to do better but I don't know a different way
Completely all alone, I'm sitting in this room
I empty out the bags, brown liquid in the spoon
I have to do a lot, can no longer do a little
The water's been added, I place the cotton in the middle
I'm sucking every drop up into this plastic device
As I'm tying off, I'm trying to find a decent vein to strike
I shove it ever so gently up underneath my skin
As I'm pulling back the plunger till there's blood in the syringe
I push it in and try to drift away to heaven
But criminals like me that's never the place that we're headed
The guilt, shame, remorse and regret I never address
And I'm a mess from all this pain and this anguish
I'm filled with stress, overdoses,
I'm emotionally broken, this ain't a joke
I'm smoking on a Newport, I never have any hope
This is me, I'm feeling like I don't deserve more
I feel disgusted as I'm pushing on this burnt chore
Someone stole the vinegar in the midst of a black out
Another shooting gallery, another crack house
On the porch "Welcome To Hell" is on the floor mat
I'm glancing at my arms and all I ever see is sore tracks
I'm feeling filthy dirty needles with the orange cap
Peaking out the window, someone whispers "Lock the door latch"
We're blasting off, departing from this mothership
I look around as others search the carpet for another hit
Crest whitening strips and Mach 3's
I'm on a suicidal mission till these cops try to stop me
We boosted everyday selling steaks for half price
Any dream I ever had was shattered by glass pipes
Glass rose, devil got my in his lasso
Entered the gates of hell and I didn't even have a pass-code
I'm hard headed, I will never learn my lesson
You know the drill, commit a crime, and get arrested
The misery never ends, I spend another week in jail
I don't have friends, family never paid my bail
So I would withdrawal and kick on that concrete floor
I feel like I've had enough but my body is screaming "MORE"
The food is horrible, but I haven't eaten in days
No reason to call home cause I got nothing left to say
I'm tired of this jail, I don't ever want to see prison
Look I'm tired and exhausted from this life that I'm living
I would get a couple days clean, and say that I was done
But every time I got released I was back on the run
It's back to thieving, lying, robbing, and ripping, and running
These problems I don't solve them, I'm crippled and sick to my stomach
I hang with prostitutes and these deadly degenerates
I'm homeless for the moment, but that's really quite irrelevant
The only thing that matters in life is my next high
I got to be willing to change and give it my best try
I'm a servant and this heroin's my king
I'm feeling like a slave, as I dangle from these puppet strings
I'm just a marionette, I'm staring at death
As I am carrying regrets that are just tearing through my flesh
We're dealing with a topic we're so careless to neglect
We're dealing with a dilemma leaving every parent stressed
I'm so sick and tired though of being sick and tired
But then it finally happened, motivated by desire
I hit this point, I wanted to change, enough is enough
My efforts been exhausted and I'm tired of being stuck
My faith is never blind and my future I barely see
But overnight, was open minded I had this moment of clarity
So it begins and it's essential I believe
Cause if it worked for you, then it just has to work for me
Through all this pain, there's got to be a positive message
I talked about the past, now let's talk about the present
I'm no longer living that way, for me it's a blessing
But with one bad decision I am back in that obsession
In 03 was diagnosed with hepatitis C
I utilize the bad, it's always been the fuel for driving me
And then u ask me "Why do I give this my all?"
I'm not trying to see "Rest In peace" on my Facebook wall
I got clean in 05 and started rapping
I started touching lives, I never thought that this would happen
This shit today, trust me it isn't heroin
It's killing everybody and the comments are disparaging
No one cares or gives a fuck that I'm clean
For them another deadly overdose is just something to see
Look, I pay attention to every post that I read
As you are sitting there judging in front of your iPhone screen
Talking about these dying addicts and how they are worthless
And if they put a needle in their arm then they deserve it
But that's someone's Mother, someone's Uncle, someone's Daughter
And that's someone's Aunt, someone's Son and someone's Father
As I rap, this shit is giving me chills
And I am speaking off experience, that's how I know it's real
These ignorant motherfuckers will say it's not a disease
And look I really don't care, you can believe what you believe
I don't care to argue, I don't got to give you proof
Listen, I was taught you don't got to defend the truth
Incurable, progressive and fatal unless arrested
I'm expressing aggression with every sentiment confession
Once a junkie always a junkie, you're boring me
The last time I checked, there's one ultimate authority
I'm sick of these remarks and opinions from all these critics
Cause if you never lived it, then trust me you'll never get it
Be quite, you're not allowed to speak about it
If you've never lived it, then you're not allowed to speak about it
How often you forget,
the only time that you should ever open your mouth is to eat a dick
Everybody is dying it makes me sick
This isn't a epidemic, this is more like an apocalypse
So when I struggle, it's only right that I fight
And my experience recites on how that diamond saved my life
Look, you don't got a clue what I've been through
When I was at my worst you couldn't walk a mile in my shoes
I survived a lot, so it's only right that I smile
And I'm aware of my surroundings, I'm no longer in denial
I'm blown away by every message that I get
It gives me motivation, it's the only reason I never quit
We got to do this together, we must trust
There's no you, there's no me, there's just us
I'm doing this with courage, I'm doing this with pride
I'm doing this for every single friend that's ever died
I dedicate this song to anyone that's lost a loved one
So live your life cause tomorrow may never come
Be grateful for your past, embrace it, don't get embarrassed
Everyday there is more children growing up without their parents
I felt pain, look I'm not afraid to cry
My life changed once I was willing to try
I've been giving many chances now it's truly do or die
I'm doing what it takes so my daughter will never see me high
this is mad love it and is this a true story?
I luv and i respect yu much respect💕😔👌
Pray real hard and ask god to help you.god can turn life around.
You should rap it and upload it
This is insanely good!! Never stop fighting for the love of your family! Your daughter is lucky to have you as her father because you can always relate to her and understand when she comes in trouble. With your background you can guide her to success and it really needs a do or die hard work mentality to get clean from heroin. Live in peace my friend. God bless you
Ten toes, ten fingers, a silver spoon.
I had everything I ever needed coming out the womb.
But I couldn't be a man and
took that shit for granted,
now the ones that were there for me are disenchanted.
Now I'm in my early twenties with a bad back,
'cause I started picking up boxes, dropped my backpack.
But I'm try'na get my ass back on the fast track,
before the final curtain falls on my last act.
And my grandpa got diagnosed with leukemia,
I was hoping maybe one day, he would see me up
on stage behind a podium, in a cap and gown,
but raging was my opium, I was acting a clown.
I hope he leaves this earth being proud of me
but I don't believe I'm worth sticking around to see.
MrPlasmaNuke
MrPlasmaNuke nice man 👌🏼✊🏼
Yeah I diggin dat doe fr💪💯
MrPlasmaNuke oh shii 👀💦
MrPlasmaNuke are these your lyrics? or the original?
I've been listening to ths beat that beat is to rl to heart felt not to catch emotions rather its good or bad place it takes u hands dwn...100% EPIC BEAT🔥🔥🔥🔥
This gives me a nostalgic feeling... love this song. Makes my mind to focus.... bless the owner *my mind right now 😂😭😢☺️*
My mama really strong that's why I love her so much,
she would always pull through when life had got tough,I saw people bring her down,but she always got up,
she used to whoop me cuz I was bad,but she did it with love,that's my queen.
My mama really love me she said I'm the golden child,
I just say I love you,and I scream it loud,
imma shine like a light,imma make my mama proud,
Cuz I keep my head up and my TEN TOES DOWN.
Treven Mcfee emotional 😔😵
Ninja Gaming I appreciate you for looking at my lyrics💯💯
Treven Mcfee
Treven Mcfee
Treven Mcfee
I love how everyone in the comments is making up their own rap but I'm just here scrolling through the comments and I can't even say three words
Dyamond Trevino you said over 10 words
Just let come to
You
Hahhaha
Dyamond Trevino lol me
“how you telling me you love me but don’t know what love is man fuck this”💀💀💀
Wasted all my time on this dumb chick that I'm done with
I got you bro. #BRINGBACKTENTOES
Just the nostalgia coming up in the beat and lyrics in my head guess I’ll give it a try
🔥STRAIGHT BARS HUMMIES🔥
Yea i may be young but ik how love feels
When he says ur his forever and u thought that it was real
When u sat and cried at night and wiped away plenty of tears
When having a broken heart was one of ur many fears
With no one to talk to, wishin the pain would go away
When u haven't left ur room in somewhere around 2 days
I should've known that he was fake and she was faker
And he wonder why all his exes call him a "heart breaker"
I swear that bitch shady as fuck
U aint my fkin friend
Real friends wouldnt do that
So its time for this to end
U played me like a game, aint even gon say no names
U know who tf u is
Thats all i need to say
Gotta stay away from fakes, gotta stay away from love
Go to school, gotta learn and get my bread up
Ima make it far in this world, u gon see
And when i make it there, dont try to come talk to me
Gotta keep my head up or my crown might fall
Gotta stay strong and stand tall
To the haters: fuck em all
Head high, 2 feet on the ground, and my 10 toes down
🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
IF U READ ALL THIS, GOD BLESS UR SOUL. im only 13 so yea...i tried
Keke Simon oml killed that
Tayanna Patrick thanks 💙
hellory thanks💓
yeah i might be 11 but ik how love feels
He told me that i was his forever and thought that it was real
i sat n cried at night wiping away plenty of tears
When having a broken heart was one of many of my fears
Damn B I see ur really fucking smart
u told me dat u were worried i was gonna leave and break ur heart
yeah u got me feelin bad
n made me do things by hiting me with the lines "if u really cared"
see u got me playin victim from the start
I didnt know this was a game, if i did, i wouldnt have let my guard down
U ruined my life for good
I had no one to talk to
wish the pain would go away
Wish i got back the love,care, n trust that i once used to have
Damn the agony
it really hurt knowing that my bestfriend was one of his hoes
i should've know that he was a fake n she was a faker
And he wondered y all his ex's called him a "heart breaker"
That bitch was shady asf
U aint my friend
Real friends wouldn't do that
I hope u feel accomplished
u made me cry n depressed
Ive became a cutter
lifes throwing bullets
N ive got holes in my heart
im trynna heal
I hope u feel this pain one day
i hope karma gets u bc that bitch really owes me one
I tried tellin all the gurls ur a hit n run
but these chicks r blind they call u cute n fly.
well i aint lettin dis put me down
ive set goals to achieve
ima make it far
n when i make it there dont try to come talk to me
gotta keep my head up or my crown might fall
gotta stay strong and stand tall
to the haters: fuck em all
head high, 2 feet down,and my ten toes on the ground ❤️️❤️️❤️️
Skylar Chimbay awesome😁👌
I was talking to this girl and things just started changing
Maybe it was my fault, sorry that I'm impatient
But you're the girl of my dreams straight out my imagination
Left me high and dry making it hard to be complacent
So what we're not the same? There's beauty when things contrast
I wanted to be more than friends and things were different when I asked
About what me and you could be
And how I was ready for something real
And then you dropped me like it's nothing and sent me right into my feels
You could've had the world and anything that you wanted
You would've been my trophy that I couldn't help but flaunt it
I would've given you my all and made sure to see it through
But you threw it all away left me sicker than any flu
Things might be different if you had my point of view
You're just like any other girl, giving me deja vu
You claim you want a good guy, you know, a true gentleman
And I took the challenge, tried to give you something genuine
Maybe a bit feminine, show off my sentiment
Give you everything you want, blow a few benjamins
But all that you could see was that you wasn't feelin it
fireeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Chandler Smith who
Aye thanks man, I might be posting a video soon, watch out for it.
Chandler Smith fire🖒🖒🔥🔥
wow
i still listen to this beat
crazy bruh
alot of pain
I’ve been looking for this song for YEARSSSSS I MEAN YEARS I FINALLY FOUND IT
*_2019 anyone?? I love this beat it’s so chill_*
Don't want no pity nor no sorrow been through a lot of shit but was always looking forward to tomorrow when my grandma passed away I knew that was the day it was it it was over cuz I knew my whole world was Underground always said Taysha walk with your head held high but the day she died I give up on life every time I felt alone I wish I had you with me daily you taught me how to be a lady since you've been gone I've been going crazy but you know when is bad I know it's going to get better cuz I'll always have you in my heart forever and ever .....I love you nana ❤🙏
I’m here in 2021 still with this beat smh
Same
Ong when we gonna get a good song produced on this beat
Thankyou for this instrumental bubba :) ur my bubs now :)
0:23
I was born into the struggle,
Life started gettin harder
I'd never guess when I was 3 that I would lose my father
But there's always a purpose,
Cuz he was bein abusive
We decided to leave the next time that he knocked her tooth in,
We ended up in california, with another dude
He was pretty cool ya everything was goin smooth
But I was probably 9 when I started to notice signs
I was gettin lost couldn't find my way through the vines
0:46
But he never helped, he just went and he grabbed the belt
Never asked me how I felt, he just have me welts
Edit:
Tired of being on my own for so fuckin long
Had to go and realize that I was not alone
My mom was by my side, and she was so damn strong
If I could see him one more time I'd put one in his dome
Wish I could tell you this a prank but it aint home alone
This hits so deep I had to put it all into a song
My grandpa died today and it really hurt
Stressing so much with work that imma go bezerk
But we made the come up, shout out polo g
I know he's the realest rapper that I've ever seen
I miss my uncle Ken he's also deceased
If I could hear him one more time he'd tell me imma beast
Why did they have to leave why couldn't they have stayed stayed
If they were here I wouldn't have to shed these years today
Come back grandpa for I drink all these beers away
I'm not an alchoholic don't make me face all my fears today
Come back Kenny for I drink all these beers away
I'm not an alcoholic don't make me face all my fears today
LONG PAUSE-------
1:56
I hope your ok
@@herb2real I'm 👍 thanks
Pls pls pls continue it it really says a lot
@@braelynelashae8136 ok I will continue it, you know what's crazy bro, I'm only 14. I really appreciate all of the support
@@braelynelashae8136 i also subbed btw
0:22 -I wondered everyday why my smile went away,
but then I remembered it was cuz you never stayed,
I used to cry because to my face you always lied, saying you're with your friends when you're really with your side,
but then it hit me you just played me, saying that you love me when it's not even a maybe,
you think you broke me by hurting all my feelings, you think that I'm laying in bed staring at the ceiling,
0:46-but no you thought wrong, you thought you hurt me? by taking all my feelings and doing me dirty?
that's actually pretty funny you thought you did the damage, but you actually did nothing you just created a bandage,
to all my old scars you made them fresh, making me realize that you wasn't the best,
so I knew this couldn't go on any longer, I knew what I had to do in order to feel stronger,
cuz you only made me weak, making me fail, making me fall to my knees, making it feel like hell,
so I put an end to it I told you I was done, but then you started laughing saying that it never begun..
koko kassandra u killed this
koko kassandra good rap
Fire bro
koko kassandra oml that's good. Also so sorry
koko kassandra can I use the end for my song
Man as a OTR Trucker, this song made me find solitude instead of loneliness…Thanks my guy
I swear hear these rappers they rapping just like they know
What it’s like to light a candle
And spend the night in the cold
Just casually scrolling through comments, rapping other people’s songs 🙃
yoooooo same
Evie :p same
Evie :p SAME!!!
SAME 😭
Evie :p me
Y'all don't know how long I've been looking for this BEAT THO!!
jailene corpes you bouta spit something on it?
Eway Jay lmaooo maybe!
jailene corpes Rip, I just heard about this and I found it in seconds
QuickBarz lmao and...
ChuxVersace wym?
i know right now times be getting hard for us,
Bt all we gotta do is pray to the man above for this,
Nd I know I ain't helping with this attitude or foolishness
Bt I wantchu to know that i truly do appreciate all that you do
Cause when I be feeling my lowest Nd the tears keep rolling
You be right by my side helping me to keep going
Nd when I fuck up you pick me back up
On some real shit
aint never had nobody keep real the way you do
Taught me how to hustle for myself but most importantly, showed me how to never depend on any kinda man
Nd you is right momma
I seen it with my eyes
The way you work hard for my siblings Nd I
Now the love nd bond you share with us
you can't find tht shit nowhere else
I ain't tryna throw no shade on my father,
Cause he was there at times
Bt full credit to you cause you been ten toes down for us
Oh shi I was scrolling on til tok and I heard this me and my dad would be crying to this
tell me what u think I would appreciate it..subscribe if u think I should make a video of me rapping it (that’s for 1K posting a video soon❤️)
00:21
Look me in my eyes and say u can’t see the pain
Tell me u don’t think I cry everyday
Remind me that it’s “gonna be okay”
That this is just a phase
You tell me that I’m strong to keep my chin up and pray
You don’t know the thoughts running threw my brain
At the end of the day I feel alone in every way
All the scars reminding me of when I couldn’t see the light in the dark days
I don’t let people see the tears running down my face
I let my pride get in the way
Put a fake smile on my face
And wipe my tears away and act like everything okay
When in reality I’m drained
I don’t put my trust into people cus one day they’ll walk away
I reminisce about the days I had my brother here to say “baby girl wipe ur tears off ur face and be stronger then the demons in ur brain “
I would cut to heal the pain
The feeling of the blade running down my skin taking all my thoughts away
I’m misunderstood because the way I heal my pain
So I hide the way I feel with a smile on my face
I want to stop my ways
But some days it’s hard to stay away from the feeling of the blade
I’m sorry I am weaker then u say
I’m sorry I don’t see beauty in me everyday
I’m sorry that I’m not okay
I’m confused most days
I’m happy one second then tears are running down my faces
Aaliyah Gonzales this was great😊😊 u got ur first like from me. Keep making raps
Arriana Bray thank you I really appreciate it 😊❣️
I'm listening to the instrument and rapping at the same time to your rap and sounds so good but I can relate I love it keep up the good work
Arlyn Caro thank you I appreciate it a lot
Thatwas trash
Could listen to this beat ALL day
💪
same
Ari Aleigha same
This for everyone in 2022 still keeping 10 toes down through this pandemic 💯👌
I swear some people never want to see you succeed they would rather see you crumble and fall and when you do they keep bringing it up and tell you your never gonna make it so show them haters wrong and keep grinding and keep it pushing if you need to cut them out your life because they toxic go ahead and do that and don't care what a hater is gonna say because all they wanna do is drag you down so be a king and pick up your crown
this beat makes u wanna cry if u get into it real deep
kenneth sanders it really does
“Uhh listen”
“Ayy look”
Yea, aye, ok, bitch
@@HopeFpsYT ight, yuh
Uh, yeah. What. Let's go
Yea.. lets go.. lets get it.. ima show you right here.. aye listen..
Uh, yuh.. skrrt prrt yuh ayy
Legendary beat bro😭
Back in 2016 when 🥷s was heartbroken & shxttt😹😹
*0:22*
*Dad I'm sorry that I don't really remember you, When you overdosed I was like 9*
Now look what you got into*
*All I really need in life is a father figure*
*And I need you dad I don't want another nigga*
*Only if you can walk and remember so we can do things*
*Imagine if you didn't overdose you could experience new things*
*Without you in my life I'm out here having mood swings*
*And me and my brothers are just experiencing pain*
*We miss having you in our lives dad without you we been living plain*
*Look what happened to the family now we falling apart*
*Mom broke bad job we wish you could just be a part*
*Help me in life show me how to be a* *man*
*I have faith in you dad, even though u never can damn*
*Broke most my life*
*We starved and we struggled but we survived*
*I'm sorry I sound bogus but I hate the way I'm livin life*
*But if you just never overdosed we'd all livin right...*
This is deep sorry for your loss 😞
ME 2 IM SOSO SORRY U LOST UR DAD
Highlight Kingdom to
Thanks y'all, that's wassup 🙏
I jus need to get a mic
2k19 still here
Bro that shit is deep keep doing ya the thing alot of love for this one
Beat crazy addicting
*Thumbs up* if you think Kodak Black would kill this challenge!?
BubbaGotBeatz FR Bruh I was dead thinking the same while I read your comment #FreeKodak
BubbaGotBeatz too be honest, this beat will make a nigga realize the world, bring out emotions and make you look at all the shit that happened in the past. I don't know why, but this song is it.
Tupac if u r out there, like this too let me let me know that this beat will be wrote in seconds.
BubbaGotBeatz yo this is sick
datwayyy!!
jayden
Back in these days man, summer 2016❤️😭😭
mm ya
Ong
2021
Mannnn fr tho
This beat go hard ❤
I dont even be rapping to this...just love to think back to the time this came out and how much it meant and means to me now
I had to hustle
get on out that struggle
and I still remained humble
cause them streets was like a jungle
growing up in my neighborhood
I had to stay off the streets
cause I remember times I barely had anything to eat
yeah i remember times I ain't had nowhere to sleep
it was time to start grinding cause I had goals I wanted to reach
yeah .
I couldn't depend on nobody ,
I had to hold it down
cause when I needed a favor ,
there was no one around
except for my brother ,
my cousin, my aunt , and my mother
we was all struggling we had to help each other .
dinner on a plate ,
we ain't see that everyday
those nights I had to pray
pray for better days .
better days , better days , in a better place
those days were soon to come in just had to wait .
( never did this before 😂 tried it just for fun 😌)
monilove 1 this is just like life when I was 5
monilove
monilove 1 dope
monilove 1 UI
that's dope bro
These days, kids will never know how much pain was on this beat😔🧡
Miss the old days
Im 13 basically a kid I understand I actually made my own song to this beat i cry real tears when i sing it tho cause it comes from the heart and i wish my life was different
Stfu pussy
@@ManifestAndMasterYourVision stfu your name is Connor💀😭😭😭
nah fr they will never understand the stories that came with this beat...
I love this comment fr. Cuz they absolutley have no idea these days the raw emotion that was into this beat by so many ppl. #tentoeschallenge
Love this beat hard story teller !!
This is so bumpin
yo who else freestyles, writes raps or songs, and attempts to freestyle to this amazing beat...I listen to it every morning on the way to school thinking I will be something.
Ethan Perrin same man. keep ya head up and keep trying. you'll make it big one day
Thanks yo.
please bring tegdvdvdvwfwfg
we will keep your eyes and me mouth see meoy keonte
Ò😅😅😊o😅po😅ollo😅
ME AND MY FRIENDS REALLY THOUGHT WE COULD RAP WHEN THIS CHALLENGE CAME OUT😂😂😂😂😂 im so glad them days are overrrrrr
💪👍👌 can't get much better.. love it 💯
I love this beat
This is something I wanna be I really really hope that my Grandfather is proud of me. He died from before I could even tell him I love him. Shxt was sad so I kept grinding over the summer. It was rough only got two of em left. Imma be the one who help if nobody was there. Grand dad I love you I hope you looking at this. Imma be up in Heaven with you and family and shxt. I'm ten toes for my family gotta stay strong. Cuzz if AIN'T nobody with ME shxt imma stand ALONE. Seen my friend get jumped by homies and shxt. I found out he was battling and took his last breathe and shxt. This worlds tough. More than tough shxt it's rough. It's not a movie this is a real life matter. You better listen while you climbing up the ladder.
Clamp God Jay Real Shit
+trilla k Thanks Bro
Clamp God Jay 💯
Banana Clips love it
+Miriam Libokmeto Thanks
was getting made fun of since day one
had suicidal thoughts just wanted to be done
had to move schools, changed her whole life
for once didn't think about pickin up that knife
things were great and then she fell in love
he made her feel good, made her rise above
took away her sorrows and took away her pain
until she found out his love was just a game
from there it all started to go back south
lost all confidence, no words came from her mouth
thinkin she was hideous, dumb and stupid too
life in pieces, apology overdo
slowly she reverted back to her old ways
locked in her bedroom crying for days
slept for way too long, wouldn't eat a thing
wanted someone to give her neck a wring
panic attacks started to become tradition
no one understood, weren't in her position
the weight of everything kept on piling higher
couldn't stop any of them terrible desires
but that girls changed, changed for the better
and she loves herself now, more than ever
people are gonna keep pushin her to the ground
but shes gonna rise, chin up and ten toes down
dope asf
Isabella .... this best one of all
Usually lyrics in the comment section suck ass but this was legit.
Isabella you have a good rap good job keep the god work up
thats amazing talent right there great job !
Pretty cool beat, never heard a fire verse from this during 2016/2017 when this took off lmfaoo
I recently heard this beat and like it.
Man I have listened to many types of beats for rap and hip hop... this one is just incredible. This producer needs to be famous asap because he really got the flow
Thanks fam! I'll continue to put my passion in this. Hopefully that'll come true.
is there an actual song to this beat
+Kayla Johnson look up 'praying for help' b
+Kayla Johnson Yes there is Trevion Alexender got a song on it
Breiner Zarate
I just sitting here scrolling down the comments tryna rap using other people's lyrics😂
Lol
🤣same
same
Lmao I was doing the same😂
It worked damn
I haven’t heard this beat in a long time a now that I played it it made me feel a shorten type of way
Damn I finally found this legendary ass beat
this song just says pain. like somehow the beat is a sound of pain and it's beautiful.
Thanks!
Cristian Rod
You described it perfectly
Gaara Kazekage :)
BubbaGotBeatz thank you for the amazing beat :)
TEN TOES RAP CHALLENGE::
this is the life of a brave girl like me
who now she's damn tough but used to feel so fuckin weak
was born adopted, so different, but prompted
by the birth mom & dad who told me im not wanted
the second im born i see just the face
of my new mom who offered to give me a place
a kind hearted soul who made me feel glad
another story for the man who im supposed to call my dad
no vision in my right eye, disease and im half blind
i wish i could move on but can't stop the rewinds
the memories of mom and dad screaming at eachother
remembering my dad hitting my poor fucking mother
they split when i was 3, mom got near-full custody
but i still had to visit him regardless of my plea
wednesday's and weekends were the worst hell days
when i spent time with daddy i was never fuckin' praised
just raped, beaten, punched, kicked, thrown down the stairs
getting called names, touched, slapped, pullin on my hair
you're supposed to be my role model, what is your excuse
for 8 years of physical verbal and sexual abuse
i blamed it on me- it was my fault i was raped
had nobody to talk to-my sister moved and escaped
leaving me all alone, fending for my fuckin self
hiding under the bed and climbing under the shelves
to get away from this monster who i had to call a dad
made me cry and scream and raised me to be dishonest and mad
after 8 years of his abuse i told mom all the shit
i finally reached my breaking point and snitched the man to bits.
got him sent to jail and had to move across the coast
yet you still give me a reason to hate myself the most
you hurt me, and threw me and tortured me before
but all i ever did was try to fuckin run out your door.
mommy was heartbroken that her precious little baby
got sucked up in abuse and felt like the world hates me
mom got remarried, were happier now
but im still scarred today- wanna know how?
all i do is let the past get to me
i can never move on, can't fuckin accept a me
where everything is ok and nothing ever came
and i could be that little girl wanting for wealth and hannah montana fame
i have a new dad, same mom now i'm perfectly fine
but something in my mind just keeps me always cryin
knowing i'm a victim and im truly went through strife
but sometimes you gotta dust it off and say "hey, that's life"
twelve years old diagnosed with some shit
called anxiety and depression because i got hit
scars on my wrist, blood flowing down the drain
crying, trying to distract from all this pain
i can't talk to nobody, i ain't going to school
i stayed in bed all day, but i was such a fool
grades got lower and so did my esteem
but i faked a happy smile just so i could seem
fighting through this bullshit getting through the day
i wanted to end my life but all i did was pray
wishing for that happiness that i never fuckin got
constantly bullied, but i'm not even a thot
why can't my life be filled with joy
instead i cry over my ex dad and a cute boy
never feeling loved but i had so many friends
who wanted me to get better and stick through till the end
i tried my best and i'm still tryin
it's hard breathing, i'm not lyin
but after all my hard work i'm high and im just flyin
at the end of the tunnel there's always a bit of light
ask me if i'm a victim and ill say yeah that's fuckin right
but im proud of it, bitch do you see how i'm doing now
getting straight a's, partyin till the moon goes down
letting loose and goin crazy, doin what i want
i wished for happiness and that's exactly what i got
Leah Laufe I'm fucken sorry! bruh this had me crying. stay strong babygirl. i cant believe u went through all that! 😪 my lord. Jesus is w u. 💙 my prayers out to u and ur family ma! 😫 omg I just can't believe this. this broke my heart in so many bits and pieces 😭💔
Leah Laufe that's fire
Leah Laufe I went through the same thing but only that it was my mom that abused me instead of my dad but hope you feel safe and if you want to check my channel
I know how you feel 😞
Leah L
Rapping back to back is really what made me driving thru the city in my mercaedies
Certified #Hit ✅
hey harambe in clouds above
it is to you that i show much love
hope you're having fun in heaven, i'm praying for you
and all your friends at the cincinnati zoo
i know it all started with that four your old
he wasn't exactly doing what he was told
what was he thinking when he climbed into your cage
i bet he didn't know you would die at such a young age
harambe i miss you so much
i miss your broad smile and your soft gentle touch
i know all you tried to do was protect that little child
and it's a shame that he won't be seeing you for a while
that one cincinnati cop should have been wiser
all he needed to use was a tranquilizer
because of that mistake it cost you your life
i want to find you killer and show him my knife
if it wasn't for him you'd be left without a scar
but if you didn't die i wouldn't know who you are
hope you're having fun up there by the moon
i hope you know i'll be seeing you soon
i'm done
Madi Schenck are you serious?? XD you just made my day
king nation good
Madi Schenck best one yet
👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽YESSSSS
*COUGH *COUGH *DEAD FUCKING MEME
I'm your oldest little daughter and I'm growin every day. But you aren't here to see things I do and say. I know that you love me and I know that you care,but without you around I get emotionally scared. That when I get older the same thing happened to me. That I will have a broken family. But come on Sunday is Father's Day. What am I supposed to do what am I supposed to say to you that day. I'm not sure and it shouldn't have to be this way. Me as a teen tryin to think of the sad Father's Day. It's supposed to be a happy day but for kids like me it's not. It's a hard reminder of the battle I've fought. Trying to wrap my head around it. Trying to fight the sad thoughts but this battle has to stop being fought. I need to forgive you even if I don't wanna. So I love you dad. And I miss not sharing all the fun we COULD of had
Estoy comenzando en el Rap Hip hop Are una musica de lo que dices. Te inspiras genial
Jessie's World your cute😘❤
Jessie's World damn this hit me right in the feels.
Kids today : “It’s just a beat”
People in 2016 : 🎤🎤🎤🔥🔥🔥🔥
This beat makes me 😭 I get in my feelings
this song is sad 😔 and something that's get in your heart ♥
yes
What song is this
Ik it make me think of my grandma
lorena rodiguez k
Frfr
2k20 still here 🤘🏽😭 this is fr a vibe 🥺
Im here. I love this beat bcs i have lots of things to rap abt from my past and im only 14. And my mama say kids dont stress. Tuh back in yall days kids didnt stress
@Janiyah Sanders-Jones yess i swearrr
Fuck 2k
Ye
Can we get a deconstructed of this fireee beat
When I listen I think of all the pain I went through and what I’m going through now
i love how you put in there , "why didn't you pay for this beat tho"
I wish I knew how to rap😂😭 this beat is fire🔥
Stephanie Torres you should go check out my raps lil alex mr wrong and make sure to subscribe to my channel
funny cuz I wish I knew how to rap
Stephanie Torres i know how to sing but i can't rap that's why I like so gone better
Did you check my channel and ahh its pretty easy
Stephanie Torres i can I just need to get bats
Good lookin on the beat Bubba...appreciate that 4R🙏💯
Music to my ear you my melody
Late nights feeling sick you my remedy
I remember every moment, every memory
Sipping on you, fuck sipping on the Hennessy
Heard you living in the Hills, out in Beverly
Yeah we coulda been forever been a legacy
But you tryna fight claiming that we enemies
Thinking 'bout the jealousy forgetting all the chemistry, yeah
Whatever happened to together 'til we 70
We moved apart girl now we living separately
I remember you, can't you remember me
Loving you my specialty, you my secret recipe
You helped me find my self, a part of my identity
My love, my oxygen to me you a necessity
I hope this reaches you if not its my serenity
Bars on my mind like I'm convicted for a felony
And ah, that was a hard time
Its been a while since we talked its been a long time
I been on my phone, checking if you online
Stalking up your page, wonder if you're on mine
Been a couple years, thought that I'd be over you
Still hold the tears, when I think of holding you
You left and disappeared, I can't get a hold of you
I can't believe you did me wrong, was someone else controlling you?
'Cause after all the times, everything we been through
Every time you lie, I'd always defend you
And when I saw you cry, I'd just hold you gentle
For you I prayed to God, to me you like a temple
So tell me did you love me? Or did you pretend to?
Every time you touched me, was it even special?
Was I a priority? Or squeezed into schedule
Baby you an angel same time you the devil
I know I made some mistakes but that was all in my past
Now I'm out here tryna regain my ground real fast
And I don't understand the struggle, and I don't understand the pain
I don't understand why all of this is running through my brain
And it's running through my veins
And I feel I can't escape
And even when I try to overcome all of the hate
It feels like I just get locked tighter in this gate
And my heart begins to Shake
And my heart begins to frail
No matter what I do, I know I can't prevail
Before I even started, I already knew failed
And in case you couldn't tell
My life is on a Sail
And it just stared sinking
Do I revert to drinking
Or do I revert to prayer
Cuz even though I pray
my life's still in despair
Man this life really ain't fair
But you don't really care
Nah, You don't care that my life is in a drought
Where is all my life flowing, cuz I think I'm out
I don't feel nothing, we call that feeling lifeless
I don't feel nothing, when I used to feel righteous
I just keep feeling more empty at heart
My heart keeps on crumbling and falling apart
Yea, Do you know that feeling?
When you know you need some healing
But even though you know that, that pain still keeps on killin
And you know you can't escape it
And you know you can't erase it
So you hide from yo problems cuz it's just to hard to face it
You know you can't erase all of the things you've said
And just that in itself creates a whirlwind in your head
And you laying in yo bed
Create a list of your regrets
Make a list of all the thing and challenges you've met
And you feel like life is set
Yea, you can't get past the struggle
So you lock up In this bubble
Don't got nobody to cuddle
Cuz you can't even trust yo self to not get into trouble
So how she post to trust you, when love is on the line
When she don't even know if she's just wasting time
Straight Bars🤯
hard
Bro fighting demons
The first part is Ali Gatie Remedy if y'all ain't know and the second is presence :)
💯💥💫
i rap off this beat for thanksgiving but forgot to put it on CZcams,my family was like i need an contract.ten toe the best
i need an like'
Everyone tells me i gotta move on but when i think of you I'm always singing love songs But most of the times i just wanna run and hide and that is because i need you here by my side you made me feel special and like i was somethin but now im sitting here and feelings like nothing. You made me forget how i was treated in the passed and i always felt like a princess and nothing less. I thought u were the one and you always had my heart but that was when every thing fell apart. We started arguing all night all day and all our hard work just started to fade away. I wanted u as my boo and i didnt know what to do but honestly u just wanted something new. I always wanted to cry actually wanted to die cause it wasnt just u its what i felt inside, when your hearts in peices what piece do you follow , they would always tell me itd be okay but how can you say that when you wouldnt even stay, idk who my real friends are and who are fake but honestly i dont need any anyways so take yo fake petty asses back to somewhere else and ima just sit here and focus on myself 😛 now ima do me and not worry bout nobody else cause not like yall worried bout me and feel my vibe while i go and be myself
Cupcakes Flower 😭😭
Cupcakes Flower hey I love the rap you made do you mind me fixing it up and making my own little bit ?
Cupcakes Flower love this
Cupcakes Flower
Cupcakes Flower omg so good
can I use this ?🤔
I love it!! Can u mix one up with an OG music box in it? You know the old jewelry box music box's
2021 still rapping to this bad ass beat!