what "holding on to you" means to me
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"Fight it, take the pain ignite it. Tie a noose around your mind, loosen up to breathe fine. Tie it to a tree, tell it 'you belong to me. This ain't a noose, this is a leash, and I have some news for you: you must obey me."
I wouldn't be able to describe how important those words are to me.
Ditto...
Sameee
YES.
Tyler has written so many amazing and important lyrics, but this one right here has helped my like no other one that he has ever written has helped me in the way that this one has.
My favorite lyrics 💙
twenty one pilots songs that have helped me through some tough times:
*Truce*- is so calming, just listen to the lyrics and let your mind blank
Ruby- urges you to the next day
Taxi Cab- makes you feels unashamed/not alone
Bandito- it's just a great song tbh, just listen to the lyrics
Neon Gravestones- brings a sense of awareness to mental illnesses
Johnny Boy- gives a sense of being needed
Friend Please- again just listen to the lyrics:)
*couldn't fit the entire thing- check replies if you ever need encouragment💛*
please if you ever have intruding or compulsive thoughts talk to somebody, nothing bad will come of it. you're worth it; stay alive.
NF is also a great artist to check out, he raps, but he is very good with his words.
Treesssssss 🌲 🌳!!!!!
Lovely could go in the same spot as ruby for me
@@jbits_lilcaesar4k Ahh I forgot Lovely:( still a great song tho
Holding on to you is like one of those “rock” songs that can calm you and connect you truly with the artist that’s why it’s my favorite song.
I have just one question....
WHO TF DISLIKED THIS?
There always has to be those haters.
someone who didn’t watch it
Someone who is mad at God.
seven ideots
I have been having a really hard time with feeling ashamed for being depressed, so thank you so much for sharing. It is so comforting to hear that someone understands. I'm so glad I discovered this channel 🖤
Recently I was lying in bed at one of the most depressed moments of my life. I was (and still am) struggling with an addiction. I really felt like I was losing control of my mind. Then I put on Goner, and that was just what I needed. At least in my life, God uses Twenty One Pilots a lot to speak to me.
Just know that you’re not alone! The lord can pull you out of places even when they feel hopeless, I don’t know you but I’ll be praying for you
You’ve got this!
For real though, some songs that really got me were:
Truce
Bandito
Forest
Falling Too
Trees
Friend, Please
But most importantly, Kitchen Sink.
Now that we know the true story about the "Kitchen Sink", my appreciation for the song has risen to the ceiling and beyond. The first verse:
Are you searching for purpose?
Then paint something, yeah it might be wordless.
Then write something, yeah it might be worthless.
Pointless curses, nonsense verses,
You'll see purpose start to surface.
No-one else dealing with your demons
*meaning maybe defeating them could be the beginning of your meaning, friend*
This is a bit ranty, i know :)
Hey! Just wondering if you could tell me more about the true story behind kitchen sink? Super interested about what you have to say :)
I agree, I’m curious too
I didn't know about this until recently, and my source is a comment on CZcams, so don't take my word for this. Brace yourselves.
When Tyler was young (probably in No Phun Intended time) he had attempted suicide. He did this by tying a piece of some kind of string material to a kitchen sink, and then tying the other end around his neck. He then leaned foward so the string chokes him. This obviously didn't work.
This is also believed to be the |-/ symbol. The | is the kitchen sink, the - is the string material, and the / is Tyler.
Once again, this isn't from a 100% reliable source, but it just seems so accurate that it has to be at least somewhat real.
@@snek7030 also you know when it says leave me alone, and then dont leave me alone, that could be sometimes when you just want to be left alone, even though you actually need someone to be there for you, but are just too afraid to admit it.
just a thought.
wow that was one sentence.
TW// Hey Cliff. Just wanted to let you know that you are super strong and I'm very proud and how far you've come.
Twenty one pilots has saved my life so many times and have got me through some pretty traumatic stuff and they are currently helping me try and push through a relapse I'm having with (trigger warning) self harm.
You are so freaking strong and I am so glad that they have been able to help you too. It's always nice to find comfort in music and it takes a lot of bravery and vulnerability to share this with the world.
Drown by Tyler Joseph and Anathema have probably made the biggest impacts for me and they have saved my life a lot. When I was one of the times I was in a mental health facility recovering from an attempt I was able to give a presentation on Twenty one pilots and it was really cool. Ok this comment is kind of every where haha. I hope you have a nice evening. Stay alive you guys it's worth it. ||-//
Emma Thornock thanks for sharing your story I used to (trigger warning)self harm (cutting) but I been coming up on 7years clean from it. Demi Lovato all her music helps me she’s my role model ,especially her new song anyone that just came out
@@mimibelta259 thank you so much!!!! And congrats on 7 years clean!!! That is a huge deal
Emma Thornock thank you
Love your reply. I think this is one of Clifford’s best videos ❤️
relapses are hard to come back from. This is a thing I fight with, too. One thing I learned is that relapse is often because you have come across a new trigger you hadn't seen before. You may have tools and skills to help cope, but you don't necessarily know how to deal with the new trigger. That's how it works for me, don't want to try and tell you what you're thinking/feeling. I've heard this concept in AA too. You're not alone with this, or alone at all. (In Trench...)
A song that helps me when i'm feeling really down is Truce. The line ,,The sun will rise and we will try again" tells me that even after failing and failing, I shouldn't give up. I generally am a very optimistic and hopeful person but sometimes I think I should end it all. And Truce calms me down in those situations.
I relate to you so much in that regard, I can't even quite put it into words but I know exactly what you mean.
That line means hope to me and hope is vital. So this line is vital. Truce is my favourite song for a lot of reasons but this line is a big one. Above all, I adore and appreciate that Tyler says "*we* will try again", not just you. It feels like he's saying, "Hey, you don't have to go through this by yourself. When you fall, and you _will_ fall, you have to pick yourself back up again but I will be right by your side the whole time." Or not even Tyler in particular, just someone.
Every evening is like a tiny new year's eve and every morning is a new beginning. The prospect that you can always start over gives me hope and "we" makes me feel like I'm not alone.
I love Truce.
@@lassliegen Wait I didn't even think about the *we* in that line but now that you said it I appreciate it more.
Phone:Pop so...
Me:clicks
Holding on to you is my favorite. I never got through anything with it but I still love the song
Migraine really connects with me.
I'm not gonna say why because it sounds dumb......... Just stay alive.
I'm sure you wouldn't sound dumb! I adore the metaphor of ship wreck on an island to struggling mentally, it's so visual and just makes it all make sense.
As someone who sometimes has literal migraines, I think it's an amazing metaphor, that people who haven't had a migraine can't quite fully grasp (not try to gate keep, still a lot of meaning if you haven't had a literal migraine).
I really love Migraine. It's one of the two songs I can't listen to in public, because I will, and I promise you this, I WILL start singing it out loud. It can't be helped, it's some kind of trigger. I-I-I-I got a migraine-okaybye
It always seems like its dumb and then no one but me thinks it is dumb. Any reason, any connection, means a lot. Not trying to push you to share anything personal, just wanted to say that its pretty likely I wouldn't find it dumb
no thing you ever connect with is dumb!!! And i do connect with Migraine too
Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your story. I was introduced to twenty one pilots in 2012 during the hardest point in my life. Without a doubt, their music helped save my life. So many of their lyrics helped me reconcile my struggle with depression and my faith in God. I would give anything to say thank you to Tyler in person. I know music can’t really save someone, but for me it was the catalyst to healing.
What I love about this song is the bridge at the near end:
"It ain't the speakers that bump hard, it's our hearts that make the beat"
I love this. We create reality, we should never forget. There are few ways to say this with more powerful words to me.
The song Lovely by twenty one pilots always helps me. It just feels like he’s taking directly to me and it helps me feel better idk like he’s reaching his hand out to help me
Like they are really close to your heart and like they know you or they are your best friend and they are trying to maje you lovely🥺
Lucija Siketić yesss exactly
“Holding On To You” made me ugly cry and yet cheer at the same time. The line, “Tell it you belong to me. This ain’t a noose, this is a leash and I have news for you, you must obey me” is what had me cheering. I was like, “Yes, I have to take my thoughts captive!” I knew that I needed to control what I was thinking and where those thoughts were going. It’s the key to the prison I find myself walking into. I can lock myself in or set myself free. I choose to entertain my faith and be free.
I really enjoy your Twenty One Pilots and NF videos. You remind me so much of my cousin. We would spend hours talking. We no longer live near each other and have our own lives and families now, but we try to stay connected through messaging.
Keep up the great work! Be blessed and peace on you, Clifford.
It's great that this song makes you feel that way, it's amazing what music can do. :)
I just wanted to share my opinion on something you said if you don't mind. I don't believe that you should hold your thoughts captive or that you need to contain or even suppress negative thoughts. I mean, suppression is never really a good option but I believe that trying to keep certain things in your head in a neat little room and to give them no attention isn't a good thing.
I'm not sure if that's exactly what you meant but it's kind of how I interpreted it and I just wanna say that it's a good first step to acknowledge those thoughts. You shouldn't give them too much space to grow or feed them but don't try to push them away either. It can actually feel relieving to tell them "I know you're here and you are allowed to be."
The next step should then be your reaction to those thoughts. Counter them with facts. If your brain is telling you "nobody likes you", think about the people in your life. There will always be at least one person who cares whether they are able to show that to you or not. Try some positive self-talk to counter the negative thoughts, even if you might not believe it yet. You don't have to start out with something huge like "I am beautiful." or "I love myself." cause that's a long road but the little things like "I am proud of myself for going outside today." or making the bed or taking a shower or putting away half of your laundry because maybe you just didn't have the energy to put away all of it but that's ok because you still did something and you can be proud of yourself for that. The little steps matter just as much as the big ones.
Those are some things that therapy has taught me, sorry for ranting so much. Maybe it can help someone. :)
Oh, I completely get what you’re saying and agree fully. Nothing should be bottled up, I’ve done that before and it didn’t go so well.
I didn’t really mean take them captive as locking them away or suppressing them. I meant it in a way that I won’t allow my thoughts to spiral out of control to where I begin feeling panicked. I won’t let negative thoughts control me. I acknowledge what type of thought I may have and then I take that thought and guide it towards a better thought. Instead of dwelling on circumstances out of my control, like family or friends suffering from disease, I will focus on what I actually can do to make things better. Let them know how much I love them, support them, journey on with them. I tend to overthink of all the reasons why things happen or go wrong or the ways I could help fix all the problems in the world, but it just ends up making me depressed because I can’t fix everything. If I take control over what I think about then I can take control over what I can actually do and accomplish. 😉
holding onto you is my favourite tøp song. its helped me when i was through my shittiest times my most sūicidāl times. i use music for coping and help and holding onto you is the song thats helped me most
tw: depression, suicide
When my depression got really bad for the first time in the beginning of 2018, a friend of mine who i just met a couple weeks, mabye months ago, recommended me the song migraine after we talked for several hours when i wanted to kill myself. i cried so much during this song, it was just so relatable and sounded exactly the way i felt and it made me so emotional. and i love twenty one pilots to this day just because of this song.
aw cliff🥺 I wanna give u a hug man... do what you got to do man stay safe
i love how personal this vid is btw
this is one of the songs that's really meant so much to me, i listened to the cancer cover right before listening to it for the first time. i know it sounds silly but i was crying so hard while listening to the cancer cover because it was summer a few years back, and because school was over, i hadn't spoken to any of my friends or anyone i knew for five+ weeks. i had ways to contact them, i just had so much anxiety about ever talking to them in a setting where i wasn't expected to. something that made this a lot harder is that i'm an extrovert, meaning i get my energy and excitement from talking to people instead of staying home and doing something alone, which is how introverts "recharge", so my energy and happiness was through the floor. so back to the song, i was bawling my eyes out listening to the cancer cover when holding onto you popped up in my recommended, and instead of making me cry, it stopped my crying. hearing how powerful the song was, listening to each and every word and understanding, relating to a lot of it, it meant so much to me that i felt happy again, and went to sleep around ten minutes later, which was the first good night of sleep i'd had since the start of summer.
Well, im gonna Tell you a simple story, i've been struggling with quite a few mental illnesses (ones i rather not mention), and at the time (i found out about these illnesses) holding on to you was my savior, It is for me, a song about Hope, i still till this day Hope that i'll listen to It and be like "i got to that point where im better, where i know what Hope feels like" i still am pretty hopeless, and feel really Lost, can assure that music and poetry keep me in this earth, hopefully until i find meaning again. Bless your hear professor, truly.
A couple songs that I believe that have helped me a lot: innuendo by Queen
Mother love by Queen
Spread your wings by Queen
Semi automatic by Top
The fall by half alive
cough syrup by young the giant
Chasing cars by SLNTWLF
keep yourself alive by Queen
your my best friend by Queen
Lost in the moment by nf
The fall: Imagine Dragons
Oh, I'd forgotten about Innuendo. I love Queen.
@@C-SD i have listened to everything.
Nice profile pic.
@@azarelsingarimbun6085 thx man, yours is so cool
Dude. You look really emotional rn. Take a deep breath. In. And. Out. Try forgetting what bad has happened to you in the past. This song means alot to everyone. Everyone has a different meaning to this song. Keep up your good work man. 💛
"you are surrounding all my surroundings"
Personally I take it in as his anxiety making him scared of his surroundings because he fears them (anxiety makes you fear people) or paranoia (fear of other people only not what they think about you but what they can physically do to you).
some songs that helped me a lot
- truce, goner, migraine
- kick me, better off dead, blood lines, ghost (sleeping with sirens)
- brother, destiny, devil (ronnie radke)
- popular monster, the drug in me is you/reimagined, drugs, fuck you and all your friends, coming home, loser (falling in reverse) rest in peace derek jones
- doomed, shadow moses, sleepwalking, happy song (especially that one), can you feel my heart, snakes start to sing (bring me the horizon)
- i don't love you, cancer, the sharpest lives, the ghost of you (!!), (my chemical romance)
- the phoenix (fall out boy) idk just something clicked with this song
- house of memories (panic! at the disco)
- crawling, no more sorrow, valentine's day (linkin park) rest in peace chester bennington
- fine (!!), (mike shinoda)
- as you are (daughtry)
- lonely, you'll be fine, sick boy soldier (palaye royale)
oh well i could go on and on and on i'm sorry
i don't believe in god to be honest but it's awesome to see how much of an impact he can have yk what i mean? it seems comforting to think that someone's out there watching you and taking care of the problems you can barely handle by yourself
but just music in general helps me so much. it's soothing to know that somebody's going through the same shit as i do and really understands. also we all connected through music and everyone can interpret it in their own way
english isn't even my native language i probably messed up or something sorry
k that was long thanks for reading and stay safe
Oooo this is gonna be good
Edit 1: I'm sorry 😭
Edit 2: I love what you say to one of my favorite songs. I'm happy that you've shared this to all of us.
Edit 3: ...not crying, crying is a normal thing for everyone.
Holding onto you was the first song by tøp I heard where I realized they were singing about God - I remember it just blew me away and encouraged me so much. Hearing you explain the impact the lines in the chorus had on you really hit me too, just now. I find here lately that I can really empathize with what you're saying. I realize this comment is like, two months late, but nevertheless I'm glad I found this video now! I think it worked out better this way.
If I say, "Surely the darkness shall cover me, and the light about me be night," even the darkness is not dark to you; the night is bright as the day, for darkness is as light with you.
- Psalm 139:11-12
What always connected me to this music including Holding on to You is that all of Tyler’s lyrics have a positive twist even though it’s dark topics. When I was feeling whatever I was I’d listen and connect with the dark themes and then hear the parts about fighting through it or making it through or putting it aside and eventually work my way to a point that was better than the funk i was in.
He doesn’t instigate with his music in my experience it all is a way to connect on a deep level and walk yu away from the metaphorical or literal edge. Which is amazing and the part I really respect.
the song truce makes me cry but it makes me realize that i need to stay alive for certain people in my life. and i sang that song to my grandpa when he was dying from cancer a couple years ago since i’ve never sang for him before. so many of their songs have helped me deal with my major depression episodes
Please don't be afraid to be emotional around others. There is so much strength in being able to be vulnerable around other people.
I mean, don't go out there and start crying to a stranger on the tube because I said that (it's ok if you do that because you need it in that moment, just be sure to pick a compassionate looking stranger) but there is no shame in opening up to someone you love and trust and start crying in front of them.
I know how hard it is once you've gotten into the habit of suppressing to cry. My father has taught me that my emotions are to be kept to myself so for the longest time I haven't even been able to cry while I'm by myself (hello daddy issues or whatever you wanna call it) but it's honestly very important - especially for children - to learn that everyone has those emotions and that it's ok to express them.
You can cry in front of us if you feel comfortable with it, we won't judge you for it. I've been there and prolly everybody else has too.
HOTY means a lot to me too by the way for a lot of the same reasons as to why it touched you actually.
My favourite song is Truce though.
The line "The sun will rise and we will try again." is my life line. It means hope to me and hope is vital. So this line is vital. Truce is my favourite song for a lot of reasons but this line is a big one. Above all, I adore and appreciate that Tyler says "*we* will try again", not just you. It feels like he's saying, "Hey, you don't have to go through this by yourself. When you fall, and you _will_ fall, you have to pick yourself back up again but I will be right by your side the whole time." Or not even Tyler in particular, just someone.
Every evening is like a tiny new year's eve and every morning is a new beginning. The prospect that you can always start over gives me hope and "we" makes me feel like I'm not alone.
(I also commented that on someone else's comment about Truce in case you stumble across it.)
I don't know what my point is or where I'm going with this, I guess I'm just saying please don't apologise for crying and showing emotions.
Thank you, Clifford.
Stay alive, frens. ||-// ♡
Truce and ode to sleep really resonates with me. i had a pet die a couple months back and those where played at his mini funeral. Never have i cryed so much in my life.
When Holding On To You comes on, i directly calm down, doens't matter what' gong on in my life. The Chorus, aaaah i Love it so so much. The melodies, not even the lyrics give me a special kind of hope. The lyrics are beautiful, too, of course. But i think the most wunderful thing is, when music itself creates a special feeling.
Man this song is amazing. I'm so glad your channel got me into TØP. I have chronic depression and probably need to see a therapist to manage my emotions better, and I don't currently have the freedom or resources to do so. God is my sole provider and gives me strength to live each day.
Joye Everett so proud of you for getting through this far, I hope you’re able to talk to someone soon. Praying for you
@@blakejeffries3365 Thank you. I will go once I can.
First off thank you Cliff for having the courage to open up the way u did and share your story and truth to us all. Also seems very necessary right now in particular with essentially the whole world in shock and sorrow over the loss of Kobe, his daughter, and seven other individuals including two other young girls in that accident. But i also wanna say to everyone that is ever going thru a tough time in their life to please listen to "Love." by Kid Cudi. I recommend Cudi to anyone as an artist but in particularly this song! (It is not available on iTunes btw) But this song hits me in a way that no song does and is very honest and deep and meaningful to me! I advocate for this song anytime someone I know is feeling down so I encourage any of u who is or has or will feel the way Cliff is describing to listen to "Love." Thank u.
Tyler’s words have saved my life over and over again. I totally relate to where you’re coming from. I remember my first “moment” with car radio. Every time I listen to his words I STILL say to myself “oh, Tyler.” Lol. If anyone deals with depression, TØP is an excellent band to listen to. ❤️ So happy you shared this video! Nice to know I’m not alone.
thank you so much for sharing. the chorus of holding on to you is my favorite part of any twenty one pilots song and I don’t even know how to explain what effect it has had in me, I guess it just kind of let me escape to some other place in my mind where I felt so calm and content and I’ve definitely cried over that part of the song. again, thank you so much for sharing. much love💛💛
I very much relate to holding on to you very similarly to you. This was the song I listened to when confused or scared for the future. It was the song I listened to whenever I lost someone, either in death or in change or corruption. After recieving encouragement from wonderful friends and my bf, I had to help myself. I had to accept my faults and others' faults. I had to accept I am who I am and that no one left me because of something I was or something I did. And I wasnt fat, stupid, airheaded, selfish or any of the other things I was called. I had to accept that I needed help and that no one that eventually helped me was trying to hurt me. I had to change my inward narrative towards myself and this song helped me do that. It wasnt easy, but the thing that helped me the most was this song because I could relate in all stages of my mental development. It helped me identify the ties between my mental state and the things I blamed on myself or, if you will, held on to. It helped me identify the relationships I held onto that were hurting me. In my depression, it gave me calmness in knowing I'm not alone and hope in knowing others have gotten past the monsters they've once faced or the criticisms they've once given themselves or recieved from others. In my struggle, it gave me motivation to hold on. Finally, as a Christian rekindled with faith, it helped me hang on to God. I read versus that proved I was wonderfully made and had a purpose, versus that told me that words of those taunting me of my mistakes or lies and misconceptions were discouraging me in sin, envy, and hate. Most importantly holding on to you reminds me of where I've been and how far I've come.
Months ago, I tried to commit suicide as a 13 yr old many times cause I've gotten intrusive thoughts about me having a very unproductive life. Like a train stopped going, like frozen to one place forever. But then one of my friends told me to listen to Trench, from Jumpsuit until Leave The City. This album became the first album I've cried many time, a album that changed my life and also my favorite album of all time. I started to make my life productive somehow and my friend helped me, I started to celebrate my life everyday. I wanna thank Twenty Øne Piløts for being with me my entire childhood. I wanna thank my good friend for being an older sister to me. I wanna thank God for a very blessed and productive life now. I wanna Cliff for being honest, this helped me. I wanna thank myself for morphing to someone else now. ||-//🥺💛💙
When I was really sick I got depressed as well. When I was at my worst I listened to this song and just started crying. The lyrics do so much to me. Then I went to their concert and I got so much energy from them which I didn't had in a long time. As soon as holding on to you came on I just started crying and was in a sort of other place. It was so special and that's why it will always be my favorite song💛
I love that you shared this with us! This song is also super important to me. I remember the second verse struck me because it seemed to describe exactly the way my nights. The way he talks about the night and how your day could be going just fine but then when the sun goes down and it’s dark out, suddenly all your insecurities and doubts start creeping in. I would often think twice about my life and it almost always happened at night. It’s as if the devil loves the physical darkness. I love the advice Tyler gives, starting with fight it! It makes me think of the verse that says something like “take captive every thought and make it obedient to Christ”. It’s empowering because not only are we not alone, we have the ability to fight back and we have someone by our side who helps us fight back. It’s also why “Good Day” by Cypress & Co. connects with me a lot.
Thank you for sharing. It’s important to publicly talk about our struggles and how music heals us. We need more videos like this.
holding on to you means the absolute world to me, i’m sosososo glad i found something that showed me it was okay to feel the way i did, and that dark times will always come (and that’s okay) but they’ll also always go.
Hey it's alright to not have manly tears and I know holding them back was a hard thing to do. But you are strong and amazing and you help so many people out. You are another reminder of why this band had a reason to exist and you are another reason on why I stayed alive today.
Back where I am at, people like the band cause of the drums or they use to like them but now not as much, that's all fine, but I feel like I am missing that person who would wanna just be emotional together or happy and listen to that together. Do you know what I mean?
Basically someone to connect me to the band with. Feeling like I'm alone and sometimes I can't connect with the music, so I don't listen to it as much. Which makes me feel guilty, but I just get so lonely listening to a song by myself, trying to understand each lyric. I never truly understood those lyrics, until you explained your meaning to me.
This makes me emotional, but I'm happy that you shared it with us. You are one of the many legs on this organism.
Thru say that when one leg is broken, the whole thing is useless, but this Clique doesn't give up. We identify the pain, we understands and we try our absolute best to heal it.
You are NOT a broken leg, you are just one in pain and we will do whatever it takes to make sure you're alright before we continue this journey.
I know I was all over the place but I wanted to get as much as I could out possible.
You are strong and loved and cared for so deeply here in this family. Please never be afraid to be vulnerable with us and know that we understand and probably need that connection that you had. Thank you for existing and staying alive. You are truly amazing in my eyes. I'm so happy that we have you and April here.
Stay Alive Fren, it's worth it, I promise.
♥️ We Did It |-/ ||-// 💛
This song helped me in a really rough time and has since become my all time favorite song... I resonated with a lot of stuff you said
When I was at my first twenty one pilots concert a year ago, I knew that "holding on to you" will mean the world to me, listening it live. I can't describe what I felt. I was so overwhelmed. It's one of my most favourite songs and it always hits me so hard, because it's so relatable and brutally honest.
For everyone who goes through a lot of pain, I pray for you and guys... stay alive❤
(Sorry for my English, it's not my native language)
Had a nearly identical experience with this song in high school. These are some of the most comforting lyrics I’ve ever heard. Knowing I can’t trust myself to “pull myself together” and make myself better was hard but necessary to understand. It took something greater. God pulled me through my depression and today when I feel myself slipping I can ALWAYS have a hope in Him. He really is surrounding us always.
"if you get depressed listen to good music and get some help" Soo true
Ik this is like a week later but I just want to say holding onto you has helped me like that too whenever I'm overwhelmed by stress I'll listen to it and kinda feel this peace and comfort, it's a God thing and the song reminds me that He's always holding onto me and all I need to do is keep holding onto Him. ||-//
Thanks for sharing! I went to a dark place a couple months ago, and was confronted with grief over childhood hurts all over again. I found a playlist on Spotify called something like "Twenty One Pilots Sad Songs" and I just played it on repeat until all the tears were squeezed out. So therapeutic! But having done therapy already, I also had the tools to make sense of what was hurting so bad to that helped too. Thanks again for sharing. So many TOP songs touch me. Trees made me cry
Thank you so much for sharing this! It's a very personal thing but I think it's so so important that we learn to share these things and not hide it.
For me, holding on to you is not so much about God, because I'm not religious anymore. But it has a sense of taking back control. Not letting your depression taking over you and finding the strength to keep going on.
What I love about top is that you can listen to them when you're down because the lyrics reflect your emotions and yet their upbeat music makes you feel better and more energetic and it has a sense of "I'm being understood. I'm not alone. Let's celebrate our brokenness and not hide it behind a mask."
You have no idea how much this resonated with me man, in that I also rarely go to songs when I'm feeling lost or when feeling like I just don't know what to do. The way you describe your relationship with that specific song reminds me of how much Foster The People's Broken Jaw hits me. Sometimes I'll overthink so much to the point where I get a headache and it just feels unbearable but I'll be unable to stop and sometimes all it takes is that song for me to take a step back and really look at things and really put it all into perspective. Sadly I've been in this overthinking cycle all week and it's nice to see a video like this where I know I'm not alone. Keep doing what you're doing man, much love!
Thank you for sharing friend. This band. These boys and their music....there is just something healing and comforting about it.
'Entertain my faith' sung live with 22.000 other people....I have experienced it three times. So comforting. Feels like home.
I understand exactly what you been through. I’ve been in and out of depression for 3 years. Finally started to talk to a psychologist last year which really helped and told him about Twenty One Pilots and how the songs can describe exactly what I’m feeling when I don’t know how to explain it. I know I’ll probably hit a low again and my thoughts will consume my head but right now I’m actually happy with myself and life in general. Stay alive people❤️
The song that made me cry so many times is Love, Hate, React, Relate by Trash Boat.
My grandpa was the one person caring for me, when I was a kid because my parents were too busy with my brothers and when I was 6 he fell into a coma and died when I was 15. This song talks about seeing somebody being taken from you, slowly. Tobi, Trash Boat's wrote this song about seeing his dog that he had since he was a kid getting sick and having to cope with him dying soon while also talking about how he doesn't know which of his feelings are genuine and which he just feels because society taught him that's what you're supposed to feel when things like this happen. Tobi also touches on his lack of religiousness saying that he doesn't believe in heaven but he wishes he could to know that his dog is in a better place now.
The song itself starts calm, the verses are almost like he's trying to collect his thoughts rationally and in opposition to most songs the chorus gets even calmer, the second verse is a little more energetic and we go back to the very calm chorus. The bridge/outro part is very energetic with intense vocals that almost sound desperate. This progression feels like a coping process, trying to be rational, failing, trying to regain it, failing and loosing your composure.
I have connected to songs before but never on this level
Twenty one pilots helped me through a period in my life where I felt miserable about myself and guilt about everything that I've done.. when I listened to them and their lyrics I had realised that it's okay and I'm a person who is still learning and can live with it after thinking "I'm the only one that I know waging my wars behind my face and above my throat" and actually I wasn't the only one.. that's why I love them and they played a big part for me to get better
i have a few, but the one that really sticks out to me is "buy the stars" by marina. it's got such a gorgeous melody, these beautiful harmonics, these amazing lyrics that really resonate - especially when i put it in the context of a theory a fan had about it (tl;dr for it: it's her alter ego on the album, electra heart, directly talking to her, as in marina, and asking her to let her go). i just.... really feel that and i have had a nice cathartic cry to this song many times. but wow, truly - every single aspect of the song is so amazing and so helpful to me as a person, but i connect so strongly to the lyrics of the bridge:
"You're buying stars to shut out the light
We come alone and alone we die
And no matter how hard you try
I'll always belong in the sky."
i would really really recommend it to anyone who stumbles across this comment and hasn't heard it. unfortunately, for everyone NOT in the UK, it has to be accessed via youtube (i turned it into an mp3 format from the link so i could listen to it like a normal person haha)
Truce. I was at like the lowest I've ever been in high school and that song helped me through so much. Stay alive.
I lost both of my parents in 2017...3 months apart. I know about depression, loss and grief. I get it. Twenty One Pilots saved my life too. Stay strong, my friend. I'm so glad you have April in your life. I wish I had someone
Thank you for making this video. This is one of my favorite videos you have done so far. The impact HOTY has had on my life is something that I can’t even begin to describe. I don’t talk about it over the internet because of how personal and emotional the experience I had with this song is. But man, such good stuff. Yea, thanks for sharing, Cliff ❤️.
Some additional songs that have helped me:
Migraine-tøp
Addict with a Pen-tøp
Paralyzed-NF
Mansion-NF
Lost in the Moment-NF
Dark Thoughts-Kyd the Band
Human-Kyd the Band
Habits-Tove Lo
The Fall-Imagine Dragons
Dream-Imagine Dragons
Hear Me-Imagine Dragons
Iris-Mike Posner
Thru These Tears-LANY
Learning How To Die-Jon Foreman
The Average-Joseph O’Brien
Requiem-Dear Evan Hansen
Till Kingdom Come-Coldplay
The Day I Found God-Switchfoot
Come Home-Jon Foreman
Holding on To You and Trees are my go to songs for when I'm down. For depression in an other way is It's alright By Mother Mother. When I've made mistakes and I'm mad at myself for what I've done feeling guilty this song carries me so much
Really appreciate this video! I felt like Holding Onto You needed more credit. I personally had that similar experience one day doing dishes, and realizing there is dimension to the song when you really listen to it. That song is my favorite by them. I interpreted it very similarly. The music video to me, is their best even to this day. I think it represents them as a whole. I really liked the stripped down video Tyler singing and playing piano in the UV studios video. It kills me every time, because for the longest due to my super Christian mom, I felt like it was not normal to feel that way, but Tyler uses Christian terms that are so relatable in belief, doubt, and coping. It had such an impact on me in high-school. I even got the lyrics “And I’ll Be Holding Onto You” on my senior ring, knowing my mom did not want me to listen to music that was not “Christian” or “Country”. They’ll will always have a special place in my heart for who I am today.
A Car, a Torch, a Death and Taxi Cab. Those songs-I don’t have the words to explain how much they mean to me.
You wouldn’t Believe it but I had almost the same experience with this Song, especially when it says “Tie a noose around your mind” because that its the hardest part when you’re sad, to control your own thoughs. When I understood the meaning of Holding on to you I cried too and believe me I’m not a person that like crying.
my #1 on spotify wrapped
Video of a man sharing a true heartfelt story of his struggle and connection.
7 people: ight, Imma head out
I'm sorry for the novella, didn't think this would get so long.
I use music to help with all sorts of things. I have angry songs for when I just need to yell. An example is Home by 3dg. Although that song holds other meaning as well. Helps me figure out what I'm feeling at times, too. Its hard to choose songs without making this even more insufferably long.
Stone Sour: Through Glass, Say You'll Haunt Me, Orchids, Bother
3DG: Bitter Taste, Pain, So What, Scared, Riot, Just Like You, I am Machine, Animal I have Become, Tell Me Why, RIght Left Wrong
FoB: Young and Menace, Church, This Ain't a Scene...., Champion, Hold Me Tight or Don't
Rise Against: Savior,
BMTH: Happy Song
MCR: well, pretty much all of them. Headfirst for Halos is the first one that pops into my head.
Plumb: In My Arms, Cut, Manic
Those are a few I ran into on my current list, but Halsey, Queen, Billie Eilish, Paramore, The Beatles, Yungblud, Lacuna Coil, Flyleaf (most of the mometo mori album), The Academy is..., David Bowie, Nicole Dollanganger, IDKHBTFM, Imagine Dragons, The Verve, The Foo Fighters, Nirvana, Frank Iero, Red, Creed, Sick Puppies, Evans Blue, Nickelback, 10 Years, Apocalyptica, Seether, Pretty Reckless, Breaking Benjamin, Disturbed, In This Moment, Evanescence, Papa Roach, Led Zeppelin almost all classic rock. And so, so many more!
I always feel extremely embarrassed to show emotion where people can see it, but try to remind myself that it isn't a bad thing. Just scary and makes me feel like my control has slipped. fwiw, I'd hate for you to feel like you can't show anything of the sort. Forget manly crying, its not really a thing anyway.
HotY hits close to home for me as well. The idea of not letting that drag you down, of taking control of yourself and your demons. Like in levitate - I feed on that pain. I use the pain and anger to push my life along, to get through things people assume I won't survive. The last section also reminds me that even though its important for us to stay alive we don't have to just survive. It feels like a celebration of the life I've returned to. A celebration that I've survived and beat this thing, even if its just for a little while.
I find car radio does actually help me. Among other things its a reminder that I can sit with my thoughts, and at time should. Just because I'm sitting and looking down from a high place, doesn't mean I have to jump. I relate to it a lot because I do use music in a variety of ways, but one is to drown out some of those thoughts. Nothing is 100% good or 100% bad, sometimes its best to drown it out and sometimes its best to sit with it. It also reminds me of the "gut check" concept. I don't do this any more, and I'm not suggesting it. Worked for me, but I can see it would be dangerous for others. Would go up high and just look and ask myself if I have the guts to walk away and deal with life. Luckily I always did and now I have a kid to hang on for. Adult kid, but still the same.
I have depression too. I have to fight it everyday. I stopped taking anti-depressants. I didn't feel like they helped me. I do take anxiety meds. Depression and anxiety go hand in hand. Like you said. I just have to do my best to stay positive and busy. I ALWAYS cry listening to certain TOP songs. Their lyrics have definitely saved me!! Thanks for sharing your story. Love you Cliff❤️🎶 sorry Professor Cliff🤩
Hearing this song (and especially the chorus) for the first time felt like a blanket a heavy, soft blanket that I could wrap myself in and lie on the couch with.
Hearing this song during depression made me feel really mad at my state of lethargy. It was like hitting an old machine to get it running again.
"tie a noose around your mind, loose enough to breathe fine and tie it to a tree tell it 'you belong to me!', this ain't a noose, this is a leash, and I have news for you, you must obey me!"
This line gave me a shovel and the determination to dig myself out of the pit i got myself into.
I love this song wholeheartedly..... :)
I never had a spiritual connection via music before I had come across twenty one pilots. But I’m so happy I found this band. It really helped me re-define my faith in the darkest years of my life, and it continues to do so for me. Even just to help me emotionally, one of the songs that saved me was Truce. It sounds like a cliche but it’s so cathartic to hear someone sing you on, and encouraging you to stay alive.
this video is so special and so true. holding onto you has always had a special place in my heart as well and I always think back to those lyrics. It's just so powerful. One song though that really helped me in a deep time of anxiety and depression was ode to sleep. I would get so afraid at night and just listening to that song was a huge encouragement because it reminded me that the enemy has no power over me. God is in control. There is something about their songs that are like no other songs in the world. Each person can find a connection with one of them and it helps them in their deepest moments. I think that's one of the main reasons why I love tøp so much 💛 but yeah I've definitely cried to many of their songs lol!!
Holding to You (Hope) ! Without Hope you have Nothing and its Important to be there for others thru Struggles! The Smallest acts of Kindness can Save Your Best Friend
DANG!!!!! I loved that you shared your story and connection to the incredible song, so openly, so honestly. Thanks so much. Like you, this song has helped me in times of low, flat, nothingness. The words are not only so emotionally saving but singing along to it can really help... “I’ll be holding onto you!!!!!!”.
All the songs of Twenty Øne Piløts and Linkin Park really helped me a lot to deal with my OCD.Their songs perfectly describes my struggles and helped to deal with my sadness, fear, confusions, insecurities, doubts, overthinking, faith, and my purpose.
here's a list of the songs that comforted me through my darkest times:
)friend please-tøp
)trapdoor-tøp
)air catcher-tøp
)december-neck deep
)torn-neck deep(i know its a cover i just really like this version)
)smooth seas dont make good sailors-neck deep
)in bloom- neck deep
)mr brightside-the killers
)daddy issues-the neighbourhood
)the story-conan gray
)comfort crowd-conan gray
) generation why-conan gray
)cancer- my chemical romance
)cancer- the tøp cover
)i dont love you-my chemical romance
Thank you so much for sharing, I'm sure its not easy beeing this vulnerable on youtube. I sometimes get depressed in the winter (I use the tearm loosely since I've never been diagnosed) in 2015 it was really bad. A friend of mine told me I needed to go outside and get some sun. So I did, one morning before work in the dead of winter, I put on my headphones and went for a walk. I walked into the woods by a ridge and on the other side was the sun coming up. The song that happened to be playing "this I know" by Crowder. I even have a picture of the sun peeking over the ridge. That was when things got better for me, I started taking better care of myself and started feeling better. I realize that for many people this is not enough and professional help is needed, please seek help if you need it.
Cut my lip saved my life
“Though I am bruised face of contusions know I’ll keep moving”
“I don’t mind at all lean on my pride lean on my pride I’m a lion”
Addict with a pen is my favorite song of all time. I think it is very obviously about calling out to God and I feel that that’s where I find myself a lot, and it’s comforting to know that the Lord can pull us out of places we never thought possible! He is our life, and our living water!
aw I hope you’re doing ok because you deserve the world and I really enjoy your videos! this song means so much to me too and its helped me a lot
I absolutely love that you put out this video. So many people are struggling including me and it helps to hear we’re not alone.
I just lost my dad day after Christmas 🙏
So glad you shared!! Love love love your videos- I love learning and relating to what you’re creating on this channel. HOTY is def one of those kind of songs to me. I think it has this sweet nostalgia for me.. idk it’s a roll-down-your-windows-hands-out-the-windows-scream-the-lyrics type of song for me. One of extreme excitement (so freakin hype), but also one of incredible nostalgia and deep longing/hope for God. “Trees” is my all time go-to. Throughout life I so often want to see God, to know Him more fully.. so many times im scared of that very same thing- but saying hello is the first step. It’s the cry of my heart so so many days. Just wanted to share back !
Holding on to you was for a long time my favorite Twenty øne Pilots song. As you said in the video, the song seems to deal with many religious themes and that was a life changer for me. I started my life in a difficult to describe household, it was Christian in theory but in practice it was just too busy to care about that stuff. My grandmother and my aunts were jheova witnesses (im not sure if this is the correct spelling) and my friends at school were all atheist. This created a huge confusion in my head about faith and religion but at first I kept my Christian faith. After a traumatic event that I don't want to talk about I suffered from retro active amnesia. So I basically forgot many things and also started to suffer from anxiety, suicidal tendencies and clinical depression. A couple of years ago i was also diagnosed with schizophrenia. For a long time a thought that I didn't belive in anything but a night for some reason something clicked and I remembered a lot of things. I remembered my old faith and I listened to holding on to you once again but this time I actually realized the true meaning of the song. Since then I rebuilt my faith from ashes part thanks to 21 pilots. Now it's stronger than before and it's helping me to go through all this problems. Thanks for shearing your story with us Professor, it means a lot to see people like you opening up, it makes me realize that we are all human and all of us, even the ones that we look up to have struggles of their own. (sorry for my bad English)
Honestly speaking, a lot of music hits this way for me. I don't have any other way to express myself besides that, because my parents don't listen and genuinely put me in danger at times. It got to a point where I nearly killed myself and a Green Day song that was playing at the time stopped it from happening. I still depend heavily on music and your videos help me branch out to find more of what I'm trying to say. You'd be surprised how often I'll need to hide away and listen to Fall Away, or What A Catch, Donnie, or The Light Behind Your Eyes. I don't cry often, only during my sensory meltdowns, but it makes me feel like it sometimes.
However, I will say that I don't do spiritual things. It's one thing I avoid or block out. As glad as I am for you to have that, it's not something that vibes for me.
I think its awesome that you were able to open up like this about a song that means a lot to you. holding onto you is such a great & meaningful song !!
Wow, I connected to this video so much. Holding On To You is such an important song for me and has seen me through many nights. I love seeing that it does the same for others💛
Brother in Christ, this is absolutely amazing! I’m so incredibly happy you were able to find solace in this song that connected you to your faith. I feel the exact same way. When I’m really listening to the lyrics of twenty one pilots songs, this one always gets me for the exact same meaning. I have a similar moment with Screen (being vulnerable with God) and even Doubt (“don’t forget about me” holds the most weight.). So many of their songs make me think of my faith and feel God’s goodness. I’m happy you feel the same and chose to share your emotions with the world. God bless 💖
Thank you for sharing, when you’re struggling it’s really nice to know that you’re not alone and this video reminded me of that.
Some songs that have helped me a lot (especially recently) through my really bad days when I need to breathe:
-Hometown by TØP (sleepers version, it’s so calming and helps me collect my thoughts)
-Juliet by Cavetown
-Wallowa Lake Monster by Sufjan Stevens
-Two by Tyler Joseph
-Almost all of TØPs music, some songs can be a bit too loud for those times, but I never regret shuffling my TØP playlist
There’s definitely more songs I could add, but this comment is already getting long so I’ll end it here
Last thing I’m going to say, but I just wanted to tell you it gets better. I swear you’re here for a reason. Even if you don’t believe that right now, wait until you do.
I recently told my parents about a bunch of stuff and now I’m in therapy and my therapist sort of mentioned I had anxiety and I got really upset because no one had ever told me that and I was so scared and still am but thanks, this video reminds me why I subscribed to you in the first place and tells me that I’m not alone in feeling scared
Migraine will always hold a special place in my heart. It was the first non-mainstream TØP song (i.e. not Stressed Out or Ride) that I ever listened too. And it was an amazing experience. It's an extraordinary thing to hear someone express your innermost thoughts and feelings that you struggle to put into words as beautifully written poetry. It made me feel like I wasn't alone. That I had someone fighting with me.
Love that you came out and made this video! This song definitely did that to me too-I think so many of Tyler’s older songs do this for me
While I’ve never really fallen into a depression, here are some songs that I can cope with whenever I’m down:
Orion -Metallica
Low Man’s Lyric -Metallica
The Unnamed Feeling -Metallica
The Outlaw Torn -Metallica
To Live Is To Die -Metallica
Where the Streets Have No Name -U2
Running To Stand Still -U2
Bandito -top
Addict With A Pen -top
Nutshell -Alice In Chains
Snuff -Slipknot
Spit It Out -Slipknot
Forty Six & 2 -Tool
Sober -Tool
Isolation Years -Opeth
Sweden -C418
Wish You Were Here -Pink Floyd
Comfortably Numb -Pink Floyd
Everlong -Foo Fighters
One Way Trip To the Sun -Ditch
And many more...
Twenty One Pilots helped me a lot through losing my best friend due to suicide. Songs as My Blood, Car Radio, Lovely, Truce, Trees, Goner, Addict with a pen, Taxi cab, Leave the city, The run and go, Johnny boy, Jumpsuit, Chlorine. Those were the best soul touching songs from them in my case. I can probably say that they saved my life by making me feel understood by someone.
God I relate to this SO. MUCH. The latest song that has made me feel like that though is Famous Last Words. The chorus makes my heart ache at the same time.
Also, if you like music and want a therapist, you could always consider Music Therapy. I've never personally used it, but I wrote my Senior Essay on Music Therapy and it's mental/physical effects. There's all sorts of lists online of songs that music therapists use, and a lot of therapists actually make their patients (I couldn't think of another word here) come up with playlists of songs that help them!
i can kinda relate, never cried, but Screen, Holding Onto You,Kitchen Sink and Drown, i feel a Spiritual connection with that, which really helps me.
Songs that calm me down:
Truce - tøp
Movement - Hozier
Burning Pile - Mother Mother
Right Before My Eyes - Cage the Elephant
Pigeon - Cavetown
Someone New - Hozier (reminds me Im not a bad person for being polyam)
Like Real People Do -Hozier
Human - dodie
anything from the Life is Strange soundtrack
I’m struggling with mental health at the moment and the two things that have helped me most are music and a metaphorical therapy I do with a friend of mine, we rebuilt a building, with different things on how life should be, for example a foam ceiling so that if it falls down we won’t be crushed, it may rain a bit but it will keep most of it out and if it does come crashing down, hey foam pits are fun
We respect and appreciate your vulnerability. Emotions are nothing to be ashamed of and I’m proud of you for being willing to share some very personal ones with us.
I relate to this so much. this song is so much more than it seems and it’s crazy what music can do
Goner really helped me when I was in a dark place.
praise the Lord brother. God (Christian God) can speak in many ways man. this song always helps me cope with bad thoughts and fighting suddenness bc im always reminded to "hold onto Him" (and ill be holding onto you). reminda me to stay Faithful and endure through these darn hard times. even when i have to deal with silence, i know to stay strong. their caption on Instagram is "stay strong. live on. pass on these songs". i have that exact caption but the end of it is "Jesus all day long". (camthegreat00 in my insta, go follow if you're reading lol) stay strong, cliff💞💪🏾
I’ve been feeling irritable lately and I don’t wanna leave my bed. I didn’t go to school today because I don’t feel like talking to anyone. I’ve been feeling like this for like a month and tøp has helped me out
Couple songs that have helped me:
Truce- Twenty One Pilots, "the sun will rise and we will try again". I love that idea that there is a tomorrow, we can try again if it didn't work out
18002738255- Logic, "I want you to be alive... I don't wanna die anymore" sometimes I need someone to tell me it gets better, that i can get through it.
Skeleton- Jessie Paege; I struggle with disordered eating, so having a song about fighting back and saying you're not gonna let it consume you makes me wanna keep working toward conquering it.