Okay, the best augmentation was weird. You are SO BEAUTIFUL and no way do you need them. Breasts are fun for about 5 minutes, but it will never keep a man around.
@@altfiwithleighlommen310 I know you probably intended this as a compliment but respectfully, this comment is strange bro. Women’s breasts don’t exist for a mans enjoyment or ‘fun’ and making the decision to have an augmentation has 0 to do with a man, or keeping a man. If Julianne felt at that time that she needed/wanted to have an augmentation for herself for whatever personal reason and it made her feel more comfortable or happy then that’s entirely down to her. Just some food for thought bro, no shade. ❤️
As a 71 year old who did way to many drugs (mostly LSD and Pot) in mostly my teen years, I learned that There's a time for everything and there's a time to walk away. Drugs can only teach so much, then it's up to you. Don't let them become a crutch. The other lesson I attribute to psychedelics is learning to forgive, yourself as well as others. That doesn't mean that you accept your own or others bad behavior. May you find that which you search for. Aloha
That's wise. Thank you! A whole new generation is waking up to this.. let's hope we'll do better... at the very least, (like you said) - things are worth striving for until they're not
@Pat McGuiness I am also a baby boomer who didn’t do drugs! I thought psychedelics were a scary thing to stay away from or you could go insane! Haaa! Now I am very intrigued but still a bit leery and hesitant because of the legalities ! I’m hoping in the near future they become legal but even then I’m thinking I’d rather do it in a clinical setting! I’ve got the tendency to look for the perfection solution, your post reminded me nothing will do that--it’s an inside job! 😊
Most definitely the truth. Last time I tripped it was on a 4.5g mixture of golden teachers and albino penis envy and near the end of my trip it was explained very succinctly that I had gone and taken them earlier than meant to. Oddly enough with this amount my trip was not as powerful as some others with less quantity and I wonder a little bit if that was a side effect of having been so recent to my last trip. Secondly, as I've been tripping over this past year I've noticed that the first few were very powerful and 'vibrant' experiences whereas the last few have been sort of like a "oh, it's you again, why did you come in through the back door?" feeling. Not sure if that will make sense or resonate with anyone who reads this but those are my thoughts on it.
It's so gratifying to see so many intelligent, centered young people discovering this and sharing your thoughts with the world. With all that is wrong and getting worse in the world, this is one ray of hope for humans coming out of the disaster we are in in better shape than we went in.
I did my first larger dose trip last night. I stayed home and listened to the playlist made by Jon’s Hopkins university, for psychedelic research. To say the least, it was profound. I’m really appreciative of your channel and I wanted to let you know you’re doing great work. Keep it up! Thank you 🙏🏼
@@saleh5376 hi there, it is on Spotify and CZcams. Type in Johns Hopkins Psilocybin playlist. It should come up. I wore an eye mask and headphones and laid down for around 5 hours and let the music affect me. It was so profound and humbling. I’ll be doing it again soon.
@@soshie i did get bored but I decided to stay put. I only began the listening once I felt the mushrooms take effect which took around 30-40 mins after ingestion.
Thank you for sharing your story! Your honesty is balm, sometimes all I hear about tripping stories are at times only nonsensical stupefaction, but to hear you articulate meaningful experiences such as conviction, insight, and consciousness is profound and ministers to the notion that magic mushrooms are indeed therapeutic. I look forward to the experience myself again :)
I am a Sagittarius and have a narcissist parent also. And have also been dabbling with microdosing magic mushrooms. Thank you for sharing your experiences as it’s helped me through mine. I learned a while ago that while some one like you and I may be equipped with 10 layers of emotion, a narcissistic may only have 2 or 3. It’s helped me understand, accept, and move forward. In relationships as well. I still draw narcissistic personalities towards me but I am much better and not taking their actions personally. Happy birthday to you. Love your content!
That is such an eloquent way of putting it... empaths have 10 layers of emotion, narcissists may have 2 or 3... it doesn’t make them fundamentally bad people. Ultimately, it is up to us to decide how much energy we want to let in! I truly believe us empaths (those with a larger “pain body,” as Eckhart Tolle puts it) were put here to help lift others up! But first, we must learn from our own pain. Thank you for your affirmation of one of my insights. I felt nervous before hitting “publish” - but now I feel much better about it. Thank you also for the bday wish. Happy birthday to you too, fellow Sag!
@@JulianneKeu I am also Sagittarius and an Empath. I just recently uploaded two short videos that my wife took of me while trippin. I would like to welcome you to give your thoughts.
your insights really resonated with me! particularly about empathizing with the groups of people who have hurt you. I too have realized that compassion is unconditional, and we can be compassionate to others who were not compassionate to us. I think letting go of resentment and forgiveness is so empowering for us in moving on and being at peace. Even letting go of resentment toward the world and our circumstances as a whole, not necessarily just toward people.
I’m so grateful to your videos. Started watching at the beginning of my own journey, and it’s so helpful to have both the guidance for, and the validation of my experience.
I came to this same conclusion, regarding the narcissism and the “no evil” thing. Not through tripping but through meditation and Taoism. I’m interested in sorta validation. That is why I’m interested in Microdosing. Your videos are very articulate and mindful. Thank you.
Thanks for sharing. Well, I first tripped on psylocybin Dec 1970. I had first got high on LSD starting in Jan 67, I had also tripped on mescaline numerous times. I really enjoyed the effects of psylocybin compared to the other psychedelics. i liked how it elevated my mood in unique ways. It evoked belly laughs from me from the most mundane things. My cousin and I were playing a game of pool. it was hysterical when we would miss a shot and the balls would ricochet around the table. I do not think I had any "big " insights. It just made me happy to be alive. It brought the sillines of being human and so serious about things that we can't control the show. The universe is writing the play and all we can do is applaud or own human silliness to think our egos are in charge. I have not done any psychedelics in decades. I began meditating in summer of 88. But, I would do mushrooms again. Stay safe be well
Totally agree! Had the same experience and results from doing those three psychedelics. The belly laughs were the best , as soon as I was reading that part about the playing a game of pool on shrooms it brought right back to the moments I had . I got a good laugh out that man . Thanks for sharing buddy !
We had this on our ‘Shamanic Ceremony’ for the first time, and the exprerience was surreal. I believed i saw my past lives. The whole trip went great. I did not feel any hate or whatever. Also realized in the end how magical the life is. It is a gift from God. I learned how to be more grateful after that experience
In regards to a trip report. 1. As I was laying on my back staring at the stars I realized I was just clinging to a ball that was spinning through the atmosphere. 2. I realized we were all interconnected and love is what binds us. We need each others support as we hurl through this galaxy. Our brains get pulled in the wrong direction through social and regular media. We need to get connected again. Sometimes I'll take .5gr and go on a hike and just appreciate everything about nature. I think it's OK not to have insights and just let it flow and see what comes up. It's like visiting with an old friend.
Ugh. That's beautiful. I love hearing about other people's experiences. Also 100% agree with you re: not having insights. Insights happen to you; you can't will it!
Biggest insight for me to this day is that we are connected to an unfathomable amount of energy that ripples through us on the daily, this has made me appreciate the mundane tasks of life with respect.
Thank you so much for your honesty and sharing your experience! This was very inciteful and seems to echo similar conclusions others have reported. The anecdotal evidence seems to be quite consistent and promising for psilocybin and your final messages seems to echo my own.
WOW these are fantastic insights, it feels so good to see people benefiting from these types of experiences and it really speaks to the positive potential of psychedelics.
Great to find you on the internet again! Your vid on micro-dosing was very helpful as one of my starting points on an effort to lift mood baselines and combat depression. And since then it appears we have travelled very similar journeys regarding rec doses and experiences. Thank you again for taking the time to share your experiences!
Happy Belated! Thank you for sharing. It takes a lot to speak on personals like that. More people should be honest with themselves like the way you do. I appreciate your courage and transparency throughout this journey. I look forward to upcoming videos. MushLove 🍄
Wow what a wonderful mind you have in the recollection of insights gained. I personally do the 5 gram Terrence Mckenna prescribed doses and I'll be honest it comes more as a persistent feeling that enacts change in me, but afterwards I struggle to find the words to describe it, but you have a focus and speak succinctly and have stolen the words right from my mouth!
Thank you for sharing your experience in such a clear and concise manner. Going into a psychedelic experience knowing, and for the exact purpose of airing out some of the things that have been pushed to the back of the closet is a very noble endeavor. The way you talk about having compassion even for those who have wronged you is precisely the attitude we need more of in these tumultuous times. Not necessarily to forgive and forget, but to understand, with empathy and compassion, and to offer them the love that can hopefully help them heal. I just got out of a long term relationship with somebody who suffers from BPD, which is similar to narcissism in a some key ways, and came to a similar conclusion on my first trip in an equally long time. They were trying the best they could to love and be loved, but due to childhood circumstance they just didn't know how. Sadly it took me walking out the door to realized they needed the help I had been trying to get them to seek for years. Thankfully they do seem to be getting better. I wish more people would land on content like this when tumbling down the youtube rabbit hole, I genuinely think the world would be a better place.
Happy Birthday... Im so excited I ordered my pan cyeans mushrooms and its coming in 2 days... Im so excited for my first magic mushroom trip... ❤️❤️❤️ Thanks for the inspiration.
I really love your videos, and i've recommended you to a friend i'm helping with her depression and anxiety. She is understandably scared of doing an heroic dose, but i know it will literally save her life. I have done several heroic trips, the first was in thailand after exiting a 10 year marrige from hell. It was the most profound experience of my life, and i often describe it as being reborn. It completely cleared my head, and like you said in your microdose video, last year (despite the lockdown) was the best year of my life in terms of finding myself and realising we are all part of something way bigger than the life most of us know. The trips i did after this were incredible, and you always learn something new - no trip is ever the same.
Wow, so entertaining! I really enjoy this content, really deep! Every trip I've done (3) has been so helpful to me, and my favorite part is the end, when everything feel lighter! And Happy Birthday🎉
This video is so wholesome!! Thank you for sharing Julianne - especially the part about your implants - I’ve been seriously contemplating the idea but I’m an over thinker and shame is something I’m still working through so I’m definitely gonna put that idea on hold for now.
Thank you for this :) It really resonated. You’ve mentioned the concept of the shadow a few times - it’d be really interesting to hear you talk more about that. E.g. how using psychedelics (or other practices) could facilitate doing shadow work.
Very insightful for being so young,Julianne.Lately they have been reconstructing my neuro path ways,thus bringing to light memories that I had not remembered.And just putting out there,I would love to trip with you.
Psychedelics changed my life!! My very first experience with psychedelics was in Peru at an Ayahuasca retreat. This experience was the catalyst for my spiritual awakening. I had been a hard core atheist for most of my adult life but after participating in these 4 Aya ceremonies my conscioussness expanded so much, it gave me such a thirst for knowledge on all things spiritual. I began reading books like crazy and then I started having my own spiritual experiences. That is when I truly remembered who I was...a spiritual being having a human experience. I then was introduced to the world of magic mushrooms. Within 2 years I did 5 intentional journeys. Each trip was different but all of them were very powerful. Some of the experiences were as follows: - learned without a doubt that I am supported by the universe and never have to worry about anything ever again. I used to wake up in the middle of the night and worry about my finances. Since that 1 trip I don't worry at all about anything! - I experienced feeling the love from God. It was the most incredible, beautiful, intense feeling I have ever felt. I cried tears of joy for probably 20mins. I will never forget that! And then I received a hug from Archangel Michael. It was something I had listed in my intentions for that journey. I was lying on my back and my arms literally flew up into the air into the hugging position. I did not see or feel him in the physical sense but I felt it in my heart. - for my 3rd journey my intention was to release all self limiting beliefs, fears and perspectives. It was an uncomfortable trip, lots of nausea and an ego death ecperience. But the result was incredible!! 2 days later I realized I had healed my candida albicans and the accompanied skin fungus, tinea versicolor, that I had had for 23 years!! These plant medicines are no doubt, a gift from God!
Insights I learned: 1. Nothing matters as much as we THINK 2. people are generally good 3. Everyone needs to know about this 4. They have to want it for themselves 5. We are all connected
Oh, Happy Birthday Julianne, and what a shock but a privileged to be a newbee with you . My investigation now has led me to you and your experiences, which I learn better that way.....here Have some cake 🎂🍰🎂🍰... and I've subscribed with my bell on, and enjoying the precise information, and such personal experiences... glad to have found you.
Wow!!!! This resonates so deeply for me❤❤❤thank you so much! I've been trying to move out of a narcissistic connection that won't go away and my serious childhood PTSD. Ouff this video❤💯💯💯
HAPPY BIRTHDAY Julianne! Another amazing video! I've learned so much from you. After watching your meditation video it's realy help me be more grounded, and my view on life has connected me more with nature and believing we are all part of it. It's so important to let it go and be with it. Letting psilocybin lead the way and not fight it. That is when it realy seems to teach you the most. We are all soo perfect in the eyes of our creator. We all came here naked and we will all leave naked. No material thing no negatives, life has soo much more meaning. it's an incredible gift. Let's take it slow and learn to love again. More recently I've come across EAST FOREST on CZcams. Amazing psilocybin trip ceremony music.
Thank you Pete! I'm with you 100% on that characterization of Oneness and impermanence. I haven't heard of East Forest, but I will check it out! Thank you
When my friends and family question psychedelics and micro dosing, I show them your videos and it helps them relate. It’s unfortunate that it still holds this stigma. Thanks for the videos
Love this!! I’d love to hear more about your experience with narcissists & processing the relationships if you ever felt like sharing.❤️I related so much when u described feeling like a shell of a human being afterwards
My insights from my own personal small trip, was basically, how much I loved my children, an overwhelming all encompassing love. Truly an amazing feeling.
Thankyou for this video. So helpful and insightful. The most profound psychedelic experience I had was with Ayahuasca. The lessons that I learnt from that experience was - Love is the answer - You are perfect as you are (my intention was to recover from my disordered eating and body dysmorphia among other things) - We are all energy and different vibrations. If you don’t vibe with someone just let them go. - She also showed me how I need to let go. Till this day I’m still learning lessons from that one experience. I have been so scared to take psychedelics from that experience. Im preparing to take golden teachers (1.5 to 2g) and am finding your videos and experiences so comforting and helpful. Thankyou 💗
"there's no such thing as evil." "we are all capable of good and we are all capable of evil." Having been around awhile and spent decades coming to understand archetypes and psychological traits, there is not a single doubt in my mind that evil exists. We are all absolutely capable it, and it absolutely exists.
@@JulianneKeu as an adjective: "profoundly immoral and wicked." I understand the journey beneath the ego and how it illuminates the underlying insecurities and personal torture that most people experience that can oftentimes appear to explain why they act in "evil" ways. This understanding does not wash away the evil acts, it merely provides context as to why they are happening. I have known truly evil people, despite knowing/understanding why they acted that way, the fact remains. Evil can describe completely non-supernatural things. I have committed evil. I have committed good. I strive to do as little evil as possible. It would be very dangerous for me to deny it's existence.
Happy Birthday Julianne!! Once again thank you so much for sharing your journey. I am going on to 3 months of microdosing and it’s been life changing to say the least!! My next step will be to experience a trip, probably in another 3 months. May you continue to grow and have peace. Blessings to you. 🙏🏼💕
That’s incredible! I’m happy to hear you’re doing better. Would love to hear an update from you too after your trip! (If you feel like sharing). God bless, Olga, and thanks for the bday wish 🥰
@@JulianneKeu You’re welcome! I will definitely update once I have my trip experience. You have motivated me as well to begin a blog about my journey, so thank you for that as well. One quick question, when you were mding, did you experience increase in appetite? It’s a positive for me, just curious.
@@olgacontreras1030 Yes, for me, my appetite increased a bit. I’ve read on many places people reporting the opposite. I think in my case, I just wasn’t eating enough! So the MDing increased my appetite. Likewise, if you eat more than you need to, the MDing may bring you back to equilibrium
Really appreciate your authentic sharings Julianne. I recently did another Aya journey with the intention of seeing and understanding the ego-mind. I was shown how the mind and ego are entwined. To clear the ego, we simply need to silence the mind and move into the observer, the soul self, sour Source being. It is only possible when we are fully present in the moment, each moment. When presence slips, the mind returns and with it the ego. Mooji has been my greatest teacher lately. I've watched his Satsangs before but couldn't break through. Since working with Aya I have broken through, and it is truly the most blissful, amazing experience. It comes and goes but it stays longer than it ever has before. Microdosing has been a Godsend to me too. Leaving a Narcissitic relationship broke me, I'm coming back but it's been a 13 year journey of healing. Really love your work. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. X
The insight I gained from a 4g dried PE trip was that we have to learn to forgive, be nonjudgmental and kind. And we'll keep reincarnating here until we get these lessons. That includes forgiving your enemies and not being so quick to judge those you disagree with, which is so so hard to do in practice but I'm working on it. 🙂
Thanks so much for sharing, so insightful. I really want to have a trip with mushrooms similar to what you are doing. I have had a trip before with THC and it was not nice at all. I was super paranoid but understood that it.
Thank you for sharing on your experiences. About ego and the fear of not seeing it over power you, when you train yourself to recognize it’s pattern, you train yourself to be aware, then the ego can react as it does in every circumstances and you can see it’s movement and choose (as you illustrated about shame) to follow it blindly or observe it. As you observe it, you are not nourishing it and give it fuel. So it slowly dissipates. And the circle continues that way. The ego stays but does not overpower. Because your mind is trained and aware, or enlighten to the truth about the ego. 🙏🏼
Makes total sense. I’ve had similar epiphanies as a byproduct of a lot of shadow work, followed by a trip. Probably one of the most exhilarating and insightful experiences I’ll never forget.
I just had mushrooms today. I'm still on the Comedown, but I think I can say that they help me face problems with myself that I hadn't been willing to confront - which is different from actually dealing with them. You're very analytical, and I think I have a similar personality; my experience was similarly introspective. Thank you for your video, and thank you for your honesty.
My most introspective, beneficial trip was alone in the dark. It started in a social setting where we all partook. I methodically went through my life from the beginning of awareness and recollection. I was able to gain clarity of my existence. The essence of every relationship and everything as I perceived it to be. It gave me clarity and cleansed my soul.
That's very interesting about the silicone implants, psilocybin open us up to energies we cannot usually see, and in the same time shows us the lack of energy alongside that.
First insight I learned from my mushroom experiences are the more selfish you are the more evil 🦹 lol 😂 veering toward a bad place so please take care ! Love you Julianne and happy birthday 🎉 once again
Wow!!!!!!! Thank you for sharing that insight about narcissism!!! I really relate and appreciate you sharing that because it’s definitely not a common insight. I agree they are talked about as sub human.
I've been wanting to try shrooms for a few years. Your microdose video came up as a suggested video, probably since I have been watching videos related to THC. Most of those are produced by some very stoner-looking dudes (which is OK, I guess!), but it's nice to see someone that could just as well be talking about cooking. Your approach and personality really lend credibility to the subject. Also, Happy Birthday!
Ahh thank you! And thank you for your feedback. I didn’t have the confidence to make many psychedelics-related videos in the beginning because I didn’t feel I fit the typical “psychonaut” mold... but I’ve since learned that there are so many different ways to approach a subject... and nobody really owns anything. We can only share what we’ve learned. So cheers to that haha 🥂
O.M.G. I am pausing this vid before having finished listening to your discussion on narcissists but what brought me to microdosing and psilocybin is a long windy road, 2 years today exactly (synchronicity?), that began from narcissistic abuse. I could not find any info connecting these two topics and I found this particular video just out of casual curiosity on trip reports. Seek and ye shall find. I am very uncomfortable with the idea of empathy for narcissists considering the way that person... for lack of a better word, destroyed me. But curious about your perspective. OK, now I'm going to continue watching. P.S. THANK YOU (it's heartfelt) Julianne for your well-researched, concise videos.
@@InsightImagingPhoto I may do a guided trip in February! My friend went through one recently and he said he saw angels. He's an atheist/tech guy so now I'm intrigued lol
@@JulianneKeu it’s a whole new world upon us. I am excited and scared at the same time for my future trip, but that’s all part of the experience I guess. In the meantime I continue to microdose, and I can’t express how amazing it was to actually enjoy Christmas with my family for the first time since my brain injury.
Happy Birthday! I did my first trip this weekend, it was definitely interesting, I did a full day of micro dosing. I would say the insights I learned is that I need to continue saying how I feel and don’t accept negative energy. If it’s something I don’t like, speak up for myself and if I maintain my reasoning and temper I can successfully navigate the conversations better. I struggle with trusting and giving people my time in lieu of my own objectives, and often that ends up being a one sided relationship where nothing I want is in consideration. I’m going to try to monitor this and see how well I do at applying this knowledge. My transparency experience: I’m pretty sure I was also contacted by aliens through text and light communication, and the number 3 was very prominent. My birthday is 2/14/85 and my numerology number is 3 so this is significant. The next time I do it, I want to try to look deeper into the meaning behind it. I did about 2.5 grams over about 15 hours of time. Definitely going to micro-dose, and definitely going to try this heroes journey everyone is talking about. Thank you for your insight!
I used to be such a skeptic about reports of angels and interactions with the supernatural.. but the more accounts I hear from people, the more of a believer I become. I also resonate with your experiences w/ trust (or lack thereof). It is a process for everyone - and the lessons we are meant to learn are all different (and somehow, oddly, similar at the same time). Peace to you! I have no doubt you'll find the answers you're looking for.
The biggest dose I’ve ever taken was unintentional, and it was with mushroom chocolate bars. It was the worst experience of my life, but there were still some important insights. The trip came on so fast and strongly that my ego wasn’t ready for it and it kept trying to yank me back into reality and cling on to my feelings of fear in an attempt to anchor me to this plane of existence. Because of this, my ego didn’t die, but it was split into 3 noticeable pieces. One piece was the part of my that was angry at the hurt I was going through, another piece felt like a gentle guardian that wanted to comfort me, and the third part was the fear and anxiety that I was feeling that still felt the most like myself. My fear was keeping me anchored to reality and wouldn’t let me let transcend even when I tried to let go and let my ego die. After a lot of thought, I think that experience told me how much I let my fear control me, but I haven’t been able to process and come to that conclusion until I started getting into psychedelics again, at a much more reasonable dose. For now I’m on a similar journey as you are in this video where I’m slowly increasing my dose every couple of weeks until I make some sort of breakthrough. Unlike last time, I’m approaching this with much more respect and caution towards the psychedelics I’m taking. I don’t know if I’ll ever work my way up to a heroic dose like 5 grams, but I’ll see as time goes on. Maybe one day I’ll be ready for that kind of journey.
That’s so weird i went thru the same thing but I did have my implants removed. I remember just sobbing uncontrollably when I came back to “myself” the following week I scheduled to have my implants removed after having them in for 8 1/2yrs. My whole life after that awakening has completely changed for the better. 😊 I’m happy to have found your channel 🥰✌🏼🤍
Oh my gosh! I can't believe you had a similar experience (well- I *can* believe it now!). I'm so happy to hear you're doing better now. You seem to have found your bliss. I'm going to do 2 or maybe 3g for my next trip.. I wonder if that's when I'll get a more intense revelation about my implants :/ will keep you posted!
Isn't it amazing how they are just merely a catalyst that enabled you to have those thoughts and insights?! I hope you have a peaceful birthday! Mine's April 8th. I've had 2 3g experiences (5'9'' 160lbs). Both very useful with lasting insights. I spoke with a psychiatrist and they're actually enthusiastic about psilocybin even though the law prevents them from formally prescribing.
Thank you! Magic mushrooms are actually legal where I am (if you take them for depression). I’m in Vancouver, Canada. I feel the laws will soon change everywhere. There’s just too much momentum building. (And apparently stocks for companies in the psych space are skyrocketing.) 3g sounds great. I think that will be my next dose :) happy holidays & hope you’re staying safe
Watch my heroic dose trip report here: czcams.com/video/oh0rG0_IEAM/video.html
I know it is quite randomly asking but does anybody know a good website to stream new tv shows online ?
@Leon Taylor i watch on FlixZone. You can find it on google :)
Okay, the best augmentation was weird. You are SO BEAUTIFUL and no way do you need them. Breasts are fun for about 5 minutes, but it will never keep a man around.
@@altfiwithleighlommen310 I know you probably intended this as a compliment but respectfully, this comment is strange bro. Women’s breasts don’t exist for a mans enjoyment or ‘fun’ and making the decision to have an augmentation has 0 to do with a man, or keeping a man. If Julianne felt at that time that she needed/wanted to have an augmentation for herself for whatever personal reason and it made her feel more comfortable or happy then that’s entirely down to her. Just some food for thought bro, no shade. ❤️
As a 71 year old who did way to many drugs (mostly LSD and Pot) in mostly my teen years, I learned that There's a time for everything and there's a time to walk away. Drugs can only teach so much, then it's up to you. Don't let them become a crutch. The other lesson I attribute to psychedelics is learning to forgive, yourself as well as others. That doesn't mean that you accept your own or others bad behavior. May you find that which you search for. Aloha
That's wise. Thank you! A whole new generation is waking up to this.. let's hope we'll do better... at the very least, (like you said) - things are worth striving for until they're not
Also, when you already know! You also know what you are doing to your body... So you KNOW NOW and there is no coming back to drugs:)
@Pat McGuiness I am also a baby boomer who didn’t do drugs! I thought psychedelics were a scary thing to stay away from or you could go insane! Haaa! Now I am very intrigued but still a bit leery and hesitant because of the legalities ! I’m hoping in the near future they become legal but even then I’m thinking I’d rather do it in a clinical setting! I’ve got the tendency to look for the perfection solution, your post reminded me nothing will do that--it’s an inside job! 😊
Most definitely the truth. Last time I tripped it was on a 4.5g mixture of golden teachers and albino penis envy and near the end of my trip it was explained very succinctly that I had gone and taken them earlier than meant to. Oddly enough with this amount my trip was not as powerful as some others with less quantity and I wonder a little bit if that was a side effect of having been so recent to my last trip.
Secondly, as I've been tripping over this past year I've noticed that the first few were very powerful and 'vibrant' experiences whereas the last few have been sort of like a "oh, it's you again, why did you come in through the back door?" feeling. Not sure if that will make sense or resonate with anyone who reads this but those are my thoughts on it.
Forgiveness was the theme of my second mushroom trip (I've only had two intense ones so far). It really changed my perspective on things
It's so gratifying to see so many intelligent, centered young people discovering this and sharing your thoughts with the world. With all that is wrong and getting worse in the world, this is one ray of hope for humans coming out of the disaster we are in in better shape than we went in.
Oneness is something that is hard to explain but once it's experienced can't be lost. I love how concise you are and the quality is superb.
Agreed... oneness is hard to explain. Also, thank you! I film + edit everything myself (not perfect but I'm improving!)
I did my first larger dose trip last night. I stayed home and listened to the playlist made by Jon’s Hopkins university, for psychedelic research.
To say the least, it was profound. I’m really appreciative of your channel and I wanted to let you know you’re doing great work. Keep it up! Thank you 🙏🏼
where can i find this playlist?
@@saleh5376 hi there, it is on Spotify and CZcams. Type in Johns Hopkins Psilocybin playlist. It should come up. I wore an eye mask and headphones and laid down for around 5 hours and let the music affect me. It was so profound and humbling. I’ll be doing it again soon.
@@robertzenhumpage1081 you never got bored? Or falling asleep? And when did you start listening (upon ingestion or at some point later?)
@@soshie i did get bored but I decided to stay put.
I only began the listening once I felt the mushrooms take effect which took around 30-40 mins after ingestion.
@@sadbravesfan hi there, no I did it on my own.
My gf was with me for my lower dose but I did my larger one on my own
Thank you for sharing your story! Your honesty is balm, sometimes all I hear about tripping stories are at times only nonsensical stupefaction, but to hear you articulate meaningful experiences such as conviction, insight, and consciousness is profound and ministers to the notion that magic mushrooms are indeed therapeutic. I look forward to the experience myself again :)
From my trip 30 years ago.... Everything is alive
I am a Sagittarius and have a narcissist parent also. And have also been dabbling with microdosing magic mushrooms. Thank you for sharing your experiences as it’s helped me through mine. I learned a while ago that while some one like you and I may be equipped with 10 layers of emotion, a narcissistic may only have 2 or 3. It’s helped me understand, accept, and move forward. In relationships as well. I still draw narcissistic personalities towards me but I am much better and not taking their actions personally. Happy birthday to you. Love your content!
That is such an eloquent way of putting it... empaths have 10 layers of emotion, narcissists may have 2 or 3... it doesn’t make them fundamentally bad people. Ultimately, it is up to us to decide how much energy we want to let in! I truly believe us empaths (those with a larger “pain body,” as Eckhart Tolle puts it) were put here to help lift others up! But first, we must learn from our own pain. Thank you for your affirmation of one of my insights. I felt nervous before hitting “publish” - but now I feel much better about it. Thank you also for the bday wish. Happy birthday to you too, fellow Sag!
@@JulianneKeu I am also Sagittarius and an Empath.
I just recently uploaded two short videos that my wife took of me while trippin. I would like to welcome you to give your thoughts.
your insights really resonated with me! particularly about empathizing with the groups of people who have hurt you. I too have realized that compassion is unconditional, and we can be compassionate to others who were not compassionate to us. I think letting go of resentment and forgiveness is so empowering for us in moving on and being at peace. Even letting go of resentment toward the world and our circumstances as a whole, not necessarily just toward people.
I’m so grateful to your videos. Started watching at the beginning of my own journey, and it’s so helpful to have both the guidance for, and the validation of my experience.
I came to this same conclusion, regarding the narcissism and the “no evil” thing. Not through tripping but through meditation and Taoism. I’m interested in sorta validation. That is why I’m interested in Microdosing. Your videos are very articulate and mindful. Thank you.
Thanks for sharing. Well, I first tripped on psylocybin Dec 1970. I had first got high on LSD starting in Jan 67, I had also tripped on mescaline numerous times. I really enjoyed the effects of psylocybin compared to the other psychedelics. i liked how it elevated my mood in unique ways. It evoked belly laughs from me from
the most mundane things. My cousin and I were playing a game of pool. it was hysterical when we would miss a shot and the balls would ricochet around the table. I do not think I had any "big " insights. It just made me happy to be alive. It brought the sillines of being human and so serious about things that we can't control the show. The universe is writing the play and all we can do is applaud or own human silliness to think our egos are in charge. I have not done any psychedelics in decades. I began meditating in summer of 88. But,
I would do mushrooms again. Stay safe be well
Totally agree! Had the same experience and results from doing those three psychedelics. The belly laughs were the best , as soon as I was reading that part about the playing a game of pool on shrooms it brought right back to the moments I had . I got a good laugh out that man . Thanks for sharing buddy !
We had this on our ‘Shamanic Ceremony’ for the first time, and the exprerience was surreal. I believed i saw my past lives. The whole trip went great. I did not feel any hate or whatever. Also realized in the end how magical the life is. It is a gift from God. I learned how to be more grateful after that experience
In regards to a trip report.
1. As I was laying on my back staring at the stars I realized I was just clinging to a ball that was spinning through the atmosphere.
2. I realized we were all interconnected and love is what binds us. We need each others support as we hurl through this galaxy. Our brains get pulled in the wrong direction through social and regular media. We need to get connected again.
Sometimes I'll take .5gr and go on a hike and just appreciate everything about nature. I think it's OK not to have insights and just let it flow and see what comes up. It's like visiting with an old friend.
Ugh. That's beautiful. I love hearing about other people's experiences. Also 100% agree with you re: not having insights. Insights happen to you; you can't will it!
Happy Birthday!!!!!
Biggest insight for me to this day is that we are connected to an unfathomable amount of energy that ripples through us on the daily, this has made me appreciate the mundane tasks of life with respect.
Cool insight
Thank you so much for your honesty and sharing your experience! This was very inciteful and seems to echo similar conclusions others have reported. The anecdotal evidence seems to be quite consistent and promising for psilocybin and your final messages seems to echo my own.
WOW these are fantastic insights, it feels so good to see people benefiting from these types of experiences and it really speaks to the positive potential of psychedelics.
It takes a good amount of courage and maturity to share such insights. Many thanks for the video, it taught me important things.
Great to find you on the internet again! Your vid on micro-dosing was very helpful as one of my starting points on an effort to lift mood baselines and combat depression. And since then it appears we have travelled very similar journeys regarding rec doses and experiences. Thank you again for taking the time to share your experiences!
Happy Belated! Thank you for sharing. It takes a lot to speak on personals like that. More people should be honest with themselves like the way you do. I appreciate your courage and transparency throughout this journey. I look forward to upcoming videos. MushLove 🍄
You are a true warrior. I'm inspired with your honesty. Thanks for sharing.
Wow what a wonderful mind you have in the recollection of insights gained. I personally do the 5 gram Terrence Mckenna prescribed doses and I'll be honest it comes more as a persistent feeling that enacts change in me, but afterwards I struggle to find the words to describe it, but you have a focus and speak succinctly and have stolen the words right from my mouth!
Your recall on your insights are real and true. Appreciate your sharing! Thanks
Thank you for sharing your experience in such a clear and concise manner. Going into a psychedelic experience knowing, and for the exact purpose of airing out some of the things that have been pushed to the back of the closet is a very noble endeavor. The way you talk about having compassion even for those who have wronged you is precisely the attitude we need more of in these tumultuous times. Not necessarily to forgive and forget, but to understand, with empathy and compassion, and to offer them the love that can hopefully help them heal.
I just got out of a long term relationship with somebody who suffers from BPD, which is similar to narcissism in a some key ways, and came to a similar conclusion on my first trip in an equally long time. They were trying the best they could to love and be loved, but due to childhood circumstance they just didn't know how. Sadly it took me walking out the door to realized they needed the help I had been trying to get them to seek for years. Thankfully they do seem to be getting better.
I wish more people would land on content like this when tumbling down the youtube rabbit hole, I genuinely think the world would be a better place.
Thank you for sharing so openly. Your thoughts on choosing your response to shame reminds me of mindfulness meditation.
Happy Birthday... Im so excited I ordered my pan cyeans mushrooms and its coming in 2 days... Im so excited for my first magic mushroom trip... ❤️❤️❤️ Thanks for the inspiration.
That's exciting! How big of a dose are you planning to take?
I really love your videos, and i've recommended you to a friend i'm helping with her depression and anxiety. She is understandably scared of doing an heroic dose, but i know it will literally save her life.
I have done several heroic trips, the first was in thailand after exiting a 10 year marrige from hell. It was the most profound experience of my life, and i often describe it as being reborn.
It completely cleared my head, and like you said in your microdose video, last year (despite the lockdown) was the best year of my life in terms of finding myself and realising we are all part of something way bigger than the life most of us know.
The trips i did after this were incredible, and you always learn something new - no trip is ever the same.
Amazing. Hope to work my way up to a heroic dose this year too. TBD. Thanks for sharing your experience
Wow, so entertaining! I really enjoy this content, really deep! Every trip I've done (3) has been so helpful to me, and my favorite part is the end, when everything feel lighter! And Happy Birthday🎉
Yes! The afterglow. :) Thank you!
This video is so wholesome!! Thank you for sharing Julianne - especially the part about your implants - I’ve been seriously contemplating the idea but I’m an over thinker and shame is something I’m still working through so I’m definitely gonna put that idea on hold for now.
hit up Drfu.ngi on in$tagram, Got shrooms from him.
Thank you for this :) It really resonated. You’ve mentioned the concept of the shadow a few times - it’d be really interesting to hear you talk more about that. E.g. how using psychedelics (or other practices) could facilitate doing shadow work.
You’re amazing - informative and honest. One of
The best introspection videos I’ve seen Subscribed! ❤️
Thank you for sharing! Looking forward to my own heroic Dose. Please continue to share! Thank you again.
Very insightful for being so young,Julianne.Lately they have been reconstructing my neuro path ways,thus bringing to light memories that I had not remembered.And just putting out there,I would love to trip with you.
Keep em coming, I love this psychedelic series :)
Thanks for sharing! Happy birthday 🎊
Psychedelics changed my life!! My very first experience with psychedelics was in Peru at an Ayahuasca retreat. This experience was the catalyst for my spiritual awakening. I had been a hard core atheist for most of my adult life but after participating in these 4 Aya ceremonies my conscioussness expanded so much, it gave me such a thirst for knowledge on all things spiritual. I began reading books like crazy and then I started having my own spiritual experiences. That is when I truly remembered who I was...a spiritual being having a human experience.
I then was introduced to the world of magic mushrooms. Within 2 years I did 5 intentional journeys. Each trip was different but all of them were very powerful. Some of the experiences were as follows:
- learned without a doubt that I am supported by the universe and never have to worry about anything ever again. I used to wake up in the middle of the night and worry about my finances. Since that 1 trip I don't worry at all about anything!
- I experienced feeling the love from God. It was the most incredible, beautiful, intense feeling I have ever felt. I cried tears of joy for probably 20mins. I will never forget that! And then I received a hug from Archangel Michael. It was something I had listed in my intentions for that journey. I was lying on my back and my arms literally flew up into the air into the hugging position. I did not see or feel him in the physical sense but I felt it in my heart.
- for my 3rd journey my intention was to release all self limiting beliefs, fears and perspectives. It was an uncomfortable trip, lots of nausea and an ego death ecperience. But the result was incredible!! 2 days later I realized I had healed my candida albicans and the accompanied skin fungus, tinea versicolor, that I had had for 23 years!!
These plant medicines are no doubt, a gift from God!
Thank you for the great information. Keep up the good work.
I’m learning alote through listening to your journey sounds alote like mines thx u for uploading n giving clearity
Thank you Anika 🥰
Insights I learned:
1. Nothing matters as much as we THINK
2. people are generally good
3. Everyone needs to know about this
4. They have to want it for themselves
5. We are all connected
Such good insight for newcomers.
thank you, Julianne! Have a great day!
you´re super honest really loving your content!
u didn´t answer to my question ^^
I'm just gonna like every video she puts up 😂
Easy
Yo, big same haha
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I hear THAT! A truly extraordinary person!
Oh, Happy Birthday Julianne, and what a shock but a privileged to be a newbee with you . My investigation now has led me to you and your experiences, which I learn better that way.....here Have some cake 🎂🍰🎂🍰... and I've subscribed with my bell on, and enjoying the precise information, and such personal experiences... glad to have found you.
I appreciate your boldness and openness, thank you.
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Great video!
Thanks for sharing your thoughts on your experience.
Peace and love
Peace and love!
Wow!!!! This resonates so deeply for me❤❤❤thank you so much! I've been trying to move out of a narcissistic connection that won't go away and my serious childhood PTSD. Ouff this video❤💯💯💯
HAPPY BIRTHDAY Julianne! Another amazing video! I've learned so much from you. After watching your meditation video it's realy help me be more grounded, and my view on life has connected me more with nature and believing we are all part of it. It's so important to let it go and be with it. Letting psilocybin lead the way and not fight it. That is when it realy seems to teach you the most. We are all soo perfect in the eyes of our creator. We all came here naked and we will all leave naked. No material thing no negatives, life has soo much more meaning. it's an incredible gift. Let's take it slow and learn to love again. More recently I've come across EAST FOREST on CZcams. Amazing psilocybin trip ceremony music.
Thank you Pete! I'm with you 100% on that characterization of Oneness and impermanence. I haven't heard of East Forest, but I will check it out! Thank you
Thank you for this video !!!! Much gratitude to you ! ✨
WOW - You´ve been doin your homework!!!
Love the way you enlight the "magic journey" And you´re a TRUE beauty!!!
Peace&Love /Gabriel
Wow!!! You are super deep. Awesome insights!!
im so glad you got past them narcissistic people , Good for You !! Love your channel
When my friends and family question psychedelics and micro dosing, I show them your videos and it helps them relate. It’s unfortunate that it still holds this stigma. Thanks for the videos
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Love this!! I’d love to hear more about your experience with narcissists & processing the relationships if you ever felt like sharing.❤️I related so much when u described feeling like a shell of a human being afterwards
My insights from my own personal small trip, was basically, how much I loved my children, an overwhelming all encompassing love. Truly an amazing feeling.
Thankyou for this video. So helpful and insightful. The most profound psychedelic experience I had was with Ayahuasca. The lessons that I learnt from that experience was
- Love is the answer
- You are perfect as you are (my intention was to recover from my disordered eating and body dysmorphia among other things)
- We are all energy and different vibrations. If you don’t vibe with someone just let them go.
- She also showed me how I need to let go.
Till this day I’m still learning lessons from that one experience. I have been so scared to take psychedelics from that experience.
Im preparing to take golden teachers (1.5 to 2g) and am finding your videos and experiences so comforting and helpful.
Thankyou 💗
Happy birthday!!! 💙💯💙
"there's no such thing as evil."
"we are all capable of good and we are all capable of evil."
Having been around awhile and spent decades coming to understand archetypes and psychological traits, there is not a single doubt in my mind that evil exists. We are all absolutely capable it, and it absolutely exists.
Define evil. Do you believe it's supernatural? I don't. I don't believe "evil" is supernatural at all.
@@JulianneKeu as an adjective: "profoundly immoral and wicked." I understand the journey beneath the ego and how it illuminates the underlying insecurities and personal torture that most people experience that can oftentimes appear to explain why they act in "evil" ways. This understanding does not wash away the evil acts, it merely provides context as to why they are happening. I have known truly evil people, despite knowing/understanding why they acted that way, the fact remains. Evil can describe completely non-supernatural things. I have committed evil. I have committed good. I strive to do as little evil as possible. It would be very dangerous for me to deny it's existence.
Happy Birthday Julianne!! Once again thank you so much for sharing your journey. I am going on to 3 months of microdosing and it’s been life changing to say the least!! My next step will be to experience a trip, probably in another 3 months. May you continue to grow and have peace. Blessings to you. 🙏🏼💕
That’s incredible! I’m happy to hear you’re doing better. Would love to hear an update from you too after your trip! (If you feel like sharing). God bless, Olga, and thanks for the bday wish 🥰
@@JulianneKeu You’re welcome! I will definitely update once I have my trip experience. You have motivated me as well to begin a blog about my journey, so thank you for that as well. One quick question, when you were mding, did you experience increase in appetite? It’s a positive for me, just curious.
@@olgacontreras1030 Yes, for me, my appetite increased a bit. I’ve read on many places people reporting the opposite. I think in my case, I just wasn’t eating enough! So the MDing increased my appetite. Likewise, if you eat more than you need to, the MDing may bring you back to equilibrium
@@JulianneKeu Thank you!
Really appreciate your authentic sharings Julianne. I recently did another Aya journey with the intention of seeing and understanding the ego-mind. I was shown how the mind and ego are entwined. To clear the ego, we simply need to silence the mind and move into the observer, the soul self, sour Source being. It is only possible when we are fully present in the moment, each moment. When presence slips, the mind returns and with it the ego. Mooji has been my greatest teacher lately. I've watched his Satsangs before but couldn't break through. Since working with Aya I have broken through, and it is truly the most blissful, amazing experience. It comes and goes but it stays longer than it ever has before. Microdosing has been a Godsend to me too. Leaving a Narcissitic relationship broke me, I'm coming back but it's been a 13 year journey of healing. Really love your work. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. X
This video is what I needed
great view great video you are on the right way ! love and light
The insight I gained from a 4g dried PE trip was that we have to learn to forgive, be nonjudgmental and kind. And we'll keep reincarnating here until we get these lessons. That includes forgiving your enemies and not being so quick to judge those you disagree with, which is so so hard to do in practice but I'm working on it. 🙂
Cool insight
I hate that I know this but still refuse to do so, something inside me just can't. I'm cursed and wished I didn't know this and was a fool.
Thanks so much for sharing, so insightful. I really want to have a trip with mushrooms similar to what you are doing. I have had a trip before with THC and it was not nice at all. I was super paranoid but understood that it.
Up your dose when you're ready !:) Im ozzy was 23 when i did heroic dose alone a few years ago it was the most astounding experience in my life
Nga mihi ehoa, you know the good ones are at home. Waikato gold😉 2nd best in the world
@@hirokawiti4932 it's coming up 4 years since my heroic dose thinking of experiencing another one.
@@sadbravesfan because it was so mind blowing and significant i haven't felt the need too these past 4 years
Happy Bornday enjoy your day to the fullest Jah Bless
Thank you for sharing on your experiences. About ego and the fear of not seeing it over power you, when you train yourself to recognize it’s pattern, you train yourself to be aware, then the ego can react as it does in every circumstances and you can see it’s movement and choose (as you illustrated about shame) to follow it blindly or observe it. As you observe it, you are not nourishing it and give it fuel. So it slowly dissipates. And the circle continues that way. The ego stays but does not overpower. Because your mind is trained and aware, or enlighten to the truth about the ego. 🙏🏼
So glad to have found your channel
Happy 😊 Birthday Julianne love 💗 you
Happy birthday Julianne!
Love the informative microdosing videos. 👊🍄
Makes total sense. I’ve had similar epiphanies as a byproduct of a lot of shadow work, followed by a trip. Probably one of the most exhilarating and insightful experiences I’ll never forget.
How much did you take? I might be participating in a mushroom ceremony in Feb! Have you been?
@@JulianneKeu I have not, but that’s definitely something right up my alley! Safe “travels” 🙏🏽
I just had mushrooms today. I'm still on the Comedown, but I think I can say that they help me face problems with myself that I hadn't been willing to confront - which is different from actually dealing with them.
You're very analytical, and I think I have a similar personality; my experience was similarly introspective. Thank you for your video, and thank you for your honesty.
My most introspective, beneficial trip was alone in the dark. It started in a social setting where we all partook. I methodically went through my life from the beginning of awareness and recollection. I was able to gain clarity of my existence. The essence of every relationship and everything as I perceived it to be. It gave me clarity and cleansed my soul.
Thank you for sharing it helped a lot. I want to try micro dosing mushrooms too. Never had a trip before but I’m excited for mine 🤍
Happy birthday! 🎂
Great episode!
That's very interesting about the silicone implants, psilocybin open us up to energies we cannot usually see, and in the same time shows us the lack of energy alongside that.
Happy birthday. Micro dosing is the path to mind feeding. Now I’m planning to take up hiking and backpacking.
Thank you. And that's really inspiring to hear!
First insight I learned from my mushroom experiences are the more selfish you are the more evil 🦹 lol 😂 veering toward a bad place so please take care ! Love you Julianne and happy birthday 🎉 once again
Happy B Day !
Wow!!!!!!! Thank you for sharing that insight about narcissism!!! I really relate and appreciate you sharing that because it’s definitely not a common insight. I agree they are talked about as sub human.
Richard Grannon recently made a video about this too! (If you’re familiar with him) :) I’ll see if I can find the video then I’ll link it
Ok found it czcams.com/video/MrJmm1hJyl8/video.html
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I've been wanting to try shrooms for a few years. Your microdose video came up as a suggested video, probably since I have been watching videos related to THC. Most of those are produced by some very stoner-looking dudes (which is OK, I guess!), but it's nice to see someone that could just as well be talking about cooking. Your approach and personality really lend credibility to the subject.
Also, Happy Birthday!
Ahh thank you! And thank you for your feedback. I didn’t have the confidence to make many psychedelics-related videos in the beginning because I didn’t feel I fit the typical “psychonaut” mold... but I’ve since learned that there are so many different ways to approach a subject... and nobody really owns anything. We can only share what we’ve learned. So cheers to that haha 🥂
I like that you don't have a stoner vibe
Hey, Thank you for this.
O.M.G. I am pausing this vid before having finished listening to your discussion on narcissists but what brought me to microdosing and psilocybin is a long windy road, 2 years today exactly (synchronicity?), that began from narcissistic abuse. I could not find any info connecting these two topics and I found this particular video just out of casual curiosity on trip reports. Seek and ye shall find. I am very uncomfortable with the idea of empathy for narcissists considering the way that person... for lack of a better word, destroyed me. But curious about your perspective.
OK, now I'm going to continue watching.
P.S. THANK YOU (it's heartfelt) Julianne for your well-researched, concise videos.
I'm in love with this channel
Have been watching your videos.very educational keep up the good work🙂
Thank you!
Thanks for your insights. I am looking forward to my first trip probably in a couple of months sometime.
Exciting! Guided or solo trip?
Same as you, will start with a 1g solo, then a future 3-4g guided trip.
@@InsightImagingPhoto I may do a guided trip in February! My friend went through one recently and he said he saw angels. He's an atheist/tech guy so now I'm intrigued lol
@@JulianneKeu it’s a whole new world upon us. I am excited and scared at the same time for my future trip, but that’s all part of the experience I guess. In the meantime I continue to microdose, and I can’t express how amazing it was to actually enjoy Christmas with my family for the first time since my brain injury.
Happy birthday 🎉🎂🎁 🎂
Great content, thanks. Keep it up.
Happy Birthday! I did my first trip this weekend, it was definitely interesting, I did a full day of micro dosing. I would say the insights I learned is that I need to continue saying how I feel and don’t accept negative energy. If it’s something I don’t like, speak up for myself and if I maintain my reasoning and temper I can successfully navigate the conversations better. I struggle with trusting and giving people my time in lieu of my own objectives, and often that ends up being a one sided relationship where nothing I want is in consideration. I’m going to try to monitor this and see how well I do at applying this knowledge. My transparency experience: I’m pretty sure I was also contacted by aliens through text and light communication, and the number 3 was very prominent. My birthday is 2/14/85 and my numerology number is 3 so this is significant. The next time I do it, I want to try to look deeper into the meaning behind it. I did about 2.5 grams over about 15 hours of time. Definitely going to micro-dose, and definitely going to try this heroes journey everyone is talking about. Thank you for your insight!
I used to be such a skeptic about reports of angels and interactions with the supernatural.. but the more accounts I hear from people, the more of a believer I become. I also resonate with your experiences w/ trust (or lack thereof). It is a process for everyone - and the lessons we are meant to learn are all different (and somehow, oddly, similar at the same time). Peace to you! I have no doubt you'll find the answers you're looking for.
The biggest dose I’ve ever taken was unintentional, and it was with mushroom chocolate bars. It was the worst experience of my life, but there were still some important insights. The trip came on so fast and strongly that my ego wasn’t ready for it and it kept trying to yank me back into reality and cling on to my feelings of fear in an attempt to anchor me to this plane of existence. Because of this, my ego didn’t die, but it was split into 3 noticeable pieces. One piece was the part of my that was angry at the hurt I was going through, another piece felt like a gentle guardian that wanted to comfort me, and the third part was the fear and anxiety that I was feeling that still felt the most like myself. My fear was keeping me anchored to reality and wouldn’t let me let transcend even when I tried to let go and let my ego die.
After a lot of thought, I think that experience told me how much I let my fear control me, but I haven’t been able to process and come to that conclusion until I started getting into psychedelics again, at a much more reasonable dose. For now I’m on a similar journey as you are in this video where I’m slowly increasing my dose every couple of weeks until I make some sort of breakthrough. Unlike last time, I’m approaching this with much more respect and caution towards the psychedelics I’m taking. I don’t know if I’ll ever work my way up to a heroic dose like 5 grams, but I’ll see as time goes on. Maybe one day I’ll be ready for that kind of journey.
Happy Birthday 🎂
That’s so weird i went thru the same thing but I did have my implants removed. I remember just sobbing uncontrollably when I came back to “myself” the following week I scheduled to have my implants removed after having them in for 8 1/2yrs. My whole life after that awakening has completely changed for the better. 😊 I’m happy to have found your channel 🥰✌🏼🤍
Oh my gosh! I can't believe you had a similar experience (well- I *can* believe it now!). I'm so happy to hear you're doing better now. You seem to have found your bliss. I'm going to do 2 or maybe 3g for my next trip.. I wonder if that's when I'll get a more intense revelation about my implants :/ will keep you posted!
Really good insights!
Isn't it amazing how they are just merely a catalyst that enabled you to have those thoughts and insights?!
I hope you have a peaceful birthday! Mine's April 8th.
I've had 2 3g experiences (5'9'' 160lbs). Both very useful with lasting insights. I spoke with a psychiatrist and they're actually enthusiastic about psilocybin even though the law prevents them from formally prescribing.
Thank you! Magic mushrooms are actually legal where I am (if you take them for depression). I’m in Vancouver, Canada. I feel the laws will soon change everywhere. There’s just too much momentum building. (And apparently stocks for companies in the psych space are skyrocketing.)
3g sounds great. I think that will be my next dose :) happy holidays & hope you’re staying safe
Good channel. I appreciate these videos.
You really are helping me. Im scared LOL but I need this
Happy birthday 🎁