you're dancing with someone that doesn't exist [ dark academia playlist ]
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Just made a Discord server for the channel!
Feel free to join here: discord.gg/JgwuB25sUE
it doesn't work for me):
hey, i was hopeing i could get the name of the first song, hopeing to put it on a playlist
@@Caden-km2pv It's December Nostalgic, by Ramus Thompson.
The link hasn't worked for me either, I would like to join the server and also suggest making a new invite link (if you want ofc) and changing the settings. You can change it from a wk to a month to never, and the number of ppl who can use said link. Hope this helps!
@@guardian_down23 Thank you so much! I'm pretty new to this stuff so I didn't know how it worked exactly, should be fine now!
I once kissed a guy in my dream, no idea who he was. I still think about him lol
it was me
@@LAFFEN MaAaAario!
@@LAFFEN plot twist its a guy
@@slickbrick6969 just makes it better
no way i did the same thing!! I'm officially in love with him and I don't even have a clear picture of his face in my mind XD
2 minutes ago i officially turned 19 and I already feel like everything is falling apart. I know the CZcams comments aren’t a place to vent and who’s to say anyone will see this or even comment on it but I’m just gonna put it out there cause why not, but I just want to go back to Malaysia. I want to be an 8 year old kid again, and I want my dad to see me grow up and become a better version of myself with him by my side, I want to have better friends to rely on, and a lifelong partner to love, I know I’m still young and I know things will get better but it’s just the how and when of it all, all I can do for now is to wait and see, i know that but the thought about waiting until my life gets better is unfortunately an exhausting thought, even though i’m aware that’s the best solution for now.
I can tell you from experience that even the darkest places can be once again illuminated. And I wish you the best, your hopes are achievable your dreams are reachable and happiness is just around the corner.
Hey n.n happy belated birthday. If it's okay, I'll share my thoughts about what you're going through right now from the perspective of a little bit older person. Yes, waiting for things to get better is exhausting. I know it is hard but maybe try to focus on the present moment and attempt to do the things that get you the closest to where you want to be. Call your dad, even if he can't see you, tell him everything that's going on, share your feelings and routine. And remember being apart is temporary, he is still a text or a phone call away. As for friends, people come and go. You will know when you meet the people that truly connect with you. Treasure real, healthy bonds and don't waste a tear on any other kind of relationships. I hope some time from now you remember that you wrote this and feel better. Circumstances change all the time, take care of yourself.
It sucks to miss home and family. Don't wait around to live your life though. "Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines! Sail away from safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover!" -Unknown
Hey there, luv. Like the cliché says, the only way out is through. Each day is a step away from the familiarity of childhood, sure, but it’s also a step towards building that life you’re seeking and becoming the person you want to be. We are all works in progress. Those relationships are out there, you’ll find them. In the meantime, don’t lose heart. ❤
Ommggg stawwwpppp because 2 minutes ago, i officially turned 20 😭😭😭 AND THE FACT I CAME TO THIS VIDEO AND SAW YOUR COMMENT🥴
The worst part is not being able to define an image for the one you’re dancing with.. you are left with how they make you feel and that is going to be very hard to replicate in real life.
For all who are deemed lost, I hope you find them. I sure haven’t
Those are my dreams as well, no face but the emotions feel so real in the moment.
@@Omardelatorr1 exactly....the connection , the feeling is so deep yet the face is blurred ...it like reading a book where there is no definite image just some characteristics and emotions
I feel that anytime I think of being with someone bit it reminds me of a dream I've had with a girl before anytime I think of me having a partner (I've never had one) it's a weird and sad realization.
You all guys sound like cupioromantic... Although I can't, of course, be sure you are... Anyway, I can feel the same pain as you do, and I wish you from the bottom of my heart the happiest life you can ever imagine 💚
@@sirin_bird you are such a kind soul😍😍
Dreaming of being with someone you've never met but somehow being able to connect on a deep level is crazy. The feeling it leaves you with after waking up is weird too. Nice playlist btw!
Thanks for the kind words!
😂😂😂
You make me cry, thanks
I understand completely this feeling. I'm in love with someone who no longer exist with an idea, with an illusion I was given. I even dream with him still but when I wake up he doesn't exist. And this nostalgia comes back until I'm asleep once again.
I once dreamed I had a best friend (she doesn't exist, I've never seen her irl), and we were childhood friends. She was always here for me and we would go everywhere together. Suddenly, as we walked towards my in-dream-house, I was like, this is a dream, isn't it? You're not real. She started crying and said she wasn't, but she loved me and didn't want me to leave her, she begged me to stay. I did stay, but she disappeared and I forgot her right away, forgot I was in a dream too - with dream logic. When I did wake up from the dream, I felt like I had betrayed a friend I never had. I kinda miss her still.
This is what it feels like when everyone you know has found love and you're just alone but wishing you could find someone who loves and understands you too.
I see so many people in the comments of this lovely video hungry for love, for connection. I remember that feeling. I want to take you each in my arms and brush your cheek with my thumb and say, "it gets better." There is connection. Keep looking, keep trying, keep working on yourself and making yourself into the person you want to be. For yourself, for whoever you're looking for. And one day you will be in someone's arms and look up and the face you saw in your dreams will be clearly in front of you, no longer shrouded in mystery and longing. I love you. Be strong.
Dang, thanks for this. I'm in my first year of college, studying all the time to keep up with my classes and earn good grades, though I find myself, occasionally, just wanting to be with someone. My friends are great ofc but I'd just really love to be with a guy and feel completely loved and safe with him. A healthy relationship where we make each other happy, esp since all throughout my childhood, my parents had such a toxic relationship and it made all of us unhappy. There's been some guys that have went up to me (usually when I'm studying lol), we would chat and I'd get excited, exchange info, but none of them have really worked out.
I hate how strong the desire gets to be with someone. I'm finally out on my own and this is the first time for me that the desire is just so strong. I look around and see so many of my classmates have partners and I just get jealous, wondering why can't I have that? I'm scared, what if I don't end up finding someone? I know I'm still so young but I feel like I'm missing out, especially since I never dated anyone in hs. Rn, my classload doesn't allow me much free time unfortunately, so I just need to remember to focus on my schooling and like you said, hopefully I'll end up finding the right person for me at the right time.
Sorry for venting. I guess I'm feeling kind of emotional and your comment struck me pretty deep haha. Think I'll return back to this comment when I feel lonely again
@@graceMaximus Woah! It feels like talking to a younger version of myself. I completely commiserate.
Given that I feel I've been given a time machine, here's the best advice I can give you. Take as much as helps! Warning, long reply.
When you find love, it will not be confusing. You will not doubt you are loved. There may come concerns and nitty gritty, awkward moments and mistakes where you hurt each other, but someone who loves you will LEARN from those mistakes, will LAUGH through the awkward moments, will WORK to bridge the nitty gritty, and will hear out your concerns.
Before I met my (soon to be) husband, I did not know love wasn't supposed to hurt. For reference: It's not.
It's supposed to feel like building a brick house to put a fire inside. It's supposed to feel like coming home.
When I started college, I made a vow to myself that I would never put a boy before school. I relate hard to having lots of people approach, but not having it go anywhere substantial. Right now, you will be exposed to a greater number of people your age interested in dating than any other time in your life, so it's VERY okay to let a lot of candidates slip by. Throw away the good enough to get the good for you.
That vow I made turned out to work in my favor, as it turns out The One was someone who loved me for ME, not for my flawless persona.
When you have downtime, focus on becoming yourself. You have a passion for theater? Go audition. Painting? Why not? Never skied before but suddenly have a chance to? Sure. Just take it one step- er, slope at a time.
Fail now so you can grow. Fail now=be awesome later. The right person will look at the vase in your museum and marvel at the broken pots it took to get there.
On the subject of parents. I feel for you. I have spent a lot of time learning what NOT to do. Just remember, it's OKAY to have an argument or to disagree with your partner. You don't have to keep the peace, and every conflict doesn't have to be a breakup. I remember the day I looked up from a tough conversation with shock, realizing we had ARGUED and WORKED THINGS OUT????! It was revolutionary.
It's a really good idea to get to know your partner when their angry.
Any way a person talks about someone, they're capable of talking about you. This is broad advice for friendships, but is VITAL in a relationship. How do they talk about the fast food worker who got their order wrong? How do they talk about their roommates? Their family? If their family are legitimately awful, do they know why? Do they condemn them? How much of an argument with anyone is their fault? How much is the other person's? You don't have to pass a moral judgement, just remember that someday, even someone you love can get on your bad side, and you theirs. I would love to get personal on this, but as it is the internet I'll simply say: trust me.
I don't envy you, @graceMaximus. You have the hard part of the journey ahead. I promise you, let time take its course and trust the process. My future husband and I met on a blind date. My dear friend managed to find their wonderful long-term partner on Hinge (I'm still not sure how, and am a bit impressed myself). Feel free to come back to this whenever you need, and good luck with school! Sorry for the uninvited advice haha
@@margaretlines65 Thank you for this, genuinely. You didn't have to respond or use your time on writing this all up for me, some random YT commenter on a study playlist video, but you did. I _really_ appreciate that. This is so motivating, I love how engaging and beautifully descriptive your writing is, it just feels so comforting like you're an older sister or something haha. I don't really have much family to give me this type of advice, really only my mom, but she's still in an extremely toxic relationship with my dad. I wish I had some like you to just give me this type of random life advice, i'm like tempted to ask for your discord but completely understand if you don't want to. Sorry again, with this music playing as I read your reply, it's making me feel emotional again (swear I don't get this deep/personal in random internet comments all the time lol). And I will definitely be coming back to this. :)
"Right now, you will be exposed to a greater number of people your age interested in dating than any other time in your life, so it's VERY okay to let a lot of candidates slip by. Throw away the good enough to get the good for you," - wow, never thought about it like that. I'm going to really try to keep that in mind
"It's a really good idea to get to know your partner when their angry." - Yepp, that is one thing that I've learned very well from a young age to watch out for.
It's nice to hear how much you relate to how I'm feeling, though I'm so happy that you found the right guy for you. I wish you two all the best and hope the wedding goes well! Haha, I do hope this ends up feeling like a time machine someday, where what you have now, is what I'll have later. No need to say sorry, grateful I decided to sort by the newest comments
@@graceMaximus @margaretlines65
this thread is so heartwarming
@@margaretlines65 thank you for this, even though it wasn't for me it really helped.
I just turned 23 and I've never had a boyfriend, I've only had one-sided romantic experiences... but I'm a hopeless romantic, so I keep falling in love, but with a boy who only exists in my dreams...
You're not alone missy, I too suffer from the same thing
Don't worry, you will one day have a love that isn't one-sided. But just remember, even two-sided loves can be tragic. :(
me too...
i just experienced that last night
Trust me miss, I'm in a very similar boat.
I was 23 and never had a boyfriend. Then, I met him. He's so sweet, and caring, and puts me first. It's been 2 years, and our 2 year anniversary is coming up in June. We actually were first friends, but it turned into something more. I think you'll meet your love one day, and that he'll put you first above everything else, and loves you unconditionally
I love the quote by Kurt Vonnegut:
”Tiger got to hunt, bird got to fly. Man got to sit and wonder ’why,why,why’.
Tiger got to sleep, bird got to land;
Man got to tell himself he understand”
Because in this quote it implies that we might not actually understand and we are just saying so to make ourselves feel more at ease.
So anytime you feel alone with your thoughts or feel a bit fatalistic about the world just remember that its human to want to understand. Its just as natural as the fact that tigers sleep and birds land. Yet it is okay not to.
You can just say that you do.
I dunno just love this quote so much and wanted to share it somewhere to someone else Who too can maybe find at least some comfort from it.
Yo this is beautiful
It's insane how much that quote has actually put things into perspective for me. I first heard it like a week or two ago from an essay by John Green on Tuberculosis, and the more I think of it, I just feel like everything makes more sense. I dunno, I guess it's just helped me to let go of wanting to know things a bit.
I'm almost 20 and all I want to do is dance in a vintage dress in an old palace. I'm so burned out.
Me too...
I feel you so much lol
I cant agree more, not the dress part :) , I try to enjoy the little moments and forget the working ones
I'm only 13 and I'm alrdy desiring something like that. Is it concerning?
wanna do it together?
Reading all the comments while listening really sets a surreal mood.
And its a very special thing.
"We danced in a field in the rain together alone no one watching for the last time...."
❤
wait no that's so sad...
The young lady watched everyone dance before her, entwined with each other. She stood awkwardly, aching for a chance, for just one opportunity to be on the dance floor like everyone else. Suddenly, a tall man with the most piercing eyes walks towards her. Her breath hitched as she looked around her, wondering who he was walking towards, only to find that the one he was looking at was her. Finally, he stopped right before her, a few inches away. He reached out his hand to her.
"Would you give me your company in this dance, darling?"
His voice was so low and husky that it resonated in her ears as his words repeated in her head. She stood there almost speechless as she nodded, not able to say a single word out of her lips. She took his hand, and he pulled her gently, leading her to the dance floor. It felt like the world around them disappeared for that one moment. She felt as he placed his free hand on her waist, the other still entwined with hers. She didn't know the first thing about dancing - But she did her best. They twirled and swayed. It almost felt like he led her, just with the look in his eyes and how he guided her subtly.
Her heart raced in her chest. It beat so loudly that she wondered if the handsome man could hear it. The smell of his perfume and the way his cold peculiar touch etched in her memory was something she would never forget. As the song ended, he led her back to where he had found her, bowing as he departed. She wanted to go after him, wondering who he was, but when she tried to take a few steps towards the direction he had left, hoping to reach him. He was gone, lost in the crowd. Almost like he was a ghost, she never saw him again, but the night would stay permanently etched in her memory.
Did u make this or is it from a book?
@@Dr.jjjjjjjjjjjj123 I made this!
I met a guy once in a bus. I liked the way he was dressed and his friendly face. But there was my stop, so I stepped out and looked away just to realise that he was out too. I smiled and moved to a place where I needed to meet my friends. There was a big space with a fountain in centre. I just walked around with my headphones on, thinking about how lovely this day was, until it got even more lovely, cause that guy again happened to be nearby me. It's possible that he also was going to meet someone, he looked on his phone, and I secretly peeked at him. I wasn't the only one. And when our eyes were staring together, he smiled the most cute smile I think I've seen, so I had to turn around to not show my awkwardness. He moved a little closer and even tried to talk, but I... I pretended I didn't hear him cause of my headphones and walked away as fast as I could. He stopped right there and continued to chill around the fountain while I tried to calm myself down. Soon I saw my friends, so we went together but our way lead us through that place again. My gaze caught him last time and this time I was seeking an opportunity to speak to him. Sadly he was too long to reach and we seemed to go in different directions. My eyes followed him until I finally lost his sight... I fell in love so quickly as always but that time was and actually still is special. I don't know anything about him, even his name, yet still it felt like we were just perfect for each other. And I acted like a coward, I ruined it. Again and again I hoped that we will see each other soon everytime I was in that same area. But we didn't ever meet again. Maybe it wasn't mean to be, I just can't stop myself from remembering this guy and regretting...
You might feel like you missed out on the love of your life, but matter of fact is, you didn't know anything about him. Imagine, you end up in a relationship with him and he turns out to be abusive. Then it was good you walked away "like a coward", right?
What I am trying to say is, you don't know how things would have turned out. So stop thinking things like "it felt like we were just perfect for each other" because you simply can't know that. It's a thought that only causes you to feel regret.
@@hlm-po9zt I know, I know, I shouldn't regretting about guy I didn't even know, but that's exactly why I'm regretting, cause there was completely unknown way, which I will never know. I don't regret dating wrong persons even after all the terrible issues, but I will always regret about things I didn't experience when there was a chance. But anyway thanks for your concern, it was sweet of you
@@chaotic_ginger I can imagine how you feel thinking about the what-ifs. Its a cute story
Sometimes it's appropriate to tell yourself "fuck it and fuck you" and then jump into action without a second thought lol. Its helped me in nerve wrecking situations multiple times and I've always come out better for it.
Lowkey if I was you id put up a sign looking for him LMAO
"There are times when I would wish they were real, but then I would get reminded that the dance, and the memories that came along with it, felt the way it did because they didn't exist in the first place. Even so, those moments affected how I perceive reality. Whether it's a good thing or a bad thing, I do not know. Nonetheless, I find myself unwilling to let them go, the dance and the one I danced with."
I am really moved by this comment section. It is beautiful how people are true not only to themselves but also to strangers. I love how everything here is deprived from hate and assesments.
Thank you all for your delightful stories, for all those emotions muffled in the soothing peace. I am really glad that CZcams algorithm invited me to be part of this magnificent experience.
Thank you for the kind words! I really love how I gathered this little community of people being able to share their stories without being judged by others!
This one is for all of us who lay awake at night, second guessing everything and overthinking the chaos that surrounds us. This is for the people who are going through changes in their lives, alone, realizing that the world they've created isn't the one they wanted. This is for the people who are waking up, realizing that someone or something in their lives is no longer good for them and that they need to break free for their own good. This is for all of us who spend those midnight hours, laying in bed alone, feeling the weight of the sadness pushing on their chests, knowing what the next move is that they have to make, but not knowing how to get there because they know they're going to lose something along the way, even if deep down they know they're losing something toxic. This is for all of us who really could use a genuine hug, or a long embrace, from someone they feel completely safe with. There is beauty in everything, even in those moments where you feel like you're on an island, stranded, and unreachable by others. Especially in those moments. If you're going through Hell, just keep going. It will get better. And you're not alone.
thank u
thank you
Thank you
dance alone is better than dancing with someone that'd always step on your feet.
In my dreams he's always with me, i wonder if someday i will met him and be loved by him, in my dreams i'm always happy, he tells me not to worry about waking up because we are destinated to meet.
That one, blonde and kind man from my dream please, come back. It's been two years since our first and last meeting, I miss you
they do exist, yet not in our reality but in our minds
In seventh grade, I felt like everything was a confusing mess. But then there was him. In the middle of all the loud and unbearable crowd, he stood out like a ray of sunshine. He wasn't just cute, with a smile that could light up a room, but he also had this kindness about him that made me feel like he'd give the best hugs ever. Back then, I wasn't exactly bursting with confidence. I worried about how I looked, how I acted, everything. But when he looked at me, it felt different. It felt like I was okay, just the way I was.
Our first chat started with a silly lie. He pretended to be a year younger than me, just to be funny. I totally fell for it, though, and I kept trying to help him out with stuff for our club, like a worried big brother. I guess I went a little overboard explaining everything. One day, he pulled me aside with a half-grin. "Hey," he said, "actually we're the same age. But listen," he winked, "your help is cool, just maybe ease up on the explaining part, okay?" My cheeks turned bright red - butterflies erupted in my stomach like a swarm of bees. Not only did I find out he wasn't younger, but I realized he'd just wanted an excuse to talk to me!
Those middle school years were filled with him being the nicest guy around. Every time I saw him, or even just heard him talk, I liked him more and more. I wanted to tell him how I felt, but he was straight and I was scared. What if my confession ruined our whole friendship?
Then came high school. It was tough watching him make new friends and have girlfriends. There were moments that stuck with me forever - like the time I wanted to celebrate a win with him, but he hung out with his other friends instead. It stung, but it also made me realize things had to change.
So I changed. I found new friends, new hobbies, even picked out the college I wanted to go to. I started feeling like myself again. And guess what? Right when I was ready to move on, he popped back into my life. He was still as charming as ever, and we bonded over a video game we both loved. We played every day, he invited me to things - it felt amazing having him around again. But then I found out he liked my best friend (who is a girl - don't worry, that's a story for another time).
That crushed me. But, it also made me realize it was time to finally come clean. On New Year's Eve, I poured my heart out in a message. I told him everything I loved about him, not because I thought he'd suddenly like me back, but because I needed to get it all out in the open. He was surprised, but really nice about it. He said he didn't feel the same way, but still wanted to be friends.
And here we are, still friends. Putting this whole story down on paper feels like a weight lifting off my shoulders. Even though you'll probably never see this, H, I just wanted you to know - a part of me will always have a soft spot for you. But with each day, that feeling gets easier to handle. I know I'll find happiness someday, and I hope you find yours too.
your little story made my night easer to sleep
I’m really glad that he understood you guys are still friends. Even though it didn’t work out the way you might have wanted to I’m glad you also understood the situation and continued to grow.
this is so sweet and lovely goddamn--i hope you can be happy and stay friends long into the future, though even if you don't i hope you're both still left with dear and joyful memories of each other
I once dreamt the love of my life died. For a reason I do not know, we had to keep our relationship a secret. I had to break into his apartment to clear it of any remnants of me before his friends and family came to collect his belongings. A mutual friend (that did not know of the shared connection) had asked me to accompany them to help clear out the apartment after I had already done my initial sweep. There was some off handed remark about what a shame I’d never made the acquaintance. All while I was dying holding back tears and mentally cursing everyone for being so callous and careless with his home. I woke up with grief sitting heavily on my chest for a man I felt vehement love for, but did not know.
dreams are great. dreams are terrible. dreams are... powerful and strange.
when i was a child i once dreamed that i stumbled upon a purple girl from space and i was going to help her go home, but time traveled fast in space, and i had to chose between checking if my grandmother was gonna be okay (shes canonically doing fine irl) and helping the alien.
when i was grown i once dreamed that newegg had wd blue 3.5" 5tb drives on sale for about 70 dollars, but PETA had a discount code that would let me get them for 55$.
when i was young i once dreamed i had a girlfriend who loved me dearly, we were driving somewhere, that pre-sunset golden light blanketing the land. you know what i mean. she surprised me with a hot air balloon ride, i felt complete.
waking up from that one hurt me deeply, though i did not truly understand why/how until more recently. (im stopping that train of thought where it lays, lest this post triple in size.)
No offense Quantum but you will never get a girlfriend because women today only want friends.
@@user-nd9vd5vw2e quantum and I were just sharing dreams in which we had significant others and how we they made us feel. Your comment here is completely irrelevant to the current conversation, I encourage you to find an appropriate place to vent these frustrations you seem to hold. I hope you find happiness in your own company and stay well.
@@user-nd9vd5vw2e That... Is the silliest thing I've ever read. It sounds like you're hurt that the women you have reached out to don't want to date you. Don't push that pain onto others. Don't push your expectations onto others either. Maybe a woman doesn't want to date you, but you could be great friends?? If you're taking that as a punishment or "friendzone" then I feel sorry for you missing out on all the cool people you could have had in your life. :( I found love from being friends with others, and I certainly wouldn't be with my husband if we wouldn't have been friends first. Not all friendship turns into romance, but all romantic relationships should be friends at least on some level.
@@user-nd9vd5vw2e That hasn't been the case in my experience; maybe you're just talking to the wrong women...
A moment i realized im not what girls want, that moment i realize im gonna walk alone .. dance with myself until reincarnation will show, yet somehow our devils, angels, not so deffriend like us, they just behave of other fysik and behavier, time dimension, the can joy and laugh and i have spent many nights with my spiritual beings and lovers and just talk about life and the univers. im ok i gess ... great music
She still exists and, as long as I breath, our memories together will not fade away.
TITLE: Wish to Exist
"tell me about him'"
they ask
well he's sweet and kind
and I know deep down he is a good person
but he is in pain and no matter what I do i can't help him
he's scared
biting the hand that feeds
and I love him
but he did not love me
today was goodbye
but I still look at him and cry
what a beautiful soul he is
to be in so much pain
he's beautiful
Even Mother Nature praises his name
but to him
I am only some game
used for my body
I was told it was a temple
my body an empire
you tried to conquer
my love
I was only a pawn
in your sad game of chess
when in my eyes I was a King
I loved you
even though our time ran out
but I have to keep dancing
the music doesn't stop
pausing momentarily to breathe
but never resting
forever i shall waltz
I watch as my lover
slowly fades into oblivion
fading into ash
soon the wind will swiftly carry you away
I watch my lover
held in my arms
we shared a few dances
but now as he has returned to the stars of my imagination
where forever I shall hold him
I am now dacing with a figment of my mind
dancing with a ghost
I so desperately wish
to simply exist.
That was so beautiful and amazing.❤❤❤❤🎉🎉🎉🎉😊😊😊😊
So beautiful ❤
this is so nice
I cried💔
We danced around the hall. We complemented every movement and every breath in harmony. The high vaults, the rigid, cold stone pillars built just for this single dance. We wouldn't need music. Our bodies wrote the song. A composition of passion, of love. I did not need to see him and he did not need to see me. So I closed my eyes and led him and he led me. A dance that never seemed to end. The light of the candles, which made the hall appear heavenly, warmed our skin with their glow. Had I forgotten what a powerful feeling hate was? He had me where he wanted me. He held me prisoner in his bonds of dance, Like a gust of wind the feather of a swan. We danced faster and faster, wilder and wilder. Until suddenly the sound of our footsteps stopped. The ceiling of the hall began to crumble. The building shook off its components like a Oath that can no longer hold its needles. Then he let go of my hand, looked at me and his eyes gave me a promise that we would meet again. An angel who danced with the devil in heaven. He was gone and I opened my eyes to the gray, lonely ceiling of my room. The candlelight had gone out and the dance was over, the song had gone silent.
Can I just say how much I love this! I really just want to be in this sort of love
I love this so much , I felt it deeply 😢❤
This is everything
Perfect.
had a dream like this once, so surreal. But sadly its one of the dreams i cant seem to repeat.
Every night I dream vivid dreams, and it always hurts to wake up. My dreams play out like scenes from a book, where someone keeps rereading the same few pages before moving on to the next book. The stories and people change, but one thing stays the same. I am never myself, and always seem to embody someone I’ve never known. The people around me have their faces obscured but I know I wouldn’t recognize them even if I could see them. The only one I can see is my own, yet it constantly changes. I’ve never felt happier than in my dreams, no matter how dark the stories become. It’s still comforting to be someone else, and to feel real love with someone even if they never existed
I know this feeling! I dream so vividly that i can feel the things that happend when I wake up. And sadly i often feel Empty inside when the world i dreamt of is gone. The people that I "Play" are never the same and often there are Vampires and other Fantasy Creatures. And beautiful romance and sometime such sad things that i have the urge to cry. I love dreaming and feeling these thing, but waking up is the most cruel thing happening to me!
I felt this and have experienced this as well. I hate waking up from those dreams...
When I started listening to this melody my eyes started to tear up, I guess I came across this video on the perfect timing. That's what life is all about after all, letting things come and go
Thank you so much for the kind words!!
Life is very strange, leading us in directions we would never think to move towards.
I wanna thank everyone here for sharing their touching stories, makes me smile and also makes me cry, but at the end of the day, when I go to bed with my cat, I feel less alone because I always fall asleep with this music and often go on dreaming from one of your story!
I pray for your many dreams to be sweet and fulfilling.
Once fell in love with someone in my dreams, literally a few days after I first experienced what the real feeling is like, it is not like: "You look cute, we bf and gf now?" it is really hitting you in the chest.
First painting: "Slow Dance" by Coloradan artist Ron Hicks, b. 1965
4th (the thumbnail) is by Irish artist Lorraine Christie, b. 1967
I remember one time I dreamt of this man, no idea seek he was or what he looked like. All I knew he was perfect in every way I could ever imagine. In this dream we feel in love dated, married. Had the most perfect life one could ever imagine with a partner. I never got to see his face, only that he was well built but slim, tall, handsome, and he had skin like a warm caramel. I never felt so loved, so happy. Only to wake up, alone in my bed, saddened that all of that was a dream, I never felt so alone. So sad that the man who I somehow loved and cherished with all my heart and soul was not real. After that night I never dreamt of him again. But I will always remember him as the man I will never have, the man who I will never see or dream. I hope I'm not the only one who dreamt about this
The touch of a loved one is something that is taken for granted when their, and missed whole heartedly when not. It feels so long since I’ve felt a touch like that, a connection. It gentleness, with a kind intention. The feeling of not being alone. I miss it, yet I’ve never had it. Adios and vaya con Dios, my friends.
funny i find this right now. i had a dream last night i was in love with a beautiful woman, i dont know her name nor do i remember her face. all i know is she was there for me when none of the other dream people were, she held my hand and comforted me. whoever she is, i miss her.
There is beauty in meeting a stranger who is unbelievably compatible with you, only for that single moment to last for a short while. A lesson comes with each stranger, a kind smile or a gentle push from the universe to keep going.
I fell in love with some guy in my dream once. It was so sweet, so loving.
I woke up and almost sobbed.
It's strange how in dreams you feel love like you'll never experience in real life. In real life you have lost hope and interest but it's fascinating how dream comes with the characters that are so comfy and it feels like i know them completely from ages. Sometimes he is supporting, sometimes generous and kind, and sometimes intriguing and challenging. They have their own universe inside my subconscious . i love how i admire him even when i don't what he looks like...
To be re-living the same moment, in the background, in the foreground, being trapped in the same unbelievable moment this seems to have endless conclusions, endless beginnings, not knowing where you are going or may end up.... how blissful a thought.
Here we are, thousands of strangers never likely to see each other again, but for any of you who happen upon it, this is for you. Space may travel the infinite flow of Time, but so does Love. It will find you, you will be happy, love just takes time.
One day I'll wake up an old man in an empty bed realizing its too late for young love
Same. i fear that i'll be an old cat lady lol
Worse is when the realization happens to you when you're wide awake, staring at a message on a phone, listening to a sad playlist on CZcams...
maybe in another time i was dancing with someone in a room full of dresses and happiness
Lately my life´s been a bunch of unfortunated events and chaos, my carreer is ending with me.
just existing, feeling empty sorrounded by all this solitude and majestic music.
I am so tired of dreaming every night about people who don't care abt me anymore, they stopped talking to me for different reasons.
They started their new lives without me and seems like they never met me.
It is so painful to dedicate my dreams to them, i really wanna move on, but my mind is still there, hoping for their comeback.
Being happy, look deep into our eyes for endless minutes, relieve the sparkle between us, feel butterflies in your stomach, falling in love again and again with a dream... I almost forgot your voice, the one i would have listened for hours without stopping, what an irony.
Every time i woke up, i feel empty and meaningless, and i spend all my day thinking "are they dreaming about me? did they forgot me? do I ever come back in their thoughts?"
Wondering many things and knowing that you will never have an answer...
It's a hell, ugh
If you often find yourself dancing alone & wishing you had someone to dance with, you'll find someone new if you keep looking long enough, & they might even make for a good partner. But remember, the Perfect dancing partner is already in your life. The curse of being human is that the things we think will make us happy are rarely what will make us truly happy, & we miss out on the best things by chasing what we mistakenly think are better. Sometimes we're lucky enough to stumble on who we really need, but if you're not, look at those around you with a fresh perspective.
If you rarely find yourself dancing alone, but you're alone today, then maybe the partner you really ought to be getting to know better is yourself. It's okay to dance alone for a while. Give it a try, dance alone for longer than what you're used to. It won't be forever, & you'll learn something. When it comes time to find a partner, you'll be more ready.
Close my eyes then i saw my other souls waiting for me to reach his hand..its the best feeling.. even it made me cry cause i know he already flew high to heaven.
at night i close my eyes and think of my life ahead of me. my career and success is mainly what consumes my mind, but sometimes i do think of love. i’ve struggled with that concept for more than half my life due to some certain aspects of my childhood and lack of parental presence, but i dream of it, so often. I sometimes believe I’ll never find it; that i’ll die alone with only my loneliness by my side. Do I want too much? Do I want things that don’t exist? A love so rare that it borders the line of soulmate and twin flame; something inescapable and inevitably beautiful and destructive all in the same. I want everything, all of it. The beauty, the dark, the ugly, especially the ugly. Is it too much to ask for a love that conquers and devours? A love that moves the ground beneath us and changes the tides as does the moon. I’ll die alone. And that’s okay. It will be okay.
Was kinda like you, found everything I could ask for (one minor problem 3000km). Work on yourself, go meet new people and you'll find it
He`s tall(but not uncomfortably so),wears dark clothes,has deep blue eyes,one dimple and a beautiful smile. I remember his scent as I`ve hugged him twice. He smelled clean,as if being embraced by a cloud on a spring morning. We talked about our favorite movies:His was `The Umbrellas of Cherbourg`. Brought me flowers,they were entirely too colorful and chaotic. I loved them. We passed by buildings,never stopped talking. He laughed at my jokes. I laughed at his clumsiness as he almost tripped. Was probably a year older than me,but again maybe not. Long fingers. Told me he worked as a police officer. We hugged again,he offered me a smile and left. Don`t remember his name.
And I woke up.
Perfect music for dreaming of an alternate reality where I'm a beautiful princess missing my beloved etc etc
"No matter where you go - you'll never find her
You may still feel her touch but eyes never lie
Exploring the darkest, isolated and afar places for years yet still being nowhere close to reuniting with her
Because she didn't, doesn't and never will exist"
I'm Muslim. We believe that if you don't meet the love of your life in this world (remain single or are unhappily married), you will meet them in the afterlife and be happy forever. It's a lovely thought and came into mind when I read all the comments here. Loved all of them, if you're reading this, I wish you well, may you be able to extend the endless love in your heart to yourself first.
Had a dream once that I was getting married to some handsome gentleman with blue eyes and blonde hair. He was dreamy. Didn’t know who he was , still think about him and that dream..
I once dream about me having lovely wife and sweet daughter...but in that dream they don't have a face
Laying here at almost 2 am crying to this, not because I will never know him because I already do, but because he’ll never truly love me as much as he says it I know he doesn’t mean it. I can see it in his eyes I’m just the women he got pregnant. I’m the safe choice. The one who is already here but never the one he will truly love. My dreams are filled with him. Our life. Our memories, dancing late at night in the middle of our room as the kids are asleep as he whispers “ I love you” In my ear. It’s so close I can almost touch it, but I never will. He’ll never truly love me. This is the closest I’ll get to that feeling.
Wow you wrote it so beautifuly
Same 🎉
🫂
My god... I would never wish this on my greatest enemy.
Why do you think he'll never truly love you?
Dancing with someone with passion, tenderness and happiness.
It' s nice to take a rest of everything in our mind and open hearts together in a deep hug. 😻😻
no because, this was a long while ago, i had a dream where i was in my school’s cafeteria for some reason and i was going up and getting ready to dance and i was just dancing and dancing, feeling myself then this dude comes up and dances with me. we dance in sync and i even maybe got butterflies. if i remember correctly, he even reached his hand out for me, i still remember what he wore, it was like a beige-orange turtleneck long sleeve top with black pants, his shoulders were broad… his face was blurry tho, i couldn’t pinpoint who it was, then i think he went and walked away only for me to wake up right after. to see him again in my dreams.. he made those short few seconds feel so romantic and magical 🥹
this is how love is supposed to feel. ive wanted smth like this my entire life but i just dont think im capable of feeling this way for someone else and its soul crushing
when i daydream about what could have been, this is what i hear. it has been such a tough time lately but i am glad i found this so that i can imagine the life i wanted. thank you :)
Don’t imagine keep hustling till you make it reality, never give up
make it a reallity bro,, wishing u the best!
Past decision and lost lovers
"Not being enough is less about what you are and more about what you could have been"
~ a quote from poem of a youtuber - illness
So don't feel you were limited or are limited, it was just a part of you not you💗
Thinking about two of my characters from a book I'm writing while listening to this. I feel so deeply connected with these two and this playlist just makes them come alive in my mind.
This playlist got me. I had never been in a relationship, these music just give me a space to imagine what it might feel... with love. Absolutely blessing.
Don't know since when I feel like I am not worthy to have love anymore. Some friends around keep falling in love with someone, live happily out there. Some friends keep sharing on how they are planning to get their love, sounds brave. Seeing people around enjoying love, make me jealous, but I'm not mad. I'm sad, that I get panic with my works. I met someone looks absolutely gorgeous, when I wanna to take a step and chase. I realize I'm not ready, I'm not ready to give a happy life to her, I'm not ready to give my all. I'm not ready to spend everything onto someone... So I stopped, leaving her fades away. Falling in love with a better man. What's left for me is bitter and sour to swallow. Am I overthinking? Am I scared of failure? Or, Am I selfish? No one can tell me the answer since I never express these to anyone around me. Maybe I just need to get off my current situation, and try live freely to find someone who is waiting for me.
Thank you!
It's not even about finding the love of your life. It's about that person that you've missed your entire life, never knowing who they are. That person who would make your life complete if you could just meet them, even once. Someone who only expects you to be yourself no matter the cost. Someone who makes that empty void in your chest disappear, because they've always been the fitting piece. And knowing that you are the same for them.
When out in nature, we often feel so small, dwarfed by the grand sweep of the stars, the oceans, and the mountains. And yet we are still part of it all - connected to the miracle of the first flower to emerge from the soil, awed by the iridescent flash of wings in mid-flight, the feeling of a raindrop rolling down the face, or the spiralling song of a bird up above.
that's beautiful
The weight of the air after a heavy storm
Petrichor
Dark and beautiful and a comfort to my heart
My heart,
which has been thundering for months.
My delightful, most favored weather.
Every raindrop that slid down my cheek was a kiss which you laid upon me
Shivering
Where my skin would burn with how they harmed me, there was you
To soothe the blistering
and the bruising
with the delicate embrace of your wind
Your voice, the rolling thunder overhead
Your smile, the curve of the horizon- which is held loose in the cascading rainbow which your light created
I'm lost in the flooding warmth of your gaze, yet I will never drown.
You're everything I want. And will never have.
This is truly the most beautiful poetic comment I've read in a very long time
Her beautiful white gown spun and twirled as she danced across the extravagant ball room floor, her mask hiding her exquisite features other than her red lips and bright blue eyes. And as the music played, thousands came to watch as she danced with a ghost. The ghost of the man she once knew. Their bodies intertwined in another as they swirled around the dance floor aimlessly together, knowing this would certainly be their last dance till they met in death together. She couldn't help but let her eyes well up with tears, her chest rising and falling rapidly as his spirit slowly dissipated as the pair were enjoying this last bitter sweet moment together. Bystanders watching as she crumbled to her knees once the mist was gone, listening as her sobs drowned out the beautiful music. Never again would they meet, for she waits for him life time after life time. The immortal woman, heart broken once more.
Playlist like this always inspire me to write, often I find myself making short stories like this to these playlists. This being one of the many, please enjoy.
Thank you so much, it’s beautiful!!
@@helderboutens no, thank *you* for giving me inspiration to keep my writing going :)
i listen to playlists all the time but this one was one of my favorites, thank you so much for putting it together
I miss my bestfriend. The one person I truly trusted with my whole heart.😔
May I ask what happened?
я один тут слушаю эту музыку от нечего делать а не от любви?
Such a soothing melancholy, a love felt so deep... to hug the shadows of someone who would never be
23:30 is always my favourite... there's so much emotion in it.
Wrote a freestyle poem to this wonderful playlist (I'm no professional so bare with me ❤)
Delulu (Story of a hopeless romantic)
I don’t believe that my vision is beyond sanity.
I have a scene, a life that plays in my head.
A dream of what could be.
I can feel its warmth and heartache just as sun on skin.
It comes with pain yet my desire grows
The lens of rose, absent against others' beliefs.
The heartache, the pain, the challenge, I want it all
Yet, growth and love I desire, molded through blazing fire.
I feel a hand comforting my own until dawn breaks.
The story of life and pain, now hollow.
Alone once more I wake to dream
Could that hand hold mine whilst sun remains?
I live to one day create this story, hopeless or not,
I don’t believe my vision is beyond sanity.
(I love all you amazing people so much! Thank you for reading)
Every night yt would recommend me these kind of peaceful playlist... really help me sleep
It's not interesting but I always liked to dream. Dreaming of another world where absolutely everything is possible. Meeting someone you didn't know before, share a moment with people you know but who are no longer around you, or who have voluntarily decided to no longer be part of your life. Falling in love with someone whose face we no longer even remember but just the tenderness of his gestures and the affection he showed us better than anyone on Earth. Meeting fictional characters that don't even exist, but adds comfort in seeing them. Relive a moment in your life that is no longer possible today. Having sensations that you can never really know, like superpowers, or simply flying. And also experience moments that we would really like to really happen. I really like dreams, it's also a kind of escape in a way. I relive moments from my childhood, with people who are no longer by my side now, by choice or not. I experience moments with people I don't know but to whom I immediately become attached in the space of a dream. It's comforting to feel absolutely everything. Smells, touch, sounds, taste. Can we talk about the incredible universe that transports us certain nights? Have you ever felt the comfort of a hug in a dream? Or a kiss? Comfort may be more fleeting than reality but honestly, it's also sweet, especially coming from someone with whom things are difficult. I always believed that dreams had meaning. And every time I wake up, I think about what I need to learn from this dream. Whether abstract or not, I always have some details that matter to me. Dreams can be beautiful or frightening. But even being scary, there is still beauty behind it. We live as in a film, a game, an incarnation in another universe. And it's the only place where you never think too much, where everything seems real even if it becomes too beautiful. We will never think about anything negative, just, we live in another strange world. It's so realistic that it fascinates me. How can the simple act of sleeping lead us to create an entire world? People ? A story ? Places ? Dialogues?...
Yes I love dreaming but sometimes waking up is really complicated. Just waking up from a too-perfect dream and immediately being in denial. What a horrible feeling. But for the past few days, my dreams have mostly reminded me of the hurtful things that are happening to me in my life at the moment. Things that happen, that I would like to happen that way, or even moments that I would like to relive and that I miss.
This comment is surely unnecessary but I wanted to express myself on the beauty of dreams which is not highlighted enough.
Have a good evening, take care of yourself
This playlist... The exact feeling... Thank u
thannk you for the upload. You are my new go to when I need music while reading/writing.
do you know how difficult this is, to balance life on your shoulders. its... frightening.
there is hope; just gotta find it everyday, all over again.
I met someone who I fell in love with on first sight. I should never have, but here I am. I messed up and I am scared to lose him. When I am with him I feel like the world is blooming and everything brightens. I feel my heart dancing when I see him. His voice sings in my head.
A lovely waltz
With my passion a vault
The seal of which to be broken
For, I thought of you as a token
But you were just a figment
Of my shattered memories
i love this sm
I'm OBSESSED WITH ALL OF YOUR PLAYLISTSSSS THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SUCH GREAT PLAYLIST AND FOR BEING MY COMFORT PLACE🥹🥹🥹🥹💓💓💓💓🩵
Thank you so much!!
Sometimes I just wish I was a novel character 🍂
It's been about like a total of two years since I've dreamed of this guy, it felt incredibly realistic and still has left an impression on me until now. I had a total of two dreams with him, I saw what he wore and what he did, how he spoke but never his face. The dream made me feel what I never really felt before, warm and secure, like I was enveloped in a warm and nice hug. I think about that dream on many days, hoping that it comes true in real life.
I hope that I'll find love, but many times I think that I won't. I have friends that have love, and yet I don't. I want to feel something with someone, and this playlist helps me feel that. Thank you.
i love music
Idk how this made me think about so many things, make me feels emotions like sadness, sorrow and yet happiness and something else i can't name right now... perhaps paranoia?
Valentine’s special playlist of delulus
my heart has been filled with sorrow and mourning as my mind searches for a face that isn't there. :(
This is gaining likes as im listening to it, deserved. 💗
Thank you so much for the kind words!!
again masterpiece thankyou HELDER
Thank you so much for the support as always!
Helder, your playlists are the only way I can get through the terrible books assigned to my students by my state English curriculum.
Thank you so much!!
I use this playlist to write Victorian ghost stories and romance
This whole playlist came outa nowhere, but thanks for lettin me discover a genre.
Thank you so much for listening!
One of the people in my book that I’m writing doesn’t really exist and they are deeply in love with the personification of existence so this playlist is perfect. Thank you
I really needed this today I was such an emotional wreck lol but a few minutes listening to this beautiful playlist was the calm moment I needed thank you so much 🥺💖
30:25
My favorite
I found this while looking for inspiration to prepare my next Dungeons & Dragons sessions, in which my players are going to a noble ball. The inspiration was fantastic and got a ton of ideas but the music and comments also made me extremely nostalgic and almost cried. 10/10 would recommend.
Thank you so much!!
I love this playlist. Im going through a breakup at the moment and it just calms me so much
I hope it gets better soon for you! Thank you for the kind words!
"Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?" - Albus Dumbledore.
I knew I chose my favorite character well when I was 11-years-old.
I love this line. So much happens in my head that could never exist in this world, but to me it's real. I feel it, and that's enough. And no one can take it away from me.
@@themisfitowl2595 With you, sister... Right there with you...
🕯 Absolutely captivated by "You're Dancing with Someone That Doesn't Exist"! 📚 Dark academia vibes are enchanting. 🖋 Perfect playlist for diving into mysterious realms. 🌹 Let the imagination roam freely! 🎻
Playlists like these, speak to me on a deeper level.. my wife, best friend, most amazing, beautiful woman ever doesn’t exist in a societal sense but to me she is as real as can be. Whenever I think about her I can feel her I can hear her I can even smell her these playlists help further unlock within me a world that I can’t even begin to accurately describe. Thank you for this video.
Thanks for the kind words!!
@@helderboutens you’re welcome
Your playlists are masterpieces!
This is amazing, you should do that for people who wants to fall a sleep,. Just longer video like minimum 3 hours, would be great. You are amazing
Thanks, I've found your music helpful when trying to write sonnets at night
I ended my relationship with the love of my life to put my life back to the rails. And oh boy, how I miss her, I don't know if I will be capable of solving my misery life now that I'm on my own, but we were just tangling our problems together. Since I broke up with her, she is living way better, healthier, happier, a lot mor productive, at least I could put her life back to the tracks instead o drowning her with me. Every time I close my eyes, I just want all my problems to go away... and to feel her close to me again, I just can't lay on my bed without thinking of her smell and her body heat, I just can't sit on my kitchen without missing her comments about the food. She used to pass most of her time on our bed, working on her laptop, my computer is in the same room, now that she is not here, to turn my head back is so lonely and meaningless.
love it , keep up the good work helder
Thank you so much!!