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- čas přidán 11. 09. 2024
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How old are you? 27
How tall are you? 164cm
What nationality are you? Maori/European
What Country are you in? New Zealand
Hi Lovlies,
My name is Judea and I am a 27 yr old Mama of 3, living in New Zealand. This channel is a space for me to show the realities of my life after losing our daughter to SIDS. The highs, the lows and everything in between, you get a mixed bag of “content” here but always from a place of honesty.
Thank you so much for your support!
Judea x
I've been watching since your first video and your honesty about everything in your life is the reason I kept coming back. Most vloggers paint a pretty picture of their life. But you show us the reality that grief isn't pretty. Raising toddlers isn't pretty. Marriage isn't pretty. Sometimes it's a sh*tshow wrapped in a clusterf*ck. And we love and admire the strength you show in navigating it all as best you can.
Hehe I liked your analogy 🥰
Tbh I was here for pregnancy, motherhood, newborn stuff etc. Your private life is your own, I just loved hearing you talk on these different topics. Glad you're back
Will be plenty of motherhood, pregnancy chat 🥰
It feels so NATURAL and like a breath of fresh air to have you back ❤
Aw! 🥰
Wtf 😂
I have cried and healed myself through your videos, you’ve no idea. My heart broke for your pain, I saw myself in you and I loved seeing you enjoy motherhood again. I’m glad you’re back 🤍 only sad I won’t be able to rewatch the old videos again. I’m still waiting on my rainbow, it feels impossible at this point but you gave me hope. I really do hope you’re well and happy!
Bless you dear...thinking of you and hoping for your rainbow soon❤
Miss you videos, Judea. Good on you for protecting your peace. And congratulations on carrying another beautiful baby girl.
I love your channel! :)
Honestly I loved going back and watching your old videos about your pregnancy with Echo, organising his clothes and where you bought them, hauls of baby stuff, talking about your birth experiences etc. I found it super helpful especially when I was pregnant with my son. Totally understand if you want to keep them private though. Just glad your back and sharing your life in whatever capacity feels right for you 🩷
Will be creating some new motherhood/pregnancy videos soon during this pregnancy 🥰
I'm so excited to see you back !!! Missed you so much USA KATHIE❤😢
Your first video you ever posted I watched about an hour after you posted it. I cried with you as I held my son who was the same age as Noah Lee. I think of her and your family all the time. My son is 4 now and watching you grow and change through ebbs and flows has been awe inspiring. So proud of you no matter what.
Hello. I'm a mum of two earth side babies. During my pregnancies for some reason I gravitated towards content creators who talk about their loss. Stillbirth, SIDS. For me it was a way to prepare for the worst. Your honest raw story was helpfull and moving. I will always remember Noah Lee as she was part of my motherhood jorney. If you ever decide to publish your old videos then know that there are plenty of parents that will be able to process their fear or loss with help of you and Noah. It is important work that you did.
I wish your family all the best entering every new chapter in your jorney.
Couldn’t have said it better myself.
I second this reply post.
Yes same. 🫶🏼
I literally don’t think you’ve lost 1 subscriber! I’ve been here from the start and just truly love how authentic and real you are in your grief journey and how you navigate that throughout all stages of life. Glad to have you back ❤
Appreciate you 🥹
I agree. I've been here since the beginning @Itsjudeaaa
I literally STOPPED watching another video and jumped straight here when I got the notification ❤ I'm SO glad to see you, you are absolutely glowing!
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As new mother your first video really educated me. It was very emotional. You are very strong person and I want to take this opportunity to appreciate you. Wish you and your family the best.
Separated or not you will always have my love and support, your the best mother I know and you deserve the world. Go get em momma. Welcome back.
You’re. Not difficult 🤦♂️
@@summer6787why be a jerk when someone is trying to be kind?
You both deserve the world. Wishing you guys lots of healing and happiness.
@@summer6787 You're difficult 😂
Best mother you know? What on earth. What about the mums who are actually home with their kids 24/7. We don’t get facials every day 😂
glad you came back! Hope u and ur family are doing ok despite everything going on. Ur like the only person online whos honest abt anything and its so refreshing u don’t understand. Please block people who say things as literal fact when they know a fraction. It’s genuinely just unproductive and annoying bc theyre just hating to prove that ur grief was ‘toxic’ when they have no idea what actually occurred and its not their place anyway🥴
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Aaah Judea! I remember when you said in one of your videos that we all allowed to grieve . When you loose your child who is already on Earth or when is not born yet! This stick with me and helped me. You might not release this but you really helped one person thru really difficult time. Thank you ! I’m happy you are back !
I have lost count of how many times have checked to see if you're back and checking comments on socials to see if there was any chatter of a return.
Welcome back, we've missed you ❤
Awwww, a baby girl! Good to see you again. You are glowing, and happy! Best wishes.🥰
missed you so much!! 🤍
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Good to have you back Judea! You are a light in this YT world 💖
Welcome back, Judea! So many of us have missed your videos! Soo happy to see you’re back. ❤
You’re my favorite CZcamsr ever 🤍 you have no idea the impact you have on so many people going through so many different things. I love the way you speak about Noah Lee and how amazing of a mom you are to both (soon to be all 3) of your babies! You are so lovely. Please never leave again 🥹
Thank you so much for coming back. I feel so behind on this pregnancy. I have been here since your first few videos. I was in shock when I seen everything gone. Thank you for allowing us back in.
How eloquent, beautiful, and thoughtful. You should write a book! Wish you and your babies all the very best!❤
So happy to see you back! You were so missed! Our community felt empty without you. Hope everything goes well for you and your family.
Glad you are back! I was sad to think you were gone as I really think you have a gift as a creator.No one else is like you, and you were truly missed whilst you were on a break. I look forward to seeing you carry on with the new chapters in your life.
I just noticed this morning I hadn't seen you in awhile. I went to your channel to see if maybe you had just fallen out of my algorithm. I was shocked when I saw that all your videos were gone. I wanted to know how you were doing, and here you are. I'm so glad you're back.
I was so sad when I saw all your videos were gone and now I’m so happy you are back! wishing you all the best moving forward ❤️❤️
What makes your content and canal so special is, that you don‘t lose your focus on why you have that canal! To me that is the reason why I love to sit down and listen to you…it makes me feel like we‘re friends although I‘m living on the other side of the world❤
Happy to have you back…and also happy to be a little part of Noah-Lee‘s life by knowing her/your full story.
Hugs from Germany
Your videos on your loss were the first of yours I had seen. I can still hear your voice in my head and I think about you often, I don’t know why.
Omgomgomg- havent watched yet but I miss you! I posted on insta that i missed your videos happy to see you come back.
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So happy to see you back! Your videos were some of my favorite to watch throughout my pregnancy. 🤎
I absolutely love how you still talk about, Noah Lee.
So glad you are back sweet girl. Wishing you and your little family the very best!
Nice to have you back! Post whatever feels right for you there is a nice community that are rooting for you😊
So happy that you’re back. Miss your videos and talking about ya daughter, as a bereaved mum too it’s nice to relate to how you feel and how things affect you day to day still. I’m the same many years later with 3 earth children and 3 angels. Look forward to watching again soon xx
Oh my goodness I’m so sorry you know this heartache…and 3 times over 💔💔💔
I've missed your videos. So happy you are back. Listening to you talk real and raw somehow is soothing to me. Please keep them coming. I love how you think, share and I genuinely think it helps others.
I am really sorry for your separation and praying for restoration and healing!!
Me too. I want to be really sensitive in how I say it...but that was what I wanted to comment. I know that NO ONE is perfect and no marriage is perfect and we all hurt each other. And being a couple who has lived through the loss of a child is something that leaves deep impact wounds. I just love the way Brogan is a daddy to Echo and Noah Lee...and I really hope and pray (literally...I PRAY for them) to come back together and heal and restore their relationship. I want the whole family to be together as much as they can on this earth.
Heeeeeeeeeeyyyyyy! Missed you 😘 Welcome back. Sending love & hugs to you, Brogs, Noah-Lee, Echo, & Baby Ever! ❤️💙🤍🤎💛
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So happy to see you back. Just be you Judea. I,m wishing you nothing but the best. Love seeing Echo and your everyday life. Don't feel like you need to explain anything you feel uncomfortable with. Love from Canada 🇨🇦
So happy that you’re back! Hope everything in your life works out for the best! Super excited about the baby on the way! Congrats ❤️
So glad you are back Judea. I am with most other comments. This is your life. We do not need to know all of it. I am just happy to be apart of some of the journey. Welcome back Judea!! You obviously have a lot of love and support from all of us
Nice to see you back on YT. Not gonna lie your probably the only YT creator I tend to come back on this platform to watch longer video content ☺️
All the best on your next chapter, wherever that may take you xx
Your daughter died the same day my daughter was born. Idk but it made me feel chocked, sad, and just connected to your journey.
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I really missed your videos. I'm glad you're back. It's a good insight into Mum life, which is really relatable
I'm glad you are back. I'm so sorry that people have been so negative.
I'm so glad you are having another little girl.
I feel you handled the grief of losing Noah- Lee in a lovely way in your videos.
Personal space and mental health are a priority. I'm so glad you're protecting those and taking care of yourself and your family. Wishing you all the best and I'll continue to support you from the other side of the world! ❤🩹🇦🇷
Separation isn’t ideal for sure, but it can be a positive thing. I’m going through one now. I’m praying daily that it will eventually lead to healing and growth. I know what that looks like for my family, he needs to figure that out for himself. In the meantime, I’m focused on God, self love, self healing, and my daughter. It’s allowing me to look at things differently and with a different perspective. I pray that the both of you can also have healing and growth and reconciliation. I’m a believe that things can be worked out. I’ll pray for the two of you for those things. Welcome back!
I’m so so glad to see you back!! Can’t wait for whatever you want to share 🤍
I'm so glad you're back Judea. I missed your videos, and seeing you with Echo. You should feel proud of yourself that under all the circumstances you're moving forward with Noah-Lee, Echo and your new baby girl. 💕
The way I JUMPED ON THIS. I'm at work, but oh well
Same girl 😂 just watching everyone else work too 😅
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@@maiki-charlottelee1971 like, I can work later! It's fine
I’m so grateful you are back I missed your videos so deeply I love your honesty and vulnerability I’m so proud of you and hope the best for you
Thank you for coming back! I’m currently pregnant and am in need of your vlogs sis, keep your head up ❤
I am so glad you are back!!! ❤️ I missed your videos and you and I hope from this video forward you do what makes you happy and the rest of your supporters and followers will follow you and your journey with life!! 💖
I missed you terribly. I love your videos. Thank you for coming back. Hugs
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Lovely to have you back!!
Judea I’m so gutted for YOU that you have deleted your numerous vlogs. I have been with you for ages and ages, since well before Echo. I have seen all your vlogs and insta and probably wouldn’t go back and watch them again. (Especially your Noah Lee early vlogs as they are too distressing) but for you lovely Judea how awful you’ve lost all those memories!!! It would have been like a treasure chest for you to look back on one day.
Next time you’re having a torrid time don’t delete girl!! Think and just make private and take whatever time you need to get your head together. I am so sad for you you’ve done this.
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On the positive you are looking amazing! Fresh and healthy I am really happy you’re back xxx
I knooooow! I was being super stubborn in that moment but I’m glad I have some to look back on - rewatched my birth vlog 😩😩😩 So emotional!!
We're all here for you! Try to not let the negative people get to you....they're not worth it! Your babies are the only things that matter and you are a great mom. I'm not going anywhere and I don't think any of your subscribers are!!
I’m so glad you’re back ! Glad to have you back in the space and look forward to all future content ❤
I’ve missed you so much. I’m kindly a silent watcher, but I’ve been here since the beginning. I’m just looking forward to your videos 💁🏻♀️. So happy you’re back! ♥️🫶🏻
Glad to see you are back! Would love to see a skin care routine, outfits, recipes, etc. Everything that’s fun to film for you 😊
Lots of love to you and the kiddos! ☀️
Taking a break from social media is so important for your all round wellbeing and healing and will allow you to have time to reflect on what actually does or does not serve you or bring you peace and I hope you were able to reset and refresh and just focus on you and your beautiful little family because peace, clarity, happiness and joy is what you deserve.
One important thing I have learned throughout my life is that it is no one's business to know or mingle in your business and it is not your business to know or simply care about what others think or say about you.
If you mind your own business, you'll stay busy all the time and it's a shame that doing such an easy thing can be difficult for a lot of people.
Thank you for being a great example of strength for us mum's going through the same or similar experiences as your own, it is comforting to know that we are not alone.
What I admire about you which is the most important gift a person can give is just how you show up as your authentic self.
What you share is beautiful, ugly, raw and real and that's what people appreciate.
Life doesn't always present itself in a pretty bow although we tend to see more of that alot of the time rather than honest, raw truth.
It's great to see you back and a massive congratulations to you, brogan, beautiful big sissy Noah-Lee and big brother Echo for the soon arrival of another gorgeous lil perfection to your beautiful family 🥰 pregnancy never looked so good and you are absolutely glowing.
Wishing you all many blessings as you continue to walk through the journey ahead and may it be filled with all of the happiness your heart can hold and much more.
Sending loads of love from Auckland 🤍
I had missed that you’re back! So relieved, because for a while I was actually really worried about how you’re doing, navigating such major changes recently. I am glad that I can hear you again in vlogs. ❤
Nice to see you back Judea ❤
We missed you!!! You have such a calm & just genuine demeanor i can feel that through the screen & your accent makes everything 10× better ; glad you're back and hopefully you work things out in your private life sending you my love and positive energy xoxo
You are so strong and I will always support you. While I don't know you personally I know you are going through alot atm. You're hapū, a awesome mum and dealing with alot. Keep doing what you're doing!
Tēnā koe x
Glad you are back! Marriage is worth fighting for❤
As a 47 yo mum of 4 you have handled this whole thing with such maturity. I wish all of you love and happiness for the future.
I’m happy to see you are doing well. Congrats on the baby girl 💕you’re glowing and look beautiful :)
Judea ❤❤❤ welcome back!! You’ve been so missed and hope you’re doing well.
My heart is so happy, we truly missed you!
Am I the only one in the UK currently at work at 3.40am and had to jump on because judea is back. You have been really missed. 🥰
Glad you're back! Im so excited for whats to come and sending my love for all the hard things happening in this crazy place called life. You are an amazing lady and momma! Congratulations on baby girl! ❤
I am sorry for your loss. All of us who are mothers can only imagine the pain you and others, who have lost a child, are going thru. ❤️🙏🏼
Glad to see you back, you are looking so well x
I’m so thrilled to see you back! I’m here to support you in whatever venture you take us on….I’ve been here since that 1st video.
Welcome back Judea.....you are beautiful, glowing! It's so good to see you!
Welcome back! I've watched you since your first video. I'm not a mum and I don't plan on having children but somehow the CZcams algorithm brought your first video to me. You're so articulate and engaging which keeps me coming back. I've cried watching your videos and laughed. At times my heart has literally ached. I will always think of Noah Leah, especially every time i see a lovely rainbow design! x
You have such a beautiful way of articulating yourself.
Welcome back!!. I am excited to see your new home and loving the bedroom decore. Can't wait to see an pregnancy update i was delighted to hear the news. Your private life is your own hun Whatever you decide to post. I know i will watch. ❤
I am so thrilled you are back Judea! So excited to watch your journey forward. May your road ahead be filled with only wonderful blessings…
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Welcome back judea! We missed you. 💗 much love to you!
Hi I from the south island and welcome back! You lost your baby same time I did and watching those vids made me feel like someone understands how I feel so thank you for sharing. Congratulations on your baby girl! It's nice to have you back 😊
Glad to see you back! Thinking of you and your family often 💕 Always here for your motherhood journey
I missed you! You are such an inspiration, wonderful to see this in my feed tonight!
I love how open you are. Really appreciate honest content x
Omg!!!! I’m so thankful to have you back. I’ve watched your videos from the very start! And I honestly can’t explain how much your journey and daughter have let me know in my heart of having my daughter as an angel from birth, the peace to know I’m not alone I. All the mixed emotions and feelings and that she and her life mattered and that it’s ok to love an honor her still at 14 years later! My ex her father doesn’t know the a lot pain he makes me go through daily without her . And non of my biological family care. I have felt extremely alone for so long. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for coming back!! I had just thought about y’all and wondered how y’all were doing today as I was catching up on some other boogers I love and follow :) may y’all have a fun and safe and blessed day love y’all!
Every-time I see that arched shaped rainbow, Noah Lee always comes to mind ✨
You’re so articulate and I enjoy your vlogs.. Congratulations to you and your family with the pregnancy of a baby girl .. Just gorgeous!
Love from Australia ❤
I missed you so much 😊 I knew you would come when you were ready, but most importantly I knew that baby girl comes first right now and stress isn’t good or productive. I lost my daughter too, we messaged about it on Instagram once and you were so kind, those old videos helped me so much because finally there was someone out there who truly understood and was brutally honest. I would love to see some of your old videos again, but it’s fine if not, I’ll always be here no matter what 💞 💞 💞
I’m glad you’re back Judea!! I’m wishing you and your family well, and I can’t wait to see what happens next!!❤❤❤
No, you were missed. You feel like the friend I never met. I love your honesty, your realness. Because of your precious angel, I added touches of boho rainbows to my baby girl's nursery ❤
Hiya Judea. 😊
Glad to see you back and looking forward to more coming our way and I hope you all are doing hood. X💖
I noticed you made them private. I wondered about it, but figured it was just too much right now. Interested in your pregnancy updates if you choose to share.
Will definitely start to share more preggy updates ❤️
Forever wishing your entire family well! Im glad to see you back and will be looking forward to the content you feel comfortable sharing from this point forward! I do love your daily Mom and Baby vlogs so much! ❤️
Welcome back! I’m glad you’re doing better 🫶
VERY happy to see you and hear you. You're a true gem, authentic, vulnerable and as real as can be..
Much love from Toronto, Canada 🇨🇦
You are so strong and I have watched your videos from the beginning. We are so proud of you and truly love and support you.
You have been so missed! So glad you are back on CZcams. Your videos were always the ones I watched first. I have lost 3 babies through miscarriage and i know that's definitely not the same as what you have gone through, but seeing how you navigate through grief has helped me. I wish you all the best with this fresh start, and I hope you continue to make videos and that you enjoy doing so because we all enjoy watching. ❤❤❤❤❤
I am so glad you are back Judea!
Glad to see you back! I’m not a mom yet but I just enjoy watching all of your videos🥹🫶🏻
Literally checked your YT PAGE YESTERDAY to see if I missed an upload & got caught up on your Instagram because I deleted mines a few months back. Glad to see you’re in a better space to want to be open & share again 💪🏾
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So excited to see you pop back up on my feed. I was truly sad when I saw you had deleted your videos because I knew it had to be emotionally driven and was just praying for the best for you mentally. I’m due with my third baby girl in 6 days, so I’m looking forward to your pregnancy videos and I’m just so happy you’re having another girl! I wish you well, with all my heart!
Yayy so happy your back!! Thank you for sharing your life with us! I have missed your videos!! Always well wishes for your family!! Sending love from NY!!❤
You look beautiful and so so happy to have you back! So much love to your family 🩵