'23🌀 |nadinenzrn

2023 was a really remarkable year for me. Looking back, I have many fun memories, but I wouldn't deny those low moments. I graduated high school by ending the year with the most out of it. My friends and I watched some school home games (tennis, volleyball), went to prom, and attended senior activities (except for grad nite--way too expensive for me). Our last-minute decision to go to Senior Sunset was worth it! The Senior Activity and Senior Photos Day at school were fun too. The yearbook was handed out the very same day, so I was able to start getting it signed by unforgettable people of my high school year. I won't forget when we were in line for the food truck, and the group behind my friends was their group--they were playing Pinoy Henyo cute; Yes behind/beside me (kung alam nyo lang nararamdaman ko char). By the way, I also thought of sitting near them for senior photos--almost. Alecksa took a video of us saying "Class of 2023"; she sent it to Ella, and then Ella sent it to me. I looked through the video, (**zoomed it in to see people's lmao) and saw the side turn (assuming amp). Okay moving on... So backtracking to my yearbook when I said unforgettable people--I mean including that person. YES, success guys. But during that moment I felt mixed emotions, sad (basta). On my graduation day, I gave out letters to my girls. Except for one letter that I wasn't able to hand out; I kept it without her knowing about it-- it's in my box. I felt sad knowing the fact it went that way...
Summer was very very special to me. My friend and I hung ou, and celebrated birthdays together (except for mine walang handa mga bih hehez). I also got my driver's license before I turned 18-- and after so much inconvenience. On my birthday weekend, I saw Blackpink! It was so much fun; I was able to sing along and vibe along without getting too shy about it. I thought I would control myself but no I can't. It was full of bliss. Thanks to my cousins who failed surprised me, yet I appreciate the effort. They bought two tickets as their graduation gift for me, but my friend and I already bought the ticket too. We sorted it out, but it was really funny knowing the backstory. (**I'm such a weirdo here smiling and reminiscing that moment :] )
College was really college-ing and still is. I really felt the transition. I don't know if it's just me but I would always take hours to do school works. I wasn't like before who could do things with sport too. I thought I would get a part-time job as soon as I turned 18, but nope I got rejected, and honestly, the thought of couldn't handling it scares me. Thankfully I passed my first semester; grades are really holding out-- as long as I pass.
Despite the schedule conflict, I'm also grateful that my friend and I were still able to hang out here and there. I know that was some kind of transition for us too. For sure in the future, it will be way busier for everyone. It's just accepting the reality. I also realized this year about the signs of outgrowing... I didn't realize what it meant last year when it was pointed out to me. But one day, I realized that the person was right. The feeling the person felt was also the feeling I felt all those times. But I guess I was just too busy avoiding the fact because I couldn't accept the idea of us drifting apart. It did happen, and then I realized everything. All those times those feelings mean that. Though I won't forget the memories we had because the person is very special to me too. We might not be like before, but I'll support you silently.
Thank you 2023, you're nice to me. I learned a lot again. I'm just the one who's too slow this year (haha). I'll say this whole year have thought that I felt like I'm not me. As if something were missing and different. I know for sure some things I wasn't able to do the entire year and I regretted it. I'll make it up and I'll do better. Be polite to me 2024~
haraya,
boots
21:20
🎵: Voyage by Kim Sejeong