DID Q&A from MedCircle interview -- Fighting a switch caught on camera | Encina Severa
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- čas přidán 18. 03. 2019
- Hello everyone, Todays video was all about answering your questions that you had for me since the majority of you know me by my MedCircle interview. I figured I would take some time to respond to as many questions as I could. I fought switching on camera so you will get to see what that looks like as well.
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I understand that the music is too loud in this video. I stopped putting music in my videos for this reason.
Encina Severa hey I love your vids I just have one question to say if a person has DID and gets pregnant in your opinion how would someone/your system react I love you bye
Now I feel like a dingus for mentioning it haha my bad
The music is fine with me!
It’s so funny because I didn’t even notice it until you pointed it out.
You seem amazing btw. You are so nice, friendly, & understanding. I admire you very much :)
Your “daughter” Minnie is so adorable and reminds me so much of my wife’s alter little Lila who I consider to be my daughter. You are so brave compassionate and inspirational to people with d.i.d. Don’t ever stop doing what you do Encina
I definitely second that as someone who has DiD myself.
Her compassion and her ability to be an inspiration to us all who also have DiD comes from her very personal experiences with DiD and how difficult it can be to manage.
Wow, this comment itself has melted my heart 💜
I actually got a bit tearful when I watched the interview and I saw you come back after Minnie called you, because I could see how anxious you were about it and how much you care about her and want to protect her. You are so brave for doing that interview and making yourself open to the public. You are a real inspiration.
Still so happy you’ve started making videos again 💜
Look how honest and genuine this girl is. For anyone to say that she's acting or lying is just beyond me. I mean if you've never heard of DID and see the switches for the first time, sure maybe you'll think "this must be fake". But after you learn more and watch more of Encina and see her talk so amazingly clearly and soberly about everything, not just switching but everything pertaining to her past, current life and struggles, and disorder....it angers me to think people say it's an act. Open your minds a bit.
I could see the anguish in your eyes when you fought the switch. You have amazing control. As someone who has severe PTSD, Chronic Anxiety, Major Depressive Disorder and OCD, I have made some good strides. I would be honored if we could speak. You inspire me to be a better person.
Oooohhh Girl‼️ I Don't Think Devin Wanted You to Spill Her Tea‼️ She Was Like.... "If You Don't Shut Up, I'll Make You" *SWITCH* lol 😆🤣🤣🤣🤷🏽♀️
It's okay we don't need the details Devin, your business is safe with us‼️💔😊
Hahahaha
Was just diagnosed with DID about a month ago. Thank you for all your informative videos. I have learned a lot from them and they have brought me so much comfort during this tough time.
Encina, your first interview on MedCircle set me off on a journey of seeking for clarity about what it means to be a human being and what it means to have a certain personality. I have read tons of material and watched so many videos, and still on my journey, but your interview will always be the root of everything. I do not have DID myself, but I do believe that this condition and understanding it will (and already have in certain ways) answer a lot of my questions that I have always had about the notion of personality and the experience of who we are. I will always be thankful to you for that. I know this is a weird kind of interest when I myself do not have DID, but I cannot hide how revelating it is to study this condition. I feel that the ideas I always had about human beings deeply misunderstanding what 'personality' means are so clearly shown by the existence of this condition. I am so sorry that you struggle with mental and physical health issues. I am here to watch your channel and support you with my thoughts. And who knows, maybe my secret project will come to life one day and I can also spread the word that DID is really there and is not scary at all, on the contrary, it is the most revelating thing to learn about it. Thank you!!
Rita L One thing to understand about personality is it isn't dependant on the physical body to define it. It is a different aspect of self that can be defined as any masculine, feminine, effiminate, cultural, educational or class whether the body pertains to those notions or not.
Like Dumbledore said, it's not what we are that defines us, it is our choices.
The personality will always use the tools available to it for self expression, but having a tool isn't the same as having a rule to use it, let alone a rule not to use it extra resourcefully than expected. A MacGyvering if you like.
DID and many other psychological manifestations are a MacGyvering a person does when in a difficult situation and has to make do with what's available even if they don't have the prescribed or ideal means of coping.
A close shave may well cut the corners off a square and create a roung peg in a square hole just to look like it fits. The bits need somewhere to exist aswell. The bits are never gone, so what goes through at a certain time is what is manifesting.
The difference between body and personality may also link to why some feel transgendered. They don't necessarily have multiple personalities, but it may well not fit the design they inhabit. I don't know the cause for this, but there's evidence many transgendered people also have a traumatic past. It's hard to say which came first, the personality or the trauma. But in childhood people are closer to gender neutrality than they grow up to be. And gender culture is such a big thing it's hard to say what really is derrived from the gender or what was taught was "supposed to" be. If we knew that, we'd know if the personality was rejecting gender *culture*, or their body.
However, accepting a personality is really as important as accepting the physical form you see when interacting with people, and this means people are more diverse than their body is on its own. There are no repeats, no true clones. Each person is unique, even if some come pretty similar. So in the end, regardless how much we understand about people we must always be cautious of pidgeon-holing them.
I have DID. I have never talked to anyone else about what switching feels like. All I knew was what I felt. Hearing you describe what it feels like to you was very validating for me. I recognized those feelings and sensations and felt understood. Thank you!
You inspire me so much. You’re so strong Encina!
You fought that switch like a champ. I look up to you every day of my life and I aspire to be at lease HALF the person you are.
Encina thank you for your videos to help bring the awareness of DID to the viewers. My 26 yr old grandson who lives with me has DID. To those around us they cannot comprehend what he is going through and not really buying the idea DID exsists. DID can be a lonely disorder without family or friends support. Thank you for all that you do!
I appreciate your honesty so much! I completely understand why many people with DID don't want to talk about what trauma/ abuse, but appreciate learning this piece of you
You’re such an inspiration Encina, you give a voice to all the people who have mental health issues- you are the greatest
Just a suggestion: lower the volume a bit on the background music? It's kind of detracting from whatever you're talking about.
I just wanted to say youre amazing and thank you for posting publicy and being so open about your DID. Most people would be ashamed, but you embrace it. Thank you. Keep doing you no matter what kind of negativity you get!
Haha, “however the quill makes you feel”. Love that
It’s so amazing that you can talk about it without triggering your self, I have been studying trauma-caused disorders for about 6-7 months now. I feel like I know a lot more about then than I used to.
Wow your makeup is incredible
You are a such strong, warm and calming person Encina! I’m here to present my best wishes to you 💕
I'm so happy to hear you are free and your "dad" is gone leaving you to heal and never have to deal with him again. He got what he deserved, to me he got it easy compared to the abuse/effect he had on you! you are brave, beautiful, intelligent and entertaining not because of did but overall a joy to watch ❤️
I appreciate your common sense attitude and your down to earth demeanor.
You are generous to share so much of your life experience. It's difficult to find genuine reliable honest information about this.
You are brave.
Thank you.
There is so much misinformation and misunderstanding, and misleading stuff out there.
Encina, I am so appreciative of your openness with the public! You are truly an amazing woman! You are helping So many people who have DID, as well as promoting deeper understanding of what it's like to live with this disorder. I believe you are breaking down barriers and bringing new understanding of DID. You are so very brave and you have my admiration! Thank you, Encina!
I agree, Bonnie. www.incmedia.org
Your so brave, I'm so sorry what happened to you I cannot imagine how that must've been. Your such a lovely person and I love your kitties!!! x
You & your alters are not alone , you guys have us as family friends with all the support & love for you to live a happy life ❤
First let me just say I love how colorful you are, it brings me joy and it's so expressive. Second I just want to say thank you for talking about this so candidly. I always wondered how DID "worked", so to speak, behind the scenes, and you really help those of us without it to get a tiny glimpse and a better understanding of it. I know it's not easy but it is very much appreciated. Hope you are doing well these days, and taking good care of yourself.
You are so brave and such an inspiration. I don't have DID, but have struggled a lot ALL my life. I am getting closer and closer to being able to share more of my story(s) with the world. Thank you SOOO much for sharing yourself with the world. Please keep sharing! :)
You really are a quality person. You are a doll! Thank you for sharing and helping everyone.
I just recently watched you’re interview videos and they’ve more than certainly helped me get an understanding on what I’ve been going thru for the past 2yrs. I recently became my mothers care provider, she has MS along with a number of auto immune disorders and DID to top it off. We are only 25yrs apart and she’s having the worst exacerbation in the hospital ever, to the point we’re concerned she may lose ability to function from the neck down. Our fingers are crossed that she pulls thru. But I personally want to thank you for sharing your stories with us. It hits home so hard for us. Especially myself. Stay beautiful and continue being strong.
🤟🏻🤟🏻🤟🏻 From Salem, OR😎😎
It was very emotionally profound for me to have found you on MedCircle and now here, because I also have DID, and I also love the fact your hair is also full of the bright colors (because same, tbh) and I wish I was more about the amazing makeup as well. And THANK YOU for pointing out that not all DID is the same, that your experience is not the only way the rest of us experience DID. You're a pretty damn good spokesperson for DID. Thank you, from all of us who live in this body, to all of you.
I think it's important for DID systems to eventually grow brave and stable enough to face their abusers, like that Australian woman, Jeni Haynes, who testified in court and sent her abuser dad to jail.
I really wish that becomes more possible for more systems, a lot of which never work up the courage to do so. I'm also very happy that Encina's abuser had a tragic end and that stopped her in his tracks to continue that abuse.
Thank you for your compassion and courage. I have DID and can relate to fighting a switch. And I want you to know that your car analogy really helps me explain my experiences - it’s perfect. I look forward to the day when my insiders can all work together.
Seeing you resist a switch like that was very fascinating, and I just want to say that you’re one of the strongest people I know, because of you I started leaning a little more about DID
I absolutely love your videos. I came across your interview on Medcircle I believe and i became so curious to learn more about DID, and so far your channel has been my favorite because you are so genuinely honest and real. I love that you share your life with your viewers, it's amazing to learn more about your journey. More videos please! 💞🎉 definitely subscribing 💜
I love you! You are so amazing! Thanks for sharing your insight and life with us! I love hearing what you have to say ❤️
I'm so glad to see more of you and your parts Encina!
Thank you 💖
I wonder if Devyn doesn't want to share her business in the YT streets. Maybe she was coming to stop the story or tell it in her own way. Protecting Encina from creeps.
Y'all are so brave and inspiring. Thank you so much for normalizing and destigmatizing d.i.d
You are so interesting and I love that you are so open about DID and share your life with everyone
Brave (and even not so brave) beauties.... thank you ALL. Every one of you who help to house and care for the lovely Encina/Minnie/others. It is through your interviews I have found more channels of folks/systems with DID and OSDD. I admire your bravery and commitment to helping the entire community (especially not giving up on the progress and happiness you seek!) Thank you so much dears! 🙏🏼💛🙌🏼
Encina your eye look is ABSOLUTELY STUNNING!!
You’re so awesome Encina!! I heard your story from those Med Circle interviews and you are so brave and amazing! Also your hair, and make up are so pretty! 💜💜💜
Haha, I'm not sure why but watching multiples start to dissociate or switch always causes a trigger for my dissociation or a switch XD I look forward to hopefully meeting your other parts Encina, and also I absolutely adore your makeup!
Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and answering all those questions xxxx
So happy you can talk about everything bravely on camera, it helps a lot people who don't interact with DID.
just a note: in order for us to listen better, you could turn the music down just a bit, so the focus of the audio would be more on your voice
You are such a strong woman. I thought your interview was incredibly honest and very brave. You are an inspiration to those of us who struggle with mental illness. I do not have the same illness as you but I do have Bi Polar Disorder and Ptsd. Being Bi Polar is a challenge but I have to admit that it is also a gift. The Depressive Episodes are really hard but I have found that having outlets is very helpful. Again you are amazing!
Lee, I hope you the best on your life journey. www.incmedia.org
That switch moment when your eyes were kind of groggy showed off your eye makeup so perfectly
The thing about asking if someone wants advice is gold. I wish everybody would so that. I have suffered with depression most of my life and the worst thing is someone offering advice as it makes me feel even more worthless that i cant do what they are telling me.
You are amazing and to show this on camera your system is so brave. I'm reaching out as I'm writing a thesis about this as I believe it has been portrayed wrongly and rightly in popular culture and would love your insight only shared privately firstly and socially explicitly with your permission xxx
Thank you for the interesting video ^-^
In my opinion, the background music is too loud and a bit distracting
Apart from the fact that the pink is my fav colour, I hope you see this! I cannot fathom what energy you need to get through each day and stay 'sane'! Strength!!
I absolutely admired you in that interview. You’re so protective of Minnie. I can tell how much you love her and just want her to be safe which I’m sure she must have done for you for so many years. I honestly hope it inspires more psychiatrists to believe that DID isn’t some hoax. But I’m curious if Devon was the one trying to front in this video. It seemed like it might have been an emotional topic for her that she wasn’t ready to talk about?
Thank you so much for being so open and helpful. You are so beautiful inside and out. ❤
Awww shucks
Thank you so much for the insight on how to help people with mental illness. I'm extremely anxious myself and my dear friend and flatmate is depressed and anxious and at times I have no idea how to help properly. But your words did make a lot of sense.
Stay amazing and thank you so much for sharing your experience
Encina, thank you and Minnie so much for your honesty and courage. You both are delightful people. I am totally focused on your videos. Your hair is beautiful, you may be starting, or expanding, a trend.
I would like to ask a potentially disturbing question. You and Minnie are obviously your own unique personalities, and the way you talk about your alters leads me to regard them as autonomous people, ready to make their own decisions, supporting their own opinions. The question is: Do you think that all your alters have their own soul? They do seem to have free will.
I love your positive attitude while dealing w this disorder!!
I agree! :) www.incmedia.org
I've came from the MedCircle video about you talking about your DID and it sure is interesting, I must say and I do love learning more about mental illnesses. I like learning and can honestly put myself through the shoes of people that go through it with DID.
Cause at first I didn't really get the grasp of it since it's so complex, but as I read more online about it and saw your interview as well as here, I learn more and more and appreciate all your efforts put into your videos. Keep going and ignore the hate, only open-minded individuals will understand and care enough. I love you.
I have a friend online with DID, he calls it MPD but is the same. Is there any difference between manifestation of it in females and males?
Because it seems like the males seem more aggressive and violent hence they got that "Abuser" alter inherited from their environment. So they act more like, excuse me, "dicks" to others to try and get accepted indirectly. And also obviously act more dominant since they might resent on their abuse and generalize it towards more people that they think might judge or go against them, in which is understandable. They don't want to split, so they develop more alters to deal with the situation at hand. Yeah, and that's basically how my friend is, he got that unreconciled emotional part alter that every friend leaves and he gets depressed and suicidal.
I myself start to act more off recently, I'm having lots of acute paranoia and depersonalization-derealization episodes, I've had fugues and amnesias as well. I feel like I'm not myself, most of the situations and regular day activities make feel like I'm going through a dream, like I don't exist here. Like my mind really is somewhere off this, "dimension", put it that way. I do have a bad intuition that I might develop it soon. And I do think I had parts in my life where I already split, since I do have flashbacks and intense hopelessness and I do feel different parts of me that reoccur or "hiddenly" switch.
Some background:
I had a physically and emotionally abusive father, and I was I think in 3rd-6th grade, which is reasonable age for the psychological effects it had on me developing throughout the years. It was hell, and I vividly remember me splitting into a more mature and knowledgeable kind of person out of thin air. All my not forthcoming "alters" has each some kind of mental illness I think. And I do know it's not easy, it wasn't easy for me and I get that it isn't for other people that went through it either.
Thank you for reading, regards kind and enthralling Aquarian. ❤️
I'm a pure Gemini with another Gem Moon, Aqua influenced.
Your makeup looks incredible! I look up to you a lot, much love❤️
You're the best!
I noticed that the switch began to happen when you began to speak about the intimate part of Devin's relationship. Is that a trigger, meaning uncomfortable situations or conversations, that causes someone else to front and handle it?
Know what is really frustrating? I waited for a very long time to see a specialist for health reasons (physical not mental) I had to answer questions on a medical form...i had no idea what the answers were! I couldn't recall because I wasn't Tina?? Seriously!! Who forgets the last time they were put under?? I don't even try to explain this to people....really proud of you for doing what you do
Really glad I've stumbled across your channel! As a fellow person who struggles from forms of dissociation this is great for the community! ❤️
I'm so glad! *hugs*
Encina Severa you're amazing ❤🙌
Omg I'm sure that was uncomfortable to experience while on camera but I really appreciated that you explained what was happening because that actually happens to me fairly often (newly diagnosed with DID) and I didn't really understand what it was until you described it just then. I usually called it "hamster falling out of the wheel" because thoughts just stop and I get a little disoriented like I don't know what just happened and other people just look at me like O_O
Thank you so much for sharing this ❤️♥️♥️
Was that devon trying to come out and talk about the boy they dated?
Janika sometimes I can tell who is trying to come forward but this time I wasn’t sure. I asked her and she said that it wasn’t her
It sounded a little like Minnie :)
You are such a gift. Absolutely gorgeous inside and out. You are a hero and are so courageous. I'm so sorry about your heart break. I know how much you loved him. Thank you for destigmatizing DID and for educating everyone about it. You are incredible.
Thank you so much!
Thank you for this video. I suffer from did and i always see others switch violently or they pass out. Mine is pretty much this. And im so happy im not the only one..... thank you
Will you consider doing these vlogs without the music playing while you talk?
Inez Graham I realized the music was too loud after I posted the video. I don’t use music in my videos that talk a lot anymore.
Hey girl, I don't have DID but I do have epilepsy so I can relate to losing hours or even days and not knowing how I got from point A to B. It's uncomfortable to say the least to have to deduce how and why you're where you end up. I empathize with this aspect of your condition as it's one I can relate to personally. Hope you're doing ok. Thanks for the videos and being so open about your experiences. You're so brave and strong and your hair & makeup always looks amazing even through all the heavy stuff you share 💜
Also you seem to be a beautiful and genuine human being. And Minnie is the cutest thing ever! I look forward to potentially meeting more alters, only if and when they're comfortable
WHATS HAPPENING during that switch? If someone isnt aware of their alters, do they think they are falling asleep? are you fighting with the alter inside your head? when people go from not knowing they have alters to now knowing they have alters and aware of what is going on. also. is there any alter that identifies with the outward body and birth name? or is the one with the original personality before trauma too traumatized to come forward and the new host is different and protecting that person? what if its a little who was never able to develop
Strongly identified with that switch. Haven’t recorded myself yet, but it pretty much looked like how I feel when one of my parts tries to front.
12:09 is the switch
Now that I know that she used to make sushi
I love her 100x more
Hiya!!! i have watched this video a few times but the comments were never on so I am very excited but worried because i have DID and two of my littles want despereately to play with Minnie and in fact are co con and fighting to talk to Minnie. We have not met anyone else with DID but watch youtube daily. Are you doing better, Encina? You were in a bit of a rough patch and we sent strengthening vibes to you. I won't write a book the first time I comment on one of your videos. I am not a good people person but i know that that is tacky. Hang in there.
When you say fighting a switch....does that mean that you and whoever is trying to come out are talking or fighting with each other? Or you just feel tired and dizzy?
TheOpenGrave great question. It means that I’m fighting to stay present and continue to be the person speaking . We aren’t fighting with one another.
@@EncinaSevera thank you for answering!
I just love all your videos, you are so intelligent and open and loving.. I appreciate you
I don’t want to sound offensive in any way, only honest. When you were starting to switch at 12:09 it made me feel faint and sick to my stomach. Not in a bad or disgusted way but more of an empathetic way. I hope this comment doesn’t make you sad. I only am curious if you’ve heard this before. When I watched you in the interview with Kyle I felt the same way the entire time Minnie was being interviewed. I think you are a beautiful, strong woman and I think you are very brave to be so open. You are helping a lot of people I’m sure.
Thank you for reading and wish you the absolute best.
Not offensive at all. I appreciate hearing what you were experiencing. It can be hard to watch for some people so that’s completely understandable.
I’m so glad you didn’t take offense. I really enjoy watching you and learning about your experiences and life. I support you 100% as well as all of your alters. Peace ✌️ and love ❤️
I’m love your content and your makeup ♥️♥️♥️
I think you are brave and genuine. I hope that in your heart, you know you are helping so many people with D.I. D., people with chronic mental health issues, and over all people to just be more open minded to others with mental disorders. Mental Health Disorder Stigmas needs to change.
I love your eye makeup
So happy to find your channel. Love your vids. New fan.
Most of us can’t switch, we have to deal with what we went through as we are. Some say they have learned how to cope with it, but there is those times when it hits you like the weight of the world. Maybe Encina you are the lucky one as far as how you cope with what happened in your past. Not saying it’s any easier cause I will never experience how you deal with your past. Anyway I love your truthfulness and your bravery in bringing out in the open your DID.
Yes, Antonio everyone handles trauma differently. I understand how you can use the work "lucky" in the way that a person with DID handles trauma, but being able to escape with the help of an alter doesn't make it easier because one still has to deal with it and it's after effects. So in the long run there truly is no escape. I hope you the best on your life journey, Antonio of healing and peace. www.incmedia.org
I feel the way he " went " was kind of karma ... What you put out / do comes back around
Hi Encina, you have such a beautiful personality and are a great teacher! The brain’s survival mechanisms is my favorite subject. I could chat for hours with you 🥰.
Q: i’ve always wondered how a conversation goes “inside” with your alters. For example, Minnie said sometimes she colors “inside”. Do you all have “inner” worlds like that where you can meet to talk or do your conversations resemble the way we think in our heads? Hope this makes sense! 😅😅
Sending you courage, energy and love 💕 xxx
Encina, I hope you are well. Stay magical
I suffer from bipolar II and ptsd from sexual abuse as well. I can completely understand how you would disassociate from the situation and have alters. Abuse victims do this to some varying degree to cope with the abuse. You literally go somewhere else to escape the moment. While yours is a more extreme case of this, I can understand to a point how this can happen. Dealing with any mental illness is hard and I commend you for putting yourself out there.
I agree, Butterfly Away. It is a brave thing to do. www.incmedia.org
The way you explained coming back, after you’ve been disassociate, it reminded me of how it feels when I have a blackout seizure. When I come out of one, if someone took me away from where I was, it takes me some time to recognize where I am. That can be confusing because things don’t look familiar.
Hi Encina! Thank you for making such amazing videos and sharing your experience and life with D.I.D. And I just wanted to ask if your system has an inner world? I know from other systems here on CZcams that you can have one, and I was wondering if you're experience, or rather reality, I guess, is somewhat similar.
PS: If I may make a suggestion for a future video, I think it would be easier to hear you if the background music was at a lower volume.
Love you, stay strong!! ❤️
Are you going to put more videos of switching. You are my favorite youtuber with DID, and would like to meet more of your system!
Sending you so much love.
love you encina !
Love you back!
Best of luck sister. Hope you have a wonderful life :)
Makeup on point 💓💞
Hello, just wanted to say thank you for posting your life and sharing your experiences. I find DID most fascinating experience ive ever had. I also suffer same diagnosis that youve mentioned minus DID and makes me happy to see im not alone. Thank you and best of luck and say hi to mini for me :) . Perhaps you can draw how her silver hair looks like since you love art :)
I really enjoyed this because I love learning more about you and did because it helps me learn and appreciate this and it broke my heart when you said your dad did that to you it hurt me so much I love you so much and you dad got karma if you believe in karma it is what he deserves your free from your dad my heart will always go out to you I am proud of your bravery and strength seriously your the best Encina I love you.❤️ 🤗💕
I lovr ur face I swear ; - ; 💗💙
I don't know if it's just me but I want to meet someone with DID. I want to understand them more and see how they cope something like this. I hope you are doing great :>
You can find loads of mental health groups online and plenty of DID communities on social media! Try looking them up and maybe you’ll find someone who you’d like to talk to!
Hey, I have DID as well, and I was wondering if you had any advice on how to manage DID in your workplace? Thank you, you're honestly such an inspiration for us.
I like your hair straight but the big curls are amazing!
Donna Sauer thank you!!! 💗
Please cut out the music love, it's hard to hear you and I want to hear every word you say because you have a lot to say and it always means a lesson learned. It took me three years to get away from my abuser. He gets out of prison in August after a nine year sentence for what he did to me. I am in protective custody now. Any suggestions please love ya'll