WFH: attempting productivity with bipolar disorder and ocd
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- čas přidán 3. 11. 2022
- disclaimer: I’m not a doctor, therapist, or psychiatrist. I cannot give medical advice, I can only share my personal experiences. Please consult a professional when it comes to mental health
This vlog is for the days when you just have to push through. Sharing about my mental health is scary - I always worry that I sound complain-y or silly, or that no one will be able to relate and I'm going through these thoughts and feelings alone. BUT I'm telling myself that just isn't true.
When I was first diagnosed with bipolar disorder, I couldn't find anyone my age online who was talking about it. I don't have all the answers, but at the very least, I hope sharing my journey helps someone else feel less alone.
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diagnosis story: www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRxJCT9k/
productivity articles:
hbr.org/2021/09/i-have-bipola...
www.self.com/story/bipolar-di...
www.healthyplace.com/blogs/wo...
www.sciencedirect.com/science...
link between bipolar and ocd: www.healthline.com/health/bip...
My name is Mary, I'm 24, and I live in Northern Virginia (just outside of DC!) with my fiance. I'm a freelance editor/writer and content creator. I'm currently working on a graduate certificate at UW, and my dream is to work in publishing. I spend too much time on walks and too much money at bookstores. I have bipolar disorder and OCD, and those two conditions shape every single moment of my life. It's my goal to create a life for myself that honors my mental health, while not allowing it to hold me back. I'm happy you're here x
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“MANIA IS NOT PRODUCTIVITY, DEPRESSION IS NOT LAZINESS” goodness CZcams knew I needed to see this video 😭 thank you for reminding me of those words, it’s easy to forget when dealing with bipolar. take care, you’re doing awesome!
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Tattoo those words on my forehead!!!!!
Have you ever considered that the so called "medicine" the Doctor is giving you could be making your worse? I know many people w mental illness personally who have gotten worse over time. Eventually there is no goin back. Changing your diet, excersise, & meditation are all options that actually work but not if you believe doctors that don't even study your diet or the most important system in your body. (The endocannabanoid system) See if your doctor knows anything about the system above all other systems. If they don't then they are a pill pusher that I would not call a doctor.
I had a copyright issue, so I had to private the vid & fix it. luckily, I was able to fix it in CZcams Studio without having to delete & reupload, and we should be good now!!!! so sorry about that!! 🤍
I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder type 2 a few months ago & genuinely your honest conversation about it & how you handle it has changed my life. Grateful you’re here.
i have really been struggling with my own mental health lately, and this is so encouraging. thank you 🤍
I have bipolar type 2 as well, this video was great for me too. I’ve never watched your videos before but you have a new subscriber in me =)
Mary so random but I love how you are so well spoken and articulate, I think that’s a big reason why your followers are mesmerized by you. It’s such a breath of fresh air. I love how intelligent you are, I wanna manifest for myself to be able to speak so eloquently. that’s all ❤️ l u
Your transparency on mental health is so refreshing and makes me feel so much better about my own levels of productivity. Your videos make me feel like i'm not crazy. Thank you for being you, and please take care of yourself
I was diagnosed with Bipolar II and OCD, as well as agoraphobia, a week ago today; because of you, I don't feel so alone.
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I have bipolar 2 also, you are not alone ❤️
I’m in my 40’s and was diagnosed a year with bipolar 2 disorder and adhd. The struggle is real but I find comfort is knowing I’m not alone. You’re openness and honesty about BP is refreshing.
As someone who is also struggling with bipolar disorder and OCD while trying to be a “good adult” this video made me feel so seen and WAY less alone. Thank you for being so transparent ❤
Scientific research has proven that psychedelic mushrooms are effective in the treatment of depression,ocd,ptsd,adhd,anxiety and a whole lot of other mental health disorders through a process known as micro dosing.
If you are open to trying it out then send a message to the name on my handle
Bipolar 2? What is that like for you ?
Thank you so much for this. I truly needed it. My grad research has been the death of me while dealing with mental health. Yesterday someone asked if I was just being lazy 😢 I feel so seen and validated by your words. ❤I could cry rn because not many people understand. It’s such a relief to see something like this in the middle of my struggle.
I’m not lying when I say I really needed this video. This popped up on my phone right as I was calming down from what was one of many panic attacks I’ve been having recently. I often use CZcams videos as something to focus on when I’m trying to come back down, focus on my breathing etc. And wow, I really felt everything that you were saying and it has made me feel more hopeful for what is to come. Thank you Mary, I really mean that.
Diagnosed with Bipolar 2 in 2021 and OCD 5 months ago. However have been on and off diagnosed with anxiety and depression since I was 13 years old (8th grade) and have been battling forever. Thanks for this video. It feels great to not feel alone. ❤️
Thank you for being open and honest with your mental health. I decided to get help because of you. I decided to go back to school because of you (I want to be an editor), and because of you I don’t feel so alone. I hope you know how important you are.
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I love this video! Personally I struggle with anxiety and depression and I love the honesty and how this shows that we are allowed to have bad days. We can acknowledge it, allow ourselves to have a day to regroup and then take action to get back to our version of "normal". Also, I've personally never experienced anyone in my life that has bipolar disorder and ocd (that I know of) so I love watching videos that educate people on what it feels like and what a person is going through so that others can understand. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences!!
Thank you for being so open, Mary! Love your vids.
I am so grateful for your bravery. I also feel super seen. Thank you Mary, you’re amazing!
Thank you for this video. You’re touching so many of our lives, sis!❤
this is a big deal to me, thank you! one of the therapies in treating bipolar disorder is having a routine but i struggle so much to maintain one… thanks again for sharing and reminding me im not alone in this!
Loved this video. Feels more like your second TikTok channel. Very raw and real. Can't forget that us neurodivergents can't try and live like neurotypicals. Some days we're just trying to survive. You did great!
ive always loved watching your tik toks but I feel like these videos just show your true personality and I love them so much. Thanks for being vulnerable and sharing the hard with us
Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing parts of your life with us! It’s so comforting to know I’m not alone and that other people struggle and get through it any way they can. Sending you good vibes and wishing you a cozy fall season ❤️
I needed this today. Thank you for the transparency
I’ve been subscribed to you for a while but I stumbled upon this video just now and to say I needed to hear this would be an understatement. Yesterday was one of the worst days for my anxiety; i was having so many intrusive thoughts that it was crippling me and that was the first time it has happened in quite a while and so it was really freaking me out. I’m so glad i stumbled upon this video and i think it was meant to be (cliche) but wow i needed to hear this to know that I’m not alone. Thank you for being so transparent about your mental healthy. I’m sure it helps you in many ways but I hope you understand how much it helps your viewers too. Thank you 💕💕💕
Please keep posting these…my brother has bipolar disorder and they feel like talking to family. Thank you for being yourself ❤️
I’ve recently stumbled across your channel and I can’t explain how happy I am to start following your journey. You’ve made me feel a little less alone in my mental health journey, so THANK YOU. Keep doing what you’re doing ❤
I’ve been following your for a while now, Mary. I want you to know I really appreciate you and your willingness to be honest and vulnerable with us. ❤
Thank you for doing mental health videos 💓 is really helpful to see people dealing with stuff so you can deal yourself with things too
You’re doing a great job!! Give yourself a little grace and just remember You got this. Keep loving yourself through it all good, bad & ugly 😊
I am not someone who struggles with mental health on a regular basis, but I love your videos. They feel very honest and help me feel a better perspective for those in my life who do struggle with whatever diagnoses/mental health disorder they have. Thank you for posting ❤
Thank you so much for this 🫶🏼 I struggle with an anxiety disorder and I get so sucked into the hustle culture that makes me feel so unproductive unmotivated and behind. This was so raw and I appreciate your reminder to take breaks I def needed that! ❤️
THANK YOU FOR THIS!!!!! This is the most comforting & relatable day in my life ever! Thank you thank you
Mary, following you has made me feel so much less alone! I’m 24 also and was diagnosed as BP1 in the fall of 2020. Self-acceptance hasn’t been easy, and i also get down on myself for my level of productivity. I would LOVE to see more content like this. Thank you being vulnerable and real. You’re so loved!!
I love everything about this video. You truly are inspiring so many people, me included. Just wanted to add my small part in letting you know that what you do doesn't go unnoticed.
i’m watching this this morning as a start my next semester of grad school to be a therapist, i’ve struggled with anxiety, recent ADHD diagnosis, etc. and you’re the only influencer who i really keep up with because you encapsulate mental health and living with mental illness in a real and raw way. i appreciate both your boundaries with social media while also always feeling authentic and comfortable with your struggles of everyday. thank you for being you💞
I’ve been following you on all socials for forever! One of the reasons is because of your mental health journey. My sister has bipolar and OCD. She was diagnosed bipolar at 11 and developed OCD (especially the intrusive thoughts aspect) in the past 5 years or so. It got bad enough that she was committed last year but with adjusted meds she’s doing so much better! I tell her about your content all the time. Hope you start feeling better soon ❤
Thank you so much for sharing with us Mary, we love you!!
thank you for being so exposed with me I guess . I do struggle with really bad depression & anxiety & I can always appreciate someone online being honest and truthful. So thank you ❤ I’ve followed you forever, & this is why.
love you 🤍 thank you for your honesty
This is the video I have been looking for for weeks! I have bipolar too and struggle with being self employed at home, it means managing your own schedule and deadlines and it's honestly a lot of pressure, it brings a lot of anxiety, especially when you're not feeling your best. I just wanted to find a video I could relate to, to feel seen, understood and supported. Thank you very much Mary ❤
Glad I found this video today. Keep it up! We are not alone!
This feels really relevant to me as someone with ADHD (currently unmedicated) and depression and anxiety (which I am medicated for). It's so hard some days, and it feels like you're fighting all of the neurotypical systems that are set up in the world around you.
I just started the video, and tysm for sharing, I really needed this, I’m also bipolar, and it’s so relatable for me that u work for urself, cuz same, I always say idk what I would do if I didn’t work for myself I don’t think I’d be able to keep a job, cuz my mood changes so often and I’m always very sure about my ideas in the moment. Also I can’t be consistent for the life of me, so I feel lucky that someone with bipolar has a CZcams channel cuz If I want one I have to be normal long enough to record and edit and release, but I never last long enough and when i do im so happy I try to take advantage of that time to get necessities done before I go back to not caring sm I would go homeless before getting up to work. So you’re giving me hope.💗
I know this sounds weird coming from a complete stranger, but you make my day. I get up in the morning because of you, thank you ♥
Thank you for this video Mary! It takes a lot of courage to be this vulnerable. I also have ocd & bipolar so it’s nice to see someone else that I can relate to
this video is definitely vulnerable to share since I know that some people aren’t going to ~get~ it - so thank you so much 🥹🫶🏼 I’m still quite new to my ocd symptoms, and they’re really scary sometimes. thank you for being so kind 🤍🤍
@@MarySkinner of course 💜 I know it can be scary to get a new diagnosis but things will get better
Thank you for including the comment about having a typical 9-5!! I recently got a job in finance, I work 8:30-5 Monday to Friday and it’s been so amazing for my anxiety, it’s a set routine and it just makes me feel so much more at ease than when I was working retail shifts all over the place
As someone also struggling with mental health, I have realised how much I needed this video until I watched it
I appreciate you and your content so much as someone that is also diagnosed with OCD and has struggled massively with mental health. You are helping break the stigma around mental health and being open about it and it’s amazing to see. Though I don’t have bipolar disorder, I am in recovery now with my OCD but at it’s height it was the lowest place I’ve ever been in my life. I wonder if you’ve looked into Exposure and Response Prevention Therapy? It changed my life with OCD. Also- a great article to read that also made a huge impact on how I looked at my own OCD was reading the article “Choice” by Dr. Steven Phillipson, a psychologist that specializes in OCD
literally me omg I’ve been searching for more CZcamsrs that spread awareness about there mental health issues i deal with bipolar pretty sure 2 my therapist said it’s most likely 2, ptsd, ocd, gad, and borderline personality disorder I feel you so hard.
I agree about having that routine of a 9-5! Ever since I left my office job (I got laid off) and had to go into jobs with random hours each day, it made things so much harder with my bipolar disorder
I have diagnosis of these too thank you so much for sharing and spreading mental health awareness
Glad u are talking about this
I have Bipolar, anxiety and social anxiety along with ADHD
I know how it feels to feel alone and have no sleep
I am happy to see you taking care of yourself, and working hard through these challenges, and as you become closer with yourself, and this disorder. How are you feeling today?
Was diagnosed with bp2 rapid cycling like 2 weeks ago and your content is so helpful in this new adjustment period thank you mary ❤
wishing you the best on this new chapter 🥹🤍 ik it can be scary but i hope getting some answers is helpful
This video reaaaalllyyyy helped me get out of slump and get the ball rolling. I think I would have stayed in bed and rotted if it wasn’t for this video. Thank you for sharing this 🤍🤍
thank you fo this video Mary :)
Thank you for this. ❤️
Idk if you will read this but I bought a house last December and moved in January 2022 and my anxiety and depression got SO BAD. It was 100% rock bottom and the worst I have ever felt. I talked to my therapist about it and she said it’s common for these feelings to get worse with a big change like moving. I’m on the other side now and am doing much better and just want to let you know that YOU GOT THIS❤️
I have ocd too. It’s hard; and you’re not alone.
I have always suffered with OCD and intrusive thoughts. I understand how debilitating intrusive thoughts can be- sometimes you go weeks without any and all the sudden they hit you- HARD. This was so reassuring ❤️
Do you take any medication for it?,plant medicines help a lot
If you are interested in trying it out then send a dm to my handle
I was diagnosed with bipolar 1… I HATE repetitive work structures…. I need room and space and flexibility to create. Even if it’s like “paper work”… I still need the creative space, aka freedom, to get it done.
I’m moving to Rockville in a couple days and that Japanese bbq is high on my list it looks soo good!!
I feel this so much. I have bipolar type 2 rapid cycling as well. Meds only help so much. I am so tired of hearing all these "sucess stories" from people who have mental illness. As far as I'm concerned, the only time I have success is when I am manic. Depression is a weight to heavy to carry, so I just end up in survival mode.
I relate to you on many levels. I bet even recording this video was a torture jajaja because my OCD goes into overdrive
Could you do a video on relationship tips for those of us with mental illness? I haven’t dated since I was diagnosed with OCD and I get so in my head about it. 🥺
It is so so refreshing to see someone talk so openly about mental health struggles and make the rest of us feel a little less broken with our own. You're definitely my favourite content creator
My goal in life is finding a proper 9-5. With bipolar disorder I've always found my wellbeing is very dependent on how well I keep a schedule. But I'm awful at it on my own. Studying was too flexible and shift work is too variable. I end up a hot mess.
Can you make a video about what your bipolar 2 and ocd is like together ? Do you experience ocd with your hypomania or depression? Do you experience happiness in hypomania or is it more like anxious distress ? My dr believes I have both as well and I know everyone is different but can’t find any info on what it’s like for someone with both . Also any delusions or ideas of reference or psychotic features? If they occur and when in Mania or depression ? Thanks in advance totally understand if not comfortable with sharing so no pressure but if you would I’d be so greatful❤
So I’m not diagnosed with bipolar, like I’ve just confirmed it with myself that I do have it and yk I’ve had my suspicions for a couple of months and I do have diagnosed social anxiety and today was just such a rough rollercoaster like I’m going in no sleep, horrible anxiety and depression and mania all at once and also kind of separated and I gotta say I’ve never felt more understood before like this really does give me a little more hope that even tho it can be so hard and stressful and crazy that you can still live life and enjoy it at times but I definitely have a long road ahead of me but I’m kinda nervous and scared and low-key dreading telling my parents and having them help me with getting a diagnosis so any tips on that. I know this message got long but it’s just so new for me so I have so many thoughts and questions🫶🏼
It is not common to get bipolar diagnosis where i live , but it feels like i have it. I dont even understand completely what types mean but i would say i cycle every hour or couple hours. The trauma is immesureable...😢
Hi Mary! What kind of dryer/brush do you use in this video?
hiiiii where are your glasses / where is your mirror from
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I also have bipolar disorder and psychotic disorder for 4 years. I feel very tired. Do you feel the same? What do you use for energy?
I’ve been fighting for a bipolar II diagnosis since I’ve been getting psych treatment since I was in 4th grade (I’m 31). I am diagnosed with generalized anxiety and major depressive disorder and I’ve had eating disorders (all) and panic disorder.... idk I just feel in my gut it’s not just those and idk what to do anymore I’ve been on so many meds and I feel helpless
I was misdiagnosed with with major depression and anxiety also. I pushed for my diagnosis and my doctors let me start trying seroquel. The difference was almost immediate. Keep advocating for yourself,
It gets better ❤
Dose anyone else have rage episodes during the manic phase? Because recently I've been a total b****, and I and having a hard time working through this.
I work from my bed too.
It’s honestly the Lord Jesus Christ that has helped me with my mental instabilities that I have gone through for almost a decade. There’s this prayer that I read when I was 12 I believe my an anonymous person names Footprints in the Sand and it says this:
“One night I dreamed a dream. I was walking along the beach with my Lord. Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonging to me and one to my Lord.
When the last scene of my life shot before me I looked back at the footprints in the sand. There was only one set of footprints. I realized that this was at the lowest and saddest times of my life. This always bothered me and I questioned the Lord about my dilemma.
‘Lord, You told me when I decided to follow You, You would walk and talk with me all the way. But I'm aware that during the most troublesome times of my life there is only one set of footprints. I just don't understand why, when I need You most, You leave me.’
He whispered, ‘My precious child, I love you and will never leave you, never, ever, during your trials and testings. When you saw only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.’”
I hope that this gives you peace, clarity, and hope that God that is real, He loves you, wants a relationship with you, but He won’t force you do get to know Him. That is the reason why God gave us free will so that we can personally get to know Him.
Intrusive thoughts are from the enemy-the devil. He does not want people to get to know God because he knows that once people place their faith in Jesus-the Son of God, he does not have a grip on them anymore. I encourage you to start reading the Bible which is the Word of God. The book of Psalms is one of my favorite in the Old Testament. I recommend reading the Bible in the CSB version (Christian Standard Bible).
As a 19 year old, I am well aware that there are distractions out there. Truth is not subjective, it’s factual. When I read the Bible, the Holy Spirit (God’s Spirit who is also God-there’s only one God-Isaiah 45:6) guides me into the Truth about who God is, who He has always been, and who He will always be-GOD (Hebrews 13:8). I am able to look back on my past growing up in my relationship with God developing for when I was a little all the way up to now, I am grateful that even in the midst of uncertainty and hardship, He (God) has carried me through.
God bless you beautiful 💕
Make up in bed, doing a podcast.
I call bs straight up
I love these kinds of videos/content from you. Thank you for being authentic and vulnerable, you are helping so much more than you realize. In the end, we're all in this together, and these kinds of videos help. 🤍
Another 20-something Bipolar 2 + OCD haver here checking in 🩷🤝
you are really my comfort person on here 🤍 thank you 🫶🏼
This is exactly what I deal with plus borderline ptsd YOURE not alone
Somehow missed this vid when it came out but it just found me with the right timing 🤍 been really struggling with feeling lazy (depressed 🫤) and just having someone else speaking about it honestly helped so much. Thank you Mary 🫶🏼