i need to clear my head (playlist)
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- čas přidán 3. 07. 2024
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Tracklist:
0:00 my head is empty - hold me w/ Miranda Rain
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1:44 Kogeki - Dancing In The Rain
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4:20 knon x aurenth - lost road
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7:40 Antent - Lost Tape
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9:42 leadwave - memories
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11:08 les - night walks (slowed)
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13:08 sevenlies - and now you're gone (Slowed + Reverb)
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15:48 Antent - this world is sick
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18:05 FutureVille - backrooms
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20:35 knonzzz - wake me up in a month
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23:59 alixe. - a familiar feeling
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26:54 Ødyzon - winter is here
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29:14 shibíre - drowning
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31:18 🔁
#ambientmusic #darkambient #sleepmusic - Hudba
Sad Hours on Spotify - spoti.fi/44mHnMc 💙
how do you get forza to look like this?
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@@blessedpineapple2914 Just create your own event, there you can set the weather and time conditions (foggy, rainy, night, afternoon etc...) Disable all HUDs and it will look like this.
can u put one of my songs in a mix?
I've reached that point where I'm not even sad anymore. It's just a constant "Whatever, I don't care anymore" with brief flashes of rage that cause headaches. I have to keep reminding myself that nothing matters and relax by fading away into endless fictional realities better than this one. Being high helps SOOO much, couldn't care less about anything else in the world, but being in those worlds in this alternated mindset. Weed is the perfect apathy drug.
Have you considered that it is a coping method? If you eliminated it you would find things you truly care about in the loneliness and solitude
A word from me. Things matter, they matter more than you think. The whole purpose of our existence here is to gain wisdom. The good news is that just being here, living here, or existing with no aim in life gathers that wisdom. Every passing second that you are "alive" in this physical plane is a second that you've gained some amount of wisdom.
None of these "realities" that you are in by being high are fictional. All of them are as real as this one. You are not imagining things. Keep this in mind, next time you are getting high. You can get into quantum physics and holistic comprehension of reality on the basis of comprehending what fractal is.
As for your feelings of despair, rage, sadness, and nihilism. Every sentient life (this includes plants as well as the planet as a whole) can interact with this existence only because there is a consciousness (which is also you) and soul unison called - spirit. Out of this unison, the soul gives us a navigation system which is called - feelings. With these feelings we navigate within ourselves, relationships, and reality itself. The only reason that I know this is because everyone has the exact same navigational system, if this would not be the case, civilization simply would seize to exist.
Back to navigation. As we are born, we all have the same feelings about what is "justice and injustice", which is later on gaslighted by our parents, relatives, school system, and pretty much everyone around us in some shape or form. Most people live in that consistent gaslighting and the stronger the navigational system is and the more insightful the individual is, the worse the gaslighting is. The worst part is that everyone is doing this to everyone in some shape or form. You are doing it to everyone, everyone does it to you, I probably do it for you too in some shape or form. As we gain more wisdom observing others and ourselves, as we put things into a wider and wider perspective, it becomes easier to navigate in it.
So then, onto your "not care anymore". You have to understand that you've been born with a strong navigation system and a really good ability of insight. It was gaslighted time and time again, which when you were little, you could do nothing about, which meant that all of those emotions just had to pile up and were essentially covered by sadness. You were gaslighted and it created immense rage inside of you (for which you likely been shamed and punished), but you still cared and loved the people that those emotions were created by. This leads to sadness and despair, and in some shape or form, I assume, it bled into other aspects of your life. Then they tried to change your feelings about what is just and unjust with artificial "right and wrong", which you also resisted and that created even more friction between you and "the world", which by now I assume you don't even want to be part of.
What you really need to do if you want to move from this deadlock of "i don't care" is to let your inner child cry for rage, and really let loose. It doesn't have to be directed at people who gaslighted you, but someone has to listen to you with no "uhms or ahas" or any form of "trying to help or talk with you" or "you should let it go" type of things so that your inner child could feel seen and heard. Say all the things that you are mad about loudly for (not at) the person who is witnessing you, let yourself cry, scream rage, hit objects, and break things. Of course, the hard thing is going to be to reach those emotions, because you probably, as all adults, feel the need to "control", which is the most toxic thing you could do to yourself.
What is non-toxic control? It is based on a width of awareness, on the width of wisdom. That's why wisdom is so important. The more you are aware, the more complex your navigation system becomes, the less it becomes triggered by gaslighting, and the less you become pessimistic or optimistic, or realistic. The more you start looking at everything holistically, which is part of "getting wisdom", which is the meaning of existence in this plane of reality, the more peace you will have with this reality.
@@dainius9264 holy man, thanks
@@Slymoneygang Hey, I'm sorry to hear this, and I can't even imagine how devastating it might have been for you... I could give you a lot of insights into your situation if I would know your gender, the age gap between you and your brother, what your relationship was, your family and social status, etc. CZcams comments, however, is not the place to share these things.
There is one thing however that I can help you with. It seems to me that you never processed the emotions of the loss of your brother, even worse is that probably there were not people qualified or close enough to you, to help you with that. Those unprocessed emotions are still within you and your psyche is working 24/7 for you not to collapse at the expense of your everyday life, if not processed, that would bleed into your romantic life as well. If you are a girl, I would find an emotional mother figure, to who you could cry, if you are a boy, I would find a father figure to cry to. If you are 18, then +30-+40 is the range of adults you want to go for, because it is rare that +20 something would have the emotional capacity or literacy to take care of your emotional needs.
The main reason I suggest doing that out of your family line is that everyone had their own feelings attached to your brother and you don't know if they have or have not processed their emotions about him. There is also a fact that you are reaching adulthood now and you probably have a life vision to which you'd like to follow, so an adult in that life path with emotional literacy would be a perfect fit for you to make a close bond with. However, I have to admit, I don't know a lot of people who would be willing to take someone under their wing, and if you are living in some parts of the world, this might be even less possible.
What I do know, is that by developing your social network and surrounding yourself with people who are younger than you, your age, and are older than you, you'd be more likely to meet someone of the caliber that I just described. Out of this network of people with some of them you will connect, with some you will not, but those who you will, will be people who will help you (even if you don't actively pursue it), with processing the emotions of your loss and later on with your vision of life. The hard thing is going to be to remind yourself daily, that this seemingly unrelated activity to you (building a network, of people who later might become friends, because all you want is to get a driver's license and finish school), is part of your vision for yourself. The body will resist 100%, and it will until you will process emotions and become more aware, than the pain that is inside.
These are my insights, about you.
@@SlymoneygangHey. Maybe I wasn't asked, but I'd like to at least talk a bit as I relate to the pain caused by such severe things. I've read your comments, and I care. The pain and sadness and everything else seems neverending, but there are ways out of it. You are not too far gone, because you are still here, and that is if nothing else the first amazing step of feeling better. I'm glad you're alive. We can talk if you need support, but either way I think it would be good to try getting a therapist. I'm glad you want to get out of this, if you already want to then you are definitely able to! Sometimes I don't question myself if I want to live or die. Instead I let myself be alone, I don't question anything or change myself, I just let myself be there and be nothing less and nothing more, just being okay and letting go in the serenity of things. I don't think anyone can be made to suffer. There's people that do bad things to deserve it. And then there's people that become the target of other people or other events in their life. Bad things have happened to you, and now no one seems to care, but this isn't your fault, and if I know anything about being in this place I know you don't deserve it. I heard a saying where life doesn't have a purpose, it just has a meaning and that meaning is personal and different to every individual person because the meaning is whatever you make it. I know it's hard to try and do even just simple tasks let alone trying to accomplish what you said you wanted to. Just take small steps, plan things out, you are always free to take a break and just try to let yourself be less stressed and overwhelmed. To be honest this darkness isn't something I have "beaten" in my opinion. It was gone for some months, but it came back stronger than ever. There will always be depression or sadness at some times in your life, some times stronger than others, and you need to embrace it as part of you. A part of you that you can slowly learn how to control, not the other way around. And to treat yourself well, to try and take care of yourself and just slowly get back to normality of life when it really affects you. Life can be hard and seem like it's not worth it, but I promise you there is so much waiting for you. I really do believe in you as well.
I was scrolling on youtube, endlessly, seeking nothing, this is exactly what I need.
Forza Horizon is one of the greatest games to do nothing, just play around, clear your mind while doing any stuff.
I was scrolling down the comments, trying to find the name of the game, thank you)
@@gorghazaryan5415 men give him a like, this comment should be at the top
which forza horizon on this video?
@@DatCookies 5
Is that a mod? I was wondering if its foza or some other game@@CounterStrik614
I imagine heaven to look this way. And the other cars passing by are people we’ve loved and lost along the way. Great playlist
Thats very interesting
Whoa that’s sad
damn
that was deep, brother
I certainly hope Heaven doesn't look like that. Heaven is meant to be a realm where souls can rest alongside God and the other souls that follow and trust God, not a realm full of sadness and souls that don't interact with each other. That's probably hell you're talking about, a much more forgiving version of it (afaik there's not just hell and Heaven, there's 7 different parts of Heaven and 7 different parts of hell, each one getting closer and closer to the opposing side).
Thank you for supporting my track 💙💙💙
thanks
you realize you're not okay, when you're just driving in the game
when I just drive in real life. I tend to speed and when I see blue lights behind me. I run and see if it's my "lucky day."
Umm that’s literally all you do in this games. It’s a driving sim not grand theft auto
@@Instant_Nerf they probably mean no racing. just endless driving listening to music
GTA san andreas.
You realize the game is not okay, since the map is so damn empty
needed this, thank you.
ayyyyeyyy dsg
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Love that its foggy.
You dont know where the end is or where you are gonna end up.
But you are hopeful that the next mile is gonna be good.
imagine it's 2 a.m, you are alone at home, staring at your big screen while this masterpiece is playing, having a galaxy moonlight on the corner, and YOU SEE YOUR SOUL IS FLYING HIGH... (EXPERIENCE)
plus if you're high
This is exactly what I'm doing now.
My friend, know that your playlists, not only that, but your videos, are my daily companion while I read my books. Your videos occupy part of my routine, and contribute to the writing of my history on Earth.
Cute.
calm down little emotional pants
i love this comment, fuck all the dudes clowning on you bro. keep writing, keep blazing into the future. sear your name into the history of this world.
@@livingroom3531 Thanks bro, know that you will be in my prayers for your good words...I am the best I can be with people, I don't mind the teasing, I value and cherish the person who encourages me to be myself! God bless you!
You are a nice man, keep on with that motivation. Nothing can stop you!
Its okay to be sad. you're not alone.
i am not
I am.
Its not okay to be depressed
Its not okay to be depressed
heaven to my ears fr fr
Your playlists are wonderful🖤I love them
this is so calm oml. i love his content sm
the content of this man is just beautifull
just added every song to my playlist, truly lovely
This was my first car
i will always remember
a Mustang 2002
This car will remain always beautiful to me.
Nice sounds and good video
💙
I've got an 04 Mach 1, beautiful cars
@@simplylspdfr2303 wawwwwww you have a beautiful mac1 ? Ohhhh super Enjoy the rides and always be carreful on roads 🙂😉
this playlist makes me remember the best year of my life, thanks so much!
I really needed this... Feels like I'm on a road trip to nowhere but I love exactly where I'm going
The revs in between songs is a new genre🤣♥
Your playlist is just....perfect.....!
A lot of memories just came out listening this. Damn music is powerful man...
Your playlists give me a headspace to feel comfortable in, if only for a little bit. Thank you
Nothing better then playing a bit of Forza Horizon 5 and chilling to your own music and clearing the head!
in a real car after a long day working on something you truly love
Keep up the good work bub I need this to keep going
If someone needs to know what depression feels like, this video is a great way to introduce them to the feeling
Brasil 6:37am, eu aqui estudando e ouvindo esse som. Foca no seu progresso que tudo dará certo!
Like SENNA) I love Ayrton. From Russia with love
@@user-yl4ee7zs9b Ayrton Senna is a national hero! A true legend!
@@diegobezerra9310 I know my friend. I really want to visit Brazil, Ayrton is my hero too
@@user-yl4ee7zs9b тебе будут очень рады, брат
Бразилия, несмотря на свои проблемы, является хорошей страной для знакомства
и я согласен, что Айртон - айдол
@@user-mr1tz8xs1k muito obrigado, mano
Thank you, i very appreciate
Thank you
Why do I get strange pleasant sensations when I listen to this kind of music?
I have been trying to find an answer to same question, and what is can think of that maybe this music is what you feel but cannot describe and when you listen to this music, its like someone spoke your mind
Wow thank you for introducing me to Kogeki - Dancing in the Rain!
i like this man because of these beautiful contents
Keep being positive!
Whenever I have panic attacks, this kind of music helps a lot. Appreciate it
I found this when i wasnt feelin myself and that should be outta the question my life didnt have a meaning where i lost people that I loved short for instance im still kinda healing from my realationship i had with this girl though im missing her not she person was ir was the person who gave me a feeling today i feel betrayed to this person i once called a friend are girls like this idk caise ive tried to win her back to the point we both say" Lets be frinds no matter what" to the point we dont text each other i scoll through her page to find out she's in another relationship which made me feel betrayed so i started drifting away from myself i find myself here to find a specific comfort i also have past trauma too so thats ofd topic one well gwt over these feelings one day ill be better soon also a shoutout ive been clean of Alcohol for 3-4 months somewhat proud yet happy though i toke on some occasions stay safe, stay positive remember love yourself if nobody loves you caise youre all you got💖✨💯
soo goooood
Love this!
Your playlists helped me get through my finals. Thank you :)
I was just being a tortured soul thanks to your playlist I managed to break through
This the vibe
Good job !
you are loved.
always and forever
you are loved .
I like this
nice video and music inspirations ♥♥
fog or rain the best fr
Thank you for using my song 🤍
Awesome gameplay haha
Its weird to feel more free in a video game than in real life.
This channel is gonna blow up. 100k by 2024. Easy!
I thought the fog gonna disappear by the end of the video, would have been magical.
This game looks beautiful at these times i wish i could play it
Thank you to BRAVE for no ads.
Chill❤🔥
عن أبي هريرة - رضي الله عنه - قال: قال رسول الله - صلى الله عليه وسلم -: (كلمتان خفيفتان على اللسان، ثقيلتان في الميزان، حبيبتان إلى الرحمن: سبحان الله وبحمده، سبحان الله العظيم)؛ متفق عليه.
next time, keep the controller trigger half pressed with some tape, so that the jerkiness of acceleration is gone, it will be much smoother and easier for you too
nice ad between...you deserve like and sub
Imagine que todas as vezes que você se sentir mal você pudesse entrar no seu carro e viajar para onde você quiser.
Imaginou? Agora lute para que isso se torne realidade.
É, o jeito é correr atrás e fazer isso virar realidade. Se for pra se sentir mal, que seja ouvindo música e dirigindo um carro decente.
thanks for using our song
damn the drop is so hard i couldnt find it
Greate video.
Instead of clearing my head, this gives me more anxiety!
respect 👍😉
Like a Silent Hill
I have a new edge just like that one except mine isnt a cobra R and I absolutely love it.
beri gut+
you got taste with that terminator.
thank you so much for including our song friend ♡ ૮꒰◞ ˕ ◟ ྀི꒱ა
when i was younger and playing starsky and hutch i would get into the game road and just drive trying to get to the end of the road.
never reach the end of that road...
First song is a vibe wtf:?! Never heard it. I think I started levitating...
The memories haunt me, I know that they haunt you too
listening while i create some content, this one is chill. thank you.
my heart is broken right now and somehow, this helps. there is no one except my desktop. I am working and I am breaking apart. I wish I could connect the dots sooner.
❤❤❤
❤️🔥🌠🍃
i just want a better world
👌🏻❤️
I'm tired of pretending that everything is fine.
Você é importante, acredite.
@@user-ze3fq7do8u obrigado)
Vou começar o tratamento, espero ter sucesso)
And You dont have to. I encourage you to make a change, whether big or small, to change how you feel about something.
Itll be hard, but thats how you know its important to you, and that youll be better for it.
sadhours ☠☠☠
my brother never understood why I sometimes open gta just to drive for a moment,
bet he'll get it when he grows up
How do you get these graphics, amazing stuff
i can't believe i sat here for an entire hour, thinking what could fill the void in my life, switching from tab to tab, god i wish i could just turn off these useless ass emotions so i can focus on grinding for a better life
Same... some things were never meant to be
You can. Just do it
Enjoy the now. You are not promised tomorrow.
Maybe find Christ? Please?
I can not stop this brain İsmet. I am overthinker İsmet
spend 1 hour waiting for the drop :c
Great channel!
Thanks for the video! Can you tell me pls wich gam is that?😆
hello, lost souls
me: 🎧
drop: ♾
SVT COBRA ❤❤❤
nobody:
the drop: ❌
when the drop hasnt dropped
Stay hard, guys.
That New Edge Mustang is my dream car this is hard to watch :(
Guys by listening to these songs just brings us down. We gotta stop.
intro ends at 1:00:37
Forza Horizon 5😍😍
How can you make that game so beautiful? is there any mods for it?
Около Future Garage
bro was driving in Silent Hill
loll this fucking title, youtube is reading my mind, I got made fun of in group chat in my online friend group, I don't have irl friend.
it hurt me the most that one friend I expected to understand me laughed to most.
this title is exactly what I need ...... i need something to clear my head