Everyone, please. No more, I want you to stay with us. I want you to get better. I want you to feel better. I want you to be better to yourself. I want you to stop crying. Only happy thoughts. I want you to stop cutting those fragile hands of yours. I want you to watch your weight but not to the point you’re starving to death. I want you to *not be depressed, you can do it.*
Idk how tf to cope. She’s gone. Shes the one person I never thought I’d lose. I should be crying like everyone else, screaming in anger. Why can’t I cry?
I am so, so proud of you, kiddo. You're doing amazing, keep pushing through, but always remember that nobody will ever be disappointed if you relapse; it happens.You've got this, hun. I'm proud of you for reaching this far.
I will tell you an incident, I was six and had felt a bit nauseous and my mum had made pap. I told her I didn't want to eat and sat on the couch, soon she brought a cane and used it on me, I was pushed against a fan and I couldn't see with one eye for a month. Or a time when I accidentally broke my cousin's chair at five to six years old, my dad came back and beat me with me begging for him to stop and I was on the couch crying till I felt asleep. I got a panic attack and the neighbours had to calm me down as I had accidentally locked the car keys in the car, when I was seven and we went to order takeout, and I asked my dad if he could allow me to taste part of his own, and he and my mum called me covetous and greedy, shouting at me and my mum hitting my head a bit and I was fearing I would be beaten when I got home. Or when my dad had slapped me when I told him I wanted to learn fashion designing instead of baking and he said "to hell with fashion designing". Or when they took me to the hospital one day saying I needed to get tested as they thought I was sick even though I told them that I wasn't and I was sure of it, I tried telling the doctor no symptoms of any type but they still carried on with the test and found I was fine, when we got home they scolded me, I felt really bad and was telling myself I was a stupid daughter and a pathetic failure, tearsvrolled down my cheeks but they thought it was due to the scolding and threatend to beat me until I lamded in the hospital. I cried in my room telling my I was stupid, selfish and a failure. It was my little sister that came to hug me and I hugged her crying in her arms till I fell asleep. Or when we were running late for school and I made tea for myself but she wasn't in a good mood and went all out on me. I made sure to keep silent as she was telling me I was a spoilt brat and she would have aborted me and I won't do anything about it but she chose to keep me. Cut to years later, I realised that she was pregnant before she got married, I was told to shut up, keep quiet when I talked for basically my whole life, I attempted ending it last year five times but never did, no one knows about it, I made a decision, I stopped crying when they flogged me, and I'd take the wire they used and beat myself up with it until I saw marks. They buy things for me and still joke around with me though, am I just overreacting?
Even tho my arm is still bleeding.(im sorry for mentioning it I’m really narcissistic) Im proud of you for everything For staying For being clean For existing And so it is for all the other people reading this
everybody hated our history teacher because she "didn't teach" but she asked me once if i was okay because i looked tired and i srsly wanted to start crying my eyes out right there and then
The thing is everyone has different levels of energy and the only thing you can do to keep yourself up is doing your best at the level your at. Once you get better you can move on to the next level. What some people fail to see is that some people can’t beat certain levels.. damn I sound like I could write a novel 😩
Whoever is reading this I want you to know.. Anytime of day whatever it is you can talk to me. Anything big or small your feelings are valid and you matter!! I’m always here for you 🫶
The first one is so funny to me because my bsf is probably the one that started that panic attack and is literally apologizing(she doesn’t mean it) she laughed when I talked about my dead cat.. I don’t have the courage to break it off. I’m sorry I can’t do it, and I’m sorry I’m the way I am..
i’ve learned to not give two shits about my appearance. if people don’t like my big forehead, that’s *their* problem. if they don’t like my silly furry pins, that’s their problem. if they get so pissed at a pin on a backpack, that’s their problem.
I feel like my parents and friends are mad at me. I have really bad anxiety/social anxiety so I don’t talk much especially since my friends are super extroverted and talk a lot. Recently it’s been getting worse..I’m switching to a whole new school district for freshman year and I’m really scared. All summer I’ve sat in bed watching CZcams/tiktok and listening to music. I’ve been sleeping longer and my parents always yell at me for that and it doesn’t help. I’ve lost all of my friends so I haven’t had anything to do all summer. I can’t do it. I lost my best friend that I would do anything for in 3td grade and I still think abt that moment my parents told me that in the hospital.. then my elementary friends all left but one and me and him became best friends and now I’m moving schools and he has super strict that won’t let him have a phone till he’s like 15/16. So I have to entirely restart and I feel like I can’t talk to anyone. I’ve had a therapist since 5th grade but I still feel like I can’t talk to her cause she’ll tell my parents everything and they’ll be mad I didn’t tell them. My parents also fight all the time and my dad calls me fat behind my back when he thinks I can’t hear him and he’s don’t that for three years. My mom tells him to stop and that it’s rude but he doesn’t listen. My parents always tell me and my brothers (older and younger 😐👍) that they love each other and would never get divorced but me and my older brother always talk to each other about how they should have divorced YEARS ago. I don’t know how much longer I can deal with all of this. I just want a peaceful life..with friends who let me open up and be myself a dad that cares about me to my face and behind my back. If you’re reading this I hope you have an amazing day..I’m proud of you (PLEASE EAT AND STAY HYDRATED)
pinterest keeps giving me lots of things with my dead cousins name. i have a board dedicated to her now. i miss her so much, i didn’t know her very well, we met very few times but i still miss her so so much. i wish her parents and siblings could see her one last time, i wish i could see her one last time, for a proper good bye
You know, i hate my life im so sick of this household i wanna run away so fucking much but i cant i hate my life my entire life no one understands me im lonely and i dont even have real friends all of them are fake what do i do with my life?.
Hey, kiddo. If you do plan on running, make sure that you 100% have a safe place- WITH someone you trust, and that nobody would suspect. Make sure to have your devices charged and packed, as well as food, snacks, water, and medical items. Also make sure to have clothes for weather changes. And your life is *very* important, sweetheart. Yes, you may be lonely, but not for long, trust me. You have a lot of potential, dear. Hold on to the feeling that you'll find someone close soon. That you'll find a true friend that you care for, and that cares for you. Make sure to set boundaries. With everyone. You got this, kiddo. Hang on in there, yeah?
6:45 and this is how you do it. you cut pages and cut oranges and cut apples and cut fabric and cut pillows until its gone. you color all over the page under the one youre cutting in red and it looks like blood. cut cherries. play gacha life 2. go outside. listen to extreme heavy metal about ripping people apart.
Today is the 14th April 2024 it has been about 4 months since I was sexually abused/touched. It was a big shock to me I want to talk about how I feel and what was on my mind that day but no one listens I was on my way to my concert with the train as every usual day. Suddenly a group of teenage guys around 15-17 was standing behind me. I was standing right in front of the train door and was waiting till it opens. There were 2 stops left and suddenly a guy came too close he started to touch me and a second boy was right behind so no one could see what was happening. There were about 4 or 5 boys. He would not stop … I pulled away and he pulled me even closer. I didn’t know what to do. I was and I am just 14 years old. I was so scared that I couldn’t move. Right when the first stop ended the second guy switched with the first guy and it was going on until the last stop came. I was so shocked and paralyzed that I was watching the floor in horror all of the time. He was not just touching me he rubbed himself on me and I was just … Scared I guess. (paralyzed) I cant explain my feelings in that moment I was unable to think. My thoughts? I wasn’t thinking about anything it was like as if my brain was empty. To be honest this was not the first time. It was my 3rd time that I was being sexually abused. I told my parents and the worst thing did not even happen. My own parents told me:,, see what can happen in the train when you go by yourself!,, Not are you alright or do you need anything! That’s why I am scared to go by the train by myself in 2 days. I feel like it will happen again and I am scared as f--- to be honest. I told it my parents my best friend my other friends my sister and none of them cared about it. I felt heartbroken and abused which I was. I can’t describe how I am feeling right now. I am scared to show my skin, scared to go swimming, scared to sleep with an open window, scared to take a bath, scared to talk to an boy alone, scared to go by bus, train or car alone! My whole world is just being scared and never be safe again. Oh and you know what, just later I found out it were some kind of guys that I met there more than once. And all the time, the just laughed... 1st Edit: I forgot just like 2 weeks ago a man was doing the same thing... (It was the same train and he pressed me against the door and started touching my breasts and body he pinned my hands behind me back... dont think I wasnt trying to escape but what would I do next... I didnt even manage to get distance) 2nd Edit:Like 3 days ago a man was standing at my window and was watching me sleep... (It was 2:49 when I woke up by a man watching me sleeping) 3rd edit: A man almost abused me in the woods with my friend... (he was a imigrant: black... I am not rasist I am just saying in our village there is no one a dark color so it scared me even more as he was chasing after me...and was watching me for 30 mins and more as I read a book, dressed myself there, danced and sang... I had some fun time... until he came so near he tried to snatch me and I heard noises at first but then someone came from behind a tree and tried to catch me as I started running away... god knows what his intentions with me were...) ⚠EDIT 4th might be disturbing for some people so please SA, SH⚠ 4th Edit: I was...11/12 and on my way home from school... (with the train) The train was packed so we had to squeeze together so everyone would fit in there was this big guy behind me and was so squeezed onto me but I was like: Okay the train is full, I understand there is no space for others... But I was wrong... ⚠DISTURBING PART⚠ Because the train was packed no one could even look down onto the ground... the boy suddenly gave his hand onto my vagina (but I still had pants on) He started to squeeze it and ''play'' with it... It went on for about 15 minutes and he started to touch my whole body from my stomach (torso) to my knees... he was touching my thighs and when he realized... I had scars and fresh cuts he started to rub his hand against my cuts that made me bleed and made me big pain... I was terrified as the blood dripped down... everyone could see it and started asking whats that... do you cut yourself? The boy looked so satisfied with his doing... I just cried and all of them suddenly turned around... the boy was seen how he has done those things to me and... no one did anything to stop him... I told the police and they did nothing... they said I am a minor and until he doesnt kidnapps me or hurts me more they cant do anything... I am furious and scared and dont know what to do against these ''accidents''!!!! Please I dont know what to do... can someone tell me how to slove this? I am so scared to go by train that I cant even be at the station without puking or hurting myself (scratching my skin so it bleeds so I focus on the blood, pulling my hair so I realize what I have done,... and more) I dont know how to sole this problem/s so anyone who read my story and knows what I should do tell me!! (thank you)
I have a spelling test In 30 minutes and im gonna fail and the worst part is my mom said if I fail other spelling test that she will hit me again and it doesn't hurt but I will do anything to stop it from happening again
That’s great! If you really need help my mom is a dispatcher and I can ask her to send someone? It would be difficult but I could try! (I told her about my sh problem and I can trust her so that’s why I’m asking)
hey so youre supposed to call the fucking police when that happens. she should not threaten to beat you because you didnt spell fucking pragmatic correctly. fuck her call the fucking police.
@@VanillaIceCream-d2w why? its showing that your life continues. even through all the shit and fuck ups and suicide attempts, your life keeps going. you are strong and worthy. do you not know the meaning of the tattoo?
Im back at home I left 1 week ago to get better I came back with hy friendships and worse mental health I dont know what to do anymore But now im in both mental and physical pain
I don't know what to do, im to scared to cut myself but i want to do something to express my frustration and I don't know why I'm so frustrated and depressed I have two loving parents and a great life. But I just don't know what to do and I need to do something
when my sister left she didnt die or anything she js left and after that my mother stop taking car of us and wouldnt talk to me or look at me bc i loked so much like my sister and i liked the same ice cream as her she yelled at me for liking it and said stop trying be your sister and my dad would always say she your half sister that gives halg a shit abt you
Heyy momm, I'm sryy I couldn't be much on the live at all I hope it went well and 28 August is your bd yeah? I'll celebrate with you make sure to upload a video and I'll wish you a big big happy bdd~~!! ❤❤
Its okay you couldn't join live much but yes 28 august is my birthday I try upload a video but thanks alot means alot have a good day/night means alot see you next week monday 9pm UK time if you can join ❤️
Hiii, im having a bad time with my bf breaking up with me and my bullies are being so mean and fat shaming me and saying some other stuff I can’t say on here x
@@Ellaslaysxx I’m sorry x you don’t deserve that, I bet you’re gorgeous. And I get the breakup thing, I’ve been through it too. Feel free to keep talking to me if you’d like
Thank you so much I appreciate it so much. I’ve been not doing so great lately with half of my year hating me at school cuz a group of like 5 girls are bad talking me to everyone and they’re threatening to come to the village I live in and find me and I think they’re joking but they all hate me and I asked the main one in a nice way what I did to her to make her hate me and she said idk. I’m trying so hard and it’s just a nightmare. I asked out a boy that I loved the other week and he said no but then I got with this boy from another school and he was nice and I loved him then he dumped me because he didn’t want to be in a relationship with me anymore
@@Ellaslaysxx you’re more than welcome, this is a safe community. I sort of get that too, there’s a group that hates me for no reason too but it’s not that extreme. I hope they’re joking too and I’m sorry you got rejected x
I feel like i'm already dead. I just can't keep friends, I am not even able to talk during therapy. I try so hard to listen everyone elses problems to make them feel better but when it comes to me, I can't express anything. I'm just empty. I'm trying so hard to be skinny but it doesn't work. Six months ago, we had to give away my cat because my mom developed a really bad allergy. I was not okay with that decision, and I remember the night when my dad was shouting on me because I wouldn't let him take the cat. It has been six months and I still cry about it every night. Last year I attempted suicide, and I feel like the fact that my cat is gone just made worse my mental health. During the day I feel okay but once I'm in my bed, all my sadness just comes back. I just want to be happy. I don't know what I did wrong
wanna kms, sh is getting rly bad, mom is constantly mad, I can't talk to people, I'm on the verge of a panic attack 99% of the time, I just wish I could feel like enough.
I'm like so ugly bro.. I was crying like so hard abt it last night because there's nothing I can do to fix it. I have a big nose and acne and it's horrible. I would do anything to be someone else bro.
@@LifewChloe2 ok look having a big nose doesn't make you ugly and acne will go away eventually but here look ok if you wanna feel better you could try putting ice on your face it helps whith acne. Also it seems like you have really bad self-esteem issues
@@LifewChloe2 and if you want help whith that is just ignore your appearance for a bit like don't look in the mirror for ages looking at the flaws just go on do something else it really helps I used to be really insecure about my hair so I just took a break from thinking about it and it helped a lot I don't know if you'll find this helpful but it helped me and I'm so sorry feeling ugly sucks but you no you're beautiful no matter what ok
Everyone, please. No more, I want you to stay with us.
I want you to get better.
I want you to feel better.
I want you to be better to yourself.
I want you to stop crying. Only happy thoughts.
I want you to stop cutting those fragile hands of yours.
I want you to watch your weight but not to the point you’re starving to death.
I want you to *not be depressed, you can do it.*
Can i do it? Sometimes life just hits different. I would starve myself.. i don't deserve food and water or shelter, but thank you anyways
I always wanted to be an artist but my parents manupalat me
You deserve to live. You can do it. I promise !! Vent under this comment more if you need to.
Be who you wanna be, your parents just wanna hide your talent because they don’t have it :)
Idk how tf to cope. She’s gone. Shes the one person I never thought I’d lose. I should be crying like everyone else, screaming in anger. Why can’t I cry?
3 months clean in 37 minutes and 47 seconds!!!!
I’m so proud of you, keep going
I am so, so proud of you, kiddo. You're doing amazing, keep pushing through, but always remember that nobody will ever be disappointed if you relapse; it happens.You've got this, hun. I'm proud of you for reaching this far.
I am so proud of you ❤❤
So proud of you!! Keep going, you got this! :)
So proud of you! Keep going
I will tell you an incident, I was six and had felt a bit nauseous and my mum had made pap. I told her I didn't want to eat and sat on the couch, soon she brought a cane and used it on me, I was pushed against a fan and I couldn't see with one eye for a month. Or a time when I accidentally broke my cousin's chair at five to six years old, my dad came back and beat me with me begging for him to stop and I was on the couch crying till I felt asleep. I got a panic attack and the neighbours had to calm me down as I had accidentally locked the car keys in the car, when I was seven and we went to order takeout, and I asked my dad if he could allow me to taste part of his own, and he and my mum called me covetous and greedy, shouting at me and my mum hitting my head a bit and I was fearing I would be beaten when I got home. Or when my dad had slapped me when I told him I wanted to learn fashion designing instead of baking and he said "to hell with fashion designing". Or when they took me to the hospital one day saying I needed to get tested as they thought I was sick even though I told them that I wasn't and I was sure of it, I tried telling the doctor no symptoms of any type but they still carried on with the test and found I was fine, when we got home they scolded me, I felt really bad and was telling myself I was a stupid daughter and a pathetic failure, tearsvrolled down my cheeks but they thought it was due to the scolding and threatend to beat me until I lamded in the hospital. I cried in my room telling my I was stupid, selfish and a failure. It was my little sister that came to hug me and I hugged her crying in her arms till I fell asleep. Or when we were running late for school and I made tea for myself but she wasn't in a good mood and went all out on me. I made sure to keep silent as she was telling me I was a spoilt brat and she would have aborted me and I won't do anything about it but she chose to keep me. Cut to years later, I realised that she was pregnant before she got married, I was told to shut up, keep quiet when I talked for basically my whole life, I attempted ending it last year five times but never did, no one knows about it, I made a decision, I stopped crying when they flogged me, and I'd take the wire they used and beat myself up with it until I saw marks. They buy things for me and still joke around with me though, am I just overreacting?
Im so sorry i hope things get better for you 🙏💕
not at all
I got a razor add when I was watching this💀 (two months clean)
Even tho my arm is still bleeding.(im sorry for mentioning it I’m really narcissistic)
Im proud of you for everything
For staying
For being clean
For existing
And so it is for all the other people reading this
The worst part is that he will never know how much trauma he put me through. :/
I’m here to thank my guy best friend, he saved me. Thanks.
I can’t stop rewatching this video
Why do I have to go through this all I want is a peaceful life
me just watching while crying(yk cuz you want it to be dramatic):😕
me seeing alana not smiling:😭🤬😰
everybody hated our history teacher because she "didn't teach" but she asked me once if i was okay because i looked tired and i srsly wanted to start crying my eyes out right there and then
30 days , 19 minutes and 100 seconds clean..
SO PROUD OF YOU!!!
The thing is everyone has different levels of energy and the only thing you can do to keep yourself up is doing your best at the level your at. Once you get better you can move on to the next level. What some people fail to see is that some people can’t beat certain levels.. damn I sound like I could write a novel 😩
0:30 sad how i can relate to this
Whoever is reading this I want you to know.. Anytime of day whatever it is you can talk to me. Anything big or small your feelings are valid and you matter!! I’m always here for you 🫶
The first one is so funny to me because my bsf is probably the one that started that panic attack and is literally apologizing(she doesn’t mean it) she laughed when I talked about my dead cat.. I don’t have the courage to break it off. I’m sorry I can’t do it, and I’m sorry I’m the way I am..
don’t be sorry for being the way y are it’s not ur fault it’s not something y should be sorry abt
@@Unk0wn_Auth0r-d3c thanks, it means a lot to me
it hits hard when you have to watch thus
i’ve learned to not give two shits about my appearance. if people don’t like my big forehead, that’s *their* problem. if they don’t like my silly furry pins, that’s their problem. if they get so pissed at a pin on a backpack, that’s their problem.
19:51 i will always have a deep connection to this song that no one understands
3 minutes clean..
I know you can do it! Keep trying I’m so proud of you. Relapse is part of the healing process so don’t beat yourself up about it. I believe in you
I have some trauma from being in psych wards alot at both the ages 12 and 13 because I missed my mom and they didn't even try to help me
1:24 how badly the camera was shakinh breaks my heart 💔 poor girl 😢
2:34 Thats so true but no clue how long it will take
I feel like my parents and friends are mad at me. I have really bad anxiety/social anxiety so I don’t talk much especially since my friends are super extroverted and talk a lot. Recently it’s been getting worse..I’m switching to a whole new school district for freshman year and I’m really scared. All summer I’ve sat in bed watching CZcams/tiktok and listening to music. I’ve been sleeping longer and my parents always yell at me for that and it doesn’t help. I’ve lost all of my friends so I haven’t had anything to do all summer. I can’t do it. I lost my best friend that I would do anything for in 3td grade and I still think abt that moment my parents told me that in the hospital.. then my elementary friends all left but one and me and him became best friends and now I’m moving schools and he has super strict that won’t let him have a phone till he’s like 15/16. So I have to entirely restart and I feel like I can’t talk to anyone. I’ve had a therapist since 5th grade but I still feel like I can’t talk to her cause she’ll tell my parents everything and they’ll be mad I didn’t tell them. My parents also fight all the time and my dad calls me fat behind my back when he thinks I can’t hear him and he’s don’t that for three years. My mom tells him to stop and that it’s rude but he doesn’t listen. My parents always tell me and my brothers (older and younger 😐👍) that they love each other and would never get divorced but me and my older brother always talk to each other about how they should have divorced YEARS ago. I don’t know how much longer I can deal with all of this. I just want a peaceful life..with friends who let me open up and be myself a dad that cares about me to my face and behind my back. If you’re reading this I hope you have an amazing day..I’m proud of you (PLEASE EAT AND STAY HYDRATED)
2 months 4 days and 15 hours clean ♥︎
pinterest keeps giving me lots of things with my dead cousins name. i have a board dedicated to her now. i miss her so much, i didn’t know her very well, we met very few times but i still miss her so so much. i wish her parents and siblings could see her one last time, i wish i could see her one last time, for a proper good bye
You know, i hate my life im so sick of this household i wanna run away so fucking much but i cant i hate my life my entire life no one understands me im lonely and i dont even have real friends all of them are fake what do i do with my life?.
Hey, kiddo. If you do plan on running, make sure that you 100% have a safe place- WITH someone you trust, and that nobody would suspect. Make sure to have your devices charged and packed, as well as food, snacks, water, and medical items. Also make sure to have clothes for weather changes. And your life is *very* important, sweetheart. Yes, you may be lonely, but not for long, trust me. You have a lot of potential, dear. Hold on to the feeling that you'll find someone close soon. That you'll find a true friend that you care for, and that cares for you. Make sure to set boundaries. With everyone. You got this, kiddo. Hang on in there, yeah?
@@ghostlygales thank you.
1 hour clean :(
I’m still so proud of you ml💗
well done internet stranger, I'm very proud of you
I’ve been clean for one minute….
6:45 and this is how you do it. you cut pages and cut oranges and cut apples and cut fabric and cut pillows until its gone. you color all over the page under the one youre cutting in red and it looks like blood. cut cherries. play gacha life 2. go outside. listen to extreme heavy metal about ripping people apart.
5 minutes clean 😮💨
bro i just got a razor ad they really want me to 😭😭
Today is the 14th April 2024 it has been about 4 months since I was sexually abused/touched.
It was a big shock to me I want to talk about how I feel and what was on my mind that day but no one listens
I was on my way to my concert with the train as every usual day. Suddenly a group of teenage guys around 15-17 was standing behind me.
I was standing right in front of the train door and was waiting till it opens.
There were 2 stops left and suddenly a guy came too close he started to touch me and a second boy was right behind so no one could see what was happening. There were about 4 or 5 boys. He would not stop … I pulled away and he pulled me even closer. I didn’t know what to do. I was and I am just 14 years old.
I was so scared that I couldn’t move.
Right when the first stop ended the second guy switched with the first guy and it was going on until the last stop came.
I was so shocked and paralyzed that I was watching the floor in horror all of the time. He was not just touching me he rubbed himself on me and I was just …
Scared I guess. (paralyzed)
I cant explain my feelings in that moment I was unable to think.
My thoughts? I wasn’t thinking about anything it was like as if my brain was empty. To be honest this was not the first time.
It was my 3rd time that I was being sexually abused.
I told my parents and the worst thing did not even happen. My own parents told me:,, see what can happen in the train when you go by yourself!,,
Not are you alright or do you need anything!
That’s why I am scared to go by the train by myself in 2 days.
I feel like it will happen again and I am scared as f--- to be honest.
I told it my parents my best friend my other friends my sister and none of them cared about it.
I felt heartbroken and abused which I was.
I can’t describe how I am feeling right now.
I am scared to show my skin, scared to go swimming, scared to sleep with an open window, scared to take a bath, scared to talk to an boy alone, scared to go by bus, train or car alone!
My whole world is just being scared and never be safe again.
Oh and you know what, just later I found out it were some kind of guys that I met there more than once.
And all the time, the just laughed...
1st Edit: I forgot just like 2 weeks ago a man was doing the same thing...
(It was the same train and he pressed me against the door and started touching my breasts and body he pinned my hands behind me back... dont think I wasnt trying to escape but what would I do next... I didnt even manage to get distance)
2nd Edit:Like 3 days ago a man was standing at my window and was watching me sleep...
(It was 2:49 when I woke up by a man watching me sleeping)
3rd edit: A man almost abused me in the woods with my friend... (he was a imigrant: black... I am not rasist I am just saying in our village there is no one a dark color so it scared me even more as he was chasing after me...and was watching me for 30 mins and more as I read a book, dressed myself there, danced and sang... I had some fun time... until he came so near he tried to snatch me and I heard noises at first but then someone came from behind a tree and tried to catch me as I started running away... god knows what his intentions with me were...)
⚠EDIT 4th might be disturbing for some people so please SA, SH⚠
4th Edit: I was...11/12 and on my way home from school... (with the train)
The train was packed so we had to squeeze together so everyone would fit in there was this big guy behind me and was so squeezed onto me but I was like: Okay the train is full, I understand there is no space for others...
But I was wrong...
⚠DISTURBING PART⚠
Because the train was packed no one could even look down onto the ground... the boy suddenly gave his hand onto my vagina (but I still had pants on) He started to squeeze it and ''play'' with it... It went on for about 15 minutes and he started to touch my whole body from my stomach (torso) to my knees... he was touching my thighs and when he realized... I had scars and fresh cuts he started to rub his hand against my cuts that made me bleed and made me big pain... I was terrified as the blood dripped down... everyone could see it and started asking whats that... do you cut yourself? The boy looked so satisfied with his doing... I just cried and all of them suddenly turned around... the boy was seen how he has done those things to me and... no one did anything to stop him... I told the police and they did nothing... they said I am a minor and until he doesnt kidnapps me or hurts me more they cant do anything... I am furious and scared and dont know what to do against these ''accidents''!!!! Please I dont know what to do... can someone tell me how to slove this?
I am so scared to go by train that I cant even be at the station without puking or hurting myself (scratching my skin so it bleeds so I focus on the blood, pulling my hair so I realize what I have done,... and more)
I dont know how to sole this problem/s so anyone who read my story and knows what I should do tell me!! (thank you)
I have a spelling test In 30 minutes and im gonna fail and the worst part is my mom said if I fail other spelling test that she will hit me again and it doesn't hurt but I will do anything to stop it from happening again
Y'all I think jesus Christ himself came down and helped me through my test cuz I passed (barely but still passed)
That’s great! If you really need help my mom is a dispatcher and I can ask her to send someone? It would be difficult but I could try!
(I told her about my sh problem and I can trust her so that’s why I’m asking)
Nah im good thanks for asking tho
@@Drbigbottomtheoneandonly-t1x anytime!
hey so youre supposed to call the fucking police when that happens. she should not threaten to beat you because you didnt spell fucking pragmatic correctly. fuck her call the fucking police.
I have scissors under my pillow right now.
If you understand, I'm sorry.
; = dream tatoo (if yk yk if yk I'm sorry)
I'm sorry
please don't do that
@@VanillaIceCream-d2w why? its showing that your life continues. even through all the shit and fuck ups and suicide attempts, your life keeps going. you are strong and worthy. do you not know the meaning of the tattoo?
@@tomato_paste0742 I thought it was a gun
14:19 i relate to this to damn much 😢
Is that bad that I don't even have a fave teacher?
3 months clean and relapsed last time I’m fucking disgusting and terrible scared if my mom finds out
I was 109 days clean but then I tried on July 11th;(
Im back at home
I left 1 week ago to get better
I came back with hy friendships and worse mental health
I dont know what to do anymore
But now im in both mental and physical pain
I don't know what to do, im to scared to cut myself but i want to do something to express my frustration and I don't know why I'm so frustrated and depressed I have two loving parents and a great life. But I just don't know what to do and I need to do something
when my sister left she didnt die or anything she js left and after that my mother stop taking car of us and wouldnt talk to me or look at me bc i loked so much like my sister and i liked the same ice cream as her she yelled at me for liking it and said stop trying be your sister and my dad would always say she your half sister that gives halg a shit abt you
Adding to this ever month I’m clean :D
1 month
10:34 true
11:30 real.
Heyy momm, I'm sryy I couldn't be much on the live at all I hope it went well and 28 August is your bd yeah? I'll celebrate with you make sure to upload a video and I'll wish you a big big happy bdd~~!! ❤❤
Its okay you couldn't join live much but yes 28 august is my birthday I try upload a video but thanks alot means alot have a good day/night means alot see you next week monday 9pm UK time if you can join ❤️
@@VlogsNotFound ❤❤ I'll see next Monday is first day if my school ❤❤
@@VlogsNotFound omg my birthday is the 30th of August
Happy early birthday 🎂
@@VlogsNotFound happy early birthday to you too xx
I was 6 months clean, I broke it in one night
How's everyone feeling today ???
Sad ? Depressed ? Happy ?
Vent here or just talk about your day
1 minute clean 😢
Edit:I’m trying
You can do it! I know you can its ok if you relapse because at least your trying
A few seconds clean😢
is it bad that I’m cutting myself while watching dis
i wish i was pretty
1 month clean!
(Edit:nvm 😅)
12:36 real
2 days clean! Ik it’s not much, but I’ve been trying
Hellooo my friend! Yes, you, you’re my friend! How are you? Anything you wanna talk about? If not that’s fine Ofc
Hiii, im having a bad time with my bf breaking up with me and my bullies are being so mean and fat shaming me and saying some other stuff I can’t say on here x
@@Ellaslaysxx I’m sorry x you don’t deserve that, I bet you’re gorgeous. And I get the breakup thing, I’ve been through it too. Feel free to keep talking to me if you’d like
Thank you so much I appreciate it so much. I’ve been not doing so great lately with half of my year hating me at school cuz a group of like 5 girls are bad talking me to everyone and they’re threatening to come to the village I live in and find me and I think they’re joking but they all hate me and I asked the main one in a nice way what I did to her to make her hate me and she said idk. I’m trying so hard and it’s just a nightmare. I asked out a boy that I loved the other week and he said no but then I got with this boy from another school and he was nice and I loved him then he dumped me because he didn’t want to be in a relationship with me anymore
So on my channel there’s going to be a lot of sad videos and sad lip syncs but I’m gonna try get over it before my school starts again
@@Ellaslaysxx you’re more than welcome, this is a safe community. I sort of get that too, there’s a group that hates me for no reason too but it’s not that extreme. I hope they’re joking too and I’m sorry you got rejected x
bro how the actual FUCK am i supposed to keep living she went with my friend it’s not fair ITS NOT FAIR
Hello, all =)
How is evryone
Bad, but I'm trying to get my life better :/
@@Sierralolettacici aww Y u bad
I feel like i'm already dead. I just can't keep friends, I am not even able to talk during therapy. I try so hard to listen everyone elses problems to make them feel better but when it comes to me, I can't express anything. I'm just empty. I'm trying so hard to be skinny but it doesn't work. Six months ago, we had to give away my cat because my mom developed a really bad allergy. I was not okay with that decision, and I remember the night when my dad was shouting on me because I wouldn't let him take the cat. It has been six months and I still cry about it every night. Last year I attempted suicide, and I feel like the fact that my cat is gone just made worse my mental health. During the day I feel okay but once I'm in my bed, all my sadness just comes back. I just want to be happy. I don't know what I did wrong
@@advitatevels2181i’m so sorry! i’m praying for u ❤
wanna kms, sh is getting rly bad, mom is constantly mad, I can't talk to people, I'm on the verge of a panic attack 99% of the time, I just wish I could feel like enough.
Can I vent?..
Im falling to peices.
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Can i vent to someone please?
Yea of course what's wrong
Ofc babe hope your okay
I'm like so ugly bro.. I was crying like so hard abt it last night because there's nothing I can do to fix it. I have a big nose and acne and it's horrible. I would do anything to be someone else bro.
@@LifewChloe2 ok look having a big nose doesn't make you ugly and acne will go away eventually but here look ok if you wanna feel better you could try putting ice on your face it helps whith acne. Also it seems like you have really bad self-esteem issues
@@LifewChloe2 and if you want help whith that is just ignore your appearance for a bit like don't look in the mirror for ages looking at the flaws just go on do something else it really helps I used to be really insecure about my hair so I just took a break from thinking about it and it helped a lot I don't know if you'll find this helpful but it helped me and I'm so sorry feeling ugly sucks but you no you're beautiful no matter what ok
16:04 sturniolos???
I’m in love with ashley b4253