Hey to all in the comments, please be extra sensitive to what you write. For miscarriage mamas, it can actually hurt so bad to hear "you'll have another baby," "at least you know you can get pregnant", advise comments about future pregnancy etc. These words cut into my already broken heart when I lost my baby and frankly didn't help my grief over what never would be for this child I lost. They are grieving for a tiny life they never got to meet, a whole future that will never happen with this child, and baby they will never hold. I know its to give hope, but these comments can hurt deeply. Tell her your sympathy, tell her you're praying for her, share your own story of hurt and healing in this situation. Just please don't comment these things unless she says that is what she needs to hear. Just some advise from another mama of an angel baby❤
Totally agree. I hat 4 losses an year i am 9 years later no baby. So never say anything like "oh there will be more don't worry" if you have not been through it you have no idea. Dear angel baby mamas. We are in this together and only god can comfort our souls through prayers for each other.
And through all of this people criticized you for leaving the farm, for not going to church and for not "being content". I hope this can be a lesson for people not to judge especially if they don't know the full story. I'm sorry for your loss and I pray God blesses you guys with a baby soon ❤
Thank you for being so vulnerable. I am so so sorry for your loss, Kian. Praying for you and Kyle. I just know God has your rainbow baby on his/her way soon
My first pregnancy ended with a miscarriage. I still grieve that loss even though we have been blessed with our rainbow baby. When people ask how many children I have, I always say, “one but I had a miscarriage right before him.”Sending all the baby dust for your next baby.
I cannot even begin to explain how special it is that you shared this with the world. I absolutely applaud you for this deep, deep level of vulnerability. I went through a miscarriage in July and watching the first clip brought back so many memories, but at the same time was encouraging knowing someone has experienced the same pain that I did. I will be praying that you get your rainbow baby. And I am so very, very sorry for your loss. I found so much encouragement in knowing my sweet babe was being loved by Jesus in Heaven. ❤️ I hope this reminder brings you the same peace it did for me.
I lost my baby girl at 17 weeks pregnant, it was our first baby as well. I know the heartbreak and I'm so sorry for your loss. This hurts so bad as a hopeful mommy. Praying for you guys.
The way I audibly gasped when I saw the title. Kian my heart breaks for you, I cried almost the whole way through this video. I hope you are able to continue to rest and lean on your support people, I’m so sorry.
Oh Kian…. Oh Kian………… There are no words. The second I saw this thumbnail my heart shattered. Two of my sisters had miscarriages and the pain is unimaginable 💔 Praying for comfort and peace that passes understanding. I know I don’t know you and Kyle, but I’m genuinely grieving with you both.
Thank you for doing this Kian. My first pregnancy ended in miscarriage, and nothing prepares you for the hurt. I’m in my 6th week with number 2 and the fear is heavy, but so is the hope. Through the most vulnerable times of waiting, hurt, and lack of control is when our intimacy with God can increase, which is a major blessing. You sharing your experience will be so comforting to people going through it. Sending my prayers ❤
My husband and I just experienced this last month too. It's been a rollercoaster of emotions and even today, we're still grieving and asking the Lord to help us. I appreciate your vulnerability because I went through the same thing, everything you said and everything you experienced. I went to the ER and had a loving experience. The doctors and nurses were so empathetic and helpful and I was able to get my results quickly. I don't understand why God allows these things to happen, but my husband and I trust Him and know that He is God. He is sufficient and enough. And we allow God to do His will in our life, even when we don't understand.
You have over 4,000 views on this video. I guarantee you've helped so many people right now who are about to or are currently going through the same. God doesn't waste suffering and pain isn't for nothing. Thank you for your ministry....you will be an amazing mother!:)
Praying for you guys. We lost our triplets last year. It was horrible, but God was so present and revealed so much of himself to me. We just had our son last month. Stay faithful- I know how hard it is. Feel the feelings, but remember the Lords promises
When I lost our baby, the ER doctor I had knee but was so kind and held my hand as he looked at me and my husband and reminded us that it wasn’t our fault. I’m so sorry mama.. the pain you’re going through is unbearable and it’s okay to mourn. You’re so loved and we’re praying for you ❤️
I started miscarrying around the night of October 31 and the morning of November 1, 2022 I was miserable. And I still am. It was/is the most horrific emotional thing I’ve been through. I’m so so sorry this happened to you and my heart is with you.
Wow Kian! Thank you for sharing I can’t imagine how tough these last months have been on you guys, while having to still navigate comments and opinions of others :/ The comforting thing is that God knows and understands, even when others do not. Praying for you and Kyle to experience so much joy and peace that surpasses all understanding from God. ❤️❤️
This is the first time I’ve ever seen anyone be genuinely vulnerable like this anywhere online. Thank you for sharing with everyone your experience. I can’t imagine what you are going through, I am so sorry for y’all.
Kian and Kyle, I am so so incredibly sorry to hear that you both have experienced this kind of loss. My husband and I had our first miscarriage about two months ago, and it is a completely different type of grief than what i have ever felt. Praying for you both in this season (even if this was filmed a while ago)! Know that you are not alone, and take hope that you WILL see your precious baby again 🤍🫶🏻
I am so sorry, Kian. I have had 4 miscarriages and know how hard it is. And the back and forth of not knowing for sure what's going on and waiting for results from doctors, etc makes it that much more emotionally taxing. Take as much time as you need to heal. Hugs and prayers ❤
I’m so sorry for your loss. I suffered a miscarriage as well at 6 weeks after we told family and were trying for 6 months. We had our rainbow baby a year later and I heard in a book once “I wouldn’t have had my baby now and they’re so perfect for me” and that is so true with my daughter. Blessings to you and your husband ❤️💕 I can’t wait to see my little angel in heaven one day 😊
After watching the first video and you not posting on Instagram I knew this would end in loss. I remember telling my husband, “wow how amazing is it that they’re showing this in real time.” Me and my husband have such a similar story to you and Kyle. We got married in 2021 and had our first pregnancy in June, which also ended in miscarriage. I’ve lost immediate family members but I’ve never grieved like that. Im still in the process of healing. Time helps, and so does Gods voice. Thank you for sharing your experience like this, so real, raw and true. I love you both and I’m praying!!!!
The first sentence of your comment really rubbed me the wrong way. I think that part was so insensitive and really wasn’t necessary to include… or at least you didn’t choose the best wording. You at the end of the day had no actual idea what the outcome would be. Her not posting could’ve meant she was just waiting until she was done uploading the whole journey. So for you to say that you were expecting of that, and not even in a more sensitive way like “I was really hoping my speculation was wrong” … was super harsh to say and also weird, in my opinion. Just some feedback because it truly set a very distasteful tone to start off your comment with and I assume you did not realize that u came off this way. God bless you
Thank you SO much for sharing this! I’m sure this was incredibly painful to relive as you prepared, edited and shared this video. Thank you for making all of us out here on the Internet feel a little less alone, for allowing us to feel like we can also be honest, and for promoting realness and honesty along with faith and trust. I’m so sorry for the heartache, but looking forward to see what is next for you. Thank you ❤
It took my husband and I a while to conceive (I have a PCOS) and we miscarried our first, but I got pregnant again a couple months after. It was very emotional losing the first and processing pregnancy. I have a 3 month old baby now, but I was in denial my whole pregnancy that it’s still surreal. I know how tough it is, but keep the faith. The Bible verse I meditated on when trying to conceive is when Jesus says, “If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.” Matthew 21:22 NIV Keep believing and keep praying. He will answer. I’m praying you get the family you dream of. You two would make great parents to raise good Christian soldiers. ❤️ I’m praying for your healing and praying your dreams come true.
Thank you for sharing your experience with us Kian. I'm so sorry for you loss and I hope you find peace and comfort in his presence during this difficult time. “After you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you” 1 Peter 5:10
I am so sorry to hear this. Prayers for you and your family. I'm sharing this in case it brings anyone hope. In November 2021, I got my positive pregnancy test. By December 14th, I was bleeding. I had almost the same experience as you, the ER ran blood and did an ultrasound. They didn't have a conclusive answer. My hcg at that point was high enough that they weren't sure I was having a loss. Over the next few days, I didn't need them to tell me, I could tell the baby was gone. We mourned that loss. It was so hard. But praise God, we actually conceived very, very soon after. Once I had passed everything, my husband and I found healing through intimacy. We actually caught the next egg without me having a full cycle after the loss. By January 9th, I had a definite positive on an early test. God is so good. My 14 month old beautiful, brilliant daughter is sleeping in the next room right now. I hope this brings encouragement to anyone who reads it.
I had 2 back to back chemical pregnancies, then my Dr. & I tried progesterone & I’m now 4.5 months pregnant with our first baby girl 🙏 Praying for you!! Stay strong & trust in Gods timing 🙏
Every time someone else shares a heart breaking miscarriage, women all around feel less lonely. I am so so sorry. Losing your first baby is amongst the worst things. I’ve been there. I leaned on my husband so much, so glad you have each other. Sending hugs
Praise God for your courage to put this on youtube. Will say a prayer for you and your husband, for God to give you strenght and another healthy born and beautiful baby.
I am so sorry for you. As a momma who’s gone through one - I understand how you feel. I pray you and your husband feel Gods love during this time and lean into Him during this. Again - I’m so sorry for the loss of your precious child.
I cried with you the entire video. I can’t imagine the sadness and grief that you have been feeling. I really appreciate you sharing this difficult part of your pregnancy journey. I think that miscarriages aren’t talked about enough and I am so thankful that you shared the ENTIRE journey. Just know that you’ve helped prepare and relate with so many other couples who may go through this very same situation. God can use your pain and sorrow to comfort, educate, and help others who go through this. We will all experience some degree of sorrow and suffering in this sinful world, but hopefully it drives us back into the arms of our loving Savior and helps us depend on Him more. ♥️
I was hoping and praying you wouldn’t join me on this but I had the feeling.. hoping that 2023 will be our year and praying that everything will make sense when we have our babies in our arms ❤️ you are not alone!
9/11/2021 I had an early miscarriage a week after finding out I was pregnant. I had no signs at all other than a teeny amount of blood my Dr said via phone was implantation bleeding until my first appointment. For the first time ever I didn’t find comfort in Jesus. All I could think was “how could someone that loved me let this happen?” My Dr helped a lot by reminding me “at least we know I am able to get pregnant.” And I just got hormone supplements to strengthen the next pregnancy. I got my period back about 6 weeks after that and was able to immediately get pregnant again. I see now that this baby I’m holding in my arms is why that miscarriage happened. I couldn’t imagine life without her now. You will get through this and come out stronger and when it is your turn for a baby, all the pain and grief and waiting will be more than worth it.
Thank you for sharing your experience Kian. When I saw you posted your first video for pregnancy journey I was so excited for you and Kyle. Seeing this truly breaks my heart. However, it is so encouraging to see how you’ve anchored yourself to Jesus even though this was not the outcome you hoped for. Through your vulnerability you and Kyle have have spoken of the kindness of God even in loss. Praying for yours and Kyle’s continued healing and complete recovery as you grieve the life of this precious baby and anticipate the miracle of a new life. ❤
I think it’s such a courageous and brave thing for you to do to share such a vulnerable and heartbreaking experience for others. I am so sorry for the pain you’ve been experiencing, it’s so incredibly difficult and that baby will always mean so much to you. When I lost our little baby last September i was absolutely heartbroken it had felt like a piece of my heart and soul left me forever. I have never felt so alone in that moment and months to come and I wish I had a video like this to watch. While your heart will never fully heal from losing a baby, there is hope and a Lord that is faithful through it all. We welcomed our little rainbow baby this September and she’s everything we could have ever imagined. I will say there is not a day that goes by that I don’t think of our little baby, one day we will meet again and that gives me the hope I need each day.
My husband and I just lost our first baby and it’s devastating . I am praying for you and your husband and know our true comfort and healing comes from Jesus 💕🙏 I’m so very sorry for your loss.
Thank you for being so open and vulnerable. My husband and I experienced this earlier this year. And it’s very difficult but I am praying for you and Kyle. God is your strength. We are now pregnant with our healthy rainbow baby and I just know that you will have yours too. God will bless you with a beautiful baby. ❤️
I had a feeling something was wrong because there was no social media announcement. I'm so so sorry. My heart breaks for you. Praying for a beautiful rainbow baby. 🙏❤
I love your content and your and Kyle’s journey and have so much respect for you both. But, in love, I don’t know how wise this was to share in this order of video. I want to clarify I have NO issue with you sharing your experience with a miscarriage, that is an isolating experience and I’m sure it helps people to know they are not alone. But for this to have happened months ago, and still post 2 videos prior to this as if you were pregnant when you knew at the time of posting that you were no longer pregnant, I’m honestly not sure how to feel about it. I respect your right to post as you choose, but felt compelled that this may have not been the wisest way to share.
I'm crying with you, I'm so sorry Kian and Kyle. 😔🥺 I'm gonna pray for you right now. God is faithful and He will never abandon you. Thank God you had a community around you ❤️.
We're so deeply sorry for your loss, Kian ❤️ Praying for you guys 🙏 Our first pregnancy also ended in miscarriage so watching this brought back all of those emotions we were feeling in that season. Your strength and choice to share this will be a comfort to so many others going through the same situation. Trusting God's perfect timing for your life and this journey you are on - Sending all our love to you both ❤️
I feel so much pain for you.. I’m so so sorry babe..💔💔😭😭 it’s a sign that life has a better plan for you.💗🥺 I promise everything will eventually will get better.🤍
Thank you for sharing ❤❤❤ I had a miscarriage with our 2nd baby in March. Such a hard thing to go through… Currently pregnant with our rainbow baby. Praying for you and Kyle🙏
Kian, I'm so sorry. I literally JUST went through this *exact* same experience. Found out I was pregnant end of September. Spotted for a while, with extreme pain / bleeding happening on the night of October 31st (where I was 9 weeks pregnant). We found out I miscarried that night in the hospital. It was horrific, and I'm so sorry you're having to go through this. We wouldn't have been able to do it without the support of our friends, church community, and faith. My heart breaks for you and Kyle but know that it does get better. Talking through it has helped too and we are hopeful for the future, but it's a surreal mix of emotions. Praying for you both during this time (prayer is truly powerful).
Beautiful section of scripture at the end Kian. I've never miscarried, but my husband and I have infertility, so through that I can relate to the feeling of having great hope, visions and plans for the future just to realise that things aren't going to happen quite the way we had expected that they would and then having to completely restructure how we thought our future would look. I know you know as well as I, that Gods timing is perfect. Through our struggles I have been able to comfort others and share counsel with others who are in similar positions, and for that I praise God. May our God be with you, giving you all strength, endurance and filling your innermost being with peace faith and hopefulness. 1 Corinthians 1:4-5 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.
Thank you for sharing even though I know it is not easy . I had a miscarriage back in Feb 2022, but I am now 6 months pregnant. You will be ok with time and god timing is perfect❤
I am so sorry, Kian. My heart goes out to you. Sending you so much love and prayers. I’m glad you guys left the farm and hope this new chapter brings peace and new beginnings
I've finally watched this video out... It was pretty hard. I was dealing with my own thing that started off full for excitement and hope and then I lost it. It was not there anymore. It was not a baby but it was in a sense a miscarriage. I thought I was fully healed and then I watched the beginning of this video... the tears came back. I found myself crying for you, Kian, and crying for me. I had to put a pause on it and bring it to God. I cam back to watch out the video and gosh I am so glad I did because God answered your prayer! Look at that! It may not have been in the way you wanted but He gave you a miracle. He did something illogical. And that scripture in the end... wow... We (you and I) are not consumed by the loss because of God's love for us, which never fails! His timing, His calling, His purpose never fails. And that means that you will become a mum and I will go forth and do the thing I lost, but in His way. I am sorry for the physical, mental and emotional pain. And I am so glad that you came out of this as a stronger person. Love you in Christ, Kian!💛
I’ve gone through two early miscarriages . March was my second miscarriage. It’s something we women don’t talk about until it happens to someone we know. It’s so frustrating and unfortunate that it’s really just out of our hands and sometimes there’s no reason. I pray that the in moments of sadness you also feel some comfort knowing you and your baby are loved and your baby will know nothing but the love you have.
I am so sorry. I’m sending prayers your way. I can’t even fathom what you’re going through right now, but I admire your faith. I praise God that even though your feelings towards Him may be mixed at the moment, He has blessed you to be such an amazing woman.
I'm so sorry for your loss...pregnancy is not easy and things can go wrong at any minute! My friend had a healthy pregnancy but at 36 weeks the baby's heart stopped...she had to give birth... Also it's common for women to have at least one pregnancy that doesn't go well... So please get well soon,recover both mentally and physically and you will have your dream!
I'm so sorry for your loss. God has got this and he has the PERFECT TIMING for your beautiful family. I lost my first child in pregnancy at 10wks and went on to have 3 more children. I still see my child in heaven 🤗🙏🌈
Hi Kian and Kyle. I’m so so sorry for your loss. I had watched your video on Friday and woke up this morning and was journaling and felt prompted to pray for you. May His heart, His love, His strength and His peace overflow you today. Take care.
You guys are both loved so much! Thank you so much for sharing your experience raw and unedited!❤️ You are not alone, I experienced a miscarriage with my husband in August and I know exactly how you’re feeling❤️ There’s going to be days you’re going to be comfortable sharing and days that are not so comfortable with sharing. When I was going through the miscarriage, God had to remind me as I was upset that through the pain he will be there with us. It’s in God’s beautiful timing💞 You guys inspire so many couples! I will keep praying for you both!❤️
Oh, Kian 😢 Your promise from God is still coming even under these circumstances. I know this happened months ago, but I’m praying over your mind. That God continue to give you peace, love, and a sound mind continually as you go along this journey. He’s with you through it all!! Love you guys ❤
So sorry Kian. My had a miscarriage with my first. We tried again and got pregnant soon after. It was so hard but we are thankful for the child we have in our arms. We will pray for you. 💖
I’m so sorry for your loss. I experienced a missed blighted ovum miscarriage in April. It took my body weeks to recognize what was happening, so we found out at my 9 week scan that the baby had stopped growing around 5 weeks but my hcg levels just weren’t dropping fast enough to start the physical process. It was heartbreaking. I found out at the end of June that I am expecting again, and I’m 25 weeks pregnant with a healthy baby boy. I pray that you are able to experience a healthy pregnancy soon, but I know you will always carry the memory of that first baby. Even now as I’m pregnant again, the last couple of weeks have been hard as my first baby’s theoretical due date came and went.
I am so sorry Kian!! Thank you for being such a honest vulnerable person, my heart stopped when I saw the title 😭😭 💔I will be praying for you and Kyle as you heal..
So surreal, as I’ve been following your journey we too fell into the same unfortunate circumstances. We lost our pregnancy on the 12th at about 6 weeks. It’s so hard to go through but know you aren’t alone and I’m so sorry for your loss ❤ Sending you all the love & prayers for a healthy rainbow baby 🙏🏽
This was a beautifully done video and series so far. I cried when you cried. I'm so sorry you went through this, not because God won't use it, but because it hurt. Thank you for sharing with us even though it's hard. I'm glad you had good community around you to support in this time. Praying for you!
Thank you for being vulnerable despite all the backlash the internet has thrown at you. Sorry for your loss. I pray God blesses you with yet another miracle, and that He gives you grace to remain patient as you and Kyle wait 🙏🏽❤️
Im so sorry for the disappointment... I had the exact experience Kian. 2 weeks after I passed the sac we conceived. After that experience I started laying hands in my womb and declaring the word of God. I'm sending you love and hope 💕 God is faithful 🙏 I have a wonderful 7 month old son.
I love this im seriously so scared to start again because I went to go get blood work to rule anything out but ... I also feel soo strongly that next time everything will be ok despite the heartache how did you know it was time ?
So sorry for your loss, your child lived the perfect life in Gods view. You seem like a strong woman of faith, keep it close. Better days are coming. Love and hugs to you and your family. God Bless You!
Kian, I’m so deeply sorry for what you’ve gone through, physically, mentally and emotionally. I cannot imagine this feeling. praying for healing and strong faith. Thank you for sharing such an emotional journey online, as a follower and supporter of you, (I believe I speak for a lot of us who support you) we are here for you no matter what. If you feel you shouldn’t/don’t want to post anything we won’t judge or question. All love, support and prayers ❤️
Kian, you charted this heartbreaking loss so beautifully. I am so sorry for what you went through and am so in awe at how you held tight to the Lord throughout. It was so affirming to end on such a positive note...that piece of Scripture from Lamentations brought tears to my eyes.
I am so sorry love. I know this pain all too well. I have lost 4 sweet babies myself with my last being ectopic. It’s so hard! When you released your first video my heart fell and for some reason I had a feeling you had a miscarriage and was really praying my gut was wrong. No one can ever prepare you for this pain. God carries us through though. I’m about to start ivf next year. Feeling hopeful and praying God has the sweetest little blessing waiting for you to hold one day soon ❤
Wow… just wow!! My heart goes out to you and Kyle so much! I cannot even believe going through all this with all the negative comments and things people say on the internet… people can be so insensitive some times… praise the Lord for those who truly live by what they call themselves, true Christian’s who are willing to live God’s love everyday and bless others with It as well. I pray that you may continue to heal and be strengthened by the Lord and that He may carry you in His Mighty and Loving Hands, and you may always be able to find refuge under His wings. I went through a miscarriage very similar to your and I was so afraid I was never going to be able to be pregnant again. And literally two cycles later my little miracle happened, and now I’ve had to precious gifts of God afterwards. But the fear of loosing my baby when I was pregnant again was really something and the thoughts would come all throughout the pregnancy especially every time I would have to go for a checkup. But the Lord was with me, He carried me through and the whole pregnancy and delivery were awesome. Of course, every one of us is different and so is our stories and experiences, but I pray that in the mourning times and in the celebration times, you may always feel God’s love and strength carrying you through, in Jesus’ name 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 Philippians 4:13 🤍
Aww I’m so sorry Kian. Whenever you guys come to mind I’ve been praying for you! I felt like the Holy Spirit had showed me this happened and to pray. I’ll continue to pray & just believe this next year will be a year of deep healing, restoration, abundance & provision in every way ❤️ Jesus bless this family
So sorry for your loss ❤️ So appreciate you being vulnerable and sharing your experience- just sharing what you’re going through will help so many other women going through the same thing
Thank you Kian for choosing to share this precious part of your life with us. I am deeply sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing that passage of scripture in Lamentations at the end of your video. It is so timely not just for your situation, but I'm sure for others as well. It's always important to remember that even when we experience bad, God is still good. We may not understand why things happen, but we can trust the Lord and His will and His timing for our lives! Praying for both you and Kyle! That God will continue to strengthen your marriage and home! Once again, thank you for being so raw, honest, and transparent! God bless you! Psalm 30:4-5 nkjv "Sing praise to the Lord, you saints of His, And give thanks at the remembrance of His holy name. For His anger is but for a moment, His favor is for life; Weeping may endure for a night, But joy comes in the morning."
So sorry for your loss. I totally understand how your feeling since I went through that experience. I pray the lord gives you guys the strength you need during this time. Love ya Kian! 🥰
Going through the same thing. Hurts so much. So thankful for the hope that we have in Christ. Although it’s hard, I am not hopeless. Although I mourn, I can still have peace that surpasses all understanding. So sorry you’re going through this :(
Ive had a few miscarriages.. in my time.. I also have 3 healthy girls 🥰 The one positive thing I guess I can tell you is that you most likely fall pregnant very quickly after a miscarriage. I was literally pregnant after 8 weeks later.. and is perfect. I bled with her at 7 weeks thinking it was a miscarriage I was beside myself, but had an ultrasound and there was a healthy baby and the bleeding was a sub chronic hematoma ( bloodclot) between placenta and uterus. So miracles do happen. I will pray for you 💕💕💕❤️❤️
Oh Kian I feel your loss keenly: my first pregnancy ended within 2 weeks of getting the positive and I was devastated- it was only after that, that all my friends will children suddenly started sharing their miscarriages. Every single one of them had one, at various stages. It was so comforting to know I wasn’t alone, even tho you don’t wish it in anyone! Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable and giving comfort to ALL women embarking on a fertility journey. So looking forward to a successful pregnancy for you and Kyle ❤
Awww, thank you so much for opening up. This was so hard to watch you grieve, truly sad but God's got you all, happy you had a community of people to support you guys through the tough period.
Thank you thank you thank you for sharing😭 I’m so sorry. That prophecy in the text that you would help other women in your ministry because of this is being fulfilled right now🥺❤️
My husband and I wanted nothing more than to conceive a child as soon as we got married. Every month that we tried and didn’t conceive was absolutely heartbreaking. It became a bit more difficult to even track my cycles because of all the big life changes I was going through, and almost every month I was convinced that I was pregnant. In June, our sixth month being married, after we tried I had a deep gut feeling that it didn’t happen this month and was already grieving the negative pregnancy test that would come. This ended up being the month we conceived our first child! We were so surprised! Only four days after getting this good news (two days before my birthday), I miscarried. It was so sudden and definitely the most rollercoaster week of my life. To lose any child is hard, but your first child (especially when you’ve been trying and hoping and praying for them for so long) is especially heartbreaking. I saved as much blood as I could from it and put it in a little wooden, prayer-soaked rosary box, as a little grave for our baby and named him/her as well. This helped my husband and I so much in the grieving process and we still treasure and honor the memory of our first child. Something I was unaware of was that I would experience a mini post-partum afterwards which was incredibly physically and emotionally taxing. We began trying for a second child immediately after I had passed everything, and glory to God we conceived again two months later. I told everyone I knew immediately after getting this news so that they could pray for the health of the baby! I am Now 16 weeks pregnant with a beautiful and healthy baby boy that I can’t wait to meet in May. I share this story because hearing others stories, especially when they were similar to mine, was so helpful. I pray for all the parents who have lost children and thank God for the gift that they were to us, even for such a short time. I keep reminding myself that it’s only a lifetime apart, but eternity together.
I’ve been following your channel for a while and I just want you to know that we’re thinking of you and praying for you both. It’s an indescribable experience that you’re going through but God is here to listen and support you. He’ll stick around no matter what. you’ll both make it to the other side. Thank you for sharing and being honest x
Sweet sister. My heart hurts for your loss but I am so grateful for your transparency. Thank you for your boldness and bravery to share. Praying for your journey.
I am so sorry 😢 I can’t even imagine the feeling! I have been trying to get pregnant for two years now and I understand the pain of wanting a baby so bad and not having one but at least you know you can get pregnant. I pray that God will bless you with another baby as soon as you are ready.
The ending verse made me teary eyed. But we all know God is a GOOD God. I know you’ll get a baby one day & this will all be a part of the testimony! Love you Kian, just keep praying & persevering!!!!!
Hi there! I came across your video and wanted to say how sorry I am that you and your husband suffered a loss. I know what you're going thru. I can relate so much! I miscarried 2 pregnancies. One was like yours and one I was further along and had to get help bc my body didn't get rid of tissues and such. It turned out to be a problem between mine and my babies father blood types. I'm Rh neg and he is B+. I ended up getting a rhogam shot, which is plasma people donate, after every baby had after that. I have 3 adult kids now. I'll be praying for you sweet girl!! God will bless you when it's time. Please do not lose faith!!!! Keep believing!!!!! I hope you and your husband have a Merry Christmas!!!!
I'm so sorry for your loss. My husband, and I lost our first baby due to missed miscarriage at 13 weeks 4 years ago. My best advice is to let yourself feel your feels, and give yourself a lot of grace. You're in my prayers 🤍
I am really really proud of you, Kian. God will give you guys a precious baby in time, the world just isn’t ready for the baby yet. I’m sending you & Kyle so much love and hugs! ❤️
I am so incredibly sorry about your loss. Just experienced two losses in the past 7 months - there is nothing like that kind of pain (physically and emotionally). Praying that God will comfort you and Kyle during this time ❤
I'm so sorry for your loss. We lost our first pregnancy at 9 weeks after trying for 3 years. While I don't follow your channel, I do want to thank you for recording your process and talking about your experience. I don't think miscarriage is talked about enough. Having other stories out there really helped me to process my own. I will hope that your dreams comes true in the future.
I pray that God would just wrap you and Kyle in his love and presence and comfort and emotional and physical healing. ❤ My heart goes out to you and I pray that you have all the support you need in this time 🕊
Thank you for sharing this even though I imagine it's extremely hard to discuss this, especially online. I went through a near death experience with an ectopic pregnancy. I just want you to know you are not alone; your body and psyche will need time to adjust. With time and a whole lot of support, you will pull through. It took me a long time, but I had no support from anyone.
Thank you Kian for sharing this vulnerable moment, not many people do so but even in the darkest moments, that's when we surrender and just let God do His thing. He showed you that dream so that you keep hoping because He has done it for you already. Keep believing, He is faithful. In our weakness His strength is seen the most.💕💕
Thank you so much for sharing. This is such a great level of vulnerability. May God comfort you both and minister to you. Your period of celebration will soon be here. God will give you others.
Hey to all in the comments, please be extra sensitive to what you write. For miscarriage mamas, it can actually hurt so bad to hear "you'll have another baby," "at least you know you can get pregnant", advise comments about future pregnancy etc. These words cut into my already broken heart when I lost my baby and frankly didn't help my grief over what never would be for this child I lost. They are grieving for a tiny life they never got to meet, a whole future that will never happen with this child, and baby they will never hold. I know its to give hope, but these comments can hurt deeply. Tell her your sympathy, tell her you're praying for her, share your own story of hurt and healing in this situation. Just please don't comment these things unless she says that is what she needs to hear. Just some advise from another mama of an angel baby❤
Momma of many losses and I know how she's feeling. Nothing you say or do can make her feel better. I do hope others are sensitive to her situation.
Mama of two angel babies and I totally agree with you. Hearing these things didn’t help at all
thanks for sharing. It is helpful and I will be mindful of these suggestions
Thank you for taking the time to write this. ❤
Totally agree. I hat 4 losses an year i am 9 years later no baby. So never say anything like "oh there will be more don't worry" if you have not been through it you have no idea.
Dear angel baby mamas. We are in this together and only god can comfort our souls through prayers for each other.
And through all of this people criticized you for leaving the farm, for not going to church and for not "being content". I hope this can be a lesson for people not to judge especially if they don't know the full story. I'm sorry for your loss and I pray God blesses you guys with a baby soon ❤
Thank you for being so vulnerable. I am so so sorry for your loss, Kian. Praying for you and Kyle. I just know God has your rainbow baby on his/her way soon
Thank you Jennifer! Appreciate all the prayers 🤎
My first pregnancy ended with a miscarriage. I still grieve that loss even though we have been blessed with our rainbow baby. When people ask how many children I have, I always say, “one but I had a miscarriage right before him.”Sending all the baby dust for your next baby.
I cannot even begin to explain how special it is that you shared this with the world. I absolutely applaud you for this deep, deep level of vulnerability. I went through a miscarriage in July and watching the first clip brought back so many memories, but at the same time was encouraging knowing someone has experienced the same pain that I did. I will be praying that you get your rainbow baby. And I am so very, very sorry for your loss. I found so much encouragement in knowing my sweet babe was being loved by Jesus in Heaven. ❤️ I hope this reminder brings you the same peace it did for me.
I lost my baby girl at 17 weeks pregnant, it was our first baby as well. I know the heartbreak and I'm so sorry for your loss. This hurts so bad as a hopeful mommy. Praying for you guys.
I'm so sorry you had to experience that 😭 praying for you as well
I’m currently going through the exact same thing 😔 We lost our baby girl at 17 weeks and she was our first. It is such a painful experience.
The way I audibly gasped when I saw the title. Kian my heart breaks for you, I cried almost the whole way through this video. I hope you are able to continue to rest and lean on your support people, I’m so sorry.
Oh Kian…. Oh Kian………… There are no words. The second I saw this thumbnail my heart shattered. Two of my sisters had miscarriages and the pain is unimaginable 💔 Praying for comfort and peace that passes understanding. I know I don’t know you and Kyle, but I’m genuinely grieving with you both.
Thank you for doing this Kian. My first pregnancy ended in miscarriage, and nothing prepares you for the hurt. I’m in my 6th week with number 2 and the fear is heavy, but so is the hope.
Through the most vulnerable times of waiting, hurt, and lack of control is when our intimacy with God can increase, which is a major blessing.
You sharing your experience will be so comforting to people going through it.
Sending my prayers ❤
My husband and I just experienced this last month too. It's been a rollercoaster of emotions and even today, we're still grieving and asking the Lord to help us. I appreciate your vulnerability because I went through the same thing, everything you said and everything you experienced. I went to the ER and had a loving experience. The doctors and nurses were so empathetic and helpful and I was able to get my results quickly. I don't understand why God allows these things to happen, but my husband and I trust Him and know that He is God. He is sufficient and enough. And we allow God to do His will in our life, even when we don't understand.
(((( hugs, love & strength)))🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ Me, this complete strangers CARES❤️❤️ teary eyed right along w/ you……..
You have over 4,000 views on this video. I guarantee you've helped so many people right now who are about to or are currently going through the same. God doesn't waste suffering and pain isn't for nothing. Thank you for your ministry....you will be an amazing mother!:)
Except... He caused the miscarriage.
Praying for you guys. We lost our triplets last year. It was horrible, but God was so present and revealed so much of himself to me. We just had our son last month. Stay faithful- I know how hard it is. Feel the feelings, but remember the Lords promises
When I lost our baby, the ER doctor I had knee but was so kind and held my hand as he looked at me and my husband and reminded us that it wasn’t our fault. I’m so sorry mama.. the pain you’re going through is unbearable and it’s okay to mourn. You’re so loved and we’re praying for you ❤️
I started miscarrying around the night of October 31 and the morning of November 1, 2022 I was miserable. And I still am. It was/is the most horrific emotional thing I’ve been through. I’m so so sorry this happened to you and my heart is with you.
Wow Kian! Thank you for sharing I can’t imagine how tough these last months have been on you guys, while having to still navigate comments and opinions of others :/ The comforting thing is that God knows and understands, even when others do not. Praying for you and Kyle to experience so much joy and peace that surpasses all understanding from God. ❤️❤️
Thank you so much, God is the ultimate comfort and everyone's prayers have really helped us have peace.
This is the first time I’ve ever seen anyone be genuinely vulnerable like this anywhere online. Thank you for sharing with everyone your experience. I can’t imagine what you are going through, I am so sorry for y’all.
Kian and Kyle, I am so so incredibly sorry to hear that you both have experienced this kind of loss. My husband and I had our first miscarriage about two months ago, and it is a completely different type of grief than what i have ever felt. Praying for you both in this season (even if this was filmed a while ago)! Know that you are not alone, and take hope that you WILL see your precious baby again 🤍🫶🏻
Praying for you as well 😥
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I am so sorry, Kian. I have had 4 miscarriages and know how hard it is. And the back and forth of not knowing for sure what's going on and waiting for results from doctors, etc makes it that much more emotionally taxing. Take as much time as you need to heal. Hugs and prayers ❤
I’m so sorry for your loss. I suffered a miscarriage as well at 6 weeks after we told family and were trying for 6 months. We had our rainbow baby a year later and I heard in a book once “I wouldn’t have had my baby now and they’re so perfect for me” and that is so true with my daughter. Blessings to you and your husband ❤️💕 I can’t wait to see my little angel in heaven one day 😊
After watching the first video and you not posting on Instagram I knew this would end in loss. I remember telling my husband, “wow how amazing is it that they’re showing this in real time.” Me and my husband have such a similar story to you and Kyle. We got married in 2021 and had our first pregnancy in June, which also ended in miscarriage. I’ve lost immediate family members but I’ve never grieved like that. Im still in the process of healing. Time helps, and so does Gods voice. Thank you for sharing your experience like this, so real, raw and true. I love you both and I’m praying!!!!
The first sentence of your comment really rubbed me the wrong way. I think that part was so insensitive and really wasn’t necessary to include… or at least you didn’t choose the best wording.
You at the end of the day had no actual idea what the outcome would be. Her not posting could’ve meant she was just waiting until she was done uploading the whole journey. So for you to say that you were expecting of that, and not even in a more sensitive way like “I was really hoping my speculation was wrong” … was super harsh to say and also weird, in my opinion. Just some feedback because it truly set a very distasteful tone to start off your comment with and I assume you did not realize that u came off this way. God bless you
Thank you SO much for sharing this! I’m sure this was incredibly painful to relive as you prepared, edited and shared this video. Thank you for making all of us out here on the Internet feel a little less alone, for allowing us to feel like we can also be honest, and for promoting realness and honesty along with faith and trust. I’m so sorry for the heartache, but looking forward to see what is next for you. Thank you ❤
I am so incredibly sorry, Kian! My heart breaks for you and Kyle. Praying for the peace that passes all understanding for you through this ♥️♥️
It took my husband and I a while to conceive (I have a PCOS) and we miscarried our first, but I got pregnant again a couple months after. It was very emotional losing the first and processing pregnancy. I have a 3 month old baby now, but I was in denial my whole pregnancy that it’s still surreal. I know how tough it is, but keep the faith. The Bible verse I meditated on when trying to conceive is when Jesus says, “If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.”
Matthew 21:22 NIV
Keep believing and keep praying. He will answer.
I’m praying you get the family you dream of. You two would make great parents to raise good Christian soldiers. ❤️ I’m praying for your healing and praying your dreams come true.
Thank you for sharing your experience with us Kian. I'm so sorry for you loss and I hope you find peace and comfort in his presence during this difficult time. “After you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you” 1 Peter 5:10
I am so sorry to hear this. Prayers for you and your family. I'm sharing this in case it brings anyone hope. In November 2021, I got my positive pregnancy test. By December 14th, I was bleeding. I had almost the same experience as you, the ER ran blood and did an ultrasound. They didn't have a conclusive answer. My hcg at that point was high enough that they weren't sure I was having a loss. Over the next few days, I didn't need them to tell me, I could tell the baby was gone. We mourned that loss. It was so hard. But praise God, we actually conceived very, very soon after. Once I had passed everything, my husband and I found healing through intimacy. We actually caught the next egg without me having a full cycle after the loss. By January 9th, I had a definite positive on an early test. God is so good. My 14 month old beautiful, brilliant daughter is sleeping in the next room right now. I hope this brings encouragement to anyone who reads it.
I had 2 back to back chemical pregnancies, then my Dr. & I tried progesterone & I’m now 4.5 months pregnant with our first baby girl 🙏
Praying for you!! Stay strong & trust in Gods timing 🙏
Every time someone else shares a heart breaking miscarriage, women all around feel less lonely. I am so so sorry. Losing your first baby is amongst the worst things. I’ve been there. I leaned on my husband so much, so glad you have each other. Sending hugs
Praise God for your courage to put this on youtube. Will say a prayer for you and your husband, for God to give you strenght and another healthy born and beautiful baby.
I am so sorry for you. As a momma who’s gone through one - I understand how you feel. I pray you and your husband feel Gods love during this time and lean into Him during this. Again - I’m so sorry for the loss of your precious child.
I cried with you the entire video. I can’t imagine the sadness and grief that you have been feeling. I really appreciate you sharing this difficult part of your pregnancy journey. I think that miscarriages aren’t talked about enough and I am so thankful that you shared the ENTIRE journey. Just know that you’ve helped prepare and relate with so many other couples who may go through this very same situation. God can use your pain and sorrow to comfort, educate, and help others who go through this.
We will all experience some degree of sorrow and suffering in this sinful world, but hopefully it drives us back into the arms of our loving Savior and helps us depend on Him more. ♥️
amen❤
I was hoping and praying you wouldn’t join me on this but I had the feeling.. hoping that 2023 will be our year and praying that everything will make sense when we have our babies in our arms ❤️ you are not alone!
So sorry you went through this as well 🤎 praying for healthy babies in 2023
9/11/2021 I had an early miscarriage a week after finding out I was pregnant. I had no signs at all other than a teeny amount of blood my Dr said via phone was implantation bleeding until my first appointment. For the first time ever I didn’t find comfort in Jesus. All I could think was “how could someone that loved me let this happen?” My Dr helped a lot by reminding me “at least we know I am able to get pregnant.” And I just got hormone supplements to strengthen the next pregnancy. I got my period back about 6 weeks after that and was able to immediately get pregnant again. I see now that this baby I’m holding in my arms is why that miscarriage happened. I couldn’t imagine life without her now. You will get through this and come out stronger and when it is your turn for a baby, all the pain and grief and waiting will be more than worth it.
My heart aches with you and Kyle 💛 praying with you as you await another precious miracle 🙏🏼
We went through an early miscarriage in May. It was horrible. After 18 months of trying. I’m so so sorry. Praying for healing!
Thank you for sharing your experience Kian. When I saw you posted your first video for pregnancy journey I was so excited for you and Kyle. Seeing this truly breaks my heart. However, it is so encouraging to see how you’ve anchored yourself to Jesus even though this was not the outcome you hoped for. Through your vulnerability you and Kyle have have spoken of the kindness of God even in loss. Praying for yours and Kyle’s continued healing and complete recovery as you grieve the life of this precious baby and anticipate the miracle of a new life. ❤
I think it’s such a courageous and brave thing for you to do to share such a vulnerable and heartbreaking experience for others. I am so sorry for the pain you’ve been experiencing, it’s so incredibly difficult and that baby will always mean so much to you.
When I lost our little baby last September i was absolutely heartbroken it had felt like a piece of my heart and soul left me forever. I have never felt so alone in that moment and months to come and I wish I had a video like this to watch. While your heart will never fully heal from losing a baby, there is hope and a Lord that is faithful through it all. We welcomed our little rainbow baby this September and she’s everything we could have ever imagined. I will say there is not a day that goes by that I don’t think of our little baby, one day we will meet again and that gives me the hope I need each day.
I just know God will turn this story around into a beautiful one . Keep trusting in the Lord he sees you ❤
My husband and I just lost our first baby and it’s devastating . I am praying for you and your husband and know our true comfort and healing comes from Jesus 💕🙏 I’m so very sorry for your loss.
Thank you for being so open and vulnerable. My husband and I experienced this earlier this year. And it’s very difficult but I am praying for you and Kyle. God is your strength. We are now pregnant with our healthy rainbow baby and I just know that you will have yours too. God will bless you with a beautiful baby. ❤️
I had a feeling something was wrong because there was no social media announcement. I'm so so sorry. My heart breaks for you. Praying for a beautiful rainbow baby. 🙏❤
I love your content and your and Kyle’s journey and have so much respect for you both. But, in love, I don’t know how wise this was to share in this order of video. I want to clarify I have NO issue with you sharing your experience with a miscarriage, that is an isolating experience and I’m sure it helps people to know they are not alone. But for this to have happened months ago, and still post 2 videos prior to this as if you were pregnant when you knew at the time of posting that you were no longer pregnant, I’m honestly not sure how to feel about it. I respect your right to post as you choose, but felt compelled that this may have not been the wisest way to share.
I'm crying with you, I'm so sorry Kian and Kyle. 😔🥺 I'm gonna pray for you right now. God is faithful and He will never abandon you. Thank God you had a community around you ❤️.
We're so deeply sorry for your loss, Kian ❤️ Praying for you guys 🙏 Our first pregnancy also ended in miscarriage so watching this brought back all of those emotions we were feeling in that season. Your strength and choice to share this will be a comfort to so many others going through the same situation. Trusting God's perfect timing for your life and this journey you are on - Sending all our love to you both ❤️
I feel so much pain for you.. I’m so so sorry babe..💔💔😭😭 it’s a sign that life has a better plan for you.💗🥺 I promise everything will eventually will get better.🤍
Thank you for sharing ❤❤❤ I had a miscarriage with our 2nd baby in March. Such a hard thing to go through… Currently pregnant with our rainbow baby. Praying for you and Kyle🙏
Kian, I'm so sorry. I literally JUST went through this *exact* same experience. Found out I was pregnant end of September. Spotted for a while, with extreme pain / bleeding happening on the night of October 31st (where I was 9 weeks pregnant). We found out I miscarried that night in the hospital. It was horrific, and I'm so sorry you're having to go through this. We wouldn't have been able to do it without the support of our friends, church community, and faith. My heart breaks for you and Kyle but know that it does get better. Talking through it has helped too and we are hopeful for the future, but it's a surreal mix of emotions. Praying for you both during this time (prayer is truly powerful).
Beautiful section of scripture at the end Kian.
I've never miscarried, but my husband and I have infertility, so through that I can relate to the feeling of having great hope, visions and plans for the future just to realise that things aren't going to happen quite the way we had expected that they would and then having to completely restructure how we thought our future would look.
I know you know as well as I, that Gods timing is perfect.
Through our struggles I have been able to comfort others and share counsel with others who are in similar positions, and for that I praise God.
May our God be with you, giving you all strength, endurance and filling your innermost being with peace faith and hopefulness.
1 Corinthians 1:4-5
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.
Thank you for sharing even though I know it is not easy . I had a miscarriage back in Feb 2022, but I am now 6 months pregnant. You will be ok with time and god timing is perfect❤
I am so sorry, Kian. My heart goes out to you. Sending you so much love and prayers. I’m glad you guys left the farm and hope this new chapter brings peace and new beginnings
I've finally watched this video out... It was pretty hard. I was dealing with my own thing that started off full for excitement and hope and then I lost it. It was not there anymore. It was not a baby but it was in a sense a miscarriage. I thought I was fully healed and then I watched the beginning of this video... the tears came back. I found myself crying for you, Kian, and crying for me. I had to put a pause on it and bring it to God. I cam back to watch out the video and gosh I am so glad I did because God answered your prayer! Look at that! It may not have been in the way you wanted but He gave you a miracle. He did something illogical. And that scripture in the end... wow... We (you and I) are not consumed by the loss because of God's love for us, which never fails! His timing, His calling, His purpose never fails. And that means that you will become a mum and I will go forth and do the thing I lost, but in His way. I am sorry for the physical, mental and emotional pain. And I am so glad that you came out of this as a stronger person. Love you in Christ, Kian!💛
I’ve gone through two early miscarriages . March was my second miscarriage. It’s something we women don’t talk about until it happens to someone we know. It’s so frustrating and unfortunate that it’s really just out of our hands and sometimes there’s no reason. I pray that the in moments of sadness you also feel some comfort knowing you and your baby are loved and your baby will know nothing but the love you have.
You're so brave, God is crying with you. A big hug to you guys:(
I am so sorry. I’m sending prayers your way. I can’t even fathom what you’re going through right now, but I admire your faith. I praise God that even though your feelings towards Him may be mixed at the moment, He has blessed you to be such an amazing woman.
I'm so sorry for your loss...pregnancy is not easy and things can go wrong at any minute! My friend had a healthy pregnancy but at 36 weeks the baby's heart stopped...she had to give birth...
Also it's common for women to have at least one pregnancy that doesn't go well...
So please get well soon,recover both mentally and physically and you will have your dream!
I'm so sorry you had to go through this. No matter how far along you are, losing a child is devestating.
I'm so sorry for your loss. God has got this and he has the PERFECT TIMING for your beautiful family.
I lost my first child in pregnancy at 10wks and went on to have 3 more children. I still see my child in heaven 🤗🙏🌈
Hi Kian and Kyle. I’m so so sorry for your loss. I had watched your video on Friday and woke up this morning and was journaling and felt prompted to pray for you. May His heart, His love, His strength and His peace overflow you today. Take care.
You guys are both loved so much! Thank you so much for sharing your experience raw and unedited!❤️ You are not alone, I experienced a miscarriage with my husband in August and I know exactly how you’re feeling❤️ There’s going to be days you’re going to be comfortable sharing and days that are not so comfortable with sharing. When I was going through the miscarriage, God had to remind me as I was upset that through the pain he will be there with us. It’s in God’s beautiful timing💞 You guys inspire so many couples! I will keep praying for you both!❤️
Oh, Kian 😢 Your promise from God is still coming even under these circumstances. I know this happened months ago, but I’m praying over your mind. That God continue to give you peace, love, and a sound mind continually as you go along this journey. He’s with you through it all!! Love you guys ❤
So sorry Kian. My had a miscarriage with my first. We tried again and got pregnant soon after. It was so hard but we are thankful for the child we have in our arms. We will pray for you. 💖
I’m so sorry for your loss. I experienced a missed blighted ovum miscarriage in April. It took my body weeks to recognize what was happening, so we found out at my 9 week scan that the baby had stopped growing around 5 weeks but my hcg levels just weren’t dropping fast enough to start the physical process. It was heartbreaking. I found out at the end of June that I am expecting again, and I’m 25 weeks pregnant with a healthy baby boy. I pray that you are able to experience a healthy pregnancy soon, but I know you will always carry the memory of that first baby. Even now as I’m pregnant again, the last couple of weeks have been hard as my first baby’s theoretical due date came and went.
I am so sorry Kian!! Thank you for being such a honest vulnerable person, my heart stopped when I saw the title 😭😭 💔I will be praying for you and Kyle as you heal..
So surreal, as I’ve been following your journey we too fell into the same unfortunate circumstances. We lost our pregnancy on the 12th at about 6 weeks. It’s so hard to go through but know you aren’t alone and I’m so sorry for your loss ❤ Sending you all the love & prayers for a healthy rainbow baby 🙏🏽
I am so sorry for your loss Kian 🤍 Your Faith is so encouraging so hold
on to God. I am praying for you and Kyle during this time!
This was a beautifully done video and series so far. I cried when you cried. I'm so sorry you went through this, not because God won't use it, but because it hurt. Thank you for sharing with us even though it's hard. I'm glad you had good community around you to support in this time. Praying for you!
Thank you for being vulnerable despite all the backlash the internet has thrown at you. Sorry for your loss. I pray God blesses you with yet another miracle, and that He gives you grace to remain patient as you and Kyle wait 🙏🏽❤️
Im so sorry for the disappointment...
I had the exact experience Kian. 2 weeks after I passed the sac we conceived. After that experience I started laying hands in my womb and declaring the word of God. I'm sending you love and hope 💕 God is faithful 🙏 I have a wonderful 7 month old son.
I love this im seriously so scared to start again because I went to go get blood work to rule anything out but ... I also feel soo strongly that next time everything will be ok despite the heartache how did you know it was time ?
So sorry for your loss, your child lived the perfect life in Gods view. You seem like a strong woman of faith, keep it close. Better days are coming. Love and hugs to you and your family. God Bless You!
Kian, I’m so deeply sorry for what you’ve gone through, physically, mentally and emotionally. I cannot imagine this feeling. praying for healing and strong faith. Thank you for sharing such an emotional journey online, as a follower and supporter of you, (I believe I speak for a lot of us who support you) we are here for you no matter what. If you feel you shouldn’t/don’t want to post anything we won’t judge or question. All love, support and prayers ❤️
Kian, you charted this heartbreaking loss so beautifully. I am so sorry for what you went through and am so in awe at how you held tight to the Lord throughout. It was so affirming to end on such a positive note...that piece of Scripture from Lamentations brought tears to my eyes.
I am so sorry love. I know this pain all too well. I have lost 4 sweet babies myself with my last being ectopic. It’s so hard! When you released your first video my heart fell and for some reason I had a feeling you had a miscarriage and was really praying my gut was wrong. No one can ever prepare you for this pain. God carries us through though. I’m about to start ivf next year. Feeling hopeful and praying God has the sweetest little blessing waiting for you to hold one day soon ❤
Wow… just wow!! My heart goes out to you and Kyle so much! I cannot even believe going through all this with all the negative comments and things people say on the internet… people can be so insensitive some times… praise the Lord for those who truly live by what they call themselves, true Christian’s who are willing to live God’s love everyday and bless others with It as well. I pray that you may continue to heal and be strengthened by the Lord and that He may carry you in His Mighty and Loving Hands, and you may always be able to find refuge under His wings.
I went through a miscarriage very similar to your and I was so afraid I was never going to be able to be pregnant again. And literally two cycles later my little miracle happened, and now I’ve had to precious gifts of God afterwards. But the fear of loosing my baby when I was pregnant again was really something and the thoughts would come all throughout the pregnancy especially every time I would have to go for a checkup. But the Lord was with me, He carried me through and the whole pregnancy and delivery were awesome.
Of course, every one of us is different and so is our stories and experiences, but I pray that in the mourning times and in the celebration times, you may always feel God’s love and strength carrying you through, in Jesus’ name 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
Philippians 4:13 🤍
This has broken my heart. I am praying for you and your husband during this time.
Aww I’m so sorry Kian. Whenever you guys come to mind I’ve been praying for you! I felt like the Holy Spirit had showed me this happened and to pray. I’ll continue to pray & just believe this next year will be a year of deep healing, restoration, abundance & provision in every way ❤️ Jesus bless this family
So sorry for your loss ❤️ So appreciate you being vulnerable and sharing your experience- just sharing what you’re going through will help so many other women going through the same thing
Exactly. People say she shares too much but she knows and i think the thing you said above is why she does it. To help people through stuff
Thank you Kian for choosing to share this precious part of your life with us. I am deeply sorry for your loss.
Thank you for sharing that passage of scripture in Lamentations at the end of your video. It is so timely not just for your situation, but I'm sure for others as well. It's always important to remember that even when we experience bad, God is still good. We may not understand why things happen, but we can trust the Lord and His will and His timing for our lives! Praying for both you and Kyle! That God will continue to strengthen your marriage and home! Once again, thank you for being so raw, honest, and transparent! God bless you!
Psalm 30:4-5 nkjv "Sing praise to the Lord, you saints of His, And give thanks at the remembrance of His holy name.
For His anger is but for a moment, His favor is for life; Weeping may endure for a night, But joy comes in the morning."
So sorry for your loss. I totally understand how your feeling since I went through that experience. I pray the lord gives you guys the strength you need during this time. Love ya Kian! 🥰
I’m so sorry for your loss. It never gets easier. I’ve been through it 3x but God is our only strength!
Going through the same thing. Hurts so much. So thankful for the hope that we have in Christ. Although it’s hard, I am not hopeless. Although I mourn, I can still have peace that surpasses all understanding. So sorry you’re going through this :(
Ive had a few miscarriages.. in my time..
I also have 3 healthy girls 🥰
The one positive thing I guess I can tell you is that you most likely fall pregnant very quickly after a miscarriage. I was literally pregnant after 8 weeks later.. and is perfect. I bled with her at 7 weeks thinking it was a miscarriage I was beside myself, but had an ultrasound and there was a healthy baby and the bleeding was a sub chronic hematoma ( bloodclot) between placenta and uterus. So miracles do happen.
I will pray for you 💕💕💕❤️❤️
Oh Kian I feel your loss keenly: my first pregnancy ended within 2 weeks of getting the positive and I was devastated- it was only after that, that all my friends will children suddenly started sharing their miscarriages. Every single one of them had one, at various stages. It was so comforting to know I wasn’t alone, even tho you don’t wish it in anyone! Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable and giving comfort to ALL women embarking on a fertility journey.
So looking forward to a successful pregnancy for you and Kyle ❤
Awww, thank you so much for opening up. This was so hard to watch you grieve, truly sad but God's got you all, happy you had a community of people to support you guys through the tough period.
Thank you thank you thank you for sharing😭 I’m so sorry. That prophecy in the text that you would help other women in your ministry because of this is being fulfilled right now🥺❤️
I’m so sorry for your loss 😔. I pray that the Lord will continue to comfort you and Kyle in this difficult time 🤍
My husband and I wanted nothing more than to conceive a child as soon as we got married. Every month that we tried and didn’t conceive was absolutely heartbreaking. It became a bit more difficult to even track my cycles because of all the big life changes I was going through, and almost every month I was convinced that I was pregnant. In June, our sixth month being married, after we tried I had a deep gut feeling that it didn’t happen this month and was already grieving the negative pregnancy test that would come. This ended up being the month we conceived our first child! We were so surprised! Only four days after getting this good news (two days before my birthday), I miscarried. It was so sudden and definitely the most rollercoaster week of my life. To lose any child is hard, but your first child (especially when you’ve been trying and hoping and praying for them for so long) is especially heartbreaking. I saved as much blood as I could from it and put it in a little wooden, prayer-soaked rosary box, as a little grave for our baby and named him/her as well. This helped my husband and I so much in the grieving process and we still treasure and honor the memory of our first child. Something I was unaware of was that I would experience a mini post-partum afterwards which was incredibly physically and emotionally taxing. We began trying for a second child immediately after I had passed everything, and glory to God we conceived again two months later. I told everyone I knew immediately after getting this news so that they could pray for the health of the baby! I am Now 16 weeks pregnant with a beautiful and healthy baby boy that I can’t wait to meet in May. I share this story because hearing others stories, especially when they were similar to mine, was so helpful. I pray for all the parents who have lost children and thank God for the gift that they were to us, even for such a short time. I keep reminding myself that it’s only a lifetime apart, but eternity together.
I’ve been following your channel for a while and I just want you to know that we’re thinking of you and praying for you both. It’s an indescribable experience that you’re going through but God is here to listen and support you. He’ll stick around no matter what. you’ll both make it to the other side. Thank you for sharing and being honest x
Sweet sister. My heart hurts for your loss but I am so grateful for your transparency. Thank you for your boldness and bravery to share. Praying for your journey.
I am so sorry 😢 I can’t even imagine the feeling! I have been trying to get pregnant for two years now and I understand the pain of wanting a baby so bad and not having one but at least you know you can get pregnant. I pray that God will bless you with another baby as soon as you are ready.
The ending verse made me teary eyed. But we all know God is a GOOD God. I know you’ll get a baby one day & this will all be a part of the testimony! Love you Kian, just keep praying & persevering!!!!!
Hi there! I came across your video and wanted to say how sorry I am that you and your husband suffered a loss. I know what you're going thru. I can relate so much! I miscarried 2 pregnancies. One was like yours and one I was further along and had to get help bc my body didn't get rid of tissues and such. It turned out to be a problem between mine and my babies father blood types. I'm Rh neg and he is B+. I ended up getting a rhogam shot, which is plasma people donate, after every baby had after that. I have 3 adult kids now. I'll be praying for you sweet girl!! God will bless you when it's time. Please do not lose faith!!!! Keep believing!!!!! I hope you and your husband have a Merry Christmas!!!!
I'm so sorry for your loss. My husband, and I lost our first baby due to missed miscarriage at 13 weeks 4 years ago. My best advice is to let yourself feel your feels, and give yourself a lot of grace. You're in my prayers 🤍
I am really really proud of you, Kian. God will give you guys a precious baby in time, the world just isn’t ready for the baby yet. I’m sending you & Kyle so much love and hugs! ❤️
I am so incredibly sorry about your loss. Just experienced two losses in the past 7 months - there is nothing like that kind of pain (physically and emotionally). Praying that God will comfort you and Kyle during this time ❤
I’m so sorry for your loss Kian, I’m praying for your rainbow baby and your healing. 🙏🏽❤️❤️
I'm so sorry for your loss. We lost our first pregnancy at 9 weeks after trying for 3 years. While I don't follow your channel, I do want to thank you for recording your process and talking about your experience. I don't think miscarriage is talked about enough. Having other stories out there really helped me to process my own. I will hope that your dreams comes true in the future.
Your midwife talked so much sense! She’s amazing.
I pray that God would just wrap you and Kyle in his love and presence and comfort and emotional and physical healing. ❤ My heart goes out to you and I pray that you have all the support you need in this time 🕊
Thank you for sharing this even though I imagine it's extremely hard to discuss this, especially online. I went through a near death experience with an ectopic pregnancy. I just want you to know you are not alone; your body and psyche will need time to adjust. With time and a whole lot of support, you will pull through. It took me a long time, but I had no support from anyone.
Thank you Kian for sharing this vulnerable moment, not many people do so but even in the darkest moments, that's when we surrender and just let God do His thing. He showed you that dream so that you keep hoping because He has done it for you already. Keep believing, He is faithful. In our weakness His strength is seen the most.💕💕
Thank you so much for sharing. This is such a great level of vulnerability. May God comfort you both and minister to you.
Your period of celebration will soon be here. God will give you others.