I've seen 1000's of acts and stand-up comedian scenes and acts. This alcohol act is by far the most brilliant one I've even seen! Hilarious! (Go get the worm!)
bill burr's ending to " you people are all the same" or a few of his bits on "I'm sorry you feel that way"?? Patrice 'o neal - fish n boat analogy of "elephant in the room" ? Louis ck, Lenny Bruce, george Carlin..all mainstream comics. n this one.really?
bill burr's ending to " you people are all the same" or a few of his bits on "I'm sorry you feel that way"?? Patrice 'o neal - fish n boat analogy of "elephant in the room" ? Louis ck, Lenny Bruce, george Carlin..all mainstream comics. n this one.really?
There have always been some people offended by comedy, but what you are referring to is the era before social media where some random person cannot start a thread crying about being triggered by a comedy act and get people to agree with it. Social media is really more anti-social media. Use with caution. Less used, the happier people can be. Speaking of which, I should be heading off social media for today. Goodbye!
A lot of old stand up doesn't hold up because it's not really funny anymore. You can argue that you had to understand the era and the times when it was performed to truly appreciate it. This bit doesn't need context. It's a killer. It will be funny for centuries to come.
16. I went to the streets and most I knew got new apartments, new belongings, new albums, new marriages, new jobs. I lost everything and not one of them cared nor told me the truth. Dan started calling me a whore and a bitch when I went to try and visit my cats I was forced to leave with them. Scott refused to talk to me and started making a scene when I asked if I could talk to him. All of them were saying strange things and doing strange things that made reference to my situation but never outright said the truth. Many of those knew me since I was fifteen years old and decided when I was thirty six years old that I was a bad influence or a bad person. That's alot of years knowing someone who's apparently not a good person isn't it? I think most normal people would find that highly suspect. I went camping with many of them, I didn't realize the damage done to the environment until roughly about a year of me living homeless and really didn't get much opportunity to see as my life was falling apart and wasn't even told why. I realized I was most likely swimming in poisonous waters for a while and might be the reason my dog got cancer and I think they harm my pets on purpose. I think they've compromised my health in many ways and won't investigate and won't acknowledge and even did more sick things to me as I was homeless. I know I've shown more tenacity and strength than most would in my circumstances. I even tried employment the moment I was given a somewhat stable place to live and got made sick and harassed there. I am strong, I am kind, I am honest and I am not the coward most are around me. 17. Oh yeah, and the picture I drew when I was in my twenties of the eye inside a rock formation that I'm still sure Alex replaced when he offered to frame it for me at the supposed framing company he worked for that had artists working there, that has since been defaced anyways, could be held up beside my face and resemble what they did to me in mockery without me realizing why. If I don't get justice for what's been done to me that's exactly what intend to do. 18. They put me on stage before we were practiced enough, made me seem like I couldn't play guitar worth a shit. We would have normal practices nights before shows then get on stage and the sound would be crap, Alex would be eratic all of the sudden and my nerves would get the best of me, but I know they did that on purpose. They put me in band called 'Art of Hate', put me on stage before we were practiced, Brian wouldn't say the proper lyrics and later all my videos were changed. 19. I am not a ravenous beast like most in my life, I would never be deliberately cruel like most were. I have never been bulbous in my life since I was kid and was allowed to gorge myself at certain vacations. I'm not even a meat eater anymore. I would never make friends with someone under false pretenses since I was a kid as most have in my life. I would not harm the environment and I enjoyed swimming and camping and had no idea what they were doing up north and what was done to the water, and I haven't heard any honesty about that since my life fell apart and I realized.
Mon. Jan. 4, 2021 I woke up early, listened to the radio. They talk about these Co-Vid vaccines, but not once have I heard anything about the water, which for some reason I'm forced to drink even though I'm not responsible nor even was told. I've been thinking this morning about how I am different, how displayed and yet also isolated I feel, and listening to still snarky comments about this or that but not hearing many truths. Its very weird that I really felt known and sometimes even respected to whatever my existence is these days, without being told why. I find it really weird that they talk about masks and co-vid but not water nor air quality nor lack of a presence of normal government. The lack of justice and feeling that I really am different and not appreciated by what surrounds me, that I feel it's in my best interest to be around a population of people who respect laws and other's lives, even if we're not the same. There is law procedures that are required and that hasn't happened since my life fell apart and beforehand. 2. You know what it seems like they insinuate? That some faction of a foreign or American government decided to investigate the water but have no clue about the truth, and the things around me set me up because of how they were using me, but the least any government faction or representative would've done if they were legit was to speak to me directly. I know why my photos were all altered and that would be to hide what they were doing to my face for years. They reversed the blame on me as far as I can tell because of other disgusting things they were doing and they don't want me in a place where I can prove to another who I am, what I've been through. Anyway, I've been in the system for many years and I'm not supposed to be unknown by my neighbours and policemen that knew and saw me. I think everything that happened as my life was unravelling and I didn't know why, is absolutely disgusting. I believe my mom lived like prisoner most of her life and I feel I've never had the freedom I was led to believe I had. I feel like a commodity and now a scapegoat, rather than the person I always was, kind and friendly and pretty and funny. There isn't a day that goes by where i don't regret staying in this country. If no-one wants believe about the strange occurrences in my life theres not much I can do, but the better part of the last nine years of my life has been things around setting me up to look crazy, like a liar, like an addict, like something I'm not. They can make me seem that way sometimes, mess with me, but an interview with a normal investigator should've happened years ago. I haven't been told one truth, from what my so-called friends are and their involvement in what happened to me, to the corruption of the healthcare that surrounded me to the state of this country now and the losing of everything I owned practically. There seems to be more of an effort to hide the accomplishments of my life and in my opinion its about how much time they can say I wasted in my life. 3. Technically for nine years they haven't let me make music, they haven't let me be able to create art like I used to and I know they've been switching my art up and damaging what I have left. I know I don't own an original photograph and that means they set-up, designed and planned to hide any evidence of the abuse and damage to my face, since I was eighteen/ nineteen years old. 4. Today I wrote and tried to paste it on Facebook and then only one text appeared so I had to erase that and now it's disappeared from the Facebook page alrogether again so they're messing around with my phone again today also. 5. I just received a strange phonecall from a supposed representative of the Toronto Community Housing Corporation who refuses to give me a confirmation letter for my re-application and there was pauses and clicks on the phone line and she told me I had to fill out a medical form with a doctor that they refuse to let me see or have. Everything they're doing is illegal and corrupt, I can't say it enough. They won't let me physically see any doctor in this province that isn't strange and avoids answering questions honestly or doesn't hurt me in some way. Now they're trying to stop me from getting a transfer to a normal housing complex. 6. The scumbag liars are at it again. I finally got through to someone at the Housing Corporation, what it's called these days, after being hung up on twice. The chick said they don't have my re-application on file, 'conveniently' and that I'd have to do it all over again on-line, but that means a year I was supposed to be on the waiting list is lost yet again due to incompetence or deliberate harassment, which is my opinion. Ever since my life fell apart not only has every governmental avenue I've attempted been messed with but they also seem to change their story quite often. Welfare has changed several times as far as amounts they give and their office procedures, government offices aren't responsible or mature or professional as they once were and the housing commission has harassed me from the start and constantly changed their mandates and procedures. Phone numbers are all bullshit and changing all the time. I have three different RCMP numbers that at least one doesn't work anymore for some reason, even though it's a toll-free number. Everything that's happening is absolute nonsense and corruption that I can't honestly believe they get away with. Harassment on this level is disgusting and the fact I have no-one standing up for my rights is even more disgusting. So far no-one is taking anything I say or what's happened to me seriously and so far no-one seems to think I need to have a direct conversation with anyone, which I will say again is illegal. 7. Issues that I've had throughout my life that are supposed to be illegal and what they won't let me report. 1. Constant abuse of my face since I turned of age. 2. An invasion of privacy without my knowledge and consent. 3. Several sexual assaults. 4. An attack when I was homeless and was threatened and police refused to talk to me or acknowledge any of it and even told me there was a statute? (How long ago was that? he said.) 5. Poisons I'm ingesting that no-one will acknowledge or explain nor stop. 6. Stolen belongings and stolen and damaged artwork. 7. Possibility of stolen identification the police won't take seriously. Not allowing proper photos for my ID and the changing of my past ID's I think to hide the damage to my face. 8. Tricked, and in ways, forced into pregnancies and terminations and I believe they did that purposely for corporate gain that no-one will acknowledge. 9. Constant and un-ending harassment on my phone, electronically, and even in public. 10.Insinuations I'm involved in something but a lack of confrontation or representation. 11. A feeling of being detained and watched without explanation and without verbal confrontation. 12. Having nine years of my life wasted for reasons no-one is willing to explain. 13. Harassment and mockery and belittlement at workplaces. Not given fair and equal opportunity. 14.The sterilization and end of my menstrual cycle at Toronto General Hospital three, going on four years ago. 15. The realization of several attempts to decimate my character and reputation. 16. Nine years of an obstruction of justice rather than the administering of justice and total lack of verbal acknowledgement about anything. 17. The banks and other institutions changing their mandate and harassing since my life fell apart. 18. Tricked into a false marriage and am not with the real divorce papers and am unsure when I was officially divorced and they were unhelpful at the family court of law when I wanted answers as to reasons why. 8. All of those are legitimate concerns and violations of my rights and very factual.
Thurs. Oct. 8, 2020 Last night I had five beers and smoked cigarette after cigarette. I saw a star over my head most of the night. I can only assume that kind of cowardly punishment comes from a psychotic womb raider. The only honesty I ever started to get about my life was when my life started to fall apart. Only one out of all them thought I deserved the truth about how cowards punish, how cowards kill, how cowards demeen and take advantage of people's lives. I'm surrounded by that disgusting circus I guess. And I still say they're all ego and cruelty and selfishness and I only feel sorry about my opinions of them to the ones who were honest with me. By the time I was writing 'Poisoned Pawn', it was the only time someone was honest about how they were womb-raiding me. The rest of my life has been them either humiliating me, using me, trashing my face and body. Nasty cowards, that's all I can say about most of them. All ego, all selfishness, no morals and not even facing me as they kill me. Disgusting, horrible beings. I think the world should know what they do to women. That's my opinion and I deserve legal help, but with egos like them its no wonder no-one fucks with them, even though they're constantly abusing life and people. 2. All this rich traffic and cowardly bullying. They really don't deserve the egos they have. Well, now I know what's around me most of the time. I guess they're what constantly fuck with people and their minds whilst playing with themselves and enjoying misery and sorrow. What a bunch of psychos! Every time I go for a walk there's a manipulation, cowardly behavior from the rich and fancy cars and really, they've haunted my life all my life and never relented. Some coward has been jealous all my life. They won't even face me and say what they are. I don't know how anyone becomes what they are, I guess they're mostly emotionally retarded and I guess they're raises to be hateful, nasty beings. I don't even know for sure who was telling me the truth but I know it was when I was living with Scott, but his cat who was fat was behaving strange and horribly and something I'd never seen before. So even there there was a combination of truth and psychotic behavior. His cat was masturbating and that was really disgusting. Some things are really sick in the head. I guess I know why certain beings are in and out of my life. And now I know what always is around me humiliating me, hating me, well, sort of, technically they're still not man enough to face me and say what they are and their hatred. I was thinkinf yesterday about how Angelo and Tyrone had the first cellphones and how recently a name came up with my taxes and that was Wendy. I don't know get at all, but I have heard she's racist like Tyrone and super rich. And I might have even heard she can't have kids but I'm not sure. I have never met that broad but I know Tyrone had an ego and for some reason was extremely racist and I know they were around me with their cellphones since I was with Dave at sixteen years old when I moved out with him. The same place where traffic was passing me as I was getting drunk on my front lawn. Money, someone with money. A psychotic coward and cowards with lots of money. 3. Like I said, I was pretty and kind, and some fugly, nasty beings stood over my head and constantly harassed and humiliated and hurt and used and all I know is I was told that Wendy chick was super rich. I still say they're the most cowardly race in the universe and honestly think they all deserve to eat shit for what they did to my life and how they abused me. If I had known that some psychos were standing over my head all my life I would've tried to at least move and never known any of them ever again. I can't believe how egotistical, selfish, cruel and cowardly they are. I can't believe how nasty they are. 4. I guess somehow in their sick heads they justify it. I guess I know why that dumb broad came into the Beerstore all challenging and snarky and then started getting nastier when I retorted. "Did you hear how she talked to me?" Big, nasty, undeserved egos. And their cowardly males that hurt women for their psycho-broads. I guess they what, are what's gassing the planet? All those fancy homes in certain places with fresh air as the rest of the planet dies and the only reason I'm sitting in fresh air is so they can threaten, harass and humiliate me more because of the abuse they won't even acknowledge or admit that they subjected me to? I can't say enough how disgusting they are. I hope they eat shit, I hope they rot and I hope one day they develop mature and genuine human emotions and a moral conscience. 5. They might have the money and numbers to get away with abusing me, humiliating me and denying me justice for what they did to me but I'm not the cowards they are. Its not my fault how they can manipulate minds, but I still say that's the only reason anyone respects them, and that's sad. Respect should be earned, not gained due to fear and manipulation. They really are all disgusting. I was beautiful inside and outside, and they'll always be cowards and bullies and egos they don't deserve. 6. Like I said, I went to the streets and Angelo got two new cars and a trailer. Tyrone is Angelo's best friend and that Wendy chick is Tyrone's best friend. Wouldn't that be horrible if some rich bitch I've never met had something to do with the demise of my life, and I never even met her once? It might explain some of the money around me and who's being paying someone to smash my face. It's quite possible that they are the jealousy and perversion that's surrounded my life. It was Tyrone who set up the computer when I was working with that Tim guy at the office furniture place and I was on-line looking at the Satanic website of Antoine Lavey. I guess thats no accident. What the fuck is the matter with them? Why did they know me if that's what they thought of me? And since Tyrone is a blatant racist that would explain how I was getting phonecalls at places that I had just moved in to calling me a chink. I had no idea how evil they were. I had no idea they really hated and resented me. I had no idea how jealous they were. That's how cowardly and disgusting they are. And they're not even man enough to tell me the truth. I knew Angelo and Scott for twenty-three years and they put onto the streets, let me be sterilized, let me be abused most of my life, that's the extent of their emotional depth. They didn't once tell me the truth about what they thought of me or how little they respected me. I honestly think they're the most despicable, evil, loveless and cruel things I ever knew, and didn't know. 7. You know, it amazes me also, how little guilty conscience Angelo has. Like I said, he came to my place, said how I have my art and music at least and that he'll never do anything like that and I said at least he has his son to try and make him feel better, and he has such little emotion that he probably knew I was going to the streets and would have eveything damaged or stolen or ruined. He has such little emotion he visited me when I was in a tent living in the park, wondering why my life went how it went, and all he did was give me twenty dollars and smoke a joint with me. And that thing's a father? It amazes me that even though I've never liked Dan that he would stand there and yell that I'm a whore and a bitch when all I wanted was to talk to Scott and visit my cats. They really all are psychotic and evil and selfish. I don't think any of those things have any genuine emotions at all. Like I said, when my life was falling apart all anyone ever said when I called them is they were sick, as though it was my fault. They're sick in their heads and I still can't believe that of all of them, Scott would do that to me. For what? Money? Meat? Both? Hurt me without even explaining themselves once? They're all more than cowards, they're evil, hateful, racist, disgusting, perverse and fugly. I don't know how they live with themselves. 8. And so it wasn't an accident that I moved into that place on Barker just around the corner from Toronto East General Hospital as they started their womb-raiding buisness. And all the other disgusting humiliations of me, like Alex tearing down our blinds and cutting me and having sex with me in front of an open window. And Mr. Ali isn't short on money either. So they were all profiting and then that hospital got a huge donation and now I'm constantly surrounded by fancy cars, humiliation, lies and threats and no-one with emotions or morals will help me. They're all rich, they're all evil and cruel and they're all cowards. And like I said, they get bulbous and fat and I seriously hope they all eat shit. You can't imagine how cruel and cowardly they all are. 9. And the last time I was womb-raided I just happened to be invited to Brian Monk's party where I was introduced to Carlos and that guy has money and his psycho bitch has plastic surgery all over her face. So it's no wonder a plastic surgeon could damage my face and hurt me with no remorse. Most of those things have plastic surgery of some kind. Besides, I'm still sure Toronto East General came up with the plan to make my womb a buisness and I honestly can't win compared to that much corruption and money. All I can say is they're all evil and cowardly and now I know what kind of disgusting creatures they are. As I've said many times, no amount of plastic surgery will ever make them beautiful inside. They're all nasty opportunists and its no wonder so many I knew went out of my life and had new beginnings with new belongings. I seriously hope you all get exposed as the hateful opportunists and murderers you are.
Wed. Dec. 23, 2020 I decided to go downtown today. First I tried stopping at the Long and McQuade's but a chick stopped me at the door and said they wouldnt let me in. I went to Spadina and got some Vienamese subs. Stopped at Steve's and bought a pedal, I'll see if I get distortion at least, got some new strings. That's something I guess. I stopped at the liquor store and hot a six-pack of beer and a bottle of wine for the holidays. Everyone seems to try and draw my attention to their acne or the tiny little lines on their cheeks, as though they're the same as me, as though someone carved into their face and left a gouge across their cheek and forehead. I was almost in tears most of the day because of how shitty I look and how everyone acts as though they're the same and the lack of justice. They're not me, they're not guinea pigs, they weren't womb-raided and scarred on purpose repeatedly. I was really pretty and I still say much of it was jealousy and wanting to exploit me and have no sympathy from anyone. I think they're all disgusting. I only got shocked a few times so they were slightly nicer today. Only one black guy deliberately kicked my cart today. 2. They wouldn't accept my password for my e-mail account and made me use a code number then I re-entered my old password. There's no reason I was logged out in the first place. 3. The disgusting things are messing with my phone again and when I see the multi-windows the facebook page is black. Oh yeah, and I've decided to call Islington station 'spineless-thing' station. In memory of the coward who pretended to care about me and heard me cry about my face for years then let them gouge my face and left me to suffer on the streets. Happy holidays to all the cowards and liars in my life who let me suffer and lied to and about me. 4. There's also a phenomenal amount of traffic, not usual. I guess the drama and illusion of my happiness and their understanding is today. It's all a disgusting joke. A bunch of evil and selfish beings who are trying to pretend they're not and will give the illusion because I have beer and some music that I'm okay and my life is tolerable and that they're fair and just or some bullshit. I guess that's why the added censorship and hacking of my phone today. 5. Like I said, I will find justice somehow and I don't believe everyone I knew is willing to lie about me or let me lied about. All I need is one or two real people to stand up for me and tell the truth. Maybe this government will one day do it's job and confront me about what happened and why, and why I feel punished and detained with no explanations or legal representation.
It's because SJWs live in a delusional fantasy and they are completely ignorant about the real world. I can't wait till that completely retarded political fad dies off.
8. I was thinking about they stink sometimes, how Ross and Mrs. Rust said my mom was dirty, which back then was not true. My mom was neat and tidy before they took me away from her. I was thinking about Scott's place and how it stunk feom the doorway because he never let me inside until his family died. How Guin was as unkempt as anyone could possibly be and Children's Aid let her kid crawl around in that mess and let her keep her kid. How Ross said my place stank of cigarettes because that's all anyone ever did in my place and I've said many times they've been killing me with cigarettes since I was twelve years old. I was thinking about the time Guin and Scott invited me to where they were camping and how their tent smelled so bad of mildew that I opted to sleep in their car which also stank. I think Ross and the Rusts learned how to adjust their behavior to seem more righteous and how they accuse normal people of being dirty. I was thinking about mildew and mould and how it appeared everywhere before my life fell apart. It was a mildewy towel John Crews left on the towel rack that put acne on my face I'm sure. I still believe that was deliberate. I think it's weird that many of them don't seem to care about stenches, but sometimes say they do. And I do believe they changed their normal habits and started accusing people of what people were accusing them of. 9. I believe both the Rusts and Ross and Sue are part of an agenda to reverse the blame on people and hide what they really are. Mrs. Rust kept a clean house but when she cooked that tripe the smell didn't even bother her. And it's quite obvious to me that Ross and Sue have and never did have concern for my happiness and what happened to me. If I had known that Scott and Guin were shapeshifters I probably wouldn't have written such angry lyrics, on the other hand I'm sure they were setting me up from the start and cleansing me from the start, which is violent action technically, so they're hypocrites. I still say its disgusting they pretended to be friends and that I was them in relationships not even knowing what they were. I was saying this morning there should be laws against that so that people aren't abused nor subject to their cruel jealousies. I also believe that all of entertainment and media is their kids told they'd be successful and wealthy as long as they delude society and was saying this morning how they offer shows and entertainment so that people can live vicariously through imaginary nature and adventures when there should be a world of freedom to roam and have real experiences. I won't believe that most of them are unaware that's what they are and what they do. It's a very selfish bunch of beings and I believe people deserve better than to worship them and sit around wishing for a better life. 10. And I also believe it was their influence and manipulation all along that cause me to write what I wrote and incite a race war and excuse abuses made against me and an excuse to damage the environment. I think war is how they feed themselves and make money and what they wanted all along, and I was their scapegoat. I think for all their acting and blame reversal, I'm sure this what they do time and time again with no guilty conscience nor even the mental awareness of their own cruelty and deceit. They're clever and conniving, I've seen many times how good they are at acting, but emotionally and morally, I'll always say they're idiots. 11. I believe there's a reason why Kathy left the household first, and then both Pauline and I was running to her. I believe the moment I was painting K.R.(which to me meant Kill Religion) and F.T.W. as a young girl that her or possibly Mrs. Rust's influence was already at work. Much of their goading and influence was what caused my unhappiness and eventual tantrums that they used against me. I really believe they're evil, and they wear crosses and go to church. I was saying this morning I had every right to know my own kind, to know other atheists, to be a sheep among sheep, which they always denied me. I don't know how many artists are aware compared to how many artists become a tool and voice for something else, but to blame artists is cowardly and cruel. They probably have done it many times. Some things will never change. 12. Birds of a feather flock together. That was Mrs. Rust's saying.
Sat. June 27, 2020 Yesterday I went to my neighbours and met two new beings. For some reason I can't remember their names at all today. They look like a darker version of Steve Rust. The female looked a little bit like me in the face, but not really the same feet or arms or body shape. To be honest though it really does make me think about who my parents really are and my origins. But what bothers me is my inability to retain names these days and even what's said sometimes. My hands aren't like hers. My hands are closer to that white kid I met in the park when I was hanging around that Dan guy. You know that guy that I had a DVD of said democracy was two wolves and a sheep deciding what to have for supper, it really seems this way. Like I said, I've seen both get bulbous. Sometimes it really does feel like there's more predator than prey these days. A simple conversation I could have and remember would be nice. 2. Once when I was working at the bookstore I was talking a guy who I always thought looked like the actor from 'Something Wicked This Way Comes' and a female walked by who was long limbed and dark with really long hair and the guy said that she was a real earth mother and possibly from Burma and that he dated a girl from Burma once. Later I saw her and she was bigger. That makes me feel uneasy, but like I've said I've seen it in long and short beings which I still believe is the two 'wolves' that guy on the DVD spoke of metaphorically. Who is exactly like me I'm still not sure. My hair is thinning, Kathy's was not but her teeth were gone. Fat things mostly have hair and Kathy was flicking it alot and almost bragging about it like she knew before I did that my hair would start falling out. She really is a hateful beast. The weird thing is they all knew I had no clue about my life and why they hated me but they still are nasty in the most conniving ways. I'm still not totally sure about what's what and the reasons. All I wanted was a normal life and for whatever reason I was never allowed. For some reason both Kathy and that Dan guy and others have opened their legs at me in a crude way, which I really find repulsive. I'm not sure what they mean by that. I find it absolutely disgusting though and it's definitely deliberate. That's why I keep trying to say I'm human, because I don't behave like an animal like them. I have strange idiosynchrocies but those are not deliberate actions like how they spread their legs at me and if I become aware I try to change it, like sometimes I've noticed it will seem like I'm holding my hand in a weird way so when I realize I try to adjust, but what they do is very deliberate. That's why I know I'm human, I don't use body language on purpose or deliberately try to mess with words or mess with heads like they do. I guess blind and naive people like me are at the mercy of all that know and what I think is exactly what I wrote before. 3. That people and life are missing and they're divvying up the booty(as in death and misery), and all the thievery and disrespect from others was them knowing my life was basically forfeit and they figured I don't matter so they might as well steal from me and humiliate me in the meantime. I see the buildings around me, I see what was in most of them after I left the city and I know they're angry at me because many of them are sick. That's about all I know as facts, the rest I have to guess at. 4. Well, in my opinion I've separated myself morally from both sides since I refuse to eat meat anymore and in that way I can be sure of who I am. Know thyself they say and that's what I'm trying to do the best I can. 5. I've been thinking about their jealousy, the Rusts and others. You know it really does seem to be a black and white competition, but it wasn't my idea or my fault. Mrs. Rust hated me, their kids were cruel to me. She wasn't the most attractive. I remember sometimes how my stepmother Sue said about Kathy how it was too bad about how her life went and how she was so pretty and I'm pretty too. I was supposed to be their daughter. It wasn't my competition, it wasn't my fault, but for some reason they wouldn't relent until I was insecure and sad. Like I said, their ugliness is inside and I wasn't competing with them. That's how fucked in their heads they are, whilst making regular people seem insane. I never could understand it, but I always tried to avoid it as they tried constantly to shove it in my face. They're so evil, they really are. After my breasts were deformed it was non-stop display of themselves. I had no idea, like I said, back then I didn't make much distinction between black and white but I learned early that they do. I think they're really stupid for everything they did to me, especially when I had no idea why. They don't really seem to think about that. After a while I just figured they were inherently competitive and mean, and really it turns out to be true. And it does make them feel good when I'm sad so they're also inherently cruel, but they don't seem intelligent enough to realize I never knew why. I don't think that's all whites, I think its mostly those white things and their idiot children. Maybe everyone else just goes along with the mentality, like how everyone in Burlington would say "O my god" all the time or like how at one time everyone had hoola-hoops. Fads and trends and similar mentalities. They really are relentless when it comes to me though and I can't say enough how cowardly they are for the ways they attacked me and hurt me as a child. I guess now I know though. 6. Lets just say we are all created in the image of the beings, and they have their competitions and jealousies amongst each other, why wouldn't beings like Mrs. Rust and others be intelligent enough to know it's not our fault? I thought her jealousy was really weird and sometimes I do wonder if it's some past indiscretion of Mr. Rust that made her so hateful. I was told it was fear and not hate, that's not true. It was hatred and jealousy from the start that I never knew or understood. It hurt my feelings alot growing up but now I think they're all idiots for taking out their resentments on people who had no idea. I would never do what they did to me. Some people for whatever reason are more individualistic than others and I'm one of them. I started to avoid it all but for whatever reason that wasn't satisfactory enough for them. It was always their fight not mine. It's no wonder those things including Ross won't acknowledge what was done to my face, which the most recent scar was put there by a brown thing strangely enough. Sometimes I feel like I can't be the only one, and I don't get bulbous and I'll never trust that. There's also obviously a competition of creativity which all the idiots took out on me as well. Mrs. Rust yelling at me that I'm not the only one that can play piano was weird at best. I would never be so mean to a child. Then the competition of music and them thinking they own a genre which I never knew, like I said, it wasn't my competition. All that moronic behavior from Carlos, Erich, Spiros, Anna(whom I don't even know), her buddies,Alex Erdhart, my stolen artworks and music, all done to me by idiots who were having a competition I was unaware of. I'd rather be with a person who is normal and kind and appreciates the value of hard work and self efforts rather than thievery and destruction of people's property. I think they're all really horrible beings. Not one of them said anything honest to me as my life was falling apart, cowards. 7. I really am afraid I'll never meet an individual who can appreciate who I am as a person before I die. I just want to know a real man. I'm tired of idiots, I really am, their issues are really not my problem. Is there individuals in this world who don't see me as one of them, knows me for who I really am, appreciated me and doesn't want to kill or eat me? I know Kathy's 'people' will never be that. 8. I guess going to a predominantly white government who's been abusive most of my life and telling them my life has been turmoil because of racism is redundant. Understand they're not the most just or intellectual beings and try to survive and hope one day I meet a real man. 9. Yeah and especially since they inundate the media with their images of different ethnicities and have their token blacks and browns who get successful, anyone who complains of racism they can say, "Oh that's bullshit! Look at so and so who's successful and look at those wealthy blacks or asians." They do that on purpose so that the ones that really do get abused are never believed.
Mon. Sept. 14, 2020 Its 8:28pm and the security just knocked on my door and said the next door neighbour complained I was knocking on his door and I've been on the phone all evening playing video games. Harassment from cowards isn't going to save their ugly and cowardly asses.
It seems they no longer are going to let me cut and paste my journals here, and both my Facebook and my e-mails have these weird ghost-pages that appear and disappear under what I write and I know they've hacked all my accounts and no-one will do anything to help me and still no-one tells me the truth.
9. By the way, it is law, it is a requirement of law, that if a person is suspected in anything, involved in anything or has been abused and under investigation that that person be confronted, be told the truth and be offered a legal representative. Fact! Or you can do what the cowards have been doing to me for nine years and more. Make person alone and homeless, harass them and threaten them, send only scumbag idiots around them to make them seen like deviants, torment and terrorize them, create scenarios in which a person will look like something they're not, destitute and use that as a way to infiltrate that persons life by offering small favours like a place to stay or small amount of cash and mock them while doing so. All the while denying them answers and legal representation. Push a person's stress and mind to the limit to justify every previous abuse done to them. All tactics of cowards and opportunists. Nine years of abuse and more and they still are unrelenting and still denying me my rights to legal help, safe living, legitimate healthcare. This country is shameful and corrupt and quite honestly cowardly in their portrayal of me and what people like me are going through.
19. The police won't help me, the RCMP wouldn't help me. I've been not only smoking alo t of cigarettes but also been handed noxious coffees and they've done something to the water here that makes me sick. This government won't protect me and they know I've been trying to get help for eight years. 20. Nobody has the right to use me the way they did and do, no-one has the right to harm me and not help me or give me fair legal advice or legal help. No-one has the right to isolate me and punish me the way they do when I was technically meant to help the world and was a kind person who doesn't deserve any of this. They're slowly killing me, they're ruining my reputation, they're lying about me and who I am, and they obstruct me from any justice. If I try to get help from police they instantly accuse my sanity without even knowing me. They're murderers and I'm sure they're womb raiders and I'm sure they're trying to get rid of me to rid of evidence that not only did they use me but try to kill me also. 21. The last time my glands got swollen when I was living with that John Wells guy and his supposed wife at the Main Square apartments and tried to get help, the nurse wouldn't even touch me and said my glands weren't swollen. And then Toronto General Hospital sterilized me as a woman at 43 years of age and I'm now 46. This city is disgusting. It really is, and what I've been going through for eight years and more without so much as one conversation is disgusting and cruel. 22. Apparently I got taxes today, which means shopping in this area is probably deadly for me. Just in case someone writes me and accuses my sanity or asks why I'm writing this here. Because no-one talks to me, no-one helps me and the fucking police don't even care and I know my health problems and threats made against me are not my fault and not deserved and not even acknowledged. 23. I need help from a person who's actually going to care about me. I left a message for Huong(because she really doesn't behave like the mother I once knew who loved me and cared), and asked if cops won't help, and she doesn't care, and Ross doesn't care, then who does? All these things around me think I'm expendable and useable and that I don't matter. I need help from a person without selfish intent and who isn't a religious psychopath. I can't trust anyone. All of them used me and didn't bother to tell me nor cared how they did. This government is more interested in covering up how they use and abuse people rather than helping those in need. I really had no idea how evil the Rusts were and the church apparently. You know how the puritan ran around killing heathens? You know how I was taken from a loving mother and given to Christians who abused me and lied to me and made me seem like a heathen child and even kicked me out of their church when I was a child for knocking a girl over in her chair as a joke? They all pride themselves in being pure until one day they realize it's not so great to be pure and decide to raid wombs and interbreed, and those things are what fucked my life. And most are so selfish they think I'm public property and I don't matter. I need someone other than those WASPs and things that hurt and use me to help me. Someone with enough human emotion and compassion to realize I deserve help and freedom and choice and justice and honesty and don't deserve what these disgusting things have always done to me. 24. A lady sensible was also the one who pointed out the fact that the church is what killed Jesus Christ. 25. What religion and most 'people' don't want the world to know is people became dirt, WASPs are manufactured, like I said they started interbreeding and experimenting because they started to realized they die because they're pure, and they killed us for the same reason. Their Jesus is nothing more than a guy who fucked a dirty human and made a dirty machine. And Alex's lyrics, "Kill for the sake of survival.", that's what they do to people and why now many of them live to be between seventy and ninety years old, and most people die between the ages of twenty to fifty years old. They're supposed to eradicate dirt but they're not so stupid as to realize they'd be all that's left so they use people, blind people, enslave people, raid wombs, experiment on people, tell people false reasons for war because they always want the bodies flowing. All facts that no-one will acknowledge and why so many people suffer, and why no-one cares about me. 26. And I know its easy for them to disclaim everything I say and make every word I say seem as nuts as they are, but I'm telling the truth. I got hassled and harassed and abused most of my life and have spent the last eight years getting threatened and made sick and other horrible things and no-one will help me and I'm not nuts. It's all who knew me that all of the sudden decided to not help me and I was completely unaware of why and hadn't even fought with them until after I was made homeless. My glands have been swelled at least a few times as I was trying to get my life together or living terrified on the streets. I tried to get a job and got made sick there after a coffee and that's when the hospital wouldn't even touch me but made a diagnosis? I'm dirt, and that means unpalatable, and that's a fact of this world. So call me crazy or harm me, but I was meant to help, not be exploited by greedy and nasty things who put no value on my life except their dollars. 27. And another thing, they gave me taxes today so I'd look happy and go shopping. They've capitulated between making me look like a street whore drug addict and sometimes a person who's happy and shops for nice things. I've always worked or collected welfare or unemployment when needed, I've been harassed from all of those types of income and the last eight years these things can't decide what to make me seem like, but in reality, I'm not happy and I don't have money and they've always kept me destitute whilst profiting from me. All facts. The only time I got a break these last eight years of being ignored was talking to scumbags I wouldn't normally, because no-one else would help me, or having a few beers and listening to music, which makes me seem happy when I'm not. I'm not suicidal, I'm not self-harming except the cigarettes I can't quit and for eight years as I was homeless and scared and denied help or answers, mostly all I could think is how could my so-called friends and family do this to me. And then I slowly realized they never were. 28. And all you selfish things that did raid wombs, as expendable as I am is as expendable as you are.
What makes one living being have the audacity to think their lives have more meaning or value than another's? Are they psychotic? They've been violently shocking my mind for days now with no guilt or remorse. What makes them not introspect on someone else's suffering? Where's their sick minds at and why don't they study their own lack of emotions within their minds? I believe anyone who harms another the way they do me, facelessly and cowardly shocking and messing with the minds of living creatures for a piece of paper that says they're educated or for money or reputation seriously is missing something from the emotional centres of their minds and lack the individual fortitude to make moral choices in life. They need to obviously have the same done to them before they can empathize with another which shows a complete lack of individual thought. No wonder those demented things change their cowardly faces. It's things like them that cause misery and suffering for all life, and yet they study us as an anomaly? Truly their lack of emotion and morals is an example of their lack of human traits, and especially the greatest human trait of love, which obviously they are incapable of.
Fri. Apr. 10, 2020 Today I checked my bank account and still the e-mail I received saying my taxes were deposited is not in my account, as well as those two e-mails I received saying two amounts had been deposited on my 'Advantage Card', whatever that is. I told them repeatedly I didn't want their credit card and now I'm not even getting the HST they're supposed to deposit for some reason. It's really cold today, even flakes of snow are swirling around this morning. I woke up thinking about many things. I was thinking about the song, 'Breeding the Madness', how guys never cared about me, how Louise had five kids, maybe more, and how she told me how attractive her first boyfriend was and how he 'charmed the pants off her'. I was thinking how that's how they get us. They send some charming, attractive guy our way, use us and then when our looks go to hell, they ditch us and then we handed to less attractive breeders. At least that won't be an issue for me anymore, only the 'charmers' who would now trick us into being killed or something else horrible. Alot of beautiful women probably lost their lives that way. I lose faith in the hope that real men exist for women on this planet anymore. I find it really sad how deluded many young girls become with a system designed to keep us breeding and stupid and naive and complacent. I'm going to have to find a way to talk to somebody about what's obviously fraudulent activity with this H&R Block in this area and probably all over, and whoever's sending me these e-mails. 2. Yesterday I was considering going to the H&R Block but I found someone to sell me a cheap pack of cigarettes so I stayed in all day and played video games. I wondered if I always sit in all day as someone who resembles me goes places and does weird or fraudulent or criminal things in my name. I should've known the day I was going to H&R Block they were setting me up, but this system and everyone is so corrupt no-one even takes any complaint or problem I have seriously. So I spent most of the day yesterday listening to the radio, and all they do is repeat music and have weird news reports on the supposed 'Covid19 virus', which I'm sure is bullshit and no-one talks about that either. No-one talks about all the corruption and weirdness around. I played the 'Rollercoaster Mania' game most of the day, re-designing the park. I thought, did my nails, well cleaned and prepped them, had a bath, listened to some music, exercised a little. All of what's happening to me is so illegal and cruel and yet no-one acknowledges anything. There is no real law, there is no real government, there is no-one helping me in a legitimate way.
I miss the 80's and 90's. UGH.....I didn't realize what I had until Millennials became adults....Gen Z became adults....and the crazy PC culture infiltrated our media and universities😫. Jim's entire outfit (including his VANS/Sketchers sneakers) is something I would've been wearing, during the same year (1997).
Tues. Cont'd 10. And what was my supposed grandad? First Special Service Force, Canadian branch. And what is Ross? American Air Force. And what is that pig who pretended to be my half brother when I went to California in my twenties? American Air Force. And where did I drive Jessie after I was womb-raided? Ottawa army base. And why does no-one help or care, because those things don't and because they truly are above the law and have done perverse and sick things forever and most resemble things that aren't human. And I'm not them. Oh yeah and the pig that visited Dave when I was sixteen and getting violated who's name was supposedly Steve? Supposedly Canadian Navy. Those things aren't me and as far as I'm concerned they're not men. And what do they do to children they supposedly rescue from war-torn countries? Exactly what they did to me. They aren't men. They are absolutely not men. They are the same creatures that cause war and strife and fill their bellies and wallets as they've always done. And as I've said many times, those that start wars rarely fight and die in them. And also as I wrote before, when have you ever seen a battlefield full of dead, fat and rotund bodies? Never. Almost always able-bodied people and those in good shape die on battlefields, not fat and bulbous things.
Mon. Jan. 4, 2021 I woke up early, listened to the radio. They talk about these Co-Vid vaccines, but not once have I heard anything about the water, which for some reason I'm forced to drink even though I'm not responsible nor even was told. I've been thinking this morning about how I am different, how displayed and yet also isolated I feel, and listening to still snarky comments about this or that but not hearing many truths. Its very weird that I really felt known and sometimes even respected to whatever my existence is these days, without being told why. I find it really weird that they talk about masks and co-vid but not water nor air quality nor lack of a presence of normal government. The lack of justice and feeling that I really am different and not appreciated by what surrounds me, that I feel it's in my best interest to be around a population of people who respect laws and other's lives, even if we're not the same. There is law procedures that are required and that hasn't happened since my life fell apart and beforehand. 2. You know what it seems like they insinuate? That some faction of a foreign or American government decided to investigate the water but have no clue about the truth, and the things around me set me up because of how they were using me, but the least any government faction or representative would've done if they were legit was to speak to me directly. I know why my photos were all altered and that would be to hide what they were doing to my face for years. They reversed the blame on me as far as I can tell because of other disgusting things they were doing and they don't want me in a place where I can prove to another who I am, what I've been through. Anyway, I've been in the system for many years and I'm not supposed to be unknown by my neighbours and policemen that knew and saw me. I think everything that happened as my life was unravelling and I didn't know why, is absolutely disgusting. I believe my mom lived like prisoner most of her life and I feel I've never had the freedom I was led to believe I had. I feel like a commodity and now a scapegoat, rather than the person I always was, kind and friendly and pretty and funny. There isn't a day that goes by where i don't regret staying in this country. If no-one wants believe about the strange occurrences in my life theres not much I can do, but the better part of the last nine years of my life has been things around setting me up to look crazy, like a liar, like an addict, like something I'm not. They can make me seem that way sometimes, mess with me, but an interview with a normal investigator should've happened years ago. I haven't been told one truth, from what my so-called friends are and their involvement in what happened to me, to the corruption of the healthcare that surrounded me to the state of this country now and the losing of everything I owned practically. There seems to be more of an effort to hide the accomplishments of my life and in my opinion its about how much time they can say I wasted in my life. 3. Technically for nine years they haven't let me make music, they haven't let me be able to create art like I used to and I know they've been switching my art up and damaging what I have left. I know I don't own an original photograph and that means they set-up, designed and planned to hide any evidence of the abuse and damage to my face, since I was eighteen/ nineteen years old. 4. Today I wrote and tried to paste it on Facebook and then only one text appeared so I had to erase that and now it's disappeared from the Facebook page alrogether again so they're messing around with my phone again today also.
This bit is literally the funniest top 10 skits of all time. Freaking genius!
"I've had it up to HERE now"
Genius.
The face mannerisms he pulls with the scotch whiskey is astoundingly, perfect even
the timing is perfect as well... "hey!.......... Heineken!" :)
Tequila sounds like Scarface lol
theres so much knowledge and wisdom and observation tapped into this bit! this is art!
This has to be one of the best standup bits in the universe. I've been to other planets, this is right up with the very best of them.
I can't stop watching this particular show with Jim. This is brilliant and genius comedy ..
I remember seeing this when I was like 14. It was funny back then, but now it makes a lot more sense 🤣🤣🤣
Ahh, no one told you the rule when you were little. "Beer before liquor, never sicker." You poor kid.
@@faegrrrl Actually, I have different rule. Beer before liquor, Stop being a little bitch. 👍🏽
man that was a good bit. the saki impression had me laughing hard
One of his best tight fives
I watch this at least once a year and I still get a pain in my belly for laughing 😂♥️😂♥️😂 Live this dude.
I've seen 1000's of acts and stand-up comedian scenes and acts. This alcohol act is by far the most brilliant one I've even seen! Hilarious! (Go get the worm!)
bill burr's ending to " you people are all the same" or a few of his bits on "I'm sorry you feel that way"?? Patrice 'o neal - fish n boat analogy of "elephant in the room" ? Louis ck, Lenny Bruce, george Carlin..all mainstream comics. n this one.really?
bill burr's ending to " you people are all the same" or a few of his bits on "I'm sorry you feel that way"?? Patrice 'o neal - fish n boat analogy of "elephant in the room" ? Louis ck, Lenny Bruce, george Carlin..all mainstream comics. n this one.really?
don't be a hater...Jim is the shit when it comes to physical comedy and story telling! STFU
And for my money Norm Macdonald is the greatest standup of all time there sharma!
you obviously havent seen shit if you think this is the best...
Holy shit, this guy's impressions are LEGENDARY!...😅😂🤣
Absolutely brilliant 👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼
Imagine him trying the tequila joke today
Good thing it was 1997
Comedy has died.
I envision a "modern day" crucifixion would happen today :/
@@KZ_MMA_ If they get their way, old videos like this will be illegal to show in the future :/
@@imheretochewbubblegumEnvision, but I agree
One of the greatest standup bits ever created. JB was and still is a genius.
Hennessee or however it's spelled was so late it missed the party.
Hennessy... but that's funny!! 🤭😅
Hahahhaa
Love jim so underrated
The writing... the writing! Brilliant!
Ahh the good ole days when no one was offended by a comedy routine
It's worse today bro.shit ain't the same
Do people seriously get offended by this??? He is not mocking or making fun of anybody spesiffically.
@@12388753 bro cancel culture is the reason why we can't joke or mock anymore
There have always been some people offended by comedy, but what you are referring to is the era before social media where some random person cannot start a thread crying about being triggered by a comedy act and get people to agree with it.
Social media is really more anti-social media. Use with caution. Less used, the happier people can be.
Speaking of which, I should be heading off social media for today. Goodbye!
Jim is a LEGEND!
I see some Robin Williams in him.
And Jim Carrey
The perfect joke
Gold.
Lol one of his best skits ❤
Genius!
This act always get me laughing.. Nice act jim breur.. 😁😂😂
The good ol'days 😂🪱
Classic bit
The beer sounds just like Tommy Chong lol.
Yeah, you're right, I hadn't realized that, awesome!
Thats cus beers are cool and mellow...
Greatest skit of all time
Genius !!
This was great LOL
The way you came in genius 🤣👏💖
2024 still watching it
Classic bit....
We all need to diversify! But I've diversified too much!
the best part is "Oi! Heineken!"
This man is very talented! So funny!
The best comedy routine ever.
Legend 🇺🇸
This is hilarious
So young!
Gold comedy
Moral of the story ...KEEP "TEQUILA" OUT
Learned that lesson the hard way
We left the worm in the van .🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
classic
4:50-bwahahahahaha. That hot dog sounded like Norm Macdonald.
BRIAN!!!!!!!!
fucking perfect wow!
ALRIGHT THATS IT EVERYONE GET OUT! 😆
Damn this was funny
Comic mastery
A lot of old stand up doesn't hold up because it's not really funny anymore. You can argue that you had to understand the era and the times when it was performed to truly appreciate it. This bit doesn't need context. It's a killer. It will be funny for centuries to come.
2:49
Sounds like me 21st birthday
I feel old now
He looks like stoned mark hamill
Comic genius.
Queenslander
16.
I went to the streets and most I knew got new apartments, new belongings, new albums, new marriages, new jobs. I lost everything and not one of them cared nor told me the truth. Dan started calling me a whore and a bitch when I went to try and visit my cats I was forced to leave with them. Scott refused to talk to me and started making a scene when I asked if I could talk to him. All of them were saying strange things and doing strange things that made reference to my situation but never outright said the truth. Many of those knew me since I was fifteen years old and decided when I was thirty six years old that I was a bad influence or a bad person. That's alot of years knowing someone who's apparently not a good person isn't it? I think most normal people would find that highly suspect. I went camping with many of them, I didn't realize the damage done to the environment until roughly about a year of me living homeless and really didn't get much opportunity to see as my life was falling apart and wasn't even told why. I realized I was most likely swimming in poisonous waters for a while and might be the reason my dog got cancer and I think they harm my pets on purpose. I think they've compromised my health in many ways and won't investigate and won't acknowledge and even did more sick things to me as I was homeless. I know I've shown more tenacity and strength than most would in my circumstances. I even tried employment the moment I was given a somewhat stable place to live and got made sick and harassed there. I am strong, I am kind, I am honest and I am not the coward most are around me.
17.
Oh yeah, and the picture I drew when I was in my twenties of the eye inside a rock formation that I'm still sure Alex replaced when he offered to frame it for me at the supposed framing company he worked for that had artists working there, that has since been defaced anyways, could be held up beside my face and resemble what they did to me in mockery without me realizing why. If I don't get justice for what's been done to me that's exactly what intend to do.
18.
They put me on stage before we were practiced enough, made me seem like I couldn't play guitar worth a shit. We would have normal practices nights before shows then get on stage and the sound would be crap, Alex would be eratic all of the sudden and my nerves would get the best of me, but I know they did that on purpose. They put me in band called 'Art of Hate', put me on stage before we were practiced, Brian wouldn't say the proper lyrics and later all my videos were changed.
19.
I am not a ravenous beast like most in my life, I would never be deliberately cruel like most were. I have never been bulbous in my life since I was kid and was allowed to gorge myself at certain vacations. I'm not even a meat eater anymore. I would never make friends with someone under false pretenses since I was a kid as most have in my life. I would not harm the environment and I enjoyed swimming and camping and had no idea what they were doing up north and what was done to the water, and I haven't heard any honesty about that since my life fell apart and I realized.
Mon. Jan. 4, 2021
I woke up early, listened to the radio. They talk about these Co-Vid vaccines, but not once have I heard anything about the water, which for some reason I'm forced to drink even though I'm not responsible nor even was told. I've been thinking this morning about how I am different, how displayed and yet also isolated I feel, and listening to still snarky comments about this or that but not hearing many truths. Its very weird that I really felt known and sometimes even respected to whatever my existence is these days, without being told why. I find it really weird that they talk about masks and co-vid but not water nor air quality nor lack of a presence of normal government. The lack of justice and feeling that I really am different and not appreciated by what surrounds me, that I feel it's in my best interest to be around a population of people who respect laws and other's lives, even if we're not the same. There is law procedures that are required and that hasn't happened since my life fell apart and beforehand.
2.
You know what it seems like they insinuate? That some faction of a foreign or American government decided to investigate the water but have no clue about the truth, and the things around me set me up because of how they were using me, but the least any government faction or representative would've done if they were legit was to speak to me directly. I know why my photos were all altered and that would be to hide what they were doing to my face for years. They reversed the blame on me as far as I can tell because of other disgusting things they were doing and they don't want me in a place where I can prove to another who I am, what I've been through. Anyway, I've been in the system for many years and I'm not supposed to be unknown by my neighbours and policemen that knew and saw me. I think everything that happened as my life was unravelling and I didn't know why, is absolutely disgusting. I believe my mom lived like prisoner most of her life and I feel I've never had the freedom I was led to believe I had. I feel like a commodity and now a scapegoat, rather than the person I always was, kind and friendly and pretty and funny. There isn't a day that goes by where i don't regret staying in this country. If no-one wants believe about the strange occurrences in my life theres not much I can do, but the better part of the last nine years of my life has been things around setting me up to look crazy, like a liar, like an addict, like something I'm not. They can make me seem that way sometimes, mess with me, but an interview with a normal investigator should've happened years ago. I haven't been told one truth, from what my so-called friends are and their involvement in what happened to me, to the corruption of the healthcare that surrounded me to the state of this country now and the losing of everything I owned practically. There seems to be more of an effort to hide the accomplishments of my life and in my opinion its about how much time they can say I wasted in my life.
3.
Technically for nine years they haven't let me make music, they haven't let me be able to create art like I used to and I know they've been switching my art up and damaging what I have left. I know I don't own an original photograph and that means they set-up, designed and planned to hide any evidence of the abuse and damage to my face, since I was eighteen/ nineteen years old.
4.
Today I wrote and tried to paste it on Facebook and then only one text appeared so I had to erase that and now it's disappeared from the Facebook page alrogether again so they're messing around with my phone again today also.
5.
I just received a strange phonecall from a supposed representative of the Toronto Community Housing Corporation who refuses to give me a confirmation letter for my re-application and there was pauses and clicks on the phone line and she told me I had to fill out a medical form with a doctor that they refuse to let me see or have. Everything they're doing is illegal and corrupt, I can't say it enough. They won't let me physically see any doctor in this province that isn't strange and avoids answering questions honestly or doesn't hurt me in some way. Now they're trying to stop me from getting a transfer to a normal housing complex.
6.
The scumbag liars are at it again. I finally got through to someone at the Housing Corporation, what it's called these days, after being hung up on twice. The chick said they don't have my re-application on file, 'conveniently' and that I'd have to do it all over again on-line, but that means a year I was supposed to be on the waiting list is lost yet again due to incompetence or deliberate harassment, which is my opinion. Ever since my life fell apart not only has every governmental avenue I've attempted been messed with but they also seem to change their story quite often. Welfare has changed several times as far as amounts they give and their office procedures, government offices aren't responsible or mature or professional as they once were and the housing commission has harassed me from the start and constantly changed their mandates and procedures. Phone numbers are all bullshit and changing all the time. I have three different RCMP numbers that at least one doesn't work anymore for some reason, even though it's a toll-free number. Everything that's happening is absolute nonsense and corruption that I can't honestly believe they get away with. Harassment on this level is disgusting and the fact I have no-one standing up for my rights is even more disgusting. So far no-one is taking anything I say or what's happened to me seriously and so far no-one seems to think I need to have a direct conversation with anyone, which I will say again is illegal.
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Issues that I've had throughout my life that are supposed to be illegal and what they won't let me report.
1. Constant abuse of my face since I turned of age.
2. An invasion of privacy without my knowledge and consent.
3. Several sexual assaults.
4. An attack when I was homeless and was threatened and police refused to talk to me or acknowledge any of it and even told me there was a statute? (How long ago was that? he said.)
5. Poisons I'm ingesting that no-one will acknowledge or explain nor stop.
6. Stolen belongings and stolen and damaged artwork.
7. Possibility of stolen identification the police won't take seriously. Not allowing proper photos for my ID and the changing of my past ID's I think to hide the damage to my face.
8. Tricked, and in ways, forced into pregnancies and terminations and I believe they did that purposely for corporate gain that no-one will acknowledge.
9. Constant and un-ending harassment on my phone, electronically, and even in public.
10.Insinuations I'm involved in something but a lack of confrontation or representation.
11. A feeling of being detained and watched without explanation and without verbal confrontation.
12. Having nine years of my life wasted for reasons no-one is willing to explain.
13. Harassment and mockery and belittlement at workplaces. Not given fair and equal opportunity.
14.The sterilization and end of my menstrual cycle at Toronto General Hospital three, going on four years ago.
15. The realization of several attempts to decimate my character and reputation.
16. Nine years of an obstruction of justice rather than the administering of justice and total lack of verbal acknowledgement about anything.
17. The banks and other institutions changing their mandate and harassing since my life fell apart.
18. Tricked into a false marriage and am not with the real divorce papers and am unsure when I was officially divorced and they were unhelpful at the family court of law when I wanted answers as to reasons why.
8.
All of those are legitimate concerns and violations of my rights and very factual.
Food before beer, your in the clear
Breuer and Jay Mohr have always been underrated with the public, but ask comedians if they're funny..
i fucking spit when he made the japanese accent.
Thurs. Oct. 8, 2020
Last night I had five beers and smoked cigarette after cigarette. I saw a star over my head most of the night. I can only assume that kind of cowardly punishment comes from a psychotic womb raider. The only honesty I ever started to get about my life was when my life started to fall apart. Only one out of all them thought I deserved the truth about how cowards punish, how cowards kill, how cowards demeen and take advantage of people's lives. I'm surrounded by that disgusting circus I guess. And I still say they're all ego and cruelty and selfishness and I only feel sorry about my opinions of them to the ones who were honest with me. By the time I was writing 'Poisoned Pawn', it was the only time someone was honest about how they were womb-raiding me. The rest of my life has been them either humiliating me, using me, trashing my face and body. Nasty cowards, that's all I can say about most of them. All ego, all selfishness, no morals and not even facing me as they kill me. Disgusting, horrible beings. I think the world should know what they do to women. That's my opinion and I deserve legal help, but with egos like them its no wonder no-one fucks with them, even though they're constantly abusing life and people.
2.
All this rich traffic and cowardly bullying. They really don't deserve the egos they have. Well, now I know what's around me most of the time. I guess they're what constantly fuck with people and their minds whilst playing with themselves and enjoying misery and sorrow. What a bunch of psychos! Every time I go for a walk there's a manipulation, cowardly behavior from the rich and fancy cars and really, they've haunted my life all my life and never relented. Some coward has been jealous all my life. They won't even face me and say what they are. I don't know how anyone becomes what they are, I guess they're mostly emotionally retarded and I guess they're raises to be hateful, nasty beings. I don't even know for sure who was telling me the truth but I know it was when I was living with Scott, but his cat who was fat was behaving strange and horribly and something I'd never seen before. So even there there was a combination of truth and psychotic behavior. His cat was masturbating and that was really disgusting. Some things are really sick in the head. I guess I know why certain beings are in and out of my life. And now I know what always is around me humiliating me, hating me, well, sort of, technically they're still not man enough to face me and say what they are and their hatred. I was thinkinf yesterday about how Angelo and Tyrone had the first cellphones and how recently a name came up with my taxes and that was Wendy. I don't know get at all, but I have heard she's racist like Tyrone and super rich. And I might have even heard she can't have kids but I'm not sure. I have never met that broad but I know Tyrone had an ego and for some reason was extremely racist and I know they were around me with their cellphones since I was with Dave at sixteen years old when I moved out with him. The same place where traffic was passing me as I was getting drunk on my front lawn. Money, someone with money. A psychotic coward and cowards with lots of money.
3.
Like I said, I was pretty and kind, and some fugly, nasty beings stood over my head and constantly harassed and humiliated and hurt and used and all I know is I was told that Wendy chick was super rich. I still say they're the most cowardly race in the universe and honestly think they all deserve to eat shit for what they did to my life and how they abused me. If I had known that some psychos were standing over my head all my life I would've tried to at least move and never known any of them ever again. I can't believe how egotistical, selfish, cruel and cowardly they are. I can't believe how nasty they are.
4.
I guess somehow in their sick heads they justify it. I guess I know why that dumb broad came into the Beerstore all challenging and snarky and then started getting nastier when I retorted. "Did you hear how she talked to me?" Big, nasty, undeserved egos. And their cowardly males that hurt women for their psycho-broads. I guess they what, are what's gassing the planet? All those fancy homes in certain places with fresh air as the rest of the planet dies and the only reason I'm sitting in fresh air is so they can threaten, harass and humiliate me more because of the abuse they won't even acknowledge or admit that they subjected me to? I can't say enough how disgusting they are. I hope they eat shit, I hope they rot and I hope one day they develop mature and genuine human emotions and a moral conscience.
5.
They might have the money and numbers to get away with abusing me, humiliating me and denying me justice for what they did to me but I'm not the cowards they are. Its not my fault how they can manipulate minds, but I still say that's the only reason anyone respects them, and that's sad. Respect should be earned, not gained due to fear and manipulation. They really are all disgusting. I was beautiful inside and outside, and they'll always be cowards and bullies and egos they don't deserve.
6.
Like I said, I went to the streets and Angelo got two new cars and a trailer. Tyrone is Angelo's best friend and that Wendy chick is Tyrone's best friend. Wouldn't that be horrible if some rich bitch I've never met had something to do with the demise of my life, and I never even met her once? It might explain some of the money around me and who's being paying someone to smash my face. It's quite possible that they are the jealousy and perversion that's surrounded my life. It was Tyrone who set up the computer when I was working with that Tim guy at the office furniture place and I was on-line looking at the Satanic website of Antoine Lavey. I guess thats no accident. What the fuck is the matter with them? Why did they know me if that's what they thought of me? And since Tyrone is a blatant racist that would explain how I was getting phonecalls at places that I had just moved in to calling me a chink. I had no idea how evil they were. I had no idea they really hated and resented me. I had no idea how jealous they were. That's how cowardly and disgusting they are. And they're not even man enough to tell me the truth. I knew Angelo and Scott for twenty-three years and they put onto the streets, let me be sterilized, let me be abused most of my life, that's the extent of their emotional depth. They didn't once tell me the truth about what they thought of me or how little they respected me. I honestly think they're the most despicable, evil, loveless and cruel things I ever knew, and didn't know.
7.
You know, it amazes me also, how little guilty conscience Angelo has. Like I said, he came to my place, said how I have my art and music at least and that he'll never do anything like that and I said at least he has his son to try and make him feel better, and he has such little emotion that he probably knew I was going to the streets and would have eveything damaged or stolen or ruined. He has such little emotion he visited me when I was in a tent living in the park, wondering why my life went how it went, and all he did was give me twenty dollars and smoke a joint with me. And that thing's a father? It amazes me that even though I've never liked Dan that he would stand there and yell that I'm a whore and a bitch when all I wanted was to talk to Scott and visit my cats. They really all are psychotic and evil and selfish. I don't think any of those things have any genuine emotions at all. Like I said, when my life was falling apart all anyone ever said when I called them is they were sick, as though it was my fault. They're sick in their heads and I still can't believe that of all of them, Scott would do that to me. For what? Money? Meat? Both? Hurt me without even explaining themselves once? They're all more than cowards, they're evil, hateful, racist, disgusting, perverse and fugly. I don't know how they live with themselves.
8.
And so it wasn't an accident that I moved into that place on Barker just around the corner from Toronto East General Hospital as they started their womb-raiding buisness. And all the other disgusting humiliations of me, like Alex tearing down our blinds and cutting me and having sex with me in front of an open window. And Mr. Ali isn't short on money either. So they were all profiting and then that hospital got a huge donation and now I'm constantly surrounded by fancy cars, humiliation, lies and threats and no-one with emotions or morals will help me. They're all rich, they're all evil and cruel and they're all cowards. And like I said, they get bulbous and fat and I seriously hope they all eat shit. You can't imagine how cruel and cowardly they all are.
9.
And the last time I was womb-raided I just happened to be invited to Brian Monk's party where I was introduced to Carlos and that guy has money and his psycho bitch has plastic surgery all over her face. So it's no wonder a plastic surgeon could damage my face and hurt me with no remorse. Most of those things have plastic surgery of some kind. Besides, I'm still sure Toronto East General came up with the plan to make my womb a buisness and I honestly can't win compared to that much corruption and money. All I can say is they're all evil and cowardly and now I know what kind of disgusting creatures they are. As I've said many times, no amount of plastic surgery will ever make them beautiful inside. They're all nasty opportunists and its no wonder so many I knew went out of my life and had new beginnings with new belongings. I seriously hope you all get exposed as the hateful opportunists and murderers you are.
Wed. Dec. 23, 2020
I decided to go downtown today. First I tried stopping at the Long and McQuade's but a chick stopped me at the door and said they wouldnt let me in. I went to Spadina and got some Vienamese subs. Stopped at Steve's and bought a pedal, I'll see if I get distortion at least, got some new strings. That's something I guess. I stopped at the liquor store and hot a six-pack of beer and a bottle of wine for the holidays. Everyone seems to try and draw my attention to their acne or the tiny little lines on their cheeks, as though they're the same as me, as though someone carved into their face and left a gouge across their cheek and forehead. I was almost in tears most of the day because of how shitty I look and how everyone acts as though they're the same and the lack of justice. They're not me, they're not guinea pigs, they weren't womb-raided and scarred on purpose repeatedly. I was really pretty and I still say much of it was jealousy and wanting to exploit me and have no sympathy from anyone. I think they're all disgusting. I only got shocked a few times so they were slightly nicer today. Only one black guy deliberately kicked my cart today.
2.
They wouldn't accept my password for my e-mail account and made me use a code number then I re-entered my old password. There's no reason I was logged out in the first place.
3.
The disgusting things are messing with my phone again and when I see the multi-windows the facebook page is black. Oh yeah, and I've decided to call Islington station 'spineless-thing' station. In memory of the coward who pretended to care about me and heard me cry about my face for years then let them gouge my face and left me to suffer on the streets. Happy holidays to all the cowards and liars in my life who let me suffer and lied to and about me.
4.
There's also a phenomenal amount of traffic, not usual. I guess the drama and illusion of my happiness and their understanding is today. It's all a disgusting joke. A bunch of evil and selfish beings who are trying to pretend they're not and will give the illusion because I have beer and some music that I'm okay and my life is tolerable and that they're fair and just or some bullshit. I guess that's why the added censorship and hacking of my phone today.
5.
Like I said, I will find justice somehow and I don't believe everyone I knew is willing to lie about me or let me lied about. All I need is one or two real people to stand up for me and tell the truth. Maybe this government will one day do it's job and confront me about what happened and why, and why I feel punished and detained with no explanations or legal representation.
Try mixing tequila and spicy tomato juice. You get spicy tomato flavored cottage cheese. Don't ask how I know this!
UND BECKS!!
Three times I've tried to post today's thoughts and they won't let me.
Man, it's too bad this act wouldn't fly in today's PC society. So hilarious.
+faensostress Yeah, because Anthony Jeselnik has been immensely successful \sarcasm
More people complaining about PC people than PC people complaining about non PC content.
This would work absolutely fine in today's culture. This bit's hilarious
Just 2 weeks ago i saw a metallica concert and jim breuer did the opening act for whatever reason and he did more or less the same thing
It's because SJWs live in a delusional fantasy and they are completely ignorant about the real world. I can't wait till that completely retarded political fad dies off.
8.
I was thinking about they stink sometimes, how Ross and Mrs. Rust said my mom was dirty, which back then was not true. My mom was neat and tidy before they took me away from her. I was thinking about Scott's place and how it stunk feom the doorway because he never let me inside until his family died. How Guin was as unkempt as anyone could possibly be and Children's Aid let her kid crawl around in that mess and let her keep her kid. How Ross said my place stank of cigarettes because that's all anyone ever did in my place and I've said many times they've been killing me with cigarettes since I was twelve years old. I was thinking about the time Guin and Scott invited me to where they were camping and how their tent smelled so bad of mildew that I opted to sleep in their car which also stank. I think Ross and the Rusts learned how to adjust their behavior to seem more righteous and how they accuse normal people of being dirty. I was thinking about mildew and mould and how it appeared everywhere before my life fell apart. It was a mildewy towel John Crews left on the towel rack that put acne on my face I'm sure. I still believe that was deliberate. I think it's weird that many of them don't seem to care about stenches, but sometimes say they do. And I do believe they changed their normal habits and started accusing people of what people were accusing them of.
9.
I believe both the Rusts and Ross and Sue are part of an agenda to reverse the blame on people and hide what they really are. Mrs. Rust kept a clean house but when she cooked that tripe the smell didn't even bother her. And it's quite obvious to me that Ross and Sue have and never did have concern for my happiness and what happened to me. If I had known that Scott and Guin were shapeshifters I probably wouldn't have written such angry lyrics, on the other hand I'm sure they were setting me up from the start and cleansing me from the start, which is violent action technically, so they're hypocrites. I still say its disgusting they pretended to be friends and that I was them in relationships not even knowing what they were. I was saying this morning there should be laws against that so that people aren't abused nor subject to their cruel jealousies. I also believe that all of entertainment and media is their kids told they'd be successful and wealthy as long as they delude society and was saying this morning how they offer shows and entertainment so that people can live vicariously through imaginary nature and adventures when there should be a world of freedom to roam and have real experiences. I won't believe that most of them are unaware that's what they are and what they do. It's a very selfish bunch of beings and I believe people deserve better than to worship them and sit around wishing for a better life.
10.
And I also believe it was their influence and manipulation all along that cause me to write what I wrote and incite a race war and excuse abuses made against me and an excuse to damage the environment. I think war is how they feed themselves and make money and what they wanted all along, and I was their scapegoat. I think for all their acting and blame reversal, I'm sure this what they do time and time again with no guilty conscience nor even the mental awareness of their own cruelty and deceit. They're clever and conniving, I've seen many times how good they are at acting, but emotionally and morally, I'll always say they're idiots.
11.
I believe there's a reason why Kathy left the household first, and then both Pauline and I was running to her. I believe the moment I was painting K.R.(which to me meant Kill Religion) and F.T.W. as a young girl that her or possibly Mrs. Rust's influence was already at work. Much of their goading and influence was what caused my unhappiness and eventual tantrums that they used against me. I really believe they're evil, and they wear crosses and go to church. I was saying this morning I had every right to know my own kind, to know other atheists, to be a sheep among sheep, which they always denied me. I don't know how many artists are aware compared to how many artists become a tool and voice for something else, but to blame artists is cowardly and cruel. They probably have done it many times. Some things will never change.
12.
Birds of a feather flock together. That was Mrs. Rust's saying.
Sat. June 27, 2020
Yesterday I went to my neighbours and met two new beings. For some reason I can't remember their names at all today. They look like a darker version of Steve Rust. The female looked a little bit like me in the face, but not really the same feet or arms or body shape. To be honest though it really does make me think about who my parents really are and my origins. But what bothers me is my inability to retain names these days and even what's said sometimes. My hands aren't like hers. My hands are closer to that white kid I met in the park when I was hanging around that Dan guy.
You know that guy that I had a DVD of said democracy was two wolves and a sheep deciding what to have for supper, it really seems this way. Like I said, I've seen both get bulbous. Sometimes it really does feel like there's more predator than prey these days. A simple conversation I could have and remember would be nice.
2.
Once when I was working at the bookstore I was talking a guy who I always thought looked like the actor from 'Something Wicked This Way Comes' and a female walked by who was long limbed and dark with really long hair and the guy said that she was a real earth mother and possibly from Burma and that he dated a girl from Burma once. Later I saw her and she was bigger. That makes me feel uneasy, but like I've said I've seen it in long and short beings which I still believe is the two 'wolves' that guy on the DVD spoke of metaphorically. Who is exactly like me I'm still not sure. My hair is thinning, Kathy's was not but her teeth were gone. Fat things mostly have hair and Kathy was flicking it alot and almost bragging about it like she knew before I did that my hair would start falling out. She really is a hateful beast. The weird thing is they all knew I had no clue about my life and why they hated me but they still are nasty in the most conniving ways. I'm still not totally sure about what's what and the reasons. All I wanted was a normal life and for whatever reason I was never allowed. For some reason both Kathy and that Dan guy and others have opened their legs at me in a crude way, which I really find repulsive. I'm not sure what they mean by that. I find it absolutely disgusting though and it's definitely deliberate. That's why I keep trying to say I'm human, because I don't behave like an animal like them. I have strange idiosynchrocies but those are not deliberate actions like how they spread their legs at me and if I become aware I try to change it, like sometimes I've noticed it will seem like I'm holding my hand in a weird way so when I realize I try to adjust, but what they do is very deliberate. That's why I know I'm human, I don't use body language on purpose or deliberately try to mess with words or mess with heads like they do. I guess blind and naive people like me are at the mercy of all that know and what I think is exactly what I wrote before.
3.
That people and life are missing and they're divvying up the booty(as in death and misery), and all the thievery and disrespect from others was them knowing my life was basically forfeit and they figured I don't matter so they might as well steal from me and humiliate me in the meantime. I see the buildings around me, I see what was in most of them after I left the city and I know they're angry at me because many of them are sick. That's about all I know as facts, the rest I have to guess at.
4.
Well, in my opinion I've separated myself morally from both sides since I refuse to eat meat anymore and in that way I can be sure of who I am. Know thyself they say and that's what I'm trying to do the best I can.
5.
I've been thinking about their jealousy, the Rusts and others. You know it really does seem to be a black and white competition, but it wasn't my idea or my fault. Mrs. Rust hated me, their kids were cruel to me. She wasn't the most attractive. I remember sometimes how my stepmother Sue said about Kathy how it was too bad about how her life went and how she was so pretty and I'm pretty too. I was supposed to be their daughter. It wasn't my competition, it wasn't my fault, but for some reason they wouldn't relent until I was insecure and sad. Like I said, their ugliness is inside and I wasn't competing with them. That's how fucked in their heads they are, whilst making regular people seem insane. I never could understand it, but I always tried to avoid it as they tried constantly to shove it in my face. They're so evil, they really are. After my breasts were deformed it was non-stop display of themselves. I had no idea, like I said, back then I didn't make much distinction between black and white but I learned early that they do. I think they're really stupid for everything they did to me, especially when I had no idea why. They don't really seem to think about that. After a while I just figured they were inherently competitive and mean, and really it turns out to be true. And it does make them feel good when I'm sad so they're also inherently cruel, but they don't seem intelligent enough to realize I never knew why. I don't think that's all whites, I think its mostly those white things and their idiot children. Maybe everyone else just goes along with the mentality, like how everyone in Burlington would say "O my god" all the time or like how at one time everyone had hoola-hoops. Fads and trends and similar mentalities. They really are relentless when it comes to me though and I can't say enough how cowardly they are for the ways they attacked me and hurt me as a child. I guess now I know though.
6.
Lets just say we are all created in the image of the beings, and they have their competitions and jealousies amongst each other, why wouldn't beings like Mrs. Rust and others be intelligent enough to know it's not our fault? I thought her jealousy was really weird and sometimes I do wonder if it's some past indiscretion of Mr. Rust that made her so hateful. I was told it was fear and not hate, that's not true. It was hatred and jealousy from the start that I never knew or understood. It hurt my feelings alot growing up but now I think they're all idiots for taking out their resentments on people who had no idea. I would never do what they did to me. Some people for whatever reason are more individualistic than others and I'm one of them. I started to avoid it all but for whatever reason that wasn't satisfactory enough for them. It was always their fight not mine. It's no wonder those things including Ross won't acknowledge what was done to my face, which the most recent scar was put there by a brown thing strangely enough. Sometimes I feel like I can't be the only one, and I don't get bulbous and I'll never trust that. There's also obviously a competition of creativity which all the idiots took out on me as well. Mrs. Rust yelling at me that I'm not the only one that can play piano was weird at best. I would never be so mean to a child. Then the competition of music and them thinking they own a genre which I never knew, like I said, it wasn't my competition. All that moronic behavior from Carlos, Erich, Spiros, Anna(whom I don't even know), her buddies,Alex Erdhart, my stolen artworks and music, all done to me by idiots who were having a competition I was unaware of. I'd rather be with a person who is normal and kind and appreciates the value of hard work and self efforts rather than thievery and destruction of people's property. I think they're all really horrible beings. Not one of them said anything honest to me as my life was falling apart, cowards.
7.
I really am afraid I'll never meet an individual who can appreciate who I am as a person before I die. I just want to know a real man. I'm tired of idiots, I really am, their issues are really not my problem. Is there individuals in this world who don't see me as one of them, knows me for who I really am, appreciated me and doesn't want to kill or eat me? I know Kathy's 'people' will never be that.
8.
I guess going to a predominantly white government who's been abusive most of my life and telling them my life has been turmoil because of racism is redundant. Understand they're not the most just or intellectual beings and try to survive and hope one day I meet a real man.
9.
Yeah and especially since they inundate the media with their images of different ethnicities and have their token blacks and browns who get successful, anyone who complains of racism they can say, "Oh that's bullshit! Look at so and so who's successful and look at those wealthy blacks or asians." They do that on purpose so that the ones that really do get abused are never believed.
IPA’s don’t know regular 🍺 beer
Awesome routine, but the Scotch sounded Irish. ;)
Tequila sounds italian :D
@@sunshine55666 italian? Nah, definitely cuban
Wow. This was 30 years ago
20...
SupaEMT134 yeah, dude, your math skills are weak. It's going on 21 years now. Not 30. You must be young.
Did you go to school?
Seriously scared me there for a sec!
Idiot
No, Jagermeister is always the last won to crash that party and destroy it.
They've erased my attempts to post Tues. Aug. 17, 2021 several times.
The PC police would have a fit if this was done now.
Liking CZcams videos be helping some poor shmuck out there so give it a thumb up.
Was this a low key diss at immigration to America 😂😂
Mon. Sept. 14, 2020
Its 8:28pm and the security just knocked on my door and said the next door neighbour complained I was knocking on his door and I've been on the phone all evening playing video games. Harassment from cowards isn't going to save their ugly and cowardly asses.
It seems they no longer are going to let me cut and paste my journals here, and both my Facebook and my e-mails have these weird ghost-pages that appear and disappear under what I write and I know they've hacked all my accounts and no-one will do anything to help me and still no-one tells me the truth.
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By the way, it is law, it is a requirement of law, that if a person is suspected in anything, involved in anything or has been abused and under investigation that that person be confronted, be told the truth and be offered a legal representative. Fact!
Or you can do what the cowards have been doing to me for nine years and more. Make person alone and homeless, harass them and threaten them, send only scumbag idiots around them to make them seen like deviants, torment and terrorize them, create scenarios in which a person will look like something they're not, destitute and use that as a way to infiltrate that persons life by offering small favours like a place to stay or small amount of cash and mock them while doing so. All the while denying them answers and legal representation. Push a person's stress and mind to the limit to justify every previous abuse done to them. All tactics of cowards and opportunists. Nine years of abuse and more and they still are unrelenting and still denying me my rights to legal help, safe living, legitimate healthcare. This country is shameful and corrupt and quite honestly cowardly in their portrayal of me and what people like me are going through.
Great analogy and so much potential but ethnic stereotypes are boring
It hasn’t aged well, but damn, it was funny😬😂👍
19.
The police won't help me, the RCMP wouldn't help me. I've been not only smoking alo t of cigarettes but also been handed noxious coffees and they've done something to the water here that makes me sick. This government won't protect me and they know I've been trying to get help for eight years.
20.
Nobody has the right to use me the way they did and do, no-one has the right to harm me and not help me or give me fair legal advice or legal help. No-one has the right to isolate me and punish me the way they do when I was technically meant to help the world and was a kind person who doesn't deserve any of this. They're slowly killing me, they're ruining my reputation, they're lying about me and who I am, and they obstruct me from any justice. If I try to get help from police they instantly accuse my sanity without even knowing me. They're murderers and I'm sure they're womb raiders and I'm sure they're trying to get rid of me to rid of evidence that not only did they use me but try to kill me also.
21.
The last time my glands got swollen when I was living with that John Wells guy and his supposed wife at the Main Square apartments and tried to get help, the nurse wouldn't even touch me and said my glands weren't swollen. And then Toronto General Hospital sterilized me as a woman at 43 years of age and I'm now 46. This city is disgusting. It really is, and what I've been going through for eight years and more without so much as one conversation is disgusting and cruel.
22.
Apparently I got taxes today, which means shopping in this area is probably deadly for me.
Just in case someone writes me and accuses my sanity or asks why I'm writing this here. Because no-one talks to me, no-one helps me and the fucking police don't even care and I know my health problems and threats made against me are not my fault and not deserved and not even acknowledged.
23.
I need help from a person who's actually going to care about me. I left a message for Huong(because she really doesn't behave like the mother I once knew who loved me and cared), and asked if cops won't help, and she doesn't care, and Ross doesn't care, then who does? All these things around me think I'm expendable and useable and that I don't matter. I need help from a person without selfish intent and who isn't a religious psychopath. I can't trust anyone. All of them used me and didn't bother to tell me nor cared how they did. This government is more interested in covering up how they use and abuse people rather than helping those in need. I really had no idea how evil the Rusts were and the church apparently. You know how the puritan ran around killing heathens? You know how I was taken from a loving mother and given to Christians who abused me and lied to me and made me seem like a heathen child and even kicked me out of their church when I was a child for knocking a girl over in her chair as a joke? They all pride themselves in being pure until one day they realize it's not so great to be pure and decide to raid wombs and interbreed, and those things are what fucked my life. And most are so selfish they think I'm public property and I don't matter. I need someone other than those WASPs and things that hurt and use me to help me. Someone with enough human emotion and compassion to realize I deserve help and freedom and choice and justice and honesty and don't deserve what these disgusting things have always done to me.
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A lady sensible was also the one who pointed out the fact that the church is what killed Jesus Christ.
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What religion and most 'people' don't want the world to know is people became dirt, WASPs are manufactured, like I said they started interbreeding and experimenting because they started to realized they die because they're pure, and they killed us for the same reason. Their Jesus is nothing more than a guy who fucked a dirty human and made a dirty machine. And Alex's lyrics, "Kill for the sake of survival.", that's what they do to people and why now many of them live to be between seventy and ninety years old, and most people die between the ages of twenty to fifty years old. They're supposed to eradicate dirt but they're not so stupid as to realize they'd be all that's left so they use people, blind people, enslave people, raid wombs, experiment on people, tell people false reasons for war because they always want the bodies flowing. All facts that no-one will acknowledge and why so many people suffer, and why no-one cares about me.
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And I know its easy for them to disclaim everything I say and make every word I say seem as nuts as they are, but I'm telling the truth. I got hassled and harassed and abused most of my life and have spent the last eight years getting threatened and made sick and other horrible things and no-one will help me and I'm not nuts. It's all who knew me that all of the sudden decided to not help me and I was completely unaware of why and hadn't even fought with them until after I was made homeless. My glands have been swelled at least a few times as I was trying to get my life together or living terrified on the streets. I tried to get a job and got made sick there after a coffee and that's when the hospital wouldn't even touch me but made a diagnosis? I'm dirt, and that means unpalatable, and that's a fact of this world. So call me crazy or harm me, but I was meant to help, not be exploited by greedy and nasty things who put no value on my life except their dollars.
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And another thing, they gave me taxes today so I'd look happy and go shopping. They've capitulated between making me look like a street whore drug addict and sometimes a person who's happy and shops for nice things. I've always worked or collected welfare or unemployment when needed, I've been harassed from all of those types of income and the last eight years these things can't decide what to make me seem like, but in reality, I'm not happy and I don't have money and they've always kept me destitute whilst profiting from me. All facts. The only time I got a break these last eight years of being ignored was talking to scumbags I wouldn't normally, because no-one else would help me, or having a few beers and listening to music, which makes me seem happy when I'm not. I'm not suicidal, I'm not self-harming except the cigarettes I can't quit and for eight years as I was homeless and scared and denied help or answers, mostly all I could think is how could my so-called friends and family do this to me. And then I slowly realized they never were.
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And all you selfish things that did raid wombs, as expendable as I am is as expendable as you are.
What makes one living being have the audacity to think their lives have more meaning or value than another's? Are they psychotic? They've been violently shocking my mind for days now with no guilt or remorse. What makes them not introspect on someone else's suffering? Where's their sick minds at and why don't they study their own lack of emotions within their minds?
I believe anyone who harms another the way they do me, facelessly and cowardly shocking and messing with the minds of living creatures for a piece of paper that says they're educated or for money or reputation seriously is missing something from the emotional centres of their minds and lack the individual fortitude to make moral choices in life. They need to obviously have the same done to them before they can empathize with another which shows a complete lack of individual thought. No wonder those demented things change their cowardly faces. It's things like them that cause misery and suffering for all life, and yet they study us as an anomaly? Truly their lack of emotion and morals is an example of their lack of human traits, and especially the greatest human trait of love, which obviously they are incapable of.
Fri. Apr. 10, 2020
Today I checked my bank account and still the e-mail I received saying my taxes were deposited is not in my account, as well as those two e-mails I received saying two amounts had been deposited on my 'Advantage Card', whatever that is. I told them repeatedly I didn't want their credit card and now I'm not even getting the HST they're supposed to deposit for some reason. It's really cold today, even flakes of snow are swirling around this morning. I woke up thinking about many things. I was thinking about the song, 'Breeding the Madness', how guys never cared about me, how Louise had five kids, maybe more, and how she told me how attractive her first boyfriend was and how he 'charmed the pants off her'. I was thinking how that's how they get us. They send some charming, attractive guy our way, use us and then when our looks go to hell, they ditch us and then we handed to less attractive breeders. At least that won't be an issue for me anymore, only the 'charmers' who would now trick us into being killed or something else horrible. Alot of beautiful women probably lost their lives that way. I lose faith in the hope that real men exist for women on this planet anymore. I find it really sad how deluded many young girls become with a system designed to keep us breeding and stupid and naive and complacent. I'm going to have to find a way to talk to somebody about what's obviously fraudulent activity with this H&R Block in this area and probably all over, and whoever's sending me these e-mails.
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Yesterday I was considering going to the H&R Block but I found someone to sell me a cheap pack of cigarettes so I stayed in all day and played video games. I wondered if I always sit in all day as someone who resembles me goes places and does weird or fraudulent or criminal things in my name. I should've known the day I was going to H&R Block they were setting me up, but this system and everyone is so corrupt no-one even takes any complaint or problem I have seriously. So I spent most of the day yesterday listening to the radio, and all they do is repeat music and have weird news reports on the supposed 'Covid19 virus', which I'm sure is bullshit and no-one talks about that either. No-one talks about all the corruption and weirdness around. I played the 'Rollercoaster Mania' game most of the day, re-designing the park. I thought, did my nails, well cleaned and prepped them, had a bath, listened to some music, exercised a little. All of what's happening to me is so illegal and cruel and yet no-one acknowledges anything. There is no real law, there is no real government, there is no-one helping me in a legitimate way.
I miss the 80's and 90's. UGH.....I didn't realize what I had until Millennials became adults....Gen Z became adults....and the crazy PC culture infiltrated our media and universities😫. Jim's entire outfit (including his VANS/Sketchers sneakers) is something I would've been wearing, during the same year (1997).
What happened to his " boogie man " skit ? That sh*t was funny , now I can't find it .
Tues. Cont'd
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And what was my supposed grandad? First Special Service Force, Canadian branch. And what is Ross? American Air Force. And what is that pig who pretended to be my half brother when I went to California in my twenties? American Air Force. And where did I drive Jessie after I was womb-raided? Ottawa army base. And why does no-one help or care, because those things don't and because they truly are above the law and have done perverse and sick things forever and most resemble things that aren't human. And I'm not them. Oh yeah and the pig that visited Dave when I was sixteen and getting violated who's name was supposedly Steve? Supposedly Canadian Navy. Those things aren't me and as far as I'm concerned they're not men. And what do they do to children they supposedly rescue from war-torn countries? Exactly what they did to me.
They aren't men. They are absolutely not men. They are the same creatures that cause war and strife and fill their bellies and wallets as they've always done. And as I've said many times, those that start wars rarely fight and die in them.
And also as I wrote before, when have you ever seen a battlefield full of dead, fat and rotund bodies? Never. Almost always able-bodied people and those in good shape die on battlefields, not fat and bulbous things.
Mon. Jan. 4, 2021
I woke up early, listened to the radio. They talk about these Co-Vid vaccines, but not once have I heard anything about the water, which for some reason I'm forced to drink even though I'm not responsible nor even was told. I've been thinking this morning about how I am different, how displayed and yet also isolated I feel, and listening to still snarky comments about this or that but not hearing many truths. Its very weird that I really felt known and sometimes even respected to whatever my existence is these days, without being told why. I find it really weird that they talk about masks and co-vid but not water nor air quality nor lack of a presence of normal government. The lack of justice and feeling that I really am different and not appreciated by what surrounds me, that I feel it's in my best interest to be around a population of people who respect laws and other's lives, even if we're not the same. There is law procedures that are required and that hasn't happened since my life fell apart and beforehand.
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You know what it seems like they insinuate? That some faction of a foreign or American government decided to investigate the water but have no clue about the truth, and the things around me set me up because of how they were using me, but the least any government faction or representative would've done if they were legit was to speak to me directly. I know why my photos were all altered and that would be to hide what they were doing to my face for years. They reversed the blame on me as far as I can tell because of other disgusting things they were doing and they don't want me in a place where I can prove to another who I am, what I've been through. Anyway, I've been in the system for many years and I'm not supposed to be unknown by my neighbours and policemen that knew and saw me. I think everything that happened as my life was unravelling and I didn't know why, is absolutely disgusting. I believe my mom lived like prisoner most of her life and I feel I've never had the freedom I was led to believe I had. I feel like a commodity and now a scapegoat, rather than the person I always was, kind and friendly and pretty and funny. There isn't a day that goes by where i don't regret staying in this country. If no-one wants believe about the strange occurrences in my life theres not much I can do, but the better part of the last nine years of my life has been things around setting me up to look crazy, like a liar, like an addict, like something I'm not. They can make me seem that way sometimes, mess with me, but an interview with a normal investigator should've happened years ago. I haven't been told one truth, from what my so-called friends are and their involvement in what happened to me, to the corruption of the healthcare that surrounded me to the state of this country now and the losing of everything I owned practically. There seems to be more of an effort to hide the accomplishments of my life and in my opinion its about how much time they can say I wasted in my life.
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Technically for nine years they haven't let me make music, they haven't let me be able to create art like I used to and I know they've been switching my art up and damaging what I have left. I know I don't own an original photograph and that means they set-up, designed and planned to hide any evidence of the abuse and damage to my face, since I was eighteen/ nineteen years old.
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Today I wrote and tried to paste it on Facebook and then only one text appeared so I had to erase that and now it's disappeared from the Facebook page alrogether again so they're messing around with my phone again today also.