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- čas přidán 25. 05. 2024
- @Peter.c106 #hivpositive #hiv #aids
This is a long one... but I wanted to explain to you all how I've ended up where I am today speaking about my HIV diagnosis... addiction... infidelity... faith... sexuality etc. When I was diagnosed with HIV like most I was filled with fear and didn't want anyone to find out.
But this in reality was only a small part of what was happening in my life at that moment in time. I only confided in a very small group of people about my HIV status when I was diagnosed, one being someone who I thought was a friend who exposed my HIV status. I explain everything in the video.
“You find out who your true friends are when your world starts crashing”, couldn’t be more true.
It really is a true statement… I found out that I had zero friends… but thankfully I now have some amazing people around me.❤️
I am so sorry this has been a difficult journey for you. I had a difficult time dealing with getting HIV. Thank you for the courage to speak out. I am not to this point yet and my family doesn't know. A friend with HIV told me to only tell people that will propell you in life.
Yes my friend… we walk this journey in our own way.👍💯
This is a powerful, and emotive vid, it also reflects the initial struggle for those who live hiding our sexuality when the HIV diagnosis hits up. I call this the double whammy, first getting out of the closet then disclosing our HIV stats. It's something pretty heavy.
I have a similar story. Back in 2007 I was ready to get out of the closet to everyone, and send them to hell. I was in shape, with a... good work. Everything seemed fine and the time seemed right. However, the Aids symptoms showed up. I guess it came from one unprotected encounter I had two years ago, but I always evaded doing the test. I mean, it was only once, right?
Now you see how twisted my logic was, I was in denial, so I didn't test myself (luckily, besides that one, I always used condoms so when my seroconversion started, at least I didn't infect anyone). Total denial, the symptoms started, I began to lose weight, along with some nasty symptoms of the Aids phase but I still denied it was HIV, until the doctor forced me to get tested. Honestly, I preferred a cancer diagnose than being HIV positive. I know, don't tell me, that's how deep in denial I was.
Then in 2008 I got the diagnose, and started on the HIV meds right away. My physical state was atrocious, my mental state was even worse, I couldn't even look at myself in the mirror. All the nasty things I saw in the 90s about Aids came to my mind, I hated myself, deeply. Depression took in, I even attempted suicide once, and had multiple suicide thoughts. For 2009, My viral load and CD4 finally stabilized and by the end of the year I got my first undetectable stat.
However, I didn't felt like I could move forward to anything. Yes, my HIV stat was out to my entire close family, who was supporting me all along, but my coming out of the closet? forget about it, the double hit of being HIV+ and gay... I wasn't ready to tell them that. So from 2007 to 2024 I never met anyone for sex. Not once. I wasn't ready to deal with disclosing my HIV stats to anyone (even if we used condoms) and being out of the closet? what's the use? for any potential partner to reject me? my life got into a frozen state for +14 years.
This year... I finally garnered some courage to come out to some members of my family that I want them to know... it was great, but things like you had to endure with your friend, always were in the back of my head, so I always pushed away any potential friends or even partners. I always thought that by revealing my truth anyone would stab me in the back. I still have this idea, with a truckload of mental health issues derived from the trauma of my diagnosis. I also learned about the undetectable thing, that we're not able to transmit even if we wanted to, so it encouraged me to... I don't know, look outside, meeting someone for sex, even casual. Difficult because I'm 45, and I no longer have the body of the 27 years old young boy I was at 2007.
But well, here I am, navigating through all these issues, like everyone else. At least both of us have supporting immediate family. Keep going Peter, I subbed your channel right away.
@@metalfenix bless you my friend for sharing your story with me. This had me in tears. We are the same age also. For thirty six years I hid my sexuality out of fear and shame. But now I’m open about being bisexual. It’s a liberating experience to not be hiding who I really am… and also not hiding my status any longer. I still have my down days but I also have a loving family around me to lean on when needed. So happy you’re here my friend.
Happy Birthday handsome man! Hope you have a wonderful celebration 🎉🎉🎂
Thanks my friend 🙏❤️
Thank you so very much for sharing this deeply personal...yet deeply inspiring video. I'm glad to have stumbled upon it. Surely...there are no coincidences. I lost my childhood best friend to aids (five years old, when we met in Kindergarten) when we were 36 years old. He has family...a big brother and sister-in-law, with children, with whom I am still extremely close.... but it was such a fearful time...outside of medical staff, I was his ONLY caregiver...right there to the moment he took his last breath. That will 34 years ago this October.....still painful....but it has become a loving memory too. I send you all the best wishes...and may God continue to bless you in your life journey.....from San Francisco.
Bless you my friend for sharing this with me… I wish you all the happiness in the world and am so happy you’re here.🙏❤️❤️❤️
You are a warrior my friend, never surrender, ¡God bless you!
Thanks my friend 🙏❤️
I don't know why CZcams decided to offer me your video, but I watched it with interest. I can relate to going through a year of utter hell when everything is a complete mess. For me that was 2019 when I also learned who my true friends are. HIV is a life circumstance like any other, and we each have something we're dealing with in life, but I agree that one can't go very wrong by treating others as one wishes to be treated. Hope your life is good and you are happy. Things have a way of settling themselves in the best way.
God bless you, a beautiful man with a beautiful family and real friends behind you. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings with others. The people who tried to destroy your life have all gone back under the stone they crawled out from .
Thanks for your support my friend, I really appreciate it. And yes, I’ve got a wonderful group of people around me now. ❤️
Like you said, nothing happens out of nothing in life 🙏 Keep being true to yourself 🙌
Amen 🙏❤️
God bless you and your family! Thanks so much for sharing 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
Thanks my friend… happy to share.🙏❤️
I was diagnosed two months ago, the first weeks very very hard but after I started taking treatment after two weeks of the diagnosis, I was able to take control of my fear and sadness, now I get anxiety attacks but I've been able to manage them with group and behavioral therapy.
Thanks for sharing my friend… it’s definitely difficult in the beginning, but it does get easier with time. So glad you’re doing better.🙏❤️
Great video. I also have been HIV positive since 2014 and also a recovering addict since 2007. You are doing very well. Keep on doing the things you have been doing. Religion my cause you some problems down the line, but you will be able to deal with that. You have a wonderful attitude so keep it up.
I’m not a fan of religion myself… I think of it as a personal relationship with God. My faith is what has truly changed my life for the better. Thanks so much for sharing your journey with me my friend.👍
For 14 years now im triving ❤
This amazing I'm now fully recovered also
@@cecilysalma9447 that’s awesome.🙏❤️
Thank you for sharing your story; it is painful to see how some people could be cruel. How can I get in touch with you for more support to people I know having the same struggle ?
Hi… thanks for your comment… I appreciate your support. My instagram is @peterc106.
Please like, share, and subscribe ❤.
I lost my father few months ago i don't know how someone sees you but i can feel your pain stay long my friend God is with you always
Bless you my friend. I appreciate your support. So sorry to hear about your father.🙏❤️❤️❤️
He was a homophile?
Hello peter im watching you ftom india and thank you for your video i really appreciate you and support you❤ and sorry for your betrayed frnd
@@papakumura2817 bless you my friend… really glad to have you here🙏❤️.
Well done mate. One positive thing to come out of your struggles is your well rid of the complete sh*ts in your life. By the way , i am sure what your former so called friend did, is illegal.
The problem with folks who treat people as badly as you were treated, is that they DONT love themselves, so they can not love others as they love themselves. They are very unhappy people.
Thanks so much for your love and support. Yes, I’m very happy to be rid of certain people that I thought had my best interests at heart. You really find out who your friends are when you hit hard times. I have some wonderful friends now that have come through my diagnosis. Bless you my friend.❤️👍
Much respect to you Peter and thanks for sharing your story with us x
It’s my pleasure my friend.🙏❤️ Just trying to help where I can.
Hi there,
Found your content interesting as brother and i had been talking about health so appreciate your honesty.
That wasn't a friend but an idiot would had filed a report against him for blackmailing you and your personal business.
I recommend exposing he's name so that he can never repeat it to others
True people do not sabotage buddies
It's actually a crime known as cohesion
Really appreciate your love and support.🙏❤️
@@Peter.c106
Apparently Dr Sebi cured people with HIV
Through Alkaline diets known as bio African vegan herb foods. But then bastards Moderna and other drug companies don't want people to know the truth that acidic foods sustain deaseses and and virus and illnesses die off from alkaline diets. As the cells go through cell renewal process by fasting and eating true herbs made from trees, I was looking up the documentary but even that they removed by censoring what people shouldn't know
Dr Sebi won the courts as they tried to remove him from doing he's alternative cures but even all the strong evidence from several witnesses cured by Sebi they murdered him.
@@Peter.c106
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Think positive live positive I am living with hiv when I was just 19 yrs
Amen to that my friend.🙏👍❤️
I don't have hiv but I do have pkd a kidney disease which is incurable. Do you believe God permits us to go thru these illnesses so that we can depend on God and trust him with our diseases?
I believe going through hard times builds strength and character. If we had everything easy what sort of person would that look like?. I believe God uses the first of these two.🙏❤️
@@Peter.c106❤
Thank you for breaking stigma
Just trying to help where I can my friend.🙏❤️
bro stay strong. Forget about hiv.
Thank you my friend. I’m feeling fantastic to be honest.💪👍❤️
Am a hiv posetive idont know what can i do
You’ve just been diagnosed?.
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Hello bro
Pls help me
I have many hiv symptoms
Hiv hides in my immune cells
My cd4 360 now
Pls advice
I start online medicine
Which tell me best medicine
Pls reply bro
Hello… have you tested positive?.
I take Biktarvy which is very good.
@@Peter.c106 no sir
Dr say hiv hides many years
Immune cells
So i am confused
Pls chek google hiv hides in imune cells
Start art treatment ur cd4 is low
Don't look CD4 .. test positive or negative?
Oh wow that person is NOT your friend and it’s very good thing they are out of your life; a real friend would have never done such a thing. I think misery seriously loves company
Amen my friend 🙏💯
How do you deal with religion, your faith, and your sexuality? Why do you still say that you are bisexual??
Yes I am a Christian, and yes bisexual also, or same sex attracted. The fact I can talk about what was once hidden for so long has been a huge help for me. I’ve completely changed over the past three years with the help of God and my family. The difference is I am faithful and open and honest about who I am. Everything that was once hidden is now in the open which is extremely liberating.
@@Peter.c106 ❤️
@Peter.c10 The demons enter people through sin and bring sickness to people when people sin the serpent enters through fornication, lying, pride, stubbornness, and anger. Snakes are the spirits that bring: Lust; sexual immorality, fornication; Adultery; drunkenness; Hatred; Bitterness; Cheated; Hatred; Rebellion; Disobedience; Doubt; Fear..WE ARE NOT AUTHORIZED BY GOD TO JUDGE OTHER PEOPLE; Our real enemy is sin, not another human being, repent, turn away from sin.
People aren’t required to keep your secrets. Hopefully you’re well and hopefully you didn’t transmit the virus to others. Your issues with your sexuality are yours; doesn’t give you the right to put others at risk
What on earth are you talking about?.
Who have I put at risk. And yes they are required to keep it a secret if you’ve told them in confidence.
You are so handsome. I would love to meet you.
I appreciate your love and support.🙏❤️
I don't think the reason why he's making these series of videos about his medical condition is to hook up with somebody for sex. He's not going to give you his personal information anyway.
Hello Peter, thank you so much for this video and the trust to share such personal informations with us🙏🙏
Your sexual live is your private thing and nobody has the right to share secret informations of you. In your case you needed someone to talk, who you declared as your friend because you know him nearly 18 years and he seemed to be friendly and loyal. I am so sorry that this person betrayed you after this long time of a friendship. There a really only few trustful people in our surrounding. In my case I think I can only trust 10% of my whole contacts in private and in the work.And I made often the experience to get betrayed from people, who "played" to be my best friends, so I have really a great lack to trust someone. And you dont have to tell anyone about your hiv infection. If you get a new job you do not have to tell this someone. If you have a new sexual partner it is your duty to make safer sex if you know your status.When you take your hiv pills long enough that the virus cannot be detected in your body you cannot transmit it anymore. I feel with you and you seem to have a really great personality. Stay strong and all the best for you🙏👍
@@aloiskneissl2639 thank you my friend for your support 🙏❤️.
@@Peter.c106 I really appreciate your open communication🙏 If you have the urge to speak about some topics, which are necessary for you, I will always have and open ear for you 🥰👍🙏
@@aloiskneissl2639 thank you my friend 🙏❤️
Beautifully written message and sentiment however I’m sure as a Christian and all around honest person who has told the entire Internet he is HIV+…telling a sexual interest would be second nature. And the right thing to do.
Don't reply to those illiterate Muppets.
Stay strong God bless ❤️
Thanks my friend… sending 🫂❤️.
Day is live is good day
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@@Peter.c106 lucho por vida y tu lucha eres un campeón
Gracia por tu vídeo es paz
Puerto rico 🇵🇷😊
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I hate that, that happened to you. Wisdom says to free yourself from mental slavery, but wisdom also said not to overshare or tell your left hand what your right hand is doing. Which "wisdom" is the best to follow?
Oh my god😢 wow so you're bisexual ok man I'm very very sorry for you and kids wife and family your very handsome and enjoy that sexy accent too look God I'd in your lane and just know that everything is gonna be alright much love to you and family 👪❤🥰🤗
I’m feeling great thanks. 🙏❤️
you are a Christian sir no i don't think so
Yes I am a Christian… who are you to say otherwise. "Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. "Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?
Who are you to judge or say you are sin free? Of course Peter sins-he’s human. There’s nothing Peter said to make you think he’s not a Christian. Was it the fact that he said he’s bisexual? That’s not a sin. What Bible do you read? The KJV? Did you know that if you actually dig back into Biblical history, the original verse that says “*a man shall not lie with an adolescent boy* (due to pederasty in biblical times) was later translated into English and when the verse was coined “a man shall not lie with another man (Lev 18:20, 20:13) by the Germans, that translation was adopted by Europeans, only to be spread throughout the world over time. There wasn’t even the word “homosexual” until the 19th century. You need to educate yourself instead of trying to put someone down because in this case, it shows your ignorance and God will hold you accountable for each person you push away from Gods love. You have to remember the Bible is full of translations. Do you think when God created hermaphrodites, He messed up? The Bible doesn’t speak about them so who did God plan for them to be with? Think about your words. There’s power in words, in education, and love!
@@justyouraverageintrovert8487 Thanks so much for your support my friend… I really appreciate it.❤️👍🙏
@@justyouraverageintrovert8487The demons enter people through sin and bring sickness to people when people sin the serpent enters through fornication, lying, pride, stubbornness, and anger. Snakes are the spirits that bring: Lust; sexual immorality, fornication; Adultery; drunkenness; Hatred; Bitterness; Cheated; Hatred; Rebellion; Disobedience; Doubt; Fear..WE ARE NOT AUTHORIZED BY GOD TO JUDGE OTHER PEOPLE; Our real enemy is sin, not another human being, repent, turn away from sin.
You consistently justify your high risk behavior and infidelity by disclosing your wife's behavior. Which is by the way, what you are talking about today. Someone outing you without permission.
My wife is very happy about me discussing our lives. And I’m not justifying anything. And what high risk behaviour would this be?. The difference between me and people like you is I’m owning my mistakes in the hope of helping others. I also don’t judge anyone unlike yourself. Ever heard the saying… stop looking at the splinter in other people’s eyes and take the plank out of your own. Please think before commenting again.
@@Peter.c106STAR TALKING AGAINST SIN AND SINFUL DESIRE THAT ARE THE CAUSE OF SICKNESSES.....The demons enter people through sin and bring sickness to people when people sin the serpent enters through fornication, lying, pride, stubbornness, and anger. Snakes are the spirits that bring: Lust; sexual immorality, fornication; Adultery; drunkenness; Hatred; Bitterness; Cheated; Hatred; Rebellion; Disobedience; Doubt; Fear..WE ARE NOT AUTHORIZED BY GOD TO JUDGE OTHER PEOPLE; Our real enemy is sin, not another human being, repent, turn away from sin.