I'm shaking because you've hit the nail on the head. Going to bed knowing that the next day it starts again and about suicide. I go to bed hoping I don't wake up and the rushing into something is so true. You do need to take time out. Thanks for sharing.
This is too freaking relatable. Even when travelling to work i used to wish i would get into an accidemt and die on the spot. The anxiety I felt is INSANE!
I relate so much to what you’ve experienced with depression. I feel like a burden and it’s hard to see the joy in the world anymore. And I think it’s because I’m not living my life purpose.
I don't know if you still read comments, but your story resonated a lot with me. At the beginning of the year I have had a pretty bad work accident and got a concussion. After that, I started getting a lot more anxious than I already was, my depression was getting to critical levels. I realized that I never wanted to work jobs like these ones, that I am wasting my time and that I am not doing anything meaningful. As I grew up I was getting praised and spoiled for being "intelligent and gifted" by family and most of the teachers I've had, and I felt shameful considering my current condition. Anyways, my concussion was pretty scary, I immediately started having lots of issues, but the worst one was my left hand going weak and numb. I picked up the piano a few months prior and I really really loved it, especially since as I was growing up I was listening to a lot of piano music. I already had musical experience, was playing guitar for almost three years, and as soon as I started playing piano I just knew I really, really wanted to do that and only that for the rest of my life. Well, for about 6 months after that concussion... I just could not play at all and I was a horrible mess, doom and gloom, crying at the drop of a hat, etc. I started cutting almost everyone out of my life, only the people that know me the longest are still around, because I was so overwhelmingly negative. I've had a discussion with my parents, they still think this is a "bad idea" and that I will somehow become the "starving artist" type, but honestly... after so much pain and suffering, thinking how society just treats us like replaceable cogs, I'd rather give up on everything and only do what I feel is meaningful to me, unapologetically. Sorry for the long ass comment, I've been bottling it up because my friends don't understand me at all and neither do my parents, even with their age and wisdom. Thank you for the video and sorry for my English.
I can relate so much to your story about feeling like a burden to the world. Wanting to drive into a brick wall is a thought that goes through my head everyday going into my dead end job. You aren't alone.
Ive spent the last 4 years on my career after 3 years in uni and feel like Ive wasted my time. I was making up to good 6 figures but recently it would suck the life out of me and Id spend the weekends getting smashed. I spent a lot of time getting laid too. And thinking about being rich. Ive quit my job saved some cash and now Im moving to the mountains to go after snowboarding which is my passion. Id rather be poor following my passion than relatively well off hating my life.
Thank you I really needed to hear this right now. We share so many of the same thoughts on so much! I think almost everything You hit on there have all been the same things that have kept me up at nights also. Sending love 💕
good to hear mate! I've recently left the army after an 8 year vicious cycle of depression and alcoholism to escape. I'm about to join the FBA train, as I no longer can work a 9-5 after my experience. I'm also living full time vanlife next month to escape this prescribed society which we are all forced to endure. keep up the good vids man! if you have any tips for a beginner then they are welcomed mate>
Happens to many of us buddy, sorry to hear. I know the feeling, once you have that experience you can never go back. Van life would be perfect for FBA, it may take a while to get going but good stuff. Drop us a message here or email and I would be happy to help. All the best! 👍
Amen! Honesty is a Powerful thing💯i was also Depressed but Jesus Christ Took away This Demonic Depression from me because Demons want people to have Depression and Suicide Toughts trough sins so they commit suicide and die in their sin..but JESUS😍is soo POWERFUL God and 🙏Prayer is soo Powerful wow because we can break this chain of Negativity in our life if we Invite God in💯
Follow your intuition, trust your gut. Do what comes naturally for you. This video really resonated with me. Thank you for being vulnerable, genuine and sharing your experience.
LOVE your accent bro, thanks for your vid i'm actually having a hard time now deciding if i'm gonna quit my job because i'm new from my job but i wanted to quit already, because some realizations hit me , i always ask myself if im going to do this 8 hours job in my entire life but not enjoying what i really love, though my job is connected to my passion which is art. but still there's a hindrance when im designing because i have to follow the standards and rules of my bosses, which i don't enjoy.I lost my passion chasing a big paycheck, i don't feel myself anymore as an artist, everytime i get a paper and a pencil to draw, i waste a lot of time staring the blank paper, because there is no creativity anymore that runs into my heart. I feel not free. I want to create an art that no one dictates me, but being an artist is so hard to find a bread to put in my plate, Please pray for me. God bless brother
I'm on about doing food/parcel delivery and independent contracting because I can't be arsed with employers deciding my life and time! It's not really freedom to be employed! 😆
absolutely love this, telling us your story is really relatable man my family have really all been lifeguards (my current profession) but f*$k me its the most boring soul sucking job there is, hats off to you man sure you can relate to this "ignore the naysayers" "its not impossible and it can be done" keep doing what your doing! and you'll smash it! you've pulled me into your boat and I've not felt this inspired in a very long time episode 1 is on my channel, let me know what you think, rooting for you dude!!
So glad I found you man im currently stuck in the the army im on the edge of my seat listening to you Ive been doing the same as you for 13 years in the army im scared shitless of the other side. just about to start FBA because I know I will do well I can feel it. currently off work with depression
No better way to combat depression than taking control of your life, dedicating yourself to something bigger. Good stuff mate trust your instincts. FBA is the way to go.
Cheers, needed to hear this, I feel exactly how you did then, shit needs to change, FBA is doing bits for me just now so hopefully be able to leave my shitty warehouse job soon. 👍🏻
Appreciate your honesty man, sometimes we have to endure jobs we don't like, to get to places we want to be. On top of that though, there's nothing we can buy that will fill and satisfy our hearts like Jesus will. Seek Him man, only He can give you true purpose and lead you to fulfilling jobs for that particular time. He's coming back, we will all have to face Him one day, He loves us so much that He died for our sins.. in response, we must repent, for the reviving and refreshment of our souls and for eternity's sake as well. Turn today, tomorrow may be too late, He's only a prayer away (Romans 10:9) God Bless
Fair play to you man, Similar experience myself. For reasons I wont go in to I struggled to carry on working with depression and some terrible anger issues due to an horrific childhood. I eventually decided that I would start a business, I'm 38 and have being self employed for just under a year, I manufacture products and sell them online. Hopefully I will get in to drop shipping at some point. Take care and keep on moving.
I can relate to everything you said mate, i feel same way thats why want to do amazon fba as currently doing ebay but still isnt getting me like amazon fba looks more fun and enjoyable in long run, i suffered for years with depression glad see im not only one thats why i made my channel but now away to make a new channel for my reselling ect, your doing amazing mate keep head high and chin up :D
Very similar situation, great pay and benefits but felt a destructive toxic company culture that burned my soul - burned out my life. Brighter spirits years later now but still not as good of a gig, at-least the health is greater. I disagree when people say we have to tolerate everyone, no we don't.
Bro......I am basically you. You have just described me with absolute accuracy. Trying to stay awake because I know the second I go to sleep ill be waking up in the blink of an eye and having to work. I'm a cleaner so feel like an absolute bottom feeder. I'll never be any more than that because I've always seen through the system and refuse to spend 90% of my life doing courses and getting in student debt to get a job I don't even want. The only reason I pay for a car is because I have to go to work. When I go to my darkest place in my mind I automatically think about jumping off a bridge for that relieving feeling you talk about. My family are clueless and will never understand. I'm 36 and still live at home and I'm at the stage where I don't want to get out of bed. Not been in work for the past month which has left me struggling to pay for my car and other bills. Feel like a massive burden. Hope your doing okay bro but I think I know your possibly not doing too good. People like us who see through and question the ways of society don't stand a chance when it comes to mental health. We live in a world of sheep that blindly follow the system that we are brainwashed into from birth.
Relate totally. Toxic job, toxic marriage. Binge drank for a decade in my studio basement, job made me feel like a burden if I didn’t accept total abuse. Walked from both marriage and job( tried dating and same career but part time - total failure. 💀 ). I’m not in debt but not wealthy, live alone ( 🐈⬛) but whole and healing. It can be done thanks for sharing. Helps.
I’d rather suffer doing something I enjoy! Rather than suffering at a job I hate just to have the weekend off and be in debt until I can retire and that’s if I’m lucky enough to retire
Respect for this. I can relate as well, I never wanted to work a normal (graduate) job, I just wish I would have researched other ways of making money earlier because I stuck at a job I hate for a while. Now I'm trying to escape as well, but unfortunately, starting with a very little investment and bad overall health.
Sorry to hear that, your not alone. I managed to escape the job (thankfully) but looking back I was still so pessimistic and bitter. I wish I focused more on my mind and having control of it. That’s one thing the external environment shouldn’t be controlling. Having positive mindset will make things easier. It will work out, all the best!
We are all men we need to live great lives exploring the world and being pioneers, like our ancestors…..these average mundane jobs these days are terrible for us mentally, physically, and spiritually!
It looks like I have very similar life experience like you... I ve started earlier with business but I am still at sunday hangover stage... My private label is ruined because of fuckin freight rates from China to UK. It is 5 times higher now so I have to start from scratch again. All of these is after 4 years of wasted time at top UK uni in Edinburgh. Exactly the same feeling about the system where we have no choice...
“Hard times create strong men. Strong men create good times. Good times create weak men. And, weak men create hard times.” ― G. Michael Hopf, Those Who Remain
The economy is sooooooooo terrible and disturbing that as a homeless person with no job ( thousands of rejections for applications ) I am forced to hand clear land I bought, create my own stable foundation by hand and soon make my own logs to hand build a log cabin home just to have a roof over my head. Mortgages and gouged rentals are criminally insanely high and nothing in America is affordable anymore. I am going to have to grow my own food too because I can no longer afford 99% of food in grocery store or its poisoned with bioengineered fake ingredients. First time ever I will most likely be using food pantries until I die. No longer interested in participating in capitalism the dumpster fire 😤😢☹
I'm shaking because you've hit the nail on the head. Going to bed knowing that the next day it starts again and about suicide. I go to bed hoping I don't wake up and the rushing into something is so true. You do need to take time out. Thanks for sharing.
This is too freaking relatable. Even when travelling to work i used to wish i would get into an accidemt and die on the spot. The anxiety I felt is INSANE!
I relate so much to what you’ve experienced with depression. I feel like a burden and it’s hard to see the joy in the world anymore. And I think it’s because I’m not living my life purpose.
Good point - don't emotionally engage with negative external things
Peace Of Mind Brother. Do what gives you peace of Mind.
I don't know if you still read comments, but your story resonated a lot with me. At the beginning of the year I have had a pretty bad work accident and got a concussion. After that, I started getting a lot more anxious than I already was, my depression was getting to critical levels. I realized that I never wanted to work jobs like these ones, that I am wasting my time and that I am not doing anything meaningful. As I grew up I was getting praised and spoiled for being "intelligent and gifted" by family and most of the teachers I've had, and I felt shameful considering my current condition.
Anyways, my concussion was pretty scary, I immediately started having lots of issues, but the worst one was my left hand going weak and numb. I picked up the piano a few months prior and I really really loved it, especially since as I was growing up I was listening to a lot of piano music. I already had musical experience, was playing guitar for almost three years, and as soon as I started playing piano I just knew I really, really wanted to do that and only that for the rest of my life. Well, for about 6 months after that concussion... I just could not play at all and I was a horrible mess, doom and gloom, crying at the drop of a hat, etc. I started cutting almost everyone out of my life, only the people that know me the longest are still around, because I was so overwhelmingly negative.
I've had a discussion with my parents, they still think this is a "bad idea" and that I will somehow become the "starving artist" type, but honestly... after so much pain and suffering, thinking how society just treats us like replaceable cogs, I'd rather give up on everything and only do what I feel is meaningful to me, unapologetically.
Sorry for the long ass comment, I've been bottling it up because my friends don't understand me at all and neither do my parents, even with their age and wisdom. Thank you for the video and sorry for my English.
I can relate so much to your story about feeling like a burden to the world. Wanting to drive into a brick wall is a thought that goes through my head everyday going into my dead end job. You aren't alone.
I quit too I was a chef for years I couldn’t understand why I was there I worked hard but i slugged it out
It was a tough job my energy was zapped though
Ive spent the last 4 years on my career after 3 years in uni and feel like Ive wasted my time. I was making up to good 6 figures but recently it would suck the life out of me and Id spend the weekends getting smashed.
I spent a lot of time getting laid too. And thinking about being rich.
Ive quit my job saved some cash and now Im moving to the mountains to go after snowboarding which is my passion. Id rather be poor following my passion than relatively well off hating my life.
That Sunday afternoon and evening anxiety. The binge drinking, feeling completely drained, wishing to die in my sleep. Wow😢 we're screwed man
Thanks for sharing bro. Live your life have a blessed 2022
Thank you I really needed to hear this right now. We share so many of the same thoughts on so much! I think almost everything
You hit on there have all been the same things that have kept me up at nights also. Sending love 💕
I like these videos man, cheers for sharing
good to hear mate! I've recently left the army after an 8 year vicious cycle of depression and alcoholism to escape. I'm about to join the FBA train, as I no longer can work a 9-5 after my experience. I'm also living full time vanlife next month to escape this prescribed society which we are all forced to endure. keep up the good vids man! if you have any tips for a beginner then they are welcomed mate>
Happens to many of us buddy, sorry to hear. I know the feeling, once you have that experience you can never go back. Van life would be perfect for FBA, it may take a while to get going but good stuff. Drop us a message here or email and I would be happy to help. All the best! 👍
Admire the honesty, good lad 🤙
Man, thanks for sharing. Came at the perfect time. Keep making the world a better place dude through empowerment and your honesty. Awesome.
Thank you it means a lot. I know a lot of people can relate.
Amen! Honesty is a Powerful thing💯i was also Depressed but Jesus Christ Took away This Demonic Depression from me because Demons want people to have Depression and Suicide Toughts trough sins so they commit suicide and die in their sin..but JESUS😍is soo POWERFUL God and 🙏Prayer is soo Powerful wow because we can break this chain of Negativity in our life if we Invite God in💯
Also Thankyou Jesus for Healing me now😍🙏💯
Follow your intuition, trust your gut. Do what comes naturally for you. This video really resonated with me. Thank you for being vulnerable, genuine and sharing your experience.
LOVE your accent bro, thanks for your vid i'm actually having a hard time now deciding if i'm gonna quit my job because i'm new from my job but i wanted to quit already, because some realizations hit me , i always ask myself if im going to do this 8 hours job in my entire life but not enjoying what i really love, though my job is connected to my passion which is art. but still there's a hindrance when im designing because i have to follow the standards and rules of my bosses, which i don't enjoy.I lost my passion chasing a big paycheck, i don't feel myself anymore as an artist, everytime i get a paper and a pencil to draw, i waste a lot of time staring the blank paper, because there is no creativity anymore that runs into my heart. I feel not free. I want to create an art that no one dictates me, but being an artist is so hard to find a bread to put in my plate, Please pray for me. God bless brother
I'm on about doing food/parcel delivery and independent contracting because I can't be arsed with employers deciding my life and time! It's not really freedom to be employed! 😆
Thank you for sharing, keep up the content..very entertaining
absolutely love this, telling us your story is really relatable man my family have really all been lifeguards (my current profession) but f*$k me its the most boring soul sucking job there is, hats off to you man sure you can relate to this "ignore the naysayers" "its not impossible and it can be done" keep doing what your doing! and you'll smash it! you've pulled me into your boat and I've not felt this inspired in a very long time episode 1 is on my channel, let me know what you think, rooting for you dude!!
Thank you my man! The kind words are honestly are appreciated. We are all on same big boat here. Keep at it yourself!
peace n quiet, good rest, food, patient n non judgemental friends and a purposeful job (no job with saving better to heal)
THANK YOU
So glad I found you man im currently stuck in the the army im on the edge of my seat listening to you Ive been doing the same as you for 13 years in the army im scared shitless of the other side. just about to start FBA because I know I will do well I can feel it. currently off work with depression
No better way to combat depression than taking control of your life, dedicating yourself to something bigger. Good stuff mate trust your instincts. FBA is the way to go.
This is where I am right now mate. It’s widespread.
Cheers, needed to hear this, I feel exactly how you did then, shit needs to change, FBA is doing bits for me just now so hopefully be able to leave my shitty warehouse job soon. 👍🏻
Congrats on making the change 🙏🏾
Thank you brother!
Hope you've got what you wished for 🙌
Appreciate your honesty man, sometimes we have to endure jobs we don't like, to get to places we want to be.
On top of that though, there's nothing we can buy that will fill and satisfy our hearts like Jesus will.
Seek Him man, only He can give you true purpose and lead you to fulfilling jobs for that particular time.
He's coming back, we will all have to face Him one day, He loves us so much that He died for our sins.. in response, we must repent, for the reviving and refreshment of our souls and for eternity's sake as well.
Turn today, tomorrow may be too late, He's only a prayer away (Romans 10:9)
God Bless
Good sharing man you can really help a lot of people.
Love the Scottish dialect and your message Caelan :)
respect this relate a lot used to work in a warehouse from 16-20 just started retail arbitrage recently!
Fair play to you man, Similar experience myself. For reasons I wont go in to I struggled to carry on working with depression and some terrible anger issues due to an horrific childhood. I eventually decided that I would start a business, I'm 38 and have being self employed for just under a year, I manufacture products and sell them online. Hopefully I will get in to drop shipping at some point. Take care and keep on moving.
Good for you mate! I wish you all the success.
I can relate to everything you said mate, i feel same way thats why want to do amazon fba as currently doing ebay but still isnt getting me like amazon fba looks more fun and enjoyable in long run, i suffered for years with depression glad see im not only one thats why i made my channel but now away to make a new channel for my reselling ect, your doing amazing mate keep head high and chin up :D
Thanks mate, I’m sure a lot of people can relate to it, good luck with the journey, all the best 👍
Very similar situation, great pay and benefits but felt a destructive toxic company culture that burned my soul - burned out my life. Brighter spirits years later now but still not as good of a gig, at-least the health is greater. I disagree when people say we have to tolerate everyone, no we don't.
Bro......I am basically you. You have just described me with absolute accuracy. Trying to stay awake because I know the second I go to sleep ill be waking up in the blink of an eye and having to work. I'm a cleaner so feel like an absolute bottom feeder. I'll never be any more than that because I've always seen through the system and refuse to spend 90% of my life doing courses and getting in student debt to get a job I don't even want. The only reason I pay for a car is because I have to go to work. When I go to my darkest place in my mind I automatically think about jumping off a bridge for that relieving feeling you talk about. My family are clueless and will never understand. I'm 36 and still live at home and I'm at the stage where I don't want to get out of bed. Not been in work for the past month which has left me struggling to pay for my car and other bills. Feel like a massive burden.
Hope your doing okay bro but I think I know your possibly not doing too good. People like us who see through and question the ways of society don't stand a chance when it comes to mental health. We live in a world of sheep that blindly follow the system that we are brainwashed into from birth.
Proud of you mate, this is an important video.
Cheers mate! I had to take a few moments to work out if that was you there 😂 appreciate it.
@@martynscullion aye no worries mate, your doing great man keep it up!
Relate totally. Toxic job, toxic marriage. Binge drank for a decade in my studio basement, job made me feel like a burden if I didn’t accept total abuse. Walked from both marriage and job( tried dating and same career but part time - total failure. 💀 ). I’m not in debt but not wealthy, live alone ( 🐈⬛) but whole and healing. It can be done thanks for sharing. Helps.
this is what I've learnt. You'll suffer here or suffer there. Choose one
Suffering comes with great lessons, it’s not to be feared.
it's been a year. how's it going? @@martynscullion
I’d rather suffer doing something I enjoy! Rather than suffering at a job I hate just to have the weekend off and be in debt until I can retire and that’s if I’m lucky enough to retire
I feel you mate im going through the same thing
This man is literally me.
Relate so much
Respect for this. I can relate as well, I never wanted to work a normal (graduate) job, I just wish I would have researched other ways of making money earlier because I stuck at a job I hate for a while. Now I'm trying to escape as well, but unfortunately, starting with a very little investment and bad overall health.
Sorry to hear that, your not alone. I managed to escape the job (thankfully) but looking back I was still so pessimistic and bitter. I wish I focused more on my mind and having control of it. That’s one thing the external environment shouldn’t be controlling. Having positive mindset will make things easier. It will work out, all the best!
This is my exact life now but in dubai
We are all men we need to live great lives exploring the world and being pioneers, like our ancestors…..these average mundane jobs these days are terrible for us mentally, physically, and spiritually!
I think it’s good to change jobs often it keeps things a bit more new at least the problem is you can only do that more for unskilled jobs i guess
It looks like I have very similar life experience like you... I ve started earlier with business but I am still at sunday hangover stage... My private label is ruined because of fuckin freight rates from China to UK. It is 5 times higher now so I have to start from scratch again. All of these is after 4 years of wasted time at top UK uni in Edinburgh. Exactly the same feeling about the system where we have no choice...
I know! We are all on the same boat. Our education system teaches us nothing about investing or passive income. Thanks again for the info.
“Hard times create strong men. Strong men create good times. Good times create weak men. And, weak men create hard times.”
― G. Michael Hopf, Those Who Remain
This day and age sucks. We are men and we want to explore and be pioneers and conquer untamed land! Not these stupid mundane jobs
The economy is sooooooooo terrible and disturbing that as a homeless person with no job ( thousands of rejections for applications ) I am forced to hand clear land I bought, create my own stable foundation by hand and soon make my own logs to hand build a log cabin home just to have a roof over my head. Mortgages and gouged rentals are criminally insanely high and nothing in America is affordable anymore. I am going to have to grow my own food too because I can no longer afford 99% of food in grocery store or its poisoned with bioengineered fake ingredients. First time ever I will most likely be using food pantries until I die. No longer interested in participating in capitalism the dumpster fire 😤😢☹
Same lol
thank you for this i understand 100%🩷🥹