I haven't really coded in a year. (Reflections)
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2:42 - The Bad News: The Impostor Syndrome
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I mean, if copy and paste donât count, I think I also havenât coded in a year too
I'm at an extremely beginner level in terms to the likes of you or mayuko and I hate to be super discouraging. But, I think it's extremely bad practice to copy and paste code. I am sure that it's more efficient but seriously, at the core of it, programming revolves around problem solving, logical thinking and just over all creativity. Imposter Syndrome, Burning yourself out and just overall lack of interest or passion overall is the biggest threat to someone's programming career.
@@jxkc.3941 Hi, youâre actually right! Itâs a running joke in software engineering that we often copy code from stack overflow but technically that is not good practice. Even my current manager encourages us to type out what we find on stackoverflow or any other documentations instead of just copy and pasting to make sure the integration is correct, edge cases are taken care of, and remove any flakiness of the code. Itâs great that youâre using good practice and I encourage any one starting out coding to do the same, along with watching my videos!
@@jxkc.3941 blindy copying is wrong. One should NEVER EVER use code that one doesn't understand. Depending on what type of projects you're working on, however, it is rather practical to assume that the best skill a developer can have is to know "what to google". Things like uploading files for example, that's just a default task and for the love of my life I just can't keep it in my head. I hate this task. But it takes me close to no time to implement using copy/paste.
Given that - no matter the language - the chance of us using frameworks is rather large. And "How to XYZ with FooFramework" is such a freakishly common thing to google. All that's left for the programmer to do is to implement the best (read: secure) option and that's it.
No need to re-invent the wheel, however, there's also no need to use a wheel with a flat tire ;) And it does take a certain level of skill to spot the issues a tire might have :)
@@jxkc.3941 When you have clients and deadlines, you quickly learn to not reinvent the wheel. Some things are just timesinks and not worth the time it takes to do it yourself. With that said, don't copy code you don't understand, that's a great way to shoot yourself in the foot when it inevitably comes back to bite you.
@@jxkc.3941 It has pros and cons. In some cases, it actually takes more skill to find the right piece of code, understand it properly (because understanding other people's code is harder), and implement it into your code, and could allow you to do something in 1 hour that would've taken 5. I often have the opposite problem, where I often try to code everything myself because I'm too lazy to go out looking for the right code, but I know that it could save me a lot of time.
Thank you for being vulnerable with your audience! As a baby coder (2 years) who experiences depression, anxiety, and impostor syndrome I look up to a lot of content creators in tech (especially women POC) and have an idealistic perception of them. You repeated a lot of the same thoughts I have which makes me feel better because I am not alone â€ïž
Your videos are always a source of comfort for me as a female software engineer, and I appreciate you being open about your insecurities working in tech because it's very real for me too.
To combat imposter syndrome, what works for me is to dive deep into something completely different and abandon all notion of of the former "occupation". For example, I used to be a designer and now I pivoted fully to Cyber Security + coding. I realize now that none of the labels really matter in the context of a long duration of time, so I no longer worry about it. I also realize that every skill, job, and THING THAT YOU DO is just a facet of your identity--just a facet. Also, at no point in any time throughout these processes do you owe anything to anyone--even yourself. What I mean by that last statement is you can go and TRY things, claim you're a snowboarder one day, a pottery maker the next, and maybe a singer next moment, with no strings attached to any of the things you try.
You don't owe anything to anyone--including yourself.
You are whatever you what you want to be--at any moment in time.
You are what you repeatedly do.
Right now, you're at a fascinating time in your life--you have the resources AND time to explore anything and everything.
So congratulations, you're growing up :')
life is so much more than coding and engineering.
Like what ?
@@pratikrana7038 Like living
I reside in the c++ dungeon
I reside in the Elixir dungeon
U r an excellent communicator
It's insane that someone like Mayuko, who has years of experience at truly solid engineering teams, would feel this way. You already have awesome insight and combined with your thoughtfulness and sensitivity makes for a really refreshing viewpoint on what it means to be a software engineer in the contemporary Western software industry. I'm about 6 years into my software career now and at this point I'm thoroughly fed up with the culture that's been propagated from Silicon Valley. The tech industry has been very successful at convincing young engineers that we have to be passionate about coding itself rather than what the code does.
Maybe part of the impostor syndrome comes from that you are no longer focusing on writing business logic. There's an implicit idea that's shoved down our throats unwittingly that engineers have to focus on software that provides use-value for businesses, so what use is an engineer who only provides "value" for themselves or others not directly involved in the global economy? It's crazy when you consider how much of our systems are built on open source software...
I love when youtuers show like a normal person with highs and downs, I dont feel that something is wrong with me because I dont know every aspect of technology out there.
Mayuko, my soul sister. I never commented on your videos, but I watch your videos regularly. You just literally spelled out everything I feel. I quit my 14 year career in tech 1.5 years ago because I was tired of it. I still haven't figured out what to do next, but I know I have taken the right decision even though the stress of not having an identity which people want you to have, is real. I feel stressed about it, worry about it, cry about it, but then feel that sense of calmness in me when I realize that I'm not part of that hamster wheel anymore. You are not alone. I don't know how much my pov helps you, but hearing you talking about your life really helps me. I will continue to watch your videos and be inspired.
Thank you đSending you energy wherever you are in the world, friend. We'll figure it out.
I wish I could do the same.
Nah girl you're hella legit! You've worked at insanely reputable companies. You've coded, you've navigated the tech space, and you've built features and apps. Your perspective is incredibly insightful and meaningful for people who are in tech, going into it, leaving it, or even balancing it with other full-time endeavors. Your corner of the internet has shined so much light on the deeper and various dimensions that people in tech have. Thank you~
đđđđ Chloeeeee thank youuuuu
I took a hiatus from tech and my Comp Sci degree to be a SAHM and homeschool my 3 kids for 10 years. Now they're older and I'm going back to finish school in cybersecurity. I've got this huge gap on my resume and really no professional tech experience and it. is. SCARY. I'm working on getting a bunch of certs and finish my degree and hoping to be done in a year. Thank you for sharing your fears and vulnerabilities. You make me feel better and not alone.
Forgetting things is not about your brain failing, it's about keeping in mind what's matters to you now.
The more you learn the more things you forget. It's natural way a brain operates.
And you are a smarty.
I really enjoy the content that you create! I really appreciate you opening the conversation on things that aren't often talked about in the tech industry. As a fellow Asian American woman in CS, I resonate a lot with what you say, and learn a lot from your candid discussions. Thank you for helping make this space more inclusive.
Thank you so much for making these types of videos Mayuko. It is sooo nice knowing others feel the same way.
Thank you for being *you*
Thank you for your transparency! Keep doing you, your content and insight is super valuable!! Keep up the great work!
I really like the transparency, Mayuko. Keep being you, and asking yourself questions. Life is awesome and it's worth living it truly. Cheers from Transylvania! Have a nice day. :D
The honesty in your videos is always appreciated. And what you bring to this platform is pretty unique!
i gotta personally say that i find your recent vids so valuable mayuko!! your career focused ones have helped me so much in my first year doing fulltime SWE, and your freaking amazing video quality inspires me to work on my own â€â€ also so many of your more personal vids are so relatable and helped me validate my own feelings this past year
Videos are totally relevant! I certainly appreciate your content- and Iâm looking forward for more to come as you figure things out! Keep going and donât despair!
Thanks for sharing your feelings mayuko. To be frank some times your videos does add some value in my life, I am grateful for that. Please keep up your good work.
I subbed because of this kind of content. Don't need to hustle, just be yourself.
Exactly
thanks for being here, fam đ
Honestly, I'm glad you don't make code tutorials and would rather talk about *life* while coding. It brings a lot of awareness and comfort to me, so thank you!
Thank you so much for your authenticity. I definitely resonate.
"Coding is just a tool" - Well said!
And thank you for this inspiring video, we need more people talking about those topics openly.
Thank you for talking about this. We love you for being vulnerable. Everything your saying I can relate to.
Thank you very much Mayuko.
Thank you for sharing Mayuko â€
Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts. I've been through the same situation. Your video encourages me to pursue what I want. You're great! I admire you a lot.
Just be yourself! Thank you for sharing those videos and your feelings. I like your current content which helps me from stressful life and work.
Love your work! Don't worry about being vulnerable, we support you!
That is so fun how you rationalize it đ We love your thoughts !!
Great video! Really thanks for sharing, as it is not easy to be vulnerable. As a person just starting with CS, I appreciate your perspective.
You are awsome! thank you for sharing your experiences with us.
It's great to see different takes on a particular field-- and in tech especially. I think other aspects in the tech industry are not as talked about and given particular focus, mostly because the spotlight is on coding, so I appreciate you opening up and telling us, your audience, how you feel. Our self-worth should not be measured by a certain skill, we are an amalgamation and coming together of different skills, ideas, and experiences -- and it's great that you are experiencing those and enriching yourself which will give you a better and holistic perspective not only in tech but in life in general. Keep doing what you've been doing because it's been really great!
I love this video. You have valid points. Will still continue supporting you. Sending all the positive vibes!!
Thank you for putting out this video. Super relatable.
I feel this way too. Glad to hear that you are able to articulate what you are feeling
I really appreciate this video. Thank you for opening up!
Your ingenuity and outlook on the tech world is what keeps me subscribed. Itâs extremely refreshing to see you talk through underlying issues and thoughts that we experience on a day to day. Yes coding is cool to talk about but thereâs so much more beyond that tool to a career that you touch on very well. Thanks for sharing with us, cheers!
Thank you for sharing your candid and vulnerable thoughts with us. It really resonated with me. I remember watching your videos prior to making the career switch to software development and being inspired and feeling represented. As you said, while there are a lot of great tech tutorial channels out there, I think your channel especially provided a much-needed representation and a different view of tech!
I've only been following you for the last year since the lockdown but you've quickly become my go to for tech career stuff as a computer science student and the twitch streams are honestly the greatest help for my study on the off chance I can catch them (damn timezones).
Your point of view is very relevant for those of us who are just now entering the Software Engineering space. I honestly enjoy watching these honest videos and seeing everything from your point of view.
I really love the cozy aesthetic you give to your videos. To me, it doesn't really matter what the content is about. As long as you are doing what you love, and show this awesome vibe, I'm in! So, keep being cool, Mayuko! Greetings from MĂ©xico đČđœ
Thank you! This was a very comforting video!
*I can figure it out if i want to*I love how transparent you are.Thankyou.
Appreciate the realness đ ! You are helping many people
There are lot of coding tutorials out there, but these insightful videos taking about the personal experiences are gems.
Like you said Coding is a tool, problem solving is a skill which can be applied at lot of other areas.
As someone who recently found your content, I appreciate the honesty and vulnerability in the video. As someone who came to software development not having a computer science degree, I often get imposter syndrome feelings, and it adds plenty of anxiety to my life. Still, it is comforting to know that even someone like yourself experiences those feelings. As of late, I've found your content very helpful to keep me focused and lessen some of that feeling of being an imposter, and even if you're not actively coding, you still have plenty to offer your viewers since there is more to working in technology and software than pure coding. Keep up the awesome content.
Engineering has a low perseverance threshold. Shit is hard. Sheâs so well spoken! Itâs a vibe.
Facts đđč
Really easy video to watch the whole way through, great as always Mayuko! :)
Hi Mayuko - The content that you are creating is adding so much value. It takes a lot of courage to open yourself up and be vulnerable to yourself, your loved ones and the public and what you talk about is important. These conversations about topics like Imposter Syndrome, Mental Health etc effect everyone and being able to normalise the challenges that come with the journey is reassuring for those who are going through a similar experience. It's also important to re-define what it means to be productive and successful and that behaviours that come at the cost of our mental, physical and spiritual health is just not worth it and is often a misleading concept in the first place. You are Awesome and I respect you as an authority in tech and much more x :-)
Almost 7 years in tech industry & I felt the same as you. Slowly getting back to coding. Just take your time.
I relate a lot with you. I have gone through many phases as software engineer and lately I have been feeling it more as a chore and a responsibility rather than a passion or something I love to do. But this has also made me more aware of other hobbies and things I like in life.
Hello Mayuko, i can't believe I've only just found your channel â€. I've watched a few videos now and you're so spot on.
I've been a software developer fo 14 years and I really feel it's time to move on.
Thanks for being vulnerable, i can truly relate.
Loveeee this video. it's like you're in my head! I also left my job as a software engineer last year and started a new path as a career coach and all of what you talk about is very relevant to me too. Thanks for sharing!
I have a mountain to say, but simply I share your confidence and that's really what fruits grow out of the doubts we experience. I'm with you.
Love the honesty!!! I am self taught so all my time was coding, then when I got a job I was still coding in my spare time to keep learning but now my brain just canât handle finishing 9 hours at work to 3 hours on my own. Been getting back to recording and writing music which was my passion before coding and it has given me a better balance and made me happier đ
I appreciate your honesty here. I took a huge hit to my self esteem after losing a job six months ago, and I have been struggling with impostor syndrome, too. Now I have been dipping my feet back in and getting back in the swing of coding again. You will always be a SE because of your experience. No one can take that away from you.
Thank you, this is very helpful!
I subscribed (and supported) because of this sort of content. As Sarah said in last night's live, and the facilitators in my current bootcamp emphasize daily, the soft-skills hold just as much (if not more) weight in a lot of hiring. There are many resources for code walkthroughs and documentation but few put that world in context to what we're doing as well as you do. Keep on.
What a great perspective!
Its been very interesting to watch your channel evolve. I'll admit I watched your channel originally because you were so open about the work you did in your industry and I found it very refreshing about your honesty and openness. Even though you don't do the same thing anymore I don't as long as you as a person hasn't changed which is why I like ya. You're still very open honest and willing to share stuff you know. I love that about ya and that's why I still watch your videos. I know you may be struggling with your content creator journey but I'll keep being here as long as your core personality and general sharing nature doesn't change. I think you're great ^-^.
I started working a month ago as a junior full stack web developer and holly, my impostor syndrom is so huge that I even go work on saturdays to try to "upgrade" faster and feel less of an impostor
Please give yourself a break! Youâll be more productive after allowing your brain to rest and focus on other important parts of your life
Coders and software engineers were always my favourite people to work with because of their unwavering work ethic. I've also seen so many of them burn out right before my eyes though, which also makes the whole field really terrifying. Thank you for sharing your experience, you have a really great future ahead of you!
Keep the strong spirit Ms. Mayuko! Me either :)
My "code" sweatshirt is coming in the mail today, I'm so excited!! Thank you for the awesome videos. I'm just starting my career and it's so nice to hear from a woman in tech about your experiences.
very insightful.
as always.
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You the best Mayuko! Keep going homie :)
Youâre not a fraud!! But I feel where youâre coming from and honestly Iâm so happy youâre one of the few people breaking barriers and doing stuff beyond just coding tutorials. Youâre providing a great insight into the realities of the industry and just life in general! These types of videos especially have been so helpful to me personally and have helped navigate my own life. SO THANK YOU FOR WHAT YOU DO đđœ
Thanks for the sharing and I enjoyed listening to your down-to-earth thoughts while reflecting myself currently as a 2 years baby coder! Although not all of them are relatable to my self experience but it kinda resonates~~~
I w3nt through those phases several times where I quit my job, did something completely different, gained a lot of different experiences like event photography, website development, graphics design, scrum, programming webapps, 3d animations, electronics, etc etc.
Now I'm back at fulltime backend development and feel much more rounded and using all these skills where and as needed. Creating nice graphics to explain abstract and difficult to grasp concepts and putting that in presentations or documentation, structuring information into excelsheets or backlogs, setup contracts with agile timeboxing in mind, use my own photos as backdrop to enliven teams calls.
More often than not, being able to step beyond your bounds is very helpful in many work situations, so bringing skills not directly related could be the difference between a project completely failing and a succesful project.
If your experiences shift and you grow in different directions, it's perfectly fine to make that shift in the content you create too. It's more about your personal perspective, that's what makes it unique and interesting. And making a career switch is becoming more and more common.
And if you're done creating content, who knows, maybe you'll develop yourself into an online content creator coach âșïž
FWIW - -just discovered your channel. Comparing your earlier videos to your recent ones, it's obvious to me that you are more your authentic self now. It shows! So I'd say keep going in the direction you're currently going.
Really appreciate your hard work....as you are balancing YOITUBE and OFFICE WORK pretty well....And the content really makes one feel very relatable.....đđđđ
I relate so much with the debugging part. Tbh you donât even have to be in tech, and learning to debug is still gonna be tremendously useful when youâre using any software at all.
This feels like I can relate to it in the future. Thank you! :D
actually your vids make me comfortable and relaxed and reminds me not to be hard on myself knowing that you are there just like me but being brave talking about it in public, no f Software Engineer should be hard on himself /herself
I love you keep up the good "openning up" vids
it make us devs not feeling alone out there
You have control of your life. Thatâs a great life lesson for anyone. This channel is more than just coding stuffs and thatâs why youâre the only SE I follow.
It is okay Mayuko, sometimes we need to step back just to see or relax ourselves. We truly believe in you that you can always do it. Sometimes, I also feel that sometimes as a 2nd year college student my knowledge is not enough as a CS Student, but I always step back and think to assess what should I need to do, to avoid doubting myself or other stuff. So we believe in you. You are always the Princess of Software Engineering
This one really felt close since Iâve been going through something similar, quitting my stable job in a middle of a pandemic to pursue my illustration skills and content creation as well. Even tho Iâm not a part of the tech industry I can empathize with what you are talking about here and these feelings are valid and really necessary to talk about đ
appreciate you creating content that fuels your soul instead of chasing trends
Thanks for sharing, I am coding almost every day and I feel some of the same lol. Love this video.
Thanks for making this video, I could relate a great deal tbh
thank you for this video. I'm taking a lot of theory classes right now and as such I haven't touched code in a long while, and it makes me doubt myself and if its still going to all be there the next time I try it out. I appreciate your perspective and it made me feel a little better about myself and where I am in undergrad
Your video inspired me and I feel empathy about this, I have been stopped working as a UI Designer for 1 yr
you seem to really shine in the interpersonal aspects of development and could totally see you as an effective technical project manager or even a manager as well
I feel you Mayuko! Thank you for sharing so honestly đ
There's lot of creators/podcasters who aren't doing their topic of interest as a profession (food, music, gaming). I don't think we should expect that to be the case for tech creators.
Thank you for this video. I've been in the same place in BIM and architectural design due to several external factors but also beause of the the same dreaded impostor syndrome and really planning how to slowly get out of the rut. This video helped a lot, believe it or not.
Kudos to you for making this video
I mean most of the questions people have about the tech industry are about the hurdles of getting an entry-level job in tech or what it's like in the first couple of years. And that experience doesn't really change over time, so your experiences are still very much valid since you've gone through all those hurdles already.
I am not even a software engineer but i have still watched your videos and followed your channel since your first ever 'day in the life' video. Your videos provide good insights and advice which is transferable to other fields. I would personally still follow your channel even if you don't code or do tech videos. We are all more than just engineers. Have a great day!
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I can relate so much! I currently work as a software engineer. there are parts of my job I love, and parts that I don't really care for, but one of my fears that come up every time I consider switching to a new career is about losing some legitimacy by moving away from strictly technical roles.
Thanks so much for sharing your experience, I feel less alone :)
Mayuko weâll watch whatever video you make â€ïž
listening to mayuko makes me feel that Iâm not alone!!! đ€
Thank you for sharing your experience shifting to another career/focus. I had the same experience going to LeetCode and I am still actively coding for work đ
i'm so glad i found your channel!!!
I love your videos and think youâre doing great!
listening to what you have to say about leaving tech and not working as a software engineer really brings about some assurance to those in the same place!
You make great content about mental health and usual human problems, which make me feel alive and remember that I am a real person. I am working as a software engineer for a little while but even for this small time Iâve already burned out and got frustrated from job. Creators like you give me the strength to continue. Please keep going!
Engineering in general is somehow pretty competitive even if I find that the people *in* the field don't actually want to be. Especially true for Software Engineering, I find, where everyone is constantly comparing themselves to others, and worrying that they are lacking technical prowess. Which is weird since a majority seems to feel that way. It's like a charade that's perpetuated by everyone in a circular fashion, against mostly everyone's will. And it's quite toxic in reality. I think it is a shame because writing code can be such a creative endeavour.
I agree. And because it is so competitive, I see my peers really suffering(mental health wise). Also, me being a perfectionist, it is actually so exhausting trying to constantly stand out or prove that you're better than the rest. I just wish it wasn't this way, but I guess there's nothing we can do about it.
I'm in college and this is exactly what I'm going through right now, my mind has been foggy since march 2020, haven't studied as hard and consistently as I wanted to for months, but the fact that I'm aware of it is comforting, like having an out of body experience and seeing yourself do things not the way you want to but still knowing what and how you should accomplish stuff...