ANTS TO YOU, GODS TO WHO ?

I think its time I stopped trying to hide the world, live in colour and share what I truly feel...I might start uploading real moments too.
As a man, I feel things a lot deeper and have a hard time putting on a mask each and everyday, I started to lose myself and who I am.
When the lights are low, and the crowd is gone...Who am I? A performer on and off the stage? A man of no love and morals? A God fearing soul? A student of the universe? A teacher of doctrine? An observer of a fallen world?
What more can I be doing to treat the world, each an every person I meet, including myself, better?