@@CosmiaNebula hm.....i posted you a comment on this vid but not on in here like im writing to you but i wrote watching the vid a comment youll know its me if you look at my pic and see my name (meaning i want you to read my name right now back out of here but remember my name stay here on this video you made but there should be a new comment) Hopefully it doesnt sound confusing sorry if it does.
I think the reason I found Moon Dancer so tragic is the fact that Twilight never saw her as a friend or even remembered. None of Twilight's 'friends' from Canteralot were seen as friends, more acquaintances that she didn't even try to remember. Whereas for Moon Dancer, Twilight was almost close to someone she not only saw as a friend but as a perfect someone she wished she could be like, but in the end, she was left like she was just a useless book that never caught Twilight's eyes. But what I liked the most that after the Moon Dancer episode, she didn't become best friends with Twilight and was seen as this important person but instead learned to move on and care and hang out with people who will be in her life and won't leave her like Colgate etc. So I just wanted to say that I hope, just like Moon Dancer, even when everything seems like shit and you don't feel like you can keep going, try to open up, find people who care or even try to notice the ones who are already there. Stop chasing after someone from your past who won't ever come for you but start being with those who are there with you in the present
I would've liked to see Luna becoming Moondancer's mentor. As someone who wasn't given the spotlight and knew how that felt due to someone being seen as better. That way there was someone to carry out the nighttime/dream realm. The similarities between Twilight and Moondancer to Celestia and Luna are quite interesting. So, I'm surprised that Moondancer didn't get to meet Luna in another episode as a way for Twilight to help her find someone who understands her. But I think that kinda shows how Twilight just gave up on her Canterlot "friends."
⚠️small abuse mention⚠️ Back when I was 13 and I first saw Moondancer I didn’t really relate to her since I’m not really a smart person I just read to escape reality and after I stopped watching mlp. But after getting back into and rewatching that episode I feel extremely connected to her. I had a friend who was me but better she was smart and nice everybody liked her because she was nice and shy and smart and good at drawing and reading and writing and I was just a weirdo nobody liked she was also really hypercritical and would constantly make fun of my art but everyone took her side even my other friend who had been friends with me longer. then she stopped being my friend and when she moved on she got everything I wanted a big grand friend group a loving non abusive mother a loving boyfriend who funnily enough use to be my boyfriend meanwhile I am left with no one now shutting myself in with only books as company .
I’m so sorry, I hope you’re doing okay. Just know there will be someone out there who will genuinely care about you. Things may be horrible right now but they’re going to get better, I’m sure. Just hold on till then. You’ve got this, I believed in you ❤️
I'm sorry that happened to you, as a fellow artist I never criticize anyone's art because I remind myself that my drawing skills in elementary years suck compared to what I draw now, even if you show me any of your drawings I bet that it is better than anything I draw in 4th Grade and in my Jr. High School years, your former friend who over ctiticize your drawings 100% forgot what it's like to draw for the first time compared to what she's drawn now, she has no right to over criticize you if her first drawing suck compared to her current skills. Please do whatever you can to stay away to those who hurt you and focus on self healing, take on step at a time to change for the better. Remember nothing lasts forever that also includes the bad times sooner or later things will change.
Im sorry. All that has happened to already makes me feel guilty.. 😥 That same thing happened to me... l felt pointless.... I hope your doimg good beacuse i never ever EVER want the same thing to Happen to another person.
You say she was “you but better” but just from the behaviour you described you are an immensely better person than them, they sound extremely cruel. They sound similar to an ex-friend from my school years, somehow I actually had a lot of my friendships turn into one sided rivalry/resentment/jealousy even tho I was never competitive or combative, I went out of my way to be supportive, especially to my fellow artists (whether they were better than me or not) but no one got as nasty as the person who I’d considered my best friend. I think being so similar unfortunately lead to too many points of comparison, something that a person can’t handle if they’re prone to jealousy or have a big ego to protect. I think this phenomenon is especially common for creative people, one person gets obsessed with being the best and they make such friendships unreconcilable. I think for the instance this occurred with my best friend (turned ex-friend) I enraged them further because I didn’t fight back or allow it to turn into a competition, I just bowed out quietly to find more civilised company and wouldn’t take the bait and be “upset” and fight with them like they wanted me to. I felt like they wanted some kind of confrontation that would determine our social rankings, artistic ability, and even romantic eligibility as it seemed as tho they wanted to date the same people I had started to pursue (who in turn, seemed interested in me, another trigger of their jealousy towards me). But of course, I just avoided any confrontation entirely, I distanced myself and basically acted like nothing notable was going on despite all the aggressive, insult filled messages they’d send me. They said not to bother to reply as “they wouldn’t read it” but I think the fact I actually had the resolve to never message them back (despite being both upset and furious) sent them crazy. I remember being given the advice that “no reaction is the best reaction” so I stuck to that tactic and did my best to just erase their previous importance to me and push them out of my life completely. But even so, it still hurt a lot to lose a best friend and it was quite lonely as building bonds with new people was never instant, having Aspergers made that process even harder and I know they were actively trying to sabotage my friendship opportunities behind my back, I’m glad people trusted the me they saw and interacted with and not the lies my former friend spread. Tho even to new friends I hid all my hurt feelings about the ordeal, I didn’t want my ex-friend to get any gratification in believing they hurt me and I worried admitting it to someone could lead to that message being passed on to my ex-friend. But it meant I had no one to talk about this upsetting friendship breakdown and had to deal with it alone. Something in hindsight I shouldn’t have done as it wasn’t healthy to suffer alone. I definitely believe this friendship failure was all an ego/jealousy thing tho, and I have a strong feeling the same thing might be behind why your ex-friend behaved so abhorrently. You made the (humble) assumption they were better than you but I bet they thought similarly of you and it brought out an ugly side of them. Going out of their way to date your ex boyfriend makes me feel like they were obsessed and jealous of you whilst you and that boy were dating, and being able to date them later on was some ‘victory’ to them or a measure of ‘success’ in a petty game of comparison. Something I really want to emphasise tho, is that if they were truly confident they were the better artist, they’d have never been compelled to insult your art, that is a dead giveaway they were threatened by your artistic ability and/or your capacity to become known as “the artist kid” among your classmates, a title they probably wanted exclusively for themself. Trying to insult you and drag you down was a childish attempt at dominance, probably hoping they could demoralise you into stopping art, or at least make you self conscious enough not to draw in class. I know I m’ve kind of rambled here, but I also wanted to say I’m almost in my 30s now and I’m not friends with a single person I went to school with, I never managed to develop any strong lasting friendships during that part of my life. I think a lot of people fear that school is their only true chance of finding life long friendships and that they’re doomed to be alone if they’re unsuccessful socially during their teens. But let me say from experience, as you get older you will find real friends and lovers through so many different avenues (many completely unexpectedly, in places you’d never predict) and every awful person from your school years will become an insignificant spec of sand in the hourglass of time. Life just gets better and better as it goes on and you’re no longer confined to an inescapable school-prison where you’re stuck being in the company of unlikeable and unkind people. Forget the past and keep moving forward because there’s good things in your future, and good people, up ahead waiting for you to find them. That goes for anyone else reading this comment too!
I heard this song in 2019 and it hit really hard. One day October 2020, I woke up with this song ringing in my ears and I knew that I must make such an animatic.
honestly the moondancer episode was one of my favorites and i wish there was more of her in the show or fanbase. and i'm sure that a lot of people relate with her which is pretty nice to find in the show you like.. anyway. great job with the animatic.
i relate to moon dancer so much- tip to anyone else who does: no matter what hardships youve gone through, use those to your advantage and become your own princess twilight ✨
I keep coming back to this video. This year has been really hard for me (really the past few) and mlp is a huge light in the darkness for me. Whenever I feel hopeless or like Moondancer does here, I just put this on repeat and cry. Not the happiest message but it helps so much to know that at least one person gets me.
It's the same with me I guess. On a good day, I feel comfortably numb and study hard. On a bad day, I'm exhausted and feel attacked on all sides and abandoned on earth. I often think about Celestia and Luna and wished they would take me away. It's kind of like my personal religion. But I know they are not real. I'm the Moondancer, but there is no Twilight or any other pony for me. I'm honoured this video can accompany you in the sorrow.
It's sad to see how many people can relate to such a thing in today's age. Even myself.. I hope we all will get through it and find the happiness we are looking for
Most of us has been there, i tbh couldn't say much, it was a pretty dark time for me For ppl that is currently gling through something like this, please seek mental health, PLEASE don't hide it, someone will help you. For the ppl that hasn't gone through this, well, goodluck :shrug:, be prepared it comes out of nowhere and hits like a truck
I honestly never gone through this before, and I’m not sure if it will. But I do feel bad for the ppl who have it and I just hope they’ll get better one day and being able to smile without faking it
Cosmia, idk if you'll read this, but I need to say that this animatic really touched me (right in the soul lol). I was depressed for a long time, but now I am feeling better. Still, my mindset was changed forever by experiencing depression and this animatic portrayed the thoughts that caused this change... and they rarely still pop up on my mind, so this video became very meaningful to me. I just wanted to let you know that I won't forget it. And, if you'd like to have someone you can talk to (even if it's just chit-chat), I'm here ^^
@@gisellepeterson7459 I didn't think anyone would relate to this! Thanks for replying! Although it makes me kinda sad that we have to go through these things, I hope reading my comment could make you feel a lil bit less lonely. Wishing you the best
@@inky_tea4186 Hello! I can give some tips, but please remember that everyone is unique so what worked for me may not work for you, but that doesn't mean you should give up on trying to get better: you've already taken the first step which is wanting to improve your situation! 1. I think the most important thing is to seek professional help, I struggled a bit with this until I found a therapist that helped me a lot because I could look at my life with someone without feeling judged. 2. Seek support from friends and family (if that's possible). If you can't, you can try meeting new people, as long as you don't feel very uncomfortable with doing it. 3. Speaking of uncomfortable, getting out of your comfort zone and doing new things can be refreshing. Just be sure that it's within reason, don't do anything that might hurt yourself or others around you 4. Use social media wisely, unfollow accounts that make you feel bad 5. Allow yourself to feel and be in the moment, connect with yourself. And understand that improvement doesn't go in a straight line: it takes multiple falls in order to learn how to walk, and even if when you've learned, you'll still fall, but now you can walk to a better place! Sorry for the long response, I tried my best to make it as complete as possible! Best wishes and good luck :D
gosh, i can 100% relate to Moon Dancer and the song and everything friends all leave you, life sucks, you wanna die, everything is awful... there's no positive takeaway to this, life just sucks
I'll always say "I'm fine" as long i can handle it. And to think that i used to be that happy joyful person giving everyone advices when really the person who needs help is me... The irony, right? I'm trying at least. That's the best i can do.
I kinda ran out of ability to pretend to be a normal pony meme posting channel.Still it's something? I could keep posting funny pony videos until I die, and then be forgotten anyway. This video is the one exception where I really post my suffering. (There used to be a lot darker stuff on my channel, but I hid them to make my channel look more inviting and happy)
@@CosmiaNebula I too tried to hid my past self and pretended to be fine. This emotions i feel, they brought something out of me and i don't know what it is, behind that innocent face. The best i can do is find that little thing that makes me happy and just move on with life. Because someday at one point it'll be much worse and i don't know if i'll ever be ready for it.
Everyone has bad times but don't allow them break you! You're amazing artist how could you just leave all your works that you worked hard on them!? Always remember You're the best uwu💫💫💜💜
i set this video on loop for days, i'm not feeling mentally good, but this song and this video somehow give me some strenght to not surrender to my lonliness and my toughts...
Yeah this about sums up my mental state since 2013. Ponies, video games, and unquestionably unhealthy coping mechanisms have been my driving force for so long that Its just become normal for me. I legitimately never thought I'd live to see 20, but now I'm 24 and living just so I don't hurt others with my death. Nice vid btw :)
The best thing i can tell you to happen is that, it gets better, friend, it always does, i readed and watched the animatic, and i can tell, you have quite a talent for this, dont let youre own emotions or thoughts surrender on what you can become i see a really beatiful career for you, you can do this, even if you dont believe in yourseñf, i can believe in you, and well, im getting out of theme, but, you are, certainly someone to care, and love, you deserve it, even if you think you dont.
I’m so happy I found this video. I relate to Moon Dancer so much and this encapsulates how I feel a lot. The art is really pretty you did such a good job :D
This is incredibly well done! Even tho I disagree with the message that all your friends are inevitable going to leave you, I can see the amount of effort that was put into this, and Cosmia, remember that I will be always there for you, we may never know each other in person, but if you need someone to talk to after a bad day, I will be there, in the same way that Luna worries about Moondancer, I worry about you. Sincerely, The Luna Fan.
i sincerely hope this doesn't sound weird, but i found your vent in the video and description incredibly beautiful. it shows a new perspective and really makes me think about it all. it's awful that depression has gone so mainstream these days, making people much more oblivious to it. i'm not going to say that i hope you'll be okay, but from the bottom of my heart i hope that you decide to stay alive and push further. you're incredibly strong and so very brave for sharing your true thoughts
Thank you for your kind words. I wouldn't say normal people are oblivious to depression because it's "mainstream". Rather, depression is inherently difficult to understand. It is like a mild form of insanity from the POV of normal people. But on the other side, normal people are mildly insane from the POV of depressed people. There is a chasm of understanding that's hard to bridge. When depressed, reasons for hope seem stupid. When normal, reasons for despair seem like groaning for nothing. (P.S.: what happened to your channel? It seems like there used to be content there)
@@CosmiaNebula i agree with that completely, it's hard to put yourself on the other side's pov and i used to animate but i burned myself out along with getting bullied out of it slowly. seems like the standard was too high for me
@@CosmiaNebula it's important to remember that anyone can get depression, and a lot of people do go through periods of it! it's still very misunderstood because society is dumb, but there isn't any clear distinction between a "normal" person and a "depressed" person. depression is an illness like any other - your mind and body will need periods of rest and recuperation, or it may need medicine or doctors to help it recover, and there might still be times when it's hard to handle the symptoms. but there will also be times when you're feeling better, and those times are worth the struggle. i know what it's like to live with chronic major depression and suicidal ideation - i've attempted before, and the one thing that ultimately made me try to save myself was the idea that i hadn't seen what life had in store yet. there were still so many people to meet and things to do, even if people or places i loved had gone. nearing 30, i'm really damn happy i stayed around! i wouldn't have met the wonderful people i have or gotten to experience all the new ways of existing i couldn't imagine before if i'd given up. i hope this venting animatic helps you find some catharsis when you need it. but i also hope you - and everyone who watches and relates - can learn how you heal best, and keep recovering from those bad spells that having The Sad Flu puts you through.
I only found this aniamatic a few days ago and I know this one is gonna stick with me for a long long time. I never realised how much I related to Moondancer until most of my friendships broke down and I fell into depression. I weirdly find comfort in this video, so thank you for sharing it. I'm not forgetting this one
I think you've accomplished something, it can be a small something to a big something to you, but you've created your own youtube channel with wonderful content and very loving fans. To me, that's a big accomplishment! And I think you're really lucky to have that, and I'm proud of you for keeping up with it :)
I have to say, I've watched this many times and whenever I see any art of Moondancer this song comes to mind. I don't know if it's not so nice but I made that association 😅 but the song is pretty, even with the tragic lyrics
Moondancer is really a wholesome pony that I like her cuz even the things gone wrong or the friends you have abandoned you,these people will remember of you and try to help you and became a better friend^^,and if these bad thoughts are arounding your head telling you that is don't have any reason you still here and living and telling to end your life right now don't let hear to them cuz there are friends and family who cares about you^^
Having the strength to go on everyday _is_ an amazing feat. Don't underestimate your underlying determination. True friends shouldn't painfully melt away as you've described. I wish to be your friend so I could help you through this personally. If you'll allow me, please, let me be the one to help you see meaning in life again. Since you've given me inspiration and hope, I want to give you the same. Besides, friendship is to give and get.
I get it... This kind of speaks to you doesnt it cosmia? I caught on. When it shows her face shattered in the glass is it supposed to be your idenity of who you are? Theres so much emotion.... Bpd is very hard to struggle with. And i pay attention to the things you express and say and how you use celestia twilight and so on how you relate to them and etc. I read it all in the descriptions of your videos so when i go back to your older ones and i listen to THIS one it now all makes sense. And about your friendships and so on that youve expressed. You put it all into this video and animation yet no one could see through the illusion or Animation but i did. They thought it was just an Animation but i knew a part of it was Something MORE than just that. I saw what you did there and i think that was very beautiful and unique. I can relate to this alot it means alot to me thank you. I hope you know your not alone even if this Animation was a while ago cosmia. BPD is one of the most painful Disorders out there but its not impossible to get through or treat! I know you may feel like its hard to manage or gain friendships due to your disorder trust me....but your not alone in this war. Everything you expressed in this video i saw through it all because i pay closely attention and so on. Its hard for me to express it all. I'm here for you if you need Anything!
based on the past decade, I would say it's in my personality to suffer, which means it will not be better soon. My friends are mostly gone and I guess I should stop procrastinating on my death.
@@CosmiaNebula no no! Don't say that, dear! ;; I know that it's hard but you deserve to live, you deserve to be happy, I want to do everything what I can, to help you ;; Don't give up, I believe in you, I believe in your wonderful future 💙 I feel your words, I feel your pain, I know how hard it is but It's gonna be okey, I promise ;;
We all go through hell, yet we out live it. Everyone has gone through something traumatic. But we all put one foot in front of the other and we keep moving. No matter how hurt or broken we are. We move, we grow, we learn. Don't ever try to let the past sink in to much. Because at the end of the day. That was the very beginning of your story. Your no where near the middle yet. Keep walking. Keep growing. Because at the end of the day. You got a page to fill in your story.
This is incredibly amazing. Moondancer is my favorite character due to her story and the whole atmosphere. It's the first time I see such well-developed animatic with her and it hit me so much. Thank you for that masterpiece. I really hope you get better soon, I see you as an extremely talented person. You guys did a fantastic job
I left it ambiguous. Maybe Moondancer really died, and she has collected her soul. Maybe she noticed Moondancer's troubles and is giving her dream-therapy (like she did with Scootaloo once).
I really hope you're feeling better now, someday this looliness will stop hurting this much... i- we have to believe in this. I dont know how you must feel but i feel like happiness is no longer with me, but i still have hope that someday i might at least feel a little better. I really appreciate your art and work, i wish you a good tomorrow❤
This really was amazing and you have a real talent. Moondancer’s story touched me especially, even though I didn’t care much for the newer seasons of MLP.
I am so sorry you have to go through this, I mean it sincerely. My words are not drawn from pity whatsoever but from understanding what this feels like. I have been struggling with depression and several other issues to the point where I actually tried to kill myself not so long ago. I didn't go through with it, perhaps out of cowardice or the knowledge that if I did, I would've been successful. I had friends I thought cared for me but they all used me, talked badly about me with others, spoke wonderful lies made out of fake promises and poison before ultimately leaving me without any explanation whatsoever. With nothing but pain, self loathing and trust issues. I tried to talk to them about how I felt and they guilt tripped me into saying it was just a joke, that it didn't matter. My current situation isn't of the best as well, unfortunately. Personally? I absolutely hate myself and consider myself to be absolutely useless, worthless and not deserving of anything but I found someone who loves me for who I am. I wanted to give up but someone grabbed my hand and pulled me back. I'm still far from doing well, but I'm in an amazing relationship with the most wonderful person ever and I know everything feels dark and lonely but I also know that a candle light is shining in the middle of the room. You can find it. You can walk towards it. I know I'm an absolute nobody, but if you ever need someone to talk to, I'll be there to lend a hand. Not all friendships can last forever, that's true, but some of them can be real and worth a try, if you find the right people. For the rest, I really wish you the best, you deserve it 💖
Start by not blaming yourself for what your fake friends did to you. You didn't do anything that made them act toxic: they were toxic to begin with. Then, attempt to stop magnifying your failures and ignoring your victories. Your failures should not define you. Try to remember what your actual friend sees in you. I'm not saying to do this overnight, as that's impossible, but you, not time, can heal yourself.
I relate to this. It makes me sad because the first reason I've watched My Little Pony was because I had no friends and obviously it being named friendship is magic I wanted to see if friendship really was wonderful and magical, instead it only saddened me watching the ponies go on adventures with friends and what not and here I am lonely. Still to this day I ponder If my existence means something, I'm lonely and in shambles, and I still am, but I just know that somewhere, somehow a friend is waiting for me.
really wish the best for you ! pls remember you are very loved no matter what and that there are people out there that are meant to step into your life, sooner or later one more day that goes by is a day less till you meet the ones who will bright up your days, just hold tight, you can do it [:
Holy shit. What a beautiful animation! It's so pretty aaaa Thank you a lot for introducing me to this song! It's amazing, I relate to it so much! Also thanks to this I realized how much I relate to Moondancer. Edit: I've read the decription, I feel exactly the same way. Sometimes I too draw things that I'm thinking would be good as a "suicide note". But I'm too not sure about death, and there's like 50% I'll die by suicide someday. I too am good at procrastinating... I could go on like that about everything you said there. I'd say it's going to be okay, but I don't know that. I'm gonna spare the "You have to believe it'll be better" talk. I just wish you all the best. Edit2: Well, except the "over a decade" part. I've been depressed for like 3/4 years. You're incredibly strong if you're fighting for so long already. I believe you can fight with depression until it's gone.
See, you are not the normal optimists, and that I'm grateful for. It's not something that just gets better by a snappy sentence or an angry kick. It's not even "fighting depression" but rather "walking through life, sometimes impersonating depression, sometimes impersonating normalcy." The thing is that I don't see depression as an outside threat anymore than optimists see their normalcy as an alien invasion to their brains. Depression is a lifestyle (and sometimes deathstyle), a worldview.
What you are basically, deep deep down, far far in, is simply the fabric and structure of existence itself. And when you find that out you love yourself silly. One day that vast thing you see in the sky with a telescope is going to wake you up and you'll say That's me isn't it?.... - Alan Watts.
Aaaa!! Yes! So happy to find this video! A great video indeed! As a huge fan of depressed pony stuff, it's a great delight to find a full blown animatic like this, and also, a whole new great channel. Thank you youtube algorithms, and of course, thank you creators! (Sorry for being over-exited on dark subject as this. This video is just a treasure.) Moon Dancer would be exactly that withdrawn academic pony to typeset her suicide note in LaTeX :P
Hey man, in a way, I know how you feel... You just keep getting left behind, right? Your friends just keep leaving you along in the dust. I get that. Same thing happens to me. I’m at the point where I’m straight up too tired to maintain friendships that will go down the drain soon anyway... As someone who is very suicidal and has been cutting for a while, I know how tired and lonely you feel. Just please don’t give up... I know it might not mean too much coming from and absolute stranger whose already suicidal but I really mean it. Let’s have that percentage go down of you ending yourself. I mean it when I say I need you here every year. Please...
Have you tried visiting the mental hospital? It’s a gamble on wether or not you get put into a good one, but if you do, it has the ability to work wonders. I’ve been clean of self harm ever since I went to one, and the therapy/meds following it have eliminated my suicidal thoughts and actions. I know not everything works for everyone. But it’s worth a shot.
Hey, I'm a total stranger, I cant really say I know you or how to help you, but I wanted to let you know that I've struggled with suicidal depression for some 13 years or so, and I know exactly what you're feeling. I cant promise that you'll feel better or that things will get easier. I dont know what the future holds. I just wanted to let you know that you are seen, and that there are people who understand how much it hurts, and we're all trying to get through this fucked up world together. I hope you do feel better and I hope things do get easier. But even if they dont any time soon I hope you can keep hanging on because you deserve love and I'm sure it will find you someday.
You deserve to be loved! I will always remember this, even if this ends up getting privated or deleted! Just know that we are all alove for a reason. We may never know what that reason is, but it's there! And remember! Even white crayons and white colored pencils have a use too!❤
Please read this, Cosmia. I love you and want you to be okay. Nothing stays the same for long. But when it changes, doesn't mean it's gone. Time will always get away, as it leaves behind another day. Things may come, and things may go. Some go fast, and some go slow. Few things last, that's all I know, But friendship carries on... Look at all the fans you have on your channel. These are not just merely fans, these are friends. Look at how they are so concerned about you, look at how I've never commented on your videos before and yet I took time out of my day to reach out to somebody that needs it. Look at the heartache you've had in the past, then turn foward to another day and never look back. Things rarely stay the same. We're always making new friends, trying new things on this little rock in the middle of the universe. I don't know why they change, but they do. And although you've been hurt, the friends you have made through your content on this channel are going to help you through this. God put you on this space rock for a reason. There are Twilights and Moondancers on this earth-- people who find success easily, and those who seem to fail. But if God made them both, surely he has a reason for them to be here. Surely he has a reason for YOU to be here.
I appreciate your efforts, though concerning God, I have my own religion, and I find it more believable than your optimistic vision of a good God creating us with a purpose each. I think God created this world to produce suffering, because God eats pain. I call this God "Maldoror", and wrote more about It here. www.deviantart.com/kopaleo/art/Maldoror-My-God-858664723
@@a-s-greig From suicide and herself(?) and take away anything sharp, or file the weapons down, take away the pills (unless they’re for health reasons) untie her off the train tracks and cut the rope off the rock. (Moon Dancer needs a hug tbh.)
This ..... animation is like me... u see i have adhd and .. all my friends left me and bullied me after it in the end im 17 and been alone for aslong as 7 years and suicide has been on my mind alot specficly self harm i still have a scar from my first cut
Yeah friends come and go, i have only 2 friends and i am happy with that. Sometimes is it hard without friends, cause you have no one to talk and when everyone hates you, its not getting easier.
I just hope you are feeling better, and like you, im also depressed and also have thought about suicide way to many times, just so you know, if you need anything, i’ll be there for you, we dont know each other but you’ll always have a friend in me, i promise, i dont have friends either, so i really know how you feel like
"but I give it a 50% chance I will die by suicide someday." Oh, no. Don't you dare. Don't you even dare. You might feel like this is the way, but this is not! This will only make it impossible for you to get better! Fight on, matey! There has to be people close to you, people you can interact with on a daily basis. People who are somehow friends, even pen pals, that you can talk to.
pandan009's post about this
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Moondancer is such an underrated character, I think this is amazingly made
It's the only Moondancer animatic on the whole Internet! She really deserves some attention and headcanon expansion.
@@CosmiaNebula I agree wholely!
@@CosmiaNebula I agree
Yes.
@@CosmiaNebula hm.....i posted you a comment on this vid but not on in here like im writing to you but i wrote watching the vid a comment youll know its me if you look at my pic and see my name (meaning i want you to read my name right now back out of here but remember my name stay here on this video you made but there should be a new comment)
Hopefully it doesnt sound confusing sorry if it does.
I think the reason I found Moon Dancer so tragic is the fact that Twilight never saw her as a friend or even remembered. None of Twilight's 'friends' from Canteralot were seen as friends, more acquaintances that she didn't even try to remember. Whereas for Moon Dancer, Twilight was almost close to someone she not only saw as a friend but as a perfect someone she wished she could be like, but in the end, she was left like she was just a useless book that never caught Twilight's eyes. But what I liked the most that after the Moon Dancer episode, she didn't become best friends with Twilight and was seen as this important person but instead learned to move on and care and hang out with people who will be in her life and won't leave her like Colgate etc. So I just wanted to say that I hope, just like Moon Dancer, even when everything seems like shit and you don't feel like you can keep going, try to open up, find people who care or even try to notice the ones who are already there. Stop chasing after someone from your past who won't ever come for you but start being with those who are there with you in the present
@Kasidy Williams I read that.
*when you read the whole thing*
@Kasidy Williams l read it l nerd so l read like it book
@Kasidy Williams Over 92 people
@Kasidy Williams I read it
I would've liked to see Luna becoming Moondancer's mentor. As someone who wasn't given the spotlight and knew how that felt due to someone being seen as better. That way there was someone to carry out the nighttime/dream realm. The similarities between Twilight and Moondancer to Celestia and Luna are quite interesting. So, I'm surprised that Moondancer didn't get to meet Luna in another episode as a way for Twilight to help her find someone who understands her. But I think that kinda shows how Twilight just gave up on her Canterlot "friends."
I'm so gonna make this into a fanfic
In my mind-,
@@Rin_Tin_Tin *I swear- you really should do it on a public website if you're comfy to do so. If not- I'll do it. UwU*
@@shrimpchild I would love but I suck at writing
@@Rin_Tin_Tin *Oof*
@@Rin_Tin_Tin have confidence!! Even if you think you suck their will always be someone who will enjoy it!!!
⚠️small abuse mention⚠️ Back when I was 13 and I first saw Moondancer I didn’t really relate to her since I’m not really a smart person I just read to escape reality and after I stopped watching mlp. But after getting back into and rewatching that episode I feel extremely connected to her. I had a friend who was me but better she was smart and nice everybody liked her because she was nice and shy and smart and good at drawing and reading and writing and I was just a weirdo nobody liked she was also really hypercritical and would constantly make fun of my art but everyone took her side even my other friend who had been friends with me longer. then she stopped being my friend and when she moved on she got everything I wanted a big grand friend group a loving non abusive mother a loving boyfriend who funnily enough use to be my boyfriend meanwhile I am left with no one now shutting myself in with only books as company .
I’m so sorry, I hope you’re doing okay. Just know there will be someone out there who will genuinely care about you. Things may be horrible right now but they’re going to get better, I’m sure. Just hold on till then. You’ve got this, I believed in you ❤️
I'm sorry that happened to you, as a fellow artist I never criticize anyone's art because I remind myself that my drawing skills in elementary years suck compared to what I draw now, even if you show me any of your drawings I bet that it is better than anything I draw in 4th Grade and in my Jr. High School years, your former friend who over ctiticize your drawings 100% forgot what it's like to draw for the first time compared to what she's drawn now, she has no right to over criticize you if her first drawing suck compared to her current skills.
Please do whatever you can to stay away to those who hurt you and focus on self healing, take on step at a time to change for the better.
Remember nothing lasts forever that also includes the bad times sooner or later things will change.
Im sorry. All that has happened to already makes me feel guilty.. 😥 That same thing happened to me...
l felt pointless.... I hope your doimg good beacuse i never ever EVER want the same thing to
Happen to another person.
You say she was “you but better” but just from the behaviour you described you are an immensely better person than them, they sound extremely cruel. They sound similar to an ex-friend from my school years, somehow I actually had a lot of my friendships turn into one sided rivalry/resentment/jealousy even tho I was never competitive or combative, I went out of my way to be supportive, especially to my fellow artists (whether they were better than me or not) but no one got as nasty as the person who I’d considered my best friend. I think being so similar unfortunately lead to too many points of comparison, something that a person can’t handle if they’re prone to jealousy or have a big ego to protect.
I think this phenomenon is especially common for creative people, one person gets obsessed with being the best and they make such friendships unreconcilable. I think for the instance this occurred with my best friend (turned ex-friend) I enraged them further because I didn’t fight back or allow it to turn into a competition, I just bowed out quietly to find more civilised company and wouldn’t take the bait and be “upset” and fight with them like they wanted me to. I felt like they wanted some kind of confrontation that would determine our social rankings, artistic ability, and even romantic eligibility as it seemed as tho they wanted to date the same people I had started to pursue (who in turn, seemed interested in me, another trigger of their jealousy towards me). But of course, I just avoided any confrontation entirely, I distanced myself and basically acted like nothing notable was going on despite all the aggressive, insult filled messages they’d send me. They said not to bother to reply as “they wouldn’t read it” but I think the fact I actually had the resolve to never message them back (despite being both upset and furious) sent them crazy. I remember being given the advice that “no reaction is the best reaction” so I stuck to that tactic and did my best to just erase their previous importance to me and push them out of my life completely.
But even so, it still hurt a lot to lose a best friend and it was quite lonely as building bonds with new people was never instant, having Aspergers made that process even harder and I know they were actively trying to sabotage my friendship opportunities behind my back, I’m glad people trusted the me they saw and interacted with and not the lies my former friend spread.
Tho even to new friends I hid all my hurt feelings about the ordeal, I didn’t want my ex-friend to get any gratification in believing they hurt me and I worried admitting it to someone could lead to that message being passed on to my ex-friend. But it meant I had no one to talk about this upsetting friendship breakdown and had to deal with it alone. Something in hindsight I shouldn’t have done as it wasn’t healthy to suffer alone.
I definitely believe this friendship failure was all an ego/jealousy thing tho, and I have a strong feeling the same thing might be behind why your ex-friend behaved so abhorrently. You made the (humble) assumption they were better than you but I bet they thought similarly of you and it brought out an ugly side of them. Going out of their way to date your ex boyfriend makes me feel like they were obsessed and jealous of you whilst you and that boy were dating, and being able to date them later on was some ‘victory’ to them or a measure of ‘success’ in a petty game of comparison. Something I really want to emphasise tho, is that if they were truly confident they were the better artist, they’d have never been compelled to insult your art, that is a dead giveaway they were threatened by your artistic ability and/or your capacity to become known as “the artist kid” among your classmates, a title they probably wanted exclusively for themself. Trying to insult you and drag you down was a childish attempt at dominance, probably hoping they could demoralise you into stopping art, or at least make you self conscious enough not to draw in class.
I know I m’ve kind of rambled here, but I also wanted to say I’m almost in my 30s now and I’m not friends with a single person I went to school with, I never managed to develop any strong lasting friendships during that part of my life. I think a lot of people fear that school is their only true chance of finding life long friendships and that they’re doomed to be alone if they’re unsuccessful socially during their teens. But let me say from experience, as you get older you will find real friends and lovers through so many different avenues (many completely unexpectedly, in places you’d never predict) and every awful person from your school years will become an insignificant spec of sand in the hourglass of time. Life just gets better and better as it goes on and you’re no longer confined to an inescapable school-prison where you’re stuck being in the company of unlikeable and unkind people. Forget the past and keep moving forward because there’s good things in your future, and good people, up ahead waiting for you to find them. That goes for anyone else reading this comment too!
I'm happy to know I'm not the only one who went through a same event like this but I'm so sorry
I can never not relate to that sad, little smile Moondancer has in this video.
I had never heard this song before this video and this song hit me way harder then it should have
I heard this song in 2019 and it hit really hard. One day October 2020, I woke up with this song ringing in my ears and I knew that I must make such an animatic.
I sincerely hope you will get better one day and find friends who will stay by your side No matter what
This video hit me harder than I thought it would...
that's nice to hear... at least someone recognizes my pain
@@CosmiaNebula I do truly feel that sometimes I don't recognize myself anymore...
Yet I also keep finding reasons to go on living...
@@CosmiaNebula same
This video is underrated as hell.
honestly the moondancer episode was one of my favorites and i wish there was more of her in the show or fanbase. and i'm sure that a lot of people relate with her which is pretty nice to find in the show you like..
anyway. great job with the animatic.
i relate to moon dancer so much- tip to anyone else who does: no matter what hardships youve gone through, use those to your advantage and become your own princess twilight ✨
Thx💙
I keep coming back to this video. This year has been really hard for me (really the past few) and mlp is a huge light in the darkness for me. Whenever I feel hopeless or like Moondancer does here, I just put this on repeat and cry. Not the happiest message but it helps so much to know that at least one person gets me.
It's the same with me I guess. On a good day, I feel comfortably numb and study hard. On a bad day, I'm exhausted and feel attacked on all sides and abandoned on earth. I often think about Celestia and Luna and wished they would take me away. It's kind of like my personal religion. But I know they are not real. I'm the Moondancer, but there is no Twilight or any other pony for me.
I'm honoured this video can accompany you in the sorrow.
It's sad to see how many people can relate to such a thing in today's age.
Even myself.. I hope we all will get through it and find the happiness we are looking for
I'll keep looking for my happiness for another year or two if I don't find it by then the universe probably just wants me to leave
Most of us has been there, i tbh couldn't say much, it was a pretty dark time for me
For ppl that is currently gling through something like this, please seek mental health, PLEASE don't hide it, someone will help you.
For the ppl that hasn't gone through this, well, goodluck :shrug:, be prepared it comes out of nowhere and hits like a truck
I honestly never gone through this before, and I’m not sure if it will. But I do feel bad for the ppl who have it and I just hope they’ll get better one day and being able to smile without faking it
But what if no one cares and if someone found out I would probably just become a problem to them...
Cosmia, idk if you'll read this, but I need to say that this animatic really touched me (right in the soul lol). I was depressed for a long time, but now I am feeling better. Still, my mindset was changed forever by experiencing depression and this animatic portrayed the thoughts that caused this change... and they rarely still pop up on my mind, so this video became very meaningful to me. I just wanted to let you know that I won't forget it. And, if you'd like to have someone you can talk to (even if it's just chit-chat), I'm here ^^
I SO RELATE TO THIS.
@@gisellepeterson7459 I didn't think anyone would relate to this! Thanks for replying! Although it makes me kinda sad that we have to go through these things, I hope reading my comment could make you feel a lil bit less lonely. Wishing you the best
@@ShardPendragon thank you
Do you have any tips on how to start getting better? I want to try to get better and I haven't told many people
@@inky_tea4186 Hello! I can give some tips, but please remember that everyone is unique so what worked for me may not work for you, but that doesn't mean you should give up on trying to get better: you've already taken the first step which is wanting to improve your situation!
1. I think the most important thing is to seek professional help, I struggled a bit with this until I found a therapist that helped me a lot because I could look at my life with someone without feeling judged.
2. Seek support from friends and family (if that's possible). If you can't, you can try meeting new people, as long as you don't feel very uncomfortable with doing it.
3. Speaking of uncomfortable, getting out of your comfort zone and doing new things can be refreshing. Just be sure that it's within reason, don't do anything that might hurt yourself or others around you
4. Use social media wisely, unfollow accounts that make you feel bad
5. Allow yourself to feel and be in the moment, connect with yourself. And understand that improvement doesn't go in a straight line: it takes multiple falls in order to learn how to walk, and even if when you've learned, you'll still fall, but now you can walk to a better place!
Sorry for the long response, I tried my best to make it as complete as possible! Best wishes and good luck :D
gosh, i can 100% relate to Moon Dancer and the song and everything
friends all leave you, life sucks, you wanna die, everything is awful...
there's no positive takeaway to this, life just sucks
I'll always say "I'm fine" as long i can handle it.
And to think that i used to be that happy joyful person giving everyone advices when really the person who needs help is me... The irony, right? I'm trying at least. That's the best i can do.
I kinda ran out of ability to pretend to be a normal pony meme posting channel.Still it's something? I could keep posting funny pony videos until I die, and then be forgotten anyway.
This video is the one exception where I really post my suffering.
(There used to be a lot darker stuff on my channel, but I hid them to make my channel look more inviting and happy)
@@CosmiaNebula I too tried to hid my past self and pretended to be fine. This emotions i feel, they brought something out of me and i don't know what it is, behind that innocent face. The best i can do is find that little thing that makes me happy and just move on with life. Because someday at one point it'll be much worse and i don't know if i'll ever be ready for it.
Everyone has bad times but don't allow them break you! You're amazing artist how could you just leave all your works that you worked hard on them!? Always remember You're the best uwu💫💫💜💜
i like your Twilight memes
thank you for liking my art, it means a lot from you
If they break you, then break them back- uhh- :l
I’m very sorry for whatever you’re going through, I hope it gets better soon. just know we are all here to support you!
i set this video on loop for days, i'm not feeling mentally good, but this song and this video somehow give me some strenght to not surrender to my lonliness and my toughts...
Yeah this about sums up my mental state since 2013. Ponies, video games, and unquestionably unhealthy coping mechanisms have been my driving force for so long that Its just become normal for me. I legitimately never thought I'd live to see 20, but now I'm 24 and living just so I don't hurt others with my death. Nice vid btw :)
The best thing i can tell you to happen is that, it gets better, friend, it always does, i readed and watched the animatic, and i can tell, you have quite a talent for this, dont let youre own emotions or thoughts surrender on what you can become i see a really beatiful career for you, you can do this, even if you dont believe in yourseñf, i can believe in you, and well, im getting out of theme, but, you are, certainly someone to care, and love, you deserve it, even if you think you dont.
I keep watching it over and over. It is not healthy. Amazing work.
I’m so happy I found this video. I relate to Moon Dancer so much and this encapsulates how I feel a lot. The art is really pretty you did such a good job :D
It make me so lonely and painfool. Great jod, I love it
This is incredibly well done! Even tho I disagree with the message that all your friends are inevitable going to leave you, I can see the amount of effort that was put into this, and Cosmia, remember that I will be always there for you, we may never know each other in person, but if you need someone to talk to after a bad day, I will be there, in the same way that Luna worries about Moondancer, I worry about you.
Sincerely, The Luna Fan.
I don't know what to comment
I found myself crying while watching this
It's just... So relatable
It hurts
It hurts so much
i sincerely hope this doesn't sound weird, but i found your vent in the video and description incredibly beautiful. it shows a new perspective and really makes me think about it all. it's awful that depression has gone so mainstream these days, making people much more oblivious to it.
i'm not going to say that i hope you'll be okay, but from the bottom of my heart i hope that you decide to stay alive and push further. you're incredibly strong and so very brave for sharing your true thoughts
Thank you for your kind words. I wouldn't say normal people are oblivious to depression because it's "mainstream". Rather, depression is inherently difficult to understand. It is like a mild form of insanity from the POV of normal people. But on the other side, normal people are mildly insane from the POV of depressed people. There is a chasm of understanding that's hard to bridge.
When depressed, reasons for hope seem stupid. When normal, reasons for despair seem like groaning for nothing.
(P.S.: what happened to your channel? It seems like there used to be content there)
@@CosmiaNebula i agree with that completely, it's hard to put yourself on the other side's pov
and i used to animate but i burned myself out along with getting bullied out of it slowly. seems like the standard was too high for me
@@CosmiaNebula it's important to remember that anyone can get depression, and a lot of people do go through periods of it! it's still very misunderstood because society is dumb, but there isn't any clear distinction between a "normal" person and a "depressed" person. depression is an illness like any other - your mind and body will need periods of rest and recuperation, or it may need medicine or doctors to help it recover, and there might still be times when it's hard to handle the symptoms. but there will also be times when you're feeling better, and those times are worth the struggle.
i know what it's like to live with chronic major depression and suicidal ideation - i've attempted before, and the one thing that ultimately made me try to save myself was the idea that i hadn't seen what life had in store yet. there were still so many people to meet and things to do, even if people or places i loved had gone.
nearing 30, i'm really damn happy i stayed around! i wouldn't have met the wonderful people i have or gotten to experience all the new ways of existing i couldn't imagine before if i'd given up.
i hope this venting animatic helps you find some catharsis when you need it. but i also hope you - and everyone who watches and relates - can learn how you heal best, and keep recovering from those bad spells that having The Sad Flu puts you through.
I only found this aniamatic a few days ago and I know this one is gonna stick with me for a long long time. I never realised how much I related to Moondancer until most of my friendships broke down and I fell into depression. I weirdly find comfort in this video, so thank you for sharing it. I'm not forgetting this one
I think you've accomplished something, it can be a small something to a big something to you, but you've created your own youtube channel with wonderful content and very loving fans. To me, that's a big accomplishment! And I think you're really lucky to have that, and I'm proud of you for keeping up with it :)
No matter what, WE WILL BE HERE FOR YOU! we will never leave you alone ÓVÒ
Well some of my friends did... But,, thanks
@@PT-kv3nq ofc anytime you need! Even if I may not know you, I’ll be there cats honor! :7
I have to say, I've watched this many times and whenever I see any art of Moondancer this song comes to mind. I don't know if it's not so nice but I made that association 😅 but the song is pretty, even with the tragic lyrics
I had gotten so close to feeling better
*but now I’m here again*
Moondancer is really a wholesome pony that I like her cuz even the things gone wrong or the friends you have abandoned you,these people will remember of you and try to help you and became a better friend^^,and if these bad thoughts are arounding your head telling you that is don't have any reason you still here and living and telling to end your life right now don't let hear to them cuz there are friends and family who cares about you^^
Me : crying and want to hug moon dancer
Having the strength to go on everyday _is_ an amazing feat. Don't underestimate your underlying determination. True friends shouldn't painfully melt away as you've described. I wish to be your friend so I could help you through this personally. If you'll allow me, please, let me be the one to help you see meaning in life again. Since you've given me inspiration and hope, I want to give you the same. Besides, friendship is to give and get.
I get it...
This kind of speaks to you doesnt it cosmia?
I caught on.
When it shows her face shattered in the glass is it supposed to be your idenity of who you are?
Theres so much emotion....
Bpd is very hard to struggle with.
And i pay attention to the things you express and say and how you use celestia twilight and so on how you relate to them and etc.
I read it all in the descriptions of your videos so when i go back to your older ones and i listen to THIS one it now all makes sense.
And about your friendships and so on that youve expressed.
You put it all into this video and animation yet no one could see through the illusion or Animation but i did.
They thought it was just an Animation but i knew a part of it was Something MORE than just that.
I saw what you did there and i think that was very beautiful and unique.
I can relate to this alot it means alot to me thank you.
I hope you know your not alone even if this Animation was a while ago cosmia.
BPD is one of the most painful Disorders out there but its not impossible to get through or treat!
I know you may feel like its hard to manage or gain friendships due to your disorder trust me....but your not alone in this war.
Everything you expressed in this video i saw through it all because i pay closely attention and so on.
Its hard for me to express it all.
I'm here for you if you need Anything!
I am so sorry honey but don't worry, it will be better soon 💙 You are strong and not alone ✨💞
based on the past decade, I would say it's in my personality to suffer, which means it will not be better soon.
My friends are mostly gone and I guess I should stop procrastinating on my death.
@@CosmiaNebula no no! Don't say that, dear! ;; I know that it's hard but you deserve to live, you deserve to be happy, I want to do everything what I can, to help you ;; Don't give up, I believe in you, I believe in your wonderful future 💙 I feel your words, I feel your pain, I know how hard it is but It's gonna be okey, I promise ;;
This is amazing! Everything works so well together, the music, the visuals, the aesthetic. I love it! :)
It's been perfect and this is one of my favorite ponies 💜💜
A türk buldum benimde favori pony'm
Moon dancer ve bence luna ile bağlantılı
We all go through hell, yet we out live it. Everyone has gone through something traumatic. But we all put one foot in front of the other and we keep moving. No matter how hurt or broken we are. We move, we grow, we learn. Don't ever try to let the past sink in to much. Because at the end of the day. That was the very beginning of your story. Your no where near the middle yet. Keep walking. Keep growing. Because at the end of the day. You got a page to fill in your story.
Poor moon dancer WHY TWILIGHT WHY DID YOU LEAVE LOOK WHAT YOU DID
This is incredibly amazing. Moondancer is my favorite character due to her story and the whole atmosphere. It's the first time I see such well-developed animatic with her and it hit me so much. Thank you for that masterpiece. I really hope you get better soon, I see you as an extremely talented person. You guys did a fantastic job
Just curious.. Why was Luna at the end doing? Beautiful animation btw, hope you get better soon.. ♥
I think Luna was represended a Grim Reaper and she hold Moon Dancer's Soul.
Thats just my theory
personally i think luna was trying to help by giving her better dreams since luna is shown to care a lot and try to help others
I left it ambiguous. Maybe Moondancer really died, and she has collected her soul. Maybe she noticed Moondancer's troubles and is giving her dream-therapy (like she did with Scootaloo once).
@@CosmiaNebula awe.. That's really sweet yet heartbreaking.. Thanks for sharing!
I really hope you're feeling better now, someday this looliness will stop hurting this much... i- we have to believe in this. I dont know how you must feel but i feel like happiness is no longer with me, but i still have hope that someday i might at least feel a little better.
I really appreciate your art and work, i wish you a good tomorrow❤
Omg this song is so------ HER!!! 🥺
I remember watching this when I was suicidal, still hits different even now that I’m not
Yo, dude, never had a CZcams video stop me from watching itself before it actually plays. I hope you're doin' well, man.
Hope you get better just remember your not alone 💕
This really was amazing and you have a real talent. Moondancer’s story touched me especially, even though I didn’t care much for the newer seasons of MLP.
Sad to see this unlisted. It's a really incredible piece of work. I come back to vent out emotions too.
Hey, you are the one with cool pmvs. Nice to see you here...
I plan to relist it in a few months, not now.
This helped inspire a sadfic I wrote about Moondancer trying to escape into the G3 universe. It’s “Next Stop” on Fimfiction.
I am so sorry you have to go through this, I mean it sincerely. My words are not drawn from pity whatsoever but from understanding what this feels like. I have been struggling with depression and several other issues to the point where I actually tried to kill myself not so long ago. I didn't go through with it, perhaps out of cowardice or the knowledge that if I did, I would've been successful. I had friends I thought cared for me but they all used me, talked badly about me with others, spoke wonderful lies made out of fake promises and poison before ultimately leaving me without any explanation whatsoever. With nothing but pain, self loathing and trust issues. I tried to talk to them about how I felt and they guilt tripped me into saying it was just a joke, that it didn't matter. My current situation isn't of the best as well, unfortunately. Personally? I absolutely hate myself and consider myself to be absolutely useless, worthless and not deserving of anything but I found someone who loves me for who I am. I wanted to give up but someone grabbed my hand and pulled me back. I'm still far from doing well, but I'm in an amazing relationship with the most wonderful person ever and I know everything feels dark and lonely but I also know that a candle light is shining in the middle of the room. You can find it. You can walk towards it. I know I'm an absolute nobody, but if you ever need someone to talk to, I'll be there to lend a hand. Not all friendships can last forever, that's true, but some of them can be real and worth a try, if you find the right people. For the rest, I really wish you the best, you deserve it 💖
Start by not blaming yourself for what your fake friends did to you. You didn't do anything that made them act toxic: they were toxic to begin with. Then, attempt to stop magnifying your failures and ignoring your victories. Your failures should not define you. Try to remember what your actual friend sees in you. I'm not saying to do this overnight, as that's impossible, but you, not time, can heal yourself.
I relate to this. It makes me sad because the first reason I've watched My Little Pony was because I had no friends and obviously it being named friendship is magic I wanted to see if friendship really was wonderful and magical, instead it only saddened me watching the ponies go on adventures with friends and what not and here I am lonely. Still to this day I ponder If my existence means something, I'm lonely and in shambles, and I still am, but I just know that somewhere, somehow a friend is waiting for me.
@@azealiabanks305 I believe in you.
@@buttercupkat Firat time anyone ever said that to me, thank you. 😭
@@azealiabanks305 No problem! Don't believe others if they say you're undeserving of anything, because you've made one person help keep hope up.
really wish the best for you ! pls remember you are very loved no matter what and that there are people out there that are meant to step into your life, sooner or later
one more day that goes by is a day less till you meet the ones who will bright up your days, just hold tight, you can do it [:
She's so beautiful.
This was beautiful and it fits her so well.
I hope that you get better soon.
WOW, Is ultra very Sad.
I love you, Moondancer.
this is honestly really good :C
Holy shit. What a beautiful animation! It's so pretty aaaa
Thank you a lot for introducing me to this song! It's amazing, I relate to it so much!
Also thanks to this I realized how much I relate to Moondancer.
Edit: I've read the decription, I feel exactly the same way. Sometimes I too draw things that I'm thinking would be good as a "suicide note". But I'm too not sure about death, and there's like 50% I'll die by suicide someday. I too am good at procrastinating... I could go on like that about everything you said there. I'd say it's going to be okay, but I don't know that. I'm gonna spare the "You have to believe it'll be better" talk. I just wish you all the best.
Edit2: Well, except the "over a decade" part. I've been depressed for like 3/4 years. You're incredibly strong if you're fighting for so long already. I believe you can fight with depression until it's gone.
See, you are not the normal optimists, and that I'm grateful for. It's not something that just gets better by a snappy sentence or an angry kick. It's not even "fighting depression" but rather "walking through life, sometimes impersonating depression, sometimes impersonating normalcy."
The thing is that I don't see depression as an outside threat anymore than optimists see their normalcy as an alien invasion to their brains. Depression is a lifestyle (and sometimes deathstyle), a worldview.
You can tell that the animator Legitimately had depression from Moon Dancers manurisms
I relate to moondancer way too much but I'm slowly getting better. I hope everyone here is doing good or doing better. Thanks for creating content :>
For everyone who reads this:
Here's a virtual hug❤
You are loved!
Thx here's a hug in return❤
^w^,
👐
What you are basically, deep deep down, far far in, is simply the fabric and structure of existence itself. And when you find that out you love yourself silly.
One day that vast thing you see in the sky with a telescope is going to wake you up and you'll say That's me isn't it?....
- Alan Watts.
Aaaa!! Yes! So happy to find this video! A great video indeed!
As a huge fan of depressed pony stuff, it's a great delight to find a full blown animatic like this, and also, a whole new great channel. Thank you youtube algorithms, and of course, thank you creators!
(Sorry for being over-exited on dark subject as this. This video is just a treasure.)
Moon Dancer would be exactly that withdrawn academic pony to typeset her suicide note in LaTeX :P
No need to be sorry. I feel a little happiness from being appreciated by you.
It makes me so nostalgic to times when i used to read sad/depressing mlp stories
Hey man, in a way, I know how you feel...
You just keep getting left behind, right?
Your friends just keep leaving you along in the dust.
I get that.
Same thing happens to me.
I’m at the point where I’m straight up too tired to maintain friendships that will go down the drain soon anyway...
As someone who is very suicidal and has been cutting for a while, I know how tired and lonely you feel.
Just please don’t give up...
I know it might not mean too much coming from and absolute stranger whose already suicidal but I really mean it.
Let’s have that percentage go down of you ending yourself.
I mean it when I say I need you here every year.
Please...
Beauty! Moondancer has a great potential for a main character!
Have you tried visiting the mental hospital? It’s a gamble on wether or not you get put into a good one, but if you do, it has the ability to work wonders. I’ve been clean of self harm ever since I went to one, and the therapy/meds following it have eliminated my suicidal thoughts and actions.
I know not everything works for everyone. But it’s worth a shot.
* hugs *
Hey, I'm a total stranger, I cant really say I know you or how to help you, but I wanted to let you know that I've struggled with suicidal depression for some 13 years or so, and I know exactly what you're feeling. I cant promise that you'll feel better or that things will get easier. I dont know what the future holds. I just wanted to let you know that you are seen, and that there are people who understand how much it hurts, and we're all trying to get through this fucked up world together. I hope you do feel better and I hope things do get easier. But even if they dont any time soon I hope you can keep hanging on because you deserve love and I'm sure it will find you someday.
You deserve to be loved! I will always remember this, even if this ends up getting privated or deleted! Just know that we are all alove for a reason. We may never know what that reason is, but it's there! And remember! Even white crayons and white colored pencils have a use too!❤
Please read this, Cosmia. I love you and want you to be okay.
Nothing stays the same for long.
But when it changes, doesn't mean it's gone.
Time will always get away, as it leaves behind another day.
Things may come, and things may go.
Some go fast, and some go slow.
Few things last, that's all I know,
But friendship carries on...
Look at all the fans you have on your channel. These are not just merely fans, these are friends. Look at how they are so concerned about you, look at how I've never commented on your videos before and yet I took time out of my day to reach out to somebody that needs it.
Look at the heartache you've had in the past, then turn foward to another day and never look back. Things rarely stay the same. We're always making new friends, trying new things on this little rock in the middle of the universe. I don't know why they change, but they do. And although you've been hurt, the friends you have made through your content on this channel are going to help you through this.
God put you on this space rock for a reason. There are Twilights and Moondancers on this earth-- people who find success easily, and those who seem to fail. But if God made them both, surely he has a reason for them to be here.
Surely he has a reason for YOU to be here.
I appreciate your efforts, though concerning God, I have my own religion, and I find it more believable than your optimistic vision of a good God creating us with a purpose each.
I think God created this world to produce suffering, because God eats pain. I call this God "Maldoror", and wrote more about It here.
www.deviantart.com/kopaleo/art/Maldoror-My-God-858664723
Praying for you, Cosmia.
broooooooooooo ya know unfortunately this makes so much sense with this character and it just ":("
This made me sad. NGL, it mad me a bit sad for Moon Dancer.
I sure hope Luna warded off these nasty thoughts from her.
Every time I see this I sob my eyes oout seeing how you feel- god..
This is Lullaby For a Princess Quality. I'm holding on to that thought
Yeah!!!
I love your style of your animation it’s great!
*Sees the suicidal stuff!*
MOONDANCER NO!-
*TRIES TO SAVE HER!*
Cool, cool. Good impulse.
Two questions though: what exactly would you be saving her from? And, as a follow-up, how exactly would you try to do that?
@@a-s-greig From suicide and herself(?) and take away anything sharp, or file the weapons down, take away the pills (unless they’re for health reasons) untie her off the train tracks and cut the rope off the rock.
(Moon Dancer needs a hug tbh.)
I never hurted myself. Life does that
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AAAA GIRL IN RED AWWAAWAWEEAAE I LUV HER SOSOSO MUCH
P.s animatic is cool :3
Me remembering the time my childhood friends replaced me and now they ignore me for 5 years already, so painful 😒
Just realized Moondancer's main and tail has the opposite colouring of Twighlight's, or atleast very close.
This ..... animation is like me... u see i have adhd and .. all my friends left me and bullied me after it in the end im 17 and been alone for aslong as 7 years and suicide has been on my mind alot specficly self harm i still have a scar from my first cut
Moon dancer is such a underrated character!
it's nice knowing that there are other people in a similar ballpark
Even tho is not listed I still hear this song from time to time.....
You totally speak to me omg! 😭
Yeah friends come and go, i have only 2 friends and i am happy with that. Sometimes is it hard without friends, cause you have no one to talk and when everyone hates you, its not getting easier.
Невероятно красиво...
Действительно.
Спасибо
Moondancer is a good character, I also ship her with Twilight so watching this made me cry. 😢
I admit i have been suicidal and I sometimes still struggle with it but I try to keep on going
This is beautiful.
I just hope you are feeling better, and like you, im also depressed and also have thought about suicide way to many times, just so you know, if you need anything, i’ll be there for you, we dont know each other but you’ll always have a friend in me, i promise, i dont have friends either, so i really know how you feel like
IM CRYINGGGG AAA
Awesome work. Well-done!
I identify myself with moondancer
She is "my pony".
"but I give it a 50% chance I will die by suicide someday."
Oh, no. Don't you dare. Don't you even dare.
You might feel like this is the way, but this is not! This will only make it impossible for you to get better!
Fight on, matey! There has to be people close to you, people you can interact with on a daily basis.
People who are somehow friends, even pen pals, that you can talk to.
the way you draw hair is beautiful
Damn that got hella dark
All I can say is me too moon dancer.
Me too.