In 2013, I shot a film called "Sprouting Orchids". Here's a retrospective about the production. If you're a first-time filmmaker, you need to watch this.
So I have a few questions regarding your film. 1: Who was the casting director for your film? 2: Who was the videogropher for your film? 3: Who edited the film? As an aspiring creator, I would really appreciate the advice.
Can't believe you're anti-choice and homophobic. Disgusting. Anyone else who wants to see the proof search "Austin McConnell - Who Should Christians Vote for?" at about 12 min
@@tim..indeed Everything has been done, it's about putting your uniuqe twist on it. Not sure why so many fmmakers online are negative and enjoy spreading pretentious opinions
I'm 44 now, but I spent most of my "youth", lets say 16 to 32-ish, trying my hardest to make it in the music scene. That was a decade and a half that cost me so much money. It was very hard work. It never paid off. There were times when it came close, but something always "messed it up". Although not the same, I know how you feel. We bleed for our art. And now, I'm an old man and have given up on the "dream" for over a decade. I am not bitter though. Some of that time was the some of the best times of my life.
I would think the journey would be big part of trying to “make it”. Wiling to bet you met a lot of interesting people along the way, maybe even found love a few times, on your way to failing to make it. Because, in the end, you were doing something.
That pain in your voice at the end, I have felt it. Nothing can cut deeper than putting everything you have into something that ends up unloved. It's been nearly five years since you released this video and I'm just now seeing what you and your channel are about. But, I am willing to bet that what you have done with this past five years is awesome.
That movie may have been many losts for you, but you took some perspective and now you made the most out of it. I love the narrative of this video by the way, is it one uncut audio track ? And... Deal !
As an "emerging" filmmaker, I watched your video and had tears coming to my eyes, listening to your testimony. Filmmaking is definitely not an easy art, and talking about PTSD is not out of the charts either. I had to quit my job this year, working on a multi-million production movie, (I was at one of the lowest job in the food chain of that production), because I almost wanted to end my days due to bullying by one of my superiors on top of some extreme bad events happening in my personal life. Since, I got diagnosed with PTSD. Long story short, this inspired me to write a script, which turned out to be a feature length script. I feel it's about time to make this movie happen. So I will, because I need to like most filmmakers. I hope you are doing better (you sound like you are, towards the end of your video) and I wish you the best in the future to make new film projects, whether they will be shorts or features. Take care
@@anthony.esper21 Hi, thank you for asking! I am doing better, it was a huge roller coaster getting my life back together, but I'm getting there. And since I've been in the pre-production of my script so... fingers crossed!?
@@paulinerenoult1266 That’s wonderful to hear you’re doing much better now. Best of luck on your project; please keep all of us updated how the project goes! :)
This wasn't a "making of" or a "behind the scenes video". This was a short film about the life of a filmmaker creating their first feature film. Simply an amazing short.
It was definitely a good confession about how he set unrealistic goals and expectations for himself, and then fell far short of where he intended to land. I mean how stupid was Austin? He convinces himself, at the ripe old age of 23, that if he didn't make a movie by the age of 24 he'd be a complete and utter failure. He was 23. A baby! Literally in the prime of his life! He has decades ahead of him. But if he doesn't make a movie by the time he's 24 that's proof he's not cut out for movie making and should give up his dream forever? Ridiculous! It sucks he had to spend thousands and make a movie he's not proud of, in order to realize what an idiot he was. We got a damned good video out of it though.
Choked me up at the end. You’ve experienced watch all filmmakers experience. The majority. That’s why people say that you have to be crazy to make a film. But when you have a love for it, you go through it and do it.
The important thing, is you did it. How many people have abandoned a dream before they even started. You followed, completed, and documented the process.
@@yanstein8464 thanks for asking I've been meaning to come back to this comment I've started a comic book club i haven't documented it but i will i was even thinking about making a movie using our phones then making a comic based off that movie but as of rn idk what i will do next but whatever it is I'll go through with it under almost any circumstances
Austin, I found you by a recommended video of how to survive if my parachute failed, like I am sure many people have. Although I have never had any intention on jumping from a plane, for some reason I clicked on it because of, well, curiosity. I figured I would subscribe because that video was fun, short, and a break in my day that I desperately needed. I subscribed thinking that your channel was going to be full of content like that and because sometimes a 4 minute break from the stresses of work, life, and well anything stressful is a great release to recalibrate and remember that it's ok to laugh. I think it was the animation coupled with your voice and humor that made me click without thinking. Here's the thing... I stay because of things like this. I watch your honesty and raw outlook on yourself. I see me and the things that I did to try and make it (music) and how I failed. I watch you lay it out for everyone to hear and see and I will tell you the strength it takes to do that is inspiring. I am sure you may not read this based on the shear quantity of comments you receive, but know that this is the good stuff. This is worth something and this is the story people want to see and hear. You will get to make that film you want people to see, but in the meantime realize that this is how it should be set up and that this is what you will want to mold your film as. I know my opinion doesn't have any weight, nor should anyone care what I have to say, however you have your story right in front of you. Use your reality to create your fiction.
Walt Disney said, "Everyone should have a big failure at a young age." He didn't say why, but he said it on film. His failure was loosing his Oswald character to a NYC distributor. He invented Mickey Mouse on the train ride back to LA. Hey Austin, you completed a movie. Completed. Congratulations. .
I have no words. "I see a scared obsessed an angry 23-year-old who knows he's not going to be the thing he told himself he'd by 24". That phrase hit me hard This video just hit me hard. One of my favs original videos on YT. Amazing video Austin, soon as my financial situation improves, count with my support in Patreon, is the least I can do for you.
@@palsemanden471 1. How the heck do you think these people will understand when you write in Swedish? 2. YOUR commet is freaking stupid! Not Esteban's! 3. Delete your YT account or something, HATERS are NOT allowed!
"I see a scared, obsessed and angry 23 year old who knows he's not gonna be the thing he told himself to be when he was 24." Shit. I'm 24 at the moment and feel your old you so much. Thank you!
THIS is the story you should tell. Don't make a lame sci-fi story where the stakes are the fate of the world; leave those to DC and Marvel. You have a story, YOUR STORY, of a man with dreams and flaws where the stakes are his very identity. THIS is a story where you can make an audience feel something. Isn't that why you want to be a filmmaker?
So something like The Disaster Artist? Intriguing idea, although considering he's still somewhat experiencing PTSD from the production of the film, I'm not sure if he'd be the best person to tell his own tale, ironically enough. Since he already has his biases from his experience working on the film, this postmortem would probably be the closest he could get to making a film about himself and his own film without seeming pretentious or angsty.
Same age and my dream is to be the next zuckerburg(but not so creepy and sneezy) I am really into programming and know 6 languages already and I am hoping to be successful for I can support my family that has supported me for so long. (Sorry started ranting on ) Edit: ur animations are good af
This also has helped put me in check. I had high expectations for myself but it really did help A LOT. This same thing would have happened to me just not with film making. Eat your heart out kid.
the last few minutes hit me really hard, how insane it is to be an artist, and go through sso much pain and not even truly fully understand why at the time and only assembling the full picture years later, I embrace you virtually, keep yoour head up, you have done more than what many wish they could evven do, I salute you mad one
@@mojo6112 and another back up on top of that back up and on top of that back there is another back up on top of another back up with a back up on top of that back up and then all those back ups are on all different engines that each have 3 back ups if that back up
This is by far one of the most expertly crafted, well structured and beautifully delivered 30 minutes on CZcams. Honest, emotional and deeply personal, Austin, thank you for sharing your story.
GamerDudePlays This is better than Idubbbz in my opinion, but you can't really compare them, it's completely different. Idubbbz is not emotional, to me it's not expertly crafted, it's comedy, not a documentary like this basically is.
ima be honest i listen to this at least once a year because the ending is like a film in and of itself. i've wanted to use the audio in the ending for cinematic stuff in the past but never found a way to implement it. it's crazy man
Damn man. As somebody who's made a no-budget short film, worked on people making low-budget features, I can relate. You should know this 30 minutes is one of the best bits of storytelling I've seen in a while. I felt more at the end, then I have watching any film recently. You're doing what you set out to do, just maybe not in the way you initially imagined. Here's hoping you get that second go at things!
Hi Austin. My name, is Anthony. I've been watching a lot of your videos lately, mostly because I have interests in filmmaking...I have for some time now. I am, teary eyed, writing you this right this moment, to tell you...you inspired me to continue on, though it's harder than ever these days to even sit up in bed, let alone get out of it. You said that you can't look at pictures of yourself at 23...when you said this, it struck a chord with me, more than all of the videos of yours that I watched...because, as you were struggling then, I can sympathize...but in a MUCH different way. Before 23, I was into film, though I never made an impact on pushing myself to do anything about it, because I didn't really have anyone to push me on...not even myself, to an extent...BUT, there was still a fire in there that just, needed a little kindling. Then.... At 23, I suffered at the onset of something called Trigeminal Neuralgia; a serious and extremely debilitating condition that affects the a part (or more) of 5 branches trigeminal nerve (which gives us facial sensation)...also connected to this nerve is the occipital nerve (eyes) and the mandibular nerve (teeth). I had an accident that caused this (a few years after the accident) to grow worse and worse over the years. it's called Trigeminal Neuralgia, but also has different names, such as Tic Doleroux (I may be spelling that wrong), and.... ...The suicide disease. I DON'T believe in suicide (I'd rather suffer it to the end), BUT, there are people who are tortured by this pain, that jumps in and out, is random where it happens, and can last from 5 seconds to even days at a time. Anyways, I don't mean to give you my sob story, but, I was 23 when this came in, and, my life...the one that I had hoped for, an aspiring actor, a producer, even to own a film company...slowly started to dissolve. It's not possible to do anything...ANYTHING...while this pain is happening...BUT, I still have hopes...they never died...just, dissolved. in 2012, I discovered Adobe After Effects (I had used photoshop since high school, so I was attuned to adobe products), among a slew of others, including Cinema 4D, a CGI/Architectural/Film/etc program through an old buddy of mine (whom you remind me of, lol...that's not bad), and i became hooked. Then, I re-discovered 3DS Max (the first 3D animation software I had ever used, in high school...back then, simply called 3D Studio), and Maya, along with (recently) Blender. These, along with a combo of After Effects (Compositing) and Premier Pro (Editing), not to mention Final Cut Pro X, and a LITTLE experience in front of AND behind the camera, greenscreen (with OR without the screen itself), I found that fire re-kindling. A buddy of mine have a (SUPER) amateur film studio, which will go un-named (for now), but, it's just the two of us...much like "5 dollar film studio," (those guys have GREAT potential!), and we barely do anything with it...mostly because, I live about 40 minutes west of Kansas City, MO, and he lives IN KCMO, so, distance is a big factor. BUT, the biggest factor is the Trigeminal Neuralgia. Most days, I end up just watching CZcams videos (like yours) and others who are actually doing anything with their talents, skills, and abilities (when I'm not scratching hard at my face to "quell" the pain, somewhat, kinda), but, after it subsides, I want to get in front of this desktop PC and jam it out...I built it just for that cause (I have a good video card coming in a few days.) typing this message is hard enough...staying in front of this big 50" 4k TV (it hurts my eyes after too long), i cant get much done before it sets in... What is the point to ALL of this that I wrote?! That, regardless, you have re-inspired me to WANT to continue with projects that I have started, and never finished...I realized that, though a huge part of me died when this torture set in, A NEW part of me arose FROM those ashes...the part of me that... ...wants to Grow Up. I don't know if you ever read this, or not...but regardless, I want to thank you for giving this hopeful filmmaker, a New Seed. So, Hi Austin. My name is Anthony. Thank you.
@@brancellbooks I'm still, after 15 years of it, going through terrible pain, but, I still have great moments of painlessness. I'm doing well, in that, I'll persevere through it all, because I've got a Strength that is my Lord and Savior, Yeshua (you may know Him as Jesus). He is my only reason for continuing on, and the only reason I'm still alive. I'm so thankful that you asked me if I was ok!!
The part where you said you wanted to make the movie not to tell a story, but to just be called a filmmaker hit me hard. “That’s vanity, not art.” I feel like a lot of people (including myself) are guilty of this, and great respect to you for being able to face your mistakes, learn from them, and share them with the world. This was a great story to tell :)
Guilty. Definitely. If I had a story to tell it'd all have been so much easier and have happened by now. Instead, I work a full time job that pays really well, and have a basement full of gear collecting dust... and still have nothing compelling to say :)
At the moment I want to make films just to have the fulfillment of doing all the aspects of film and not so much to tell stories. So am I okay for that or no?
@@KevinMcLean yes! There is a place for people like you in film. There are so many aspects to it besides just the storytelling. You can go and use your skills to help someone else tell their story. Making film can be a one-man show, but don't feel bad if it's not your "strength" right now
Alex Xavier When you make your first issue or even a decent rough draft you gotta come back here and link us to it. That way you have a good chance of getting some good support. Personally I’m always interested in seeing something fresh and different, so I’ll definitely give it a look whenever you make it.
Seriously, this video was amazing. I sympathized this this dude, I learned a whole lot on what being a filmmaker is like, etc. I straight up said to myself "this is like a short film." lol He should be proud of this because he's just made himself an amazing idea for a movie/short.
I tapped on this thinking I was gonna see a summary of your movie. I was expecting to be entertained. I was not expecting to be moved by a life story. Oh my god. The last few minutes were a rollercoaster of emotions. Made me tear up. It moved me. I watched the whole thirty minutes plus the last few seconds. I hope your in a better position, and I hope your friends are too. I just discovered your channel today after watching your review on the Harry Potter Cursed Child book.
This video is so moving. I’m new to this channel and I don’t know if it’s because making film and telling stories is a dream of mine as well and I’m scared I’ll never achieve it or if it’s because I could just hear the emotion in your voice about how much this meant to you. You can tell how passionate you are and tell how hard you worked for it. I just want to say thanks, and I know you will never see this comment- I’m commenting this months after the video was put out but, This genuinely made me feel something deep down. And yeah I cried at the end when I heard him well up as well. Thank you so much for spreading your passion to the world
I've kept this on my watch later for a long time (It's 30 min) and I finally got to see it, I cried. You bring inspiration to many aspiring filmmakers, like me.
This 30-minute video would actually make a really beautiful entry to a film festival. I honestly did learn a lot just by watching through this. I have never undertaken a production of anywhere near this size, no matter how small and independent this movie was, and I am not even sure if I ever will do something like this, but I do understand the type of stress that you must have been facing, being the single writer, editor, director, and even having to bear the weight of being a lead actor as well as a cameraman. As for my thoughts on this video, this video was *worth watching.* That is a distinction that I cannot make for practically everything I have ever seen at an Independent Film festival. Good work!
I feel like his story can be made into an award-winning movie. Maybe he should make a movie about this journey, because honestly, it was a roller coaster of emotions for me.
Dude.... you made a movie. A feature film. No matter the results, YOU MADE A FEATURE FILM! That puts you head and shoulder above 99.999% of your critics. You rock.
yah those critics SUCK. its so mean to push people down like that. i'm making a movie and i'm proud of austin's work. its way better than i could ever do. mine's only 20 minutes!
You are by far, one of the most interesting people I've seen on CZcams. I've been watching a few of your videos. It's nice to hear truths by other creative people. The projects that you claim you failed with are actually inspiring because you did the work and put something out there. They're all great and creative ideas. Keep it up man!
I’ve come back to this video after making a short film with my best friend where we had a small crew and a teeny budget. I’m so happy I was able to take the lessons you put forth and make the most out of what was ultimately a hellish production loop. (2 shooting days, a hectic personal schedule and multiple last minute dropouts) however I’m happy with it and I’m happy I did it and I hope you’re happy too, Austin. The last bit made me cry a little bit and I absolutely hate crying but I’m so glad moments like these can still tease out the emotions. I’m so inspired to continue creating, and I hope you will always be too! Thank you.
As an almost graduating architecture student that doesn't wanna be an architect but loves drawing, visual communication, storytelling, taking photos and edit them like his favorite cinematographers' movies cus he cant afford a video camera, this actually inspires me to work harder towards a career in filmmaking, thanks Austin
Please, please send this to a film festival. Edit to be a bit more documentaryish if you want but just please do it. This was an interesting gripping story, and I'm not ashamed to admit i teared up at the end.
Zach Iremonger i really hope that he took your advice. This video was amazing. I never ever watch a 30 minute CZcams video. But this one you just can't stop
This was seriously so moving, and much needed in my personal life. A very accurate representation of the chaos behind the scenes of any production--and a wonderful reminder of why we still love it. Thank you for having the courage to share :)
i know its been years but this video came on my feed and I watched the entire thing. it brought me to tears and I feel like no matter how much time passes new fans will come and we are here to support you. thank you for making such a touching and inspiring video - 2021
Randomly ran across this 3 years later. What is extremely clear to me (I’m an indie filmmaker too) is that THIS story was the story worthy of being told. This story taught me something, reminded me of things I must never forget. This story was real. And this story mattered to me. Funny how God writes our story while we think we are the ones writing right? Thank you for sharing. I don’t plant to watch your actual film. This short film is clearly much better! Take care.
Why don't you send this particular video in movie festivals as a short movie? Because I think this would win a lot of awards. This right there... was GREAT storytelling! I didn't even realise how these 30 minutes passed.
It would elevate CZcams content to something of artistic value; quite interesting idea, I bet in 20 years there's gonna be Internet Video festivals.. online...
I’m seeing a few of these pop-up. It’s so wonderful and courageous for filmmakers to talk about their production mishaps for others to learn from. Because it happens the majority of the times. Great video. Thank you.
ironically, more people saw this video than they did "sprouting orchids". in that way, you accomplished the goal you set out to achieve with that movie.
he showed that he is a filmmaker. he is now. He can tell that he makes short movies, sketches, films, for youtube. For an audience who doesnt go into theaters, but stays at home and watches his thinkings, his mind, hes movie projected onto digital media and sent onto the internet. I think OP is right, redstar is wrong.
You seem like a really down to earth dude that's had a lot of adventures and learned a lot of lessons. I really do see huge things for you in the future. Good luck out there, man.
this is so raw with emotion, i felt my eyes getting watery at the end. thank you for making this, for exposing your flaws. i'm scared about a paper i have to write for school, worried that i'll show too much of myself. this has given me confidence. i hope youre in a much better place, and i will definitely stick around to see more.
Fellow Missourian here, working as an editor in LA. Everytime I watch this I get that curiousity bug of wanting to recut these scenes. Even having not seen the movie, your story on getting it made always intrigues me and I love that you put it out there. Wish the full film was still available, but this video definitely is the next best thing!
Austin, this video touched me. I worked on my first feature film crew at 23, was in film school by 24 and working in a call center by 25. I used to program for some regional film festivals at about the time you were making Sprouting Orchids, and I knew a lot of filmmakers like you - young, ambitious, tortured, and completely delusional. Few of them ever got beyond their first feature. Even fewer gained the life perspective that you have. The Austin you describe in this video would have driven me absolutely crazy, but I'm glad you shared him with us. The mythology of auteur cinema places unrealistic expectations on young filmmakers. I wish I could show this video to every young filmmaker who sees stars without seeing the ground they stand on. This is 30 minutes of useful information. You should be proud of that.
I was in tears by the end of the video and it felt like crying together with you. It takes great courage to pursue your dream, even greater courage to finish it no matter what and even greater courage to admit to all of the mistakes that you made along the way and let yourself grow and learn from them. I have nothing but respect for you and the character you built on this journey. And I applaud you.
"A young man and a woman recover from separate tragedies. Unseen forces in the universe work to bring them together for a purpose far greater than themselves." (Pretty vague right?) Could even be Star Wars: A New Hope
Damn I relate so much to this. Especially the perspective when re-watching your work, and not seeing the story, or the cinematography, but seeing the stuff behind the camera and in your head that is happening.
I didn't think much of this video when I clicked on it. Then I watched it. And I loved it. And then the last 10 minutes brought me to tears. It may seem strange, but you taught me something which is more than many CZcams videos achieve. So, thanks.
Hey Austin. Thank you. As I young man with lots of ideas trying to create things in this world, I thank you. I didn't see the movie, and I feel like you wouldn't want me to, bud I think that this right here has drastically more value for me. That is YOU, your story, the human behind it all, the truth. I really think that that's what matters and I feel like that's what I want to create stories about, the realness of this world. The world behind our masks, I know I'm idealistic and I think it's okay, I see what becomes of people who were like me at the start. Not in a bad way, it's just this world tends to throw you around and it's especially true in the film industry where ideas clash with reality more than in any other form. I don't know what I'll be doing in a few years, currently, I'm applying for film school and theatre school, directing and acting, and classical and alternative. As I said I'm idealistic, but I know that people need stories, things to connect with, things to see and to laugh and think about. I think I'll do something in the future, I don't know what and how, but I know that I will try my best to stay true to myself and do as best as possible. Thank you again. Good luck, and please don't forget who you are. Love David
Your optimism is refreshing. Best of luck in your endeavors. Dont lose your motivation & drive, you have what it takes. Get around or knock down any obstacles that get in ur way, & keep your goals in sight. If u get thrown off, get right back on that horse. Avoid or remove negative influences. Don't sell out, & stay true to yourself. Good luck!
That was honestly one of the best things I've ever watched. Thank you for sharing this piece of your life with the world. It couldn't have been easy. I learned alot about you and myself along the way, Thank you Austin.
I'm a teenager about to apply to college. I plan to study filmmaking. I want to be apart of great movies and make gripping stories. But this video did not just show me the good or the bad of my possible future in the world of film, it showed me reality. I'm still a kid and I do not know how I am going to steel myself for the impending difficulties my life as an artist is going to entail. I guess... I guess all I can do is remember to have fun and smile because that is what can keep anyone going.
This is such an important underrated movie for every bigger filmmaker out there. Might even say needed. So much to learn from. Delivered so well and with great honesty that made us the viewers to identify with any difficulty that you encountered. So inspirational, thank you!
I'm glad you've found value in this difficult project. And I found this personal documentary very moving and relatable, even though I'm not a filmmaker. Thank you.
This was an amazing video. Truly. I cried and I always thought when something makes me cry it has truly earned my respect and is an amazing piece of work.
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There’s no such word as ‘stunk’. You mean it ‘stank’. The abuses inflicted on my native tongue by americans makes me weep……
Hey Austin:
Is there any way we can see Sprouting Orchids?
So I have a few questions regarding your film.
1: Who was the casting director for your film?
2: Who was the videogropher for your film?
3: Who edited the film?
As an aspiring creator, I would really appreciate the advice.
Can't believe you're anti-choice and homophobic. Disgusting.
Anyone else who wants to see the proof search "Austin McConnell - Who Should Christians Vote for?" at about 12 min
Bad movie turned into the best "making of/behind the scenes" video ever
hahahahaha...
I’d say that still goes to episode 1
The disaster artist?
that's what I was thinking
Joaquin Vega I agree completely.
He's made a movie
He's made a book
He's been the CEO of a company
He's been a voice actor
He's
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dont forget internet show
And all of that in the perfect amount of technicality so as to remain anonymous enough to have his own internet show about all of it.
One can either do something perfectly, or everything moderately.
Anne TheReader, lonelygirl15
I envy his failures. If I had even one of those, my life would be better and I’d be so much smarter and more experienced.
“Planting Orchids”- a movie about a young director’s challenges as he shoots his first film.
THIS is the movie you should make, my man.
That's like the most cliche low-budget movie concept there is
agreed
That was literally the thing that you just watched
@@tim..indeed Everything has been done, it's about putting your uniuqe twist on it. Not sure why so many fmmakers online are negative and enjoy spreading pretentious opinions
@@acutecloudd7970Simple insecurity i believe, fear causes assholes
I'm 44 now, but I spent most of my "youth", lets say 16 to 32-ish, trying my hardest to make it in the music scene. That was a decade and a half that cost me so much money. It was very hard work. It never paid off. There were times when it came close, but something always "messed it up". Although not the same, I know how you feel. We bleed for our art. And now, I'm an old man and have given up on the "dream" for over a decade. I am not bitter though. Some of that time was the some of the best times of my life.
You aren't too old! Keep the dream alive
70 plus is old. 44 is youngish.
Dude, you’re not old. 44 years of age is still young to do things again or even start all over with something.
I would think the journey would be big part of trying to “make it”. Wiling to bet you met a lot of interesting people along the way, maybe even found love a few times, on your way to failing to make it. Because, in the end, you were doing something.
Hey, I'm 48 and I'M not old, so you can't be 😊. Find a new dream. There's so much time left.
“I’m Austin McConnell and this is my Master Class.”
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hahahaha
Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk
Lazdinger no one came lol
@@namkedi 8 people came
don't worry guys. this video's revenue alone may 10 times the movie budget.
he did it
@asheritis i made my math. this guy might got more than 10 times smh
@@rajendrapatel1651 oh shit i thought his movie budget is under 3k please kill me
Wait a minute this video has no ads...
Can one still make Money on YT without ads?
@@rajendrapatel1651 you made the wrong calculation mate
@@scene6289 absolutely no. but he did mentioned his Patreon so...
evil stevesadman11111111111 be like: “stunk is a word i am very happy you used it correctly and are appreciating my language”
69 th like noice😀
@@acasualreader6443 noice
@@acasualreader6443 cringe
That pain in your voice at the end, I have felt it. Nothing can cut deeper than putting everything you have into something that ends up unloved. It's been nearly five years since you released this video and I'm just now seeing what you and your channel are about. But, I am willing to bet that what you have done with this past five years is awesome.
"Everyone have a plan until they get punched in the face..."
-Mike Tyson
That' hilarious, go mikey
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@@lisanshahariar6003 You hear Mike Tyson talk?
@@zyaicob Mike tython
@EL INNOMBRABLE hath*
Wow, that was deep. Watched the entire thing. Stick with it!
I'll do my best. Thanks. :)
austinmcconnell Im actually excited to see more from you.
That movie may have been many losts for you, but you took some perspective and now you made the most out of it. I love the narrative of this video by the way, is it one uncut audio track ?
And... Deal !
HouseholdHacker hi and btw don't hack my house please
HouseholdHacker I did the same
Honestly, the story of you trying to tell a story is even more captivating than the one that cost you thousands of dollars. Amazing work!
As an "emerging" filmmaker, I watched your video and had tears coming to my eyes, listening to your testimony. Filmmaking is definitely not an easy art, and talking about PTSD is not out of the charts either. I had to quit my job this year, working on a multi-million production movie, (I was at one of the lowest job in the food chain of that production), because I almost wanted to end my days due to bullying by one of my superiors on top of some extreme bad events happening in my personal life. Since, I got diagnosed with PTSD. Long story short, this inspired me to write a script, which turned out to be a feature length script. I feel it's about time to make this movie happen. So I will, because I need to like most filmmakers. I hope you are doing better (you sound like you are, towards the end of your video) and I wish you the best in the future to make new film projects, whether they will be shorts or features. Take care
Hey! Any updates? Hope you're doing well!
@@anthony.esper21 Hi, thank you for asking! I am doing better, it was a huge roller coaster getting my life back together, but I'm getting there. And since I've been in the pre-production of my script so... fingers crossed!?
@@paulinerenoult1266 That’s wonderful to hear you’re doing much better now. Best of luck on your project; please keep all of us updated how the project goes! :)
Just wondering how the movies going
wow that was brutally honest, well done!
yeah good video mate
I was gonna say the same!
I love how he doesn't beat himself up too harshly over it and instead just puts it into perspective.
fuck you
I almost cried. I felt his pain. And the movie doesn’t even look that bad.
This wasn't a "making of" or a "behind the scenes video". This was a short film about the life of a filmmaker creating their first feature film. Simply an amazing short.
It really was.
One might even say... it was a decent half hour movie
It was. Brilliantly spliced together.
It was definitely a good confession about how he set unrealistic goals and expectations for himself, and then fell far short of where he intended to land. I mean how stupid was Austin? He convinces himself, at the ripe old age of 23, that if he didn't make a movie by the age of 24 he'd be a complete and utter failure. He was 23. A baby! Literally in the prime of his life! He has decades ahead of him. But if he doesn't make a movie by the time he's 24 that's proof he's not cut out for movie making and should give up his dream forever? Ridiculous! It sucks he had to spend thousands and make a movie he's not proud of, in order to realize what an idiot he was. We got a damned good video out of it though.
Yeah, I'd call it a confession.
Choked me up at the end. You’ve experienced watch all filmmakers experience. The majority. That’s why people say that you have to be crazy to make a film. But when you have a love for it, you go through it and do it.
RIP Steve...whoever you are.
The important thing, is you did it.
How many people have abandoned a dream before they even started.
You followed, completed, and documented the process.
JimsEquipmentShed I was told those same words when I completed an awareness film, and it put it in perspective for me. I did what most couldn’t.
This comment will mean so much more to me in a month
@@YeviCoulson how are you doing now after a month?
@@yanstein8464 thanks for asking I've been meaning to come back to this comment I've started a comic book club i haven't documented it but i will i was even thinking about making a movie using our phones then making a comic based off that movie but as of rn idk what i will do next but whatever it is I'll go through with it under almost any circumstances
@@YeviCoulson that sounds great, good luck :3
This is super interesting, thanks for sharing your story!
woah its you!...
you guys should collab.
Oh hi!
mark brown!!!
huh? did not expect you!
I should have expected that you like this guy, you two do have mildly similar content.
Austin, I found you by a recommended video of how to survive if my parachute failed, like I am sure many people have. Although I have never had any intention on jumping from a plane, for some reason I clicked on it because of, well, curiosity. I figured I would subscribe because that video was fun, short, and a break in my day that I desperately needed. I subscribed thinking that your channel was going to be full of content like that and because sometimes a 4 minute break from the stresses of work, life, and well anything stressful is a great release to recalibrate and remember that it's ok to laugh. I think it was the animation coupled with your voice and humor that made me click without thinking.
Here's the thing...
I stay because of things like this. I watch your honesty and raw outlook on yourself. I see me and the things that I did to try and make it (music) and how I failed. I watch you lay it out for everyone to hear and see and I will tell you the strength it takes to do that is inspiring.
I am sure you may not read this based on the shear quantity of comments you receive, but know that this is the good stuff. This is worth something and this is the story people want to see and hear. You will get to make that film you want people to see, but in the meantime realize that this is how it should be set up and that this is what you will want to mold your film as. I know my opinion doesn't have any weight, nor should anyone care what I have to say, however you have your story right in front of you.
Use your reality to create your fiction.
Thanks, Jeff.
Great comment. I too wandered in and now find myself quite interested in were Austin's path will take him.
@@austinmcconnell impactful
STUNK IS A WORD!
Walt Disney said, "Everyone should have a big failure at a young age." He didn't say why, but he said it on film. His failure was loosing his Oswald character to a NYC distributor. He invented Mickey Mouse on the train ride back to LA. Hey Austin, you completed a movie. Completed. Congratulations. .
Losing ffs.
@@Spectrescup Loosen up a bit lad.
@@Spectrescup Yeah, man, Losen up
@TheCoffeeNut711 And he worked for Disney. So Disney did invent him. :/
You and I are friends now...we just haven't met. Anyone who can quote Walt is a friend of mine.
PTSD from indie filmmaking is a very real thing. It took me five years to deal with my own.
Vietnam was nothing compared to the horrors of indie filmmaking with a tight budget.
TheApatheticAtheist that may be a bit of an exaggeration
@@asherpikesgoldenmoralcinem5770 a bit
It's not. Trust me.
Netronos X have fought in Vietnam and filmed an indie film
"That's vanity. Not art." hit me so hard! What a beautiful lesson to learn!
You know you've comed a long way when the behind the scenes of a bad movie is a masterpiece.
This was a incredibly well done little mini-documentary.
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Nice
Nice
An*
An. Dude!
I have no words.
"I see a scared obsessed an angry 23-year-old who knows he's not going to be the thing he told himself he'd by 24".
That phrase hit me hard
This video just hit me hard.
One of my favs original videos on YT.
Amazing video Austin, soon as my financial situation improves, count with my support in Patreon, is the least I can do for you.
Claro, eso es lo que no entiendo
Why did i look at this comment as that part of the video played
dum kommentar
That's a lot of words for someone with no words.
@@palsemanden471 1. How the heck do you think these people will understand when you write in Swedish?
2. YOUR commet is freaking stupid! Not Esteban's!
3. Delete your YT account or something, HATERS are NOT allowed!
As ridiculous as that sounds, if he ends up making his bargain bin cinematic universe it will be an equally life changing experience
"I see a scared, obsessed and angry 23 year old who knows he's not gonna be the thing he told himself to be when he was 24."
Shit. I'm 24 at the moment and feel your old you so much. Thank you!
Don't give up. Enjoy doing what makes you happy.
THIS is the story you should tell.
Don't make a lame sci-fi story where the stakes are the fate of the world; leave those to DC and Marvel. You have a story, YOUR STORY, of a man with dreams and flaws where the stakes are his very identity. THIS is a story where you can make an audience feel something. Isn't that why you want to be a filmmaker?
Lon Johnson brilliant idea
I was thinking the same thing.
Yessir make this YOUR story. It's right there in front of you
That's genius.
So something like The Disaster Artist? Intriguing idea, although considering he's still somewhat experiencing PTSD from the production of the film, I'm not sure if he'd be the best person to tell his own tale, ironically enough. Since he already has his biases from his experience working on the film, this postmortem would probably be the closest he could get to making a film about himself and his own film without seeming pretentious or angsty.
As a fourteen-year old who is hoping to one day get the chance to produce a film, I'm grateful that you've shared this story.
woah your only 14 and make those animations?!
I too really want to get my story's out. I'm the same age as you, and I have a lot of stories I've always wanted to tell. I just dunno how to do it.
Same age and my dream is to be the next zuckerburg(but not so creepy and sneezy) I am really into programming and know 6 languages already and I am hoping to be successful for I can support my family that has supported me for so long. (Sorry started ranting on )
Edit: ur animations are good af
r/im14andthisisdeep
This also has helped put me in check. I had high expectations for myself but it really did help A LOT. This same thing would have happened to me just not with film making. Eat your heart out kid.
This got hella emotional. Even though your movie was a "failure", you're still a big inspiration to me and many others.
the last few minutes hit me really hard, how insane it is to be an artist, and go through sso much pain and not even truly fully understand why at the time and only assembling the full picture years later, I embrace you virtually, keep yoour head up, you have done more than what many wish they could evven do, I salute you mad one
what i learned;
1. expect the unexpected
2. expect that everyone will hate you at some point during the shoot
3. no one will like it
Also make backup of the footage you have because if you lose the one you have , you always have the backup.
@@vvcreative2628 And another backup, just to be on the safe side.
@@nicholasgawler-collins5754 and another back up on top of that back on top of that other back up just for safe measure
@@mojo6112 and another back up on top of that back up and on top of that back there is another back up on top of another back up with a back up on top of that back up and then all those back ups are on all different engines that each have 3 back ups if that back up
And don't expect people to come to your screening on mothers day.
This is by far one of the most expertly crafted, well structured and beautifully delivered 30 minutes on CZcams. Honest, emotional and deeply personal, Austin, thank you for sharing your story.
Orrin Monro I’m guessing you don’t watch iDubbbzTV?
I didn't realize it was 30 minuets till i read this, felt like 5 or 10. it was what I needed to hear, and I'm glad I did.
Dude we have super similar names
GamerDudePlays This is better than Idubbbz in my opinion, but you can't really compare them, it's completely different. Idubbbz is not emotional, to me it's not expertly crafted, it's comedy, not a documentary like this basically is.
Lmao what do you watch minecraft letsplays.
I came here from the stunk video and dear god, I was not prepared for this emotional rollercoaster
ima be honest i listen to this at least once a year because the ending is like a film in and of itself. i've wanted to use the audio in the ending for cinematic stuff in the past but never found a way to implement it. it's crazy man
Lol I found his movie in a Russian library
Lmao
Pls send link to the site , ive search i didn't find any!!!
(X) Doubt
@@Oscareuh please delete your reply
Jonni SP ...why?
Damn man. As somebody who's made a no-budget short film, worked on people making low-budget features, I can relate. You should know this 30 minutes is one of the best bits of storytelling I've seen in a while. I felt more at the end, then I have watching any film recently. You're doing what you set out to do, just maybe not in the way you initially imagined. Here's hoping you get that second go at things!
Thomas Flight I think this is his second go.
Haven104 What was Austin's first go?
Andrew Del Pilar the movie you silly noodle
Is it this one?
player.vimeo.com/video/86915456
Shameless self promotion. FUCK OFF
Hi Austin. My name, is Anthony.
I've been watching a lot of your videos lately, mostly because I have interests in filmmaking...I have for some time now.
I am, teary eyed, writing you this right this moment, to tell you...you inspired me to continue on, though it's harder than ever these days to even sit up in bed, let alone get out of it.
You said that you can't look at pictures of yourself at 23...when you said this, it struck a chord with me, more than all of the videos of yours that I watched...because, as you were struggling then, I can sympathize...but in a MUCH different way.
Before 23, I was into film, though I never made an impact on pushing myself to do anything about it, because I didn't really have anyone to push me on...not even myself, to an extent...BUT, there was still a fire in there that just, needed a little kindling.
Then....
At 23, I suffered at the onset of something called Trigeminal Neuralgia; a serious and extremely debilitating condition that affects the a part (or more) of 5 branches trigeminal nerve (which gives us facial sensation)...also connected to this nerve is the occipital nerve (eyes) and the mandibular nerve (teeth).
I had an accident that caused this (a few years after the accident) to grow worse and worse over the years.
it's called Trigeminal Neuralgia, but also has different names, such as Tic Doleroux (I may be spelling that wrong), and....
...The suicide disease.
I DON'T believe in suicide (I'd rather suffer it to the end), BUT, there are people who are tortured by this pain, that jumps in and out, is random where it happens, and can last from 5 seconds to even days at a time.
Anyways, I don't mean to give you my sob story, but, I was 23 when this came in, and, my life...the one that I had hoped for, an aspiring actor, a producer, even to own a film company...slowly started to dissolve.
It's not possible to do anything...ANYTHING...while this pain is happening...BUT, I still have hopes...they never died...just, dissolved.
in 2012, I discovered Adobe After Effects (I had used photoshop since high school, so I was attuned to adobe products), among a slew of others, including Cinema 4D, a CGI/Architectural/Film/etc program through an old buddy of mine (whom you remind me of, lol...that's not bad), and i became hooked. Then, I re-discovered 3DS Max (the first 3D animation software I had ever used, in high school...back then, simply called 3D Studio), and Maya, along with (recently) Blender.
These, along with a combo of After Effects (Compositing) and Premier Pro (Editing), not to mention Final Cut Pro X, and a LITTLE experience in front of AND behind the camera, greenscreen (with OR without the screen itself), I found that fire re-kindling.
A buddy of mine have a (SUPER) amateur film studio, which will go un-named (for now), but, it's just the two of us...much like "5 dollar film studio," (those guys have GREAT potential!), and we barely do anything with it...mostly because, I live about 40 minutes west of Kansas City, MO, and he lives IN KCMO, so, distance is a big factor.
BUT, the biggest factor is the Trigeminal Neuralgia.
Most days, I end up just watching CZcams videos (like yours) and others who are actually doing anything with their talents, skills, and abilities (when I'm not scratching hard at my face to "quell" the pain, somewhat, kinda), but, after it subsides, I want to get in front of this desktop PC and jam it out...I built it just for that cause (I have a good video card coming in a few days.)
typing this message is hard enough...staying in front of this big 50" 4k TV (it hurts my eyes after too long), i cant get much done before it sets in...
What is the point to ALL of this that I wrote?!
That, regardless, you have re-inspired me to WANT to continue with projects that I have started, and never finished...I realized that, though a huge part of me died when this torture set in, A NEW part of me arose FROM those ashes...the part of me that...
...wants to Grow Up.
I don't know if you ever read this, or not...but regardless, I want to thank you for giving this hopeful filmmaker, a New Seed.
So, Hi Austin. My name is Anthony.
Thank you.
Wow
Hi Anthony.
I hope you’re doing well.
:)
@@brancellbooks I'm still, after 15 years of it, going through terrible pain, but, I still have great moments of painlessness.
I'm doing well, in that, I'll persevere through it all, because I've got a Strength that is my Lord and Savior, Yeshua (you may know Him as Jesus). He is my only reason for continuing on, and the only reason I'm still alive.
I'm so thankful that you asked me if I was ok!!
@@Entolyfik Amen!
My boi Steve doesn't exist anymore
The part where you said you wanted to make the movie not to tell a story, but to just be called a filmmaker hit me hard. “That’s vanity, not art.” I feel like a lot of people (including myself) are guilty of this, and great respect to you for being able to face your mistakes, learn from them, and share them with the world. This was a great story to tell :)
Dam, he going through something stop dropping hate. Feel his growing pains.
Guilty. Definitely. If I had a story to tell it'd all have been so much easier and have happened by now. Instead, I work a full time job that pays really well, and have a basement full of gear collecting dust... and still have nothing compelling to say :)
At the moment I want to make films just to have the fulfillment of doing all the aspects of film and not so much to tell stories. So am I okay for that or no?
@@KevinMcLean yes! There is a place for people like you in film. There are so many aspects to it besides just the storytelling. You can go and use your skills to help someone else tell their story. Making film can be a one-man show, but don't feel bad if it's not your "strength" right now
Alex Xavier
When you make your first issue or even a decent rough draft you gotta come back here and link us to it. That way you have a good chance of getting some good support. Personally I’m always interested in seeing something fresh and different, so I’ll definitely give it a look whenever you make it.
You have to submit this to film festivals, this is like a documentary short film. I would pay to see this onscreen.
Seriously, this video was amazing. I sympathized this this dude, I learned a whole lot on what being a filmmaker is like, etc. I straight up said to myself "this is like a short film." lol He should be proud of this because he's just made himself an amazing idea for a movie/short.
Same
This 30 min video deserves an oscar
Where the hell are you STEVE!!!
hiding from people giving them waaay too much hate for a simple mistake in memory.
@@beanureeves9650 it's obviously all a joke lmao
No one:
Captions: my first feature film SPROUTING ORGANS
Lol
The Halloween Reboot
Paulo Sérgio das Fontes 😂😂😂 you legend 😂🙌🤪
2:21
a s h i a p Thanks lmao
Came for the inside look at a crappy movie, stayed for the feels and regrets of early 20s. 10/10 would watch and cry again
The Disaster Artist 2: Electric Boogalo
i very nearly cried too... awesome twist at the end.
Weak
Never mind I just cried
hahahaha did it getcha
I tapped on this thinking I was gonna see a summary of your movie. I was expecting to be entertained. I was not expecting to be moved by a life story. Oh my god. The last few minutes were a rollercoaster of emotions. Made me tear up. It moved me. I watched the whole thirty minutes plus the last few seconds. I hope your in a better position, and I hope your friends are too. I just discovered your channel today after watching your review on the Harry Potter Cursed Child book.
I made a movie, it stonks
Cant believe you just spoiled Sprouting Orchids ...
This video is *beautiful*
Its pronounced 🅱️eautiful :)
Bootiful
This video is so moving.
I’m new to this channel and I don’t know if it’s because making film and telling stories is a dream of mine as well and I’m scared I’ll never achieve it or if it’s because I could just hear the emotion in your voice about how much this meant to you. You can tell how passionate you are and tell how hard you worked for it.
I just want to say thanks, and I know you will never see this comment- I’m commenting this months after the video was put out but, This genuinely made me feel something deep down. And yeah I cried at the end when I heard him well up as well.
Thank you so much for spreading your passion to the world
Thanks, Scarlett. I appreciate you taking the time to watch. Hope you've had a great week, and that you enjoy the weekend!
I've kept this on my watch later for a long time (It's 30 min) and I finally got to see it, I cried. You bring inspiration to many aspiring filmmakers, like me.
This 30-minute video would actually make a really beautiful entry to a film festival. I honestly did learn a lot just by watching through this. I have never undertaken a production of anywhere near this size, no matter how small and independent this movie was, and I am not even sure if I ever will do something like this, but I do understand the type of stress that you must have been facing, being the single writer, editor, director, and even having to bear the weight of being a lead actor as well as a cameraman. As for my thoughts on this video, this video was *worth watching.* That is a distinction that I cannot make for practically everything I have ever seen at an Independent Film festival. Good work!
I feel like his story can be made into an award-winning movie. Maybe he should make a movie about this journey, because honestly, it was a roller coaster of emotions for me.
Good suggestion, honestly!
Look at this fucking nerd
100%.
@SublimeHawk6 Why can't a man call someone a nerd? This is a free internet
Dude.... you made a movie. A feature film. No matter the results, YOU MADE A FEATURE FILM! That puts you head and shoulder above 99.999% of your critics.
You rock.
So true!
21:27
Henrik Larsen he said it was a failure but it isn’t. If you look it up in google then you get a rating of 7.8
yah those critics SUCK. its so mean to push people down like that. i'm making a movie and i'm proud of austin's work. its way better than i could ever do. mine's only 20 minutes!
you missed his biggest lesson , he made the movie for vanity not for art, that doesnt make him above critics, it makes him worse than a critic!
You are by far, one of the most interesting people I've seen on CZcams. I've been watching a few of your videos. It's nice to hear truths by other creative people. The projects that you claim you failed with are actually inspiring because you did the work and put something out there. They're all great and creative ideas. Keep it up man!
I’ve come back to this video after making a short film with my best friend where we had a small crew and a teeny budget.
I’m so happy I was able to take the lessons you put forth and make the most out of what was ultimately a hellish production loop. (2 shooting days, a hectic personal schedule and multiple last minute dropouts) however I’m happy with it and I’m happy I did it and I hope you’re happy too, Austin.
The last bit made me cry a little bit and I absolutely hate crying but I’m so glad moments like these can still tease out the emotions.
I’m so inspired to continue creating, and I hope you will always be too!
Thank you.
Well, now that there is a lump in my throat.. you have earned a new subscriber my friend.
AND WE DANCE. VLOGS Same, i feel like crying but I wont. I subbed to
... I was gonna leave pretty much this exact comment... Subbed. Jesus.
Swarley really? That’s crazy.. CZcams is so big. Maybe we just have the same taste in videos? Idk ❤️😎🎧
AND WE DANCE. VLOGS Yeah, I've seen you all the time to
Me to
Wow.
That's the best story I have ever seen on CZcams.
As an almost graduating architecture student that doesn't wanna be an architect but loves drawing, visual communication, storytelling, taking photos and edit them like his favorite cinematographers' movies cus he cant afford a video camera, this actually inspires me to work harder towards a career in filmmaking, thanks Austin
Stunk is a word
POV: your here for steve
Maybe the movie was supposed to be a trigger for this video to be a great one.
It's fate.
I like your way of thinking JKamagie
Please, please send this to a film festival. Edit to be a bit more documentaryish if you want but just please do it. This was an interesting gripping story, and I'm not ashamed to admit i teared up at the end.
Zach Iremonger i really hope that he took your advice. This video was amazing. I never ever watch a 30 minute CZcams video. But this one you just can't stop
I was going to comment the same thing. This video was amazing to watch, and I teared up at the end too...
This was seriously so moving, and much needed in my personal life. A very accurate representation of the chaos behind the scenes of any production--and a wonderful reminder of why we still love it. Thank you for having the courage to share :)
i know its been years but this video came on my feed and I watched the entire thing. it brought me to tears and I feel like no matter how much time passes new fans will come and we are here to support you. thank you for making such a touching and inspiring video - 2021
"Strangers who have never met." Not like a regular stranger, like one of those strangers you've never met.
The deafening silence. Same thing? ;)
Hahahah this guy is outside the matrix
I was crying by the end. I know what that's like and I know what you mean. You'll do awesome things.
He already has, he already has.
I don't know what that's like but I was also crying.
loser
Nevermind im crying now
Felicity Swan You don't even gave content on your channel, what do you mean "I know what it's like"?
Me: setting a deadline for 1 year
also me: starting 1 week before the deadline ends
Randomly ran across this 3 years later. What is extremely clear to me (I’m an indie filmmaker too) is that THIS story was the story worthy of being told. This story taught me something, reminded me of things I must never forget. This story was real. And this story mattered to me. Funny how God writes our story while we think we are the ones writing right? Thank you for sharing. I don’t plant to watch your actual film. This short film is clearly much better! Take care.
Why don't you send this particular video in movie festivals as a short movie?
Because I think this would win a lot of awards. This right there... was GREAT storytelling!
I didn't even realise how these 30 minutes passed.
It would elevate CZcams content to something of artistic value; quite interesting idea, I bet in 20 years there's gonna be Internet Video festivals.. online...
This was an absolutely fantastic video. So honest and raw.
IT'S FUCKEN RAAW
I’m seeing a few of these pop-up. It’s so wonderful and courageous for filmmakers to talk about their production mishaps for others to learn from. Because it happens the majority of the times. Great
video. Thank you.
I come back to this video so often, it's one of my favourites on CZcams. I hope you're proud of it Austin!
ironically, more people saw this video than they did "sprouting orchids". in that way, you accomplished the goal you set out to achieve with that movie.
Not really...
he showed that he is a filmmaker. he is now. He can tell that he makes short movies, sketches, films, for youtube. For an audience who doesnt go into theaters, but stays at home and watches his thinkings, his mind, hes movie projected onto digital media and sent onto the internet. I think OP is right, redstar is wrong.
@@attilamagyar91 Yeah, and theaters is the past.. Watching prememiers online is the future so I'm glad that Austin has changed.
Please do not mistake a videographer with a filmmaker. Not to diminish the experience.
@@LesGensDair Don't be a snob. This is basically a 30 minute behind the scenes documentary that happens to use CZcams as a platform.
You seem like a really down to earth dude that's had a lot of adventures and learned a lot of lessons. I really do see huge things for you in the future. Good luck out there, man.
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tbh this video feels almost like a film itself. Really deep and honestly kinda inspiring. I know I'm about 3 years late but thanks for sharing this.
this is so raw with emotion, i felt my eyes getting watery at the end. thank you for making this, for exposing your flaws. i'm scared about a paper i have to write for school, worried that i'll show too much of myself. this has given me confidence. i hope youre in a much better place, and i will definitely stick around to see more.
bro, when you started tearing up, and I heard the crack in your voice......the feels man, THE FEELS!!!
yeah
Yeah...
i thought gaylord...
This broke my heart. Especially that end part. I am crying. Thank you for sharing this.
Me too, and it feels good crying
Same here.
Fellow Missourian here, working as an editor in LA. Everytime I watch this I get that curiousity bug of wanting to recut these scenes. Even having not seen the movie, your story on getting it made always intrigues me and I love that you put it out there. Wish the full film was still available, but this video definitely is the next best thing!
Austin, this video touched me. I worked on my first feature film crew at 23, was in film school by 24 and working in a call center by 25. I used to program for some regional film festivals at about the time you were making Sprouting Orchids, and I knew a lot of filmmakers like you - young, ambitious, tortured, and completely delusional. Few of them ever got beyond their first feature. Even fewer gained the life perspective that you have. The Austin you describe in this video would have driven me absolutely crazy, but I'm glad you shared him with us. The mythology of auteur cinema places unrealistic expectations on young filmmakers. I wish I could show this video to every young filmmaker who sees stars without seeing the ground they stand on. This is 30 minutes of useful information. You should be proud of that.
This video had a strong shift in narrative at the midway point
I... Well, I didn't expect to watch this, but...
I'm glad I did.
As an aspiring filmmaker as well, this really stuck with me. Thank you for sharing the ups and downs and opening up. We need that.
I was in tears by the end of the video and it felt like crying together with you. It takes great courage to pursue your dream, even greater courage to finish it no matter what and even greater courage to admit to all of the mistakes that you made along the way and let yourself grow and learn from them.
I have nothing but respect for you and the character you built on this journey. And I applaud you.
Sprouting Orchids in combination with this video should be presented in theater colleges.
Directly one after the other, so first the movie itself. and than this video after it.
"A young man and a woman recover from separate tragedies. Unseen forces in the universe work to bring them together for a purpose far greater than themselves." (Pretty vague right?)
Could even be Star Wars: A New Hope
the force awakens too
Eragon
@@heather2947 Eragon copied Star Wars, don't even bring that up, pt.
@@heather2947 eragon? wtf
@@UnityBringer wtf
Just wanna say my filmmaking teacher back in High School showed us this entire video and I've been watching ever since. It's very inspiring
Damn I relate so much to this. Especially the perspective when re-watching your work, and not seeing the story, or the cinematography, but seeing the stuff behind the camera and in your head that is happening.
I didn't think much of this video when I clicked on it.
Then I watched it. And I loved it.
And then the last 10 minutes brought me to tears.
It may seem strange, but you taught me something which is more than many CZcams videos achieve.
So, thanks.
This was, in all honesty, the most honest video on CZcams I've ever watched. 30-minutes well-spent
Thanks. :)
Hey Austin. Thank you. As I young man with lots of ideas trying to create things in this world, I thank you. I didn't see the movie, and I feel like you wouldn't want me to, bud I think that this right here has drastically more value for me. That is YOU, your story, the human behind it all, the truth. I really think that that's what matters and I feel like that's what I want to create stories about, the realness of this world. The world behind our masks, I know I'm idealistic and I think it's okay, I see what becomes of people who were like me at the start. Not in a bad way, it's just this world tends to throw you around and it's especially true in the film industry where ideas clash with reality more than in any other form. I don't know what I'll be doing in a few years, currently, I'm applying for film school and theatre school, directing and acting, and classical and alternative. As I said I'm idealistic, but I know that people need stories, things to connect with, things to see and to laugh and think about. I think I'll do something in the future, I don't know what and how, but I know that I will try my best to stay true to myself and do as best as possible.
Thank you again.
Good luck, and please don't forget who you are.
Love David
Your optimism is refreshing. Best of luck in your endeavors. Dont lose your motivation & drive, you have what it takes. Get around or knock down any obstacles that get in ur way, & keep your goals in sight. If u get thrown off, get right back on that horse. Avoid or remove negative influences. Don't sell out, & stay true to yourself. Good luck!
That was honestly one of the best things I've ever watched. Thank you for sharing this piece of your life with the world. It couldn't have been easy. I learned alot about you and myself along the way, Thank you Austin.
Have you considered making a non-fiction feature length, more like a documentary, surely you'd be amazing at that based on your youtube content
Long March That's a great advice
I second this.
I'm a teenager about to apply to college. I plan to study filmmaking. I want to be apart of great movies and make gripping stories. But this video did not just show me the good or the bad of my possible future in the world of film, it showed me reality. I'm still a kid and I do not know how I am going to steel myself for the impending difficulties my life as an artist is going to entail.
I guess... I guess all I can do is remember to have fun and smile because that is what can keep anyone going.
you need to believe in yourself, don't let your dreams escape you.
Yes but he's also being realistic, he's not saying he's giving up, but he is acknowledging it's not as easy as it seems
David Kolifrath how is it going so far? I’m going into college soon as well and I’m going to study film.
Keep fighting! Hope you reach thay dream. 💛
I'm in the exact same situation and your words really inspired me.
This is such an important underrated movie for every bigger filmmaker out there. Might even say needed.
So much to learn from. Delivered so well and with great honesty that made us the viewers to identify with any difficulty that you encountered.
So inspirational, thank you!
I'm glad you've found value in this difficult project.
And I found this personal documentary very moving and relatable, even though I'm not a filmmaker.
Thank you.
damn. came into this wanting a laugh. left in tears after i realized just how true it was.
fs
J
ikr, like looking in the mirror for me. damn.
My father always had this saying - “embrace the suck”. Sometimes you just need to learn from your mistakes. Keep at it, you’ll do big things
when i read it, i took it in a different context.
@@leleled6467 please stop, you've gone too far
E M B R A C E THE S U C C
‘ embrace the suck’ christ on a bike that’s fucking hilarious
@@biglad3941 Christ on a bike I'm gonna be using that
This was an amazing video. Truly. I cried and I always thought when something makes me cry it has truly earned my respect and is an amazing piece of work.