it's been a rough month.

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  • čas přidán 28. 03. 2022
  • hello my friends it's nina, here's why i've been gone for a while.
    thank you for your love and patience during this time. i'm happy to be back and i will see you again VERY soon. love you so much :')
    rest in peace marco and polo, i'll love you always.
    you can contribute translated captions here: amara.org/en/videos/UiffDwKUH...
    thank you :)

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  • @dobochobo
    @dobochobo Před 2 lety +1828

    can't imagine how difficult things have been lately :') it must've taken a lot to be this vulnerable, i hope your healing process is full of love and rest

  • @amandarachlee
    @amandarachlee Před 2 lety +1439

    sending u so much love 💖 it must have been so hard but i’m proud of u for posting this & pushing through!!

  • @sincerelyabu
    @sincerelyabu Před 2 lety +233

    From a nursing viewpoint: Your small veins is due to dehydration which is why the nurses had difficulty inserting an IV on you, so please continue to hydrate everyone especially in the transition period from winter to spring! Our kidneys are a filter in our body so without fluids, things can buildup instead which may turn into kidney stones.
    Nina, thank you for taking the time to telling us your worries, we are always here for you no matter what! You shouldn’t feel bad because you need to take a break, because not everyone can be on and in front 24/7, we’re all humans too. If you need more time off, it’s totally understandable! Sending love!!

  • @khalilahd.
    @khalilahd. Před 2 lety +981

    It makes me so sad to see you like this. I hope you’re taking the time you need to heal and grow. Always rooting for you Nina 💜

  • @mayaleex3
    @mayaleex3 Před 2 lety +854

    🥺 love you honey! Crying with you and how much the pain must’ve affected you 😭 doggos are the sweetest beans and truly a selfless best friend

  • @atyuuu
    @atyuuu Před 2 lety +693

    As someone who has passed 8+ kidney stones in the past 6-7 years, I am so sorry that you had to experience this, along with everything else you've had to deal with. Please please hydrate as much as possible! In my case, it seems that my stones were caused by my diet, along with not drinking enough water. When you pass your stone, it will be sent to a lab to analyze its composition as there are many types of kidney stones one can have (calcium oxalate and uric acid stones are the most common I believe). Mine were uric acid stones, and what has helped the most for me has been avoiding processed foods that contain high amounts of sodium (instant ramen, chips, etc.), along with avoiding drinking too much soda/coffee/anything other than water. If I choose to drink those, I make sure to supplement with lots and lots of water! Something like this requires somewhat of a lifestyle change, esp. if you don't want to experience this again. Whenever I cook, I am very mindful of how much salt I'm seasoning with, and aim for a middle ground of under seasoning where nothing is too salty but it isn't super bland either. I also carry a 64 oz water bottle with me everywhere I go, I make sure to never leave the house without it. I try my best to finish and refill it at least twice per day, three times would be ideal but it is pretty tough (you will be peeing a lot!!) I am not a doctor nor an expert, so def. take everything I've said here with a grain of salt, as everyone's body is different, and every stone experience is not the same! My last stone was 2 years ago, fingers crossed I never experience it again, and I hope you can stay stone free as well! Hang in there, you are a trooper!!

    • @LegateP8
      @LegateP8 Před 2 lety +38

      ty for sharing your experience!! i hope you never have to go through it again

    • @zainebhidoussi1498
      @zainebhidoussi1498 Před 2 lety +12

      i wish u all the happiness man sorry for what happened to you ..may ur health be good now

    • @isabellakhan
      @isabellakhan Před 2 lety +4

      i’ve also had them multiple times in the past and its truly the worst pain i’ve ever experienced… drinking water is so so important!!

  • @bubblecarebear
    @bubblecarebear Před 2 lety +522

    My best friend’s pup of 10 years just passed recently, she’s still dealing with it a month later. Nina, take your time and give yourself a break, be kind to yourself💕💕💕

  • @sunspov
    @sunspov Před 2 lety +495

    this month has also been rough for me bcs my mom passed away earlier this month and im trying to grieve and give myself a break but im graduating soon so school has made the month harder on me .. so i feel u ninz. i hope u know ur not alone and we're all sending love to u

    • @gracemh19
      @gracemh19 Před 2 lety +30

      Oh my gosh. hope you have been doing better

    • @notelcy
      @notelcy Před 2 lety +6

      school's annoying but you got it!

    • @carolinitavares5388
      @carolinitavares5388 Před 2 lety +14

      the same happened to me back in 2019, I lost my mom in november and graduated 5 weeks later. family and friends' support was what helped me to go through it for sure. I hope you get as much support as you need, know you're not alone and your dear mom would be super proud of you as always. much love ❤️

    • @lyalouv
      @lyalouv Před 2 lety +3

      Hope you're feeling better

    • @AnaLivia-vy8og
      @AnaLivia-vy8og Před 2 lety +3

      sending love to you, sun

  • @ofctinybear
    @ofctinybear Před 2 lety +137

    death and grieving are really difficult things to process, still to this day I also don't know how to deal with it.
    give yourself time to feel everything that you need to feel, feel free to do things that will help you to deal with it.
    and yes, everything is really bizarre and feels really unreal, but everything will eventually be okay :)
    i love everything you do here on youtube, and i wish you all the very best💞💞

  • @menucafe
    @menucafe Před 2 lety +30

    your videos have been such a comfort for me during my hard times, ive watched them over and over. i watch them a lot when i feel so empty and cant get out of bed and they give me a boost to to something even small for the day, like make a coffee or clean my room. i hope that we can now be your comfort in some way

  • @maki9884
    @maki9884 Před 2 lety +53

    I can see how difficult it must have been for you, Nina. I hope you find it in your heart to move forward, but for now I wish you and your family healing. Sending you so much love ♡

  • @Kay-iq8ht
    @Kay-iq8ht Před 2 lety +178

    The biggest hug for you Nina 💕 I can't even begin to imagine how painful this month has been and how it felt to say goodbye to your dogs, I wish you the best dealing with it. I feel like it is a coincidence how today is the 1st anniversary since my cat passed away, so today I've been thinking that it's been a year since I experienced such a painful morning where we found her, I couldn't even see my kitchen bc I would burst into tears looking at the kitchen and not seeing her, it's just painful. Today I remember her as how beautiful she was and even though i would love to have her here, i get it that it's life😔 sooo I hope you can rest as much as possible and for your health to improve ♡

  • @Shirl33n
    @Shirl33n Před 2 lety +9

    I appreciate this video so much. I lost a close family member two months ago and it’s so easy to feel like you’re alone in the pain, but you’re not. None of us are. Praying for you girlie 💗

  • @RACHA
    @RACHA Před 2 lety +11

    I went through this too 2 years ago, so this resonated a lot… I’m so sorry for your loss. I miss our pup everyday, but after a while you do get the strength back to continue on, so I’m glad to see you doing a lot better.. i wish you the best, and we will be looking forward to whatever you have in store next, whenever you feel ready 💜 Thank you so much for sharing your experience! Good luck with the stones too!! Stay safe and please take care of yourself and I hope the rest of the process is not too painful! 🤍🤍🤍

  • @PietBu
    @PietBu Před 2 lety +36

    it‘s so crazy: I‘m currently going through a break up and I started to cry because all the feelings you described about grieving are the exact same feelings I‘m going through. I hope we are both getting better soon 🤍

  • @artemyres
    @artemyres Před 2 lety +25

    oh, nina, watching this broke me a little bit because i can relate a lot, especially when you talked about the kidney stone. i was also in a bad moment of my life, in 2018, and on the exact saturday that i said "i'm going to DO something about it", i woke up with pain on the same spot you described, but a little bit below. it took me a full week on painkillers and with a LOT of nausea (i vomited so much that my stomach was in pain), until i could go to a doctor on another city to prescript me the right medicine. the medicine was miraculous and i felt good right after taking it, but it was easily the worst week of my life.
    i REALLY feel you right now, and i really hope you'll feel better soon. take all the time you need. we love you and your videos. be kind to yourself, better days will come ♥

  • @demi-qs5zc
    @demi-qs5zc Před 2 lety +14

    this really hit close to home, i lost my chinchilla 6 weeks ago now and only 2 weeks later lost my dog too, both were sudden and the grieving process has been incredibly difficult and taken a huge toll on my mental health, so i know how painful it truly is.. so please take all the time you need for your mental health! we’re all sending you so much love & support 💞

  • @emvie
    @emvie Před 2 lety +118

    I've heard passing kidney stones is worse than giving birth 😬
    I'm so sorry you've had to go through all of that in such a short amount of time. We're all here rooting for you ❤️

  • @youcaughtmecrafting
    @youcaughtmecrafting Před 2 lety +22

    As someone whose had kidney stones multiple times, I feel you lady. I've had my back broken, given birth and the kidney stones were the worst. I relate to you so much about wanting to be knocked out. I begged my friend to hit me over the head with a frying pan because it was that bad. I'm so sorry that you had to go through this and I hope that you never have to again. Only people who have had kidney stones understand the "kidney stone dance". You literally cannot stand still/sit still because of the pain. Sending positive thoughts your way so so much. Borahae.

  • @Atiny_NZ
    @Atiny_NZ Před 2 lety +18

    I feel you girl. March has been a tough month for me too. But we'll get through it. I know we will. Fighting 🙏🏻❤️

  • @notjennifer9657
    @notjennifer9657 Před 2 lety +17

    Take all the time you need! I have a cat and a dog and they are my whole world… I can’t imagine the pain you must’ve felt but I know one day I will have to feel it too. You are so strong for overcoming the grief and continuing to power thru those feelings, especially while dealing with your own health struggles 💗 sending you so much love and strength!! I have been watching your videos for years and I’m so happy to see posting again :) please continue to take care of yourself Nina!!!

  • @bridgitblack8205
    @bridgitblack8205 Před 2 lety +17

    i've been watching you for years and I want you to know you are a huge role model in my life. I love you so much and I'm so proud of you. I know how much you loved Marco and Polo. You've gone through so much in just a few months so please take your time and focus on yourself. I'm sending you and your family lots of love and prayers.

  • @JackieFiles
    @JackieFiles Před 2 lety +6

    I'm so sorry for your losses and health struggles.

  • @madelinebyrd2581
    @madelinebyrd2581 Před 2 lety

    thank you so much for sharing this part of yourself nina!! i also had an incredibly hard past year when i recently was diagnosed with ocd. a lot of things that you said in this video about anxiety and fear for the next day resonated with me so much. it's just really nice to know that when these bad things happen, no one is truly alone. i love that you said you're trying to focus on the present more now and i'm also trying to do the same, even though it can be very hard sometimes to not live in fear. i believe in us tho, we got this!! i hope you are healing and living life as it comes, love u!!!

  • @lorenabrito3148
    @lorenabrito3148 Před 2 lety +10

    Thanks for sharing with us a little bit of what u have been through, remember we will always support you, thanks for being there for us, we love you really much! I am really thankful for having met you in youtube!

  • @ibukyhee2556
    @ibukyhee2556 Před 2 lety +3

    I understand that feeling, it’s so so painful.. thank you for sharing this with us, stay strong and we love you 💗💗

  • @shybutterfly7080
    @shybutterfly7080 Před 2 lety +6

    Having a rough time rn. Made me cry. Seeing this video. Especially when u said like u feel like world is falling apart. Im feeling like that too. Thank you Nina for sharing this, I don’t really like sharing my feelings or when I’m hurting but seeing you express yourself made me feel it’s okay to talk about ur feelings.

  • @okayyyline
    @okayyyline Před 2 lety +37

    Nina, you're so strong, and everything that happened is just for a moment. I hope you have more happy moments from now on. Stay strong. Love you 🙏💜

  • @iwilllivelikenotmrw
    @iwilllivelikenotmrw Před 2 lety +10

    Thank you for sharing Nina, no one can describe the pain of losing a loved one. It’s been 2 years since my dog passed and I still get teary thinking about her. Im going through the hardest month right now too with a loved one going through health problems. I just wanted to say it’s so comforting knowing that Im not alone, and it’s okay to grieve, process and switch off. I truely hope it gets better and sending you all love and strength. ❤️❤️❤️

  • @mewliaa
    @mewliaa Před 2 lety +8

    Nina, I'm sorry you have to go through this. I relate to your feelings a lot since I also lost an important family member, my dad. Thank you for sharing this with us, it did make me feel less lonely, like you said in the beggining of the video. Thank you, Nina. You are an inspiring and beautiful soul 💓

  • @collettecruz
    @collettecruz Před 2 lety

    im happy you are doing better Nina, loosing a loved one is really hard and dealing with health problems when one is young is also particularly difficult, my anxiety spikes with medical and health issues and sadly i've expirienced various illness this year, its been horrible to go in and out of doctors appointments these past months so this resonated with me, you wonder all the time when the next bad thing is comming or when will you feel like yourself again, but as you said all we can do is live in the present and take it one day at a time, neither the good or bad things last forever so we need to keep going! thank you for sharing and again happy you are getting better! 💖

  • @camilletrician
    @camilletrician Před 2 lety +5

    i'm sincerely praying for ur fast recovery, nina !! stay hydrated & pls take care of urself. sending u strength & love

  • @beatrizbrito3897
    @beatrizbrito3897 Před 2 lety +4

    this made me emotional... i've never had dogs, but i lost two loved ones in less than a year around 2020/2021. my life turned upside down and i think i still haven't grieved enough because i had to move on with my life around that time. but i miss them deeply.
    thank you for opening up, nina. i hope you're taking care of yourself. sending much love to you

  • @rikihow
    @rikihow Před 2 lety +3

    You're literally the strongest and inspiring person I've ever come across. Everything you do makes me feel like I can also put my life together, like actually finding out who I am as a person as well, you're not only inspiring but very relatable especially now that you're stepping out to talk out your thoughts and emotions.

  • @1gotenks
    @1gotenks Před 2 lety +2

    Thank you for this video! this month has been hard for my own reasons and still is but knowing others going through it, is reassuring in some odd way.

  • @caturina
    @caturina Před 2 lety +14

    "If they meant a lot to you, it's going to hurt" had me tearing up because this spring marks 2 years since we had to put down my cat (family cat but she had decided I was her favourite, so we joked she's mine) due to her health deteriorating quickly. Sadly, I wasn't there for her in her last moments because mom decided to put her down without telling me (I found out a few days later since I wasn't living at home) and I still don't know if it hurts more or if I'm thankful for that decision...

  • @alaynavilla8745
    @alaynavilla8745 Před 2 lety +6

    Sending lots of love Nina!
    You’re content has brought so many people joy and comfort, I just hope that you can experience that joy yourself :D
    Please take care of yourself and I hope you feel better !

  • @mimipaigeb
    @mimipaigeb Před 2 lety +12

    my heart breaks for you so much Nina. I hope you heal well especially through everything you’ve been through :( 🤍 We all are sending you love and virtual hugs! 🤍 and please take a break as long as you need

  • @LorenitaEV
    @LorenitaEV Před 2 lety +2

    I am really sending you a lot of love, I hope you can feel it hahaha as you said in the video, don't pressure yourself so much, and try to take one day at a time, I hope your health gets well very very soon, there are good days and bad days , but "life goes on". I send you a lot of loveeee Ninaaa

  • @ninaharmon8616
    @ninaharmon8616 Před 2 lety +1

    Thank you so much for sharing your story! It’s one that I can relate to and I’m sure many others as well! I love the message of kindness to ourselves and reminder that it’s okay to take time to heal when we are not okay 💕

  • @giovannapego7505
    @giovannapego7505 Před 2 lety +43

    sending lots of hugs, strength and love

  • @tsheringyolmo11
    @tsheringyolmo11 Před 2 lety +3

    sending you a speedy recovery for ur health and heart! ❤️

  • @clarice2945
    @clarice2945 Před 2 lety +2

    this made me so emotional too :'>> sending my love nina. wishing you all the best in your healing. may you only have better and happier days ahead 💜💜

  • @oliviakompany4739
    @oliviakompany4739 Před 2 lety +2

    thank you for sharing with us

  • @luana_tulipa
    @luana_tulipa Před 2 lety +6

    my 9 year old cat died early last month, my family ignored the whole situation like it was nothing, I tried to do the same but it all came crashing down this month and its a horrible pain. I couldn't even talk to people without crying, I just wish it was a bad dream.
    things started to get better this week but sometimes I still feel a heaviness inside me.
    I love him forever and I did everything I could, I know he is much better than me now hahaha and that we will meet again one day.
    feel everything you have to feel Nina, your pain makes perfect sense. ❤

  • @The_Real_Brent_Savage
    @The_Real_Brent_Savage Před 2 lety +94

    Good to see you back!! Your fans missed you! Sorry to hear about the rough time you’ve been having. Stay strong 💪🏼

  • @gabrieleamorim
    @gabrieleamorim Před 2 lety

    nina i have been watching your videos since 2018 and you have helped me during so many hard times, i'm so grateful for your existence and i am really sorry for all the sad things you've been going through. i hope you feel better and that only good things come your way. sending you so much love always 🤍

  • @joelleolol
    @joelleolol Před 2 lety

    As Nina I’m so sorry to hear about all of this but proud of you for taking it one step at a time 💕 sending lots of love!!

  • @hajar012
    @hajar012 Před 2 lety +10

    God knows how much I cried w you in this video T-T I am always rooting for you and proud of you for being this strong and being able to share this ,and I'm sure marco and polo are watching you from heaven and are proud too !
    Keep goin neen, ill always love and support you

  • @llouvell
    @llouvell Před 2 lety +3

    This whole thing brought up a lot of emotions for me and I’m happy you’re doing better. I really wish you all the best and hope that everything will be at a good high for you soon. Take good care 🤎

  • @nnnnn027
    @nnnnn027 Před 2 lety

    sending so much love. i'm so sorry that so many difficult things have been piled on you recently. thank you for sharing this with us -- i know it must have been hard but it helps people feel less alone, so thank you. as someone who has a chronic illness and often faces those sad moments of feeling hopeless/worrying about what might happen etc, you talking about how we just need to stay in the present and enjoy what we can at that moment was really amazing to hear. thank you for this video. wishing you nothing but happier days going forward.

  • @solilokian
    @solilokian Před 2 lety +1

    hugs nina. I've been going thru a rough time myself and this video gave me immense comfort. I hope that others' stories can help you a little bit and we're here to give you virtual hugs. Thank you for your courage. ♥️

  • @madhuyadav8471
    @madhuyadav8471 Před 2 lety +4

    It's so great to have you back! I hope you can get well soon and feel better 😊

  • @Mad.E
    @Mad.E Před 2 lety +173

    Despite having already lost all of my grandparents, the fact that now one of my parents is life-threateningly sick suddenly makes death feel much more real and close to me.
    I went through the weirdest transformation, from being //tw// suicidal, to feeling neutral about death (via medication), to being scared of death, and now to being absolutely terrified of my loved ones or me dying.
    So I feel like I can somewhat relate.

    • @Mad.E
      @Mad.E Před 2 lety +1

      @sunflower I'm not feeling better and I do appreciate your words of support.
      I actually grew up with many friends practicing various kinds or "shades" of Islam, but I can honestly say that religion in general isn't for me.
      I feel happy that others find strength in it but I can't believe something that I don't believe.

    • @Mad.E
      @Mad.E Před 2 lety +1

      @sunflower Thank you. :)
      In my opinion, neither my life nor life in general nor the universe as a whole need a purpose (outside of simply existing and outside of the meaning that I choose to bestow upon it).
      So since this isn't frightening to me the way it is to you, I have no need to look for external answers or to try and believe something that is implausible (or even undesirable) to me.

  • @manlaya1025
    @manlaya1025 Před 2 lety +1

    im sorry you had to go through all of this, sending you lots of love and i hope better days are coming for you. 💕✨

  • @destinygonzales7900
    @destinygonzales7900 Před 2 lety

    Thank you for sharing your experience with grief and mental health. I lost my second mother (my mom’s best friend) in November and I frequently think about her. I’ve never dealt with grief like this before and hearing about your process and seeing that things do get better has been so validating. I’m glad you had time to rest and heal. I similarly experience panic when I deal with intense physical symptoms and it’s always helpful when there’s a loved one nearby to help. I really appreciate your support for people going through similar times and of course, we are all here for you too ❤️

  • @vip5hawol
    @vip5hawol Před 2 lety +12

    much love to you, nina

  • @bloosider
    @bloosider Před 2 lety +41

    sending you hugs Nina, you're such a strong person, take your time ! we really love you ♡

  • @mssan85
    @mssan85 Před 2 lety

    hi! I am sorry for your loss! I also experienced a heavy loss last year. But I know we can get through it and life does go on. Sending alll the best wishes and looking forward to more of your healing vlogs!

  • @erilaluna6185
    @erilaluna6185 Před 2 lety +2

    sending you love and hugs nina!! all that we have experienced, experiencing and will experience is just proof that we're living and continuing even in hard times. i'll pray for your fast recovery and that all the things you will face starting today is just happiness and peace. you're such a brave person for sharing this with us 🤍
    ps. i cried while watching this, because i also experienced similar things to what you experience, so i felt all the words you said 😭 oh well, that's LIFE. last and always, we love you nina!! 🤍🤍🤍

  • @pmaung9726
    @pmaung9726 Před 2 lety +3

    I'm so sorry for your loss Nina, I recently got a cat myself and I can't even imagine my life without them anymore so my heart grieves for you, I'm proud of you for being able to share your feelings with us even if it is hard to do so. It takes a lot of courage to do so. I hope you continue to take the time to grieve and heal and take care of yourself too . Sending you the best wishes

  • @saolovesu
    @saolovesu Před 2 lety +9

    we love you nina

  • @angelwings716able
    @angelwings716able Před 2 lety

    nina, i know exactly how youre feeling in regards to your dogs. i lost my childhood dog last month and its been so hard. it came out of left field, i too had not experienced death before and to have it happen to my best friend i was destroyed, but i find that with time its been getting a little easier. it comes in waves. but what you said about polo being your best friend as you grew up and lean on really resonated with me. my dog practically saved my life countless times growing up. and learning to live without him has been hard but time goes on and its all a process. sending you so much love nina, you got this

  • @clumsyjoon3697
    @clumsyjoon3697 Před 2 lety

    i went through the same thing this year too...letting go is not a normal experience and so whatever time u need take it. im not in the same place where i had plenty of time to grieve, so please don’t do what i did and listen to yourself n ur body. sending love, rest in peace marco & polo. 🤍

  • @jjnaeee
    @jjnaeee Před 2 lety +41

    we are all so happy to have you back nina!! Hearing your story makes me feel so much less alone, I grew up with 4 animals my whole life, we had 2 dogs and 2 cats, around the age of 8 our first dog passed away of cancer, I was young at the time and was in shock as to what was happening but relied on my other 3 animals for coping. 2 years later our second dog passed away and I was around 10 and seriously fell into a pit, at such a young age it was really hard to understand death, I continued to grief of our 2 dogs deaths and once again relied on our 2 cats for comfort. I was extremely close to my cats (I'm a big cat person). Now I was around the age of 11 or 12 when we moved states with both our cats, they had been doing good even though they were becoming older my the day and around a year later our cat Wheezie began to suffer from health conditions which turned out to be tongue cancer...we had to put her down, I witnessed them slowly putting her to sleep in front of my own eyes and went home that night feeling the most pain i had ever felt...I was left with 1 cat, Lucy, now Lucy was very beginning to become very fragile, stiffening in joints, and very thin...she was getting old...i spent as much time with her as possible until the day we were preparing to move to another house she began to have sever complications...we had to put her down that night as well...I had witnessed my last animals death right before me...i remember being in the car sobbing, barely breathing..it was scary...i now had no animals left to turn to...I had truly never experienced that much pain before...It had been 2 years and im now 16 and still grieving over all my animals..
    Hearing your story truly made me tear up, although i felt a since of comfort knowing I'm not alone. Im so much younger than you but I promise you things will get so much better, and I wish the best for you nina!! Keep staying strong, and take your time to rest and focus on yourself!

  • @rebeccahu
    @rebeccahu Před 2 lety +82

    i cried with you watching this. so hard seeing you go through this, but know that you can take all the time you need to pick yourself up again. we're all here for you, will wait for you, and are sending you love! you are definitely not alone~

  • @rae6739
    @rae6739 Před 2 lety

    the physical pain you described plssss this happens to me a lot bc of a chronic illness that was discovered after getting surgery for something else but fr it HURTS ur actually the first person i heard who felt that pain too so you're definitely not alone stay strong i hope things get better for all of us

  • @gloomygraves5856
    @gloomygraves5856 Před 2 lety

    u have been such an inspiration to me, for years like you inspire me to get up in the morning, and this video just emphasizes how safe your channel is. this video means a lot to me personally because i have felt a shift in energy in me, everyone around me and even other content creators. and it just means a lot that u made a video addressing ur mental barriers. because a lot of people in the world just pretend everything is okay when really mental health matters and it should be talked about. sorry it just means a lot to me, someone who’s going thru some similar barriers. so thank u, u are a safe place for me

  • @heyitsheidijay
    @heyitsheidijay Před 2 lety +107

    Nina 🥺 I can't imagine what you're going through, I lost my childhood dog a few years ago and it still affects me when I think about him/see photos of him, and to see you go through that twice in such a short span of time hurts my heart so much. Wishing you all the best and sending all the love and strength possible 💕

  • @dayanarojas1146
    @dayanarojas1146 Před 2 lety +78

    I lost my dog last month, and I know, I feel you! The pain is more than you could ever imagine… It’s ok to take time for your own and feeling all the emotions. It doesn’t get easier but you definitely understand how to live with the pain! Keep going Nina, sending you a lot of hugs!💖

    • @_ashmason007
      @_ashmason007 Před 2 lety +5

      I'll always admire people who can keep pets. Being an extremely emotional and sensitive person I could never recover if I ever lost a pet or someone close. I guess that's why I never had a pet.I knew I couldn't handle all the pain of letting it go or losing it. Loads of love and strength to you ❤

    • @B.r__ay
      @B.r__ay Před 2 lety +2

      Sorry, I don't quite understand, is ninas dog dead?

    • @dayanarojas1146
      @dayanarojas1146 Před 2 lety +2

      @@_ashmason007 thank you so much for you kind words! Is really hard but is totally worth it, all the love you receive from them is more than you could ever ask.💖

    • @dayanarojas1146
      @dayanarojas1146 Před 2 lety +3

      @@B.r__ay sadly, yes…😓

  • @jessicachan4519
    @jessicachan4519 Před 2 lety +1

    nina!!! been watching you since high school (graduated college a year ago now). thank you for helping me make it through when i felt so hopeless. please take all the time you need to rest! we love you so much!! 💕❤️

  • @victoriaalexandersantos6878

    Sending you lots and lots of love! I lost my cat last november and my 10 year old dog in december, and I still feel empty. It was the first time I had to deal with grief on that level and it feels just like that. Feeling sad, hopeless, fragile and somehow grateful for all the memories. I hope you get well soon and wish you happiness in the little things, even when life feels like it is falling apart. You are very loved 💕

  • @nash2226
    @nash2226 Před 2 lety +3

    I might be just a stranger to you but everytime I see you it feels like having new sister and I'm soooo proud of you♡ Please taking care of urself♡♡ We love youuu

  • @irene4026
    @irene4026 Před 2 lety +6

    Get well soon Nina

  • @orlagracee
    @orlagracee Před 2 lety

    i had the same thing happen to me in july with kidney stones and it was one of the most terrifying things that happened to me (we basically had identical bruises) but one thing is to just keep drinking lots and lots of water and try to avoid really salty foods! it was super overwhelming for me too (and i unfortunately had bad experiences with the doctors) but please just rest lots and take each day slowly. and as for your doggies, i lost one of mine a few years ago now and i have never felt heartbreak like it. it was also my first time dealing with death and it felt so isolating because lots of people don’t think that it’s a big deal because they’re a pet but they’re part of your family. i really hope you’re doing okay these few days and that your anxiety has been improving. take care of yourself nina and don’t worry about posting lots of content!!

  • @emmak7436
    @emmak7436 Před 2 lety

    Sending you love from Ireland

  • @winterbear8266
    @winterbear8266 Před 2 lety +3

    Wishing you good and fast recovery ❤️

  • @xkz92
    @xkz92 Před 2 lety +3

    I find it comforting to think that we were a pet's lifelong companions and were able to offer them a great life, but it is heartbreaking that they made our lives much better but could only accompany us on part of our journey. Best wishes to you - and to anyone going through a rough patch these days - it takes time to rebuild some healthy physical/mental foundations so rest and take care of yourself :)

  • @ainsleycobb
    @ainsleycobb Před 2 lety

    thank you so much for being vulnerable on here and sharing everything with us :,) my entire january-march was insanely rough too, so you’re not alone. my families cat of 16 years suddenly fell ill out of no where in the beginning of january, and we had to make the decision to put her down. she was older than i am, and had been there for me since the moment i came home from the hospital. even though i knew that eventually she would pass, i never expected it to come out of no where and so quickly. just like for you, it was my first time ever experiencing a death of someone who was close to me. i had never had to greif like that before, so it was really hard to deal with all of the new emotions. i totally agree with you about the seeing life disappear in front of your eyes. i had never thought about it like that, and after seeing her just suddenly be gone it was a really hard concept for my brain to grasp. i also cried so much, i literally just layed on the floor and cried because i missed her. it seemed really weird because she was always there begging for treats, and now she isn’t. but thankfully, i have two other great pets who were able to help me cope and get through the grieving process. im thankful for the time that my cat blessed me with and im happy that she’s in a better place and not in pain :,) 💗 im really sending you the best wishes & you deserve to have a life filled with love & happiness. things will get better for all of us :,)

  • @emilynguyen4744
    @emilynguyen4744 Před 2 lety

    you're so strong and resilient nina. i'm so sorry for everything you've been through and i'm sending you much love and strength

  • @MassiveJetGrind
    @MassiveJetGrind Před 2 lety +6

    I'm sorry to hear about this rough patch, Nina. Life is a Hawaiin rollercoaster ride. We get calm, smooth waves we can happily cruise on, and sometimes we get wild waves that wipe us out. We get back on the board and keep surfing because that's what we do. Keep surfing, Nina.

  • @Yaemikowaifu244
    @Yaemikowaifu244 Před 2 lety +4

    Seeing our precious Nina cry breaks my heart,stay strong neenz and take all the time you need,we will always be here for when you ready to come back💖Sending love your way

  • @lebtst
    @lebtst Před 2 lety +1

    i just found out about your channel this last month and i cant describe how much help it has been to watch your videos every day, thank you, i'm sending so much love to you

  • @yazminsantos1756
    @yazminsantos1756 Před 2 lety +2

    Aww Nina💖💖💖 thank you for sharing and I’m so glad you are feeling better. Sending so many hugs your way!

  • @Eileen-up6ey
    @Eileen-up6ey Před 2 lety +3

    I can't imagine how much pain you've been through but I know you'll get to live with the memories of Marco and Polo and things will eventually start being easier again ♥ Please take as much time as you need and recover from your kidney stone or any other health issues! Nobody wants you to push through because at some point everybody would collapse :( Life is unpredictable...

  • @acsushii
    @acsushii Před 2 lety +4

    nina ): i'm so so sorry this month was rough for you. you have all my support and love.

  • @kimberlysequeira8884
    @kimberlysequeira8884 Před 2 lety +2

    Welcome back! There's so much strength in vulnerability and you showed that today, I hope everything becomes easier for you (your days, your health, your heart) and can't wait to see you back here again!

  • @sarah_lou_
    @sarah_lou_ Před 2 lety

    How you talked about your pain really resonated with me as a someone with chronic pain that will never go away. The way you talk about it is so relatable and it’s a grief in itself to not be able to live life like you wish to. Hope you’ll recover fully and with the least pain possible

  • @nanalostaf8878
    @nanalostaf8878 Před 2 lety +3

    rooting for you here nina, take your time and get better soon~~

  • @blackrosequartz
    @blackrosequartz Před 2 lety +12

    I feel your pain, a few years back I lost my younger dog due to cancer and now I have my oldest one still but he’s almost 15 so I’m very anxious to lose him.
    I wish you all the best and hope your health gets better! I had to go to the ER too last year for heart reasons but I'm still enjoying life even with my health problem now.
    You have a great mindset on it and it's the best way to get your life together!
    Sending love and hugs!! xx

  • @waallie4479
    @waallie4479 Před 2 lety

    welcome back! i feel like this is such a wake up lesson for me too, as I have always been told that I am being hard on myself, and I realize that I am constantly telling myself that I am not supposed to be happy. pls take as much time as you need to heal and we will all be here for you

  • @adelinely537
    @adelinely537 Před 2 lety +1

    sending you lots of hugs and love!

  • @salonikullar3627
    @salonikullar3627 Před 2 lety +3

    Nina you're such a wonderful soul. The world is your oyster......we're all here to support you and our sending our love to you. And yes Marco and Polo both are in doggy heaven happy and radiant as always....theyve loved being a part of you as you were to them . I hope you are relieved of your pain as fast as possible 🥺❤❤❤

  • @eunice6093
    @eunice6093 Před 2 lety +3

    I’m so sorry this happened to you Nina. but please remember we all love you and are here for you we understand the the break. I hope you feel better soon sending love and prayers!💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

  • @kellytt28
    @kellytt28 Před 2 lety

    thank you so much for sharing

  • @bonedofan
    @bonedofan Před 2 lety +1

    Sending you all the love and support! Your videos and stories do help me feel less lonely and reassures me that these events tend to happen to us in life and how to push through those hard times. Wishing you only the best and I hope you recover as soon as possible ❤️

  • @larachan1490
    @larachan1490 Před 2 lety +3

    Sending you all our love Nina ❤️❤️🥺. I wish I could give you the biggest hug 🥺😞. Please take it easy on yourself, and take each day at a time. You're doing so well ❤️

  • @ishaarya8451
    @ishaarya8451 Před 2 lety +12

    After having a very bad day today and now watching this video I can say that it was my worst day today; Take care of yourself everybody, never neglet your health and love yourself :)

  • @rainajanai
    @rainajanai Před 2 lety

    i can’t understand your pain but i’m so sorry you had to go through all of this in such a short time

  • @Elena-jz9ct
    @Elena-jz9ct Před 2 lety

    Thank you for making this video, I hope you will feel better trough time. Listening to you makes me feel less lonely and I think other people feel the same too so don't worry about your people getting sad. Continue on being strong.