First Time Hearing In Due Time by Killswitch Engage | Suicide Survivor Reacts
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This is my reaction to my first time hearing In Due Time by Killswitch Engage from the Disarm the Descent album. Thank you to my amazing Patreon, Ryan Black, for the support and for branching me out yet again to another amazingly powerful and uplifting song!
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Hey, Amanda, thankyou for another uplifting vid. You, and the community here have truly helped me over the last week, I love you all. Probably won't be back this side of Christmas because of work (I'm a chef), unless UK COVID restrictions change ( hopefully they won't, my workmates are all I have immediate contact with). But either way, I wish you, and everybody here, a very happy Christmas, good health, and all the best. Much love xxx
Completely unrelated to this video, but you have really touched me. I just watched a livestream Metallica did for their 40th, and towards the end of the 2nd show they played "Fade to Black", and all I could think of was your reaction from a few months ago. Amazingly, in the middle of the song where there's a pause, James actually took a moment and said the song was going out to (and I'm sure I'm getting it a little wrong) "people going through struggles. Know you're not alone. Tell someone." It will be up to watch for a limited time on prime video sometime during the week if you're interested.
Peace be with you, and I hope you have a good holiday season and a happy new year.
Check out their song Strength of the Mind. I think you will the lyrics on point. Welcome to the Killswitch Engage family!
Your are a completely obvious empath. That is a awesome thing, but it can be a curse if you can't mentally handle it. From everything I have seen from a fellow empath. I can truly understand where you are coming from. The problem occurs when being something you can't help as a empath, you get overwhelmed. It wasn't through meet the right therapist that I learned my gift and how to fully embrace it without getting depressed. Oh and Jessie Leach pours if all out in his lyrics. Phenomenal lyric wise!
Killswitch is a band that is DEFINITELY worth getting deeper into! A lot of their songs follow a similar message, especially on their most recent album. A very relatable vibe of "things are hard but things will be okay"
I agree Killswitch engage are 1 of 2 bands that saved my life and stopped me from ending it
They have a deep message in the majority of their songs without being directly political. I refer to them as Happy Metal. They make a great point about life and lift your spirits at the same time.
Yup. Super uplifting lyrics
Their song I Am Broken Too has helped me grasp the reality that it's OK to hurt and that we aren't alone
Really good song
This should be your next follow up to KSE!
Great tune
DUDE! I just commented for the same song! Hell Yeah pal! It’s OK to not be OK!
KSE is very inspirational. One of my all time favorite bands. They are my go to when I need a kick in the ass. Dive down this rabbit hole you wont regret it.
SAME DUDE
This is a great song, but my personal favorite song off of this album is always. Definitely tugs at the feels, and is so beautiful!
Their singer actually left the band after making the best album ever with them because of mental health issues. When he returned to the band 10 years later, this was the first song they released so I think it's appropriate given the lyrics. Never realized that til you pointed them out (I'm not a lyrics person tbh lol)
I still remember when this came out. I was such a massive fan of Jesse and I thought he was gone forever, but then Howard left and they gave Jesse another chance. It literally made my whole year almost (2013) and I'm still so happy he's back in the band. It was like one of those things you pray for that actually happened
Killswitch Engage's "The Signal Fire" gives me a boost.
Oof! Stellar choice! Saw them live in MD & Howard joined in for The Signal Fire and i absolutely lost my damn mind!!!
I’ve always felt that some things or words hit harder when they’re screamed at me. That’s one thing about metal that I and others I think we really love. Clean vocals have their place of course. But sometimes a lyric just hits home when it’s addressed in that fashion. 🤘🏼keep digging through the rabbit hole of metal (metalcore), KsE has so many songs with inspirational lyrics!
If I was a therapist or doctor, Killswitch engage would be a prescription. I wish everyone who hurts, could hear their soothing sounds and lyrics, memorize and Learn them and really grasp the energy and hope they emit. Thank you for doing this video, just listening to you talk about your own struggles and understanding and your reaction made me tear up because it's nice knowing I'm not alone...
It is so refreshing to see someone who gets it. Having to explain mental health issues to folks who've never dealt with it is exhausting. But you get it cause you've been there. You know first hand. And I am very grateful to have found your channel. Keep up the good work!
Killswitch don't mess around!! Straight to point kick ass metal!!!
Just subscribed, myself being a lifelong sufferer of a serious mental illness. I’m not joking everything this band shines from their souls when they sing there songs is so true. There songs speak too me on a deep level even when it comes too my faith. I feel UNSTOPPABLE!
Trust me there’s light at the end of the tunnel and your peace is priceless and good people so much so. Get that and you’ll conquer the world. Much love ❤️❤️❤️🔥🔥🔥🤟🤟🤟🎸🎸🎸
I can watch this video over and over. Your reactions are overwhelming. Bless you Amanda 🙏
Amanda listening to you break down your feelings in your reactions is what I definitely need to hear some days. And right with me going through a sense of displacement not only mentally, but not knowing how to deal with the feeling s I'm facing...hearing you in this reaction helped alot today. Thanks for sharing your thoughts in this video, it was what I needed to hear today. Keep doing you and keep on sharing you're not just helping yourself in this.❤
I'm so glad you did this song and enjoyed it so much. Killswitch is my favorite band for so many reasons, and this song is one of them. Its without a doubt my favorite, it literally saved my life. When I was stuck inside the hell in my head and didn't want to be here anymore I'd listen to this over and over again and it never failed to lift me up. Even if I had to scream or sob, it always energized me to have hope and pulled me away from the ledge more than once. I'm glad you liked it 🖤 KSE is definitely worth checking out more 🤘🏻
Loved your reactions and thoughts on the song. This is my favourite song of all time, it's helped me through dark times. And probably unknowingly kick started my journey to better mental health. Keep up the good work!
KEEP ROCKING Amanda! WE LOVE YOU!
Back on a re-watch! The verse is the angry side of not knowing how to deal with what's going on but it's the chorus that's the gem. It gets me every time "All in due time, See the world in different eyes, All in due time, the shadows will give way to light". It's a very uplifting lyric and give me so much internal strength! The song shows the difference in moods and how one minute you can be raging and the next minute you give yourself the time to get perspective on things and let yourself know that things can (and WILL) get better!
I am broken too by kill switch. Jesse is a big on mental health
Also Jenny by nothing more is a song that helped me
Kill switch saved my life. Big help with my darkest days and my depression
I really like your reactions and your spirit. Glad I checked out your videos. I'm a fan now. Yep.
Killswitch’s song strength of the mind is a great motivator for me to always keep moving forward and to stay focused on the important things in life, good or bad. You would love this song if you haven’t reacted to it already.
You fill my bucket! Yes, a group list would be good, or maybe even a few lists. A "feel good" list, and "I need to get the anger out" list, a "I feel your pain" list. Several kinds of possibilities. I see a lot of the heavy style of music I hid in being suggested. That style of music seems to revolve around anger, frustration, and fighting back (against depression, intolerance, suppression, etc.).
As long we understand Jesse is the OG and thank god howard went somewhere..
I would absolutely love an "I need to get the anger out" list. Bay Area thrash metal is my therapy.
So when i walk and exercise...i just CZcams...heavy music for the soul and working out......you guys will love it....just type that in....heavy music for the soul or working out
For me, it was, and still is sometimes, Pantera.
@@davidgaps6589 of course there on the list....im more devildriver.LOG...slipknot...as I lay dying
God I LOVE Killswitch Engage! I'd highly recommend their song This Fire which is about perseverance. By the way your videos have really helped me in recent times so thank you so much ❤️
I just came across your page about 30 mins ago from your Lorna Shore reaction. Been watching a few of your videos and this one gave me mega chills. This has to be the best reaction to any song on CZcams, period. I'm getting chills just thinking about what I just watched. Killswitch makes music for people to have your exact reaction. I love how Killswitch incorporates such heavy music with positive messages. I love all types of metal, but KSE has to be in my top five. I loved your genuine excitement for these lyrics. Hugs. You have a new subscriber ❤️
I love you, the way you interpret this song is beautiful❤
all i can say welcome to killswitch engage there soooooo good and they do get you so pumped
Love your work breaking the stigma.
Killswitch Engage have a song called This Is Goodbye (with their previous singer). STRONG Trigger warning: the lyrics of this song is quite similar to a suicide note.
nice. This band continues to help me through this journey of my mental health.
I just learned this two days ago after 4.5 years. Don't get in your own way. I was like, why am I not healing? Then the right person at the right time said the right thing, and it clicked. I am in my own way. It's one thing to protect yourself. That's a given after trauma. It may take years. Certainly, one does not want to dump it on someone else and hurt them as well. No. But you have to live. Live a little...all in due time. Traumatized folks can speak in riddles hoping that the right person will answer the call. Then the right person calls the bs and delivers the point right at home, and makes you figure it out yourself. Not asking you to go public with it, but This Fire by the same band helps too.
If your looking to get more into them I suggest the signal fire it’s from a couple years back and it has their current singer and their old singer named Howard
original singer is this guy Jesse..
Howard was a joke...
Nah, Howard kicked all ass...I love both Howard and Jesse
Play nice! Also, email me at amanda@amandawebsterhealth.com I wanted to share something privately with you.
@@dethincarnate1149 I like Howard in his band just not killswitch...it will always be Jesse's band
@@MentalAmanda wait, who are you talking to
Ive listened to KSE for many years, there are many bands that have helped pull me out from myown head and helped me "see the world through different eyes" and Killswitch is definitely one of them. This past weekend was really rough and it didn't really hit me till monday at work. Yesterday I got to go to a concert to see Lamb of God and yes even Killswitch Engaged. And for the first time in months I got to actually smile and feel joy. Its an awesome feeling and I want that more and more. Thank you for creating music reactions and spreading awareness for mental health. We are gonna be alright 🤗🤘
This song got me though a very tough time in my life. I love it!
The song "always" shows how people love you and want you to live. Its amazing
We were rocking to the lyrics. Motivated
Everyone deals with mental issues to varying degrees. To me this song motivates me, you and anyone else to fight until it's dealt with properly.
Love this song. I Am Broken Too is one that is beautiful and hits hard.
I'm so glad I came across this video. I've been a metalhead my whole life and it always helped me deal with anger, stress, and anxiety. I now have a 11yo son that is going through a lot of struggles with anxiety. I actually suggested he start listening to metal when he's upset or stressed. I specifically suggested this song, and way you talk about it and it's message is the perfect thing to show him. Thank you.
This was a hell of a comeback video at the time
This is my first time seeing one of your videos. I have to say… I love your take on my favorite band. I love what you’re doing and please keep it up!! If you’re looking for music with a message, a lot of KillSwitch Engage’s music has messages like this. Please look at more of their music.
Aaaaand I’m following 💪🏽🤙🏽
“I am broken too”’ is one of my favorites. It helped me to own my trauma, stop running from it and seek real healing. Check it out.
The vocalist and the guitarist have a side project called Times Of Grace. Their new album Songs Of Loss and Separation really has been my album of the past year. You should check out the song Carry The Weight. Definitely worth it.
Thank you Amanda for everything you do. I'm in a dark place now, but your light gives me a bit of hope.
So much pain at once is tearing me apart. My father just got put on Hospice. A woman I love doesn't talk to me anymore. All the few "friends" I have are ghost. I need help. I don't know how to keep going. Suicide Note Part One by Pantera is my mental soundtrack.
You can message me anytime. Those situations would weigh on anyone!
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You aren't alone and there is SO much you can do to get out of the dark!
She truly got through it all and really wants someone (honestly her favorite CZcamsr You) to see and witness her story and hope it helps others.
The End Of Heatache by them is a must. They have 2 different singers Howard Jones and Jesse Leach. Jesse was their first singer, he left for a while and Howard came in. Jesse then came back
Why did I not find this lady!! Anxiety has wasted so many years of my life. Now I embrace my demons, laugh at them. Now they sit in a mood like ignored classroom clowns xx
Amanda, one of the songs that I have in my list of tunes to lift me is “Take hold of the flame” by queensrÿche . I have seen a few others reacting to them recently. This song is beautiful!
Just subscribed simply because as a person with PTSD/anxiety/depression i can tell you get from music what soo many of get from it. That said a band that has always got me out of bad times is Nonpoint. Definitely recommend checking them out.
River Runs Red by Life of Agony or All Around Me by the David Crowder Band.
reaction and song perfect timing for me :)
For me there is no better band to keep my mental health balanced than KSE!
I just want to say thank you. I grew up in a household that mental health discussion was an everyday thing or a normality. Being born into an a.l.f. in Florida was not easy when I was young. But I learned that mental health and coping with issues was a normal thing. Grandmother was a psyche nurse at shepherd Pratt for 28 years, my father ran an adult living facility for over 20 years andni was.raised in a safe.mental health environment and it suprises.me how almost taboo it is to talk about mental health.
As a suicide survivor, this band has saved my life so many times. Now I'm an author, wild water Swimmer, living my best. God bless Jesse and the guys x
“I am broken too “ official video by Killswitch Engage !!!!
Could you please react to "Rose Of Sharyn" by Killswitch Engage? Their singer at the time wrote it about losing his mother, and it's one that I have in my playlist in memory of my grandmother who I lost just after I graduated high school and have still not truly gotten over.
The lyric in it "I long for those who never knew you" hits me the hardest because the first time I actually heard "Rose Of Sharyn" was when I had a little memorial party for my grandma with a few of my closest friends, and one of them who I normally would jam to metal with, played this song. I think that line hit as hard as it did because a lot of my friends knew about my grandma but never got the chance to meet her.
You hit the nail on the head with your perspective! This type of music gets me pumped as well. (React to My Curse by KSE. or just listen to it.)
Killswitch Engage - Eye of the storm got me through many tough days
Chevelle - The Red
Chevelle - Roswell's Spell
Chevelle - So Long Mother Earth
Chevelle - I get it
Chevelle - Get some
Staind - The Outside
Staind - Please
As I Lay Dying - Sound of Truth
As I lay Dying - I never Wanted
As I lay dying - Morning Awaits
As I lay dying - greater foundation
Just a start. . .
I've really felt that KSE is uplifting for a long time. They put out wonderfully positive messages disguised as rage-filled jam sessions. My wife (who normally listens to pop) sings along with me on this song, because it's such an uplifting song.
Update: I forgot to mention that my kid loves this song as well. It's on my chore playlist, so she once walked into the kitchen while I was rocking out while doing dishes. She listened intently for a few seconds, then started dancing. Her dance was one of the cutest things I've ever witnessed, and to put that in perspective, I've witnessed a chicken babysit newborn kittens for a mama cat that needed a short break.
Love your channel. You're an inspiration. Great reaction. Been listening to KSE for years. May I recommend a band called Imminence. A band that changed my life through their music.
100% beautifully strong willed individual 😁😁🙂🙂
This song gets me in the feels every time I hear it. 🤘🏻
* kisses the notification bell * Great, now I have to clean my iPad screen. 😂
I'm not responsible for phone smudges!
most their songs helped me through dark times in my life... some of my favorites are strength of the mind, eye of the storm, this fire burns, take control, reject yourself
Wooo!! f#%$ anxiety! push forward!!!
I really like what you are doing with this channel. Another great song to check out will be "Dark Clouds" by Adept. "Ghosts" by August Burns Red deals with veterans and could be an addition to your Five Finger Death Punch reaction.
Ooooh, I just remembered, I was going to suggest for a anger management/motivational type heavy band, Hatebreed… there are so many tracks to choose from!!! 😁🤘🤘
Their cover of a Crowbar song, All I Had I Gave , has been a near daily for years. I second this
Since you seem to be highly appreciative of these men are & what they're trying to accomplish via their music & vocally, I strongly urge you to listen to another one of their songs named The Signal Fire. Thanks for the encouragement that I carry with me day by day.
Killswitch Engage are all about talking about mental health and putting out a positive message. You should check out "Quiet Distress" next.
KSE are one of my favourite bands of all time huge inspiration
This song has made me weep. Love that he quotes from Psalm 121:1, where his hope comes from. Also, you might really love "Lift Me Up" by Five Finger Death Punch for a similar message.
I love your reaction to the song😊i know exactly what it feels like, but giving up is Not an option🤘🏻🖤🤘🏻
If you liked your introduction to KsE youvshouod also check out Jesse and Adam's side project called Times of Grace. I would recommend The Forgotten One, Willing (acoustic if possible,) Medusa, and Rescue
Love KSE, they've got some amazing songs, this one is up there with my favourites along with My Curse and My Last Serenade. Disturbed - The Light is one of my all time go-to songs to give me a boost when I'm low. It's worth checking out!
i like the idea of a combined feelgood playlist and i wanna contribute with some of my feelgood songs:
Alphabeat - Fascination
New Found Glory - My Friends over you
Bee Gees - You Win Again
John Parr - St. Elmos Fire
The Communards - Dont leave me this way (its a cover but this version is just.... i just wanna dance)
A Fine Frenzy - What I wouldnt do
Rod Steward - The Motown Song
and for self support i highly recommend the ultra hard hardcore song PERSEVERANCE by a little band called HATEBREED. not for the list but yeah. its a very supportive and strong song with easy but great lyrics!
Would be interesting to hear your thoughts on and watch your reaction of Blue October - Hate me. Such an emotionally beautiful and sad song at the same time!
Raise the vibes playlist. I love the idea, l definitely think it would be perfect.
Don't know if you heard this song, I just came across this video, but if you wanna talk suicide and mental health, listen to I Am Broken Too by Killswitch Engage
Chimaira! Please review nothing remains, comatose, or inside the horror. All three from their self titled album. This album, I think saved me from my addiction due to multiple traumas. Stilll haven’t overcome depression. Which I never will but I’d like to find some kind of leverage over this. Anyway… awesome album all three songs hit hard.
I really wish that things were solely up to each person and that one could make a positive change without all the cr*p that exists outside of your life. That each person could make themselves truly independent. You somehow need to find the right things at the right time, and get the right help when you need it to have a decent opportunity. Society have this thing where it almost seems to enjoy breaking people. I like that the Internet has brought forward positive people that are willing to fight. Its a step in the right direction. And it feels like the younger generations are more willing to talk about stuff like mental health. Maybe there is a change on its way? I might never experience that but knowing that the future generations might be more open, honest and helpful regarding mental health (and other stuff) gives some hope.
With your admitted mental health struggle you need to check out their song I am broken too. The lead singer is very upfront and positive about his personal struggles.
This is one of my go to songs when I'm not in the best of places. KSE album Alive, or Just Breathing is filled with similar songs. I would suggest "Temple from the Within". Also, check out Times of Grace, their song "Burden of Belief" is another go to. Thank you btw...
rose of Sharyn. Killswitch, nuff said :)
I Am Broken Too and I Can't Be The Only One
Please do Rose of Sharyn! Howard Jones (their second vocalist) wrote it and is about mourning a loss 🖤
Best song. Of all time I love killswitch
KSE are always uplifting, I know you react to different genres, but if you want to keep trying something heavy (but of course very well done) give a try to Zero Killed (feat. Björn Speed Strid) by SENSE OF NOISE, the melodies are similar to KSE and the video (and lyrics) DEFINITELY deal with mental struggle, specially on these difficult times the world is going through, you won't regret giving the video at least a try
Hey Amanda love your reactions. I have a quick suggestion, well my 12 year old daughter she has a request and really hopes you'll do it for her. I know she is still young but when she when I told you about her Covid story she watched as many video reactions as she could on your channel but when she first got Covid she still wanted to be with her bf so you know I know how that is. But with her having Covid she couldn't just got out anywhere she wanted so she spent alot of time with her bf and and she ended up getting abused a good bit and when she came across this one song it truly helped her get through it and she was able to get rid of him for good. Also this song/music video is what helped her get through it and she also is a Covid Survivor now don't get me wrong I know she's only 12 but she was suicidal during that most of that abuse and sickness, I'm sorry it really gets to me and I've been trying to write this comment for about half hour now 😭 and I came home from work one day and saved her from something I never thought I'd have to endure/visually see and that was my baby girl hanging from a ceiling hook in my closet and the song that she really wants you to react to is Red Jumpsuit Apparatus "face down".
Can you email me at amanda@amandawebsterhealth.com?
I'll do my best to try my email has been wack lately. Sorry it took so long to get back to you right here. I'm going through some depression thoughts and issues and idk what to do. I'm not trying any numbers or any fuckin thing I've tried before and it never got help so I said fuck it to all of them. I have no one Amanda. Don't call anyone right now please I don't want anyone showing the fuck up on my families property. I've tired praying and praying to fuckin God and still nothing so I gave up on that. I don't even have no not one goddamn phone number in my fuckin phone. I have no one there for me. No one to talk to.
@@redhotskillet2225 You can reach out to me anytime. And I get it. The meds and hotlines didn't work for me either. If you want, I have a free 5 day challenge that talks about the major changes I made to overcome it despite the professionals.
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Liked the video within about 3 seconds lol because of the who it is 🤘. I do believe Adam D. The guitarist when he was on the price is right may have won the grand prize. KSE is 1 of the most positive bands I've ever heard, check out the arms of sorrow, hate by design, this is absolution. U can't go wrong really.
A few of my go to feel good songs are fight the good fight by triumph one day remains by alter bridge signal fire by Killswitch and they eye of the storm by Killswitch
Or you can have an empty bucket not realizing that WE ALL are worthy to carry the water that will in turn enrich others!
Definitely check out the band "Times of Grace" particularly their song "Live In Love" got a feeling you'll appreciate that one
Check out a band called "Novelists" - "Lead the Light".
I would say My Curse is the one that brought me into their whole scene. I miss Howard Jones :( Such an amazing voice.
You need to watch Killswitch Engage "Strength of the Mind" great song. Greater lyrics. But the point is missed a bit cause it isn't your mind you have to change. The mind is just a go between from the brain and body to YOU. The mind takes care of higher functions while YOU sit there and think. For instance, how many times have YOU driven through a light at a intersection and looked back and thought. Dang was that green or red. Your mind knew and took care of it, because YOU were lost in YOUR thoughts. All 3 work together in harmony unless one part is struggling. Usually it's YOU. But not always. Please tell me yall get the point. Took me 46 years to find that harmony. Im 49 now. I have more, but I will leave it there for now.
Ive been addicted to opiates for 11 years for the past 3 years I was on methadone.. I have been clean from everything for 6 weeks now.. say what you will but I asked God for help to get through the withdrawal period and to date I've had absolutely no withdrawal symptoms..
I am so proud of you and VERY happy for your progress, no matter how it came about!
another great song is Life eternal by mayhem its so tear gurking
Check out times of grace heavenless and other songs, a project done by some of these band members awesome lyrics as well!
I think you would really appreciate the band "Nothing More". I must warn you that a few of their tracks will almost definitely turn you into a crying wreck but they do have some fun/kickass songs too 😂. As a musician I find it becomes harder to get a true emotional reaction to new music because I'm so used to certain melodies/harmonies & rhythms etc. or because I'm simply just trying to analyse things as I listen rather than truly take it in but Nothing More hits lyrically so much. "Architects" would also be a good band to check out too in a similar way, all about the lyrical content & the message as much as it is about making some kick-ass sounding music. 👍😁
"Nightlife" by Off with their heads is a really good song that you should check out
I don't know if you plan on doing tv shows reactions (from what I understand you can show 10mins of footage without being blocked), please check out Mr Robot. I found that show when I was at my worst, and the finale made me want to live (not just survive but live my life)
Check out,”This fire burns,”. To me it’s a better fuel for life.