Top 3 WORST Things About PRISON (In My Experience)
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It’s sad that drug “dealers” get more time than child predators. Disgusting
It’s crazy how that works! I was in a cell with a guy who was on his fourth prison sentence for domestic violence. This time he had broken his girlfriend’s arm when he attacked her with a baseball bat. It was my first offense ever for having and selling drugs to my friends who were already on drugs. And I had a longer sentence than him. That seemed weird to me. Thank you for your comment ❤️
The system is so beyond fucked. It's super scary because honestly all it takes is someone to lie about something and you could be in there for life. My ex almost killed me and he didn't even get community service 🤮. I'll never understand it, absolutely no justice for myself and my kids.
@@jessicaschmidt126 I’m so sorry to hear that. Yeah it’s pretty backwards. I was in a cell with a guy who was in there for his fourth time for domestic assault (this time he had broken his girlfriend’s arm with a baseball bat) and he had gotten less time than me. Strange. I hope you are ok now and away from that guy. My heart goes out to you ❤️
@@SmilesforMiles2024that’s true. You know why? Because domestic violence is a misdemeanor. If it hadn’t been the girlfriend but a stranger it would have been a felony. My arm was broken as well and totally bruised up as I was dragged around the house. and he was a doctor, and had many DUIs prior. And in a way, I’m glad for him now, as he wouldn’t have been able to be a doctor probably had he had a felony. It doesn’t however show up on a background test and can’t be removed. He got 3 years and 1,5 years in prison. He had done more things that just that There is this tendency even within the police force, to say it’s the girlfriend choice. As I had to go to court, I saw first hand, if they think you are selling drugs, and I mean a small seller it’s 10 years or even longer. And it’s uhm. Or a pedophile. I don’t understand that when people get back out there they would only focus on the time served and probably will reoffend. In stead tney should get actually help, so hopefully they don’t reoffend
@@jessicaschmidt126I’m sorry, it’s very frustrating, mu experience was so double. There were actual police officers telling me are you done playing him? And my arm was broken it needed surgery, I have a pin in there. I was bruised up as he dragged me through the house. I think he would have killed me had I not escaped. because leaving a witness wouldn’t work. Honestly I was also very confused and alone and embarrassed about it. You fall in a black whole. And your ex get to just blame you for it. And I am what? There is actual prove of it. I still live it today. As if I am the crazy one. I don’t know the answer. I just hope all is ok with you ❤
Keep sobriety your number 1 priority brother. I am a recovering heroin and meth addict myself, 9 years sober. I went to federal prison for interstate trafficking aka distribution. My guidelines for sentencing were 10 years to LIFE. I got very lucky and qualified for Safety Valve Act. The only thing that could’ve mitigated my sentence in the Feds. So lucky I didn’t have any prior arrests
I was really close to having a fed case. One of my charges was interstate trafficking as well. Someone snitched on me and they got me just as I came across the boarder from California into Nevada. Also my first offense, so same here, I got super lucky. Thank you for sharing. 9 years is a long time! I only have 2 1/2, but so far I’m loving this new way of being in my skin. Reading your comment is so inspiring to me! Thank you 🙏
@@SmilesforMiles2024I love pickles and ice cream but together? No! County jail shittiest for food definitely, one only gave you food twice a day! I was in a city jail for half a day once for driving with no license, they gave me a tv dinner & I slept til the drunk people got in. Best food - federal minimum security camp. Salad bar lunch and dinner, all these cereals and drink options, vegetarian without needing religion, you were allowed to take 2 pieces of fruit with you per meal! Pretty cool. Maybe I was just excited after corporate prison, being limited to the little pancakes, oatmeal, maybe eggs, and then peas basically. Then it was options and working out all day after my grounds cleaning job, then I got to go home.
Glad u alright now! I just had a year and a day over my head and was lucky enough to get a good counselor in recovery, who helped me sort things out.
SO happy & grateful you made the necessary changes to change the trajectory of your life!!! Thank you for sharing and encouraging others!!! 🙏😇💫
@@cookymarie82I think the fed pens are markedly better because they have a substantial percentage of white collar crimes and money always talks.
Those prison guards abused their authority on inmates.
Pretty sure they all, most all, of them do that
The worst part about prison is the dementors
😂😂😂 that really put a smile on my face!! Some of them certainly do seem like the soulless creatures who guard Azkaban!! 😂😂 Thank you for that ❤️
It's actually a quote from "the Office" 😅@@SmilesforMiles2024
I am a nicotine addict. I was smoking up to 3 packs a day. What finally gave me the push to quit for good was approaching the age where my dad's siblings (all addicted to nicotine) started getting sick and dying (their late 40's early 50's).
By far, for me, the most tortuous part of quitting was psychological. Seeing how divided I was in myself. Part of me saw clearly what I needed to do, and the other part of me couldn't have cared less; this was an insidious battle. That was 22 years ago.
Thanks for your sharing. You've got a bright future ahead of you. Good man.
You're a good communicator/storyteller man- Keep it up- I'd like to watch more.
That’s so cool to read. I really appreciate you taking the time to watch and for your encouragement 🥰
1000% agree 😊
This is such an unacceptable way to care for prisoners. Incarceration is the punishment, not incarceration followed by endless torture. I’m guessing from your accent and the stories that you’re in America.
I’m glad you’re resilient enough to get this far and I hope you continue in an upwards trajectory until you’re thriving. Criminals are people just like anyone else, and you’re proof that true change can happen. Thank you for sharing on here 👍
Thank you for that. Yes, jail/prison is a pretty strange place. I actually got a lot out of it though. I met a lot of very wonderful and interesting people. It’s ultimately an experience I am glad I had. Oh, and yes, I am in America.
Congrats on sobriety, self growth, ownership, and finding a positive outlet to spread your experience. Sending all the positive vibes, my friend 🤘♥️
Great video, i am nurse also and have seen nursing addiction over the last 13 years..something not talked about enough..you got my support for you and the channel
Hello, I am a nurse, and I am so sorry for what happened to you, but at the same time i am so happy that you are clean and trying to find your purpose in life. I am so proud of you being able to stand in front of a camera and talk openly of your drug issues as a nurse. Maybe this is your call; advice and prevent people from making the mistake you did, maybe saving someones life and their families. As a mother of 2 young boys I appreciate you so much for your courage and resilience. Keep it up you got this ❤
Your gratitude is very inspiring and so good to hear 💗
Dude I hope you never do drugs again
I hope so too. Life is too awesome without them!! 😂🙏❤️
Thanks for reminding me of county food - I am diabetic and sometimes feel sorry for myself for having such a strict diet. Now I am grateful it is not the loaf I used to have to eat everyday.
When things appear to be falling apart, they may just be falling into place..
Everything happens for a reason. We may not understand the reason for some
of the events we encounter however the priority is to learn from it.
0:17 appreciate the honesty about "meaning and balance". Nobody ever talks about that. It's either implicit or neglected. Or worse... people push nihilism instead.
14:58 "the initial separation from your problem/substance/behavior is essential for you to clear your head enough for you to be able to make some decisionson your own" this is true! I have a low social need, and was forced into public social spaces throughout my childhood in school. It took being out of that to start to learn what my relations with society and socializing are, to learn people are interdependent, etc.
I have the same experience. I never felt like I got enough alone time, even well into my adult life. I am experiencing some consistent and controlled solitude now and it is teaching me so much. I love the way you put that. Having a “low social need.” Now that I am finally honoring that need in my day to day life I am finding that the time I decide to spend with others is so much more rewarding and fulfilling. I really appreciate your comment. Thank you 🙏
"...whatever no one is gonna watch this, " - famous last words, haha! Thanks for the content my brother
Hey Brian (edit), thanks for sharing. Have you done a video on what led up to your arrest, the arrest and going to county jail?
Can you share more about your B felony?
I’m glad you have a CZcams channel. You never know who’s listening…and who you are reaching.
Disclosing our secrets help mitigate the shame.
Im going to make this video right now! :) Thank you for the idea. Should be posted by the end of the day!
preciate it. online there are many who dont know the difference between jail and prison. they also just think criminals are random faceless "evil" people. nice to have a face and story shared to help the ignorant learn, even if its just a little.
I must admit I didn’t know much about the criminal justice system either before I was arrested. It was an eye opener for sure. And it is crazy how many wonderful people I met who were in there with me. Some of them probably should be in there but a lot of them have no business being in there at all. It’s really a messy and sad state of affairs. Thank you so much for watching and commenting ❤️
John Prine has a great song; "Christmas in Prison"
I love John Prine but I hadn’t heard Christmas in Prison. Just listened to it. I’m in love with it. I’m gonna have it on for the rest of the day!!! Thank you SO MUCH for giving this to me! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Congratulations on your sobriety! You have overcome so much. Thank you so much for sharing your story. Sending love from Australia! 🇦🇺
From Australia!! That’s so cool! Thank you so much for your comment! I’m smiling from ear to ear as I type this 😁😁😁
Best wishes!!
I hope you never go back and go on to be a happy productive member of a community..
Thank you. I appreciate you watching and commenting 🙂
here before channel blows up keep putting out content and your gonna be successful with this
wow, wow, wow. I'm so impressed by you, Keep going. You're doing great. I'm pulling for you!!!!!!
Keep your head up, glad to follow your journey, best wishes
thanks my sharing this dude, ur a special one x
Awe 🙂❤️ thank you ☺️. Thanks for that
love the song! thank u for sharing your story
Glad you like it. It’s a good one that I forgot about for a long time. I love it when that happens. Thanks for your comment 🙂
Thank you for sharing your experiences. My ex-husband ended up in prison after I left him for starting a child pornography ring . So glad I was long gone. What ever happened to him it wasn’t enough. Interesting to hear what it is like. I am glad you have recovered from your drug addiction and moving on. I’m a retired RN and have heard of RNs loosing their licenses but never heard what happened to them. Your videos are very informative. Thank you for sharing these difficult experiences. I wish you well.
I love your energy! The fact that you’re making these videos is awesome
and I hope your channel grows cause I feel you should have way more followers than you do 😊
Thank you so much 😊 that means a lot. I’m just getting started here on CZcams so hopefully it grows 🤞
Had this video come across my homepage and was shocked to find out you only had less than 300 subscribers while I was watching. You’ve got one more now at least👊
Thank you!! I’ve been posting one video a week for about 6 months now. So I’m brand new and I’m still learning how to make content. Two weeks ago I only had 80. So it’s going in the right direction 🙂 thank you for your support. You’re awesome!
I'm happy that you got through the drug withdraw and are sober these days. Thankyou for telling your story
Good to see you rising above your bad decisions. Good luck to you. Great broadcast
Good luck to you, all the best as you move forward in life.
Thank you so much 🙏 I appreciate your encouragement.
Ohhh! You never ever push the call button! It will make things much worse for you and your cellmates
Hi Brian, it is awesome to hear that you are feeling better now in your life than ever before. Glad that you can spend the remainder of your prison sentence on House arrest and free of all the bad experiences you encountered in prison. The only positive thing with the bad experiences is that you know how bad it is in Prison and it incentivizes you to never want to go back in that environment.
So glad you started this channel talking about your struggles and victories. It is wonderful that you are working so hard to improve each day.
Keep sharing. Great channel
Thank you for sharing this video and information.. I can’t even imagine. I fortunately have never been incarcerated.. but I can relate to you when you were talking about how jail was good when you were withdrawing from the drugs.. when I was in my infancy of recovery.. I had a stroke.. so I didn’t have any access to drugs or cigarettes.. so that made it a little easier on the quitting part.. I can definitely relate to you in a way. I did have a stoke because of my drug use.. I had a defect in my brain.. so when I used.. I was at higher risk than most.. but I stopped using because of my stroke.. but I am staying sober because I surrendered.. and I am done. Keep making these great videos. Have a wonderful day ❤
Oh wow! That is crazy! But the similarity is interesting in that something that was not your choice was the catalyst for getting you away from the drugs initially. Your situation sounds scarier than mine though. I’m glad you made it through and are here 🙂 I really appreciate you sharing and for your encouragement.
@@SmilesforMiles2024 you are 100% correct.. it wasn’t my choice to have the stroke… I know it sounds crazy.. but I am so happy it did happen.. because if it didn’t how much longer would I be in my addiction.. I probably would have died eventually.. but so blessed I had it happen to me. 3 brain surgeries later 💪
crazy how pedos get less time than drug addicts ..
I’m 11 months sober from alcohol. Just found your videos. Love your honesty!! Do you go to AA or NA? AA has truly saved me!! I don’t think I could have stayed sober without it. Good luck!! I’ll keep watching. 🥰
My hubby is a major city police detective. Ironic. Or not. 🤷🏼♀️
Your kratom story scares me. I've used it before and thankfully it's hasn't been a problem.
I've been taking it for eight years without issue. It's the enhanced or altered kratom that they sell in head shops and gas stations that's the problem. They( Big Pharma) is doing this to give kratom a bad name. That stuff is barely kratom. Plus, remember, an addict can abuse most anything. It's the insidiousness of the disease.
Kratom has never given me any relief.
@@aimeebaldwin5600 , I'm sorry, it is the reds that work for me. The red variety is for pain. It needs to be properly activated too. I would love to see clinics set up to help people with kratom. It is rather complicated with the different colors, and helps they give. Also to help people to use properly for the best results. The drug companies do all they can to ruin it, as they can't patent it. It saved my life, and continues to. I used it to come off the plethora of drugs/opiates+++ for trauma and pain management.
So happy for you! How in the world did you withdraw without help? Isn't that dangerous to do cold turkey?
I've taken prescription opioids and good grief, I wished to be knocked out or worse. Just awful.
Good luck to you! I'm a subscriber, so ill be watching. 😊❤
New slang slaps
Wow this is crazy to hear! I always wondered on Christmas if there’s anything special for prisoners, I guess that’s the best they’ve got :(
lol. I know, right!? The institution doesn’t have much to offer as far as holidays go. But I must say that the coming together of the convicts to celebrate in whatever way was available to us was truly heartwarming. I think you just gave me a great topic for another video 🙂 thank you 🙏
@@SmilesforMiles2024 very interesting, yeah I’d love to hear more about that!
Sorry to hear the uncalled for treatment by the guards in jail...that sounded really sadistic. The really unhealthy food every day after day. Then withdrawals, oh gosh I am glad you are out of there...I'm learning our prisons could be more humane, supposed to be rehabilitation as well as separating from society, punishment...but should be more humane.
Sadly, we Americans need to wake up to the fact we've been enslaved. It's time to get free.
I’d watch your livestreams! You’d be great live!!
I’ve gotta get on that! Maybe I’ll figure out how it works soon 😅 I’m still learning how to “social media”
I totally agree. I have my loved one who is in prison.
The food - recently they had 19 missed meals. In a row. And when we (as family members) complained, they gave reasoning that it was Ramadan. Even if you are of a Muslim religion, you still eat once a day.
In addition, my spouse received no medication for severe health issues. As they say “Take with food”.
Medical care - he has personally paid for surgeries. After 3 years of not getting them, it went to court and the judge ordered for these to be scheduled urgently. It has been 3 years since that court date and nothing is done.
But they did put him into Segregation for writing complaints and seeking legal action. He now has no communication allowed due to that.
Yo been digging your story what state are u from just wondering
Good luck, man. I wish you well.
Thank you for your support!! I really appreciate you!!
The treatment that non-violent offenders get is absolutely wild to me. Ok, you made a mistake, now you're paying for it. Why make reform harder than it already is? Everyone with their pitchforks out, those who vote for capital punishment, forget that prison is for reform. Their mentality still lives in the 1800s when the crime for stealing bread was death.
Also The Shins are so rad. I was my lyrics were as regal and poignant as James Mercer's
A lot of it, when you’re in there, feels like punishment for the sake of punishment. The “reform” part is quite absent. But it’s a really set-in-stone system that is slow to change. There are some good things in certain cases, but mostly it feels really misguided.
When you said sentence structure I was thinking subject, verb object 😂
Lol
Oh gosh, I am so sorry to hear about them ignoring the medical issues. that is not right Upsetting to say the least.
Yes! People thought I was lazy and unmotivated and I had an infection the whole time I was locked up!
In Houston, 3rd Monday of the month was chicken fried steak - absolute best roadkill I ever tasted! 😂
I am one of those weirdos that . Winning every MICRO DOSES
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Good luck!
Thank you! 😊😊 I’m gonna get out of this mess soon enough. I’m doing all the right things. ❤️
How did you financially get on house arrest and support yourself? Family? Friends?
My fiance has a couple more months in prison. Any tips on things that helped the time go by?
For me it helped to get into a routine. I really got interested in reading books, educating myself about some topic, exercising. I started practicing mindfulness. The habits for routine that I developed in there were so valuable. Nothing but well wishes from me to you and your fiancé ❤️
Congratulations on your sobriety! I recently signed a contract to be a provider at a prison.
I got arrested for a DUI and had to spend 4 and half days in a county jail before I got out. This jail was setup as a 23.5hr lockdown, meaning you are only let out into the pod for .5hr a day. Inside the cell, we had nothing. No books, nothing to write with, nothing. Literally nothing. In that time I was withdrawaling from high doses of Kratom extracts and it was HELL! It was the most miserable time of my life. Trust me, the withdrawal from Kratom (when you are taking very high doses of the extracts) is very painful. It's like having constant panic attacks over and over, solid, 24hrs a day. Your body hurts and is cold and hot at the same time and there is no possible position that is ever comfortable, especially in a cold brick cell. Sleeping is IMPOSSIBLE. Also, the thinking is SO DIFFICULT and painful. Every thought is stressful and is like an anxiety attack, there is no peace, no calm, no comfort. Its just constant and doesn't let up. Awful. Anyway, congrats to you for getting sober. I know that initial 3-4 weeks was absolute misery, being in jail especially.
And should we have sympathy for you? My brother 21 years old was killed at the bottom of our road and died in my arms. I’ve been a psychiatric nurse for 40 years and never met a drunk that had sincere regrets for the lives they’ve destroyed!
They are definitely watching your videos 😅
I can’t speak against everyone in the industry, but who would choose to work as a prison guard? You can do anything anywhere, nothing is stopping you, so why do that? I think the position attracts some serious sick fucks. As well as the entire drug and contraband market in prison was created and ran by the guards. Would it be fair to say a prison is the most corrupt place on earth? Maybe
It’s pretty bad sometimes. There are really 3 types. The ones who are strict and by the book but are respectful and kind if you respect them. Those are few and far between. Then there are the ones who are board or burnt out and just seem to have a general disregard for the inmates on every level. That is the majority of them. And then there are the handful of them who seem to be there because they just want to kick people around and treat them like shit, and they know they could never get away with it in any other context.
@@SmilesforMiles2024is there any way I can get in touch with you? I don't have a criminal background but I am a fellow addict.
@@eustab.anas-mann9510 yes. Definitely. Hit me up on Facebook. Brian Collins. My face is the profile picture. Message me on Messenger 🙂
I agree 💯
I worked in prison in 90s , I wasn’t a sick fuck it was just a job for me. Anyhow I went on to do other things after 2yrs. I didn’t like the environment really.
Prison cooks sound sadistic.
Actually, they make the prisoners do all the cooking 😅 but there’s not much to work with. lol
@ianbick You need to have him on your channel.
Those hernias can be serious! I know they said my son could have died if he hadn’t had surgery when he did. I’m sure people die of medical neglect, in prison, more often than most people realize
American way. Why humiliate after you already have the prison sentence for years?
The food sounds so bad
Are you college educated? Are you allowed to do any online schooling while under house arrest ? I know you are not interested in doing back the nursing route, would you consider getting an associates or a bachelors (if you haven’t already obtained them) ?
So prison was a bad experience, good 😁
I worked at the county jail for like a year and staff could eat as much as they wanted. it was all like chicken nuggets and hot dogs and pizza is that not what the inmates were eating? I saw the kitchen porters in the room chowing down like dogs after hours they looked so happy lol
It is appalling that we dehumanize ppl in prison. Germany rehabilitates and, from what I have read, have the least recidivism rate in the western democracies. A person can, and I wonder, if ppl die withdrawing in prison. My state has Chance Laws. Would you even want to return? I sense you were highly skilled. It would take years, for sure but I have seen many recover and return to become part of management.
I thought they had to give you medication for withdrawal from drugs. They do at least in Washington state. What state were you in???? Its sad they dont help people w withdrawl, because withdrawl is so dangerous. You could have a sezuire.
I am in Nevada. They did give me a little subutex for a day or two but it wasn’t much. I did hear that they do better in other states. I’m not from here, just stuck here until this is over. I love Washington state ❤️ I used to live up there. I miss it. Thank you for watching and commenting
Brian u have to b pretty smart and take hard courses to be a er nurse- do have a bachelors degree n nursing? Hope u can get a 2nd chance at your career.
That was totally wrong that that guy pinned you against the wall by the neck and yelled in your face. You didn't deserve that treatment and trauma! I'm so sorry!!!
I’m literally falling in love with you after every video ❤❤❤❤❤❤
why can't you sue over these terrible conditions, they put your life at risk multiple times
I think there are a lot of changes that need to happen but it is a hard system to change. I’ve seen some people try to take the route of legal action but it’s an uphill battle and just not one that I am interested in getting involved in at this point. There are many more things that I didn’t mention in this video and may get into in future videos. And many other people have it way worse than I did in there. I think my way of dealing with it is going to be by spreading awareness in places like this, but also just by learning from those experiences and applying them to being the best I can be in my day-to-day life. Thank you for watching and commenting. It really helps 🙏❤️
@@SmilesforMiles2024 thank you for the well thought out response, it was a sincere question so i'm glad i got a sincere answer
its my personal opinion that prisons shouldnt exists, instead churches and prisons should be turned back into the safe mental institutions they started out as
people act out because of desperation of abuse, so we choose to throw them in prison and traumatize them more, and we're shocked when these people reoffend, our society is so absurd
i wish you well
@@kristins8438 I agree with you. In many cases I think prison just exacerbates the issues that they are throwing people in there for. We need better ways to help people who are troubled ❤️
@@SmilesforMiles2024 exactly my view, 100%
The drink water thing is a military thing too... I say that to all my soldiers who act like bitches...Stay sober and everything will work itself out. 🙏
Oh cool! Good to know! That makes sense. Thanks for sharing that. Yeah, I think a lot of the reason they say that is because more often than not they have to lead with people complaining when it’s not really warranted.
I found you!
When you were using Heroin were you also using meth at the same time? I mean one speeds everything up and the other slows you down--how can you even function? Tell us about the first time you every used either--how old were you? Was it before or after you got married? Why did you even try heroin --were you depressed? I mean I lived in the sf bay area for 30 years (east bay 88-2017) I never saw any drugs anywhere except for pot. I never saw anyone using ever at anytime.
Fast forward-in Denver I've actually seen guys shooting up, smoking meth and fetynol--it's gotten out of control here.
Did Wes Watson hold the keys at your facilities?
You seem like a good person and I like your video, you should keep making videos. Why would they feed you at 3:30am??? Is it a method to keep the inmates tired or busy? Obviously the inmates deserve better than rotten food and pickle ice cream... that is so sad man.
I don’t get the 3:30am thing 😂 I think they make county jail uncomfortable on purpose so that you will be more interested in signing a deal and getting out of there than you will will fighting your case. I have no idea 🤷♂️ jail/prison is a bizarre place. Thank you for the compliment and encouragement. It means a lot. I will keep making videos. New one every Sunday 🙂❤️
It’s hard to believe the food was that bad. In Arizona Sheriff Aparo used to make inmates live in tents and eat loaf meals all mixed together. I think as punishment and deter anyone from wanting to go to jail. They can mix everything together as long as it has ingredients approved by a dietitian. I used to work in a jail as a RN and the food was ok. The medical staff was afraid to eat because it could be sabotaged by the inmates. But, the had big turkey dinners at thanksgiving. I always tried to give the standard of care to inmates. I would refer to doctor or dentist when needed. I always tried to be kind.
@@sally674. I’ve heard it’s bad, as in spoiled, from a lot of people. Even food shelves and shelters feed a lot of expired food to people. I used to work in shelters and saw staff steal the good donations for themselves. Not everywhere is like that, but too many are.
Did you loose your nursing license?
Have you made amends with your ex wife? Do you still have contact with her?