I have a broken heart
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- čas přidán 10. 09. 2024
- Hey my loves 💜
I feel like this video is kind of a mess LOL but as always, I want to share my real, raw emotions with you and share the reality of my healing journey.
Between my Saturn return, Venus retrograde (I’m a Libra rising - Venus transits hit me hard), and the Venus-Pluto conjunction.. a LOT has come up to the surface for me to confront and feel and heal through.
I don’t have much more to say, I hope you enjoy this video. I love you.
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Hey my beautiful friends I want to clarify something here 💜
I am NOT sad that I’m single! And I’m not desperately wishing I had a boyfriend. I feel like this video ended up coming across that way, but it’s so much deeper than that and I hope you all can see that.
I’m feeling like I lack community in ALL areas of life - family, friends - and I am also single, which has highlighted these other areas where I’m feeling lonely. Whereas previously it was easy to overlook because I was in a relationship.
I just wanted to make that clear. What I’m going through right now is a lot deeper and much more profound than whether or not I have a boyfriend.
Ok I love you all 🕊💜✨
You just getting your karma
@@BaliLifeWithJLB I say this with nothing but love and empathy - please go find something else to do with your time than troll my channel with your negative hate comments. I hope you heal.
Who are you... Maybe I should watch some more of your videos... No boyfriend you say but from 2 years ago... To be honest, I don't like anybody for a spouse. I just see everybody's behavior, I've been seeing psychics but nobody ever said to me that I'll ever have somebody or kids or anything... So maybe I wont be finding a girlfriend any time this era... Yeah, that lack of communication... and the absolute stupidity from the rest.. Okay, let me see this video, now I only stopped it at about 1:49...
If you still don't have anybody to be with, I'll be damned!! You look smokin' hot(and you are probably very smart and intelligent too, but I don't know you personally yet) so probably other men are blind or something... Okay, sorry, I don't mean to be rude or anything, let me watch until the end. Times like that happen sometimes.
Idk why I don't see my comment anymore but it says it's there I should have deleted it.. Anyways:
Once an enterpreneur told me that karma is not "the revenge of Destiny", but rather the result we get of what we are doing.
🐢 Katherine...my story is so similar. Lifetime spent yearning and searching for real love and connectivity. But just hasn't happened...yet. After last relationship with a covert narc ended almost exactly 2 years ago, I began my very painful spiritual awakening. And I, too, have never felt so sad and alone in my entire life as I have during this period. Instead of continuing with the usual masking techniques, I went cold turkey--stopped drinking (almost 2 years! Yay!) and no dating. I became a hermit and this all coincided with the pandemic and lockdowns. And I, too, experience long periods of little to no interaction with others. This isolation has really forced and facilitated the healing and self love that I so desperately need. This video could have been my video. I have a cancer moon, so I really feel you and your pain and loneliness. I'm feeling much better than last year or the year before and I suspect that if you stay the course and keep doing the good work you're doing, you'll be so much happier and stronger in a few months. And hopefully then that soulmate will appear. Thanks so much for getting raw and sharing with us ❤️🐢
🥲🥲🥲 I’m sending my love to you ✨ thank you!
I get it …. People think because they see a pretty, fit, and bubbly woman that we are perfectly happy with hundreds of friends and options with our phones blowing up with potentials/friends… I too go weeks without anyone calling and always felt alone/couldn’t relate to family/black sheep.
@ Katherine we honor you for expressing your truth standing up for yourself and doing the work
Aww, sorry you're feeling this way Katherine.
It is great how self aware you are which will bring you to your healing quicker. And, it is always better to be alone and lonely, than with someone and lonely.
Rewards await you soon enough.
Thank you 💜💜💜
I too dated a narcissist. Knew him for several years before we even dated, and didn't know until then. After seeing through it and breaking up, he remained good friends with my family, and I was alienated from them for years afterwards.
Looking back I am now grateful for everything I learned from going through it.
Dark night of soul! Not easy! But on the other side is a 😍 beautiful thing♡
Gotta love ourselves 1st!! Then the right one will come in♡
The best diamonds have to go through the toughest heat and polishing. This too shall pass and you will be a better person at the end of the tunnel. you are a wonderful person!
I will pray for you and I have deep faith that you will be happy one day and you will meet the person that will love you unconditionally. Love you❤
🐢 coming from experience. Everything will be fine. I was with someone for just about 17 years. What a waste of my life! All the manipulation, lies, and so on. After I finally left that baggage.. I suffered for years. But the short version is after almost 7 years of being single lonely and a outsider. I'm good with it.. to be honest. I feel free.... you go after your dreams.. don't you worry. When the right time comes. Everything that you invasion will be yours...don't wat to offend you or come off as a creep!! Because that's just no me. But you could have anyone you desire.. you have the most amazing personality..
I hate seeing you cry! It makes me want to cry. I wish I could give you a big hug. I know you may feel alone but I promise you are not alone. I am sending you so much love and light your way. The holidays are tough too because it highlights family and when we have lost a family member or have a disconnect from family it highlights it more than other times of the year. You will find your tribe. Saturn return is a bitch, I’m going through mine as well.
Keep your head up girlfriend. I know it feels tough right now but you are going to come out stronger from this. I just know it. Sending you all my love. ❤️🐢
Love you Brittany! 💜✨
This video makes perfect sense! I want the same things! I am claiming all these things as well. Keep the faith God will bring the right man to you!!! Thanks for the video sis well done!
It’s hard being depressed and self isolated, yet still wanting/needing human connection. You feel lonely AF, but you’re too depressed to do anything about it. I felt you 100% on this video. ❤️ I hope you’re doing much better since you posted this.
we are with you, girl!! Dont worry.
🐢 cried sad and happy tears by the end. ✨✨
💯 ditto. Going through the same thing. I get it. Very deflating. 💯
Hello my loves. Between my Saturn return, Venus retrograde (I’m a Libra rising - Venus transits hit me hard), and the Venus-Pluto conjunction.. a LOT has come up to the surface for me to confront and feel and heal through. 🥲
What are you CALLING IN to your life?! Leave it in the comments so we can all amplify one another’s intentions with our magical energy 🕊✨
I love you guys 🥺💕
You have family that loves you
@@elgatofelix8917 people think toxicity is love. I wish you healing too lol
Btw, seeing by your struggles it may seem tempting to go back to those times of shallowness and escapism. But you are being brave enough to stay on the path of spiritual awakening, the difficult path. It takes a lot of guts. Kudos for that. Again please consider a suggestion for creating a forum / online community where those who follow you and support you here can engage with you. Good luck
You Just Need To Be Positive And Also Think That You Are More Than What You Actually Really Know About, Just Be Sure That You're Actually Cherished,Loved,As Well As Cared, And Also Healed From All Your Pain,All Your Brokeness,And Also What Ever You Really Had Really Been Through, I Just Want You To Know That The Universe Has Heared Your Wails Of Sorrows And Also Has Your Back In Giving You Your Deepest Wishes As Well As Desires To Become A Woman That You Really Wanted To Become, Anyways You TC Goodspeed And Also God Bless Dearest Friend 🤗😊,....
Saturn return is no joke! I have so much compassion for you & completely respect you for sharing. I’m also going through my return in the 12th house, Ketu in the 4th 🥴. Been wanting to express my story on my channel for months now & it takes so much courage. So proud of you for speaking your truth 💓If you ever need someone to talk to feel free to reach out 💯! Sometimes just feeling heard and listened to can heal on many levels.
This is a great video right now I felt this
This soul mate that you envision awaits you in the new Earth that you are in the process of creating as you begin to embrace your true authenticity. Realize that you are never alone and that you are loved, for we are all one. Thank you for sharing your authenticity with us! Love and light to you 🐢
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@@freedomfunwithjlbfriends7193 Is that a fact? What do you mean by new age?
@@turbinesunrise2230 Yes, soul mates is new age baloney.
@@BaliLifeWithJLB how do you know? What do you mean by new age?
@@turbinesunrise2230 Look it up
I think you're doing all the right things, and I'm sorry it's hard. Sometimes this awakening process hurts so profoundly, but what's on the other side is so worth the growing pains. I feel that in my bones. The synchronicities are to me a nod from the universe that even though I'm feeling around in the dark, I'm still on track. The day I met my husband, all of these circumstances shifted around me to put us in the same room together. There was nothing I could have done to stop it, and I recognized him immediately. It was like a game of hide and seek that I lost. Lol! Your people are looking too, and you'll know them when you see them. I hope this transition moves swiftly for you. There are brighter days ahead.
Sorry you're feeling down, but always know that you are always loved, you were born,and at that moment you were loved and no matter what you will always be loved!! Never feel alone!!
Oh sweetie, you may not have a boyfriend, but you are not alone!! This hits so hard and I know exactly how you feel. I pray you connect with God, your angels, spirit guides and ancestors and that they bring you peace and healing. Be gentle with yourself right now while you're going through this tower moment. It seems as though you are feeling your Divine Masculine and your soul family. Cherish this journey and remember the darkness always comes just before the dawn. Everything is coming to you now!! Claim it! For myself, I'm calling in my soulmate and the life I desire and I appreciate your raw honesty and realness! It helped me to not feel so alone. Sending so much love and light your way❤️❤️🐢🐢
Thank you 🥲🥲🥲
and Merry Christmas to yo Katherine!
🐢Oh my heart is broken and hurting with you as well as setting the intent of feeling lost and finding soul tribe , that’s why I left my 9-5 job and drove cross country to live with a soul member after loosing a soul brother last month - puts life in prospetive!! 💕💫
Katherine I'm so sorry you're going through this. It sounds like you're on a journey to meet your twin flame.
Hang in there. Things will get better. 🙏🏼
I feel you girl!!! You're not alone. I have been feeling the same way and when I'm alone I break down.....at least you look cute being a "mess"!!:)
47 year old cancer here ,have had several awakenings over the years, I’ve always had a knowing and spiritual side , and always told it was coincidence etc etc…. And about a year ago I figure out I’m an empath…. Oh my did that explain so much about me…. as much as these storms we go through make us sad , and literally make hard to get up … I’m smiling for you because your discovery is 17 years ahead of mine….
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I have watched many of your videos and i want to thank you for being a great support in your radiant way. I am not even sure if i remember right, but i think it was YOu who said something very very encouraging in one of your videos. You said that you want to believe that everything will always be okay and you are always going to be okay, no matter what happens. You sounded so confident and assuring and it really gave hope for me too! I have been very sad because i had lost faith and trust in life, and your words just made me feel so much better. I always remembered them and it changed something in my life! Thank you for talking to us even though we are not really some ppl who can be there with you now during holiday. Christmas is not a special day for me. It was some other person's video from where i learned something very nice too: they said that we should spend every day like we spend Christmas, so i guess we should have noble and respectful and gracious attitude in life and we should be grateful, every day. Not just on this time of the year but always. I made it my goal:)
This is so honest and I have a very eerily similar experience. You’re so courageous to admit this. I don’t have friends, my family is distant and have their own families. I’m 39 and I decided at this big age that I’ve been holding my true feelings hostage for everyone else sake. I’m tired of giving into impulse. I’m delaying instant gratifications for something of substance. It’s crazy how I’d be in a room full of people but still felt lonely. I decided enough and going forward I’m on a mission to truly live authentic. I understand the road I’m traveling is less traveled and I’m not going to have loads of friends and support. I’m ok with this and now focus on the quality vs the quantity. I don’t have all the answers but I’m just taking it day by day. I’m focused more on my daily interactions and goals. I’m unpacking and learning to truly give myself love and compassion. Hope you’re feeling better and is doing well currently. ❤️
Thank you for telling your truth. You never know how your story might help create someones survival guide. You are healing and it’s contagious. That is so raw, beautiful and freaking powerful. 🐢 🤍
It’s such a strange feeling to have a crowd around you and feel so alone. And on top of that people think you’re looking for pity when you’re just consciously trying to explain and in a way validate your feelings and emotions. I’m there with you and I think many women are as well but they’re afraid to talk about it. I have no idea why because in a way- it shames those who feel that way. You’re not alone- I promise you, you’re not. I’m not sure where you live but you’re welcome to come to New York for Christmas dinner this year. No one should be alone for the holidays… even when you’re searching for that tribe. I’ll be your temporary tribe. Message me if you need a place to spend Christmas dinner. Hang in there! It’ll pass and you’ll grow from this too! 🥰
Also congrats on 2k subs! I’m so proud of you! Your channel is going to blow up 💖💖
Thank you!!
🐢 Thank you for the Share Katherine, The 1st Saturn return can be hard, though as a task master, Saturn does reward for the hard work.
Thank you for sharing this with us beautiful soul 🥺💓 I feel you so much❤❤
Life is hard sometimes but do not lose faith and hope. Someday, it will make sense. Trust the process and always love yourself first, Katherine. Life is beautiful and so are you! xoxo
Now I'm crying with you, that's the cancer in me. I feel you girl. After dealing with a narcissist for 5 years I have to start my life plans over and it's very depressing.
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good job. proud of you, and impressed with your bravery
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Thank you for being you open and real God bless you for being so transparent which I know is not easy Praying for your healing just know things are better on the other side of healing sending love and hugs 💕💕 🐢🐢
Oh Kate I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. This is a brave and beautiful episode and I think a lot of people should see this because it is spot on about distracting from the pain. My door is always open if you need to vent about a bad day ❤️ Kass
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Have you tried a warm, soothing turmeric latte? And Turmeric Glow moisturizer from Kora organics? It helps on the mood… and inflammation. I love turmeric. I don’t have any close friends either but I know that that is coming when the time is right.. everything comes when the timing is right.. Saturn return sucks.. but we all get through it
Thank you 🖤 your comment inspired me to make a turmeric latte so I did just that tonight and took a bubble bath. Thank you for recommending it :)
🐢🐢🐢🐢😥🤧😥... I feel the same way... I always told myself that I'm a loner and it's ok, because I like being alone. But the truth is I want that deep connection with people I can call my friends, I want a committed relationship with somebody that truly gets me and have unconditional love for me. So I'm claiming that right now as well 🙏🏾... I'm putting it out to the Universe and keeping the faith that it will come true for me. Thank you for posting this video... Because a lot of people definitely can relate to what you're going through.
Don't cry angel....you are very sensitive similarly for me....if I could I would hug you to calm you down.Do you know, ....in the astral nothing is impossible.
I noticed you said you don't have friends, you're moody currently.
#1 The smartest of people in this world have very few friends, it means you're a unique individual and you're a special person amongst us all.
#2 It's okay to cry, If I could be with you right now to comfort you and be humanitarian to you I would.
#3 You've taught me about the effects of a Saturn Return. Overcoming Saturn obstacles can be hard, your subscribers are here to comfort you in your time of need. Stay Strong. Stay Positive. Stay ''Katherine Emily''.
#4 You said you feel like the ''Black Sheep'' in the family(4th House could possibly in Aquarius or Uranus in someway). I agree. It means you're the ''Unique'' one in the family. I have 4th house in Aquarius myself. I'm a Aries Sun. It be like that.
Katherine, 🐢 I am sorry😔; a broken heart is real and painful; I appreciate your honesty. It will change. I smoked through Saturn return, be proud; you are doing great.. I had a similar life experience. I am so fortunate to have met my husband in my 30s. 🐢🐢🐢🐢❤️🙏(Your family of turtles.)
🥲🥲🥲 thank you so much
❤Sending you amazing vibes. We Black Sheeps might not be understood by family but one thing I know for sure, it allowed us to learn to understand and love ourselves better than anyone else can. Being single is amazing but its also quiet which makes the voices in my head much louder. I Love the fact that im not perfect or try to be something I am not. We both have grown a lot. I admire you for staying true to yourself. Thank you for giving others a voice, it is really hard to share feelings especially to everyone which shows how strong you are. Merry Christmas To You ❤ - Vedran
Everything will be alright, trust the timing and process. You are loved, we are here for you 💜🐢
Here I Am Kate!
Hello Katherine I completely understand how you feel I hate the holidays I to feel isolated from my family and even though I'm married with my own its still not the same every holidays I feel alone and it's now at the point I don't care for. Them anymore I'm just tired of the same old tradition I don't gave friends either I have a hard time fitting in places so I stay to myself and just paint and by me having health issues I just stay home I never go out anymore its a lonely feeling for me I send positive vibes to you
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Hey, I apologise for my bad comment on your other video. I guess Pluto got me into a mood. You should love yourself first. Even though it can be difficult. I am dealing a bit with what you do, because I chose an untraditional path - and failed quite a lot. I find good routines, meditating and cutting out bullshit or minimising it works. Positive self-thought and affirmations work as well. Things come when they do.
Stay strong Kath, you'll find your way. 🙏🔥💜🐢
I empathize with your pain 💔.
So inspiring 🐢 ✨
Oh baby. You can def DM me anytime. ❤️ I hope you keep getting revelations. ❤️
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Hey there. I think that guy you are feeling is me. But I’m into guys Arrrrrg lol and plus I’m a Pisces and not a Capricorn lol. But think about it…your soul mate could be your neighbor that you haven’t met.
I’m there with you! But I had 45 years of pent up misunderstanding, madness, family abuse etc. I was banished from my family…well… cuz I’m the villain. The worst part is that I don’t get to see my nieces and nephew. I’m gonna send them each an apple home pod mini. Anyway hang in there - you already are!
It's probably your "twin flame" feeling the same, and afterall we are entering the Age of Aquarius 🌬 💖 (a lonely west coast Capricorn)😉
🐢 thank you for sharing!!!
🐢🐢🐢🐢 love you beautiful girl!!
...If us humans didn't have distractions, we would all die
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Perhaps one day.
I want to friends with you. I feel your pain
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I enjoy you.
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Soul tribes
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I believe too! 😘
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6:47 Cranes In The Sky by Solange
there is nobody to be in love with. me of all people would know i've been single my entire fucking life.
I understand that being a Libra rising (7th house - relationships, partnership + Venus ruler) but don't get too obsessed with the idea of having a romantic partner. Because you can become dependent and lose your individuality with them. Focus in yourself. Put yourself first. Love yourself. The more you try to fill the void the more dangerous and toxic partnerships turn out to be. Build yourself up. Rise from the ashes. Not to diss you here. But Libra rising is good for parties and good times but then when SHTF complicated risings such as Caoricorn and Scorpio can get you a long way.
Also you mention you feel lonely without friends you can trust. Why not start a community? Maybe a forum or Telegram group. Think about it. Don't give up. The crisis is a tough time but it's an opportunity for growth and reinvention. Stay strong
I feel like this video ended up coming across that I’m just sad I don’t have a boyfriend or desperately wishing I had one, and that’s really not the case! I used to reject the idea of having a life long partner, and lately I’ve realized that I do want that. Being single right now has highlighted other areas where I feel lonely, that I previously overlooked because I was in a relationship. I’m really not sad that I’m single, just feeling lonely in all areas of life which IS tough being ruled by the planet of relationships! I really appreciate your comment tho 💜
@@KatherineEmily right. But still. Regarding the soul tribe. Maybe forming an online community could bring you opportunities to meet like minded people. Even if they live far away from your area at least it's a means of communicating and making new friends
🐢you are an amazing astrologer. Cancer sun pisces moon means that you will make the best mom and wife. You are not meant to be alone.
My saturn is also in the 4th house and I highly resonate with this video🙏and I’m calling in building a community and also raising the consciousness of humanity through art🐢🤩
It’s a rough ride!! But I love that so much 🥰✨
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you have that you can call your dad
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Pray to Jesus. Ask him for guidance.
🐢Dm'd you ❤️
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Sounds like you have a victim mentality and haven't healed from the past truly..... Stop trying to find your people and focus on healing 1st one thing at a time. Once you heal your energy will attract the ones for you. At this time I will recommend to you to go hermit mode for a little bit and start over by scanning your whole chakra system. I am almost certain your whole system is out of balance and you dont know where to begin. Im here if you need help... Plus if you looking for your tribe why not start with me... Lol whats the worst that could happen
I definitely have some work to do! 💜🙏🏽
@@KatherineEmily check your IG
So basically you're sad because you're single.
Maybe the way you treated your exes has something to do with that.
It’s interesting how I spoke about family, friends, and a romantic partner in this video yet all you took from it was that I’m sad that I’m single. It’s a lot deeper than that but I guess that went over your head 🤷🏽♀️
Wow what a hater you are. Maybe the fact that you have a dull and boring life and a judgmental, ugly attitude has something to do with that...
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