there’s so many comments and i don’t think i can reply to everyone :’) but feel free to vent and comfort other users whenever and how many times you’d like. and please keep the comments nice
@@xdkankaxd5427 alot of artists use song to cope as well as the listeners, it can be a form of having something to relate to when you have no one else ^^
Does anyone else constantly feel like their emotions are invalid because other people have gone through so much worse without feel ing this depressed? Because same.
Yes, you are not alone, a lot of people feel this way, but your feelings matter as well! Keeping them bottled up because other people have gone through worse is not healthy for your mental health, it can make you more and more depressed to keep your feelings bottled up, people will try to help you as much as possible, just know that you are loved, it may not be from people you know irl, but we all care about you here, even if we just met
Yeah and people will then take your problems lightly. Just because you don’t go through as much as they doesn’t mean you don’t feel the same amount of pain. We all have our own triggers that can hurt as much as other things. Although we won’t know what it’s like for them they won’t know what it’s like for us either because everyone feels pain on different levels. People who are “sensitive” just feel more emotions and express them
Yeah, and I end up feeling guilty for being sad and stuff because, I've been through things yeah yeah, but others have been through worse so why cant i be greatful for the things I do gave? why cant I.
I hope everything gets better for you. I think we are similar in age and I don’t go through the same difficulties as you but I just wish and hope that everything will be better for you and everyone else..
Same it’s like I do everything to please my parents but the don’t care like it’s either “my shorts are too short”, “your grades are too low”, “your a disappointment”, it’s always my fault….. 😔
The same pillow and doll I've had my whole life. They comfort me. They caught my tears, they listened to my problems, and helped me stop crying. So we do need to thank them. =)
“why arnt you eating?” “wdym i ate a lot earlier, so im not hungry rn” *im starving* “okay if you say so, but don’t you want a little dinner?” *yes* “no haha I’m full, I had a bagel when I got home from school!” “what else did you eat today?” *nothing. lemon water.* “I had cereal, a sandwich, a bagel and some snacks!” “okay then, goodnight!” “goodnight mom.” *maybe I should’ve told the truth.* *whatever, not eating makes me feel in control.* *I just need control.*
I'm so sorry for you I was in that situation once too and I just want to tell you it's ok to eat ik you want the control over at least something but eating is ok! You're pretty no matter what
I constantly feel like I shouldn't be depressed, because I have a house and food, and my parents "love" me, and theres people that are abused, and actual trauma, and my mother just mentally abuses me a little. My brain keeps telling me that I'm faking it for attention. But I don't think I am, is anyone else like this?
I know how you feel. I constantly degrade my own emotions, too. Cause, like. There is always someone going through worse, or going through the same thing at a more severe level.
I feel the same way, I am so close to just giving up because of the way my family is but I can't help feeling that I am just being a dramatic $#@&. You aren't alone, there are others like us here so try to hold on a little longer, sometimes you find people who will care about you no matter what
That’s like self imposter syndrome, and a wonderful thing I’ve learned, if you’re questioning if you’re faking it, you probably aren’t, I realized I was gay, and I spent like a year going “but what if I’m not” 2 years since I found out, and I am in fact not faking it, so once you accept that you’re not faking it, it gets easier for some things
im listening to this while looking at my scars, everytime they start to fade i wanna relapse so they are there forever (edit: i posted this over 2 years ago and i wanna thank you all for the kind words, and i woukd like to inform you guys that i am almost a year clean)
please don’t hurt yourself !! i know it’s hard to resist urges, but spilling blood from your arms aren’t gonna help! please remember you’re loved and important, you don’t deserve to feel hurt :((
Hey you are worth it ,you can do it , never give in , you are loved , just know people will always want you ,you are not a mistake , we are here for you. No matter what you are going through we are here . Suicide is never the answer don't second guess it OK 🙃🥺😭😮💨 🚫🔪🪦
Yes I know that feeling and I know it‘s horrible. It‘s even worse than being sad sometimes. I‘m so sorry for you and I hope you fins a way out. I did go to therapy and honestly it helped a lot. Please ask for help and please don’t give up. Love you 🤍
Yes, I’m currently numb from all the overwhelming emotions. But let’s do what we love and take a break from all these intense emotions! I B E L I E V E I N Y O U ❗️
"They don't notice your tears" "They don't notice your sadness" "They don't notice your pain" "But they notice your mistakes" Edit:OMFG HOW DID I GET 3.2K LIKES IN 4 MONTHS WTF TY
They don’t notice the itchy thighs They don’t notice the skipped meals They don’t notice the blood under your nails They don’t notice the fake smile But they notice when you fart
funnily enough, I do not wish to die. I simply wish to be happy, accepted and free. But every passing second of my miserable and worthless existence tires me so. Kudos to those who’ve survived for so long, for I am simply too weak to do so.
Fr , im gonna be 14 in less dan a week and knowing dat I survived all dis trauma for dis long , im almost 14 ,4 whole years of mental and physical abuse and I'm still alive , it just make me wanna cry
TW : VENT COMMENT. so basically i had a hard childhood. my mom was s*xually abused by my dad, she also got into a situatiln where my dad held a knife to her throat and my 4 yo self was watching everything. one year ago i got a friend who seemed nice at the beginning, but she actually wanted to use me for game things and to gain answers and popularity, i didn't know that, so i helped her and now i know. And now, all my friends see me as the smart girl that gives answers, i dont know how to say no, when i say it, i feel like everyone will yell at me and look at me like im a disappointment. I told my mother abt this, she told me im overreacting. There's my entire life. If anyone read this, thank you for ur time. •
The best advice I can give is: it doesn't matter if you say no and everybody gets disappointed, you can live alone but you can't live without yourself, think of you first an help only when you have the strength, later in life you will realize that people can and will accept you, but if you put yourself after them you will destroy yourself, don't wait untill it gets harder to start, you are worth more than anyone can see now. Good luck
take care, God bless you 100 reasons to stay alive: 1. The salty smell and calming sound of the beach 2. You would hurt a lot people that love you more than life itself 3. Hot chocolate on cold winter days 4. Your moms smile 5. Your best friends laugh 6. Your little cousins, nieces, and nephews that look up to you 7. The feeling of the sun against your face 8. Hearing the words “I love you” 9. Not being able to sleep/the feeling you get the night before a holiday 10. Birthdays 11. Quiet late night drives 12. Missed opportunities and adventures 13. The feeling of lying in bed after a long day 14. Long hot showers 15. Music that you connect with 16. You have a purpose 17. You can change somebody’s life 18. Snowball fights 19. Concerts 20. Watching people fall 21. As long as you heart is beating, there is hope 22. You will regret dying 23. Your dreams 24. Marriage 25. You are enough 26. Pain is only temporary 27. Late night food runs with your friends 28. The sound of rain 29. Reading powerful quotes 30. Eating your favorite foods 31. Stars 32. Good movies 33. Having children 34. Staring at clouds and finding pictures within them 35. Meeting new people 36. Your struggle will make you stronger 37. You have a lot of people that love and support you 38. Being able to say, “I made it” 39. Genuine smiles 40. Bonfires 41. You matter 42. Time heals most wounds 43. Your first apartment/house 44. The crunch of leaves in the fall 45. Finding your soul mate 46. Meaningful hugs 47. Being in/attending someone’s wedding 48. You are worth it 49. Sunday night football 50. The smell of Christmas trees 51. People care about you; lots of them in fact 52. Sunsets 53. Ice cream 54. You are brave 55. Things really do get better 56. Dogs 57. Cats 58. Pets in general 59. Rainbows 60. You are amazing 61. The city 62. Travelling 63. Vacations 64. Road trips 65. Hearing awesome stories 66. Inside jokes 67. Coffee 68. Snowmen 69. Your talents 70. You’ll disappoint the people that love you by letting your illness win 71. The feeling of pure joy/happiness 72. You will be happy one day 73. All-nighters with your friends 74. Cuddling 75. Reunions with your friends/high school/college 76. Re-connecting with someone you haven’t talked to in years 77. Smiling 78. Seeing someone else smile 79. You are beautiful 80. Decorating you house/apartment 81. Capturing perfect moments on camera 82. You would be missed 83. Quiet bookstores/small restaurants 84. Your favorite hobby 85. Swimming on a hot day 86. Being cozied up with blankets 87. Feeling refreshed after a nice nap 88. Helping other people 89. Watching the people you love become successful 90. Becoming successful yourself 91. Babies/little kids 92. Cute old people 93. Love stories 94. You are strong 95. You will be proud that you continued to live 96. The feeling of grass under your feet 97. Telling crazy stories 98. The smell of rain 99. Watching lightning 100. YOU ARE LOVED❤️ (The list is not mine, but i think this is an important message)
it’s sad that I can relate to this. all my best friends that I’ve ever had have left me.. I felt like I wasn’t good enough. i finally have a best friend that I thought would never leave, and then she had to move away.. I hope none of u have to experience my pain and I wish u all the best of luck with ur lives ❤
@@koolcuit God bless you 100 reasons to stay alive: 1. The salty smell and calming sound of the beach 2. You would hurt a lot people that love you more than life itself 3. Hot chocolate on cold winter days 4. Your moms smile 5. Your best friends laugh 6. Your little cousins, nieces, and nephews that look up to you 7. The feeling of the sun against your face 8. Hearing the words “I love you” 9. Not being able to sleep/the feeling you get the night before a holiday 10. Birthdays 11. Quiet late night drives 12. Missed opportunities and adventures 13. The feeling of lying in bed after a long day 14. Long hot showers 15. Music that you connect with 16. You have a purpose 17. You can change somebody’s life 18. Snowball fights 19. Concerts 20. Watching people fall 21. As long as you heart is beating, there is hope 22. You will regret dying 23. Your dreams 24. Marriage 25. You are enough 26. Pain is only temporary 27. Late night food runs with your friends 28. The sound of rain 29. Reading powerful quotes 30. Eating your favorite foods 31. Stars 32. Good movies 33. Having children 34. Staring at clouds and finding pictures within them 35. Meeting new people 36. Your struggle will make you stronger 37. You have a lot of people that love and support you 38. Being able to say, “I made it” 39. Genuine smiles 40. Bonfires 41. You matter 42. Time heals most wounds 43. Your first apartment/house 44. The crunch of leaves in the fall 45. Finding your soul mate 46. Meaningful hugs 47. Being in/attending someone’s wedding 48. You are worth it 49. Sunday night football 50. The smell of Christmas trees 51. People care about you; lots of them in fact 52. Sunsets 53. Ice cream 54. You are brave 55. Things really do get better 56. Dogs 57. Cats 58. Pets in general 59. Rainbows 60. You are amazing 61. The city 62. Travelling 63. Vacations 64. Road trips 65. Hearing awesome stories 66. Inside jokes 67. Coffee 68. Snowmen 69. Your talents 70. You’ll disappoint the people that love you by letting your illness win 71. The feeling of pure joy/happiness 72. You will be happy one day 73. All-nighters with your friends 74. Cuddling 75. Reunions with your friends/high school/college 76. Re-connecting with someone you haven’t talked to in years 77. Smiling 78. Seeing someone else smile 79. You are beautiful 80. Decorating you house/apartment 81. Capturing perfect moments on camera 82. You would be missed 83. Quiet bookstores/small restaurants 84. Your favorite hobby 85. Swimming on a hot day 86. Being cozied up with blankets 87. Feeling refreshed after a nice nap 88. Helping other people 89. Watching the people you love become successful 90. Becoming successful yourself 91. Babies/little kids 92. Cute old people 93. Love stories 94. You are strong 95. You will be proud that you continued to live 96. The feeling of grass under your feet 97. Telling crazy stories 98. The smell of rain 99. Watching lightning 100. YOU ARE LOVED❤️ (The list is not mine, but i think this is an important message)
"Don't cut, they will see" "Bikini season is starting" "Just control yourself" "don't do it" "Thes can't see" "They will question it" "But i want to feel" I did it again...
Just went through the worst panic attack off my life, I threw up, stopped responding to my mom, broke down into tears and just started to scream, all of that bottleenup from the past few days, and it finally tipped this playlist helped so much ❤
Wish you a very good luck in coping up with all what you are going through. Please feel free to open up on the internet. Fyi, we people on the internet are here for you. ilysm
Hope you find a way to deal with that stuff healthily, even if you don't have a person to talk to irl people on the internet are always here, have a great day ❤
“You know you’re so broken when you don’t want help anymore. You just want death.” I wrote that in my journal. It hit like a truck. And I fucking made it. Edit: thank you all for the sweet comments
Im at a point where inspirational advices doesn't work for me anymore. I tried to unalive myself hour ago by getting overdose. I drank 6 tablets of pain reliever. Im feeling nauseous and dizzy and i don't want help
I love your face I love your brows I love your body I love your style I love your hair I love how you dress I wont judge about how annoying you are I wont judge about how your dumb I wont judge about your sadness problem I just love your personality I just love your confidence I just love how good you are I just love your hands I love everything about you💗💗💗 Please dont change anything about you you are perfect and nice. Dont let anyone get to you, your pretty. And please... Dont suicide... Your parents really do care about you even tho they hate you❤
My heart sinks at the fact I know I used to be so low and this playlist brought it all back. I really hope everyone here gets the help and affection they need 💗 love you all
i related to the “i feel like i’m the worst so i always act like i’m the best” *then i realized i had an inferiority complex which caused me to act like i have a superiority complex*
TW: suicides, self harm, vent. To be honest, I don't know where my life is gonna lead anymore. I thought I knew but I became lost again. I just dont imagine myself having a family and kids or having a good paying job even though I'm only 18. I felt so worthless and useless because i feel like I am wasting my parent's time for taking care of me till now because I still don't have a clear path of what I'm going to go to. And eveyday my parents would always remind me to keep up with my education and i should already know my career path by now but i really don't and this makes them feel disappointed in me. I feel like I dont deserve to live in this life as I also have a rough childhood too. In 7th grade, i was very depressed because of my "friends" back then and i would cut myself and then now life is hitting me too. I just felt so alone and so misunderstood that i felt like It was my fault that my life had become this way. My period was irregular which causes me to have anemia and having to have a blood transfusion. But it still makes me feel weak and i just wish that i wasn't born at all. I've also tried so many methods (hanging & OD) but I kept failing and i would be angry at myself because I failed at killing myself too. Everything just makes me feel like shit. My friends told me I probably have that kind of victim mindset and I kept feeling sorry for myself but i dont know too. Maybe i overthink too much or maybe i was being overdramatic. Either ways, i really hated how I see this world. There are some really beautiful things in this world too like i love the nature. But it also has its downsides. I really wanted to live but i feel like im just a waste of space in this earth. I have given life a chance too many times and I just grew more depressed and to be fair, I do laughed and felt happy at times but i felt like death is lurking by my side. And so ive decided that i no longer wanted live anymore and hopefully it worked. I would love to tell people who are going through the way i am to not give up and love their self alot but i would just be a hypocrite who coudlnt do the same thing for myself.
It's ok to not know what you want to do your only 18 you have planty of time to decide don't stress yourself about it so in the end you do something you don't want to do (sorry for the bad grammar)
You can do it!!! Like you have past so many things, why stop now? just keep tring, just try step by step. I know you can, if you need aniyhig you can talk to me. Love!!
A lot of people said "I'm tired of living, but I'm scared to die" But, for my case, deep inside, I'm tired and I'm ready to go into deep sleep. Just waiting for that moment to come true.
Oh that is so true. It doesn't matter to my family that if I am not feeling 100% all they want is to have chores done and wanting to be like me, my first younger sister starves herself to be like me.
Yeah, and then sometimes they say they don't want to upset you or stress you out and yell at you for being slightly behind and give you a mental breakdown that lasts hours
I show more signs than my brother, my legs shake randomly and she’s concerned about my brother because “it’s just a muscle spasm” IVE HAD THIS SINCE I WAS 5. 10 FUCKING YEARS WITH BEING TOLD ITS NOTHING OR BEING IGNORED.
i was considering venting a bit in here, but as i scroll through the comments, i realize how many people are also going through traumatic experiences. it’s saddening to see the number of people that have been abused, lied to, betrayed, hurt, or have simply faced the cruelties of this world. However, at the same time i see as countless others support one other, because through our traumas, we became people who understand suffering. it’s kinda beautiful to watch..but it’s also sad that strangers online bring more support and comfort than (not all) our own family, friends and anyone around us. TW: SUICIDE- i’ve had positive suicide ideation for a while and plan to slit my throat on graduation when i walk on stage, although it’s only ideation, i still just feel so tired. thank you for reading all this and remember we are here for each other ❤❤
Don't do it! Please! This world is cruel, yes, but it sure as hell DOES NOT deserve you dying because of it. Keep going. Keep living. Love yourself. Ignore the bad in this world is the only thing I can say. I struggle too, but you know what? This fucked up world is shit, but you're not. So live, try to turn the world into a better place. Just keep living. Don't be part of those who succeed in their suicide attempt every 40 seconds. Please.
I just want to tell my favourite teacher every fucking thing, yesterday i was feeling like shit, he asked if i was okay because im usually so happy (fake happiness tho :( ) i just said ye in a not very believable tone, then he mouthed to my friend behind me "is she okay?" She shrugged and today i saw him and i smiled and he said "smiling i see today" i smiled and looked down teara welling up in my eyes, my heart started beating really fast and my vision went blurry, he noticed and was like "hey hey hey whats wrong" i just ran to a toilet and skipped the rest of the school day, now i have to go in his maths class tomorrow. Sorry for the vent i just need to tell someone x
“Don’t you know how this makes ME feel?” I. Don’t. Fucking. Care. I have spent my entire life caring about how YOU feel, what YOU want, YOUR expectations. FOR ONCE IN YOUR GOD DAMNED LIFE CARE ABOUT ME FIRST
I feel this way every day, it’s like I can’t talk to anyone not only because of that, but knowing my parents they will think it’s a joke and my friends are NOT the right people to talk to. But it doesn’t matter anymore, because everyone sees me as the “happy friend” and it gets tiring faking a smile everyday and crying myself to sleep every night. “I hate myself”. That’s what I keep telling myself 24/7. And at some point I didn’t feel anything anymore, I couldn’t. It was the same thing over and over again every day, so I started cutting.
I can relate, me and my mom and sister are going through a lot. But I can’t talk to my sister because she doesn’t understand, my mom already has a lot of problems of her own and it would only make it worse if I talk to her about my troubles, yet she talks to me about all of hers… I don’t think she realizes that it hurts me to know she’s hurting. I don’t need her to fake it.. but it feels like she lays too much on me then I don’t feel as if I should vent back. It sucks.
I’m so sorry this is happening just remember we are always here for you we are sorta strangers but at the same time we are strangers that listen and just remember things always get better it just takes time
@@nero3909 PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND NEVER EVER ALLOW EVEN A SINGLE SOUL IN THIS WORLD TO MAKE YOURSELF DOWN Just Always Remember,
You won't wake up and become a butterfly🦋 Growth is a Process I know that the process can be slow But quitting won't speed it up Never Give up because it's too Painful Remember that regretion hurts more than wait You will Burn today🔥 Cuz you have to shine tomorrow✨ You are just a yet to shine star⭐ Please don't disappear before you shine🌟 YOU WILL DEFINITELY SHINE MY BEAUTIFUL STAR If you want to know why are you so Special, JUST THINK LIKE THIS THE SAME WORLD, THE SAME UNIVERSE WHO HAVE MOUNTAINS, OCEANS AND GALAXIES NEEDED YOU WHY??! JUST THINK ABOUT THAT
No, there is no one who is going through something worst, everyone's situation is worst and horrible, not any worser, do not be afraid to talk about how you feel, let it all out, although I am young, don't keep your feelings to yourself or bottle them up, there is always consequences to that, I recommend you to go to Jesus Christ, if you do not know him, search him up, he is the living creator of this universe, trust in him and pray to him, let it all out to him, he will be there for you, and will help you, but it will take time, but be patient okay? His plan and his timing is perfect, trust Me, and trust in him, and trust that he died for you on the cross for your sins, you matter okay? Let it all out. I'm not forcing you, but I recommend you this, because I know that God is good, and he is the way. I hope that you are okay.
PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND NEVER EVER ALLOW EVEN A SINGLE SOUL IN THIS WORLD TO MAKE YOURSELF DOWN Just Always Remember,
You won't wake up and become a butterfly🦋 Growth is a Process I know that the process can be slow But quitting won't speed it up Never Give up because it's too Painful Remember that regretion hurts more than wait You will Burn today🔥 Cuz you have to shine tomorrow✨ You are just a yet to shine star⭐ Please don't disappear before you shine🌟 YOU WILL DEFINITELY SHINE MY BEAUTIFUL STAR If you want to know why are you so Special, JUST THINK LIKE THIS THE SAME WORLD, THE SAME UNIVERSE WHO HAVE MOUNTAINS, OCEANS AND GALAXIES NEEDED YOU WHY??! JUST THINK ABOUT THAT
@@z0mbi3CaTx PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND NEVER EVER ALLOW EVEN A SINGLE SOUL IN THIS WORLD TO MAKE YOURSELF DOWN Just Always Remember,
You won't wake up and become a butterfly🦋 Growth is a Process I know that the process can be slow But quitting won't speed it up Never Give up because it's too Painful Remember that regretion hurts more than wait You will Burn today🔥 Cuz you have to shine tomorrow✨ You are just a yet to shine star⭐ Please don't disappear before you shine🌟 YOU WILL DEFINITELY SHINE MY BEAUTIFUL STAR If you want to know why are you so Special, JUST THINK LIKE THIS THE SAME WORLD, THE SAME UNIVERSE WHO HAVE MOUNTAINS, OCEANS AND GALAXIES NEEDED YOU WHY??! JUST THINK ABOUT THAT
I feel like screaming at everyone, The anger, sadness, confusion, and failure I feel every day is scarily get worse. I hate this world, but if I leave I imagine all of the things I will miss. I know you, I feel your pain. You will get better, same with me. We will get through this. -Lil
This is probably the comment I relate to the most. I wanna die but I'll be leaving so many things behind that it scares me. I really do hope we get through this
Most relateable! I've been trying to keep up with life for so long. Ive been trying and trying nothing is working out. Instead the person I thought I could go to , takes these issues lightly and tells me to focus on things they want.
I feel like this daily. I’m sick and tired of living but I’m so scared of death. I either experience no emotion at all, or anger or sadness. I feel my parents won’t understand or brush it off as : oh you’re too young. Do I get help and tell my school counselor I’ve been feeling suicidal?
I’ve been crying for an hour. My family isn’t here and I’m scared that without music to occupy my mind I wouldn’t still be here. No one’s answering their phones. I need to play this on repeat.
Hey I'm really sorry you feel like that, I hope you still have not and do not plan on it anytime soon, or in the future, please don't.❤ If you need to talk and don't have anyone to talk to I'm totally cool with that 😊 I've gone through hell as I'm sure most people here have, so I can relate to you in quite a few ways I'm sure, and I'm a great listener, I was always the like therapist friend lol but I needed a therapist 😂 and omg hazbin hotel luciferrrr lol omg when he says I'm gonna fuck you! 😠 Angel : 😮 Vaggie : 🤐 everyone : 🫢 Charlie: up- it's fuck you up dad he's like what'd I say? 😂 Sorry that was really funny lol.
I can’t get through a day without adding more scars so my arms. I don’t want people to worry about me, I don’t want people to feel any sort of stress about me because of a couple wounds. I wish I could make everyone happy but instead I made everyone worry
you know it’s bad when you don’t even realize you’re fake smiling. I’ll be talking to my dad and giving the biggest smile and as soon as I turn around to go to my room it fades so quickly.
I do hope whatever you are going through you are feeling ok. I do the same and the only person that has seen my true smile is my boyfriend because he was the one that helped me bring it back to my spotted freckled face.
That’s how I knew it started to get really bad, I didn’t have to tell myself to smile anymore,it kinda just happened then when I walked away it faded so fast.
My mum always says she here for me if I need to talk. Yeah I talk to her but never about my mental health. I don’t self harm because I know they will see. My age is 12 and I’ve started vaping as it comforts me. I hate my past, present and I know I’m going to hate my future.
Please take care of yourself. I did a similar thing near your age and I regret it. Its definitely going to be hard to get better but please dont hurt yourself. Vaping can get really addicting and it will only make your life worst. If you ever need sombody to talk to please talk to a helpline or you can talk to me if you don't feel like going to a person they might not understand you.
Im 14 i do the same things but i do harm myself i have scars that are really deep my mom says shes here for me but when i talk to her she says "youll grow out of it" like you cant grow out of hating yourself-
Tw/ SH: Imagine always speaking out and ending up ruining your friendship with people, then blaming yourself and self harming to a vent playlist? Hm, bout time, there's my queue!
please don’t hurt yourself !! i know its hard to resist the urge, but there’s always healthier alternatives to s*lf-harm that doesn’t require blood being spilled !!
This!! I hate talking I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I ruin all my friendships if I say something wrong, I do hope you’re able to find new friends though!
i used to but i stopped but you should too it really bad for you it can be hard at some points but theres always a very bad point where if you do it to much you can die from blood lost or by medication.
You can do it, it’s been (checks journal) 3 months since I did a lil SH, and I’ll tell you hwat, it’s only one tool in your belt, get more tools. Once you update your tool belt, it gets so much easier to ignore those urges.
I hate my arms. I feel invalid. I see self-harm everywhere, fascia, muscle, bone even. I can’t even get to hypodermis. I’m a useless rat that can’t self-harm. I need help. Not help to stop, to cut deeper.
I relate to this so much I felt like I wasn’t a “good self harmer” or something like that I always wanted to cut deeper but all I could really do was just scratches. Then I started burning my arm because it’s pretty easy to get second-degree burns from a hot-glue gun but I had to stop that when my sister noticed. The first time I cut a little deeper it was on my leg my mom and sister noticed but I said that the dog scratched my leg. I finally told my mom and I’m going to my first therapy appointment in a couple of days. 💛I hope it gets better for you and me and all the other people like us✨ Please don’t cut deeper! It doesn’t matter how deep the cuts there still cut deep or not it’s all the same thing. Deeper just means harder to hide, harder to stop bleeding, harder not to pass out, and more dangerous Just remember that there is no “right way to self harm” YOU ARE VALID!
I feel the exact same way. The only scratches I have are very superficial and only bleed a tiny bit so I don't think I can even call them cuts. They honestly have gotten worse from when I first started but still not that deep at all. I should probably try to stop before it gets any worse but it's so hard. The longest I've ever been clean is like 2 months or so..
@@Ssshonic this might sound stupid but how did your mom react when you told her? You don't have to answer but I'm so scared of my parents finding out. I know they won't be mad but I'm scared for how they'll react if they find out
@@sallynx51 when I told my mom she was surprised because she had no idea but once I finished explaining she asked if there was anything she could do to help or if there was anything that she was doing that made it worse. I told her that I would like to talk to a therapist and she said that she would look into finding a therapist and she did. I’m going to my first appointment tomorrow!
Yea, can barely deal with school and quit my job cause I couldn’t deal with that. So yay, now my family continually pressure me (unmeaningly) to get a job. Hope you’re doing better now (:
We don't want to die, we want to kill something inside of us. Throw yourself into the sea and you see yourself fighting for your life... ( Some crappy quote lol)
There is no way I’m the only one who has tons of friends and still feels lonely and compared to everyone else caring about what they think even if you don’t know them so you don’t talk to anyone in fear of being judged then people think you’re a freak with no friends who reads and does sh
This is a comfort message❤ You matter Plz dont hurt yourself Dont try to do things that could hurt you Be yourself and life a wonderful life Theres someone in the future thats waiting to cheer you up and make you smile Theres some people in the world that care about you I care about you a d your health I love your smile I love your hair I love your personality I love your eyes I love your laugh I love your body I love your confidence I love your happiness I love the way you look I love how you make people happy Hope this cheers you up and makes you happy to enjoy your life❤❤ Be happy to reply to this
Man I'm 13 and have been suicidal since i was 9. Please don't leave this world you deserve a second chance. Some people just sit there at the age of 11 and watch from the back seat of the car as their abusive dad gets shot in the neck and the car you are in swerves off the road your mom is crying about your dad then you blink and her neck is bent in the wrong way, her head lolled to the side eyes staring at you with no life in them. "Do something! ANYTHING YOU BITCH" - mothers last words
Cant help myself from crying when I see some who has a stable family, no scars or scratches on their body, people being confident in how they sound, act, look, smell like, someone who has a good smile, ppl who don’t have to force themselves to take a shower or brush their teeth, ppl who don’t have to think ab how to dress to hide marks, ppl who wear clothes they like, ppl who have someone to comfort or love them, ppl who have a mom w/o any mental issues, ppl who don’t rot in their room scared ab how the world sees them. Ppl who have a perfect life
sadly i cant console you since thats not one of my qualifications but i can say that almost all of what you said is relatable so ik how you feel to some extent. keep pushing!
it's a torture. i have to break my legs over and over for university. and they think i can go on without meds. and they think i can go on without a mental hospital. i want to sleep. i don't care anymore.
We all are the same here. Like same issues. You gotta get this life in your control, don't worry it's gonna be alright. Just vent here and don't do self harm anymore. Just go through the comments. It comforts you do much. To all the people who left positive stuff here, thanks a lot. ilysmm
When you dont show emotion or vent out your emotions and problems they act so normal but when you tell them your problems and show emotion they'll call you a pick me or an attention seeker or wannabe depressed , some give help but it feels like their always tired and sometimes its just again and again as if their bored from this learned how to hide everything and go through everything , every problem on my own , ive developed anxiety which gives me days that i just cry out of no where , i developed this thinf where it gets hard to breath to the point where i cant , some days you just go suicidal to the poiny i have reached where i started harming myself to those who relate , who are going through this... im so sorry
(Vent) I know how hard life is, but don’t end it short! Just live the life you where given, live it to the full and you will leave when it’s time. (Yes I’m talking myself through this too) So I don’t even know why I feel this way. I feel like I don’t belong to feel like this because my life is so (good) when others are going through so much worse and actually have a reason to be upset. I have a very weird anxiety I’m afraid of certain bugs and diseases. If your wondering how that can affect someone it’s crazy. As well as school is mentally draining. My parents understand that I hate it. (Yes I have understanding and listening parents and I’m very grateful) my parents understand because my brother suffered depression and ended up at a mental hospital. So idk if it dragged onto me but anyway thanks for listening. ❤ If you would like to talk to me I will try my best to reply, if you don’t feel loved ik I don’t know you personally but I still love you ❤❤
You're lucky then my parents are caring and listening but they don't understand me and my mental health because we don't have any or not lots of family members that go through mental health issues I think I'm one of the first ones tbh
“Your so selfish, you only care for *yourself* “ “I THINK OF EVERYONE BUT MYSELF.” (just had to let that out) Edit, May 18 2024: I made this comment about a year ago, I just hope everyone who liked my comment or replied is doing well! I am doing so much better now, I have better friends, and life is getting better. I promise, if you’re going through a hard time you will get through it.
I feel you but whoever says that either talk to them nicely about it or just handle it how you need to if you need to argue with them so be it you deserve better than this you are an amazing person ❤
Same I think of everyone else besides myself and people look at me and just say "stop always thinking of your self your selfish!" And my little brother has already said 3 times that he wishes I wasn't in his life
People don't do self h@rm because they want attention or that they like it.... It's also not because they want their pain to be noticed The only two reason an individual does so are- 1. They just want to feel something, they literally can't feel anything and thus the pain feels like SOMETHING and thus one craves for it 2. The mental pain is too much to handle, so to distract oneself, physical h@rm is what helps So please next time you see anyone... Just lend then a shoulder at the very least ❤
Another reason could be: 3. Seeing their pain physically so they don't feel crazy when they tell someone that they're depressed or they just need to see their struggle.
@@SuperMaddie-cz2bi right, that's one as well..... I hope you're doing well ❤️🩹 remember wheather or not others think you are crazy or stuff, you know you struggles funny let the world judge or hurt you..... It's you who will be there WITH YOU until the very end.
Hey, I don't know if you might see this. I usually don't do this, but seeing that there is no replies. And my words may not be able to help you and your situation. And I don't know what you're going through. But please, re-think it? I know it sounds stupid of me saying this when I know nothing of your situation, but, I want to at least help. I'm sorry that what ever had happened to you made you think of this, please, you might not know it yet. But you could probably discover something you'll enjoy and make you happy someday, or maybe even someone. I hope I am not to late, and I do hope you'll see this. I'm sorry if this was long, but it hurts me to see other people in pain, and no one is there to help out. Plant yourself a new tree as a new beginning for yourself. It may sound stupid, but I really want to help out at least. Bless you.
Me: *telling my friend about how I feel so nauseous after every meal no matter what it is or how big or small it is and I feel sick just thinking about or looking at food and I just hate eating* My friend: "Bro just eat healthier"
“I didn't want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep. And that's really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you're so relieved. I woke up into a nightmare.”
“What’s the point in living if I’m hurting other people and myself?” And “I’m sorry I’m not a person anymore..I’m a PROBLEM.” are my top sentences right now to people:)
Jo man i hope that this helps you a little 😉: your not a problem bro life is sometimes so weird and stupid but I'm sure you have people that love you for who you are 😁👌🏻.
PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND NEVER EVER ALLOW EVEN A SINGLE SOUL IN THIS WORLD TO MAKE YOURSELF DOWN Just Always Remember,
You won't wake up and become a butterfly🦋 Growth is a Process I know that the process can be slow But quitting won't speed it up Never Give up because it's too Painful Remember that regretion hurts more than wait You will Burn today🔥 Cuz you have to shine tomorrow✨ You are just a yet to shine star⭐ Please don't disappear before you shine🌟 YOU WILL DEFINITELY SHINE MY BEAUTIFUL STAR If you want to know why are you so Special, JUST THINK LIKE THIS THE SAME WORLD, THE SAME UNIVERSE WHO HAVE MOUNTAINS, OCEANS AND GALAXIES NEEDED YOU WHY??! JUST THINK ABOUT THAT
I have tried many times to get over these thoughts jut school hurts so badly and having a perfect sister odes it all, I feel like I want to talk about it but then I realise I'm over exagerating and just fkn selfish, I can't only be the therapist of the group, I need somebody, but..[:
Dont worry just dont do what im gonna bc im gonna kill myself in 1 moth or week Love u but dont do it live ur lifw to fullest I cant bc of my mom and grandmother Goodbye
@@yourlocalpookie don't give up please, stay strong. try to hold on a little bit longer, okay? ask for help if you need it, talk to somebody, call the hotline. i wish you the best, stay safe. you matter 🤍
@@yourlocalpookie stay safe, God bless you 100 reasons to stay alive: 1. The salty smell and calming sound of the beach 2. You would hurt a lot people that love you more than life itself 3. Hot chocolate on cold winter days 4. Your moms smile 5. Your best friends laugh 6. Your little cousins, nieces, and nephews that look up to you 7. The feeling of the sun against your face 8. Hearing the words “I love you” 9. Not being able to sleep/the feeling you get the night before a holiday 10. Birthdays 11. Quiet late night drives 12. Missed opportunities and adventures 13. The feeling of lying in bed after a long day 14. Long hot showers 15. Music that you connect with 16. You have a purpose 17. You can change somebody’s life 18. Snowball fights 19. Concerts 20. Watching people fall 21. As long as you heart is beating, there is hope 22. You will regret dying 23. Your dreams 24. Marriage 25. You are enough 26. Pain is only temporary 27. Late night food runs with your friends 28. The sound of rain 29. Reading powerful quotes 30. Eating your favorite foods 31. Stars 32. Good movies 33. Having children 34. Staring at clouds and finding pictures within them 35. Meeting new people 36. Your struggle will make you stronger 37. You have a lot of people that love and support you 38. Being able to say, “I made it” 39. Genuine smiles 40. Bonfires 41. You matter 42. Time heals most wounds 43. Your first apartment/house 44. The crunch of leaves in the fall 45. Finding your soul mate 46. Meaningful hugs 47. Being in/attending someone’s wedding 48. You are worth it 49. Sunday night football 50. The smell of Christmas trees 51. People care about you; lots of them in fact 52. Sunsets 53. Ice cream 54. You are brave 55. Things really do get better 56. Dogs 57. Cats 58. Pets in general 59. Rainbows 60. You are amazing 61. The city 62. Travelling 63. Vacations 64. Road trips 65. Hearing awesome stories 66. Inside jokes 67. Coffee 68. Snowmen 69. Your talents 70. You’ll disappoint the people that love you by letting your illness win 71. The feeling of pure joy/happiness 72. You will be happy one day 73. All-nighters with your friends 74. Cuddling 75. Reunions with your friends/high school/college 76. Re-connecting with someone you haven’t talked to in years 77. Smiling 78. Seeing someone else smile 79. You are beautiful 80. Decorating you house/apartment 81. Capturing perfect moments on camera 82. You would be missed 83. Quiet bookstores/small restaurants 84. Your favorite hobby 85. Swimming on a hot day 86. Being cozied up with blankets 87. Feeling refreshed after a nice nap 88. Helping other people 89. Watching the people you love become successful 90. Becoming successful yourself 91. Babies/little kids 92. Cute old people 93. Love stories 94. You are strong 95. You will be proud that you continued to live 96. The feeling of grass under your feet 97. Telling crazy stories 98. The smell of rain 99. Watching lightning 100. YOU ARE LOVED❤️ (The list is not mine, but i think this is an important message)
“Why do you hate me?” Said the father. The same father who hurt, manipulated, traumatized, scarred and destroyed both his children The same father who deadnamed and misgendered his kid for “fun” The same father who made fun of his children’s sensory issues The same father who insulted and even sexualized his children’s friends The same father who destroyed his children’s lives. The same father said this to the same child who had been in so much pain because of him for years. The same child who cried for hours in their room because of that father The same child who hated themself because of that father The same child who isolated themself because of that father The same child who almost died because of that father The same child who had to hold their entire family together while they where falling apart because of that father. “Why do you hate me?” Said the father.
I have so much self hatred for myself I know I will never be able to tell anyone. No matter how kind, caring or patient a person is, everyone can only listen for so long, nobody wants to listen to sob stories. It hurts knowing I will never meet someone who will truly listen. I don't even try anymore. I have nothing to offer anyone. I feel like I've totally lost in life. Ive never had any friends, or a girlfriend, no job, car or any accomplishments whatsoever, never had anyone to comfort me or hold me. But that's all my own fault, I pushed everyone away and hid myself behind a tough exterior. I'm terrified of opening up to anyone. I have a home, food and a family yet I can't do even basic tasks. I dug myself into a hole and now I whine that I can't climb out. I'm 23 and I don't think I'll be around much longer. I'm just a burden on everyone, I'm objectively worthless and I'll die alone
I’m a hypocrite, I tell people not to Hurt themselves then I’m looking at myself in the mirror with a rope in my hands. Everyone is worth the world, and there’s no doubt about it. Sometimes your worth only comes through when you go through the experiences and struggles that made you who you are. No one’s perfect, no matter how content they seem, and the grass is always greener on the other side, no matter which side you’re on. The only thing separating us is the thin wood of the picket fence.
U are amazing and don’t deserve to loose your life I would say the same message to you but I’m so young I’m not very sure what to say. But u are amazing and awesome
I don't understand but i wanna tell a story. I was in the woods when i saw a helicopter with its flash on, looking for someone. I saw a rope in the woods and it was probably a murder weapon
There is alway an other way and just think about the thing's you love the most and when you'll feel ready try to love yourself even if (sorry for the inappropriate word) it's so f*cking hard. I truly hope you'll get better and have all my courage and by strong everyone deserve to live ❤️👍
i commented on this playlist months ago saying my friends are what keep me around. they abandoned me tho. im incapable of making new friends due to social anxiety. i could barely talk to my friends when I did have them
Anyone else being constantly yelled at and feeling like absolute crap even though you're trying your best but all your parent/ parents do is scream at you for the simplest tasks you failed to complete? Because me too.
My mom and me basically, she is screaming her lungs at me, I don`t even cry in front of her anymore, I do not even bother to feel pitty for her, everything i feel for her is hatred and repulsion, i don't want to live my life anymore, if she wants me to turn that lighter of hope again, make sure i won't turn it on again, she's already blown it too many times
Honestly, even though we're strangers, knowing that people relate feels comforting. I send all of you some virtual love! 💕 Thank you for being you. And it's okay to not always be really strong and always okay.
Real. I washed the front deck because it was dirty and my dad said “I could have done better” and I gotta hold in my tears so I don’t cry like a pussy just like he said I was
I feel like a attention seeker, anytime I mention or try to vent I get called a attention seeker it's really starting to hurt. Nobody cares how I'm feeling, but when I ever try talking to people they say im just making it about myself and I should leave.
I'm In love with my best friend...she doesnt know that on top of loads of other things, she doesnt even know my brother sexually abused me for 3 years! She's been my friend since I was 4 and I still can't trust her fully....what type of friendship would you call that?
@@mycatisrussian3124 I'm not quite sure actually. If your comfortable you should try talking to her/them about some more and open up a little, I know it's hard to think about this but dont tell her/them to much she/they might tell someone you dont want knowing.
@@sup-vm9wp I'm okay, but sometimes there are times when I can’t control myself and I take it out on someone. However, words are better than scars on the body. Thanks for the question.
After scrolling through the comments, I find it so heart breaking that we can oper up to random strangers rather than our parents. Our parents just don't understand, I remember very clearly telling mom I'm actully not okay and she told me to stop trying to make everything about me, and that our generation is so ungrateful while telling me what all she does for me and that her life would be better if I were a different type of person.
same, I tried telling my mom once and she just told me to stop doing stupid things and to be more grateful. Same with my dad, he laughed at it actually. I don’t know what to do anymore at this point, there’s no one to talk to, no one to understand me. It makes me feel like a disappointment. But who am I anyways to bother others who have other problems besides me. That’s what I think of myself everyday. “You’re a problem””you’re so annoying””I hate myself””they don’t like you just shut up already”. It honestly gets so tiring to fake a smile everyday. And even talking to random strangers about this is a lot better than actually talking to people I love and trust.
Same I was suffering through depression at the age of 10 when I told my parents I was they just thought I was lying and then I just wanted attention to what they didn’t understand was I actually was suffering from depression and it was really hard for me my mom gets so worried about me and she asked me what’s wrong and asked me to talk about it to her but I feel as I get too scared to even tell her ever since that day I’m rn haveing a hard time coming out to my parents(that I’m gender-fuild pan and ace) and it’s really hard for me and parents just don’t understand they say they do but they really don’t I’m rn suffering from anxiety and social anxiety and I’m having a really hard time I’m ELA bc of my dyslexia my parents say they try to help but all they do is yell at me tell me how ungrateful I am my dad saying wishing he never had kids I wear hoodies and jeans all the time bc of me doing SH but I honestly really enjoy SH but I still have to try to hide it I had a boy bsf and they told me show my arm to them and I had to hold in my tears parents just don’t understand us they truly don’t😔
I haven't bothered talking to my parents. I already knew they'd never understand. Do, when I was 6, I told my sister. She said it wasn't true, which hurt because she was the person I trusted most. And now I constantly tell myself, "It's fake. Stop looking for attention." Even when I knew I was going through things. And, 6 years later, it's only gotten worse. I don't trust ANYONE I'm related to. My friends aren't my friends, they're strangers. I'm a stranger to everyone and myself because they won't understand. I still don't fully understand myself. Strangers help me realize what's wrong with me. They help me with getting through it. They make me feel like I'm worth it. The fact that people I know in person can't affect me the same way strangers online can hurts.
@@Coolkid13579 PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND NEVER EVER ALLOW EVEN A SINGLE SOUL IN THIS WORLD TO MAKE YOURSELF DOWN Just Always Remember,
You won't wake up and become a butterfly🦋 Growth is a Process I know that the process can be slow But quitting won't speed it up Never Give up because it's too Painful Remember that regretion hurts more than wait You will Burn today🔥 Cuz you have to shine tomorrow✨ You are just a yet to shine star⭐ Please don't disappear before you shine🌟 YOU WILL DEFINITELY SHINE MY BEAUTIFUL STAR If you want to know why are you so Special, JUST THINK LIKE THIS THE SAME WORLD, THE SAME UNIVERSE WHO HAVE MOUNTAINS, OCEANS AND GALAXIES NEEDED YOU WHY??! JUST THINK ABOUT THAT
the only times i ever feel truly happy is when im hanging out with others *but my mom wont allow that either* edit: i can't reply to all the replies but just know i love you all, you are worth it, you are not alone!! (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧
When I saw this comment it made me think I’m not the only one out in this world who deals with this, I know it’s hard especially when only one person makes you happy but your parents won’t allow that to happen just like they won’t allow anything
i had a best friend but my mom decided she didnt like her and i wasnt allowed to see her anymore then she put me on virtual school so i couldnt even see her in school now she doesnt let me see any of my friends. seeing this made me feel not so alone
~Timestamps c: ~ 0:00 - 3-56 all the things she said By t u r u (slowed) Basies in Behavior THE Living Tombstone ft. or30 5:31 - 7:53 7:55 - 10:54 Older by Alec Benjamin 10:55 - 13:54 All The Kids Are Depressed by Jermey Zucker. 13:53 - 16:07 Silence By Davina Michelle 16:09 -19:34 Burned out by d o d I e 19:37 - 22:51 Are You Satisfied? by M a r i n a 22:54 - 27:01 Aishite Aishite Aishite by k I u k o 27:04 - 29:48 What if this isn't a slave?.. by TUYU 29:50 - 34:42 better then me.. (slowed) by the brobecks 34:43 - 37:17 Top of my school by Katherine Lynn- Rose 37:19 - 40:17 oh no! By m a r i n a 42:57 - 47:08 I can't fix you. By The Living TombStone 47:09 - 49:37 I hate my mom by GRLwood 49:40 - 52:52 Back in school by Mother mother 52:52 - 56:11 R.I.P . 2 MY Youth By The Neighborhood. 56:12 - 59:18 Rolling girl by w o w a k a k a 59:22 - 1:03:34 You are A useless Child. By k i k u o 1:03:40 - 1:05:24 I deserve to bleed by sushi soucy 1:05:25 - 1:03:40 miss wanna die by JubyPhonic
''Do you know howmuch trouble you caused us?" ''You should get higher grades, you are more inteligent than that'' ''Don't you make us regret our decisions'' ''Do you even know how you make us feel?" ''Stop playing whith us, you don't deserve nothing'' *congrats, my left arm now is full of scratches and scars*
TW: Vent My girlfriend had saved me from commiting suicide, and we had dated for almost 6 months She broke up with me because "she never truly loved me and she just wanted to make me happy". She was my everything, and what she said made the breakup worse. And she acts like nother ever happened, she gets confused why i cant make eye contact with her and she keeps telling me about this guy she met online, she keeps talking about how hot he is and how amazing he is. Emptiness has never felt so heavy, i have never been this close to killing myself before.
I know I'm a month late but still worth saying this, people in your life love you. It may not feel like it but they do. I hope you make it through this tough time and find true happiness. Good luck bro❤
u dont need her i promise, u will soon accept it and come to terms wit it : and when that happens u will see that u were always worthy of ur love. u will love of urself and thimk it never even mattered anymore. dont worry,it gets better
I'm a girl, and I've always been told "sit up straight" and more, having playlist like this just feels like i can be me. To whoever's out there, suffering just like me, you are a strong girl, even if you don't do weights, or anything, girls, men, anyone, are enough they are amazing, don't give up
God bless you, keep holding on 💗 100 reasons to stay alive: 1. The salty smell and calming sound of the beach 2. You would hurt a lot people that love you more than life itself 3. Hot chocolate on cold winter days 4. Your mom's smile 5. Your best friend's laugh 6. Your little cousins, nieces, and nephews that look up to you 7. The feeling of the sun against your face 8. Hearing the words “I love you” 9. Not being able to sleep/the feeling you get the night before a holiday 10. Birthdays 11. Quiet late night drives 12. Missed opportunities and adventures 13. The feeling of lying in bed after a long day 14. Long hot showers 15. Music that you connect with 16. You have a purpose 17. You can change somebody’s life 18. Snowball fights 19. Concerts 20. Watching people fall 21. As long as you heart is beating, there is hope 22. You will regret dying 23. Your dreams 24. Marriage 25. You are enough 26. Pain is only temporary 27. Late night food runs with your friends 28. The sound of rain 29. Reading powerful quotes 30. Eating your favorite foods 31. Stars 32. Good movies 33. Having children 34. Staring at clouds and finding pictures within them 35. Meeting new people 36. Your struggle will make you stronger 37. You have a lot of people that love and support you 38. Being able to say, “I made it” 39. Genuine smiles 40. Bonfires 41. You matter 42. Time heals most wounds 43. Your first apartment/house 44. The crunch of leaves in the fall 45. Finding your soul mate 46. Meaningful hugs 47. Being in/attending someone’s wedding 48. You are worth it 49. Sunday night football 50. The smell of Christmas trees 51. People care about you; lots of them in fact 52. Sunsets 53. Ice cream 54. You are brave 55. Things really do get better 56. Dogs 57. Cats 58. Pets in general 59. Rainbows 60. You are amazing 61. The city 62. Travelling 63. Vacations 64. Road trips 65. Hearing awesome stories 66. Inside jokes 67. Coffee 68. Snowmen 69. Your talents 70. You’ll disappoint the people that love you by letting your illness win 71. The feeling of pure joy/happiness 72. You will be happy one day 73. All-nighters with your friends 74. Cuddling 75. Reunions with your friends/high school/college 76. Re-connecting with someone you haven’t talked to in years 77. Smiling 78. Seeing someone else smile 79. You are beautiful 80. Decorating you house/apartment 81. Capturing perfect moments on camera 82. You would be missed 83. Quiet bookstores/small restaurants 84. Your favorite hobby 85. Swimming on a hot day 86. Being cozied up with blankets 87. Feeling refreshed after a nice nap 88. Helping other people 89. Watching the people you love become successful 90. Becoming successful yourself 91. Babies/little kids 92. Cute old people 93. Love stories 94. You are strong 95. You will be proud that you continued to live 96. The feeling of grass under your feet 97. Telling crazy stories 98. The smell of rain 99. Watching lightning 100. YOU ARE LOVED❤️ (the list is not mine, but i think this is an important message)
"Can I rest?" "No,you're going to get nowhere if you rest" "I'm tired" "I don't care" "I have done everything you've told me and I still can't rest or make you proud?"
@i'm tired if you wnna rest then do it im proud of whatever good you did do everything for urself and what makes u happy...just remember there are still people are proud of u
For the past couple days I've actually have been trying get help from a friend because I can't take this anymore. I was on a call with my friend for 8 HOURS, like my god just because I texted them "I want to *unlive* myself". Then they called me like right after that. So I feel loved kinda for once :3 And thank you for reading this if you did! And I am trying to get help with really bad trust issues
I believe in you and I’m proud of you for getting help please remember your thoughts matter and no matter how hard things get the bad moments are only a few hours or days but your life is not it’s something so fragile and lovely please never forget that someone loves you so so much and you mean the absolute world to them and even if you might not know they know it more than you or anyone else could ever ❤
there’s so many comments and i don’t think i can reply to everyone :’) but feel free to vent and comfort other users whenever and how many times you’d like. and please keep the comments nice
bro this type of music is romanticise self harm, i dont think you should make a content of this :(
@@xdkankaxd5427 alot of artists use song to cope as well as the listeners, it can be a form of having something to relate to when you have no one else ^^
@@Meowmeowmeowmeowmeowmeow420 if this helps more than hurts people, then ok.
@@xdkankaxd5427 I think it helps bc thy even put Trigger warnings in the title
Thanks for the time stamps
Does anyone else constantly feel like their emotions are invalid because other people have gone through so much worse without feel ing this depressed? Because same.
My problems are a lot smaller than others but hurt me just as much. You're not alone 💜 stay strong you can do this and u r loved 💜
Yes, you are not alone, a lot of people feel this way, but your feelings matter as well! Keeping them bottled up because other people have gone through worse is not healthy for your mental health, it can make you more and more depressed to keep your feelings bottled up, people will try to help you as much as possible, just know that you are loved, it may not be from people you know irl, but we all care about you here, even if we just met
Yeah and people will then take your problems lightly. Just because you don’t go through as much as they doesn’t mean you don’t feel the same amount of pain. We all have our own triggers that can hurt as much as other things. Although we won’t know what it’s like for them they won’t know what it’s like for us either because everyone feels pain on different levels. People who are “sensitive” just feel more emotions and express them
we all feel this way so ur not alone
Yeah, and I end up feeling guilty for being sad and stuff because, I've been through things yeah yeah, but others have been through worse so why cant i be greatful for the things I do gave? why cant I.
you know that playlist is good when it comes with a sucide hotline and a warning
It actually felt so great seeing the hotline numbers in the descriptions
Yassss
Yes you do those are the best ones
Basically
i agree with you
You know it’s a good playlist when it offers you a hotline number
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Real
Bruh 🤡
Bruh
Fr, but you know I ain't gonna call it even if I wanna commit lmao
Currently blasting this on my headphones, I don't care if I damage my hearing, I just don't wanna hear my mom yelling at me because of my grades.
Same
I hope everything gets better for you. I think we are similar in age and I don’t go through the same difficulties as you but I just wish and hope that everything will be better for you and everyone else..
Same it’s like I do everything to please my parents but the don’t care like it’s either “my shorts are too short”, “your grades are too low”, “your a disappointment”, it’s always my fault….. 😔
Agreed
Same here…
Damn, we honestly gotta respect our pillows/ stuffed animals for catching our tears and being there when no one else was able to
The same pillow and doll I've had my whole life. They comfort me. They caught my tears, they listened to my problems, and helped me stop crying. So we do need to thank them. =)
When I cry I make my stuffed bunny catch my tears somehow making everything feel okay.
My stuffed racoon 😭 I used to bring him everywhere with me hidden in my backpack but he needs a wash lmao
Edit: he is washed and back into my backpack
YES.
Yea from holding my tears after a day
"Just calm down"
"Just control yourself"
"Eating again? "
"Just don't do it"
"Just stop doing it"
Thank you for these problems society
stay strong, i wish you all the best
Exactly, I would just added one more :
"U are just a child, u can't have a reason to be depressed. "
@@mishelpayer948 take care, i wish you well
I would like to add one, “Your fine, you’re just faking your eating disorder for attention.”
Thank you society for giving me this
Yeah, thanks for this society
“why arnt you eating?”
“wdym i ate a lot earlier, so im not hungry rn”
*im starving*
“okay if you say so, but don’t you want a little dinner?”
*yes*
“no haha I’m full, I had a bagel when I got home from school!”
“what else did you eat today?”
*nothing. lemon water.*
“I had cereal, a sandwich, a bagel and some snacks!”
“okay then, goodnight!”
“goodnight mom.”
*maybe I should’ve told the truth.*
*whatever, not eating makes me feel in control.*
*I just need control.*
I'm so sorry for you I was in that situation once too and I just want to tell you it's ok to eat ik you want the control over at least something but eating is ok! You're pretty no matter what
@@Noah_lgbtq thank you 💗
I feel the same way too don’t worry you aren’t alone ❤❤❤
omg are we twins or smt
Oh I ate at my friends house! **current time, **4:35**** I promise I’m not hungry! **passes school lunch away so I won’t eat it**
I constantly feel like I shouldn't be depressed, because I have a house and food, and my parents "love" me, and theres people that are abused, and actual trauma, and my mother just mentally abuses me a little. My brain keeps telling me that I'm faking it for attention. But I don't think I am, is anyone else like this?
I understand, you’re not alone and your feelings are definitely valid, I’m here if you need to talk
I know how you feel. I constantly degrade my own emotions, too. Cause, like. There is always someone going through worse, or going through the same thing at a more severe level.
I feel the same way, I am so close to just giving up because of the way my family is but I can't help feeling that I am just being a dramatic $#@&. You aren't alone, there are others like us here so try to hold on a little longer, sometimes you find people who will care about you no matter what
Same :/
That’s like self imposter syndrome, and a wonderful thing I’ve learned, if you’re questioning if you’re faking it, you probably aren’t, I realized I was gay, and I spent like a year going “but what if I’m not” 2 years since I found out, and I am in fact not faking it, so once you accept that you’re not faking it, it gets easier for some things
im listening to this while looking at my scars, everytime they start to fade i wanna relapse so they are there forever (edit: i posted this over 2 years ago and i wanna thank you all for the kind words, and i woukd like to inform you guys that i am almost a year clean)
I understand the feeling but I promise you it's not worth it in the long run anyway hug
please don’t hurt yourself !! i know it’s hard to resist urges, but spilling blood from your arms aren’t gonna help! please remember you’re loved and important, you don’t deserve to feel hurt :((
Same
@@randm8636 hug for you
Hey you are worth it ,you can do it , never give in , you are loved , just know people will always want you ,you are not a mistake , we are here for you. No matter what you are going through we are here . Suicide is never the answer don't second guess it OK 🙃🥺😭😮💨 🚫🔪🪦
'Stop crying or ill give you something to cry about'
The one sentence that fucked up how I deal with emotions
Lol same dude.
Damn
That is so horrible.
This was my childhood
It's what Ive heard anytime I cry
Has anyone ever been through so much shit that they can't find out what they are even feeling
It's like you're emotionless
Anybody?
Yes I know that feeling and I know it‘s horrible. It‘s even worse than being sad sometimes.
I‘m so sorry for you and I hope you fins a way out. I did go to therapy and honestly it helped a lot. Please ask for help and please don’t give up.
Love you 🤍
Yes, I’m currently numb from all the overwhelming emotions. But let’s do what we love and take a break from all these intense emotions!
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Yeah..
An emotion numbness because I’ve been masking what I feel for so long that I can’t tell what’s real and what’s fake till I start crying, or feel pain
I can’t even cry even after my crush I’m in love with since a 3/4 year told me he isn’t interested even a bit
"Just because you see a smile don't think you know what's actually underneath."
-Alastor Hazbin Hotel
alastor did NOT say that😭🙏
He did 💀
@@doktor.spieleHE DID😭😭😭
"well im starved, who wants some jambalya!"-also alastor
@@doktor.spiele yes he did
"They don't notice your tears"
"They don't notice your sadness"
"They don't notice your pain"
"But they notice your mistakes"
Edit:OMFG HOW DID I GET 3.2K LIKES IN 4 MONTHS WTF TY
i wish you all the best, stay safe
sadly this is the world we live in
@@mikucest i wish the best for you
@That_Person yep that's one dude I won't say on here not his real or nickname
They don’t notice the itchy thighs
They don’t notice the skipped meals
They don’t notice the blood under your nails
They don’t notice the fake smile
But they notice when you fart
"mum, why do the best people always die quickly?"
"what flowers do you pick first?"
*"the pretty ones"*
take care
True
Y’all pick pretty flowers? I leave them so they can continue to grow
@@scavengingcrow3498 thats nice
@carpet not matt take care 🤍
funnily enough, I do not wish to die. I simply wish to be happy, accepted and free. But every passing second of my miserable and worthless existence tires me so. Kudos to those who’ve survived for so long, for I am simply too weak to do so.
Fr , im gonna be 14 in less dan a week and knowing dat I survived all dis trauma for dis long , im almost 14 ,4 whole years of mental and physical abuse and I'm still alive , it just make me wanna cry
hey you ok?
Sorry for some Grammer mistakes
Yup yup, i just wish to be loved, free and accepted that Will make me happy! :3
TW : VENT COMMENT.
so basically i had a hard childhood. my mom was s*xually abused by my dad, she also got into a situatiln where my dad held a knife to her throat and my 4 yo self was watching everything. one year ago i got a friend who seemed nice at the beginning, but she actually wanted to use me for game things and to gain answers and popularity, i didn't know that, so i helped her and now i know. And now, all my friends see me as the smart girl that gives answers, i dont know how to say no, when i say it, i feel like everyone will yell at me and look at me like im a disappointment. I told my mother abt this, she told me im overreacting.
There's my entire life.
If anyone read this, thank you for ur time. •
Your loved and in sorry about everything that happened to you and your mother❤
Ignore toxic people and not caring what people say and think is hard but it does help❤🎉
The best advice I can give is: it doesn't matter if you say no and everybody gets disappointed, you can live alone but you can't live without yourself, think of you first an help only when you have the strength, later in life you will realize that people can and will accept you, but if you put yourself after them you will destroy yourself, don't wait untill it gets harder to start, you are worth more than anyone can see now. Good luck
Hope you find better people, when you do surround yourself with them and don't let the haters get to you. ❤
Your the funny person in the school😕
It’s hard knowing you’re nobody’s first choice. Knowing you’re nobody’s favorite. Knowing you’re the one they leave behind.
i hope the best for you, stay safe. you matter 🤍
take care, God bless you
100 reasons to stay alive:
1. The salty smell and calming sound of the beach
2. You would hurt a lot people that love you more than life itself
3. Hot chocolate on cold winter days
4. Your moms smile
5. Your best friends laugh
6. Your little cousins, nieces, and nephews that look up to you
7. The feeling of the sun against your face
8. Hearing the words “I love you”
9. Not being able to sleep/the feeling you get the night before a holiday
10. Birthdays
11. Quiet late night drives
12. Missed opportunities and adventures
13. The feeling of lying in bed after a long day
14. Long hot showers
15. Music that you connect with
16. You have a purpose
17. You can change somebody’s life
18. Snowball fights
19. Concerts
20. Watching people fall
21. As long as you heart is beating, there is hope
22. You will regret dying
23. Your dreams
24. Marriage
25. You are enough
26. Pain is only temporary
27. Late night food runs with your friends
28. The sound of rain
29. Reading powerful quotes
30. Eating your favorite foods
31. Stars
32. Good movies
33. Having children
34. Staring at clouds and finding pictures within them
35. Meeting new people
36. Your struggle will make you stronger
37. You have a lot of people that love and support you
38. Being able to say, “I made it”
39. Genuine smiles
40. Bonfires
41. You matter
42. Time heals most wounds
43. Your first apartment/house
44. The crunch of leaves in the fall
45. Finding your soul mate
46. Meaningful hugs
47. Being in/attending someone’s wedding
48. You are worth it
49. Sunday night football
50. The smell of Christmas trees
51. People care about you; lots of them in fact
52. Sunsets
53. Ice cream
54. You are brave
55. Things really do get better
56. Dogs
57. Cats
58. Pets in general
59. Rainbows
60. You are amazing
61. The city
62. Travelling
63. Vacations
64. Road trips
65. Hearing awesome stories
66. Inside jokes
67. Coffee
68. Snowmen
69. Your talents
70. You’ll disappoint the people that love you by letting your illness win
71. The feeling of pure joy/happiness
72. You will be happy one day
73. All-nighters with your friends
74. Cuddling
75. Reunions with your friends/high school/college
76. Re-connecting with someone you haven’t talked to in years
77. Smiling
78. Seeing someone else smile
79. You are beautiful
80. Decorating you house/apartment
81. Capturing perfect moments on camera
82. You would be missed
83. Quiet bookstores/small restaurants
84. Your favorite hobby
85. Swimming on a hot day
86. Being cozied up with blankets
87. Feeling refreshed after a nice nap
88. Helping other people
89. Watching the people you love become successful
90. Becoming successful yourself
91. Babies/little kids
92. Cute old people
93. Love stories
94. You are strong
95. You will be proud that you continued to live
96. The feeling of grass under your feet
97. Telling crazy stories
98. The smell of rain
99. Watching lightning
100. YOU ARE LOVED❤️
(The list is not mine, but i think this is an important message)
it’s sad that I can relate to this. all my best friends that I’ve ever had have left me.. I felt like I wasn’t good enough. i finally have a best friend that I thought would never leave, and then she had to move away.. I hope none of u have to experience my pain and I wish u all the best of luck with ur lives ❤
@@koolcuit i hope the best for you, stay safe 🤍
@@koolcuit God bless you
100 reasons to stay alive:
1. The salty smell and calming sound of the beach
2. You would hurt a lot people that love you more than life itself
3. Hot chocolate on cold winter days
4. Your moms smile
5. Your best friends laugh
6. Your little cousins, nieces, and nephews that look up to you
7. The feeling of the sun against your face
8. Hearing the words “I love you”
9. Not being able to sleep/the feeling you get the night before a holiday
10. Birthdays
11. Quiet late night drives
12. Missed opportunities and adventures
13. The feeling of lying in bed after a long day
14. Long hot showers
15. Music that you connect with
16. You have a purpose
17. You can change somebody’s life
18. Snowball fights
19. Concerts
20. Watching people fall
21. As long as you heart is beating, there is hope
22. You will regret dying
23. Your dreams
24. Marriage
25. You are enough
26. Pain is only temporary
27. Late night food runs with your friends
28. The sound of rain
29. Reading powerful quotes
30. Eating your favorite foods
31. Stars
32. Good movies
33. Having children
34. Staring at clouds and finding pictures within them
35. Meeting new people
36. Your struggle will make you stronger
37. You have a lot of people that love and support you
38. Being able to say, “I made it”
39. Genuine smiles
40. Bonfires
41. You matter
42. Time heals most wounds
43. Your first apartment/house
44. The crunch of leaves in the fall
45. Finding your soul mate
46. Meaningful hugs
47. Being in/attending someone’s wedding
48. You are worth it
49. Sunday night football
50. The smell of Christmas trees
51. People care about you; lots of them in fact
52. Sunsets
53. Ice cream
54. You are brave
55. Things really do get better
56. Dogs
57. Cats
58. Pets in general
59. Rainbows
60. You are amazing
61. The city
62. Travelling
63. Vacations
64. Road trips
65. Hearing awesome stories
66. Inside jokes
67. Coffee
68. Snowmen
69. Your talents
70. You’ll disappoint the people that love you by letting your illness win
71. The feeling of pure joy/happiness
72. You will be happy one day
73. All-nighters with your friends
74. Cuddling
75. Reunions with your friends/high school/college
76. Re-connecting with someone you haven’t talked to in years
77. Smiling
78. Seeing someone else smile
79. You are beautiful
80. Decorating you house/apartment
81. Capturing perfect moments on camera
82. You would be missed
83. Quiet bookstores/small restaurants
84. Your favorite hobby
85. Swimming on a hot day
86. Being cozied up with blankets
87. Feeling refreshed after a nice nap
88. Helping other people
89. Watching the people you love become successful
90. Becoming successful yourself
91. Babies/little kids
92. Cute old people
93. Love stories
94. You are strong
95. You will be proud that you continued to live
96. The feeling of grass under your feet
97. Telling crazy stories
98. The smell of rain
99. Watching lightning
100. YOU ARE LOVED❤️
(The list is not mine, but i think this is an important message)
"Don't cut, they will see"
"Bikini season is starting"
"Just control yourself"
"don't do it"
"Thes can't see"
"They will question it"
"But i want to feel"
I did it again...
*hug*
i love you
🖤ty
Same! I have a holiday this month and I cut!!🤣🤣🤣
Me too. I do it on my hip. Where no one can see.
Just went through the worst panic attack off my life, I threw up, stopped responding to my mom, broke down into tears and just started to scream, all of that bottleenup from the past few days, and it finally tipped this playlist helped so much ❤
Wish you a very good luck in coping up with all what you are going through. Please feel free to open up on the internet. Fyi, we people on the internet are here for you. ilysm
Hope you find a way to deal with that stuff healthily, even if you don't have a person to talk to irl people on the internet are always here, have a great day ❤
6 months clean today, half a year!! just wanted to tell
I am very proud of your lovely stranger
Congratulations
Congrats!!! I'm so happy for you
IM SO PROUD OF YOUUU!!♡
OMG YAY!! CONGRATS YOURE DOING SO GOOD!
“You know you’re so broken when you don’t want help anymore. You just want death.” I wrote that in my journal. It hit like a truck. And I fucking made it.
Edit: thank you all for the sweet comments
How did you do it? Cause I really need to know that right now, I'm so proud of you for making it though. Good job, I'm so proud
@@CampNovaOfficial I was just venting in my notes app to myself and I just made it up.
I want to take my life away
@@reaperofdoom666 please don’t. Just breath ok? You’re gonna be ok.
Im at a point where inspirational advices doesn't work for me anymore. I tried to unalive myself hour ago by getting overdose. I drank 6 tablets of pain reliever. Im feeling nauseous and dizzy and i don't want help
Them: “we care about you, you can tell us anything”
Also them: “don’t be ridiculous, you don’t need a therapist or help, your faking it”
i hope the best for you, take care. you matter 🤍
parents from an older gen be like
@@LifegameZanimations i wish you the best
@@_csinti_ thx
I have been told this so many fu#k!ng times and I hope your better than I am cuz if I'm honest I'm not okay.
I love your face
I love your brows
I love your body
I love your style
I love your hair
I love how you dress
I wont judge about how annoying you are
I wont judge about how your dumb
I wont judge about your sadness problem
I just love your personality
I just love your confidence
I just love how good you are
I just love your hands
I love everything about you💗💗💗
Please dont change anything about you you are perfect and nice. Dont let anyone get to you, your pretty. And please... Dont suicide... Your parents really do care about you even tho they hate you❤
@@lafrogdotcom7679 well some people have parents who hate them but in secret all parents love their children
Even though I want to believe you I just can’t I KNOW I WILL annoy you, but thank you❤
My heart sinks at the fact I know I used to be so low and this playlist brought it all back. I really hope everyone here gets the help and affection they need 💗 love you all
❤❤
Thx dude some people really don’t care but the people here are amazing
@@SweetlikeSugar501 Of course :)
“The abused becomes the abuser. “
Heard that way too late. And now she left me in shambles.
So sorry for you hope you have a good day
I'm so sorry. I wish you well
I understand your pain. We’ll move on, whether they forgive us or not. I believe in you.
You’re not alone.
agreed I wish that won't won't me but I'm scared
“If I fail I will fall apart” and “feel like I’m the worst so I act like I’m the best”
Is describing me all to well,,,too relatable
i related to the “i feel like i’m the worst so i always act like i’m the best”
*then i realized i had an inferiority complex which caused me to act like i have a superiority complex*
@@felix3385 OK BUT SAME, i’m like 99% sure i have adhd, and people call me intelligent but i’m actually really dumb it’s almost embarrassing
I relate to that to
I relate to the 2nd one. It all just falls apart when I try to act all good, I just get yelled at and worry
This is so relatable but it feels wrong!...
TW: suicides, self harm, vent.
To be honest, I don't know where my life is gonna lead anymore. I thought I knew but I became lost again. I just dont imagine myself having a family and kids or having a good paying job even though I'm only 18.
I felt so worthless and useless because i feel like I am wasting my parent's time for taking care of me till now because I still don't have a clear path of what I'm going to go to. And eveyday my parents would always remind me to keep up with my education and i should already know my career path by now but i really don't and this makes them feel disappointed in me. I feel like I dont deserve to live in this life as I also have a rough childhood too.
In 7th grade, i was very depressed because of my "friends" back then and i would cut myself and then now life is hitting me too. I just felt so alone and so misunderstood that i felt like It was my fault that my life had become this way.
My period was irregular which causes me to have anemia and having to have a blood transfusion. But it still makes me feel weak and i just wish that i wasn't born at all. I've also tried so many methods (hanging & OD) but I kept failing and i would be angry at myself because I failed at killing myself too. Everything just makes me feel like shit.
My friends told me I probably have that kind of victim mindset and I kept feeling sorry for myself but i dont know too. Maybe i overthink too much or maybe i was being overdramatic. Either ways, i really hated how I see this world.
There are some really beautiful things in this world too like i love the nature. But it also has its downsides. I really wanted to live but i feel like im just a waste of space in this earth.
I have given life a chance too many times and I just grew more depressed and to be fair, I do laughed and felt happy at times but i felt like death is lurking by my side.
And so ive decided that i no longer wanted live anymore and hopefully it worked.
I would love to tell people who are going through the way i am to not give up and love their self alot but i would just be a hypocrite who coudlnt do the same thing for myself.
It's ok to not know what you want to do your only 18 you have planty of time to decide don't stress yourself about it so in the end you do something you don't want to do (sorry for the bad grammar)
Your enough! Do never forget that
You can do it!!! Like you have past so many things, why stop now? just keep tring, just try step by step. I know you can, if you need aniyhig you can talk to me. Love!!
o7
That must be hard.
I could never relate but hopefully you can be better now ♡
Honestly sometimes I feel like the internet understands me better than my parents or my friends
Same
A lot of people said "I'm tired of living, but I'm scared to die"
But, for my case, deep inside, I'm tired and I'm ready to go into deep sleep. Just waiting for that moment to come true.
just change it
😹👎
Ignore the comment by the user h I am here to help you if you need it just ask
@@H3artsareLovely cope harder kid 🕊️🕊️🕊️
Same I’m ready for it, I wish someone could do it for me though if I do it myself and my family sees me I think they definitely wouldn’t be fine.
I’m so sorry you feel this way, it sucks to feel like your being forced to live and aren’t allowed to just be at peace
It's just great when your parents only care about chores, school grades, and your physical appearance more than your mental health :')
Oh that is so true. It doesn't matter to my family that if I am not feeling 100% all they want is to have chores done and wanting to be like me, my first younger sister starves herself to be like me.
Yeah, and then sometimes they say they don't want to upset you or stress you out and yell at you for being slightly behind and give you a mental breakdown that lasts hours
so true thats both of mine
I show more signs than my brother, my legs shake randomly and she’s concerned about my brother because “it’s just a muscle spasm” IVE HAD THIS SINCE I WAS 5. 10 FUCKING YEARS WITH BEING TOLD ITS NOTHING OR BEING IGNORED.
@@joanhgilbert omg i'm so sorry to hear that, i know what it feels like to have your sibling get more attention than you in certain situations :(
You know its getting bad again when all you can do is cry in your pillow and listen to this on repeat
It can get better promise💗
i can even cry anymore i just stare wishing i could feel. thats why i cut. to feel something
i was considering venting a bit in here, but as i scroll through the comments, i realize how many people are also going through traumatic experiences. it’s saddening to see the number of people that have been abused, lied to, betrayed, hurt, or have simply faced the cruelties of this world. However, at the same time i see as countless others support one other, because through our traumas, we became people who understand suffering. it’s kinda beautiful to watch..but it’s also sad that strangers online bring more support and comfort than (not all) our own family, friends and anyone around us. TW: SUICIDE- i’ve had positive suicide ideation for a while and plan to slit my throat on graduation when i walk on stage, although it’s only ideation, i still just feel so tired. thank you for reading all this and remember we are here for each other ❤❤
are you ok? why do you wanna commit suicide?? is everything ok??
even if it's just an ideation it's still something serious, don't do it please
Don't do it! Please! This world is cruel, yes, but it sure as hell DOES NOT deserve you dying because of it. Keep going. Keep living. Love yourself. Ignore the bad in this world is the only thing I can say. I struggle too, but you know what? This fucked up world is shit, but you're not. So live, try to turn the world into a better place. Just keep living. Don't be part of those who succeed in their suicide attempt every 40 seconds. Please.
It's strange how people on the internet understand our pain more that our parents...
I wish you well, take care
Where all here, where all suffering together I guess you can say
@@multi_fan_ace3777 stay safe 🤍
So true
Because parents think they're know you.
Stay safe
The worst pain is when u can’t cry any more. Damn.
for real
ive been trying to cry for like 2 hours now and my eyes are so dry
When u don't care anymore what will happen to u.. And all u wanna do is self harm..
That's too real
I’ve cried so much that I think I might have forgotten how to-
I just want to tell my favourite teacher every fucking thing, yesterday i was feeling like shit, he asked if i was okay because im usually so happy (fake happiness tho :( ) i just said ye in a not very believable tone, then he mouthed to my friend behind me "is she okay?" She shrugged and today i saw him and i smiled and he said "smiling i see today" i smiled and looked down teara welling up in my eyes, my heart started beating really fast and my vision went blurry, he noticed and was like "hey hey hey whats wrong" i just ran to a toilet and skipped the rest of the school day, now i have to go in his maths class tomorrow.
Sorry for the vent i just need to tell someone x
Omg why what happened?
@@fantasyintheblue5785 smth in PE
Same. Teachers are my safe space,I wish I could tell my favorite Teachers whats going on without getting attached
@@effiemarkou3029 FOR REAL
I don’t wanna feel like this anymore
Hello, how are you? Please remember that you're strong, important and valuable in this world ❤
“Don’t you know how this makes ME feel?”
I. Don’t. Fucking. Care.
I have spent my entire life caring about how YOU feel, what YOU want, YOUR expectations. FOR ONCE IN YOUR GOD DAMNED LIFE CARE ABOUT ME FIRST
i wish you all the best, stay safe. you matter 🤍
exactly :(
I see that when people use that phrase… they are trying to put you way lower than you should be. Don’t let that get you down :)
@@bilsdweeb take care, i wish you the best 🤍
@@_csinti_ thank you, u take care as well :)
warning! // vent
when you come to a realization that everyone has their own problems and you didn't want to trouble them with yours, it hurt so much.
i’m so sorry :((
I feel this way every day, it’s like I can’t talk to anyone not only because of that, but knowing my parents they will think it’s a joke and my friends are NOT the right people to talk to. But it doesn’t matter anymore, because everyone sees me as the “happy friend” and it gets tiring faking a smile everyday and crying myself to sleep every night. “I hate myself”. That’s what I keep telling myself 24/7. And at some point I didn’t feel anything anymore, I couldn’t. It was the same thing over and over again every day, so I started cutting.
I can relate, me and my mom and sister are going through a lot. But I can’t talk to my sister because she doesn’t understand, my mom already has a lot of problems of her own and it would only make it worse if I talk to her about my troubles, yet she talks to me about all of hers… I don’t think she realizes that it hurts me to know she’s hurting. I don’t need her to fake it.. but it feels like she lays too much on me then I don’t feel as if I should vent back. It sucks.
I’m so sorry this is happening just remember we are always here for you we are sorta strangers but at the same time we are strangers that listen and just remember things always get better it just takes time
@@nero3909
PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND NEVER EVER ALLOW EVEN A SINGLE SOUL IN THIS WORLD TO MAKE YOURSELF DOWN
Just Always Remember,
You won't wake up and become a butterfly🦋
Growth is a Process
I know that the process can be slow
But quitting won't speed it up
Never Give up because it's too Painful
Remember that regretion hurts more than wait
You will Burn today🔥
Cuz you have to shine tomorrow✨
You are just a yet to shine star⭐
Please don't disappear before you shine🌟
YOU WILL DEFINITELY SHINE MY BEAUTIFUL STAR
If you want to know why are you so Special,
JUST THINK LIKE THIS
THE SAME WORLD, THE SAME UNIVERSE
WHO HAVE MOUNTAINS, OCEANS AND GALAXIES
NEEDED YOU
WHY??! JUST THINK ABOUT THAT
Every time I talk about my emotions or problems, I feel as if they are invalid for there are people who are going through much worse.
No, there is no one who is going through something worst, everyone's situation is worst and horrible, not any worser, do not be afraid to talk about how you feel, let it all out, although I am young, don't keep your feelings to yourself or bottle them up, there is always consequences to that, I recommend you to go to Jesus Christ, if you do not know him, search him up, he is the living creator of this universe, trust in him and pray to him, let it all out to him, he will be there for you, and will help you, but it will take time, but be patient okay? His plan and his timing is perfect, trust Me, and trust in him, and trust that he died for you on the cross for your sins, you matter okay? Let it all out. I'm not forcing you, but I recommend you this, because I know that God is good, and he is the way. I hope that you are okay.
Every pain u feel is valid from the smallest cuts to the largest scars❤❤
are you ok?
"Stop crying or I'll give you a good reason to cry"
I've heard that sentence more times then I can count, its annoying
"I'm not ready to get older" Hits hard.
Edit: Wow this is so many likes. im glad some people can relate to me and im not alone. :)
PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND NEVER EVER ALLOW EVEN A SINGLE SOUL IN THIS WORLD TO MAKE YOURSELF DOWN
Just Always Remember,
You won't wake up and become a butterfly🦋
Growth is a Process
I know that the process can be slow
But quitting won't speed it up
Never Give up because it's too Painful
Remember that regretion hurts more than wait
You will Burn today🔥
Cuz you have to shine tomorrow✨
You are just a yet to shine star⭐
Please don't disappear before you shine🌟
YOU WILL DEFINITELY SHINE MY BEAUTIFUL STAR
If you want to know why are you so Special,
JUST THINK LIKE THIS
THE SAME WORLD, THE SAME UNIVERSE
WHO HAVE MOUNTAINS, OCEANS AND GALAXIES
NEEDED YOU
WHY??! JUST THINK ABOUT THAT
I aggre with you I'm not ready :(
but l'll be okay
@@z0mbi3CaTx
PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND NEVER EVER ALLOW EVEN A SINGLE SOUL IN THIS WORLD TO MAKE YOURSELF DOWN
Just Always Remember,
You won't wake up and become a butterfly🦋
Growth is a Process
I know that the process can be slow
But quitting won't speed it up
Never Give up because it's too Painful
Remember that regretion hurts more than wait
You will Burn today🔥
Cuz you have to shine tomorrow✨
You are just a yet to shine star⭐
Please don't disappear before you shine🌟
YOU WILL DEFINITELY SHINE MY BEAUTIFUL STAR
If you want to know why are you so Special,
JUST THINK LIKE THIS
THE SAME WORLD, THE SAME UNIVERSE
WHO HAVE MOUNTAINS, OCEANS AND GALAXIES
NEEDED YOU
WHY??! JUST THINK ABOUT THAT
@@a.r.m.y.chinghu926 :)
I feel like screaming at everyone, The anger, sadness, confusion, and failure I feel every day is scarily get worse. I hate this world, but if I leave I imagine all of the things I will miss. I know you, I feel your pain. You will get better, same with me. We will get through this. -Lil
This is probably the comment I relate to the most. I wanna die but I'll be leaving so many things behind that it scares me. I really do hope we get through this
I don’t think I wanna die, but I just can’t really be sure. I really am more curious than anything else
Most relateable! I've been trying to keep up with life for so long. Ive been trying and trying nothing is working out. Instead the person I thought I could go to , takes these issues lightly and tells me to focus on things they want.
@@samhitam1875 same
I feel like this daily. I’m sick and tired of living but I’m so scared of death. I either experience no emotion at all, or anger or sadness. I feel my parents won’t understand or brush it off as : oh you’re too young. Do I get help and tell my school counselor I’ve been feeling suicidal?
I’ve been crying for an hour. My family isn’t here and I’m scared that without music to occupy my mind I wouldn’t still be here. No one’s answering their phones. I need to play this on repeat.
Hey I'm really sorry you feel like that, I hope you still have not and do not plan on it anytime soon, or in the future, please don't.❤ If you need to talk and don't have anyone to talk to I'm totally cool with that 😊 I've gone through hell as I'm sure most people here have, so I can relate to you in quite a few ways I'm sure, and I'm a great listener, I was always the like therapist friend lol but I needed a therapist 😂 and omg hazbin hotel luciferrrr lol omg when he says I'm gonna fuck you! 😠 Angel : 😮 Vaggie : 🤐 everyone : 🫢 Charlie: up- it's fuck you up dad he's like what'd I say? 😂 Sorry that was really funny lol.
I can’t get through a day without adding more scars so my arms. I don’t want people to worry about me, I don’t want people to feel any sort of stress about me because of a couple wounds. I wish I could make everyone happy but instead I made everyone worry
you know it’s bad when you don’t even realize you’re fake smiling. I’ll be talking to my dad and giving the biggest smile and as soon as I turn around to go to my room it fades so quickly.
I do hope whatever you are going through you are feeling ok. I do the same and the only person that has seen my true smile is my boyfriend because he was the one that helped me bring it back to my spotted freckled face.
I do this too, as soon as I'm nowhere where anyone can see me, that smile of that perfectly happy child is gone. No more.
I got some bad news and immediately started smiling harder than I was before. They questioned me about it but let it go when I didn't answer
That’s how I knew it started to get really bad, I didn’t have to tell myself to smile anymore,it kinda just happened then when I walked away it faded so fast.
This is exactly what I do I never tell anyone my problems which then turns into rage which makes me lose my closest friends..
"They didnt realize you felt that way"
"They didnt realize you felt left out"
"They didnt realize you were suffering"
"They didnt realize YOU"
i hope the best for you, take care 🤍
Why is that me?
Same
@@janepizzadip9133 i wish you all the best 🤍
Ouch that hurt a bit-
To everyone feeling low just know your not alone and every much loved things will get better I swear 😊
My mum always says she here for me if I need to talk. Yeah I talk to her but never about my mental health. I don’t self harm because I know they will see. My age is 12 and I’ve started vaping as it comforts me. I hate my past, present and I know I’m going to hate my future.
You ok?
Please take care of yourself. I did a similar thing near your age and I regret it. Its definitely going to be hard to get better but please dont hurt yourself. Vaping can get really addicting and it will only make your life worst. If you ever need sombody to talk to please talk to a helpline or you can talk to me if you don't feel like going to a person they might not understand you.
Im 14 i do the same things but i do harm myself i have scars that are really deep my mom says shes here for me but when i talk to her she says "youll grow out of it" like you cant grow out of hating yourself-
girlll bye
@@Eilpezlight you ok?
Tw/ SH: Imagine always speaking out and ending up ruining your friendship with people, then blaming yourself and self harming to a vent playlist? Hm, bout time, there's my queue!
please don’t hurt yourself !! i know its hard to resist the urge, but there’s always healthier alternatives to s*lf-harm that doesn’t require blood being spilled !!
i stopped my self harm, and you can too, stay strong it will get better ♥
This!! I hate talking I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I ruin all my friendships if I say something wrong, I do hope you’re able to find new friends though!
i used to but i stopped but you should too it really bad for you it can be hard at some points but theres always a very bad point where if you do it to much you can die from blood lost or by medication.
You can do it, it’s been (checks journal) 3 months since I did a lil SH, and I’ll tell you hwat, it’s only one tool in your belt, get more tools. Once you update your tool belt, it gets so much easier to ignore those urges.
Is it just me or crying is harder to do as you get older
yes it truly is
It is
Yes, it very much is, unfortunately
and the saddest part about that is that you need to cry more when your older but its harder
When you used to want the crying to stop but now you miss it... Just miss having something to hold onto. Hope you all are doing okay
They add a Chrisist line like I’m gonna call 😭
hey are you ok?
For real.
I actually tried messaging once, gave up when my mom asked who I was messaging
@@Fern-xu1sb I tried messaging too but they didnt respond and I almost committed, then played 'baby hotline' because it matched the vibe.
I hate my arms. I feel invalid. I see self-harm everywhere, fascia, muscle, bone even. I can’t even get to hypodermis. I’m a useless rat that can’t self-harm. I need help. Not help to stop, to cut deeper.
I relate to this so much I felt like I wasn’t a “good self harmer” or something like that I always wanted to cut deeper but all I could really do was just scratches. Then I started burning my arm because it’s pretty easy to get second-degree burns from a hot-glue gun but I had to stop that when my sister noticed. The first time I cut a little deeper it was on my leg my mom and sister noticed but I said that the dog scratched my leg. I finally told my mom and I’m going to my first therapy appointment in a couple of days. 💛I hope it gets better for you and me and all the other people like us✨
Please don’t cut deeper! It doesn’t matter how deep the cuts there still cut deep or not it’s all the same thing.
Deeper just means harder to hide, harder to stop bleeding, harder not to pass out, and more dangerous
Just remember that there is no “right way to self harm”
YOU ARE VALID!
I feel the exact same way. The only scratches I have are very superficial and only bleed a tiny bit so I don't think I can even call them cuts. They honestly have gotten worse from when I first started but still not that deep at all. I should probably try to stop before it gets any worse but it's so hard. The longest I've ever been clean is like 2 months or so..
@@Ssshonic this might sound stupid but how did your mom react when you told her? You don't have to answer but I'm so scared of my parents finding out. I know they won't be mad but I'm scared for how they'll react if they find out
@@sallynx51 when I told my mom she was surprised because she had no idea but once I finished explaining she asked if there was anything she could do to help or if there was anything that she was doing that made it worse. I told her that I would like to talk to a therapist and she said that she would look into finding a therapist and she did. I’m going to my first appointment tomorrow!
@@sallynx51I just wanted to check in on you and make sure that you’re still hanging in there💛
Does anyone else feel so depressed that they don't want to go to work or school
Burnt out, maybe? I hope you're feel better though
Yea, can barely deal with school and quit my job cause I couldn’t deal with that. So yay, now my family continually pressure me (unmeaningly) to get a job.
Hope you’re doing better now (:
I do sometimes too.
Mhm
I do
We don't want to die we just want the pain to go away..
and that's why some of us choose death because they prefer to be like that than living like a ...
Why be living in hell when you can be dead in hell?
@@insanegecko true 🥲
Yes
We don't want to die, we want to kill something inside of us. Throw yourself into the sea and you see yourself fighting for your life... ( Some crappy quote lol)
There is no way I’m the only one who has tons of friends and still feels lonely and compared to everyone else caring about what they think even if you don’t know them so you don’t talk to anyone in fear of being judged then people think you’re a freak with no friends who reads and does sh
This is a comfort message❤
You matter
Plz dont hurt yourself
Dont try to do things that could hurt you
Be yourself and life a wonderful life
Theres someone in the future thats waiting to cheer you up and make you smile
Theres some people in the world that care about you
I care about you a d your health
I love your smile
I love your hair
I love your personality
I love your eyes
I love your laugh
I love your body
I love your confidence
I love your happiness
I love the way you look
I love how you make people happy
Hope this cheers you up and makes you happy to enjoy your life❤❤
Be happy to reply to this
Man I'm 13 and have been suicidal since i was 9. Please don't leave this world you deserve a second chance. Some people just sit there at the age of 11 and watch from the back seat of the car as their abusive dad gets shot in the neck and the car you are in swerves off the road your mom is crying about your dad then you blink and her neck is bent in the wrong way, her head lolled to the side eyes staring at you with no life in them. "Do something! ANYTHING YOU BITCH" - mothers last words
I’m 11 turning 12 in 3 days I have been suicidal since I was 8 it definitely hurts I feel you
Im 11 and lve been suicidal ever since I was 6
@@chellomaxyoraiz4021 wow I’m so sorry just know you are loved by many people
@@C3SSIE oh its fine my mom's trying to understand me and says that she'll try to get me a therapist for my emotional and mental health
13 been suicidal since 10 - also im sorry that happened to you, i hope you can do something to hide the visual trauma and mental, i love you
Cant help myself from crying when I see some who has a stable family, no scars or scratches on their body, people being confident in how they sound, act, look, smell like, someone who has a good smile, ppl who don’t have to force themselves to take a shower or brush their teeth, ppl who don’t have to think ab how to dress to hide marks, ppl who wear clothes they like, ppl who have someone to comfort or love them, ppl who have a mom w/o any mental issues, ppl who don’t rot in their room scared ab how the world sees them. Ppl who have a perfect life
take care, i wish you all the best. you matter 🤍
if you need someone to listen, you can vent to me :)
Those people who seem so confident and so happy are really the ones who are hurting most. I should know.
❤️💖❤️💖
sadly i cant console you since thats not one of my qualifications but i can say that almost all of what you said is relatable so ik how you feel to some extent. keep pushing!
I have many of the same problems so I'm here to let you know your not alone though I'm only a teenager I'm here
it's a torture.
i have to break my legs over and over for university. and they think i can go on without meds. and they think i can go on without a mental hospital. i want to sleep. i don't care anymore.
We all are the same here. Like same issues. You gotta get this life in your control, don't worry it's gonna be alright. Just vent here and don't do self harm anymore. Just go through the comments. It comforts you do much. To all the people who left positive stuff here, thanks a lot. ilysmm
This is crazy..people on youtube actually care about our problems. Everyone, i love you
we love you to
We do!
We all love you too
I love you too ❤
We love you too ❤
It gave me a suicide warning I love this now
Are u ok
@@angelgod8078 That a question that could never be answered
Same .
Same
same.
When you dont show emotion or vent out your emotions and problems they act so normal but when you tell them your problems and show emotion they'll call you a pick me or an attention seeker or wannabe depressed , some give help but it feels like their always tired and sometimes its just again and again as if their bored
from this learned how to hide everything and go through everything , every problem on my own , ive developed anxiety which gives me days that i just cry out of no where , i developed this thinf where it gets hard to breath to the point where i cant , some days you just go suicidal to the poiny i have reached where i started harming myself
to those who relate , who are going through this... im so sorry
(Vent)
I know how hard life is, but don’t end it short! Just live the life you where given, live it to the full and you will leave when it’s time. (Yes I’m talking myself through this too)
So I don’t even know why I feel this way. I feel like I don’t belong to feel like this because my life is so (good) when others are going through so much worse and actually have a reason to be upset. I have a very weird anxiety I’m afraid of certain bugs and diseases. If your wondering how that can affect someone it’s crazy. As well as school is mentally draining. My parents understand that I hate it. (Yes I have understanding and listening parents and I’m very grateful) my parents understand because my brother suffered depression and ended up at a mental hospital. So idk if it dragged onto me but anyway thanks for listening. ❤
If you would like to talk to me I will try my best to reply, if you don’t feel loved ik I don’t know you personally but I still love you ❤❤
You're lucky then my parents are caring and listening but they don't understand me and my mental health because we don't have any or not lots of family members that go through mental health issues I think I'm one of the first ones tbh
Who needs a therapist when you can listen to this and act happy😀
When given the option please get therapy, this only works for so long.
@@tokoyamisnightlight7717 long enough to avoid talking about my issues 😀
Ikr
Not like I have the money for therapy anyways
@@echo_enby_9935 true
“Your so selfish, you only care for *yourself* “
“I THINK OF EVERYONE BUT MYSELF.”
(just had to let that out)
Edit, May 18 2024: I made this comment about a year ago, I just hope everyone who liked my comment or replied is doing well! I am doing so much better now, I have better friends, and life is getting better. I promise, if you’re going through a hard time you will get through it.
I feel you but whoever says that either talk to them nicely about it or just handle it how you need to if you need to argue with them so be it you deserve better than this you are an amazing person ❤
Feel i know its harder said then done because i still struggle, but some days be selfish let it all out to the ones that love you
Same I think of everyone else besides myself and people look at me and just say "stop always thinking of your self your selfish!" And my little brother has already said 3 times that he wishes I wasn't in his life
@@lunar_star_gaming1175same 💔
We are an army of misunderstood people who live in a society that demands perfection.
I feeling you
People don't do self h@rm because they want attention or that they like it.... It's also not because they want their pain to be noticed
The only two reason an individual does so are-
1. They just want to feel something, they literally can't feel anything and thus the pain feels like SOMETHING and thus one craves for it
2. The mental pain is too much to handle, so to distract oneself, physical h@rm is what helps
So please next time you see anyone... Just lend then a shoulder at the very least ❤
Another reason could be:
3. Seeing their pain physically so they don't feel crazy when they tell someone that they're depressed or they just need to see their struggle.
@@SuperMaddie-cz2bi right, that's one as well..... I hope you're doing well ❤️🩹 remember wheather or not others think you are crazy or stuff, you know you struggles funny let the world judge or hurt you..... It's you who will be there WITH YOU until the very end.
This may be my last night but at least I get to listen to this while it ends
Hey, I don't know if you might see this. I usually don't do this, but seeing that there is no replies. And my words may not be able to help you and your situation. And I don't know what you're going through.
But please, re-think it? I know it sounds stupid of me saying this when I know nothing of your situation, but, I want to at least help.
I'm sorry that what ever had happened to you made you think of this, please, you might not know it yet. But you could probably discover something you'll enjoy and make you happy someday, or maybe even someone.
I hope I am not to late, and I do hope you'll see this. I'm sorry if this was long, but it hurts me to see other people in pain, and no one is there to help out.
Plant yourself a new tree as a new beginning for yourself. It may sound stupid, but I really want to help out at least.
Bless you.
@@Creamxbread don’t worry your not late
Don't do this pls... PPL love u. But they may not know u. Pls!
@@ZOOM2279 don’t worry I didn’t do it
I'm glad you're still with us 😁
Pov: you are depressed but you can hide it very well
heyy im in that pov.
That’s what it is hiding from it
hmmm i wonder who can relate to this
@@infFPS I can
Yep! Hid it from my family and friends but I can't hide it from my boyfriend, sadly. But who cares about how I am feeling.
You know the playlist hits hard when youtube gotta put a warning and a call number on the video
Fr
CZcams tries :)
@@Undercoverheroine yes they care :)
Fr
Fr
I just got shout at by my mum and she really scared me 😢😥
I’m sorry that happened💛
Me: *telling my friend about how I feel so nauseous after every meal no matter what it is or how big or small it is and I feel sick just thinking about or looking at food and I just hate eating*
My friend: "Bro just eat healthier"
That’s fucked up. You need better friends.
@@W1ll0w_Th3r14n they've done worse but idrc
You should care :( If you don’t care then you may have friends you can’t trust or that love you
@@W1ll0w_Th3r14n all but like one of my friends do stuff like that ngl but I've had much worse friends
“I didn't want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep. And that's really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you're so relieved. I woke up into a nightmare.”
i hope the best for you, stay strong. ask for help if you need it. you matter ❤️
I feel ya there man I hope whatever your going through gets better
@@darkielover take care
I know how that feels I dread waking up every day
@@erinmclean5887 Take care
“What’s the point in living if I’m hurting other people and myself?” And “I’m sorry I’m not a person anymore..I’m a PROBLEM.” are my top sentences right now to people:)
Jo man i hope that this helps you a little 😉: your not a problem bro life is sometimes so weird and stupid but I'm sure you have people that love you for who you are 😁👌🏻.
@@furbyprof1330 thanks man
@@Ili214 your welcome man try to keep your head up 😉👌🏻
PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND NEVER EVER ALLOW EVEN A SINGLE SOUL IN THIS WORLD TO MAKE YOURSELF DOWN
Just Always Remember,
You won't wake up and become a butterfly🦋
Growth is a Process
I know that the process can be slow
But quitting won't speed it up
Never Give up because it's too Painful
Remember that regretion hurts more than wait
You will Burn today🔥
Cuz you have to shine tomorrow✨
You are just a yet to shine star⭐
Please don't disappear before you shine🌟
YOU WILL DEFINITELY SHINE MY BEAUTIFUL STAR
If you want to know why are you so Special,
JUST THINK LIKE THIS
THE SAME WORLD, THE SAME UNIVERSE
WHO HAVE MOUNTAINS, OCEANS AND GALAXIES
NEEDED YOU
WHY??! JUST THINK ABOUT THAT
I have tried many times to get over these thoughts jut school hurts so badly and having a perfect sister odes it all, I feel like I want to talk about it but then I realise I'm over exagerating and just fkn selfish, I can't only be the therapist of the group, I need somebody, but..[:
I think that when you die you sit in a dark void for eternity with no human contact and that nightmare keeps me alive
I'm too tired to keep living...but I'm too scared to end it all
It's ok, stay strong don't end it 💗
When I thought life was finally getting better I find myself here
take care, i hope the best for you. you matter 🤍
Dont worry just dont do what im gonna bc im gonna kill myself in 1 moth or week
Love u but dont do it live ur lifw to fullest
I cant bc of my mom and grandmother
Goodbye
@@yourlocalpookie don't give up please, stay strong. try to hold on a little bit longer, okay? ask for help if you need it, talk to somebody, call the hotline. i wish you the best, stay safe. you matter 🤍
@Rakeem take care
@@yourlocalpookie stay safe, God bless you
100 reasons to stay alive:
1. The salty smell and calming sound of the beach
2. You would hurt a lot people that love you more than life itself
3. Hot chocolate on cold winter days
4. Your moms smile
5. Your best friends laugh
6. Your little cousins, nieces, and nephews that look up to you
7. The feeling of the sun against your face
8. Hearing the words “I love you”
9. Not being able to sleep/the feeling you get the night before a holiday
10. Birthdays
11. Quiet late night drives
12. Missed opportunities and adventures
13. The feeling of lying in bed after a long day
14. Long hot showers
15. Music that you connect with
16. You have a purpose
17. You can change somebody’s life
18. Snowball fights
19. Concerts
20. Watching people fall
21. As long as you heart is beating, there is hope
22. You will regret dying
23. Your dreams
24. Marriage
25. You are enough
26. Pain is only temporary
27. Late night food runs with your friends
28. The sound of rain
29. Reading powerful quotes
30. Eating your favorite foods
31. Stars
32. Good movies
33. Having children
34. Staring at clouds and finding pictures within them
35. Meeting new people
36. Your struggle will make you stronger
37. You have a lot of people that love and support you
38. Being able to say, “I made it”
39. Genuine smiles
40. Bonfires
41. You matter
42. Time heals most wounds
43. Your first apartment/house
44. The crunch of leaves in the fall
45. Finding your soul mate
46. Meaningful hugs
47. Being in/attending someone’s wedding
48. You are worth it
49. Sunday night football
50. The smell of Christmas trees
51. People care about you; lots of them in fact
52. Sunsets
53. Ice cream
54. You are brave
55. Things really do get better
56. Dogs
57. Cats
58. Pets in general
59. Rainbows
60. You are amazing
61. The city
62. Travelling
63. Vacations
64. Road trips
65. Hearing awesome stories
66. Inside jokes
67. Coffee
68. Snowmen
69. Your talents
70. You’ll disappoint the people that love you by letting your illness win
71. The feeling of pure joy/happiness
72. You will be happy one day
73. All-nighters with your friends
74. Cuddling
75. Reunions with your friends/high school/college
76. Re-connecting with someone you haven’t talked to in years
77. Smiling
78. Seeing someone else smile
79. You are beautiful
80. Decorating you house/apartment
81. Capturing perfect moments on camera
82. You would be missed
83. Quiet bookstores/small restaurants
84. Your favorite hobby
85. Swimming on a hot day
86. Being cozied up with blankets
87. Feeling refreshed after a nice nap
88. Helping other people
89. Watching the people you love become successful
90. Becoming successful yourself
91. Babies/little kids
92. Cute old people
93. Love stories
94. You are strong
95. You will be proud that you continued to live
96. The feeling of grass under your feet
97. Telling crazy stories
98. The smell of rain
99. Watching lightning
100. YOU ARE LOVED❤️
(The list is not mine, but i think this is an important message)
“Why do you hate me?” Said the father.
The same father who hurt, manipulated, traumatized, scarred and destroyed both his children
The same father who deadnamed and misgendered his kid for “fun”
The same father who made fun of his children’s sensory issues
The same father who insulted and even sexualized his children’s friends
The same father who destroyed his children’s lives.
The same father said this to the same child who had been in so much pain because of him for years.
The same child who cried for hours in their room because of that father
The same child who hated themself because of that father
The same child who isolated themself because of that father
The same child who almost died because of that father
The same child who had to hold their entire family together while they where falling apart because of that father.
“Why do you hate me?” Said the father.
I’m so sorry. Hope you doing well or even a little better
no😕 I’m so sorry ml
My fathers similar,good luck...
I relate more than you will ever know.
My dad is so horrible he says he wishes I was dead then the next day he acts like nothing happened
my parents are a strict parents and if i'm crying they always told me to stop crying,so i used to hold my tears back and now i can't cry...(vent)
I have so much self hatred for myself I know I will never be able to tell anyone. No matter how kind, caring or patient a person is, everyone can only listen for so long, nobody wants to listen to sob stories. It hurts knowing I will never meet someone who will truly listen. I don't even try anymore. I have nothing to offer anyone. I feel like I've totally lost in life. Ive never had any friends, or a girlfriend, no job, car or any accomplishments whatsoever, never had anyone to comfort me or hold me. But that's all my own fault, I pushed everyone away and hid myself behind a tough exterior. I'm terrified of opening up to anyone. I have a home, food and a family yet I can't do even basic tasks. I dug myself into a hole and now I whine that I can't climb out. I'm 23 and I don't think I'll be around much longer. I'm just a burden on everyone, I'm objectively worthless and I'll die alone
I’m a hypocrite, I tell people not to Hurt themselves then I’m looking at myself in the mirror with a rope in my hands. Everyone is worth the world, and there’s no doubt about it. Sometimes your worth only comes through when you go through the experiences and struggles that made you who you are. No one’s perfect, no matter how content they seem, and the grass is always greener on the other side, no matter which side you’re on. The only thing separating us is the thin wood of the picket fence.
U are amazing and don’t deserve to loose your life I would say the same message to you but I’m so young I’m not very sure what to say. But u are amazing and awesome
Hug 🫂
I don't understand but i wanna tell a story. I was in the woods when i saw a helicopter with its flash on, looking for someone. I saw a rope in the woods and it was probably a murder weapon
There is alway an other way and just think about the thing's you love the most and when you'll feel ready try to love yourself even if (sorry for the inappropriate word) it's so f*cking hard. I truly hope you'll get better and have all my courage and by strong everyone deserve to live ❤️👍
same
I wonder how strangers understand me more than my own family.
Real ,yes
This is true though ❤️😟
True
Same
Yeah..
i commented on this playlist months ago saying my friends are what keep me around. they abandoned me tho. im incapable of making new friends due to social anxiety. i could barely talk to my friends when I did have them
That must be terrible, you must be super strong to deal with all of that, do you wanna talk at all
I’m so scared this will happen, so when my longest friend did this I nearly overdosed, actually I did, I just didn’t do enough to kill.
Sometimes, knowing u are not alone makes me feel relieved and and with speaking to strangers u feel like a heavy heart lighten a bit.
Anyone else being constantly yelled at and feeling like absolute crap even though you're trying your best but all your parent/ parents do is scream at you for the simplest tasks you failed to complete? Because me too.
Pls know that you don't deserve whatever you are going through! And I really hope things will get better for you! *virtual hug*
My mom and me basically, she is screaming her lungs at me, I don`t even cry in front of her anymore, I do not even bother to feel pitty for her, everything i feel for her is hatred and repulsion, i don't want to live my life anymore, if she wants me to turn that lighter of hope again, make sure i won't turn it on again, she's already blown it too many times
Honestly, even though we're strangers, knowing that people relate feels comforting. I send all of you some virtual love! 💕
Thank you for being you. And it's okay to not always be really strong and always okay.
@@shadowandlight237I'm so sorry I hope it gets better 😢
Real. I washed the front deck because it was dirty and my dad said “I could have done better” and I gotta hold in my tears so I don’t cry like a pussy just like he said I was
I feel like a attention seeker, anytime I mention or try to vent I get called a attention seeker it's really starting to hurt.
Nobody cares how I'm feeling, but when I ever try talking to people they say im just making it about myself and I should leave.
hey, i care about you. we all do. you deserve all the love and care you want and need, and don’t let anyone say otherwise. you’re loved and important
@@carlakyoku5954 you have no idea how much that means to me right now,, thank you so much
I'm In love with my best friend...she doesnt know that on top of loads of other things, she doesnt even know my brother sexually abused me for 3 years! She's been my friend since I was 4 and I still can't trust her fully....what type of friendship would you call that?
speak to me then! :}
@@mycatisrussian3124 I'm not quite sure actually. If your comfortable you should try talking to her/them about some more and open up a little, I know it's hard to think about this but dont tell her/them to much she/they might tell someone you dont want knowing.
I defeated my self-harm, I’m proud of it.
CONGRATULATIONS 😆😆 I'M SOO PROUD OF YOUUUU!!!!
@@sevenangels770 how are you?
Great job, how are you now?
@@sup-vm9wp I'm okay, but sometimes there are times when I can’t control myself and I take it out on someone. However, words are better than scars on the body. Thanks for the question.
@@ashuruart maybe try to find a coping mechanism, after all words hurt too, be careful
5 days clean finally:)
After scrolling through the comments, I find it so heart breaking that we can oper up to random strangers rather than our parents. Our parents just don't understand, I remember very clearly telling mom I'm actully not okay and she told me to stop trying to make everything about me, and that our generation is so ungrateful while telling me what all she does for me and that her life would be better if I were a different type of person.
same, I tried telling my mom once and she just told me to stop doing stupid things and to be more grateful. Same with my dad, he laughed at it actually. I don’t know what to do anymore at this point, there’s no one to talk to, no one to understand me. It makes me feel like a disappointment. But who am I anyways to bother others who have other problems besides me. That’s what I think of myself everyday. “You’re a problem””you’re so annoying””I hate myself””they don’t like you just shut up already”. It honestly gets so tiring to fake a smile everyday. And even talking to random strangers about this is a lot better than actually talking to people I love and trust.
Same I was suffering through depression at the age of 10 when I told my parents I was they just thought I was lying and then I just wanted attention to what they didn’t understand was I actually was suffering from depression and it was really hard for me my mom gets so worried about me and she asked me what’s wrong and asked me to talk about it to her but I feel as I get too scared to even tell her ever since that day I’m rn haveing a hard time coming out to my parents(that I’m gender-fuild pan and ace) and it’s really hard for me and parents just don’t understand they say they do but they really don’t I’m rn suffering from anxiety and social anxiety and I’m having a really hard time I’m ELA bc of my dyslexia my parents say they try to help but all they do is yell at me tell me how ungrateful I am my dad saying wishing he never had kids I wear hoodies and jeans all the time bc of me doing SH but I honestly really enjoy SH but I still have to try to hide it I had a boy bsf and they told me show my arm to them and I had to hold in my tears parents just don’t understand us they truly don’t😔
I haven't bothered talking to my parents. I already knew they'd never understand. Do, when I was 6, I told my sister. She said it wasn't true, which hurt because she was the person I trusted most. And now I constantly tell myself, "It's fake. Stop looking for attention." Even when I knew I was going through things. And, 6 years later, it's only gotten worse. I don't trust ANYONE I'm related to. My friends aren't my friends, they're strangers. I'm a stranger to everyone and myself because they won't understand. I still don't fully understand myself. Strangers help me realize what's wrong with me. They help me with getting through it. They make me feel like I'm worth it. The fact that people I know in person can't affect me the same way strangers online can hurts.
I’m so sorry that happened, just know we are all friends here and here for you
@@Coolkid13579
PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND NEVER EVER ALLOW EVEN A SINGLE SOUL IN THIS WORLD TO MAKE YOURSELF DOWN
Just Always Remember,
You won't wake up and become a butterfly🦋
Growth is a Process
I know that the process can be slow
But quitting won't speed it up
Never Give up because it's too Painful
Remember that regretion hurts more than wait
You will Burn today🔥
Cuz you have to shine tomorrow✨
You are just a yet to shine star⭐
Please don't disappear before you shine🌟
YOU WILL DEFINITELY SHINE MY BEAUTIFUL STAR
If you want to know why are you so Special,
JUST THINK LIKE THIS
THE SAME WORLD, THE SAME UNIVERSE
WHO HAVE MOUNTAINS, OCEANS AND GALAXIES
NEEDED YOU
WHY??! JUST THINK ABOUT THAT
the only times i ever feel truly happy is when im hanging out with others
*but my mom wont allow that either*
edit: i can't reply to all the replies but just know i love you all, you are worth it, you are not alone!! (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧
Mommy issues? Tell me about it.
When I saw this comment it made me think I’m not the only one out in this world who deals with this, I know it’s hard especially when only one person makes you happy but your parents won’t allow that to happen just like they won’t allow anything
@@charlotteknapp351 hey, if you ever need to talk to someone i’m here for u!
i had a best friend but my mom decided she didnt like her and i wasnt allowed to see her anymore then she put me on virtual school so i couldnt even see her in school now she doesnt let me see any of my friends. seeing this made me feel not so alone
Ah hah we should hang sometime ;DD
When the past starts to haunt you like it always did but you thought you got better.
~Timestamps c: ~
0:00 - 3-56 all the things she said
By t u r u (slowed)
Basies in Behavior THE Living Tombstone ft. or30
5:31 - 7:53
7:55 - 10:54 Older by Alec Benjamin
10:55 - 13:54 All The Kids Are Depressed by Jermey Zucker.
13:53 - 16:07 Silence By Davina Michelle
16:09 -19:34 Burned out by d o d I e
19:37 - 22:51 Are You Satisfied? by M a r i n a
22:54 - 27:01 Aishite Aishite Aishite by k I u k o
27:04 - 29:48 What if this isn't a slave?.. by TUYU
29:50 - 34:42 better then me.. (slowed) by the brobecks
34:43 - 37:17 Top of my school by Katherine Lynn- Rose
37:19 - 40:17 oh no! By m a r i n a
42:57 - 47:08 I can't fix you. By The Living TombStone
47:09 - 49:37 I hate my mom by GRLwood
49:40 - 52:52 Back in school by Mother mother
52:52 - 56:11 R.I.P . 2 MY Youth
By The Neighborhood.
56:12 - 59:18 Rolling girl by w o w a k a k a
59:22 - 1:03:34 You are A useless Child. By k i k u o
1:03:40 - 1:05:24 I deserve to bleed by sushi soucy
1:05:25 - 1:03:40 miss wanna die by JubyPhonic
Thank yoouuuu!!!!!!
"I envy how you open up to everyone, talking about your problems and they pay attention when no one even asks me how my day is going..."
Heh :D how is ur day going :‘)?
I sometimes open up about my problems, just to be scolded at for being too weak :D
@@paintbuck3t hey ssome people don’t understand what others are going trough..
If u ever wanna talk about your feelings, then talk to me okay? :D
@@randomdummy8761 ok, tysm for aknowledging the situation i have! :D
@@paintbuck3t its no problem, talking about feelings is something completely normal for humans, no one should be bullied or made fun of for it! :(
''Do you know howmuch trouble you caused us?"
''You should get higher grades, you are more inteligent than that''
''Don't you make us regret our decisions''
''Do you even know how you make us feel?"
''Stop playing whith us, you don't deserve nothing''
*congrats, my left arm now is full of scratches and scars*
i hope the best for you, stay safe. please don't hurt yourself. you're important 🤍
I'd prefer someone to just vent how they feel about me honestly instead of covering it up with sugar coated fake talk.
@@_csinti_ I'm not 😅
TW: Vent
My girlfriend had saved me from commiting suicide, and we had dated for almost 6 months
She broke up with me because "she never truly loved me and she just wanted to make me happy".
She was my everything, and what she said made the breakup worse.
And she acts like nother ever happened, she gets confused why i cant make eye contact with her and she keeps telling me about this guy she met online, she keeps talking about how hot he is and how amazing he is.
Emptiness has never felt so heavy, i have never been this close to killing myself before.
I know I'm a month late but still worth saying this, people in your life love you. It may not feel like it but they do. I hope you make it through this tough time and find true happiness. Good luck bro❤
u dont need her i promise, u will soon accept it and come to terms wit it : and when that happens u will see that u were always worthy of ur love. u will love of urself and thimk it never even mattered anymore. dont worry,it gets better
Jeez bro I feel so bad. How are you doing now??
@@bluekitten1856 a little bit better, thx
I've mostly gotten over her but shes still bothering me sometimes
@@BonnieBunBunStudioz that's sucks...but I am happy you are better now. Trust me everything will be okay ❤️
I'm a girl, and I've always been told "sit up straight" and more, having playlist like this just feels like i can be me. To whoever's out there, suffering just like me, you are a strong girl, even if you don't do weights, or anything, girls, men, anyone, are enough they are amazing, don't give up
you're amazing ❤
God bless you, keep holding on 💗
100 reasons to stay alive:
1. The salty smell and calming sound of the beach
2. You would hurt a lot people that love you more than life itself
3. Hot chocolate on cold winter days
4. Your mom's smile
5. Your best friend's laugh
6. Your little cousins, nieces, and nephews that look up to you
7. The feeling of the sun against your face
8. Hearing the words “I love you”
9. Not being able to sleep/the feeling you get the night before a holiday
10. Birthdays
11. Quiet late night drives
12. Missed opportunities and adventures
13. The feeling of lying in bed after a long day
14. Long hot showers
15. Music that you connect with
16. You have a purpose
17. You can change somebody’s life
18. Snowball fights
19. Concerts
20. Watching people fall
21. As long as you heart is beating, there is hope
22. You will regret dying
23. Your dreams
24. Marriage
25. You are enough
26. Pain is only temporary
27. Late night food runs with your friends
28. The sound of rain
29. Reading powerful quotes
30. Eating your favorite foods
31. Stars
32. Good movies
33. Having children
34. Staring at clouds and finding pictures within them
35. Meeting new people
36. Your struggle will make you stronger
37. You have a lot of people that love and support you
38. Being able to say, “I made it”
39. Genuine smiles
40. Bonfires
41. You matter
42. Time heals most wounds
43. Your first apartment/house
44. The crunch of leaves in the fall
45. Finding your soul mate
46. Meaningful hugs
47. Being in/attending someone’s wedding
48. You are worth it
49. Sunday night football
50. The smell of Christmas trees
51. People care about you; lots of them in fact
52. Sunsets
53. Ice cream
54. You are brave
55. Things really do get better
56. Dogs
57. Cats
58. Pets in general
59. Rainbows
60. You are amazing
61. The city
62. Travelling
63. Vacations
64. Road trips
65. Hearing awesome stories
66. Inside jokes
67. Coffee
68. Snowmen
69. Your talents
70. You’ll disappoint the people that love you by letting your illness win
71. The feeling of pure joy/happiness
72. You will be happy one day
73. All-nighters with your friends
74. Cuddling
75. Reunions with your friends/high school/college
76. Re-connecting with someone you haven’t talked to in years
77. Smiling
78. Seeing someone else smile
79. You are beautiful
80. Decorating you house/apartment
81. Capturing perfect moments on camera
82. You would be missed
83. Quiet bookstores/small restaurants
84. Your favorite hobby
85. Swimming on a hot day
86. Being cozied up with blankets
87. Feeling refreshed after a nice nap
88. Helping other people
89. Watching the people you love become successful
90. Becoming successful yourself
91. Babies/little kids
92. Cute old people
93. Love stories
94. You are strong
95. You will be proud that you continued to live
96. The feeling of grass under your feet
97. Telling crazy stories
98. The smell of rain
99. Watching lightning
100. YOU ARE LOVED❤️
(the list is not mine, but i think this is an important message)
You ok?
"Can I rest?"
"No,you're going to get nowhere if you rest"
"I'm tired"
"I don't care"
"I have done everything you've told me and I still can't rest or make you proud?"
take care, i wish you the best. you matter 🤍
@@_csinti_ ive seen you in like 5 of the different comments that are venting.
@@yaemiko9274 ya he has been doing this is multiple videos and on basically every comment
@@getjinxedorgetwithered382 oh ah
@i'm tired if you wnna rest then do it im proud of whatever good you did do everything for urself and what makes u happy...just remember there are still people are proud of u
Let's take a second to appreciate they put a link to a suicide prevention call on this video
me not fnding a n.o for the country i am in wow guess that thats not for me
THE FACT THAT I CANT WATCH THE VIDEO BECAUSE OF IT
Yea, that's some dedication
@@Chans_Fangirl wot?
omg yes
For the past couple days I've actually have been trying get help from a friend because I can't take this anymore. I was on a call with my friend for 8 HOURS, like my god just because I texted them "I want to *unlive* myself". Then they called me like right after that. So I feel loved kinda for once :3
And thank you for reading this if you did! And I am trying to get help with really bad trust issues
I believe in you and I’m proud of you for getting help please remember your thoughts matter and no matter how hard things get the bad moments are only a few hours or days but your life is not it’s something so fragile and lovely please never forget that someone loves you so so much and you mean the absolute world to them and even if you might not know they know it more than you or anyone else could ever ❤