I backslid for 7+ years. God was faithful to bring me back to Him. He used trials to finally break me in various ways. Before I finally realized life is better with Him. I didn’t have a desire to come back but a small desire for that desire. So I prayed for God to give me a desire to have a desire if I’m Hus sheep and not too far gone. He slowly brought me back. The last trial that finally broke me ended up turning into a blessing eventually. There’s still consequences I deal right in my life by my previous decisions but the Lord is so merciful. He’s not willing that any should parish but all come to repentance. None. Even me.
What I realized was nothing is worth not following Him for. No sin satisfies and it doesn’t last anyways. And it just brings lasting consequences. I put so much pressure on myself to be in some sort of spiritual high in order to feel like I wasn’t away from Him or in a spiritual desert. I realize it’s just much more simple than that. Follow His commands. Feelings come and go. It didnt matter if I didn’t “feel” close with God. He just wants obedience. And when we fall, repent. Ask for forgiveness and turn away from it. And don’t put yourself in places that you know you will stumble in. Like bars or with people that aren’t leading the right kind of life. It’s better to have no friends for a season. Unequally yoked relationships. Just not worth it in the end. Hope that helps. ❤️
I really like this testimony ..I got saved in 2005 ,I was on fire for Jesus for 13 years , I loved him read his word prayed worship etc , but in about 2015 I fell into sin and my marriage failed , we divorced and this is when instead of seeking the Lord for me and the marriage and letting the Lord chastened me I fell away into a sinful living ., living with a non believer living very worldly , But these last 5 months Jesus has stated drawing me back to him giving me a hunger for His word , Jesus hasn't finished with me I know this I've the the heartache of finishing my relationship with an unbeliever, I need prayer please.... Jesus hast finished with me He will never leave nor forsake me ... God bless
I thought I was reading something I wrote. I was saved in 2005 & my marriage failed. I fell into a whole lot of years sinning and leaving the lord. I came back to God a year ago and he made me a preacher. Praise Jesus!
This is the latest Word I felt God gave me, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not to your own understanding." Proverbs 3:5, And He told me to live by this Word.
This is an amazinh testimony I have ever heard and this is exactly my story. Thank you very much for giving me hope that I can restore my salvation in Jesus Christ. Here is my story I was backslided 25 years ago after following Jesus for just one year and half at the age of 18 but now starting 7 years ago I am praying frequently for God to restore my salvation again, please christain bros and sis pray for me.
You have no idea what a blessing and encouragement this was for me. I rebelled against God and He allowed me to go through a wilderness of despair, but i know that He has recently begun to restore that relationship I had with Him... it truly felt like i was cast off forever, I cried out to Him one day and told Him “i cant do it its too hard” the next morning i woke up and felt the familiar peace of Jesus that i had longed for .. thank you for your testimony
This same thing happened to me sister for 2 years I was in the pit being tormented every day by my shame and guilt thinking I could never come back, but God Almighty came and pulled me out of the darkness and put me back on track. What I learned was the only thing keeping me away was myself, he was waiting for me to come back the entire time all I had to do was run back into his loving arms. Another thing I learnt is that God used what was meant for my evil and turned it for my Good, my faith is stronger than ever and I also have a new understanding of the abundant love of our God. To whoever is going through this storm, turn back to God with all your heart and he WILL restore you, run to the loving arms of Jesus today he will not turn you away. God bless whoever is reading this and never forget that Jesus will never leave you, he is with you until the end of the age.🙏❤
I cried to God I just want to come home. Prior to hearing this beautiful experience. God bless you to the highest heaven. Your spirit of love and truth was a Huge for me. I was saved at 18. And been gone for many years living in Vegas. In tears I prayed for your and your family and will continue to. I will never forget you thank you . Yes all things work together for good to those who love the Lord and are called according to his purpose. Thank you. Your have made a difference.
I'm not a Bible scholar (and yes, I'm in the middle of that difficult place too), but the book of Hebrews was written to Jewish believers who were returning to animal sacrifice for sins and not Jesus Christ, because of disappointment. One disappointment was that they expected Christ to return right away, and the second was they couldn't endure being persecuted and ostracized by their Jewish families, they'd been fired from their jobs, run out of their homes for receiving Christ as Messiah. Like I said, I'm struggling with questions that I can't answer, so I'm trusting and pursuing the Lord with all my heart and fall on His mercy. There are no Spirit-led churches around here that I can find. I'd love to find one! I will not give up! I don't want anything of or from the world, I just want Jesus!
Guilt, Shame and Condemnation. Fell away and going through the exact same thing you explained in detail. Waiting for my breakthrough.❤️ *I was looking for a testimony someone fell away and got restored*. Thank you for sharing, Sister!!
Because my son a had muscular dystrophy I took care of both my boys. I wanted them to be baptized in the name of Jesus Christ 10 months after my oldest at 19 died and a year later his brother died at 18. I totally couple years after got heavy into drugs from 2016 till 2 or 3 months ago sobered up with Gods help and im back into church and reading his Word.
Thank you for making this video. I have been cut off from God for many years not knowing if I ever really knew Him. In May of 2017 I spoke curse for God to strike me dead and I have been given over to a tormenting spirit. When you spoke about motives, it hit me that my motives have not been what they should be; just wanting the torment to end. I want to feel love in my heart for Jesus and for other. I want to have feelings and emotions again. Not just doom and despair. Your video gives me hope. Thank you so much
I walked close to God for yrs knowing His presence was with me my heart Got cold and selfish and I was sick and I lost my faith feeling it’s to late for me to return
@@cynthia3536 and @Lisa Hughes, here is another powerful testimony to check out. God loves you SO much! I hope this blesses and helps you in your walk back to God. czcams.com/video/fU5i55w12ak/video.html
This video seems totally tailored just for me, and thank you so much for making it! I hope you are still walking with the Lord these days and forever more. God bless!
THANK YOU for this video and channel! YOU HAVE GIVEN ME HOPE! The words and scriptures you refer to are all the ones that came to my mind during this time. It was like you were speaking my heart. I cried through most of your video and prayed in my heart with you at the end. Thank you for the hope. I can tell you there ARE other Christians going through this asking if there is a way to return. They feel hopeless and condemned, too. This video will give them hope! Thank you for your honesty and covering all the scriptures that people struggle with when going through this! Your video is very thorough! Thank you, thank you, thank you!!! God bless you!!
I lost my dad this January. I was so broken. I felt the same way, I was weeping, don't want my dad in hell too. That place is horrible. All I can be praying for now is God should have mercy on him. I miss him. I felt God was using him to punish me. Since I started fasting and praying, I let go everything to God. All I am pray for now is mercy and I say a lot of thank you. And I gave my life to Christ. Hope someday, God will remember me.
I'm only 5 minutes into this and I can relate with everything she went through even the hatman shadow. I'm trying so hard to just hold on to the little faith I've managed to keep. I should have gotten out of this situation a long time ago. God knows he has made many ways for me to but my flesh held on even though I knew it wasn't right. I know it's not to late and I'm praying this is God's will to give me another chance to come back. I'm about to walk away from a house to stay, meals everyday and pretty much everything taken care of because I know the sin I'm living in and I feel the distance the Lord is away for m me and the evil that takes his place. I knew the consequences that come with disobedience of the Lord. I'm sure a lot of people can relate with this same situation. I just think about the thousands of people that don't know that it isn't too late for them or for me. Today I'm gonna start my walk back to the Lord. No home,no car, no job,no money. Only the faith that it isn't too late. God will still provide even when it seems he's nowhere around. I thank you for making this video. I know God intended for me to here this. Ever since I got saved at 27 I've felt that when I got right I'd help others but everytime I've gained my life through Christ I fall back into sin through temptation and disobedience. Everytime things have gotten darker. I pray God will watch over me as I finally make the choice to leave this place and and this sinful way of life to walk toward him for redemption and renewal of my life. God bless you all.
Hello sister Hier testimony got some light in my heart. I strugle since 2013 to try and find my way back. Giving up is not a option but it was very tuff at times. I got much better but still Not satisfied with my state. I want to be on fire again and a light for others two. I can relate to much of what you said amd youre look at the Charakter of God lifted my hope. Be bleesed hopfully we see eachother in Haven. Iam at a prayer and fasting now for Restoration of my purposse in God.
Thank you so much I needed wisdom on this matter, after falling away from God and dealing with the consequences of my sin and willingly turning my back on God. I'm so grateful for you sharing your testimony it has truly reminded me of God's grace and endless love and mercy He has for us. I pray God blesses you and your family. Thank you again truly
Thank you very much for taking the time to tell these things. Some of us have had to go through this terrible ordeal of dread thinking we have crossed that final line with the Father and there no more remains a sacrifice for our sins. I went through this horror back in 2009 and it lasted what seemed like forever and I thought it would never end. These experiences are some of the biggest whips our Father uses to wake us up and get us back in line. I could write a book on what I went through and how those hebrew verses just about took me out. I know one thing for sure and that is those who don’t belong to God could care less about His warnings and will sin on with a high hand and not think much about it. These type stay asleep until the trap door is shut and they are cut off without remedy.
This has been such a blessing to me, thank you for obeying and putting this out there. I’m seeking to get back the love I had for Jesus when I first got saved and to follow him like I once did, I’m struggling with addiction and that’s what keeps me from reading the Bible cause condemnation is real but please keep me in your prayers and you will surely be blessed thank you sis and much love
I’m here with you im a porn addict and im trying to get back to my first love after months and many months of my backsliding I pray that the condemnation would eventually go away and you can finally have peace that in our fathers word God Bless you and don’t lose hope!
@@oursavior9339Brother you van defeat Porn, I was watching it ever y day backslidden far from God but he reconciled me and set me free, he broke my chains , keep seeking him and relying on him he will give you peace in the storm.
What a beautiful testimony. So glad you found your way back to the Lord. Now the Lord is using you to help others come back to the Lord to. Glory to God Thank you for your willingness for being there for others. Love your sweet loving compassionate voice. May it always be used for glory of God. AMEN
@@sumodancer1545 Are you still there??? I feel I did this unpardonable sin. I was so FOOLISH. I needed to STOP I don't eat or sleep either and I wasn't spiritually battling. Depression and FEEL LOST. ..I NEEDED HELP SERIOUSLY. I WANT GOD I NEVER SHOULD HAVE LEFT HIM WHY DID I DO THIS IN THE BEGINNING?? WHY SIN AT ALL??
I have had this sense of being lost ,and it feels l have the lost promptings of the Holy spirit but your message have brought life into my soul .am eternally grateful and so happy for you
Bedumah, if you need a community of other backsliders, please subscribe to the channel 4HisCause here on youtube. Pastor Kenny and his wife are both restored backsliders. God bless you!!😊🙏
So, so many of us go through this. Revival is happening and that means many are believing in Jesus and the Prodigals are coming home. He who is forgiven much, loves much!! Those of us who strayed (me too) know this love is incomprehensible and wondrous! He is our Father, He knows how easily we can get entangled in sin... thank you for making this video to give us hope. His Love is greater than our sin. His mercy is new every morning. He loves you!! Yes, you!!
I got stupid bad. I got Rebaptize then back to bad Spiritually Destruction not Eve Battle lost everything I had I Felt myself go over the cliff never should have done any of this PERIOD. I don't know what to do. I know God is real and got Destruction but why would God Allow it. I am so sick from sjnn. I shouldn't have done this at all didn't even know demons. Didn't even THINK AT ALL .
5mins in I already relate so much i could cry. I've been going through this for months now, and i read scripture and feel condemned almost everytime i read which depresses me cause I want to read it like i used to with God guiding me. But this gives me hope to not give up. I havent felt this joyful in a long while. This process is truly humbling.
Awww. Bless you Bobby! You should join us on the channel called 4HisCause. Pastor Kenny and his wife, Tess, are both restored backsliders and they go live almost every night. My name is Courtney Cannon. Hope to see you there soon! Here's the link to his channel: czcams.com/channels/5ahtd1YnZh_Q4fXGHum12w.html
I am restored 🙏🏻 Guys, you must come to the conclusion that God hasn’t changed!! We have. And it caused us to question everything we know. He restored me little by little!! You must let go of yourself and begin to look at Him as He is!! His ways ARE INFINITE. Take Him out of the box, the unpardonable sin is unbelief. You must REST in His ways being infinite!!! We will never come to the full knowledge of Him 🤣 don’t you see?? Keep on going and don’t give up and He will do it!!! He did it for me!!! He will absolutely do it for you!!!
I relate to this testimony so much. In the beginning it sounds almost like my story even getting caught up in New Age. My issue is different though. I returned to the Lord in 2018 and I was walking with Him faithfully for a few years. He even revealed my calling to me and was giving me prophecies and warnings to share. Suddenly I shared a prophecy and was led to remove it and given a dream that night that there was filth in me that needed to be removed in order for me to continue. I have been struggling a lot since then... I keep being led to the book of Malachi lately and I know that the Lord is trying to tell me something but the thing is just like the people of the book I don't know exactly what I'm doing wrong. Not that I'm denying that there is anything but I can't pinpoint it. I think it's that although I'm still, reading the Bible (usually with a lot of condemnation which causes me to want to close it again), and listening to gospel it's not truly from the heart like it used to be. The Lord keeps telling me to return to Him and I'm trying everything to do that but clearly I'm missing something. Please pray for me!!!
I'm saying a prayer for you, Tee La. The Lord has really had to do a work on my heart to remove things like anger, jealousy, and unforgiveness. I pray He shows you what is standing in the way. Don't ever give up💙
@@tresors-celestes I pray you will get what He's trying to tell you. I've been getting more clarity on what He expects from me. My issue is that I had become complacent. I knew there were things He wanted to do through me and I just got discouraged and lazy. For instance, He wants me to work with children. He had me start with the children in my household as a training ground. I was doing it well then the enemy started to attack it so much I got discouraged and just stopped. Then when I'd do it it'll be whenever I felt like it and not just doing it no matter how I felt like I did before out of obedience. I had also just become lazy in sharing the gospel with others because I knew people weren't listening. Basically I stopped caring about what He wanted and what people needed and was more focused on myself. Now that I understand this I'm working every day to pull myself out of it. Doing what I need to do despite how I feel etc. Oh and I make sure now that I spend time in His presence, not letting the things I'm doing for Him take up the time I should spend with Him. I pray this helps you in some way to see what He may be saying to you. Please keep me in prayer and I'll do the same. We got this! As long as we have a heart that truly wants to understand what He is saying and do it, He will have us the grace.
@@restoringprodigals1764 This is another area that He is dealing with me in. It's HARD! I feel like I forgive but He will show me that I haven't done so from my heart. How did you get to that point? I made the decision but it's like my heart doesn't agree yet.
Some music that is supposed to be for worship is not. The enemy has infiltrated Christianity. Shows, music, really everything in this world can lead us away from God. Dear Heavenly Father, I come to you humbly and with a repentant heart. Forgive me of my sinful nature and desires. My weakness in the flesh. I am moved in my spirit to pray for this sweet sister. I pray for you to give her a clean heart. A pure heart. Remove that heart of stone within her and make it new. You created her. Breathed your beautiful spirit into her and you called her by name. She is chosen, not forsaken. Your word says you hold us in your hands and nothing can pluck us out. Nothing. So I stand in Faith for her. Knowing that even though she feels far from you that you give her eyes to see and ears to hear your voice. Ignite the passion and fire in her spirit for you! Your love. Your face. You! She wants YOU! None of us are happy while we are being disciplined, but the reconciliation that comes after is sweetness for our souls. Please Lord. Have mercy on her. On us all. Your children. Thank you Jesus for your salvation. I pray for you GOOD will to be done in her life. Reveal the source that is causing her anguish and give her strength to let it go. In our weakness, you are made strong. In Jesus name, amen!
I just wanted to give an update. My issue was that I was holding on to bitterness and unforgiveness. I had stopped communication with a friend and sister and Christ and this led me to the tormenters. I listened to and took the advice of a false prophet (the most High revealed this to me in a dream just before He started to restore me). Praise the most High God I have been restored to a right relationship with Him and my sister in Christ and He is again using me as a vessel for good works!!!
Thank you making this video! Everything you mentioned about leaving, the distress spirit has been what I have been feeling for the last 4 years. I sometimes hate going to sleep, and I hate waking up in the morning. The haunting of certain scriptures has been true for me and always has me breaking down in tears and wishing for the pain to go away. I was considering suicide yesterday and wrote a note in my phone to my family explaining my situation. I feel condemned everytime I read the word and I always have this heaviness in my mind. I haven't had an appetite the last few days and I just want to lay in bed and sleep all day. I miss the Lord, this world has nothing to offer me and I see that now fully. I might not have typed this well, but I wanted to share this with anyone else who needed this.
You are not alone. There have seen many people in your situation and it’s spiritual warfare. God allows us to go through this so we know how REAL the battle is. Once you break through (you got to pray til you break through) and you will come out the other side so much stronger. The thing is when some people leave God they go back into the world and they’re actually happy in their delusion and have a false peace for a season, if one tries to come back all of hell will come against them (and that’s a good sign that Satan doesn’t want you coming back and you’re on a right path towards getting right with God). When I came out of my delusion of fake Christianity and how much of a hypocrite I was and that I actually wasn’t saved I had the spirit of fear come on me and lied to me that I had at one time committed the unpardonable sin. I had fear, doubt and unwanted thoughts when I prayed. No matter what I did I felt that the Bible had forgiveness for everyone BUT me. I had a breakthrough and everything lifted and what I had just gone through had all of a sudden scaled down in comparison and became small (spiritually speaking) I came through and kept seeking Jesus and WOW did he ever show me His joy, love, peace and mercy. Satan tried to take me out other ways. Idleness is a big one he tries to do and also idolatry. Jesus loves you and you’re worth fighting for. Don’t give up. Trust me I understand. It’s gets sooooooo much better. ❤️
Also pray against any family curses that’s come down from generation to generation and proclaim the word of God. Say it over and over. Faith come by hearing..
Dear Lord, please be with this person and let them feel your presence. Help their unbelief and anything that’s trying to weigh them down. Help them learn through this trial to take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ and that the real battle starts in the mind. Cover them with your protection and cast out the spirit of fear, condemnation, unbelief, lies, suicide, rejection and torment. Shine your light in their heart and calm the storm raging within their mind. Let them come out of this stronger and show them how to overcome and that this world and this life is but a vapor. Help them to cast their cares upon your for your care so much for them and let them know that your burden is easy and yoke is light. Let them feel your love and peace and to know that in your presence is the fullness of joy. In the mighty name of Jesus Christ the ONLY messiah and true God, amen.
@@texican5619 It's nothing but God that I found this video because something got lifted from my mind as I was listening and I'm fighting and seeking Jesus with all I got. I know I am going to get my break through soon. Knowing that I was not alone gave me so much hope as I walk out this repentance. As I was away from God, I was in despair and anguish 24/7 and I tried to find rest in anything I could get my hands on, but I never could. Every business idea I tried to pursue would melt right between my fingers every time I tried. That delusion I know all too well, I came to my senses a few times and would get knocked right back down into it every time I tried to fight. Recently my favorite worldly artist was killed back in November and the reality of making everything but God my idol, weighed heavy on me to repent and turn back for good. Thank you so much for your words of encouragement!!
There is a CZcamsr that goes by Gabe the street preacher who went through a horrific ordeal with thinking he had crossed that final line and now he’s out preaching the gospel everywhere. He gives a testimony on what he went through that’s worth listening to.
I want to thank you young lady for having the courage to post this video, it tells me that you love and have great concern for those brothers and sisters going through the this issue now ❤️ I’m 68!years old now and I have fallen back into sin a couple times. First time I had been born again 9 months and fell. I not only grieved the Holy Spirit but I quenched Him. Ephesians 4:30 30 And grieve not the holy Spirit of God, whereby ye are sealed unto the day of redemption. Look at that scripture carefully WE’RE SEALED BY HOLY SPIRIT!!! And we’re not to quench Holy Spirit. First Thessalonians 5:19 19 Quench not the Spirit. If you’ve ever felt HOLY SPIRIT in your heart, you are BORN AGAIN. We cannot explain explain that experience to an unbeliever because they couldn’t understand it. The fact that you’ve watched this video tells me that GOD is dealing with you and wants you back in fellowship with Him! I also went through the fearful experience of thinking I done the unpardonable sin. I was extremely afraid, couldn’t sleep, eat, felt like a zombie. Hebrews 6: 4 For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted of the heavenly gift, and were made partakers of the Holy Ghost, v. 5 And have tasted the good word of God, and the powers of the world to come, 6 If they shall fall away, to renew them again unto repentance; seeing they crucify to themselves the Son of God afresh, and put him to an open shame. Examine vs. 5-6 where it says they only TASTED. They didn’t eat . That’s a huge difference! If you think you have done this, I assure you that you haven’t!!! There’s a DVD from John Ankerberg ministry that will help you with Erwin Lutzer . John Ankerberg number is 423-892-7722 Name of DVD is “Hope for those who doubt their salvation. Also there’s a couple more videos on CZcams I think will help you. One is by Pastor David Wilkerson called “The awful consequences of backsliding. Next is “A call to Backslider’s” C.H. Spurgeon. Another is “ I backslid from God, but then this happened, Testimony You can search them on CZcams Just one more note. Before I was saved I didn’t like Christians and didn’t want to be bothered by them. Now I love my brothers and sisters in Christ. First John 3:14 That scripture alone should tell you you’re not lost . I’m going to pray for you all again after I post this. God loves you and want’s to fellowship with you 💯❤️
Thank you so much for this message. I have been feeling so discouraged and feel like God has left me for good and it’s really tormenting me. I’ve fallen into sin too many times after being born again but I promised myself and God that I would not give up. Because the bible says he that endures to the end will be saved. Everytime I feel like giving up I don’t. I miss the Lord so much and pray that he takes me back. This process is trulyyyyy humbling. I believe God has called me to fast and I’ve been on a fast from social media and food and consuming nothing but water for the past 2 days. Thank you for this message it encourages me.
@Sunshine Holly I can’t say I’m doing good but I’m honestly better than before. I need to have faith and meditate on God’s promises and really trust that Jesus paid for ALL of my sins. I’ve seen a lot of your comments on some other videos. How are you doing?
This has been my struggle as well, I too fell away after walking with the Lord, being baptized in the Holy Spirit and having Bible studies at my home for years. I went through a divorce and felt so lost and pleaded with God to take me to heaven. I fell into sin and it’s been two 1/2 years now that I rededicated my life to God, the devil has constantly tormented me that I am not worthy of heaven or the presence of the HolySpirit! I thank you for confirming these scriptures and the story of the prodigal son. I thank the people in the comments as well and I pray Gods Glory and his holy Grace upon each one of us. What the devil would use for destruction, God will use for his Glory. Thank you again and God bless you!
6:30 I AM WORRIED ABOUT THIS 11:28 yes like nothing in the Bible is comforting me 12:15 that is amazing. You did everything you knew to do, you said. I willingly sinned against God
This has been my whole life! 😞 I have been acting and living my life like Saul. Backslid is the WORST thing that you can experience in your life. Especially when the HOLY SPIRIT departs from you. Is HORRIBLE! 😞 Please 🙏 for me! For freedom from bondage!
You have got to subscribe to his channel and join the live chats! Make sure you click the bell to get notifications. It's all the church you need. It's the guy in this video. Very powerful backslider testimony. czcams.com/video/fU5i55w12ak/video.html
Thank you for your honesty and giving us hope. I backslid several times and I feel like God doesn't answer my prayers. I'm continuing to serve Him but why won't He answer me why can't I feel Him!!! Lord hear my cry!!!!!! I have the distressing horrible spirit while I repented and turned back to the Lord. What's really going on!!!
@@roseofsharon2502 I'm doing well don't have to change the station. It seems like when somebody prays over me just gets broken off but when I pray for myself with the things not as powerful but when I pray for someone else they get breakthrough
Hey everyone I was introduced to the gospel by a friend and I started following God he made me not desire my sin anymore and made me happy at work when I wasn't happy and one night I heard him call my name but I didn't know it was him so I was confused. But going through that year I started sinning again falling deep into addictive sin and I realized that what I was doing is wrong and I'm trying to come back to God again the same thing happened I believe he took away my desires I no longer am addicted to sexual sin anymore and I've been trying to fight off temptation. I haven't been cussing and I've been trying to get right with the lord the only thing is I feared I commited the unforgivable sin for some reason even though I worry about it all the time and I feel like he is working in me but I don't know if I was ever saved yet and I've never been baptized willingly but what should I do everyone cause I feel so lost and im scared that I comited the unforgivable sin and I have no chance with God even though I love him
I believe the unforgivable sin is no accepting the sacrifice Jesus made for your sins… there’s a reason you’re trying to come back to the lord, no one could ever try to do so without the lord willing it and drawing them. He has not given up on you. Do not be afraid. I know this is all easier said than done when you’re bombarded with these thoughts of your worst fears but they are a lie. God’s truth is one of hope and mercy which we do not deserve. Mercy and hope. don’t give up❤️ I don’t know exactly what you’re going through but as a backsliding believer myself, I’ve heard all the same lies in my own head keeping me in a place of fear. We have to combat them with God’s word. My favorite verse in the Bible is luke15:10 (I am pretty sure, it’s been a while since I’ve been in my bible) there is joy in heaven when one sinner repents. I am a sinner indeed. So I’d like to believe this is how God will feel when I turn back to him. Luke 15 is a really encouraging chapter. The prodigal son. God loves us! He knew even before he saved us that we would fall! And he still chose to save us. God bless you❤️
I’m going through demon possession. I was deceived for that time in my life I was playing with God even though I was desiring to serve Him and be changed and give myself to Him. When I found out I was possessed I was just begging God to guide me on whether I received or rejected and I found out I received the wrong. I am struggling to hear spiritual things. It only zeros into the bad parts and I’ve been sleepless sometimes and depressed. The morning it happened I prayed to God to change my heart because I just wanted to be right with Him. I was fed up with behaviour to Him and people. I’ve been flickering in faith. First I was strong in the love of Jesus and then for some reason I’ve been struggling to have faith but I’m still trying. I want to get back so much.
I want God back too. This all is Horrible double damning Rebaptize then. Nothing at all. Long ago. Circle and nothing..... I shouldn't have did this at all . Lord I don't even think.
Thank you so much for sharing your testimony, you've brought to many backsliders who thought there was no hope for them. I remember back in 2003 after 11 or 12 years of backsliding and being in a state of basically total blindness to God or the things of God, I was struck with overwhelming fear, conviction, and condemnation. All I expired of God, all the scripture I knew came flooding back to my mind. I was in such an awful state that I had a breakdown; I couldn't function and had to quit my good-paying job as Computer Technician at the University of Connecticut Health Center. I was a total mess and knew I had to try and get right with God. Well, I to read Hebrews 6: and that was it, I was convinced I was doomed and there was nothing I could do about. There is much more to the story, but in regards to Hebrews 6: I was told by a Pastor that portion of scripture was a warning to Jewish Christians who were contemplating denouncing Christianity and returning to Judaism. (I believe it was due to the persecution they were suffering.
Hi thank you for your video. I have fallen once, got up again and fallen again. My story is quite detailed. I don’t know how to ask for help because I don’t think it’s a thing if adding for help. The Word says work out your own salvation with fear and trembling. Therefore perhaps no one can help me. Just wanted to say thank you for the video
What is your biggest advice to someone who has fallen/in backslidden state ? It’s seriously so hard!!! I feel so cut off, I cry & cry & cry. I’ve repented and repented as well. Would I know when I’m restored? I look like a train wreck. My physical health is also declining. I feel better off than when this first happened (almost 7 months ago). Praise Jesus. I’m probably impatient at this point... I also struggle with feeling I’ve gone to far 💔
Angela, I'm just now seeing all your comments. As far as feeling it in your body, I personally have had huge health struggles to overcome that manifested as immune suppression, Lyme disease, and other chronic infections/illness/fatigue. As far as knowing when you are restored, I have experienced a peace and a "knowing" that is hard to explain but it only comes from God. All I can tell you is to keep on pushing and do NOT EVER give up on God. Battling the accuser is still something I find myself dealing with. I came under attack pretty hard after posting this video. I have to remind myself of what God has done for me and how He has shown me great mercy. It helps to journal and write out all the times He has come through for me. Ask the Lord to speak sweetly to you through His word. Keep showing up to 4HisCause's live chats. That man is a blessing with SO much wisdom and a heart to help those who are struggling with this.
Restoring Prodigals thanks for sharing all that! Well thank you for sharing your video it was a blessing to me! God is greater than all this and he will take care of us. Yes I love his messages! It is also such a blessing to fed such biblical truth!
At the age of 44 years old in 1988 I believe I was called by God at that time I fell that God tried very hard with ne The holy Spirit spoke verbally and a meeting in a young pastors place I heard plainly John 14: 6 and I heard that twice. That was in a bible study and there was a older Pastor during praise the older pastor said some ones god a word the ten or fifteen minuet later repeated that I still said nothing> I had only been with God for a very short time, others in the room new it was me but not realy understanding what was going on .My walk was like this all the way through God would try to get me out of trouble but I would fall losing heaps of money and 2 houses To make a long story short in 2009 I move to the Philippines where I got a house and a workshop where I spent all my days. Trouble is I tried fabricating things for the house. Trouble is I am a complainer and attempting to do things I was not use to doing, which God called sin, I repented God would forgive and the next day I would sin again. So it came to this time God placed me under judgement. Unfortunately I tell God the truth even if it is against my self. came a bout a week ago I lied and sin a small lie but none the less a sin, in my prayer I confess my sin and hear these scary words you are lost for ever. Allthough I never really understood God I was devout and attened church and morning devotions. Since I have been in the Philippines my wife started reading with me a grasp it straight away and help me understand but too late the damage has already happened I say I love Jesus and God but my walk seems so week I feel I am a very foolish man But long to be walking now with the Lord. I will listen again to your message and I thankyou so much for it and thank you for trying to help people. This has only happed to me this week but of course I am very concerned and worried over it longing to be back in the rms of God but my own Fault
I’m in so much anxiety all the time, I have gone sooooo far away from God and I just want to make things right. I’m wanting out of my relationship as my bf is not a Christian and I’m just so tired of being miserable. I feel sooooo far gone, like I am definitely the Hebrews person or a rebrobrate mind. I just seem so hopeless and I used to be a mature strong Christian. I’m sooooo confused and tormented 🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️😭😭😭
What i have learned is that those are some of the most misinterpreted verses of the bible. Please join us at church on the wire at the channel 4hiscause and get on the path to healing with us! Here's Pastor Kenny's testimony. It's so very good. czcams.com/video/fU5i55w12ak/video.html
Such a testimony.....iam an addict and currently in recovery.....im trying to return back...my sin has blinded and affected my mind so badly its hard but im trying...i hope one day i will testify about the grace and love of our Saviour Jesus Christ.Amen....Thank you
Stick around for the miracle Jesus Christ loves us. I got 9 months clean and sober in AA and a loving God and brothers and sisters and you bro or sis that help each other draw near to God one day at a time
@@denniss5965 I am in a mess. Sifted stripped and no one said WALK WITH GOD...I did everything in this video and feel.cheated and cut. I didn't have to do Any of this...no spiritual battle...slaughtered.
There is no "trying to come back!" If you recognize your need for Christ and his forgiveness, you simply repent, ask Jesus to make you right with him, to come into your life and you want to follow him as Lord and Savior! He will answer that prayer and will give you the strength to fully recover from your addiction so you can serve him and help others! It is wrong teaching to say it takes years before you are fully redeemed. You are redeemed the moment you open your heart and say yes!!
Hi Macdonald. May I invite you to the CZcams church I attend? This church is led by a restored backslider, a true man of God. His name is Kenny and his channel is called 4HisCause. Me and many others have found healing here.
Thank you! Im under demonic influence I think. I dont feel anything anymore, no conviction when I sin. I just long for the closeness of the father and the holy spirit so I can truly repent.
I will pray for you. Renew your mind in the scriptures to overcome the lies of the enemy. It’s a slow process but God is faithful and you WILL overcome by the blood of the lamb and the word of your testimony.
I'm 31 and I converted at 19 and I was on fire for God. But after a few years, for some reasons, I started to fell back into old sins, little by tittle, until I got the point where I just stop repenting and ended up in a worse state I was before converting. I went on like that for 5 years until I realised how empty my life was. During those 5 years there were some times I asked forgiveness and tried to come back to God but I failed because of the lust of my flesh. Now it's been 6 months that i've tried to come back but it feels like I can't. My heart feels hard. I feel like God left me over my flesh. I abstain from sinning as much as I can but I feel like it's just by my own effort. I repented a ton of times, but I feel like all those prayers are self-generated by myself, instead of by the Holy Spirit drawing me to the Lord. I left the sinful lifestyle I fell into, but still struggle so much with my sexuality (masturbation, pornography, sexual thoughts). I feel totally condemned, I have no joy anymore, I'm in total distress. My life is totally pointless. I pray but nothing happen. I rarely read the Bible because I feel like all the blessing aren't for me and all the warnings are for me, so it's hard to find the motivation... Anyone here is going through what I'm going through and want to talk ? And if there's someone who went through the same situation and was delivered, they would be more than welcome to help me. I am so desperate, it feels I lost my faith and my connection with God totally. That you very much.
I don't know what the answer is, but you're not alone. You're not the only one with this issue. I converted to Christianity at 14, and at 16 years old I decided to do my own thing. Over the years I drank, smoked, slept out of wedlock, lusted, acted out of selfishness, and worst of all, denied my faith.......the last one hurts me the most, I pray Jesus will forgive me. I even blamed God for my problems, screaming at him for my issues in my life. I cursed at God.....blaming him for my problems. This all happened in my twenties. Now, at 31 I feel drawn back to him. I still can't explain it excect i was drawn back to him. I don't know how it happened, but it happened literally overnight. I began seeking him, and I don't know where the desire came from but it came. I can't help but think it was Jesus giving me the nudge I needed back onto the right path. We DONT deserve his forgiveness, however he will forgive us if we repent and confess our love for him. We all have a peter inside of us. Jesus forgave Peter. I pray he forgives me as well, and I will ask him everyday for his guidance and forgiveness. I don't deserve his forgiveness, none of us do. But Jesus loves us, God loves us.
Well my story is alike yours, I did pretty much all your things. It's just that I ended up being so empty inside, I became very depressed, sad, and everything I did seemed so pointless. So I realised how fool I had been for turning away from Jesus. So I forsook my sinful lifestyle and repented, tried to come back to God but unlike you, I feel like all that are by my own effort, instead of Jesus drawing me to him... like my sin took me to a deep state of desperation, and now I'm trying on my own to come back in the faith but it's not working. I have moments where I feel better, but it doesn't last. Most of the time I feel fear, desperate, etc. As if the Holy Spirit left me. Beyond my sins themselves, they made a lot of damage in me. I became pride and very selfish. I hate what I became and I feel like I'm not able to completely abandon myself to Jesus, even if I try. As I said I left my sins but I steal feel my flesh being attracted by worldly things, even if I hate those and that my mind wants Jesus. I'm very scared that my sins made just too much damage and that I am part of those spoken in Hebrew 6 4-6. During those years in sins, my conscious often warned my that I should go back to God. What did I do ? I said to myself "well, I'll just repent later later but not right away". What a fool I was, what a stupid mentality I had. I took God for granted... DON'T EVER DO THAT EVERYONE !! VERY DANGEROUS. There is absolutely nothing in this world that is worth replacing God. NOTHING. The only real lasting love, joy and peace are from Jesus, not from anything else. I'm happy for you if you were restored after your years of wandering. I hope I will find the light again but meanwhile it's very tough
I believe I have backslid so many times that the Lord Don want me anymore😞😢 I have been so foolish. I have went back to my sin for so many years and even had a vision of the Lord rejecting me (I was not sleep). Even since that He was warning me not to go back to sin but I went back to it think "He will forgive me". I hate myself for being so selfish and disobedience. I Regret everything I've done. I truly need to contact those who are serving the Lord wholeheartedly. Please reach out to me if this is you, or if you can please take time out and have a heart to heart prayer talk to the Lord and intercede for me😔🙏
I replied to you earlier but now I'm not seeing my comment. Please join us for church on the wire at the channel called 4HisCause. It is Pastor Kenny, and it's the only church you need right now. He has a real heart for helping people in your (our) boat!! Subscribe to his channel and click the bell for notifications so you catch the lives. Hang in there, dear bro or sis. Come to Brother Kenny's channel and get some real spiritual nourishment and healing. And look at the other vids on this channel. Bro Kenny's testimony is one of them.
@@tinacampbell3941 wow. The last 6 to 7 months since I posted this have been very trying (divorce, etc). I'll post a video update when the time is right. You know me as Courtney Cannon on Pastor Kenny's channel, btw.😊❤
@@restoringprodigals1764 oh ok Courtney!!! Awww thanks for getting back to me!! I will pray for you ... I went through a divorce myself and it’s sooo painful. I will keep praying for you. I will see you at church on the wire 🤗🤗💕💕✝️✝️
Hi Recently I've been taking the Lord for granted, and I have a hard heart and I feel dead physical, can you pray for me that God frees me and helps me.
I always gonna have you in my prayers ❤❤ GOD LOVES AND WANTS US TO BE WITH HIM❤❤ I myself am a backslider. 2022-2023. Blasphemy thoughts from devil made me think I wasn't saved which made me back going into sin. I was depressed and watched porn and did others sin I haven't did before. I have renew my salvation but still struggling but God sent me a verse about calming down my fears. I am still going through a lot but I know God has a plan for me and other believers that are going through this. This christian journey isnt easy. I'm still experiencing blasphemy thoughts but I promise myself and prayed I dont walk away from God EVER AGAIN. ❤ I love God, The Holy Spirit and the Lord. I don't want to go back to wordly things but I'm keeping a sin I'm still struggling with. The enemy is trying to drag me back to sin. THE DEVIL IS A LAIR. I'm praying for everyone, my brothers and sisters in Christ❤❤
Hi, @Restoring Prodigals! I prayed for God to give me an understanding of Hebrews 6:4-6. So, this scripture is referring to someone whose heart towards God has been so severely hardened that it can't get to a place of repentance. It doesn't sound like your heart was hardened towards God, but rather confused about God's plan. It sounds like you fell away, because you were dealing with an orphan spirit. When a person gets to a place where they are hardened towards God in Hebrews 6, that person doesn't even want to repent. That wasn't the case for you.
0:20 I honestly don't, I just don't want to be tortured by demons and then go to hell. I mostly want to die for multiple reasons, im angry about being kept alive and if I'm going to be forced to stay alive I really don't want to look like I'm amish and I'm incredibly angry about it.
I keep having blasphemous thoughts and that's caused torment and unbelief and I feel like I'm too far from reach. I feel dull. Like my heart is too hard to repent. It's been like 2.5 years since I've been in His presence.
@@mattrayhons2011 I wish I could say yes but no. What are you going through? I keep wanting to quit my job just to seek His help but I don't know if I can
Hi, I’m afraid I’ve been cut off from God forever. I followed Him for 5 years but then I started falling into sin and had mental health problems that manifested in psychosis and strange ideas. I walked away from God then stopped believing in Him and then even started believing some pagan and Satanic ideas. I woke up one day realizing it was all terrible and delusional but I’m worried it’s too late. It’s been months of praying and the demons have gotten worse. I was filled with the Holy Spirit before… never had these problems. Now I fear I’ve committed the unpardonable. Help!
How are you doing now. I also walked with the Holy Spirit and them I started having blasphemous thoughts and feeling condemned. I am feeling like my heart is too hard to repent. My thoughts also feel very satanic. I sometimes experience the touch of the Holy Spirit in sporadic moments but most of the time I feel like very dull. I want to want to come back. Do you have social media maybe we can talk?
I backslid for 7+ years. God was faithful to bring me back to Him. He used trials to finally break me in various ways. Before I finally realized life is better with Him. I didn’t have a desire to come back but a small desire for that desire. So I prayed for God to give me a desire to have a desire if I’m Hus sheep and not too far gone. He slowly brought me back. The last trial that finally broke me ended up turning into a blessing eventually. There’s still consequences I deal right in my life by my previous decisions but the Lord is so merciful. He’s not willing that any should parish but all come to repentance. None. Even me.
That's awesome you came back 7 years must of been really hard, I'm 1 and a half years backslidden and I can't find repentance with God
What I realized was nothing is worth not following Him for. No sin satisfies and it doesn’t last anyways. And it just brings lasting consequences. I put so much pressure on myself to be in some sort of spiritual high in order to feel like I wasn’t away from Him or in a spiritual desert. I realize it’s just much more simple than that. Follow His commands. Feelings come and go. It didnt matter if I didn’t “feel” close with God. He just wants obedience. And when we fall, repent. Ask for forgiveness and turn away from it. And don’t put yourself in places that you know you will stumble in. Like bars or with people that aren’t leading the right kind of life. It’s better to have no friends for a season. Unequally yoked relationships. Just not worth it in the end. Hope that helps. ❤️
@@rossbenay6526 hi how are you now?
@andyoudontknowwhen
How long were you saved before you backslid?
I really like this testimony ..I got saved in 2005 ,I was on fire for Jesus for 13 years , I loved him read his word prayed worship etc , but in about 2015 I fell into sin and my marriage failed , we divorced and this is when instead of seeking the Lord for me and the marriage and letting the Lord chastened me I fell away into a sinful living ., living with a non believer living very worldly , But these last 5 months Jesus has stated drawing me back to him giving me a hunger for His word , Jesus hasn't finished with me I know this I've the the heartache of finishing my relationship with an unbeliever, I need prayer please.... Jesus hast finished with me
He will never leave nor forsake me ... God bless
I thought I was reading something I wrote. I was saved in 2005 & my marriage failed. I fell into a whole lot of years sinning and leaving the lord. I came back to God a year ago and he made me a preacher. Praise Jesus!
This is the latest Word I felt God gave me, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not to your own understanding." Proverbs 3:5, And He told me to live by this Word.
Romans 11:23 (KJV) And they also, if they abide not still in unbelief, shall be graffed in: for God is able to graff them in again.
Amen!
I'm coming back Lord! ✝️❤
Please forgive me. I miss you 🥺
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Pray for me I am a truly saved and born again Christian I am backslidden and please pray for me I want to come back to the lord
@@sebastiancloss8639 The Lord draw you closer to Himself.
Go back now, He's expecting you.😊
This is an amazinh testimony I have ever heard and this is exactly my story. Thank you very much for giving me hope that I can restore my salvation in Jesus Christ. Here is my story I was backslided 25 years ago after following Jesus for just one year and half at the age of 18 but now starting 7 years ago I am praying frequently for God to restore my salvation again, please christain bros and sis pray for me.
How you doing now?
This is a great sermon m.czcams.com/video/ddokjfxR5Zw/video.html
marriage is a vow. It cannot be broken. god expects us to keep our vows, oaths and promises.
How are you now
You have no idea what a blessing and encouragement this was for me. I rebelled against God and He allowed me to go through a wilderness of despair, but i know that He has recently begun to restore that relationship I had with Him... it truly felt like i was cast off forever, I cried out to Him one day and told Him “i cant do it its too hard” the next morning i woke up and felt the familiar peace of Jesus that i had longed for .. thank you for your testimony
How long it? Thanks for answering
how are you now ?
@Diana So are you restored, and how long did you suffer?
God is sooooo good!!! I still listen to your story Courtney!!!
This same thing happened to me sister for 2 years I was in the pit being tormented every day by my shame and guilt thinking I could never come back, but God Almighty came and pulled me out of the darkness and put me back on track. What I learned was the only thing keeping me away was myself, he was waiting for me to come back the entire time all I had to do was run back into his loving arms. Another thing I learnt is that God used what was meant for my evil and turned it for my Good, my faith is stronger than ever and I also have a new understanding of the abundant love of our God. To whoever is going through this storm, turn back to God with all your heart and he WILL restore you, run to the loving arms of Jesus today he will not turn you away. God bless whoever is reading this and never forget that Jesus will never leave you, he is with you until the end of the age.🙏❤
I cried to God I just want to come home. Prior to hearing this beautiful experience. God bless you to the highest heaven. Your spirit of love and truth was a Huge for me. I was saved at 18. And been gone for many years living in Vegas. In tears I prayed for your and your family and will continue to. I will never forget you thank you . Yes all things work together for good to those who love the Lord and are called according to his purpose. Thank you. Your have made a difference.
I'm not a Bible scholar (and yes, I'm in the middle of that difficult place too), but the book of Hebrews was written to Jewish believers who were returning to animal sacrifice for sins and not Jesus Christ, because of disappointment. One disappointment was that they expected Christ to return right away, and the second was they couldn't endure being persecuted and ostracized by their Jewish families, they'd been fired from their jobs, run out of their homes for receiving Christ as Messiah.
Like I said, I'm struggling with questions that I can't answer, so I'm trusting and pursuing the Lord with all my heart and fall on His mercy.
There are no Spirit-led churches around here that I can find. I'd love to find one!
I will not give up! I don't want anything of or from the world, I just want Jesus!
Guilt, Shame and Condemnation.
Fell away and going through the exact same thing you explained in detail. Waiting for my breakthrough.❤️ *I was looking for a testimony someone fell away and got restored*. Thank you for sharing, Sister!!
Hi
How are you now?
How are you sunshine? I see your comments here and there..are you restored at this point?
@Sunshine Holly how are you doing today?
@Sunshine Holly are you struggling with anxiety and depression too?
Thank you for this! God Bless you 🙏🤗
I needed this so much! Thank you❤
Because my son a had muscular dystrophy I took care of both my boys. I wanted them to be baptized in the name of Jesus Christ 10 months after my oldest at 19 died and a year later his brother died at 18. I totally couple years after got heavy into drugs from 2016 till 2 or 3 months ago sobered up with Gods help and im back into church and reading his Word.
Thank you for sharing this is exactly what I needed to hear ❤️
Thank you for making this video. I have been cut off from God for many years not knowing if I ever really knew Him. In May of 2017 I spoke curse for God to strike me dead and I have been given over to a tormenting spirit. When you spoke about motives, it hit me that my motives have not been what they should be; just wanting the torment to end. I want to feel love in my heart for Jesus and for other. I want to have feelings and emotions again. Not just doom and despair. Your video gives me hope. Thank you so much
@@courtneybaxter3498 Thank you so much. I will take any advice and so appreciate your response.
I walked close to God for yrs knowing His presence was with me my heart Got cold and selfish and I was sick and I lost my faith feeling it’s to late for me to return
@@cynthia3536 and @Lisa Hughes, here is another powerful testimony to check out. God loves you SO much! I hope this blesses and helps you in your walk back to God. czcams.com/video/fU5i55w12ak/video.html
Lisa Hughes how are you now?
God loves you Lisa.
Good video! Thank you for reminding me!
This video seems totally tailored just for me, and thank you so much for making it! I hope you are still walking with the Lord these days and forever more. God bless!
That is a blessing to me..Thank you and May God continue to bless you.
Amen.
Jesus I give you my heart, my soul, and my heart.
Wow thanks for sharing this! I've been living a sinful life
Thank you for your brave Testimony
Thank you for your testimony. May God bless you mightily. It was an on time word from an on time God!
Thank You, Needed this
Thank you for your transparency, a huge help in my walk. God bless you
Excellent video.
This video may help many people. It was a very touching testimony, well done sis.
Murph. 😊👍❤❤❤
Powerful testimony, thank you so much for sharing this.. I am so happy i came across this.. may God bless you.
This was really encouraging and inspiring may God bless you sister
Thank you 🙏 so much for this ma’am, you are truly a testimony
God bless me and you Christian Sister, I praise God, repent for my sins, and pray for Gods will in my life.
Jesus Christ is my Saviour
This is amazing. Completely reflects my testimony and the battles we have against Satan. PRAISE THE LORD 🙏♥️
THANK YOU for this video and channel! YOU HAVE GIVEN ME HOPE!
The words and scriptures you refer to are all the ones that came to my mind during this time. It was like you were speaking my heart. I cried through most of your video and prayed in my heart with you at the end. Thank you for the hope.
I can tell you there ARE other Christians going through this asking if there is a way to return. They feel hopeless and condemned, too. This video will give them hope!
Thank you for your honesty and covering all the scriptures that people struggle with when going through this! Your video is very thorough! Thank you, thank you, thank you!!! God bless you!!
Donna, your comment brought tears. I am so glad your were blessed through my testimony. God's mercy is so vast! God bless you sweet sister.
Hello, Dona how are you doing? Hope your doing better I’ve also been at a loss trying to make my way back to God after feeling like it’s impossible
I needed this 😭💕🧡
Thank you so much was very encouraging....🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
I lost my dad this January. I was so broken. I felt the same way, I was weeping, don't want my dad in hell too. That place is horrible. All I can be praying for now is God should have mercy on him. I miss him. I felt God was using him to punish me. Since I started fasting and praying, I let go everything to God. All I am pray for now is mercy and I say a lot of thank you. And I gave my life to Christ. Hope someday, God will remember me.
I'm only 5 minutes into this and I can relate with everything she went through even the hatman shadow. I'm trying so hard to just hold on to the little faith I've managed to keep.
I should have gotten out of this situation a long time ago. God knows he has made many ways for me to but my flesh held on even though I knew it wasn't right. I know it's not to late and I'm praying this is God's will to give me another chance to come back. I'm about to walk away from a house to stay, meals everyday and pretty much everything taken care of because I know the sin I'm living in and I feel the distance the Lord is away for m me and the evil that takes his place.
I knew the consequences that come with disobedience of the Lord.
I'm sure a lot of people can relate with this same situation. I just think about the thousands of people that don't know that it isn't too late for them or for me.
Today I'm gonna start my walk back to the Lord. No home,no car, no job,no money.
Only the faith that it isn't too late. God will still provide even when it seems he's nowhere around.
I thank you for making this video. I know God intended for me to here this.
Ever since I got saved at 27 I've felt that when I got right I'd help others but everytime I've gained my life through Christ I fall back into sin through temptation and disobedience. Everytime things have gotten darker. I pray God will watch over me as I finally make the choice to leave this place and and this sinful way of life to walk toward him for redemption and renewal of my life.
God bless you all.
Hello sister
Hier testimony got some light in my heart.
I strugle since 2013 to try and find my way back.
Giving up is not a option but it was very tuff at times.
I got much better but still Not satisfied with my state. I want to be on fire again and a light for others two.
I can relate to much of what you said amd youre look at the Charakter of God lifted my hope.
Be bleesed hopfully we see eachother in Haven.
Iam at a prayer and fasting now for Restoration of my purposse in God.
Why we are alive he is truely rich in Mercy - I pray everyone presses in and is abedient and guided by the holy spirit - in Jesus name amen
How beautiful is the word of truth applied to this hurting heart!
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Thank you so much I needed wisdom on this matter, after falling away from God and dealing with the consequences of my sin and willingly turning my back on God. I'm so grateful for you sharing your testimony it has truly reminded me of God's grace and endless love and mercy He has for us. I pray God blesses you and your family. Thank you again truly
How are you now?
My heart fell away I want jesus so much
😢💓.... it's been so hard for so long I'm glad I found this video,
Thank you once again
Thank you very much for taking the time to tell these things. Some of us have had to go through this terrible ordeal of dread thinking we have crossed that final line with the Father and there no more remains a sacrifice for our sins. I went through this horror back in 2009 and it lasted what seemed like forever and I thought it would never end. These experiences are some of the biggest whips our Father uses to wake us up and get us back in line. I could write a book on what I went through and how those hebrew verses just about took me out. I know one thing for sure and that is those who don’t belong to God could care less about His warnings and will sin on with a high hand and not think much about it. These type stay asleep until the trap door is shut and they are cut off without remedy.
@Time Allen
How long was it before you were restored?
Hello how long you were restored?
What happened?
This has been such a blessing to me, thank you for obeying and putting this out there. I’m seeking to get back the love I had for Jesus when I first got saved and to follow him like I once did, I’m struggling with addiction and that’s what keeps me from reading the Bible cause condemnation is real but please keep me in your prayers and you will surely be blessed thank you sis and much love
I’m here with you im a porn addict and im trying to get back to my first love after months and many months of my backsliding I pray that the condemnation would eventually go away and you can finally have peace that in our fathers word God Bless you and don’t lose hope!
@@oursavior9339Brother you van defeat Porn, I was watching it ever y day backslidden far from God but he reconciled me and set me free, he broke my chains , keep seeking him and relying on him he will give you peace in the storm.
You are a very good speaker btw!
Thank you sister 😊
What a beautiful testimony. So glad you found your way back to the Lord. Now the Lord is using you to help others come back to the Lord to. Glory to God Thank you for your willingness for being there for others. Love your sweet loving compassionate voice. May it always be used for glory of God. AMEN
Thank you so much dear, sis.
Please pray for me ...I got into all this and did some willful and unwilful sins ..but disobedience to God. Please I want Healing .
@@TriciaRP I pray strength and healing into your life
@@sumodancer1545 Are you still there??? I feel I did this unpardonable sin. I was so FOOLISH. I needed to STOP
I don't eat or sleep either and I wasn't spiritually battling. Depression and FEEL LOST. ..I NEEDED HELP SERIOUSLY. I WANT GOD
I NEVER SHOULD HAVE LEFT HIM
WHY DID I DO THIS IN THE BEGINNING?? WHY SIN AT ALL??
@@triciaperry2234 hi how are you now?
I have had this sense of being lost ,and it feels l have the lost promptings of the Holy spirit but your message have brought life into my soul .am eternally grateful and so happy for you
Bedumah, if you need a community of other backsliders, please subscribe to the channel 4HisCause here on youtube. Pastor Kenny and his wife are both restored backsliders. God bless you!!😊🙏
@@restoringprodigals1764thanks dear I have started listening to him on utube
@@bedumahdoxa2292 good!
Bedumah Doxa how are you now?
❤THANK YOU FOR SHARING ❤
Thank you sister.
So, so many of us go through this. Revival is happening and that means many are believing in Jesus and the Prodigals are coming home. He who is forgiven much, loves much!! Those of us who strayed (me too) know this love is incomprehensible and wondrous! He is our Father, He knows how easily we can get entangled in sin... thank you for making this video to give us hope. His Love is greater than our sin. His mercy is new every morning. He loves you!! Yes, you!!
I got stupid bad. I got Rebaptize then back to bad Spiritually Destruction not Eve Battle lost everything I had I Felt myself go over the cliff never should have done any of this PERIOD. I don't know what to do. I know God is real and got Destruction but why would God Allow it. I am so sick from sjnn. I shouldn't have done this at all didn't even know demons. Didn't even THINK AT ALL .
@Trasea did you lose your conviction
5mins in I already relate so much i could cry. I've been going through this for months now, and i read scripture and feel condemned almost everytime i read which depresses me cause I want to read it like i used to with God guiding me. But this gives me hope to not give up. I havent felt this joyful in a long while. This process is truly humbling.
Awww. Bless you Bobby! You should join us on the channel called 4HisCause. Pastor Kenny and his wife, Tess, are both restored backsliders and they go live almost every night. My name is Courtney Cannon. Hope to see you there soon! Here's the link to his channel: czcams.com/channels/5ahtd1YnZh_Q4fXGHum12w.html
@@restoringprodigals1764 Thank you! Hope to see you too in the lives. Much love♥️
@@restoringprodigals1764 Heyy is it okay if I can get in contact with you? Maybe through Gmail or social media?
@@bobbysime7332 hi bobby! Can i contact you about this matter? i am also dealing with the same thing.
@@cjsantos7373 Yea sure, where?
I am restored 🙏🏻 Guys, you must come to the conclusion that God hasn’t changed!! We have. And it caused us to question everything we know. He restored me little by little!! You must let go of yourself and begin to look at Him as He is!! His ways ARE INFINITE. Take Him out of the box, the unpardonable sin is unbelief. You must REST in His ways being infinite!!! We will never come to the full knowledge of Him 🤣 don’t you see?? Keep on going and don’t give up and He will do it!!! He did it for me!!! He will absolutely do it for you!!!
Thank you 🙏
I related to this so deeply. I pray that anyone who has stepped away would repent and return to the good sheltered.
Shepherd*^
@timothytyson2164 what if your heart isn’t broken though but you still repent did you loose your conviction
I relate to this testimony so much. In the beginning it sounds almost like my story even getting caught up in New Age. My issue is different though. I returned to the Lord in 2018 and I was walking with Him faithfully for a few years. He even revealed my calling to me and was giving me prophecies and warnings to share. Suddenly I shared a prophecy and was led to remove it and given a dream that night that there was filth in me that needed to be removed in order for me to continue. I have been struggling a lot since then... I keep being led to the book of Malachi lately and I know that the Lord is trying to tell me something but the thing is just like the people of the book I don't know exactly what I'm doing wrong. Not that I'm denying that there is anything but I can't pinpoint it. I think it's that although I'm still, reading the Bible (usually with a lot of condemnation which causes me to want to close it again), and listening to gospel it's not truly from the heart like it used to be. The Lord keeps telling me to return to Him and I'm trying everything to do that but clearly I'm missing something. Please pray for me!!!
I'm saying a prayer for you, Tee La. The Lord has really had to do a work on my heart to remove things like anger, jealousy, and unforgiveness. I pray He shows you what is standing in the way. Don't ever give up💙
@@tresors-celestes I pray you will get what He's trying to tell you. I've been getting more clarity on what He expects from me. My issue is that I had become complacent. I knew there were things He wanted to do through me and I just got discouraged and lazy. For instance, He wants me to work with children. He had me start with the children in my household as a training ground. I was doing it well then the enemy started to attack it so much I got discouraged and just stopped. Then when I'd do it it'll be whenever I felt like it and not just doing it no matter how I felt like I did before out of obedience. I had also just become lazy in sharing the gospel with others because I knew people weren't listening. Basically I stopped caring about what He wanted and what people needed and was more focused on myself. Now that I understand this I'm working every day to pull myself out of it. Doing what I need to do despite how I feel etc. Oh and I make sure now that I spend time in His presence, not letting the things I'm doing for Him take up the time I should spend with Him. I pray this helps you in some way to see what He may be saying to you. Please keep me in prayer and I'll do the same. We got this! As long as we have a heart that truly wants to understand what He is saying and do it, He will have us the grace.
@@restoringprodigals1764 This is another area that He is dealing with me in. It's HARD! I feel like I forgive but He will show me that I haven't done so from my heart. How did you get to that point? I made the decision but it's like my heart doesn't agree yet.
Some music that is supposed to be for worship is not. The enemy has infiltrated Christianity. Shows, music, really everything in this world can lead us away from God.
Dear Heavenly Father, I come to you humbly and with a repentant heart. Forgive me of my sinful nature and desires. My weakness in the flesh. I am moved in my spirit to pray for this sweet sister. I pray for you to give her a clean heart. A pure heart. Remove that heart of stone within her and make it new. You created her. Breathed your beautiful spirit into her and you called her by name. She is chosen, not forsaken. Your word says you hold us in your hands and nothing can pluck us out. Nothing. So I stand in Faith for her. Knowing that even though she feels far from you that you give her eyes to see and ears to hear your voice. Ignite the passion and fire in her spirit for you! Your love. Your face. You! She wants YOU! None of us are happy while we are being disciplined, but the reconciliation that comes after is sweetness for our souls. Please Lord. Have mercy on her. On us all. Your children. Thank you Jesus for your salvation. I pray for you GOOD will to be done in her life. Reveal the source that is causing her anguish and give her strength to let it go. In our weakness, you are made strong. In Jesus name, amen!
I just wanted to give an update. My issue was that I was holding on to bitterness and unforgiveness. I had stopped communication with a friend and sister and Christ and this led me to the tormenters. I listened to and took the advice of a false prophet (the most High revealed this to me in a dream just before He started to restore me). Praise the most High God I have been restored to a right relationship with Him and my sister in Christ and He is again using me as a vessel for good works!!!
Thank you making this video! Everything you mentioned about leaving, the distress spirit has been what I have been feeling for the last 4 years. I sometimes hate going to sleep, and I hate waking up in the morning. The haunting of certain scriptures has been true for me and always has me breaking down in tears and wishing for the pain to go away. I was considering suicide yesterday and wrote a note in my phone to my family explaining my situation. I feel condemned everytime I read the word and I always have this heaviness in my mind. I haven't had an appetite the last few days and I just want to lay in bed and sleep all day. I miss the Lord, this world has nothing to offer me and I see that now fully. I might not have typed this well, but I wanted to share this with anyone else who needed this.
You are not alone. There have seen many people in your situation and it’s spiritual warfare. God allows us to go through this so we know how REAL the battle is. Once you break through (you got to pray til you break through) and you will come out the other side so much stronger. The thing is when some people leave God they go back into the world and they’re actually happy in their delusion and have a false peace for a season, if one tries to come back all of hell will come against them (and that’s a good sign that Satan doesn’t want you coming back and you’re on a right path towards getting right with God). When I came out of my delusion of fake Christianity and how much of a hypocrite I was and that I actually wasn’t saved I had the spirit of fear come on me and lied to me that I had at one time committed the unpardonable sin. I had fear, doubt and unwanted thoughts when I prayed. No matter what I did I felt that the Bible had forgiveness for everyone BUT me. I had a breakthrough and everything lifted and what I had just gone through had all of a sudden scaled down in comparison and became small (spiritually speaking) I came through and kept seeking Jesus and WOW did he ever show me His joy, love, peace and mercy. Satan tried to take me out other ways. Idleness is a big one he tries to do and also idolatry.
Jesus loves you and you’re worth fighting for. Don’t give up. Trust me I understand. It’s gets sooooooo much better. ❤️
Also pray against any family curses that’s come down from generation to generation and proclaim the word of God. Say it over and over. Faith come by hearing..
Dear Lord, please be with this person and let them feel your presence. Help their unbelief and anything that’s trying to weigh them down. Help them learn through this trial to take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ and that the real battle starts in the mind. Cover them with your protection and cast out the spirit of fear, condemnation, unbelief, lies, suicide, rejection and torment. Shine your light in their heart and calm the storm raging within their mind. Let them come out of this stronger and show them how to overcome and that this world and this life is but a vapor. Help them to cast their cares upon your for your care so much for them and let them know that your burden is easy and yoke is light. Let them feel your love and peace and to know that in your presence is the fullness of joy.
In the mighty name of Jesus Christ the ONLY messiah and true God, amen.
@@texican5619 It's nothing but God that I found this video because something got lifted from my mind as I was listening and I'm fighting and seeking Jesus with all I got. I know I am going to get my break through soon. Knowing that I was not alone gave me so much hope as I walk out this repentance. As I was away from God, I was in despair and anguish 24/7 and I tried to find rest in anything I could get my hands on, but I never could. Every business idea I tried to pursue would melt right between my fingers every time I tried. That delusion I know all too well, I came to my senses a few times and would get knocked right back down into it every time I tried to fight. Recently my favorite worldly artist was killed back in November and the reality of making everything but God my idol, weighed heavy on me to repent and turn back for good. Thank you so much for your words of encouragement!!
@@texican5619 can we talk messenger pls?
John Macarthur helped me a lot with Hebrews 6.
There is a CZcamsr that goes by Gabe the street preacher who went through a horrific ordeal with thinking he had crossed that final line and now he’s out preaching the gospel everywhere. He gives a testimony on what he went through that’s worth listening to.
Can u put the link
Thank you sister ❤❤❤
I want to thank you young lady for having the courage to post this video, it tells me that you love and have great concern for those brothers and sisters going through the this issue now ❤️
I’m 68!years old now and I have fallen back into sin a couple times.
First time I had been born again 9 months and fell.
I not only grieved the Holy Spirit but I quenched Him.
Ephesians 4:30 30 And grieve not the holy Spirit of God, whereby ye are sealed unto the day of redemption.
Look at that scripture carefully WE’RE SEALED BY HOLY SPIRIT!!!
And we’re not to quench Holy Spirit. First Thessalonians 5:19 19 Quench not the Spirit.
If you’ve ever felt HOLY SPIRIT in your heart, you are BORN AGAIN.
We cannot explain explain that experience to an unbeliever because they couldn’t understand it.
The fact that you’ve watched this video tells me that GOD is dealing with you and wants you back in fellowship with Him!
I also went through the fearful experience of thinking I done the unpardonable sin.
I was extremely afraid, couldn’t sleep, eat, felt like a zombie.
Hebrews 6: 4 For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted of the heavenly gift, and were made partakers of the Holy Ghost, v. 5 And have tasted the good word of God, and the powers of the world to come,
6 If they shall fall away, to renew them again unto repentance; seeing they crucify to themselves the Son of God afresh, and put him to an open shame.
Examine vs. 5-6 where it says they only TASTED.
They didn’t eat . That’s a huge difference!
If you think you have done this, I assure you that you haven’t!!!
There’s a DVD from John Ankerberg ministry that will help you with Erwin Lutzer .
John Ankerberg number is 423-892-7722
Name of DVD is “Hope for those who doubt their salvation.
Also there’s a couple more videos on CZcams I think will help you.
One is by Pastor David Wilkerson called “The awful consequences of backsliding.
Next is “A call to Backslider’s” C.H. Spurgeon.
Another is “ I backslid from God, but then this happened, Testimony
You can search them on CZcams
Just one more note.
Before I was saved I didn’t like Christians and didn’t want to be bothered by them.
Now I love my brothers and sisters in Christ. First John 3:14
That scripture alone should tell you you’re not lost .
I’m going to pray for you all again after I post this.
God loves you and want’s to fellowship with you 💯❤️
Thank you so much for this message. I have been feeling so discouraged and feel like God has left me for good and it’s really tormenting me. I’ve fallen into sin too many times after being born again but I promised myself and God that I would not give up. Because the bible says he that endures to the end will be saved. Everytime I feel like giving up I don’t. I miss the Lord so much and pray that he takes me back. This process is trulyyyyy humbling. I believe God has called me to fast and I’ve been on a fast from social media and food and consuming nothing but water for the past 2 days. Thank you for this message it encourages me.
@Sunshine Holly I can’t say I’m doing good but I’m honestly better than before. I need to have faith and meditate on God’s promises and really trust that Jesus paid for ALL of my sins.
I’ve seen a lot of your comments on some other videos. How are you doing?
@Sunshine Holly what happened?
@Sunshine Holly me too :(
This has been my struggle as well, I too fell away after walking with the Lord, being baptized in the Holy Spirit and having Bible studies at my home for years. I went through a divorce and felt so lost and pleaded with God to take me to heaven. I fell into sin and it’s been two 1/2 years now that I rededicated my life to God, the devil has constantly tormented me that I am not worthy of heaven or the presence of the HolySpirit! I thank you for confirming these scriptures and the story of the prodigal son. I thank the people in the comments as well and I pray Gods Glory and his holy Grace upon each one of us. What the devil would use for destruction, God will use for his Glory. Thank you again and God bless you!
How u doing now
Please listen to Pastor Kenneth Hagin’s sermon on the “ sin unto death.” I believe this will bring comfort to some. God bless you all🙏✝️🌹
6:30 I AM WORRIED ABOUT THIS 11:28 yes like nothing in the Bible is comforting me
12:15 that is amazing. You did everything you knew to do, you said. I willingly sinned against God
How are you now?
@@amandeepdobb4180 better praise God!
@@1844JC how?
This has been my whole life! 😞 I have been acting and living my life like Saul. Backslid is the WORST thing that you can experience in your life. Especially when the HOLY SPIRIT departs from you. Is HORRIBLE! 😞 Please 🙏 for me! For freedom from bondage!
I will pray for you!
@RAPID UNBOX, have you ever attended the live chats on the channel, 4HisCause?
@@restoringprodigals1764 Not yet!
You have got to subscribe to his channel and join the live chats! Make sure you click the bell to get notifications. It's all the church you need. It's the guy in this video. Very powerful backslider testimony.
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This was so great to hear. I’m sure your helping so many. God bless you
Thank you for your honesty and giving us hope. I backslid several times and I feel like God doesn't answer my prayers. I'm continuing to serve Him but why won't He answer me why can't I feel Him!!! Lord hear my cry!!!!!! I have the distressing horrible spirit while I repented and turned back to the Lord. What's really going on!!!
im praying for you sister! God love ya and restore to you the joy of your salvation, in Jesus Name, Amen!
@@charlesdial4203 thank you brother I really appreciate your prayers.
@@Goddesigned hw are you
@@roseofsharon2502 I'm doing well don't have to change the station. It seems like when somebody prays over me just gets broken off but when I pray for myself with the things not as powerful but when I pray for someone else they get breakthrough
@@Goddesigned do u feel like you have harden heart or no emotion?
This is me. I feel guilty in and out of Church. Drugs and alcohol. So far sister your my mirror image. Oh my
Please pray for my daughter Jenny's salvation. In Jesus name amen
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2 Samuel 14:14 God does not take away a life but devises means so that His banished ones are not expelled from Him.
Hello can you explain that verse please
I need this too ty for these video
How old are you now BTW?
How old are you now BTW?
Hey everyone I was introduced to the gospel by a friend and I started following God he made me not desire my sin anymore and made me happy at work when I wasn't happy and one night I heard him call my name but I didn't know it was him so I was confused. But going through that year I started sinning again falling deep into addictive sin and I realized that what I was doing is wrong and I'm trying to come back to God again the same thing happened I believe he took away my desires I no longer am addicted to sexual sin anymore and I've been trying to fight off temptation. I haven't been cussing and I've been trying to get right with the lord the only thing is I feared I commited the unforgivable sin for some reason even though I worry about it all the time and I feel like he is working in me but I don't know if I was ever saved yet and I've never been baptized willingly but what should I do everyone cause I feel so lost and im scared that I comited the unforgivable sin and I have no chance with God even though I love him
I believe the unforgivable sin is no accepting the sacrifice Jesus made for your sins… there’s a reason you’re trying to come back to the lord, no one could ever try to do so without the lord willing it and drawing them. He has not given up on you. Do not be afraid. I know this is all easier said than done when you’re bombarded with these thoughts of your worst fears but they are a lie. God’s truth is one of hope and mercy which we do not deserve. Mercy and hope. don’t give up❤️ I don’t know exactly what you’re going through but as a backsliding believer myself, I’ve heard all the same lies in my own head keeping me in a place of fear. We have to combat them with God’s word. My favorite verse in the Bible is luke15:10 (I am pretty sure, it’s been a while since I’ve been in my bible) there is joy in heaven when one sinner repents. I am a sinner indeed. So I’d like to believe this is how God will feel when I turn back to him. Luke 15 is a really encouraging chapter. The prodigal son. God loves us! He knew even before he saved us that we would fall! And he still chose to save us. God bless you❤️
I’m going through demon possession. I was deceived for that time in my life I was playing with God even though I was desiring to serve Him and be changed and give myself to Him. When I found out I was possessed I was just begging God to guide me on whether I received or rejected and I found out I received the wrong. I am struggling to hear spiritual things. It only zeros into the bad parts and I’ve been sleepless sometimes and depressed. The morning it happened I prayed to God to change my heart because I just wanted to be right with Him. I was fed up with behaviour to Him and people. I’ve been flickering in faith. First I was strong in the love of Jesus and then for some reason I’ve been struggling to have faith but I’m still trying. I want to get back so much.
Hi how are you now?
I want God back too. This all is Horrible double damning Rebaptize then. Nothing at all. Long ago. Circle and nothing..... I shouldn't have did this at all . Lord I don't even think.
@@TriciaRPhi u doing now
@FM-nq8pf
how are you now?
Thank you so much for sharing your testimony, you've brought to many backsliders who thought there was no hope for them. I remember back in 2003 after 11 or 12 years of backsliding and being in a state of basically total blindness to God or the things of God, I was struck with overwhelming fear, conviction, and condemnation. All I expired of God, all the scripture I knew came flooding back to my mind. I was in such an awful state that I had a breakdown; I couldn't function and had to quit my good-paying job as Computer Technician at the University of Connecticut Health Center. I was a total mess and knew I had to try and get right with God. Well, I to read Hebrews 6: and that was it, I was convinced I was doomed and there was nothing I could do about. There is much more to the story, but in regards to Hebrews 6: I was told by a Pastor that portion of scripture was a warning to Jewish Christians who were contemplating denouncing Christianity and returning to Judaism. (I believe it was due to the persecution they were suffering.
@Christopher M.
How were you restored?
Hi pls help how are you restored
No fr did you ever get right with god ?
And how ???
Hi thank you for your video. I have fallen once, got up again and fallen again. My story is quite detailed. I don’t know how to ask for help because I don’t think it’s a thing if adding for help. The Word says work out your own salvation with fear and trembling. Therefore perhaps no one can help me. Just wanted to say thank you for the video
How are you now?
I’m literally TERRIFIED of Hebrews 6:4-6
SOMEONE HELP! I’m DROWNING😔😔😔
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I feel this way.
Thank you for sharing! 🙏🏼
What is your biggest advice to someone who has fallen/in backslidden state ? It’s seriously so hard!!! I feel so cut off, I cry & cry & cry. I’ve repented and repented as well. Would I know when I’m restored? I look like a train wreck. My physical health is also declining. I feel better off than when this first happened (almost 7 months ago). Praise Jesus. I’m probably impatient at this point... I also struggle with feeling I’ve gone to far 💔
Also what does this distressing spirit feel like? Would you feel something in your body?
That sleep paralysis is TERRIFYING!
Angela, I'm just now seeing all your comments. As far as feeling it in your body, I personally have had huge health struggles to overcome that manifested as immune suppression, Lyme disease, and other chronic infections/illness/fatigue. As far as knowing when you are restored, I have experienced a peace and a "knowing" that is hard to explain but it only comes from God. All I can tell you is to keep on pushing and do NOT EVER give up on God. Battling the accuser is still something I find myself dealing with. I came under attack pretty hard after posting this video. I have to remind myself of what God has done for me and how He has shown me great mercy. It helps to journal and write out all the times He has come through for me. Ask the Lord to speak sweetly to you through His word. Keep showing up to 4HisCause's live chats. That man is a blessing with SO much wisdom and a heart to help those who are struggling with this.
Restoring Prodigals thanks for sharing all that! Well thank you for sharing your video it was a blessing to me! God is greater than all this and he will take care of us. Yes I love his messages! It is also such a blessing to fed such biblical truth!
At the age of 44 years old in 1988 I believe I was called by God at that time I fell that God tried very hard with ne The holy Spirit spoke verbally and a meeting in a young pastors place I heard plainly John 14: 6 and I heard that twice. That was in a bible study and there was a older Pastor during praise the older pastor said some ones god a word the ten or fifteen minuet later repeated that I still said nothing> I had only been with God for a very short time, others in the room new it was me but not realy understanding what was going on .My walk was like this all the way through God would try to get me out of trouble but I would fall losing heaps of money and 2 houses To make a long story short in 2009 I move to the Philippines where I got a house and a workshop where I spent all my days. Trouble is I tried fabricating things for the house. Trouble is I am a complainer and attempting to do things I was not use to doing, which God called sin, I repented God would forgive and the next day I would sin again. So it came to this time God placed me under judgement. Unfortunately I tell God the truth even if it is against my self. came a bout a week ago I lied and sin a small lie but none the less a sin, in my prayer I confess my sin and hear these scary words you are lost for ever. Allthough I never really understood God I was devout and attened church and morning devotions. Since I have been in the Philippines my wife started reading with me a grasp it straight away and help me understand but too late the damage has already happened I say I love Jesus and God but my walk seems so week I feel I am a very foolish man But long to be walking now with the Lord. I will listen again to your message and I thankyou so much for it and thank you for trying to help people. This has only happed to me this week but of course I am very concerned and worried over it longing to be back in the rms of God but my own Fault
Your testimony really touched my heart. I’d like to try and get in contact with you if possible.. I’ve been struggling myself immensely.
please, I need you to pray for me, I have a heart of stone and I am about to fall into a seared conscience. I need to return to Jesus
How are you now?
I’m in so much anxiety all the time, I have gone sooooo far away from God and I just want to make things right. I’m wanting out of my relationship as my bf is not a Christian and I’m just so tired of being miserable. I feel sooooo far gone, like I am definitely the Hebrews person or a rebrobrate mind. I just seem so hopeless and I used to be a mature strong Christian. I’m sooooo confused and tormented 🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️😭😭😭
Is there still hope for me? I have been praying or trying to hear from God..... I think I should break up with my bf and put God first.
What i have learned is that those are some of the most misinterpreted verses of the bible. Please join us at church on the wire at the channel 4hiscause and get on the path to healing with us! Here's Pastor Kenny's testimony. It's so very good.
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Restoring Prodigals oh Thankyou soooo much!! I will check it out🤗🤗🤗Am so grateful for you and how God works through you!!
@Yelitza The Holy Spirit doesn't leave, the Bible says that you are SEALED with the Holy Spirit unto the day of redemption.
@@AlexAlex-ij3mz I see you guys everywhere! 😂
Such a testimony.....iam an addict and currently in recovery.....im trying to return back...my sin has blinded and affected my mind so badly its hard but im trying...i hope one day i will testify about the grace and love of our Saviour Jesus Christ.Amen....Thank you
Stick around for the miracle Jesus Christ loves us. I got 9 months clean and sober in AA and a loving God and brothers and sisters and you bro or sis that help each other draw near to God one day at a time
@@denniss5965 I am in a mess. Sifted stripped and no one said WALK WITH GOD...I did everything in this video and feel.cheated and cut. I didn't have to do Any of this...no spiritual battle...slaughtered.
There is no "trying to come back!" If you recognize your need for Christ and his forgiveness, you simply repent, ask Jesus to make you right with him, to come into your life and you want to follow him as Lord and Savior! He will answer that prayer and will give you the strength to fully recover from your addiction so you can serve him and help others! It is wrong teaching to say it takes years before you are fully redeemed. You are redeemed the moment you open your heart and say yes!!
I'm being tormented by a distressing spirit right now since August of 2018 I can't hear from the lord my heart is hard. And I can feel them in me.
Hi Macdonald. May I invite you to the CZcams church I attend? This church is led by a restored backslider, a true man of God. His name is Kenny and his channel is called 4HisCause. Me and many others have found healing here.
Here's the link to that channel
m.czcams.com/channels/5ahtd1YnZh_Q4fXGHum12w.html
Macdonald 1997 how are you now?
@@mtsaman-ios2979 worse I don't know if I can repent
Faith!
Thank you! Im under demonic influence I think. I dont feel anything anymore, no conviction when I sin. I just long for the closeness of the father and the holy spirit so I can truly repent.
I will pray for you. Renew your mind in the scriptures to overcome the lies of the enemy. It’s a slow process but God is faithful and you WILL overcome by the blood of the lamb and the word of your testimony.
I'm 31 and I converted at 19 and I was on fire for God. But after a few years, for some reasons, I started to fell back into old sins, little by tittle, until I got the point where I just stop repenting and ended up in a worse state I was before converting.
I went on like that for 5 years until I realised how empty my life was. During those 5 years there were some times I asked forgiveness and tried to come back to God but I failed because of the lust of my flesh.
Now it's been 6 months that i've tried to come back but it feels like I can't. My heart feels hard. I feel like God left me over my flesh. I abstain from sinning as much as I can but I feel like it's just by my own effort. I repented a ton of times, but I feel like all those prayers are self-generated by myself, instead of by the Holy Spirit drawing me to the Lord. I left the sinful lifestyle I fell into, but still struggle so much with my sexuality (masturbation, pornography, sexual thoughts).
I feel totally condemned, I have no joy anymore, I'm in total distress. My life is totally pointless. I pray but nothing happen. I rarely read the Bible because I feel like all the blessing aren't for me and all the warnings are for me, so it's hard to find the motivation... Anyone here is going through what I'm going through and want to talk ? And if there's someone who went through the same situation and was delivered, they would be more than welcome to help me. I am so desperate, it feels I lost my faith and my connection with God totally. That you very much.
I don't know what the answer is, but you're not alone. You're not the only one with this issue.
I converted to Christianity at 14, and at 16 years old I decided to do my own thing. Over the years I drank, smoked, slept out of wedlock, lusted, acted out of selfishness, and worst of all, denied my faith.......the last one hurts me the most, I pray Jesus will forgive me.
I even blamed God for my problems, screaming at him for my issues in my life. I cursed at God.....blaming him for my problems.
This all happened in my twenties.
Now, at 31 I feel drawn back to him. I still can't explain it excect i was drawn back to him. I don't know how it happened, but it happened literally overnight. I began seeking him, and I don't know where the desire came from but it came. I can't help but think it was Jesus giving me the nudge I needed back onto the right path.
We DONT deserve his forgiveness, however he will forgive us if we repent and confess our love for him.
We all have a peter inside of us. Jesus forgave Peter. I pray he forgives me as well, and I will ask him everyday for his guidance and forgiveness.
I don't deserve his forgiveness, none of us do. But Jesus loves us, God loves us.
If you want to share more of your story, i am here.
Well my story is alike yours, I did pretty much all your things.
It's just that I ended up being so empty inside, I became very depressed, sad, and everything I did seemed so pointless. So I realised how fool I had been for turning away from Jesus. So I forsook my sinful lifestyle and repented, tried to come back to God but unlike you, I feel like all that are by my own effort, instead of Jesus drawing me to him... like my sin took me to a deep state of desperation, and now I'm trying on my own to come back in the faith but it's not working. I have moments where I feel better, but it doesn't last. Most of the time I feel fear, desperate, etc. As if the Holy Spirit left me.
Beyond my sins themselves, they made a lot of damage in me. I became pride and very selfish. I hate what I became and I feel like I'm not able to completely abandon myself to Jesus, even if I try. As I said I left my sins but I steal feel my flesh being attracted by worldly things, even if I hate those and that my mind wants Jesus. I'm very scared that my sins made just too much damage and that I am part of those spoken in Hebrew 6 4-6. During those years in sins, my conscious often warned my that I should go back to God. What did I do ? I said to myself "well, I'll just repent later later but not right away". What a fool I was, what a stupid mentality I had. I took God for granted... DON'T EVER DO THAT EVERYONE !! VERY DANGEROUS. There is absolutely nothing in this world that is worth replacing God. NOTHING. The only real lasting love, joy and peace are from Jesus, not from anything else.
I'm happy for you if you were restored after your years of wandering. I hope I will find the light again but meanwhile it's very tough
How is your relationship with God now ? Is it better than when you converted at 14, even or worse ?
@@mariahcwitherspoon I wish I could say I good news like I'm doing better but no, not at all ☹ and you ?
I’m 15. I need help. I need God. I feel like I am dying. This sin is weighing me down. I want to be free.
Do you wanna talk about it? I’m in a lot of pain as well and def down to talk about it
I lost the physical manifestation of Holy Spirit since January 2020 and spiders and bugs left months ago for only one night and one day
I believe I have backslid so many times that the Lord Don want me anymore😞😢 I have been so foolish. I have went back to my sin for so many years and even had a vision of the Lord rejecting me (I was not sleep). Even since that He was warning me not to go back to sin but I went back to it think "He will forgive me". I hate myself for being so selfish and disobedience. I Regret everything I've done. I truly need to contact those who are serving the Lord wholeheartedly. Please reach out to me if this is you, or if you can please take time out and have a heart to heart prayer talk to the Lord and intercede for me😔🙏
I replied to you earlier but now I'm not seeing my comment. Please join us for church on the wire at the channel called 4HisCause. It is Pastor Kenny, and it's the only church you need right now. He has a real heart for helping people in your (our) boat!! Subscribe to his channel and click the bell for notifications so you catch the lives. Hang in there, dear bro or sis. Come to Brother Kenny's channel and get some real spiritual nourishment and healing. And look at the other vids on this channel. Bro Kenny's testimony is one of them.
Please listen to last night's message. This is for you.
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How have you been doing?
@@tinacampbell3941 wow. The last 6 to 7 months since I posted this have been very trying (divorce, etc). I'll post a video update when the time is right. You know me as Courtney Cannon on Pastor Kenny's channel, btw.😊❤
@@restoringprodigals1764 oh ok Courtney!!! Awww thanks for getting back to me!! I will pray for you ... I went through a divorce myself and it’s sooo painful. I will keep praying for you. I will see you at church on the wire 🤗🤗💕💕✝️✝️
Please pray for me
Please pray for me.
Hi
Recently I've been taking the Lord for granted, and I have a hard heart and I feel dead physical, can you pray for me that God frees me and helps me.
@Sunshine Holiday hi
I always gonna have you in my prayers ❤❤
GOD LOVES AND WANTS US TO BE WITH HIM❤❤
I myself am a backslider. 2022-2023. Blasphemy thoughts from devil made me think I wasn't saved which made me back going into sin. I was depressed and watched porn and did others sin I haven't did before. I have renew my salvation but still struggling but God sent me a verse about calming down my fears. I am still going through a lot but I know God has a plan for me and other believers that are going through this. This christian journey isnt easy.
I'm still experiencing blasphemy thoughts but I promise myself and prayed I dont walk away from God EVER AGAIN. ❤
I love God, The Holy Spirit and the Lord.
I don't want to go back to wordly things but I'm keeping a sin I'm still struggling with. The enemy is trying to drag me back to sin.
THE DEVIL IS A LAIR.
I'm praying for everyone, my brothers and sisters in Christ❤❤
Hi, @Restoring Prodigals! I prayed for God to give me an understanding of Hebrews 6:4-6. So, this scripture is referring to someone whose heart towards God has been so severely hardened that it can't get to a place of repentance. It doesn't sound like your heart was hardened towards God, but rather confused about God's plan. It sounds like you fell away, because you were dealing with an orphan spirit. When a person gets to a place where they are hardened towards God in Hebrews 6, that person doesn't even want to repent. That wasn't the case for you.
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0:20 I honestly don't, I just don't want to be tortured by demons and then go to hell. I mostly want to die for multiple reasons, im angry about being kept alive and if I'm going to be forced to stay alive I really don't want to look like I'm amish and I'm incredibly angry about it.
I feel away I feel condemnation I don't like it I cry all the time please pray I'm trying to come back
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I keep having blasphemous thoughts and that's caused torment and unbelief and I feel like I'm too far from reach. I feel dull. Like my heart is too hard to repent. It's been like 2.5 years since I've been in His presence.
I’m going through this. Have u gotten any better?
@@mattrayhons2011 I wish I could say yes but no. What are you going through? I keep wanting to quit my job just to seek His help but I don't know if I can
@@danyellaguerrero3696are you still the same? I’m in the same boat
I have backslidden 1000 times 😔😥😭
Please pray for me I'm in detox off of opiates. I rather die than use again. I'm so sick. I am repenting and returning to my first love
Amen💗🥺
My problem is my lack of deep true desire to go to the Lord.
Can you pray for me ?:) I'm starting today to turn back to Jesus
Hello how are you today?
Hi, I’m afraid I’ve been cut off from God forever. I followed Him for 5 years but then I started falling into sin and had mental health problems that manifested in psychosis and strange ideas. I walked away from God then stopped believing in Him and then even started believing some pagan and Satanic ideas. I woke up one day realizing it was all terrible and delusional but I’m worried it’s too late. It’s been months of praying and the demons have gotten worse. I was filled with the Holy Spirit before… never had these problems. Now I fear I’ve committed the unpardonable. Help!
How are you doing now. I also walked with the Holy Spirit and them I started having blasphemous thoughts and feeling condemned. I am feeling like my heart is too hard to repent. My thoughts also feel very satanic. I sometimes experience the touch of the Holy Spirit in sporadic moments but most of the time I feel like very dull. I want to want to come back. Do you have social media maybe we can talk?
I've also been having psychosis and have been 5150'd many times