Sufjan Stevens, "Death With Dignity" (Official Audio)

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  • čas přidán 29. 03. 2015
  • From the album CARRIE & LOWELL / recently heard in CAPTAIN SPIRIT
    Buy : akrec.co/akr099-buy / Stream: akrec.co/1xuiuN0
    Available on Asthmatic Kitty Records
    LYRICS:
    Spirit of my silence I can hear you
    But I’m afraid to be near you
    And I don’t know where to begin
    And I don’t know where to begin
    Somewhere in the desert there’s a forest
    And an acre before us
    But I don’t know where to begin
    But I don’t know where to begin
    Again I’ve lost my strength completely, oh be near me,
    Tired old mare with the wind in your hair
    Amethyst and flowers on the table, is it real or a fable?
    Well I suppose a friend is a friend
    And we all know how this will end
    Chimney swift that finds me, be my keeper
    Silhouette of the cedar
    What is that song you sing for the dead?
    What is that song you sing for the dead?
    I see the signal searchlight strike me in the window of my room
    Well I got nothing to prove
    Well I got nothing to prove
    I forgive you, mother, I can hear you
    And I long to be near you
    But every road leads to an end
    Yes every road leads to an end
    Your apparition passes through me in the willows:
    Five red hens-you’ll never see us again
    You’ll never see us again
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  • @user-jt6xq7lz3m
    @user-jt6xq7lz3m Před 2 lety +2467

    I just lost my mom, who had been struggling with her depression for more than ten years. I loved her but I was afraid of being around her. Most of the time, I felt tired and helpless. I listened to this song very often when she was alive, imaging one day she would be happy and be like a “mother” again, or sometimes wondered how this would end, but never did I think that she would choose to commit suicide. However, she doesn’t need to feel the pain anymore. This song perfectly captures my emotion and heals me. Mom, I miss you.

  • @wkduffy
    @wkduffy Před 9 lety +3543

    Oh God, I've got to call my mom.

    • @dillonsnyder1172
      @dillonsnyder1172 Před 7 lety +260

      Your mother is a gift, cherish her.

    • @jamescollins9981
      @jamescollins9981 Před 7 lety +35

      *Listen to 'Peacock Affect - I Wrote This In The Dark'*

    • @naomiz5099
      @naomiz5099 Před 7 lety +104

      I just approached mine and she was passive-agressive for reasons I can't understand
      :(

    • @tymar1985
      @tymar1985 Před 6 lety +96

      Coming up in February of 2018, my mother will be deceased for 7 years. She passed on Valentine's Day of 2011. The thought of her is unbearable at times. I miss her.

    • @wayansuardyana
      @wayansuardyana Před 6 lety +10

      youre so sweet like rambut nenek

  • @B13e
    @B13e Před 6 lety +2908

    That "I forgive you mother" part hits me SO hard.

  • @eddfelix1705
    @eddfelix1705 Před 3 lety +177

    "Goodbye, Captain Spirit!"
    "See you around, Superwolf!"

  • @tachanz3764
    @tachanz3764 Před 4 lety +892

    "Mom was so pretty. I miss her smile."

    • @oki_pogi9376
      @oki_pogi9376 Před 4 lety +19

      TacHanz no im gonna cry...

    • @dano21mtynl
      @dano21mtynl Před 4 lety +6

      Me too.

    • @BianaBee
      @BianaBee Před 4 lety +10

      don't make me cry

    • @Jay2chill63
      @Jay2chill63 Před 4 lety +13

      RIP your mom Idk you or your mom but I can tell that she was a great mom dude be safe.

    • @zxz4410
      @zxz4410 Před 3 lety +14

      @@Jay2chill63 its from awsome adventures of captin spirit that a line

  • @eatyourkimchi
    @eatyourkimchi Před 9 lety +3566

    I listened to this album on loop for my four hour flight, and still haven't heard enough of it. Oh man.

    • @BackupWish
      @BackupWish Před 9 lety +16

      Flying back to Korea? 😺 Have a safe trip. Or landing. Or taxi ride home.

    • @pascalmatisse6918
      @pascalmatisse6918 Před 9 lety +28

      OH MY GOD EATYOURKIMCHI LISTENS TO SUFJAN STEVENS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    • @fedoragoodwater7342
      @fedoragoodwater7342 Před 9 lety +1

      ***** so many fanboys.

    • @hfc1177
      @hfc1177 Před 9 lety +11

      Eat Your Kimchi Talk about worlds colliding. I just discovered you guys and have been watching your old videos while at the same time obsessing over this album. Laughed watching your ranch dressing ramen video before dinner and then went to his concert last night in NYC after dinner and shed a few tears.

    • @neon471
      @neon471 Před 9 lety +3

      Eat Your Kimchi small world, i've been subbed to you guys for a couple of years now and had no idea you liked sufjan stevens! glad you liked the album, love you guys!

  • @chuanyiwu3520
    @chuanyiwu3520 Před 4 lety +448

    Tear up every time I hear “every road leads to an end”

  • @urmom-pn6pc
    @urmom-pn6pc Před 5 lety +1205

    Honestly , it doesn't matter if you were brought here because of a show or movie , or if you're here just 'cause you like Sufjan's music. Any reason is a good reason , this song is beautiful.

    • @jamall7003
      @jamall7003 Před 3 lety +23

      this needs more likes and comments I came from a game but I wouldn't be here if I didnt genuinely enjoy this music. one of those games actually got me hooked into an Artist named Daughter who I never knew about prior to playing it.

    • @carloambrosio6726
      @carloambrosio6726 Před 3 lety +18

      I come from a videogame, like a big part of the people in the comments

    • @judyelkadi
      @judyelkadi Před 3 lety +24

      @@jamall7003 life is strange right?? bcz same

    • @jamall7003
      @jamall7003 Před 3 lety +2

      @@judyelkadi ye 😌

    • @p.boscardin
      @p.boscardin Před 3 lety

      i came here bcz of you

  • @JoeArant
    @JoeArant Před 8 lety +1300

    Sufjan Stevens brought me here.

    • @wayansuardyana
      @wayansuardyana Před 6 lety +31

      really, he must be tired

    • @Geistzor
      @Geistzor Před 5 lety +4

      Same Bro. Same. Sufjan is a legend.

    • @TheRisskee
      @TheRisskee Před 4 lety +4

      HAHAHAHAHAHA! Thank you, good sir. In the plethora of "such and such show brought me here", this is pleasantly refreshing. 😎👍

    • @artemimartin600
      @artemimartin600 Před 4 lety +3

      Sufjan is the best 👍

    • @guimochet
      @guimochet Před 4 lety +2

      you guys hold hands?

  • @Ahmad-hy6pc
    @Ahmad-hy6pc Před 8 lety +1545

    I brought myself here

  • @terrancesellington
    @terrancesellington Před 2 lety +146

    "This is us" and "life is strange" will always be link to this beatiful song

  • @thecatoverlord8589
    @thecatoverlord8589 Před 4 lety +352

    Thank you Captain Spirit for introducing me this beautiful song and album...

    • @Lucifronz
      @Lucifronz Před rokem +21

      Surprised I didn't realize it was Sufjan until I looked it up. I keep doing that lately, though. Missed the Bloc Party song in LiS2, as well, even though I recognized the style as something familiar.

    • @lucilegonn442
      @lucilegonn442 Před rokem

    • @Vybzz0
      @Vybzz0 Před 9 měsíci +3

      ​@Lucifronz this is literally the reason I'm here right now. I missed it when I played captain spirit

    • @ParanoidParkProject
      @ParanoidParkProject Před 6 měsíci

      Heard it on captain spirit and immidiately thought: Yeah, that actually makes sense.

    • @godlyequipped8325
      @godlyequipped8325 Před 5 měsíci

      The nostalgia 🥹

  • @arnaudmarchand3263
    @arnaudmarchand3263 Před 8 lety +578

    This is a beautiful part of the internet.

  • @jamesrice4705
    @jamesrice4705 Před 8 lety +172

    I remembered this album came out 3 days ago, and have listened to it at least 50 times since then. I've learned it word for word. The universe has some sort of cruel irony to it though; because, last night my mother told me that she has skin cancer. She's dealt with it for months and I never knew. I know the desire to have been closer to her so well now. I was not a good son. I can't listen to this album anymore. Not yet. It tears me apart, but...I just want to ask anyone reading this-- love your parents. Give them the concern they give you or didn't give you. Don't let the time apart be a regret. I'm so scared to lose my mother. I'm not looking for condolences, but this is a thing we will all face eventually. Make your time worthwhile.
    Thanks for reading.

    • @danielablasquez9465
      @danielablasquez9465 Před 8 lety +4

      Thank you for sharing...I send you and your mother one big hug. Everthing is going to be ok (:

    • @cpark1
      @cpark1 Před 8 lety +5

      +James Rice I was so freaked out to read what you just wrote, because I swear on my life, the exact same thing happened to me recently. Originally my mom had told me that the hair that she had lost as a result from chemo for her skin cancer, was because of lice. Only a couple weeks ago, she finally told me the truth, and it truly is scary that people so dear to us, can parish so quickly. Thanks James, and thanks everyone.

    • @MrLerpDerp
      @MrLerpDerp Před 8 lety +1

      +James Rice Get better, friend.

    • @marcosj1986
      @marcosj1986 Před 8 lety +6

      +James Rice I lost my mom to glioblastoma multiforme in September of 2015. She was the perfect woman and I went through my own personal tragedy when it happened. Not even a year ago, I would have never suspected she was ill, and just like that, when she was diagnosed the doctor said that she would only have nine months to live. She fought so hard and only lived for seven. This album has certainly helped me through my ordeal.

    • @nicoh_no6823
      @nicoh_no6823 Před 6 lety +2

      James Rice
      I hope your journey is past that horrible era in your life.
      wish you luck in the future my friend

  • @aiyanacroom
    @aiyanacroom Před 3 lety +82

    the life of strange games literally have the best soundtrack i’ve ever heard

    • @jamall7003
      @jamall7003 Před 3 lety +5

      you aren't wrong there. they got good taste in music shit lol. this is my number 2 spot of games in the franchise right behind LIS 1 and before LIS 2

  • @youarethecoffin
    @youarethecoffin Před 3 lety +182

    "I forgive you mother. I can hear you and I love to be near you, but every road leads to an end..." this really hit for me

  • @majeeeddd
    @majeeeddd Před 7 lety +731

    "This is Us" Brought me here, Legendary pilot

    • @tesd.
      @tesd. Před 6 lety +26

      I saw the episode and IMMEDIATELY knew the music was from Sufjan Stevens. His style is so very unique in Call Me By Your Name... I love it!

    • @s0ulvibes_
      @s0ulvibes_ Před 6 lety +7

      This song all makes sense for the pilot now. Im so sad 😭

    • @enbabagebrhiwet8962
      @enbabagebrhiwet8962 Před 5 lety

      Me too

    • @nataliakawczynska3983
      @nataliakawczynska3983 Před 5 lety +1

      best of the best

    • @soupeater7417
      @soupeater7417 Před 5 lety

      Dammit this episode hasn't been shown on TV where I live yet

  • @josephgavrilides8383
    @josephgavrilides8383 Před 6 lety +181

    This Is Us

  • @chrismarchand3570
    @chrismarchand3570 Před 2 lety +201

    I once walked into a coffee shop while this began to play over the loudspeakers. I was standing there, waiting to get my coffee, just losing it, crying. It still makes me cry today. It's transcendent. It communicates something that goes deeper than mere words and mere sung and performed notes. It's proof that art is a miracle.

  • @denneyandthejets7833
    @denneyandthejets7833 Před 4 lety +297

    if you've never cried to this song we can't be friends

  • @gloprez7960
    @gloprez7960 Před 7 lety +674

    the women who has raised me since I was 3 died 1 year ago and even though she wasn't my real mom I have always looked up to her as one and now I will never stop looking up to her because if I'm sad and I miss her I will look up at the sky and know she's their helping me, smiling at me, laughing with me because I know she's their with me through it all, I love u mom forever and always

    • @Boopbeep233
      @Boopbeep233 Před 5 lety

      glo prez oh so sweet!

    • @alvintambrin7289
      @alvintambrin7289 Před 5 lety +1

      glo prez God bless you❤️

    • @vivil7917
      @vivil7917 Před 4 lety +2

      hug hug, she will always be there for you!

    • @pugthug1556
      @pugthug1556 Před 4 lety +2

      She is watching you everyday!!! She loves you glo prez! - unknown

    • @fuppster
      @fuppster Před 4 lety

      She loves you much, she stares down upon you everyday. God said to love everyone, so do that to prove to her you’ll be with her someday 😊

  • @LieutenantButtonMasher
    @LieutenantButtonMasher Před 5 lety +405

    I've never experienced loss, and yet I can feel Sufjan's loss. This is what songs are supposed to do, to make people feel.

    • @aziara369
      @aziara369 Před 2 lety +21

      Or maybe we all have. Perhaps not a physical loss, or in whatever bodily there is. Maybe it's a loss of friendship, or a loss of spark of something that used to shine bright. And someway somehow, in Sufjan's realm, he was able to encapsulate the sense of loss, and someway somehow, as part of the realm, we relate to one another- in varied ways of losing something/someone.
      In whatever circumstance, Sufjan just makes it a little less difficult. Just a little less 🤍

    • @strangewayfaringstranger
      @strangewayfaringstranger Před rokem

      You will.

  • @foolishshradefortnite7754
    @foolishshradefortnite7754 Před 5 lety +563

    Randall: *spends 3 minutes yelling at his biological dad for leaving him at a fire station as a newborn baby*
    William: would you like to come in?
    Randall: ....yeah.

  • @spoiltmilk6511
    @spoiltmilk6511 Před 5 lety +1219

    i wish more people were talking about the actual song and not what brought them here

    • @melissataylor1561
      @melissataylor1561 Před 4 lety +60

      spoilt milk this song makes me think of how my mother is aging and will soon be where I will never see her again. And I sent it to a close friend who lost her mom because it was so beautiful and sad and just amazing

    • @honkmaster
      @honkmaster Před 4 lety +1

      Well said, mob.

    • @MrA3523
      @MrA3523 Před 4 lety +10

      My grandmother died recently, my mom is still healthy and energetic, but I'm worried now.

    • @spoiltmilk6511
      @spoiltmilk6511 Před 4 lety +6

      @@MrA3523 I'm sorry you're going through that, I send you my best wishes. I'm sure your mom will be ok

    • @dabiclips1094
      @dabiclips1094 Před 4 lety +2

      Dying with dignity law for me is the most painful, and also the feeling of real freedom, having your own life handed to your hand is freedom

  • @williamlaynardi2003
    @williamlaynardi2003 Před 6 lety +1689

    *CAPTAIN SPIRIT*

  • @MattTylerwywh
    @MattTylerwywh Před 8 lety +215

    My own music taste brought me here

  • @sidviiicious
    @sidviiicious Před 4 lety +400

    i just lost my mom in november and have always loved this song, but i’m just now able to listen to it again. i can’t say i’m not sobbing, but this song really puts the feeling into word. into sound

    • @hayleyb467
      @hayleyb467 Před 4 lety +3

      Sorry for the loss of your mom. Sending you lots of love from Texas ♡

    • @MrFranciss
      @MrFranciss Před 4 lety +2

      May her soul rest in peace. It's been two years that my father left us and I still see him in my dreams.

    • @sandraleroy5619
      @sandraleroy5619 Před 3 lety

      Trying
      The song us superbe

    • @SezenSever
      @SezenSever Před 3 lety +3

      i too lost my father back in november of 2017. we had a patchy and difficult relationship between us just like sufjan and his mother. but it doesnt stop me from weeping to this album on repeat at 1 am in the morning when this song hits at all the different levels of grief. i really haven't found anything even remotely similiar to this album that catches the essence of losing a parent and the grief that comes after. it has been 3 years now but i return to this over and over again and it washes me over with the same emotions just as the first time. and for your mom i'm so sorry as i'm sorry for myself. i know exactly how you feel and it's a dumb thing to say but i will always share this song with you in the month of november.

    • @jwattfaqir
      @jwattfaqir Před 3 lety

      May her memory be a blessing

  • @violet5114
    @violet5114 Před 3 lety +400

    The first song on carrie and lowell album and i thought i couldn't continue listening to the entire album because the emotions were too heavy, realizing that my parents are getting old and they might leave me soon and i haven't achieved anything that could make them proud or make them not worry about me being alone. That line, "Every road leads to an end..." We just got to accept that so might as well make the best memories with them while they're still alive and healthy.

    • @manuelfernandezmesas3365
      @manuelfernandezmesas3365 Před 3 lety +10

      I´m going to fake happines and self-confidence even if I don´t feel them. That will be my gift before she leaves. Love, I don´t have to pretend, thanks God.

    • @aprilmaecelario5853
      @aprilmaecelario5853 Před 3 lety +2

      😥

    • @lamestudiosinc418
      @lamestudiosinc418 Před 2 lety +8

      As someone who has experience in this realm, they are incredibly proud of you. Looking back, I thought the same about my dad. Then I scrolled through my dad's facebook and realized he was proud of every stupid, insignificant little thing I did. Your parents love you.

    • @Marilyn7935
      @Marilyn7935 Před rokem

      I’m also … Violet Grey ; the Vegan Animal Rights Activist. 🌱💚💫

  • @dipendraupadhyay3901
    @dipendraupadhyay3901 Před 5 lety +212

    My favourite show "THIS IS US" brought me here

  • @keialine
    @keialine Před 7 lety +1819

    Spirit of my silence I can hear you, but I'm afraid to be near you
    And I don't know where to begin
    And I don't know where to begin
    Somewhere in the desert there's a forest, and an acre before us
    But I don't know where to begin
    But I don't know where to begin
    Again I lost my strength completely, or be near me tired old mare
    With the wind in your hair
    Amethyst and flowers on the table, is it real or a fable?
    Well I suppose a friend is a friend
    And we all know how this will end
    Chimney swift that finds me be my keeper, silhouette on the seater
    What is that song you sing for the dead
    What is that song you sing for the dead
    I see the signal searchlight strike me, in the window of my room
    Well I got nothing to prove
    Well I got nothing to prove
    I forgive you mother I can hear you, and I long to be near you
    But every road leads to an end
    Yes every road leads to an end
    Your aberration passes through me, in the willows and five red hens
    You'll never see us again
    You'll never see us again

    • @martinkalin537
      @martinkalin537 Před 5 lety +38

      "silhouette on the cedar" is the lyric

    • @ajc94
      @ajc94 Před 5 lety +48

      I think it's apparition rather than aberration haha

    • @mattmurphy6
      @mattmurphy6 Před 5 lety +3

      "forest, and a maker before us".?

    • @thecharlieramirez
      @thecharlieramirez Před 5 lety +6

      *Oh, be near me tired old mare

    • @Colin-kh6kp
      @Colin-kh6kp Před 4 lety +5

      Martin Kalin it’s actually silhouette OF the cedar, just sayin.

  • @TusharDeb
    @TusharDeb Před 3 lety +26

    I'm not crying, you're crying.

  • @nikkiland
    @nikkiland Před 2 lety +45

    It feels so good to release some pent up pain that's been buried in my subconscious by crying to this

    • @LaciaisXHype
      @LaciaisXHype Před rokem +2

      Omg nikkiland never knew you would listen to something about this but I support your content

  • @mcortezwriter
    @mcortezwriter Před 8 lety +50

    My 8 year old daughter won't let me play this album. I practically wore out the CD from playing it all last summer in the car, and eventually admitted to her that it was about the death of Sufjan's mom. Now if she hears even one bar of the opening arpeggios from the other side of the house, she screams, "MAMA! I TOLD YOU NOT TO PLAY THAT! IT'S! TOO!! SAD!!!"

    • @mcortezwriter
      @mcortezwriter Před 8 lety +10

      +Marisol Cortez ETA: She just saw Sufjan's name in an open tab in my browser and said, "MAMA. NO. I'm going to close that." And then she closed it.

    • @drastia2246
      @drastia2246 Před rokem +1

      @@mcortezwriter that is sad and cute :)

  • @bananabread010
    @bananabread010 Před 6 lety +638

    this song reminds me of being a kid so much.
    *sheds tear*

    • @thatcrackerjack3225
      @thatcrackerjack3225 Před 6 lety +1

      hotcakesand syrup bc you're parents are dead?🤔🤔

    • @bayoanrios9389
      @bayoanrios9389 Před 6 lety +3

      hotcakesand syrup Exactly the same feeling. Wow.

    • @struthut
      @struthut Před 5 lety +2

      hotcakes w/butterandsyrup im glad im still a child

    • @reubenroberts5212
      @reubenroberts5212 Před 5 lety +5

      Mine ended when I was 10 and just saying ADHD and depression do not go well together

    • @g1k104
      @g1k104 Před 5 lety +2

      oh :( rip

  • @chamoddasanayaka9412
    @chamoddasanayaka9412 Před rokem +53

    Lyrics 👇
    Spirit of my silence I can hear you, but I'm afraid to be near you
    And I don't know where to begin
    And I don't know where to begin
    Somewhere in the desert there's a forest, and an acre before us
    But I don't know where to begin
    But I don't know where to begin
    Again I lost my strength completely, oh be near me tired old mare
    With the wind in your hair
    Amethyst and flowers on the table, is it real or a fable?
    Well I suppose a friend is a friend
    And we all know how this will end
    Chimney swift that finds me be my keeper, silhouette of the cedar
    What is that song you sing for the dead
    What is that song you sing for the dead
    I see the signal searchlight strike me, in the window of my room
    Well I got nothing to prove
    Well I got nothing to prove
    I forgive you mother I can hear you, and I long to be near you
    But every road leads to an end
    Yes every road leads to an end
    Your apparition passes through me, in the willows and five red hens
    You'll never see us again
    You'll never see us again

  • @maxonite
    @maxonite Před 4 lety +207

    Spotify shuffled this song in a playlist for me 5 mins before midnight while i was relaxing in the tub thinking bout life... so this is my 2020 song now... 👍 happy new year, everybody

  • @shushimhuntinwabbits
    @shushimhuntinwabbits Před 6 lety +738

    Every road leads to an end.... So glad I watched call me by your name or I may have never discovered you Sufjan Stevens.. Such beautiful songs

    • @shinkoduffy2553
      @shinkoduffy2553 Před 6 lety +4

      Me too!

    • @hopelessent.1700
      @hopelessent.1700 Před 6 lety +2

      Shushimhuntinwabbits I am glad he preformed at the Oscars or else I would of never heard of the awesome Illinois album. I just got Age of Adz, Planetarium, & C&L...

    • @ZimmerSquash
      @ZimmerSquash Před 6 lety +15

      You're in for a trip. Sufjan's got a large discography

    • @hopelessent.1700
      @hopelessent.1700 Před 6 lety +4

      ZimmerSquash yea I have 6 albums and 3 songs from Call Me By Your Name and already it makes up 110 songs... I know there are those moments like The Black Hawk War but that compensates with songs like Impossible Soul or Chicago...
      Surprisingly the shortest album is Carrie & Lowell with only 44 min as the other albums are well over 1 hour
      The albums I have as of 6/15/18
      Michigan
      Illinois
      Avalanche
      Age of Adz
      Carrie & Lowell
      Planetarium
      and the three songs from Call Me By Your Name
      I might get The Greatest Gift and both Christmas Albums as their astounding 40+ tracks for each make me curious hearing his renditions of the hymns such as Come Thou Fount as my favorite version was by Fernando Ortega...
      Honestly I think I became a fanboy of his work...

    • @fenixirow5459
      @fenixirow5459 Před 6 lety +6

      the road called mantroid..

  • @josephvictory9536
    @josephvictory9536 Před 8 lety +442

    If anybody wants, these are the song meanings I have gathered from others and my self. While not perfect I feel this captures the essence of this incredibly delicate and well worded work of art. Interpretation is in brackets
    Lyrics:
    Spirit of my silence I can hear you
    But I’m afraid to be near you
    And I don’t know where to begin
    And I don’t know where to begin
    (He does not know how to confront death, he feels the spirit of silence as the call to be aware of death, to become at peace with it and consequently himself)Somewhere in the desert there’s a forest
    And an acre before us
    But I don’t know where to begin
    But I don’t know where to begin
    (Most likely refers to his despondent state but his belief that there is somewhere he can find peace in spirit to think of his mother happily and without personal sadness)
    Again I’ve lost my strength completely, oh be near me,
    Tired old mare with the wind in your hair
    (straightforward meaning. He is deeply depressed and wants his mum back)Amethyst and flowers on the table, is it real or a fable?
    Well I suppose a friend is a friend
    And we all know how this will end
    (He does not know if his memories are positively biased as there is some truth and lies to it. He is questioning his despondence. But it does not matter much because a friend is a friend regardless and he has to come to terms.)
    Chimney swift that finds me, be my keeper
    Silhouette of the cedar
    What is that song you sing for the dead?
    What is that song you sing for the dead?
    (refers to the funeral process, coffin, cremation and song. Possibly he prefers to cremate 'chimney swift'. Cedar is a very rot resistant wood and bugs do not eat it, so it is a good but fairly expensive coffin wood. It also is a very spiritual wood in many traditions for sending off the dead. It could mean he spared no expense with her coffin.)
    I see the signal searchlight strike me in the window of my room
    Well I got nothing to prove
    Well I got nothing to prove
    (after the funeral process, he reflects on himself in the most intimate of ways, as if he is before god and cannot lie to himself and so must confront any feelings he has in full honesty)I forgive you, mother, I can hear you
    And I long to be near you
    But every road leads to an end
    Yes every road leads to an end
    (straightforward, he forgives her for the trespasses he hints at earlier in the passage. He still loves her but has come to accept the fact of her death)
    Your apparition passes through me in the willows:
    Five red hens-you’ll never see us again
    You’ll never see us again
    (this line kills me; it is him truly accepting death, that it cannot be fought. Willows are very spiritual trees, they are flexible and symbolize recovery, bonding from support and moving with the flow of life. Also willows are hunched trees, nicked weeping willows for their resemblance to persons hunched in grief. Five red hens could refer to family. They will not ever see her again, it is reversed to change the perspective to one of mutual loss)

    • @hailey2057
      @hailey2057 Před 7 lety +15

      its funny how everyone gets something different out of a song. i always saw the "amethyst and flowers" part as him asking himself if its really true, is she really dead? but saying "a friend is a friend" was like saying his delusions of her being alive were fine if they helped. and now, since reading this, i see it both that way and the way you put it.

    • @xaftershock3380
      @xaftershock3380 Před 5 lety +3

      The song I s about the death with dignity act that was passed this year. Allowing my a thermally I’ll patient to end their life of their terms. That’s what the song is about. It’s not my view, it’s facts from the people who created it. It’s also a big part of Captain Spirit, and that’s what happened to the main characters mom.

    • @felipeeira
      @felipeeira Před 5 lety

      @@xaftershock3380 yes that also makes sense! Maybe his mother choosed to die that way, and that is why he says he forgives her?

    • @felipeeira
      @felipeeira Před 5 lety +1

      Damn now im thinking the whole song is about his mom coming to terms with death in her deathbed

    • @torigen5303
      @torigen5303 Před 5 lety +1

      Thank you!😀

  • @TDItaly98
    @TDItaly98 Před 3 lety +81

    This is the song that speaks to all.
    This is the guitar that sounds like our souls.
    This is the piano that echoes in our minds.
    This is the melody that makes you smile and cry at the same time.
    This is a promise.
    This is a prayer.
    This...
    This, is us.

  • @bl8798
    @bl8798 Před 5 měsíci +1

    “It’s the little things in life Bec” -Jack

  • @grantgreider3413
    @grantgreider3413 Před 8 lety +417

    ok guys, i'm glad kanye sent you here and everything, but don't stop here. listen to all the other great sufjan albums like "Illinois" "The age of adz" "carrie and lowell" and "seven swans". You won't be disappointed.

    • @abstractpoet8977
      @abstractpoet8977 Před 8 lety +23

      Illinois was a huge deal in the music industry 10 years ago. And I think Kendrick sampled Age of Adz on TPAB. Both are phenomenal records and Carrie & Lowell was considered among the best of 2015.

    • @sumarioish
      @sumarioish Před 8 lety +13

      Illnois is the perfection

    • @TheMartini1234
      @TheMartini1234 Před 8 lety +3

      +Bobby Lee Swagger Yeah, Kendrick sampled 'All for Myself' which is an awesome song in its own right!

    • @AnarchyApple
      @AnarchyApple Před 8 lety +15

      Michigan is also amazing.

    • @Fox_Cord
      @Fox_Cord Před 8 lety +3

      Yeah, I love Illinois, but Michigan is better imo.

  • @user-mu4uw2kp7b
    @user-mu4uw2kp7b Před 6 lety +92

    This song gets me pretty emotional. One because the lyrics are for some reason extremely relatable, and two because the melody is just really calming that it makes me think. A lot.

  • @dexplays3298
    @dexplays3298 Před 4 lety +31

    This song is making me so emotional, it really hurts...

  • @michaeldeguzman3852
    @michaeldeguzman3852 Před 4 lety +213

    Who's here from looking up Sufjan stevens "death with dignity"?

    • @dftmmwgitd
      @dftmmwgitd Před 3 lety +3

      here from looking up "this was the worst christmas ever!"

    • @BrokenGodEnt
      @BrokenGodEnt Před 3 lety +3

      I looked up "Carrie and Lowell"

    • @stinky470
      @stinky470 Před 3 lety +5

      I looked up "I don't know where to begin" Google is pretty good understanding me

  • @ruivoplay
    @ruivoplay Před 6 lety +1040

    GO GO GO, Captain Spirit!

  • @shayanali9141
    @shayanali9141 Před 8 lety +319

    I see comments like Kanye made him famous
    His fame is because of his talent and music

    • @stefond7908
      @stefond7908 Před 6 lety +14

      there are a lot of people with good talent and good music that never become famous. A person as big as Kanye shouting you out can definitely help regarding fame. I do not know how well he was known before Kanye. I personally ran into him through This Is Us

    • @lamestudiosinc418
      @lamestudiosinc418 Před 5 lety +13

      @@stefond7908 He was already pretty big in the folk community, definitely not obscure.

    • @OMCollective
      @OMCollective Před 5 lety +7

      @@stefond7908 Yeah he's been selling out shows internationally for like 5-10 years. But now he's more famous. That's probably good too.

  • @Kyydon
    @Kyydon Před 5 lety +54

    I love his style. It’s so distinct, you could pick his songs out from anywhere-it’s magical, I can’t even think of a word to describe the feeling

  • @G.e.m.m.i.e
    @G.e.m.m.i.e Před 3 měsíci +4

    I lost my grandfather recently, and this song really helps me deal with the grief of losing him. It reminds me of all the good times we shared, but also helps me to accept the fact that he's gone. I miss him so much. The sweetest soul.

  • @ambarishsoman654
    @ambarishsoman654 Před 7 lety +1258

    I am here coz of "This is Us" :)

  • @sonicgrub
    @sonicgrub Před 9 lety +81

    He did it again
    another album of the decade
    personal, honest and resonating
    never thought he'd come close to Illnois
    I stand corrected

    • @robertdvorkin1633
      @robertdvorkin1633 Před 8 lety +1

      +sonicgrub word

    • @geokeoGR
      @geokeoGR Před 8 lety +3

      +sonicgrub It easily surpasses illinois

    • @sonicgrub
      @sonicgrub Před 8 lety +4

      geokeoGR
      I disagree.
      Illinois is very dear to me since this is how I discovered Sufjan.
      I recorded his live performance during the Illinois tour from KCRW in 2005 and played it in my truck before college classes.
      Was struck how good the songwriting was.
      And then heard the full deal on record and was stunned.
      Sprawling and ambitious, it reminded me of an oral version of Grandma Moses' paintings. To steal from Sufjan; Illinois is an Arts and Crafts tone poem.
      High art in a down to earth way.
      I could hear Illinois in any mood since it covers so much emotional ground, while Carrie and Lowell is more niche listening.
      If I'm in an upbeat, celebratory mood Carrie doesn't do, but Illinois does. There is no song on Carrie that matches the perfection and exultancy of Jacksonville.
      But if I need to feel the deep roots of familial earth, I'll spin Carrie to deep satisfaction.

  • @woofjazz
    @woofjazz Před 5 měsíci +2

    Here from "This is Us." Beautiful.

  • @pepsiman9688
    @pepsiman9688 Před 3 lety +53

    I listened to this song for the first time a couple hours ago and it broke me. My father passed away 3 years ago, and even though he’s talking about her mother in the track, I can’t stop thinking about my dad. Accepting death and grief has been the most difficult thing I have experienced in my life.

    • @rizkisaputra19
      @rizkisaputra19 Před 3 lety +5

      same, my dad died 3 years ago and im in still on a state not really believing he is really died, sometimes it always got me thinking here and there then cry a bit but hey, its a part of life, people come and go

    • @mlpcoomjar4183
      @mlpcoomjar4183 Před 2 lety +6

      Just remember, accepting death and grief doesn't mean you can't cry about it. It's alright if you still cry over it

  • @bishbosh4815
    @bishbosh4815 Před 3 lety +6

    Who's here from This Is Us?

  • @eldouthobandito3601
    @eldouthobandito3601 Před 9 měsíci +5

    Get well soon Sufjan, thoughts are with you

  • @handsomehead1381
    @handsomehead1381 Před 2 lety +2

    This song sounds like its going to turn into "Better in Stereo" from liv and maddie during every single second of it

  • @polarisdream2468
    @polarisdream2468 Před 2 lety +3

    Go on and be a superhero captain spirit

  • @gagereddish4831
    @gagereddish4831 Před 6 lety +40

    Straight up listened to this song on loop for 3 hours straight because I felt like it

  • @imsatoboi
    @imsatoboi Před 6 lety +4301

    Who here from Captain Spirit trailer?

  • @deadmanspanda3657
    @deadmanspanda3657 Před 11 měsíci +27

    I have lost my grandfather my father, my best friend and my childhood pet, all tragically, and in a matter of 18 months. Im devastated and feel like I cant breathe. This song has been the only brief peace ive found in recent time. Thank you, it really is beautiful.

    • @jenerplanta
      @jenerplanta Před 11 měsíci +2

      Be strong, my dude. I've never felt that dread before but it always gets better even though you can't see ir

    • @ms.cartoonist9576
      @ms.cartoonist9576 Před 7 měsíci

      Just know, there's always someone there for you. Anywhere and everywhere. Have someone to rely on and be your comfort. I really do hope the best for you. And I hope you find love with many people as life goes on :)

    • @DaniBee2900
      @DaniBee2900 Před 7 měsíci

      i'm so fucking sorry....it feels like it all comes in at once. i lost my mom in may, now my childhood cat, my first baby has heart failure. life is cruel

  • @wkduffy
    @wkduffy Před 5 měsíci +2

    It’s funny, but I just found my original comment on this Sufjan track from 8 years ago (I said “Oh God, I need to call my mom”). And I did call her, many times. But here 8 years later, my mom is now dead. She died 2 years ago from a heart attack at age 82. Actually, she had one heart attack that she recovered from, and I had the pleasure of being her caregiver, waiting on her hand and foot for a few weeks while she recovered. I'm so glad I had that time with her, even though during that time she was so afraid another heart attack might happen again. Sadly, a few weeks later, it did happen again. But her second heart attack was fatal, and that was it. "Every road leads to an end." Sufjan is right. Now my mom is just memories and pictures. Bye, bye mom. Love you.

  • @elenherrete16
    @elenherrete16 Před 8 lety +8

    "again, i lost my strength completely, oh be near me"

  • @janelane187
    @janelane187 Před 6 lety +31

    This album really is pulling me out of my depression. I am forever grateful Sufjan.

  • @vanessaassenav
    @vanessaassenav Před 4 lety +39

    I just buried my dog, and this song came to me in the way music comes at times like these to heal us. Thank you sufjan stevens

  • @biuhih667
    @biuhih667 Před 4 lety +33

    Listening to even the first few seconds of this song will put me in instant bliss. It makes me remember all those magical morning times I'd walk with my mother, give her little flowers to put in her hat, and watch the soft sky change colors. The sun wouldn't be out yet itd still be softly lit, we could walk with the fading moon and the rising sun. Beautiful times, walk with your loved ones.

  • @JoshHinrichs-vv2ft
    @JoshHinrichs-vv2ft Před 8 lety +117

    When the comment section is overrun and destroyed by Kanye West fans, gotta say, im glad he listens to Sufjan though!

    • @EyedOmally
      @EyedOmally Před 6 lety +2

      If it's Kanye that brings them here than so be it. Whatever makes them fans. I'm personally a Ye fan but didn't realize that he shouted him out or whatever. I'm just here cuz it's good music lol.

  • @deadbutterfly7846
    @deadbutterfly7846 Před 6 lety +9

    'Because.. we've all been children' CaptainSpirit Here!!

  • @cynicaldweller4925
    @cynicaldweller4925 Před 2 lety +2

    i came for a game but i stayed for the music.

  • @sunmoth7101
    @sunmoth7101 Před 5 lety +15

    This song is in Captain Spirit and just shows the wonder of a child behind closed doors, reminding me of a youth that’s so distant. Coming from an abusive home I found wonder in the outside and turned to weed and depression for coping. I was a sad little girl for so long and this song reminds me of my happy days with friends and riding bikes and ice cream. I’m high,
    I know; but I realize how short life is and I’m feeling so lucky to tap into something that i thought was gone

  • @sayan_tan
    @sayan_tan Před 11 měsíci +5

    Sufjan, you're a mega person. Carrie and Lowell is the pinnacle of nostalgia, of a innocent and lost world. You had a great step dad, a great mother. This album art makes me emotional, just an old picture. Memories of a less complicated world. God bless you brother. I wish I will be able to die with dignity too.

  • @KaranKumar-qv3su
    @KaranKumar-qv3su Před 4 lety +36

    This is us pilot episode.;)

    • @gianna46
      @gianna46 Před 3 lety

      THATS WHERE I KNOW IT FROM OMG :(

  • @stulittlepm
    @stulittlepm Před rokem +2

    lost a family member who worked hard throughout his life, died at work right before a promising retirement.

  • @shuoyan7129
    @shuoyan7129 Před 4 lety +24

    Everytime I listen this song,the tears just can not help to come out.something deep in my heart are hurting beating feeling.

  • @verdant93
    @verdant93 Před 7 lety +332

    This Is Us Pilot!

  • @Vinn_K
    @Vinn_K Před 6 lety +6

    "Well I suppose a friend is a friend
    And we all know how this will end."

  • @OneAlgea
    @OneAlgea Před 2 lety +5

    I am truly grateful for having a great mother who made me grow.

  • @Jana_tabea
    @Jana_tabea Před měsícem +2

    This song brings to mind a poignant phrase from wuthering heights: “I have to remind myself to breathe - almost to remind my heart to beat!”

  • @billingtonbobbington
    @billingtonbobbington Před 9 lety +13

    I always had wichita lineman or do you realise as my funeral song. But then I realised, I can't afford a funeral and would quite like this playing on a transistor radio as I'm scooped into a dustbin

  • @wehttamin
    @wehttamin Před 8 lety +234

    Who's here because of Sufjan?

  • @bakhurr
    @bakhurr Před 2 lety +3

    I'm so glad I played the Life is Strange games, I would have never found this song otherwise

  • @rabiyashakeel1083
    @rabiyashakeel1083 Před rokem +3

    Lost my dad 3 days ago. I think he is happy.

    • @epicay0863
      @epicay0863 Před rokem +2

      rest his soul, and hope we can be strong for loved ones' left

  • @ellen5603
    @ellen5603 Před 9 lety +233

    Sufjan Steven's music almost makes me believe in God. Almost.
    Sufjan's music breaks my heart. And the only way to know for sure you have a heart is to have it broken.
    Again I've lost my strength completely, oh be near me
    Tired old mare with the wind in your hair
    Amethyst and flowers on the table, is it real or a fable?
    Well I suppose a friend is a friend
    And we all know how this will end
    What is that song you sing for the dead?

    • @dimjohannisse6067
      @dimjohannisse6067 Před 9 lety +1

      Ellen Lee Tu es très mignonne.

    • @Turtleproof
      @Turtleproof Před 9 lety +8

      Ellen Lee It's a nice reminder that religion can inspire absolutely beautiful things, keeps me in check when I get angsty about religion being only harmful. Love his music, his lyrics and arrangements are astonishingly good.

    • @ellen5603
      @ellen5603 Před 9 lety +19

      Turtleproof If only more "Christians" in the USA were like Sufjan when it comes to practicing their faith: humble and reticent. Sufjan doesn't get up in people's faces or appear to judge people who don't share his beliefs and I respect that. He uses his faith as a source of inspiration. He's like the opposite of monumental hypocrites like the Duggars.

    • @Turtleproof
      @Turtleproof Před 9 lety

      Ellen Lee Right, he doesn't judge people or shame people like the goofy football players or weird reality TV families do, the very same that proper atheists don't wave it around. It's a beautiful place to reach and has, as you said, been a source of inspiration and motivation.

    • @Turtleproof
      @Turtleproof Před 9 lety +6

      ***** There is not God from any religious text that exists, each one can be proven to be impossible because they each fail their own claims, and why follow a violent, evil being that says we're disgusting? God is not real, fortunately for us, love is.

  • @DemonicVeteranOfficial
    @DemonicVeteranOfficial Před 6 lety +132

    Captain Spirit and Life is Strange 2

    • @thatcrackerjack3225
      @thatcrackerjack3225 Před 6 lety +1

      Demonic Veteran eww

    • @cerb1221
      @cerb1221 Před 4 lety +3

      i freaking adore life is strange 2

    • @canceritself1854
      @canceritself1854 Před 4 lety

      B L I T Z I haven’t played episode 3 and 4. How is it?

    • @cerb1221
      @cerb1221 Před 4 lety

      @@canceritself1854 idk i dont keep track of episodes that much i assume you mean the newer ones and they are awesome

  • @knfives
    @knfives Před 2 lety +6

    i lost my mom on the 10th of february, 2022. the wound is still really fresh, we had an incredibly rough relationship and she traumatized me a lot, making me afraid to try to rebuild a relationship with her. the day before she passed we went shopping and sat in her car for awhile. i felt i was ready to fix things. even if i cant now, i forgive her, for everything. all of it. she was my anchor even when i didnt realize it. i love you mom, i'm glad you're finally safe.

  • @noramasa
    @noramasa Před 4 lety +6

    "Yes every road leads to an end."
    And so does the wolf brothers' story. I'm so glad I got to experience such an adventure.

  • @Akiren88
    @Akiren88 Před 6 lety +11

    Does this make anyone else think of their childhood? The song is so light hearted. Making you not have a worry in the world. The the song stops and you can’t help but need another listen to escape...

  • @bluebettle
    @bluebettle Před 7 lety +83

    death with dignity is my favorite type of death!

    • @hanreality.7266
      @hanreality.7266 Před 6 lety +3

      Actually, my a Uncle Jack died and fell face first into his dessert. True story, and I'm hoping to die the same way, looking at dessert.

    • @boof9497
      @boof9497 Před 6 lety +2

      lol, wtf

    • @Boopbeep233
      @Boopbeep233 Před 5 lety +1

      Han reality. Lol really?

  • @markdegregorio9519
    @markdegregorio9519 Před rokem +2

    I just listened to this as a remembrance for my mother who passed one year ago today. I'm a mess now...

  • @caesario8791
    @caesario8791 Před 3 lety +9

    Thank you, Sufjan, for helping me come to terms with my mother's passing.

  • @tmujir955
    @tmujir955 Před 8 lety +601

    Listening to this with Piratebay open in another tab, just like Kanye intended

  • @victorvega4904
    @victorvega4904 Před 8 lety +27

    This song looped + Mushrooms = a Wonderful life changing experience!

  • @moralesjourneyman
    @moralesjourneyman Před 6 měsíci +3

    Captain Spirit is here! 💥

  • @nourane2306
    @nourane2306 Před 2 lety +10

    For some reason, this is my hope song. When I listen to it, I feel like everything's going to be okay. It's soothing.

  • @chickensdontclap147
    @chickensdontclap147 Před 8 lety +59

    This, Divers and To Pimp a Butterfly are my favourite albums of the year!!

    • @chickensdontclap147
      @chickensdontclap147 Před 8 lety +3

      Joanna is incredible. Saw her live recently and it blew my mind. I don't love the new record as much Ys or HOOM but its still pretty rad.

    • @isaacdilworth
      @isaacdilworth Před 8 lety +1

      +Dallas Jokic Are you me?

    • @marcobazan4187
      @marcobazan4187 Před 8 lety +3

      +Ransom Lewis but TPAB is like album of the year..

    • @marcobazan4187
      @marcobazan4187 Před 8 lety +1

      ***** yes I know it won but it was a wrong call imo one if the biggest snubs in the Grammy's history. It won becuase popularity and pop appeal.

    • @marcobazan4187
      @marcobazan4187 Před 8 lety

      ***** I could say the same about Kendrick's album too. But, I haven't heard of MEW's album so I'll have to give it a listen

  • @Thisworldisagoner
    @Thisworldisagoner Před 2 lety +12

    I used to listen to this album non-stop when I was doing my masters. Especially when I would go on a grocery run to some huge store and put on my headphones and then its just me and Sufjan's hauntingly beautiful lyrics. Its been three years and I don't listen to this album as often but when I do I feel so much happier. Maybe because I loved those years of my life and how these beautiful songs were there to accompany me through them.

  • @cinephile5939
    @cinephile5939 Před 8 měsíci +8

    I lost my mother 4 years ago to brain tumor. I haven't moved on. Feels like an important part of me me is missing and this void will never be filled by anything or anyone. Also, i refuse to move on because its the only way i feel i am connected to her. Still feels like Yesterday. The Pain in Sufjan's voice is so deep, always makes me cry and is very relatable. Sufjan is my Hero ❤

    • @GerhardtFox
      @GerhardtFox Před 8 měsíci

      It's your family. You have to make a new one.

    • @malekhaddad1389
      @malekhaddad1389 Před 7 měsíci +1

      I’m no professional and I don’t mean to give a lesson or anything. That said, I feel like when somebody you love has died, you need to find a way to be connected to them through the happiness they brought to you, not only to the pain that their absence brings.
      Being in pain is not the only way to stay connected to a person you love. When you are happy, sad or angry, you also are connecting with them because you have probably felt all those emotions towards your mother in the past.
      I feel like I’m not using the right words and that this comment is confusing. But I just mean to say that if you feel like you can’t allow yourself to be happy in your life because you think that you would be abandoning her, well I don’t think you would. I think you would be sharing the rest of your life with her, sharing the happy moments and the sad and that’s probably what she would have wanted for you.

    • @cinephile5939
      @cinephile5939 Před 7 měsíci +1

      @@malekhaddad1389 i really understand where you're coming from, thankyou very much for your kind words!

    • @DaniBee2900
      @DaniBee2900 Před 7 měsíci +1

      i know your pain

    • @malekhaddad1389
      @malekhaddad1389 Před 7 měsíci

      @@cinephile5939 I’m glad it was understandable, thank you for your kind answer 😊

  • @fay5772
    @fay5772 Před 3 lety +8

    i never had a good relationship with my mom and listening to this song makes my heart ache

  • @_noxas
    @_noxas Před 6 lety +17

    CAPTAIN SPIRIT IS HERE

  • @MrAzizi07
    @MrAzizi07 Před 8 lety +97

    YEEZY taught me

  • @loafbreed7246
    @loafbreed7246 Před rokem +3

    I disowned my mother last christmas.
    I put out a spite update post on facebook that amounted to "I'm doing great and feeling actualized. you're still sewage."
    this puts me in a different headspace with my feelings towards her.
    I really. Still want to connect with them on some level.
    But they are just never going to run out of excuses to be all kinds of vicious and horrible towards me.
    And at some point, I just had to learn to give myself permission to let go.
    Maybe some day I'll even move past this stage, perhaps when they've passed away and the 'moment' is gone.
    family can be strange.
    I've been shown what love looks like by good friends.
    I've been told "I love you" many times by the same person that will cut me down without hesitation.
    Love shouldn't look like that.

  • @paranoid97
    @paranoid97 Před rokem +5

    Days after my 25th birthday i lost my precious mom 'cus of covid, a good friend of mine told me about this album, and soon after hearing the first lyrics of Death with Dignity i felt like a tight hug from her and a big weight was off from my shoulders, needless to say that this became one of my "comfort albums" whenever i feel sad or falling into a depression, makes me feel like everything will be fine after all the pain...
    Mom, someday we will see us again ♥️ love you, keep singin' beautiful up there...