The story I never wanted to tell
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- čas přidán 1. 12. 2019
- Was lost in darkness when I lost my son Jace but Jacia was the light I needed to find my way....A story I was afraid to talk about, the death of my son...RIP baby boy, I will always love you
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It’s okay to show your emotions because you’re human, no shame in that.
I did lost a son too,but God is a and time God,but he bless me with two more son and I am so greatful.
Oh this is heartbreaking, I am a year late, but you all still have my deepest condolences. I am so happy you have your baby girl.
I feel your pain I gave birth to a dead baby son too you will never forget him he is your guiding angel now my prayers are with you both much love from Ghana 🇬🇭 jamaican born ❤❤❤❤❤❤
I just happen to click on this. Oh boy she and u went through a lot. It hurts more especially when full term and had to do a c section and get that news. U both were strong and still are. I feel for u guys. Pease.
The many people you have helped with your story .......cannot be measured........but it's like a rebirth and a reconnection with God.... Sometimes we have to be afflicted to feel his presence and his power....Now that you have living proof.....Watch your family grow and your blessing flow.
That's what I've found out Devon, that's the truth right there. Thanks for ur word bro
Words of wisdom 🙌 👏 🙏..
Colazzz!!! Not mi watching... crying along with yuh ... shared experience!! Thanks fi sharing bredda!!!
This was so heart wrenching. Remember #7 is God's number. Your little boy will always be a part of you. Your story is a testimony that will inspire others. Congratulations on your baby girl. God Bless your family. Keep the faith brother. 🙏. Gracefully broken
Thank u
You will have a son you got to be strong i had a baby before my daughter and he was a boy also he also die i did not see him and 10 years after i had my son he is 21 now my daughter is 30 keep trying you will get a boy all the best
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Your story is so touching. God knows everything. You and your wife are strong people.
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It's the worst feeling'a parent could ever have to loose their beloved baby 🙏
I'm a nurse in NYC and I volunteered in KPH for 2 weeks and they need to be re-trained!!! Sorry for your lost
Exactly, i had a terrible experience there
They are not professional in the public hospitals in Jamaica, a lot of people die in those hospitals because they do not care, they are only working for the money.
@sanoconnor76 Me too I never have another baby in 🇯🇲 and I keep my promises
So sorry😢😢. Dung a dah place deh is di worst!!! Dem negligent bad..smh
God is good u will get a son who God bless no man cuse I love yoù,re family and the whole team . From ST Croix US VIRGIN ISLANDS.🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉❤❤❤❤❤.
Colaz it's been a while since all of this , I'm relatively new to the channel but I feel as if I travelled this journey step by step with you. Man!!!!!! The loss of a child can be raw, real and gut wrenching but God stepped on the midst and theres your beautiful daughter. He shun His light in the middle of your darkness. He allows you to PROVE that HE hears.
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What the Devil meant for Bad the Lord turned it around for Good Glory to God ,God is real God is God
Thank you so much for sharing your testimony. I didn't loss a child but i loss my husband tragically on December 15th 2023 in a vehicle accident. Grief is hard work,I'm going through rough time because we were only married for 5 years and have a 4 years old son together. I'm so encouraged by your testimony, and i will hold on to that one thing to help me move forward because we can never move on when we lose someone we love ,they're with us everyday in our hearts. May God continue to strengthen you and Sham. Much love and God bless ❤
Yes something went wrong after they delivered him that he didn't get the proper life support.that's why the partner should be in the room with your partner and keep a eye on what the nures are doing with the baby..
Yow bredda. Man can’t finish watch this yute!!! Too much sadness. Mi heart can’t manage nuh more me don. But what is needed to hear will be heard. God is the only thing the man can turn too. Hold up bro gad
God know my brother, I just started watching your videos, so going through some of them and saw this one, it’s very touching, the world need more men like you, who’s got a passion for Christ and such love ❤️ for your wife and your child, trust me, God will give you a son just continue to trust him. 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽💕😭😭😭🇯🇲🇬🇧🇯🇲
I was just thinking the same thing. His next baby will be a boy. So heartbreaking but God is awesome.
I. Have listened. To. Your. Video about the lost of your. Son but you have. Overcome. The. Pain. And is doing. Fine
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My God!!...This story broke my heart..Same happened to me many years ago so I completely understand!!.....God is still God....Sending you and your wife love and light!!
Thank u...it's been hard but God is able
This is so heart wrenching. I feel your pain. This too shall pass
U make me a bawl like a baby I v lost two miscarriages I saw my early pregnancy baby it affects me for years but now am blessed with a son thank be to God is able
Sorry for the loss of your firstborn . He was a beautiful baby and looked so perfect. May the birth of your daughter bring you both healing and joy💕
My darling Colaz, I discover you by watching your video cooking outside in the woods....Eee sah, tek yuh time joyful moment with the crew🥰🥰 so I subcribed to this natural food cooking🥂🥰😋
It's good to talk about it. Talking about things that hurt after having it bottled up is very releasing.
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This is heartbreaking 💔 😢 So sorry for your loss. I felt your pain, I cried with u and for you🙏🏾❤
Here I am, with arms wide open. Pouring out, gracefully broken. The battle is not yours, it's The Lord's
Thank you for sharing this very difficult experience with us. It is gut wrenching and heart felt. Women world over take note that we have feelings too even when we don't show it.
This testimony really touched me, my nephew has just lost his newborn baby. It is hard to give comfort in situations like this. But God gave us His Holy Spirit, His Comforter for us in times like these. He will send someone with the right words who has gone through similar situation, a bible verse/scripture or in your case, a song that you can hold on to. We weep for our children and Satan will take many more. Let’s continue to hold on to the one thing that he cannot take...God’s love for us.
God is able 🙏, let ur nephew know that God is in control and he shall be blessed with the love of the lord. He will smile again. God will deliver 🙏, he always does...just trust in him
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Thanks for your encouragement 🤗❤🙏🙏
Very touching, he is a way maker
Hi I enter your feelings buy God knows best I love you content
Heart breaking. Stay blessed. Love from uk
Bro, my prayers and condolences. Thanks for letting us be a part of this experience. Blessings bro
Thank u, God is great through it all
Watching this vedio is so heartbeat,dem careless bad down a jubilee and me nah take bk ma words... thank God this bby arrived ok
Your story of loseing baby Jace was sooo sooo moving and heartfelt...I had to cry as I felt it myself. It reminded me of a hymn that the hymn writer Fanny Crosbie wrote many many years ago after the death of her newborn baby, "safe in the arms of Jesus". Your beautiful baby boy went straight to be in the arms of the Lord Jesus. The Lord blessed you and your lovely wife with a lovely baby girl and I believe the Lord will bless you again with a baby boy. God knows it all. You have a beautiful testimony and will bless many people with it. God bless you and your family. 🙏💯
Colaz,.I am so sorry for your lost, no parents want to lost their child and my condolence to you and your wife . You will always remember your son and although he is gone your love is still there for him..very happy you were able to reach out to God,. He didn't bring him back but he gave you the strength to go your journey in faith. He knows all things best,. You now have a precious beautiful daughter and most likely some day you will have a son again. God is good and He never give us more that we can bear. We.all have unanswered questions and yes sometime we wonder if God is for us.but...He promise He will never leave us or forsake us, we will never know why somethings happened but only God knows. I know with time and your beautiful wife and daughter it will get better
God knows the future and with Him It will be well. Love, Peace and nuff Blessings. God answers prayers. Praise God!!!.
Thanks for this beautiful comment, I try not to come back to this video or its comments , but...anyway, I agree with you 100 I know the lord will be the strength for us till the end... thanks again
ME NEVER TAKE NO COUNCILING ME REFUSE I CAME TO UK STUDY TO BE A NURSE THANK GOD MUSIC KEPTS ME UNTIL THIS DAY WORK AMONGST PEOPLE FROM ALL OVER THE GLOBE NOW IM A ON MEDICAL PENSION DISABILITIES BECAUSE OF ORTHEORITHIS IN MY LEFT KNEE THANK GOD HE IS ABLE MY HEALER I DID HAVE ALL BERV3S PROBLEM GOD RELEASE ME FROM ALL THOSE
Everyday I watch more and more of your older videos and then this popped up. I would have never had imagined you went thru this. You and shameka are so strong...bless u guys and jacia and jaciann ❤️❤️❤️
Your ability to share is a sign of your healing.
May God continue bless you and your family.
I felt your Pain, COLAZ being their twice, however GOD see me ,us through....I even hear the babies crying and then I remember, reality take over...I would Love to hear how your Wife manage the LOSS, THANK YOU...🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽💞💃👏👍🥳🥳🥳
These are some of the challenges that some couples go through, and from there we go through different stages of of human emotions, but you know, time is a beautiful thing, and with time comes the different stages of life, the healing stages, and with the healing stages, comes A New Beginning.
You'll get your boy as well. Father God knows what he's doing. 💌💌
Thank you for ur encouragement 💗God is Still God ❤
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I recently subscribed to your channel and decided to look at some of your previous vlogs. Wow! This one has touched every part of my soul. It's a real tearjerker. Trust me, Jace knew you before he came into this world and his little arms are always wrapped around your neck even, thou you cannot see him. Only God know why he wanted this precious angel, but you have the best angel looking over you, his mother and his sisters. Blessings to you and your family.
It was so beautiful coming from the males point of view. Nice that you are this expressive as a man. God bless you and family. Sorry for your loss but God is in control everytime.
Way maker, miracle worker, promise keeper, light in the darkness my God that is who you are 🎶🎵🪕.....
Such a beautiful song indeed !
So so so sorry can I just let you and your wonderful family know that your son is alive and he is with our wonderful Lord Jesus Christ you guys will see him when we all get to heaven God love you Amen 🙏
is is such a bitter sweet experience and I feel your pain. I list my son tragically in 2017 and it still feels like yesterday. People told me to get over him and move on. If it wasn't for God I would have gone mad. There will be pain in the night but joy cometh in the morning. You are a living testimony...thanks forvyour inspirational words, thanks for sharing.🥰😥
Those people who told you to get over it and move are not good people. I'm sorry but that's not something you say to some who lost a child
God knows best. Remember David lost his first son, but then God gave him Solom who he blessed with enormous, wisdom, knowledge and understanding. God has now blessed you with a daughter and in due time he will bless you with a Solomon, Joseph, Joshua or Moses.
I feel your pain. I had three miscarriages, but I have to stay strong. Jason is now an angel watching over his little sister.
First son to Bathseba
Thanks so much for this ❤
So sad and heartbroken, the lord knows best. I empathize with you and hearing you speak from your heart so painful.
That wasn’t you speaking about you didn’t believe there was no god, or you didn’t want to hear anything about god, that was the anger and pain talking
I feel your pain Colaz. I had a still birth at 36 weeks. A beautiful baby girl. It was gut wrenching so I know exactly what you were feeling.
Colaz, I came across your channel yesterday. I fell in love with your cooking and the dynamics of your crew and started binge-watching. It’s one of two channels I subscribe to. My heart breaks for you and your wife’s loss but I am also moved by your courage. Thanks for sharing. I know this was tough but know you are touching many hearts. May God continue to comfort you and your family.
Blessings 🙌thank you for subscribing, I appreciate it 🙏God is a good God in our up and down moments even if we don't see it at the time he is always there for us 🙏
No sound !God will send u a son !
Keep the FAITH God His in CONTROL. It was good to tell your story. God bless you with a beautiful girl. To God be the Glory great things He Has Done.👧🏽❤️🏴
This is extremely hard to watch. I had friends and family who went through this and there are no words to describe the pain. Thanks for sharing and I pray pray your continued healing.
Mi General, I'm so sorry for your loss, wow‼️ Jah know star , Blessings to you and your family. p.S. Climber is your son, Spiritually mentally and emotionally, DAT TIZ IT
Omg Colaz and Sham is my first time seeing this Video And is just pure Tears running down my face what a touching experience what a heartbreaking time 😭😭but thank God for his presence and his Mercy and the joy he bring in ur Life after a storm there comes ur blessings😂😂😂😂😂🙏🙏🙏🙏 u are a great Father and these are the thing cause u to be so good to other people children u are here for a purpose and u are fulfilling ur purpose God is awesome ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
You make me cry Colza God bless u and your family
This is so heartbreaking! Watching this years later. Just finished watching the on about your wedding then this one.
I cried with you my brother and I am so happy that you started worshiping him after your disappointment. He is such a faithful God. Jayce will always be your baby boy!
Look at you now? You and Sham have 2 beautiful babies and he is blessing you both so abundantly! Isn’t he an amazing God? I love you guys ❤❤
Wow this is so touching! Your words of inspiration.
God is truly faithful and perfect in all His ways. He knows how to reach us, even in our darkness hour. Blessings guys as God continues the healing process in your hearts. ❤
So sorry for your lost 😞 RIP, very sad.
Very sad and heartbreaking 😢😢😢
Powerful testimony my friend. Glad you found strength through Glory to God 💯
Blessings, that song kept me through the dark time, God gave u that song and it has blessed so many and I was one 🙏glory to God
I am bawling. This is so sad but i am glad you shared it. Its rare we get a chance to hear a fathers side of losing a newborn. This emotional journey will help a lot of us heal from similar losses. We never forget but we find hope and courage to go on. God is with you all snd have Blessed you with more kids. .
That's a testimony. Blessings to you and family
I just started watching your channel and I subscribe because you have God in the centre of your life
Colaz thank you for sharing your story. It touched me and gives me strength in my own situation with my son. He is 29 and suffering from mental illness. I don’t even know where he is right now. I have not heard from him for weeks now. He had a promising future as he was going to University and left deciding to live in his car. So when you said you cannot describe the pain you felt over the loss of your son. Trus me I could relate. So pain, guilt, anger and grief are all the emotions I have struggled with. As you said keep something to hang on to ...my song is GOD WILL MAKE A WAY ... I do see his hand ... so please pray for me and my son Matthew-Lee that the Lord will restore and heal. Thanks again for sharing and God bless you and your family.
ME HAVE PEACE WITH GOD NOW COLAZ YOU ARE STRONG 💪🏾 IM STRONG IN GOD HE KEPT ME FOR MY 2 DUGHTRS FIRST &LAST DUGHTR GROWN UPS NOW THANK GOD
I just found your channel last week. I've been binge watching. Thank God for your testimony, you will help more people, especially men than you realize. God has brought you through one of the most difficult situations a parent can experience. May He continue to keep His hedge of protection around you and your family. Stay blessed.
Same here.
I've been binging your videos and got to this one. Learning more about your family and shows who you are. Sorry for this tragedy but you are such an excellent dad to your daughters and To Clima now. You are very strong
So sorry for your loss ... Bereavement is one of the most difficult things to deal with and can affect you for a long time. I do hope both you and your wife continue to support each other. And now ... happy for you both to be gifted with a little lady to help make your family complete.
Thank God for blessing with an adorable baby girl. God bless your beautiful family 🥰
To God be the Glory Great things he had done. ❤
😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏STRENGTH❤👨👶👩❤NOTHING BEATS PRAYERS❤
My heart goes to you and your wife thanks for sharing your story and your journey. 🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️
Thank you for this message of hope. You encourage me to hold on and get through my situation. Blessings.
Oh this is sad. My heart is hurting
God bless you my brother.
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Just subscribed to your channel, and I love everything about it...I am so sorry for this loss, but know that God is going to bless you with twins, and more children...I feel your pain..take care.
The most heartbreaking, inspiring, thoughtful, thought provoking, refreshing video. Glory to God. Thank you, thank you. I don't have the death of a child but I have been going through things that cause me to question God. Thank you for bringing me back. Blessings to you, your wife and daughter 💙❤💙❤🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿
In all things God is still God. Sometimes we forget how good he is because of certain situations but trust me, he is the same God that was with Daniel in the lions den and with David when he bottled the giant and the three Hebrew boys locked in the fire...I lost my way like many others and lost hope for a time, but God was still there every step of the was guiding me back to him...blessings
@@Colazsmithtv thanks for your kind words 🙏🏿
My sister lost her second son shortly after was born as well. it was very painful. I still remember hearing her anguish when she called me from the hospital. She has another son. The baby she lost would have been called Jaden. You should have gotten grief counseling even though you felt nothing could soothe the pain you felt.
I watched your video today and it encourage me so much thank you .
My God is good he gives and He takes, He alone knows great testament wow God is good all the time and all the time God is good mighty God
Just came across your channel and have been binge watching - this and 6our engagement party videos have really moved me.
I just subscribed to your channel today and getting to know you and your family and friends. This is a powerful video. I'm happy to know you didn't give up on God🤗 GOD IS GOOD, ALL THE TIME!!!✌&❤
I am so touched by your faith. You and your family have been through so much. God is love. Be blessed
Thanks for sharing bro,...that must've been hard, God is about to bless you double, double 🙏 🙏
Sorry to hear about this and thanks for sharing. Strength and lotsa love for you and your family. Amen and amen
I love your honesty. Many people is afraid of someone going through grief. Thank God you made it. Your baby girl is such a joy, so full of life and a cutie. Much blessings to you and your beautiful wife.
So painful, so sorry for your loss, thank God you kept your faith, that’s devastating. I have two children of my own and had a very near death experience with my pre-mature daughter. It was devastating, but could never compare to your situation. Keep trusting.
I see your courage and strength in sharing this story ❤️
So touching and real. Thanks for sharing!
Wow.....this happened awhile back but it is still touching lives. Thanks for sharing your story.....God is truly amazing. 🙏
You are a living testimony...blessings ❤💯
IM HAPPY YOU SPEAKS ABOUT IT TO FREE YOUR MIND ITS OK TO CRY😭😭😭😭😭 COLAZ
I am so happy that you are in the light. Missing your son is okay too. Having and honouring your beautiful daughter is commendable too. Stay strong both of you.
You said you not one the praise God out load, but the word says GOD inherits the praises of his people Hallelujah Hallelujah to your name God because you are Worthy oh lord, blessings blessings upon blessings,
I just found your channel a week ago and I have been watching your cooking. This video was heartbreaking. Seeing you holding your baby boy made me cry. I am so sorry for your loss, but look what God has done, he has blessed you and your wife with a precious beautiful baby girl. Never forget your son, grieve for as long as it takes, just always remember God is in control. Your testimony will help so many people. Thank you for sharing such a difficult part of your life. May God continue to bless you and your family.🙏
What a testimony!!! Thank you❤️👍🏽. Thanks for sharing your life experiences. Sorry for the loss your baby boy, but thanking God for blessings you both with your little girl. Praises be to God👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽. Thank God for bringing you both through such a difficult time. Blessings always to your family,over and over again❤️💪🏼🙏🏽👍🏽👏🏽💯
Thank God he has given you the strength to carry on. Thanks for sharing your story it's helping me right now as you know I just loss a Son and seeing your strength gives me the strength to go on too. 🙏👼🤗❤👼
I love your content but this video has given me a new found appreciation for your channel. I am happy for you and your wife and I prophesy that you will have your son. Your family is beautiful and your content is a breath of fresh air . Always been a silent viewer but had to comment on this one.
This is a very moving story. I love the way you showed you’re vulnerability. Having watched your Jacia’s World challenge, you are an absolutely great dad and husband the way you’ve supported your wife while she was in hospital. There are so many men that could learn from you. I really hope that Wayne Marshall see this video. I think he would be happy to know that his song has helped you in a difficult time.
Thank you for sharing this, I just came across it and it touch my heart, it is an inspiration, and your faith has made you whole. This message will help so many people heal including myself. God bless you and may you always find peace in the midst of any storm. Stay blessed and thanks again for sharing. 🙏💯. God is a miracle working God.
Thanks for sharing. Had this similar experience 2015 with my first child. And my husband had a similar reaction so much so he appears to take it out on me. To this day even though we av 2beautiful children he still seems to b in that dark place and unforgiving to God
What a journey, what a testimony my heart bleeds,my heart smiles beautiful family my prayers goes up to you and yours always 🤔🙏🙏🙏🙏
My brother thanks 😊for sharing! Beautiful god loves you, keep trusting in god
Thank's for sharing. Lean on each other until....
Happy to know you're a caring man for your family it touch me God knows best 🙌 🙏 ❤