I always cry at the last part. That power of a desperate cry for help, for communication with his gone love it just breaks my heart. I can’t stop the tears, you can’t fake the emotion he transmitted.
It’s very well said. Edit: You know God’s tested your faith when you question you faith and wish you were dead so you could quit suffering here in this Earth with people who sin terrible sins over and over. Or when you have school that’s stressed you out too much or you’ve had anxiety or depression or knowing that there is still crying and sickness here on this earth. In Heaven there’s none of that. They’re joy, and there’s God’s presence and that’s all we need.
The lines of this song run so incredibly deep. The part which said: "Sometimes I'd rather be dead, at least then I'm with you" gave me shivers. AR is in my eyes the perfect band. They've got it all.
If I get high is my absolute favourite song of NBT. Makes me feel the "most". Sadness but also something deeper in a way. Particles, Lover please stay and 6 billion are also amazing
I used to listen to this song while my mom laid dying in the hospital,, mourning her before she was even gone,, I learned last week that she’s had her surgery to save her life,, and someone had to die to give that to her,,, so from the bottom of my heart: I don’t know who you are, stranger, but thank you for helping save my mothers life,,, I’m so eternally grateful for your sacrifice
I think there’s a God up there who loves you. It takes just as much bravery to be an atheist as it does a believer man. If you’d seen the things I’ve seen you’d believe in God. But maybe if I saw the things you’ve seen maybe I wouldn’t.
1 John 4:19 We love because he first loved us. 1 John 4:10 In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins Isaiah 55:6-7 “Seek the Lord while He may be found; call upon Him while He is near; let the wicked forsake His way, and the unrighteous man His thoughts; let him return to the Lord, that He may have compassion on Him, and to our God, for He will abundantly pardon. Acts 17:27 That they should seek God, in the hope that they might feel their way toward Him and find Him. Yet He is actually not far from each one of us, Romans 10:13 For “everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.
A week ago today you were healthy, strong. You were doing just fine. Now, so suddenly, just like that, you're gone. Three days later, it still doesn't feel real to me. I miss you and I will never forget you.
This song is helping me get over my dad who passed away at around 2 am yesterday. I don't know why but I can't stop listening to it on repeat. I love you, dad. Thanks for everything.
I don't even know how respond my friend. I am terribly sorry for your loss, truly. I hope u are doing better now and may God bless u may brother, don't give up
I listened to this song on repeat after losing my dad. Sometimes just knowing that someone else knows how you hurt, and has had the same feelings and thoughts, can be really comforting. I hope you are healing. That kind of pain is horrible...
I have never heard this song until today and man, I'm in a puddle of my own tears as I'm writing this. I don't normally comment on videos, but September of 2018, I lost my sister to cancer. It completely crushed me, I was 18 at the time and I had just started college and everything. But since she left the world, I fell off the map and I haven't been able to recover. I miss her every single day, and I never really truly got to say good bye but I can still feel her with me sometimes, yet I still feel the pain as if I'm missing her terribly. "I'd rather be dead, at least then I'm with you." I couldn't relate more..
I'm sorry about your loss. I lost my grandmother a few years ago and I still miss her terribly but i believe that she would not want me to give up on everything because of grief. It's hard but we will hang on :)
soties like yours alwaus make me so emotionnal because i'm so scared of losing my friends and family, i can't even imagine the pain you have. take care, bye :).
@@SetTheWild Its funny, the 3 year anniversary was 2 days ago and these past couple days I've been reliving through old trauma surrounding the event and even listened to this song earlier today and you commented. Thank you for your kind words, they mean a lot. 😊
I lost my little sister this June, she was 13 and hardly even started living, my entire family is grieving, my other sister and I have been taking care of each other but it always feels like something is missing, looking at her empty chair while we eat dinner, never hearing her bedroom door open. I always thought this kind of thing would never happen to us, and then it did, my whole life turned upside down in a matter of hours.. since then I feel like I've been watching myself in the third person while someone else continues with my daily routine and just sort of stumbles along in my shoes. this past week I've caught myself finally feeling like I'm in my own body, only briefly but its getting better. This song and your post about what you've gone through has really connected with me, I hope you are doing well, thank you.
I think most people missed what this song is about. It is about coping with the death of a loved one, and struggling with the fact that you will never be able see them again. It is about hoping, wishing that there is some way to reunite, even though you deep down you question whether heaven is real. It is not however about hoping to be with god.
@@frankenstein1091 The artist's intent is clear in the lyrics. That is, as simply put as possible, what the song is "about", as OP insinuates. You can interpret it however you want on a personal level; songs give everyone a different feeling.
A song of humanity’s confusion, pain, and longing for fullness that only comes from being in relationship with the One who created us. I love this band’s honesty and the emotion they put into their music. Truly beautiful.
@@tedvaneeten9978 Jordan Peterson ponders on these things, he talks about how the word Israel means to wrestle with God. He compares this to not only sinning and fighting Him but wrestling with our confusion and doubt, saying that God is meant to be wrestled with in order to have faith. Truly beautiful.
Sleeping At Last is similar, my favourite artist ever (I'm not one to have a favourite of anything). He has been around for a while. I suggest you check him out if you'd like.
Art is the shivers that run down your spine as your eyes close, images that interrupt and preclude your train of thoughts bringing it to a halt; it is your heart quietly skipping to another dimension. This song is art. This song is a journey.
I understand his pain so much that it almost makes me feel comfortable. Like, hearing something so real to me in a song (that emotional pain) brings relief
I have yet to find a more perfect imitation of what I feel when going through grief over my dad. I cry to this song on repeat and I feel every line, every amen.
Lost my mom to suicide two years ago when I was 15. Never fully got to grieve for her and still haven’t. This song reminds me of her a lot and brings me comfort when I feel alone. I actually look a lot like her which I’m always reminded of when I see family or I look in the mirror. She was a great mom and friend. Miss you mom I love you
I lost my mom to suicide as well in December of 2020 right before my sons first Christmas. There's not a day that goes by that I don't miss her or wish she was here. My son will be two next month. This song has such powerful emotions and words. It helps get me through it. Miss you mom
This song was featured on Lone Star 911 and I was able find a website that had all the songs from the series. Even better this video had the words to the song. It has touched me as I have gone through some pretty tough times in my life. Times that I really wanted to give up. While I've never had a drug or alcohol problem I can still relate to it because of my depression.
"Is there a moment when it all makes sense? When saying goodbye doesn't feel like the end?" I must have thought the same things, felt the same way, too many times to count. It's a beautiful and bittersweet thing for it to be articulated so well. Amazing song.
This song hits so deep and the words make me want to cry. “Sometimes I’d rather be dead, at-least I’ll be with you.” The sense of loss and emptiness in this song makes me think of the people that everyone has lost. Someone’s lost there mother. Someone’s lost their father or daughter or lover or son. And the fact that everyone has gone through such pain is so saddening and yet it is what makes us human. I love the fact that somehow, everyone can relate with this song.
I know people think of pets and animals as lowly and not at the same level of importance as a family member but I know my heart broke the night my boy died unexpectedly. I raised him, loved him, lived with him. He was a unique being with a personality. He was my baby. Cried uncontrollably for days knowing I would not see him again. This song just feels true.
My cat was 6 years old when he got out early one morning and got hit by a car. That was 5 years ago, the pain may be numbed now, but it’s still there. I don’t think I’ll ever stop grieving my baby boy.
I lost my little Cherry to parvo (2 days before her vaccination appointment) and it absolutely broke me. It’s been a year and I miss her still. She was a bright light in my life, my best and only friend, and was the only one to turn to when my boyfriend got abusive. Listening to this made me think of her instantly because I wished (at the time) I would’ve died with her that day, at least then I wouldn’t be sad
Exactly. The fact people don't consider their animals as family hurts. The dog grew up with. We were 6 months apart. She passed away at 13. It's been just under a year. And it still hurts. Her birthday is next month. Idk what I'm going to do.
I had a little budgie, his name was Avion. He had such a unique personality and bonded with me well, He was my birb son. He died of unknown illness and I had no way to get him to an emergency vet, So I comforted him when he died, It tore me to shreds, just softly hugged him and balled my eyes out for days.. I still do when I hear a certain song..
I LOVE this song. My dad, who I'm very close to, was just diagnosed with terminal cancer and while the song made me cry when I first heard it, that didn't compare to the way i cried when it randomly came up on my Playlist after hearing that news. But I'm grateful for this song because it gets that almost unhinged panic down perfectly. My dad hasn't died, and there's always hope of remission, but realistically its an aggressive cancer that's already metastasized. So. At least we all have some time to make peace with whatever outcome there is.
I'm pretty sure you guys dont read the comments but regardless...thank you. A year and 2 weeks ago I lost my grandmother to a 5 year spanning battle with dementia. At first she would forget small things like where she put her glasses or what she came in the room to do, and as a 9 year old I figured it was normal as she was in her mid 70's. 5 years later, last January to be exact, my grandmother was brought to a nursing home, as her condition had worsened immensely and she often spoke very softly and questioningly. She could not respond to most questions correctly, and spent hours a day sitting in the kitchen staring blankly, as if she was not really there anymore. After about 3 weeks my grandfather decided to take her back home, and although I wanted her to be with her family, I feel like the conditions were better in the nursing home for her, as my grandpa was 88 and couldnt really hear well if she had fallen or anything. But luckily she never had any bad injuries. However by March, she had a nurse visiting every other day, she was bedridden, and had lost all motor functions. Her speech was almost inaudible, but she always seemed to be trying to say something. March 10th is a day I will never forget. Not because she has passed on that day, but because it was the last day I had seen her. We knew she only had 2 weeks at most, and that my visit very well could've been my last goodbye to her, but i wish i had stayed over for the night and been there with her when it happened. She went peacefully and in her sleep the next morning. I wasnt told until late afternoon, and although i had known it would happen for years, the wave of emotion and loss that hit me broke me down more than i could have prepared for. And I had friends with me that night who comforted me and told me it would be alright, that we all lose people close sometimes, but I still wish that I couldve said goodbye when it counted. When she could understand me, remember who I am and how much I loved her. I've tried visiting her grave; I couldn't make it to the funeral because of school, but I dont know where exactly it is. I'm sorry I havent visited you nana. If you're up there, if you can somehow see this message or hear what I've said, I love you, and Ihope I see you again. And to every member of this band, thank you for creating such a sad yet beautiful song. I've never really found music as a good way to heal sadness, but the empathy and pure emotion in this song is so real and similar to how we have all felt in the face of an early or close death. What you do and make is remarkable Amber Run, and as your fans, we want you to know that we appreciate everything you do for us. Everything. I'm just one of millions of people who listen to your music daily, but I am not the only one who has been moved by your music in so many different ways. I promised myself that if I get married, I'd spend my life savings just to have you guys play "the weight" at the wedding. It's another beautiful song that holds pure emotion of love and another that has been there for the moments in life that music usually cant describe. But yours does. Thank you Amber Run...
I’m kind of glad that you uploaded this comment here for people to see, because i recently went through something similar with my grandma. She got diagnosed with alzheimers around 2016 before passing away in the spring of 2020. It’s nice knowing that I’m not alone. And I hope you’ve been able to move on and find as well as visit your grandma’s grave. I bet she’d be happy❤️
@@littlespiritdragon8098 I am sorry for your loss as well, but at least we'll always have this amazing and meaningful music that we can remember them by. I've moved on a bit easier than I thought which kind of hurts in its self, but I still miss my nana each and every time I think of her. I'm hoping I can find her grave some day, I know the cemetery but so far I haven't seen it
It's been almost 8 years. I was 9 when cancer took you. The week you died, I heard you whisper in my ear while I was in my bed. I often wished that I was dead so I could be with you again. I'm 16 now. I never healed right from that deep of a wound. Every year has been more and more excruciating to live through. "It's going to get better!" sounds so stale now. I'll always miss you, mom. Nothing in this world has ever been fair. 21/9/2016
I've been here the dark despair looking over the abyss Thanks be 2 God I didn't leap.. How many people have survived continued because of me... Amen... Peace & blessings ~CJ🪶💕❤️💕🌿🕊️🫶
I hope you’re doing okay man... If you need to talk about it please tell me in this comment, stay strong. You’ve got so much to live for, I love you as a human, and as a being. I hope you find happiness and recover from this hurt 💕
My sister did this dance and this is her last year of dancing and she had a solo part when the music picked up and I was balling my eyes out backstage because she has grown so much and I love her so much ❤️❤️
The lyrics and passion within this song really hit me so hard; my wonderful dog and best friend passed away a month ago today and I relate to this song as it makes me think of him. Thank you for yet another masterpiece, I love this band and everything they create. I hope to hear this live soon as you sound even better live (which I always says seems impossible but somehow you guys make it possible).
i think this song stands out in that i can *feel* the sheer emotion when i listen. the lyrics are incredibly beautiful and deep and this combined with such a unique voice to convey them... i almost cried the first couple times i listened this, i’ll be honest. the way he conveys the pure pain behind the words gets me every single time. wonderful song 💜
I have this theory that, how we hear song lyrics, the first time around, says alot about who we are. All this time I thought he said, "sometimes I'd rather be dead than spend time with you". That the song was about desperation in love, a loss of sanity, the pain of betrayal, inability to leave. And after I realized that's not what he said, I felt I had some life assessing to do.
Amber Run Lyrics "Amen" And are those real angels in the magazines? Oh, is there a heaven? You'd know now you've been Are those real stars that hang in the sky? Or are they man made? A trick of the light? Amen, Amen, Amen And is there a God up there? 'So, where does he hide? 'Cause the devil is raging inside my mind And is there a moment where it all makes sense? When saying goodbye, doesn't feel like the end? Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen Sometimes I can't help blaming you For leaving me here, what am I supposed to do? There's plenty of women, there's drink and there's drugs But we both know that won't be enough 'Cause I see you in the daytime, and I hear you at night There's a pale imitation burnt in my eyes I don't want to be here, I don't know what to do Sometimes I'd rather be dead, at least then I'm with you Amen, Amen Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen
DrFaustFaustus conveniently, this is a comment for those who want to sing along (such as me) who can't sing with it otherwise while learning the lyrics without seeing either all of them or seeing them paragraph by paragraph. Also conveniently, no one truly cares about your comment. Have a nice day!
DrFaustFaustus for me, yes. You trying to make it seem like I said that they're useless for everyone unless lyrics are also posted in the comments is an absurd idea, because it's wrong. I didn't say that they're useless for everyone, I said they were useless for people like me. As this is a CZcams comment section and not the seat of an official debate, I will no longer be explaining what you don't understand because *it doesn't matter* I bid you adieu. Have a good day!
This song is perfect for helping me dealing with my grandpa’s death (he died today in the morning btw), and we were so close, and shared a lot of love and happiness. I love you, always.
It's been a year since u lost your dear Grandpa and I lost my sweet Mom a year ago too. I hope this comment finds you at peace and I'm sure you think of him often with so many beautiful memories of him. I sure have my own sweet memories of my dear Mom, who was also named Rose, by the way. 🌹💕
The last part “sometimes I would rather be dead but at least I’m with you” kills me this was the senior lyrical dance at my studio and no matter how many times I watched it I would break down in tears… this song is powerful enough to make two girls who have hated each other for 6 years hug each other and say it’s going to be alright while they cry in each other’s arms…mascara and highlighter running down our faces right before we have to go on stage for the closing act but we don’t care that shows how much of a family we are that just some simple movements to the rhythm of a song can make someone so emotional…
It's approaching 2020 in about a week. If anyone else has suffered a loss, that they have to live with, maybe they can relate. That second verse always brings me to tears, "Is there a moment where it all makes sense, when saying goodbye doesn't feel like the end?" I'm a single father who was forced into being a single father, and I have to just watch my little girl go off with her mother every week, and I die every time. I can't tell you how much is lost, as I can barely find myself without my daughter. I know I'll see her again, and relatively soon, but I break inside...
"is there a god up there? 'so where does he hide? 'cause the devil is raging inside my mind." that line hit me so hard... thank you so much Amber run for making beautiful music....
And RIP to those who lost their loved ones and anyone whoever meant the world and so much to them god bless us all 😭💔🙏🏼❤️ may this be a lesson it live it up and love one another no matter what AMEN🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
I've been going through a tough time this year and your music is one of the handful of things that truly brings me happiness, even if it's momentarily, when i thought i'd never be able to feel happy again and i can't emphasise enough how much i appreciate it, thank you x
He screams the part with so much raw emotion. I pray this everyday. I wish I was rather dead so I could be with God instead. He would point out all those things to me I never could see. He would answer my burning questions and hold me dear. Like a parent holds a child and I pray to be dead each day. I'm so done with this world. But I'm still alive and writing this. Maybe because it's not my time yet. Maybe I have meaning. Maybe I have purpose.
MK Niazi27 God has plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future. Hold on to that, that while there is life, there is hope. :)
MK Niazi27 You most certainly do. Maybe, you've just said it yourself. This world needs to change. I think you're one of the people who can bring about that change. The eyes of a sick and homeless person as you tuck them in and call them "Madam". Or "Sir" when you say hello. They won't give you any likes but they are close to heaven. Stay close but don't go just yet, please. Much love.
Slabs4 you can live all that now, you dont have to die to experience God in a really close way. This is him expressing what he feels about a person who died or commited suicide. Jesus=Emmanuel, God with you, with me, with us.
"Sometimes I'd rather be dead, at least then I'm with you" I feel that. I've not been doing good the last few months. I have some mental health conditions and am now dealing with some substance abuse after an assault a few months ago. I dont even want to get out of bed most days. I have three brothers, but they are all in Heaven and my heart aches for them more than I can express in words. It's like there is this empty space in my heart and in my life where they should be, but they arent here. I think about going up to where they are. I'm sure things would be better on the other side, and I'd be with my big brothers. If anyone else feels this way, you're not alone. I see you, and I hope things get better for you.
To my dad:I know you may not see this but I love you wherever you are. I am 11 now I'm doing good at school and I got a haircut. But it's not the same you are gone and I have no dad.
I dont have any words trying to say how this song made me feel. The crippling pain that destroys a part of you that never comes back. It's a repeat song.
This song is easily one of the most beautiful I’ve ever heard, and I wish more people knew about it. It’s helped me a lot with the passing of my father, his death may have been years ago but the trauma of losing him in front of me will forever be there. So in the earliest hours of the morning this song takes me back to him, and for awhile everything feels okay.
I interpret this song as someone with intense religious trauma in the beginning stage of realizing how traumatized they are and how this pain can not go on anymore. the amens, the gospels, and the hymns have all grown bitter for them.
"Sometimes, I'd rather be dead. At least then, I'm with you."
That line hits hard...
So hard.
So, so, so hard.
Amen!
religious trauma goes brrr
It’s not true though , God is with you #Lonestar7 we have a living God 🙏🏼 Amen
I always cry at the last part. That power of a desperate cry for help, for communication with his gone love it just breaks my heart. I can’t stop the tears, you can’t fake the emotion he transmitted.
Well said.
It’s very well said. Edit: You know God’s tested your faith when you question you faith and wish you were dead so you could quit suffering here in this Earth with people who sin terrible sins over and over. Or when you have school that’s stressed you out too much or you’ve had anxiety or depression or knowing that there is still crying and sickness here on this earth. In Heaven there’s none of that. They’re joy, and there’s God’s presence and that’s all we need.
Trif Alex I completely agree
Very gud
Crying right now it's no problem I'm fine
'When saying goodbye doesn't feel like the end'
'Sometimes I'd rather be dead, at least then I'm with you'
Amen
The lines of this song run so incredibly deep.
The part which said: "Sometimes I'd rather be dead, at least then I'm with you" gave me shivers.
AR is in my eyes the perfect band. They've got it all.
AR and Nothing but thieves my two favourite bands
+Manoli Bergan I feel the same sadness when I hear this song and 'If I get high'
If I get high is my absolute favourite song of NBT. Makes me feel the "most". Sadness but also something deeper in a way. Particles, Lover please stay and 6 billion are also amazing
@@flowerscream2004 Holy shit I was thinking the exact same thing
@@NorthernSpartan same
I used to listen to this song while my mom laid dying in the hospital,, mourning her before she was even gone,, I learned last week that she’s had her surgery to save her life,, and someone had to die to give that to her,,, so from the bottom of my heart: I don’t know who you are, stranger, but thank you for helping save my mothers life,,, I’m so eternally grateful for your sacrifice
He sounds so sincere it breaks my heart...
I keep jumping in my skin with every verse
I'm atheist, but I feel shivers with this song. This feeling you have when you feel forsaken.
I think there’s a God up there who loves you. It takes just as much bravery to be an atheist as it does a believer man. If you’d seen the things I’ve seen you’d believe in God. But maybe if I saw the things you’ve seen maybe I wouldn’t.
bro GOD love you and he will always be on your side
I have the same feeling. I do t believe in god but every time I listen to this song I get so emotional.
S a m e
1 John 4:19
We love because he first loved us.
1 John 4:10
In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins
Isaiah 55:6-7
“Seek the Lord while He may be found; call upon Him while He is near; let the wicked forsake His way, and the unrighteous man His thoughts; let him return to the Lord, that He may have compassion on Him, and to our God, for He will abundantly pardon.
Acts 17:27
That they should seek God, in the hope that they might feel their way toward Him and find Him. Yet He is actually not far from each one of us,
Romans 10:13
For “everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.
A week ago today you were healthy, strong. You were doing just fine. Now, so suddenly, just like that, you're gone. Three days later, it still doesn't feel real to me. I miss you and I will never forget you.
thanks lone star, i don't think i've ever cried so much at an episode 😭💔
I can't help but break down with every listen
The desperate 'amen, amen, amen, amen' touches my soul. Grief is a powerful thing.
This song is helping me get over my dad who passed away at around 2 am yesterday. I don't know why but I can't stop listening to it on repeat.
I love you, dad. Thanks for everything.
I don't even know how respond my friend. I am terribly sorry for your loss, truly. I hope u are doing better now and may God bless u may brother, don't give up
I listened to this song on repeat after losing my dad. Sometimes just knowing that someone else knows how you hurt, and has had the same feelings and thoughts, can be really comforting. I hope you are healing. That kind of pain is horrible...
I’m speechless, I’m so sorry.
Make that 85 likes im the 85 likes
Im sorry for your loss I know it has been 2 years since your comment but i feel like I still have to react to it bless you man
What a POWERFUL song. Definitely made me cry. I want to thank 911 lone star for using this song in an episode, cause I wouldn't have heard it. Wow!
"Sometimes, I'd rather be dead. At least then, I'm with you"
This line hit me hard. Miss you, grandpa. Forever, your lil red ♡
Heard this beautiful power song on 9-1-1 Lone star, and it sent chills through my body, the passion in his voice when signing...just wow!!!
I have never heard this song until today and man, I'm in a puddle of my own tears as I'm writing this. I don't normally comment on videos, but September of 2018, I lost my sister to cancer. It completely crushed me, I was 18 at the time and I had just started college and everything. But since she left the world, I fell off the map and I haven't been able to recover. I miss her every single day, and I never really truly got to say good bye but I can still feel her with me sometimes, yet I still feel the pain as if I'm missing her terribly.
"I'd rather be dead, at least then I'm with you."
I couldn't relate more..
I'm sorry about your loss. I lost my grandmother a few years ago and I still miss her terribly but i believe that she would not want me to give up on everything because of grief. It's hard but we will hang on :)
Hi hope you’re doing better now with your sisters memory still alive and with you, may I please pray for you?
soties like yours alwaus make me so emotionnal because i'm so scared of losing my friends and family, i can't even imagine the pain you have. take care, bye :).
@@SetTheWild Its funny, the 3 year anniversary was 2 days ago and these past couple days I've been reliving through old trauma surrounding the event and even listened to this song earlier today and you commented. Thank you for your kind words, they mean a lot. 😊
I lost my little sister this June, she was 13 and hardly even started living, my entire family is grieving, my other sister and I have been taking care of each other but it always feels like something is missing, looking at her empty chair while we eat dinner, never hearing her bedroom door open. I always thought this kind of thing would never happen to us, and then it did, my whole life turned upside down in a matter of hours.. since then I feel like I've been watching myself in the third person while someone else continues with my daily routine and just sort of stumbles along in my shoes. this past week I've caught myself finally feeling like I'm in my own body, only briefly but its getting better. This song and your post about what you've gone through has really connected with me, I hope you are doing well, thank you.
I'm here watching this song, bc of watching 911:Lonestar last night! This song 🎵 hits powerful with me. Love it! ❤
Me too!
@@thebestestoneever It's a great song isn't it?
same!!
Also watching because of Lone Star, and now it really hits hard.
I came here from lone star too omg!!! That show is amazing ❤️
9-1-1:lone star brought me here..
the scene plus this song is divine!!
I heard this song on 9-1-1 lone star so powerful.
Same
Same yo I heard it and immediately looked for the song
me too
Same here
me too
I think most people missed what this song is about. It is about coping with the death of a loved one, and struggling with the fact that you will never be able see them again. It is about hoping, wishing that there is some way to reunite, even though you deep down you question whether heaven is real. It is not however about hoping to be with god.
I think it's up to everybody to imagine what this song is about. It's so beautiful that it touches everyone's feelings and imagination.
Who are you to say what art means to someone? Everyone has their own interpretation.
@@frankenstein1091 The artist's intent is clear in the lyrics. That is, as simply put as possible, what the song is "about", as OP insinuates. You can interpret it however you want on a personal level; songs give everyone a different feeling.
Dude it’s about whatever they relate it to. Stop being A typical.
@sammyclark838 - thank you for saying it so simply, so well.
RIP my buddy Logan, He died in a car wreck, this was played at his funeral
The best mans, always go first.
A song of humanity’s confusion, pain, and longing for fullness that only comes from being in relationship with the One who created us.
I love this band’s honesty and the emotion they put into their music. Truly beautiful.
Beautifully said.
So true. May God`s grace open his eyes.
@@tedvaneeten9978 Jordan Peterson ponders on these things, he talks about how the word Israel means to wrestle with God. He compares this to not only sinning and fighting Him but wrestling with our confusion and doubt, saying that God is meant to be wrestled with in order to have faith.
Truly beautiful.
Jorden Peterson is an interesing character. So close to being a christian, but has not yet cross ed the line.
@@tedvaneeten9978 yeah, he kind of is a closet-Christian. He also glorifies Catholicism.
Who's here after Monday's 9-1-1 Lone Star? Amazing song for an amazing episode!!!!
Me
Favorite part is from 0:00-3:06
the crying?
Oof, same
Bruh
Same dude
Honestly so powerful. Amber Run’s music is all so atmospheric and deep. Truly there isn’t anyone out there like them at the moment.
Sleeping At Last is similar, my favourite artist ever (I'm not one to have a favourite of anything). He has been around for a while. I suggest you check him out if you'd like.
If I didn’t know any better I’d swear it was an angel singing
It is
Art is the shivers that run down your spine as your eyes close, images that interrupt and preclude your train of thoughts bringing it to a halt; it is your heart quietly skipping to another dimension. This song is art. This song is a journey.
If this doesnt choke you up you have no soul
derek melton oof
I always knew that I didn’t have a soul
A lack of understanding creates apathy. Can you say that you understand his position?
I understand his pain so much that it almost makes me feel comfortable. Like, hearing something so real to me in a song (that emotional pain) brings relief
Welp... its final, i dont have a soul
same 😂 I just lIke sInging this song
i lost my grandma just found out last night cried till i couldnt breathe i hope everyone is doing okay and get thru this pain of their love one.
I have yet to find a more perfect imitation of what I feel when going through grief over my dad. I cry to this song on repeat and I feel every line, every amen.
So glad that I found this song I just discovered it today when I was watching 911 Lonestar
The emotion in his voice is so touching 💕💔
Lost my mom to suicide two years ago when I was 15. Never fully got to grieve for her and still haven’t. This song reminds me of her a lot and brings me comfort when I feel alone. I actually look a lot like her which I’m always reminded of when I see family or I look in the mirror. She was a great mom and friend.
Miss you mom I love you
I am so sorry. Unfortunately I know what it is like to be the one wanting to commit suicide. I'm seriously crying right now.
I lost my mom to suicide as well in December of 2020 right before my sons first Christmas. There's not a day that goes by that I don't miss her or wish she was here. My son will be two next month. This song has such powerful emotions and words. It helps get me through it. Miss you mom
God damn how I know that feeling of missing them
Why in the fuck did she leave me here
I'm so so sorry to hear this to read this breaks my heart our mom's are in heaven now 🙏🏼 stay strong love 🙏🏼
“I don’t wanna be here, I don’t know what to do” hits me extremely hard, it’s like someone else is speaking for me😔
This song was featured on Lone Star 911 and I was able find a website that had all the songs from the series. Even better this video had the words to the song. It has touched me as I have gone through some pretty tough times in my life. Times that I really wanted to give up. While I've never had a drug or alcohol problem I can still relate to it because of my depression.
911 lone star season 3 ep 8 brought me here ♥
"Is there a moment when it all makes sense?
When saying goodbye doesn't feel like the end?"
I must have thought the same things, felt the same way, too many times to count. It's a beautiful and bittersweet thing for it to be articulated so well.
Amazing song.
This song hits so deep and the words make me want to cry. “Sometimes I’d rather be dead, at-least I’ll be with you.” The sense of loss and emptiness in this song makes me think of the people that everyone has lost. Someone’s lost there mother. Someone’s lost their father or daughter or lover or son. And the fact that everyone has gone through such pain is so saddening and yet it is what makes us human. I love the fact that somehow, everyone can relate with this song.
I know people think of pets and animals as lowly and not at the same level of importance as a family member but I know my heart broke the night my boy died unexpectedly. I raised him, loved him, lived with him. He was a unique being with a personality. He was my baby. Cried uncontrollably for days knowing I would not see him again. This song just feels true.
My dog died on Friday morning. I hadn't cried in years, but it broke me.
My cat was 6 years old when he got out early one morning and got hit by a car. That was 5 years ago, the pain may be numbed now, but it’s still there. I don’t think I’ll ever stop grieving my baby boy.
I lost my little Cherry to parvo (2 days before her vaccination appointment) and it absolutely broke me. It’s been a year and I miss her still. She was a bright light in my life, my best and only friend, and was the only one to turn to when my boyfriend got abusive. Listening to this made me think of her instantly because I wished (at the time) I would’ve died with her that day, at least then I wouldn’t be sad
Exactly. The fact people don't consider their animals as family hurts. The dog grew up with. We were 6 months apart. She passed away at 13. It's been just under a year. And it still hurts. Her birthday is next month. Idk what I'm going to do.
I had a little budgie, his name was Avion. He had such a unique personality and bonded with me well, He was my birb son.
He died of unknown illness and I had no way to get him to an emergency vet, So I comforted him when he died, It tore me to shreds, just softly hugged him and balled my eyes out for days.. I still do when I hear a certain song..
I LOVE this song. My dad, who I'm very close to, was just diagnosed with terminal cancer and while the song made me cry when I first heard it, that didn't compare to the way i cried when it randomly came up on my Playlist after hearing that news. But I'm grateful for this song because it gets that almost unhinged panic down perfectly. My dad hasn't died, and there's always hope of remission, but realistically its an aggressive cancer that's already metastasized. So. At least we all have some time to make peace with whatever outcome there is.
9-1-1 Lonestar brought me here , The ending was so touching and emotional.
Fr. I cried.
I'm pretty sure you guys dont read the comments but regardless...thank you. A year and 2 weeks ago I lost my grandmother to a 5 year spanning battle with dementia. At first she would forget small things like where she put her glasses or what she came in the room to do, and as a 9 year old I figured it was normal as she was in her mid 70's. 5 years later, last January to be exact, my grandmother was brought to a nursing home, as her condition had worsened immensely and she often spoke very softly and questioningly. She could not respond to most questions correctly, and spent hours a day sitting in the kitchen staring blankly, as if she was not really there anymore. After about 3 weeks my grandfather decided to take her back home, and although I wanted her to be with her family, I feel like the conditions were better in the nursing home for her, as my grandpa was 88 and couldnt really hear well if she had fallen or anything. But luckily she never had any bad injuries. However by March, she had a nurse visiting every other day, she was bedridden, and had lost all motor functions. Her speech was almost inaudible, but she always seemed to be trying to say something. March 10th is a day I will never forget. Not because she has passed on that day, but because it was the last day I had seen her. We knew she only had 2 weeks at most, and that my visit very well could've been my last goodbye to her, but i wish i had stayed over for the night and been there with her when it happened. She went peacefully and in her sleep the next morning. I wasnt told until late afternoon, and although i had known it would happen for years, the wave of emotion and loss that hit me broke me down more than i could have prepared for. And I had friends with me that night who comforted me and told me it would be alright, that we all lose people close sometimes, but I still wish that I couldve said goodbye when it counted. When she could understand me, remember who I am and how much I loved her. I've tried visiting her grave; I couldn't make it to the funeral because of school, but I dont know where exactly it is. I'm sorry I havent visited you nana. If you're up there, if you can somehow see this message or hear what I've said, I love you, and Ihope I see you again. And to every member of this band, thank you for creating such a sad yet beautiful song. I've never really found music as a good way to heal sadness, but the empathy and pure emotion in this song is so real and similar to how we have all felt in the face of an early or close death. What you do and make is remarkable Amber Run, and as your fans, we want you to know that we appreciate everything you do for us. Everything. I'm just one of millions of people who listen to your music daily, but I am not the only one who has been moved by your music in so many different ways. I promised myself that if I get married, I'd spend my life savings just to have you guys play "the weight" at the wedding. It's another beautiful song that holds pure emotion of love and another that has been there for the moments in life that music usually cant describe. But yours does. Thank you Amber Run...
I’m kind of glad that you uploaded this comment here for people to see, because i recently went through something similar with my grandma. She got diagnosed with alzheimers around 2016 before passing away in the spring of 2020. It’s nice knowing that I’m not alone. And I hope you’ve been able to move on and find as well as visit your grandma’s grave. I bet she’d be happy❤️
@@littlespiritdragon8098 I am sorry for your loss as well, but at least we'll always have this amazing and meaningful music that we can remember them by. I've moved on a bit easier than I thought which kind of hurts in its self, but I still miss my nana each and every time I think of her. I'm hoping I can find her grave some day, I know the cemetery but so far I haven't seen it
*Cause is see you in daytime and I hear you at night, there's a pale imitation burnt in my eyes* 💔
Lone star 😭
I could hear and feel the rage in his voice at the end. I've been there myself, maybe too many times. Incredible song. 😭🖤
It's been almost 8 years.
I was 9 when cancer took you.
The week you died, I heard you whisper in my ear while I was in my bed.
I often wished that I was dead so I could be with you again.
I'm 16 now. I never healed right from that deep of a wound.
Every year has been more and more excruciating to live through.
"It's going to get better!" sounds so stale now.
I'll always miss you, mom. Nothing in this world has ever been fair.
21/9/2016
I'm so sorry this has happened to you!
How is everything they release so beautiful?
I've been here the dark despair looking over the abyss
Thanks be 2 God I didn't leap..
How many people have survived continued because of me...
Amen... Peace & blessings ~CJ🪶💕❤️💕🌿🕊️🫶
My mother died in March and that is exactly how I feel I want to be with her..
She wouldn't want that.
She would want you to be happy. She lives on in your heart❤
sending love to you.
Same 😔💔
But i still have hope to see her again 💔
My mom died in August of 2019.
I found this song and I’ve been denying her death and trying to move on but now I can’t stop thinking about her.
This is the most heart-wrenching song I’ve heard by AR so far; and that’s saying a lot.
My bestfriend took his life and this song is the most thing that understand's me
I hope you’re doing okay man... If you need to talk about it please tell me in this comment, stay strong. You’ve got so much to live for, I love you as a human, and as a being. I hope you find happiness and recover from this hurt 💕
@@Wishteriiaa8 Thanks man this comment truthly helped me ❤️
My sister did this dance and this is her last year of dancing and she had a solo part when the music picked up and I was balling my eyes out backstage because she has grown so much and I love her so much ❤️❤️
9-1-1 lone star made me know this song...it was so perfect for that very sad episode. And now I love this song very much
What a gorgeous song. Something that truly touches the core. Thank you. My ears had been blessed.
I lost my grandad today...this song. I hope he's doing well now. I'll forever miss you and love you Nonno.
The lyrics and passion within this song really hit me so hard; my wonderful dog and best friend passed away a month ago today and I relate to this song as it makes me think of him. Thank you for yet another masterpiece, I love this band and everything they create. I hope to hear this live soon as you sound even better live (which I always says seems impossible but somehow you guys make it possible).
i think this song stands out in that i can *feel* the sheer emotion when i listen. the lyrics are incredibly beautiful and deep and this combined with such a unique voice to convey them... i almost cried the first couple times i listened this, i’ll be honest. the way he conveys the pure pain behind the words gets me every single time. wonderful song 💜
RIP to my mom and all the others I lost in my life 💔😭🙏🏼
I have this theory that, how we hear song lyrics, the first time around, says alot about who we are.
All this time I thought he said, "sometimes I'd rather be dead than spend time with you". That the song was about desperation in love, a loss of sanity, the pain of betrayal, inability to leave.
And after I realized that's not what he said, I felt I had some life assessing to do.
I sing "I'd rather be dead than disappoint you." & it fits me so well.
Amber Run Lyrics
"Amen"
And are those real angels in the magazines?
Oh, is there a heaven? You'd know now you've been
Are those real stars that hang in the sky?
Or are they man made? A trick of the light?
Amen, Amen, Amen
And is there a God up there? 'So, where does he hide?
'Cause the devil is raging inside my mind
And is there a moment where it all makes sense?
When saying goodbye, doesn't feel like the end?
Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen
Sometimes I can't help blaming you
For leaving me here, what am I supposed to do?
There's plenty of women, there's drink and there's drugs
But we both know that won't be enough
'Cause I see you in the daytime, and I hear you at night
There's a pale imitation burnt in my eyes
I don't want to be here, I don't know what to do
Sometimes I'd rather be dead, at least then I'm with you
Amen, Amen
Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen
conveniently, this is a lyric video
DrFaustFaustus convenientemente é um bom observador, não é mesmo? 😒
DrFaustFaustus conveniently, this is a comment for those who want to sing along (such as me) who can't sing with it otherwise while learning the lyrics without seeing either all of them or seeing them paragraph by paragraph.
Also conveniently, no one truly cares about your comment.
Have a nice day!
man these lyric videos are pretty useless in that case, huh?
DrFaustFaustus for me, yes. You trying to make it seem like I said that they're useless for everyone unless lyrics are also posted in the comments is an absurd idea, because it's wrong. I didn't say that they're useless for everyone, I said they were useless for people like me.
As this is a CZcams comment section and not the seat of an official debate, I will no longer be explaining what you don't understand because *it doesn't matter*
I bid you adieu. Have a good day!
This song is by far, the most beautiful that I have ever "felt"
Who is here after 9-1-1: Lonestar?
Me
Me
Yeah
Me 😊
Me
I'm crying right now, this... this is painfully beautiful...
Ana Banana same
911 lonestar today new favorite
There’s something so nostalgic and calming about this song. The words are so powerful it transforms you in a way that I can’t explain.
This song is perfect for helping me dealing with my grandpa’s death (he died today in the morning btw), and we were so close, and shared a lot of love and happiness. I love you, always.
It's been a year since u lost your dear Grandpa and I lost my sweet Mom a year ago too. I hope this comment finds you at peace and I'm sure you think of him often with so many beautiful memories of him. I sure have my own sweet memories of my dear Mom, who was also named Rose, by the way. 🌹💕
I lost my grandpa a few weeks ago, it hurts like hell, it really does, I hope you are doing better with the grief ❤❤❤
My best friend killed himself in November, I relate to this song more than you will ever know.
911 lone star brought me here
Oh hey goosebumps......we meet yet again on an Amber Run song.
EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.
I heard this song on the show 911 LoneStar. It was really powerful. Love it
The last part “sometimes I would rather be dead but at least I’m with you” kills me this was the senior lyrical dance at my studio and no matter how many times I watched it I would break down in tears… this song is powerful enough to make two girls who have hated each other for 6 years hug each other and say it’s going to be alright while they cry in each other’s arms…mascara and highlighter running down our faces right before we have to go on stage for the closing act but we don’t care that shows how much of a family we are that just some simple movements to the rhythm of a song can make someone so emotional…
It's through our grief that we become more human... strangely more alive. I'll see you all on the other side...
Wow. I'm speechless. You can hear his pain. What a beautiful song
i started to listen to this yesterday and I can’t stop listening to it.. and I’m not planning to stop 😫♥️ I feel the pain omg this is gorgeous!
It's approaching 2020 in about a week. If anyone else has suffered a loss, that they have to live with, maybe they can relate. That second verse always brings me to tears, "Is there a moment where it all makes sense, when saying goodbye doesn't feel like the end?" I'm a single father who was forced into being a single father, and I have to just watch my little girl go off with her mother every week, and I die every time. I can't tell you how much is lost, as I can barely find myself without my daughter. I know I'll see her again, and relatively soon, but I break inside...
i can't describe to you how much this song means to me
Rest in peace for those who took the fight to Covid...
Fellow warriors fans?
"is there a god up there? 'so where does he hide? 'cause the devil is raging inside my mind."
that line hit me so hard... thank you so much Amber run for making beautiful music....
And RIP to those who lost their loved ones and anyone whoever meant the world and so much to them god bless us all 😭💔🙏🏼❤️ may this be a lesson it live it up and love one another no matter what AMEN🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
I've been going through a tough time this year and your music is one of the handful of things that truly brings me happiness, even if it's momentarily, when i thought i'd never be able to feel happy again and i can't emphasise enough how much i appreciate it, thank you x
I don't wanna be here
I don't know what to do
Sometimes i'd rather be dead
At least then i'm with you
Amen.
We love ur music dude. i love it.
I can’t believe anyone would dislike this. It’s raw and unfiltered, truly beautiful.
The most underrated artist... AR can make us feel many emotions at the same time😭♥️
He screams the part with so much raw emotion. I pray this everyday. I wish I was rather dead so I could be with God instead. He would point out all those things to me I never could see. He would answer my burning questions and hold me dear. Like a parent holds a child and I pray to be dead each day. I'm so done with this world. But I'm still alive and writing this. Maybe because it's not my time yet. Maybe I have meaning. Maybe I have purpose.
Awww, keep hanging in there, pal. :) You're not finished yet.
You are NOT alone!!!!
MK Niazi27 God has plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future. Hold on to that, that while there is life, there is hope. :)
MK Niazi27 You most certainly do. Maybe, you've just said it yourself. This world needs to change. I think you're one of the people who can bring about that change. The eyes of a sick and homeless person as you tuck them in and call them "Madam". Or "Sir" when you say hello. They won't give you any likes but they are close to heaven. Stay close but don't go just yet, please. Much love.
Slabs4 you can live all that now, you dont have to die to experience God in a really close way. This is him expressing what he feels about a person who died or commited suicide. Jesus=Emmanuel, God with you, with me, with us.
This EP save my life, even though this EP haven't realesed.
this EP was released on friday! 😊
Listened to him live and he shared his story of writing this. Very genuine and amazingly well written and sung song!
I don't think I've ever heard a song that sums up what grief feels like as much as this one does.
Made my girlfriend cry just off of the clip on 911 lone star.... Beautiful powerful song!
Honestly this is how a real, raw relationship with God is supposed to look. None of the plasticky fake stuff.
I picture Job crying out these words to God after losing everything he had
"Sometimes I'd rather be dead, at least then I'm with you"
I feel that. I've not been doing good the last few months. I have some mental health conditions and am now dealing with some substance abuse after an assault a few months ago. I dont even want to get out of bed most days. I have three brothers, but they are all in Heaven and my heart aches for them more than I can express in words. It's like there is this empty space in my heart and in my life where they should be, but they arent here. I think about going up to where they are. I'm sure things would be better on the other side, and I'd be with my big brothers. If anyone else feels this way, you're not alone. I see you, and I hope things get better for you.
Thank you 9-1-1 lone star! Thank you Amber Run!❤❤
To my dad:I know you may not see this but I love you wherever you are.
I am 11 now I'm doing good at school and I got a haircut. But it's not the same you are gone and I have no dad.
I dont have any words trying to say how this song made me feel.
The crippling pain that destroys a part of you that never comes back.
It's a repeat song.
I have so many chills. Words cannot describe how beautiful this song is.
I don’t usually comment ever. But ohhh my god! And that’s why amber run is my favorite band
One of the most heart touching songs I've heard in such a long time.
This song is easily one of the most beautiful I’ve ever heard, and I wish more people knew about it. It’s helped me a lot with the passing of my father, his death may have been years ago but the trauma of losing him in front of me will forever be there. So in the earliest hours of the morning this song takes me back to him, and for awhile everything feels okay.
I interpret this song as someone with intense religious trauma in the beginning stage of realizing how traumatized they are and how this pain can not go on anymore. the amens, the gospels, and the hymns have all grown bitter for them.
Actual shivers. Wow.