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Siberian Pelmeni Dumplings That Cure Melancholy
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- čas přidán 15. 07. 2022
- Why don’t we always let ourselves feel all our emotions to the full? In this video, I chat about sadness and melancholy and what they give us, where I find solace and how I cope with missing my Siberian life. Also, we’ll cook Siberian dumplings - Pelmeni (veganized version with kidney beans). It’s a very easy recipe and if you have never made your own dumpling wraps before, I highly recommend trying - it’s so soothing and rewarding!
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🥟The recipe:
Pelmeni:
3 cups of wheat flour
1 ½ cups of boiling water
1 tsp of salt
Oil (2tbsp for dough plus for browning the onion)
Kidney beans (canned or cooked)
1 onion
Salt, black pepper, bay leaf.
Sauce: 1 clove of garlic, lemon juice, salt, oil 3 tbsp.
1. Mix flour with salt in a bowl. Add water and oil and knead until the dough is soft and elastic. Set aside for 20 minutes. I had to work the dough more than I expected because the flour was different from what I’m used to. Just make sure it is elastic enough, think, and is not sticky (you might add more flour like I did).
2. Finely chop the onion and caramelize it in vegetable oil. Mash the beans and add to the onion. Add salt, pepper and spices. I had to use the blender. And the beans turned out to be somewhat watery so I added about two tbsp of ground oatmeal for texture.
3. Roll out the dough. I use my mom’s and grandmom’s technique: form long sausages approx. 2 cm in diameter. Cut, about 1.5 cm thick, cover with flour a bit and then roll! My shapes are never perfect and I’m fine with that. Put the filling in the middle of each and thoroughly pinch the edges. Shape the pelmeni.
4. Boil the water. Add salt and bay leaf. Bay leaf is a must! Put a portion of pelmeni in boiling water without overcrowding and gently stir. Wait until the dumplings float on the surface and let them cook for another 3 mins. Serve with black pepper and the sauce.
5. For the sauce - Mince the garlic, mix it with salt and lemon juice. Add vegetable oil. Taste and adjust the amount of salt/lemon juice.
You can store the leftover dough and the filling in a food container for at least 2 days in a fridge. I also love using this dough for making easy flatbreads on the pan.
Thank you for watching and being here with me, dear friends.
Sending love to you all ❤️
Yours,
Ana(stasia)
Music from the video:
As I Dream - Johannes Bornlof
Sprinkle - Johannes Bornlof
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No one should ever tell you how to feel. In the words of Shakespeare "He jests at scars that never felt the wound" It's courageous to face feelings like that rather than run from them, and you found a wonderful way to cope. Thank you for sharing your comfort recipe with us. You are a lovely person and a credit to the human race.
You're so kind, dear Colleen. Thank you 💖
And such a great quote from Shakespear!
Love that quote!
I remember being shocked years ago to discover that only a few languages have a word for the feeling you describe, Ana. In my language, which is Polish, it is "tęsknota", so it's a bit similar to the Russian counterpart.
I think that the constant "good vibes only" approach is extremely toxic and we all need to vent our emotions from time to time, be sad or angry. It's normal. It's human.
Thank you for bringing up topics like this. You are a truly amazing person and listening to your deep and wise thoughts is a feast for the soul ❣
Thank you so much for sharing the Polish word! Indeed, a few languages have words describing this feeling.
Oh, you're so kind, Magda! Sending you much love💖
As a Polish, I always got impression that Russians were over dramatic, that our „tęsknota” is somehow manageable and has positive connotations.
Great comment. I agree. This 'good vibes only' mentality is on par with the hideously glib 'hashtag Be Kind' mentality. I see the word 'kind' written everywhere, along with 'diversity' and 'inclusion' and I can't tell you how much it irritates me. People just throw these things around and apply intellectual rigour, humility and well paced gentle honesty to very little. A lot of finger pointing though, a lot of sanctimony, a lot of ugly irony. :(
I wonder was Welsh one of the languages you discovered? Not from Wales myself, but lived there for a year once. They have the word 'Hiraeth', which is quite similar in meaning 😊
Saudade is the most beautiful Portuguese word; it is a mixture of sadness (for the things that we live and that never come back) and contentment (that we can live and remember them). The simplicity and beauty of your videos contrast with their depth and truth; I love them.
With love from Lisbon, Portugal ❤💚
(P.S. - I lovvvvveeee dumplings; need to try this recipe)
Oh, what a wonderful explanation of Saudade! Thank you so much, Eduarda 💚 Sending much love to beautiful Lisbon.
Perfect definition! Simple and deep like Ana's video. I would still add that 'saudade' overflows the soul and leaves us with the certainty that we have been forever transformed by what is no longer with us.
PS. Brazilian follower here 💚💛, looking forward for the next video!
The shape of the dumplings is just like a soft hug....💜
There is a beautiful Welsh word 'hiraeth' which mean a blend of homesickness, nostalgia and longing. Hiraeth is a pull on the heart that conveys a distinct feeling of missing something irretrievably lost. It has inspired poets and musicians. I think it is a similar concept. Thank you for your content🐾
It sounds very much like grief
This video reminded me of my Polish mother making her pierogies, they were absolutely delicious! My mother left us 5 years ago, and I am always reminded of her when I see and taste the food she used to make! And of course I miss her and am thrown into melancholy when I think of her! How painful it is.
I love the quotes in this video, we all experience loss of what was and who we knew! Thank you for so eloquently and poetically putting this all into words! Indeed our life journey is fraught with difficulty and suffering, but also great joy, that we had the fortune to love others so deeply! This somehow makes the suffering of loss bearable!
I found that cooking is a perfect grounding activity in times of turmoil. There's something about it that creates the feeling of home and coziness even away from home. Probably it's akin to making a fire when you're camping in the wild, creating an "ochag" to make it more homely and secure.
It's such a great point, Julia! Indeed, having an "ochag" instantly brings a feeling of peace and safety.
First like is your husband! :) 😊
And first comment! ❤️
Its ok to feel what you feel, how you think you need. Trust your inner processes. What others think about you & your processes is their journey not yours. We are best when we are us, the way we need to be. It is the secret to happiness.
Thank you so much for validating the acceptance of the full spectrum of our feelings in this life.
And also for the beautiful recipe and memory associated with it.
Sending love to you and Brian❤
Thank you so much for watching, my friend💖
Was literally just talking to a friend about how we're 'not allowed' to express our true feelings on some subjects x
This is lovely, thank you! This made me think of Irving Yalom, an American Psychologist and a writer. In one of his books, "Existential Psychotherapy", he talks about what he calls "ultimate concerns" inherent in our existence, and about how we deal with them. He calls out four "ultimate concerns": 1. death (the desire to continue to be vs the awareness of of the finality of our existence), 2. freedom (the realization of "groundlessness" of our existence, vs our wish for structure), 3. existential isolation (awareness of ultimate aloneness vs desire for contact/protection/belonging), and 4. meaninglessness (the dilemma of a meaning-seeking creature thrown into a universe that has no inherent meaning). It's kind of like you said - one has to go beyond the surface-level "positivity" to explore those deeper topics, and it def takes courage.
In a world that is obsessed with the bright and happy and joyous to the point of it being almost false it’s curious how sad and melancholy need to be hidden because without them how can we ever really appreciate all that is good. I often feel sad sometimes for me and how transient life is and how despite all the technology and science we have some things are gone for ever but sometimes for the whole world , but I never share with friends and family as it’s seen as a bad thing.
Thank you for sharing the dumplings I think I might have found my ultimate vegan comfort food ! English dumplings can be very bland but these look delicious ❤️
I hope the world now is moving towards a more balanced perception of emotional life in all its fulness. We need that so much.
Hope you'll enjoy the recipe, Caz! 💖
Hi Ana, thank you for the video and new recipe 🙂I make my pierogi with cooked green lentils mashed with caramelized onions and steamed carrots and broccoli - also very simple and works great. Greetings from Gdańsk, Poland 😘
Wow, I must try this filling recipe, sounds so delicious! 😍
Greetings back to Gdansk, my friend 🌞
I will try that too!
Wow lentils, onions, & broccoli sound marvelous!
I‘m a big believer in expressing your feelings whatever they are. I‘d even say that it‘s unhealthy not to do it. Where I live it’s a society that is extremely success- and performance-driven. I feel it‘s even anti-human sometimes. I‘m no stranger to sadness and melancholy. I feel no shame in expressing any feelings I have. Fortunately the regular unexplained sadness I often felt in my teens and 20s has gone away and so far has not come back (I‘m in my 40s now). But of course depending on life events, changes and situations feelings vary and it‘s totally unrealistic to expect that we have only positive thoughts all the time and we should be honest about it - it‘s healing. You‘ve gone through a lot lately - lots of changes, new places, new situations. It’s possible that you‘re exhausted. I think you need to be patient with yourself
I absolutely agree with everything you've said here. Yes, it can be unhealthy to ignore the whole spectrum of our emotions. Thank you so much for your understanding 🌿
As an emigrant myself, I have found that those feelings of sadness and melancholy for the people and places I've left behind never leave, but, the amazing thing is that once you have rooted yourself in your new life, you will love it and miss it just as much when you leave it for a while. Creating a new life and new traditions, incorporating parts of the life you left behind will bring new happiness and joy of life.
Thank you for saying this, my friend 💚 I do hope that the new physical home will be found soon enough.
You are doing a great service by posting about this subject because so many of us do not feel allowed to feel our sadness, negativity, despair, let alone talk about it. I was raised in a home where these kinds of emotions were not welcome. It was always, Oh, look how good you have it or Be grateful, or Just think positively. As an adult, I have struggled with my emotions and with a lot of inner work can now allow them and respect and honor them. Like life itself, they're impermanent but also there is a great deal of healing when you can do this. This was beautiful, Ana. The Pelmeni look delicious and it's funny because for me anything with homemade dough has always been a big comfort :) I love how you intersperse your wise commentary with salient quotes. Sending lots of love
You're so right, my friend. Honoring our challenging emotions is a hard, but rewarding path to healing. I wish more people become aware of that.
Thank you so much for watching and resonating 🤗 Sending love 🌸
@@anagoldberg Thank you, Ana 🥰
I feel that without "Taska" how can we feel more positive feelings. We have the sadness, longing, and emptiness for a reason. I feel compassion for those who don't feel they're allowed to be "Taska".
When I were (almost lived with them) at my grandparents house, my grandma Often made swedish Potato dumplings (in Swedish: Kroppkakor, google translated to Body cakes 😁).
You take preboiled potatoes and mix it with raw eggs, salt and flour. Fill it with chopped onion, prefried pork and spice pepper. Put in boiling water, and when they are fluiting, they are ready to take out. Serve with lingonberry jam.. (and melted butter). I could "see" the ladies doing this after a hard days work with mangling sheets.
Such a precious memory! 💚
@@Ladythyme oh woooooow
Serving a (pork) meat dumpling with jam - interesting. I’m going to try that. Might work for me if it’s pork.
I love wonton when it’s got onion & celery in it too
All these recipes are.so.much.work. tho! I end up doing a “bowl” of some sort usually. Inside out kind of deal - all the ingredients over rice or braised cabbage or riced cauliflower with the sauce over top.
The women who had the time to do these various dumpling renditions were so blessed.
What a beautiful video, Ana, thank you. I almost shied away from your topic today but I am so glad that I took the time to see what you had to say. Western cultures often focus on the pursuit of happiness and we often don't know how to sit with difficult emotions, preferring to distract ourselves with things or media. In many cases, we also avoid fully facing aspects of death and dying, placing our aged in homes and not spending time with the body of a loved on after they have died. During a difficult time in my life I was fortunate to be treated by a doctor and to practice yoga with a swami who helped me to open up to difficult emotions. The doctor talked about entering the vault. I imagine it as a kind of well. I was afraid of falling in, but when i stopped resisting and allowed myself to really feel the sadness, the feelings washed over me and I reached the bottom of the void I was so afraid of. Hitting the rock bottom I found only peace, calm and lightness. It enabled me to move forward with a feeling that everything was ok and that I would be ok whatever my circumstances. You need the dark to appreciate the light and life is richer for the full spectrum.
Happiness isn’t ubiquitous. It’s in the small things.. like dumplings and colours. Sadness is not the same as negative. We overuse that word. In math, it’s simply an opposite. What is beautiful, is the word embrace ❤️ I can’t think of an English equivalent for Toska or Saldade. Love these, and I love that Pelmeni!!! 😋
You seem especially serene today. Glad to see that your change in circumstance becomes you :)
Hey Ana and Brian! So great to see you again. I love this quiet introspective cooking video with all the philosophical quotes. Very different from the rest, in the best ways.
I've felt homesick, too, but mine's a bit confusing, possibly due to past lives and/or the shared history of two states, Louisiana (my physical homestate this lifetime) and Texas. I love them both passionately. When I'm in one, I long to be in the other. But because of the river between them, I cannot live in both at once. At the moment, I'm as close to that as I've ever been or will be, yet about to move once again to the other state. It's also symbolic of my life as a minority in so many situations. Pluses and minuses, a balancing act, and a relief to get home, wherever that is.
Love your pelmenis and recipe! It's so simple, I have everything on hand but the garlic, onion and lemon juice. As for the shape, it is a cute little dumpling. It's basically the same shape as a Spanish or Mexican empanda/hand pie/"meat" pie, just bringing the ends together. And the different sauces for variation of flavor and flexibility to serve as a soup are fabulous.
It's always fascinating to see cultural similarities and differences, in philosophy, language, food, etc. Thank you so much for sharing these things and your journey with us. Looking forward to the next video. Bukka Bukka.
Thanks. I was with a family member recently who tried to stop me expressing a negative emotion. I think I scared him because I have been the “rock” in our history and now he sees I’m just human. I learned to be mindful of who we choose to be vulnerable with. I love your videos and the quotes you share. Sending a virtual hug to you and Brian from CA USA.
I'm reading Bittersweet by Susan Cain and I know you would resonate with this book. A small excerpt: "Indeed, the ability to accept difficult emotions--not just observe them, not just breathe through them, but actually, non-judgmentally, accept them--has been linked repeatedly to long term thriving." We all have challenging emotions from time to time and I've been interested in 'welcoming in these demons and inviting them to tea' to borrow an idea from the Buddah. A friendly attitude diffuses the potency of so many difficulties, I find. I'm glad you embrace it all, too!
Ana, you perfectly describe a feeling we must all experience. I think there is so much pressure to be happy, to live your best life, that we forget that a simple act like making dumplings is living our best life. Thank you for today and for all your posts.
Oh, thank you so much for watching and understanding, Deborah!🤗🌼
I don’t call them negative emotions, I call them challenging emotions or soulfulness. Spirit is the pull to the light and soulfulness is the descent to the darkness. We need both to be in balance and to experience the fullness of life. I think there is something about Russian culture that makes space for toska that Western consumerist society does not. All you have to do is listen to polyphonic singing from Eastern Europe or the dirge-sounds of a Russian choir to know that sadness has its place in the culture. If you’re a person of faith, we touch different parts of the face of our Gods in the light and the darkness.
Beautiful video. My grandmother’s Russian doukhobor cuisine had a lot of dumplings - vegetarian but they ate eggs and dairy. They were pacifists but kept chickens for eggs and cows for milk and cheese.
Simple life has riches no consumerism can match. Thank you for this recipe. 💖
I absolutely love the word "soulfulness"! It embraces it all.
I knew very little about Russian doukhobors but now I've read an article and I'm truly amazed by their history.
The light and the darkness are indeed one.
Sending you much love 💚
Totally agree Ana. Sadness is real, and we should be allowed to grieve and withdraw. It upsets me to hear someone saying to anyone" Pull yourself together!" I will come to their defense and tell them if they are feeling sad, to go with that emotion and hold onto it until it leaves them because you cannot hold onto being sad forever. Thank you for the recipe, beautiful words and soothing music. I love dumplings and watching you make them. Paka paka
I know exactly what you mean, my friend! Rejecting emotions creates even more challenges inside than allowing ourselves to embrace them.
Sending much love 💖
Be true to yourself. Newbie even rewinded and watch again 😊
Comfort foods always makes me think of home and love
... "an emotional hug" -that is the feeling emanating from your vlogs, Ana! Merci ☺
Yesterday I watched and enjoyed your video and learned about ‘saudade’. Today, I encountered ‘saudade’ again in an article about Afro-Brazilian Candomblé religion. I like such coincidences. Thank you for your videos.
Thank you Ana! You describe this feeling perfectly. In my case if I tell friends and family how I feel they always need to “fix” me so I am happy again. I just need to drift along this current till I reach the shore again. Your talk really helped me define this feeling. I also loved watching you make dumplings. Be well💕
I love your metaphor so much, Barbara! "Drifting along the current until you reach the shore again". Such a beautiful, meaningful picture.
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I so appreciate you for sharing authentic feelings, Ana. Life is not always positive, sometimes rarely so, and to pretend otherwise is to deny life. There is a beauty in the full array of human experience, and I honor those who aren't afraid to share it.
Ignore the shallow commenters. I love that you embrace the fullness and totality of life (as an introvert, no less). It's a welcomed antidote to the toxic positivity that's been running amok lately. Please keep your authenticity!
Fantastic video Anastasia! I grew up in Australia with Polish parents. They had friends in our street. A Russian couple with a daughter my age. The Russian Lady ( we called her that) was so kind but scarey. She really looked like a big bubushka doll. Spoke so loud in Russian like she was yelling at us and we couldn't understand her( my parents spoke Russian well). And she would grab us and pull us close to her body and hug us so tight we couldn't breathe. And she would be screaming at us in Russian.. You're beautiful and I love you. She terrified me. Then one day her daughter had a birthday party and I was so frightened to go inside The Russian Lady's house, but my mum made me go.
Well I could not believe all of the amazing Russian food she had made for us. It was overwhelmingly wonderful. Cakes and things I had never tasted before. I felt like Alice in Wonderland and was never scared of her again.
I miss The Russian Lady. I wish I spent more time with her and her daughter all those years ago.
What a wonderful story you've shared, Barbara! Wow 😍 It's so vivid, deep, and loving. Thank you.
Wow - I will try this recipe. This looks delicious. They look like Italian tortellini. Very appreciate that they are vegan! 😌
They do like like tortellini indeed! I was always intimidated to cook tortellini as they seem so much more refined 😊
I used to be very positive and in general I suppose I am but I cannot deny the heaviness I feel with all that has been going on in the world the last 6, 7 years. A man recently said to me: “why don’t you talk more like a Kardashian?” …. That is the funniest thing and the nicest compliment I could have ever received. I hope to have it on my epitaph one day! Todays times require frequent boughts of serious thinking time. ….I must try that recipe! Thank you so much for this and all your other thoughtful videos.
Those pelmeni must be delicious. They look just like the capelletti we made at home when I was little. Fond memories. Thank you Ana.
Ana, these dumplings remind me so much of a wonderful comfort food in my family- Polish Pierogi! My mouth was watering as I watched you make your dumplings. They look delicious. I felt like I was traveling back in time! My Busia (grandmother) came to the United States BY HERSELF on a boat when she was only 16. She was a fabulous cook and baker and a very talented seamstress.
On another note, I always enjoy your videos and the amount of detail that you put into them. I also love that you brought nature into your kitchen with your lovely backdrop!
Always remain the same amazing person who you are.
Judy from Arizona….and snuggles from Willow 🐾
Such a heartwarming family story! Thank you so much for sharing it, Judy 💖Your grandmother sounds like an amazing person!
Sending lots of hugs to Arizona 🌸
This recipe looks good even if not sad. Thank you for the recipe. The beans make it very nutritious.
You have been thru a lot these past few months. I can only imagine the war, and what leaving your country has been like. Am so glad your husband is with you. Thinking of you from Texas, USA.
Lovely, Ana. You make the preparations for pelmeni look like a meditative art or ritual. On the topic of comfort food, my mother used to make Dutch 'ontbijtkoek,' or 'breakfast cake,' a cake rich with brown sugar or syrup and spiced with ginger, baked in a loaf pan. A buttered slice was often served with morning coffee.
That sounds delicious Rowanne! My own Mom used to cook traditional Irish food, every single night of the week. Ten children … and my Mother in Law had seven children. I admired them both greatly.
“Toska” …. Ana, it’s the most sensitive and fragile who experience the true depth of that. ♥️♥️♥️
Wow, Ann! Such strong and loving women in your family😍
Thank you so much for sharing and understanding "toska", my friend.
Aww, what delightful morning meals you had as a child, Rowanne! I almost felt the delicious smell of the cake from your description 😊 So precious!
Today was the first time I cooked frozen Siberian Dumplings for myself and my father. In seeking how to prepare them, I was lead to this video. Thank you for sharing your insights. I’ve been a person who has had this feeling of melancholy most of my life. Knowing that nothing stays the same, and missing all that was. Loving life but also grieving all the losses. A virtual hug to you. It’s ingenious to prevent to be happy all the time. The Illustrated Happiness Trap, is a book that talks about accepting all our emotions and not judging ourselves (and others) when we are not “happy” all the time. Being honest, authentic and whole is admirable and I thank you for being an example.
I'm so glad to meet you here! And thank you for the book suggestion, I will absolutely look it up. 💚
What a charming utterly delightful human. I'm so glad your unique visage randomly popped up on my recommended feed. CZcams and the planet needs more of...well, THIS. xo Thank you Ana. :)
Oh, I'm so glad to meet you here! Thank you for watching and resonating 🌺
Sometimes I feel comfort in sadness because everything is quieter and kind of like my body asks for it. It shows me I was Saturated of something. I just try not to take it to the extreme because although people should not be telling others How to feel; depression is not a healthy place to be in. It is linked to the worst things of life for justifiable reasons, like not eating for long periods, not sleeping or sleeping too much, self harm, etc etc. Cheers🎀
I have noticed an emotional tug from the moon, challenges I can normally handle can become unbearable and that super moon was very intense. I can imagine what your going through and the thoughts of what you have left behind is coming to the surface now that you have time to slow down and reflect. It's like driving in a car in a rain storm, you don't notice the sound of the wipers pounding untill you pull over to the side of the road and turn off the engine. Thank you for sharing your reflection and your comfort recipe!
Yum, these pelmeni look sooo good. Definitely an emotional hug and who doesn't need a hug like this every so often? I feel like beyond friends, we here are your little pelmenis. Maybe that is what you should call us. I love diminutive food nicknames.
At 75, I deal with some long gone good memories. Just be with your homesickness. I’ve heard it said that grief is just love with nowhere to go. Though this is not the same as your homesickness, it is similar, no? Also when we just “be”, it is of course impossible not to come upon such sadness. Seems to me you are in such flux right now and there is coming a paradigm shift which is not yet here and not quite imaginable. At such times it’s difficult to trust the stillness. But you seem able to do so. I so love your quotes today, all of them from some of my favorite writers and artists.
Oh, thank you so much, LaVerne 💚 It's a very supportive message from you. It helped me.
Thank you, that was wonderful! Food for body and soul.
In the Jewish traditional cuisine, kreplach, a very similar little meat dumpling, is eaten in chicken soup. There are many versions of it.
My uncle once told me the we eat it especially in the meal before the holiest day in the Jewish calendar, the Yom Kippur fast, because it reminds us that although we are bearing our souls to God and asking for forgiveness we mustn't go too far. The kreplach which is wrapping up and protecting the meat inside reminds us that we must also protect our hearts...
I think it's good to feel one's sadness and simply sit with others when they feel sad, too. There's not much room in our culture for that (I live in the US), but I try to hold space for it where I can.
I feel this video deep in my soul. I am of Portuguese descent and I see another subscriber explained Saudade better than I ever could, so I won't add to their definition, but it is something I feel all the time now that I live far away from my family. Comfort food or music from childhood are things that bring me comfort. I used to struggle with it but now I allow myself to feel the sadness. It's not easy, but I ultimately feel better afterwards.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and your dumplings and the Rilke quote 💞
Hi Ana, it is absolutely true that feelings of sadness and longing are natural. Unfortunately society, generally, promotes the belief that these are negative feelings. However, without understanding all that we feel and accepting these feelings we cannot hope to become whole. Maybe that is why so many people are so unhappy and dissatisfied?
Take care x
When you were explaining TOSKA at the beginning, I immediately thought of SAUDADE, and then when I heard you mention that as well, I thought your explaination was spot-on :) Thank you for this important reflection, and the dumplings look yummy!!!
Thanks so much for watching, Ksenija! Saudade is such a complex notion, as well as Toska, I think I will explore them even more now:)
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My mum’s side of the family came from Russia so I grew up eating Pelmeni. Delicious 😋 love from Australia 🇦🇺
Dearest Ana - THANK YOU for a truly beautiful video (I just watched this with my coffee on a Monday morning). It is so very true that we are almost not allowed to be sad or feeling lost in the world we live in - we are expected to always be happy, always be ready to go out and conquer the world and never feel sad, tired and just not up to the expectations. Thank You for sharing this so beautifully and OH MY THOSE DUMPLINGS!!!!!!!!!! I am definitely making dumplings with beans and butternut sometime during this week - it's still so very very cold here in South Africa and those dumplings will be just the thing to give warm hugs and tummies and bring smiles and contentment all round. As always - stay safe and sending HUGE Hugs for you and Brian and your candles are always burning my Dear Friend. Love & Purrrrrrrrrs xxx
What a beautiful quote. So perfect how I feel from the to time. You are right, experience everything your soul and body goes thru, we are human the perfect way we are made up.
I feel we have to embrace all of our emotions: sadness, joy, anger, etc... It is very "North American"( the famous pursuit of happiness!!) thinking that we have to force ourselves to be happy all the time! I let myself being engulfed with nostalgia from the past, even having a good cry which in a way is cleansing and restoring... I don't suppress anger in private but do not direct it to people... letting these feelings take their course leads to calm and strength.... and I love a good laugh, a good belly ache laugh!!! all these emotions are human and must be expressed or we end up taking pills or abusing drugs and alcohol!!!
For me going for a walk is very healing!!! the more I have "idees noires" (dark thoughts), the longer the walk!!!
In french we have the words: "nostalgie" and "vague a l'ame" but it is not as complete as your "toska"
Feelings are meant to be felt, Delt with and worked through. What a beautiful memory of your growing up and times gone by. These memories make us who we are. I am in awe that their is a word for this and in other cultures this is embraced, as apposed to a problem to solve. All parts of life are important and can empower each other and we are not alone. This is beautiful. I send you love and gratitude love because we all need to know of our importance in the world and gratitude for "Permission" to allow myself to feel the spectrum of feelings and emotions we are encouraged to repress. So thank you.
Thank you so much, Melissa 🌸
“Saudade” in Portuguese is indeed a special word…
So cozy to watch 🥹
Hi, Victoria! I'm so glad you enjoyed it 🌸
Anastasia you seem like such a pure soul. I love watching your videos, they really calm me down and make me think about true nature of living as a minimalist and enjoying our everyday lives. Even my boyfriend likes to watch them with me sometimes. So thank you for being just the way you are. You are very precious!
Aww, I'm so glad to hear that, my friend! Thank you for your kindness and for being here 💚 Sending you much love!
Losing my mama a little over a year ago brought this great grief I’ve never known possible, the only way I see is to embrace it and allow it, or go crazy haha. Thanks so much for sharing the pelmeni recipe! I remember requesting it a while ago, I will be trying it for dinner 🥰 lots of love
I'm so sorry for your loss, Katya 🙏
Sending you love and support.
Long ago, when I first studied Buddhism (I am a terrible student!!), something I learned that helped through long spells of melancholia was to accept my feelings and be present with them. There was/is nothing wrong with holding those feelings. In time, rather than feeling like I was drowning in anxiety, fear, or worry, I learned lessons from what put me in that state and could move on.
As for dumplings, I am of Italian descent, but oh my oh my, I dislike anything like dumplings or pasta. My poor father was always exasperated with me!! My comfort food, as was my Irish/German mother's, is potatoes, particularly mashed, over which I will eat anything from spicy bean dishes, to cabbage, kale, spinach, onions, tomatoes, sauces, cheeses, eggs - I get very creative. 😋
Ana, I love your openness, honestly, and compassion. Have a lovely week with Brian in your new home on the road. (The night sequence was beautiful and calming). 💖
Aww, I completely share your potato passion! 😍
Thank you so much for sharing, my friend. Your story is so inspiring 💚 Sending you much love.
That's such a great description! Thanks
Did the Siberian pelmeni today for the first time. I guess that's why this video appaered in my recommendations! They are super good and very special food I agree. I have also passed through Siberia In 1993 by train,a memorable trip
Loved this video & recipe & yes it would not be normal to feel sad, upset or lonely sometimes - no one can be completely happy 24/7 Everyone has their “burden “ to carry. We should all feel free to express our emotions without judgement lol 💖🇮🇱❤️💜💝
Thank you, Ana, for this video. I am away from home this week and missing my daily life dreadfully. You have reminded me that not only is it okay to be sad, but it is also part of the human condition. What if I never felt sadness? What if my memories never made such an impact on me? I prefer to feel sad remembering my home, my lost loved ones with a full and heavy heart because I want them to carry meaning and emotion for me.
Dear Ana, I’m so glad I found you. Thank you
I fear that CZcams's algorithm is reading my emotions & moods 😐. Thoroughly enjoyed your video 👍 . When I was in my late 30s my mother suddenly declared that I suffer from depression 😕 & would tell my children to be good & behave ,because mummy is "depressed". I've never believed that I suffer from depression. For a long time I thought it was a form of perpetual dark night of the soul but then I came to a realisation that I was actually melancholy. The Siberian word Toska discribes it very well. The Maltese equivalent is Dwejaq . I will definitely try your dumplings 😊. Peace to you & thanks for sharing 🙏✌️
I can relate to your experience so much, my friend! Yep, "perpetual dark night of the soul"... And it's so great to know the Maltese word for it. Thank you 💜
I feel that your comments at the end were poetic (about feelings sitting at the table with us )
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I made your dumplings, Ana! My whole family loved them. They were delicious. Not hard to make but definitely a craft to develop. I can see how comforting they would feel if you grew up with them. Thank you for the demo and recipe.
Wow, I'm so happy it was a success, Diane! Yay 😊
Your videos always made me see myself raw and unaltered. Emotions are the guiding compass of our spiritual evolution. Recognize their message is an act of bravery and humility. We are not our emotions. Emotions are reaction to experiences that left a footprint in our past and we carry them to the now. Memories are compose of experiences that help us in our evolution and help us to find meaning in acts that otherwise don't make sense. Love your recipe. Thank you for sharing your emotions with us. It make you more authentic person. Love 💗 only love 💗 for both of you
Thank you, dearest Maria 💜 Much love to you too.
It can be hard to allow ourselves to be sad. I am sure to let my children see me sad as nobody can be happy all the time and children especially, feel emotions unapologetically and openly and I want my children to know this is ok, it's not always easy to deal with but it's natural and normal. I hope you feel your sadness to it's fullest and then come away from it. Ana, I cannot believe the timing of your video, I love to watch families in remote Russia and such like and they always make dumplings, which I love, I wanted to find a dumpling recipe and now you have put one up....I will have to use your family recipe, they are definitely a very cute shape and a wonderful comfort food for me. It's not something we make traditionally in Great Britain so I have bought them frozen before but when you made them and in the other videos I've seen, it looks like a relaxing activity. Thank-you so much for this Ana. X
I'm so glad the video was just on time for you 🤗💚
Ana, I want to thank you for sharing this recipe with us. I made these dumplings for Shabbos and I was feeling melancholy and laughed so hard while making these. My poor dumplings were so unattractive and flour was too thick (I need to roll it out thinner next time) and not enough filling in each, etc, etc. I can’t wait to make these again. They remind me of my Oma and her cooking. Be well, friend.
Oh, I'm so glad you enjoyed cooking pelmeni! 😍
I don't have many words, just a deep felt thank you, Ana 🌿
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This is a beautiful video. I love it when people can speak honestly, from the deepest parts of their soul, about their struggles. It's reassuring to know that I'm not the only one who feels, thinks, and reflects deeply about life
Oh, I'm so glad you liked it, my friend 💚 And yes, this is why exactly I made it - to share and let others know they're not alone...
Your video reminds me of the Jason Mraz song "Life is Wonderful." Without the melancholy, the happiness is not as intense. I think that pushing away our unpleasant emotions is very unhealthy. They are not always fun to feel, but so important to feel. And "Whooeee girl, who doesn't love dumplings?"
I will definitely listen to this song! Thank you, Michele 💚
Simply lovely discussion, Ana. We delude ourselves when we hide our painful days. You should never ignore your feelings, because when you do, you completely lose your understanding of any feelings you might have. Acknowledging sadness makes happy moments that much more sweeter. We all have these moments where we retreat into ourselves, where we accept and reflect on various things that we have gone through. It's taken me years to learn this, that being said is okay. On another note, the process of making your delicious looking dumplings allows you to physically slow down, reflect as you knead and roll the dough. Very therapeutic! You do you, Ana, that's what we are here for - to better understand ourselves through your frank talks. Now I need to go try your dumplings! ❤️
Absolutely! All emotions matter and make us who we are. Thank you so much for being here, dear Linda 🌺
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great topic Ana. I'm not Portuguese, but I am a jazz musician and Brazilian music is a big part of my repertoire. One of the most beloved and performed songs is "Chega De Saudade". I think it sort of translates to "my special feeling". Brian would certainly have a more accurate translation. I think that the cultures we grow up in influence our general mood throughout our lives. Is it fair to say that in Russia people often feel that they must endure hardships and maybe form a more fatalist and somber outlook? In the states it is encouraged, even required that we cultivate optimism and happiness, which is unrealistic and impossible to achieve. HSPs feel very deeply and the frightening daily events in the news cycle are, for me, overwhelming. So I think I share your melancholy Ana. For the past year I wake every morning with a vague feeling of dread. Good food, exercise, and occasionally some therapy help to make it manageable, but I expect I'll have to deal with it for some time to come. BTW, Here is a link to a version of that beautiful song - czcams.com/video/-c6Zbi3tbMg/video.html
A dull ache of the soul - yes. x and dumplings are definitely the answer x
Ana and Brian, thank you for your videos!!! Are you still in Shkoder Albania? I ask this because I will be in Shkoder on the 29th of July for a month or so. I would like to see the both of you if possible.
Hi Michael! Wow, this is such a coincidence! Yes, we're in Shkoder but on Monday will go to Tirana for 11 days and then come back to spend another month in Shkoder. It will be fun to meet up! Can you email us to anagrad.art@gmail.com so that we keep in touch? 🤗
Please don't let anybody tell you that you cannot speak about "negative" things. It's a reflection of the commenter's inability to deal with life in all its fullness, his/her own and that of another person. It's sad, because life only gives off its full flavor to those who dare taste the tough parts too and when we do, there's beautiful words to help us through, like the ones you share in your video. Positive thinking is a hype that can become toxic in itself when it leads to denial of certain parts of life and of our psyche as it will burst out sooner or later anyway. It's trendy right now, though, but I'd say that if anybody feels you're negative, there are enough channels where they can find as upbeat, "postiive" talk as they need. As for you, I don't think you're negative at all. You're going through so much right now that you would have to be a robot for you not to be affected by it all. And I'm glad you're not. I'm glad you're human and eloquent and that you give words to the feelings we all recognize for some reason or another. So what I want to say is: keep going, keep sharing real life. It's beautiful in all it's flavors and I feel honoured to be allowed a peek into yours.
Thank you so much for these kind words and understanding, Mandy 💚
What a beautiful video to address a taboo topic. Beautifully addressed Ana. And in every way I can relate. My comfort food is a dish my grandmother taught me from Lebanon.
Lovely video, Anna. I felt a little toska myself this morning during my walk outside. Let it flow through like the river of life.
The dumplings look delicious! I feel it is so important to learn to feel all our emotions positive and negative or sad
Thank you for sharing this with us. Very meaningful. We all have experiences that leave us feeling sad and expressing those feelings should not make us fell embarrassed or ashamed.
I absolutely love and appreciate this video, Ana. Probably my favorite of yours so far, and that's a lot to say, since I've loved all of them, in different ways and for different reasons. It's just beautiful. I feel so validated when I listen to you and I'm grateful that you've introduced us to the concepts of "toska" and "saudade". I've felt this kind of peaceful acceptance of my own melancholy, and often been shamed by family members or friends for allowing myself to feel my sadness and refusing to pretend I'm on top of the world when I'm not. It may seem like an oxymoron to some, but I think we might be much healthier and whole if we accept that we're bound to be sad sometimes, and we take those times as an opportunity to look inward, reflect and be kind to ourselves, to slow down. That kind of introspection can never occur if we supress perfectly valid emotions just because we've been told that they look "bad". Honestly, thank you so much ❤ and I'm totally going to try making dumplings 😋😋
Thank you so much for these kindest words and understanding, dear Lourdes. I agree with every word you've typed here. And it's so inspirational, too.
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I too have those memories that are so beautiful it hurts deeply to remember them but Isn’t great and a privilege to have lived them? That’s what I tell myself.
To talk about (and feel) the « negative » is a very positive way to behave . I put the word between quotation marks and I’m glad you did too ! There is no negative feelings. They all have their purpose.Imagine a world where everybody would feel happy, even when witnessing someone else pain… What is negative is suppressing those feeling all the time. Thank you for, again, talking intelligently about important things.
I will definitely make your Pelminis very soon :)
Oh, this is a great view on missing the past! Indeed, if we miss something, it was, first of all, a privilege that we had it... Gratitude 💖
Thank you for this reminder, Julie!🌼
Ana, I should have written to you a long time ago.... Today's video really resonated with me as well as the quotes.
When one has struggled in life ..And persevered to survive f tom an early age..there comes a time when you reflect and your soul longs for an inner peace, praying for a pathway to follow for the rest of your life..Am still searching to know what that path is, but every part of me longs to know ,I am sensitive like yourself..And feel very deeply .it is sometimes a burden , and saddens my heart and soul.However, I sense that you feel this too?
That is why I write poetry and whatever enters my mind but I realise that , I need people ,like-minded people in and be more proactive....to live the best life _ that I am.
I want to Thank you so very much for your gentle and intuitive videos ...I am so happy that you and Brian are now together at last and wish you everything you wish for yourselves to come true....God Bless dear Ana .Any tips you can give me re...how I can give the love I have inside to the world ,would be much appreciated.....Although I am on my own, I am so grateful for the son I thought I could never have. And he still lives at home with me and our little cat.xx
Dear Kathleen, thank you so much for writing this comment and sharing your experience/thoughts. I understand so well what you're feeling, trust me. Being a highly sensitive person is challenging in so many ways... Your son, your cat, and your poetry are such precious gifts in your life!
It's hard for me to give you any tips really, but I know what worked for me: making art/videos/texts and sharing them with other people made my life much more fulfilled. These days, we all badly need beauty, sincerity, and kindness. I can't volunteer for charity organizations of any kind because it's too painful and overwhelming for me, but I connect with people online and make videos that can bring them at least some comfort. So, maybe try publishing your poems somewhere to share them with people, or find any other creative outlet. Sorry if my advice is irrelevant 🤗 Sending you much love, my friend💚
I love your calm, your depth, and your insights. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you so much for watching, Denise!🌼
Thank you for your wise word and food Ana. You are liked just the way you are.
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I just made this recipe for the second time and it’s just so good! Amazing how simple things can bring so much joy and satisfaction. Thank you dear Ana! 💜🙏🏻
U should do more recipe videos definitely 💜
Aww, thanks! I'll try to 😊💚
Nostalgia is bittersweet, and necessary. Connecting with our past selves is like dipping into a fountain of strength.🧡
Because I'm from the southern United States, I can see this recipe tasting super good if you added just a little bit of some kind of pork to the beans while cooking the beans. We cook pinto beans slowly for a few hours until tender with onion and salt and pepper added at the end so the beans won't get hard, and I never thought about adding a bay leaf but I love using them in cooking anyway, and ever since I started making dumplings I have not bought any since. Home made is so delicious
Your talks are very soothing. I ❤️ your dumpling recipe.
Thank you, Katie! 🌸
This video touched me so much. You described my feelings - Toska. Thanks for introducing this word. I never have been able to describe or talk to anyone generally as in USA, most people live in picture perfect "instagram" type world where either you live the happiest life or depressed. You are very intelligent and I admire the way you describe things in such a simple way in a language that is not your native language. I have been much older than you, but I don't have communication skills like yours. I feel connected to you in many ways like the way you see life, express feeling and even the way you dress. I have been watching your videos from your Siberia days, but first time commenting. Dumplings looked so good. Since I am Asian Indian, I would make it spicy.
Ana! Those dumplings look so good! I must make them.
Hi Patricia! Oh, I hope you'll enjoy the recipe! 🤗
I am soaking some kidney beans - I will try to make Pelmeni tomorrow. They look so yummy.
Thank you for a video that supported me just when I needed it.
Thank you for speaking about real human feelings
Hope the recipe will work 🤗♥️
Your videos are very conforting and sensitive. Thank you.