18 years of drinking, 5 years of heroin/fent addiction, 4 overdoses, child of addicts/alcoholics...by the grace of the Universe I am 11 months and 11 days clean and sober today ❤ we do recover 🙏
I very much relate this was my mom my whole life. I followed her path for awhile but overcame it for my kids because I couldn’t put them through it 😢 this song make me cry like a baby
I’m proud of you 🫶 I’m breaking the cycle too.. I was drinking heavily for awhile but I have 2 little siblings that are gonna need their older sister when the time comes..
Just got released from the hospital from kidney and liver failure from being an alcoholic since I was 14. My sister showed me this song and it hit home. Here's too 17 days sober. This song is getting me thru lately. ❤
My mother was a angry alcoholic but was a good woman when sober. She passed away a week before my 13th birthday. I’m 20 now. This last year I’ve been popping a lot of pills trying to overdose but now I’m 5 months sober and joining the army. I’m happy for anyone who is breaking the cycle. Thank you for this beautiful song and sharing your pain to heal yourself and others
Ferguson You made a great choice. Follow through follow strong. Look I'm 6 or so years sober and in a better place than I could imagine. Keep it going it fkin works
I love this song, but what's equally as amazing is all the support being shown in the comments towards others. It's a rare and beautiful occurrence. Thank you for sharing this song with us. So many of us needed to hear it.
This is the man who sat me down 5 years ago and talked some sense into me and helped me to get sober and i will never not be grateful for what he did for me and it makes me so proud to see his music helping other people. I love you homie and csnt wait to see yoj touch more peoples heart and to help them through the pain with your songs. You have been through a lot and deserve to be heard homie!
I’m so glad that he helped you find the best and most human part of yourself, you’re a wonderful person, and I’m really grateful that you are here with us today ❤
Thank you for this. I’m in recovery will have 5 years in june. I’ve lost so many people to the disease of addiction. Lost my best friend last year and my brother the year before. I am so grateful for recovery tho. My mom and stepdad have over 15 years clean. Recovery saves lives. ❤
The most amazing part of this whole lyrical piece is that it’s first and third person. It circle the disease of addiction as a family disease. It touches on generations of trauma. It’s beautiful
What a powerful song! I was that dad who put my kids through this pain. Today, im back by the grace of God. Almost 6 years sober, I get to be apart of their life today. Keep making music. Your helping people heal!
My mom’s about to be 6 years! Congratulations man. Everyday you have to live with the pain you caused. Even if your kids don’t show how grateful they are. Trust me! They are!
Thank you for doing that for them and yourself. I’m the daughter where her dad is passed away because he couldn’t make it out. I respect and appreciate you so much.
There's always one way to go and that's up I've lived both sides as a parent being a addict and recovery 3 years clean off coke and my father died from fentanyl 11 years ago I heard this last night as my son was a sleep drinking and smoking to this song just know it does get better. You got this don't de grade yourself
Man this song really speaks to me. Struggled with addiction from the age of 13. Been sober about 2 years now. Spent time in jails, rehabs, over and over. And finally I took ahold of my life, it’s possible! This song is amazing, congratulations. I wish you the best in everything you do!
From a broke boyfriend joking about how his music is gonna blow up to healing hearts and wounds we never knew we had ❤ thank you for the laughs and the tears❤
Heart failure at 34. Divorced. Ex-Pill head. I can go on. I’m so grateful for being clean 10 years. This song brings me back. Thank you so much for your music.
Overdosed on fentanyl 8 times on the 9th I decided I didn’t want this life anymore I found a picture in my exes phone of me oded blue in the face covered in sweat it traumatized me to see my self dead I will never turn back today I have 19 months clean and I haven’t looked back
This will be a timeless song. I will listen to it for years, forever. Thank you for creating this.. this was the song we never knew we needed. And now we will never live without.
Yes! Spent my whole life watching my mother kill herself and she’s still doing it so this song just brings me to tears . But I made a commitment to myself to never drink in my life ever . Went through addiction years ago and will never go back
This guy needs to blow up. This song is so good. Judging from TikTok he seems like a really humble guy. Can tell he doesn’t come from wealth. He deserves all the good that’s going to come to him!
I'm proud of all of you. Whether you are going through addiction, sober, or lost a loved one to addiction you are loved and important. Stay strong darlings. Most of my family has struggled with addiction so i witness the affects first hand. Help is out there. I hope that if you need it you are brave enough to reach out. Please don't give up on yourself.
This song… this song reverberates around the world. The addicts in addictive addiction hear it “I know you hate me, I hate me too” how powerful to the families of those watching their love ones die from it… we all hear this so loud and clear in different ways, yet all the same. I heard this the first time today and my soul hears it so clear. I needed this song 20 years ago… and I still need it today.
Thank you,Broke Boyfriend, for creating this absolute masterpiece of a song. I’ve cried to it, screamed it at the top of my lungs and had peace while just sitting and listening to it. Thank you, Z and AV, I wish nothing but the best for you both!
My dad committed suicide last year. He couldn't get clean so he found another way out. i never want my little boy to have this pain losing a parent to addiction like I did. I'm currently I'm rehab 4months now.
I’ve never actually sat and thought about my parents choosing drugs and alcohol over me and my brothers until I heard this song. I’ve become so numb to the thought of it bc it’s been my life since I could remember. But I feel a sense of freedom from listening to this song because I actually cried over them. Thank you for making me realize with this song, that I feel validated and like I’m not alone and that’s it’s ok to cry over the good versions that they used to be. It feels so good to cry
Me too. Everyone in my family except me. This hit hard because I always shrug it off. And they'll never know how much I wish it didn't have to be this way.
I start thinking of the opiod epidemic and how they were giving to all of millennial ok s parents like tic tacs when I was a kid it was so sad to remember who they were and what they had become. Its just so sad what they did for money ruined and messed up a lot of people includi g me by the time I was grown I actually started using with my mom and started slinging i have been through Gates of hell and clawed my way back to life i have no family relationship it just hurts but ty this touched me ❤
From being alone and homeless using heroin/fentanyl to 7 1/2 yrs later having my own place 2 beautiful kids an amazing fiance, 3 cars and a couple dogs n cats I can say recovery is absolutely amazing and worth every single struggle I went through to get where I’m at today. Never thought I’d be alive today let alone be almost 8 years clean.
I wish my husband was still here. He won his fight with drugs and alcohol only to be taken by brain cancer. It’s been 4 years since he passed. Angry doesn’t even cover my feelings. 5-7 hospital visits (including ICU), one stent in a psych ward. 5 rehabs. Failed being on Vivitrol. He just put everything down one day to be there for our sons. One year later he was gone. This song hits home. ❤
Omfg I can't begin to imagine that, bless your heart, I'm sure he would want you to keep on living and thriving in his honor, what a beautiful soul and amazing how he overcame the drug/alcohol
I have sent this song and shared this song with so many people and family members... this is one of those songs that come around once in a while that hits hard, gives chills and is what you actually call real music... i lost my sister to drugs, i lost my mother to drinking, I lost my stepfather to a heart attack... i struggled with addiction all my life... i have been sober and clean for 6 years now... i love this song... keep doing you thing!!
In tears listening to this on repeat! I've been with my man for going on 14 years this July and he's ODed 4 times and all 4 times I had to do something to save his life (call 911, Narcan, track him on my phone to get him help) He was on life support 3 out of the 4 times he ODed. The first one was the worst. He suffered strokes/brain damage and they didn't think he would survive let alone be a functional person anymore but I prayed for a miracle and I got it and he made an almost full recovery but went on to OD 3 more times after that. We are both in recovery now. I also struggled with alcohol for most of my life but I just celebrated 3 years sober on January 7th, 2024! Recovery is possible! Thank you for making such a beautiful song and video! Your music is changing lives and helping people! Much love! ❤❤❤
What a wonderful inspirational story! Congrats on 3 years!! And, I’m truly glad that your guy survived and is now in recovery! Unfortunately, addiction is a lifelong battle. After quitting drugs in my mid-20’s using for about 12 years straight, I had a 16 year period clean. Mid-2021 started having issues with drinking and a year later returned to drugs. A few concussions and likely a mini stroke were a big part of the relapse and continue to be. Never in a million years did I think I’d be dealing with addiction and mental health issues again. Honestly, because of the mental health challenges, and not knowing who I am anymore really, I don’t know if I’ll be committed to being clean again. I hope you and your guy will remain in recovery for the rest of your lives! I know it’s possible, I’ve seen it multiple times, the addict living their best life forevermore. But, sadly it’s more often not the case. Never get too comfortable with being sober, stay on your toes and mindful of triggers and stresses. You both got this sh*t!! Never give up! Wishing you the best for years and years to come! Thank you for sharing your story and giving others hope when they may not have any left! Stay strong and enjoy your lives in recovery, one day at a time!~ 💜🙏🏼
@@GypsySoul_HippieHeart999 I see you & I believe in you. addiction is a lifelong battle, it's a daily fight, you did it once- I have faith you'll be able to get sober again! please stay safe, I'm not religious but just know there's someone out there in this big world praying for your success. ❤
That's great, congratulations! I was with mine for 14yrs too, helped him thru multiple OD's but in the end I lost him 2-10-17. Found out I was pregnant 2 weeks later. She's my heavenly sent gift from him. His heart may longer beat in his body, but it does in hers. Cherish every day with your love, I'm glad you still have that! Congrats on your 3 years!
5 years sober & 10 years of both parents gone from alcohol and drugs. This breaks my heart in the best way thank you🖤 keep going your fuckin healing hearts bro!
As the child of addicts who gave me my first painkiller age 12, and IV heroin shortly after, I am not fully healed. But your music is cathartic and is helping me cope..
Love to see how far this song has come. You're helping heal so many broken souls. The "remixes" and "added vocals" on Tiktok are soo good. Keep going Av and Z you are amazing!
I love this so much. People don't understand how being a child of addiction affects your WHOLE GOD DAMN life!!!!! Thank you for putting into words how I have always felt.
Ain't that the truth. My pops was a convict and meth cook.. me and my 3 brothers never got a fair shot at life. He lived long enough to see birth of his grandchildren. RIP dad..😢
@@teqlab I feel u. My mom stroked out after a bunch of adderall, alchohol, and xans mixture. Now is a vegetable Then my dad (retired meth cook) got killed on his motorcycle. Almost list 1 of my 3 brothers by cancer and then H..Man life is struggle. But yet the people who get everything handed to them do the best..but are also the most miserable. The the most wealthy people I know (millionaires) are the cheapest most miserable people u could possibly imagine. 2 are still here
This song is so amazing thank you for making this!!!! A song I can relate to, has had me in tears all morning 😅 in a good way… now as an adult my parents are sober, I’m sober. Drugs are no longer in control of my life. I’m living my child hood prayers now. ❤️ I pray the same for everyone reading my comment. 🙏🏻
My dad was a Meth addict my whole life. He’s been clean for 8 years now. I’ve been sober from pills for 11 years now. My mom died from a heart attack 2 years ago, she was heavily addicted to pain pills for 20 years. I miss her everyday. Thank you for this song.❤
10 year fentanyl addict who is now been clean for over 7 months and this song made me cry I lost so many and hurt so many. I’m doing good but my heart is all fucked up
Had 6 years clean of fentanyl. Relapsed soon as I lost my relationship of 4 years. This song was literally the song of my life then. I tried overdosing many times. Succeeded many times. Was brought back to life many times and continued to try to succeed. Finally went to rehab. 21 days sober now. Hopefully I’ll stay sober the rest of my life. But damn this song hits hard.
❤ This song is everything! As a recovering addict, I've been on both sides of this story. It's hard for someone that has never been an addict to love an addict. They think "if they love me, they'd get clean!" It's not that easy and I think this song explains it perfectly. Thank you!
@aloraarnold2817 I woke up from a coma 2 years ago after almost dying and got sober for a few months but I'm back to snorting fent. idk how yall get sober. I just can't seem to do it. and I know I need to for my son. but I jus can't seem to do it. I lost my entire family back in 2020 all I have left is my girl and my son. my entire family has basically left me alone at this point. I just don't know how yall quit fent. I can't seem to stop.
@@mattsosa8731 you gotta think abouy your future man,think about all the rhings you cn get ur kids with the money ur using to buy the felt,i relapsed 6 times being deciding to be done and trust me everyday is a struggle you just gotta believe in yourself itss not worth it in the end
Orphaned to substance abuse and this song has me screaming the lyrics at the top of my lungs! 😢 My kids will never know how lucky they are to have both of their parents sober and present in every moment. 💔
Came a long way from using xans, fent & any opioids (except heroin). After so many attempts of getting clean and overdosing I’m finally a year and almost 2 months clean. I’m truly blessed for the life that I have to pay and this song is definitely healing from all the trauma I’ve been through. So truly thank you and I don’t even know you, but I wish the best of success for you.
I lost my entire family to addiction. The world feels so empty when everyone you love is gone. I'm the cycle breaker but nobody is left to see … I wish they would have known that I loved them more than the drugs ever could. 😔💔
I’ve been on both sides of addiction, the child of the addicts, couldn’t understand why they wouldn’t stop for me, didn’t know why I wasn’t enough to make them stop. I never understood addicts until I was 23. That’s when I became one. I was against anyone who drank or did drugs until my ex forced me to have abortion after abortion while simultaneously pimping me out. Maybe I was addicted to him first? Idk. All I know is I was never the same after that first abortion. I tried to run away to a church but no one was there. Day on the stopped for hours . It was freezing and no one showed up so I went back. Never could shake the feeling of wanting my baby and forcing that baby out of me. Lost my mind maybe. Used to be so level headed. My mom was sane also before she lost her mind when her 6 yr old had been hit by a car that killed him. Lots of tragedy right? Maybe I was shitty in a past life. Maybe that’s why I have the life I do and the parents I have. When my dad was 3 his mom got killed in a car accident then his dad 3 years later. So much loss… When my mom was 13, her mom dropped dead of an aneurysm unexpectedly. See what I mean? Is it a generational curse? Idk. All I know is I’ve always been surrounded by death and heartbreak. Neither parents raised me, they chose drugs and alcohol instead. I get it now. Life sucks. Those things temporary block out the pain that can become so severe it’s soul crushing
I think they did. There are bonds that can be formed that are deeper than mere blood. I hope you form those relationships. If a fool like me can do it, i know you can too. May God bless you, me, and whoever else needs to read this. Godspeed to us all
This is the pros to social media. I'd never had heard this in Nottingham England. Thankyou. I lost my boyfriend to a heroin overdose last year and dad the same thing 2014. I love u for this xx
Same here 3 stints in rehab, 4 ODS, 6 Suboxone programs, 3 methadone programs. Too many lost friends to count, And many many counselors later, I'm now 2 years 5 months clean and holding close every new day I get thru.. Absolutely love this song so much , hope he goes on to do so much ❤️
I'm 3 years 2 months clean and sober. I love this song, brings tears to my eyes every play. I lost my parents to addiction and many friends. Thankyou av for your healing music!
Man, this hits. Plays wonderfully to the memories of taking my dad to rehab and picking him up from jail... may he rest in peace. You can't save a drowning man who wants to drown.
I’m almost 11 years cleans. Started real young, some I “started” with aren’t here today. If you listen to this high right now , I hope you know there’s a light a the end of the tunnel. You aren’t alone through this cold dark time in your life & I know asking for help is hard to do now a day & maybe think you’ve burned all your “bridges” that what drugs make you want to think! I love this song because of my past and my accomplishment I’ve made over that last 10 years! I’m proud of myself and everyone in here that clean even if your day one was yesterday! I’m proud of you! ❤
I love this song, the feeling and honesty is amazing. Well done. Im soo blessed to have a year of sobriety under my belt, thank God im not in the ground, and my sons not grieving me. Drugs arent worth it at all.
Coming from a addict(me), born to a addict(my mom that overdosed in 2007), that created addicts(my kid) this song hits home so hard😭😭😭 thank you so much for saying everything my soul never knew it needed to say. Sobriety is possible cause I got clean June 18 2023.
Please don’t it does not help no good comes from you believing this. I’m not hating have your religion pray have faith but don’t think god can stop addiction. Doctors metal help and love can 👌 😢 unfortunately this comes from someone who’s now 12 years clean lost a lot friends to heroin and near killed myself with and without out,
I'm almost 5 years sober from alcohol that almost killed me, my mom dragged me into the hospital and they didn't let me leave, I had chirossis. My mom is my hero. She slept nights with me, spent days in the hospital with me, watched me spiral down, let herself be my punching bag. My cousin had my godson, he saw me drunk the first 3 years but thank God he doesn't remember, I got sober for my self, my mom, and my 3 favourite little kids.
Just lost my mom to cirrhosis from alcohol june 22 2023. I’m glad you’re sober ❤️🙏🏼 it’s absolutely killed my siblings and I losing her.. and we begged and pleaded with her to go to a hospital or rehab. Complete nightmare
After going through 20+ years of addiction mixed with times of sobriety I am currently 4 months sober and this song hits home in so many levels..So thank you dude..Gonna have it playing throughout my day's and singing it out loud and proud..Think it'll mean different things to different ppl,u smashed it man..Always be a fan,can't wait for what's to come....Love and Hope..xxxx
Trying to get sober myself. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. And I feel so lost… This is so powerful. Thank you for healing us all with your music 🥹
This song helped me release what I've been trying to grieve for years. My dad died almost two years ago. March 25. And I was an addict for his last ten years of his life. I got clean a month or two before he died because he said NO MORE. He finally said I CANT HELP YOU ANYMORE. My dad was my biggest enabler. He couldn't stand to watch me be sick and turn into a crazy suicidal mess. He watched me for a decade. He quit cold turkey before I was born. I couldnt. I couldn't quit until the day he died. It was the last time I picked up a needle. And now I forever keep March 25th as my clean date because it's the only way I can now honor him. I can't take back all the pain I caused but I wish you could see me now dad. It's all for you❤
Beautiful song. There seems to be both sides of addiction sung about: the addicted person and the people that love the addicted person. It brings tears to my eyes, as in such a short amount of time the pain felt by so many people is sung.
18 years of drinking, 5 years of heroin/fent addiction, 4 overdoses, child of addicts/alcoholics...by the grace of the Universe I am 11 months and 11 days clean and sober today ❤ we do recover 🙏
Your stronger than you know
I can’t stop the fent 😢
Congrats man!!!! I'm 9 months sober myself!!!!
Wow🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉
❤❤❤❤ we do recover
He is healing multiple generations with one song. Wish you all the success the world has to offer you my guy.
Facts
Sooo true!
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This is so true.. and from me to my children and now viceversa. I got myself clean when I realized I passed my child had a problem
It’s crazy to me how many people this song resonates with , we gotta break the cycle as a collective ❤
RIP Mom🙏 I'll never let my daughter see me the ways I had to see you. May your next life be peaceful ✌️
Amen
Im really happy you found it in you to forgive your mother for her flaws
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I very much relate this was my mom my whole life. I followed her path for awhile but overcame it for my kids because I couldn’t put them through it 😢 this song make me cry like a baby
Fuck that hit hard
THE TEARS ROLLING OUT OF MY EYES ARE IMMENSE… thank you for making something so relatable my heart needed this
Can’t wait to hear what you create from this influence!
All the children of addicts are screaming this song like an anthem. Thank you 💜 - A child of addicts who finally broke the cycle.
I’m proud of you 🫶 I’m breaking the cycle too.. I was drinking heavily for awhile but I have 2 little siblings that are gonna need their older sister when the time comes..
speak for yourself.
I’m a mom with two sons who are finally sober ❤
I hate alcohol because of my parents.
My daughter will never know the life I had to live
Just got released from the hospital from kidney and liver failure from being an alcoholic since I was 14. My sister showed me this song and it hit home. Here's too 17 days sober. This song is getting me thru lately. ❤
One day at a time. GOD BLESS
Keep going! Your sister needs you! Your loved! 🥰
Congratulations on your sobriety!!!!! You can do this ❤
I was in the same situation health wise in July 2004. Almost 20 years sober and loving life.
It DOES get better! Remember to forgive yourself and know that the road is hard but you CAN do this! One day at time.
My mother was a angry alcoholic but was a good woman when sober. She passed away a week before my 13th birthday. I’m 20 now. This last year I’ve been popping a lot of pills trying to overdose but now I’m 5 months sober and joining the army. I’m happy for anyone who is breaking the cycle. Thank you for this beautiful song and sharing your pain to heal yourself and others
I love you❤
She would be proud of you ❤️❤️
Proud of you! She would be too! You’ve got this!
You dont need those pills. You already beat the hard part. we love you
Ferguson
You made a great choice. Follow through follow strong. Look I'm 6 or so years sober and in a better place than I could imagine. Keep it going it fkin works
I love this song, but what's equally as amazing is all the support being shown in the comments towards others. It's a rare and beautiful occurrence. Thank you for sharing this song with us. So many of us needed to hear it.
This is the man who sat me down 5 years ago and talked some sense into me and helped me to get sober and i will never not be grateful for what he did for me and it makes me so proud to see his music helping other people. I love you homie and csnt wait to see yoj touch more peoples heart and to help them through the pain with your songs. You have been through a lot and deserve to be heard homie!
I’m so glad that he helped you find the best and most human part of yourself, you’re a wonderful person, and I’m really grateful that you are here with us today ❤
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That's so beautiful, and now his song is sitting people down and telling them the same 🥺❤️ proud of you
Thank you for this. I’m in recovery will have 5 years in june. I’ve lost so many people to the disease of addiction. Lost my best friend last year and my brother the year before. I am so grateful for recovery tho. My mom and stepdad have over 15 years clean. Recovery saves lives. ❤
5 rehabs, 6 sober livings, 4 overdoses and 78 days in wilderness later, now 6 years sober 🙏🏼 this song is going to touch so many lives 👏🏻👏🏻
Keep being strong u got this ❤
I’m so proud of you
Well done! Proud of you
Proud of you friend.
I’m so fliuckin proud of you
This song is what made me decide to make a change.. proud to say 2 months sober off all drugs! Thank you so much
Happy three months!!! ❤❤
Omg amazing!!!
Four months clean off fentanyl
Congratulations man keep that shit up bro god loves you man
Each day gets better, I’m proud of you.
I'm proud of you just know your worth it❤️💯
Proud of u bro. 5 years here. Stick with it life is so much better off this junk
You’ve got this ❤
The most amazing part of this whole lyrical piece is that it’s first and third person. It circle the disease of addiction as a family disease. It touches on generations of trauma. It’s beautiful
Absolutely beautiful all aspects of addiction 😭
Thissssss!! ❤
Yes that blew my mind when I realized it wasn't about a girl
This comment nails it 👌👌 This addict is trying to break generational trauma, It's not just my journey, it's my parents & grandparents journey too ❤
What a powerful song! I was that dad who put my kids through this pain. Today, im back by the grace of God. Almost 6 years sober, I get to be apart of their life today. Keep making music. Your helping people heal!
My mom’s about to be 6 years! Congratulations man. Everyday you have to live with the pain you caused. Even if your kids don’t show how grateful they are. Trust me! They are!
Proud of you!
Congratulations fellow stranger! Proud of you!
Thank you for doing that for them and yourself. I’m the daughter where her dad is passed away because he couldn’t make it out. I respect and appreciate you so much.
We are proud of you!! 🫶🏼🫶🏼
I'm laying here, buzzed after breaking 6yrs sobriety while my kids make their own lunch when it should be me. I needed this. Im so sorry.
Don't give up
There's always one way to go and that's up I've lived both sides as a parent being a addict and recovery 3 years clean off coke and my father died from fentanyl 11 years ago I heard this last night as my son was a sleep drinking and smoking to this song just know it does get better. You got this don't de grade yourself
Man this song really speaks to me. Struggled with addiction from the age of 13. Been sober about 2 years now. Spent time in jails, rehabs, over and over. And finally I took ahold of my life, it’s possible! This song is amazing, congratulations. I wish you the best in everything you do!
I'm so happy to see real ppl with real talent actually being heard and not just want the "music industry chooses"
From a broke boyfriend joking about how his music is gonna blow up to healing hearts and wounds we never knew we had ❤ thank you for the laughs and the tears❤
I was thinking the same thing! I heard this audio and was shocked to find out he sings this!! Really talented
Honestly, money and fame change people so the selfish part of me wants to keep this underground
Yup tried to look up broke boyfriend on CZcams but can't find him
@shaniecegullison his broke boyfriend skits were more of a facebook thing im pretty sure, they were pretty funny tbh
Heart failure at 34. Divorced. Ex-Pill head. I can go on. I’m so grateful for being clean 10 years. This song brings me back. Thank you so much for your music.
Overdosed on fentanyl 8 times on the 9th I decided I didn’t want this life anymore I found a picture in my exes phone of me oded blue in the face covered in sweat it traumatized me to see my self dead I will never turn back today I have 19 months clean and I haven’t looked back
I'm so proud of you
I’m super proud of you man!! Keep going 💪
Im so proud of you! Keep going!!
I’m so proud of you
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This will be a timeless song. I will listen to it for years, forever. Thank you for creating this.. this was the song we never knew we needed. And now we will never live without.
So true! Love this!
As a child of an alcoholic who believes they don’t have a problem, this resonates so hard.
Same
No, cs same. why did i start crying . Was i in denial. Smh .
Yes! Spent my whole life watching my mother kill herself and she’s still doing it so this song just brings me to tears . But I made a commitment to myself to never drink in my life ever . Went through addiction years ago and will never go back
its hard...and IT REPEATS..... =( #AddictionProblems
Same. This hit.
Addiction hits us all in many forms. This song gives me chills. Keep fighting the good fight!
To all of the people still suffering from addiction. You can do it. Stay strong. Don't ever give up on yourself. YOU ARE ENOUGH!
This guy needs to blow up. This song is so good. Judging from TikTok he seems like a really humble guy. Can tell he doesn’t come from wealth. He deserves all the good that’s going to come to him!
💯 pal lyrics defo hit home
you sound rude girl
2.4 million views, I think hes on his way!!
I'm proud of all of you. Whether you are going through addiction, sober, or lost a loved one to addiction you are loved and important. Stay strong darlings. Most of my family has struggled with addiction so i witness the affects first hand. Help is out there. I hope that if you need it you are brave enough to reach out. Please don't give up on yourself.
Thank you..🤦🏽♂️😞😞😢
This song… this song reverberates around the world. The addicts in addictive addiction hear it “I know you hate me, I hate me too” how powerful to the families of those watching their love ones die from it… we all hear this so loud and clear in different ways, yet all the same. I heard this the first time today and my soul hears it so clear. I needed this song 20 years ago… and I still need it today.
It’s amazing how it feels like it’s meant for everyone, but for him it means something different
🥺To those who we hurt and lost. We do recover. Thank you for this, Anthem.❤
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Thank you for making this song. As a child of an addict who always choose drugs over their family, this is really healing in some odd way
I came here to say the same thing.
Same here, mom died of a OD when I was young and I miss her, but can’t blame her now that I’ve been through it.
This song really hits home.
we are here for you ❤ sending lots of love
@@barebonesjonessame here bro😞❤️
“I can’t let you go!” 🥺
This song just does something to my soul!🫶🏼
When Z steps into the song I get frisson. I think it’s knowing how close they are and the harmony is so good. Goosebumps
Thank you,Broke Boyfriend, for creating this absolute masterpiece of a song. I’ve cried to it, screamed it at the top of my lungs and had peace while just sitting and listening to it. Thank you, Z and AV, I wish nothing but the best for you both!
I knew I recognized him from somewhere!! I love his tiktoks
He stays authentic to himself. Love this song!!
My dad committed suicide last year. He couldn't get clean so he found another way out. i never want my little boy to have this pain losing a parent to addiction like I did. I'm currently I'm rehab 4months now.
Proud of you
Keep grinding
Congrats. It should be celebrated. Continue loving yourself
Im so proud of you. I have 8.5 years of Just for Today ❤ i promise you its worth it.
Hey man I don't know you but I just wanna say I'm proud of you keep on going bro
Seeing someone smile while their singing a song about something that broke their heart.... is so real, and beautiful and sad.....
RIP Mom and Dad- Thank you for this.
I’m sorry we are here for you
@@izzacurr2537no we arent
@@cjh5373 we are to busy getting high
@cjh5373 Gtfo with your negative BS
@@izzacurr2537What’s this we shit💀
I’ve never actually sat and thought about my parents choosing drugs and alcohol over me and my brothers until I heard this song. I’ve become so numb to the thought of it bc it’s been my life since I could remember. But I feel a sense of freedom from listening to this song because I actually cried over them. Thank you for making me realize with this song, that I feel validated and like I’m not alone and that’s it’s ok to cry over the good versions that they used to be. It feels so good to cry
sending you love. we are here for you ❤
I was the same way iam sorry
It's an evil disease. I'm sure they hate themselves for it at the end of everyday.
Me too. Everyone in my family except me. This hit hard because I always shrug it off. And they'll never know how much I wish it didn't have to be this way.
I start thinking of the opiod epidemic and how they were giving to all of millennial ok s parents like tic tacs when I was a kid it was so sad to remember who they were and what they had become. Its just so sad what they did for money ruined and messed up a lot of people includi g me by the time I was grown I actually started using with my mom and started slinging i have been through Gates of hell and clawed my way back to life i have no family relationship it just hurts but ty this touched me ❤
From being alone and homeless using heroin/fentanyl to 7 1/2 yrs later having my own place 2 beautiful kids an amazing fiance, 3 cars and a couple dogs n cats I can say recovery is absolutely amazing and worth every single struggle I went through to get where I’m at today. Never thought I’d be alive today let alone be almost 8 years clean.
I don't think I've ever cried this much listening to a song. It hit me so hard and at home.
I wish my husband was still here. He won his fight with drugs and alcohol only to be taken by brain cancer. It’s been 4 years since he passed. Angry doesn’t even cover my feelings. 5-7 hospital visits (including ICU), one stent in a psych ward. 5 rehabs. Failed being on Vivitrol. He just put everything down one day to be there for our sons. One year later he was gone. This song hits home. ❤
Omfg I can't begin to imagine that, bless your heart, I'm sure he would want you to keep on living and thriving in his honor, what a beautiful soul and amazing how he overcame the drug/alcohol
i’m so sorry for ur loss, we are here for you. ❤
I'm sorry for your loss.
My God I wish I had t he words to heal you. I am so sorry. Sending love ❤️
I hope you and your sons find the healing you need. I'm so sorry for your loss. He sounds like a hero.
I can't listen to this song without sobbing. It opened up a whole level of mama trauma for me.
Same
Yes same
Same. My daughter will never experience the life I was forced to grow up in as a child. I wake up everyday and strive to be different, to be better.
You are so beautiful strong and will get through this till the end ❤
Same bro my mom died last September
I have sent this song and shared this song with so many people and family members... this is one of those songs that come around once in a while that hits hard, gives chills and is what you actually call real music... i lost my sister to drugs, i lost my mother to drinking, I lost my stepfather to a heart attack... i struggled with addiction all my life... i have been sober and clean for 6 years now... i love this song... keep doing you thing!!
Deep af n hits home a lot. Fire broo 🔥🔥🔥
15 years of addictions under my belt, now with 13 months sober. This song hits different ❤
In tears listening to this on repeat! I've been with my man for going on 14 years this July and he's ODed 4 times and all 4 times I had to do something to save his life (call 911, Narcan, track him on my phone to get him help) He was on life support 3 out of the 4 times he ODed. The first one was the worst. He suffered strokes/brain damage and they didn't think he would survive let alone be a functional person anymore but I prayed for a miracle and I got it and he made an almost full recovery but went on to OD 3 more times after that. We are both in recovery now. I also struggled with alcohol for most of my life but I just celebrated 3 years sober on January 7th, 2024! Recovery is possible! Thank you for making such a beautiful song and video! Your music is changing lives and helping people! Much love! ❤❤❤
What a wonderful inspirational story! Congrats on 3 years!! And, I’m truly glad that your guy survived and is now in recovery!
Unfortunately, addiction is a lifelong battle. After quitting drugs in my mid-20’s using for about 12 years straight, I had a 16 year period clean. Mid-2021 started having issues with drinking and a year later returned to drugs. A few concussions and likely a mini stroke were a big part of the relapse and continue to be. Never in a million years did I think I’d be dealing with addiction and mental health issues again. Honestly, because of the mental health challenges, and not knowing who I am anymore really, I don’t know if I’ll be committed to being clean again.
I hope you and your guy will remain in recovery for the rest of your lives! I know it’s possible, I’ve seen it multiple times, the addict living their best life forevermore. But, sadly it’s more often not the case. Never get too comfortable with being sober, stay on your toes and mindful of triggers and stresses.
You both got this sh*t!! Never give up! Wishing you the best for years and years to come! Thank you for sharing your story and giving others hope when they may not have any left! Stay strong and enjoy your lives in recovery, one day at a time!~ 💜🙏🏼
Stay strong
@@GypsySoul_HippieHeart999 I see you & I believe in you. addiction is a lifelong battle, it's a daily fight, you did it once- I have faith you'll be able to get sober again!
please stay safe, I'm not religious but just know there's someone out there in this big world praying for your success. ❤
@@arabelllaxo You’re so very kind! Thank you for the encouragement! I appreciate you~
That's great, congratulations! I was with mine for 14yrs too, helped him thru multiple OD's but in the end I lost him 2-10-17. Found out I was pregnant 2 weeks later. She's my heavenly sent gift from him. His heart may longer beat in his body, but it does in hers. Cherish every day with your love, I'm glad you still have that! Congrats on your 3 years!
I lost my brother, first gf, and a bunch of friends to substance abuse. I’m now 8 almost 9 years sober
Proud of yoooou! 🩷
Fucking A bro! Only 90 days clean here but keep on keeping on bruh!🎉❤
Fuck, yeah that’s amazing. Congratulations dude.🎉 I’m going on three years clean in July.
Good job bro... we relate more than you'll ever know... I miss my little brother ad friends more than words can describe.. keep your chin up brother
God got you in his hands fam 🖤🙏🏼 trust me . I just lost 2 friend two days ago to a shooting
5 years sober & 10 years of both parents gone from alcohol and drugs. This breaks my heart in the best way thank you🖤 keep going your fuckin healing hearts bro!
So proud of you!!! You took all of your pain and trauma into something that is healing THOUSANDS if not MILLIONS. You did it dude 🥲
As a daughter of two drug addicts and a recovering addict myself....thank you for this beautiful song. ❤❤
same
Know we all are addicts before we know it . Ha . So dumb. So sorry for you both
This is my story too ❤
Me too ❤ xx
As the child of addicts who gave me my first painkiller age 12, and IV heroin shortly after, I am not fully healed. But your music is cathartic and is helping me cope..
Love to see how far this song has come. You're helping heal so many broken souls. The "remixes" and "added vocals" on Tiktok are soo good. Keep going Av and Z you are amazing!
I love this so much. People don't understand how being a child of addiction affects your WHOLE GOD DAMN life!!!!! Thank you for putting into words how I have always felt.
Yes 🙌 finally someone understands what we went through..:
Gosh damn, no need to use gods name in vein..
Ain't that the truth. My pops was a convict and meth cook.. me and my 3 brothers never got a fair shot at life. He lived long enough to see birth of his grandchildren. RIP dad..😢
Dad got sober after mom died - it was too late though
@@teqlab I feel u. My mom stroked out after a bunch of adderall, alchohol, and xans mixture. Now is a vegetable
Then my dad (retired meth cook) got killed on his motorcycle. Almost list 1 of my 3 brothers by cancer and then H..Man life is struggle. But yet the people who get everything handed to them do the best..but are also the most miserable. The the most wealthy people I know (millionaires) are the cheapest most miserable people u could possibly imagine. 2 are still here
My mind is ABSOLUTELY blown . It’s him . The talent . How he wrote this song . Mad respect .
12 years of heroin & fentanyl. 2 years clean. Blessed to be alive.
Im 11 years sober. My daughter sent me this song today. I've listened to it on repeat all day . Even when we stop. The pain continues ❤
This song is so amazing thank you for making this!!!! A song I can relate to, has had me in tears all morning 😅 in a good way… now as an adult my parents are sober, I’m sober. Drugs are no longer in control of my life. I’m living my child hood prayers now. ❤️ I pray the same for everyone reading my comment. 🙏🏻
4 years sober. Thank you for a reminder that there’s someone yelling this song at us. ❤ I got clean for my daughter and I will stay clean for her. ♾️
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so proud of you ❤
This songs helped get off pains. Almost a week clean now and jamming Av every day. Thanks
Hell yeah! Kick ass!
You've touched so many people I don't tho k you realise how many of us can relate ❤
ON REPAEAT ALL DAY !!! ❤❤❤❤ WE LOVE YOU 🎉
This song hits straight to the heart. If you’ve ever loved an addict, you know. 💜 Keep going people. Don’t give up.
Loved and lost my mom to fentanyl. The worst heartache I have ever felt.
My dad was a Meth addict my whole life. He’s been clean for 8 years now. I’ve been sober from pills for 11 years now. My mom died from a heart attack 2 years ago, she was heavily addicted to pain pills for 20 years. I miss her everyday. Thank you for this song.❤
My dad died Christmas morning, My brother died 4 years before him.. Your music is my therapy! Thank you ❤
10 year fentanyl addict who is now been clean for over 7 months and this song made me cry I lost so many and hurt so many. I’m doing good but my heart is all fucked up
I have this song on repeat
Keep going! You got this ❤
Keep up the good work. ❤
You don't know me but you are inspiring and I'm proud of you. Be strong 💪
The way he let his friend be involved in this and let him sing one of his verses to get him recognition too, got me loving him even more!! 😩😍
That’s his part of the song lol
Your so off with this comment lmao
It’s called a feature lol
Had 6 years clean of fentanyl. Relapsed soon as I lost my relationship of 4 years. This song was literally the song of my life then. I tried overdosing many times. Succeeded many times. Was brought back to life many times and continued to try to succeed. Finally went to rehab. 21 days sober now. Hopefully I’ll stay sober the rest of my life. But damn this song hits hard.
Z has the voice of the Eden Project. Awesome song 👍👍👍
❤ This song is everything! As a recovering addict, I've been on both sides of this story. It's hard for someone that has never been an addict to love an addict. They think "if they love me, they'd get clean!" It's not that easy and I think this song explains it perfectly. Thank you!
It really isn’t me and my ex would use together I got clean unfortunately he didn’t.
I second this comment. For sure. Both sides of the aisle here too.
Well said. I definitely feel the same
15 months clean off fentanyl and this song hits man. Appreciate this song, and wish you so much success
You got this! I'm proud of you
Congrats on your sobriety!
10 days sober from fent for me its a struggle but im pulling though congrats on 15 months
@aloraarnold2817 I woke up from a coma 2 years ago after almost dying and got sober for a few months but I'm back to snorting fent. idk how yall get sober. I just can't seem to do it. and I know I need to for my son. but I jus can't seem to do it. I lost my entire family back in 2020 all I have left is my girl and my son. my entire family has basically left me alone at this point. I just don't know how yall quit fent. I can't seem to stop.
@@mattsosa8731 you gotta think abouy your future man,think about all the rhings you cn get ur kids with the money ur using to buy the felt,i relapsed 6 times being deciding to be done and trust me everyday is a struggle you just gotta believe in yourself itss not worth it in the end
Orphaned to substance abuse and this song has me screaming the lyrics at the top of my lungs! 😢
My kids will never know how lucky they are to have both of their parents sober and present in every moment. 💔
Came a long way from using xans, fent & any opioids (except heroin). After so many attempts of getting clean and overdosing I’m finally a year and almost 2 months clean. I’m truly blessed for the life that I have to pay and this song is definitely healing from all the trauma I’ve been through. So truly thank you and I don’t even know you, but I wish the best of success for you.
I lost my entire family to addiction. The world feels so empty when everyone you love is gone. I'm the cycle breaker but nobody is left to see … I wish they would have known that I loved them more than the drugs ever could. 😔💔
I see you, youre making a huge difference ♡
I’ve been on both sides of addiction, the child of the addicts, couldn’t understand why they wouldn’t stop for me, didn’t know why I wasn’t enough to make them stop. I never understood addicts until I was 23. That’s when I became one.
I was against anyone who drank or did drugs until my ex forced me to have abortion after abortion while simultaneously pimping me out.
Maybe I was addicted to him first? Idk.
All I know is I was never the same after
that first abortion. I tried to run away to a church but no one was there. Day on the stopped for hours . It was freezing and no one showed up so I went back.
Never could shake the feeling of wanting my baby and forcing that baby out of me. Lost my mind maybe.
Used to be so level headed.
My mom was sane also before she lost her mind when her 6 yr old had been hit by a car that killed him.
Lots of tragedy right?
Maybe I was shitty in a past life. Maybe that’s why I have the life I do and the parents I have.
When my dad was 3 his mom got killed in a car accident then his dad 3 years later.
So much loss…
When my mom was 13, her mom dropped dead of an aneurysm unexpectedly.
See what I mean? Is it a generational curse? Idk. All I know is I’ve always been surrounded by death and heartbreak.
Neither parents raised me, they chose drugs and alcohol instead.
I get it now.
Life sucks.
Those things temporary block out the pain that can become so severe it’s soul crushing
I think they did. There are bonds that can be formed that are deeper than mere blood. I hope you form those relationships. If a fool like me can do it, i know you can too. May God bless you, me, and whoever else needs to read this. Godspeed to us all
My brother was murdered 5 months ago. Drugs led him down that path. Hearing this song tears me up, but also lets me know I'm not alone.
Sending hugs
This is the pros to social media. I'd never had heard this in Nottingham England. Thankyou. I lost my boyfriend to a heroin overdose last year and dad the same thing 2014. I love u for this xx
This is wat America is good for at least. God bless my country. 🎉
As a recovering addict I can say this song really hit home. Thank you for helping a lot of us addicts kinda understand how the other side felt.
This really hit home 😢
Same here 3 stints in rehab, 4 ODS, 6 Suboxone programs, 3 methadone programs. Too many lost friends to count, And many many counselors later, I'm now 2 years 5 months clean and holding close every new day I get thru.. Absolutely love this song so much , hope he goes on to do so much ❤️
Damn..it’s only 11am and here I am crying..this song is IT dude! You have spoken to so many broken hearts..keep doing it! 🖤🤞🏼
SUCH A DEEP SONG 💯 thx for sharing this bro
I'm 3 years 2 months clean and sober. I love this song, brings tears to my eyes every play. I lost my parents to addiction and many friends. Thankyou av for your healing music!
This song has a chokehold on me. It’s been on repeat for hours.. thank you for this. I needed to heal my heart and my mind before I can let them go.
“Only if you loved me like you love getting high” damn that hit hard
😢❤
Man, this hits. Plays wonderfully to the memories of taking my dad to rehab and picking him up from jail... may he rest in peace. You can't save a drowning man who wants to drown.
Family full of addiction and clean myself for 2 years off of fentanyl. This is my new fav song ❤ awesome bro
Bawling my eyes out 😭 this song is everything to me
I’m almost 11 years cleans. Started real young, some I “started” with aren’t here today. If you listen to this high right now , I hope you know there’s a light a the end of the tunnel. You aren’t alone through this cold dark time in your life & I know asking for help is hard to do now a day & maybe think you’ve burned all your “bridges” that what drugs make you want to think! I love this song because of my past and my accomplishment I’ve made over that last 10 years! I’m proud of myself and everyone in here that clean even if your day one was yesterday! I’m proud of you! ❤
Dude. Thank you for making this. I’ve listened to this song on repeat for weeks and I just ball my eyes out while screaming it.
I love this song, the feeling and honesty is amazing. Well done. Im soo blessed to have a year of sobriety under my belt, thank God im not in the ground, and my sons not grieving me. Drugs arent worth it at all.
Coming from a addict(me), born to a addict(my mom that overdosed in 2007), that created addicts(my kid) this song hits home so hard😭😭😭 thank you so much for saying everything my soul never knew it needed to say. Sobriety is possible cause I got clean June 18 2023.
Im proud of you ❤
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Whewwwww 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳 BE SO FUCKING PROUD OF YOURSELF!!!! You got this!!!!!
@@tmarie6211 thank you so much
@@jaimigrable9636 thank you
This song is so good I sing it at work constantly!!!! I know this is hittin the radio soon y'all how's it feel to be here before he gets big big ❤❤❤
Your story inspires others that it's possible. May god be with you during this journey 🩷
You're doing it! You're making a difference! So Proud Of You!!! Shine On You Crazy Diamond 💎 (IYKYK)
Love,
Just A Mom 💜💜 🕊️✌️
Praying for all the people who are suffering from addiction. ❤🙏🏻😢
Please don’t it does not help no good comes from you believing this. I’m not hating have your religion pray have faith but don’t think god can stop addiction. Doctors metal help and love can 👌 😢 unfortunately this comes from someone who’s now 12 years clean lost a lot friends to heroin and near killed myself with and without out,
I'm almost 5 years sober from alcohol that almost killed me, my mom dragged me into the hospital and they didn't let me leave, I had chirossis.
My mom is my hero. She slept nights with me, spent days in the hospital with me, watched me spiral down, let herself be my punching bag.
My cousin had my godson, he saw me drunk the first 3 years but thank God he doesn't remember, I got sober for my self, my mom, and my 3 favourite little kids.
Moms love their babies this much. I have been through the same as your mom. I will never give up on my child.. No matter what.
Just lost my mom to cirrhosis from alcohol june 22 2023. I’m glad you’re sober ❤️🙏🏼 it’s absolutely killed my siblings and I losing her.. and we begged and pleaded with her to go to a hospital or rehab. Complete nightmare
I’m thankful you’re still here 💙
so proud of you. we love u ❤
this is something true that happened to me, everytime i play this song its on repeat and i cry everytime we need moreeeeee
After going through 20+ years of addiction mixed with times of sobriety I am currently 4 months sober and this song hits home in so many levels..So thank you dude..Gonna have it playing throughout my day's and singing it out loud and proud..Think it'll mean different things to different ppl,u smashed it man..Always be a fan,can't wait for what's to come....Love and Hope..xxxx
Trying to get sober myself. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. And I feel so lost… This is so powerful. Thank you for healing us all with your music 🥹
Luv u❤
@@loulaplante6702I love you more! ❤
Keep going, you’ve got this. Your future self will thank you ♥️
I'm proud of you 👏
One day at a time! You’ve got this ❤️
I love how this song touches both perspectives 😢 as I have also been on both perspectives
I feel it bro
This song helped me release what I've been trying to grieve for years. My dad died almost two years ago. March 25. And I was an addict for his last ten years of his life. I got clean a month or two before he died because he said NO MORE. He finally said I CANT HELP YOU ANYMORE. My dad was my biggest enabler. He couldn't stand to watch me be sick and turn into a crazy suicidal mess. He watched me for a decade. He quit cold turkey before I was born. I couldnt. I couldn't quit until the day he died. It was the last time I picked up a needle. And now I forever keep March 25th as my clean date because it's the only way I can now honor him. I can't take back all the pain I caused but I wish you could see me now dad. It's all for you❤
Beautiful song. There seems to be both sides of addiction sung about: the addicted person and the people that love the addicted person. It brings tears to my eyes, as in such a short amount of time the pain felt by so many people is sung.