@@toonlinky I hope that you understand that no matter how little of a heart and soul you have, no one will take it personally. I get your heart is a black hole longing for meaning but don’t try and make other people feel that way. Do you think a successful CZcams cares that one toddler finds his videos cringe?
I'm so proud of you dude. I know how hard this episode was for you to make and how this whole journey's been. You always put yourself out there in your work, but this one means so much to you and it shows. Your mother would be so proud to see how far you've come.
@@expendableindigo9639 Completely my bad!, I was of course talking about that Stellvia person, must have been a misclick, truly a horrific comment by him!
Anything is terrifying when you lose your mind. I've been watching Jirard since the begining, I'm slightly older than him. I know what its like to lose a parent too. My mom died to cancer may last year, A rare type of cancer that they would only scan for if they knew she had the gene for it. a cancer so rare that it doesn't appear on any kind of screenings. I thought that I would be prepared for it as my grandmother also passed away from cancer. My mother had a slow death, I watched as my sister and my dad tried to ease her pain and gave her morphine, morphine that really she didn't want because she felt helpless. on her last days she was still fully aware but couldn't talk. I told her I love her and all that came back was a mumbled I love you too" barely recognizable. then for a day, she laid there motionless unable to do anything even talk and I wonder if she was awake then too. No matter the hard disease, losing a parent is hard. I didn't get along with my mother but I do miss her. So part of me Doesn't actually want to watch this video, because I know exactly what jirard is going through, it may be a different disease, but I don't want to see someone going through it.
I watched that disease slowly wither my grandmother's mind over the course of the last 7 years of her life. Fuck diseases like that. They shouldn't exist. Nothing that causes that much misery and fear should exist.
It is, My great grandfather had it. I never got to know him but I heard from stories how it changed him and shredded down is mind in a way. Fuck Dementia.
I completely relate. My Dad died a few years back from Alzheimer's & Dementia which he had for quite some time, and I remember the same day I lost my job was the very same day my aunt called to tell me dad was in the hospital. I also remember giving up my career for the long nights of taking care of him and catering to his every need (feeding, bathing, clothing, etc.). The game that got me through all those nights was Octopath Traveler, a game that I cant listen to even the soundtrack without being transported back in time to those moments. Since then, I haven't even dared to pick it back up to complete it due to both how hard it is gameplay wise plus mentally to get through it. Still the hardship feels fresh like it was just the other day to me... Jirard, you are not alone good sir. Thank you for sharing this with me, with us all. I may just try to overcome that pain and fear and see if I can get back into the game to finish it off, once and for all. Much love always and please never stop being your true self (your content is all the best because of it) ❤
I can't imagine what putting this video together was like, let alone the experience of losing a parent too soon. I've never heard another CZcamsr say a bad word about you. Ever. Despite all your success you've remained a kind and genuine human being. I'd imagine you probably have one hell of a mom to thank for that heart. Im sure she'd be damn proud of you, man.
Her son has become famous, at least in some way. He's become successful. He's a voice of a community, a voice that has some weight behind it. Someone who can and has helped to push for changes for the better. Someone who brings joy to thousands every week. What mother wouldn't be proud? Even if she doesn't understand the love of video games fully, she can smile that he brings smiles.
I know the feeling. During my mom's last month before she passed away from her 2nd battle with cancer in 2019 I watched her favorite movie trilogy of all time, LOTR. She had taken me and my little brother out of school to see the movies when they came out. She had read the books during her childhood to deal with a hard family life. So I spent my last month with her watching the extended editions with her during the time she was awake. I still haven't been able to go back and watch the videos and and anytime I see the Arwen Evenstar Pendant she used to wear I can't help but cry. Remember that while they may not be here anymore our moms are never truly gone.
I feel you too on that! Anyone who says women (or anyone else for that matter including guys) can’t enjoy Lord of the Rings is nothing more than a hater who can’t make a video as profound and touching as videos from great CZcamsrs like The Completionist including his most recent video yet! My point is that it is a fact that The Lord of the Rings is amazing (especially compared to double standards)!
@@theothertonydutch You know it, bruh! And it’s not just goth girls, but also ladies that like stuff considered traditionally feminine (back in the day) can enjoy LotR!
The real ones will remember forever why he begins his openings with a "YES!" Always be awesome Jirard, keep moving forwards, we will always be here, love you as only a fan can....
I remember talking to you during this time in your life. I actually remember where I was standing in front of my house while on the phone with you. Thanks for always keeping things real my dude. You are one of the very few....that had a growing channel....got big....and remained a good human with no ego.
You're an incredible person. I loved this episode a ton. Seriously, you're a massive inspiration, and your dedication to this channel is incredible. Thank you for all the incredible work you've put in the past years and the work you and your team do now.
I lost my mom to brain cancer when I was 17. She didn't know who I was at the end. This kind of loss really shapes and changes a person for the rest of their life. Beautiful tribute, brother.
i know what u mean, in my grandma last days, her dementai worsen till the point that she doesnt remember who dad was and thought he was my dad's friend and she thought dad was too busy to visit when he took out time everyday to go visit her.
I love how he uses this episode as therapy it reminds you he's more then the completionist he's human and he's battling his own issues and how strong he's been through it love you man
This is why the completionist is my favorite CZcams channel. You're always so open and honest about more than just the game and as cathartic as I hope it is for you, it's honestly touching. I'm sure your mom would be proud of all you've accomplished.
I watch so many different channels, and I agree with you 100%. Jirard is so impressive. It’s not something I could do. Period. And as you were saying, his honesty just brings a bigger dimension and impact to his videos
It’s incredible how art does tie your memories. I had decided to learn “Ballad of the Wind Fish” on piano when… my grandmothers condition reached it’s final front. She lost her life after battling against cancer, and other numerous ailments, for longer than I have lived. Now the Ballad served as a reminder of her, and how proud she was of me…
Gaaaaaaaaah. This video is too real for me. Two years ago, I lost my son and my grandpa in the same week. I've got a couple games, Final Fantasy XV one of them, that I can't go back and play due to the memories tied up in them. All the best to you, Jirard, and know that we're with you, to the very end.
I feel kind of honoured that you're so comfortable with us that you've been able to open up about your life more and more during your career. Thank you for being you, Jirard.
I’d hug this man if I could. He’s been through so much, especially here. TOO much at once during the original episode. RIP: “MamaDragon” Khalil. Your son is doing great things.
@Stellvia Hoenheim As a bonus. His REAL motivation is because he genuinely likes games, and interacting with his fans. And in this case, he’s also doing it as a tribute to his mom.
My grandmother passed from Alzheimer's several years back. She was physically and emotionally abusive to me, so her passing didn't really bother me too much, but the effect it had on my extended family as her decline progressed... yeah. Forgetting her children's names, whether or not she had hygened or eaten in a given day, it's scary man. I feel for you. I also donate to Alzheimer's charities. Having an entire lifetime of experience and accomplishment melt away like that is frightening. Edit, post episode: I'm proud of you too dude. And you made me cry. (The undertale music may have had a hand in that, idk.)
My parents are still alive to but there both like your grandmother narcissistic and abusive want nothing to do with them all though I may be a little sad when they die I was sad when my grandmother died even though she was abusive as well but I can definitely understand how you think it's often hard to care about people like that and some deserve to be cared about and some don't family or not if you care you care if you don't you don't plain and simple
Same dude. Me and my grandma had a really bitter relationship, and while I still cried and wept for her at her funeral, deep down I wasn't really feeling anything. But even then, I do understand how much my brother, dad, and many others did love her more than I did and I try my best to respect that fact.
@@Gamer-bq8so yeah I hope does that too. Well there's alot of games I'd like for him to do(The messengers picnic panic dlc, Mark of the ninja,Tomb raider legend trilogy etc)but completing games over a course of a week isn't really that easy. I Just hope he'll eventually get around to doing atleast some of those games.
I'm so fucking proud of you Jirard, and your mum would be too because of how far you've come, you're one of the only youtubers out there that even through success and fame, is still a genuinely kind-hearted and wonderful person that no one, public or other content creators, can have a single bad word about, continue doing what you do best and know your community loves and supports you ❤️
I lost my mum in 2013 as well, although it was to cancer. It’s incredible how helpful games can be during difficult times, whether it’s for companionship or just to go somewhere else for a while.
The song at the beginning is "And what if I can't? What if I'm not worthy of her ideals?" from the Fire Emblem Awakening OST. That hits harder with the context, and is an absolutely beautiful song.
Hey man. I'm glad you're covering Cave Story. The game broke me a few years back. I'm sure your mother is proud of you for where you're at right now and all of your accomplishments. Love you Jirard.
I had my father die within a year after finishing high school due to Parkinson's disease complications, having it diagnosed when I was in elementary school. Parents dying when you're young is never easy to process, let alone neurological disease and having to help your parents live comfortably at such a young age. You have made such a wonderful community even richer, and I'm sure your mother could not be more proud of you and what kind of person you are to your family, friends, and to us.
This was a rough one for me; I lost my mother in November 2010, so just a bit before you lost yours. Regardless, the story of your mother and the emotions you have relaying it are so very very familiar. Love and strength to you. Thank you for sharing this.
I lost my mom when I was in middle school my guy. My heart will always go out to those who have also lost their mother no matter how long you had to spend with her. She feels your love Jirard. And with how amazing of a community you have built for people to join and feel welcome in, she hopes you know you are cared for and loved also.
@@IDoABitOfTrollin exactly the reason. I don't have a Dad anymore. But I don't think I'll loose my mom anytime soon. That didn't stop me from hugging and telling her that. Even though I only live next door, and can see her at anytime.
@Ryan Rafter yeah, sometimes parent/s are overcompisating just too much of something and/or failing to meet basic needs and care for their children. Especially my friend who on their 18th birthday (the morning of) with no warning was evicted by her father became homeless lost all her possessions, as well as losing her car access and job because of it. all because her mom and dad said it was somehow the best thing for her to go through!! (This was in a rural city of 6k people and the closest homeless shelter was 15 miles away.) 6 years later and she is mostly okay and married. But she has PTSD and struggles to deal with the seemingly random abandonment.
@Amanda Hugankiss I'm sorry to hear that. I understand not everyone is going to magically have good parents. I hope you find someone to say "I love you" to, parental or otherwise.
My mom passed to when I was 13. I know how you feel It is hard when you wake up and expect to hear that voice or see that person in that place every time .It is like having a hole that can be never fully closed it's been like 5 years and I forgot her voice
I lost my dad when I was 15, and when you're as young as this, or even younger, you don't really know how to handle something like this. Me, my brothers, and my mom live to tell his story now, and while it's really only been a year and a half, I hope to make sure he's never forgotten. Because I sure as heck won't let myself forget him.
Well I can genuinely say I wasn't anticipating crying while watching this, and yet here we are. Jirard, I've always had somewhat of a sense of awe for what you do. To play through these games with such determination, despite the things in life that may be stifling you seems like a Herculean task. Thank you for sharing such a personal and clearly painful time in your life.
I feel for you, Jirard. I have a copy of road rash 2 with my dad's handwriting writing in the cheat codes on the label mounted in a display case, since that's some of the best moments that we put in together before he ended up passing on.
I have a similar experience…I lost my mom to breast cancer last year, and one of the things I did was create a memorial to her on my island in Animal Crossing. I’ll still log in, and when I see that, I think of her. I think had I not created that, I’d probably have been done with the game a long time ago.
Thanks for sharing that very personal story with us man. My Gran passed earlier this year, I know how hard it is to lose someone that you care about. Keep on keeping on my guy ✌
This is an extremely specific and emotion video but I relate to it so so much that it's almost unbelievable. I'm the same age as Jirard. When he talks about losing his mom I relive the feelings I felt when my own mom died. Although it wasn't Cave Story but it was another 3DS game. It's forever etched into my brain and honestly shaped me as a person and my experience. It may seem weird to say about a video game, but it's art and media like any other. It's an extremely strong memory. My mom was an architect and an incredibly talented one at that. She was an active alcoholic and had a really rough life when she was young. She suffered with an eating disorder as well. When I found her she had been dead for 3 days. It destroyed me and I'll never be the same. It's been 8 years and it doesn't hurt less I think you just learn to carry it better. And being so emotionally vulnerable, I think whatever it was that would help pull you out would make a huge lasting impression on you. Im so grateful for this video. I've been a fan forever and getting to see more and more of your real human person side is really rewarding and makes me feel a lot more validated as far as a video game meaming so much to me.
I lost my dad 6 years ago. Everytime I hear a journey song I always end up tearing up by the end. I miss him every day. He was a great man and the best father any child could ever gave. Memories keep him alive and when I'm with my brother and sisters parts of him come back when we gather. You're not alone my dude and i appreciate you so much for sharing your heart.
I’ll often watch longer YT videos at 1.5 or 2x speed because I can still listen and follow along and it saves a lot of time. This wasn’t one of them. Thank you Jirard for being vulnerable and trusting with us, it’s just another example of your dedication to this craft for so, so long, and we love you for it! Never stop saying “Yes!”
Today I was playing this game on stream and I was thinking to myself: “Does Jerard completed this game already?” And this video give me the answer right away. You are amazing dude for even getting yourself to make this with all the personal backstory it brings. Also, the Challenges are broken, unless you play them in the Nintendo Switch Version.
I've been here since nearly the beginning, and thinking of how much I've matured since then, and how much you've taught me in particular. You've been such a wonderful influence on my life, even in your darkest moments. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for everything you have given and all the good you have done
My grandad got me Pokemon Alpha Sapphire a couple days before he died. Played it with him in the hospital bed. Still have the game and play through it from time to time, I miss him so much.
Jirard, you are an actual and genuine inspiration my man. You've got a beautiful soul that I'm certain your mom had a huge part in crafting. Your work ethic is something I could never live up to. Your honesty is something I'm only learning to express. Wish I could meet you and just talk, as weird as that sounds from a total stranger. Shit, I'm proud of you, so I can guarantee you mom is.
I’m glad he opens up to us as a viewer and does something like donating all the profits of this video to the Alzheimer’s foundation. You are a great person Jirard and thank you for telling us all of what you did. I hope replaying the game didn’t open up too many wounds.
Your openness and willingness is truly commendable, as a young man I also lost my Mother and felt an emotional connection to your feelings as you shared them. Thank you for that. And thank you for keeping my love of gaming alive and pushing yourself to complete all these titles. You're a legend!!
Jirard, that was beautiful. Your content has always been an inspiration to me and so many others. Heres to an amazing 10 years, and to an amazing 10 more. Good luck Jirard, keep up the good work.
This made me cry. I’m so sorry for everything you’ve gone through, dude. I hope you’re doing better these days and have people in your life that love you and have your back. We care about you and I know your mom is proud of the awesome guy you are.
I've been watching Completionist videos for a couple weeks now just having gotten more into games, shows and movies because of the pandemic. It was easy for me to notice the amount of love that goes into every episode you guys make. The way you guys talk about games make me wish I had experienced more of them when I was growing up (but I guess it's never too late to start haha). Thank you, The Completionist Team. I'm sure your families are super proud 👍
Much love Jirard. My mum is a beacon of light in my life, and I fear everyday losing her. Seeing videos like this, of people feeling the pain I will someday feel, somehow make it easier. Thank you, with all my love x
I just randomly came across this now. A day before my grandfather's birthday. So thoughts of him has been going through my head. It's the first real death in the family I felt. So for the entire time he was in the hospital, I didn't know how to react. It hurt, but I just felt like it was no biggie. Even after he passed, I didn't do much. My whole family was at his and my grandmother's house for the funeral. Everyone cried, I just sat on my laptop, not feeling much. What I didn't think about until later, is where I sat was across from his chair. His now empty chair. No one dared sit in it. I knew what had happened yet I kept randomly thinking "He's like in the bathroom or something. He'll be there soon." I wasn't young when this was going on. I was 20. But it was the first real time having someone close to me die. Then the funeral day came. I was in the car, just bored, acting like no big deal. I stepped through the door of the funeral home and just...paused. For the first time, it was real. I saw him there, and just started crying my eyes out. I know this has almost nothing to do with the episode, but it showed up when I just needed to let out my feelings. This is a year old at this point, but I still want you to know, I'm so happy to see you making these videos so much more now. I feel like every time I hear that "Yes" at the start now, I'll know why, and it'll give me a smile, knowing you kept going, despite such a hard moment.
This video really hit home for me. My dad died when I was 4 and I had just beaten Mario galaxy 2 the same day and I haven’t picked up the game since then because the game is like a memorial of him to me.
@@mugenokami2201 Games can be a coping mechanism, but when you play a game then immediately lose someone, whenever you go back to that game, you remember that loss. That being said, I disagree.
That moment, when you finished Cave Story and got the news that your mom was gonna pass away... I felt that.... I felt it so hard... For me and my siblings, that was how we felt, when our Grandpa and Grandma died... ... Grandpa died in 2004, when we were at the hype of finishing Final Fantasy VII for the first time... He died before we reached the end of disk 2... ... We couldn't pick up that game for ages. It hurt too much... So much so, that every time someone played a song from that game, I just burst into tears... Video games became more of a collection thing for me, back then. I didn't want to build memories of them anymore, since this one haunted me so hard... 2007, our grandma (his wife), was going to die of a blood infection that has traveled through her body from a sloppy operation in her leg. She was a diabetes patient, too, so medicating her became a huge problem. She asked the doctors to let her go home and enjoy the last days she had with us. And one of her wishes, was for us to finish Final Fantasy VII with her... So she could tell grandpa about it, when they meet back up in the Afterlife... She wanted us to enjoy video games again. And to go on living, without feeling lost anymore. And we did... We finished the game together. 100% completion... Three days, before she passed away... Her wish was to be buried under the same tree my grandpa choose for his funeral spot. A nice apple tree, which is still standing on a small lump hill on the outskirts of the Rose City of Germany... ... And she wanted us to play her favorite game song, too... The one, which she danced to with her husband during their Gold Wedding Celebration... "The Queens" from Secret of Evermore... To have a game attached with so much memory... ...It will always be hard to pick it up once more, but sometimes, even those sad memories are worth revisiting... ... Your Mom sounds like such a great person... Wherever she is now, I am sure she's very proud of the man you've become...
I feel you Jirard, my grandfather died when I was playing Binding of Isaac, I still remember of it whenever I play it, also back then I just beat the game for the first time.
I lost my mom years ago, and that anniversary is always rough on me. She was the one who really got me into games to start with, so each year, I play some of those again to remember my time with her. Thank you for sharing this.
Thank you for sharing about your mom. Loss of a parent is awful and the grief colors everything. My mom died last month from cancer/dementia, so it was cathartic to hear you talk about your's.
Awww Jirard, I wish I could give you a hug 😭 Thank you for everything that you do and sharing with all of us the hardships you deal with, we don't deserve such a kind soul that you are. Your mother would be so proud of you.
Rip you mother, I hope she enjoys her time in heaven, I'm willing to bet that she was a beautiful woman. I'm sorry you lost your mother, she still watches you from heaven, watching as you enjoy yourself making videos and she watches with pride.
Wait, so ProtonJon helped get you back on your feet when so many others had turned their backs on you? What a goddamn bro. Hopefully, when the plague has finally subsided, you and he will be able to do a Predator Handshake in person.
I have a story with Cave Story too: Back in 2011 o 2012 (I don't remember), I was socially excluded from my classmates, because I was a calm and quiet boy, nobody spoke to me, and that happened for 3 years, there I felt for the first time what it felt like to be alone, surrounded by people. Then, in a video of a youtuber that I was watching, Cave Story was recomended to me, and there, that's when I started playing this game, and, to this day, it has been one of the things that made me feel "accompanied" (it should be noted that I have always been a bit lonely, but that's where it really started). Cave Story was a before and after in my life, because it shows me the faith that all have in someone when you help, what it feels to do the right thing, was the first game that I love for the music, the bad guys, the protagonists and all of this game is just... nostalgic and magically... happy. Cave Story was, basically, one of the firsts games that helps me to live without thinking about my problems in real life. Now, 9 years later, I have Cave Story+ physically on Nintendo Switch, to commemorate the game that helps me in a time of my life. (Also, "Last Battle" and "Plantation" were 2 of the firsts themes that I learned to play in piano, so I'm happy for that too) Greetings from Chile, have a nice week ;)
Hi Jirard, I’ve been following your channel for quite some time now. It’s been an escape for me in times of difficulty. My Grandmother was diagnosed with dementia following a major stroke during my first year of high school. I’ve long since graduated, and her health continues to decline. I almost no longer recognize her from the person she once was. Hearing you share what you went through with your Mom for so many years, I just can’t imagine. I’m so, so sorry for your loss. But seeing how much video games mean to you and how you’ve been able to use them as an outlet for your emotions, passions, ups and downs, and times of incredible difficulty really brings me hope. I don’t think my Grandmother has a whole lot of time left here on Earth, so I’m glad that there’s something that will help me cope when she’s no longer with us. Thank you so much, Jirard, for your passion, humility, and vulnerability. I respect you so much for those qualities. Have a great week.
This has been my favorite indie game since a friend recommended I pick it up on the 3DS eShop back in fourth grade. Thanks for shedding a light on such an underappreciated, timeless masterpiece.
Thank you so much for sharing the personal side of this. This stuff isn't often talked about and it helps someone know that they aren't alone in their struggles out there. Love you man.
Your mom would say yes to what you've done for you're career. Yes to the fact that she's proud, that she believes in you and that she's happy that she's meant so much to you. It makes me happy seeing how much family means to people. You're awesome dude keep it up.
I'm so sorry for the loss of your mother, Jirard. It is truly heartbreaking that she was gone too soon after fighting such a terrible disease. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your experience with us all.
Man, I don’t know if I’ve ever heard anyone say something this relatable to my experience of watching my dad pass. We also did hospice care and he also left this mortal coil surrounded by friends and family in our old living room. It’s impossible not to question ourselves, just like you did, about if we should have tried to spend more time at the bedside instead of doing something to retain a semblance of sanity in a trying time. I sure as hell have had those thoughts in the last 15 years since I went through that situation. We are always our own worst critics, my man. I’m sure literally no one else thought that, but you. I did the same. Thanks for somehow being able to capture such a raw, terrible, beautiful, sorrowful and supremely HUMAN experience like that and sharing it. I don’t know if I’ve ever seen a piece of media related to my experiences during the last month of hospice with my dad and thought, “That’s it! THAT guy knows! He went through it all, just like me.” .........Until today that is, watching you talk about this. I’m glad you made it through that. I’m glad you’re still out here making content too. Thanks for this one, bud. I know exactly how hard it is to go back into that time.
I'm really touched by your emotional vulnerability in the introduction, my heart goes out to anybody who has dealt with a loved one dealing with dementia. My Gramma is suffering memory loss to the point where she will call me and halfway through our conversation will ask who she is talking to. It hits too close to home and I had to skip the intro, but I will put the video on repeat in the background to make up for it.
Honestly was teary the whole time but the part when you talked about when your mum passed got me 💔 I work in a care home for varying types of dementia and my gran died from it as well so I can definitely relate. Stay strong and you've done her proud especially by how passionately you support alzhemier research ❤
OMG fam, sorry for your loss and thanks so much for making this content. This reminds me of the time I was playing Chrono Trigger and had just beaten Lavos and wondered if anything bad had ever happened after beating the game. Some 15 mins later, my Mom came down to tell me my Dad had died. All the feels man.
Hey Jirard, I just wanna say: Thank you. Thank you, thank you, thank you. This video was absolutely beautiful. Amazing video. Thank you for sharing all of this, the amount of pure emotion, care, and love put into this video, is just. Wow. This video made me cry. Partly because of the pure emotion put into this video, but also because of personal connections. 4 years ago, my father passed away. So quickly, in an ATV accident. Me, being in 8th grade at the time, in a teeny town where I knew noone, in a city I did not know or understand, it hurt. A lot. I had to find escape in some where, but I didn't know where to turn. In a desperate attempt I asked my mom for something, where she handed me the 3DS I thought was stolen months ago. Immediately, I barricaded myself in my room, playing the few games I had for the Galaxy style New Nintendo 3DS XL. The game I most played, oddly, was Tomodachi Life. The game most called OK, too short, not enough content, I felt so much solace in. But it wasn't till this video I realized why. This small 3DS 2013 release helped me so incredibly much. Its the game I have most playtime in, clocking in at 1,500 hours. A number most probably couldn't even imagine, in this glorified iPhone game. But, I now know why. It not only was a game I had had for a few years at that point, but also something let me have something, atleast in some way, I did not have. Friends. Now I know how sad that sounds, that in a $40 3DS cheez-it is the only place I had friends, but it really was true. Even though it was all just weird text-to-speech talking back to me, it felt real. It made me feel loved. It helped me, so much. Anyways, thanks to this video I now know why this what most consider an average release is so near and dear to me. It helped me cope, it gave me what I needed at the time, and it just gave me what the real life, at the time, refused to. Thank you Jirard, I know you don't know me and vice versa, or even know you likely won't read this, but in the off chance you do, I would just like to say once again: Thank you. Thank you for helping me figure out what I love about that small, Mii-filled, bad text-to-speech rampant, cheesy as all hell, yet charming, little 3DS release. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
I'm sorry and yet honored to know that this game brings up these deep feelings in you Jirard. It's one of the things I like most about video games: They can become so deeply connected to a time in your life when you play them. They can bring up memories and emotion that when you think of them without the game don't feel so vivid. Thank you for sharing your story.
Your raw emotion brought me to tears a few times and that's a testimony to how genuine you were. To open yourself up as you have? You're a bigger man then I. As cliché as it sounds, I'm glad to be on this journey with you as well. Thanks for always staying true to who you are.
As someone who has also lost someone important, I am so sorry for you and I wish only the best of everything to you. I had to drop a few tears while watching this. I salute to you.
I started watching you around 2013. I , sadly didn't realize you went through this. I am so sorry for your loss and I hope the best for you and your loved ones. You are the man. I hope you a long time in happiness.
This was definitely such a heartfelt episode. I've heard the story many times from you telling all of us on Twitch, through Indieland, and even explaining that this game would not be one that you stream for this reason. And still... I can't imagine the pain and heartbreak you had to deal with during this time.
Beautiful video, Jirard. Thank you so much for sharing all that.
YEAH TELL EM BRO!!!!
Don't not turn this into a hate group on Arlo!
P.S. you are one of my favorite youtubers and the first one I sub to, keep up the good work
@@toonlinky I hope that you understand that no matter how little of a heart and soul you have, no one will take it personally. I get your heart is a black hole longing for meaning but don’t try and make other people feel that way. Do you think a successful CZcams cares that one toddler finds his videos cringe?
Arlo you are amazing and I reported the bullies for you. :)
Would love to see you two collab.
I'm so proud of you dude. I know how hard this episode was for you to make and how this whole journey's been. You always put yourself out there in your work, but this one means so much to you and it shows. Your mother would be so proud to see how far you've come.
I’m so glad both of these channels came to exist and that Jirard has the support he does.
Stellvia, you're a horrible human. (Edit: Accidentally tagged Indigo)
@@leighk51 you not going to talk about the man talking about how he doesn’t care that moms die
@@leighk51 I think you replied to the wrong person.
@@expendableindigo9639 Completely my bad!, I was of course talking about that Stellvia person, must have been a misclick, truly a horrific comment by him!
I love you, Jirard. Thank you for this.
me to Pixel Dan
@@quentinparhiala9415 u know there's gonna be a cuphead TV show
@Logan Roof NO ITS N O T 1
@Logan Roof you’re terrible
@Logan Roof That's fuckin insensitive bruh
Oh, oh no.
The moment Jirard said Dementia, my heart broke. That disease is so, so terrifying.
Anything is terrifying when you lose your mind. I've been watching Jirard since the begining, I'm slightly older than him. I know what its like to lose a parent too. My mom died to cancer may last year, A rare type of cancer that they would only scan for if they knew she had the gene for it. a cancer so rare that it doesn't appear on any kind of screenings. I thought that I would be prepared for it as my grandmother also passed away from cancer. My mother had a slow death, I watched as my sister and my dad tried to ease her pain and gave her morphine, morphine that really she didn't want because she felt helpless. on her last days she was still fully aware but couldn't talk. I told her I love her and all that came back was a mumbled I love you too" barely recognizable. then for a day, she laid there motionless unable to do anything even talk and I wonder if she was awake then too.
No matter the hard disease, losing a parent is hard. I didn't get along with my mother but I do miss her. So part of me Doesn't actually want to watch this video, because I know exactly what jirard is going through, it may be a different disease, but I don't want to see someone going through it.
I watched that disease slowly wither my grandmother's mind over the course of the last 7 years of her life. Fuck diseases like that. They shouldn't exist. Nothing that causes that much misery and fear should exist.
It is, My great grandfather had it. I never got to know him but I heard from stories how it changed him and shredded down is mind in a way. Fuck Dementia.
I watched that disease eat away at my grandmother's life. It's evil.
I think a vaccine for Alzheimer's is close to being made. It isn't dementia, but we're getting closer to getting rid of awful diseases
We’re proud of you too man, you’re the big bad boss ❤️
My guy, you know we here for the acceptance and appreciation for the past.
I completely relate. My Dad died a few years back from Alzheimer's & Dementia which he had for quite some time, and I remember the same day I lost my job was the very same day my aunt called to tell me dad was in the hospital. I also remember giving up my career for the long nights of taking care of him and catering to his every need (feeding, bathing, clothing, etc.).
The game that got me through all those nights was Octopath Traveler, a game that I cant listen to even the soundtrack without being transported back in time to those moments. Since then, I haven't even dared to pick it back up to complete it due to both how hard it is gameplay wise plus mentally to get through it. Still the hardship feels fresh like it was just the other day to me...
Jirard, you are not alone good sir. Thank you for sharing this with me, with us all. I may just try to overcome that pain and fear and see if I can get back into the game to finish it off, once and for all. Much love always and please never stop being your true self (your content is all the best because of it) ❤
Came here through you guys. Thanks
I'm proud of Jirard to Bonsai Pop
@@ThomasSmith-lb9bu your right
I can't imagine what putting this video together was like, let alone the experience of losing a parent too soon.
I've never heard another CZcamsr say a bad word about you. Ever. Despite all your success you've remained a kind and genuine human being. I'd imagine you probably have one hell of a mom to thank for that heart.
Im sure she'd be damn proud of you, man.
She will be proud.she will be.
Her son has become famous, at least in some way. He's become successful. He's a voice of a community, a voice that has some weight behind it. Someone who can and has helped to push for changes for the better. Someone who brings joy to thousands every week. What mother wouldn't be proud? Even if she doesn't understand the love of video games fully, she can smile that he brings smiles.
Me either Game Apologist
@@5Sam66 Your right
@@prince_nocturne That's true
I know the feeling. During my mom's last month before she passed away from her 2nd battle with cancer in 2019 I watched her favorite movie trilogy of all time, LOTR. She had taken me and my little brother out of school to see the movies when they came out. She had read the books during her childhood to deal with a hard family life.
So I spent my last month with her watching the extended editions with her during the time she was awake. I still haven't been able to go back and watch the videos and and anytime I see the Arwen Evenstar Pendant she used to wear I can't help but cry.
Remember that while they may not be here anymore our moms are never truly gone.
I feel you too on that! Anyone who says women (or anyone else for that matter including guys) can’t enjoy Lord of the Rings is nothing more than a hater who can’t make a video as profound and touching as videos from great CZcamsrs like The Completionist including his most recent video yet! My point is that it is a fact that The Lord of the Rings is amazing (especially compared to double standards)!
@@kieranstark7213 Who says women can't enjoy LotR? Half of all the goth girls in the 2000's were into LotR!
XD
@@theothertonydutch You know it, bruh! And it’s not just goth girls, but also ladies that like stuff considered traditionally feminine (back in the day) can enjoy LotR!
The real ones will remember forever why he begins his openings with a "YES!"
Always be awesome Jirard, keep moving forwards, we will always be here, love you as only a fan can....
Here after the episode, in tears, I did not know you were going to go over the story again....
@@watergod321 Can I ask why he does? I didn't know there was a reason why
@@alexsartandgameschannel3883 watch the video...
@@bartdog59 Can you at least mark when he says it? I don't feel like watching the whole thing
18:55
I remember talking to you during this time in your life. I actually remember where I was standing in front of my house while on the phone with you. Thanks for always keeping things real my dude. You are one of the very few....that had a growing channel....got big....and remained a good human with no ego.
May she Rest In Peace
You're an incredible person. I loved this episode a ton. Seriously, you're a massive inspiration, and your dedication to this channel is incredible. Thank you for all the incredible work you've put in the past years and the work you and your team do now.
Hey there, I saw you on RebelTaxi, seen some of your vids :D
when you fighting bf?
Ayo, Goose! I was just watching ur vids
@Logan Roof wtf man
@Logan Roof woah wtf???.
"Despite everything, it's still you."
- Toby Fox, 2015
What a wonderfull Comment
Very fitting
18:15 you can hear the pain and sadness in his voice, this man is not lying and is not doing it for sympathy... stay strong my man
I lost my mom to brain cancer when I was 17. She didn't know who I was at the end. This kind of loss really shapes and changes a person for the rest of their life. Beautiful tribute, brother.
Lost mine when I was 7.
i know what u mean, in my grandma last days, her dementai worsen till the point that she doesnt remember who dad was and thought he was my dad's friend and she thought dad was too busy to visit when he took out time everyday to go visit her.
Sorry for your loss man.
That stinks bro. Sorry for your loss
I’m sorry to hear the loss of your mom. I hope you’re alright, take care my friend
Most of us feel his pain and i wish everything is alright for him.
Lol you have 420 likes.
Have you even watched the first 2 minutes of the video? His mom passed away on June 9th 2013. Not June 9th 2021. Of course hes alright by now.
@@ducktail4068 My mom passed in 2009, but i wouldn't say that i'm alright, tough i know what you wanna say...
@@ducktail4068 hey. Just because time has passed doesn't mean it heals everything.
I love how he uses this episode as therapy it reminds you he's more then the completionist he's human and he's battling his own issues and how strong he's been through it love you man
@Logan Roof dude, stop doing the drugs. Your family misses you. They just want you to come back.
This is why the completionist is my favorite CZcams channel. You're always so open and honest about more than just the game and as cathartic as I hope it is for you, it's honestly touching. I'm sure your mom would be proud of all you've accomplished.
I watch so many different channels, and I agree with you 100%. Jirard is so impressive. It’s not something I could do. Period. And as you were saying, his honesty just brings a bigger dimension and impact to his videos
And he complains too much almost every game
Womp womp
JonTron: 👁️👄👁️ “That one didn’t age quite so well”.
It’s incredible how art does tie your memories. I had decided to learn “Ballad of the Wind Fish” on piano when… my grandmothers condition reached it’s final front. She lost her life after battling against cancer, and other numerous ailments, for longer than I have lived. Now the Ballad served as a reminder of her, and how proud she was of me…
I have this connection with my great aunt. She always loved hearing me play piano, wish she could hear me play now
😭😭😭😭😭
@@omnitroll7636 you act like you don’t have a mom, cringe
I always perceived you as the “Epic Beard Man” but now... i only see the honest and frank Jirard Khalil
You sure about that?
Gaaaaaaaaah. This video is too real for me. Two years ago, I lost my son and my grandpa in the same week. I've got a couple games, Final Fantasy XV one of them, that I can't go back and play due to the memories tied up in them. All the best to you, Jirard, and know that we're with you, to the very end.
i'm so sorry
😢
Never expected the completionist to make me cry, but here we are.
I feel kind of honoured that you're so comfortable with us that you've been able to open up about your life more and more during your career. Thank you for being you, Jirard.
I’d hug this man if I could. He’s been through so much, especially here. TOO much at once during the original episode.
RIP: “MamaDragon” Khalil. Your son is doing great things.
@Stellvia Hoenheim And maybe a human conscience too. Hella cheap and easy to keep
@Stellvia Hoenheim As a bonus. His REAL motivation is because he genuinely likes games, and interacting with his fans.
And in this case, he’s also doing it as a tribute to his mom.
@Stellvia Hoenheim Think twice before you comment in the future, you're disgusting.
Just think, his mom got to meet new people every day
@Gamechamp3000, nice to see you here
My grandmother passed from Alzheimer's several years back. She was physically and emotionally abusive to me, so her passing didn't really bother me too much, but the effect it had on my extended family as her decline progressed... yeah. Forgetting her children's names, whether or not she had hygened or eaten in a given day, it's scary man. I feel for you. I also donate to Alzheimer's charities. Having an entire lifetime of experience and accomplishment melt away like that is frightening.
Edit, post episode: I'm proud of you too dude. And you made me cry. (The undertale music may have had a hand in that, idk.)
My parents are still alive to but there both like your grandmother narcissistic and abusive want nothing to do with them all though I may be a little sad when they die I was sad when my grandmother died even though she was abusive as well but I can definitely understand how you think it's often hard to care about people like that and some deserve to be cared about and some don't family or not if you care you care if you don't you don't plain and simple
Same dude. Me and my grandma had a really bitter relationship, and while I still cried and wept for her at her funeral, deep down I wasn't really feeling anything.
But even then, I do understand how much my brother, dad, and many others did love her more than I did and I try my best to respect that fact.
"Yes!" ... Now I will never see an excited child shouting yes the same ever again... It's beautiful excitement, and it's precious.
"Find something to believe in, and find it in yourself. When you do, pass it on to the future."
-Solid Snake
Jirard should do the mgs games
@@rameenaayan3248 And pikmin 3
@@Gamer-bq8so yeah I hope does that too. Well there's alot of games I'd like for him to do(The messengers picnic panic dlc, Mark of the ninja,Tomb raider legend trilogy etc)but completing games over a course of a week isn't really that easy. I Just hope he'll eventually get around to doing atleast some of those games.
I'm so fucking proud of you Jirard, and your mum would be too because of how far you've come, you're one of the only youtubers out there that even through success and fame, is still a genuinely kind-hearted and wonderful person that no one, public or other content creators, can have a single bad word about, continue doing what you do best and know your community loves and supports you ❤️
no need for the cuss word but I get your point
I remembered this video and went back to see if he deleted it
I lost my mum in 2013 as well, although it was to cancer. It’s incredible how helpful games can be during difficult times, whether it’s for companionship or just to go somewhere else for a while.
Beautifully said
The song at the beginning is "And what if I can't? What if I'm not worthy of her ideals?" from the Fire Emblem Awakening OST. That hits harder with the context, and is an absolutely beautiful song.
Man, I love that game, how could I forget that song?!
The entire fe awakening ost is amazing.
Thats the whole name?
Thanks you. I recognized the song, but was frustrated with myself that I couldn't remember from where exactly.
@@MacenW Yes, some of the songs of the FE Awakening OST have kinda long titles
"Despite everything, it's still you." - Undertale, Toby Fox
Not the time, buddy.
@@burritomaster6000 Poetry is crap then, okay
@@burritomaster6000 What's wrong with the quote?
“Daddy durag the imposter”
- amagas 2
Cringe
Here I am, wanting to see a video about my favorite game, Cave Story.
And all I got was a sob story from a con artist.
Hey man. I'm glad you're covering Cave Story. The game broke me a few years back. I'm sure your mother is proud of you for where you're at right now and all of your accomplishments.
Love you Jirard.
How would you know if she was happy? Did ya know her personally? Or just bullshittin to comfort.
@@WindyREDPanda Yo calm down
@@WindyREDPanda Guy, that's not necessary.
@@WindyREDPanda The fuck is your problem?
I had my father die within a year after finishing high school due to Parkinson's disease complications, having it diagnosed when I was in elementary school. Parents dying when you're young is never easy to process, let alone neurological disease and having to help your parents live comfortably at such a young age.
You have made such a wonderful community even richer, and I'm sure your mother could not be more proud of you and what kind of person you are to your family, friends, and to us.
This was a rough one for me; I lost my mother in November 2010, so just a bit before you lost yours. Regardless, the story of your mother and the emotions you have relaying it are so very very familiar. Love and strength to you. Thank you for sharing this.
My birb BB died three days before Christmas 2019
9:32 Jontron: That one didn’t age quite so well.
I lost my mom when I was in middle school my guy. My heart will always go out to those who have also lost their mother no matter how long you had to spend with her.
She feels your love Jirard. And with how amazing of a community you have built for people to join and feel welcome in, she hopes you know you are cared for and loved also.
I made sure to tell my mom, that I "love her" with a hug. about 4 minutes into watching the video.
Feel lucky. Some of us have terrible parents and dont get that opportunity. Stay safe
@@IDoABitOfTrollin exactly the reason. I don't have a Dad anymore. But I don't think I'll loose my mom anytime soon. That didn't stop me from hugging and telling her that. Even though I only live next door, and can see her at anytime.
@Ryan Rafter yeah, sometimes parent/s are overcompisating just too much of something and/or failing to meet basic needs and care for their children.
Especially my friend who on their 18th birthday (the morning of) with no warning was evicted by her father became homeless lost all her possessions, as well as losing her car access and job because of it. all because her mom and dad said it was somehow the best thing for her to go through!! (This was in a rural city of 6k people and the closest homeless shelter was 15 miles away.)
6 years later and she is mostly okay and married. But she has PTSD and struggles to deal with the seemingly random abandonment.
that's good you told your mom you love her and you gave her a hug Mac Omegaly
@Amanda Hugankiss I'm sorry to hear that. I understand not everyone is going to magically have good parents.
I hope you find someone to say "I love you" to, parental or otherwise.
My mom passed to when I was 13. I know how you feel
It is hard when you wake up and expect
to hear that voice or see that person in that place every time .It is like having a hole that can be never fully closed
it's been like 5 years and I forgot her voice
I lost my dad when I was 15, and when you're as young as this, or even younger, you don't really know how to handle something like this. Me, my brothers, and my mom live to tell his story now, and while it's really only been a year and a half, I hope to make sure he's never forgotten. Because I sure as heck won't let myself forget him.
I lost mt father when I was 22, no matter the age, it is never easy to lost a parent.
God bless, bro. The fact you kept going is so goddamn inspiring. Rest in piece to your mom and god bless you
Well I can genuinely say I wasn't anticipating crying while watching this, and yet here we are. Jirard, I've always had somewhat of a sense of awe for what you do. To play through these games with such determination, despite the things in life that may be stifling you seems like a Herculean task. Thank you for sharing such a personal and clearly painful time in your life.
I feel for you, Jirard. I have a copy of road rash 2 with my dad's handwriting writing in the cheat codes on the label mounted in a display case, since that's some of the best moments that we put in together before he ended up passing on.
The Undertale music while retelling the death of his mother just made me feel so sad.
What song is it?
@@JohnDylan0506 The song is just called “Undertale”. It’s #71 in the soundtrack
This is such a special episode. May your mother rest in peace.
I have a similar experience…I lost my mom to breast cancer last year, and one of the things I did was create a memorial to her on my island in Animal Crossing. I’ll still log in, and when I see that, I think of her. I think had I not created that, I’d probably have been done with the game a long time ago.
Thanks for sharing that very personal story with us man. My Gran passed earlier this year, I know how hard it is to lose someone that you care about. Keep on keeping on my guy ✌
"yes!" at the beginning of your intro is inspired by your mum of what she was like and you imbraced it. Dude, that's so sweet.
man.
This is such a funny retrospective lmao
I lost my father this year. Its painful losing a parent. I havent watched in a long time but im here today.
really sorry dude... I hope you're doing better now!
What happened to him if I may ask?
Welcome back! May your father live on in the memories of the people he touched.
Liking and commenting just to help him out. I can't imagine how hard this video was to make.
I know. I would be depressed if my mom died, she's one of my favorite people. I know any sane person would say something like that, including me.
God bless your mom Jirad, may she be resting in heaven.
This is an extremely specific and emotion video but I relate to it so so much that it's almost unbelievable. I'm the same age as Jirard. When he talks about losing his mom I relive the feelings I felt when my own mom died. Although it wasn't Cave Story but it was another 3DS game. It's forever etched into my brain and honestly shaped me as a person and my experience. It may seem weird to say about a video game, but it's art and media like any other. It's an extremely strong memory. My mom was an architect and an incredibly talented one at that. She was an active alcoholic and had a really rough life when she was young. She suffered with an eating disorder as well. When I found her she had been dead for 3 days. It destroyed me and I'll never be the same. It's been 8 years and it doesn't hurt less I think you just learn to carry it better. And being so emotionally vulnerable, I think whatever it was that would help pull you out would make a huge lasting impression on you.
Im so grateful for this video. I've been a fan forever and getting to see more and more of your real human person side is really rewarding and makes me feel a lot more validated as far as a video game meaming so much to me.
You're a strong individual. Thank you for having the courage to talk about this. Your mother would be proud to see the person you are.
I lost my dad 6 years ago. Everytime I hear a journey song I always end up tearing up by the end. I miss him every day. He was a great man and the best father any child could ever gave. Memories keep him alive and when I'm with my brother and sisters parts of him come back when we gather. You're not alone my dude and i appreciate you so much for sharing your heart.
I’ll often watch longer YT videos at 1.5 or 2x speed because I can still listen and follow along and it saves a lot of time. This wasn’t one of them. Thank you Jirard for being vulnerable and trusting with us, it’s just another example of your dedication to this craft for so, so long, and we love you for it!
Never stop saying “Yes!”
This aged so, SO poorly.
Why??
Today I was playing this game on stream and I was thinking to myself: “Does Jerard completed this game already?” And this video give me the answer right away. You are amazing dude for even getting yourself to make this with all the personal backstory it brings.
Also, the Challenges are broken, unless you play them in the Nintendo Switch Version.
Make that 2 and a half 😭
25:48 I never knew your mom, but from what you told us I believe she would say just: "YES!"
Keep on rocking, son.
I've been here since nearly the beginning, and thinking of how much I've matured since then, and how much you've taught me in particular. You've been such a wonderful influence on my life, even in your darkest moments. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for everything you have given and all the good you have done
It breaks my heart that my favorite video game of all time is associated with... _this._
My grandad got me Pokemon Alpha Sapphire a couple days before he died. Played it with him in the hospital bed. Still have the game and play through it from time to time, I miss him so much.
Jirard, you are an actual and genuine inspiration my man. You've got a beautiful soul that I'm certain your mom had a huge part in crafting. Your work ethic is something I could never live up to. Your honesty is something I'm only learning to express. Wish I could meet you and just talk, as weird as that sounds from a total stranger. Shit, I'm proud of you, so I can guarantee you mom is.
God damnit Jirard 52 seconds in and in already crying. We all love you so much Jirard, never stop being you.
I finally got around to playing the og release of Cave Story for the first time, and it made me cry. This game is very emotional.
I’m glad he opens up to us as a viewer and does something like donating all the profits of this video to the Alzheimer’s foundation. You are a great person Jirard and thank you for telling us all of what you did. I hope replaying the game didn’t open up too many wounds.
Your openness and willingness is truly commendable, as a young man I also lost my Mother and felt an emotional connection to your feelings as you shared them.
Thank you for that.
And thank you for keeping my love of gaming alive and pushing yourself to complete all these titles.
You're a legend!!
Jirard, that was beautiful. Your content has always been an inspiration to me and so many others. Heres to an amazing 10 years, and to an amazing 10 more. Good luck Jirard, keep up the good work.
This made me cry. I’m so sorry for everything you’ve gone through, dude. I hope you’re doing better these days and have people in your life that love you and have your back. We care about you and I know your mom is proud of the awesome guy you are.
I've been watching Completionist videos for a couple weeks now just having gotten more into games, shows and movies because of the pandemic. It was easy for me to notice the amount of love that goes into every episode you guys make.
The way you guys talk about games make me wish I had experienced more of them when I was growing up (but I guess it's never too late to start haha). Thank you, The Completionist Team. I'm sure your families are super proud 👍
Much love Jirard. My mum is a beacon of light in my life, and I fear everyday losing her. Seeing videos like this, of people feeling the pain I will someday feel, somehow make it easier.
Thank you, with all my love x
this one aged bad :|
I just randomly came across this now. A day before my grandfather's birthday. So thoughts of him has been going through my head. It's the first real death in the family I felt. So for the entire time he was in the hospital, I didn't know how to react. It hurt, but I just felt like it was no biggie. Even after he passed, I didn't do much. My whole family was at his and my grandmother's house for the funeral. Everyone cried, I just sat on my laptop, not feeling much. What I didn't think about until later, is where I sat was across from his chair. His now empty chair. No one dared sit in it. I knew what had happened yet I kept randomly thinking "He's like in the bathroom or something. He'll be there soon." I wasn't young when this was going on. I was 20. But it was the first real time having someone close to me die. Then the funeral day came. I was in the car, just bored, acting like no big deal. I stepped through the door of the funeral home and just...paused. For the first time, it was real. I saw him there, and just started crying my eyes out. I know this has almost nothing to do with the episode, but it showed up when I just needed to let out my feelings. This is a year old at this point, but I still want you to know, I'm so happy to see you making these videos so much more now. I feel like every time I hear that "Yes" at the start now, I'll know why, and it'll give me a smile, knowing you kept going, despite such a hard moment.
Oh, Jirard. I cried with you here. Lost my father this January, it’s never easy. Much love, thank you for making your content a part of my life.
I’m sorry for the loss of your father and Jirard’s loss as well. Take care of yourself and make your dad proud bud
So did I Jeffrey Allen
@@thepenguinsrafterme me to
@@quentinparhiala9415 sorry to hear that. I hope you’re holding up okay and making sure that you’re living every day to it’s fullest
@@thepenguinsrafterme Yes I am and I'm doing ok and thank you
This video really hit home for me. My dad died when I was 4 and I had just beaten Mario galaxy 2 the same day and I haven’t picked up the game since then because the game is like a memorial of him to me.
Then shouldn’t you try to 100% the game so it will stand as a greater memorial?
@@mugenokami2201
Games can be a coping mechanism, but when you play a game then immediately lose someone, whenever you go back to that game, you remember that loss.
That being said, I disagree.
That moment, when you finished Cave Story and got the news that your mom was gonna pass away... I felt that.... I felt it so hard...
For me and my siblings, that was how we felt, when our Grandpa and Grandma died... ...
Grandpa died in 2004, when we were at the hype of finishing Final Fantasy VII for the first time... He died before we reached the end of disk 2... ... We couldn't pick up that game for ages. It hurt too much... So much so, that every time someone played a song from that game, I just burst into tears... Video games became more of a collection thing for me, back then. I didn't want to build memories of them anymore, since this one haunted me so hard...
2007, our grandma (his wife), was going to die of a blood infection that has traveled through her body from a sloppy operation in her leg. She was a diabetes patient, too, so medicating her became a huge problem. She asked the doctors to let her go home and enjoy the last days she had with us. And one of her wishes, was for us to finish Final Fantasy VII with her... So she could tell grandpa about it, when they meet back up in the Afterlife... She wanted us to enjoy video games again. And to go on living, without feeling lost anymore.
And we did... We finished the game together. 100% completion... Three days, before she passed away... Her wish was to be buried under the same tree my grandpa choose for his funeral spot. A nice apple tree, which is still standing on a small lump hill on the outskirts of the Rose City of Germany... ... And she wanted us to play her favorite game song, too... The one, which she danced to with her husband during their Gold Wedding Celebration... "The Queens" from Secret of Evermore...
To have a game attached with so much memory... ...It will always be hard to pick it up once more, but sometimes, even those sad memories are worth revisiting... ... Your Mom sounds like such a great person... Wherever she is now, I am sure she's very proud of the man you've become...
I feel you Jirard, my grandfather died when I was playing Binding of Isaac, I still remember of it whenever I play it, also back then I just beat the game for the first time.
I lost my mom years ago, and that anniversary is always rough on me. She was the one who really got me into games to start with, so each year, I play some of those again to remember my time with her. Thank you for sharing this.
May she rest in peace. Take care and be strong, Jirard.
Thank you for sharing about your mom. Loss of a parent is awful and the grief colors everything. My mom died last month from cancer/dementia, so it was cathartic to hear you talk about your's.
Awww Jirard, I wish I could give you a hug 😭
Thank you for everything that you do and sharing with all of us the hardships you deal with, we don't deserve such a kind soul that you are. Your mother would be so proud of you.
Rip you mother, I hope she enjoys her time in heaven, I'm willing to bet that she was a beautiful woman.
I'm sorry you lost your mother, she still watches you from heaven, watching as you enjoy yourself making videos and she watches with pride.
Wait, so ProtonJon helped get you back on your feet when so many others had turned their backs on you? What a goddamn bro. Hopefully, when the plague has finally subsided, you and he will be able to do a Predator Handshake in person.
I have a story with Cave Story too:
Back in 2011 o 2012 (I don't remember), I was socially excluded from my classmates, because I was a calm and quiet boy, nobody spoke to me, and that happened for 3 years, there I felt for the first time what it felt like to be alone, surrounded by people.
Then, in a video of a youtuber that I was watching, Cave Story was recomended to me, and there, that's when I started playing this game, and, to this day, it has been one of the things that made me feel "accompanied" (it should be noted that I have always been a bit lonely, but that's where it really started).
Cave Story was a before and after in my life, because it shows me the faith that all have in someone when you help, what it feels to do the right thing, was the first game that I love for the music, the bad guys, the protagonists and all of this game is just... nostalgic and magically... happy.
Cave Story was, basically, one of the firsts games that helps me to live without thinking about my problems in real life.
Now, 9 years later, I have Cave Story+ physically on Nintendo Switch, to commemorate the game that helps me in a time of my life.
(Also, "Last Battle" and "Plantation" were 2 of the firsts themes that I learned to play in piano, so I'm happy for that too)
Greetings from Chile, have a nice week ;)
Hi Jirard, I’ve been following your channel for quite some time now. It’s been an escape for me in times of difficulty. My Grandmother was diagnosed with dementia following a major stroke during my first year of high school. I’ve long since graduated, and her health continues to decline. I almost no longer recognize her from the person she once was. Hearing you share what you went through with your Mom for so many years, I just can’t imagine. I’m so, so sorry for your loss. But seeing how much video games mean to you and how you’ve been able to use them as an outlet for your emotions, passions, ups and downs, and times of incredible difficulty really brings me hope. I don’t think my Grandmother has a whole lot of time left here on Earth, so I’m glad that there’s something that will help me cope when she’s no longer with us. Thank you so much, Jirard, for your passion, humility, and vulnerability. I respect you so much for those qualities. Have a great week.
This video must’ve been extremely hard for him to make. Losing someone as your mother takes a heavy mental toll on someone. Sorry for your loss Jirard
losing a parent or a sibling or a S.O. takes the biggest toll on one's soul
Sorry, but I cant take you seriously with that profile picture and name
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Ditto for you.
This has been my favorite indie game since a friend recommended I pick it up on the 3DS eShop back in fourth grade. Thanks for shedding a light on such an underappreciated, timeless masterpiece.
Thank you so much for sharing the personal side of this. This stuff isn't often talked about and it helps someone know that they aren't alone in their struggles out there. Love you man.
Your mom would say yes to what you've done for you're career. Yes to the fact that she's proud, that she believes in you and that she's happy that she's meant so much to you. It makes me happy seeing how much family means to people. You're awesome dude keep it up.
I'm so sorry for the loss of your mother, Jirard. It is truly heartbreaking that she was gone too soon after fighting such a terrible disease. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your experience with us all.
Now that you shared what that "YES" really means to you i'll likely never watch that intro the same way. We carry that weight now
Man, I don’t know if I’ve ever heard anyone say something this relatable to my experience of watching my dad pass. We also did hospice care and he also left this mortal coil surrounded by friends and family in our old living room.
It’s impossible not to question ourselves, just like you did, about if we should have tried to spend more time at the bedside instead of doing something to retain a semblance of sanity in a trying time. I sure as hell have had those thoughts in the last 15 years since I went through that situation.
We are always our own worst critics, my man. I’m sure literally no one else thought that, but you. I did the same.
Thanks for somehow being able to capture such a raw, terrible, beautiful, sorrowful and supremely HUMAN experience like that and sharing it.
I don’t know if I’ve ever seen a piece of media related to my experiences during the last month of hospice with my dad and thought, “That’s it! THAT guy knows! He went through it all, just like me.” .........Until today that is, watching you talk about this.
I’m glad you made it through that. I’m glad you’re still out here making content too. Thanks for this one, bud. I know exactly how hard it is to go back into that time.
I'm really touched by your emotional vulnerability in the introduction, my heart goes out to anybody who has dealt with a loved one dealing with dementia. My Gramma is suffering memory loss to the point where she will call me and halfway through our conversation will ask who she is talking to. It hits too close to home and I had to skip the intro, but I will put the video on repeat in the background to make up for it.
Honestly was teary the whole time but the part when you talked about when your mum passed got me 💔 I work in a care home for varying types of dementia and my gran died from it as well so I can definitely relate. Stay strong and you've done her proud especially by how passionately you support alzhemier research ❤
OMG fam, sorry for your loss and thanks so much for making this content. This reminds me of the time I was playing Chrono Trigger and had just beaten Lavos and wondered if anything bad had ever happened after beating the game. Some 15 mins later, my Mom came down to tell me my Dad had died. All the feels man.
Hey Jirard, I just wanna say: Thank you.
Thank you, thank you, thank you.
This video was absolutely beautiful. Amazing video. Thank you for sharing all of this, the amount of pure emotion, care, and love put into this video, is just. Wow.
This video made me cry. Partly because of the pure emotion put into this video, but also because of personal connections.
4 years ago, my father passed away. So quickly, in an ATV accident. Me, being in 8th grade at the time, in a teeny town where I knew noone, in a city I did not know or understand, it hurt. A lot. I had to find escape in some where, but I didn't know where to turn. In a desperate attempt I asked my mom for something, where she handed me the 3DS I thought was stolen months ago. Immediately, I barricaded myself in my room, playing the few games I had for the Galaxy style New Nintendo 3DS XL. The game I most played, oddly, was Tomodachi Life. The game most called OK, too short, not enough content, I felt so much solace in. But it wasn't till this video I realized why.
This small 3DS 2013 release helped me so incredibly much. Its the game I have most playtime in, clocking in at 1,500 hours. A number most probably couldn't even imagine, in this glorified iPhone game. But, I now know why. It not only was a game I had had for a few years at that point, but also something let me have something, atleast in some way, I did not have. Friends. Now I know how sad that sounds, that in a $40 3DS cheez-it is the only place I had friends, but it really was true. Even though it was all just weird text-to-speech talking back to me, it felt real. It made me feel loved. It helped me, so much.
Anyways, thanks to this video I now know why this what most consider an average release is so near and dear to me. It helped me cope, it gave me what I needed at the time, and it just gave me what the real life, at the time, refused to.
Thank you Jirard, I know you don't know me and vice versa, or even know you likely won't read this, but in the off chance you do, I would just like to say once again: Thank you. Thank you for helping me figure out what I love about that small, Mii-filled, bad text-to-speech rampant, cheesy as all hell, yet charming, little 3DS release. Thank you. Thank you.
Thank you.
I'm sorry and yet honored to know that this game brings up these deep feelings in you Jirard.
It's one of the things I like most about video games: They can become so deeply connected to a time in your life when you play them. They can bring up memories and emotion that when you think of them without the game don't feel so vivid.
Thank you for sharing your story.
Your raw emotion brought me to tears a few times and that's a testimony to how genuine you were. To open yourself up as you have? You're a bigger man then I.
As cliché as it sounds, I'm glad to be on this journey with you as well. Thanks for always staying true to who you are.
As someone who has also lost someone important, I am so sorry for you and I wish only the best of everything to you. I had to drop a few tears while watching this. I salute to you.
I started watching you around 2013. I , sadly didn't realize you went through this. I am so sorry for your loss and I hope the best for you and your loved ones. You are the man. I hope you a long time in happiness.
This was definitely such a heartfelt episode. I've heard the story many times from you telling all of us on Twitch, through Indieland, and even explaining that this game would not be one that you stream for this reason. And still... I can't imagine the pain and heartbreak you had to deal with during this time.