My Mental Health Journey // fatgirlflow.com
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- čas přidán 14. 12. 2015
- MY CAT IS PLAYING LOUDLY IN THE BACKGROUND SORRRY!!!! Please try to be very kind in the comments, and remember that I am a human being with actual feelings who is trying to talk about something that is very difficult for a lot of people (including myself).
Feeling like you need help with your mental health? www.nami.org/ ---- this is a great place to start looking for resources that may help you!
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I feel like as a 26 year old sitting in bed sobbing after watching this video, because some things sound all to familiar...it might be time to finally talk to someone, I just have absolutely no clue where to start, and like you said, I don't even know how to express what is wrong with me, cause I just don't know...I just know that it's something.
Thank you for this, thank you so much. You mean a whole lot to me!!
+Melanie Jayne
thank you so very much for sharing your story and experiences. It makes it so much easier for others to talk about things and feel safe reaching out for support. You are so strong and powerful. Thank you again - your message will touch so many!
* head boop* I'm in tears and want to just give you a big freakin hug!! A lot of what you talked about is shit I went through in my early 20's. I overcame much of it myself, but some days can still be a little rough. I hope this video reaches others that are in need...just so they know they are not alone and that other people have gone or are currently going through this shit, too! Lots of love and light to you, dear! Hope you are doing okay and are pushing forward. :)
Thank you for being so vulnerable in this video! I feel like my mental illnesses are kicking and screaming as I move through recovery, too. I have an eating disorder, depression, anxiety, and some kind of trauma disorder. My therapist recently told me I exhibit borderline traits and, like you, that felt very upsetting. I have always looked up to you and you remind me to be myself and live my values! And you remind me that I’m still a good person even though I struggle with mental illness.
You have me cryingggg! I have recently subscribed to you. Thank you for this. Just thank you. ❤️
Who the hell has been disliking this video?! I love this video so much. It's so real, and it's so uplifting to see someone come out on the other side of so many of the things that I am struggling with right now. Thank you so much. You're really brave for sharing this.
What an awesome video! Thank you for sharing. I have suffered from anxiety, depression, and panic attacks for the past 23 years. In and out of therapy, trying tons of medication, feeling hopeless so many times. It's a tough road when you have any mental illness. It's always nice to know you are not alone. So many of us suffer. Big hugs to all who need one! I can always use one! 😘
Thank you so much for being vulnerable and sharing your story. By sharing this, you have helped so many people. I am touched. Great job. Gentle hug.
'Safety behaviors' had not heard that term before but really resonates with me. Thank you for making this video, I can't imagine how difficult it was to make, but I wanted to say how much I appreciate seeing it.
I love you!! 💜 so glad you were able to open up to everyone. it definitely is tough but you help me daily :)
thank you for sharing this! I have dealt with major depression and I understand how you felt and group therapy was tough for me too. The one on one was okay. It was kind of tough too but group was like wow. They took me out too and I had one on one weekly for 90 days before I could go back. I had risky behaviors too. People don't understand mental health and what the people who have it had to go through. Glad you got through it.
My eyes are filled with little puddles and my heart is heavy and overwhelmed with gratitude and admiration towards you. I've been hospitalized 12-15 times and for the longest time, all I thought I could be was the shell of a human being. I felt like a toy that didn't work right...a toy that mental illness got to play with. It's honestly people like you who make these videos who really make a difference. Mental illness is no joke and really, you have to expose those inner demons and shed light on them to show how tiny they are. I think you did that by making this video. You inspire me. Thank you. Much luv!
soliel navarro Hopefully I'm replying to your comment (I'm new to this CZcams commenting). Just wanted to say I completely relate with the emptiness and loss of self. after a while it really feels like your identity is your illness doesn't it? I think it becomes a large part of who we are but let's remember ourselves as we were as children and try to harness that joy in the tough times. Sending you strength and love- Kayla
Depression, anxiety, panic.. anything mental is hell. Speaking out about it is even harder. We all have them, we just don't bravely, openly speak out them. Be proud of yourself for doing so!!
Thanks for sharing. It is so, so encouraging to hear someone say, "things get better," and mean it.
So happy that you made this video. I have health anxiety, generalised anxiety, OCD and panic disorder. It's nice to not feel alone and know that there's light at the end of the tunnel :-) I have just started meds which I tried to resist for 3 and a half years. X
I totally appreciate you sharing all of this; it's not easy to talk about your own mental health. I have generalized anxiety & deal with depression & PTSD - & I cannot agree more that mental health is weird. When your in a bad place mentally things can get so strange that you don't see it until your distanced from it a bit. My late teens & early twenties have been a wild ride mentally for sure. It's a process trying to figure it all out and still go to school, maintain friendships, work etc. I'm definitely not out of the worst of it yet, but I have improved in so many ways. I absolutely relate to seeing your past self as a completely different person - when I think of myself in high school & in the toughest part of my PTSD & not leaving my room, it's hard to see that person as me because it was such a shut down version. It scares me to think that I could ever be that person again - especially when similar feelings start to surface. Thanks for the reminder that I should probably stop putting off visiting a new therapist! Ha. It's time to work on some old stuff. Sending love your way
I'm so glad you have made it this far. That is absolutely amazing. You are such an inspiration to so many people. Thank you.
I'm sobbing. I feel like you are speaking to my soul. Thank you for your bravery and sharing your story.You're just incredible
I know this video is a couple years old, but thank you. I have pretty consistent depression and anxiety, I've also struggled with disordered eating and agoraphobia. thanks for making me feel less alone and sharing your truth.
Respect for this very special lady who speaks so openly about her life and the problems she had in the past ! I'm sure this video will help a lot of people !
So beautifully articulated. I'm so glad that your story didn't end with taking a pill and magically everything was perfect. (Of course not glad you continued to suffer). My daughter is struggling with some of these issues and I fear that she's waiting for a magic bullet. I hate hate hate that insurance treats mental health treatment like its a luxury. Like its a spa treatment. From being too afraid to drive to a doc appt......to opening up to thousands on the Internet!
After an emotionally jarring phone session with my therapist today, I needed to see this. I am worth the work, I am trying, and I am better than I was. Thank you for this. This video and message is timeless.
I definitely needed this video. I have recently started going to the therapist and I'm at the point where I feel like I'm getting nothing out of it. So this video made me realize that I need to keep trying and possibly look for a new therapist or just open up my mind that there are other options. thank you!
Earlier today I was introducing my sister to Dia & Co and played her your unboxing video as its my favorite because you're such an adorable badass. we both discussed in extensive detail how much we loved you and just wanted to be your BFF or neighbor. Now, I find this video. As a woman who lives off disability and struggles daily with mental illness, I was just in awe of you. You stand up and represent and give voice to not one (body positivity) but TWO (mental illness ) very important issues that are surrounded by stigma and shame. And you do so intellectually, humbly and with such beauty. This long rant has an end goal. it is to say thank you! and keep it up we need more voices. But don't forget to take time out for you too. Self love and self care is essential. If you ever need a badass to vent or shoot shit with, I'm your woman. Much love-Kayla
Thank you for your honesty!!! Just by glancing my eyes downward, I see that you've already helped Melanie Jayne, and I'm sure there are others
I swear you are saving so many lives
You're so brave for making this honest video. So proud of how hard you have fought for yourself. xo
Not even 5 minutes into the video and i have never resonated so much with another person. Thank you for this xxxx
+Katherine
Thank you for being SO brave and sharing your story here on CZcams. I've been diagnosed with severe depression and only handful of people know about it. I'm also going in therapy and I'm so happy that I get help even though after some therapy sessions all I'm thinking is "Wow, I'm so fucked up" :D :D :D
Thank you so much for this video. I too struggle with mental health issues and it helps to know I'm not alone.
I have BPD, I was diagnosed @ 29 when I pretty much had a suicidal breakdown. I ended up in a mental health ward in hospital, and was in and out of there on and off for about 3mths. I'm now on medication and seeing a psychologist weekly, and I'm on a (very long) waitlist for DBT group therapy. The idea of it scares the bajeezers out of me, because I'm still struggling with being able to identify what I'm feeling at any given point, let alone talking about feelings and how to deal with them. Everyone I've heard who've done DBT group have said it's great, so I'm glad you had a positive experience with it too. Makes me less scared to go (when my time comes up)
This was such a moving thing to watch. My husband suffers from depression and he has often said that therapy was the best thing he ever did. Medication was secondary. Thanks for sharing your story.
I was going to ask if you could make this video. It makes me happy to see people being more open about mental health. So many times the stigma keeps people from getting well. DBT skills are amazing. I work at a treatment center and every client who learns and uses them is usually very successful. I find myself doing the skills in my head all the time too to calm my anxiety. Thank you for sharing your story!
so so glad you did this video. my son has been receiving help all these years, and it's encouraging to hear. I have recently enrolled him into CBT but had not heard of DPT?
+artofbrowneyedgirl cbt is a very good form of therapy and is incredibly helpful for lots of mental illnesses. DBT (dialectical behavior therapy) is specifically targeted toward people with Borderline Personality Disorder.
So, I stumbled across your channel because I was searching for cute plus size clothing and fashionable clothing. I have been watching your videos daily, since I have found them. I adore you! This video is conformation on how much I adore you! I will soon be 38 years old (omg, I am actually a grown up... I think LOL YIKES), the amazing thing that happened to me while watching this video, was how I was able to sincerely relate with you. I battle panic, and anxiety everyday! Many times, I have to talk myself into leaving the house, and by the time I have actually talked myself into leaving, the day is pretty much over. A few years ago, I was diagnosed with BPD as well, and when I first got the diagnosis I was completely devastated. Today, I can honestly say, I look at things a bit more different and see how things truly do come into focus, after getting all the tools of therapy, the sometimes painfully, mind numbing endless hours of therapy (LOL) that is needed for mental health that therapy has to offer, I can actually understand myself now, make sense of all of it, not always understand it, but make some kind of sense of it! Listening to you just made me so proud that someone was able to speak, and tell their story! I applaud you!
Thanks for sharing i know how you fell i been suffering for years love this you made my day.
Thank u go sharing!! 😊💞 I'm a new follower just catching up on old vlogs! Your awesome!! 💞👍
Thank you so so much for sharing. You are a beautiful and wonderful woman :) I love you and your videos ❤️❤️❤️
It's really obvious from this story how far you've come, I hope things keep going up ❤️
You should be so proud of yourself. Truly you e come so far and are now at s point where you can help others! Good for you:)
damn girl we have almost the same life story, respect for you to share it.
you are a beautiful woman, truly love you channel
thank you for sharing your story. I can definitely relate.
Thank you for sharing this.
I wish CZcams was around when I was 16 and first became symptomatic with agoraphobia and panic disorder. I wasn't properly diagnosed until I was 25 and I can only imagine the difference it would have made for me, if only to know i wasn't the only one in the entire world suffering with it. I genuinely thought I was completely losing my sanity. It really comforts me to know some other misdiagnosed 16 year old could be watching this and thinking "ok, I'm not going crazy and maybe this will get better"
I love your videos. You're so inspiring
This is an old video....But it's something I needed 2 hear!!!! Thank-U Girl!
So as you know because we've chatted about it, I've been watching a lot of your youtube stuff recently *sitting in my fat babe sweater because it's my safe place*. My anxiety is as bad as you are describing above and it made me want to end everything in my life because I just couldn't stand it anymore. I'm now starting meds (celexa same class as lexapro) and waiting to start feeling better. In the mean time I am in A F TON of therapy (like intensive day program specifically for indigenous peeps) and I'm trying to get into a DBT program down the line. I too have loose borderline (aka I don't meet all the criteria but certainly meet a decent amount) I just hope that with all the stuff I'm putting into place for myself I start to feel better like you have ♡ I know you've been rooting for me which is so helpful.
Thank you. Thank you for being honest. Thank you for being kind. Thank you for being wonderful. Thank you for being you.
You've come so far, your journey should inspire others. Corissa your so outgoing one wouldn't have guessed that you've been though so much.
I applaud you to utmost high for uploading this video. It's very Deep and personal. And it's so much in it I definitely can relate to. The very first time I watched one of your videos I felt a connection. I felt your realness. And I was like she is fucking awsome. I was thinking she has to be the coolest friend to have. I wish the best for and yours and please continue to make awsome videos
As a now 18 year old, I have spent most of my life and teens 100% mentally unwell. It took me years upon years to uncover my true self. And that meant facing all of the bad bad shit that was going on with my mental health and what was making my mental health so bad in my life and how I was making it worse and so on. It's a lot of fucking work, it really is. And I KNOW you know that! But some of these people commenting do not know that, or understand that really. I could talk about my mental health for literally ever and then I would still have more to say. Now I am addressing anyone who thinks that this video may be too long- if you want to be an ass on a video where people are taking time to better themselves you are truly an ass and you need to leave. And I also think most asses would feel upset to be compared to your childish behavior.
You rock Corissa. Thank you for being so open and unapologetic. I want to hear literally everything you have to say. XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
If you want an outlet, you can do like I'm doing and channel your insecurities into a drive to lose weight through physical activities while listening to awesome music (I'm on a Pentatonix kick). I'm finding that as I approach a healthier body, something that comes closer to the ideal that I have in my head, I feel a lot more comfortable and confident in myself. I feel a bit more outgoing and extroverted (I say in a comment on youtube...). Different strokes for different folks, I suppose, but it's helping me.
thank you for sharing your story
omg omg omg thank you so much for posting this. I sorta had an idea that you had been through some things with the way you talk about yourself. Not bad things but that you have gone to therapy and spent time thinking things through. I wouldn't just come out and say "Hey are you dealing with mental health?" as it's rude and intrusive. I mean I relate to it but didn't think it appropriate conversation.
Wait! I need to do my technical review part. The lighting and angle were really well positioned. I'm not sure if you wore a gray hoodie to match the light shade but it's something I noticed. Your proximity to the window was excellent, not too much light and it didn't wash out your skin. Good job on getting your hair/makeup for the video too. I think it helped you feel better. Excellent audio, I didn't have to strain to hear you. Your levels were fine. Not using a sound track was a good call, I focused on your talking and didn't get distracted. The edits kept the conversation going as well, I can only imagine what it took to watch and do the edits.
YOU ARE A PERSON AND IT'S OK THANK YOU FOR SHARING! I have to say that for you as well as me. As a random person on the internet I can say you seem to be aware of yourself. Not that you are perfect, just aware which helps get through the day. I can't f**k with Lexipro so good on you. I'll be on Celexa until I die and I'm coming to accept that. I'll send you the rest on tumblr.
I wasn't aware how many people are emetophobic. I've been suffering from this for years. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you so much for this video. I was diagnosed with depression when I was 20. They gave me medication, but as I was studying Psychology I had a good knowledge of the side effects and refused to take it. Don't get me wrong, medication can be highly beneficial if taken alongside therapy, but therapy isn't readily available here in the UK. As a result I never received any treatment and at age 33 I still struggle at times, but I've developed coping strategies and stories such as yours make me feel less alone x
How long did it take to get your meds right?? I started therapy this past year and we've been trying to find meds to help but so far they've all caused bad side effects. I feel kinda hopeless that they'll ever work and want to give up on them :/
Courageous. Thank you
Thank you.
you are so beautiful. outside and inside. i can realte to your story alot. i wish you all the best!
Mental health is very cool. I am actually taking an Abnormal Psychology class in medical school right now and it is very, very interesting.
all of you are awesome!!
I'm 29 and have severe agoraphobia, and social anxiety. been seeing a therapist for over a year and he just recommended I see a psychiatrist. hopefully I get relief soon.
Hi, I don't know you and will probably never get to know you. I just wanted to encourage you to keep at it. You deserve great things!
hi just found your channel today and have been watching many. don't discount nutrition in your health walk physical and mental.
my experience with poor nutrition taught me that...I too would forget to eat then wonder why I felt so sick. keep up the good work
Thank you for sharing your story. In a month I will earn a Masters degree in Social Work. Listening to your story has encouraged me to work harder to be a better Social Worker. It's wonderful that you have found treatment that is effective for you. Keep working hard and know that your story is helping people.
+lovelyrosevanessa I went to school for social work and it was one of the amazing eye-opening places I started doing a lot of work on myself. It's an amazing thing that you're doing. Best of luck
Thank you. You are so brave for sharing your story!
Un "je t'aime" de Lyon, France.
What size cat is that because it sounds like it is dragging around a suitcase. :o)
+Baking Breakdancer lol
for real lmao
now im laughing so hard i cant even watch the video
All i can is yes. Became very ritualistic when my sister died...so terrible
It sounds like it's been a long, hard journey. My hopes are that you are doing better now.
We went through similar situations.
I need motivation as well... I tried contacting a therapist once and I chickened out. I felt terrified when he returned my call so I never called back again
You are not alone in this. So many suffer the same things. Doctors are worthless, get therapy and proper meds. Share more on this, u r touching lives with it.
I hate when doctors don't look into your sickness. They just diagnose based on what it looks like on the outside.
I have the samething. Mine is a fear of being killed.if I go outside my safety net.I need someone with me to do little things. I know what it's like. One thing I. Dislike is ppl saying get over it or I don't believe it's that bad. When ppl don't believe it's the hardet to explain what u feel and what goes on cause ur the only one that feels it.
You are very lovely and I love your voice. I love to listen to you. Very much love but it is what it is 😋
The people who disliked this video, disgusts me. -.-
You know I have been there and done that. And I wish so much that you people would understand that all you people aren't really helping your just adding to there way of life thinking. And there's some counselors out there that are crazy themselves I know I have been to a few of them that actually wanted me to be mentally sick, wanted to believe that I was harmful to myself. You people really don't know what you're doing to others and it's so sad
uptalker :)
Can u please do more try on hauls😘😘
Thank you.